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第30章

  ostentatiouslyamiabletoher。Afterwardsshesawhimdancing,talking,beingpresentedtopeople,being,withatactfuleasiness,takencareofbyhishostandhostess,andLordWestholt。Shewasstruckbythegracefulmagicwithwhichthistactfuleasesurroundedhimwithoutanyobviousness。TheDunholmshadgivenalead,asLadyAlanbyhadsaid,andtherestwerefollowingitandignoringintervalswithreposefulreadiness。Itwaswonderfullywelldone。
  Apparentlytherehadbeennopastatall。Allbeganwiththislargeyoungman,who,despitehisVikingtype,reallylookedparticularlywellineveningdress。LadyAlanbyheldhimbyherchairforsometime,openlyenjoyinghertalkwithhim,andcallingupTommy,thattheymightmakefriends。
  Afterawhile,Bettysaidtoherself,hewouldcomeandaskforadance。Buthedidnotcome,andshedancedwithonemanafteranother。Westholtcametoherseveraltimesandhadmoredancesthanone。Whydidtheothernotcome?Severaltimestheywhirledpasteachother,andwhenitoccurredtheylooked——bothfeelingitanaccident——intoeachother’seyes。
  Thestrongandstrangething——thatwhichmovesonitswayasdobirthanddeath,andtherisingandsettingofthesun——
  hadbeguntomoveinthem。Itwasnonewandrarething,butanancientandcommonone——ascommonandancientasdeathandbirththemselves;andpartofthelawastheyare。Asitcomestoroyalpersonstowhomonemakesobeisanceattheirmerepassingby,asitcomestoscullerymaidsinroyalkitchens,andgroomsinroyalstables,asitcomestoladies—in—waitingandthewomenwhoservethem,soithadcometothesetwowhohadbeendrawnneartoeachotherfromtheoppositesidesoftheearth,andeachstartedatthetouchofit,andwithdrewapaceinbewilderment,andsomefear。
  "Iwish,"MountDunstanwasfeelingthroughouttheevening,"thathereyeshadsomefaultintheirexpression——thattheydrewoneless——thattheydrewMEless。Iamlosingmyhead。"
  "Itwouldbebetter,"Bettythought,"ifIdidnotwishsomuchthathewouldcomeandaskmetodancewithhim——
  thathewouldnotkeepawayso。Heiskeepingawayforareason。Whyishedoingit?"
  Themusicswungoninlovelymeasures,andthedancersswungwithit。SirNigelwalkeddutifullythroughtheLancersoncewithhiswife,andoncewithhisbeautifulsister—in—law。
  LadyAnstruthers,inhernewbloom,hadnotlackedpartners,whodiscoveredthatshewasachildishlylightcreaturewhodancedextremelywell。Everyonewaskindtoher,andtheverygrandoldladies,whoadmiredBetty,wereabsolutelybenignintheirmanner。Betty’spartnerspaidingenuouscourttoher,andSirNigelfoundhehadnotbeenmistakeninhisestimateofthedignityhispositionofescortandmalerelationgavetohim。
  Rosy,standingforamomentlookingoutonthebrilliancyandstateabouther,meetingBetty’seyes,laughedquiveringly。
  "Iaminadream,"shesaid。
  "Youhaveawakenedfromadream,"Bettyanswered。
  Fromtheoppositesideoftheroomsomeonewascomingtowardsthem,and,seeinghim,Rosysmiledinwelcome。
  "IamsureLordMountDunstaniscomingtoaskyoutodancewithhim,"shesaid。"Whyhaveyounotdancedwithhimbefore,Betty?"
