Shetookitinwithherpresentoddmixtureofthereceptiveandthederisive。"Arrangedwhat?"
"Oh,askHER!"
"IwouldifIcouldfindher!"Afterwhich,foramoment,myinterlocutressagainconsidered。"ButIthoughtitwasjustyourcontentionthatSHEdoesn’tshine。Ifit’sLadyJohn’sperfectrepairthatputsthatsortofthingoutofthequestion,yourimage,itseemstome,breaksdown。"
Itdidalittle,Isaw,butIgaveitatiltup。"Notatall。It’sacaseofshiningasBrissendenshines。"IwonderedifImightgofurther——thenriskedit。"Bysacrifice。"
IperceivedatoncethatIneedn’tfear:herconsciencewastoogood——shewasonlyamused。"Sacrifice,formercy’ssake,ofwhat?"
"Well——formercy’ssake——ofhistime。"
"Histime?"Shestared。"Hasn’theallthetimehewants?"
"Mydearlady,"Ismiled,"hehasn’tallthetimeYOUwant!"
ButsheevidentlyhadnotaglimmeringofwhatImeant。"Don’tImakethingsofanease,don’tImakelifeofacharm,forhim?"
I’mafraidIlaughedout。"That’sperhapsexactlyit!It’swhatGilbertLongdoesforHISvictim——makesthings,makeslife,ofaneaseandacharm。"
Shestoppedyetagain,reallywonderingatmenow。"Thenit’sthewoman,simply,who’shappiest?"
"BecauseBrissenden’sthemanwhois?Precisely!"
Onwhichforaminute,withouthergoingon,welookedateachother。
"DoyoureallymeanthatifyouonlyknewMEasIam,itwouldcometoyouinthesamewaytohuntformyconfederate?Imeanifheweren’tmadeobvious,youknow,byhisbeingmyhusband。"
Iturnedthisover。"Ifyouwereonlyinflirtation——asyouremindedmejustnowthatyou’renot?Surely!"Ideclared。"Ishouldarriveathim,perfectly,afteralleliminations,ontheprincipleoflookingforthegreatesthappiness——"
"Ofthesmallestnumber?Well,hemaybeasmallnumber,"sheindulgentlysighed,"buthe’swhollycontent!Lookathimnowthere,"sheaddedthenextmoment,"andjudge。"Wehadresumedourwalkandturnedthecornerofthehouse,amovementthatbroughtusintoviewofacouplejustroundtheangleoftheterrace,acouplewho,likeourselves,musthavepausedinasociablestroll。Thelady,withherbacktous,leanedalittleonthebalustradeandlookedatthegardens;thegentlemanclosetoher,withthesamesupport,offeredusthefaceofGuyBrissenden,asrecognisableatadistanceasthenumberedcardofa"turn"——theblackfigureuponwhite——atamusic—hall。Onseeingushesaidawordtohiscompanion,whoquicklyjerkedround。Thenhiswifeexclaimedtome——onlywithmoresharpness——asshehadexclaimedatMme。deDreuil:"Byallthat’slovely——MayServer!"
Itookit,onthespot,forakindof"Eureka!"butwithoutcatchingmyfriend’sidea。Iwasonlyawareatfirstthatthisidealeftmeasunconvincedaswhentheotherpossibilitieshadpassedbeforeus。Wasn’titsimplytheresultofthislady’sbeingtheonlyonewehadhappenednottoeliminate?
