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第16章

  "Didyouseethemboth,Jorgenson?"askedLingard。
  "Madeoutnobody。Toofar。Toodark。"
  AsamatteroffactJorgensonhadseennothing,aboutanhourbeforedaybreak,butthedistantglareoftorcheswhiletheloudshoutsofanexcitedmultitudehadreachedhimacrossthewateronlylikeafaintandtempestuousmurmur。Presentlythelightswentawayprocessionallythroughthegrovesoftreesintothearmedstockades。Thedistantglarevanishedinthefadingdarknessandthemurmursoftheinvisiblecrowdceasedsuddenlyasifcarriedoffbytheretreatingshadowofthenight。Daylightfollowedswiftly,disclosingtothesleeplessJorgensonthesolitudeoftheshoreandtheghostlyoutlinesofthefamiliarformsofgroupedtreesandscatteredhumanhabitations。Hehadwatchedthevariedcolourscomeoutinthedawn,thewidecultivatedSettlementofmanyshadesofgreen,framedfarawaybythefineblacklinesoftheforest—edgethatwasitslimitanditsprotection。
  Mrs。Traversstoodagainsttherailasmotionlessasastatue。
  Herfacehadlostallitsmobilityandhercheeksweredeadwhiteasifallthebloodinherbodyhadflowedbackintoherheartandhadremainedthere。Herverylipshadlosttheircolour。
  Lingardcaughtholdofherarmroughly。
  "Don’t,Mrs。Travers。Whyareyouterrifyingyourselflikethis?
  Ifyoudon’tbelievewhatIsaylistentomeaskingJorgenson……"
  "Yes,askme,"mumbledJorgensoninhiswhitemoustache。
  "Speakstraight,Jorgenson。Whatdoyouthink?Arethegentlemenalive?"
  "Certainly,"saidJorgensoninasortofdisappointedtoneasthoughhehadexpectedamuchmoredifficultquestion。
  "Istheirlifeinimmediatedanger?"
  "Ofcoursenot,"saidJorgenson。
  Lingardturnedawayfromtheoracle。"Youhaveheardhim,Mrs。
  Travers。Youmaybelieveeverywordhesays。Thereisn’tathoughtorapurposeinthatSettlement,"hecontinued,pointingatthedumbsolitudeofthelagoon,"thatthismandoesn’tknowasiftheywerehisown。"
  "Iknow。Askme,"mutteredJorgenson,mechanically。
  Mrs。Traverssaidnothingbutmadeaslightmovementandherwholerigidfigureswayeddangerously。LingardputhisarmfirmlyroundherwaistandshedidnotseemawareofittillaftershehadturnedherheadandfoundLingard’sfaceverynearherown。
  Buthiseyesfullofconcernlookedsocloseintohersthatshewasobligedtoshutthemlikeawomanabouttofaint。
  TheeffectthisproduceduponLingardwassuchthatshefeltthetighteningofhisarmandassheopenedhereyesagainsomeofthecolourreturnedtoherface。Shemetthedeepenedexpressionofhissolicitudewithalooksosteady,withagazethatinspiteofherselfwassoprofoundlyvividthatitsclearnessseemedtoLingardtothrowallhispastlifeintoshade。——"I
  don’tfeelfaint。Itisn’tthatatall,"shedeclaredinaperfectlycalmvoice。ItseemedtoLingardascoldasice。
  "Verywell,"heagreedwitharesignedsmile。"Butyoujustcatchholdofthatrail,please,beforeIletyougo。"She,too,forcedasmileonherlips。
  "Whatincredulity,"sheremarked,andforatimemadenottheslightestmovement。Atlast,asifmakingaconcession,sherestedthetipsofherfingersontherail。Lingardgraduallyremovedhisarm。"Andpraydon’tlookuponmeasaconventional’weakwoman’person,thedelicateladyofyourownconception,"
  shesaid,facingLingard,withherarmextendedtotherail。
  "Makethateffortpleaseagainstyourownconceptionofwhatawomanlikemeshouldbe。Iamperhapsasstrongasyouare,CaptainLingard。Imeanitliterally。Inmybody。"——"Don’tyouthinkIhaveseenthatlongago?"sheheardhisdeepvoiceprotesting。——"Andastomycourage,"Mrs。Traverscontinued,herexpressioncharminglyundecidedbetweenfrownsandsmiles;
  "didn’tItellyouonlyafewhoursago,onlylastevening,thatIwasnotcapableofthinkingmyselfintoafright;youremember,whenyouwerebeggingmetotrysomethingofthekind。Don’timaginethatIwouldhavebeenashamedtotry。ButIcouldn’thavedoneit。No。Notevenforthesakeofsomebodyelse’skingdom。Doyouunderstandme?"
