"Not,Itrust,"Ireturned,"ofany’lie’their’soulhathspoken!’
Butnotoneofthemlingers?"
Heseemedtowonder。"’Lingers?’Forwhat?"
"Oh,Idon’tknow——inthishouse!"
Helookedatourlongvista,stilllighted——appearedtofeelwithmeourliberalease,whichimpliedthatunseenpowerswaitedonourgoodpleasureandsatupforus。Thereisnothinglikeitinfact,theliberaleaseatNewmarch。YetObertremindedme——ifIneededthereminder——thatImustn’tafterallpresumeonit。"WasoneofthemtolingerforYOU?"
"Well,sinceyouaskme,itwaswhatIhoped。Butsinceyouanswerforitthatmyhopehasnotbeenmet,Ibowtoasuperiorpropriety。"
"Youmeanyou’llcomeandsmokewithme?Dothencome。"
"What,ifIdo,"Iaskedwithanidea,"willyougiveme?"
"I’mafraidIcanpromiseyounothingmorethatidealinthanabadcigarette。"
"Andwhatthen,"Iwenton,"willyoutakefromme?"
Hehadmetmyeyes,andnowlookedatmealittlewithasmilethatIthoughtjustconscious。"Well,I’mafraidICAN’Ttakeanymore——"
"Ofthesortofstuff,"Ilaughed,"you’vealreadyhad?Sorrystuff,perhaps——apoorthingbutmineown!Suchasitis,Ionlyasktokeepitformyself,andthatisn’twhatImeant。Imeantwhatflowerwillyougather,whathavocwillyouplay——?"
"Well?"hesaidasIhesitated。
"AmongsuperstitionsthatI,afterall,cherish。Monsiegeestfait——agreatglitteringcrystalpalace。Howmanypaneswillyourewardmeforamiablysittingupwithyoubysmashing?"
Itmighthavebeenmymerefancy——butitWASmyfancy——thathelookedatmeatrifleharder。"HowonearthcanItellwhatyou’retalkingabout?"
Iwaitedamoment,thenwenton:"Didyouhappentocountthem?"
"Countwhom?"
"Why,theladiesastheyfiledup。Wasthenumberthere?"
Hegaveajerkofimpatience。"Goandseeforyourself!"
OncemoreIjustwaited。"ButsupposeIshouldfindMrs。Server?"
"Prowlingthereonthechanceofyou?Well——Ithoughtshewaswhatyouwanted。"
"Then,"Ireturned,"youCOULDtellwhatIwastalkingabout!"Foramomentafterthiswefacedeachotherwithoutmorespeech,butIpresentlycontinued:"Youdidn’treallynoticeifanyladystayedbehind?"
"Ithinkyouasktoomuchofme,"heatlastbroughtout。"Takecareofyourladies,mydearman,yourself!Go,"herepeated,"andsee。"
"Certainly——it’sbetter;butI’llrejoinyouinthreeminutes。"Andwhilehewenthiswaytothesmoking—roomIproceededwithoutmoredelaytoassuremyself,performingintheoppositesensethejourneyIhadmadetenminutesbefore。ItwasextraordinarywhatthesightofLongaloneintheouterdarknesshaddoneforme:myexpressionofitwouldhavebeenthatithadputme"on"againatthemomentofmydecidedlyfeelingmyselfoff。IbelievedthatifIhadn’tseenhimIcouldnowhavegonetobedwithoutseeingMrs。Briss;butmyrenewedimpressionhadsuddenlymadethedifference。Ifthatwasthewayhestruckme,howmightnot,ifIcouldgetather,she?Andshemight,afterall,intheprivacyatlastofferedusbyemptyrooms,bewaitingforme。Iwentthroughthemall,however,onlytofindthememptyindeed。InconformitywiththelargeallowancesofeverysortthatwerethelawofNewmarch,theywerestillopenandlighted,sothatifIhadbelievedinMrs。Briss’sreappearanceImightconveniently,onthespot,havegivenherfiveminutesmore。Iamnotsure,forthatmatter,thatIdidn’t。IrememberatleastwonderingifImightn’tringsomewhereforaservantandcauseaquestiontobesentuptoher。Ididn’tring,butImusthavelingeredalittleonthechanceofthearrivalofservantstoextinguishlightsandseethehousesafe。Theyhadnotarrived,however,bythetimeIagainfeltthatImustgiveup。
Chapter11
Igaveupbygoing,decidedly,tothesmoking—room,whereseveralmenhadgatheredandwhereObert,alittleapartfromthem,wasincharmedcommunionwiththebookshelves。Theyarewonderful,everywhere,atNewmarch,thebookshelves,butheputavolumebackashesawmecomein,andamomentlater,whenwewereseated,Isaidtohimagain,asarecallofourpreviouspassage,"ThenyouCOULDtellwhatIwastalkingabout!"AndIadded,tocompletemyreference,"SinceyouthoughtMrs。Serverwasthepersonwhom,whenIstoppedyou,IwassorrytolearnfromyouIhadmissed。"
HismomentarysilenceappearedtoadmittheconnectionIestablished。
"ThenyoufindyouHAVEmissedher?Shewasn’tthereforyou?"
