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第5章

  Therewasanangrygleaminthehunter’seye,butheturnedonhisheelandenteredthesteeragecompanionway,whereheremained,lookingupward。
  Allhandswereondecknow,andalleyeswerealoft,whereahumanlifewasatgrappleswithdeath。Thecallousnessofthesemen,towhomindustrialorganizationgavecontrolofthelivesofothermen,wasappalling。I,whohadlivedoutofthewhirloftheworld,hadneverdreamedthatitsworkwascarriedoninsuchfashion。Lifehadalwaysseemedapeculiarlysacredthing,buthereitcountedfornothing,wasacipherinthearithmeticofcommerce。Imustsay,however,thatthesailorsthemselvesweresympathetic,asinstancethecaseofJohnson;butthemasters,(thehuntersandthecaptain),wereheartlesslyindifferent。EventheprotestofStandisharoseoutofthefactthathedidnotwishtolosehisboat—puller。Haditbeensomeotherhunter’sboat—puller,he,likethem,wouldhavebeennomorethanamused。
  ButtoreturntoHarrison。IttookJohansen,insultingandrevilingthepoorwretch,fullytenminutestogethimstartedagain。Alittlelaterhemadetheendofthegaff,where,astridethesparitself,hehadabetterchanceforholdingon。Heclearedthesheet,andwasfreetoreturn,slightlydown—hillnow,alongthehalyardstothemast。Buthehadlosthisnerve。
  Unsafeaswashispresentposition,hewasloathtoforsakeitforthemoreunsafepositiononthehalyards。
  Helookedalongtheairypathhemusttraverse,andthendowntothedeck。Hiseyeswerewideandstaring,andhewastremblingviolently。I
  hadneverseenfearsostronglystampeduponahumanface。Johansencalledvainlyforhimtocomedown。Atanymomenthewasliabletobesnappedoffthegaff,buthewashelplesswithfright。WolfLarsen,walkingupanddownwithSmokeandinconversation,tooknomorenoticeofhim,thoughhecriedsharply,once,tothemanatthewheel:——
  "You’reoffyourcourse,myman!Becareful,unlessyou’relookingfortrouble!"
  "Ay,ay,sir,"thehelmsmanresponded,puttingacoupleofspokesdown。
  HehadbeenguiltyofrunningtheGhostseveralpointsoffhercourseinorderthatwhatlittlewindtherewasshouldfilltheforesailandholditsteady。HehadstriventohelptheunfortunateHarrisonattheriskofincurringWolfLarsen’sanger。
  Thetimewentby,andthesuspense,tome,wasterrible。ThomasMugridge,ontheotherhand,considereditalaughableaffair,andwascontinuallybobbinghisheadoutthegalleydoortomakejocoseremarks。HowIhatedhim!Andhowmyhatredforhimgrewandgrew,duringthatfearfultime,tocyclopeandimensions。ForthefirsttimeinmylifeIexperiencedthedesiretomurder——"sawred,"assomeofourpicturesquewritersphraseit。Lifeingeneralmightstillbesacred,butlifeintheparticularcaseofThomasMugridgehadbecomeveryprofaneindeed。IwasfrightenedwhenIbecameconsciousthatwasseeingred,andthethoughtflashedthroughmymind:wasI,too,becomingtaintedbythebrutalityofmyenvironment?
  ——I,whoeveninthemostflagrantcrimeshaddeniedthejusticeandrighteousnessofcapitalpunishment?
  Fullyhalfanhourwentby,andthenIsawJohnsonandLouisinsomesortofaltercation。ItendedwithJohnsonflingingoffLouis’sdetainingarmandstartingforward。Hecrossedthedeck,sprangintotheforerigging,andbegantoclimb。ButthequickeyeofWolfLarsencaughthim。
  "Here,you,whatareyouupto?"hecried。
  Johnson’sascentwasarrested。Helookedhiscaptainintheeyesandrepliedslowly:——
  "Iamgoingtogetthatboydown。"
  "You’llgetdownoutofthatrigging,anddamnlivelyaboutit!D’yehear?Getdown!"
