"HereIam,Patton,"MountDunstansaid。"Youneednotspeak。"
Buthemustspeak。Herewasthestrengthhissinkingsoulhadlongedfor。
"Cruelbad——goin’fast——m’lord,"hepanted。
MountDunstanmadeasigntothenurse,whogavehimachair。Hesatdownclosetothebed,andtookthebloodlesshandinhisown。
"No,"hesaid,"youarenotgoing。You’llstayhere。I
willseetothat。"
Thepoorfellowsmiledwanly。Vagueyearningshadledhimsometimes,inthepast,towanderintochapelsorstopandlistentostreetpreachers,andorthodoxplatitudescamebacktohim。
"God’s——will,"hetrailedout。
"It’snothingofthesort。It’sGod’swillthatyoupullyourselftogether。Amanwithawifeandthreechildrenhasnorighttoslipout。"
Ayearninglookflickeredinthelad’seyes——hewasscarcelymorethanalad,havingmarriedatseventeen,andhadachildeachyear。
"She’s——agood——girl。"
"Keepthatinyourmindwhileyoufightthisout,"saidMountDunstan。"Sayitovertoyourselfeachtimeyoufeelyourselflettinggo。Holdontoit。Iamgoingtofightitoutwithyou。Ishallsithereandtakecareofyouallday——allnight,ifnecessary。Thedoctorandthenursewilltellmewhattodo。Yourhandiswarmeralready。Shutyoureyes。"
Hedidnotleavethebedsideuntilthemiddleofthenight。
Bythattimetheworstwasover。Hehadactedthroughoutthehoursunderthedirectionofnurseanddoctor。Noonebuthimselfhadtouchedthepatient。WhenPatton’seyeswereopen,theyrestedonhimwithaweirdgrowingbelief。
Hebeggedhislordshiptoholdhishand,andwasuneasywhenhelaiditdown。
"Keeps——me——up,"hewhispered。
"Hepourssomethingintothem——vigour——magneticpower——life。He’slikeachargedbattery,"Dr。Thwaitesaidtohisco—workers。"HesatdownbyPattonjustintime。Itsetsonetothinking。"
HavingsavedPatton,hemustsaveothers。Whenamanorwomansank,orhadincreasedfever,theybelievedthathealonecouldgivethemhelp。Indeliriumpatientscriedoutforhim。Hefoundhimselfdoinghardwork,buthedidnotflinchfromit。Theadorationforhimbecameasortofpassion。Haggardfaceslightedupintolifeatthesoundofhisfootstep,andheavyheadsturnedlonginglyontheirpillowsashepassedby。Inthewinterdaystocometherewouldbemanyanhour’stalkinEastEndcourtsandalleysofthequeertimewhenascoreormoreofthemhadlaininthegreatroomwiththedancingandfloatinggoddesseslookingdownatthemfromthehigh,paintedceiling,andtheswell,whowasalord,walkingaboutamongthem,workingforthemasthenursesdid,andsittingbysomeofthemthroughawfulhours,sometimesholdingburningorslackeningandchillinghandswithagripwhosesteadinessseemedtoholdthembackfromthebrinkoftheabysstheywereslippinginto。Themereignorantlychildishdesiretodohisprowesscreditandtoplayhimfairsavedmorethanonemanandwomanfromgoingoutwiththetide。
"ItisthefirsttimeinmylifethatIhavefairlycountedamongmen。It’sthefirsttimeIhaveknownhumanaffection,otherthanyours,Penzance。Theywantme,thesepeople;
theyarebetterforthesightofme。Itisanewexperience,anditisgoodforaman’ssoul,"hesaid。
CHAPTERXLIII
HISCHANCE