"There’snoone’thereforme’;sothatIfearthatifyouweren’t,asithappens,hereforme,myamusementwouldbequiteatanend。Ihad,infact,"Icontinued,"alreadygivenitupaslostwhenIcameuponyou,awhilesince,inconversationwiththeladywe’venamed。Atthat,Iconfess,myprospectsgavesomethingofaflare。IsaidtomyselfthatsinceYOUR
interesthadn’tthenwhollydropped,why,evenattheworst,shouldmine?
YoursWASmine,wasn’tit?foralittle,thismorning。Orwasitminethatwasyours?Weexchanged,atanyrate,somelivelyimpressions。Only,beforewehaddone,youreffortdroppedoryourdiscretionintervened:yougaveup,asnoneofyourbusiness,thequestionthathadsuddenlytemptedus。"
"Andyougaveituptoo,"saidmyfriend。
"Yes,anditwasontheideathatitwasmineaslittleasyoursthatweseparated。"
"Wellthen?"Hekepthiseyes,withhisheadthrownback,onthewarmbindings,admirableforoldgiltandoldcolour,thatcoveredtheoppositewall。
"Wellthen,ifI’vecorrectlygatheredthatyou’re,inspiteofourcommonrenunciation,stillinterested,IconfesstoyouthatIam。Itookmydetachmenttoosoonforgranted。Ihaven’tbeendetached。I’mnot,hangme!detachednow。Andit’sallbecauseyouwereoriginallysosuggestive。"
"Originally?"
"Why,fromthemomentwemethereyesterday——themomentofmyfirstseeingyouwithMrs。Server。Thelookyougavemethenwasreallythebeginningofeverything。Everything"——andIspokenowwithrealconviction——"wastraceablytospringfromit。"
"Whatdoyoumean,"heasked,"byeverything?"
"Well,thisfailureofdetachment。Whatyousaidtomeasweweregoingupyesterdayafternoontodress——whatyousaidtomethenisresponsibleforit。Andsinceitcomestothat,"Ipursued,"Imakeoutformyselfnowthatyou’renotdetachedeither——unless,thatis,simplydetachedfromME。IhadindeedasuspicionofthatasIpassedthroughtheroomthere。"
Hesmokedthroughanotherpause。"You’veextraordinarynotionsofresponsibility。"
Iwatchedhimamoment,butheonlystaredatthebookswithoutlookinground。Somethinginhisvoicehadmadememorecertain,andmycertaintymademelaugh。"IseeyouAREserious!"
Buthewentonquietlyenough。"You’veextraordinarynotionsofresponsibility。
Idenyaltogethermine。"
"YouAREserious——youARE!"IrepeatedwithagaietythatImeantasinoffensiveandthatIbelieveremainedso。"Butnomatter。You’renoworsethanI。"
"I’mclearly,byyourownstory,nothalfsobad。But,asyousay,nomatter。Idon’tcare。"
Iventuredtokeepitup。"Oh,don’tyou?"
Hisgoodnaturewasproof。"Idon’tcare。"
"Thenwhydidn’tyousomuchaslookatmeawhileago?"
"Didn’tIlookatyou?"
"Youknowperfectlyyoudidn’t。Mrs。Serverdid——withherunutterableintensity;makingmefeelafresh,bytheway,thatI’veneverseenawomancompromiseherselfsolittlebyproceedingssocompromising。Butthoughyousawherintensity,itneverdivertedyouforaninstantfromyourown。"
Helightedbeforeheansweredthisafreshcigarette。"Amanengagedintalkwithacharmingwomanscarcelyselectsthatoccasionforwinkingatsomebodyelse。"
"YoumeanhecontentshimselfwithwinkingatHER?Mydearfellow,thatwasn’tenoughforyouyesterday,anditwouldn’thavebeenenoughforyouthismorning,amongtheimpressionsthatledtoourlasttalk。Itwasjustthefactthatyoudidwink,thatyouHADwinked,atmethatwoundmeup。"
"AndwhataboutthefactthatyouhadwinkedatME?YOURwinks——come"——Obertlaughed——"areportentous!"