Shehadnotevenoccurredtous。Shewasprettyenoughperhapsforanymagic,butshehadn’ttheothersigns。Ididn’tbelieve,somehow——certainlynotonsuchshortnotice——eitherinherhappinessorinherflatness。Therewasavaguesuggestion,ofasort,inourhavingfoundhertherewithBrissenden:
therewouldhavebeenapertinence,toourcuriosity,oratleasttomine,inthisjuxtapositionofthetwopersonswhopaid,asIhadamusedmyselfwithcallingit,soheroically;yetIhadonlytohaveitmarkedforme(toseethem,thatis,sidebyside,)inordertofeelhowlittle——atanyratesuperficially——thegraceful,natural,charmingwomanrangedherselfwiththesuperannuatedyouth。
Shehadsaidawordtohimatsightofus,inanswertohisown,andinaminuteortwotheyhadmetus。Thishadgivenmetimeformorethanonereflection。IthadalsogivenMrs。Brissendentimetoinsisttomeonheridentification,whichIcouldseeshewouldbemuchlessquicktodropthanintheformercases。"Wehaveher,"shemurmured;"wehaveher;
it’sSHE!"Itwasbyherinsistanceinfactthatmythoughtwasquickened。
Itevenfeltakindofchill——anoddrevulsion——atthetouchofhereagerness。
Singularperhapsthatonlythen——yetquitecertainlythen——thecuriositytowhichIhadsofreelysurrenderedmyselfbegantostrikemeaswantingintaste。ItwasreflectedinMrs。Brissendenquitebymyfault,andI
can’tsayjustwhatcauseforshame,aftersomuchtalkofoursearchandourscent,Ifoundinourawakenedandconfirmedkeenness。Whyintheworldhadn’tIfounditbefore?Myscruple,inshort,wasathingoftheinstant;
itwasinapositiveflashthattheamusingquestionwasstampedformeasnoneofmybusiness。OneofthereflectionsIhavejustmentionedwasthatIhadnothadahappyhandinmakingitsocompletelyMrs。Brissenden’s。
Anotherwas,however,thatnothing,fortunately,thathadhappenedbetweenusreallysignified。Forwhathadsosuddenlyovertakenmewastheconsciousnessofthisanomaly:thatIwasatthesametimeasdisgustedasifIhadexposedMrs。ServerandabsolutelyconvincedthatIhadyetNOTexposedher。
While,aftertheothershadgreetedusandwestoodinvaguetalk,I
caughtafreshtheeffectoftheirjuxtaposition,Igrasped,withaprivatejoythatwasquiteextravagant——assobeyondtheneededmark——atthereassuranceitoffered。Thisreassurancesprangstraightfromaspecialsource。Brissenden’ssecretwassoawareofitselfastobealwaysonthedefensive。Shyandsuspicious,itwasasmuchonthedefensiveatpresentasIhadfeltittobe——sofarasIwasconcerned——thenightbefore。WhatwasthereaccordinglyinMrs。Server——frankandfragrantinthemorningair——tocorrespondtoanysuchconsciousness?Nothingwhatever——notasymptom。Whateversecretsshemighthavehad,shehadnotTHATone;shewasnotinthesamebox;
thesacredfount,inher,wasnotthreatenedwithexhaustion。Weallsoonre—enteredthehousetogether,butMrs。Brissenden,duringthefewminutesthatfollowed,managedtopossessherselfofthesubjectofherdenunciation。
SheputmeoffwithGuy,andIcouldn’thelpfeelingitasasignofherconcentration。ShewarmedtothequestionjustasIhadthrownitover;
andIaskedmyselfratherruefullywhatonearthIhadbeenthinkingof。
Ihadn’tintheleasthaditinmindto"compromise"anindividual;butanindividualwouldbecompromisedifIdidn’tnowtakecare。
Chapter4
IHAVEsaidthatIdidmanythingsonthiswonderfulday,butperhapsthesimplestwaytodescribetherestofthemisasasustainedattempttoavertthatdisaster。Isucceeded,byvigilance,inpreventingmylatecompanionfromcarryingMrs。Serveroff;Ihadnowishtoseeherstudied——byanyonebutmyselfatleast——inthelightofmytheory。IfeltbythistimethatIunderstoodmytheory,butIwasnotobligedtobelievethatMrs。