  Johnsonhesitated,butthelongyearsofobediencetothemastersofshipsoverpoweredhim,andhedroppedsullenlytothedeckandwentonforward。
  AthalfafterfiveIwentbelowtosetthecabintable,buthardlyknewwhatIdid,formyeyesandbrainwerefilledwiththevisionofaman,white—facedandtrembling,comicallylikeabug,clingingtothethrashinggaff。Atsixo’clock,whenIservedsupper,goingondecktogetthefoodfromthegalley,IsawHarrison,stillinthesameposition。Theconversationatthetablewasofotherthings。Nobodyseemedinterestedinthewantonlyimperilledlife。Butmakinganextratriptothegalleyalittlelater,IwasgladdenedbythesightofHarrisonstaggeringweaklyfromtheriggingtotheforecastlescuttle。Hehadfinallysummonedthecouragetodescend。
  Beforeclosingthisincident,ImustgiveascrapofconversationI
  hadwithWolfLarseninthecabin,whileIwaswashingthedishes。
  "Youwerelookingsqueamishthisafternoon,"hebegan。"Whatwasthematter?"
  IcouldseethatheknewwhathadmademepossiblyassickasHarrison,thathewastryingtodrawme,andIanswered,"Itwasbecauseofthebrutaltreatmentofthatboy。"
  Hegaveashortlaugh。"Likeseasickness,Isuppose。Somemenaresubjecttoit,andothersarenot。"
  "Notso,"Iobjected。
  "Justso,"hewenton。"Theearthisasfullofbrutalityastheseaisfullofmotion。Andsomemenaremadesickbytheone,andsomebytheother。That’stheonlyreason。"
  "Butyou,whomakeamockofhumanlife,don’tyouplaceanyvalueuponitwhatever?"Idemanded。
  "Value?Whatvalue?"Helookedatme,andthoughhiseyesweresteadyandmotionless,thereseemedacynicalsmileinthem。"Whatkindofvalue?
  Howdoyoumeasureit?Whovaluesit?"
  "Ido,"Imadeanswer。
  "Thenwhatisitworthtoyou?Anotherman’slife,Imean。Come,now,whatisitworth?"
  Thevalueoflife?HowcouldIputatangiblevalueuponit?Somehow,I,whohavealwayshadexpression,lackedexpressionwhenwithWolfLarsen。
  Ihavesincedeterminedthatapartofitwasduetotheman’spersonality,butthatthegreaterpartwasduetohistotallydifferentoutlook。UnlikeothermaterialistsIhadmetandwithwhomhadsomethingincommontostarton,Ihadnothingincommonwithhim。Perhaps,also,itwastheelementalsimplicityofhismindthatbaffledme。Hedrovesodirectlytothecoreofthematter,divestingaquestionalwaysofallsuperfluousdetails,andwithsuchanairoffinality,thatIseemedtofindmyselfstrugglingindeepwaterwithnofootingunderme。Valueoflife?HowcouldIanswerthequestiononthespurofthemoment?ThesacrednessoflifeIhadacceptedasaxiomatic。ThatitwasintrinsicallyvaluablewasatruismIhadneverquestioned。ButwhenhechallengedthetruismIwasspeechless。
  "Weweretalkingaboutthisyesterday,"hesaid。"Iheldthatlifewasaferment,ayeastysomethingwhichdevouredlifethatitmightlive,andthatlivingwasmerelysuccessfulpiggishness。Why,ifthereisanythinginsupplyanddemand,lifeisthecheapestthingintheworld。Thereisonlysomuchwater,somuchearth,somuchair;butthelifethatisdemandingtobebornislimitless。Natureisaspendthrift。Lookatthefishandtheirmillionsofeggs。Forthatmatter,lookatyouandme。Inourloinsarethepossibilitiesofmillionsoflives。Couldwebutfindtimeandopportunityandutilizethelastbitandeverybitoftheunbornlifethatisinus,wecouldbecomethefathersofnationsandpopulatecontinents。
