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第23章

  "Yes,hewillhavesomebeef—tea,"shesaidquietly,lookingupatme。
  "Untilhishearinggoesweshallbeabletocommunicatewithhim。Andafterthat——"
  Shelookedatmequeerly。Isawherlipstremblingandthetearsswimmingupinhereyes。SheswayedtowardmeandIcaughtherinmyarms。
  "Oh,Humphrey,"shesobbed,"whenwillitallend?Iamsotired,sotired。"
  Sheburiedherheadonmyshoulder,herfrailformshakenwithastormofweeping。Shewaslikeafeatherinmyarms,soslender,soethereal。
  "Shehasbrokendownatlast,"Ithought。"WhatcanIdowithoutherhelp?"
  ButIsoothedandcomfortedher,tillshepulledherselfbravelytogetherandrecuperatedmentallyasquicklyasshewaswonttodophysically。
  "Ioughttobeashamedofmyself,"shesaid。Thenadded,withthewhimsicalsmileIadored,"butIamonlyonesmallwoman。"
  Thatphrase,the"onesmallwoman,"startledmelikeanelectricshock。
  Itwasmyownphrase,mypet,secretphrase,mylovephraseforher。
  "Wheredidyougetthatphrase?"Idemanded,withanabruptnessthatinturnstartledher。
  "Whatphrase?"sheasked。
  "Onesmallwoman。"
  "Isityours?"sheasked。
  "Yes,"Ianswered,"mine。Imadeit。"
  "Thenyoumusthavetalkedinyoursleep,"shesmiled。
  Thedancing,tremulouslightwasinhereyes。Mine,Iknew,werespeakingbeyondthewillofmyspeech。Ileanedtowardher。WithoutvolitionIleanedtowardher,asatreeisswayedbythewind。Ah,wewereveryclosetogetherinthatmoment。Butsheshookherhead,asonemightshakeoffsleeporadream,saying:
  "Ihaveknownitallmylife。Itwasmyfather’snameformymother。"
  "Itismyphrase,too,"Isaidstubbornly。
  "Foryourmother?"
  "No,"Ianswered,andshequestionednofurther,thoughIcouldhaveswornhereyesretainedforsometimeamocking,teasingexpression。
  Withtheforemastin,theworknowwentonapace。AlmostbeforeIknewit,andwithoutoneserioushitch,Ihadthemainmaststepped。Aderrick—boom,riggedtotheforemast,hadaccomplishedthis;andseveraldaysmorefoundallstaysandshroudsinplace,andeverythingsetuptaut。Topsailswouldbeanuisanceandadangerforacrewoftwo,soIheavedthetopmastsondeckandlashedthemfast。
  Severalmoredayswereconsumedinfinishingthesailsandputtingthemon。Therewereonlythree——thejib,foresail,andmainsail;and,patched,shortened,anddistorted,theywerearidiculouslyill—fittingsuitforsotrimacraftastheGhost。
  "Butthey’llwork!"Maudcriedjubilantly。"We’llmakethemwork,andtrustourlivestothem!"
