Hiswalkwasrapidashecamedown,andhewentwithaspringytrend。Beforeenteringuponhismother’spremiseshestoppedandbreathed。Thelightwhichshoneforthonhimfromthewindowrevealedthathisfacewasflushedandhiseyebright。Whatitdidnotshowwassomethingwhichlingereduponhislipslikeasealsetthere。
Theabidingpresenceofthisimpresswassorealthathehardlydaredtoenterthehouse,foritseemedasifhismothermightsay,"Whatredspotisthatglowinguponyourmouthsovividly?"
Butheenteredsoonafter。Theteawasready,andhesatdownoppositehismother。Shedidnotspeakmanywords;
andasforhim,somethinghadbeenjustdoneandsomewordshadbeenjustsaidonthehillwhichpreventedhimfrombeginningadesultorychat。Hismother’staciturnitywasnotwithoutominousness,butheappearednottocare。
Heknewwhyshesaidsolittle,buthecouldnotremovethecauseofherbearingtowardshim。Thesehalf—silentsittingswerefarfromuncommonwiththemnow。AtlastYeobrightmadeabeginningofwhatwasintendedtostrikeatthewholerootofthematter。
"Fivedayshavewesatlikethisatmealswithscarcelyaword。What’stheuseofit,Mother?"
"None,"saidshe,inaheart—swollentone。"Butthereisonlytoogoodareason。"
"Notwhenyouknowall。Ihavebeenwantingtospeakaboutthis,andIamgladthesubjectisbegun。Thereason,ofcourse,isEustaciaVye。Well,IconfessIhaveseenherlately,andhaveseenheragoodmanytimes。"
"Yes,yes;andIknowwhatthatamountsto。Ittroublesme,Clym。Youarewastingyourlifehere;anditissolelyonaccountofher。Ifithadnotbeenforthatwomanyouwouldneverhaveentertainedthisteachingschemeatall。"
Clymlookedhardathismother。"Youknowthatisnotit,"
hesaid。
"Well,Iknowyouhaddecidedtoattemptitbeforeyousawher;butthatwouldhaveendedinintentions。Itwasverywelltotalkof,butridiculoustoputinpractice。
Ifullyexpectedthatinthecourseofamonthortwoyouwouldhaveseenthefollyofsuchself—sacrifice,andwouldhavebeenbythistimebackagaintoParisinsomebusinessorother。Icanunderstandobjectionstothediamondtrade——Ireallywasthinkingthatitmightbeinadequatetothelifeofamanlikeyoueventhoughitmighthavemadeyouamillionaire。
ButnowIseehowmistakenyouareaboutthisgirlIdoubtifyoucouldbecorrectaboutotherthings。"
"HowamImistakeninher?"
"Sheislazyanddissatisfied。Butthatisnotallofit。
Supposinghertobeasgoodawomanasanyyoucanfind,whichshecertainlyisnot,whydoyouwishtoconnectyourselfwithanybodyatpresent?"
"Well,therearepracticalreasons,"Clymbegan,andthenalmostbrokeoffunderanoverpoweringsenseoftheweightofargumentwhichcouldbebroughtagainsthisstatement。
"IfItakeaschoolaneducatedwomanwouldbeinvaluableasahelptome。"
"What!youreallymeantomarryher?"
"Itwouldbeprematuretostatethatplainly。Butconsiderwhatobviousadvantagestherewouldbeindoingit。She————"
"Don’tsupposeshehasanymoney。Shehasn’tafarthing。"
"Sheisexcellentlyeducated,andwouldmakeagoodmatroninaboarding—school。IcandidlyownthatI
havemodifiedmyviewsalittle,indeferencetoyou;
anditshouldsatisfyyou。Inolongeradheretomyintentionofgivingwithmyownmouthrudimentaryeducationtothelowestclass。Icandobetter。Icanestablishagoodprivateschoolforfarmers’sons,andwithoutstoppingtheschoolIcanmanagetopassexaminations。
Bythismeans,andbytheassistanceofawifelikeher————"
"Oh,Clym!"