  Life?Bah!Ithasnovalue。Ofcheapthingsitisthecheapest。Everywhereitgoesbegging。Naturespillsitoutwithalavishhand。Wherethereisroomforonelife,shesowsathousandlives,andit’slifeeatslifetillthestrongestandmostpiggishlifeisleft。"
  "YouhavereadDarwin,"Isaid。"Butyoureadhimmisunderstandinglywhenyouconcludethatthestruggleforexistencesanctionsyourwantondestructionoflife。"
  Heshruggedhisshoulders。"Youknowyouonlymeanthatinrelationtohumanlife,forofthefleshandthefowlandthefishyoudestroyasmuchasIoranyotherman。Andhumanlifeisinnowisedifferent,thoughyoufeelitisandthinkthatyoureasonwhyitis。WhyshouldIbeparsimoniouswiththislifewhichischeapandwithoutvalue?Therearemoresailorsthanthereareshipsontheseaforthem,moreworkersthantherearefactoriesormachinesforthem。Why,youwholiveonthelandknowthatyouhouseyourpoorpeopleintheslumsofcitiesandloosefamineandpestilenceuponthem,andthattherestillremainmorepoorpeople,dyingforwantofacrustofbreadandabitofmeat,(whichislifedestroyed),thanyouknowwhattodowith。HaveyoueverseentheLondondockersfightinglikewildbeastsforachancetowork?"
  Hestartedforthecompanionstairs,butturnedhisheadforafinalword。"Doyouknowtheonlyvaluelifehasiswhatlifeputsuponitself?
  Anditisofcourseoverestimated,sinceitisofnecessityprejudicedinitsownfavor。TakethatmanIhadaloft。Heheldonasifhewereapreciousthing,atreasurebeyonddiamondsorrubies。Toyou?No。Tome?
  Notatall。Tohimself?Yes。ButIdonotaccepthisestimate。Hesadlyoverrateshimself。Thereisplentymorelifedemandingtobeborn。Hadhefallenanddrippedhisbrainsuponthedecklikehoneyfromthecomb,therewouldhavebeennolosstotheworld。Hewasworthnothingtotheworld。Thesupplyistoolarge。Tohimselfonlywasheofvalue,andtoshowhowfictitiouseventhisvaluewas,beingdeadheisunconsciousthathehaslosthimself。Healoneratedhimselfbeyonddiamondsandrubies。
  Diamondsandrubiesaregone,spreadoutonthedecktobewashedawaybyabucketofsea—water,andhedoesnotevenknowthatthediamondsandrubiesaregone。Hedoesnotloseanything,forwiththelossofhimselfhelosestheknowledgeofloss。Don’tyousee?Andwhathaveyoutosay?"
  "Thatyouareatleastconsistent,"wasallIcouldsay,andwentonwashingthedishes。TheSeaWolf:Chapter7CHAPTER7
  Atlast,afterthreedaysofvariablewinds,wehavecaughtthenortheasttrades。Icameondeck,afteragoodnight’srestinspiteofmypoorknee,tofindtheGhostfoamingalong,wing—and—wing,andeverysaildrawingexceptthejibs,withafreshbreezeastern。Oh,thewonderofthegreattrade—wind!Alldaywesailed,andallnight,andthenextday,andthenext,dayafterday,thewindalwaysasternandblowingsteadilyandstrong。
  Theschoonersailedherself。Therewasnopullingandhaulingonsheetsandtackles,noshiftingoftopsails,noworkatallforthesailorstodoexcepttosteer。Atnightwhenthesunwentdown,thesheetswereslackened;
  inthemorning,whentheyyieldedupthedampofthedewandrelaxed,theywerepulledtightagain——andthatwasall。
  Tenknots,twelveknots,elevenknots,varyingfromtimetotime,isthespeedwearemaking。Andeveroutofthenortheastthebravewindblows,drivingusonourcoursetwohundredandfiftymilesbetweenthedawns。