  Certainly,amongmymanynewtrades,Ishoneleastasasail—maker。
  Icouldsailthembetterthanmakethem,andIhadnodoubtofmypowertobringtheschoonertosomenorthernportofJapan。Infact,Ihadcrammednavigationfromtext—booksaboard;andbesides,therewasWolfLarsen’sstar—scale,sosimpleadevicethatachildcouldworkit。
  Asforitsinventor,beyondanincreasingdeafnessandthemovementofthelipsgrowingfainterandfainter,therehadbeenlittlechangeinhisconditionforaweek。Butonthedaywefinishedbendingtheschooner’ssails,heheardhislast,andthelastmovementofhislipsdiedaway——
  butnotbeforeIhadaskedhim,"Areyouallthere?"andthelipshadanswered,"Yes。"
  Thelastlinewasdown。Somewherewithinthattombofthefleshstilldweltthesouloftheman。Walledbythelivingclay,thatfierceintelligencewehadknownburnedon;butitburnedoninsilenceanddarkness。Anditwasdisembodied。Tothatintelligencetherecouldbenoobjectiveknowledgeofabody。Itknewnobody。Theveryworldwasnot。Itknewonlyitselfandthevastnessandprofundityofthequietandthedark。TheSeaWolf:Chapter39CHAPTER39
  Thedaycameforourdeparture。TherewasnolongeranythingtodetainusonEndeavorIsland。TheGhost’sstumpymastswereinplace,hercrazysailsbent。Allmyhandiworkwasstrong,noneofitbeautiful;butIknewthatitwouldwork,andIfeltmyselfamanofpowerasIlookedatit。
  "Ididit!Ididit!WithmyownhandsIdidit!"Iwantedtocryaloud。
  ButMaudandIhadawayofvoicingeachother’sthoughts,andshesaid,aswepreparedtohoistthemainsail:
  "Tothink,Humphrey,youdiditallwithyourownhands!"
  "Butthereweretwootherhands,"Ianswered。"Twosmallhands,anddon’tsaythatwasaphrase,also,ofyourfather。"
  Shelaughedandshookherhead,andheldherhandsupforinspection。
  "Icannevergetthemcleanagain,"shewailed,"norsoftentheweather—beat。"
  "Thendirtandweather—beatshallbeyourguerdonofhonor,"said,holdingtheminmine;and,spiteofmyresolutions,Iwouldhavekissedthetwodearhandshadshenotswiftlywithdrawnthem。
  Ourcomradeshipwasbecomingtremulous。Ihadmasteredmylovelongandwell,butnowitwasmasteringme。Wilfullyhaditdisobeyedandwonmyeyestospeech,andnowitwaswinningmytongue——ay,andmylips,fortheyweremadthismomenttokissthetwosmallhandswhichhadtoiledsofaithfullyandhard。AndI,too,wasmad。Therewasacryinmybeinglikebuglescallingmetoher。AndtherewasawindblowinguponmewhichIcouldnotresist,swayingtheverybodyofmetillIleanedtowardher,allunconsciousthatIleaned。Andsheknewit。Shecouldnotbutknowitassheswiftlydrewawayherhands,andyetcouldnotforbearonequick,searchinglookbeforesheturnedawayhereyes。
  Bymeansofdeck—tacklesIhadarrangedtocarrythehalyardsforwardtothewindlass;andnowIhoistedthemainsail,peakandthroat,atthesametime。Itwasaclumsyway,butitdidnottakelong,andsoontheforesailaswellwasupandfluttering。
  "Wecannevergetthatanchorupinthisnarrowplace,onceithasleftthebottom,"Isaid。"Weshouldbeontherocksfirst。"
  "Whatcanyoudo?"sheasked。
  "Slipit,"wasmyanswer。"AndwhenIdo,youmustdoyourfirstworkonthewindlass。Ishallhavetorunatoncetothewheel,andatthesametimeyoumustbehoistingthejib。"
  Thisman渦vreofgettingunderwayIhadstudiedandworkedoutascoreoftimes;and,withthejib—halyardtothewindlass,IknewMaudwascapableofhoistingthatmostnecessarysail。Abriskwindwasblowingintothecove,andthoughthewaterwascalm,rapidworkwasrequiredtogetussafelyout。