Brissendendid。IamafraidImustfranklyconfessthatIcalleddeceptiontomyaid;toseparatethetwoladiesIgavethemoreinitiatedalookinwhichIinvitedhertoreadvolumes。Thislook,orratherthelookshereturned,comesbacktomeasthefirstnoteofatolerablytight,tenselittledrama,alittledramaofwhichourremaininghoursatNewmarchwerethealltooamplestage。Sheunderstoodme,asImeant,thatshehadbetterleavemetogetatthetruth——owingmesomeobligation,asshedid,forsomuchofitasIhadalreadycommunicated。Thisstepwasofcourseatacitpledgethatsheshouldhavetherestfrommelateron。Iknewofsomepicturesinoneoftheroomsthathadnotbeenlightedthepreviousevening,andImadethesemypretextfortheeffectIdesired。IaskedMrs。Serverifshewouldn’tcomeandseethemwithme,admittingatthesametimethatIcouldscarceexpecthertoforgivemeformyshareintheinvasionofthequietcornerinwhichpoorBrisshadevidentlymanagedsotointeresther。
"Oh,yes,"sherepliedaswewentourway,"heHADmanagedtointerestme。Isn’thecuriouslyinteresting?ButIhadn’t,"shecontinuedonmybeingtoostruckwithherquestionforanimmediateanswer——"Ihadn’tmanagedtointerestHIM。Ofcourseyouknowwhy!"shelaughed。"NooneinterestshimbutLadyJohn,andhecouldthinkofnothing,whileIkepthimthere,butofhowsoonhecouldreturntoher。"
Theseremarks——ofwhichIgiveratherthesensethantheform,fortheywerealittlescatteredandtroubled,andIhelpedthemoutandpiecedthemtogether——theseremarkshadforme,Iwastofind,unexpectedsuggestions,notallofwhichwasIpreparedonthespottotakeup。"AndisLadyJohninterestedinourfriend?"
"Not,Isuppose,givenhersituation,somuchashewouldperhapsdesire。
Youdon’tknowwhathersituationIS?"shewentonwhileIdoubtlessappearedtobesunkininnocence。"Isn’titrathermarkedthatthere’sonlyonepersonshe’sinterestedin?"
"Oneperson?"Iwasthoroughlyatsea。
ButwehadreachedwithitthegreatpicturedsaloonwithwhichIhadproposedtoassisthertorenewacquaintanceandinwhichtwovisitorshadanticipatedus。"Why,hereheis!"sheexclaimedaswepaused,foradmiration,inthedoorway。Thehighfrescoedceilingarchedoverafloorsohighlypolishedthatitseemedtoreflectthefadedpastelsset,inrococoborders,inthewallsandconstitutingthedistinctionoftheplace。
Ourcompanions,examiningtogetheroneoftheportraitsandturningtheirbacks,wereattheoppositeend,andoneofthemwasGilbertLong。
Iimmediatelynamedtheother。"DoyoumeanFordObert?"
Shegaveme,withalaugh,oneofherbeautifullooks。"Yes!"
Itwasanswerenoughforthemoment,andthemannerofitshowedmetowhatlegendshewascommitted。Iaskedmyself,whilethetwomenfacedabouttomeetus,whyshewascommittedtoit,andIfurtherconsideredthatifGraceBrissenden,againsteveryappearance,wasright,therewouldnowbesomethingformetosee。Whichofthetwo——theagentortheobjectofthesacrifice——wouldtakemostprecautions?Ikeptmycompanionpurposely,foralittlewhile,onoursideoftheroom,leavingtheothers,interestedintheirobservations,totaketheirtimetojoinus。Itgavemeoccasiontowonderifthequestionmightn’tbecleareduponthespot。ThereWAS
noquestion,Ihadcompunctiouslymadeupmymind,forMrs。Server;butnowIshouldseetheproofofthatconclusion。Theproofofitwouldbe,betweenherandherimputedlover,theabsenceofanythingthatwasnotperfectlynatural。Mrs。Server,withhereyesraisedtothepainteddome,withresponsecharmedalmosttosolemnityinherexquisiteface,struckmeatthismoment,Ihadtoconcede,asmorethaneverapersontohavealoverimputed。Theplace,saveforitspicturesoflaterdate,atriumphofthefloriddecorationoftwocenturiesago,evidentlymetherspecialtaste,andakindofprofanepietyhaddroppedonher,drizzlingdown,inthecoldlight,insilver,incrystal,infaint,mixeddelicaciesofcolour,almostasonapilgrimatashrine。Idon’tknowwhatitwasinher——save,thatis,thepositivepitchofdelicacyinherbeauty——thatmadeher,soimpressedandpresented,indescribablytouching。Shewaslikeanawestruckchild;shemighthavebeenherself——allGreuzetints,allpalepinksandbluesandpearlywhitesandcandideyes——anolddeadpastelunderglass。