  Itsaddensmeandgladdensme,thegaitwithwhichweareleavingSanFranciscobehindandwithwhichwearefoamingdownuponthetropics。Eachdaygrowsperceptiblywarmer。Intheseconddog—watchthesailorscomeondeck,stripped,andheavebucketsofwaterupononeanotherfromoverside。Flying—fisharebeginningtobeseen,andduringthenightthewatchabovescramblesoverthedeckinpursuitofthosethatfallaboard。Inthemorning,ThomasMugridgebeingdulybribed,thegalleyispleasantlyareekwiththeodoroftheirfrying;whiledolphinmeatisservedforeandaftonsuchoccasionsasJohnsoncatchestheblazingbeautiesfromthebowspritend。
  Johnsonseemstospendallhissparetimethereoraloftatthecrosstrees,watchingtheGhostcleavingthewaterunderpressofsail。Thereispassion,adoration,inhiseyes,andhegoesaboutinasortoftrance,gazinginecstasyattheswellingsails,thefoamingwake,andtheheaveandtherunofherovertheliquidmountainsthataremovingwithusinstatelyprocession。
  Thedaysandnightsare"allawonderandawilddelight,"andthoughIhavelittletimefrommydrearywork,IstealoddmomentstogazeandgazeattheunendinggloryofwhatIneverdreamedtheworldpossessed。
  Above,theskyisstainlessblue——blueastheseaitself,whichundertheforefootisofthecolorandsheenofazuresatin。Allaroundthehorizonarepale,fleecyclouds,neverchanging,nevermoving,likeasilversettingfortheflawlessturquoisesky。
  Idonotforgetonenight,whenIshouldhavebeenasleep,oflyingontheforecastle—headandgazingdownatthespectralrippleoffoamthrustasidebytheGhost’sforefoot。Itsoundedlikethegurglingofabrookovermossystonesinsomequietdell,andthecrooningsongofitluredmeawayandoutofmyselftillIwasnolongerHumpthecabin—boy,norVanWeyden,themanwhohaddreamedawaythirty—fiveyearsamongbooks。
  Butavoicebehindme,theunmistakablevoiceofWolfLarsen,strongwiththeinvinciblecertitudeofthemanandmellowwithappreciationofthewordshewasquoting,arousedme。"`Otheblazingtropicnight,whenthewake’saweltoflightThatholdsthehotskytame,Andthesteadyforefootsnoresthroughtheplanet—powderedfloorsWherethescaredwhaleflukesinflame。Herplatesarescarredbythesun,dearlass,Andherropesaretautwiththedew,Forwe’reboomingdownontheoldtrail,ourowntrail,theouttrail,We’resaggingsouthontheLongTrail——thetrailthatisalwaysnew。’"
  "Eh,Hump?How’sitstrikeyou?"heasked,aftertheduepausewhichwordsandsettingdemanded。
  Ilookedintohisface。Itwasaglowwithlight,astheseaitself,andtheeyeswereflashinginthestarshine。
  "Itstrikesmeasremarkable,tosaytheleast,thatyoushouldshowenthusiasm,"Iansweredcoldly。
  "Why,man,it’sliving!it’slife!"hecried。
  "Whichisacheapthingandwithoutvalue,"Iflunghiswordsathim。
  Helaughed,anditwasthefirsttimeIhadheardhonestmirthinhisvoice。
  "Ah,Icannotgetyoutounderstand,cannotdriveitintoyourhead,whatathingthislifeis。Ofcourselifeisvalueless,excepttoitself。
  AndIcantellyouthatmylifeisprettyvaluablejustnow——tomyself。
  Itisbeyondprice,whichyouwillacknowledgeisaterrificoverrating,butwhichIcannothelp,foritisthelifethatisinmethatmakestherating。"
  Heappearedwaitingforthewordswithwhichtoexpressthethoughtthatwasinhim,andfinallywenton。
  "Doyouknow,Iamfilledwithastrangeuplift;Ifeelasifalltimewereechoingthroughme,asthoughallpowersweremine。knowtruth,divinegoodfromevil,rightfromwrong。Myvisionisclearandfar。IcouldalmostbelieveinGod。But,"——andhisvoicechangedandthelightwentoutofhisface,——"whatisthisconditioninwhichIfindmyself?thisjoyofliving?thisexultationoflife?thisinspiration,Imaywellcallit?
