"Itoldhimthattherewereprobablycardsonboardsomewhere——Jorgensonwouldknow。ThenIaskedhimwhetherhelookedonmeasagaoler。Hewasquitestartledandsorryforwhathesaid。"
"Itwasn’tverykindofyou,CaptainLingard。"
"Itslippedoutawkwardlyandwemadeitupwithalaugh。"
Mrs。Traversleanedherelbowsontherailandputherheadintoherhands。EveryattitudeofthatwomansurprisedLingardbyitsenchantingeffectuponhimself。Hesighed,andthesilencelastedforalongwhile。
"IwishIhadunderstoodeverywordthatwassaidthatmorning。"
"Thatmorning,"repeatedLingard。"Whatmorningdoyoumean?"
"ImeanthemorningwhenIwalkedoutofBelarab’sstockadeonyourarm,CaptainLingard,attheheadoftheprocession。ItseemedtomethatIwaswalkingonasplendidstageinascenefromanopera,inagorgeousshowfittomakeanaudienceholditsbreath。Youcan’tpossiblyguesshowunrealallthisseemed,andhowartificialIfeltmyself。Anopera,youknow……"
"Iknow。Iwasagolddiggeratonetime。SomeofususedtocomedowntoMelbournewithourpocketsfullofmoney。Idaresayitwaspoorenoughtowhatyoumusthaveseen,butonceIwenttoashowlikethat。Itwasastoryactedtomusic。Allthepeoplewentsingingthroughitrighttotheveryend。"
"Howitmusthavejarredonyoursenseofreality,"saidMrs。
Travers,stillnotlookingathim。"Youdon’trememberthenameoftheopera?"
"No。Inevertroubledmyheadaboutit。We——ourlotneverdid。"
"Iwon’taskyouwhatthestorywaslike。Itmusthaveappearedtoyouliketheverydefianceofalltruth。Wouldrealpeoplegosingingthroughtheirlifeanywhereexceptinafairytale?"
"Thesepeopledidn’talwayssingforjoy,"saidLingard,simply。
"Idon’tknowmuchaboutfairytales。"
"Theyaremostlyaboutprincesses,"murmuredMrs。Travers。
Lingarddidn’tquitehear。Hebenthisearforamomentbutshewasn’tlookingathimandhedidn’taskhertorepeatherremark。
"Fairytalesareforchildren,Ibelieve,"hesaid。"ButthatstorywithmusicIamtellingyouof,Mrs。Travers,wasnotataleforchildren。IassureyouthatofthefewshowsIhaveseenthatonewasthemostrealtome。Morerealthananythinginlife。"
Mrs。Travers,rememberingthefatalinanityofmostoperalibrettos,wastouchedbythesewordsasiftherehadbeensomethingpatheticinthisreadinessofresponse;asifshehadheardastarvedmantalkingofthedelightofacrustofdrybread。"Isupposeyouforgotyourselfinthatstory,whateveritwas,"sheremarkedinadetachedtone。
"Yes,itcarriedmeaway。ButIsupposeyouknowthefeeling。"
"No。Ineverknewanythingofthekind,notevenwhenIwasachitofagirl。"Lingardseemedtoacceptthisstatementasanassertionofsuperiority。Heinclinedhisheadslightly。
Moreover,shemighthavesaidwhatsheliked。Whatpleasedhimmostwashernotlookingathim;foritenabledhimtocontemplatewithperfectfreedomthecurveofhercheek,hersmallearhalfhiddenbytheclearmeshoffinehair,thefascinationofheruncoveredneck。Andherwholepersonwasanimpossible,anamazingandsolidmarvelwhichsomehowwasnotsomuchconvincingtotheeyeastosomethingwithinhimthatwasapparentlyindependentofhissenses。Notevenforamomentdidhethinkofherasremote。Untouchable——possibly!Butremote——no。
Whetherconsciouslyorunconsciouslyhetookherspirituallyforgranted。Itwasmateriallythatshewasawonderofthesortthatisatthesametimefamiliarandsacred。
