首页 >出版文学> THE RETURN OF THE NATIVE>第19章
  Shelookedanotherway,disconcerted,andwonderedhowlongthispurgatorywastolast。Afterlingeringafewsecondshepassedonagain。
  Tocourttheirowndiscomfiturebyloveisacommoninstinctwithcertainperfervidwomen。Conflictingsensationsoflove,fear,andshamereducedEustaciatoastateoftheutmostuneasiness。Toescapewashergreatandimmediatedesire。Theothermummersappearedtobeinnohurrytoleave;andmurmuringtotheladwhosatnexttoherthatshepreferredwaitingforthemoutsidethehouse,shemovedtothedoorasimperceptiblyaspossible,openedit,andslippedout。
  Thecalm,lonescenereassuredher。Shewentforwardtothepalingsandleantoverthem,lookingatthemoon。
  Shehadstoodthusbutalittletimewhenthedooragainopened。
  ExpectingtoseetheremainderofthebandEustaciaturned;
  butno——ClymYeobrightcameoutassoftlyasshehaddone,andclosedthedoorbehindhim。
  Headvancedandstoodbesideher。"Ihaveanoddopinion,"
  hesaid,"andshouldliketoaskyouaquestion。Areyouawoman——oramIwrong?"
  "Iamawoman。"
  Hiseyeslingeredonherwithgreatinterest。"Dogirlsoftenplayasmummersnow?Theyneverusedto。"
  "Theydon’tnow。"
  "Whydidyou?"
  "Togetexcitementandshakeoffdepression,"shesaidinlowtones。
  "Whatdepressedyou?"
  "Life。"
  "That’sacauseofdepressionagoodmanyhavetoputupwith。"
  "Yes。"
  Alongsilence。"Anddoyoufindexcitement?"askedClymatlast。
  "Atthismoment,perhaps。"
  "Thenyouarevexedatbeingdiscovered?"
  "Yes;thoughIthoughtImightbe。"
  "IwouldgladlyhaveaskedyoutoourpartyhadIknownyouwishedtocome。HaveIeverbeenacquaintedwithyouinmyyouth?"
  "Never。"
  "Won’tyoucomeinagain,andstayaslongasyoulike?"
  "No。Iwishnottobefurtherrecognized。"
  "Well,youaresafewithme。"Afterremaininginthoughtaminuteheaddedgently,"Iwillnotintrudeuponyoulonger。
  Itisastrangewayofmeeting,andIwillnotaskwhyIfindacultivatedwomanplayingsuchapartasthis。"
  Shedidnotvolunteerthereasonwhichheseemedtohopefor,andhewishedhergoodnight,goingthenceroundtothebackofthehouse,wherehewalkedupanddownbyhimselfforsometimebeforere—entering。
  Eustacia,warmedwithaninnerfire,couldnotwaitforhercompanionsafterthis。Sheflungbacktheribbonsfromherface,openedthegate,andatoncestruckintotheheath。Shedidnothastenalong。Hergrandfatherwasinbedatthishour,forshesofrequentlywalkeduponthehillsonmoonlightnightsthathetooknonoticeofhercomingsandgoings,and,enjoyinghimselfinhisownway,lefthertodolikewise。Amoreimportantsubjectthanthatofgettingindoorsnowengrossedher。
  Yeobright,ifhehadtheleastcuriosity,wouldinfalliblydiscoverhername。Whatthen?Shefirstfeltasortofexultationatthewayinwhichtheadventurehadterminated,eventhoughatmomentsbetweenherexultationsshewasabashedandblushful。Thenthisconsiderationrecurredtochillher:Whatwastheuseofherexploit?ShewasatpresentatotalstrangertotheYeobrightfamily。
  Theunreasonablenimbusofromancewithwhichshehadencircledthatmanmightbehermisery。Howcouldsheallowherselftobecomesoinfatuatedwithastranger?AndtofillthecupofhersorrowtherewouldbeThomasin,livingdayafterdayininflammableproximitytohim;
  forshehadjustlearntthat,contrarytoherfirstbelief,hewasgoingtostayathomesomeconsiderabletime。
  ShereachedthewicketatMistoverKnap,butbeforeopeningitsheturnedandfacedtheheathoncemore。
  TheformofRainbarrowstoodabovethehills,andthemoonstoodaboveRainbarrow。Theairwaschargedwithsilenceandfrost。ThesceneremindedEustaciaofacircumstancewhichtillthatmomentshehadtotallyforgotten。
  ShehadpromisedtomeetWildevebytheBarrowthisverynightateight,togiveafinalanswertohispleadingforanelopement。
  Sheherselfhadfixedtheeveningandthehour。
  Hehadprobablycometothespot,waitedthereinthecold,andbeengreatlydisappointed。
  "Well,somuchthebetter——itdidnothurthim,"
  shesaidserenely。Wildevehadatpresenttheraylessoutlineofthesunthroughsmokedglass,andshecouldsaysuchthingsasthatwiththegreatestfacility。
  Sheremaineddeeplypondering;andThomasin’swinningmannertowardshercousinaroseagainuponEustacia’smind。
  "OthatshehadbeenmarriedtoDamonbeforethis!"
