"Poorthing……poorthing!"hecouldonlygoonsaying;andwiththerepetitionofthewordsthepictureofhimselfasshemustseehimpitiablytookshapeagain。
Heunderstoodthen,forthefirsttime,howvague,incomparisonwithhers,hadbeenhisownvisionoftheparthehadplayedinthebriefepisodeoftheirrelation。Theincidenthadleftinhimasenseofexasperationandself—
contempt,butthat,ashenowperceived,waschiefly,ifnotaltogether,asitboreonhispreconceivedidealofhisattitudetowardanotherwoman。Hehadfallenbelowhisownstandardofsentimentalloyalty,andifhethoughtofSophyVineritwasmainlyasthechanceinstrumentofhislapse。
Theseconsiderationswerenotagreeabletohispride,buttheywereforcedonhimbytheexampleofhervaliantcommon—sense。Ifhehadcutasorryfigureinthebusiness,heowedittohernottoclosehiseyestothefactanylonger……
Butwhenheopenedthem,whatdidhesee?Thesituation,detestableatbest,wouldyethavebeenrelativelysimpleifprotectingSophyVinerhadbeentheonlydutyinvolvedinit。Thefactthatthatdutywasparamountdidnotdoawaywiththecontingentobligations。ItwasDarrow’sinstinct,indifficultmoments,togostraighttothebottomofthedifficulty;buthehadneverbeforehadtotakesodarkadiveasthis,andfortheminuteheshiveredonthebrink……Well,hisfirstduty,atanyrate,wastothegirl:
hemustletherseethathemeanttofulfillittothelastjot,andthentrytofindouthowtosquarethefulfillmentwiththeotherproblemsalreadyinhispath……
XVI
IntheoakroomhefoundMrs。Leath,hermother—in—lawandEffie。Thegroup,ashecametowarditdownthelongdrawing—rooms,composeditselfprettilyaboutthetea—table。
Thelampsandthefirecrossedtheirgleamsonsilverandporcelain,onthebrighthazeofEffie’shairandonthewhitenessofAnna’sforehead,assheleanedbackinherchairbehindthetea—urn。
ShedidnotmoveatDarrow’sapproach,butliftedtohimadeepgazeofpeaceandconfidence。Thelookseemedtothrowabouthimthespellofadivinesecurity:hefeltthejoyofaconvalescentsuddenlywakingtofindthesunlightonhisface。
MadamedeChantelle,acrossherknitting,discoursedoftheirafternoon’sexcursion,withoccasionalpausesinducedbythehypnoticeffectofthefreshair;andEffie,kneeling,onthehearth,softlybutinsistentlysoughttoimplantinherterrier’smindsomenotionoftherelationbetweenaverticalattitudeandsugar。
Darrowtookachairbehindthelittlegirl,sothathemightlookacrossathermother。Itwasalmostanecessityforhim,atthemoment,tolethiseyesrestonAnna’sface,andtomeet,nowandthen,theproudshynessofhergaze。
MadamedeChantellepresentlyenquiredwhathadbecomeofOwen,andamomentlaterthewindowbehindheropened,andhergrandson,guninhand,cameinfromtheterrace。Ashestoodthereinthelamp—light,withdeadleavesandbitsofbrambleclingingtohismud—spatteredclothes,thescentofthenightabouthimanditschillonhispalebrightface,hereallyhadthelookofayoungfaunstrayedinfromtheforest。
Effieabandonedtheterriertoflytohim。"Oh,Owen,whereintheworldhaveyoubeen?IwalkedmilesandmileswithNurseandcouldn’tfindyou,andwemetJeanandhesaidhedidn’tknowwhereyou’dgone。"
"NobodyknowswhereIgo,orwhatIseewhenIgetthere——
that’sthebeautyofit!"helaughedbackather。"Butifyou’regood,"headded,"I’lltellyouaboutitoneofthesedays。"
"Oh,now,Owen,now!Idon’treallybelieveI’lleverbemuchbetterthanIamnow。"
"LetOwenhavehisteafirst,"hermothersuggested;buttheyoungman,decliningtheoffer,proppedhisgunagainstthewall,and,lightingacigarette,begantopaceupanddowntheroominawaythatremindedDarrowofhisowncagedwanderings。Effiepursuedhimwithherblandishments,andforawhilehepouredouttoheralow—voicedstreamofnonsense;thenhesatdownbesidehisstep—motherandleanedovertohelphimselftotea。
"Where’sMissViner?"heasked,asEffieclimbeduponhim。
"Whyisn’tsheheretochainupthisungovernableinfant?"
