"Didyouseethemboth,Jorgenson?"askedLingard。
"Madeoutnobody。Toofar。Toodark。"
AsamatteroffactJorgensonhadseennothing,aboutanhourbeforedaybreak,butthedistantglareoftorcheswhiletheloudshoutsofanexcitedmultitudehadreachedhimacrossthewateronlylikeafaintandtempestuousmurmur。Presentlythelightswentawayprocessionallythroughthegrovesoftreesintothearmedstockades。Thedistantglarevanishedinthefadingdarknessandthemurmursoftheinvisiblecrowdceasedsuddenlyasifcarriedoffbytheretreatingshadowofthenight。Daylightfollowedswiftly,disclosingtothesleeplessJorgensonthesolitudeoftheshoreandtheghostlyoutlinesofthefamiliarformsofgroupedtreesandscatteredhumanhabitations。Hehadwatchedthevariedcolourscomeoutinthedawn,thewidecultivatedSettlementofmanyshadesofgreen,framedfarawaybythefineblacklinesoftheforest—edgethatwasitslimitanditsprotection。
Mrs。Traversstoodagainsttherailasmotionlessasastatue。
Herfacehadlostallitsmobilityandhercheeksweredeadwhiteasifallthebloodinherbodyhadflowedbackintoherheartandhadremainedthere。Herverylipshadlosttheircolour。
Lingardcaughtholdofherarmroughly。
"Don’t,Mrs。Travers。Whyareyouterrifyingyourselflikethis?
Ifyoudon’tbelievewhatIsaylistentomeaskingJorgenson……"
"Yes,askme,"mumbledJorgensoninhiswhitemoustache。
"Speakstraight,Jorgenson。Whatdoyouthink?Arethegentlemenalive?"
"Certainly,"saidJorgensoninasortofdisappointedtoneasthoughhehadexpectedamuchmoredifficultquestion。
"Istheirlifeinimmediatedanger?"
"Ofcoursenot,"saidJorgenson。
Lingardturnedawayfromtheoracle。"Youhaveheardhim,Mrs。
Travers。Youmaybelieveeverywordhesays。Thereisn’tathoughtorapurposeinthatSettlement,"hecontinued,pointingatthedumbsolitudeofthelagoon,"thatthismandoesn’tknowasiftheywerehisown。"
"Iknow。Askme,"mutteredJorgenson,mechanically。
Mrs。Traverssaidnothingbutmadeaslightmovementandherwholerigidfigureswayeddangerously。LingardputhisarmfirmlyroundherwaistandshedidnotseemawareofittillaftershehadturnedherheadandfoundLingard’sfaceverynearherown。
Buthiseyesfullofconcernlookedsocloseintohersthatshewasobligedtoshutthemlikeawomanabouttofaint。
TheeffectthisproduceduponLingardwassuchthatshefeltthetighteningofhisarmandassheopenedhereyesagainsomeofthecolourreturnedtoherface。Shemetthedeepenedexpressionofhissolicitudewithalooksosteady,withagazethatinspiteofherselfwassoprofoundlyvividthatitsclearnessseemedtoLingardtothrowallhispastlifeintoshade。——"I
don’tfeelfaint。Itisn’tthatatall,"shedeclaredinaperfectlycalmvoice。ItseemedtoLingardascoldasice。
"Verywell,"heagreedwitharesignedsmile。"Butyoujustcatchholdofthatrail,please,beforeIletyougo。"She,too,forcedasmileonherlips。
"Whatincredulity,"sheremarked,andforatimemadenottheslightestmovement。Atlast,asifmakingaconcession,sherestedthetipsofherfingersontherail。Lingardgraduallyremovedhisarm。"Andpraydon’tlookuponmeasaconventional’weakwoman’person,thedelicateladyofyourownconception,"
shesaid,facingLingard,withherarmextendedtotherail。
"Makethateffortpleaseagainstyourownconceptionofwhatawomanlikemeshouldbe。Iamperhapsasstrongasyouare,CaptainLingard。Imeanitliterally。Inmybody。"——"Don’tyouthinkIhaveseenthatlongago?"sheheardhisdeepvoiceprotesting。——"Andastomycourage,"Mrs。Traverscontinued,herexpressioncharminglyundecidedbetweenfrownsandsmiles;
"didn’tItellyouonlyafewhoursago,onlylastevening,thatIwasnotcapableofthinkingmyselfintoafright;youremember,whenyouwerebeggingmetotrysomethingofthekind。Don’timaginethatIwouldhavebeenashamedtotry。ButIcouldn’thavedoneit。No。Notevenforthesakeofsomebodyelse’skingdom。Doyouunderstandme?"