"Oh,ifwerecriminate,"Icheerfullysaidafteramoment,"weagree。"
"I’mnotsosure,"hereturned,"thatweagree。"
"Ah,then,ifwedifferit’sstillmoreinteresting。Because,youknow,wedidn’tdiffereitheryesterdayorthismorning。"
Withouthurryorflurry,butwithadecentconfusion,histhoughtswentback。"Ithoughtyousaidjustnowwedid——recognising,asyouought,thatyouwerekeenaboutachaseofwhichIwashedmyhands。"
"No——Iwasn’tkeen。You’vejustmentionedthatyouremembermygivingup。Iwashedmyhandstoo。"
Itseemedtoleavehimwiththemoralofthis。"Then,ifourhandsareclean,whatarewetalkingabout?"
Iturned,onit,alittlemoretohim,andlookedathimsolongthathehadatlasttolookatme;withwhich,afterholdinghiseyesanothermoment,Imademypoint。"Ourhandsarenotclean。"
"Ah,speakforyourown!"——andashemovedbackImightreallyhavethoughthimuneasy。Therewasahintofthesamenoteinthewayhewenton:"IassureyouIdeclineallresponsibility。Iseetheresponsibilityasquitebeautifullyyours。"
"Well,"Isaid,"Ionlywanttobefair。Youwerethefirsttobringitoutthatshewaschanged。"
"Well,sheisn’tchanged!"saidmyfriendwithanalmoststartlingeffect,forme,ofsuddenness。"Orrather,"heimmediatelyandincongruouslyadded,"sheIS。She’schangedback。"
"’Back’?"Itmademestare。
"Back,"herepeatedwithacertainsharpnessandasiftohavedoneatlast,forhimself,withthemuddleofit。
Buttherewasthatinmethatcouldlethimseehehadfarfromdone;
andsomething,aboveall,toldmenowthatheabsolutelymustn’thavebeforeIhad。IquicklymoreoversawthatImust,withanart,makehimwantnotto。"Backtowhatshewaswhenyoupaintedher?"
Hehadtothinkaninstantforthis。"No——notquitetothat。"
"Towhatthen?"
Hetriedinamannertoobligeme。"Tosomethingelse。"
Itseemedso,formythought,thegleamofsomethingthatfitted,thatIwasalmostafraidofquenchingthegleambypressure。ImustthengeteverythingIcouldfromhimwithoutaskingtoomuch。"Youdon’tquiteknowtoWHATelse?"
"No——Idon’tquiteknow。"Buttherewasasoundinit,thistime,thatItookasthehintofawishtoknow——almostarecognitionthatImighthelphim。
IhelpedhimaccordinglyasIcouldand,Imayadd,asfarasthepositiveflutterhehadstirredinmesuffered。Itfitted——itfitted!"Ifherchangeistosomethingother,Isupposethenachangebackisnotquitetheexactnameforit。"
"Perhapsnot。"Ifairlythrilledathistakingthesuggestionasifitwereanassistance。"Sheisn’tatanyratewhatIthoughtheryesterday。"
Itwasamazingintowhatdepthsthisdroppedformeandwithwhatpossibilitiesitmingled。"Irememberwhatyousaidofheryesterday。"
IdrewhimonsothatIbroughtbackforhimtheverywordshehadused。
"Shewassobeastlyunhappy。"Andheusedthemnowvisiblynotasaremembranceofwhathehadsaid,butforthecontrastofthefactwithwhatheatpresentperceived;sothatthevaluethisgaveformetowhatheatpresentperceivedwasimmense。
"Anddoyoumeanthatthat’sgone?"
Hehungfire,however,alittleastosayingsomuchwhathemeant,andwhilehewaitedheagainlookedatme。"WhatdoYOUmean?Don’tyouthinksoyourself?"
Ilaidmyhandonhisarmandheldhimamomentwithagripthatbetrayed,Idaresay,theeffortinmetokeepmythoughtstogetherandlosenotathread。Itbetrayedatonce,doubtless,thedangerofthatfailureandthesharpforetasteofsuccess。Irememberthatwithit,absolutely,I
struckmyselfasknowingagainthejoyoftheintellectualmasteryofthingsunamenable,thatjoyofdetermining,almostofcreatingresults,whichIhavealreadymentionedasanexhilarationattachedtosomeofmyplungesofinsight。"ItwouldtakelongtotellyouwhatImean。"
ThetoneofitmadehimfairlywatchmeasIhadbeenwatchinghim。
"Well,haven’twegotthewholenight?"
