Onanotheroccasionwhenreconnoitringthusshebeheldtwofemalefigureswalkinginthevale。Thedaywasfineandclear;andthepersonsnotbeingmorethanhalfamileoffshecouldseetheireverydetailwiththetelescope。
Thewomanwalkinginfrontcarriedawhitebundleinherarms,fromoneendofwhichhungalongappendageofdrapery;
andwhenthewalkersturned,sothatthesunfellmoredirectlyuponthem,Eustaciacouldseethattheobjectwasababy。
ShecalledCharley,andaskedhimifheknewwhotheywere,thoughshewellguessed。
"Mrs。Wildeveandthenurse—girl,"saidCharley。
"Thenurseiscarryingthebaby?"saidEustacia。
"No,’tisMrs。Wildevecarryingthat,"heanswered,"andthenursewalksbehindcarryingnothing。"
Theladwasingoodspiritsthatday,fortheFifthofNovemberhadagaincomeround,andhewasplanningyetanotherschemetodivertherfromhertooabsorbingthoughts。
Fortwosuccessiveyearshismistresshadseemedtotakepleasureinlightingabonfireonthebankoverlookingthevalley;butthisyearshehadapparentlyquiteforgottenthedayandthecustomarydeed。
Hewascarefulnottoremindher,andwentonwithhissecretpreparationsforacheerfulsurprise,themorezealouslythathehadbeenabsentlasttimeandunabletoassist。Ateveryvacantminutehehastenedtogatherfurze—stumps,thorn—treeroots,andothersolidmaterialsfromtheadjacentslopes,hidingthemfromcursoryview。
Theeveningcame,andEustaciawasstillseeminglyunconsciousoftheanniversary。Shehadgoneindoorsafterhersurveythroughtheglass,andhadnotbeenvisiblesince。AssoonasitwasquitedarkCharleybegantobuildthebonfire,choosingpreciselythatspotonthebankwhichEustaciahadchosenatprevioustimes。
WhenallthesurroundingbonfireshadburstintoexistenceCharleykindledhis,andarrangeditsfuelsothatitshouldnotrequiretendingforsometime。
Hethenwentbacktothehouse,andlingeredroundthedoorandwindowstillsheshouldbysomemeansorotherlearnofhisachievementandcomeouttowitnessit。
Buttheshutterswereclosed,thedoorremainedshut,andnoheedwhateverseemedtobetakenofhisperformance。
Notlikingtocallherhewentbackandreplenishedthefire,continuingtodothisformorethanhalfanhour。
ItwasnottillhisstockoffuelhadgreatlydiminishedthathewenttothebackdoorandsentintobegthatMrs。Yeobrightwouldopenthewindow—shuttersandseethesightoutside。
Eustacia,whohadbeensittinglistlesslyintheparlour,startedupattheintelligenceandflungopentheshutters。
Facingheronthebankblazedthefire,whichatoncesentaruddyglareintotheroomwhereshewas,andoverpoweredthecandles。
"Welldone,Charley!"saidCaptainVyefromthechimney—corner。
"ButIhopeitisnotmywoodthathe’sburning……Ah,itwasthistimelastyearthatImetwiththatmanVenn,bringinghomeThomasinYeobright——tobesureitwas!Well,whowouldhavethoughtthatgirl’stroubleswouldhaveendedsowell?Whatasnipeyouwereinthatmatter,Eustacia!Hasyourhusbandwrittentoyouyet?"
"No,"saidEustacia,lookingvaguelythroughthewindowatthefire,whichjustthensomuchengagedhermindthatshedidnotresenthergrandfather’sbluntopinion。
ShecouldseeCharley’sformonthebank,shovellingandstirringthefire;andthereflasheduponherimaginationsomeotherformwhichthatfiremightcallup。
Shelefttheroom,putonhergardenbonnetandcloak,andwentout。Reachingthebank,shelookedoverwithawildcuriosityandmisgiving,whenCharleysaidtoher,withapleasedsenseofhimself,"Imadeito’
purposeforyou,ma’am。"
"Thankyou,"shesaidhastily。"ButIwishyoutoputitoutnow。"
"Itwillsoonburndown,"saidCharley,ratherdisappointed。
"Isitnotapitytoknockitout?"
