Chapter1
Itwasanoccasion,Ifelt——theprospectofalargeparty——tolookoutatthestationforothers,possiblefriendsandevenpossibleenemies,whomightbegoing。Suchpremonitions,itwastrue,bredfearswhentheyfailedtobreedhopes,thoughitwastobeaddedthatthereweresometimes,inthecase,ratherhappyambiguities。Onewasgloweredat,inthecompartment,bypeoplewhoonthemorrow,afterbreakfast,weretoprovecharming;onewasspokentofirstbypeoplewhosesociabilitywassubsequentlytoshowasbleak;andonebuiltwithconfidenceonotherswhowerenevertoreappearatall——whowereonlygoingtoBirmingham。AssoonasIsawGilbertLong,somewayuptheplatform,however,Iknewhimasanelement。ItwasnotsomuchthatthewishwasfathertothethoughtasthatIrememberedhavingalreadymorethanoncemethimatNewmarch。Hewasafriendofthehouse——hewouldn’tbegoingtoBirmingham。Isolittleexpectedhim,atthesametime,torecognisemethatIstoppedshortofthecarriagenearwhichhestood——Ilookedforaseatthatwouldn’tmakeusneighbours。
IhadmethimatNewmarchonly——aplaceofacharmsospecialastocreateratherabondamongitsguests;buthehadalways,intheinterval,sofailedtoknowmethatIcouldonlyholdhimasstupidunlessIheldhimasimpertinent。Hewasstupidinfact,andinthatcharacterhadnobusinessatNewmarch;buthehadalso,nodoubt,hissystem,whichheappliedwithoutdiscernment。Iwondered,whileIsawmythingsputintomycorner,whatNewmarchcouldseeinhim——foritalwayshadtoseesomethingbeforeitmadeasign。Hisgoodlooks,whichwerestriking,perhapspaidhisway——hissixfeetandmoreofstature,hislow—growing,tight—curlinghair,hisbig,bare,bloomingface。Hewasafinepieceofhumanfurniture——hemadeasmallpartyseemmorenumerous。This,atleast,wastheimpressionofhimthathadrevivedbeforeIsteppedoutagaintotheplatform,anditarmedmeonlyatfirstwithsurprisewhenIsawhimcomedowntomeasifforagreeting。Ifhehaddecidedatlasttotreatmeasanacquaintancemade,itwasnonethelessacaseforlettinghimcomealltheway。That,accordingly,waswhathedid,andwithsoclearaconscience,Ihastentoadd,thatattheendofaminuteweweretalkingtogetherquiteaswiththetraditionofpromptintimacy。Hewasgood—lookingenough,Inowagainsaw,butnotsuchamodelofitasIhadseemedtoremember;ontheotherhandhismannershaddistinctlygainedinease。Hereferredtoourpreviousencountersandcommoncontacts——hewasgladIwasgoing;hepeepedintomycompartmentandthoughtitbetterthanhisown。Hecalledaporter,thenextminute,toshifthisthings,andwhilehisattentionwassotakenImadeoutsomeoftherestofthecontingent,whowerefindingorhadalreadyfoundplaces。
ThislastedtillLongcamebackwithhisporter,aswellaswithaladyunknowntomeandtowhomhehadapparentlymentionedthatourcarriagewouldpleasantlyaccommodateher。Theportercarriedinfactherdressing—bag,whichheputuponaseatandthebestowalofwhichlefttheladypresentlyfreetoturntomewithareproach:"Idon’tthinkitveryniceofyounottospeaktome。"Istared,thencaughtatheridentitythroughhervoice;afterwhichIreflectedthatshemighteasilyhavethoughtmethesamesortofassasIhadthoughtLong。Forshewassimply,itappeared,GraceBrissenden。Wehad,thethreeofus,thecarriagetoourselves,andwejourneyedtogetherformorethananhour,duringwhich,inmycorner,Ihadmycompanionsopposite。Webeganatfirstbytalkingalittle,andthenasthetrain——afastone——ranstraightandproportionatelybellowed,wegaveuptheefforttocompetewithitsmusic。Meantime,however,wehadexchangedwitheachotherafactortwototurnoverinsilence。Brissendenwascominglater——not,indeed,thatthatwassuchafact。Buthiswifewasinformed——sheknewaboutthenumerousothers;shehadmentioned,whilewewaited,peopleandthings:thatObert,R。A。,wassomewhereinthetrain,thatherhusbandwastobringonLadyJohn,andthatMrs。FroomeandLordLutleywereinthewondrousnewfashion——andtheirservantstoo,likeasinglehousehold——starting,travelling,arrivingtogether。ItcamebacktomeasIsattherethatwhenshementionedLadyJohnasinchargeofBrissendentheothermemberofourtriohadexpressedinterestandsurprise——expresseditsoastohavemadeherreplywithasmile:"Didn’tyoureallyknow?"