Shewasnottooreducedtothisstate,however,nottotake,soonenough,herownprecaution——ifaprecautionitwastobedeemed。IwasacutelyconsciousthatthenaturalnesstowhichIhavejustalludedwouldbe,foreitherparty,theonlyprecautionworthspeakingof。Wemovedslowlyroundtheroom,pausinghereandthereforcuriosity;duringwhichtimethetwomenremainedwherewehadfoundthem。Shehadbegunatlasttowatchthemandhadproposedthatweshouldseeinwhattheyweresoabsorbed;butIcheckedherinthemovement,raisingmyhandinafriendlyadmonitiontowait。Wewaitedthen,facetoface,lookingateachotherasiftocatchastrainofmusic。ThiswaswhatIhadintended,forithadjustcometomethatoneofthevoiceswasintheairandthatithadimposedcloseattention。Thedistinguishedpainterlistenedwhile——toallappearance——GilbertLongdid,inthepresenceofthepicture,theexplaining。FordObertmoved,afteralittle,butnotsoastointerrupt——onlysoastoshowmehisfaceinarecallofwhathadpassedbetweenusthenightbeforeinthesmoking—room。
IturnedmyeyesfromMrs。Server’s;Iallowedmyselftocommunealittle,acrosstheshiningspace,withthoseofourfellow—auditor。Theoccasionhadthusforaminutetheoddestlittleairofanaestheticlecturepromptedbyaccidental,butimmense,suggestionsanddeliveredbyGilbertLong。
Icouldn’t,atthedistance,withmycompanion,quitefollowit,butObertwasclearlypatientenoughtobetraythathewasstruck。HisimpressionwasatanyratedoubtlesshisshareofsurpriseatLong’sgiftoftalk。
Thiswaswhathiseyesindeedmostseemedtothrowovertome——"Whatanunexpecteddemonofacritic!"Itwasextraordinarilyinteresting——Idon’tmeanthespecialdriftofLong’seloquence,whichIcouldn’t,asIsay,catch;butthephenomenonofhis,ofallpeople,dealinginthatarticle。
Itputbeforemethequestionofwhether,inthesestrangerelationsthatIbelievedIhadthusgotmyglimpseof,theactionoftheperson"sacrificed"
mightn’tbequiteoutofproportiontotheresourcesofthatperson。Itwasasiftheseelementsmightreallymultiplyinthetransfermadeofthem;asiftheborrowerpracticallyfoundhimself——orherself——inpossessionofagreatersumthantheknownpropertyofthecreditor。Thesurrender,inthisway,added,bypurebeauty,tothethingsurrendered。WeallknowtheFrenchadageaboutthatplusbellefilledumondewhocangivebutwhatshehas;yetifMrs。Server,forinstance,HADbeentheheroineofthisparticularconnection,thecommunicationofherintelligencetoherfriendwouldquitehavefalsifiedit。Shewouldhavegivenmuchmorethanshehad。
WhenLonghadfinishedhisdemonstrationandhischargedvoicehaddropped,wecrossedtoclaimacquaintancewiththeworkthathadinspiredhim。TheplacehadnotbeencompletelynewtoMrs。Serveranymorethantomyself,andtheimpressionnowmadeonherwasbuttheintenservibrationofachordalreadystirred;neverthelessIwasstruckwithhersaying,asaresultofmoreremembrancethanIhadattributedtoher"Ohyes,——themanwiththemaskinhishand!"OnourjoiningtheothersIexpressedregretatourhavingturneduptoolatefortheideasthat,onathemesopromising,theywouldhavebeensuretoproduce,andObert,quiteagreeingthatwehadlostatreat,saidfrankly,inreferencetoLong,butaddressinghimselfmoreespeciallytoMrs。Server:"He’sperfectlyamazing,youknow——he’sperfectlyamazing!"