BettywalkedmuchaloneuponthemarsheswithRolandatherside。AtintervalssheheardfromMr。Penzance,buthisnoteswerenecessarilybrief,andatothertimesshecouldonlyrelyuponreportfornewsofwhatwasoccurringatMountDunstan。LordMountDunstan’salmostmilitarysupervisionofandcommandoverhisvillagershadcertainlysavedthemfromthehorrorsofanuncontrollableepidemic;hisdecisionandenergyhadfilledthealarmedGuardianswithrespectandthisrespecthadbeguntobesharedbymanyotherpersons。Amanaspromptinaction,andasfaithfultosuchresponsibilitiesasmanymenmighthavefoundplausiblereasonsenoughforshirking,inevitablyassumedacertaindignityofaspect,whenallwassaidanddone。LordDunholmwasmostclearinhisexpressionsofopinionconcerninghim。LadyAlanbyofDolemadeapracticeofspeakingofhiminpublicfrequently,alwayswithadmiringapproval,andinthatfinalmannerofhers,towhoseauthorityherneighbourshadsolongsubmitted。
Itbegantobeacceptedasafactthathewasanewdevelopmentofhisrace——asherladyshiphadputit,"AneworderofMountDunstan。"
Thestoryofhispoweroverthestrickenpeople,andoftheirpassionateaffectionandadmirationforhim,wasonelikelytospreadfar,andbeimmenselypopular。Thedramaofcertainincidentsappealedgreatlytotherusticmind,andbycottagefiresideshewasrepresentedwithrapturousawe,asraisingmen,women,andchildrenfromthedead,bythemeremiracleoftouch。Mrs。WeldenandoldDobyrevelledinthrilling,almostBiblical,versionsofcurrentanecdotes,whenBettypaidhervisitstothem。
"It’sliketheScripture,wothedoneforthatyoungmanasthelastbreathhadgoneoutofhim,an’himlyin’stiffeningfast。`Youngman,arise,’hesays。`TheLordAlmightycalls。You’vegotayoungwifean’threechildrentotakecareof。Takeupyourbedan’walk。’Notashewantedhimtocarryhisbedanywheres,butitwasamannerofspeaking。
An’uptheyoungmangot。An’asensibleway,"saidoldMrs。Weldenfrankly,"fortheLordtolookatit——
forImustsay,miss,ifIwasstruckdownforit,thoughI
s’poseit’sonlymysinfulignorance——thatthere’stimeswhentheLordseemstothinknomoreofsweepin’awayasteadyeighteen—shillin’aweek,andp’rapsseveninfamily,an’oneatthebreast,an’anotherontheway——thanifitwasnothin’。
Butlikelyenough,eighteenshillin’aweekan’confinementsdoesseempaltrytotheMakerof’eavenan’earth。"
But,tothegirlwalkingoverthemarshland,thehumannessofthethingssheheardgavetoherthesenseofnearness——ofbeingalmostwithinsightandsound——whichMountDunstanhimselfhadfelt,wheneachdaywasfilledwiththeresultofherthoughtoftheneedsofthepoorsoulsthrownbyfateintohishands。Inthesedays,afterlisteningtooldMrs。
Welden’sanecdotes,throughwhichshegatheredthesimplertruthofthings,BettywasabletoconstructforherselfalessScripturalversionofwhatshehadheard。Shewasglad——gladinhissittingbyabedsideandholdingahandwhichlayinhishotorcold,butalwaystrustingtosomethingwhichhisstrongbodyandstrongsoulgavewithoutstint。Therewouldbenorestraintthere。Yes,hewaskind——kind——kind——withthekindnessawomanloves,andwhichshe,ofallwomen,lovedmost。Sometimesshewouldsituponsomemound,and,whilehereyesseemedtorestontheyellowingmarshanditsbirdsandpools,theysawotherthings,andtheircolourgrewdeepanddarkasthemarshwaterbetweentherushes。
Thetimewaspressingwhenachangeinherlifemustcome。
ShefrequentlyaskedherselfifwhatshesawinNigelAnstruthers’facewasthenormalthinkingofasaneman,whichhehimselfcouldcontrol。Therehadbeenmomentswhenshehadseriouslydoubtedit。Hewashaggard,agingandrestless。