Thispassagehadtakenplaceontheplatformwhile,availingourselvesofourlastminute,wehungaboutourdoor。
"WhyintheworldSHOULDIknow?"
Towhich,withgoodnature,shehadsimplyreturned:"Oh,it’sonlythatIthoughtyoualwaysdid!"Andtheybothhadlookedatmealittleoddly,asifappealingfromeachother。"Whatintheworlddoesshemean?"
Longmighthaveseemedtoask;whileMrs。Brissendenconveyedwithlightprofundity:"YOUknowwhyheshouldaswellasI,don’tyou?"InpointoffactIdidn’tintheleast;andwhatafterwardsstruckmemuchmoreasthebeginningofmyanecdotewasaworddroppedbyLongaftersomeonehadcomeuptospeaktoher。Ihadthengivenhimhiscuebyalludingtomyoriginalfailuretoplaceher。Whatintheworld,intheyearortwo,hadhappenedtoher?Shehadchangedsoextraordinarilyforthebetter。
Howcouldawomanwhohadbeenplainsolongbecomeprettysolate?
Itwasjustwhathehadbeenwondering。"Ididn’tplaceheratfirstmyself。Shehadtospeaktome。ButIhadn’tseenhersincehermarriage,whichwas——wasn’tit?——fourorfiveyearsago。She’samazingforherage。"
"Whatthenisherage?"
"Oh——twoorthree—and—forty。"
"She’sprodigiousforthat。Butcanitbesogreat?"
"Isn’titeasytocount?"heasked。"Don’tyouremember,whenpoorBrissmarriedher,howimmenselyshewasolder?Whatwasittheycalledit?——acaseofchild—stealing。Everyonemadejokes。Brissisn’tyetthirty。"No,Ibethoughtmyself,hewouldn’tbe;butIhadn’trememberedthedifferenceassogreat。WhatIhadmainlyrememberedwasthatshehadbeenratherugly。Atpresentshewasratherhandsome。Long,however,astothis,didn’tagree。"I’mboundtosayIdon’tquitecallitbeauty。"
"Oh,Ionlyspeakofitasrelative。Shelookssowellandsomehowso’fine。’Whyelseshouldn’twehaverecognisedher?"
"Whyindeed?Butitisn’tathingwithwhichbeautyhastodo。"HehadmadethematteroutwithanacutenessforwhichIshouldn’thavegivenhimcredit。"Whathashappenedtoherissimplythat——well,thatnothinghas。"
"Nothinghashappened?But,mydearman,shehasbeenmarried。That’ssupposedtobesomething。"
"Yes,butshehasbeenmarriedsolittleandsostupidly。ItmustbedesperatelydulltobemarriedtopoorBriss。Hiscomparativeyouthdoesn’t,afterall,makemoreofhim。He’snothingbutwhatheis。Herclockhassimplystopped。Shelooksnoolder——that’sall。"
"Ah,andajollygoodthingtoo,whenyoustartwhereshedid。ButI
takeyourdiscrimination,"Iadded,"asjust。Theonlythingisthatifawomandoesn’tgrowoldershemaybesaidtogrowyounger;andifshegrowsyoungershemaybesupposedtogrowprettier。That’sallexcept,ofcourse,thatitstrikesmeascharmingalsoforBrissendenhimself。
HEhadtheface,Iseemtorecall,ofababy;sothatifhiswifedidflauntherfiftyyears——!"