IobservedthatasaconsequenceofthisLonglookedneitheratMrs。
ServernoratObert;helookedonlyatme,andwithquiteapenetrableshadeofshyness。Thenagainastrangethinghappened,astrangerthingeventhanmyquicksense,thepreviousafternoonatthestation,thathewasachangedman。Itwasasifhewerestillmorechanged——hadalteredasmuchsincetheeveningbeforeasduringthesomuchlongerintervalofwhichIhadoriginallytotakeaccount。HehadalteredalmostlikeGraceBrissenden——helookedfairlydistinguished。Isaidtomyselfthat,withouthisstatureandcertainsignsinhisdress,Ishouldprobablynothaveplacedhim。EngrossedaninstantwiththisviewandwithnotlosingtouchoftheuneasinessthatIconceivedIhadfastenedonhim,IbecameawareonlyaftershehadspokenthatMrs。ServerhadgailyandgracefullyaskedofObertwhyintheworldsocleveramanshouldNOThavebeenclever。
"Obert,"Iaccordinglytookuponmyselftoremark,"hadevidentlylabouredundersomeextraordinarydelusion。HemustliterallyhavedoubtedifLongWASclever。"
"Fancy!"Mrs。ServerexplainedwithacharmingsmileatLong,who,stilllookingpleasantlycompetentandnottoofatuous,amiablyreturnedit。
"They’renatural,they’renatural,"Iprivatelyreflected;"thatis,he’snaturaltoHER,buthe’snotsotome。"Andasifseeingdepthsinthis,andtotryit,Iappealedtohim。"Do,mydearman,letushaveitagain。It’sthepicture,ofallpictures,thatmostneedsaninterpreter。
DON’Twewant,"IaskedofMrs。Server,"toknowwhatitmeans?"Thefigurerepresentedisayoungmaninblack——aquaint,tightblackdress,fashionedinyearslongpast;withapale,lean,lividfaceandastare,fromeyeswithouteyebrows,likethatofsomewhitenedold—worldclown。Inhishandheholdsanobjectthatstrikesthespectatoratfirstsimplyassomeobscure,someambiguousworkofart,butthatonasecondviewbecomesarepresentationofahumanface,modelledandcoloured,inwax,inenamelledmetal,insomesubstancenothuman。Theobjectthusappearsacompletemask,suchasmighthavebeenfantasticallyfittedandworn。
"Yes,whatintheworlddoesitmean?"Mrs。Serverreplied。"Onecouldcallit——thoughthatdoesn’tgetonemuchfurther——theMaskofDeath。"
"Whyso?"Idemandedwhileweallagainlookedatthepicture。"Isn’titmuchrathertheMaskofLife?It’stheman’sownfacethat’sDeath。
Theotherone,bloomingandbeautiful——"
"Ah,butwithanawfulgrimace!"Mrs。Serverbrokein。
"Theotherone,bloomingandbeautiful,"Irepeated,"isLife,andhe’sgoingtoputiton;unlessindeedhehasjusttakenitoff。"
"He’sdreadful,he’sawful——that’swhatImean,"saidMrs。Server。"ButwhatdoesMr。Longthink?"
"Theartificialface,ontheotherhand,"Iwenton,asLongnowsaidnothing,"isextremelystudiedand,whenyoucarefullylookatit,charminglypretty。Idon’tseethegrimace。"
"Idon’tseeanythingelse!"Mrs。Servergood—humouredlyinsisted。"AndwhatdoesMr。Obertthink?"
Hekepthiseyesonheramomentbeforereplying。"Hethinksitlookslikealovelylady。"
"Thatgrinningmask?Whatlovelylady?"