"No,"Mrs。Traversbeganagain,abruptly。"Ineverforgotmyselfinastory。Itwasnotinme。Ihavenotevenbeenabletoforgetmyselfonthatmorningonshorewhichwaspartofmyownstory。"
"Youcarriedyourselffirstrate,"saidLingard,smilingatthenapeofherneck,herear,thefilmofescapedhair,themodellingofthecornerofhereye。Hecouldseetheflutterofthedarkeyelashes:andthedelicateflushonhercheekhadrathertheeffectofscentthanofcolour。
"Youapprovedofmybehaviour。"
"Justright,Itellyou。Myword,weren’ttheyallstruckofaheapwhentheymadeoutwhatyouwere。"
"Ioughttofeelflattered。IwillconfesstoyouthatIfeltonlyhalfdisguisedandwashalfangryandwhollyuncomfortable。
Whathelpedme,Isuppose,wasthatIwantedtoplease……"
"Idon’tmeantosaythattheywereexactlypleased,"brokeinLingard,conscientiously。"Theywerestartledmore。"
"Iwantedtopleaseyou,"droppedMrs。Travers,negligently。A
faint,hoarse,andimpatientcallofabirdwasheardfromthewoodsasifcallingtotheoncomingnight。Lingard’sfacegrewhotinthedeepeningdusk。Thedelicatelemonyellowandetherealgreentintshadvanishedfromtheskyandtheredglowdarkenedmenacingly。Thesunhadsetbehindtheblackpalloftheforest,nolongeredgedwithalineofgold。
Yes,Iwasabsurdlyself—conscious,"continuedMrs。Traversinaconversationaltone。"AnditwastheeffectoftheseclothesthatyoumademeputonoversomeofmyEuropean——Ialmostsaiddisguise;becauseyouknowinthepresentmoreperfectcostumeI
feelcuriouslyathome;andyetIcan’tsaythatthesethingsreallyfitme。Thesleevesofthissilkunder—jacketarerathertight。Myshouldersfeelbound,too,andastothesarongitisscandalouslyshort。Accordingtoruleitshouldhavebeenlongenoughtofallovermyfeet。ButIlikefreedomofmovement。I
havehadverylittleofwhatIlikedinlife。"
"Icanhardlybelievethat,"saidLingard。"Ifitwasn’tforyoursayingso……"
"Iwouldn’tsaysotoeverybody,"shesaid,turningherheadforamomenttoLingardandturningitawayagaintotheduskwhichseemedtocomefloatingovertheblacklagoon。Farawayinitsdepthacoupleoffeeblelightstwinkled;itwasimpossibletosaywhetherontheshoreorontheedgeofthemoredistantforest。Overheadthestarswerebeginningtocomeout,butfaintyet,asiftooremotetobereflectedinthelagoon。Onlytothewestasettingplanetshonethroughtheredfogofthesunsetglow。"Itwassupposednottobegoodformetohavemuchfreedomofaction。SoatleastIwastold。ButIhaveasuspicionthatitwasonlyunpleasingtootherpeople。"
"Ishouldhavethought,"beganLingard,thenhesitatedandstopped。Itseemedtohiminconceivablethateverybodyshouldnothavelovedtomakethatwomanhappy。Andhewasimpressedbythebitternessofhertone。Mrs。Traversdidnotseemcurioustoknowwhathewantedtosayandafteratimesheadded,"Idon’tmeanonlywhenIwasachild。Idon’trememberthatverywell。I
daresayIwasveryobjectionableasachild。"