"Idon’tknow,"shemusinglyanswered。
Theystoodinsilence,brokenonlybythecracklingoftheflames,tillCharley,perceivingthatshedidnotwanttotalktohim,movedreluctantlyaway。
Eustaciaremainedwithinthebanklookingatthefire,intendingtogoindoors,yetlingeringstill。Hadshenotbyhersituationbeeninclinedtoholdinindifferenceallthingshonouredofthegodsandofmenshewouldprobablyhavecomeaway。Butherstatewassohopelessthatshecouldplaywithit。Tohavelostislessdisturbingthantowonderifwemaypossiblyhavewon;
andEustaciacouldnow,likeotherpeopleatsuchastage,takeastanding—pointoutsideherself,observeherselfasadisinterestedspectator,andthinkwhatasportforHeaventhiswomanEustaciawas。
Whileshestoodsheheardasound。Itwasthesplashofastoneinthepond。
HadEustaciareceivedthestonefullinthebosomherheartcouldnothavegivenamoredecidedthump。
ShehadthoughtofthepossibilityofsuchasignalinanswertothatwhichhadbeenunwittinglygivenbyCharley;
butshehadnotexpectedityet。HowpromptWildevewas!Yethowcouldhethinkhercapableofdeliberatelywishingtorenewtheirassignationsnow?Animpulsetoleavethespot,adesiretostay,struggledwithinher;
andthedesirehelditsown。Morethanthatitdidnotdo,forsherefrainedevenfromascendingthebankandlookingover。Sheremainedmotionless,notdisturbingamuscleofherfaceorraisinghereyes;forwereshetoturnupherfacethefireonthebankwouldshineuponit,andWildevemightbelookingdown。
Therewasasecondsplashintothepond。
Whydidhestaysolongwithoutadvancingandlookingover?Curiosityhaditsway——sheascendedoneortwooftheearth—stepsinthebankandglancedout。
Wildevewasbeforeher。Hehadcomeforwardafterthrowingthelastpebble,andthefirenowshoneintoeachoftheirfacesfromthebankstretchingbreast—highbetweenthem。
"Ididnotlightit!"criedEustaciaquickly。"Itwaslitwithoutmyknowledge。Don’t,don’tcomeovertome!"
"Whyhaveyoubeenlivinghereallthesedayswithouttellingme?Youhaveleftyourhome。IfearIamsomethingtoblameinthis?"
"Ididnotletinhismother;that’showitis!"
"Youdonotdeservewhatyouhavegot,Eustacia;youareingreatmisery;Iseeitinyoureyes,yourmouth,andalloveryou。Mypoor,poorgirl!"Hesteppedoverthebank。
"Youarebeyondeverythingunhappy!"
"No,no;notexactly——"
"Ithasbeenpushedtoofar——itiskillingyou——Idothinkit!"
Herusuallyquietbreathinghadgrownquickerwithhiswords。
"I——I——"shebegan,andthenburstintoquiveringsobs,shakentotheveryheartbytheunexpectedvoiceofpity——asentimentwhoseexistenceinrelationtoherselfshehadalmostforgotten。
ThisoutbreakofweepingtookEustaciaherselfsomuchbysurprisethatshecouldnotleaveoff,andsheturnedasidefromhiminsomeshame,thoughturninghidnothingfromhim。
Shesobbedondesperately;thentheoutpourlessened,andshebecamequieter。Wildevehadresistedtheimpulsetoclaspher,andstoodwithoutspeaking。
"Areyounotashamedofme,whousednevertobeacryinganimal?"sheaskedinaweakwhisperasshewipedhereyes。"Whydidn’tyougoaway?Iwishyouhadnotseenquiteallthat;itrevealstoomuchbyhalf。"
"Youmighthavewishedit,becauseitmakesmeassadasyou,"hesaidwithemotionanddeference。
"Asforrevealing——thewordisimpossiblebetweenustwo。"
"Ididnotsendforyou——don’tforgetit,Damon;Iaminpain,butIdidnotsendforyou!Asawife,atleast,I’vebeenstraight。"
"Nevermind——Icame。O,Eustacia,forgivemefortheharmIhavedoneyouinthesetwopastyears!IseemoreandmorethatIhavebeenyourruin。"
"Notyou。ThisplaceIlivein。"
"Ah,yourgenerositymaynaturallymakeyousaythat。
ButIamtheculprit。Ishouldeitherhavedonemoreornothingatall。"
"Inwhatway?"
