"Butyoumustnotsacrificeyourselftoherfromanysenseofjustice,"repliedEustaciaquickly。
"Ifyoudonotloveheritisthemostmercifulthinginthelongruntoleaveherassheis。That’salwaysthebestway。There,nowIhavebeenunwomanly,Isuppose。
WhenyouhaveleftmeIamalwaysangrywithmyselfforthingsthatIhavesaidtoyou。"
Wildevewalkedapaceortwoamongtheheatherwithoutreplying。
Thepausewasfilledupbytheintonationofapollardthornalittlewaytowindward,thebreezesfilteringthroughitsunyieldingtwigsasthroughastrainer。
Itwasasifthenightsangdirgeswithclenchedteeth。
Shecontinued,halfsorrowfully,"Sincemeetingyoulast,ithasoccurredtomeonceortwicethatperhapsitwasnotforloveofmeyoudidnotmarryher。Tellme,Damon——I’lltrytobearit。HadInothingwhatevertodowiththematter?"
"Doyoupressmetotell?"
"Yes,Imustknow。IseeIhavebeentooreadytobelieveinmyownpower。"
"Well,theimmediatereasonwasthatthelicensewouldnotdofortheplace,andbeforeIcouldgetanothersheranaway。Uptothatpointyouhadnothingtodowithit。
SincethenheraunthasspokentomeinatonewhichI
don’tatalllike。"
"Yes,yes!Iamnothinginit——Iamnothinginit。
Youonlytriflewithme。Heaven,whatcanI,EustaciaVye,bemadeoftothinksomuchofyou!"
"Nonsense;donotbesopassionate……Eustacia,howwerovedamongthesebusheslastyear,whenthehotdayshadgotcool,andtheshadesofthehillskeptusalmostinvisibleinthehollows!"
Sheremainedinmoodysilencetillshesaid,"Yes;andhowIusedtolaughatyoufordaringtolookuptome!
Butyouhavewellmademesufferforthatsince。"
"Yes,youservedmecruellyenoughuntilIthoughtIhadfoundsomeonefairerthanyou。Ablessedfindforme,Eustacia。"
"Doyoustillthinkyoufoundsomebodyfairer?"
"SometimesIdo,sometimesIdon’t。Thescalesarebalancedsonicelythatafeatherwouldturnthem。"
"Butdon’tyoureallycarewhetherImeetyouorwhetherIdon’t?"shesaidslowly。
"Icarealittle,butnotenoughtobreakmyrest,"
repliedtheyoungmanlanguidly。"No,allthat’spast。
IfindtherearetwoflowerswhereIthoughttherewasonlyone。Perhapstherearethree,orfour,oranynumberasgoodasthefirst……Mineisacuriousfate。
Whowouldhavethoughtthatallthiscouldhappentome?"
Sheinterruptedwithasuppressedfireofwhicheitherloveorangerseemedanequallypossibleissue,"Doyoulovemenow?"
"Whocansay?"
"Tellme;Iwillknowit!"
"Ido,andIdonot,"saidhemischievously。"Thatis,Ihavemytimesandmyseasons。Onemomentyouaretootall,anothermomentyouaretoodo—nothing,anothertoomelancholy,anothertoodark,anotherIdon’tknowwhat,except——thatyouarenotthewholeworldtomethatyouusedtobe,mydear。
Butyouareapleasantladytoknowandnicetomeet,andIdaresayassweetasever——almost。"
Eustaciawassilent,andsheturnedfromhim,tillshesaid,inavoiceofsuspendedmightiness,"Iamforawalk,andthisismyway。"
"Well,Icandoworsethanfollowyou。"
"Youknowyoucan’tdootherwise,forallyourmoodsandchanges!"sheanswereddefiantly。"Saywhatyouwill;
tryasyoumay;keepawayfrommeallthatyoucan——youwillneverforgetme。Youwilllovemeallyourlifelong。
Youwouldjumptomarryme!"
"SoIwould!"saidWildeve。"SuchstrangethoughtsasI’vehadfromtimetotime,Eustacia;andtheycometomethismoment。Youhatetheheathasmuchasever;
thatIknow。"
"Ido,"shemurmureddeeply。"’Tismycross,myshame,andwillbemydeath!"
