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第20章

  "Yes……?"sheaccentuatedinterrogatively。
  "Youhavetheawfulnessofthepredestined。You,too,arethepreyofdreams。"
  "NotoftheMoors,then,"sheuttered,calmly,beginningtheotherplait。D’Alcacerfollowedtheoperationtotheend。Closeagainsther,herdiaphanousshadowonthemuslinreproducedherslightestmovements。D’Alcacerturnedhiseyesaway。
  "No!Nobarbarianshalltouchyou。BecauseifitcomestothatI
  believeHEwouldbecapableofkillingyouhimself。"
  Aminuteelapsedbeforehestoleaglanceinherdirection。Shewasleaningbackagain,herhandshadfallenonherlapandherheadwithaplaitofhaironeachsideofherface,herheadincrediblychangedincharacterandsuggestingsomethingmedieval,ascetic,droopeddreamilyonherbreast。
  D’Alcacerwaited,holdinghisbreath。Shedidn’tmove。Inthedimgleamofjewelledclasps,thefaintsheenofgoldembroideriesandtheshimmerofsilks,shewaslikeafigureinafadedpainting。Onlyherneckappeareddazzlinglywhiteinthesmokyrednessofthelight。D’Alcacer’swonderapproachedafeelingofawe。HewasonthepointofmovingawayquietlywhenMrs。
  Travers,withoutstirringintheleast,lethimhearthewords:
  "Ihavetoldhimthateverydayseemedmoredifficulttolive。
  Don’tyouseehowimpossiblethisis?"
  D’AlcacerglancedrapidlyacrosstheCagewhereMr。Traversseemedtobeasleepallinaheapandpresentingaruffledappearancelikeasickbird。Nothingwasdistinctofhimbutthebaldpatchonthetopofhishead。
  "Yes,"hemurmured,"itismostunfortunate……Iunderstandyouranxiety,Mrs。Travers,but……"
  "Iamfrightened,"shesaid。
  Hereflectedamoment。"Whatanswerdidyouget?"heasked,softly。
  "Theanswerwas:’Patience。’"
  D’Alcacerlaughedalittle。——"Youmaywelllaugh,"murmuredMrs。
  Traversinatoneofanguish。——"That’swhyIdid,"hewhispered。
  "Patience!Didn’theseethehorrorofit?"——"Idon’tknow。Hewalkedaway,"saidMrs。Travers。Shelookedimmovablyatherhandsclaspedinherlap,andthenwithaburstofdistress,"Mr。
  d’Alcacer,whatisgoingtohappen?"——"Ah,youareaskingyourselfthequestionatlast。THATwillhappenwhichcannotbeavoided;andperhapsyouknowbestwhatitis。"——"No。Iamstillaskingmyselfwhathewilldo。"——"Ah,thatisnotformetoknow,"declaredd’Alcacer。"Ican’ttellyouwhathewilldo,butIknowwhatwillhappentohim。"——"Tohim,yousay!Tohim!"shecried。——"Hewillbreakhisheart,"saidd’Alcacer,distinctly,bendingalittleoverthechairwithaslightgaspathisownaudacity——andwaited。
  "Croyez—vous?"cameatlastfromMrs。Traversinanaccentsocoldlylanguidthatd’Alcacerfeltashudderrundownhisspine。
  Wasitpossiblethatshewasthatkindofwoman,heaskedhimself。Didsheseenothingintheworldoutsideherself?Wassheabovethecommonestkindofcompassion?Hecouldn’tsuspectMrs。Traversofstupidity;butshemighthavebeenheartlessand,likesomewomenofherclass,quiteunabletorecognizeanyemotionintheworldexceptherown。D’Alcacerwasshockedandatthesametimehewasrelievedbecauseheconfessedtohimselfthathehadventuredveryfar。However,inherhumanityshewasnotvulgarenoughtobeoffended。Shewasnottheslaveofsmallmeannesses。Thisthoughtpleasedd’Alcacerwhohadschooledhimselfnottoexpecttoomuchfrompeople。Buthedidn’tknowwhattodonext。Afterwhathehadventuredtosayandafterthemannerinwhichshehadmethisaudacitytheonlythingtodowastochangetheconversation。Mrs。Traversremainedperfectlystill。"IwillpretendthatIthinksheisasleep,"hethoughttohimself,meditatingaretreatontip—toe。