"Ioughtnevertohavehuntedyouout,or,havingdoneit,Ioughttohavepersistedinretainingyou。
ButofcourseIhavenorighttotalkofthatnow。
Iwillonlyaskthis——canIdoanythingforyou?Isthereanythingonthefaceoftheearththatamancandotomakeyouhappierthanyouareatpresent?Ifthereis,Iwilldoit。Youmaycommandme,Eustacia,tothelimitofmyinfluence;anddon’tforgetthatIamrichernow。
Surelysomethingcanbedonetosaveyoufromthis!Sucharareplantinsuchawildplaceitgrievesmetosee。
Doyouwantanythingbought?Doyouwanttogoanywhere?
Doyouwanttoescapetheplacealtogether?Onlysayit,andI’lldoanythingtoputanendtothosetears,whichbutformewouldneverhavebeenatall。"
"Weareeachmarriedtoanotherperson,"shesaidfaintly;
"andassistancefromyouwouldhaveanevilsound——after——after——"
"Well,there’snopreventingslanderersfromhavingtheirfillatanytime;butyouneednotbeafraid。
WhateverImayfeelIpromiseyouonmywordofhonournevertospeaktoyouabout——oractupon——untilyousayImay。
IknowmydutytoThomasinquiteaswellasIknowmydutytoyouasawomanunfairlytreated。WhatshallIassistyouin?"
"Ingettingawayfromhere。"
"Wheredoyouwishtogoto?"
"Ihaveaplaceinmymind。IfyoucouldhelpmeasfarasBudmouthIcandoalltherest。SteamerssailfromthereacrosstheChannel,andsoIcangettoParis,whereIwanttobe。Yes,"shepleadedearnestly,"helpmetogettoBudmouthharbourwithoutmygrandfather’sormyhusband’sknowledge,andIcandoalltherest。"
"Willitbesafetoleaveyoutherealone?"
"Yes,yes。IknowBudmouthwell。"
"ShallIgowithyou?Iamrichnow。"
Shewassilent。
"Sayyes,sweet!"
Shewassilentstill。
"Well,letmeknowwhenyouwishtogo。WeshallbeatourpresenthousetillDecember;afterthatweremovetoCasterbridge。Commandmeinanythingtillthattime。"
"Iwillthinkofthis,"shesaidhurriedly。"WhetherI
canhonestlymakeuseofyouasafriend,ormustclosewithyouasalover——thatiswhatImustaskmyself。
IfIwishtogoanddecidetoacceptyourcompanyIwillsignaltoyousomeeveningateighto’clockpunctually,andthiswillmeanthatyouaretobereadywithahorseandtrapattwelveo’clockthesamenighttodrivemetoBudmouthharbourintimeforthemorningboat。"
"Iwilllookouteverynightateight,andnosignalshallescapeme。"
"Nowpleasegoaway。IfIdecideonthisescapeIcanonlymeetyouoncemoreunless——Icannotgowithoutyou。
Go——Icannotbearitlonger。Go——go!"