"Godknows,"saidtheattentiveLingardafteratime,withanunexpectedsigh。"Youpeopleseemtobemadeofanotherstuff。"
"Whathasputthatabsurdnotionintoyourhead?"
"Ididn’tmeanbetterorworse。AndIwouldn’tsayitisn’tgoodstuffeither。WhatImeanttosayisthatit’sdifferent。Onefeelsit。Andhereweare。"
"Yes,hereweare,"repeatedMrs。Travers。"Andastothismomentofemotion,whatprovokeditisnotaconcernforanybodyoranythingoutsidemyself。Ifeltnoterror。Icannotevenfixmyfearsuponanydistinctimage。YouthinkIamshamelesslyheartlessintellingyouthis。"
Lingardmadenosign。Itdidn’toccurtohimtomakeasign。HesimplyhungonMrs。Travers’wordsasitwereonlyforthesakeofthesound。——"Iamsimplyfrankwithyou,"shecontinued。"WhatdoIknowofsavagery,violence,murder?Ihaveneverseenadeadbodyinmylife。Thelight,thesilence,themysteriousemptinessofthisplacehavesuddenlyaffectedmyimagination,Isuppose。
Whatisthemeaningofthiswonderfulpeaceinwhichwestand——youandIalone?"
Lingardshookhishead。Hesawthenarrowgleamofthewoman’steethbetweenthepartedlipsofhersmile,asifalltheardourofherconvictionhadbeendissolvedattheendofherspeechintowistfulrecognitionoftheirpartnershipbeforethingsoutsidetheirknowledge。Andhewaswarmedbysomethingalittlehelplessinthatsmile。WithinthreefeetofthemtheshadeofJorgenson,verygauntandneat,staredintospace。
"Yes。Youarestrong,"saidLingard。"Butawholelongnightsittinginasmallboat!Iwonderyouarenottoostifftostand。"
"Iamnotstiffintheleast,"sheinterrupted,stillsmiling。"I
amreallyaverystrongwoman,"sheadded,earnestly。"Whateverhappensyoumayreckononthatfact。"
Lingardgaveheranadmiringglance。ButtheshadeofJorgenson,perhapscatchinginitsremotenessthesoundofthewordwoman,wassuddenlymovedtobeginscoldingwithallthelibertyofaghost,inaflowofpassionlessindignation。
"Woman!That’swhatIsay。That’sjustaboutthelasttouch——thatyou,TomLingard,red—eyedTom,KingTom,andallthosefinenames,thatyoushouldleaveyourweaponstwentymilesbehindyou,yourmen,yourguns,yourbrigthatisyourstrength,andcomealongherewithyourmouthfulloffight,bare—handedandwithawomanintow。——Well——well!"
"Don’tforget,Jorgenson,thattheladyhearsyou,"remonstratedLingardinavexedtone……"Hedoesn’tmeantoberude,"heremarkedtoMrs。Traversquiteloud,asifindeedJorgensonwerebutanimmaterialandfeelinglessillusion。"Hehasforgotten。"
"Thewomanisnotintheleastoffended。Iaskfornothingbetterthantobetakenonthatfooting。"
"Forgotnothing!"mumbledJorgensonwithasortofghostlyassertivenessandasitwereforhisownsatisfaction。"What’stheworldcomingto?"