  Hedidn’tknowthatMrs。Traverswassimplytryingtorecoverthefullcommandofherfaculties。Hiswordshadgivenheraterribleshock。Aftermanagingtoutterthisdefensive"croyez—vous"whichcameoutofherlipscoldandfaintasifinalasteffortofdyingstrength,shefeltherselfturnrigidandspeechless。Shewasthinking,stiffalloverwithemotion:"D’Alcacerhasseenit!Howmuchmorehashebeenabletosee?"Shedidn’taskherselfthatquestioninfearorshamebutwitharecklessresignation。Outofthatshockcameasensationofpeace。A
  glowingwarmthpassedthroughallherlimbs。Ifd’Alcacerhadpeeredbythatsmokylightintoherfacehemighthaveseenonherlipsafatalisticsmilecomeandgo。Butd’Alcacerwouldnothavedreamedofdoingsuchathing,and,besides,hisattentionjustthenwasdrawninanotherdirection。Hehadheardsubduedexclamations,hadnoticedastironthedecksoftheEmma,andevensomesortofnoiseoutsidetheship。
  "Thesearestrangesounds,"hesaid。
  "Yes,Ihear,"Mrs。Traversmurmured,uneasily。
  VagueshapesglidedoutsidetheCage,barefooted,almostnoiseless,whisperingMalaywordssecretly。
  "Itseemsasthoughaboathadcomealongside,"observedd’Alcacer,lendinganattentiveear。"Iwonderwhatitmeans。Inourposition……"
  "Itmaymeananything,"interruptedMrs。Travers。
  "Jaffirishere,"saidavoiceinthedarknessoftheafterendoftheship。Thenthereweresomemorewordsinwhichd’Alcacer’sattentiveearcaughttheword"surat。"
  "Amessageofsomesorthascome,"hesaid。"TheywillbecallingCaptainLingard。Iwonderwhatthoughtsorwhatdreamsthiscallwillinterrupt。"Hespokelightly,lookingnowatMrs。Traverswhohadalteredherpositioninthechair;andbytheirtonesandattitudesthesetwomighthavebeenonboardtheyachtsailingtheseainperfectsafety。"You,ofcourse,aretheonewhowillbetold。Don’tyoufeelasortofexcitement,Mrs。Travers?"
  "Ihavebeenlatelyexhortedtopatience,"shesaidinthesameeasytone。"IcanwaitandIimagineIshallhavetowaittillthemorning。"
  "Itcan’tbeverylateyet,"hesaid。"Timewithushasbeenstandingstillforeversolong。Andyetthismaybethehouroffate。"
  "Isthisthefeelingyouhaveatthisparticularmoment?"
  "Ihavehadthatfeelingforaconsiderablenumberofmomentsalready。Atfirstitwasexciting。NowIamonlymoderatelyanxious。Ihaveemployedmytimeingoingoverallmypastlife。"
  "Canonereallydothat?"
  "Yes。Ican’tsayIhavebeenboredtoextinction。Iamstillalive,asyousee;butIhavedonewiththatandIfeelextremelyidle。ThereisonlyonethingIwouldliketodo。Iwanttofindafewwordsthatcouldconveytoyoumygratitudeforallyourfriendlinessinthepast,atthetimewhenyouletmeseesomuchofyouinLondon。IfeltalwaysthatyoutookmeonmyowntermsandthatsokindlythatoftenIfeltinclinedtothinkbetterofmyself。ButIamafraidIamwearyingyou,Mrs。Travers。"
  "Iassureyouyouhaveneverdonethat——inthepast。AndastothepresentmomentIbegyounottogoaway。Staybymeplease。
  Wearenotgoingtopretendthatwearesleepyatthisearlyhour。"
  D’Alcacerbroughtastoolclosetothelongchairandsatdownonit。"Oh,yes,thepossiblehouroffate,"hesaid。"Ihavearequesttomake,Mrs。Travers。Idon’taskyoutobetrayanything。Whatwouldbethegood?Theissuewhenitcomeswillbeplainenough。ButIshouldliketogetawarning,justsomethingthatwouldgivemetimetopullmyselftogether,tocomposemyselfasitwere。Iwantyoutopromisemethatifthebalancetipsagainstusyouwillgivemeasign。Youcould,forinstance,seizetheopportunitywhenIamlookingatyoutoputyourlefthandtoyourforeheadlikethis。ItisagesturethatIhaveneverseenyoumake,andso……"
  "Jorgenson!"Lingard’svoicewasheardforwardwherethelightofalanternappearedsuddenly。Then,afterapause,Lingardwasheardagain:"Here!"