Sometimeshe——alwaysasifbychance——followedherasshewentfromoneroomtoanother,andwouldseathimselfandfixhismiserableeyesuponherforsolongatimethatitseemedhemustbeunconsciousofwhathewasdoing。Thenhewouldappearsuddenlytorecollecthimselfandwouldstartupwithamutteredexclamation,andstalkoutoftheroom。HespentlonghoursridingordrivingaloneaboutthecountryorwanderingwretchedlythroughtheParkandgardens。Oncehewentuptotown,and,afterafewdays’
absence,camebacklookingmorehaggardthanbefore,andwearingahuntedlookinhiseyes。Hehadgonetoseeaphysician,and,afterhavingseenhim,hehadtriedtolosehimselfinaplungeintodeepandturbidenoughwaters;buthefoundthathehadevenlostthetasteofhighflavours,forwhichhehadoncehadanepicureanpalate。Theefforthadendedinhisbeingoverpoweredagainbyhishorrors——thehorrorsinwhichhefoundhimselfstaringatthatendofthingswhennopleasurehadspice,nodebaucherythestingoflife,andmen,suchashe,stoodupontheshoreoftimeshudderingandnakedsouls,watchingthegreattide,bearingitstreasures,recedeforever,andleavethemtothecoldandhideousdark。
DuringonedayofhisstayintownhehadseenTeresita,whohadatfirststaredhalffrightenedbythechangeshesawinhim,andthenhadtoldhimtruthshecouldhavewrungherneckforputtingintowords。
"Youlookanoldman,"shesaid,withtheforeignaccenthehadoncefounddeliciouslyamusing,butwhichnowseemedtoaddasting。"Andsomesingiseatingyouop。Youaremadinlofewithsomebeautifulonewhowillnotlookatyou。
Ihafseenitinmansbefore。Itisshewhoeatsyouop——yourevilthinkingsofher。Itserveyouright。Youreyeslookmad。"
Hehimself,attimes,suspectedthattheydid,andcursedhimselfbecausehecouldnotkeepcool。Itwaspartofhishorrorsthatheknewhisinternalfurieswereworsethanfolly,andyethecouldnotrestrainthem。Thecreepingsuspicionthatthiswasonlytheresultofthesimplefactthathehadnevertriedtorestrainanytendencyofhisownwasmaddening。Hisnervoussystemwasawreck。Hedrankagreatdealofwhiskytokeephimself"straight"duringtheday,andherosemanytimesduringhisblackwakinghoursinthenighttodrinkmorebecauseheobstinatelyrefusedtogiveupthehopethat,ifhedrankenough,itwouldmakehimsleep。
AsthroughthethoughtsofMountDunstan,whowasacleanandhealthyhumanbeing,thereranonethreadwhichwouldnotdisentangleitself,sothereranthroughhisunwholesomethinkingathreadwhichburnedlikefire。Hissecretravingswouldnothavebeengoodtohear。Hispassionwasmorethanhalfhatred,andadesireforvengeance,forthechancetore—
asserthisownpower,toprovehimselfmaster,togetthebetterinonewayoranotherofthisarrogantyoungoutsiderandherhigh—handedpride。Theconditionofhismindwassofarfromnormalthathefailedtoseethatthethingshesaidtohimself,theplanshelaid,weregrotesqueintheirfolly。Theoldcrueldominanceofthemanoverthewomanthing,whichhadseemedthemerenaturalworkingofthelawamongmenofhisraceincenturiespast,wasawakeinhim,amidthelimitationsofmoderndays。
"MyGod,"hesaidtohimselfmorethanonce,"Iwouldliketohavehadherinmyhandsafewhundredyearsago。
Womenwerekeptintheirplaces,then。"