"Ishallultimately,Ihope,beattheheadofoneofthebestschoolsinthecounty。"
Yeobrighthadenunciatedtheword"her"withafervourwhich,inconversationwithamother,wasabsurdlyindiscreet。
Hardlyamaternalheartwithinthefourseascouldinsuchcircumstances,havehelpedbeingirritatedatthatill—timedbetrayaloffeelingforanewwoman。
"Youareblinded,Clym,"shesaidwarmly。"Itwasabaddayforyouwhenyoufirstseteyesonher。
Andyourschemeismerelyacastleintheairbuiltonpurposetojustifythisfollywhichhasseizedyou,andtosalveyourconscienceontheirrationalsituationyouarein。"
"Mother,that’snottrue,"hefirmlyanswered。
"CanyoumaintainthatIsitandtelluntruths,whenallIwishtodoistosaveyoufromsorrow?Forshame,Clym!Butitisallthroughthatwoman——ahussy!"
Clymreddenedlikefireandrose。Heplacedhishanduponhismother’sshoulderandsaid,inatonewhichhungstrangelybetweenentreatyandcommand,"Iwon’thearit。
Imaybeledtoansweryouinawaywhichweshallbothregret。"
Hismotherpartedherlipstobeginsomeothervehementtruth,butonlookingathimshesawthatinhisfacewhichledhertoleavethewordsunsaid。Yeobrightwalkedonceortwiceacrosstheroom,andthensuddenlywentoutofthehouse。
Itwaseleveno’clockwhenhecamein,thoughhehadnotbeenfurtherthantheprecinctsofthegarden。
Hismotherwasgonetobed。Alightwasleftburningonthetable,andsupperwasspread。Withoutstoppingforanyfoodhesecuredthedoorsandwentupstairs。
4—AnHourofBlissandManyHoursofSadnessThenextdaywasgloomyenoughatBlooms—End。Yeobrightremainedinhisstudy,sittingovertheopenbooks;
buttheworkofthosehourswasmiserablyscant。
Determinedthatthereshouldbenothinginhisconducttowardshismotherresemblingsullenness,hehadoccasionallyspokentoheronpassingmatters,andwouldtakenonoticeofthebrevityofherreplies。Withthesameresolvetokeepupashowofconversationhesaid,aboutseveno’clockintheevening,"There’saneclipseofthemoontonight。
Iamgoingouttoseeit。"And,puttingonhisovercoat,helefther。
Thelowmoonwasnotasyetvisiblefromthefrontofthehouse,andYeobrightclimbedoutofthevalleyuntilhestoodinthefullfloodofherlight。Butevennowhewalkedon,andhisstepswereinthedirectionofRainbarrow。
Inhalfanhourhestoodatthetop。Theskywasclearfromvergetoverge,andthemoonflungherraysoverthewholeheath,butwithoutsensiblylightingit,exceptwherepathsandwater—courseshadlaidbarethewhiteflintsandglisteningquartzsand,whichmadestreaksuponthegeneralshade。
Afterstandingawhilehestoopedandfelttheheather。
Itwasdry,andheflunghimselfdownuponthebarrow,hisfacetowardsthemoon,whichdepictedasmallimageofherselfineachofhiseyes。
Hehadoftencomeupherewithoutstatinghispurposetohismother;butthiswasthefirsttimethathehadbeenostensiblyfrankastohispurposewhilereallyconcealingit。
Itwasamoralsituationwhich,threemonthsearlier,hecouldhardlyhavecreditedofhimself。Inreturningtolabourinthissequesteredspothehadanticipatedanescapefromthechafingofsocialnecessities;
yetbeholdtheywereherealso。Morethaneverhelongedtobeinsomeworldwherepersonalambitionwasnottheonlyrecognizedformofprogress——such,perhaps,asmighthavebeenthecaseatsometimeorotherinthesilveryglobethenshininguponhim。Hiseyetravelledoverthelengthandbreadthofthatdistantcountry——overtheBayofRainbows,thesombreSeaofCrises,theOceanofStorms,theLakeofDreams,thevastWalledPlains,andthewondrousRingMountains——tillhealmostfelthimselftobevoyagingbodilythroughitswildscenes,standingonitshollowhills,traversingitsdeserts,descendingitsvalesandoldseabottoms,ormountingtotheedgesofitscraters。
Whilehewatchedthefar—removedlandscapeatawnystaingrewintobeingonthelowerverge——theeclipsehadbegun。
Thismarkedapreconcertedmoment——fortheremotecelestialphenomenonhadbeenpressedintosublunaryserviceasalover’ssignal。Yeobright’smindflewbacktoearthatthesight;hearose,shookhimselfandlistened。
Minuteafterminutepassedby,perhapstenminutespassed,andtheshadowonthemoonperceptiblywidened。
Heheardarustlingonhislefthand,acloakedfigurewithanupturnedfaceappearedatthebaseoftheBarrow,andClymdescended。Inamomentthefigurewasinhisarms,andhislipsuponhers。
"MyEustacia!"