"Oh,"Longbrokein,"itwouldn’thavematteredtohimifshehad。That’stheawfulness,don’tyousee?ofthemarriedstate。Peoplehavetogetusedtoeachother’scharmsaswellastotheirfaults。Hewouldn’thavenoticed。It’sonlyyouandIwhodo,andthecharmofitisforUS。"
"Whataluckythingthen,"Ilaughed,"that,withBrissendensooutofitandrelegatedtothetime—table’sobscurehereafter,itshouldbeyouandIwhoenjoyher!"IhadbeenstruckinwhathesaidwithmorethingsthanIcouldtakeup,andIthinkImusthavelookedathim,whilehetalked,withaslightreturnofmyfirstmystification。HetalkedasIhadneverheardhim——lessandlessliketheheavyAdoniswhohadsooften"cut"me;
andwhilehedidsoIwasproportionatelymoreconsciousofthechangeinhim。Henoticedinfactafteralittlethevagueconfusionof’mygazeandaskedme——withcompletegoodnaturewhyIstaredathimsohard。I
sufficientlydisembroiledmyselftoreplythatIcouldonlybefascinatedbythewayhemadehispoints;towhichhe——withthesamesociability——madeanswerthathe,onthecontrary,morethansuspectedme,cleverandcriticalasIwasofamusementathisartlessprattle。HestucknonethelesstohisideathatwhatwehadbeendiscussingwaslostonBrissenden。"Ah,thenIhope,"Isaid,"thatatleastLadyJohnisn’t!"
"Oh,LadyJohn——!"Andheturnedawayasiftherewereeithertoomuchortoolittletosayabouther。
IfoundmyselfengagedagainwithMrs。Brisswhilehewasoccupiedwithanewspaper—boy——andengaged,oddly,inverymuchthefreeviewofhimthatheandIhadjusttakenofherself。Sheputittomefranklythatshehadneverseenamansoimproved:aconfidencethatImetwithalacrity,asitshowedmethat,underthesameimpression,Ihadnotbeenastray。
Shehadonly,itseemed,onseeinghim,madehimoutwithagreateffort。
Itookinthisconfession,butIrepaidit。"Hehintedtomethathehadnotknownyoumoreeasily。"
"Moreeasilythanyoudid?Oh,nobodydoesthat;and,tobequitehonest,I’vegotusedtoitanddon’tmind。Peopletalkofourchangingeverysevenyears,buttheymakemefeelasifIchangedeverysevenminutes。Whatwillyouhave,atanyrate,andhowcanIhelpit?It’sthegrindoflife,thewearandtearoftimeandmisfortune。And,youknow,I’mninety—three。"
"Howyoungyoumustfeel,"Ianswered,"tocaretotalkofyourage!
Ienvyyou,fornothingwouldinducemetoletyouknowmine。Youlook,yousee,justtwenty—five。"
Itevidentlytoo,whatIsaid,gaveherpleasure——apleasurethatshecaughtandheld。"Well,youcan’tsayIdressit。"
"No,youdress,Imakeout,ninety—three。IfyouWOULDonlydresstwenty—fiveyou’dlookfifteen。"
"Fifteeninaschoolroomcharade!"Shelaughedatthishappilyenough。
"Yourcomplimenttomytasteisodd。Iknow,atallevents,"shewenton,"what’sthedifferenceinMr。Long。"
"Besogoodthen,formyrelief,astonameit。"
"Well,averycleverwomanhasforsometimepast——"
"Taken"——thisbeginningwasofcourseenough——"aparticularinterestinhim?DoyoumeanLadyJohn?"Iinquired;and,assheevidentlydid,Iratherdemurred。"DoyoucallLadyJohnaverycleverwoman?"
"Surely。That’swhyIkindlyarrangedthat,asshewastotake,Ihappenedtolearn,thenexttrain,Guyshouldcomewithher。"
"Youarrangedit?"Iwondered。"She’snotsocleverasyouthen。"
"BecauseyoufeelthatSHEwouldn’t,orcouldn’t?Nodoubtshewouldn’thavemadethesamepointofit——formorethanonereason。PoorGuyhasn’tpretensions——hasnothingbuthisyouthandhisbeauty。Butthat’spreciselywhyI’msorryforhimandtrywheneverIcantogivehimalift。LadyJohn’scompanyIS,yousee,alift。"
"YoumeanithassounmistakablybeenonetoLong?"