"PoorMissVinerhasaheadache。Effiesaysshewenttoherroomassoonaslessonswereover,andsentwordthatshewouldn’tbedownfortea。"
"Ah,"saidOwen,abruptlysettingdownhiscup。Hestoodup,litanothercigarette,andwanderedawaytothepianointheroombeyond。
Fromthetwilightwherehesatalonelymusic,borneonfantasticchords,floatedtothegroupaboutthetea—table。
UnderitsinfluenceMadamedeChantelle’smeditativepausesincreasedinlengthandfrequency,andEffiestretchedherselfonthehearth,herdrowsyheadagainstthedog。
Presentlyhernurseappeared,andAnnaroseatthesametime。"Stopaminuteinmysitting—roomonyourwayup,"
shepausedtosaytoDarrowasshewent。
Afewhoursearlier,herrequestwouldhavebroughthiminstantlytohisfeet。Shehadgivenhim,onthedayofhisarrival,aninvitingglimpseofthespaciousbook—linedroomabovestairsinwhichshehadgatheredtogetherallthetokensofherpersonaltastes:theretreatinwhich,asonemightfancy,AnnaLeathhadhiddentherestlessghostofAnnaSummers;andthethoughtofatalkwithhertherehadbeeninhismindeversince。Butnowhesatmotionless,asifspell—boundbytheplayofMadamedeChantelle’sneedlesandthepulsationsofOwen’sfitfulmusic。
"Shewillwanttoaskmeaboutthegirl,"herepeatedtohimself,withafreshsenseoftheinsidioustaintthatembitteredallhisthoughts;thehandoftheslender—
columnedclockonthemantel—piecehadspannedahalf—hourbeforeshameathisownindecisionfinallydrewhimtohisfeet。
Fromherwriting—table,whereshesatoverapileofletters,Annaliftedherhappysmile。Theimpulsetopresshislipstoitmadehimcomecloseanddrawherupward。Shethrewherheadback,asifsurprisedattheabruptnessofthegesture;thenherfaceleanedtohiswiththeslowdroopofaflower。Hefeltagainthesweepofthesecrettides,andallhisfearswentdowninthem。
Shesatdowninthesofa—cornerbythefireandhedrewanarmchairclosetoher。Hisgazeroamedpeacefullyaboutthequietroom。
"It’sjustlikeyou——itisyou,"hesaid,ashiseyescamebacktoher。
"It’sagoodplacetobealonein——Idon’tthinkI’veeverbeforecaredtotalkwithanyonehere。"
"Let’sbequiet,then:it’sthebestwayoftalking。"
"Yes;butwemustsaveituptilllater。TherearethingsI
wanttosaytoyounow。"
Heleanedbackinhischair。"Saythem,then,andI’lllisten。"
"Oh,no。IwantyoutotellmeaboutMissViner。"
"AboutMissViner?"Hesummonedupalookoffaintinterrogation。
Hethoughtsheseemedsurprisedathissurprise。"It’simportant,naturally,"sheexplained,"thatIshouldfindoutallIcanaboutherbeforeIleave。"
"ImportantonEffie’saccount?"
"OnEffie’saccount——ofcourse。"
"Ofcourse……Butyou’veeveryreasontobesatisfied,haven’tyou?"