"Itdoes,"Ideclaredtohim,reallyseeingwhathemeant——"itdoeslookremarkablylikeMrs。Server。"
Shelaughed,butforgivingly。"I’mimmenselyobliged。Youdeserve,"
shecontinuedtome,"thatIshouldsaythegentleman’sownfaceistheimageofacertainothergentleman’s。"
"Itisn’ttheimageofyours,"Obertsaidtome,fittingthecap,"butit’safunnythingthatitshouldreallyrecalltoonesomefaceamongushere,onthisoccasion——Imeansomefaceinourparty——thatIcan’tthinkof。"Wehadoureyesagainontheominousfigure。"We’veseenhimyesterday——we’veseenhimalreadythismorning。"Obert,oddlyenough,stillcouldn’tcatchit。"Whothedeuceisit?"
"Iknow,"Ireturnedafteramoment——ourfriend’sreferencehavingagain,inaflash,becomeilluminating。"Butnothingwouldinducemetotell。"
"Ifiweretheflatteredindividual,"Longobserved,speakingforthefirsttime,"I’veanideathatyou’dgivemethebenefitofthecompliment。
Thereforeit’sprobablynotme。"
"Oh,it’snotyouintheleast,"Mrs。Serverblandlytookuponherselftoobserve。"Thisfaceissobad——"
"Andmineissogood?"ourcompanionlaughed。"Thankyouforsavingme!"
Iwatchedthemlookateachother,fortherehadbeenasyetbetweenthemnocompleteexchange。Yes,theywerenatural。Icouldn’thavemadeitoutthattheywerenot。Buttherewassomething,allthesame,thatIwantedtoknow,andIputitimmediatelytoLong。"Whydoyoubringagainstmesuchanaccusation?"
Hemetthequestion——singularlyenough——asifhisreadinesshadsuddenlydesertedhim。"Idon’tknow!"——andheturnedofftoanotherpicture。
ItleftthethreeofusallthemoreconfrontedwiththeconundrumlaunchedbyObert,andMrs。Server’scuriosityremained。"DOname,"shesaidtome,"theflatteredindividual。"
"No,it’saresponsibilityIleavetoObert。"
Buthewasclearlystillatfault;hewaslikeamandesiring,butunable,tosneeze。"Iseethefellow——yetIdon’t。Nevermind。"Heturnedawaytoo。"He’llcometome。"
"Theresemblance,"saidLong,onthis,atadistancefromusandnotturning,"theresemblance,whichIshouldn’tthinkwouldpuzzleanyone,issimplyto’poorBriss’!"
"Oh,ofcourse!"——andObertgaveajumpround。
"Ah——Idoseeit,"Mrs。Serverconcededwithherheadononeside,butasifspeakingratherforharmony。
Ididn’tbelieveshesawit,butthatonlymadeherthemorenatural;
whichwasalsotheairshehadongoingtojoinLong,inhisnewcontemplation,afterIhadadmittedthatitwasofBrissendenImyselfhadthought。ObertandIremainedtogetherinthepresenceoftheManwiththeMask,and,theothersbeingoutofearshot,heremindedmethatIhadpromisedhimthenightbeforeinthesmoking—roomtogivehimto—daytheknowledgeI
hadthenwithheld。IfIhadannouncedthatIwasonthetrackofadiscovery,prayhadImadeityet,andwhatwasit,atanyrate,thatIproposedtodiscover?Ifeltnow,intruth,moreuncomfortablethanIhadexpectedinbeingkepttomyobligation,andIbeataboutthebushalittletill,insteadofmeetingit,Iwasabletoputthenaturalquestion:"WhatwonderfulthingswasLongjustsayingtoyou?"
"Oh,characteristiconesenough——whimsical,fanciful,funny。Thethingshesays,youknow。"
Itwasindeedafreshview。"Theystrikeyouascharacteristic?"