  "Hehasnotaskedme,"Bettyanswered。"Thatistheonlyreason。"
  "LordDunholmandLordWestholtcalledattheMountafewdaysaftertheymethimatStornham,"Rosalieexplainedinanundertone。"Theywantedtoknowhim。Thenitseemstheyfoundtheylikedeachother。LadyDunholmhasbeentellingmeaboutit。ShesaysLordDunholmthanksyou,becauseyousaidsomethingilluminating。Thatwasthewordsheused——`illuminating。’Ibelieveyouarealwaysilluminating,Betty。"
  MountDunstanwascertainlycomingtothem。Howbroadhisshoulderslookedinhisclose—fittingblackcoat,howwellbuilthiswholestrongbodywas,andhowsteadilyheheldhiseyes!Hereandthereoneseesamanorwomanwhois,throughsometrickoffate,bynatureacompellingthingunconsciouslydemandingthatoneshouldsubmittosomedomineeringattraction。
  Onedoesnotcallitdomineering,butitisso。Thisspecialcreatureischargedunfairlywithmorethanhisorhersingleshareofforce。BettyVanderpoelthoughtthisoutasthis"otherone"cametoher。Hedidnotusetheballroomformulawhenhespoketoher。Hesaidinratheralowvoice:
  "Willyoudancewithme?"
  "Yes,"sheanswered。
  LordDunholmandhiswifeagreedafterwardsthatsonoticeableapairhadneverbeforedancedtogetherintheirballroom。
  Certainlynopairhadeverbeenwatchedwithquitethesameinterestedcuriosity。Someonlookersthoughtitsingularthattheyshoulddancetogetheratall,somepleasedthemselvesbyreflectingonthefactthatnoothertwocouldhaverepresentedwithsuchpicturesquenesstheoppositepolesoffateandcircumstance。Nooneattemptedtodenythattheywereanextraordinarilystriking—lookingcouple,andthatone’seyesfollowedtheminspiteofone’sself。
  "Takentogethertheyproduceaneffectthatissomehowratheramazing,"oldLadyAlanbycommented。"Heisamagnificentlybuiltman,youknow,andsheisamagnificentlybuiltgirl。Everybodyshouldlooklikethat。MyimpressionwouldbethatAdamandEvedid,butforthefactthatneitherofthemhadanyparticularcharacter。Thataffairoftheapplewassosilly。Evehasalwaysstruckmeasbeingthekindofwomanwho,ifshelivedto—day,wouldrunupstupidbillsatherdressmakersandbeafraidtotellherhusband。ThatwonderfulblackheadofMissVanderpoel’slooksverynicepoisednearMountDunstan’sdarkredone。"
  "Iamgladtobedancingwithhim,"Bettywasthinking。
  "Iamgladtobenearhim。"
  "Willyoudancethiswithmetotheveryend,"askedMountDunstan——"totheverylatenote?"
  "Yes,"answeredBetty。
  Hehadspokeninalowbutlevelvoice——thekindofvoicewhosetoneplacesamanandwomanalonetogether,andwhollyapartfromallothersbywhomsoevertheyaresurrounded。
  Therehadbeennopreliminaryspeechandnoexplanationoftherequestfollowed。Themusicwasaperfectthing,thebrilliant,loftyballroom,thebeautyofcolourandsoundaboutthem,thejewelsandfairfaces,thewarmbreathofflowersintheair,theverysenseofroyalpresenceanditsaccompanyingstateandceremony,seemedmerelyanaturallyarrangedbackgroundforthestrangeconsciousnesseachheldcloseandsilently——knowingnothingofthemindoftheother。
  Thiswaswhatwaspassingthroughtheman’smind。
  "Thisisthethingwhichmostmenexperienceseveraltimesduringtheirlives。Itwouldbereasonenoughforallthegreatdeedsandallthecrimesonehearsof。Itisanenormouskindofanguishandafearfulkindofjoy。Itisscarcelytobeborne,andyet,atthismoment,Icouldkillmyselfandher,atthethoughtoflosingit。IfIhadbegunearlier,wouldithavebeeneasier?No,itwouldnot。Withmeitisboundtogohard。AttwentyIshouldprobablynothavebeenabletokeepmyselffromshoutingitaloud,andIshouldnothaveknownthatitwasonlytheworkingoftheLaw。`Only!’GoodGod,whatafoolIam!ItisbecauseitisonlytheLawthatIcannotescape,andmustgoontotheend,grindingmyteethtogetherbecauseIcannotspeak。Oh,hersmoothyoungcheek!
