Herthoughts,likeafascinatedmoth,wentflutteringtowardthatlight——thatman——thatgirl,whohadknownwar,danger,seendeathnear,hadobtainedevidentlythedevotionofthatman。Theoccurrencesoftheafternoonhadbeenstrangeinthemselves,butwhatstruckherartisticsensewasthevigouroftheirpresentation。Theyoutlinedthemselvesbeforehermemorywiththeclearsimplicityofsomeimmortallegend。Theyweremysterious,butshefeltcertaintheywereabsolutelytrue。Theyembodiedartlessandmasterfulfeelings;such,nodoubt,ashadswayedmankindinthesimplicityofitsyouth。Sheenvied,foramoment,thelotofthathumbleandobscuresister。Nothingstoodbetweenthatgirlandthetruthofhersensations。Shecouldbesincerelycourageous,andtenderandpassionateand——well——ferocious。Whynotferocious?Shecouldknowthetruthofterror——andofaffection,absolutely,withoutartificialtrammels,withoutthepainofrestraint。
ThinkingofwhatsuchlifecouldbeMrs。Traversfeltinvadedbythatinexplicableexaltationwhichtheconsciousnessoftheirphysicalcapacitiessooftengivestointellectualbeings。Sheglowedwithasuddenpersuasionthatshealsocouldbeequaltosuchanexistence;andherheartwasdilatedwithamomentarylongingtoknowthenakedtruthofthings;thenakedtruthoflifeandpassionburiedunderthegrowthofcenturies。
Sheglowedand,suddenly,shequiveredwiththeshockofcomingtoherselfasifshehadfallendownfromastar。Therewasasoundofripplingwaterandashapelessmassglidedoutofthedarkvoidsheconfronted。Avoicebelowherfeetsaid:
"Imadeoutyourshape——onthesky。"Acryofsurpriseexpiredonherlipsandshecouldonlypeerdownward。Lingard,aloneinthebrig’sdinghy,withanotherstrokesentthelightboatnearlyundertheyacht’scounter,laidhisscullsin,androsefromthethwart。Hisheadandshouldersloomedupalongsideandhehadtheappearanceofstandinguponthesea。InvoluntarilyMrs。Traversmadeamovementofretreat。
"Stop,"hesaid,anxiously,"don’tspeakloud。Noonemustknow。
Wheredoyourpeoplethinkthemselves,Iwonder?Inadockathome?Andyou——"
"Myhusbandisnotonboard,"sheinterrupted,hurriedly。
"Iknow。"
Shebentalittlemoreovertherail。
"Thenyouarehavinguswatched。Why?"
"Somebodymustwatch。Yourpeoplekeepsuchagoodlook—out——don’tthey?Yes。Eversincedarkoneofmyboatshasbeendodgingasternhere,inthedeepwater。IsworetomyselfI
wouldneverseeoneofyou,neverspeaktooneofyouhere,thatIwouldbedumb,blind,deaf。And——hereIam!"