  "Godknows,"saidtheattentiveLingardafteratime,withanunexpectedsigh。"Youpeopleseemtobemadeofanotherstuff。"
  "Whathasputthatabsurdnotionintoyourhead?"
  "Ididn’tmeanbetterorworse。AndIwouldn’tsayitisn’tgoodstuffeither。WhatImeanttosayisthatit’sdifferent。Onefeelsit。Andhereweare。"
  "Yes,hereweare,"repeatedMrs。Travers。"Andastothismomentofemotion,whatprovokeditisnotaconcernforanybodyoranythingoutsidemyself。Ifeltnoterror。Icannotevenfixmyfearsuponanydistinctimage。YouthinkIamshamelesslyheartlessintellingyouthis。"
  Lingardmadenosign。Itdidn’toccurtohimtomakeasign。HesimplyhungonMrs。Travers’wordsasitwereonlyforthesakeofthesound。——"Iamsimplyfrankwithyou,"shecontinued。"WhatdoIknowofsavagery,violence,murder?Ihaveneverseenadeadbodyinmylife。Thelight,thesilence,themysteriousemptinessofthisplacehavesuddenlyaffectedmyimagination,Isuppose。
  Whatisthemeaningofthiswonderfulpeaceinwhichwestand——youandIalone?"
  Lingardshookhishead。Hesawthenarrowgleamofthewoman’steethbetweenthepartedlipsofhersmile,asifalltheardourofherconvictionhadbeendissolvedattheendofherspeechintowistfulrecognitionoftheirpartnershipbeforethingsoutsidetheirknowledge。Andhewaswarmedbysomethingalittlehelplessinthatsmile。WithinthreefeetofthemtheshadeofJorgenson,verygauntandneat,staredintospace。
  "Yes。Youarestrong,"saidLingard。"Butawholelongnightsittinginasmallboat!Iwonderyouarenottoostifftostand。"
  "Iamnotstiffintheleast,"sheinterrupted,stillsmiling。"I
  amreallyaverystrongwoman,"sheadded,earnestly。"Whateverhappensyoumayreckononthatfact。"
  Lingardgaveheranadmiringglance。ButtheshadeofJorgenson,perhapscatchinginitsremotenessthesoundofthewordwoman,wassuddenlymovedtobeginscoldingwithallthelibertyofaghost,inaflowofpassionlessindignation。
  "Woman!That’swhatIsay。That’sjustaboutthelasttouch——thatyou,TomLingard,red—eyedTom,KingTom,andallthosefinenames,thatyoushouldleaveyourweaponstwentymilesbehindyou,yourmen,yourguns,yourbrigthatisyourstrength,andcomealongherewithyourmouthfulloffight,bare—handedandwithawomanintow。——Well——well!"
  "Don’tforget,Jorgenson,thattheladyhearsyou,"remonstratedLingardinavexedtone……"Hedoesn’tmeantoberude,"heremarkedtoMrs。Traversquiteloud,asifindeedJorgensonwerebutanimmaterialandfeelinglessillusion。"Hehasforgotten。"
  "Thewomanisnotintheleastoffended。Iaskfornothingbetterthantobetakenonthatfooting。"
  "Forgotnothing!"mumbledJorgensonwithasortofghostlyassertivenessandasitwereforhisownsatisfaction。"What’stheworldcomingto?"