"Oh,itwouldtakemorethanthewholenight——evenifwehadit!"
"Bywhichyousuggestthatwehaven’tit?"
"No——wehaven’tit。Iwanttogetaway。"
"Togotobed?Ithoughtyouweresokeen。"
"IAMkeen。Keenisnowordforit。Idon’twanttogotobed。Iwanttogetaway。"
"Toleavethehouse——inthemiddleofthenight?"
"Yes——absurdasitmayseem。Youexcitemetoomuch。Youdon’tknowwhatyoudotome。"
Hecontinuedtolookatme;thenhegavealaughwhichwasnotthecontradiction,butquitetheattestation,oftheeffectproducedonhimbymygrip。IfIhadwantedtoholdhimIheldhim。ItonlycametomeeventhatIheldhimtoomuch。Ifeltthisinfactwiththenextthinghesaid。"Ifyou’retooexcited,then,tobecoherentnow,willyoutellmeto—morrow?"
Itooktimemyselfnowtorelight。Ridiculousasitmaysound,Ihadmynervestosteady;whichisaproof,surely,thatforrealexcitementtherearenosuchadventuresasintellectualones。"Oh,tomorrowIshallbeoffinspace!"
"Certainlyweshallneitherofusbehere。Butcan’twearrange,say,tomeetintown,oreventogouptogetherinsuchconditionsaswillenableustotalk?"
Ipattedhisarmagain。"Thankyouforyourpatience。It’sreallygoodofyou。WhoknowsifIshallbealiveto—morrow?WeAREmeeting。Wedotalk。"
ButwithallIhadtothinkofImusthavefallen,onthis,intothedeepestofsilences,forthenextthingIrememberishisreturning:"Wedon’t!"Irepeatedmygestureofreassurance,IconveyedthatIshouldbewithhimagaininaminute,andpresently,whilehegavemetime,hecamebacktosomethingofhisown。"Mywink,atallevents,wouldhavebeennothingforanyquestionbetweenus,asI’vejustsaid,withoutyours。
That’swhatIcallyourresponsibility。Itwas,asweputthematter,thetorchofyouranalogy——"
"Oh,thetorchofmyanalogy!"
Ihadsogroanedit——asifforveryecstasy——thatitpulledhimup,andIcouldseehiscuriosityasindeedreaffected。Buthewentonwithacoherencythatsomewhatadmonishedme:"Itwasyourmakingme,asItoldyouthismorning,thinkoverwhatyouhadsaidaboutBrissendenandhiswife:itwasTHAT——"
"Thatmadeyouthinkover"——Itookhimstraightup——"whatyouyourselfhadsaidaboutourtroubledlady?Yes,precisely。ThatWASthetorchofmyanalogy。WhatIshowedyouintheonecaseseemedtotellyouwhattolookforintheother。Youthoughtitover。IaccuseyouofnothingworsethanofHAVINGthoughtitover。Butyouseewhatthinkingitoverdoesforit。"
ThewayIsaidthisappearedtoamusehim。"IseewhatitdoesforYOU!"
"No,youdon’t!Notatallyet。That’sjusttheembarrassment。"
"Justwhose?"IfIhadthankedhimforhispatienceheshowedthathedeservedit。"Justyours?"
"Well,saymine。Butwhenyoudo——!"AndIpausedasfortherichpromiseofit。
"WhenIdoseewhereyouare,youmean?"
"TheonlydifficultyiswhetheryouCANsee。Butwemusttry。You’vesetmewhirlinground,butwemustgostepbystep。Oh,butit’sallinyourgerm!"——Ikeptthatup。"Ifsheisn’tnowbeastlyunhappy"
"She’sbeastlyhappy?"hebrokein,gettingfirmerhold,ifnotoftherealimpressionhehadjustbeengatheringundermyeyes,thenatleastofsomethinghehadbeguntomakeoutthatmyargumentrequired。"Well,thatISthewayIseeherdifference。Herdifference,Imean,"headded,inhisevidentwishtoworkwithme,"herdifferencefromherotherdifference!
There!"Helaughedasif,also,hehadfoundhimselffairlyfantastic。
"Isn’tTHATclearforyou?"