  Thenthesilentminutesbegantogoby。Mrs。Traversreclininginherchairandd’Alcacersittingonthestoolwaitedmotionlesswithoutaword。PresentlythroughthesubduedmurmursandagitationpervadingthedarkdeckoftheEmmaMrs。Traversheardafirmfootstep,and,lanterninhand,Lingardappearedoutsidethemuslincage。
  "Willyoucomeoutandspeaktome?"hesaid,loudly。"Notyou。
  Thelady,"headdedinanauthoritativetoneasd’Alcacerrosehastilyfromthestool。"IwantMrs。Travers。"
  "Ofcourse,"mutteredd’AlcacertohimselfandasheopenedthedooroftheCagetoletMrs。Traversslipthroughhewhisperedtoher,"Thisisthehouroffate。"
  Shebrushedpasthimswiftlywithouttheslightestsignthatshehadheardthewords。OntheafterdeckbetweentheCageandthedeckhouseLingardwaited,lanterninhand。Nobodyelsewasvisibleabout;butd’Alcacerfeltintheairthepresenceofsilentandexcitedbeingshoveringoutsidethecircleoflight。
  LingardraisedthelanternasMrs。Traversapproachedandd’Alcacerheardhimsay:
  "Ihavehadnewswhichyououghttoknow。Letusgointothedeckhouse。"
  D’Alcacersawtheirheadslightedupbytheraisedlanternsurroundedbythedepthsofshadowwithaneffectofamarvellousandsymbolicvision。HeheardMrs。Traverssay"Iwouldrathernothearyournews,"inatonethatmadethatsensitiveobserverpurseuphislipsinwonder。Hethoughtthatshewasover—wrought,thatthesituationhadgrowntoomuchforhernerves。Butthiswasnotthetoneofafrightenedperson。Itflashedthroughhismindthatshehadbecomeself—conscious,andtherehestoppedinhisspeculation。Thatfriendofwomenremaineddiscreeteveninhisthoughts。HesteppedbackwardfurtherintotheCageandwithoutsurprisesawMrs。TraversfollowLingardintothedeckhouse。
  IV
  Lingardstoodthelanternonthetable。Itslightwasverypoor。
  Hedroppedontothesea—chestheavily。He,too,wasover—wrought。Hisflannelshirtwasopenattheneck。Hehadabroadbeltroundhiswaistandwaswithouthisjacket。Beforehim,Mrs。Travers,straightandtallinthegaysilks,cottons,andmuslinsofheroutlandishdress,withtheendsofthescarfthrownoverherhead,hangingdowninfrontofher,lookeddimlysplendidandwithablackglanceoutofherwhiteface。Hesaid:
  "Doyou,too,wanttothrowmeover?Itellyouyoucan’tdothatnow。"
  "Iwasn’tthinkingofthrowingyouover,butIdon’tevenknowwhatyoumean。ThereseemtobenoendofthingsIcan’tdo。
  Hadn’tyoubettertellmeofsomethingthatIcoulddo?Haveyouanyideayourselfwhatyouwantfromme?"
  "Youcanletmelookatyou。Youcanlistentome。Youcanspeaktome。"
  "Frankly,Ihavenevershirkeddoingallthosethings,wheneveryouwantedmeto。Youhaveledme……"
  "Iledyou!"criedLingard。
  "Oh!Itwasmyfault,"shesaid,withoutanger。"Imusthavedreamedthenthatitwasyouwhocametomeinthedarkwiththetaleofyourimpossiblelife。CouldIhavesentyouaway?"