"Yes——ithaspositivelygivenhimamindandatongue。THAT’Swhathascomeoverhim。"
"Then,"Isaid,"it’samostextraordinarycase——suchasonereallyhasnevermet。"
"Oh,but,"sheobjected,"ithappens。"
"Ah,soveryseldom!Yes——I’vepositivelynevermetit。Areyouverysure,"Iinsisted,"thatLadyJohnIStheinfluence?"
"Idon’tmeantosay,ofcourse,"shereplied,"thathelooksflutteredifyoumentionher,thathedoesn’tinfactlookasblankasapickpocket。
Butthatprovesnothing——orrather,asthey’reknowntobealwaystogether,andshefrommorningtillnightaspointedasahat—pin,itprovesjustwhatonesees。Onesimplytakesitin。"
Iturnedthepictureround。"They’rescarcelytogetherwhenshe’stogetherwithBrissenden。"
"Ah,that’sonlyonceinaway。It’sathingthatfromtimetotimesuchpeople——don’tyouknow?——makeaparticularpointof:theycultivate,tocovertheirgame,theappearanceofotherlittlefriendships。Itputsoutsidersoffthescent,andtherealthingmeanwhilegoeson。Besides,youyourselfacknowledgetheeffect。Ifshehasn’tmadehimclever,whathasshemadehim?Shehasgivenhim,steadily,moreandmoreintellect。"
"Well,youmayberight,"Ilaughed,"thoughyouspeakasifitwerecod—liveroil。Doessheadministerit,asadailydose,bythespoonful?
oronlyasadropatatime?Doeshetakeitinhisfood?Ishesupposedtoknow?ThedifficultyformeissimplythatifI’veseenthehandsomegrowuglyandtheuglyhandsome,thefatgrowthinandthethinfat,theshortgrowlongandthelongshort;ifI’veeven,likewise,seentheclever,asI’vetoofondly,atleast,supposedthem,growstupid:sohaveINOT
seen——no,notonceinallmydays——thestupidgrowclever。"
Itwasaquestion,nonetheless,onwhichshecouldperfectlystandup。"AllIcansayisthenthatyou’llhave,thenextdayortwo,aninterestingnewexperience。"
"ItWILLbeinteresting,"IdeclaredwhileIthought——"andallthemoreifImakeoutformyselfthatLadyJohnIStheagent。"
"You’llmakeitoutifyoutalktoher——thatis,Imean,ifyoumakeHERtalk。You’llseehowsheCAN。"
"Shekeepsherwitthen,"Iasked,"inspiteofallshepumpsintoothers?"
"Oh,shehasenoughfortwo!"
"I’mimmenselystruckwithyours,"Ireplied,"aswellaswithyourgenerosity。I’veseldomseenawomantakesohandsomeaviewofanother。"
"It’sbecauseIliketobekind!"shesaidwiththebestfaithintheworld;towhichIcouldonlyreturn,asweenteredthetrain,thatitwasakindnessLadyJohnwoulddoubtlessappreciate。Longrejoinedus,andweran,asIhavesaid,ourcourse;which,asIhavealsonoted,seemedshorttomeinthelightofsuchablazeofsuggestion。Toeachofmycompanions——andthefactstuckoutofthem——somethingunprecedentedhadhappened。
Chapter2
ThedaywasasfineandthesceneasfairatNewmarchasthepartywasnumerousandvarious;andmymemoryassociateswiththerestofthelongafternoonmanyrenewalsofacquaintanceandmuchsittingandstrolling,forsnatchesoftalk,inthelongshadeofgreattreesandthroughthestraightwalksofoldgardens。Acoupleofhoursthuspassed,andfreshaccessionsenrichedthepicture。TherewerepersonsIwascuriousof——ofLadyJohn,forinstance,ofwhomIpromisedmyselfanearlyview;butwewereapttobecarriedawayincurrentsthatreflectednewimagesandsufficientlybeguiledimpatience。Irecover,allthesame,afullsequenceofimpressions,eachofwhich,Iafterwardssaw,hadbeenappointedtohelpalltheothers。
Ifmyanecdote,asIhavementioned,hadbegun,atPaddington,ataparticularmoment,itgatheredsubstancestepbystepandwithoutmissingalink。
Thelinks,infact,shouldIcountthemall,wouldmaketoolongachain。
Theyformed,nevertheless,thehappiestlittlechapterofaccidents,thoughaseriesofwhichIcanscarcegivemorethanthegeneraleffect。