Lingardtriedtoimagineherasachild。Theideawasnoveltohim。Herperfectionseemedtohavecomeintotheworldcomplete,mature,andwithoutanyhesitationorweakness。Hehadnothinginhisexperiencethatcouldhelphimtoimagineachildofthatclass。Thechildrenheknewplayedaboutthevillagestreetandranonthebeach。Hehadbeenoneofthem。Hehadseenotherchildren,ofcourse,since,buthehadnotbeenintouchwiththemexceptvisuallyandtheyhadnotbeenEnglishchildren。Herchildhood,likehisown,hadbeenpassedinEngland,andthatveryfactmadeitalmostimpossibleforhimtoimagineit。Hecouldnoteventellwhetheritwasintownorinthecountry,orwhetherasachildshehadevenseenthesea。Andhowcouldachildofthatkindbeobjectionable?Butherememberedthatachilddisapprovedofcouldbeveryunhappy,andhesaid:
"Iamsorry。"
Mrs。Traverslaughedalittle。Withinthemuslincageformshadturnedtoblurredshadows。Amongstthemtheformofd’Alcaceraroseandmoved。ThesystematicorelsethemorbiddumbnessofMr。Traversboredandexasperatedhim,though,asamatteroffact,thatgentleman’sspeecheshadneverhadthepowereithertoentertainortosoothehismind。
"It’sveryniceofyou。Youhaveagreatcapacityforsympathy,butafterallIamnotcertainonwhichsideyoursympathieslie。
Withme,orthosemuch—triedpeople,"saidMrs。Travers。
"Withthechild,"saidLingard,disregardingthebanteringtone。
"Achildcanhaveaverybadtimeofitalltoitself。"
"Whatcanyouknowofit?"sheasked。
"Ihavemyownfeelings,"heansweredinsomesurprise。
Mrs。Travers,withherbacktohim,wascoveredwithconfusion。
Neithercouldshedepicttoherselfhischildhoodasifhe,too,hadcomeintotheworldinthefullnessofhisstrengthandhispurpose。Shediscoveredacertainnaivenessinherselfandlaughedalittle。Hemadenosound。
"Don’tbeangry,"shesaid。"Iwouldn’tdreamoflaughingatyourfeelings。Indeedyourfeelingsarethemostseriousthingthatevercameinmyway。Icouldn’thelplaughingatmyself——atafunnydiscoveryImade。"
"Inthedaysofyourchildhood?"sheheardLingard’sdeepvoiceaskingafterapause。
"Oh,no。Agesafterward。Nochildcouldhavemadethatdiscovery。
Doyouknowthegreatestdifferencethereisbetweenus?Itisthis:ThatIhavebeenlivingsincemychildhoodinfrontofashowandthatIneverhavebeentakeninforamomentbyitstinselanditsnoiseorbyanythingthatwentononthestage。DoyouunderstandwhatImean,CaptainLingard?"
Therewasamomentofsilence。"Whatdoesitmatter?Wearenochildrennow。"TherewasaninfinitegentlenessinLingard’sdeeptones。"Butifyouhavebeenunhappythendon’ttellmethatithasnotbeenmadeuptoyousince。Surelyyouhaveonlytomakeasign。Awomanlikeyou。"
"YouthinkIcouldfrightenthewholeworldontoitsknees?"
"No,notfrighten。"Thesuggestionofalaughinthedeadenedvoicepassedoffinacatchofthebreath。Thenhewasheardbeginningsoberly:"Yourhusband……"Hehesitatedalittleandshetooktheopportunitytosaycoldly:
"HisnameisMr。Travers。"
Lingarddidn’tknowhowtotakeit。Heimaginedhimselftohavebeenguiltyofsomesortofpresumption。Buthowonearthwashetocalltheman?Afterallhewasherhusband。Thatideawasdisagreeabletohimbecausethemanwasalsoinimicalinaparticularlyunreasonableandgallingmanner。Atthesametimehewasawarethathedidn’tcareabitforhisenmityandhadanideathathewouldnothavecaredforhisfriendshipeither。Andsuddenlyhefeltverymuchannoyed。
"Yes。That’sthemanImean,"hesaidinacontemptuoustone。"I
don’tparticularlylikethenameandIamsureIdon’twanttotalkabouthimmorethanIcanhelp。Ifhehadn’tbeenyourhusbandIwouldn’thaveputupwithhismannersforanhour。Doyouknowwhatwouldhavehappenedtohimifhehadn’tbeenyourhusband?"