  WhenIknockedtheshackle—boltloose,thechainroaredoutthroughthehawse—holeandintothesea。Iracedaft,puttingthewheelup。TheGhostseemedtostartintolifeassheheeledtothefirstfillofhersails。Thejibwasrising。Asitfilled,theGhost’sbowswungoffandIhadtoputthewheeldownafewspokesandsteadyher。
  Ihaddevisedanautomaticjib—sheetwhichpassedthejibacrossofitself,sotherewasnoneedforMaudtoattendtothat;butshewasstillhoistingthejibwhenIputthewheelharddown。Itwasamomentofanxiety,fortheGhostwasrushingdirectlyuponthebeach,astone’sthrowdistant。Butsheswungobedientlyonherheelintothewind。Therewasagreatflutteringandflappingofcanvasandreef—points,mostwelcometomyears,thenshefilledawayontheothertack。
  Maudhadfinishedhertaskandcomeaft,whereshestoodbesideme,asmallcapperchedonherwind—blownhair,hercheeksflushedfromexertion,hereyeswideandbrightwiththeexcitement,hernostrilsquiveringtotherushandbiteofthefreshsaltair。Herbrowneyeswerelikeastartleddeer’s。Therewasawild,keenlookinthemIhadneverseenbefore,andherlipspartedandherbreathsuspendedastheGhost,charginguponthewallofrockattheentrancetotheinnercove,sweptintothewindandfilledawayintosafewater。
  Myfirstmate’sberthonthesealinggroundsstoodmeingoodstead,andIclearedtheinnercoveandlaidalongtackalongtheshoreoftheoutercove。Onceagainabout,andtheGhostheadedouttoopensea。
  Shehadnowcaughtthebosom—breathingoftheocean,andwasherselfa—breathwiththerhythmofitasshesmoothlymountedandslippeddowneachbroad—backedwave。Thedayhadbeendullandovercast,butthesunnowburstthroughtheclouds,awelcomeomen,andshoneuponthecurvingbeachwheretogetherwehaddaredthelordsoftheharemandslaintheholluschickie。AllEndeavorIslandbrightenedunderthesun。Eventhegrimsouthwesternpromontoryshowedlessgrim,andhereandthere,wherethesea—spraywetitssurface,highlightsflashedanddazzledinthesun。
  "Ishallalwaysthinkofitwithpride,"IsaidtoMaud。
  Shethrewherheadbackinaqueenlyway,butsaid,"Dear,dearEndeavorIsland!Ishallalwaysloveit。"
  "AndI,"Isaidquickly。
  Itseemedoureyesmustmeetinagreatunderstanding,andyet,loath,theystruggledawayanddidnotmeet。
  TherewasasilenceImightalmostcallawkward,tillIbrokeit,saying:
  "Seethoseblackcloudstowindward。Youremember,Itoldyoulastnightthebarometerwasfalling。"
  "Andthesunisgone,"shesaid,hereyesstillfixeduponourisland,wherewehadprovedourmasteryovermatterandattainedtothetruestcomradeshipthatmayfalltomanandwoman。
  "Andit’sslackoffthesheetsforJapan!"Icriedgayly。"Afairwindandaflowingsheet,youknow,orhoweveritgoes。"
  Lashingthewheel,Iranforward,easedtheforeandmainsheets,tookinontheboom—tackles,andtrimmedeverythingforthequarteringbreezewhichwasours。Itwasafreshbreeze,veryfresh,butIresolvedtorunaslongasIdared。Unfortunately,whenrunningfree,itisimpossibletolashthewheel,soIfacedanall—nightwatch。Maudinsistedonrelievingme,butprovedthatshehadnotthestrengthtosteerinaheavysea,evenifshecouldhavegainedthewisdomonsuchshortnotice。Sheappearedquiteheart—brokenoverthediscovery,butrecoveredherspiritsbycoilingdowntacklesandhalyardsandallstrayropes。Thenthereweremealstobecookedinthegalley,bedstomake,WolfLarsentobeattendedupon,andshefinishedthedaywithagrandhouse—cleaningattackuponthecabinandsteerage。