  "ItwasIwhoinsistedoncomingwithCaptainLingard,"saidMrs。
  Travers,treatingJorgensontoafascinatingsweetnessoftone。
  "That’swhatIsay!Whatistheworldcomingto?Hasn’tKingTomamindofhisown?Whathascomeoverhim?He’smad!Leavinghisbrigwithahundredandtwentybornandbredpiratesoftheworstkindintwoprausontheothersideofasandbank。Didyouinsistonthat,too?Hasheputhimselfinthehandsofastrangewoman?"
  Jorgensonseemedtobeaskingthosequestionsofhimself。Mrs。
  Traversobservedtheemptystare,theself—communingvoice,hisunearthlylackofanimation。Somehowitmadeitveryeasytospeakthewholetruthtohim。
  "No,"shesaid,"itisIwhoamaltogetherinhishands。"
  NobodywouldhaveguessedthatJorgensonhadheardasinglewordofthatemphaticdeclarationifhehadnotaddressedhimselftoLingardwiththequestionneithermorenorlessabstractedthanallhisotherspeeches。
  "Whythendidyoubringheralong?"
  "Youdon’tunderstand。Itwasonlyrightandproper。Oneofthegentlemenisthelady’shusband。"
  "Oh,yes,"mutteredJorgenson。"Who’stheother?"
  "Youhavebeentold。Afriend。"
  "PoorMr。d’Alcacer,"saidMrs。Travers。"Whatbadluckforhimtohaveacceptedourinvitation。Butheisreallyamereacquaintance。"
  "Ihardlynoticedhim,"observedLingard,gloomily。"HewastalkingtoyouoverthebackofyourchairwhenIcameaboardtheyachtasifhehadbeenaverygoodfriend。"
  "Wealwaysunderstoodeachotherverywell,"saidMrs。Travers,pickingupfromtherailthelongglassthatwaslyingthere。"I
  alwayslikedhim,thefranknessofhismind,andhisgreatloyalty。"
  "Whatdidhedo?"askedLingard。
  "Heloved,"saidMrs。Travers,lightly。"Butthat’sanoldstory。"Sheraisedtheglasstohereyes,onearmextendedfullytosustainthelongtube,andLingardforgotd’Alcacerinadmiringthefirmnessofherposeandtheabsolutesteadinessoftheheavyglass。Shewasasfirmasarockafterallthoseemotionsandallthatfatigue。
  Mrs。Traversdirectedtheglassinstinctivelytowardtheentranceofthelagoon。Thesmoothwaterthereshonelikeapieceofsilverinthedarkframeoftheforest。Ablackspecksweptacrossthefieldofhervision。Itwassometimebeforeshecouldfinditagainandthenshesaw,apparentlysonearastobewithinreachofthevoice,asmallcanoewithtwopeopleinit。
  Shesawthewetpaddlesrisinganddippingwithaflashinthesunlight。ShemadeoutplainlythefaceofImmada,whoseemedtobelookingstraightintothebigendofthetelescope。Thechiefandhissister,afterrestingunderthebankforacoupleofhoursinthemiddleofthenight,hadenteredthelagoonandweremakingstraightforthehulk。Theywerealreadynearenoughtobeperfectlydistinguishabletothenakedeyeiftherehadbeenanybodyonboardtoglancethatway。Butnobodywaseventhinkingofthem。TheymightnothaveexistedexceptperhapsinthememoryofoldJorgenson。Butthatwasmostlybusywithallthemysterioussecretsofhislatetomb。
  Mrs。Traversloweredtheglasssuddenly。Lingardcameoutfromasortoftranceandsaid:
  "Mr。d’Alcacer。Loved!Whyshouldn’the?"
