"Youshallnotsayit,"sheinterruptedher。"Iwill。Thereisareasonnowwhyyoucannotstayhere——whyyoushallnotstayhere。ThatwaswhyIbeggedyoutogo。Youmustgo,evenifIstaybehindalone。"
NeverhadthebeautifulMissVanderpoel’seyeswornsofullytheirlookofbeingbluebellsunderwater。Thatthistimidcreatureshouldsostandatbaytodefendherwasmoremovingthananythingelsecouldhavebeen。
"Thankyou,Rosy——thankyou,"sheanswered。"Butyoushallnotbeleftalone。Youmustgo,too。Thereisnootherway。Difficultieswillbemadeforus,butwemustfacethem。Fatherwillseethesituationfromapracticalman’sstandpoint。Menknowthethingsothermencannotdo。
Womendon’t。Generallytheyknownothingaboutthelawandcanbebulliedintofeelingthatitisdangerousandcompromisingtoinquireintoit。Nigelhasalwaysseenthatitwaseasytomanagewomen。Astrongbusinessmanwhohasmoreexactlegalinformationthanhehashimselfwillbeanewfactortodealwith。Andhecannotmakeobjectionablelovetohim。Itisbecauseheknowsthesethingsthathesaysthatmysendingforfatherwillbeadeclarationofwar。"
"Didhesaythat?"alittlebreathlessly。
"Yes,andItoldhimthatitneednotbeso。Buthewouldnotlisten。"
"Andyouaresurefatherwillcome?"
"Iamsure。Inaweekortwohewillbehere。"
LadyAnstruthers’lipsshook,hereyesliftedthemselvestoBetty’sinatouchinglydistressedappeal。Hadhermomentarycouragefledbeyondrecall?Ifso,thatwouldbetheworstcomingtotheworst,indeed。Yetitwasnotordinaryfearwhichexpresseditselfinherface,butadeeperpiteousness,asuddenhopelesspain,bafflingbecauseitseemedanewemotion,orperhapstheupheavalofanoldonelongandcarefullyhidden。
"Youwillbebrave?"Bettyappealedtoher。"Youwillnotgiveway,Rosy?"
"Yes,Imustbebrave——Iamnotillnow。Imustnotfailyou——Iwon’t,Betty,but————"
Sheslippedupontheflooranddroppedherfaceuponthegirl’sknee,sobbing。
Bettybentoverher,puttingherarmsroundtheheavingshoulders,andpleadingwithhertospeak。Wastheresomethingmoretobetold,somethingshedidnotknow?
"Yes,yes。Oh,Ioughttohavetoldyoulongago——butI
havealwaysbeenafraidandashamed。Ithasmadeeverythingsomuchworse。Iwasafraidyouwouldnotunderstandandwouldthinkmewicked——wicked。"
ItwasBettywhonowlostashadeofcolour。Butsheheldtheslimlittlebodycloserandkissedhersister’scheek。
"Whathaveyoubeenafraidandashamedtotellme?Donotbeashamedanymore。Youmustnothideanything,nomatterwhatitis,Rosy。Ishallunderstand。"
"IknowImustnothideanything,nowthatallisoverandfatheriscoming。Itis——itisaboutMr。Ffolliott。"
"Mr。Ffolliott?"repeatedBettyquitesoftly。
LadyAnstruthers’face,liftedwithdesperateeffort,waslikeaweepingchild’s。Somuchsoinitstear—wetsimplenessandutterlackofanyeffortatconcealment,thatafteronequicklookatitBetty’shastenedpulsesceasedtobeatatdouble—quicktime。
"Tellme,dear,"shealmostwhispered。
"Mr。Ffolliotthimselfdoesnotknow——andIcouldnothelpit。HewaskindtomewhenIwasdyingofunkindness。Youdon’tknowwhatitwasliketobedrowninginlonelinessandmisery,andtoseeonegoodhandstretchedouttohelpyou。
Beforehewentaway——oh,Betty,IknowitwasawfulbecauseIwasmarried!——Ibegantocareforhimverymuch,andI