  Oh,thedeepshadowsofherlashes!Andwhileweswayroundandroundtogether,Iholdherslimstrongbodyinthehollowofmyarm。"
  Itwas,quitepossibly,ashethoughtthisthatNigelAnstruthers,followinghimwithhiseyesashepassed,begantofrown。Hehadbeenwatchingthepairasothershad,hehadseenwhatotherssaw,andnowhehadanideathathesawsomethingmore,anditwassomethingwhichdidnotpleasehim。
  Theinstinctofthemalebestirreditself——thecuriousinstinctofresentmentagainstanotherman——anyotherman。And,inthiscase,MountDunstanwasnotanyotherman,butoneforwhomhisantipathywaspersonal。
  "Iwon’thavethat,"hesaidtohimself。"Iwon’thaveit。"……
  Themusicroseandswelled,andthensankintosoftbreathing,astheymovedinharmonytogether,glidingandswirlingastheythreadedtheirwayamongothercoupleswhoswirledandglidedalso,someofthemlightandsmiling,someexchanginglow—tonedspeech——perhapssayingwordswhich,unheardbyothers,touchedondeepthings。Theexaltedguestfellintomomentarysilenceashelookedon,beingamanmuchattractedbyphysicalfinenessandtemperamentalpowerandcharm。A
  girllikethatwouldbringagreatdealtoamanandtothecountryhebelongedto。Agreatracemightbefoundedonsuchsuperbnessofphysiqueandhealthandbeauty。Combinedwithabnormalresources,certainlynomorecouldbeasked。
  HeexpressedsomethingofthekindtoLordDunholm,whostoodnearhiminattendance。
  ToherselfBettywassaying:"Thatwasastrangethingheaskedme。Itiscuriousthatwesaysolittle。Ishouldneverknowmuchabouthim。Ihavenointelligencewhereheisconcerned——onlyastrong,stupidfeeling,whichisnotlikeafeelingofmyown。IamnolongerBettyVanderpoel——
  andIwishtogoondancingwithhim——onandon——tothelastnote,ashesaid。"
  Shefeltalittlehotwaverunoverhercheekuncomfortably,andthenextinstantthebigarmtighteneditsclaspofher——
  forjustonesecond——notmorethanone。Shedidnotknowthathe,himself,hadseenthesuddenrippleofredcolour,andthattheequallysuddencontractionofthearmhadbeenasunexpectedtohimandasinvoluntaryasthequickwaveitself。Ithadhorrifiedandmadehimangry。Helookedthenextinstantentirelystiffandcold。
  "Hedidnotknowithappened,"Bettyresolved。
  "Themusicisgoingtostop,"saidMountDunstan。"I
  knowthewaltz。Wecangetonceroundtheroomagainbeforethefinalchord。Itwastobethelastnote——theverylast,"
  buthesaiditquiterigidly,andBettylaughed。
  "Quitethelast,"sheanswered。
  Themusichastenedalittle,andtheirglidingwhirlbecamemorerapid——alittlefaster——alittlefasterstill——arunningsweepofnotes,abig,terminatingharmony,andthethingwasover。
  "Thankyou,"saidMountDunstan。"Onewillhaveittoremember。"Andhistonewasslightlysardonic。
  "Yes,"Bettyacquiescedpolitely。
  "Oh,notyou。OnlyI。Ihaveneverwaltzedbefore。"
  Bettyturnedtolookathimcuriously。
  "Undercircumstancessuchasthese,"heexplained。"I
  learnedtodanceataparticularlyhideousboys’schoolinFrance。Iabhorredit。Andthetrendofmylifehasmadeitquiteeasyformetokeepmytwelve—year—oldvowthatIwouldneverdanceafterIlefttheplace,unlessIWANTEDtodoit,andthat,especially,nothingshouldmakemewaltzuntilcertainagreeableconditionswerefulfilled。WaltzingIapprovedof——outofhideousschools。Iwasapig—headed,objectionablechild。Idetestedmyselfeven,then。"
  Betty’scomposurereturnedtoher。
  "Iamtrusting,"sheremarked,"thatImaysecretlyregardmyselfasoneoftheagreeableconditionstobefulfilled。Donotdispelmyhopesroughly。"