  shesaid。"Andshewouldifithadn’tbeenforme!IfI
  hadonlyknown——ifIhadonlyknown!"
  Eustaciaoncemoreliftedherdeepstormyeyestothemoonlight,and,sighingthattragicsighofherswhichwassomuchlikeashudder,enteredtheshadowoftheroof。Shethrewoffhertrappingsintheouthouse,rolledthemup,andwentindoorstoherchamber。
  7—ACoalitionbetweenBeautyandOddnessTheoldcaptain’sprevailingindifferencetohisgranddaughter’smovementsleftherfreeasabirdtofollowherowncourses;butitsohappenedthathedidtakeuponhimselfthenextmorningtoaskherwhyshehadwalkedoutsolate。
  "Onlyinsearchofevents,Grandfather,"shesaid,lookingoutofthewindowwiththatdrowsylatencyofmannerwhichdiscoveredsomuchforcebehinditwheneverthetriggerwaspressed。
  "Searchofevents——onewouldthinkyouwereoneofthebucksIknewatone—and—twenty。"
  "Itislonelyhere。"
  "Somuchthebetter。IfIwerelivinginatownmywholetimewouldbetakenupinlookingafteryou。
  IfullyexpectedyouwouldhavebeenhomewhenIreturnedfromtheWoman。"
  "Iwon’tconcealwhatIdid。Iwantedanadventure,andIwentwiththemummers。IplayedthepartoftheTurkishKnight。"
  "No,never?Ha,ha!Goodgad!Ididn’texpectitofyou,Eustacia。"
  "Itwasmyfirstperformance,anditcertainlywillbemylast。NowIhavetoldyou——andrememberitisasecret。"
  "Ofcourse。But,Eustacia,youneverdid——ha!ha!Dammy,how’twouldhavepleasedmefortyyearsago!Butremember,nomoreofit,mygirl。Youmaywalkontheheathnightorday,asyouchoose,sothatyoudon’tbotherme;
  butnofiguringinbreechesagain。"
  "Youneedhavenofearforme,Grandpapa。"
  Heretheconversationceased,Eustacia’smoraltrainingneverexceedinginseverityadialogueofthissort,which,ifiteverbecameprofitabletogoodworks,wouldbearesultnotdearattheprice。Butherthoughtssoonstrayedfarfromherownpersonality;and,fullofapassionateandindescribablesolicitudeforonetowhomshewasnotevenaname,shewentforthintotheamplitudeoftannedwildaroundher,restlessasAhasuerustheJew。
  Shewasabouthalfamilefromherresidencewhenshebeheldasinisterrednessarisingfromaravinealittlewayinadvance——dullandluridlikeaflameinsunlightandsheguessedittosignifyDiggoryVenn。
  WhenthefarmerswhohadwishedtobuyinanewstockofreddleduringthelastmonthhadinquiredwhereVennwastobefound,peoplereplied,"OnEgdonHeath。"
  Dayafterdaytheanswerwasthesame。Now,sinceEgdonwaspopulatedwithheath—croppersandfurze—cuttersratherthanwithsheepandshepherds,andthedownswheremostofthelatterweretobefoundlaysometothenorth,sometothewestofEgdon,hisreasonforcampingabouttherelikeIsraelinZinwasnotapparent。
  Thepositionwascentralandoccasionallydesirable。
  ButthesaleofreddlewasnotDiggory’sprimaryobjectinremainingontheheath,particularlyatsolateaperiodoftheyear,whenmosttravellersofhisclasshadgoneintowinterquarters。
  Eustacialookedatthelonelyman。WildevehadtoldherattheirlastmeetingthatVennhadbeenthrustforwardbyMrs。YeobrightasonereadyandanxioustotakehisplaceasThomasin’sbetrothed。Hisfigurewasperfect,hisfaceyoungandwelloutlined,hiseyebright,hisintelligencekeen,andhispositiononewhichhecouldreadilybetterifhechose。ButinspiteofpossibilitiesitwasnotlikelythatThomasinwouldacceptthisIshmaelitishcreaturewhileshehadacousinlikeYeobrightatherelbow,andWildeveatthesametimenotabsolutelyindifferent。
  EustaciawasnotlonginguessingthatpoorMrs。Yeobright,inheranxietyforherniece’sfuture,hadmentionedthislovertostimulatethezealoftheother。