  Mrs。TraverslookedfranklyintoLingard’sgloomyeyes。"Itisn’tthatalone,ofcourse,"shesaid。"Firstofallheknewhowtoloveandthen……Youdon’tknowhowartificialandbarrencertainkindsoflifecanbe。ButMr。d’Alcacer’slifewasnotthat。Hisdevotionwasworthhaving。"
  "Youseemtoknowalotabouthim,’"saidLingard,enviously。
  "Whydoyousmile?"Shecontinuedtosmileathimforalittlewhile。Thelongbrasstubeoverhershouldershonelikegoldagainstthepalefairnessofherbarehead。——"Atathought,"sheanswered,preservingthelowtoneoftheconversationintowhichtheyhadfallenasiftheirwordscouldhavedisturbedtheself—absorptionofCaptainH。C。Jorgenson。"AtthethoughtthatforallmylongacquaintancewithMr。d’AlcacerIdon’tknowhalfasmuchabouthimasIknowaboutyou。"
  "Ah,that’simpossible,"contradictedLingard。"SpaniardornoSpaniard,heisoneofyourkind。"
  "Tarredwiththesamebrush,"murmuredMrs。Travers,withonlyahalf—amusedirony。ButLingardcontinued:
  "Hewastryingtomakeitupbetweenmeandyourhusband,wasn’the?Iwastooangrytopaymuchattention,butIlikedhimwellenough。Whatpleasedmemostwasthewayinwhichhegaveitup。
  Thatwasdonelikeagentleman。DoyouunderstandwhatImean,Mrs。Travers?"
  "Iquiteunderstand。"
  "Yes,youwould,"hecommented,simply。"ButjustthenIwastooangrytotalktoanybody。AndsoIclearedoutonboardmyownshipandstayedthere,notknowingwhattodoandwishingyouallatthebottomofthesea。Don’tmistakeme,Mrs。Travers;it’syou,thepeopleaft,thatIwishedatthebottomofthesea。I
  hadnothingagainstthepoordevilsonboard,Theywouldhavetrustedmequickenough。SoIfumedtheretill——till……"
  "Tillnineo’clockoralittleafter,"suggestedMrs。Travers,impenetrably。
  "No。TillIrememberedyou,"saidLingardwiththeutmostinnocence。
  "Doyoumeantosaythatyouforgotmyexistencesocompletelytillthen?Youhadspokentomeonboardtheyacht,youknow。"
  "DidI?IthoughtIdid。WhatdidIsay?"
  "Youtoldmenottotouchaduskyprincess,"answeredMrs。
  Traverswithashortlaugh。Thenwithavisiblechangeofmoodasifshehadsuddenlyoutofalightheartbeenrecalledtothesenseofthetruesituation:"ButindeedImeantnoharmtothisfigureofyourdream。And,lookoverthere。Sheispursuingyou。"
  Lingardglancedtowardthenorthshoreandsuppressedanexclamationofremorse。ForthesecondtimehediscoveredthathehadforgottentheexistenceofHassimandImmada。ThecanoewasnownearenoughforitsoccupantstodistinguishplainlytheheadsofthreepeopleabovethelowbulwarkoftheEmma。Immadaletherpaddletrailsuddenlyinthewater,withtheexclamation,"Iseethewhitewomanthere。"Herbrotherlookedoverhisshoulderandthecanoefloated,arrestedasifbythesuddenpowerofaspell。——"Theyarenodreamtome,"mutteredLingard,sturdily。Mrs。Traversturnedabruptlyawaytolookatthefurthershore。Itwasstillandemptytothenakedeyeandseemedtoquiverinthesunshinelikeanimmensepaintedcurtainloweredupontheunknown。
  "Here’sRajahHassimcoming,Jorgenson。Ihadanideahewouldperhapsstayoutside。"Mrs。TraversheardLingard’svoiceatherbackandtheansweringgruntofJorgenson。Sheraiseddeliberatelythelongglasstohereye,pointingitattheshore。
  ShedistinguishedplainlynowthecoloursintheflutterofthestreamersabovethebrownroofsofthelargeSettlement,thestirofpalmgroves,theblackshadowsinlandandthedazzlingwhitebeachofcoralsandallablazeinitsformidablemystery。Shesweptthewholerangeoftheviewandwasgoingtolowertheglasswhenfrombehindthemassiveangleofthestockadetheresteppedoutintothebrilliantimmobilityofthelandscapeamaninalongwhitegownandwithanenormousblackturbansurmountingadarkface。Slowandgravehepacedthebeachominouslyinthesunshine,anenigmaticalfigureinanOrientaltalewithsomethingweirdandmenacinginitssuddenemergenceandlonelyprogress。
  WithaninvoluntarygaspMrs。Traversloweredtheglass。Allatoncebehindherbacksheheardalowmusicalvoicebeginningtopouroutincomprehensiblewordsinatoneofpassionatepleading。
  HassimandImmadahadcomeonboardandhadapproachedLingard。
  Yes!Itwasintolerabletofeelthatthisflowofsoftspeechwhichhadnomeaningforhercouldmakeitswaystraightintothatman’sheart。
  PARTV。THEPOINTOFHONOURANDTHEPOINTOFPASSION
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  "MayIcomein?"