  "Iwillnot,"heanswered。"Youare,infact,severalofthem。"
  "Onebreatheswithmuchgreaterfreedom,"sheresponded。
  Thissortofcoolnonsensewassafe。Itdispelledfeelingsoftenseness,andcarriedthemtotheplacewhereSirNigelandLadyAnstruthersawaitedthem。Aslightstirwasbeginningtobefeltthroughouttheballroom。Theroyalguestwasretiring,andsoontherestbegantomeltaway。TheAnstruthers,whohadalongreturndrivebeforethem,wereamongthosewhowentfirst。
  WhenLadyAnstruthersandhersisterreturnedfromthecloakroom,theyfoundSirNigelstandingnearMountDunstan,whowasgoingalso,andtalkingtohiminanamiablydetachedmanner。MountDunstan,himself,didnotlookamiable,orseemtobesayingmuch,butSirNigelshowednosignsofbeingdisturbed。
  "Nowthatyouhaveceasedtoforsweartheworld,"hesaidashiswifeapproached,"IhopeweshallseeyouatStornham。YourvisitsmustnotceasebecausewecannotofferyouG。Seldenanylonger。"
  Hehadhisownreasonsforgivingtheinvitation——severalofthem。Andtherewasasatisfactioninlettingthefellowknow,casually,thathewasnotintheridiculouspositionofbeingunawareofwhathadoccurredduringhisabsence——thattherehadbeenvisits——andalsotheobjectionableepisodeoftheAmericanbounder。Thattheepisodehadbeenobjectionable,heknewhehadadroitlyconveyedbymeretoneandmanner。
  MountDunstanthankedhimintheusualformula,andthenspoketoBetty。
  "G。Seldenleftustremulousandfeveredwithecstaticanticipation。HecarriedyourkindlettertoMr。Vanderpoel,nexttohisheart。Hisbrainseemedtowhirlatthethoughtofwhat`theboys’wouldsay,whenhearrivedwithitinNewYork。Youhavematerialisedthedreamofhislife!"
  "Ihaveinterestedmyfather,"Bettyanswered,withabrilliantsmile。"HelikedtheromanceoftheReubenS。
  VanderpoelwhorewardedthesaverofhislifebyunboundedordersfortheDelkoff。"……
  Astheircarriagedroveaway,SirNigelbentforwardtolookoutofthewindow,andhavingdoneit,laughedalittle。
  "MountDunstandoesnotplaythegamewell,"heremarked。
  ItwasannoyingthatneitherBettynorhiswifeinquiredwhatthegameinquestionmightbe,andthathistemperamentforcedhimintoexplainingwithoutencouragement。
  "Heshouldhave`stoodmotionlesswithfoldedarms,’orsomethingofthesort,and`watchedherequipageuntilitwasoutofsight。’"
  "Andhedidnot?"saidBetty"Heturnedonhisheelassoonasthedoorwasshut。"
  "Peopleoughtnottodosuchthings,"washersimplecomment。Towhichitseemeduselesstoreply。
  CHAPTERXXXIII
  FORLADYJANE
  Thereisnoonethingonearthofsuchinterestasthestudyofthelawsoftemperament,whichimpel,support,orentrapintofollyanddangerthebeingtheyrule。Asachild,notoldenoughtogiveadefinitenametothethingshewatchedandponderedon,inchildfashion,BettinaVanderpoelhadthoughtmuchonthissubject。Asshehadgrownolder,shehadneverbeenignorantoftheworkingsofherowntemperament,andshehadlookedonforyearsatthelawswhichhadwroughtinherfather’sbeing——thelawsofstrength,executivecapacity,andthatpleasureingreatschemes,whichisrousedlessbyadesireforgainthanforastrongly—feltnecessityforaction,resultinginsuccess。Shementallyfollowedotherpeopleontheirway,sometimesaskingherselfhowfartheindividualwastobepraisedorblamedforhistreadingofthepathheseemedtochoose。AndnowtherewasgivenhertheopportunitytostudytheworkingsofthenatureofNigelAnstruthers,whichwasacuriousthing。