"Clym,dearest!"
Suchasituationhadlessthanthreemonthsbroughtforth。
Theyremainedlongwithoutasingleutterance,fornolanguagecouldreachtheleveloftheircondition——wordswereastherustyimplementsofaby—gonebarbarousepoch,andonlytobeoccasionallytolerated。
"Ibegantowonderwhyyoudidnotcome,"saidYeobright,whenshehadwithdrawnalittlefromhisembrace。
"Yousaidtenminutesafterthefirstmarkofshadeontheedgeofthemoon,andthat’swhatitisnow。"
"Well,letusonlythinkthathereweare。"
Then,holdingeachother’shand,theywereagainsilent,andtheshadowonthemoon’sdiscgrewalittlelarger。
"Hasitseemedlongsinceyoulastsawme?"sheasked。
"Ithasseemedsad。"
"Andnotlong?That’sbecauseyouoccupyyourself,andsoblindyourselftomyabsence。Tome,whocandonothing,ithasbeenlikelivingunderstagnantwater。"
"Iwouldratherbeartediousness,dear,thanhavetimemadeshortbysuchmeansashaveshortenedmine。"
"Inwhatwayisthat?Youhavebeenthinkingyouwishedyoudidnotloveme。"
"Howcanamanwishthat,andyetloveon?No,Eustacia。"
"Mencan,womencannot。"
"Well,whateverImayhavethought,onethingiscertain——I
doloveyou——pastallcompassanddescription。Iloveyoutooppressiveness——I,whohaveneverbeforefeltmorethanapleasantpassingfancyforanywomanIhaveeverseen。
Letmelookrightintoyourmoonlitfaceanddwelloneverylineandcurveinit!OnlyafewhairbreadthsmakethedifferencebetweenthisfaceandfacesIhaveseenmanytimesbeforeIknewyou;yetwhatadifference——thedifferencebetweeneverythingandnothingatall。
Onetouchonthatmouthagain!there,andthere,andthere。
Youreyesseemheavy,Eustacia。"
"No,itismygeneralwayoflooking。IthinkitarisesfrommyfeelingsometimesanagonizingpityformyselfthatIeverwasborn。"
"Youdon’tfeelitnow?"
"No。YetIknowthatweshallnotlovelikethisalways。
Nothingcanensurethecontinuanceoflove。Itwillevaporatelikeaspirit,andsoIfeelfulloffears。"
"Youneednot。"
"Ah,youdon’tknow。YouhaveseenmorethanI,andhavebeenintocitiesandamongpeoplethatIhaveonlyheardof,andhavelivedmoreyearsthanI;butyetIamolderatthisthanyou。Ilovedanothermanonce,andnowIloveyou。"
"InGod’smercydon’ttalkso,Eustacia!"
"ButIdonotthinkIshallbetheonewhoweariesfirst。
Itwill,Ifear,endinthisway:yourmotherwillfindoutthatyoumeetme,andshewillinfluenceyouagainstme!"
"Thatcanneverbe。Sheknowsofthesemeetingsalready。"
"Andshespeaksagainstme?"
"Iwillnotsay。"
"There,goaway!Obeyher。Ishallruinyou。Itisfoolishofyoutomeetmelikethis。Kissme,andgoawayforever。
Forever——doyouhear?——forever!"
"NotI。"
"Itisyouronlychance。Manyaman’slovehasbeenacursetohim。"
"Youaredesperate,fulloffancies,andwilful;
andyoumisunderstand。Ihaveanadditionalreasonforseeingyoutonightbesidesloveofyou。Forthough,unlikeyou,Ifeelouraffectionmaybeeternal。
Ifeelwithyouinthis,thatourpresentmodeofexistencecannotlast。"
"Oh!’tisyourmother。Yes,that’sit!Iknewit。"
"Nevermindwhatitis。Believethis,Icannotletmyselfloseyou。Imusthaveyoualwayswithme。
ThisveryeveningIdonotliketoletyougo。
Thereisonlyonecureforthisanxiety,dearest——youmustbemywife。"
Shestarted——thenendeavouredtosaycalmly,"Cynicssaythatcurestheanxietybycuringthelove。"
"Butyoumustanswerme。ShallIclaimyousomeday——I
don’tmeanatonce?"