"No,"saidMrs。Travers。"Doyou,CaptainLingard?"
"Notexactly,"headmitted。"Somethinghewouldn’thaveliked,youmaybesure。"
"Whileofcoursehelikesthisverymuch,"sheobserved。Lingardgaveanabruptlaugh。
"Idon’tthinkit’sinmypowertodoanythingthathewouldlike,"hesaidinaserioustone。"Forgivememyfrankness,Mrs。
Travers,buthemakesitverydifficultsometimesformetokeepcivil。WhateverIhavehadtoputupwithinlifeIhaveneverhadtoputupwithcontempt。"
"Iquitebelievethat,"saidMrs。Travers。"Don’tyourfriendscallyouKingTom?"
"NobodythatIcarefor。Ihavenofriends。Oh,yes,theycallmethat……"
"Youhavenofriends?"
"NotI,"hesaidwithdecision。"Amanlikemehasnochums。"
"It’squitepossible,"murmuredMrs。Traverstoherself。
"No,notevenJorgenson。OldcrazyJorgenson。HecallsmeKingTom,too。Youseewhatthat’sworth。"
"Yes,Isee。OrratherIhaveheard。Thatpoormanhasnotone,andsomuchdependsonthat。NowsupposeIweretocallyouKingTomnowandthenbetweenourselves,"Mrs。Travers’voiceproposed,distantlytentativeinthenightthatinvestedherpersonwithacolourlessvaguenessofform。
Shewaitedinthestillness,herelbowsontherailandherfaceinherhandsasifshehadalreadyforgottenwhatshehadsaid。
Sheheardatherelbowthedeepmurmurof:
"Let’shearyousayit。"
Shenevermovedtheleastbit。Thesombrelagoonsparkledfaintlywiththereflectionofthestars。
"Oh,yes,Iwillletyouhearit,"shesaidintothestarlitspaceinavoiceofunaccentedgentlenesswhichchangedsubtlyasshewenton。"Ihopeyouwillneverregretthatyoucameoutofyourfriendlessmysterytospeaktome,KingTom。Howmanydaysagoitwas!Andhereisanotherdaygone。Tellmehowmanymoreofthemtheremustbe?Oftheseblindingdaysandnightswithoutasound。"
"Bepatient,"hemurmured。"Don’taskmefortheimpossible。"
"HowdoyouorIknowwhatispossible?"shewhisperedwithastrangescorn。"Youwouldn’tdareguess。ButItellyouthateverydaythatpassesismoreimpossibletomethanthedaybefore。"
Thepassionofthatwhisperwentlikeastabintohisbreast。
"WhatamItotellyou?"hemurmured,asifwithdespair。
"Rememberthateverysunsetmakesitadayless。DoyouthinkI
wantyouhere?"
Abitterlittlelaughfloatedoutintothestarlight。Mrs。
TraversheardLingardmovesuddenlyawayfromherside。Shedidn’tchangeherposebyahair’sbreadth。Presentlysheheardd’AlcacercomingoutoftheCage。Hiscultivatedvoiceaskedhalfplayfully:
"Haveyouhadasatisfactoryconversation?MayIbetoldsomethingofit?"