havecaredforhimeversince。Icannotstopmyselfcaring,eventhoughIamterrified。"
Bettykissedheragainwithapassionoftenderpity。Poorlittle,simpleRosy,too!Thetidehadcreptaroundheralso,andhadsweptheroffherfeet,tossingheruponitssurflikeawispofseaweedandbearinghereachdayfartherfromfirmshore。
"Donotbeterrified,"shesaid。"Youneedonlybeafraidif——ifyouhadtoldhim。"
"Hewillneverknow——never。Onceinthemiddleofthenight,"therewasanguishinthedelicateface,pureanguish,"astrangeloudcrywakenedme,anditwasImyselfwhohadcriedout——becauseinmysleepithadcomehometomethattheyearswouldgoonandon,andatlastsomedayhewoulddieandgooutoftheworld——andIshoulddieandgooutoftheworld。Andhewouldneverknow——evenKNOW。"
Betty’sclaspofherloosenedandshesatverystill,lookingstraightbeforeherintosomeunseenplace。
"Yes,"shesaidinvoluntarily。"Yes,_I_know——Iknow——I
know。"
LadyAnstruthersfellbackalittletogazeather。
"YOUknow?YOUknow?"shebreathed。"Betty?"
ButBettyatfirstdidnotspeak。Herlovelyeyesdweltonthefar—awayplace。
"Betty,"whisperedRosy,"doyouknowwhatyouhavesaid?"
Thelovelyeyesturnedslowlytowardsher,andthesoftcornersofBetty’smouthdeepenedinacuriousunsteadiness。
"Yes。Ididnotintendtosayit。Butitistrue。_I_know——
Iknow——Iknow。Donotaskmehow。"
Rosalieflungherarmsroundherwaistandforamomenthidherface。
"YOU!YOU!"shemurmured,butstoppedherselfalmostassheutteredtheexclamation。"Iwillnotaskyou,"shesaidwhenshespokeagain。"ButnowIshallnotbesoashamed。
Youareabeautyandwonderful,andIamnot;butifyouKNOW,thatmakesusalmostthesame。YouwillunderstandwhyIbrokedown。ItwasbecauseIcouldnotbeartothinkofwhatwillhappen。Ishallbesavedandtakenhome,butNigelwillwreakrevengeonHIM。AndIshallbetheshamethatisputuponhim——onlybecausehewaskind——KIND。Whenfathercomesitwillallbegin。"Shewrungherhands,becomingalmosthysterical。
"Hush,"saidBetty。"Hush!AmanlikethatCANNOT
behurt,evenbyamanlikeNigel。Thereisawayout——
thereIS。Oh,Rosy,wemustBELIEVEit。"
Shesoothedandcaressedherandledherontorelievingherlonglocked—upmiserybyspeech。Itwaseasytoseethewaysinwhichherfeelinghadmadeherlifehardertobear。Shewasasinexperiencedasagirl,andhadaccusedherselfcruelly。
WhenNigelhadtormentedherwithevil,carefullychosentaunts,shehadfelthalfguiltyandhadcolouredscarletorturnedpale,afraidtomeethissneeringlysmilingface。Shehadtriedtoforgetthekindvoice,thekindly,understandingeyes,andhadblamedherselfasacriminalbecauseshecouldnot。
"Ihadnothingelsetoremember——butunhappiness——anditseemedasifIcouldnothelpbutrememberHIM,"shesaidassimplyastheRosywhohadleftNewYorkatnineteenmighthavesaidit。"Iwasafraidtotrustmyselftospeakhisname。
WhenNigelmadeinsultingspeechesIcouldnotanswerhim,andheusedtosaythatwomenwhohadadventuresshouldtraintheirfacesnottobetraythemeverytimetheywerelookedat。
"Oh!"brokefromBetty’slips,andshestooduponthehearthandthrewoutherhands。"IwishthatforonedayImightbeaman——andyourbrotherinsteadofyoursister!"