  AllnightIsteered,withoutrelief,thewindslowlyandsteadilyincreasingandthesearising。AtfiveinthemorningMaudbroughtmehotcoffeeandbiscuitsshehadbaked,andatsevenasubstantialandpipinghotbreakfastputnewlifeintome。
  Throughouttheday,andasslowlyandsteadilyasever,thewindincreased。
  Itimpressedonewithitssullendeterminationtoblow,andblowharder,andkeeponblowing。AndstilltheGhostfoamedalong,racingoffthemilestillIwascertainshewasmakingatleastelevenknots。Itwastoogoodtolose,butbynightfallIwasexhausted。Thoughinsplendidphysicaltrim,athirty—six—hourtrickatthewheelwasthelimitofmyendurance。Besides,Maudbeggedmetoheaveto,andIknew,ifthewindandseaincreasedatthesamerateduringthenight,thatitwouldsoonbeimpossibletoheaveto。So,astwilightdeepened,gladlyandatthesametimereluctantly,IbroughttheGhostuponthewind。
  ButIhadnotreckoneduponthecolossaltaskthereefingofthreesailsmeantforoneman。WhilerunningawayfromthewindIhadnotappreciateditsforce,butwhenweceasedtorunIlearnedtomysorrow,andwell—nightomydespair,howfiercelyitwasreallyblowing。Thewindbalkedmyeveryeffort,rippingthecanvasoutofmyhandsandinaninstantundoingwhatIhadgainedbytenminutesofsevereststruggle。Ateighto’clockIhadsucceededonlyinputtingthesecondreefintotheforesail。Ateleveno’clockIwasnofartheralong。Blooddrippedfromeveryfingerend,whilethenailswerebrokentothequick。FrompainandsheerexhaustionIweptinthedarkness,secretly,sothatMaudshouldnotknow。
  Then,indesperation,Iabandonedtheattempttoreefthemainsailandresolvedtotrytheexperimentofheavingtoundertheclose—reefedforesail。
  Threehoursmorewererequiredtogasketthemainsailandjib,andattwointhemorning,nearlydead,thelifealmostbuffetedandworkedoutofme,Ihadbarelysufficientconsciousnesstoknowtheexperimentwasasuccess。Theclose—reefedforesailworked。TheGhostclungonclosetothewindandbetrayednoinclinationtofalloffbroadsidetothetrough。
  Iwasfamished,butMaudtriedvainlytogetmetoeat。dozedwithmymouthfulloffood。Iwouldfallasleepintheactofcarryingfoodtomymouthandwakenintormenttofindtheactyetuncompleted。SosleepilyhelplesswasIthatshewascompelledtoholdmeinmychairtopreventmybeingflungtothefloorbytheviolentpitchingoftheschooner。
  OfthepassagefromthegalleytothecabinIknewnothing。Itwasasleep—walkerMaudguidedandsupported。Infact,IwasawareofnothingtillIawoke,howlongafterIcouldnotimagine,inmybunkwithmybootsoff。Itwasdark。Iwasstiffandlame,andcriedoutwithpainwhenthebed—clothestouchedmypoorfinger—ends。
  Morninghadevidentlynotcome,soIclosedmyeyesandwenttosleepagain。Ididnotknowit,butIhadslepttheclockaroundanditwasnightagain。
  OncemoreIwoke,troubledbecauseIcouldsleepnobetter。struckamatchandlookedatmywatch。Itmarkedmidnight。AndIhadnotleftthedeckuntilthree!IshouldhavebeenpuzzledhadInotguessedthesolution。
  NowonderIwassleepingbrokenly。Ihadslepttwenty—onehours。IlistenedforawhiletothebehavioroftheGhost,tothepoundingoftheseasandthemuffledroarofthewindondeck,andthenturnedoveronmysideandsleptpeacefullyuntilmorning。
  WhenIaroseatsevenIsawnosignofMaudandconcludedshewasinthegalleypreparingbreakfast。OndeckIfoundtheGhostdoingsplendidlyunderherpatchofcanvas。Butinthegalley,thoughafirewasburningandwaterboiling,IfoundnoMaud。