"ItwasIwhoinsistedoncomingwithCaptainLingard,"saidMrs。
Travers,treatingJorgensontoafascinatingsweetnessoftone。
"That’swhatIsay!Whatistheworldcomingto?Hasn’tKingTomamindofhisown?Whathascomeoverhim?He’smad!Leavinghisbrigwithahundredandtwentybornandbredpiratesoftheworstkindintwoprausontheothersideofasandbank。Didyouinsistonthat,too?Hasheputhimselfinthehandsofastrangewoman?"
Jorgensonseemedtobeaskingthosequestionsofhimself。Mrs。
Traversobservedtheemptystare,theself—communingvoice,hisunearthlylackofanimation。Somehowitmadeitveryeasytospeakthewholetruthtohim。
"No,"shesaid,"itisIwhoamaltogetherinhishands。"
NobodywouldhaveguessedthatJorgensonhadheardasinglewordofthatemphaticdeclarationifhehadnotaddressedhimselftoLingardwiththequestionneithermorenorlessabstractedthanallhisotherspeeches。
"Whythendidyoubringheralong?"
"Youdon’tunderstand。Itwasonlyrightandproper。Oneofthegentlemenisthelady’shusband。"
"Oh,yes,"mutteredJorgenson。"Who’stheother?"
"Youhavebeentold。Afriend。"
"PoorMr。d’Alcacer,"saidMrs。Travers。"Whatbadluckforhimtohaveacceptedourinvitation。Butheisreallyamereacquaintance。"
"Ihardlynoticedhim,"observedLingard,gloomily。"HewastalkingtoyouoverthebackofyourchairwhenIcameaboardtheyachtasifhehadbeenaverygoodfriend。"
"Wealwaysunderstoodeachotherverywell,"saidMrs。Travers,pickingupfromtherailthelongglassthatwaslyingthere。"I
alwayslikedhim,thefranknessofhismind,andhisgreatloyalty。"
"Whatdidhedo?"askedLingard。
"Heloved,"saidMrs。Travers,lightly。"Butthat’sanoldstory。"Sheraisedtheglasstohereyes,onearmextendedfullytosustainthelongtube,andLingardforgotd’Alcacerinadmiringthefirmnessofherposeandtheabsolutesteadinessoftheheavyglass。Shewasasfirmasarockafterallthoseemotionsandallthatfatigue。
Mrs。Traversdirectedtheglassinstinctivelytowardtheentranceofthelagoon。Thesmoothwaterthereshonelikeapieceofsilverinthedarkframeoftheforest。Ablackspecksweptacrossthefieldofhervision。Itwassometimebeforeshecouldfinditagainandthenshesaw,apparentlysonearastobewithinreachofthevoice,asmallcanoewithtwopeopleinit。
Shesawthewetpaddlesrisinganddippingwithaflashinthesunlight。ShemadeoutplainlythefaceofImmada,whoseemedtobelookingstraightintothebigendofthetelescope。Thechiefandhissister,afterrestingunderthebankforacoupleofhoursinthemiddleofthenight,hadenteredthelagoonandweremakingstraightforthehulk。Theywerealreadynearenoughtobeperfectlydistinguishabletothenakedeyeiftherehadbeenanybodyonboardtoglancethatway。Butnobodywaseventhinkingofthem。TheymightnothaveexistedexceptperhapsinthememoryofoldJorgenson。Butthatwasmostlybusywithallthemysterioussecretsofhislatetomb。
Mrs。Traversloweredtheglasssuddenly。Lingardcameoutfromasortoftranceandsaid:
"Mr。d’Alcacer。Loved!Whyshouldn’the?"