  EustaciawasonthesideoftheYeobrightsnow,andenteredintothespiritoftheaunt’sdesire。
  "Goodmorning,miss,"saidthereddleman,takingoffhiscapofhareskin,andapparentlybearinghernoill—
  willfromrecollectionoftheirlastmeeting。
  "Goodmorning,reddleman,"shesaid,hardlytroublingtoliftherheavilyshadedeyestohis。"Ididnotknowyouweresonear。Isyourvanheretoo?"
  Vennmovedhiselbowtowardsahollowinwhichadensebrakeofpurple—stemmedbrambleshadgrowntosuchvastdimensionsasalmosttoformadell。Brambles,thoughchurlishwhenhandled,arekindlyshelterinearlywinter,beingthelatestofthedeciduousbushestolosetheirleaves。
  TheroofandchimneyofVenn’scaravanshowedbehindthetraceryandtanglesofthebrake。
  "Youremainnearthispart?"sheaskedwithmoreinterest。
  "Yes,Ihavebusinesshere。"
  "Notaltogetherthesellingofreddle?"
  "Ithasnothingtodowiththat。"
  "IthastodowithMissYeobright?"
  Herfaceseemedtoaskforanarmedpeace,andhethereforesaidfrankly,"Yes,miss;itisonaccountofher。"
  "Onaccountofyourapproachingmarriagewithher?"
  Vennflushedthroughhisstain。"Don’tmakesportofme,MissVye,"hesaid。
  "Itisn’ttrue?"
  "Certainlynot。"
  ShewasthusconvincedthatthereddlemanwasamerepisallerinMrs。Yeobright’smind;one,moreover,whohadnotevenbeeninformedofhispromotiontothatlowlystanding。"Itwasamerenotionofmine,"
  shesaidquietly;andwasabouttopassbywithoutfurtherspeech,when,lookingroundtotheright,shesawapainfullywell—knownfigureserpentiningupwardsbyoneofthelittlepathswhichledtothetopwhereshestood。
  Owingtothenecessarywindingsofhiscoursehisbackwasatpresenttowardsthem。Sheglancedquicklyround;
  toescapethatmantherewasonlyoneway。TurningtoVenn,shesaid,"Wouldyouallowmetorestafewminutesinyourvan?Thebanksaredampforsittingon。"
  "Certainly,miss;I’llmakeaplaceforyou。"
  ShefollowedhimbehindthedellofbramblestohiswheeleddwellingintowhichVennmounted,placingthethree—leggedstooljustwithinthedoor。
  "ThatisthebestIcandoforyou,"hesaid,steppingdownandretiringtothepath,whereheresumedthesmokingofhispipeashewalkedupanddown。
  Eustaciaboundedintothevehicleandsatonthestool,ensconcedfromviewonthesidetowardsthetrackway。
  Soonsheheardthebrushingofotherfeetthanthereddleman’s,anotveryfriendly"Goodday"utteredbytwomeninpassingeachother,andthenthedwindlingofthefoot—fallofoneoftheminadirectiononwards。
  Eustaciastretchedherneckforwardtillshecaughtaglimpseofarecedingbackandshoulders;andshefeltawretchedtwingeofmisery,sheknewnotwhy。
  Itwasthesickeningfeelingwhich,ifthechangedhearthasanygenerosityatallinitscomposition,accompaniesthesuddensightofaonce—lovedonewhoisbelovednomore。
  WhenEustaciadescendedtoproceedonherwaythereddlemancamenear。"ThatwasMr。Wildevewhopassed,miss,"hesaidslowly,andexpressedbyhisfacethatheexpectedhertofeelvexedathavingbeensittingunseen。
  "Yes,Isawhimcomingupthehill,"repliedEustacia。
  "Whyshouldyoutellmethat?"Itwasaboldquestion,consideringthereddleman’sknowledgeofherpastlove;
  butherundemonstrativemannerhadpowertorepresstheopinionsofthoseshetreatedasremotefromher。
  "Iamgladtohearthatyoucanaskit,"saidthereddlemanbluntly。"And,nowIthinkofit,itagreeswithwhatIsawlastnight。"
  "Ah——whatwasthat?"Eustaciawishedtoleavehim,butwishedtoknow。
  "Mr。WildevestayedatRainbarrowalongtimewaitingforaladywhodidn’tcome。"
  "Youwaitedtoo,itseems?"