"CrystallineforME。Butthat’sbecauseIknowwhy。"
Icanseeagainnowthelonglookthat,onthis,hegaveme。Imadeoutalreadymuchofwhatwasinit。"SothendoI!"
"Buthowintheworld?Iknow,formyself,HOWIknow。"
"SothendoI,"heafteramomentrepeated。
"Andcanyoutellme?"
"Certainly。ButwhatI’vealreadynamedtoyou——thetorchofyouranalogy。"
Iturnedthisover。"You’vemadeevidentlyanadmirableuseofit。Butthewonderfulthingisthatyouseemtohavedonesowithouthavingalltheelements。"
Heonhissideconsidered。"Whatdoyoucallalltheelements?"
"Oh,itwouldtakemelongtotellyou!"Icouldn’thelplaughingatthecomparativesimplicitywithwhichheaskedit。"That’sthesortofthingwejustnowspokeoftakingadayfor。Atanyrate,suchastheyare,theseelements,"Iwenton,"Ibelievemyselfpracticallyinpossessionofthem。ButwhatIdon’tquiteseeishowyoucanbe。"
Well,hewasabletotellme。"Whyintheworldshouldn’tyouranalogyhaveputme?"Hespokewithgaiety,butwithlucidity。"I’mnotanidioteither。"
"Isee。"Buttherewassomuch!
"DidyouthinkIWAS?"heamiablyasked。
"No。Isee,"Irepeated。YetIdidn’t,really,fully;whichhepresentlyperceived。
"YoumademethinkofyourviewoftheBrissendenpairtillIcouldthinkofnothingelse。"
"Yes——yes,"Isaid。"Goon。"
"Well,asyouhadplantedthetheoryinme,itbegantobearfruit。
Ibegantowatchthem。Icontinuedtowatchthem。Ididnothingbutwatchthem。"
Thesuddenloweringofhisvoiceinthisconfession——asifithadrepresentedasortofdarkeningofhisconsciousness——againamusedme。"Youtoo?Howthenwe’vebeenoccupied!ForI,yousee,havewatched——orhad,untilI
foundyoujustnowwithMrs。Servereveryone,everythingBUTyou。"
"Oh,I’vewatchedYOU,"saidFordObertasifhehadthenperhapsafteralltheadvantageofme。"IadmitthatImadeyououtformyselftobebackonthescent;forIthoughtImadeyououtbaffled。"
TolearnwhetherIreallyhadbeenwas,Isaw,whathewouldmosthaveliked;butIalsosawthathehad,astothis,ascrupleaboutaskingme。
WhatImostsaw,however,wasthattotellhimIshouldhavetounderstand。
"Whatscentdoyoualludeto?"
HesmiledasifImighthavefanciedIcouldfence。"Why,thepursuitoftheidentificationthat’snoneofourbusiness——theidentificationofherlover。"
"Ah,it’sastothat,"Iinstantlyreplied,"you’vejudgedmebaffled?
I’mafraid,"Ialmostasquicklyadded,"thatImustadmitIHAVEbeen。
Luckily,atallevents,itISnoneofourbusiness。"
"Yes,"saidmyfriend,amusedonhisside,"nothing’sourbusinessthatwecan’tfindout。Isawyouhadn’tfoundhim。Andwhat,"Obertcontinued,"doeshematternow?"
Ittookbutamomenttoplacemeforseeingthatmycompanion’sconvictiononthispointwasaconvictiondecidedlytorespect;andeventhatamountofhesitationwasbuttheresultofmywonderinghowhehadreachedit。
"What,indeed?"Ipromptlyreplied。"ButhowdidyouseeIhadfailed?"
"ByseeingthatImyselfhad。ForI’vebeenlookingtoo。Heisn’there,"
saidFordObert。
DelightedasIwasthatheshouldbelieveit,Iwasyetstruckbythecomplacencyofhisconfidence,whichconnecteditselfagainwithmyobservationoftheirsorecentcolloquy。"Oh,foryoutobesosure,hasMrs。Serversquaredyou?"
"IShehere?"heforallanswertothisinsistentlyasked。
Ifalteredbutaninstant。"No;heisn’there。It’snothankstoone’sscruples,butperhapsit’sluckyforone’smanners。Ispeakatleastformine。Ifyou’vewatched,"Ipursued,"you’vedoubtlesssufficientlyseenwhathasalreadybecomeofmine。Heisn’there,atallevents,"Irepeated,"andwemustdowithouthisidentity。What,infact,areweshowingeachother,"Iasked,"butthatweHAVEdonewithoutit?"
