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第10章

  "Poorthing……poorthing!"hecouldonlygoonsaying;andwiththerepetitionofthewordsthepictureofhimselfasshemustseehimpitiablytookshapeagain。
  Heunderstoodthen,forthefirsttime,howvague,incomparisonwithhers,hadbeenhisownvisionoftheparthehadplayedinthebriefepisodeoftheirrelation。Theincidenthadleftinhimasenseofexasperationandself—
  contempt,butthat,ashenowperceived,waschiefly,ifnotaltogether,asitboreonhispreconceivedidealofhisattitudetowardanotherwoman。Hehadfallenbelowhisownstandardofsentimentalloyalty,andifhethoughtofSophyVineritwasmainlyasthechanceinstrumentofhislapse。
  Theseconsiderationswerenotagreeabletohispride,buttheywereforcedonhimbytheexampleofhervaliantcommon—sense。Ifhehadcutasorryfigureinthebusiness,heowedittohernottoclosehiseyestothefactanylonger……
  Butwhenheopenedthem,whatdidhesee?Thesituation,detestableatbest,wouldyethavebeenrelativelysimpleifprotectingSophyVinerhadbeentheonlydutyinvolvedinit。Thefactthatthatdutywasparamountdidnotdoawaywiththecontingentobligations。ItwasDarrow’sinstinct,indifficultmoments,togostraighttothebottomofthedifficulty;buthehadneverbeforehadtotakesodarkadiveasthis,andfortheminuteheshiveredonthebrink……Well,hisfirstduty,atanyrate,wastothegirl:
  hemustletherseethathemeanttofulfillittothelastjot,andthentrytofindouthowtosquarethefulfillmentwiththeotherproblemsalreadyinhispath……
  XVI
  IntheoakroomhefoundMrs。Leath,hermother—in—lawandEffie。Thegroup,ashecametowarditdownthelongdrawing—rooms,composeditselfprettilyaboutthetea—table。
  Thelampsandthefirecrossedtheirgleamsonsilverandporcelain,onthebrighthazeofEffie’shairandonthewhitenessofAnna’sforehead,assheleanedbackinherchairbehindthetea—urn。
  ShedidnotmoveatDarrow’sapproach,butliftedtohimadeepgazeofpeaceandconfidence。Thelookseemedtothrowabouthimthespellofadivinesecurity:hefeltthejoyofaconvalescentsuddenlywakingtofindthesunlightonhisface。
  MadamedeChantelle,acrossherknitting,discoursedoftheirafternoon’sexcursion,withoccasionalpausesinducedbythehypnoticeffectofthefreshair;andEffie,kneeling,onthehearth,softlybutinsistentlysoughttoimplantinherterrier’smindsomenotionoftherelationbetweenaverticalattitudeandsugar。
  Darrowtookachairbehindthelittlegirl,sothathemightlookacrossathermother。Itwasalmostanecessityforhim,atthemoment,tolethiseyesrestonAnna’sface,andtomeet,nowandthen,theproudshynessofhergaze。
  MadamedeChantellepresentlyenquiredwhathadbecomeofOwen,andamomentlaterthewindowbehindheropened,andhergrandson,guninhand,cameinfromtheterrace。Ashestoodthereinthelamp—light,withdeadleavesandbitsofbrambleclingingtohismud—spatteredclothes,thescentofthenightabouthimanditschillonhispalebrightface,hereallyhadthelookofayoungfaunstrayedinfromtheforest。
  Effieabandonedtheterriertoflytohim。"Oh,Owen,whereintheworldhaveyoubeen?IwalkedmilesandmileswithNurseandcouldn’tfindyou,andwemetJeanandhesaidhedidn’tknowwhereyou’dgone。"
  "NobodyknowswhereIgo,orwhatIseewhenIgetthere——
  that’sthebeautyofit!"helaughedbackather。"Butifyou’regood,"headded,"I’lltellyouaboutitoneofthesedays。"
  "Oh,now,Owen,now!Idon’treallybelieveI’lleverbemuchbetterthanIamnow。"
  "LetOwenhavehisteafirst,"hermothersuggested;buttheyoungman,decliningtheoffer,proppedhisgunagainstthewall,and,lightingacigarette,begantopaceupanddowntheroominawaythatremindedDarrowofhisowncagedwanderings。Effiepursuedhimwithherblandishments,andforawhilehepouredouttoheralow—voicedstreamofnonsense;thenhesatdownbesidehisstep—motherandleanedovertohelphimselftotea。
  "Where’sMissViner?"heasked,asEffieclimbeduponhim。
  "Whyisn’tsheheretochainupthisungovernableinfant?"