Wildeveslowlywentupthestepsanddescendedintothedarknessontheotherside;andashewalkedheglancedback,tillthebankblottedoutherformfromhisfurtherview。
6—ThomasinArgueswithHerCousin,andHeWritesaLetterYeobrightwasatthistimeatBlooms—End,hopingthatEustaciawouldreturntohim。Theremovaloffurniturehadbeenaccomplishedonlythatday,thoughClymhadlivedintheoldhouseformorethanaweek。
Hehadspentthetimeinworkingaboutthepremises,sweepingleavesfromthegardenpaths,cuttingdeadstalksfromtheflowerbeds,andnailingupcreeperswhichhadbeendisplacedbytheautumnwinds。Hetooknoparticularpleasureinthesedeeds,buttheyformedascreenbetweenhimselfanddespair。Moreover,ithadbecomeareligionwithhimtopreserveingoodconditionallthathadlapsedfromhismother’shandstohisown。
DuringtheseoperationshewasconstantlyonthewatchforEustacia。ThatthereshouldbenomistakeaboutherknowingwheretofindhimhehadorderedanoticeboardtobeaffixedtothegardengateatAlderworth,signifyinginwhiteletterswhitherhehadremoved。
Whenaleaffloatedtotheearthheturnedhishead,thinkingitmightbeherfoot—fall。Abirdsearchingforwormsinthemouldoftheflower—bedssoundedlikeherhandonthelatchofthegate;andatdusk,whensoft,strangeventriloquismscamefromholesintheground,hollowstalks,curleddeadleaves,andothercrannieswhereinbreezes,worms,andinsectscanworktheirwill,hefanciedthattheywereEustacia,standingwithoutandbreathingwishesofreconciliation。
Uptothishourhehadperseveredinhisresolvenottoinviteherback。Atthesametimetheseveritywithwhichhehadtreatedherlulledthesharpnessofhisregretforhismother,andawokesomeofhisoldsolicitudeforhismother’ssupplanter。Harshfeelingsproduceharshusage,andthisbyreactionquenchesthesentimentsthatgaveitbirth。Themorehereflectedthemorehesoftened。
Buttolookuponhiswifeasinnocenceindistresswasimpossible,thoughhecouldaskhimselfwhetherhehadgivenherquitetimeenough——ifhehadnotcomealittletoosuddenlyuponheronthatsombremorning。
NowthatthefirstflushofhisangerhadpaledhewasdisinclinedtoascribetohermorethananindiscreetfriendshipwithWildeve,fortherehadnotappearedinhermannerthesignsofdishonour。Andthisonceadmitted,anabsolutelydarkinterpretationofheracttowardshismotherwasnolongerforceduponhim。
OntheeveningofthefifthNovemberhisthoughtsofEustaciawereintense。Echoesfromthosepasttimeswhentheyhadexchangedtenderwordsallthedaylongcamelikethediffusedmurmurofaseashoreleftmilesbehind。
"Surely,"hesaid,"shemighthavebroughtherselftocommunicatewithmebeforenow,andconfesshonestlywhatWildevewastoher。"
InsteadofremainingathomethatnighthedeterminedtogoandseeThomasinandherhusband。IfhefoundopportunityhewouldalludetothecauseoftheseparationbetweenEustaciaandhimself,keepingsilence,however,onthefactthattherewasathirdpersoninhishousewhenhismotherwasturnedaway。IfitprovedthatWildevewasinnocentlytherehewoulddoubtlessopenlymentionit。
IfheweretherewithunjustintentionsWildeve,beingamanofquickfeeling,mightpossiblysaysomethingtorevealtheextenttowhichEustaciawascompromised。
Butonreachinghiscousin’shousehefoundthatonlyThomasinwasathome,WildevebeingatthattimeonhiswaytowardsthebonfireinnocentlylitbyCharleyatMistover。
Thomasinthen,asalways,wasgladtoseeClym,andtookhimtoinspectthesleepingbaby,carefullyscreeningthecandlelightfromtheinfant’seyeswithherhand。
"Tamsin,haveyouheardthatEustaciaisnotwithme。
now?"hesaidwhentheyhadsatdownagain。
"No,"saidThomasin,alarmed。
"AndnotthatIhaveleftAlderworth?"
"No。IneverheartidingsfromAlderworthunlessyoubringthem。Whatisthematter?"
ClyminadisturbedvoicerelatedtoherhisvisittoSusanNunsuch’sboy,therevelationhehadmade,andwhathadresultedfromhischargingEustaciawithhavingwilfullyandheartlesslydonethedeed。
HesuppressedallmentionofWildeve’spresencewithher。
"Allthis,andInotknowingit!"murmuredThomasininanawestrucktone,"Terrible!Whatcouldhavemadeher——O,Eustacia!Andwhenyoufounditoutyouwentinhothastetoher?Wereyoutoocruel?——orisshereallysowickedassheseems?"
"Canamanbetoocrueltohismother’senemy?"
"Icanfancyso。"
"Verywell,then——I’lladmitthathecan。Butnowwhatistobedone?"
"Makeitupagain——ifaquarrelsodeadlycaneverbemadeup。Ialmostwishyouhadnottoldme。
Butdotrytobereconciled。Thereareways,afterall,ifyoubothwishto。"
"Idon’tknowthatwedobothwishtomakeitup,"
saidClym。"Ifshehadwishedit,wouldshenothavesenttomebythistime?"