  "Yes,Ialwaysdo。Iwasgladtoseehimdisappointed。
  Hewillbethereagaintonight。"
  "Tobeagaindisappointed。Thetruthis,reddleman,thatthatlady,sofarfromwishingtostandinthewayofThomasin’smarriagewithMr。Wildeve,wouldbeverygladtopromoteit。"
  Vennfeltmuchastonishmentatthisavowal,thoughhedidnotshowitclearly;thatexhibitionmaygreetremarkswhichareoneremovefromexpectation,butitisusuallywithheldincomplicatedcasesoftworemovesandupwards。
  "Indeed,miss,"hereplied。
  "HowdoyouknowthatMr。WildevewillcometoRainbarrowagaintonight?"sheasked。
  "Iheardhimsaytohimselfthathewould。He’sinaregulartemper。"
  Eustacialookedforamomentwhatshefelt,andshemurmured,liftingherdeepdarkeyesanxiouslytohis,"IwishI
  knewwhattodo。Idon’twanttobeunciviltohim;
  butIdon’twishtoseehimagain;andIhavesomefewlittlethingstoreturntohim。"
  "Ifyouchoosetosend’embyme,miss,andanotetotellhimthatyouwishtosaynomoretohim,I’lltakeitforyouquiteprivately。Thatwouldbethemoststraightforwardwayoflettinghimknowyourmind。"
  "Verywell,"saidEustacia。"Cometowardsmyhouse,andIwillbringitouttoyou。"
  Shewenton,andasthepathwasaninfinitelysmallpartingintheshaggylocksoftheheath,thereddlemanfollowedexactlyinhertrail。Shesawfromadistancethatthecaptainwasonthebanksweepingthehorizonwithhistelescope;andbiddingVenntowaitwherehestoodsheenteredthehousealone。
  Intenminutesshereturnedwithaparcelandanote,andsaid,inplacingtheminhishand,"Whyareyousoreadytotaketheseforme?"
  "Canyouaskthat?"
  "IsupposeyouthinktoserveThomasininsomewaybyit。
  Areyouasanxiousasevertohelponhermarriage?"
  Vennwasalittlemoved。"Iwouldsoonerhavemarriedhermyself,"hesaidinalowvoice。"ButwhatIfeelisthatifshecannotbehappywithouthimIwilldomydutyinhelpinghertogethim,asamanought。"
  Eustacialookedcuriouslyatthesingularmanwhospokethus。
  Whatastrangesortoflove,tobeentirelyfreefromthatqualityofselfishnesswhichisfrequentlythechiefconstituentofthepassion,andsometimesitsonlyone!Thereddleman’sdisinterestednesswassowelldeservingofrespectthatitovershotrespectbybeingbarelycomprehended;andshealmostthoughtitabsurd。
  "Thenwearebothofonemindatlast,"shesaid。
  "Yes,"repliedVenngloomily。"Butifyouwouldtellme,miss,whyyoutakesuchaninterestinher,Ishouldbeeasier。Itissosuddenandstrange。"
  Eustaciaappearedataloss。"Icannottellyouthat,reddleman,"shesaidcoldly。
  Vennsaidnomore。Hepocketedtheletter,and,bowingtoEustacia,wentaway。
  RainbarrowhadagainbecomeblendedwithnightwhenWildeveascendedthelongacclivityatitsbase。
  Onhisreachingthetopashapegrewupfromtheearthimmediatelybehindhim。ItwasthatofEustacia’semissary。
  HeslappedWildeveontheshoulder。Thefeverishyounginn—keeperandex—engineerstartedlikeSatanatthetouchofIthuriel’sspear。
  "Themeetingisalwaysateighto’clock,atthisplace,"
  saidVenn,"andhereweare——wethree。"
  "Wethree?"saidWildeve,lookingquicklyround。
  "Yes;you,andI,andshe。Thisisshe。"Hehelduptheletterandparcel。
  Wildevetookthemwonderingly。"Idon’tquiteseewhatthismeans,"hesaid。"Howdoyoucomehere?