  "Iwishyouhad。Whydidn’tyou?"
  "Doyouwantmetotellyouthatyouwereirresistible?HowcouldIhavesentyouaway?Butyou!Whatmadeyoucomebacktomewithyourveryheartonyourlips?"
  WhenLingardspokeafteratimeitwasinjerkysentences。
  "Ididn’tstoptothink。Ihadbeenhurt。Ididn’tthinkofyoupeopleasladiesandgentlemen。IthoughtofyouaspeoplewhoselivesIheldinmyhand。Howwasitpossibletoforgetyouinmytrouble?ItisyourfacethatIbroughtbackwithmeonboardmybrig。Idon’tknowwhy。Ididn’tlookatyoumorethanatanybodyelse。Ittookmeallmytimetokeepmytemperdownlestitshouldburnyouallup。Ididn’twanttoberudetoyoupeople,butIfounditwasn’tveryeasybecausethreatsweretheonlyargumentIhad。WasIveryoffensive,Mrs。Travers?"
  Shehadlistenedtenseandveryattentive,almoststern。Anditwaswithouttheslightestchangeofexpressionthatshesaid:
  "IthinkthatyouboreyourselfappropriatelytothestateoflifetowhichithaspleasedGodtocallyou。"
  "Whatstate?"mutteredLingardtohimself。"IamwhatIam。TheycallmeRajahLaut,KingTom,andsuchlike。Ithinkitamusedyoutohearit,butIcantellyouitisnojoketohavesuchnamesfastenedonone,eveninfun。Andthoseverynameshaveinthemsomethingwhichmakesallthisaffairherenosmallmattertoanybody。"
  Shestoodbeforehimwithaset,severeface。——"Didyoucallmeoutinthisalarmingmanneronlytoquarrelwithme?"——"No,butwhydoyouchoosethistimetotellmethatmycomingforhelptoyouwasnothingbutimpudenceinyoursight?Well,Ibegyourpardonforintrudingonyourdignity。"——"Youmisunderstoodme,"
  saidMrs。Travers,withoutrelaxingforamomenthercontemplativeseverity。"Suchaflatteringthinghadneverhappenedtomebeforeanditwillneverhappentomeagain。Butbelieveme,KingTom,youdidmetoomuchhonour。Jorgensonisperfectlyrightinbeingangrywithyouforhavingtakenawomanintow。"——"Hedidn’tmeantoberude,"protestedLingard,earnestly。Mrs。Traversdidn’tevensmileatthisintrusionofapointofmannersintotheatmosphereofanguishandsuspensethatseemedalwaystoarisebetweenherandthismanwho,sittingonthesea—chest,hadraisedhiseyestoherwithanairofextremecandourandseemedunabletotakethemoffagain。Shecontinuedtolookathimsternlybyatremendouseffortofwill。
  "Howchangedyouare,"hemurmured。
  Hewaslostinthedepthsofthesimplestwonder。Sheappearedtohimvengefulandasifturnedforeverintostonebeforehisbewilderedremorse。Forever。SuddenlyMrs。Traverslookedroundandsatdowninthechair。Herstrengthfailedherbutsheremainedausterewithherhandsrestingonthearmsofherseat。
  Lingardsigheddeeplyanddroppedhiseyes。Shedidnotdarerelaxhermusclesforfearofbreakingdownaltogetherandbetrayingarecklessimpulsewhichlurkedatthebottomofherdismay,toseizetheheadofd’Alcacer’sManofFate,pressittoherbreastonce,flingitfaraway,andvanishherself,vanishoutoflifelikeawraith。TheManofFatesatsilentandbowed,yetwithasuggestionofstrengthinhisdejection。"IfIdon’tspeak,"Mrs。Traverssaidtoherself,withgreatinwardcalmness,"Ishallburstintotears。"Shesaidaloud,"Whatcouldhavehappened?Whathaveyoudraggedmeinherefor?Whydon’tyoutellmeyournews?"