  "PoorMissVinerhasaheadache。Effiesaysshewenttoherroomassoonaslessonswereover,andsentwordthatshewouldn’tbedownfortea。"
  "Ah,"saidOwen,abruptlysettingdownhiscup。Hestoodup,litanothercigarette,andwanderedawaytothepianointheroombeyond。
  Fromthetwilightwherehesatalonelymusic,borneonfantasticchords,floatedtothegroupaboutthetea—table。
  UnderitsinfluenceMadamedeChantelle’smeditativepausesincreasedinlengthandfrequency,andEffiestretchedherselfonthehearth,herdrowsyheadagainstthedog。
  Presentlyhernurseappeared,andAnnaroseatthesametime。"Stopaminuteinmysitting—roomonyourwayup,"
  shepausedtosaytoDarrowasshewent。
  Afewhoursearlier,herrequestwouldhavebroughthiminstantlytohisfeet。Shehadgivenhim,onthedayofhisarrival,aninvitingglimpseofthespaciousbook—linedroomabovestairsinwhichshehadgatheredtogetherallthetokensofherpersonaltastes:theretreatinwhich,asonemightfancy,AnnaLeathhadhiddentherestlessghostofAnnaSummers;andthethoughtofatalkwithhertherehadbeeninhismindeversince。Butnowhesatmotionless,asifspell—boundbytheplayofMadamedeChantelle’sneedlesandthepulsationsofOwen’sfitfulmusic。
  "Shewillwanttoaskmeaboutthegirl,"herepeatedtohimself,withafreshsenseoftheinsidioustaintthatembitteredallhisthoughts;thehandoftheslender—
  columnedclockonthemantel—piecehadspannedahalf—hourbeforeshameathisownindecisionfinallydrewhimtohisfeet。
  Fromherwriting—table,whereshesatoverapileofletters,Annaliftedherhappysmile。Theimpulsetopresshislipstoitmadehimcomecloseanddrawherupward。Shethrewherheadback,asifsurprisedattheabruptnessofthegesture;thenherfaceleanedtohiswiththeslowdroopofaflower。Hefeltagainthesweepofthesecrettides,andallhisfearswentdowninthem。
  Shesatdowninthesofa—cornerbythefireandhedrewanarmchairclosetoher。Hisgazeroamedpeacefullyaboutthequietroom。
  "It’sjustlikeyou——itisyou,"hesaid,ashiseyescamebacktoher。
  "It’sagoodplacetobealonein——Idon’tthinkI’veeverbeforecaredtotalkwithanyonehere。"
  "Let’sbequiet,then:it’sthebestwayoftalking。"
  "Yes;butwemustsaveituptilllater。TherearethingsI
  wanttosaytoyounow。"
  Heleanedbackinhischair。"Saythem,then,andI’lllisten。"
  "Oh,no。IwantyoutotellmeaboutMissViner。"
  "AboutMissViner?"Hesummonedupalookoffaintinterrogation。
  Hethoughtsheseemedsurprisedathissurprise。"It’simportant,naturally,"sheexplained,"thatIshouldfindoutallIcanaboutherbeforeIleave。"
  "ImportantonEffie’saccount?"
  "OnEffie’saccount——ofcourse。"
  "Ofcourse……Butyou’veeveryreasontobesatisfied,haven’tyou?"