"Everyapparentreason。Wealllikeher。Effie’sveryfondofher,andsheseemstohaveadelightfulinfluenceonthechild。Butweknowsolittle,afterall——aboutherantecedents,Imean,andherpasthistory。That’swhyI
wantyoutotryandrecalleverythingyouheardaboutherwhenyouusedtoseeherinLondon。"
"Oh,onthatscoreI’mafraidIsha’n’tbeofmuchuse。AsI
toldyou,shewasamereshadowinthebackgroundofthehouseIsawherin——andthatwasfourorfiveyearsago……"
"WhenshewaswithaMrs。Murrett?"
"Yes;anappallingwomanwhorunsaroaringdinner—factorythatusednowandthentocatchmeinitswheels。Iescapedfromthemlongago;butinmytimethereusedtobehalfadozenfagged’hands’totendthemachine,andMissVinerwasoneofthem。I’mgladshe’soutofit,poorgirl!"
"Thenyouneverreallysawanythingofherthere?"
"Ineverhadthechance。Mrs。Murrettdiscouragedanycompetitiononthepartofhersubordinates。"
"Especiallysuchprettyones,Isuppose?"Darrowmadenocomment,andshecontinued:"AndMrs。Murrett’sownopinion——ifshe’dofferedyouone——probablywouldn’thavebeenofmuchvalue?"
"Onlyinsofarasherdisapprovalwould,ongeneralprinciples,havebeenagoodmarkforMissViner。Butsurely,"hewentonafterapause,"youcouldhavefoundoutaboutherfromthepeoplethroughwhomyoufirstheardofher?"
Annasmiled。"Oh,weheardofherthroughAdelaidePainter——;"andinreplytohisglanceofinterrogationsheexplainedthattheladyinquestionwasaspinsterofSouthBraintree,Massachusetts,who,havingcometoParissomethirtyyearsearlier,tonurseabrotherthroughanillness,hadeversinceprotestinglyandprovisionallycampedthereinastateofcontemptuousprotestationoddlymanifestedbyhernevertakingtheslip—coversoffherdrawing—roomchairs。HerlongresidenceonGallicsoilhadnotmitigatedherhostilitytowardthecreedandcustomsoftherace,butthoughshealwaysreferredtotheCatholicChurchastheScarletWomanandtookthedarkestviewsofFrenchprivatelife,MadamedeChantelleplacedgreatrelianceonherjudgmentandexperience,andineverydomesticcrisistheirreducibleAdelaidewasimmediatelysummonedtoGivre。
"It’salltheodderbecausemymother—in—law,sincehersecondmarriage,haslivedsomuchinthecountrythatshe’spracticallylostsightofallherotherAmericanfriends。
Besideswhich,youcanseehowcompletelyshehasidentifiedherselfwithMonsieurdeChantelle’snationalityandadoptedFrenchhabitsandprejudices。YetwhenanythinggoeswrongshealwayssendsforAdelaidePainter,who’smoreAmericanthantheStarsandStripes,andmighthaveleftSouthBraintreeyesterday,ifshehadn’t,rather,broughtitoverwithherinhertrunk。"
Darrowlaughed。"Well,then,ifSouthBraintreevouchesforMissViner————"
"Oh,butonlyindirectly。WhenwehadthatodiousadventurewithMademoiselleGrumeau,who’dbeensohighlyrecommendedbyMonsieurdeChantelle’saunt,theChanoinesse,Adelaidewasofcoursesentfor,andshesaidatonce:’I’mnottheleastbitsurprised。I’vealwaystoldyouthatwhatyouwantedforEffiewasasweetAmericangirl,andnotoneofthesenastyforeigners。’Unluckilyshecouldn’t,atthemoment,putherhandonasweetAmerican;butshepresentlyheardofMissVinerthroughtheFarlows,anexcellentcouplewholiveintheQuartierLatinandwriteaboutFrenchlifefortheAmericanpapers。Iwasonlytoothankfultofindanyonewhowasvouchedforbydecentpeople;andsofarI’vehadnocausetoregretmychoice。ButIknow,afterall,verylittleaboutMissViner;andthereareallkindsofreasonswhyIwant,assoonaspossible,tofindoutmore——
tofindoutallIcan。"
"Sinceyou’vegottoleaveEffieIunderstandyourfeelinginthatway。Butisthere,insuchacase,anyrecommendationworthhalfasmuchasyourowndirectexperience?"