Mrs。TraverslookedfranklyintoLingard’sgloomyeyes。"Itisn’tthatalone,ofcourse,"shesaid。"Firstofallheknewhowtoloveandthen……Youdon’tknowhowartificialandbarrencertainkindsoflifecanbe。ButMr。d’Alcacer’slifewasnotthat。Hisdevotionwasworthhaving。"
"Youseemtoknowalotabouthim,’"saidLingard,enviously。
"Whydoyousmile?"Shecontinuedtosmileathimforalittlewhile。Thelongbrasstubeoverhershouldershonelikegoldagainstthepalefairnessofherbarehead。——"Atathought,"sheanswered,preservingthelowtoneoftheconversationintowhichtheyhadfallenasiftheirwordscouldhavedisturbedtheself—absorptionofCaptainH。C。Jorgenson。"AtthethoughtthatforallmylongacquaintancewithMr。d’AlcacerIdon’tknowhalfasmuchabouthimasIknowaboutyou。"
"Ah,that’simpossible,"contradictedLingard。"SpaniardornoSpaniard,heisoneofyourkind。"
"Tarredwiththesamebrush,"murmuredMrs。Travers,withonlyahalf—amusedirony。ButLingardcontinued:
"Hewastryingtomakeitupbetweenmeandyourhusband,wasn’the?Iwastooangrytopaymuchattention,butIlikedhimwellenough。Whatpleasedmemostwasthewayinwhichhegaveitup。
Thatwasdonelikeagentleman。DoyouunderstandwhatImean,Mrs。Travers?"
"Iquiteunderstand。"
"Yes,youwould,"hecommented,simply。"ButjustthenIwastooangrytotalktoanybody。AndsoIclearedoutonboardmyownshipandstayedthere,notknowingwhattodoandwishingyouallatthebottomofthesea。Don’tmistakeme,Mrs。Travers;it’syou,thepeopleaft,thatIwishedatthebottomofthesea。I
hadnothingagainstthepoordevilsonboard,Theywouldhavetrustedmequickenough。SoIfumedtheretill——till……"
"Tillnineo’clockoralittleafter,"suggestedMrs。Travers,impenetrably。
"No。TillIrememberedyou,"saidLingardwiththeutmostinnocence。
"Doyoumeantosaythatyouforgotmyexistencesocompletelytillthen?Youhadspokentomeonboardtheyacht,youknow。"
"DidI?IthoughtIdid。WhatdidIsay?"
"Youtoldmenottotouchaduskyprincess,"answeredMrs。
Traverswithashortlaugh。Thenwithavisiblechangeofmoodasifshehadsuddenlyoutofalightheartbeenrecalledtothesenseofthetruesituation:"ButindeedImeantnoharmtothisfigureofyourdream。And,lookoverthere。Sheispursuingyou。"
Lingardglancedtowardthenorthshoreandsuppressedanexclamationofremorse。ForthesecondtimehediscoveredthathehadforgottentheexistenceofHassimandImmada。ThecanoewasnownearenoughforitsoccupantstodistinguishplainlytheheadsofthreepeopleabovethelowbulwarkoftheEmma。Immadaletherpaddletrailsuddenlyinthewater,withtheexclamation,"Iseethewhitewomanthere。"Herbrotherlookedoverhisshoulderandthecanoefloated,arrestedasifbythesuddenpowerofaspell。——"Theyarenodreamtome,"mutteredLingard,sturdily。Mrs。Traversturnedabruptlyawaytolookatthefurthershore。Itwasstillandemptytothenakedeyeandseemedtoquiverinthesunshinelikeanimmensepaintedcurtainloweredupontheunknown。
"Here’sRajahHassimcoming,Jorgenson。Ihadanideahewouldperhapsstayoutside。"Mrs。TraversheardLingard’svoiceatherbackandtheansweringgruntofJorgenson。Sheraiseddeliberatelythelongglasstohereye,pointingitattheshore。
ShedistinguishedplainlynowthecoloursintheflutterofthestreamersabovethebrownroofsofthelargeSettlement,thestirofpalmgroves,theblackshadowsinlandandthedazzlingwhitebeachofcoralsandallablazeinitsformidablemystery。Shesweptthewholerangeoftheviewandwasgoingtolowertheglasswhenfrombehindthemassiveangleofthestockadetheresteppedoutintothebrilliantimmobilityofthelandscapeamaninalongwhitegownandwithanenormousblackturbansurmountingadarkface。Slowandgravehepacedthebeachominouslyinthesunshine,anenigmaticalfigureinanOrientaltalewithsomethingweirdandmenacinginitssuddenemergenceandlonelyprogress。
WithaninvoluntarygaspMrs。Traversloweredtheglass。Allatoncebehindherbacksheheardalowmusicalvoicebeginningtopouroutincomprehensiblewordsinatoneofpassionatepleading。
HassimandImmadahadcomeonboardandhadapproachedLingard。
Yes!Itwasintolerabletofeelthatthisflowofsoftspeechwhichhadnomeaningforhercouldmakeitswaystraightintothatman’sheart。
PARTV。THEPOINTOFHONOURANDTHEPOINTOFPASSION
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"MayIcomein?"