  "Everyapparentreason。Wealllikeher。Effie’sveryfondofher,andsheseemstohaveadelightfulinfluenceonthechild。Butweknowsolittle,afterall——aboutherantecedents,Imean,andherpasthistory。That’swhyI
  wantyoutotryandrecalleverythingyouheardaboutherwhenyouusedtoseeherinLondon。"
  "Oh,onthatscoreI’mafraidIsha’n’tbeofmuchuse。AsI
  toldyou,shewasamereshadowinthebackgroundofthehouseIsawherin——andthatwasfourorfiveyearsago……"
  "WhenshewaswithaMrs。Murrett?"
  "Yes;anappallingwomanwhorunsaroaringdinner—factorythatusednowandthentocatchmeinitswheels。Iescapedfromthemlongago;butinmytimethereusedtobehalfadozenfagged’hands’totendthemachine,andMissVinerwasoneofthem。I’mgladshe’soutofit,poorgirl!"
  "Thenyouneverreallysawanythingofherthere?"
  "Ineverhadthechance。Mrs。Murrettdiscouragedanycompetitiononthepartofhersubordinates。"
  "Especiallysuchprettyones,Isuppose?"Darrowmadenocomment,andshecontinued:"AndMrs。Murrett’sownopinion——ifshe’dofferedyouone——probablywouldn’thavebeenofmuchvalue?"
  "Onlyinsofarasherdisapprovalwould,ongeneralprinciples,havebeenagoodmarkforMissViner。Butsurely,"hewentonafterapause,"youcouldhavefoundoutaboutherfromthepeoplethroughwhomyoufirstheardofher?"
  Annasmiled。"Oh,weheardofherthroughAdelaidePainter——;"andinreplytohisglanceofinterrogationsheexplainedthattheladyinquestionwasaspinsterofSouthBraintree,Massachusetts,who,havingcometoParissomethirtyyearsearlier,tonurseabrotherthroughanillness,hadeversinceprotestinglyandprovisionallycampedthereinastateofcontemptuousprotestationoddlymanifestedbyhernevertakingtheslip—coversoffherdrawing—roomchairs。HerlongresidenceonGallicsoilhadnotmitigatedherhostilitytowardthecreedandcustomsoftherace,butthoughshealwaysreferredtotheCatholicChurchastheScarletWomanandtookthedarkestviewsofFrenchprivatelife,MadamedeChantelleplacedgreatrelianceonherjudgmentandexperience,andineverydomesticcrisistheirreducibleAdelaidewasimmediatelysummonedtoGivre。
  "It’salltheodderbecausemymother—in—law,sincehersecondmarriage,haslivedsomuchinthecountrythatshe’spracticallylostsightofallherotherAmericanfriends。
  Besideswhich,youcanseehowcompletelyshehasidentifiedherselfwithMonsieurdeChantelle’snationalityandadoptedFrenchhabitsandprejudices。YetwhenanythinggoeswrongshealwayssendsforAdelaidePainter,who’smoreAmericanthantheStarsandStripes,andmighthaveleftSouthBraintreeyesterday,ifshehadn’t,rather,broughtitoverwithherinhertrunk。"
  Darrowlaughed。"Well,then,ifSouthBraintreevouchesforMissViner————"
  "Oh,butonlyindirectly。WhenwehadthatodiousadventurewithMademoiselleGrumeau,who’dbeensohighlyrecommendedbyMonsieurdeChantelle’saunt,theChanoinesse,Adelaidewasofcoursesentfor,andshesaidatonce:’I’mnottheleastbitsurprised。I’vealwaystoldyouthatwhatyouwantedforEffiewasasweetAmericangirl,andnotoneofthesenastyforeigners。’Unluckilyshecouldn’t,atthemoment,putherhandonasweetAmerican;butshepresentlyheardofMissVinerthroughtheFarlows,anexcellentcouplewholiveintheQuartierLatinandwriteaboutFrenchlifefortheAmericanpapers。Iwasonlytoothankfultofindanyonewhowasvouchedforbydecentpeople;andsofarI’vehadnocausetoregretmychoice。ButIknow,afterall,verylittleaboutMissViner;andthereareallkindsofreasonswhyIwant,assoonaspossible,tofindoutmore——
  tofindoutallIcan。"
  "Sinceyou’vegottoleaveEffieIunderstandyourfeelinginthatway。Butisthere,insuchacase,anyrecommendationworthhalfasmuchasyourowndirectexperience?"