Oneofthefirstaccidentswasthat,beforedinner,ImetFordObertwanderingalittleapartwithMrs。Server,andthat,astheywereknowntomeasagreeableacquaintances,IshouldhavefacedthemwithconfidencehadInotimmediatelydrawnfromtheirsequesteredairthefearofinterruptingthem。Mrs。ServerwasalwayslovelyandObertalwaysexpert;thelatterstraightwaypulledup,however,makingmeaswelcomeasiftheirconversehaddropped。Shewasextraordinarilypretty,markedlyresponsive,conspicuouslycharming,buthegavemealookthatreallyseemedtosay:"Don’t——there’sagoodfellow——leavemeanylongeralonewithher!"IhadmetheratNewmarchbefore——itwasindeedonlysothatIhadmether——andIknewhowshewasvaluedthere。Ialsoknewthatanaversiontoprettywomen——numbersofwhomhehadpreservedforagratefulposterity——washissignneitherasmannorasartist;theeffectofallofwhichwastomakemeaskmyselfwhatshecouldhavebeendoingtohim。Makinglove,possibly——yetfromthathewouldscarcehaveappealed。Shewouldn’t,ontheotherhand,havegivenhimhercompanyonlytobeinhuman。Ijoinedthem,atallevents,learningfromMrs。Serverthatshehadcomebyatrainprevioustomyown;
andwemadeaslowtriotill,ataturnoftheprospect,wecameuponanothergroup。ItconsistedofMrs。FroomeandLordLutleyandofGilbertLongandLadyJohn——mingledandconfounded,asmightbesaid,notassortedaccordingtotradition。LongandMrs。Froomecamefirst,Irecollect,together,andhislordshipturnedawayfromLadyJohnonseeingmeratherdirectlyapproachher。Shehadbecomeforme,onthespot,asinterestingas,whilewetravelled,Ihadfoundmytwofriendsinthetrain。Asthesourceoftheflowof"intellect"
thathadtransmutedouryoungman,shehadeveryclaimtoanearnestattention;
andIshouldsoonhavebeenreadytopronouncethatsherewardeditasrichlyasusual。Shewasindeed,asMrs。Brisshadsaid,aspointedasahat—pin,andIboreinmindthatlady’sinjunctiontolookinherfortheanswertoourriddle。
Theriddle,Imaymention,soundedafreshtomyearinGilbertLong’sgayvoice;ithoveredthere——beforeme,beside,behindme,asweallpaused——inhislight,restlessstep,anervousanimationthatseemedtomultiplyhispresence。Hebecamereally,forthemoment,underthisimpression,thethingIwasmostconsciousof;Iheardhim,IfelthimevenwhileIexchangedgreetingswiththesorceressbywhosewandhehadbeentouched。TobetouchedmyselfwasdoubtlessnotquitewhatIwanted;yetIwanted,distinctly,aglimpse;sothat,withthesmartwelcomeLadyJohngaveme,ImightcertainlyhavefeltthatIwasonthewaytogetit。ThenoteofLong’spredominancedeepenedduringtheseminutesinamannerIcan’tdescribe,andIcontinuedtofeelthatthoughwepretendedtotalkitwastohimonlywelistened。
Hehadusallinhand;hecontrolledforthemomentallourattentionandourrelations。Hewasinshort,asaconsequenceofourattitude,inpossessionofthescenetoatunehecouldn’thavedreamedofayearortwobefore——inasmuchasatthatperiodhecouldhavefiguredatnosucheminencewithoutmakingafoolofhimself。Andthegreatthingwasthatifhiseminencewasnowsoperfectlygracedheyetknewlessthananyofuswhatwasthematterwithhim。Hewasunconsciousofhowhehad"comeout"——whichwasexactlywhatsharpenedmywonder。LadyJohn,onherside,wasthoroughlyconscious,andIhadafancythatshelookedatmetomeasurehowfarIwas。Icared,naturally,notintheleastwhatsheguessed;herinterestformewasallintheoperationofherinfluence。IamafraidIwatchedtocatchitintheact——watchedherwithacuriosityofwhichshemightwellhavebecomeaware。
Whatanintimacy,whatanintensityofrelation,Isaidtomyself,sosuccessfulaprocessimplied!Itwasofcoursefamiliarenoughthatwhenpeopleweresodeeplyinlovetheyrubbedoffoneachother——thatagreatpressureofsoultosoulusuallyleftoneithersideasufficientshowoftell—taletraces。ButforLongtohavebeensostampedasIfoundhim,howthepliantwaxmusthavebeenpreparedandthesealofpassionapplied!