  "Ithoughtyoudidn’twanttohear。Ibelieveyoureallydon’twantto。Whatisallthistoyou?Ibelievethatyoudon’tcareanythingaboutwhatIfeel,aboutwhatIdoandhowIend。I
  verilybelievethatyoudon’tcarehowyouendyourself。I
  believeyounevercaredforyourownoranybody’sfeelings。I
  don’tthinkitisbecauseyouarehard,Ithinkitisbecauseyoudon’tknow,anddon’twanttoknow,andareangrywithlife。"
  Heflourishedanarmrecklessly,andMrs。Traversnoticedforthefirsttimethatheheldasheetofpaperinhishand。
  "Isthatyournewsthere?"sheasked,significantly。"It’sdifficulttoimaginethatinthiswildernesswritingcanhaveanysignificance。Andwhoonearthherecouldsendyounewsonpaper?
  Willyouletmeseeit?CouldIunderstandit?IsitinEnglish?
  Come,KingTom,don’tlookatmeinthisawfulway。"
  Shegotupsuddenly,notinindignation,butasifattheendofherendurance。Thejewelledclasps,thegoldembroideries,gleamedelusivelyamongstthefoldsofherdraperieswhichemittedamysteriousrustle。
  "Ican’tstandthis,"shecried。"Ican’tstandbeinglookedatlikethis。Nowomancouldstandit。Nowomanhaseverbeenlookedatlikethis。Whatcanyousee?HatredIcouldunderstand。Whatisityouthinkmecapableof?"
  "Youareveryextraordinary,"murmuredLingard,whohadregainedhisself—possessionbeforethatoutburst。
  "Verywell,andyouareextraordinary,too。That’sunderstood——herewearebothunderthatcurseandhavingtofacetogetherwhatevermayturnup。Butwhoonearthcouldhavesentyouthiswriting?"
  "Who?"repeatedLingard。"Why,thatyoungfellowthatblunderedonmybriginthedark,bringingaboatloadoftroublealongsideonthatquietnightinCarimataStraits。ThedarkestnightIhaveeverknown。Anaccursednight。"
  Mrs。Traversbitherlip,waitedalittle,thenaskedquietly:
  "Whatdifficultyhashegotintonow?"
  "Difficulty!"criedLingard。"Heisimmenselypleasedwithhimself,theyoungfool。Youknow,whenyousenthimtotalktomethateveningyoulefttheyacht,hecamewithaloadedpistolinhispocket。Andnowhehasgoneanddoneit。"
  "Doneit?"repeatedMrs。Traversblankly。"Donewhat?"
  ShesnatchedfromLingard’sunresistingpalmthesheetofpaper。
  WhileshewassmoothingitLingardmovedroundandstoodcloseatherelbow。Sheranquicklyoverthefirstlines,thenhereyessteadied。AttheendshedrewaquickbreathandlookedupatLingard。TheirfaceshadneverbeensoclosetogetherbeforeandMrs。Travershadasurprisingsecondofaperfectlynewsensation。Shelookedaway。——"Doyouunderstandwhatthisnewsmeans?"hemurmured。Mrs。Traversletherhandfallbyherside。
  "Yes,"shesaidinalowtone。"Thecompactisbroken。"
  Carterhadbegunhisletterwithoutanypreliminaries:
  Youclearedoutinthemiddleofthenightandtooktheladyawaywithyou。Youleftmenoproperorders。ButasasailormanI
  lookeduponmyselfasleftinchargeoftwoshipswhilewithinhalfamileonthatsandbankthereweremorethanahundredpiraticalcut—throatswatchingmeascloselyassomanytigersabouttoleap。Dayswentbywithoutawordofyouorthelady。Toleavetheshipsoutsideandgoinlandtolookforyouwasnottobethoughtofwithallthosepirateswithinspringingdistance。