"Yes,"saidavoicewithin。"Thedoorisopen。"Ithadawoodenlatch。Mr。Traverslifteditwhilethevoiceofhiswifecontinuedasheentered。"DidyouimagineIhadlockedmyselfin?
Didyoueverknowmelockmyselfin?"
Mr。Traversclosedthedoorbehindhim。"No,ithasnevercometothat,"hesaidinatonethatwasnotconciliatory。Inthatplacewhichwasaroominawoodenhutandhadasquareopeningwithoutglassbutwithahalf—closedshutterhecouldnotdistinguishhiswifeverywellatonce。Shewassittinginanarmchairandwhathecouldseebestwasherfairhairalllooseoverthebackofthechair。Therewasamomentofsilence。Themeasuredfootstepsoftwomenpacingathwartthequarter—deckofthedeadshipEmmacommandedbythederelictshadeofJorgensoncouldbeheardoutside。
Jorgenson,ontakinguphisdeadcommand,hadahouseofthinboardsbuiltontheafterdeckforhisownaccommodationandthatofLingardduringhisflyingvisitstotheShoreofRefuge。A
narrowpassagedivideditintwoandLingard’ssidewasfurnishedwithacampbedstead,aroughdesk,andarattanarmchair。OnoneofhisvisitsLingardhadbroughtwithhimablackseaman’schestandleftitthere。Apartfromtheseobjectsandasmalllooking—glassworthabouthalfacrownandnailedtothewalltherewasnothingelseintherewhatever。WhatwasonJorgenson’ssideofthedeckhousenoonehadseen,butfromexternalevidenceonecouldinfertheexistenceofasetofrazors。
Theerectionofthatprimitivedeckhousewasamatterofproprietyratherthanofnecessity。Itwasproperthatthewhitemenshouldhaveaplacetothemselvesonboard,butLingardwasperfectlyaccuratewhenhetoldMrs。Traversthathehadneversleptthereonce。Hispracticewastosleepondeck。AstoJorgenson,ifhedidsleepatallhesleptverylittle。ItmighthavebeensaidthathehauntedratherthancommandedtheEmma。
Hiswhiteformflittedhereandthereinthenightorstoodforhours,silent,contemplatingthesombreglimmerofthelagoon。
Mr。Travers’eyesaccustomedgraduallytotheduskoftheplacecouldnowdistinguishmoreofhiswife’spersonthanthegreatmassofhoney—colouredhair。Hesawherface,thedarkeyebrowsandhereyesthatseemedprofoundlyblackinthehalflight。Hesaid:
"Youcouldn’thavedonesohere。Thereisneitherlocknorbolt。"
"Isn’tthere?Ididn’tnotice。Iwouldknowhowtoprotectmyselfwithoutlocksandbolts。"
"Iamgladtohearit,"saidMr。Traversinasullentoneandfellsilentagainsurveyingthewomaninthechair。"Indulgingyourtasteforfancydress,"hewentonwithfaintirony。
Mrs。Traversclaspedherhandsbehindherhead。Thewidesleevesslippingbackbaredherarmstohershoulders。ShewaswearingaMalaythincottonjacket,cutlowintheneckwithoutacollarandfastenedwithwroughtsilverclaspsfromthethroatdownward。