"Why?"
Bettysmiledstrangely——asmilewhichwasnotamused——
whichwasperhapsnotasmileatall。Hervoiceassheansweredwasatoncelowandtense。
"Because,thenIshouldknowwhattodo。Whenamalecreaturecannotbereachedthroughmanhoodordecencyorshame,thereisonewayinwhichhecanbepunished。Aman——arealman——shouldtakehimbyhisthroatandlashhimwithawhip——whileotherslookon——lashhimuntilhehowlsaloudlikeadog。"
Shehadnotexpectedtosayit,butshehadsaidit。LadyAnstrutherslookedatherfascinated,andthenshecoveredherfacewithherhands,huddlingherselfinaheapasshekneltontherug,lookingsingularlysmallandfrail。
"Betty,"shesaidpresently,inanew,awfullittlevoice,"I——Iwilltellyousomething。IneverthoughtIshoulddaretotellanyonealive。Ihaveshudderedatitmyself。Therehavebeendays——awful,helplessdays,whenIwassuretherewasnohopeformeinalltheworld——whendeepdowninmysoulIunderstoodwhatwomenfeltwhentheyMURDEREDpeople——crepttothemintheirwickedsleepandSTRUCKthemagain——andagain——andagain。Likethat!"Shesatupsuddenly,asifshedidnotknowwhatshewasdoing,anduncoveringherlittleghastlyfacestruckdownwardthreefiercetimesatnothingness——butasifitwerenotnothingness,andasifsheheldsomethinginherhand。
Therewashorrorinit——Bettysprangatthehandandcaughtit。
"No!no!"shecriedout。"PoorlittleRosy!DarlinglittleRosy!No!no!no!"
ThatinstantLadyAnstrutherslookedupathershockedandawake。ShewasRosyagain,andclungtoher,holdingtoherdress,piteousandpanting。
"No!no!"shesaid。"Whenitcametomeinthenight——
itwasalwaysinthenight——Iusedtogetoutofbedandpraythatitmightnever,nevercomeagain,andthatImightbeforgiven——justforgiven。ItwastoohorriblethatIshouldevenUNDERSTANDitsowell。"Awoeful,wrylittlesmiletwistedhermouth。"Iwasnotbraveenoughtohavedoneit。IcouldneverhaveDONEit,Betty;butthethoughtwasthere——itwasthere!Iusedtothinkithadmadeablackmarkonmysoul。"……
Thelettertooklongtowrite。Itledaconsecutivestoryuptothepointwhereitculminatedinasituationwhichpresenteditselfasnolongertobedealtwithbymeansathand。
Partsofthestorypreviouslettershadrelated,thoughsomeofthemithadnotseemedabsolutelynecessarytorelateindetail。
Nowtheymustbemadeclear,andBettymadethemso。
"Becauseyoutrustedmeyoumademetrustmyself,"wasoneofthethingsshewrote。"ForsometimeIfeltthatitwasbesttofightformyownhandwithouttroublingyou。I
hopedperhapsImightbeabletoleadthingstoadecoroussortofissue。IsawthatsecretlyRosyhopedandprayedthatitmightbepossible。Shegaveupexpectinghappinessbeforeshewastwenty,andmeredecentpeacewouldhaveseemedheaventoher,ifshecouldhavebeenallowedsometimestoseethoseshelovedandlongedfor。NowthatImustgiveupmyhope——whichwasperhapsaratherfoolishone——andnowthatI
cannotremainatStornham,shewouldhavenodefenceatallifshewereleftalone。Herconditionwouldbemorehopelessthanbefore,becauseNigelwouldneverforgetthatwehadtriedtorescueherandhadfailed。IfIwereaman,orifI
wereverymucholder,Ineednotbeactuallydrivenaway,butasitisIthinkthatyoumustcomeandtakethematterintoyourownhands。"