"Mr。d’Alcacer,youarecurious。"
"Well,inourposition,Iconfess……Youareouronlyrefuge,remember。"
"Youwanttoknowwhatweweretalkingabout,"saidMrs。Travers,alteringslowlyherpositionsoastoconfrontd’Alcacerwhosefacewasalmostundistinguishable。"Oh,well,then,wetalkedaboutopera,therealitiesandillusionsofthestage,ofdresses,ofpeople’snames,andthingsofthatsort。"
"Nothingofimportance,"hesaidcourteously。Mrs。Traversmovedforwardandhesteppedtooneside。InsidetheCagetwoMalayhandswerehangingroundlanterns,thelightofwhichfellonMr。
Travers’bowedheadashesatinhischair。
WhentheywereallassembledfortheeveningmealJorgensonstrolledupfromnowhereinparticularashishabitwas,andspeakingthroughthemuslinannouncedthatCaptainLingardbeggedtobeexcusedfromjoiningthecompanythatevening。Thenhestrolledaway。Fromthatmomenttilltheygotupfromthetableandthecampbedsteadswerebroughtinnottwentywordspassedbetweenthemembersofthepartywithinthenet。Thestrangenessoftheirsituationmadeallattemptstoexchangeideasveryarduous;andapartfromthateachhadthoughtswhichitwasdistinctlyuselesstocommunicatetotheothers。Mr。Travershadabandonedhimselftohissenseofinjury。Hedidnotsomuchbroodasrageinwardlyinadull,dispiritedway。Theimpossibilityofassertinghimselfinanymannergalledhisverysoul。D’Alcacerwasextremelypuzzled。DetachedinasensefromthelifeofmenperhapsasmuchevenasJorgensonhimself,hetookyetareasonableinterestinthecourseofeventsandhadnotlostallhissenseofself—preservation。Withoutbeingabletoappreciatetheexactvaluesofthesituationhewasnotoneofthosemenwhoareevercompletelyinthedarkinanygivensetofcircumstances。Withoutbeinghumoroushewasagood—humouredman。
Hishabitual,gentlesmilewasatrueexpression。MoreofaEuropeanthanofaSpaniardhehadthattrulyaristocraticnaturewhichisinclinedtocrediteveryhonestmanwithsomethingofitsownnobilityandinitsjudgmentisaltogetherindependentofclassfeeling。HebelievedLingardtobeanhonestmanandhenevertroubledhisheadtoclassifyhim,exceptinthesensethathefoundhimaninterestingcharacter。Hehadasortofesteemfortheoutwardpersonalityandthebearingofthatseaman。Hefoundinhimalsothedistinctionofbeingnothingofatype。Hewasaspecimentobejudgedonlybyitsownworth。Withhisnaturalgiftofinsightd’Alcacertoldhimselfthatmanyoverseasadventurersofhistorywereprobablylessworthybecauseobviouslytheymusthavebeenlesssimple。Hedidn’t,however,impartthosethoughtsformallytoMrs。Travers。InfactheavoideddiscussingLingardwithMrs。Traverswho,hethought,wasquiteintelligentenoughtoappreciatetheexactshadeofhisattitude。Ifthatshadewasfine,Mrs。Traverswasfine,too;andtherewasnoneedtodiscussthecoloursofthisadventure。
Moreover,sheherselfseemedtoavoidalldirectdiscussionoftheLingardelementintheirfate。D’Alcacerwasfineenoughtobeawarethatthosetwoseemedtounderstandeachotherinawaythatwasnotobviouseventothemselves。Wheneverhesawthemtogetherhewasalwaysmuchtemptedtoobservethem。Andheyieldedtothetemptation。Thefactofone’slifedependingonthephasesofanobscureactionauthorizesacertainlatitudeofbehaviour。Hehadseenthemtogetherrepeatedly,communingopenlyorapart,andtherewasintheirwayofjoiningeachother,intheirposesandtheirwaysofseparating,somethingspecialandcharacteristicandpertainingtothemselvesonly,asiftheyhadbeenmadeforeachother。
Whathecouldn’tunderstandwaswhyMrs。TraversshouldhaveputoffhisnaturalcuriosityastoherlatestconferencewiththeManofFatebyanincrediblestatementastothenatureoftheconversation。Talkaboutdresses,opera,people’snames。Hecouldn’ttakethisseriously。Shemighthaveinvented,hethought,somethingmoreplausible;orsimplyhavetoldhimthatthiswasnotforhimtoknow。Sheoughttohaveknownthathewouldnothavebeenoffended。Couldn’tshehaveseenalreadythatheacceptedthecomplexionofmysteryinherrelationtothatmancompletely,unquestionably;asthoughithadbeensomethingpreordainedfromtheverybeginningofthings?ButhewasnotannoyedwithMrs。Travers。Afterallitmighthavebeentrue。Shewouldtalkexactlyassheliked,andevenincredibly,ifitsopleasedher,andmakethemanhangonherlips。Andlikewiseshewascapableofmakingthemantalkaboutanythingbyapowerofinspirationforreasonssimpleorperverse。Opera!Dresses!