  Itiswhatcomeswhenthereisnothingwrongwithone’sdigestion,whenhisstomachisintrimandhisappetitehasanedge,andallgoeswell。
  Itisthebribeforliving,thechampagneoftheblood,theeffervescenceoftheferment——thatmakessomementhinkholythoughts,andothermentoseeGodortocreatehimwhentheycannotseehim。Thatisall,thedrunkennessoflife,thestirringandcrawlingoftheyeast,thebabblingofthelifethatisinsanewithconsciousnessthatitisalive。And——
  bah!To—morrowIshallpayforitasthedrunkardpays。AndIshallknowthatmustdie,atseamostlikely,ceasecrawlingofmyselftobeallacrawlwiththecorruptionofthesea;tobefedupon,tobecarrion,toyieldupallthestrengthandmovementofmymusclesthatitmaybecomestrengthandmovementinfinandscaleandthegutsoffishes。Bah!Andbah!again。
  Thechampagneisalreadyflat。Thesparkleandbubblehasgoneoutanditisatastelessdrink。"
  Heleftmeassuddenlyashehadcome,springingtothedeckwiththeweightandsoftnessofatiger。TheGhostploughedonherway。I
  notedthegurglingforefootwasverylikeasnore,andasIlistenedtoittheeffectofWolfLarsen’sswiftrushfromsublimeexultationtodespairslowlyleftme。Thensomedeep—watersailor,fromthewaistoftheship,liftedarichtenorvoiceinthe"SongoftheTradeWind:""Oh,Iamthewindtheseamenlove——Iamsteady,andstrong,andtrue;Theyfollowmytrackbythecloudsabove,O’erthefathomlesstropicblue。******ThroughdaylightanddarkIfollowthebark,Ikeeplikeahoundonhertrail;I’mstrongestatnoon,yetunderthemoon,Istiffenthebuntofhersail。"TheSeaWolf:Chapter8CHAPTER8
  SometimesIthinkWolfLarsenmad,orhalf—madatleast,whatofhisstrangemoodsandvagaries。AtothertimesItakehimforagreatman,ageniuswhohasneverarrived。And,finally,Iamconvincedthatheistheperfecttypeoftheprimitiveman,bornathousandyearsorgenerationstoolateandananachronisminthisculminatingcenturyofcivilization。
  Heiscertainlyanindividualistofthemostpronouncedtype。Notonlythat,butheisverylonely。Thereisnocongenialitybetweenhimandtherestofthemenaboardship。Histremendousvirilityandmentalstrengthwallhimapart。Theyaremorelikechildrentohim,eventhehunters,andaschildrenhetreatsthem,descendingperforcetotheirlevelandplayingwiththemasamanplayswithpuppies。Orelseheprobesthemwiththecruelhandofavivisectionist,gropingaboutintheirmentalprocessesandexaminingtheirsoulsasthoughtoseeofwhatsoul—stuffismade。
  Ihaveseenhimascoreoftimes,attable,insultingthishunterorthat,withcoolandleveleyesand,withal,acertainairofinterest,ponderingtheiractionsorrepliesorpettyrageswithacuriosityalmostlaughabletomewhostoodonlookerandwhounderstood。Concerninghisownrages,Iamconvincedthattheyarenotreal,thattheyaresometimesexperiments,butthatinthemaintheyarethehabitsofaposeorattitudehehasseenfittotaketowardhisfellowmen。know,withthepossibleexceptionoftheincidentofthedeadmate,thatIhavenotseenhimreallyangry;nordoIwishevertoseehiminagenuinerage,whenalltheforceofhimiscalledintoplay。