"ihave!"myfrienddeclaredwithsupremefranknessandwithsomethingofthenote,asIwasobligedtorecognise,ofmyownconstructivejoy。
"I’vedoneperfectlywithoutit。"
Isawinfactthathehad,anditstruckmereallyaswonderful。ButIcontrolledtheexpressionofmywonder。"Sothatifyouspokethereforejustnowofwatchingthem——"
"Imeantofcourse"——hetookitstraightup——"watchingtheBrissendens。
Andnaturally,aboveall,"heasquicklysubjoined,"thewife。"
Iwasnowfullofconcurrence。"Ah,naturally,aboveall,thewife。"
Sofaraswasrequireditencouragedhim。"Awoman’sloverdoesn’tmatter——doesn’tmatteratleasttoanyonebuthimself,doesn’tmattertoyouortomeortoher——whenonceshehasgivenhimup。"
Itmademe,thistestimonyofhisobservation,show,inspiteofmyhavingbythistimesocountedonit,somethingofthevivacityofmyemotion。
"SheHASgivenhimup?"
Butthesurprisewithwhichhelookedroundputmebackonmyguard。
"Ofwhatelsethenarewetalking?"
"Ofnothingelse,ofcourse,"Istammered。"Butthewayyousee——!"
Ifoundmyrefugeinthegaspofmyadmiration。
"Idosee。But"——heWOULDcomebacktothat——"onlythroughyourhavingseenfirst。Yougavemethepieces。I’vebutputthemtogether。YougavemetheBrissendens——boundhandandfoot;andI’vebutmadethem,inthatsorrystate,pullmethrough。I’veblownonmytorch,inotherwords,till,flaringandsmoking,ithasguidedme,throughamagnificentchiaroscuroofcolourandshadow,outintothelightofday。"
Iwasreallydazzledbyhisimage,foritrepresentedhispersonalwork。
"You’vedonemorethanI,itstrikesme——andwithlesstodoitwith。IfIgaveyoutheBrissendensIgaveyouallIhad。"
"Butallyouhadwasimmense,mydearman。TheBrissendensareimmense。"
"OfcoursetheBrissendensareimmense!Iftheyhadn’tbeenimmensetheywouldn’thavebeen——NOTHINGwouldhavebeen——anything。"Thenafterapause,"Yourimageissplendid,"Iwenton——"yourbeingoutofthecave。
Butwhatisitexactly,"Iinsidiouslythrewout,"thatyouCALLthe’lightofday’?"
Iremainedamoment,however,notsurewhetherIhadbeentoosubtleortoosimple。Hehadanotherofhiscautions。"WhatdoYOU——?"
ButIwasdeterminedtomakehimgiveitmeallhimself,foritwasfrommynotpromptinghimthatitsvaluewouldcome。"Youtellme,"Iaccordinglyrathercrudelypleaded,"first。"
ItgaveusamomentduringwhichhesolookedasifIaskedtoomuch,thatIhadafearoflosingall。Heevenspokewithsomeimpatience。"Ifyoureallyhaven’tfounditforyourself,youknow,IscarceseewhatyouCANhavefound。"
ThenIhadmyinspiration。Iriskedanapproachtoroughness,andallthemoreeasilythatmywordswerestricttruth。"Oh,don’tbeafraid——greaterthingsthanyours!"
Itsucceeded,foritplayeduponhiscuriosity,andhevisiblyimaginedthat,withimpatiencecontrolled,heshouldlearnwhatthesethingswere。
Herelaxed,heresponded,andthenextmomentIwasinallbutfullenjoymentofthepiecewantedtomakeallmyotherpiecesright——rightbecauseofthatspecialbeautyinmyschemethroughwhichthewholedependedsooneachpartandeachpartsoguaranteedthewhole。"WhatIcallthelightofdayisthesenseI’vearrivedatofhervision。"
"Hervision?"——Ijustbalancedintheair。
"Ofwhattheyhaveincommon。HIS——poorchap’sextraordinarysituationtoo。"
"Bravo!Andyouseeinthat——?"
"What,allthesehours,hastouched,fascinated,drawnher。Ithasbeenaninstinctwithher。"
"Bravissimo!"
Itsawhim,myapproval,safelyintoport。"Theinstinctofsympathy,pity——theresponsetofellowshipinmisery;thesightofanotherfateasstrange,asmonstrousasherown。"
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