"Imustthink,"Eustaciamurmured。"AtpresentspeakofParistome。Isthereanyplacelikeitonearth?"
"Itisverybeautiful。Butwillyoubemine?"
"Iwillbenobodyelse’sintheworld——doesthatsatisfyyou?"
"Yes,forthepresent。"
"NowtellmeoftheTuileries,andtheLouvre,"
shecontinuedevasively。
"IhatetalkingofParis!Well,IrememberonesunnyroomintheLouvrewhichwouldmakeafittingplaceforyoutolivein——theGaleried’Apollon。Itswindowsaremainlyeast;
andintheearlymorning,whenthesunisbright,thewholeapartmentisinaperfectblazeofsplendour。
Theraysbristleanddartfromtheencrustationsofgildingtothemagnificentinlaidcoffers,fromthecofferstothegoldandsilverplate,fromtheplatetothejewelsandpreciousstones,fromthesetotheenamels,tillthereisaperfectnetworkoflightwhichquitedazzlestheeye。
Butnow,aboutourmarriage————"
"AndVersailles——theKing’sGalleryissomesuchgorgeousroom,isitnot?"
"Yes。Butwhat’stheuseoftalkingofgorgeousrooms?
Bytheway,theLittleTrianonwouldsuitusbeautifullytolivein,andyoumightwalkinthegardensinthemoonlightandthinkyouwereinsomeEnglishshrubbery;
ItislaidoutinEnglishfashion。"
"Ishouldhatetothinkthat!"
"ThenyoucouldkeeptothelawninfrontoftheGrandPalace。
Allaboutthereyouwoulddoubtlessfeelinaworldofhistoricalromance。"
Hewenton,sinceitwasallnewtoher,anddescribedFontainebleau,St。Cloud,theBois,andmanyotherfamiliarhauntsoftheParisians;tillshesaid——
"Whenusedyoutogototheseplaces?"
"OnSundays。"
"Ah,yes。IdislikeEnglishSundays。HowIshouldchimeinwiththeirmannersoverthere!DearClym,you’llgobackagain?"
Clymshookhishead,andlookedattheeclipse。
"Ifyou’llgobackagainI’ll——besomething,"
shesaidtenderly,puttingherheadnearhisbreast。
"Ifyou’llagreeI’llgivemypromise,withoutmakingyouwaitaminutelonger。"
"Howextraordinarythatyouandmymothershouldbeofonemindaboutthis!"saidYeobright。"Ihavevowednottogoback,Eustacia。ItisnottheplaceIdislike;
itistheoccupation。"
"Butyoucangoinsomeothercapacity。"
"No。Besides,itwouldinterferewithmyscheme。
Don’tpressthat,Eustacia。Willyoumarryme?"
"Icannottell。"
"Now——nevermindParis;itisnobetterthanotherspots。
Promise,sweet!"
"Youwillneveradheretoyoureducationplan,Iamquitesure;andthenitwillbeallrightforme;
andsoIpromisetobeyoursforeverandever。"
Clymbroughtherfacetowardshisbyagentlepressureofthehand,andkissedher。
"Ah!butyoudon’tknowwhatyouhavegotinme,"shesaid。
"SometimesIthinkthereisnotthatinEustaciaVyewhichwillmakeagoodhomespunwife。Well,letitgo——seehowourtimeisslipping,slipping,slipping!"Shepointedtowardsthehalf—eclipsedmoon。
"Youaretoomournful。"
"No。OnlyIdreadtothinkofanythingbeyondthepresent。
Whatis,weknow。Wearetogethernow,anditisunknownhowlongweshallbeso;theunknownalwaysfillsmymindwithterriblepossibilities,evenwhenImayreasonablyexpectittobecheerful……Clym,theeclipsedmoonlightshinesuponyourfacewithastrangeforeigncolour,andshowsitsshapeasifitwerecutoutingold。
Thatmeansthatyoushouldbedoingbetterthingsthanthis。"
"Youareambitious,Eustacia——no,notexactlyambitious,luxurious。Ioughttobeofthesamevein,tomakeyouhappy,Isuppose。Andyet,farfromthat,Icouldliveanddieinahermitagehere,withproperworktodo。"
Therewasthatinhistonewhichimplieddistrustofhispositionasasolicitouslover,adoubtifhewereactingfairlytowardsonewhosetastestouchedhisownonlyatrareandinfrequentpoints。Shesawhismeaning,andwhispered,inalow,fullaccentofeagerassurance"Don’tmistakeme,Clym——thoughIshouldlikeParis,Iloveyouforyourselfalone。TobeyourwifeandliveinPariswouldbeheaventome;butIwouldratherlivewithyouinahermitageherethannotbeyoursatall。
Itisgaintomeeitherway,andverygreatgain。
There’smytoocandidconfession。"
"Spokenlikeawoman。AndnowImustsoonleaveyou。
I’llwalkwithyoutowardsyourhouse。"
"Butmustyougohomeyet?"sheasked。"Yes,thesandhasnearlyslippedaway,Isee,andtheeclipseiscreepingonmoreandmore。Don’tgoyet!Stoptillthehourhasrunitselfout;thenIwillnotpressyouanymore。
Youwillgohomeandsleepwell;Ikeepsighinginmysleep!Doyoueverdreamofme?"