  Whileonthequestionofvagaries,IshalltellwhatbefellThomasMugridgeinthecabin,andatthesametimecompleteanincidentuponwhichIhavealreadytouchedonceortwice。Thetwelveo’clockdinnerwasover,oneday,andIhadjustfinishedputtingthecabininorder,whenWolfLarsenandThomasMugridgedescendedthecompanionstairs。Thoughthecookhadacubby—holeofastateroomopeningofffromthecabin,inthecabinitselfhehadneverdaredtolingerortobeseen,andheflittedtoandfro,onceortwiceaday,likeatimidspectre。
  "Soyouknowhowtoplay`Nap,’"WolfLarsenwassayinginapleasedsortofvoice。"ImighthaveguessedanEnglishmanwouldknow。IlearneditmyselfinEnglishships。"
  ThomasMugridgewasbesidehimself,ablitheringimbecile,sopleasedwasheatchummingthuswiththecaptain。Thelittleairsheputonandthepainfulstrivingtoassumetheeasycarriageofamanborntoadignifiedplaceinlifewouldhavebeensickeninghadtheynotbeenludicrous。Hequiteignoredmypresence,thoughIcreditedhimwithbeingsimplyunabletoseeme。Hispale,wishy—washyeyeswereswimminglikelazysummerseas,thoughwhatblissfulvisionstheybeheldwerebeyondmyimagination。
  "Getthecards,Hump,"WolfLarsenordered,astheytookseatsatthetable。"Andbringoutthecigarsandthewhiskeyyou’llfindinmyberth。"
  IreturnedwiththearticlesintimetoheartheCockneyhintingbroadlythattherewasamysteryabouthim,thathemightbeagentleman’ssongonewrongorsomethingorother;also,thathewasaremittancemanandwaspaidtokeepawayfromEngland——"p’yed’ansomely,sir,"wasthewayheputit;"p’yed’ansomelytoslingmy’ookan’keepslingin’it。"
  Ihadbroughtthecustomaryliquorglasses,butWolfLarsenfrowned,shookhishead,andsignalledwithhishandsformetobringthetumblers。
  Thesehefilledtwo—thirdsfullwithundilutedwhiskey——"agentleman’sdrink,"quothThomasMugridge,——andtheyclinkedtheirglassestothegloriousgameof"Nap,"lightedcigars,andfelltoshufflinganddealingthecards。
  Theyplayedformoney。Theyincreasedtheamountsofthebets。Theydrankwhiskey,theydrankitneat,andIfetchedmore。IdonotknowwhetherWolfLarsencheatedornot,——athinghewasthoroughlycapableofdoing,——buthewonsteadily。Thecookmaderepeatedjourneystohisbunkformoney。Eachtimeheperformedthejourneywithgreaterswagger,butheneverbroughtmorethanafewdollarsatatime。Hegrewmaudlin,familiar,couldhardlyseethecardsorsitupright。Asapreliminarytoanotherjourneytohisbunk,hehookedWolfLarsen’sbuttonholewithagreasyforefingerandvacuouslyproclaimedandreiterated,"Igotmoney。Igotmoney,Itellyer,an’I’magentleman’sson。"
  WolfLarsenwasunaffectedbythedrink,yethedrankglassforglass,andifanythinghisglasseswerefuller。Therewasnochangeinhim。Hedidnotappearevenamusedattheother’santics。
  Intheend,withloudprotestationsthathecouldloselikeagentleman,thecook’slastmoneywasstakedonthegameandlost。Whereuponheleanedhisheadonhishandsandwept。WolfLarsenlookedcuriouslyathim,asthoughabouttoprobeandvivisecthim,thenchangedhismind,asfromtheforegoneconclusionthattherewasnothingtheretoprobe。
  "Hump,"hesaidtome,elaboratelypolite,"kindlytakeMr。Mugridge’sarmandhelphimupondeck。Heisnotfeelingverywell。"
  "AndtellJohnsontodousehimwithafewbucketsofsaltwater,"headded,inalowertoneformyearalone。