  Hewasnotanindividualtobeenvied。Neverwasmanmoretormentedbylackofpowertocontrolhisspecialdevil,attherightmomentoftime,andtherefore,neverwasthereonesoinevitablyhisownfrustration。ThisBettysawafterthepassingofbutafewdays,andwonderedhowfarhewasconsciousorunconsciousofthething。Attimesitappearedtoherthathewasinastateofunrest——thathewasasamanwaveringbetweenlinesofaction,swayedatonemomentbyonethought,atanotherbyanideaquitedifferent,andthathewasharriedbecausehecouldnotholdhisownwithhimself。
  Thiswastrue。TheballatDunholmCastlehadbeenenlightening,andhadwroughtsomechangesinhispointsofview。Alsootherfactorshadinfluencedhim。Inthefirstplace,thechangedatmosphereofStornham,thefitnessandluxuryofhissurroundings,thenewdignitygiventohispositionbythealteredaspectofthings,renderedexternalamiabilitymoreeasy。Torideaboutthecountryonagoodhorse,ordriveinasmartphaeton,orsuitablecarriage,andtofindthatpeoplewhoayearagohadpassedhimwiththemerestrecognition,salutedhimwithpoliteintention,was,toacertaindegree,stimulatingtoavanitywhichhadbeenlongill—fed。Thepowerwhichproducedtheseresultsshould,ofcourse,havebeeninhisownhands——hismoney—makingfather—
  in—lawshouldhaveseenthatitwashisaffairtoprovideforthat——butsincehehadnotdoneso,itwasratherentertainingthatitshouldbe,forthepresent,inthehandsofthisextraordinarilygood—lookinggirl。
  Hehadbegunbymerelythinkingofherinthismanner——
  as"thisextraordinarilygood—lookinggirl,"andhadnot,foramoment,hesitatedbeforetheedifyingideaofitsnotbeingimpossibletoarrangealivelyflirtationwithher。Shewasatanagewhen,inhisopinion,girlhoodwaspoisedforflightwithadventure,andhistasteshadnotledhiminthedirectionofyouthwhichwasfastidious。HisRivieraepisodehadlefthisvanityblisteredandrequiringsomesoothingapplication。
  Hislifehadworkedevilwithhim,andhehadfallenillonthehandsofawomanwhohadtreatedhimasashattered,uselessthingwhosedaywasdoneandwithwhomstrengthandbloomcouldnotbeburdened。Hehadkepthisillnessahiddensecret,onhisreturntoStornham,hisonedesirehavingbeentoforget——eventodisbelieveinit,butdreamsofitssuggestionsometimesawakenedhimatnightwithshuddersandcoldsweat。Hewashideouslyafraidofdeathandpain,andhehadhadmonstrouspain——andwhilehehadlainbattlingwithit,uponhisbedinthevillaontheMediterranean,hehadbeenabletohear,inthegardenoutside,thelowvoicesandlaughteroftheSpanishdancerandthehealthy,strongyoungfoolwhowashernewadorer。
  WhenhehadfoundhimselffacetofacewithBettyintheavenue,afterthefirstleapofannoyance,whichhadsuddenlydieddownintoperverselyinterestedcuriosity,hecouldhavelaughedoutrightatthenoveltyandoddunexpectednessofthesituation。Theill—mannered,impudently—staring,littleNewYorkbeasthaddevelopedintoTHIS!Hangit!Nomancouldguesswhattheembryofemalecreaturemightresultin。