  Theremustbesomemistake。"
  "Itwillbeclearedfromyourmindwhenyouhavereadtheletter。Lanternsforone。"Thereddlemanstruckalight,kindledaninchoftallow—candlewhichhehadbrought,andsheltereditwithhiscap。
  "Whoareyou?"saidWildeve,discerningbythecandle—
  lightanobscurerubicundityofpersoninhiscompanion。
  "YouarethereddlemanIsawonthehillthismorning——why,youarethemanwho————"
  "Pleasereadtheletter。"
  "IfyouhadcomefromtheotheroneIshouldn’thavebeensurprised,"murmuredWildeveasheopenedtheletterandread。Hisfacegrewserious。
  TOMR。WILDEVE。
  AftersomethoughtIhavedecidedonceandforallthatwemustholdnofurthercommunication。ThemoreIconsiderthematterthemoreIamconvincedthattheremustbeanendtoouracquaintance。Hadyoubeenuniformlyfaithfultomethroughoutthesetwoyearsyoumightnowhavesomegroundforaccusingmeofheartlessness;
  butifyoucalmlyconsiderwhatIboreduringtheperiodofyourdesertion,andhowIpassivelyputupwithyourcourtshipofanotherwithoutonceinterfering,youwill,Ithink,ownthatIhavearighttoconsultmyownfeelingswhenyoucomebacktomeagain。Thatthesearenotwhattheyweretowardsyoumay,perhaps,beafaultinme,butitisonewhichyoucanscarcelyreproachmeforwhenyourememberhowyouleftmeforThomasin。
  Thelittlearticlesyougavemeintheearlypartofourfriendshiparereturnedbythebearerofthisletter。
  TheyshouldrightlyhavebeensentbackwhenIfirstheardofyourengagementtoher。
  EUSTACIA。
  BythetimethatWildevereachedhernametheblanknesswithwhichhehadreadthefirsthalfoftheletterintensifiedtomortification。"Iammadeagreatfoolof,onewayandanother,"hesaidpettishly。"Doyouknowwhatisinthisletter?"
  Thereddlemanhummedatune。
  "Can’tyouanswerme?"askedWildevewarmly。
  "Ru—um—tum—tum,"sangthereddleman。
  WildevestoodlookingonthegroundbesideVenn’sfeet,tillheallowedhiseyestotravelupwardsoverDiggory’sform,asilluminatedbythecandle,tohisheadandface。
  "Ha—ha!Well,IsupposeIdeserveit,consideringhowIhaveplayedwiththemboth,"hesaidatlast,asmuchtohimselfastoVenn。"ButofalltheoddthingsthateverIknew,theoddestisthatyoushouldsoruncountertoyourowninterestsastobringthistome。"
  "Myinterests?"
  "Certainly。’TwasyourinterestnottodoanythingwhichwouldsendmecourtingThomasinagain,nowshehasacceptedyou——orsomethinglikeit。Mrs。Yeobrightsaysyouaretomarryher。’Tisn’ttrue,then?"
  "GoodLord!Iheardofthisbefore,butdidn’tbelieveit。
  Whendidshesayso?"