Shehadreplacedheryachtingskirtbyabluechecksarongembroideredwiththreadsofgold。Mr。Travers’eyestravellingslowlydownattachedthemselvestothegleaminginstepofanagitatedfootfromwhichhungalightleathersandal。
"IhadnoclotheswithmebutwhatIstoodin,"saidMrs。
Travers。"Ifoundmyyachtingcostumetooheavy。Itwasintolerable。IwassoakedindewwhenIarrived。Sowhenthesethingswereproducedformyinspection……"
"Byenchantment,"mutteredMr。Traversinatonetooheavyforsarcasm。
"No。Outofthatchest。Thereareveryfinestuffsthere。"
"Nodoubt,"saidMr。Travers。"Themanwouldn’tbeaboveplunderingthenatives……"Hesatdownheavilyonthechest。
"Amostappropriatecostumeforthisfarce,"hecontinued。"Butdoyoumeantowearitinopendaylightaboutthedecks?"
"IndeedIdo,"saidMrs。Travers。"D’Alcacerhasseenmealreadyandhedidn’tseemshocked。"
"Youshould,"saidMr。Travers,"trytogetyourselfpresentedwithsomebanglesforyouranklessothatyoumayjingleasyouwalk。"
"Banglesarenotnecessities,"saidMrs。Traversinawearytoneandwiththefixedupwardlookofapersonunwillingtorelinquishherdream。Mr。Traversdroppedthesubjecttoask:
"Andhowlongisthisfarcegoingtolast?"
Mrs。Traversunclaspedherhands,loweredherglance,andchangedherwholeposeinamoment。
"Whatdoyoumeanbyfarce?Whatfarce?"
"Theonewhichisbeingplayedatmyexpense。"
"Youbelievethat?"
"Notonlybelieve。Ifeeldeeplythatitisso。Atmyexpense。
It’samostsinisterthing,"Mr。Traverspursued,stillwithdowncasteyesandinanunforgivingtone。"ImusttellyouthatwhenIsawyouinthatcourtyardinacrowdofnativesandleaningonthatman’sarm,itgavemequiteashock。"
"DidI,too,looksinister?"saidMrs。Travers,turningherheadslightlytowardherhusband。"AndyetIassureyouthatIwasglad,profoundlyglad,toseeyousafefromdangerforatimeatleast。Togaintimeiseverything……"
"Iaskmyself,"Mr。Traversmeditatedaloud,"wasIeverindanger?AmIsafenow?Idon’tknow。Ican’ttell。No!Allthisseemsanabominablefarce。"
Therewasthatinhistonewhichmadehiswifecontinuetolookathimwithawakenedinterest。Itwasobviousthathesufferedfromadistresswhichwasnottheeffectoffear;andMrs。
Travers’faceexpressedrealconcerntillheaddedinafreezingmanner:"Thequestion,however,isastoyourdiscretion。"
Sheleanedbackagaininthechairandletherhandsrestquietlyinherlap。"Wouldyouhavepreferredmetoremainoutside,intheyacht,inthenearneighbourhoodofthesewildmenwhocapturedyou?Ordoyouthinkthatthey,too,weregotuptocarryonafarce?"