  Hismereshakinessofphysicalconditionaddedstrengthtoherattraction。Shewaslikeayounggoddessofhealthandlifeandfire;theveryspringofherfirmfootuponthemossbeneathitwasastimulatingthingtoamanwhosenervessprungsecretfearsuponhim。Thereweresparksbetweenthesweepofherlashes,butshemanagedtocarryherselfwiththeairofbeingascoolasacucumber,whichgavespicetotheeffortto"upset"her。Ifshedidnotprovesuitablyamenable,therewouldbepiquancyingettingthebetterofher——instirringupunpleasantlittlethings,whichwouldmakeiteasierforhertogoawaythanremainonthespot——ifoneshouldendbychoosingtogetridofher。But,forthemoment,hehadnodesiretogetridofher。Hewantedtoseewhatsheintendedtodo——toseethethingout,infact。ItamusedhimtohearthatMountDunstanwasonhertrack。Thereexistsforpersonsofacertaintypeapleasurefull—fedbythemeresenseofhaving"goteven"withanopponent。Throughouthislifehehadmadeapointof"gettingeven"withthosewhohadirritatinglycrossedhispath,ormuchdislikedhim。Theworkingoutofsmallorlargeplanstoachievethisendhadformedoneofhismostagreeablerecreations。HehadlongowedMountDunstanadebt,whichhehadalwaysmeanttopay。HehadnotintendedtoforgettheepisodeofthenicelittlevillagegirlwithwhomTenhamandhimselfhadbeengettingalongsoenormouslywell,whentheragingyoungasshadfoundthemout,andmadeanabsurdlyexaggeratedscene,evengoingsofarasthreateningtosmashthepairofthem,marchingofftothefatherandmother,andsettingthevicaron,andthenscratchingtogether——Godknowshow——moneyenoughtopackthelotofftoAmerica,wheretheyhadsincedonewell。Whyshouldamanforgiveanotherwhohadmadehimlooklikeaschoolboyandafool?So,tofindMountDunstanrushingdownasteephillintothisthing,wasedifying。Youcannottakemuchoutofamanifyouneverencounterhim。Ifyoumeethim,youareprovidedbyHeavenwithopportunities。Youcanfindoutwhathefeelsmostsharply,andwhathewillsuffermostbybeingdeprivedof。HisimpressionwasthattherewasagooddealtobegotoutofMountDunstan。Hewasanobstinate,haughtydevil,andjustthefellowtoconcealwithafuryofprideascoreoftenderplacesinhishide。
  Attheballhehadseenthatthegirl’seffecthadbeenofakindwhichevenmoneyandgoodlooksuncombinedwithanotherthingmightnothaveproduced。Andshehadtheotherthing——whatsoeveritmightbe。HeobservedthewayinwhichtheDunholmsmetandgreetedher,hemarkedtheglanceoftheroyalpersonage,andhismanner,whenafterherpresentationheconversedwithanddetainedher,hesawtheturningofheadsandexchangeofremarksasshemovedthroughtherooms。Mostespecially,hetookinthebearingoftheverygrandoldladies,ledbyLadyAlanbyofDole。
  Barriershadthrownthemselvesdown,theseportentous,rigorousoldpussycatsadmiredher,evenlikedher。
  "Uponmyword,"hesaidtohimself。"Shehasawaywithher,youknow。SheisacombinationofEthelNewcomeandBeckySharp。Butsheismorelevel—headedthaneitherofthem,There’satouchofTrixEsmond,too。"
  Thesenseofthesuccesswhichfollowedher,andthegradually—
  growingexcitementoflookingonatherlightwhirlsofdance,thecarnationofhercheek,andthelaughterandpleasureshedrewabouther,hadaffectedhiminawaybywhichhewassecretlyalittleexhilarated。Hewasconsciousofarashdesiretoforcehiswaythroughtheselaughing,vauntingyoungidiots,juggleorsnatchtheirdancesawayfromthem,andseizeonthegirlhimself。Hehadnotforsolongatimebeenimpelledbysuchagreeablefollythathehadsometimesfeltthestabofthethoughtthathewaspastit。Thatitshouldriseinhimagainmadehimfeelyoung。TherewasnothingwhichsoirritatedhimagainstMountDunstanashisownrebellingrecognitionoftheman’syouth,thestrengthofhisfinebody,hishigh—heldheadandcleareye。
  Thesethingsandothersitwaswhichswayedhim,aswasplaintoBettyinthetimewhichfollowed,tomanychangesofmood。
  "Areyousorryforamanwhoisillanddepressed,"heaskedoneday,"ordoyoudespisehim?"