  "No;andit’sbeensofavourablethatIwasreadytoacceptitasconclusive。Only,naturally,whenIfoundyou’dknownherinLondonIwasinhopesyou’dgivemesomemorespecificreasonsforlikingherasmuchasIdo。"
  "I’mafraidIcangiveyounothingmorespecificthanmygeneralvagueimpressionthatsheseemsverypluckyandextremelynice。"
  "Youdon’t,atanyrate,knowanythingspecifictothecontrary?"
  "Tothecontrary?HowshouldI?I’mnotconsciousofeverhavingheardanyonesaytwowordsabouther。IonlyinferthatshemusthavepluckandcharactertohavestuckitoutsolongatMrs。Murrett’s。"
  "Yes,poorthing!Shehaspluck,certainly;andpride,too;
  whichmusthavemadeitalltheharder。"Annarosetoherfeet。"Youdon’tknowhowgladIamthatyourimpression’sonthewholesogood。Iparticularlywantedyoutolikeher。"
  Hedrewhertohimwithasmile。"OnthatconditionI’mpreparedtoloveevenAdelaidePainter。"
  "Ialmosthopeyouwonthavethechanceto——poorAdelaide!
  Herappearanceherealwayscoincideswithacatastrophe。"
  "Oh,thenImustmanagetomeetherelsewhere。"HeheldAnnacloser,sayingtohimself,ashesmoothedbackthehairfromherforehead:"WhatdoesanythingmatterbutjustTHIS?
  ——MustIgonow?"headdedaloud。
  Sheansweredabsently:"Itmustbetimetodress";thenshedrewbackalittleandlaidherhandsonhisshoulders。"Mylove——oh,mydearlove!"shesaid。
  Itcametohimthattheywerethefirstwordsofendearmenthehadheardherspeak,andtheirrarenessgavethemamagicqualityofreassurance,asthoughnodangercouldstrikethroughsuchashield。
  Aknockonthedoormadethemdrawapart。AnnaliftedherhandtoherhairandDarrowstoopedtoexamineaphotographofEffieonthewriting—table。
  "Comein!"Annasaid。
  ThedooropenedandSophyVinerentered。SeeingDarrow,shedrewback。
  "Docomein,MissViner,"Annarepeated,lookingatherkindly。
  Thegirl,aquickredinhercheeks,stillhesitatedonthethreshold。
  "I’msosorry;butEffiehasmislaidherLatingrammar,andIthoughtshemighthaveleftithere。Ineedittopreparefortomorrow’slesson。"
  "Isthisit?"Darrowasked,pickingupabookfromthetable。
  "Oh,thankyou!"