"Youseemtowishto,andyetyouhavenotsenttoher。"
"True;butIhavebeentossedtoandfroindoubtifIought,aftersuchstrongprovocation。Toseemenow,Thomasin,givesyounoideaofwhatIhavebeen;
ofwhatdepthsIhavedescendedtointhesefewlastdays。
O,itwasabittershametoshutoutmymotherlikethat!
CanIeverforgetit,orevenagreetoseeheragain?"
"Shemightnothaveknownthatanythingseriouswouldcomeofit,andperhapsshedidnotmeantokeepAuntoutaltogether。"
"Shesaysherselfthatshedidnot。Butthefactremainsthatkeepheroutshedid。"
"Believehersorry,andsendforher。"
"Howifshewillnotcome?"
"Itwillproveherguilty,byshowingthatitisherhabittonourishenmity。ButIdonotthinkthatforamoment。"
"Iwilldothis。Iwillwaitforadayortwolonger——
notlongerthantwodayscertainly;andifshedoesnotsendtomeinthattimeIwillindeedsendtoher。
IthoughttohaveseenWildeveheretonight。Ishefromhome?"
Thomasinblushedalittle。"No,"shesaid。"Heismerelygoneoutforawalk。"
"Whydidn’thetakeyouwithhim?Theeveningisfine。
Youwantfreshairaswellashe。"
"Oh,Idon’tcareforgoinganywhere;besides,thereisbaby。"
"Yes,yes。Well,IhavebeenthinkingwhetherIshouldnotconsultyourhusbandaboutthisaswellasyou,"
saidClymsteadily。
"IfancyIwouldnot,"shequicklyanswered。"Itcandonogood。"
Hercousinlookedherintheface。NodoubtThomasinwasignorantthatherhusbandhadanyshareintheeventsofthattragicafternoon;buthercountenanceseemedtosignifythatsheconcealedsomesuspicionorthoughtofthereputedtenderrelationsbetweenWildeveandEustaciaindaysgoneby。
Clym,however,couldmakenothingofit,andherosetodepart,moreindoubtthanwhenhecame。
"Youwillwritetoherinadayortwo?"saidtheyoungwomanearnestly。"Idosohopethewretchedseparationmaycometoanend。"
"Iwill,"saidClym;"Idon’trejoiceinmypresentstateatall。"
AndheleftherandclimbedoverthehilltoBlooms—End。
Beforegoingtobedhesatdownandwrotethefollowingletter:——
MYDEAREUSTACIA,——Imustobeymyheartwithoutconsultingmyreasontooclosely。Willyoucomebacktome?Doso,andthepastshallneverbementioned。Iwastoosevere;
butO,Eustacia,theprovocation!Youdon’tknow,youneverwillknow,whatthosewordsofangercostmewhichyoudrewdownuponyourself。AllthatanhonestmancanpromiseyouIpromisenow,whichisthatfrommeyoushallneversufferanythingonthisscoreagain。
Afterallthevowswehavemade,Eustacia,Ithinkwehadbetterpasstheremainderofourlivesintryingtokeepthem。Cometome,then,evenifyoureproachme。
IhavethoughtofyoursufferingsthatmorningonwhichI
partedfromyou;Iknowtheyweregenuine,andtheyareasmuchasyououghttobear。Ourlovemuststillcontinue。
Suchheartsasourswouldneverhavebeengivenusbuttobeconcernedwitheachother。Icouldnotaskyoubackatfirst,Eustacia,forIwasunabletopersuademyselfthathewhowaswithyouwasnotthereasalover。
ButifyouwillcomeandexplaindistractingappearancesIdonotquestionthatyoucanshowyourhonestytome。
Whyhaveyounotcomebefore?DoyouthinkIwillnotlistentoyou?Surelynot,whenyourememberthekissesandvowsweexchangedunderthesummermoon。
Returnthen,andyoushallbewarmlywelcomed。
Icannolongerthinkofyoutoyourprejudice——Iambuttoomuchabsorbedinjustifyingyou。——Yourhusbandasever,CLYM。
"There,"hesaid,ashelaiditinhisdesk,"that’sagoodthingdone。IfshedoesnotcomebeforetomorrownightIwillsendittoher。"