  "Iamsorry。"
  "Thenbesorryforme。"
  Hehadcomeoutofthehousetoherasshesatonthelawn,underabroad,level—branchedtree,andhadthrownhimselfuponarugwithhishandsclaspedbehindhishead。
  "Areyouill?"
  "WhenIwasontheRivieraIhadafall。"Heliedsimply。
  "Istrainedsomemuscleorother,andithasleftmeratherlame。SometimesIhaveagooddealofpain。"
  "Iamverysorry,"saidBetty。"Very。"
  Awomanwhocanbemadesorryitisrarelyimpossibletomanage。Todwellwithpatheticpatienceonyourgrievances,ifsheisweakandunintelligent,todeplore,withhonestregret,yourfaultsandblunders,ifsheisstrong,arenotbadideas。
  Helookedatherreflectively。
  "Yes,youarecapableofbeingsorry,"hedecided。Forafewmomentsofsilencehiseyesrestedupontheviewspreadbeforehim。Togivetheexpressionofdignifiedreflectionwasnotabadideaeither。
  "Doyouknow,"hesaidatlength,"thatyouproduceanextraordinaryeffectuponme,Betty?"
  ShewasoccupyingherselfbyaddingafewstitchestooneofRosy’sancientstripsofembroidery,andassheanswered,shelaiditflatuponherkneetoconsideritseffect"Goodorbad?"sheinquired,withdelicateabstraction。
  Heturnedhisfacetowardsheragain——thistimequickly。
  "Both,"heanswered。"Both。"
  Histoneheldtheflashofaheatwhichhefeltshouldhavestartledherslightly。Butapparentlyitdidnot。
  "Idonotlike`both,’"withcomposedlightness。"Ifyouhadsaidthatyoufeltyourselfdevelopangelicqualitieswhenyouwerenearme,Ishouldfeelflattered,andswellwithpride。But`both’leavesmeunsatisfied。Itinterfereswiththehappylittleconceitthatoneisanall—pervading,beneficentpower。Onelikestocontemplatealargepictureofone’sself——
  notplain,butcoloured——asawholesalereformer。"
  "Isee。Thankyou,"stifflyandflushing。"Youdonotbelieveme。"
  Hereffectuponhimwassuchthat,forthemoment,hefoundhimselfchoosingtobelievethathewasinearnest。Hisdesiretoimpressherwithhismoodhadactuallyledtothisresult。Sheoughttohavebeenrathermoved——alittlefluttered,perhaps,athearingthatshedisturbedhisequilibrium。
  "Yousetyourselfagainstme,asachild,Betty,"hesaid。
  "Andyousetyourselfagainstmenow。Youwillnotgivemefairplay。Youmightgivemefairplay。"Hedroppedhisvoiceatthelastsentence,andknewitwaswelldone。A
  touchofhopelessnessisnotoftenlostonawoman。