"Iabhorittoo,"saidhe。"Howmournfullythewindblowsroundusnow!"
Shedidnotanswer。Itstonewasindeedsolemnandpervasive。
Compoundutterancesaddressedthemselvestotheirsenses,anditwaspossibletoviewbyearthefeaturesoftheneighbourhood。
Acousticpictureswerereturnedfromthedarkenedscenery;
theycouldhearwherethetractsofheatherbeganandended;
wherethefurzewasgrowingstalkyandtall;whereithadbeenrecentlycut;inwhatdirectionthefir—clumplay,andhownearwasthepitinwhichtheholliesgrew;
forthesedifferingfeatureshadtheirvoicesnolessthantheirshapesandcolours。
"God,howlonelyitis!"resumedWildeve。"Whatarepicturesqueravinesandmiststouswhoseenothingelse?"
Whyshouldwestayhere?WillyougowithmetoAmerica?
IhavekindredinWisconsin。"
"Thatwantsconsideration。"
"Itseemsimpossibletodowellhere,unlessonewereawildbirdoralandscape—painter。Well?"
"Givemetime,"shesoftlysaid,takinghishand。
"Americaissofaraway。Areyougoingtowalkwithmealittleway?"
AsEustaciautteredthelatterwordssheretiredfromthebaseofthebarrow,andWildevefollowedher,sothatthereddlemancouldhearnomore。
Heliftedtheturvesandarose。Theirblackfiguressankanddisappearedfromagainstthesky。Theywereastwohornswhichthesluggishheathhadputforthfromitscrown,likeamollusc,andhadnowagaindrawnin。
Thereddleman’swalkacrossthevale,andoverintothenextwherehiscartlay,wasnotsprightlyforaslimyoungfellowoftwenty—four。Hisspiritwasperturbedtoaching。
Thebreezesthatblewaroundhismouthinthatwalkcarriedoffuponthemtheaccentsofacommination。
Heenteredthevan,wheretherewasafireinastove。
Withoutlightinghiscandlehesatdownatonceonthethree—leggedstool,andponderedonwhathehadseenandheardtouchingthatstill—lovedoneofhis。
Heutteredasoundwhichwasneithersighnorsob,butwasevenmoreindicativethaneitherofatroubledmind。
"MyTamsie,"hewhisperedheavily。"Whatcanbedone?Yes,IwillseethatEustaciaVye。"
10—ADesperateAttemptatPersuasionThenextmorning,atthetimewhentheheightofthesunappearedveryinsignificantfromanypartoftheheathascomparedwiththealtitudeofRainbarrow,andwhenallthelittlehillsinthelowerlevelswerelikeanarchipelagoinafog—formedAegean,thereddlemancamefromthebramblednookwhichhehadadoptedashisquartersandascendedtheslopesofMistoverKnap。
Thoughtheseshaggyhillswereapparentlysosolitary,severalkeenroundeyeswerealwaysreadyonsuchawintrymorningasthistoconvergeuponapasser—by。
Featheredspeciessojournedhereinhidingwhichwouldhavecreatedwonderiffoundelsewhere。Abustardhauntedthespot,andnotmanyyearsbeforethisfiveandtwentymighthavebeenseeninEgdonatonetime。
Marsh—harrierslookedupfromthevalleybyWildeve’s。
Acream—colouredcourserhadusedtovisitthishill,abirdsorarethatnotmorethanadozenhaveeverbeenseeninEngland;butabarbarianrestedneithernightnordaytillhehadshottheAfricantruant,andafterthateventcream—colouredcoursersthoughtfittoenterEgdonnomore。
AtravellerwhoshouldwalkandobserveanyofthesevisitantsasVennobservedthemnowcouldfeelhimselftobeindirectcommunicationwithregionsunknowntoman。
Hereinfrontofhimwasawildmallard——justarrivedfromthehomeofthenorthwind。ThecreaturebroughtwithinhimanamplitudeofNorthernknowledge。Glacialcatastrophes,snowstormepisodes,glitteringauroraleffects,Polarisinthezenith,Franklinunderfoot——thecategoryofhiscommonplaceswaswonderful。Butthebird,likemanyotherphilosophers,seemedashelookedatthereddlemantothinkthatapresentmomentofcomfortablerealitywasworthadecadeofmemories。