Shehadremainedinhersister’sroomuntillongaftermidnight,andbythetimetheAmericanletterwascompletedandsealed,apaletouchofdawninglightwasshowingitself。Sherose,andgoingtothewindowdrewtheblindupandlookedout。Thelookingoutmadeheropenthewindow,andwhenshehaddonesoshestoodfeelingthealmostunearthlyfreshnessofthemorningabouther。Themysteryofthefirstfaintlightwasalmostunearthly,too。Treesandshrubswerebeginningtotakeformandoutlinethemselvesagainstthestillpallorofthedawn。Beforelongthewakingofthebirdswouldbegin——abriefchirpingnotehereandtherebreakingthesilenceandwarningtheworldwithfaintinsistencethatithadbeguntoliveagainandmustbestiritself。Shehadgotoutofherbedsometimesonasummermorningtowatchthebeautyofit,toseetheflowersgraduallyrevealtheircolourtotheeye,tohearthewarmlynestingthingsbegintheirjoyousday。Therewerefewerbirdsoundsnow,andthegardenbedswereautumnal。
Buthowbeautifulitallwas!Howwonderfullifeinsuchaplacemightbeifflowersandbirdsandsweepofsward,andmassofstately,broad—branchedtrees,werepartsofthehomeonelovedandwhichsurelywouldinitsownwayloveoneinreturn。Butsoonallthisphaseoflifewouldbeover。Rosalie,oncesafeathome,wouldlookback,rememberingtheplacewithashudder。AsUghtredgrewolderthepassingofyearswoulddimmiserablechildmemories,andwhenhisinheritancefelltohimhemightreturntoseeitwithhappiereyes。ShebegantopicturetoherselfRosy’svoyageintheshipwhichwouldcarryheracrosstheAtlantictohermotherandthescenesconnectedinhermindonlywithagirl’shappiness。Whatsoeverhappenedbeforeittookplace,thevoyagewouldbemadeintheend。AndRosaliewouldbelikeacreatureinadream——aheavenly,unbelievabledream。Bettycouldimaginehowshewouldlookwrappedupandsittinginhersteamerchair,gazingoutwithrapturouseyesupontheracingwaves"Shewillbehappy,"shethought。"ButIshallnot。No,Ishallnot。"
Shedrewinthemorningairandunconsciouslyturnedtowardstheplacewhere,acrosstherisingandfallinglandsandbehindthetrees,sheknewthegreatwhitehousestoodfaraway,withwatchers’lightsshowingdimlybehindthelineofballroomwindows。
"Idonotknowhowsuchathingcouldbe!Idonotknowhowsuchathingcouldbe!"shesaid。"ItCOULDnot。"Andsheliftedahighhead,notevenaskingherselfwhatremotesenseinherbeingsoobstinatelydefiedandthrewdowntheglovetoFate。
Soundsgainacuriousdistinctnessandmeaninginthehourofthebreakofthedawn;insuchanhourtheyseemevenmoresignificantthansoundsheardinthedeadofnight。Whenshehadgonetothewindowshehadfanciedthatsheheardsomethinginthecorridoroutsideherdoor,butwhenshehadlistenedtherehadbeenonlysilence。Nowtherewassoundagain——thatofasoftlymovedslipperedfoot。Shewenttotheroom’scentreandwaited。Yes,certainlysomethinghadstirredinthepassage。Shewenttothedooritself。Thedraggingstephadhesitated——stopped。CoulditbeRosaliewhohadcometoherforsomething。Foronesecondherimpulsewastoopenthedoorherself;thenext,shehadchangedhermindwithasenseofshock。Someonehadactuallytouchedthehandleandverydelicatelyturnedit。Itwasnotpleasanttostandlookingatitandseeitturn。Sheheardalow,evidentlyunintentionallyutteredexclamation,andsheturnedaway,andwithnoattemptatsofteningthesoundofherfootstepswalkedacrosstheroom,hotwithpassionatedisgust。Aswellasifshehadflungthedooropen,sheknewwhostoodoutside。ItwasNigelAnstruthers,haggardandunseemly,withburned—