Mrs。Travers’alarmandmistrustwerereplacedbyanimmensecuriosity,burning,yetquiet,too,asifbeforetheinevitableworkofdestiny。ShelookeddownwardatLingard。Hisheadwasbared,and,withonehandupontheship’sside,heseemedtobethinkingdeeply。
"Becauseyouhadsomethingmoretotellus,"Mrs。Traverssuggested,gently。
"Yes,"hesaidinalowtoneandwithoutmovingintheleast。
"Willyoucomeonboardandwait?"sheasked。
"Who?I!"Heliftedhisheadsoquicklyastostartleher。"I
havenothingtosaytohim;andI’llneverputmyfootonboardthiscraft。I’vebeentoldtogo。That’senough。"
"Heisaccustomedtobeaddresseddeferentially,"shesaidafterapause,"andyou——"
"Whoishe?"askedLingard,simply。
Thesethreewordsseemedtohertoscatterherpastintheair——likesmoke。Theyrobbedallthemultitudeofmankindofeveryvestigeofimportance。Shewasamazedtofindthatonthisnight,inthisplace,therecouldbenoadequateanswertothesearchingnaivenessofthatquestion。
"Ididn’taskformuch,"Lingardbeganagain。"DidI?Onlythatyouallshouldcomeonboardmybrigforfivedays。That’sall……DoIlooklikealiar?TherearethingsIcouldnottellhim。
Icouldn’texplain——Icouldn’t——nottohim——tonoman——tonomanintheworld——"
Hisvoicedropped。
"Nottomyself,"heendedasifinadream。
"Wehaveremainedunmolestedsolonghere,"beganMrs。Traversalittleunsteadily,"thatitmakesitverydifficulttobelieveindanger,now。Wesawnooneallthesedaysexceptthosetwopeoplewhocameforyou。Ifyoumaynotexplain——"
"Ofcourse,youcan’tbeexpectedtoseethroughawall,"brokeinLingard。"Thiscoast’slikeawall,butIknowwhat’sontheotherside……Ayachthere,ofallthingsthatfloat!WhenI
seteyesonherIcouldfancyshehadn’tbeenmorethananhourfromhome。Nothingbutthelookofhersparsmademethinkofoldtimes。Andthenthefacesofthechapsonboard。Iseemedtoknowthemall。ItwaslikehomecomingtomewhenIwasn’tthinkingofit。AndIhatedthesightofyouall。"
"Ifweareexposedtoanyperil,"shesaidafterapauseduringwhichshetriedtopenetratethesecretofpassionhiddenbehindthatman’swords,"itneednotaffectyou。OurotherboatisgonetotheStraitsandeffectivehelpissuretocomeverysoon。"
"Affectme!Isthatpreciouswatchmanofyourscomingaft?I
don’twantanybodytoknowIcamehereagainbegging,evenofyou。Ishecomingaft?……Listen!I’vestoppedyourotherboat。"
Hisheadandshouldersdisappearedasthoughhehaddivedintoadenserlayerofobscurityfloatingonthewater。Thewatchman,whohadtheintentiontostretchhimselfinoneofthedeckchairs,catchingsightoftheowner’swife,walkedstraighttothelampthathungundertheridgepoleoftheawning,andafterfumblingwithitforatimewentawayforwardwithanindolentgait。
"Youdared!"Mrs。Traverswhispereddowninanintensetone;anddirectly,Lingard’sheademergedagainbelowherwithanupturnedface。
"Itwasdare——orgiveup。ThehelpfromtheStraitswouldhavebeentoolateanyhowifIhadn’tthepowertokeepyousafe;andifIhadthepowerIcouldseeyouthroughit——alone。Iexpectedtofindareasonablemantotalkto。Ioughttohaveknownbetter。Youcomefromtoofartounderstandthesethings。Well,I
dared;I’vesentafteryourotherboatafellowwho,withmeathisback,wouldtrytostopthegovernoroftheStraitshimself。
Hewilldoit。Perhapsit’sdonealready。Youhavenothingtohopefor。ButIamhere。YousaidyoubelievedImeantwell——"
"Yes,"shemurmured。
"That’swhyIthoughtIwouldtellyoueverything。Ihadtobeginwiththisbusinessabouttheboat。Andwhatdoyouthinkofmenow?I’vecutyouofffromtherestoftheearth。Youpeoplewoulddisappearlikeastoneinthewater。Youleftoneforeignportforanother。Who’stheretotroubleaboutwhatbecameofyou?Whowouldknow?Whocouldguess?Itwouldbemonthsbeforetheybegantostir。"
"Iunderstand,"shesaid,steadily,"wearehelpless。"
"Andalone,"headded。
Afterapauseshesaidinadeliberate,restrainedvoice:
"Whatdoesthismean?Plunder,captivity?"