"Ofthemanhimselfandhistypeofmind?Surely。Don’tYOU?Hetalkstotalk,buthe’sreallyamusing。"
Iwaswatchingourcompanions。"Indeedheis——extraordinarilyamusing。"
ItwashighlyinterestingtometohearatlastofLong’s"typeofmind。"
"SeehowamusingheisatthepresentmomenttoMrs。Server。"
Oberttookthisin;shewasconvulsed,intheextravagancealwayssoprettyastobepardonable,withlaughter,andsheevenlookedoveratusasiftointimatewithhershining,lingeringeyesthatwewouldn’tbesurprisedathertransportsifwesuspectedwhatherentertainer,whomshehadneverknownforsuchahumourist,wassaying。Insteadofgoingtofindout,allthesame,weremainedanotherminutetogether。Itwasforme,now,Icouldsee,thatOberthadhisbestattention。"What’sthematterwiththem?"
Itstartledmealmostasmuchasifhehadaskedmewhatwasthematterwithmyself——forthatsomethingWAS,underthishead,Iwasbythistimeunabletoignore。NottwentyminuteshadelapsedsinceourmeetingwithMrs。ServerontheterracehaddeterminedGraceBrissenden’selation,butitwasafactthatmynervousnesshadtakenanextraordinarystride。I
hadperhapsnottillthisinstantbeenfullyawareofit——itwasreallybroughtoutbythewayObertlookedatmeasifhefanciedhehadheardmeshake。Mrs。Servermightbenatural,andGilbertLongmightbe,butIshouldnotpreservethatcalmunlessIpulledmyselfwelltogether。I
madetheeffort,facingmysharpinterlocutor;andIthinkitwasatthispointthatIfullymeasuredmydismay。Ihadgrown——thatwaswhatwasthematterwithmeprecipitately,preposterouslyanxious。Insteadofdropping,thediscomfortproducedinmebyMrs。Brissendenhaddeepenedtoagitation,andthisinspiteofthefactthatinthebriefintervalnothingworse,nothingbutwhatwasright,hadhappened。HadImyselfsuddenlyfallensomuchinlovewithMrs。Serverthatthecareforherreputationhadbecomewithmeanobsession?ItwasofnousesayingIsimplypitiedher:whatdidIpityherforifshewasn’tindanger?SheWASindanger:thatrushedovermeatpresent——rushedovermewhileItriedtolookeasyanddelayedtoanswermyfriend。SheWASindanger——ifonlybecauseshehadcaughtandheldthesearchlightofObert’sattention。Itookuphisinquiry。"Thematterwiththem?Idon’tknowanythingbutthatthey’reyoungandhandsomeandhappy——children,aswhoshouldsay,oftheworld;childrenofleisureandpleasureandprivilege。"
Obert’seyeswentbacktothem。"DoyourememberwhatIsaidtoyouaboutheryesterdayafternoon?Shedartsfromflowertoflower,butsheclings,forthetime,toeach。You’vebeenfeeling,Ijudge,theforceofmyremark。"
"Oh,shedidn’tatall’dart,’"Ireplied,"justnowatme。Idarted,muchrather,atHER。"
"Longdidn’t,then,"Obertsaid,stillwithhiseyesonthem。
Ihadtowaitamoment。"Doyoumeanhestruckyouasavoidingher?"
Heinturnconsidered。"Hestruckmeashavingnoticedwithwhatintensity,eversincewecamedown,shehaskeptalighting。Sheinauguratedit,theinstantshearrived,withme,andeverymanofushashadhisturn。Idaresayit’sonlyfair,certainly,thatLongshouldhave。"
"He’sluckytogetit,thebrute!She’sascharmingasshecanpossiblybe。"
"That’sit,precisely;andit’swhatnowomanoughttobe——ascharmingasshepossiblycan!——morethanonceortwiceinherlife。Thisladyissoeveryblessedminute,andtoeveryblessedmale。It’sasifsheweretooawfullyafraidonewouldn’ttakeitin。Ifshebutknewhowonedoes!
However,"myfriendcontinued,"you’llrecollectthatwedifferedaboutheryesterday——andwhatdoesitsignify?Oneshouldofcoursebearlightlyonanythingsolight。ButIsticktoitthatshe’sdifferent。"
Ipondered。"Differentfromwhom?"
"Differentfromherself——asshewaswhenIpaintedher。There’ssomethingthematterwithher。"
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