Whatanaffectionthewomanworkingsuchachangeinhimmusthavemanagedtocreateasaprefacetoherinfluence!Withwhatasenseofhercharmshemusthavepavedthewayforit!Strangelyenough,however——itwasevenratherirritating——therewasnothingmorethanusualinLadyJohntoassistmyviewoftheheightatwhichthepairsoevokedmustmove。Thesethings——thewayotherpeoplecouldfeelabouteachother,thepowernotone’sself,inthegiveninstance,thatmadeforpassion——wereofcourseatbestthemysteryofmysteries;still,therewerecasesinwhichfancy,soundingthedepthsortheshallows,couldatleastdropthelead。LadyJohn,perceptibly,wasnosuchcase;imagination,inherpresence,wasbuttheweakwingoftheinsectthatbumpsagainsttheglass。Shewaspretty,prompt,hard,and,inawaythatwasspecialtoher,amistressatonceof"culture"
andofslang。Shewaslikeahat——withoneofMrs。Briss’shat—pins——askewonthebustofVirgil。Herornamentalinformation——asstrongasacoatoffurniture—polish——almostknockedyoudown。WhatIfeltinhernowmorethaneverwasthat,havingareputationfor"point"tokeepup,shewasalwaysunderarms,withabsencesandanxietieslikethoseofacelebrityatapublicdinner。Shethoughttoomuchofher"speech"——ofhowsoonitwouldhavetocome。Itwasnonethelesswonderful,however,that,asGraceBrissendenhadsaid,sheshouldstillfindherselfwithintellecttospare——havelavishedherselfbypreceptandexampleonLongandyethaveremainedforeachotherinterlocutorasfreshastheclownboundingintothering。Shecracked,formybenefit,asmanyjokesandturnedasmanysomersaultsasmighthavebeenexpected;afterwhichIthoughtitfairtoletheroff。
Weallfacedagaintothehouse,fordressinganddinnerwereinsight。
Ifoundmyselfoncemore,aswemoved,withMrs。Server,andIrememberrejoicingthat,sympatheticassheshowedherself,shedidn’tthinkitnecessarytobe,likeLadyJohn,always"ready。"Shewasdelightfullyhandsome——handsomerthanever;slim,fair,fine,withcharmingpaleeyesandsplendidauburnhair。IsaidtomyselfthatIhadn’tdoneherjustice;shehadn’torganisedherforces,wasalittlehelplessandvague,buttherewaseaseforthewearyinherhappynatureandherpeculiargrace。Theselastwerearticlesonwhich,fiveminuteslater,beforethehouse,wherewestillhadamargin,IwasmovedtochallengeFordObert。
"Whatwasthematterjustnow——when,thoughyouweresofortunatelyoccupied,youyetseemedtocallmetotherescue?"
"Oh,"helaughed,"Iwasonlyoccupiedinbeingfrightened!"
"Butatwhat?"
"Well,atasortofsensethatshewantedtomakelovetome。"
Ireflected。"Mrs。Server?DoesMrs。Servermakelove?"
"Itseemedtome,"myfriendreplied,"thatshebeganonittoYOUassoonasshegotholdofyou。Weren’tyouaware?"
Idebatedafresh;Ididn’tknowthatIhadbeen。"Nottothepointofterror。She’ssogentleandsoappealing。Evenifshetookoneinhandwithviolence,moreover,"Iadded,"Idon’tseewhyterror——givensocharmingaperson——shouldbetheresult。It’sflattering。"
"Ah,you’rebrave,"saidObert。
"Ididn’tknowyouwereevertimid。Howcanyoube,inyourprofession?
Doesn’titcomebacktome,forthatmatter,that——onlytheotheryear——youpaintedher?"