  "Yes,"saidavoicewithin。"Thedoorisopen。"Ithadawoodenlatch。Mr。Traverslifteditwhilethevoiceofhiswifecontinuedasheentered。"DidyouimagineIhadlockedmyselfin?
  Didyoueverknowmelockmyselfin?"
  Mr。Traversclosedthedoorbehindhim。"No,ithasnevercometothat,"hesaidinatonethatwasnotconciliatory。Inthatplacewhichwasaroominawoodenhutandhadasquareopeningwithoutglassbutwithahalf—closedshutterhecouldnotdistinguishhiswifeverywellatonce。Shewassittinginanarmchairandwhathecouldseebestwasherfairhairalllooseoverthebackofthechair。Therewasamomentofsilence。Themeasuredfootstepsoftwomenpacingathwartthequarter—deckofthedeadshipEmmacommandedbythederelictshadeofJorgensoncouldbeheardoutside。
  Jorgenson,ontakinguphisdeadcommand,hadahouseofthinboardsbuiltontheafterdeckforhisownaccommodationandthatofLingardduringhisflyingvisitstotheShoreofRefuge。A
  narrowpassagedivideditintwoandLingard’ssidewasfurnishedwithacampbedstead,aroughdesk,andarattanarmchair。OnoneofhisvisitsLingardhadbroughtwithhimablackseaman’schestandleftitthere。Apartfromtheseobjectsandasmalllooking—glassworthabouthalfacrownandnailedtothewalltherewasnothingelseintherewhatever。WhatwasonJorgenson’ssideofthedeckhousenoonehadseen,butfromexternalevidenceonecouldinfertheexistenceofasetofrazors。
  Theerectionofthatprimitivedeckhousewasamatterofproprietyratherthanofnecessity。Itwasproperthatthewhitemenshouldhaveaplacetothemselvesonboard,butLingardwasperfectlyaccuratewhenhetoldMrs。Traversthathehadneversleptthereonce。Hispracticewastosleepondeck。AstoJorgenson,ifhedidsleepatallhesleptverylittle。ItmighthavebeensaidthathehauntedratherthancommandedtheEmma。
  Hiswhiteformflittedhereandthereinthenightorstoodforhours,silent,contemplatingthesombreglimmerofthelagoon。
  Mr。Travers’eyesaccustomedgraduallytotheduskoftheplacecouldnowdistinguishmoreofhiswife’spersonthanthegreatmassofhoney—colouredhair。Hesawherface,thedarkeyebrowsandhereyesthatseemedprofoundlyblackinthehalflight。Hesaid:
  "Youcouldn’thavedonesohere。Thereisneitherlocknorbolt。"
  "Isn’tthere?Ididn’tnotice。Iwouldknowhowtoprotectmyselfwithoutlocksandbolts。"
  "Iamgladtohearit,"saidMr。Traversinasullentoneandfellsilentagainsurveyingthewomaninthechair。"Indulgingyourtasteforfancydress,"hewentonwithfaintirony。
  Mrs。Traversclaspedherhandsbehindherhead。Thewidesleevesslippingbackbaredherarmstohershoulders。ShewaswearingaMalaythincottonjacket,cutlowintheneckwithoutacollarandfastenedwithwroughtsilverclaspsfromthethroatdownward。