Meanwhile,atthehousehehadjustleftThomasinsatsighinguneasily。FidelitytoherhusbandhadthateveninginducedhertoconcealallsuspicionthatWildeve’sinterestinEustaciahadnotendedwithhismarriage。
Butsheknewnothingpositive;andthoughClymwasherwell—belovedcousintherewasonenearertoherstill。
When,alittlelater,WildevereturnedfromhiswalktoMistover,Thomasinsaid,"Damon,wherehaveyoubeen?I
wasgettingquitefrightened,andthoughtyouhadfallenintotheriver。Idislikebeinginthehousebymyself。"
"Frightened?"hesaid,touchinghercheekasifsheweresomedomesticanimal。"Why,Ithoughtnothingcouldfrightenyou。Itisthatyouaregettingproud,Iamsure,anddon’tlikelivingheresincewehaverisenaboveourbusiness。Well,itisatediousmatter,thisgettinganewhouse;butIcouldn’thavesetaboutitsooner,unlessourtenthousandpoundshadbeenahundredthousand,whenwecouldhaveaffordedtodespisecaution。"
"No——Idon’tmindwaiting——Iwouldratherstayheretwelvemonthslongerthanrunanyriskwithbaby。
ButIdon’tlikeyourvanishingsointheevenings。
There’ssomethingonyourmind——Iknowthereis,Damon。
Yougoaboutsogloomily,andlookattheheathasifitweresomebody’sgaolinsteadofanicewildplacetowalkin。"
Helookedtowardsherwithpityingsurprise。"What,doyoulikeEgdonHeath?"hesaid。
"IlikewhatIwasbornnearto;Iadmireitsgrimoldface。"
"Pooh,mydear。Youdon’tknowwhatyoulike。"
"IamsureIdo。There’sonlyonethingunpleasantaboutEgdon。"
"What’sthat?"
"Younevertakemewithyouwhenyouwalkthere。Whydoyouwandersomuchinityourselfifyousodislikeit?"
Theinquiry,thoughasimpleone,wasplainlydisconcerting,andhesatdownbeforereplying。"Idon’tthinkyouoftenseemethere。Giveaninstance。"
"Iwill,"sheansweredtriumphantly。"WhenyouwentoutthiseveningIthoughtthatasbabywasasleepI
wouldseewhereyouweregoingtosomysteriouslywithouttellingme。SoIranoutandfollowedbehindyou。
Youstoppedattheplacewheretheroadforks,lookedroundatthebonfires,andthensaid,’Damnit,I’llgo!’Andyouwentquicklyuptheleft—handroad。
ThenIstoodandwatchedyou。"
Wildevefrowned,afterwardssaying,withaforcedsmile,"Well,whatwonderfuldiscoverydidyoumake?"
"There——nowyouareangry,andwewon’ttalkofthisanymore。"Shewentacrosstohim,satonafootstool,andlookedupinhisface。
"Nonsense!"hesaid,"that’showyoualwaysbackout。
Wewillgoonwithitnowwehavebegun。Whatdidyounextsee?Iparticularlywanttoknow。"
"Don’tbelikethat,Damon!"shemurmured。"Ididn’tseeanything。Youvanishedoutofsight,andthenI
lookedroundatthebonfiresandcamein。"
"Perhapsthisisnottheonlytimeyouhavedoggedmysteps。
Areyoutryingtofindoutsomethingbadaboutme?"
"Notatall!Ihaveneverdonesuchathingbefore,andIshouldn’thavedoneitnowifwordshadnotsometimesbeendroppedaboutyou。"
"WhatDOyoumean?"heimpatientlyasked。
"Theysay——theysayyouusedtogotoAlderworthintheevenings,anditputsintomymindwhatIhaveheardabout——"
Wildeveturnedangrilyandstoodupinfrontofher。
"Now,"hesaid,flourishinghishandintheair,"justoutwithit,madam!Idemandtoknowwhatremarksyouhaveheard。"
"Well,IheardthatyouusedtobeveryfondofEustacia——nothingmorethanthat,thoughdroppedinabit—by—bitway。Yououghtnottobeangry!"
Heobservedthathereyeswerebrimmingwithtears。
"Well,"hesaid,"thereisnothingnewinthat,andofcourseIdon’tmeantoberoughtowardsyou,soyouneednotcry。Now,don’tletusspeakofthesubjectanymore。"