"ItwouldhavemeantdeathifIhadn’tbeenhere,"heanswered。
"Butyouhavethepowerto——"
""Why,doyouthink,youarealiveyet?"hecried。"Jorgensonhasbeenarguingwiththemonshore,"hewenton,morecalmly,withaswingofhisarmtowardwherethenightseemeddarkest。"Doyouthinkhewouldhavekeptthembackiftheyhadn’texpectedmeeveryday?Hiswordswouldhavebeennothingwithoutmyfist。"
Sheheardadullblowstruckonthesideoftheyachtandconcealedinthesamedarknessthatwrappedtheunconcernoftheearthandsea,thefuryandthepainofhearts;shesmiledabovehishead,fascinatedbythesimplicityofimagesandexpressions。
Lingardmadeabrusquemovement,thelivelylittleboatbeingunsteadyunderhisfeet,andshespokeslowly,absently,asifherthoughthadbeenlostinthevaguenessofhersensations。
"Andthis——this——Jorgenson,yousaid?Whoishe?"
"Aman,"heanswered,"amanlikemyself。"
"Likeyourself?"
"Justlikemyself,"hesaidwithstrangereluctance,asifadmittingapainfultruth。"Moresense,perhaps,butlessluck。
Though,sinceyouryachthasturneduphere,Ibegintothinkthatmyluckisnothingmuchtoboastofeither。"
"Isourpresenceheresofatal?"
"Itmaybedeathtosome。Itmaybeworsethandeathtome。Anditrestswithyouinaway。Thinkofthat!Icanneverfindsuchanotherchanceagain。Butthat’snothing!AmanwhohassavedmylifeonceandthatIpassedmywordtowouldthinkIhadthrownhimover。Butthat’snothing!Listen!AstrueasIstandhereinmyboattalkingtoyou,Ibelievethegirlwoulddieofgrief。"
"Youloveher,"shesaid,softly。
"Likemyowndaughter,"hecried,low。
Mrs。Traverssaid,"Oh!"faintly,andforamomenttherewasasilence,thenhebeganagain:
"Lookhere。WhenIwasaboyinatrawler,andlookedatyouyachtpeople,intheChannelports,youwereasstrangetomeastheMalaysherearestrangetoyou。Ilefthomesixteenyearsagoandfoughtmywayallroundtheearth。IhadthetimetoforgetwhereIbegan。Whatareyoutomeagainstthesetwo?IfIwastodiehereonthespotwouldyoucare?Noonewouldcareathome。
Nooneinthewholeworld——butthesetwo。"
"WhatcanIdo?"sheasked,andwaited,leaningover。
Heseemedtoreflect,thenliftinghishead,spokegently:
"Doyouunderstandthedangeryouarein?Areyouafraid?"
"Iunderstandtheexpressionyouused,ofcourse。Understandthedanger?"shewenton。"No——decidedlyno。And——honestly——Iamnotafraid。"
"Aren’tyou?"hesaidinadisappointedvoice。"Perhapsyoudon’tbelieveme?Ibelievedyou,though,whenyousaidyouweresureI
meantwell。Itrustedyouenoughtocomehereaskingforyourhelp——tellingyouwhatnooneknows。"
"Youmistakeme,"shesaidwithimpulsiveearnestness。"Thisissoextraordinarilyunusual——sudden——outsidemyexperience。"
"Aye!"hemurmured,"whatwouldyouknowofdangerandtrouble?
You!Butperhapsbythinkingitover——"
"Youwantmetothinkmyselfintoafright!"Mrs。Traverslaughedlightly,andinthegloomofhisthoughtthisflashofjoyoussoundwasincongruousandalmostterrible。Nextmomentthenightappearedbrilliantasday,warmassunshine;butwhensheceasedthereturningdarknessgavehimpainasifithadstruckheavilyagainsthisbreast。"Idon’tthinkIcoulddothat,"shefinishedinaserioustone。
"Couldn’tyou?"Hehesitated,perplexed。"Thingsarebadenoughtomakeitnoshame。Itellyou,"hesaid,rapidly,"andIamnotatimidman,Imaynotbeabletodomuchifyoupeopledon’thelpme。"
"YouwantmetopretendIamalarmed?"sheasked,quickly。
"Aye,topretend——aswellyoumay。It’salottoaskofyou——whoperhapsneverhadtomake—believeathinginyourlife——isn’tit?"