Hewasevenfrenziedenoughtothinkoverwhathewouldhavedone,ifsuchathinghadbeen——ofherutterhelplessnessagainstthatwhichragedinhim——ofthegreythicknessofthewallswherehemighthaveheldandwroughthiswilluponher——insult,torment,death。Hisalcohol—excitedbrainranriot——but,whenitdiditsfoolishworst,hewasbaffledbyonething。
"Damnher!"hefoundhimselfcryingout。"IfIhadhungherupandcutherintostripsshewouldhavediedstaringatmewithherbigeyes——withoututteringasound。"
Therewasalongreachbetweenhisimaginingsandthetimehelivedin。Americahadnotbeendiscoveredinthosedecentdays,andnowamancouldnotbeatevenhisownwife,orspendhermoney,withoutbeingmeddledwithbyfools。HewasthinkingofaNewYorkyoungwomanofthenineteenthcenturywhocouldactuallydoasshehangedpleased,andwhopleasedtobedamnedhighandmighty。Forthatreasoninitselfitwasincumbentuponamantogetevenwithherinonewayoranother。Highandmightinesswasnotthehardestthingtoreach。Itofferedagoodaim。
HistemperwhenhereturnedtoStornhamwasoftheorderwhichinpastyearshadsetRosalieandherchildshudderingandhadsenttheservantsaboutthehousewithpaleorsullenfaces。Betty’spresencehadtheoddeffectofrestraininghim,andheeventoldhersowithsneeringresentment。
"Therewouldbethedeviltopayifyouwerenothere,"hesaid。"Youkeepmeinorder,byJove!Ican’tworkupsteamproperlywhenyouwatchme。"
Hehimselfknewthatitwaslikelythatsomechangewouldtakeplace。ShewouldnotstayatStornhamandshewouldnotleavehiswifeandchildalonewithhimagain。Itwouldbelikehertoholdhertongueuntilshewasreadywithherinfernalplansandcouldspringthemonhim。Herletterstoherfatherhadprobablypreparedhimforsuchactionassuchamanwouldbelikelytotake。Hecouldguesswhatitwouldbe。TheywerefreeandeasyenoughinAmericaintheirdealingswiththemarriagetie。Theirideawoulddoubtlessbeadivorcewithcustodyofthechild。Hewonderedalittlethattheyhadremainedquietsolong。TherehadbeenAmericanshrewdnessinhercomingboldlytoStornhamtolookoverthegroundherselfandactuallysettheplaceinorder。Itdidnotpresentitselftohismindthatwhatshehaddonehadbeennopartofascheme,butthemereresultofhertemperamentandtraining。Hetoldhimselfthatithadbeenplannedbeforehandandcarriedoutinhard—headedcommercialAmericanfashionasamatterofbusiness。Thethingwhichmostenragedhimwastheimpliedcool,practicalrealisationofthefactthathe,asinheritorofanentailedestate,wasbutownerincharge,andnotyoungenoughtoberegardedasaninsurmountableobstacletotheirplans。Hecouldnotundothegreaterpartofwhathadbeendone,andtheywerecalculating,heargued,thathiswouldnotbelikelytobealonglife,andif——ifanythinghappened——StornhamwouldbeUghtred’sandthewholevulgarlotofthemwouldcomeoverandtakepossessionandswaggerabouttheplaceasiftheyhadbeenbornonit。Astodivorceorseparation——iftheytookthatline,hewouldatleastgivethemagoodrunfortheirmoney。Theywouldwishtheyhadletsleepingdogsliebeforethethingwasover。