  Shehadreplacedheryachtingskirtbyabluechecksarongembroideredwiththreadsofgold。Mr。Travers’eyestravellingslowlydownattachedthemselvestothegleaminginstepofanagitatedfootfromwhichhungalightleathersandal。
  "IhadnoclotheswithmebutwhatIstoodin,"saidMrs。
  Travers。"Ifoundmyyachtingcostumetooheavy。Itwasintolerable。IwassoakedindewwhenIarrived。Sowhenthesethingswereproducedformyinspection……"
  "Byenchantment,"mutteredMr。Traversinatonetooheavyforsarcasm。
  "No。Outofthatchest。Thereareveryfinestuffsthere。"
  "Nodoubt,"saidMr。Travers。"Themanwouldn’tbeaboveplunderingthenatives……"Hesatdownheavilyonthechest。
  "Amostappropriatecostumeforthisfarce,"hecontinued。"Butdoyoumeantowearitinopendaylightaboutthedecks?"
  "IndeedIdo,"saidMrs。Travers。"D’Alcacerhasseenmealreadyandhedidn’tseemshocked。"
  "Youshould,"saidMr。Travers,"trytogetyourselfpresentedwithsomebanglesforyouranklessothatyoumayjingleasyouwalk。"
  "Banglesarenotnecessities,"saidMrs。Traversinawearytoneandwiththefixedupwardlookofapersonunwillingtorelinquishherdream。Mr。Traversdroppedthesubjecttoask:
  "Andhowlongisthisfarcegoingtolast?"
  Mrs。Traversunclaspedherhands,loweredherglance,andchangedherwholeposeinamoment。
  "Whatdoyoumeanbyfarce?Whatfarce?"
  "Theonewhichisbeingplayedatmyexpense。"
  "Youbelievethat?"
  "Notonlybelieve。Ifeeldeeplythatitisso。Atmyexpense。
  It’samostsinisterthing,"Mr。Traverspursued,stillwithdowncasteyesandinanunforgivingtone。"ImusttellyouthatwhenIsawyouinthatcourtyardinacrowdofnativesandleaningonthatman’sarm,itgavemequiteashock。"
  "DidI,too,looksinister?"saidMrs。Travers,turningherheadslightlytowardherhusband。"AndyetIassureyouthatIwasglad,profoundlyglad,toseeyousafefromdangerforatimeatleast。Togaintimeiseverything……"
  "Iaskmyself,"Mr。Traversmeditatedaloud,"wasIeverindanger?AmIsafenow?Idon’tknow。Ican’ttell。No!Allthisseemsanabominablefarce。"
  Therewasthatinhistonewhichmadehiswifecontinuetolookathimwithawakenedinterest。Itwasobviousthathesufferedfromadistresswhichwasnottheeffectoffear;andMrs。
  Travers’faceexpressedrealconcerntillheaddedinafreezingmanner:"Thequestion,however,isastoyourdiscretion。"
  Sheleanedbackagaininthechairandletherhandsrestquietlyinherlap。"Wouldyouhavepreferredmetoremainoutside,intheyacht,inthenearneighbourhoodofthesewildmenwhocapturedyou?Ordoyouthinkthatthey,too,weregotuptocarryonafarce?"