Yes——aboutShakespeareandthemusicalglasses!Foramerewhimorforthedeepestpurpose。Womenworthyofthenamewerelikethat。Theywereverywonderful。Theyrosetotheoccasionandsometimesabovetheoccasionwhenthingswereboundtooccurthatwouldbecomicortragic(asithappened)butgenerallychargedwithtroubleeventoinnocentbeholders。D’Alcacerthoughtthesethoughtswithoutbitternessandevenwithoutirony。Withhishalf—secretsocialreputationasamanofonegreatpassioninaworldofmereintrigueshelikedallwomen。Helikedthemintheirsentimentandintheirhardness,inthetragiccharacteroftheirfoolishorcleverimpulses,atwhichhelookedwithasortoftenderseriousness。
Hedidn’ttakeafavourableviewofthepositionbutheconsideredMrs。Travers’statementaboutoperasanddressesasawarningtokeepoffthesubject。Forthisreasonheremainedsilentthroughthemeal。
WhenthebustleofclearingawaythetablewasoverhestrolledtowardMrs。Traversandremarkedveryquietly:
"IthinkthatinkeepingawayfromusthiseveningtheManofFatewaswellinspired。WedinedlikealotofCarthusianmonks。"
"Youalludetooursilence?"
"Itwasmostscrupulous。Ifwehadtakenaneternalvowwecouldn’thavekeptitbetter。"
"Didyoufeelbored?"
"Pasdutout,"d’Alcacerassuredherwithwhimsicalgravity。"I
feltnothing。Isatinastateofblessedvacuity。IbelieveI
wasthehappiestofusthree。Unlessyou,too,Mrs。Travers……"
"It’sabsolutelynouseyourfishingformythoughts,Mr。
d’Alcacer。IfIweretoletyouseethemyouwouldbeappalled。"
"Thoughtsreallyarebutashapeoffeelings。Letmecongratulateyouontheimpassivemaskyoucanputonthosehorrorsyousayyounurseinyourbreast。Itwasimpossibletotellanythingbyyourface。"
"Youwillalwayssayflatteringthings。"
"Madame,myflatteriescomefromtheverybottomofmyheart。I
havegivenuplongagoalldesiretoplease。AndIwasnottryingtogetatyourthoughts。Whateverelseyoumayexpectfrommeyoumaycountonmyabsoluterespectforyourprivacy。ButIsupposewithamasksuchasyoucanmakeforyourselfyoureallydon’tcare。TheManofFate,Inoticed,isnotnearlyasgoodatitasyouare。"
"Whatapretentiousname。Doyoucallhimbyittohisface,Mr。
d’Alcacer?"
"No,Ihaven’tthecheek,"confessedd’Alcacer,equably。"And,besides,it’stoomomentousfordailyuse。Andheissosimplethathemightmistakeitforajokeandnothingcouldbefurtherfrommythoughts。Mrs。Travers,IwillconfesstoyouthatI
don’tfeeljocularintheleast。Butwhatcanheknowaboutpeopleofoursort?AndwhenIreflecthowlittlepeopleofoursortcanknowofsuchamanIamquitecontenttoaddresshimasCaptainLingard。It’scommonandsoothingandmostrespectableandsatisfactory;forCaptainisthemostemptyofalltitles。
WhatisaCaptain?AnybodycanbeaCaptain;andforLingardit’sanamelikeanyother。Whereaswhathedeservesissomethingspecial,significant,andexpressive,thatwouldmatchhisperson,hissimpleandromanticperson。"
HeperceivedthatMrs。Traverswaslookingathimintently。Theyhastenedtoturntheireyesawayfromeachother。
"Hewouldlikeyourappreciation,"Mrs。Traversletdropnegligently。
"Iamafraidhewoulddespiseit。"
"Despiseit!Why,thatsortofthingistheverybreathofhisnostrils。"
"Youseemtounderstandhim,Mrs。Travers。Womenhaveasingularcapacityforunderstanding。Imeansubjectsthatinterestthem;
becausewhentheirimaginationisstimulatedtheyarenotafraidoflettingitgo。Amanismoremistrustfulofhimself,butwomenarebornmuchmorereckless。Theypushonandonundertheprotectionofsecrecyandsilence,andthegreatertheobscurityofwhattheywishtoexplorethegreatertheircourage。"
"Doyoumeanseriouslytotellmethatyouconsidermeacreatureofdarkness?"