out,sleeplesseyesandbittenlip。
Badandmadasshehadatlastseenthesituationtobe,itwasuglierandmoredesperatethanshecouldwellknow。
CHAPTERXLV
THEPASSINGBELL
ThefollowingmorningSirNigeldidnotappearatthebreakfasttable。Hebreakfastedinhisownroom,anditbecameknownthroughoutthehouseholdthathehadsuddenlydecidedtogoaway,andhismanwaspackingforthejourney。
WhatthejourneyorthereasonforitsbeingtakenhappenedtobewerethingsnotexplainedtoanyonebutLadyAnstruthers,atthedoorofwhosedressingroomheappearedwithoutwarning,justasshewasleavingit。
Rosaliestartedwhenshefoundherselfconfrontinghim。Hiseyeslookedhotandhollowwithfeverishsleeplessness。
"Youlookill,"sheexclaimedinvoluntarily。"Youlookasifyouhadnotslept。"
"Thankyou。Youalwaysencourageaman。Iamnotinthehabitofsleepingmuch,"heanswered。"Iamgoingawayformyhealth。Itisaswellyoushouldknow。IamgoingtolookupoldBroadmorlands。Iwanttoknowexactlywhereheis,incaseitbecomesnecessaryformetoseehim。IalsorequiresometriflingdataconnectedwithFfolliott。Ifyourfatheriscoming,itwillbeaswelltobeabletolaymyhandsonthings。YoucanexplaintoBetty。Good—morning。"Hewaitedfornoreply,butwheeledaboutandlefther。
Bettyherselfworeachangedfacewhenshecamedown。A
cloudhadpassedoverherblooming,ascloudspassoveramorningskyanddimit。Rosalieaskedherselfifshehadnotnoticedsomethinglikethisbefore。Shebegantothinkshehad。Yes,shewassurethatatintervalstherehadbeenmomentswhenshehadglancedatthebrilliantfacewithanuneasyandyethalf—unrealisingsenseoflookingataglowinglighttemporarilywaning。Thefeelinghadbeenunrealisable,becauseitwasnottobeexplained。Bettywasneverill,shewasneverlow—
spirited,shewasneveroutofhumourorafraidofthings——thatwaswhyitwassowonderfultolivewithher。But——yes,itwastrue——therehadbeendayswhenthestrong,finelightofherhadwaned。LadyAnstruthers’comprehensionofitarosenowfromhermemoryofthelookshehadseenthenightbeforeintheeyeswhichsuddenlyhadgazedstraightbeforeher,asintoanunknownplace。
"Yes,Iknow——Iknow——Iknow!"Andthetoneinthegirl’svoicehadbeenoneRosyhadnotheardbefore。
Slightwonder——ifyouKNEW——atanyoutwardchangewhichshoweditself,thoughinyourownmostdesperatedespite。ItwouldbesoevenwithBetty,who,inhersister’seyes,wasunlikeanyothercreature。Butperhapsitwouldbebettertomakenocomment。Tomakecommentwouldbealmostlikeaskingthequestionshehadbeenforbiddentoask。
Whiletheservantswereintheroomduringbreakfasttheytalkedofcommonthings,resortingeventotheweatherandthenewsofthevillage。Afterwardstheypassedintothemorningroomtogether,andBettyputherarmaroundRosalieandkissedher。
"Nigelhassuddenlygoneaway,Ihear,"shesaid。"Doyouknowwherehehasgone?"
"Hecametomydressing—roomtotellme。"Bettyfeltthewholeslimbodystiffenitselfwithadeterminationtoseemcalm。"HesaidhewasgoingtofindoutwheretheoldDukeofBroadmorlandswasstayingatpresent。"
"Thereissomeforethoughtinthat,"wasBetty’sanswer。"HeisnotonsuchtermswiththeDukethathecanexpecttobereceivedasacasualvisitor。Itwillrequireaptcontrivancetoarrangeaninterview。Iwonderifhewillbeabletoaccomplishit?"