"Itis,"shesaidafteratime。
TheunexpectedbitternessofhertonestruckLingardwithdismay。
"Don’tbeoffended,"heentreated。"I’vegottoplanawayoutofthismess。It’snoplayeither。Couldyoupretend?"
"Perhaps,ifItriedveryhard。Buttowhatend?"
"Youmustallshiftaboardthebrig,"hebegan,speakingquickly,"andthenwemaygetoverthistroublewithoutcomingtoblows。
Now,ifyouweretosaythatyouwishit;thatyoufeelunsafeintheyacht——don’tyousee?"
"Isee,"shepronounced,thoughtfully。
"Thebrigissmallbutthecuddyisfitforalady,"wentonLingardwithanimation。
"Hasitnotalreadyshelteredaprincess?"shecommented,coolly。
"AndIshallnotintrude。"
"Thisisaninducement。"
"Nobodywilldaretointrude。Youneedn’tevenseeme。"
"Thisisalmostdecisive,only——"
"Iknowmyplace。"
"Only,Imightnothavetheinfluence,"shefinished。
"ThatIcannotbelieve,"hesaid,roughly。"Thelongandtheshortofitisyoudon’ttrustmebecauseyouthinkthatonlypeopleofyourownconditionspeakthetruthalways。"
"Evidently,"shemurmured。
"Yousaytoyourself——here’safellowdeepinwithpirates,thieves,niggers——"
"Tobesure——"
"AmanIneversawthelikebefore,"wentonLingard,headlong,"a——ruffian。"
Hecheckedhimself,fullofconfusion。Afteratimeheheardhersaying,calmly:
"Youarelikeothermeninthis,thatyougetangrywhenyoucannothaveyourwayatonce。"
"Iangry!"heexclaimedindeadenedvoice。"Youdonotunderstand。Iamthinkingofyoualso——itishardonme——"
"Imistrustnotyou,butmyownpower。YouhaveproducedanunfortunateimpressiononMr。Travers。"
"Unfortunateimpression!HetreatedmeasifIhadbeenalong—shoreloafer。Nevermindthat。Heisyourhusband。Fearinthoseyoucareforishardtobearforanyman。Andso,he——"
"WhatMachiavellism!"
"Eh,whatdidyousay?"
"Ionlywonderedwhereyouhadobservedthat。Onthesea?"
"Observedwhat?"hesaid,absently。Thenpursuinghisidea——"Onewordfromyououghttobeenough。"
"Youthinkso?"
"Iamsureofit。Why,evenI,myself——"
"Ofcourse,"sheinterrupted。"Butdon’tyouthinkthatafterpartingwithyouonsuch——such——inimicalterms,therewouldbeadifficultyinresumingrelations?"
"Amanlikemewoulddoanythingformoney——don’tyousee?"
Afterapausesheasked:
"Andwouldyoucareforthatargumenttobeused?"
"Aslongasyouknowbetter!"
Hisvoicevibrated——shedrewbackdisturbed,asifunexpectedlyhehadtouchedher。
"Whatcantherebeatstake?"shebegan,wonderingly。
"Akingdom,"saidLingard。
Mrs。Traversleanedfarovertherail,staring,andtheirfaces,oneabovetheother,cameveryclosetogether。
"Notforyourself?"shewhispered。
Hefeltthetouchofherbreathonhisforeheadandremainedstillforamoment,perfectlystillasifhedidnotintendtomoveorspeakanymore。
"Thosethings,"hebegan,suddenly,"comeinyourway,whenyoudon’tthink,andtheygetallroundyoubeforeyouknowwhatyoumeantodo。WhenIwentintothatbayinNewGuineaIneverguessedwherethatcoursewouldtakemeto。Icouldtellyouastory。Youwouldunderstand!You!You!"