  IleftMr。Mugridgeondeck,inthehandsofacoupleofgrinningsailorswhohadbeentoldoffforthepurpose。Mr。Mugridgewassleepilysplutteringthathewasagentleman’sson。ButasdescendedthecompanionstairstoclearthetableIheardhimshriekasthefirstbucketofwaterstruckhim。
  WolfLarsenwascountinghiswinnings。
  "Onehundredandeighty—fivedollarseven,"hesaidaloud。"JustasIthought。Thebeggarcameaboardwithoutacent。"
  "Andwhatyouhavewonismine,sir,"Isaidboldly。
  Hefavoredmewithaquizzicalsmile。"Hump,Ihavestudiedsomegrammarinmytime,andIthinkyourtensesaretangled。`Wasmine,’youshouldhavesaid,not`ismine。’"
  "Itisaquestion,notofgrammar,butofethics,"Ianswered。
  Itwaspossiblyaminutebeforehespoke。
  "D’yeknow,Hump,"hesaid,withaslowseriousnesswhichhadinitanindefinablestrainofsadness,"thatthisisthefirsttimehaveheardtheword`ethics’inthemouthofaman。YouandIaretheonlymenonthisshipwhoknowitsmeaning。"
  "Atonetimeinmylife,"hecontinued,afteranotherpause,"dreamedthatImightsomedaytalkwithmenwhousedsuchlanguage,thatImightliftmyselfoutoftheplaceinlifeinwhichIhadbeenborn,andholdconversationandminglewithmenwhotalkedaboutjustsuchthingsasethics。
  AndthisisthefirsttimeIhaveeverheardthewordpronounced。Whichisallbytheway,foryouarewrong。Itisaquestion,neitherofgrammarnorethics,butoffact。"
  "Iunderstand,"Isaid。"Thefactisthatyouhavethemoney。"
  Hisfacebrightened。Heseemedpleasedatmyperspicacity。
  "Butitisavoidingtherealquestion,"Icontinued,"whichisoneofright。"
  "Ah,"heremarked,withawrypuckerofhismouth,"Iseeyoustillbelieveinsuchthingsasrightandwrong。"
  "Butdon’tyou?——atall?"Idemanded。
  "Nottheleastbit。Mightisright,andthatisallthereistoit。
  Weaknessiswrong。Whichisaverypoorwayofsayingthatitisgoodforoneselftobestrong,andevilforoneselftobeweak——orbetteryet,itispleasurabletobestrong,becauseoftheprofits;painfultobeweak,becauseofthepenalties。Justnowthepossessionofthismoneyisapleasurablething。Itisgoodforonetopossessit。Beingabletopossessit,Iwrongmyselfandthelifethatisinmeifgiveittoyouandforegothepleasureofpossessingit。"
  "Butyouwrongmebywithholdingit,"Iobjected。
  "Notatall。Onemancannotwronganotherman。Hecanonlywronghimself。
  AsIseeit,IdowrongalwayswhenIconsidertheinterestsofothers。
  Don’tyousee?Howcantwoparticlesoftheyeastwrongeachotherbystrivingtodevoureachother?Itistheirinbornheritagetostrivetodevour,andtostrivenottobedevoured。Whentheydepartfromthistheysin。"
  "Thenyoudon’tbelieveinaltruism?"Iasked。
  Hereceivedthewordasifithadafamiliarring,thoughhepondereditthoughtfully。"Letmesee,itmeanssomethingaboutco[[Yacute]]peration,doesn’tit?"
  "Well,inawaytherehascometobeasortofconnection,"answered,unsurprisedbythistimeatsuchgapsinhisvocabulary,which,likehisknowledge,wastheacquirementofaself—read,self—educatedman,whomnoonehaddirectedinhisstudies,andwhohadthoughtmuchandtalkedlittleornotatall。"Analtruisticactisanactperformedforthewelfareofothers。Itisunselfish,asopposedtoanactperformedforself,whichisselfish。"
  Henoddedhishead。"Oh,yes,Irememberitnow。IranacrossitinSpencer。"
  "Spencer!"Icried。"Haveyoureadhim?"