TherightkindoflawyercouldbullyRosalieintosayinganythinghechoseonthewitness—stand。Therewasnotmuchlimittotheevidenceamancouldbringifhewasexperiencedenoughtobecircumstantial,andknewwhomhewasdealingwith。Theveryfactthatthelittlefoolcouldbemadetoappeartohavebeensoslyandsanctimoniouswouldstirthegallofanyjuryofmen。Hisowncondoningthematterforthesakeofhissensitiveboy,deformedbyhismother’sunrestrainedandviolenthysteriabeforehisbirth,wouldgoalongway。Letthemgettheirdivorce,theywouldhavepaidforit,thewholelotofthem,thebeautifulMissVanderpoelandall。SuchastoryasthenewspaperswouldrevelinwouldnotbearecommendationtoEnglishmenofunsmirchedreputation。Thenhisexultationwouldsuddenlydropashismentalexcitementproduceditseffectofinevitablephysicalfatigue。Evenifhemadethempayforgettingtheirownway,whatwouldhappentohimselfafterwards?Nomorbidvanityofself—bolsteringcouldmaketheoutlookanythingbutunpromising。Ifhehadnothadsuchdiabolicalluckinhisfewinvestmentshecouldhavelivedhisownlife。Asitwas,oldVanderpoelwouldpossiblycondescendtomakehimsomeinsufficientallowancebecauseRosaliewouldwishthatitmightbedone,andhewouldbeexpectedtodragouttotheendthekindoflifeamanpensionedbyhiswife’srelativesinevitablydoes。Ifheattemptedtoliveinthecountryheshouldblowouthisbrains。Whenhisdepressionwasatitsworst,hesawhimselfagingandshabby,ramblingaboutfromonecheapContinentaltowntoanother,blackballedbygoodclubs,cold—shoulderedevenbytheTeresitas,cutofffromsocietybyhislimitedmeansandthestorieshiswife’sfriendswouldspread。HegroundhisteethwhenhethoughtofBetty。
Hersplendidvitalityhaddonesomethingtolifeforhim——hadgivenitsavour。Whenhehadcomeuponherintheavenuehisbloodhadstirred,eventhoughithadbeenmaliciously,andtherehadbeenspiceinhisveryresentmentofherpresence。
Andshewouldgoaway。Hewouldnotbelikelytoseeheragainifhiswifebrokewithhim;shewouldbesweptoutofhisdays。Itwashideoustothinkof,andhisragewouldoverpowerhimandhisnervesgotopiecesagain。
"Whatareyougoingtodo?"hebrokeforthsuddenlyoneevening,whenhefoundhimselftemporarilyalonewithher。
"Youaregoingtodosomething。Iseeitinyoureyes。"
Hehadbeenforsometimewatchingherfrombehindhisnewspaper,whileshe,withanunreadbookuponherlap,had,infact,beenthinkingdeeplyandputtingtoherselfseriousquestions。
Heranswermadehimstirratheruncomfortably。
"IamgoingtowritetomyfathertoaskhimtocometoEngland。"
Sothiswaswhatshehadbeenpreparingtospringuponhim。
Helaughedinsolently。
"Toaskhimtocomehere?"
"Withyourpermission。"
"Withmine?DoesanAmericanfather—in—lawwaitforpermission?"
"IsthereanypracticalreasonwhyyoushouldpreferthatheshouldNOTcome?"
Helefthisseatandwalkedovertoher。
"Yes。Yoursendingforhimisadeclarationofwar。"
"Itneednotbeso。Whyshouldit?"
"InthiscaseIhappentobeawarethatitis。Thechoiceisyourown,Isuppose,"withreadybravado,"thatyouandhearepreparedtofacetheconsequences。ButisRosalie,andisyourmother?"
"Myfatherisabusinessmanandwillknowwhatcanbedone。Hewillknowwhatisworthdoing,"sheanswered,withoutnoticinghisquestion。"But,"sheaddedthewordsslowly,"Ihavebeenmakingupmymind——beforeIwritetohim——tosaysomethingtoyou——toaskyouaquestion。"
Hemadeamocksentimentalgesture。
"Toaskmetosparemywife,to`rememberthatsheisthemotherofmychild’?"