"Yes,hewill,"saidLadyAnstruthers。"Ithinkhecanalwayscontrivethingslikethat。"Shehesitatedamoment,andthenadded:"HesaidalsothathewishedtofindoutcertainthingsaboutMr。Ffolliott——`triflingdata,’hecalledit——thathemightbeabletolayhishandsonthingsiffathercame。
Hetoldmetoexplaintoyou。"
"Thatwasintendedforataunt——butit’sawarning,"Bettysaid,thinkingthethingover。"Weareratherlikeladiesleftalonetodefendabesiegedcastle。Hewishedustofeelthat。"
Shetightenedherenclosingarm。"Butwestandtogether——
together。Weshallnotfaileachother。Wecanfacesiegeuntilfathercomes。"
"Youwrotetohimlastnight?"
"Alongletter,whichIwishhimtoreceivebeforehesails。
HemightdecidetoactuponitbeforeleavingNewYork,toadvisewithsomelegalauthorityheknowsandtrusts,toprepareourmotherinsomeway——todosomewisethingwecannotforeseethevalueof。Hehasknowntheoutlineofthestory,butnotexactdetails——particularlyrecentones。Ihaveheldbacknothingitwasnecessaryheshouldknow。Iamgoingouttopostthelettermyself。IshallsendacableaskinghimtopreparetocometousafterhehasreflectedonwhatI
havewritten。"
Rosaliewasveryquiet,butwhen,havinglefttheroomtopreparetogotothevillage,Bettycamebacktosayalastword,hersistercametoherandlaidherhandonherarm。
"Ihavebeensoweakandtroddenuponforyearsthatitwouldnotbenaturalforyoutoquitetrustme,"shesaid。"ButIwon’tfailyou,Betty——Iwon’t。"
Thewinterwasdrawingin,thelastautumndayswereshortandoftengreyanddreary;thewindhadswepttheleavesfromthetreesandscatteredthemoverparklandsandlanes,wheretheylayamellow—hued,rustlingcarpet,shiftingwitheachchillbreezethatblew。Theberriedbrionygarlandsclungtothebaredhedges,andhereandthereflaredscarlet,stillholdingtheirreddefiantlyuntilhardfrostsshouldcometoshrivelandblackenthem。Therarehoursofsunshinewereamberhoursinsteadofgolden。
AsshepassedthroughtheparkgateBettywasthinkingofthefirstmorningonwhichshehadwalkeddownthevillagestreetbetweentheirregularrowsofred—tiledcottageswiththeraggedlittleenclosinggardens。Thentheairandsunshinehadbeenofthejustawakeningspring,nowtheskywasbrightlycold,andthroughthesmall—panedwindowsshecaughtglimpsesoffireglow。Abentoldmanwalkingveryslowly,leaningupontwosticks,hadared—brownwoollenmufflerwrappedroundhisneck。Seeingher,hestoppedandshuffledthetwosticksintoonehandthathemightleavetheotherfreetotouchhiswrinkledforeheadstiffly,hisfacestretchingintoaslowsmileasshestoppedtospeaktohim。
"Good—morning,Marlow,"hesaid。"Howistherheumatismto—day?"