  Putyourselfinmyplace。Can’tyouimaginemyanxiety,mysleeplessnights?Eachnightworsethanthenightbefore。Andstillnowordfromyou。Icouldn’tsitstillandworrymyheadoffaboutthingsIcouldn’tunderstand。Iamasailorman。Myfirstdutywastotheships。IhadtoputanendtothisimpossiblesituationandIhopeyouwillagreethatIhavedoneitinaseamanlikeway。OnemistymorningImovedthebrignearerthesandbankanddirectlythemistclearedIopenedfireontheprausofthosesavageswhichwereanchoredinthechannel。Weaimedwideatfirsttogivethosevagabondsthatwereonboardachancetoclearoutandjointheirfriendscampedonthesands。I
  didn’twanttokillpeople。Thenwegotthelongguntobearandinaboutanhourwehadthebottomknockedoutofthetwopraus。
  Thesavagesonthebankhowledandscreamedateveryshot。TheyaremightyangrybutIdon’tcarefortheirangernow,forbysinkingtheirprausIhavemadethemasharmlessasaflockoflambs。Theyneedn’tstarveontheirsandbankbecausetheyhavetwoorthreedugoutshauleduponthesandandtheymayferrythemselvesandtheirwomentothemainlandwhenevertheylike。
  IfancyIhaveactedasaseamanandasaseamanIintendtogoonacting。NowIhavemadetheshipssafeIshallsetaboutwithoutlossoftimetryingtogettheyachtoffthemud。Whenthat’sdoneIshallarmtheboatsandproceedinshoretolookforyouandtheyacht’sgentry,andshan’tresttillIknowwhetheranyorallofyouareabovetheearthyet。
  Ihopethesewordswillreachyou。JustaswehaddonethebusinessofthoseprausthemanyousentoffthatnightinCarimatatostopourchiefofficercamesailinginfromthewestwithourfirstgigintowandtheboat’screwallwell。YourserangtellsmeheisamosttrustworthymessengerandthathisnameisJaffir。Heseemsonlytooanxioustotrytogettoyouassoonaspossible。Irepeat,shipsandmenhavebeenmadesafeandIdon’tmeantogiveyouupdeadoralive。
  "Youarequickintakingthepoint,"saidLingardinadullvoice,whileMrs。Travers,withthesheetofpapergrippedinherhand,lookedintohisfacewithanxiouseyes。"Hehasbeensmartandnomistake。"
  "Hedidn’tknow,"murmuredMrs。Travers。
  "No,hedidn’tknow。ButcouldItakeeverybodyintomyconfidence?"protestedLingardinthesamelowtone。"AndyetwhoelsecouldItrust?Itseemedtomethathemusthaveunderstoodwithoutbeingtold。Butheistooyoung。Hemaywellbeproudaccordingtohislights。Hehasdonethatjoboutsideverysmartly——damnhissmartness!Andherewearewithallourlivesdependingonmyword——whichisbrokennow,Mrs。Travers。Itisbroken。"
  Mrs。Traversnoddedathimslightly。
  "Theywouldsoonerhaveexpectedtoseethesunandthemoonfalloutofthesky,"Lingardcontinuedwithrepressedfire。NextmomentitseemedtohavegoneoutofhimandMrs。Traversheardhimmutteradisconnectedphrase……"Theworlddownaboutmyears。"
  "Whatwillyoudo?"shewhispered。
  "WhatwillIdo?"repeatedLingard,gently。"Oh,yes——do。Mrs。
  Travers,doyouseethatIamnothingnow?Justnothing。"
  Hehadlosthimselfinthecontemplationofherfaceturnedtohimwithanexpressionofawedcuriosity。TheshockoftheworldcomingdownabouthisearsinconsequenceofCarter’ssmartnesswassoterrificthatithaddulledhissensibilitiesinthemannerofagreatpainorofagreatcatastrophe。Whatwastheretolookatbutthatwoman’sface,inaworldwhichhadlostitsconsistency,itsshape,anditspromisesinamoment?