  Wildevebeganhummingasthereddlemanhaddone。
  "Idon’tbelieveitnow,"criedVenn。
  "Ru—um—tum—tum,"sangWildeve。
  "OLord——howwecanimitate!"saidVenncontemptuously。
  "I’llhavethisout。I’llgostraighttoher。"
  Diggorywithdrewwithanemphaticstep,Wildeve’seyepassingoverhisforminwitheringderision,asifhewerenomorethanaheath—cropper。Whenthereddleman’sfigurecouldnolongerbeseen,Wildevehimselfdescendedandplungedintotheraylesshollowofthevale。
  Tolosethetwowomen——hewhohadbeenthewell—belovedofboth——wastooironicalanissuetobeendured。
  HecouldonlydecentlysavehimselfbyThomasin;
  andoncehebecameherhusband,Eustacia’srepentance,hethought,wouldsetinforalongandbitterterm。
  ItwasnowonderthatWildeve,ignorantofthenewmanatthebackofthescene,shouldhavesupposedEustaciatobeplayingapart。Tobelievethattheletterwasnottheresultofsomemomentarypique,toinferthatshereallygavehimuptoThomasin,wouldhaverequiredpreviousknowledgeofhertransfigurationbythatman’sinfluence。
  Whowastoknowthatshehadgrowngenerousinthegreedinessofanewpassion,thatincovetingonecousinshewasdealingliberallywithanother,thatinhereagernesstoappropriateshegaveway?
  Fullofthisresolvetomarryinhaste,andwringtheheartoftheproudgirl,Wildevewenthisway。
  MeanwhileDiggoryVennhadreturnedtohisvan,wherehestoodlookingthoughtfullyintothestove。
  Anewvistawasopeneduptohim。But,howeverpromisingMrs。Yeobright’sviewsofhimmightbeasacandidateforherniece’shand,oneconditionwasindispensabletothefavourofThomasinherself,andthatwasarenunciationofhispresentwildmodeoflife。Inthishesawlittledifficulty。
  HecouldnotaffordtowaittillthenextdaybeforeseeingThomasinanddetailinghisplan。Hespeedilyplungedhimselfintotoiletoperations,pulledasuitofclothclothesfromabox,andinabouttwentyminutesstoodbeforethevan—lanternasareddlemaninnothingbuthisface,thevermilionshadesofwhichwerenottoberemovedinaday。Closingthedoorandfasteningitwithapadlock,VennsetofftowardsBlooms—End。
  Hehadreachedthewhitepalingsandlaidhishanduponthegatewhenthedoorofthehouseopened,andquicklyclosedagain。Afemaleformhadglidedin。
  Atthesametimeaman,whohadseeminglybeenstandingwiththewomanintheporch,cameforwardfromthehousetillhewasfacetofacewithVenn。ItwasWildeveagain。
  "Manalive,you’vebeenquickatit,"saidDiggorysarcastically。
  "Andyouslow,asyouwillfind,"saidWildeve。
  "And,"loweringhisvoice,"youmayaswellgobackagainnow。I’veclaimedher,andgother。
  Goodnight,reddleman!"ThereuponWildevewalkedaway。
  Venn’sheartsankwithinhim,thoughithadnotrisenundulyhigh。Hestoodleaningoverthepalingsinanindecisivemoodfornearlyaquarterofanhour。
  Thenhewentupthegardenpath,knocked,andaskedforMrs。Yeobright。
  Insteadofrequestinghimtoentershecametotheporch。
  Adiscoursewascarriedonbetweentheminlowmeasuredtonesforthespaceoftenminutesormore。AttheendofthetimeMrs。Yeobrightwentin,andVennsadlyretracedhisstepsintotheheath。Whenhehadagainregainedhisvanhelitthelantern,andwithanapatheticfaceatoncebegantopulloffhisbestclothes,tillinthecourseofafewminuteshereappearedastheconfirmedandirretrievablereddlemanthathehadseemedbefore。
  8—FirmnessIsDiscoveredinaGentleHeartOnthateveningtheinteriorofBlooms—End,thoughcosyandcomfortable,hadbeenrathersilent。ClymYeobrightwasnotathome。SincetheChristmaspartyhehadgoneonafewdays’visittoafriendabouttenmilesoff。
  TheshadowyformseenbyVenntopartfromWildeveintheporch,andquicklywithdrawintothehouse,wasThomasin’s。Onenteringshethrewdownacloakwhichhadbeencarelesslywrappedroundher,andcameforwardtothelight,whereMrs。Yeobrightsatatherwork—table,drawnupwithinthesettle,sothatpartofitprojectedintothechimney—corner。