Hewasadeafoldman,whoseconversationwascarriedonprincipallybyguesswork,anditwaseasyforhimtogatherthatwhenherladyship’shandsomeyoungsisterhadgivenhimgreetingshehadnotforgottentoinquirerespectingthe"rheumatics,"whichformedthegreaterpartofexistence。
"Mornin’,miss——mornin’,"heansweredinthehigh,crackedvoiceofruralancientry。"Winterbenigh,an’theydampdaysbefullofrheumatiz。’T’inteasytogetaboutonmyoldlegs,butIbemainthankfulfortheywarmthingsyousent,miss。This’ere,"fumblingathisred—brownmufflerproudly,"’tisacomfortonwindydays,so’tis,andwarmthbeagoodthingtoamanwhenhebegoin’downhillinyears。"
"Allofyouwhoarenotabletoearnyourownfiresshallbewarmthiswinter,"herladyship’shandsomesistersaid,speakingclosertohisear。"Youshallallbewarm。Don’tbeafraidofthecolddayscoming。"
Heshuffledhissticksandtouchedhisforeheadagain,lookingupatheradmiringlyandchuckling。
"’T’willbeanewtaleforStornhamvillage,"hecackled。
"’T’willbeanewtale。Thankye,miss。Thankye。"
Asshenoddedsmilinglyandpassedon,sheheardhimcacklingstillunderhisbreathashehobbledonhisslowway,comfortedandelate。Howalmostshamefullyeasyitwas;afewloadsofcoalandfaggotshereandthere,afewblanketsandwarmgarmentswhosecostcountedforsolittlewhenone’shandswerefull,couldchangeagruesomevillagewinterintoaseasonduringwhichlabour—stiffenedandbrokenoldthings,closingtheircottagedoors,coulddrawtheirchairsroundthehearthandhoverluxuriouslyovertheredglow,whichinitscomfortingfashionofseemingtohaveunderstandingofthedulldreamsinoldeyes,wasmoretobelovedthananyhumanfriend。
ButshehadnotneededherpassingspeechwithMarlowtostimulaterealisationofhowmuchshehadlearnedtocareforthemerelivingamongthesepeople,towhomsheseemedtohavebeguntobelong,andwhosecomfortablylightingfaceswhentheymethershowedthattheyknewhertobeonewhomightbeturnedtoinanyhouroftroubleordismay。Thecenturieswhichhadtrainedthemtodependupontheir"betters"hadtaughttheslowestofthemtojudgewithkeensightthosewhoweretobetrusted,notaloneaspowerandwealthholders,butascreatureshumanlyuprightandmercifulwiththeirkind。
"Workin’folkallusknowsgentry,"oldDobyhadonceshrilledtoher。"Gentry’sgentry,an’usknows’emwheresoevertheybe。Better’ntheyknowtheirselves。Sousdo!"
Yes,theyknew。Andthoughtheyacceptedmanythingsasbeingmerelytheirnaturalrights,theygaveanunsentimentalaffectionandappreciationinreturn。Thepatriarchalnoteinthelifewaslovabletoher。Eachcreatureshepassedwasasortoffriendwhoseemedalmostofherownblood。Ithadcometothat。Thisparticularexistencewasmoresatisfyingtoherthananyother,moreheart—fillingandwarmlycomplete。
"ThoughIamonlyanimpostor,"shethought;"IwasborninFifthAvenue;yetsinceIhaveknownthisIshallbequitehappyinnootherplacethananEnglishvillage,withaNormanchurchtowerlookingdownuponitandrowsoflittlegardenswithspearsofwhiteandbluelupinsandCanterburybellsstandingguardbeforecottagedoors。"
AndRosalie——ontheeveningofthatfirststrangedaywhenshehadcomeuponherpiteousfigureamongtheheatherunderthetreesnearthelake——Rosaliehadheldherarmwithahotlittlehandandhadsaidfeverishly:
"IfIcouldheartheroarofBroadwayagain!Dothestagesrattleastheyusedto,Betty?Ican’thelphopingthattheydo。"
Shecarriedherlettertothepostandstoppedtotalkafewminuteswiththepostmaster,whotransactedhisofficialbusinessinasmallshopwheresidesofbaconandhamshungsuspendedfromtheceiling,whilegroceries,flannels,dressprints,andglassbottlesofsweetstufffilledtheshelves。
"Mr。Tewson’s"wasthecentralpointofStornhaminacommercialsense。Theestablishmenthadalsocertainsocialqualifications。
Mr。Tewsonknewthesecretsofallheartswithinthevillageradius,alsothesecretsofallconstitutions。Heknewbysomeoccultmeanswhohadbeen"takenbad,"orwhohad"takenaturn,"andwasawareatoncewhenanyonewas"sinkin’
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