Shepassedoverthatalso。
"Toaskyouifthereisnopossiblewayinwhichallthisunhappinesscanbeendeddecently。"
"Theonlydecentwayofendingitwouldbethatthereshouldbenofurtherinterference。LetRosaliesupplythedecencybyshowingmetheconsiderationduefromawifetoherhusband。Theplacehasbeenputinorder。Itwasnotformybenefit,andIhavenomoneytokeepitup。LetRosaliebeprovidedwithmeanstodoit。"
Ashespokethewordsherealisedthathehadopenedawayforembarrassingcomment。HeexpectedhertoremindhimthatRosaliehadnotcometohimwithoutmoney。Butshesaidnothingaboutthematter。Sheneversaidthethingsheexpectedtohear。
"YoudonotwantRosalieforyourwife,"shewenton"butyoucouldtreathercourteouslywithoutlovingher。Youcouldallowhertheprivilegesothermen’swivesareallowed。
Youneednotseparateherfromherfamily。Youcouldallowherfatherandmothertocometoherandleaveherfreetogotothemsometimes。Willyounotagreetothat?Willyounotletherlivepeaceablyinherownsimpleway?Sheisverygentleandhumbleandwouldasknothingmore。"
"Sheisafool!"heexclaimedfuriously。"Afool!ShewillstaywheresheisanddoasItellher。"
"Youknewwhatshewaswhenyoumarriedher。Shewassimpleandgirlishandpretendedtobenothingshewasnot。
Youchosetomarryherandtakeherfromthepeoplewholovedher。Youbrokeherspiritandherheart。YouwouldhavekilledherifIhadnotcomeintimetopreventit。"
"Iwillkillheryetifyouleaveher,"hisfollymadehimsay。
"Youaretalkinglikeafeudallordholdingthepoweroflifeanddeathinhishands,"shesaid。"Powerlikethatisancienthistory。Youcanhurtnoonewhohasfriends——withoutbeingpunished。"
Itwastheoldstory。Shefilledhimwiththedesiretoshakeordisturbheratanycost,andhedidhisutmost。Ifshewasproposingtomaketermswithhim,hewouldshowherwhetherhewouldacceptthemornot。Heletherhearallhehadsaidtohimselfinhisworstmoments——allthathehadarguedconcerningwhatsheandherpeoplewoulddo,andwhathisownactionswouldbe——allhisintentiontomakethempaytheuttermostfarthinginhumiliationifhecouldnotfrustratethem。Hismethodswouldbedefiniteenough。HehadnotwatchedhiswifeandFfolliottforweekstonoend。Hehadknownwhathewasdealingwith。Hehadputotherpeopleuponthetrackandtheywouldtestifyforhim。Hepouredforthunspeakablestatementsandintimations,going,asusual,furtherthanhehadknownheshouldgowhenhebegan。Underthespurofexcitementhisimaginationservedhimwell。Atlasthepaused。
"Well,"heputittoher,"whathaveyoutosay?"
"I?"withtheremoteintentcuriositygrowinginhereyes。
"Ihavenothingtosay。Iamleavingyoutosaythings。"
"Youwill,ofcourse,trytodeny————"heinsisted。
"No,Ishallnot。WhyshouldI?"
"Youmayassumeyourairofmagnificence,butIamdealingwithuncomfortablefactors。"Hestoppedinspiteofhimself,andthenburstforthinaneworderofrage。"Youaretryingsomeconfoundedexperimentonme。Whatisit?"
Sherosefromherchairtogooutoftheroom,andstoodamomentholdingherbookhalfopeninherhand。
"Yes。Isupposeitmightbecalledanexperiment,"washeranswer。"Perhapsitwasamistake。Iwantedtomakequitesureofsomething。"
"Ofwhat?"