  Hehelditouttoherandshetookitandmovedtothedoor。
  "Waitaminute,please,MissViner,"Annasaid;andasthegirlturnedback,shewentonwithherquietsmile:"Effietoldusyou’dgonetoyourroomwithaheadache。Youmustn’tsitupovertomorrow’slessonsifyoudon’tfeelwell。"
  Sophy’sblushdeepened。"ButyouseeIhaveto。Latin’soneofmyweakpoints,andthere’sgenerallyonlyonepageofthisbookbetweenmeandEffie。"Shethrewthewordsoffwithahalf—ironicsmile。"Doexcusemydisturbingyou,"
  sheadded。
  "Youdidn’tdisturbme,"Annaanswered。Darrowperceivedthatshewaslookingintentlyatthegirl,asthoughstruckbysomethingtenseandtremulousinherface,hervoice,herwholemienandattitude。"YouDOlooktired。You’dmuchbettergostraighttobed。Effiewon’tbesorrytoskipherLatin。"
  "Thankyou——butI’mreallyallright,"murmuredSophyViner。
  Herglance,makingaswiftcircuitoftheroom,dweltforanappreciableinstantontheintimatepropinquityofarm—chairandsofa—corner;thensheturnedbacktothedoor。
  BOOKIII
  XVII
  AtdinnerthateveningMadamedeChantelle’sslendermonologuewasthrownoutovergulfsofsilence。OwenwasstillinthesamestateofmoodyabstractionaswhenDarrowhadlefthimatthepiano;andevenAnna’sface,toherfriend’svigilanteye,revealednot,perhaps,apersonalpreoccupation,butavaguesenseofimpendingdisturbance。
  Shesmiled,sheboreapartinthetalk,hereyesdweltonDarrow’swiththeirusualdeepreliance;butbeneaththesurfaceofherserenityhistenseperceptionsdetectedahiddenstir。
  Hewassufficientlyself—possessedtotellhimselfthatitwasdoubtlessduetocauseswithwhichhewasnotdirectlyconcerned。HeknewthequestionofOwen’smarriagewassoontoberaised,andtheabruptalterationintheyoungman’smoodmadeitseemprobablethathewashimselfthecentreoftheatmosphericdisturbance,ForamomentitoccurredtoDarrowthatAnnamighthaveemployedherafternooninpreparingMadamedeChantelleforhergrandson’simpendingannouncement;butaglanceattheelderlady’suncloudedbrowshowedthathemustseekelsewherethecluetoOwen’staciturnityandhisstep—mother’sconcern。PossiblyAnnahadfoundreasontochangeherownattitudeinthematter,andhadmadethechangeknowntoOwen。Butthis,again,wasnegativedbythefactthat,duringtheafternoon’sshooting,youngLeathhadbeeninamoodofalmostextravagantexpansiveness,andthat,fromthemomentofhislatereturntothehousetilljustbeforedinner,therehadbeen,toDarrow’scertainknowledge,nopossibilityofaprivatetalkbetweenhimselfandhisstep—mother。
  Thisobscured,ifitnarrowed,thefieldofconjecture;andDarrow’sgropingsthrewhimbackontheconclusionthathewasprobablyreadingtoomuchsignificanceintothemoodsofaladhehardlyknew,andwhohadbeendescribedtohimassubjecttosuddenchangesofhumour。AstoAnna’sfanciedperturbation,itmightsimplybeduetothefactthatshehaddecidedtopleadOwen’scausethenextday,andhadperhapsalreadyhadaglimpseofthedifficultiesawaitingher。ButDarrowknewthathewastoodeepinhisownperplexitiestojudgethementalstateofthoseabouthim。
  Itmightbe,afterall,thatthevariationshefeltinthecurrentsofcommunicationwerecausedbyhisowninwardtremor。
  Such,atanyrate,wastheconclusionhehadreachedwhen,shortlyafterthetwoladiesleftthedrawing—room,hebadeOwengood—nightandwentuptohisroom。Eversincetherapidself—colloquywhichhadfollowedonhisfirstsightofSophyViner,hehadknowntherewereotherquestionstobefacedbehindtheoneimmediatelyconfrontinghim。Onthescoreofthatone,atleast,hismind,ifnoteasy,wasrelieved。Hehaddonewhatwaspossibletoreassurethegirl,andshehadapparentlyrecognizedthesincerityofhisintention。Hehadpatchedupasdecentaconclusionashecouldtoanincidentthatshouldobviouslyhavehadnosequel;buthehadknownallalongthatwiththesecuringofMissViner’speaceofmindonlyapartofhisobligationwasdischarged,andthatwiththatparthisremainingdutywasinconflict。Ithadbeenhisfirstbusinesstoconvincethegirlthattheirsecretwassafewithhim;butitwasfarfromeasytosquarethiswiththeequallyurgentobligationofsafe—guardingAnna’sresponsibilitytowardherchild。