Hestammered,hesitated,andsuddenlyspoke,liberatingthevisionsoftwoyearsintothenightwhereMrs。Traverscouldfollowthemasifoutlinedinwordsoffire。
VII
Histalewasasstartlingasthediscoveryofanewworld。Shewasbeingtakenalongtheboundaryofanexcitingexistence,andshelookedintoitthroughtheguilelessenthusiasmofthenarrator。Theheroicqualityofthefeelingsconcealedwhatwasdisproportionateandabsurdinthatgratitude,inthatfriendship,inthatinexplicabledevotion。Theheadlongfiercenessofpurposeinvestedhisobscuredesignofconquestwiththeproportionsofagreatenterprise。Itwasclearthatnovisionofasubjugatedworldcouldhavebeenmoreinspiringtothemostfamousadventurerofhistory。
Fromtimetotimeheinterruptedhimselftoask,confidently,asifhehadbeenspeakingtoanoldfriend,"Whatwouldyouhavedone?"andhurriedonwithoutpausingforapproval。
Itstruckherthattherewasagreatpassioninallthis,thebeautyofanimplantedfacultyofaffectionthathadfounditself,itsimmediateneedofanobjectandthewayofexpansion;
atendernessexpressedviolently;atendernessthatcouldonlybesatisfiedbybackinghumanbeingsagainsttheirowndestiny。
Perhapsherhatredofconvention,trammellingthefranknessofherownimpulses,hadrenderedhermorealerttoperceivewhatisintrinsicallygreatandprofoundwithintheformsofhumanfolly,sosimpleandsoinfinitelyvariedaccordingtotheregionoftheearthandtothemomentoftime。
Whatofitthatthenarratorwasonlyarovingseaman;thekingdomofthejungle,themenoftheforest,thelivesobscure!
Thatsimplesoulwaspossessedbythegreatnessoftheidea;
therewasnothingsordidinitsflamingimpulses。Whensheonceunderstoodthat,thestoryappealedtotheaudacityofherthoughts,andshebecamesocharmedwithwhatsheheardthatsheforgotwhereshewas。Sheforgotthatshewaspersonallyclosetothattalewhichshesawdetached,farawayfromher,truthorfiction,presentedinpicturesquespeech,realonlybytheresponseofheremotion。
Lingardpaused。Inthecessationoftheimpassionedmurmurshebegantoreflect。Andatfirstitwasonlyanoppressivenotionoftherebeingsomesignificancethatreallymatteredinthisman’sstory。Thatmatteredtoher。Forthefirsttimetheshadowofdangeranddeathcrossedhermind。Wasthatthesignificance?
Suddenly,inaflashofacutediscernment,shesawherselfinvolvedhelplesslyinthatstory,asoneisinvolvedinanaturalcataclysm。
Hewasspeakingagain。Hehadnotbeensilentmorethanaminute。
ItseemedtoMrs。Traversthatyearshadelapsed,sodifferentnowwastheeffectofhiswords。Hermindwasagitatedasifhiscomingtospeakandconfideinherhadbeenatremendousoccurrence。Itwasafactofherownexistence;itwaspartofthestoryalso。Thiswasthedisturbingthought。Sheheardhimpronounceseveralnames:Belarab,Daman,Tengga,Ningrat。Thesebelongednowtoherlifeandshewasappalledtofindshewasunabletoconnectthesenameswithanyhumanappearance。Theystoodoutalone,asifwrittenonthenight;theytookonasymbolicshape;theyimposedthemselvesuponhersenses。Shewhisperedasifpondering:"Belarab,Daman,Ningrat,"andthesebarbaroussoundsseemedtopossessanexceptionalenergy,afatalaspect,thesavourofmadness。
"Notoneofthembuthasaheavyscoretosettlewiththewhites。
What’sthattome!Ihadsomehowtogetmenwhowouldfight。I
riskedmylifetogetthatlot。ImadethempromiseswhichI
shallkeep——or——!CanyouseenowwhyIdaredtostopyourboat?