"Yes,Ifacedhertothatextent。Butshe’sdifferentnow。"
Iscarcelymadeitout。"Inwhatwaydifferent?She’sascharmingasever。"
Asifevenforhisownsatisfactionmyfriendseemedtothinkalittle。
"Well,heraffectionswerenotthen,Iimagine,atherdisposal。Ijudgethatthat’swhatitmusthavebeen。Theywerefixed——withintensity;anditmadethedifferencewithME。Herimaginationhad,forthetime,resteditswing。Atpresentit’sreadyforflight——itseeksafreshperch。It’strying。Takecare。"
"Oh,Idon’tflattermyself,"Ilaughed,"thatI’veonlytoholdoutmyhand!Atanyrate,"Iwenton,"ishan’tcallforhelp。"
Heseemedtothinkagain。"Idon’tknow。You’llsee。"
"IfIdoIshallseeagreatdealmorethanInowsuspect。"Hewantedtogetofftodress,butIstillheldhim。"Isn’tshewonderfullylovely?"
"Oh!"hesimplyexclaimed。
"Isn’tsheaslovelyassheseems?"
Buthehadalreadybrokenaway。"Whathasthattodowithit?"
"Whathasanything,then?"
"She’stoobeastlyunhappy。"
"Butisn’tthatjustone’sadvantage?"
"No。It’suncanny。"Andheescaped。
ThequestionhadatalleventsbroughtusindoorsandsofarupourstaircaseastowhereitbranchedtowardsObert’sroom。Ifollowedittomycorridor,withwhichotheroccasionshadmademeacquainted,andIreachedthedooronwhichIexpectedtofindmycardofdesignation。Thisdoor,however,wasopen,soastoshowme,inmomentarypossessionoftheroom,agentleman,unknowntome,who,inunguidedquestofhisquarters,appearedtohavearrivedfromtheotherendofthepassage。Hehadjustseen,asthepropertyofanother,myunpackedthings,withwhichheimmediatelyconnectedme。Hemoreover,tomysurprise,onmyentering,soundedmyname,inresponsetowhichIcouldonlyatfirstremainblank。ItwasinfactnottillIhadbeguntohelphimplacehimselfthat,correctingmyblankness,IknewhimforGuyBrissenden。Hehadbeenputbyhimself,forsomereason,inthebachelorwingand,exploringathazard,hadmistakenthesigns。
BythetimewefoundhisservantandhislodgingIhadreflectedontheoddityofmyhavingbeenasstupidaboutthehusbandasIhadbeenaboutthewife。Hehadescapedmynoticesinceourarrival,butIhad,asamucholderman,methim——theheroofhisoddunion——atsomeearliertime。Likehiswife,nonetheless,hehadnowstruckmeasastranger,anditwasnottill,inhisroom,IstoodalittlefacetofacewithhimthatImadeoutthewonderfulreason。
ThewonderfulreasonwasthatIwasNOTamucholderman;GuyBrissenden,atanyrate,wasnotamuchyounger。Itwashewhowasold——itwashewhowasolder——itwashewhowasoldest。Thatwassodisconcertinglywhathehadbecome。Itwasinshortwhathewouldhavebeenhadhebeenasoldashelooked。Helookedalmostanything——helookedquitesixty。Imadeitoutagainatdinner,where,fromadistance,butopposite,Ihadhiminsight。Nothingcouldhavebeenstrangerthanthewaythat,fatigued,fixed,settled,heseemedtohavepileduptheyears。Theyweretherewithouthavinghadtimetoarrive。Itwasasifhehaddiscoveredsomemiraculousshortcuttothecommondoom。Hehadgrownold,infine,aspeopleyouseeafteranintervalsometimesstrikeyouashavinggrownrich——tooquicklyforthehonest,oratleastforthestraight,way。Hehadcheatedorinheritedorspeculated。Ittookmebutaminutethentoaddhimtomylittlegallery——thesmallcollection,Imean,representedbyhiswifeandbyGilbertLong,aswellasinsomedegreedoubtlessalsobyLadyJohn:themuseumofthosewhoputtomewithsuchintensitythequestionofwhathadhappenedtothem。Hiswife,onthesameside,wasnotoutofmyrange,andnow,largelyexposed,lighted,jewelled,andenjoyingmoreovervisiblythesenseofthesethings——hiswife,uponmyhonour,asIsoonremarkedtotheladynextme,hiswife(itwastooprodigious!)lookedabouttwenty。
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