  "Notverymuch,"washisconfession。"Iunderstoodquiteagooddealof`FirstPrinciples,’buthis`Biology’tookthewindoutofmysails,andhis`Psychology’leftmebuttingaroundinthedoldrumsformanyaday。Ihonestlycouldnotunderstandwhathewasdrivingat。Iputitdowntomentaldeficiencyonmypart,butsincethenIhavedecidedthatitwasforwantofpreparation。Ihadnoproperbasis。OnlySpencerandmyselfknowhowhardIhammered。ButIdidgetsomethingoutofhis`DataofEthics。’
  There’swhereIranacross`altruism,’andIremembernowhowitwasused。"
  Iwonderedwhatthismancouldhavegotfromsuchawork。SpencerI
  rememberedenoughtoknowthataltruismwasimperativetohisidealofhighestconduct。WolfLarsen,evidently,hadsiftedthegreatphilosopher’steachings,rejectingandselectingaccordingtohisneedsanddesires。
  "Whatelsedidyourunacross?"Iasked。
  Hisbrowsdrewinslightlywiththementaleffortofsuitablyphrasingthoughtswhichhehadneverbeforeputintospeech。Ifeltanelationofspirit。Iwasgropingintohissoul—stuffashemadeapracticeofgropinginthesoul—stuffofothers。Iwasexploringvirginterritory。Astrange,aterriblystrange,regionwasunrollingitselfbeforemyeyes。
  "Inasfewwordsaspossible,"hebegan,"Spencerputsitsomethinglikethis:First,amanmustactforhisownbenefit——todothisistobemoralandgood。Next,hemustactforthebenefitofhischildren。Andthird,hemustactforthebenefitofhisrace。"
  "Andthehighest,finest,rightconduct,"Iinterjected,"isthatactwhichbenefitsatthesametimetheman,hischildren,andhisrace。"
  "Iwouldn’tstandforthat,"hereplied。"Couldn’tseethenecessityforit,northecommonsense。Icutouttheraceandthechildren。Iwouldsacrificenothingforthem。It’sjustsomuchslushandsentiment,andyoumustseeityourself,atleastforonewhodoesnotbelieveineternallife。Withimmortalitybeforeme,altruismwouldbeapayingbusinessproposition。
  Imightelevatemysoultoallkindsofaltitudes。Butwithnothingeternalbeforemebutdeath,givenforabriefspellthisyeastycrawlingandsquirmingwhichiscalledlife,why,itwouldbeimmoralformetoperformanyactthatwasasacrifice。Anysacrificethatmakesmeloseonecrawlorsquirmisfoolish,——andnotonlyfoolish,foritisawrongagainstmyselfandawickedthing。ImustnotloseonecrawlorsquirmifIamtogetthemostoutoftheferment。NorwilltheeternalmovelessnessthatiscomingtomebemadeeasierorharderbythesacrificesorselfishnessesofthetimewhenIwasyeastyandacrawl。"
  "Thenyouareanindividualist,amaterialist,and,logically,ahedonist。"
  "Bigwords,"hesmiled。"Butwhatisahedonist?"
  HenoddedagreementwhenIhadgiventhedefinition。
  "Andyouarealso,"Icontinued,"amanonecouldnottrustintheleastthingwhereitwaspossibleforaselfishinteresttointervene?"
  "Nowyou’rebeginningtounderstand,"hesaid,brightening。
  "Youareamanutterlywithoutwhattheworldcallsmorals?"
  "That’sit。"
  "Amanofwhomtobealwaysafraid——"
  "That’sthewaytoputit。"
  "Asoneisafraidofasnake,oratiger,orashark?"
  "Nowyouknowme,"hesaid。"AndyouknowmeasIamgenerallyknown。
  Othermencallme`Wolf。’"
  "Youareasortofmonster,"Iaddedaudaciously,"aCalibanwhohasponderedSetebos,andwhoactsasyouact,inidlemoments,bywhimandfancy。"
  Hisbrowcloudedattheallusion。Hedidnotunderstand,andquicklylearnedthathedidnotknowthepoem。