IaminsodeepthatIcarefornoSirJohnintheworld。WhenI
lookattheworkaheadIcarefornothing。Igaveyouonechance——onegoodchance。ThatIhadtodo。No!IsupposeIdidn’tlookenoughofagentleman。Yes!Yes!That’sit。YetIknowwhatagentlemanis。Ilivedwiththemforyears。Ichummedwiththem—
—yes——ongold—fieldsandinotherplaceswhereamanhasgottoshowthestuffthat’sinhim。Someofthemwritefromhometomehere——suchasyouseeme,becauseI——nevermind!AndIknowwhatagentlemanwoulddo。Come!Wouldn’thetreatastrangerfairly?
Wouldn’therememberthatnomanisaliartillyouprovehimso?
Wouldn’thekeephiswordwherevergiven?Well,Iamgoingtodothat。NotahairofyourheadshallbetouchedaslongasI
live!"
Shehadregainedmuchofhercomposurebutatthesewordsshefeltthatstaggeringsenseofutterinsecuritywhichisgivenonebythefirsttremorofanearthquake。Itwasfollowedbyanexpectantstillnessofsensations。Sheremainedsilent。Hethoughtshedidnotbelievehim。
"Come!Whatonearthdoyouthinkbroughtmehere——to——to——talklikethistoyou?TherewasHassim——RajahTulla,Ishouldsay——whowasaskingmethisafternoon:’Whatwillyoudonowwiththese,yourpeople?’IbelievehethinksyetIfetchedyouhereforsomereason。Youcan’ttellwhatcrookednotiontheywillgetintotheirthickheads。It’senoughtomakeoneswear。"Heswore。
"Mypeople!Areyou?Howmuch?Say——howmuch?You’renomoreminethanIamyours。Wouldanyofyoufinefolksathomefaceblackruintosaveafishingsmack’screwfromgettingdrowned?"
Notwithstandingthatsenseofinsecuritywhichlingeredfaintlyinhermindshehadnoimageofdeathbeforeher。Shefeltintenselyalive。Shefeltaliveinaflushofstrength,withanimpressionofnoveltyasthoughlifehadbeenthegiftofthisverymoment。Thedangerhiddeninthenightgavenosigntoawakenherterror,buttheworkingsofahumansoul,simpleandviolent,werelaidbarebeforeherandhadthedisturbingcharmofanunheard—ofexperience。Shewaslisteningtoamanwhoconcealednothing。Shesaid,interrogatively:
"Andyetyouhavecome?"