"Ispokeingeneral,"remonstratedd’Alcacer。"Anythingelsewouldhavebeenanimpertinence。Yes,obscurityiswomen’sbestfriend。Theirdaringlovesit;butasuddenflashoflightdisconcertsthem。Generallyspeaking,iftheydon’tgetexactlyatthetruththeyalwaysmanagetocomeprettyneartoit。"
Mrs。Travershadlistenedwithsilentattentionandsheallowedthesilencetocontinueforsometimeafterd’Alcacerhadceased。
Whenshespokeitwastosayinanunconcernedtonethatastothissubjectshehadhadspecialopportunities。Herself—possessedinterlocutormanagedtorepressamovementofrealcuriosityunderanassumptionofconventionalinterest。"Indeed,"
heexclaimed,politely。"Aspecialopportunity。Howdidyoumanagetocreateit?"
ThiswastoomuchforMrs。Travers。"I!Createit!"sheexclaimed,indignantly,butunderherbreath。"HowonearthdoyouthinkIcouldhavedoneit?"
Mr。d’Alcacer,asifcommuningwithhimself,washeardtomurmurunrepentantlythatindeedwomenseldomknewhowtheyhad"doneit,"towhichMrs。Traversinawearytonereturnedtheremarkthatnotwomenweredenseinthesameway。TothisMr。d’Alcacerassentedwithoutdifficulty。"Yes,ourbrandpresentsmorevarieties。This,fromacertainpointofview,isobviouslytoouradvantage。Weinterest……NotthatIimaginemyselfinterestingtoyou,Mrs。Travers。ButwhatabouttheManofFate?"
"Oh,yes,"breathedoutMrs。Travers。
"Isee!Immensely!"saidd’Alcacerinatoneofmysteriousunderstanding。"Washisstupiditysocolossal?"
"Itwasindistinguishablefromgreatvisionsthatwereinnosensemeanandmadeupforhimaworldofhisown。"
"Iguessedthatmuch,"mutteredd’Alcacertohimself。"Butthat,youknow,Mrs。Travers,thatisn’tgoodnewsatalltome。Worldofdreams,eh?That’sverybad,verydangerous。It’salmostfatal,Mrs。Travers。"
"Whyallthisdismay?Whydoyouobjecttoaworldofdreams?"
"BecauseIdisliketheprospectofbeingmadeasacrificeofbythoseMoors。Iamnotanoptimistlikeourfriendthere,"hecontinuedinalowtonenoddingtowardthedismalfigureofMr。
Travershuddledupinthechair。"Idon’tregardallthisasafarceandIhavediscoveredinmyselfastrongobjectiontohavingmythroatcutbythosegorgeousbarbariansafteralotoffatuoustalk。Don’taskmewhy,Mrs。Travers。Putitdowntoanabsurdweakness。"
Mrs。Traversmadeaslightmovementinherchair,raisingherhandstoherhead,andinthedimlightofthelanternsd’Alcacersawthemassofhercleargleaminghairfalldownandspreaditselfoverhershoulders。Sheseizedhalfofitinherhandswhichlookedverywhite,andwithherheadinclinedalittleononesideshebegantomakeaplait。
"Youareterrifying,"hesaidafterwatchingthemovementofherfingersforawhile。
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