"No;andit’sbeensofavourablethatIwasreadytoacceptitasconclusive。Only,naturally,whenIfoundyou’dknownherinLondonIwasinhopesyou’dgivemesomemorespecificreasonsforlikingherasmuchasIdo。"
"I’mafraidIcangiveyounothingmorespecificthanmygeneralvagueimpressionthatsheseemsverypluckyandextremelynice。"
"Youdon’t,atanyrate,knowanythingspecifictothecontrary?"
"Tothecontrary?HowshouldI?I’mnotconsciousofeverhavingheardanyonesaytwowordsabouther。IonlyinferthatshemusthavepluckandcharactertohavestuckitoutsolongatMrs。Murrett’s。"
"Yes,poorthing!Shehaspluck,certainly;andpride,too;
whichmusthavemadeitalltheharder。"Annarosetoherfeet。"Youdon’tknowhowgladIamthatyourimpression’sonthewholesogood。Iparticularlywantedyoutolikeher。"
Hedrewhertohimwithasmile。"OnthatconditionI’mpreparedtoloveevenAdelaidePainter。"
"Ialmosthopeyouwonthavethechanceto——poorAdelaide!
Herappearanceherealwayscoincideswithacatastrophe。"
"Oh,thenImustmanagetomeetherelsewhere。"HeheldAnnacloser,sayingtohimself,ashesmoothedbackthehairfromherforehead:"WhatdoesanythingmatterbutjustTHIS?
——MustIgonow?"headdedaloud。
Sheansweredabsently:"Itmustbetimetodress";thenshedrewbackalittleandlaidherhandsonhisshoulders。"Mylove——oh,mydearlove!"shesaid。
Itcametohimthattheywerethefirstwordsofendearmenthehadheardherspeak,andtheirrarenessgavethemamagicqualityofreassurance,asthoughnodangercouldstrikethroughsuchashield。
Aknockonthedoormadethemdrawapart。AnnaliftedherhandtoherhairandDarrowstoopedtoexamineaphotographofEffieonthewriting—table。
"Comein!"Annasaid。
ThedooropenedandSophyVinerentered。SeeingDarrow,shedrewback。
"Docomein,MissViner,"Annarepeated,lookingatherkindly。
Thegirl,aquickredinhercheeks,stillhesitatedonthethreshold。
"I’msosorry;butEffiehasmislaidherLatingrammar,andIthoughtshemighthaveleftithere。Ineedittopreparefortomorrow’slesson。"
"Isthisit?"Darrowasked,pickingupabookfromthetable。
"Oh,thankyou!"