"Yes,"heanswered,"toyou——andforyouonly。"
Thefloodtiderunningstrongoverthebanksmadeaplacidtricklingsoundabouttheyacht’srudder。
"Iwouldnotbesavedalone。"
"Thenyoumustbringthemoveryourself,"hesaidinasombretone。"There’sthebrig。Youhaveme——mymen——myguns。Youknowwhattodo。
"Iwilltry,"shesaid。
"Verywell。Iamsorryforthepoordevilsforwardthereifyoufail。Butofcourseyouwon’t。Watchthatlightonthebrig。I
hadithoistedonpurpose。Thetroublemaybenearerthanwethink。Twoofmyboatsaregonescoutingandifthenewstheybringmeisbadthelightwillbelowered。Thinkwhatthatmeans。
AndI’vetoldyouwhatIhavetoldnobody。Thinkofmyfeelingsalso。ItoldyoubecauseI——becauseIhadto。"
Hegaveashoveagainsttheyacht’ssideandglidedawayfromunderhereyes。Aripplingsounddiedout。
Shewalkedawayfromtherail。Thelampandtheskylightsshonefaintlyalongthedarkstretchofthedecks。Thiseveningwaslikethelast——likealltheeveningsbefore。
"IsallthisIhaveheardpossible?"sheaskedherself。"No——butitistrue。"
Shesatdowninadeckchairtothinkandfoundshecouldonlyremember。Shejumpedup。Shewassuresomebodywashailingtheyachtfaintly。Wasthatmanhailing?Shelistened,andhearingnothingwasannoyedwithherselfforbeinghauntedbyavoice。
"Hesaidhecouldtrustme。Now,whatisthisdanger?Whatisdanger?"shemeditated。
Footstepswerecomingfromforward。Thefigureofthewatchmanflittedvaguelyoverthegangway。Hewaswhistlingsoftlyandvanished。Hollowsoundsintheboatweresucceededbyasplashofoars。Thenightswallowedtheseslightnoises。Mrs。Traverssatdownagainandfoundherselfmuchcalmer。
Shehadthefacultyofbeingabletothinkherownthoughts——andthecourage。Shecouldtakenoactionofanykindtillherhusband’sreturn。Lingard’swarningswerenotwhathadimpressedhermost。Thismanhadpresentedhisinnermostselfunclothedbyanysubterfuge。Therewereinplainsighthisdesires,hisperplexities,affections,doubts,hisviolence,hisfolly;andtheexistencetheymadeupwaslawlessbutnotvile。Shehadtoomuchelevationofmindtolookuponhimfromanyotherbutastrictlyhumanstandpoint。Ifhetrustedher(howstrange;whyshouldhe?Washewrong?)sheacceptedthetrustwithscrupulousfairness。Andwhenitdawneduponherthatofallthemenintheworldthisunquestionablywastheonesheknewbest,shehadamomentofwonderfollowedbyanimpressionofprofoundsadness。
Itseemedanunfortunatematterthatconcernedheralone。
Herthoughtwassuspendedwhileshelistenedattentivelyforthereturnoftheyacht’sboat。Shewasdismayedatthetaskbeforeher。Notasoundbrokethestillnessandshefeltasifshewerelostinemptyspace。Thensuddenlysomeoneamidshipsyawnedimmenselyandsaid:"Oh,dear!Oh,dear!"Avoiceasked:"Ain’ttheybackyet?"Anegativegruntanswered。
Mrs。TraversfoundthatLingardwastouching,becausehecouldbeunderstood。Howsimplewaslife,shereflected。Shewasfrankwithherself。Sheconsideredhimapartfromsocialorganization。
Shediscoveredhehadnoplaceinit。Howdelightful!Herewasahumanbeingandthenakedtruthofthingswasnotsoveryfarfromhernotwithstandingthegrowthofcenturies。Thenitoccurredtoherthatthismanbyhisactionstrippedheratonceofherposition,ofherwealth,ofherrank,ofherpast。"Iamhelpless。Whatremains?"sheaskedherself。Nothing!Anybodytheremighthavesuggested:"Yourpresence。"Shewastooartificialyettothinkofherbeauty;andyetthepowerofpersonalityispartofthenakedtruthofthings。
Shelookedoverhershoulder,andsawthelightatthebrig’sforeyard—armburningwithastrong,calmflameinthedustofstarlightsuspendedabovethecoast。Sheheardtheheavybumpasofaboatrunheadlongagainsttheladder。Theywereback!Sheroseinsuddenandextremeagitation。Whatshouldshesay?Howmuch?Howtobegin?Whysayanything?Itwouldbeabsurd,liketalkingseriouslyaboutadream。Shewouldnotdare!Inamomentshewasdrivenintoastateofmindborderingondistraction。Sheheardsomebodyrunupthegangwaysteps。Withtheideaofgainingtimeshewalkedrapidlyafttothetaffrail。Thelightofthebrigfacedherwithoutaflicker,enormousamongstthesunsscatteredintheimmensityofthenight。
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