Vennpassedonthroughthesetowardsthehouseoftheisolatedbeautywholivedupamongthemanddespisedthem。
ThedaywasSunday;butasgoingtochurch,excepttobemarriedorburied,wasexceptionalatEgdon,thismadelittledifference。HehaddeterminedupontheboldstrokeofaskingforaninterviewwithMissVye——toattackherpositionasThomasin’srivaleitherbyartorbystorm,showingtherein,somewhattooconspicuously,thewantofgallantrycharacteristicofacertainastutesortofmen,fromclownstokings。ThegreatFrederickmakingwaronthebeautifulArchduchess,NapoleonrefusingtermstothebeautifulQueenofPrussia,werenotmoredeadtodifferenceofsexthanthereddlemanwas,inhispeculiarway,inplanningthedisplacementofEustacia。
Tocallatthecaptain’scottagewasalwaysmoreorlessanundertakingfortheinferiorinhabitants。
Thoughoccasionallychatty,hismoodswereerratic,andnobodycouldbecertainhowhewouldbehaveatanyparticularmoment。Eustaciawasreserved,andlivedverymuchtoherself。Exceptthedaughterofoneofthecotters,whowastheirservant,andaladwhoworkedinthegardenandstable,scarcelyanyonebutthemselveseverenteredthehouse。TheyweretheonlygenteelpeopleofthedistrictexcepttheYeobrights,andthoughfarfromrich,theydidnotfeelthatnecessityforpreservingafriendlyfacetowardseveryman,bird,andbeastwhichinfluencedtheirpoorerneighbours。
Whenthereddlemanenteredthegardentheoldmanwaslookingthroughhisglassatthestainofblueseainthedistantlandscape,thelittleanchorsonhisbuttonstwinklinginthesun。HerecognizedVennashiscompaniononthehighway,butmadenoremarkonthatcircumstance,merelysaying,"Ah,reddleman——youhere?Haveaglassofgrog?"
Venndeclined,onthepleaofitbeingtooearly,andstatedthathisbusinesswaswithMissVye。Thecaptainsurveyedhimfromcaptowaistcoatandfromwaistcoattoleggingsforafewmoments,andfinallyaskedhimtogoindoors。
MissVyewasnottobeseenbyanybodyjustthen;
andthereddlemanwaitedinthewindow—benchofthekitchen,hishandshangingacrosshisdivergentknees,andhiscaphangingfromhishands。
"Isupposetheyoungladyisnotupyet?"hepresentlysaidtotheservant。
"Notquiteyet。Folksnevercalluponladiesatthistimeofday。"
"ThenI’llstepoutside,"saidVenn。"Ifsheiswillingtoseeme,willshepleasesendoutword,andI’llcomein。"
Thereddlemanleftthehouseandloiteredonthehilladjoining。Aconsiderabletimeelapsed,andnorequestforhispresencewasbrought。Hewasbeginningtothinkthathisschemehadfailed,whenhebeheldtheformofEustaciaherselfcomingleisurelytowardshim。
Asenseofnoveltyingivingaudiencetothatsingularfigurehadbeensufficienttodrawherforth。
Sheseemedtofeel,afterabarelookatDiggoryVenn,thatthemanhadcomeonastrangeerrand,andthathewasnotsomeanasshehadthoughthim;forhercloseapproachdidnotcausehimtowritheuneasily,orshifthisfeet,orshowanyofthoselittlesignswhichescapeaningenuousrusticattheadventoftheuncommoninwomankind。
Onhisinquiringifhemighthaveaconversationwithhershereplied,"Yes,walkbesideme,"andcontinuedtomoveon。
Beforetheyhadgonefaritoccurredtotheperspicaciousreddlemanthathewouldhaveactedmorewiselybyappearinglessunimpressionable,andheresolvedtocorrecttheerrorassoonashecouldfindopportunity。
"Ihavemadesobold,miss,astostepacrossandtellyousomestrangenewswhichhascometomyearsaboutthatman。"
"Ah!whatman?"
Hejerkedhiselbowtothesoutheast——thedirectionoftheQuietWoman。
Eustaciaturnedquicklytohim。"DoyoumeanMr。Wildeve?"