Hehelditouttoherandshetookitandmovedtothedoor。
"Waitaminute,please,MissViner,"Annasaid;andasthegirlturnedback,shewentonwithherquietsmile:"Effietoldusyou’dgonetoyourroomwithaheadache。Youmustn’tsitupovertomorrow’slessonsifyoudon’tfeelwell。"
Sophy’sblushdeepened。"ButyouseeIhaveto。Latin’soneofmyweakpoints,andthere’sgenerallyonlyonepageofthisbookbetweenmeandEffie。"Shethrewthewordsoffwithahalf—ironicsmile。"Doexcusemydisturbingyou,"
sheadded。
"Youdidn’tdisturbme,"Annaanswered。Darrowperceivedthatshewaslookingintentlyatthegirl,asthoughstruckbysomethingtenseandtremulousinherface,hervoice,herwholemienandattitude。"YouDOlooktired。You’dmuchbettergostraighttobed。Effiewon’tbesorrytoskipherLatin。"
"Thankyou——butI’mreallyallright,"murmuredSophyViner。
Herglance,makingaswiftcircuitoftheroom,dweltforanappreciableinstantontheintimatepropinquityofarm—chairandsofa—corner;thensheturnedbacktothedoor。
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AtdinnerthateveningMadamedeChantelle’sslendermonologuewasthrownoutovergulfsofsilence。OwenwasstillinthesamestateofmoodyabstractionaswhenDarrowhadlefthimatthepiano;andevenAnna’sface,toherfriend’svigilanteye,revealednot,perhaps,apersonalpreoccupation,butavaguesenseofimpendingdisturbance。
Shesmiled,sheboreapartinthetalk,hereyesdweltonDarrow’swiththeirusualdeepreliance;butbeneaththesurfaceofherserenityhistenseperceptionsdetectedahiddenstir。
Hewassufficientlyself—possessedtotellhimselfthatitwasdoubtlessduetocauseswithwhichhewasnotdirectlyconcerned。HeknewthequestionofOwen’smarriagewassoontoberaised,andtheabruptalterationintheyoungman’smoodmadeitseemprobablethathewashimselfthecentreoftheatmosphericdisturbance,ForamomentitoccurredtoDarrowthatAnnamighthaveemployedherafternooninpreparingMadamedeChantelleforhergrandson’simpendingannouncement;butaglanceattheelderlady’suncloudedbrowshowedthathemustseekelsewherethecluetoOwen’staciturnityandhisstep—mother’sconcern。PossiblyAnnahadfoundreasontochangeherownattitudeinthematter,andhadmadethechangeknowntoOwen。Butthis,again,wasnegativedbythefactthat,duringtheafternoon’sshooting,youngLeathhadbeeninamoodofalmostextravagantexpansiveness,andthat,fromthemomentofhislatereturntothehousetilljustbeforedinner,therehadbeen,toDarrow’scertainknowledge,nopossibilityofaprivatetalkbetweenhimselfandhisstep—mother。
Thisobscured,ifitnarrowed,thefieldofconjecture;andDarrow’sgropingsthrewhimbackontheconclusionthathewasprobablyreadingtoomuchsignificanceintothemoodsofaladhehardlyknew,andwhohadbeendescribedtohimassubjecttosuddenchangesofhumour。AstoAnna’sfanciedperturbation,itmightsimplybeduetothefactthatshehaddecidedtopleadOwen’scausethenextday,andhadperhapsalreadyhadaglimpseofthedifficultiesawaitingher。ButDarrowknewthathewastoodeepinhisownperplexitiestojudgethementalstateofthoseabouthim。
Itmightbe,afterall,thatthevariationshefeltinthecurrentsofcommunicationwerecausedbyhisowninwardtremor。
Such,atanyrate,wastheconclusionhehadreachedwhen,shortlyafterthetwoladiesleftthedrawing—room,hebadeOwengood—nightandwentuptohisroom。Eversincetherapidself—colloquywhichhadfollowedonhisfirstsightofSophyViner,hehadknowntherewereotherquestionstobefacedbehindtheoneimmediatelyconfrontinghim。Onthescoreofthatone,atleast,hismind,ifnoteasy,wasrelieved。Hehaddonewhatwaspossibletoreassurethegirl,andshehadapparentlyrecognizedthesincerityofhisintention。Hehadpatchedupasdecentaconclusionashecouldtoanincidentthatshouldobviouslyhavehadnosequel;buthehadknownallalongthatwiththesecuringofMissViner’speaceofmindonlyapartofhisobligationwasdischarged,andthatwiththatparthisremainingdutywasinconflict。Ithadbeenhisfirstbusinesstoconvincethegirlthattheirsecretwassafewithhim;butitwasfarfromeasytosquarethiswiththeequallyurgentobligationofsafe—guardingAnna’sresponsibilitytowardherchild。