  Idiscoveredherinthesteerage,byWolfLarsen’sbunk。lookedathim,themanwhohadbeenhurleddownfromthetopmostpitchoflifetobeburiedaliveandbeworsethandead。Thereseemedarelaxationofhisexpressionlessfacewhichwasnew。MaudlookedatmeandIunderstood。
  "Hislifeflickeredoutinthestorm,"Isaid。
  "Buthestilllives,"sheanswered,infinitefaithinhervoice。
  "Hehadtoogreatstrength。"
  "Yes,"shesaid,"butnowitnolongershackleshim。Heisafreespirit。"
  "Heisafreespiritsurely,"Ianswered;and,takingherhand,Iledherondeck。
  Thestormbrokethatnight,whichistosaythatitdiminishedasslowlyasithadarisen。Afterbreakfastnextmorning,whenIhadhoistedWolfLarsen’sbodyondeckreadyforburial,itwasstillblowingheavilyandalargeseawasrunning。Thedeckwascontinuallyawashwiththeseawhichcameinboardovertherailandthroughthescuppers。Thewindsmotetheschoonerwithasuddengust,andsheheeledovertillherleerailwasburied,theroarinherriggingrisinginpitchtoashriek。WestoodinthewatertoourkneesasIbaredmyhead。
  "Irememberonlyonepartoftheservice,"Isaid,"andthatis,`Andthebodyshallbecastintothesea。’"
  Maudlookedatme,surprisedandshocked;butthespiritofsomethingIhadseenbeforewasstronguponme,impellingmetogiveservicetoWolfLarsenasWolfLarsenhadoncegivenservicetoanotherman。Iliftedtheendofthehatchcover,andthecanvas—shroudedbodyslippedfeetfirstintothesea。Theweightofirondraggeditdown。Itwasgone。
  "Good—by,Lucifer,proudspirit,"Maudwhispered,solowthatitwasdrownedbytheshoutingofthewind;butIsawthemovementofherlipsandknew。
  Asweclungtotheleerailandworkedourwayaft,Ihappenedtoglancetoleeward。TheGhost,atthemoment,wasuptossedonasea,andIcaughtaclearviewofasmallsteamshiptwoorthreemilesaway,rollingandpitching,headontothesea,asitsteamedtowardus。Itwaspaintedblack,andfromthetalkofthehuntersoftheirpoachingexploitsIrecognizeditasaUnitedStatesrevenuecutter。IpointeditouttoMaudandhurriedlyledherafttothesafetyofthepoop。
  Istartedtorushbelowtotheflag—locker,thenrememberedthatinriggingtheGhostIhadforgottentomakeprovisionforaflag—halyard。
  "Weneednodistresssignal,"Maudsaid。"Theyhaveonlytoseeus。"
  "Wearesaved,"Isaid,soberlyandsolemnly。Andthen,inanexuberanceofjoy,"Ihardlyknowwhethertobegladornot。"
  Ilookedather。Oureyeswerenotloathtomeet。Weleanedtowardeachother,andbeforeIknewitmyarmswereabouther。
  "NeedI?"Iasked。
  Andsheanswered,"Thereisnoneed,thoughthetellingofitwouldbesweet,sosweet。"
  Herlipsmetthepressofmine,and,bywhatstrangetrickoftheimaginationIknownot,thesceneinthecabinoftheGhostflasheduponme,whenshehadpressedherfingerslightlyonmylipsandsaid,"Hush,hush。"
  "Mywoman,myonesmallwoman,"Isaid,myfreehandpettinghershoulderinthewayallloversknowthoughneverlearninschool。
  "Myman,"shesaid,lookingatmeforaninstantwithtremulouslidswhichfluttereddownandveiledhereyesasshesnuggledherheadagainstmybreastwithahappylittlesigh。
  Ilookedtowardthecutter。Itwasveryclose。Aboatwasbeinglowered。
  "Onekiss,dearlove,"Iwhispered。"Onekissmorebeforetheycome。"
  "Andrescueusfromourselves,"shecompleted,withamostadorablesmile,whimsicalasIhadneverseenit,foritwaswhimsicalwithlove。