  "Mostdecidedly。"Mr。Traversraisedhishead,thoughofcoursenothisvoice。"Yououghttohaveremainedintheyachtamongstwhitemen,yourservants,thesailing—master,thecrewwhosedutyitwasto……Whowouldhavebeenreadytodieforyou。"
  "Iwonderwhytheyshouldhave——andwhyIshouldhaveaskedthemforthatsacrifice。However,Ihavenodoubttheywouldhavedied。Orwouldyouhavepreferredmetotakeupmyquartersonboardthatman’sbrig?Wewereallfairlysafethere。TherealreasonwhyIinsistedoncominginherewastobenearertoyou——toseeformyselfwhatcouldbeorwasbeingdone……ButreallyifyouwantmetoexplainmymotivesthenImayjustaswellsaynothing。Icouldn’tremainoutsidefordayswithoutnews,inastateofhorribledoubt。Wecouldn’teventellwhetheryouandd’Alcacerwerestillalivetillwearrivedhere。Youmighthavebeenactuallymurderedonthesandbank,afterRajahHassimandthatgirlhadgoneaway;orkilledwhilegoinguptheriver。AndIwantedtoknowatonce,assoonaspossible。Itwasamatterofimpulse。IwentoffinwhatIstoodinwithoutdelayingamoment。"
  "Yes,"saidMr。Travers。"Andwithouteventhinkingofhavingafewthingsputupformeinabag。Nodoubtyouwereinastateofexcitement。Unlessyoutooksuchatragicviewthatitseemedtoyouhardlyworthwhiletobotheraboutmyclothes。"
  "Itwasabsolutelytheimpulseofthemoment。Icouldhavedonenothingelse。Won’tyougivemecreditforit?"
  Mr。Traversraisedhiseyesagaintohiswife’sface。Hesawitcalm,herattitudereposeful。Tillthenhistonehadbeenresentful,dull,withoutsarcasm。Butnowhebecameslightlypompous。
  "No。Asamatteroffact,asamatterofexperience,Ican’tcredityouwiththepossessionoffeelingsappropriatetoyourorigin,socialposition,andtheideasoftheclasstowhichyoubelong。Itwastheheaviestdisappointmentofmylife。IhadmadeupmymindnottomentionitaslongasIlived。This,however,seemsanoccasionwhichyouhaveprovokedyourself。Itisn’tatallasolemnoccasion。Idon’tlookuponitassolemnatall。
  It’sverydisagreeableandhumiliating。Butithaspresenteditself。Youhavenevertakenaseriousinterestintheactivitiesofmylifewhichofcourseareitsdistinctionanditsvalue。AndwhyyoushouldbecarriedawaysuddenlybyafeelingtowardthemeremanIdon’tunderstand。"
  "Thereforeyoudon’tapprove,"Mrs。Traverscommentedinaneventone。"ButIassureyou,youmaysafely。Myfeelingwasofthemostconventionalnature,exactlyasifthewholeworldwerelookingon。Afterall,wearehusbandandwife。It’seminentlyfittingthatIshouldbeconcernedaboutyourfate。Eventhemanyoudistrustanddislikesomuch(thewarmestfeeling,letmetellyou,thatIeversawyoudisplay)eventhatmanfoundmyconductperfectlyproper。Hisownword。Proper。Soeminentlyproperthatitaltogethersilencedhisobjections。"
  Mr。Traversshifteduneasilyonhisseat。
  "It’smybelief,Edith,thatifyouhadbeenamanyouwouldhaveledamostirregularlife。Youwouldhavebeenafrankadventurer。Imeanmorally。Ithasbeenagreatgrieftome。Youhaveascorninyoufortheserioussideoflife,fortheideasandtheambitionsofthesocialspheretowhichyoubelong。"
  Hestoppedbecausehiswifehadclaspedagainherhandsbehindherheadandwasnolongerlookingathim。
  "It’sperfectlyobvious,"hebeganagain。"Wehavebeenlivingamongstmostdistinguishedmenandwomenandyourattitudetothemhasbeenalwaysso——sonegative!Youwouldneverrecognizetheimportanceofachievements,ofacquiredpositions。Idon’trememberyoueveradmiringfranklyanypoliticalorsocialsuccess。Iaskmyselfwhatafterallyoucouldpossiblyhaveexpectedfromlife。"