"Icannotrecollectacleardreamofyou。"
"Iseeyourfaceineverysceneofmydreams,andhearyourvoiceineverysound。IwishIdidnot。ItistoomuchwhatIfeel。Theysaysuchloveneverlasts。
Butitmust!Andyetonce,Iremember,IsawanofficeroftheHussarsridedownthestreetatBudmouth,andthoughhewasatotalstrangerandneverspoketome,IlovedhimtillIthoughtIshouldreallydieoflove——
butIdidn’tdie,andatlastIleftoffcaringforhim。
HowterribleitwouldbeifatimeshouldcomewhenIcouldnotloveyou,myClym!"
"Pleasedon’tsaysuchrecklessthings。Whenweseesuchatimeathandwewillsay,’Ihaveoutlivedmyfaithandpurpose,’anddie。There,thehourhasexpired——nowletuswalkon。"
HandinhandtheywentalongthepathtowardsMistover。
Whentheywerenearthehousehesaid,"Itistoolateformetoseeyourgrandfathertonight。Doyouthinkhewillobjecttoit?"
"Iwillspeaktohim。Iamsoaccustomedtobemyownmistressthatitdidnotoccurtomethatweshouldhavetoaskhim。"
Thentheylingeringlyseparated,andClymdescendedtowardsBlooms—End。
AndashewalkedfurtherandfurtherfromthecharmedatmosphereofhisOlympiangirlhisfacegrewsadwithanewsortofsadness。Aperceptionofthedilemmainwhichhislovehadplacedhimcamebackinfullforce。
InspiteofEustacia’sapparentwillingnesstowaitthroughtheperiodofanunpromisingengagement,tillheshouldbeestablishedinhisnewpursuit,hecouldnotbutperceiveatmomentsthatshelovedhimratherasavisitantfromagayworldtowhichsherightlybelongedthanasamanwithapurposeopposedtothatrecentpastofhiswhichsointerestedher。Itmeantthat,thoughshemadenoconditionsastohisreturntotheFrenchcapital,thiswaswhatshesecretlylongedforintheeventofmarriage;
anditrobbedhimofmanyanotherwisepleasanthour。
Alongwiththatcamethewideningbreachbetweenhimselfandhismother。Wheneveranylittleoccurrencehadbroughtintomoreprominencethanusualthedisappointmentthathewascausingherithadsenthimonloneandmoodywalks;
orhewaskeptawakeagreatpartofthenightbytheturmoilofspiritwhichsucharecognitioncreated。
IfMrs。YeobrightcouldonlyhavebeenledtoseewhatasoundandworthypurposethispurposeofhiswasandhowlittleitwasbeingaffectedbyhisdevotionstoEustacia,howdifferentlywouldsheregardhim!
Thusashissightgrewaccustomedtothefirstblindinghalokindledabouthimbyloveandbeauty,Yeobrightbegantoperceivewhatastraithewasin。
SometimeshewishedthathehadneverknownEustacia,immediatelytoretractthewishasbrutal。Threeantagonisticgrowthshadtobekeptalive:hismother’strustinhim,hisplanforbecomingateacher,andEustacia’shappiness。
Hisfervidnaturecouldnotaffordtorelinquishoneofthese,thoughtwoofthethreewereasmanyashecouldhopetopreserve。ThoughhislovewasaschasteasthatofPetrarchforhisLaura,ithadmadefettersofwhatpreviouslywasonlyadifficulty。Apositionwhichwasnottoosimplewhenhestoodwhole—heartedhadbecomeindescribablycomplicatedbytheadditionofEustacia。
Justwhenhismotherwasbeginningtotolerateoneschemehehadintroducedanotherstillbittererthanthefirst,andthecombinationwasmorethanshecouldbear。
5—SharpWordsAreSpoken,andaCrisisEnsuesWhenYeobrightwasnotwithEustaciahewassittingslavishlyoverhisbooks;whenhewasnotreadinghewasmeetingher。
Thesemeetingswerecarriedonwiththegreatestsecrecy。
OneafternoonhismothercamehomefromamorningvisittoThomasin。Hecouldseefromadisturbanceinthelinesofherfacethatsomethinghadhappened。
"Ihavebeentoldanincomprehensiblething,"
shesaidmournfully。"ThecaptainhasletoutattheWomanthatyouandEustaciaVyeareengagedtobemarried。"
"Weare,"saidYeobright。"Butitmaynotbeyetforaverylongtime。"
"IshouldhardlythinkitWOULDbeyetforaverylongtime!YouwilltakehertoParis,Isuppose?"