"Ididnotwanttoleaveanythingundone。Ididnotwanttobelievethatanymancouldexistwhohadnotonetouchofdecentfeelingtoredeemhim。Itdidnotseemhuman。"
Whitedintsshowedthemselvesabouthisnostrils。
"Well,youhavefoundone,"hecried。"Youhavealashingtongue,byGod,whenyouchoosetoletitgo。ButI
couldteachyouagoodmanythings,mygirl。AndbeforeI
havedoneyouwillhavelearnedmostofthem。"
Butthoughhethrewhimselfintoachairandlaughedaloudasshelefthim,heknewthathisarroganceandbullyingwereprovingpoorweapons,thoughtheyhaddonehimgoodserviceallhislife。Andheknew,too,thatitwasmeresimpletruththat,asaresultoftheintellectual,ethicalvagarieshescathinglyderided——shehadactuallybeengivinghimasortofchancetoretrievehimself,andthatifhehadbeenanothersortofmanhemighthavetakenit。
CHAPTERXLIV
AFOOTSTEP
Itwascoldenoughforfiresinhallsandbedrooms,andLadyAnstruthersoftensatoverhersandwatchedtheglowingbedofcoalswithafixedthoughtfulnessoflook。Shewassosittingwhenhersisterwenttoherroomtotalktoher,andshelookedupquestioninglywhenthedoorclosedandBettycametowardsher。
"Youhavecometotellmesomething,"shesaid。
Aslightshadeofanxiousnessshoweditselfinhereyes,andBettysatdownbyherandtookherhand。ShehadcomebecausewhatsheknewwasthatRosaliemustbepreparedforanysteptaken,andthetimehadarrivedwhenshemustnotbeallowedtoremaininignoranceevenofthingsitwouldbeunpleasanttoputintowords。
"Yes,"sheanswered。"IwanttotalktoyouaboutsomethingIhavedecidedtodo。IthinkImustwritetofatherandaskhimtocometous。"
Rosalieturnedwhite,butthoughherlipspartedasifsheweregoingtospeak,shesaidnothing。
"Donotbefrightened,"Bettysaid。"Ibelieveitistheonlythingtodo。"
"Iknow!Iknow!"
Bettywenton,holdingthehandalittlecloser。"WhenI
camehereyouweretooweakphysicallytobeabletofaceeventhethoughtofastruggle。Isawthat。Iwasafraiditmustcomeintheend,butIknewthatatthattimeyoucouldnotbearit。Itwouldhavekilledyouandmighthavekilledmother,ifIhadnotwaited;anduntilyouwerestronger,I
knewImustwaitandreasoncoollyaboutyou——abouteverything。"
"Iusedtoguess——sometimes,"saidLadyAnstruthers。
"Icantellyouaboutitnow。Youarenotasyouwerethen,"Bettysaid。"IdidnotknowNigelatfirst,andIfeltIoughttoseemoreofhim。Iwantedtomakesurethatmychildhatredofhimdidnotmakemeunfair。Ieventriedtohopethatwhenhecamebackandfoundtheplaceinorderandthingsgoingwell,hemightrecognisethewisdomofbehavingwithdecentkindnesstoyou。IfhehaddonethatIknewfatherwouldhaveprovidedforyouboth,thoughhewouldnothavelefthimtheopportunitytodoagainwhathedidbefore。Nobusinessmanwouldallowsuchathingasthat。ButastimehasgonebyIhaveseenIwasmistakeninhopingforarespectablecompromise。Evenifheweregivenafreehandhewouldnotchange。Andnow————"Shehesitated,feelingitdifficulttochoosesuchwordsaswouldnotbetoounpleasant。
HowwasshetotellRosyoftheugly,morbidsituationwhichmadeordinarypassivenessimpossible。"Nowthereisareason————"shebeganagain。
TohersurpriseandreliefitwasRosaliewhoendedforher。
Shespokewiththepainfulcouragewhichstrongaffectiongivesaweakthing。Herfacewaspalenolonger,butslightlyreddened,andsheliftedthehandwhichheldhersandkissedit。
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