"Mostdecidedly。"Mr。Traversraisedhishead,thoughofcoursenothisvoice。"Yououghttohaveremainedintheyachtamongstwhitemen,yourservants,thesailing—master,thecrewwhosedutyitwasto……Whowouldhavebeenreadytodieforyou。"
"Iwonderwhytheyshouldhave——andwhyIshouldhaveaskedthemforthatsacrifice。However,Ihavenodoubttheywouldhavedied。Orwouldyouhavepreferredmetotakeupmyquartersonboardthatman’sbrig?Wewereallfairlysafethere。TherealreasonwhyIinsistedoncominginherewastobenearertoyou——toseeformyselfwhatcouldbeorwasbeingdone……ButreallyifyouwantmetoexplainmymotivesthenImayjustaswellsaynothing。Icouldn’tremainoutsidefordayswithoutnews,inastateofhorribledoubt。Wecouldn’teventellwhetheryouandd’Alcacerwerestillalivetillwearrivedhere。Youmighthavebeenactuallymurderedonthesandbank,afterRajahHassimandthatgirlhadgoneaway;orkilledwhilegoinguptheriver。AndIwantedtoknowatonce,assoonaspossible。Itwasamatterofimpulse。IwentoffinwhatIstoodinwithoutdelayingamoment。"
"Yes,"saidMr。Travers。"Andwithouteventhinkingofhavingafewthingsputupformeinabag。Nodoubtyouwereinastateofexcitement。Unlessyoutooksuchatragicviewthatitseemedtoyouhardlyworthwhiletobotheraboutmyclothes。"
"Itwasabsolutelytheimpulseofthemoment。Icouldhavedonenothingelse。Won’tyougivemecreditforit?"
Mr。Traversraisedhiseyesagaintohiswife’sface。Hesawitcalm,herattitudereposeful。Tillthenhistonehadbeenresentful,dull,withoutsarcasm。Butnowhebecameslightlypompous。
"No。Asamatteroffact,asamatterofexperience,Ican’tcredityouwiththepossessionoffeelingsappropriatetoyourorigin,socialposition,andtheideasoftheclasstowhichyoubelong。Itwastheheaviestdisappointmentofmylife。IhadmadeupmymindnottomentionitaslongasIlived。This,however,seemsanoccasionwhichyouhaveprovokedyourself。Itisn’tatallasolemnoccasion。Idon’tlookuponitassolemnatall。
It’sverydisagreeableandhumiliating。Butithaspresenteditself。Youhavenevertakenaseriousinterestintheactivitiesofmylifewhichofcourseareitsdistinctionanditsvalue。AndwhyyoushouldbecarriedawaysuddenlybyafeelingtowardthemeremanIdon’tunderstand。"
"Thereforeyoudon’tapprove,"Mrs。Traverscommentedinaneventone。"ButIassureyou,youmaysafely。Myfeelingwasofthemostconventionalnature,exactlyasifthewholeworldwerelookingon。Afterall,wearehusbandandwife。It’seminentlyfittingthatIshouldbeconcernedaboutyourfate。Eventhemanyoudistrustanddislikesomuch(thewarmestfeeling,letmetellyou,thatIeversawyoudisplay)eventhatmanfoundmyconductperfectlyproper。Hisownword。Proper。Soeminentlyproperthatitaltogethersilencedhisobjections。"
Mr。Traversshifteduneasilyonhisseat。
"It’smybelief,Edith,thatifyouhadbeenamanyouwouldhaveledamostirregularlife。Youwouldhavebeenafrankadventurer。Imeanmorally。Ithasbeenagreatgrieftome。Youhaveascorninyoufortheserioussideoflife,fortheideasandtheambitionsofthesocialspheretowhichyoubelong。"
Hestoppedbecausehiswifehadclaspedagainherhandsbehindherheadandwasnolongerlookingathim。
"It’sperfectlyobvious,"hebeganagain。"Wehavebeenlivingamongstmostdistinguishedmenandwomenandyourattitudetothemhasbeenalwaysso——sonegative!Youwouldneverrecognizetheimportanceofachievements,ofacquiredpositions。Idon’trememberyoueveradmiringfranklyanypoliticalorsocialsuccess。Iaskmyselfwhatafterallyoucouldpossiblyhaveexpectedfromlife。"
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