"Yes,thereistroubleinahouseholdonaccountofhim,andIhavecometoletyouknowofit,becauseIbelieveyoumighthavepowertodriveitaway。"
"I?Whatisthetrouble?"
"Itisquiteasecret。ItisthathemayrefusetomarryThomasinYeobrightafterall。"
Eustacia,thoughsetinwardlypulsingbyhiswords,wasequaltoherpartinsuchadramaasthis。
Sherepliedcoldly,"Idonotwishtolistentothis,andyoumustnotexpectmetointerfere。"
"But,miss,youwillhearoneword?"
"Icannot。Iamnotinterestedinthemarriage,andevenifIwereIcouldnotcompelMr。Wildevetodomybidding。"
"AstheonlyladyontheheathIthinkyoumight,"saidVennwithsubtleindirectness。"Thisishowthecasestands。
Mr。WildevewouldmarryThomasinatonce,andmakeallmatterssmooth,ifsobetherewerenotanotherwomaninthecase。Thisotherwomanissomepersonhehaspickedupwith,andmeetsontheheathoccasionally,Ibelieve。Hewillnevermarryher,andyetthroughherhemaynevermarrythewomanwholoveshimdearly。
Now,ifyou,miss,whohavesomuchswayoverusmenfolk,weretoinsistthatheshouldtreatyouryoungneighbourTamsinwithhonourablekindnessandgiveuptheotherwoman,hewouldperhapsdoit,andsaveheragooddealofmisery。"
"Ah,mylife!"saidEustacia,withalaughwhichunclosedherlipssothatthesunshoneintohermouthasintoatulip,andlentitasimilarscarletfire。"Youthinktoomuchofmyinfluenceovermenfolkindeed,reddleman。
IfIhadsuchapowerasyouimagineIwouldgostraightanduseitforthegoodofanybodywhohasbeenkindtome——whichThomasinYeobrighthasnotparticularly,tomyknowledge。"
"Canitbethatyoureallydon’tknowofit——howmuchshehadalwaysthoughtofyou?"
"Ihaveneverheardawordofit。AlthoughweliveonlytwomilesapartIhaveneverbeeninsideheraunt’shouseinmylife。"
ThesuperciliousnessthatlurkedinhermannertoldVennthatthusfarhehadutterlyfailed。Heinwardlysighedandfeltitnecessarytounmaskhissecondargument。
"Well,leavingthatoutofthequestion,’tisinyourpower,Iassureyou,MissVye,todoagreatdealofgoodtoanotherwoman。"
Sheshookherhead。
"YourcomelinessislawwithMr。Wildeve。Itislawwithallmenwhosee’ee。Theysay,’Thiswell—
favouredladycoming——what’shername?Howhandsome!’
HandsomerthanThomasinYeobright,"thereddlemanpersisted,sayingtohimself,"Godforgivearascalforlying!"Andshewashandsomer,butthereddlemanwasfarfromthinkingso。
TherewasacertainobscurityinEustacia’sbeauty,andVenn’seyewasnottrained。Inherwinterdress,asnow,shewaslikethetiger—beetle,which,whenobservedindullsituations,seemstobeofthequietestneutralcolour,butunderafullilluminationblazeswithdazzlingsplendour。
Eustaciacouldnothelpreplying,thoughconsciousthatsheendangeredherdignitythereby。"ManywomenarelovelierthanThomasin,"shesaid,"sonotmuchattachestothat。"
Thereddlemansufferedthewoundandwenton:"Heisamanwhonoticesthelooksofwomen,andyoucouldtwisthimtoyourwilllikewithywind,ifyouonlyhadthemind。"
"SurelywhatshecannotdowhohasbeensomuchwithhimIcannotdolivinguphereawayfromhim。"
Thereddlemanwheeledandlookedherintheface。
"MissVye!"hesaid。
"Whydoyousaythat——asifyoudoubtedme?"Shespokefaintly,andherbreathingwasquick。"Theideaofyourspeakinginthattonetome!"sheadded,withaforcedsmileofhauteur。
"Whatcouldhavebeeninyourmindtoleadyoutospeaklikethat?"
"MissVye,whyshouldyoumakebelievethatyoudon’tknowthisman?——Iknowwhy,certainly。Heisbeneathyou,andyouareashamed。"
"Youaremistaken。Whatdoyoumean?"