Darrowwasnotmuchafraidofaccidentaldisclosures。BothheandSophyVinerhadtoomuchatstakenottobeontheirguard。Thefearthatbesethimwasofanotherkind,andhadaprofoundersource。Hewantedtodoallhecouldforthegirl,butthefactofhavinghadtourgeAnnatoconfideEffietoherwaspeculiarlyrepugnanttohim。HisownideasaboutSophyVinerweretoomixedandindeterminateforhimnottofeeltheriskofsuchanexperiment;yethefoundhimselfintheintolerablepositionofappearingtopressitonthewomanhedesiredaboveallotherstoprotect……
Tilllateinthenighthisthoughtsrevolvedinaturmoilofindecision。HispridewashumbledbythediscrepancybetweenwhatSophyVinerhadbeentohimandwhathehadthoughtofher。Thisdiscrepancy,whichatthetimehadseemedtosimplifytheincident,nowturnedouttobeitsmostgallingcomplication。Thebaretruth,indeed,wasthathehadhardlythoughtofheratall,eitheratthetimeorsince,andthathewasashamedtobasehisjudgementofheronhismeagrememoryoftheiradventure。
Theessentialcheapnessofthewholeaffair——asfarashisshareinitwasconcerned——camehometohimwithhumiliatingdistinctness。Hewouldhavelikedtobeabletofeelthat,atthetimeatleast,hehadstakedsomethingmoreonit,andhadsomehow,inthesequel,hadamorepalpablelosstoshow。Buttheplainfactwasthathehadn’tspentapennyonit;whichwasnodoubtthereasonoftheprodigiousscoreithadsincebeenrollingup。Atanyrate,beataboutthecaseashewould,itwasclearthatheowedittoAnna——andincidentallytohisownpeaceofmind——tofindsomewayofsecuringSophyViner’sfuturewithoutleavingherinstalledatGivrewhenheandhiswifeshoulddepartfortheirnewpost。
Thenightbroughtnoaidtothesolvingofthisproblem;butitgavehim,atanyrate,theclearconvictionthatnotimewastobelost。HisfirststepmustbetoobtainfromMissVinerthechanceofanotherandcalmertalk;andheresolvedtoseekitattheearliesthour。
HehadgatheredthatEffie’slessonswereprecededbyanearlyscamperinthepark,andconjecturingthathergovernessmightbewithherhebetookhimselfthenextmorningtotheterrace,whencehewanderedontothegardensandthewalksbeyond。
Theatmospherewasstillandpale。Themuffledsunlightgleamedlikegoldtissuethroughgreygauze,andthebeechalleystaperedawaytoabluehazeblentofskyandforest。
Itwasoneofthoseelusivedayswhenthefamiliarformsofthingsseemabouttodissolveinaprismaticshimmer。
Thestillnesswaspresentlybrokenbyjoyfulbarks,andDarrow,trackingthesound,overtookEffieflyingdownoneofthelongalleysattheheadofherpack。BeyondherhesawMissVinerseatednearthestone—rimmedbasinbesidewhichheandAnnahadpausedontheirfirstwalktotheriver。
Thegirl,comingforwardathisapproach,returnedhisgreetingalmostgaily。Hisfirstglanceshowedhimthatshehadregainedhercomposure,andthechangeinherappearancegavehimthemeasureofherfears。ForthefirsttimehesawinheragainthesidelonggracethathadcharmedhiseyesinParis;buthesawitnowasinapaintedpicture。
"Shallwesitdownaminute?"heasked,asEffietrottedoff。
Thegirllookedawayfromhim。"I’mafraidthere’snotmuchtime;wemustbebackatlessonsathalf—pastnine。"
"Butit’sbarelytenminutespast。Let’satleastwalkalittlewaytowardtheriver。"
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