Shespokewithwearyhopelessness。
"IamnotgoingbacktoParis。"
"Whatwillyoudowithawife,then?"
"KeepaschoolinBudmouth,asIhavetoldyou。"
"That’sincredible!Theplaceisoverrunwithschoolmasters。
Youhavenospecialqualifications。Whatpossiblechanceisthereforsuchasyou?"
"Thereisnochanceofgettingrich。Butwithmysystemofeducation,whichisasnewasitistrue,Ishalldoagreatdealofgoodtomyfellow—creatures。"
"Dreams,dreams!Iftherehadbeenanysystemlefttobeinventedtheywouldhavefounditoutattheuniversitieslongbeforethistime。"
"Never,Mother。Theycannotfinditout,becausetheirteachersdon’tcomeincontactwiththeclasswhichdemandssuchasystem——thatis,thosewhohavehadnopreliminarytraining。Myplanisoneforinstillinghighknowledgeintoemptymindswithoutfirstcrammingthemwithwhathastobeuncrammedagainbeforetruestudybegins。"
"Imighthavebelievedyouifyouhadkeptyourselffreefromentanglements;butthiswoman——ifshehadbeenagoodgirlitwouldhavebeenbadenough;butbeing————"
"Sheisagoodgirl。"
"Soyouthink。ACorfubandmaster’sdaughter!Whathasherlifebeen?Hersurnameevenisnothertrueone。"
"SheisCaptainVye’sgranddaughter,andherfathermerelytookhermother’sname。Andsheisaladybyinstinct。"
"Theycallhim’captain,’butanybodyiscaptain。"
"HewasintheRoyalNavy!"
"Nodoubthehasbeentoseainsometuborother。
Whydoesn’thelookafterher?Noladywouldroveabouttheheathatallhoursofthedayandnightasshedoes。
Butthat’snotallofit。TherewassomethingqueerbetweenherandThomasin’shusbandatonetime——IamassureofitasthatIstandhere。"
"Eustaciahastoldme。Hedidpayheralittleattentionayearago;butthere’snoharminthat。
Ilikeherallthebetter。"
"Clym,"saidhismotherwithfirmness,"Ihavenoproofsagainsther,unfortunately。Butifshemakesyouagoodwife,therehasneverbeenabadone。"
"Believeme,youarealmostexasperating,"
saidYeobrightvehemently。"AndthisverydayIhadintendedtoarrangeameetingbetweenyou。Butyougivemenopeace;youtrytothwartmywishesineverything。"
"Ihatethethoughtofanysonofminemarryingbadly!I
wishIhadneverlivedtoseethis;itistoomuchforme——itismorethanIdreamt!"Sheturnedtothewindow。
Herbreathwascomingquickly,andherlipswerepale,parted,andtrembling。
"Mother,"saidClym,"whateveryoudo,youwillalwaysbedeartome——thatyouknow。ButonethingIhavearighttosay,whichis,thatatmyageIamoldenoughtoknowwhatisbestforme。"
Mrs。Yeobrightremainedforsometimesilentandshaken,asifshecouldsaynomore。Thenshereplied,"Best?Isitbestforyoutoinjureyourprospectsforsuchavoluptuous,idlewomanasthat?Don’tyouseethatbytheveryfactofyourchoosingheryouprovethatyoudonotknowwhatisbestforyou?Yougiveupyourwholethought——yousetyourwholesoul——topleaseawoman。"
"Ido。Andthatwomanisyou。"
"Howcanyoutreatmesoflippantly!"saidhismother,turningagaintohimwithatearfullook。