  Mrs。Traverslookedaway。SheunderstoodthatshehadputtoLingardanimpossiblequestion。Whatwaspresentingitselftoherasaproblemwastothatmanacrisisoffeeling。ObviouslyCarter’sactionhadbrokenthecompactenteredintowithDaman,andshewasintelligentenoughtounderstandthatitwasthesortofthingthatcouldnotbeexplainedaway。Itwasn’thorrorthatshefelt,butasortofconsternation,somethinglikethediscomfitureofpeoplewhohavejustmissedtheirtrain。Itwasonlymoreintense。Therealdismayhadyettomakeitswayintohercomprehension。ToLingarditwasablowstruckstraightathisheart。
  HewasnotangrywithCarter。Thefellowhadactedlikeaseaman。
  Carter’sconcernwasfortheships。InthisfatalityCarterwasamereincident。Therealcauseofthedisasterwassomewhereelse,wasother,andmoreremote。AndatthesametimeLingardcouldnotdefendhimselffromafeelingthatitwasinhimself,too,somewhereintheunexploreddepthsofhisnature,somethingfatalandunavoidable。Hemutteredtohimself:
  "No。Iamnotaluckyman。"
  Thiswasbutafeebleexpressionofthediscoveryofthetruththatsuddenlyhadcomehometohimasifdrivenintohisbreastbyarevealingpowerwhichhaddecidedthatthiswastobetheendofhisfling。Buthewasnotthemantogivehimselfuptotheexaminationofhisownsensations。Hisnaturalimpulsewastograpplewiththecircumstancesandthatwaswhathewastryingtodo;buthemissednowthatsenseofmasterywhichishalfthebattle。Conflictofsomesortwastheveryessenceofhislife。
  Butthiswassomethinghehadneverknownbefore。Thiswasaconflictwithinhimself。Hehadtofaceunsuspectedpowers,foesthathecouldnotgoouttomeetatthegate。Theywerewithin,asthoughhehadbeenbetrayedbysomebody,bysomesecretenemy。
  Hewasreadytolookroundforthatsubtletraitor。Asortofblanknessfellonhismindandhesuddenlythought:"Why!It’smyself。"
  Immediatelyafterwardhehadaclear,mercilessrecollectionofHassimandImmada。Hesawthemfaroffbeyondtheforests。Oh,yes,theyexisted——withinhisbreast!
  "Thatwasanight!"hemuttered,lookingstraightatMrs。
  Travers。Hehadbeenlookingatherallthetime。Hisglancehadheldherunderaspell,butforawholeinterminableminutehehadnotbeenawareofheratall。Atthemurmurofhiswordsshemadeaslightmovementandhesawheragain。——"Whatnight?"shewhispered,timidly,likeanintruder。Shewasastonishedtoseehimsmile。——"Notlikethisone,"hesaid。"Youmademenoticehowquietandstillitwas。Yes。Listenhowstillitis。"
  Bothmovedtheirheadsslightlyandseemedtolendanear。Therewasnotamurmur,sigh,rustle,splash,orfootfall。Nowhispers,notremors,notasoundofanykind。TheymighthavebeenaloneonboardtheEmma,abandonedevenbytheghostofCaptainJorgensondepartedtorejointheBarqueWildRoseontheshoreoftheCimmeriansea。——"It’slikethestillnessoftheend,"saidMrs。Traversinalow,equablevoice。——"Yes,butthat,too,isfalse,"saidLingardinthesametone。——"Idon’tunderstand,"
  Mrs。Traversbegan,hurriedly,afterashortsilence。"Butdon’tusethatword。Don’tuseit,KingTom!Itfrightensmebyitsmeresound。"
  Lingardmadenosign。HisthoughtswerebackwithHassimandImmada。TheyoungchiefandhissisterhadgoneupcountryonavoluntarymissiontopersuadeBelarabtoreturntohisstockadeandtotakeupagainthedirectionofaffairs。TheycarriedurgentmessagesfromLingard,whoforBelarabwastheveryembodimentoftruthandforce,thatunquestionedforcewhichhadpermittedBelarabtoindulgeinallhismelancholyhesitations。
  Butthosetwoyoungpeoplehadalsosomepersonalprestige。TheywereLingard’sheart’sfriends。Theywerelikehischildren。Butbesidethat,theirhighbirth,theirwarlikestory,theirwanderings,adventures,andprospectshadgiventhemaglamouroftheirown。