Thereddlemanhaddecidedtoplaythecardoftruth。
"IwasatthemeetingbyRainbarrowlastnightandheardeveryword,"hesaid。"ThewomanthatstandsbetweenWildeveandThomasinisyourself。"
Itwasadisconcertingliftofthecurtain,andthemortificationofCandaules’wifeglowedinher。
Themomenthadarrivedwhenherlipwouldtrembleinspiteofherself,andwhenthegaspcouldnolongerbekeptdown。
"Iamunwell,"shesaidhurriedly。"No——itisnotthat——I
amnotinahumourtohearyoufurther。Leaveme,please。"
"Imustspeak,MissVye,inspiteofpainingyou。
WhatIwouldputbeforeyouisthis。Howeveritmaycomeabout——whethersheistoblame,oryou——hercaseiswithoutdoubtworsethanyours。YourgivingupMr。Wildevewillbearealadvantagetoyou,forhowcouldyoumarryhim?
Nowshecannotgetoffsoeasily——everybodywillblameherifsheloseshim。ThenIaskyou——notbecauseherrightisbest,butbecausehersituationisworst——togivehimuptoher。"
"No——Iwon’t,Iwon’t!"shesaidimpetuously,quiteforgetfulofherpreviousmannertowardsthereddlemanasanunderling。
"Nobodyhaseverbeenservedso!Itwasgoingonwell——I
willnotbebeatendown——byaninferiorwomanlikeher。
Itisverywellforyoutocomeandpleadforher,butisshenotherselfthecauseofallherowntrouble?
AmInottoshowfavourtoanypersonImaychoosewithoutaskingpermissionofaparcelofcottagers?Shehascomebetweenmeandmyinclination,andnowthatshefindsherselfrightlypunishedshegetsyoutopleadforher!"
"Indeed,"saidVennearnestly,"sheknowsnothingwhateveraboutit。ItisonlyIwhoaskyoutogivehimup。
Itwillbebetterforherandyouboth。Peoplewillsaybadthingsiftheyfindoutthataladysecretlymeetsamanwhohasill—usedanotherwoman。"
"IhaveNOTinjuredher——hewasminebeforehewashers!Hecameback——because——becausehelikedmebest!"
shesaidwildly。"ButIloseallself—respectintalkingtoyou。WhatamIgivingwayto!"
"Icankeepsecrets,"saidVenngently。"Youneednotfear。
Iamtheonlymanwhoknowsofyourmeetingswithhim。
Thereisbutonethingmoretospeakof,andthenIwillbegone。Iheardyousaytohimthatyouhatedlivinghere——thatEgdonHeathwasajailtoyou。"
"Ididsayso。Thereisasortofbeautyinthescenery,Iknow;butitisajailtome。Themanyoumentiondoesnotsavemefromthatfeeling,thoughheliveshere。
Ishouldhavecarednothingforhimhadtherebeenabetterpersonnear。"
Thereddlemanlookedhopeful;afterthesewordsfromherhisthirdattemptseemedpromising。"Aswehavenowopenedourmindsabit,miss,"hesaid,"I’lltellyouwhatIhavegottopropose。SinceIhavetakentothereddletradeItravelagooddeal,asyouknow。"
Sheinclinedherhead,andsweptroundsothathereyesrestedinthemistyvalebeneaththem。
"AndinmytravelsIgonearBudmouth。NowBudmouthisawonderfulplace——wonderful——agreatsaltsheeningseabendingintothelandlikeabow——thousandsofgentlepeoplewalkingupanddown——bandsofmusicplaying——officersbyseaandofficersbylandwalkingamongtherest——outofeverytenfolksyoumeetnineof’eminlove。"
"Iknowit,"shesaiddisdainfully。"IknowBudmouthbetterthanyou。Iwasbornthere。Myfathercametobeamilitarymusiciantherefromabroad。Ah,mysoul,Budmouth!IwishIwastherenow。"
Thereddlemanwassurprisedtoseehowaslowfirecouldblazeonoccasion。"Ifyouwere,miss,"hereplied,"inaweek’stimeyouwouldthinknomoreofWildevethanofoneofthosehe’th—croppersthatweseeyond。
Now,Icouldgetyouthere。"
"How?"saidEustacia,withintensecuriosityinherheavyeyes。
"Myunclehasbeenforfiveandtwentyyearsthetrustymanofarichwidow—ladywhohasabeautifulhousefacingthesea。Thisladyhasbecomeoldandlame,andshewantsayoungcompany—keepertoreadandsingtoher,butcan’tgetonetohermindtosaveherlife,thoughshe’veadvertisedinthepapers,andtriedhalfadozen。Shewouldjumptogetyou,andUnclewouldmakeitalleasy。"
"Ishouldhavetowork,perhaps?"