  Darrowwasnotmuchafraidofaccidentaldisclosures。BothheandSophyVinerhadtoomuchatstakenottobeontheirguard。Thefearthatbesethimwasofanotherkind,andhadaprofoundersource。Hewantedtodoallhecouldforthegirl,butthefactofhavinghadtourgeAnnatoconfideEffietoherwaspeculiarlyrepugnanttohim。HisownideasaboutSophyVinerweretoomixedandindeterminateforhimnottofeeltheriskofsuchanexperiment;yethefoundhimselfintheintolerablepositionofappearingtopressitonthewomanhedesiredaboveallotherstoprotect……
  Tilllateinthenighthisthoughtsrevolvedinaturmoilofindecision。HispridewashumbledbythediscrepancybetweenwhatSophyVinerhadbeentohimandwhathehadthoughtofher。Thisdiscrepancy,whichatthetimehadseemedtosimplifytheincident,nowturnedouttobeitsmostgallingcomplication。Thebaretruth,indeed,wasthathehadhardlythoughtofheratall,eitheratthetimeorsince,andthathewasashamedtobasehisjudgementofheronhismeagrememoryoftheiradventure。
  Theessentialcheapnessofthewholeaffair——asfarashisshareinitwasconcerned——camehometohimwithhumiliatingdistinctness。Hewouldhavelikedtobeabletofeelthat,atthetimeatleast,hehadstakedsomethingmoreonit,andhadsomehow,inthesequel,hadamorepalpablelosstoshow。Buttheplainfactwasthathehadn’tspentapennyonit;whichwasnodoubtthereasonoftheprodigiousscoreithadsincebeenrollingup。Atanyrate,beataboutthecaseashewould,itwasclearthatheowedittoAnna——andincidentallytohisownpeaceofmind——tofindsomewayofsecuringSophyViner’sfuturewithoutleavingherinstalledatGivrewhenheandhiswifeshoulddepartfortheirnewpost。
  Thenightbroughtnoaidtothesolvingofthisproblem;butitgavehim,atanyrate,theclearconvictionthatnotimewastobelost。HisfirststepmustbetoobtainfromMissVinerthechanceofanotherandcalmertalk;andheresolvedtoseekitattheearliesthour。
  HehadgatheredthatEffie’slessonswereprecededbyanearlyscamperinthepark,andconjecturingthathergovernessmightbewithherhebetookhimselfthenextmorningtotheterrace,whencehewanderedontothegardensandthewalksbeyond。
  Theatmospherewasstillandpale。Themuffledsunlightgleamedlikegoldtissuethroughgreygauze,andthebeechalleystaperedawaytoabluehazeblentofskyandforest。
  Itwasoneofthoseelusivedayswhenthefamiliarformsofthingsseemabouttodissolveinaprismaticshimmer。
  Thestillnesswaspresentlybrokenbyjoyfulbarks,andDarrow,trackingthesound,overtookEffieflyingdownoneofthelongalleysattheheadofherpack。BeyondherhesawMissVinerseatednearthestone—rimmedbasinbesidewhichheandAnnahadpausedontheirfirstwalktotheriver。
  Thegirl,comingforwardathisapproach,returnedhisgreetingalmostgaily。Hisfirstglanceshowedhimthatshehadregainedhercomposure,andthechangeinherappearancegavehimthemeasureofherfears。ForthefirsttimehesawinheragainthesidelonggracethathadcharmedhiseyesinParis;buthesawitnowasinapaintedpicture。
  "Shallwesitdownaminute?"heasked,asEffietrottedoff。
  Thegirllookedawayfromhim。"I’mafraidthere’snotmuchtime;wemustbebackatlessonsathalf—pastnine。"
  "Butit’sbarelytenminutespast。Let’satleastwalkalittlewaytowardtheriver。"