"No,notrealwork——you’dhavealittletodo,suchasreadingandthat。YouwouldnotbewantedtillNewYear’sDay。"
"Iknewitmeantwork,"shesaid,droopingtolanguoragain。
"Iconfesstherewouldbeatrifletodointhewayofamusingher;butthoughidlepeoplemightcallitwork,workingpeoplewouldcallitplay。Thinkofthecompanyandthelifeyou’dlead,miss;thegaietyyou’dsee,andthegentlemanyou’dmarry。Myuncleistoinquireforatrustworthyyoungladyfromthecountry,asshedon’tliketowngirls。"
"Itistowearmyselfouttopleaseher!andIwon’tgo。
O,ifIcouldliveinagaytownasaladyshould,andgomyownways,anddomyowndoings,I’dgivethewrinkledhalfofmylife!Yes,reddleman,thatwouldI。"
"HelpmetogetThomasinhappy,miss,andthechanceshallbeyours,"urgedhercompanion。
"Chance——’tisnochance,"shesaidproudly。"Whatcanapoormanlikeyouofferme,indeed?——Iamgoingindoors。
Ihavenothingmoretosay。Don’tyourhorseswantfeeding,oryourreddlebagswantmending,ordon’tyouwanttofindbuyersforyourgoods,thatyoustayidlingherelikethis?"
Vennspokenotanotherword。Withhishandsbehindhimheturnedaway,thatshemightnotseethehopelessdisappointmentinhisface。Thementalclearnessandpowerhehadfoundinthislonelygirlhadindeedfilledhismannerwithmisgivingevenfromthefirstfewminutesofclosequarterswithher。Heryouthandsituationhadledhimtoexpectasimplicityquiteatthebeckofhismethod。
ButasystemofinducementwhichmighthavecarriedweakercountrylassesalongwithithadmerelyrepelledEustacia。
Asarule,thewordBudmouthmeantfascinationonEgdon。
ThatRoyalportandwateringplace,iftrulymirroredinthemindsoftheheathfolk,musthavecombined,inacharmingandindescribablemanneraCarthaginianbustleofbuildingwithTarentineluxuriousnessandBaianhealthandbeauty。
Eustaciafeltlittlelessextravagantlyabouttheplace;
butshewouldnotsinkherindependencetogetthere。
WhenDiggoryVennhadgonequiteaway,Eustaciawalkedtothebankandlookeddownthewildandpicturesquevaletowardsthesun,whichwasalsointhedirectionofWildeve’s。Themisthadnowsofarcollapsedthatthetipsofthetreesandbushesaroundhishousecouldjustbediscerned,asifboringupwardsthroughavastwhitecobwebwhichcloakedthemfromtheday。
Therewasnodoubtthathermindwasinclinedthitherward;
indefinitely,fancifully——twininganduntwiningabouthimasthesingleobjectwithinherhorizononwhichdreamsmightcrystallize。Themanwhohadbegunbybeingmerelyheramusement,andwouldneverhavebeenmorethanherhobbybutforhisskillindesertingherattherightmoments,wasnowagainherdesire。
Cessationinhislove—makinghadrevivifiedherlove。
SuchfeelingasEustaciahadidlygiventoWildevewasdammedintoafloodbyThomasin。ShehadusedtoteaseWildeve,butthatwasbeforeanotherhadfavouredhim。Oftenadropofironyintoanindifferentsituationrendersthewholepiquant。
"Iwillnevergivehimup——never!"shesaidimpetuously。
Thereddleman’shintthatrumourmightshowhertodisadvantagehadnopermanentterrorforEustacia。Shewasasunconcernedatthatcontingencyasagoddessatalackoflinen。