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第9章

  Darrowhadalreadyguessedhertobeapersonwhowouldinstinctivelyopposeanysuggestedchanges,andthen,afteronehadexhaustedone’smainarguments,unexpectedlyyieldtosomesmallincidentalreason,andadheredoggedlytohernewposition。Sheboastedofherold—fashionedprejudices,talkedagooddealofbeingagrandmother,andmadeashowofreachinguptotapOwen’sshoulder,thoughhisheightwaslittlemorethanhers。
  ShewasfullofasmallpaleprattleaboutthepeopleshehadseenatOuchy,astowhomshehadtheminutestatisticalinformationofagazetteer,withoutanyapparentsenseofpersonaldifferences。ShesaidtoDarrow:"TheytellmethingsareverymuchchangedinAmerica……OfcourseinmyyouththereWASaSociety"……Shehadnodesiretoreturnthereshewassurethestandardsmustbesodifferent。
  "Therearecharmingpeopleeverywhere……andonemustalwayslookonthebestside……butwhenonehaslivedamongTraditionsit’sdifficulttoadaptone’sselftothenewideas……Thesedreadfulviewsofmarriage……it’ssohardtoexplainthemtomyFrenchrelations……I’mthankfultosayI
  don’tpretendtounderstandthemmyself!ButYOU’REanEverard——ItoldAnnalastspringinLondonthatoneseesthatinstantly"……
  ShewanderedofftothecookingandtheserviceofthehotelatOuchy。Sheattachedgreatimportancetogastronomicdetailsandtothemannersofhotelservants。There,too,therewasafallingoff,shesaid。"Idontknow,ofcourse;butpeoplesayit’sowingtotheAmericans。
  Certainlymywaiterhadawayofslappingdownthedishes……theytellmethatmanyofthemareAnarchists……belongtoUnions,youknow。"SheappealedtoDarrow’sreportedknowledgeofeconomicconditionstoconfirmthisominousrumour。
  AfterdinnerOwenLeathwanderedintothenextroom,wherethepianostood,andbegantoplayamongtheshadows。Hisstep—motherpresentlyjoinedhim,andDarrowsatalonewithMadamedeChantelle。
  Shetookupthethreadofhermildchatandcarrieditonatthesamepaceasherknitting。Herconversationresembledthelargeloose—strandedwebbetweenherfingers:nowandthenshedroppedastitch,andwentonregardlessofthegapinthepattern。
  Darrowlistenedwithalazysenseofwell—being。Inthementallulloftheafter—dinnerhour,withharmoniousmemoriesmurmuringthroughhismind,andthesofttintsandshadowyspacesofthefineoldroomcharminghiseyestoindolence,MadamedeChantelle’sdiscourseseemednotoutofplace。Hecouldunderstandthat,inthelongrun,theatmosphereofGivremightbesuffocating;butinhispresentmooditsverylimitationshadagrace。
  Presentlyhefoundthechancetosayawordinhisownbehalf;andthereuponmeasuredtheadvantage,neverbeforeparticularlyapparenttohim,ofbeingrelatedtotheEverardsofAlbany。MadamedeChantelle’sconceptionofhernativecountry——towhichshehadnotreturnedsincehertwentiethyear——remindedhimofanancientgeographer’smapoftheHyperboreanregions。Itwasallafoggyblank,fromwhichonlyoneortwofixedoutlinesemerged;andoneofthesebelongedtotheEverardsofAlbany。
  Thefactthattheyofferedsuchfirmfooting——formed,sotospeak,afriendlyterritoryonwhichtheopposingpowerscouldmeetandtreat——helpedhimthroughthetaskofexplainingandjustifyinghimselfasthesuccessorofFraserLeath。MadamedeChantellecouldnotresistsuchincontestableclaims。Sheseemedtofeelherson’shoveringanddiscriminatingpresence,andshegaveDarrowthesensethathewasbeingtestedandapprovedasalastadditiontotheLeathCollection。
  Shealsomadehimawareoftheimmenseadvantagehepossessedinbelongingtothediplomaticprofession。ShespokeofthishumdrumcallingasaCareer,andgaveDarrowtounderstandthatshesupposedhimtohavebeenseducingDuchesseswhenhewasnotnegotiatingTreaties。Heheardagainquaintphraseswhichromanticoldladieshadusedinhisyouth:"Brilliantdiplomaticsociety……socialadvantages……theentreeeverywhere……nothingelseFORMSayoungmaninthesameway……"andshesighinglyaddedthatshecouldhavewishedhergrandsonhadchosenthesamepathtoglory。
  Darrowprudentlysuppressedhisownviewoftheprofession,aswellasthefactthathehadadopteditprovisionally,andforreasonslesssocialthansociological;andthetalkpresentlypassedontothesubjectofhisfutureplans。
  Hereagain,MadamedeChantelle’saweoftheCareermadeheradmitthenecessityofAnna’sconsentingtoanearlymarriage。ThefactthatDarrowwas"ordered"toSouthAmericaseemedtoputhimintheromanticlightofayoungsoldierchargedtoleadaforlornhope:shesighedandsaid:
  "Atsuchmomentsawife’sdutyisatherhusband’sside。"
  TheproblemofEffie’sfuturemighthavedisturbedher,sheadded;butsinceAnna,foratime,consentedtoleavethelittlegirlwithher,thatproblemwasatanyratedeferred。
  Shespokeplaintivelyoftheresponsibilityoflookingafterhergranddaughter,butDarrowdivinedthatsheenjoyedtheflavourofthewordmorethanshefelttheweightofthefact。
  "Effie’saperfectchild。She’smorelikemyson,perhaps,thandearOwen。She’llneverintentionallygivemetheleasttrouble。Butofcoursetheresponsibilitywillbegreat……I’mnotsureIshoulddaretoundertakeitifitwerenotforherhavingsuchatreasureofagoverness。HasAnnatoldyouaboutourlittlegoverness?Afteralltheworrywehadlastyear,withoneimpossiblecreatureafteranother,itseemsprovidential,justnow,tohavefoundher。
  Atfirstwewereafraidshewastooyoung;butnowwe’vethegreatestconfidenceinher。Socleverandamusing——andSUCHalady!Idon’tsayhereducation’sallitmightbe……nodrawingorsinging……butonecan’thaveeverything;
  andshespeaksItalian……"
  MadamedeChantelle’sfondinsistenceonthelikenessbetweenEffieLeathandherfather,ifnotparticularlygratifyingtoDarrow,hadatleastincreasedhisdesiretoseethelittlegirl。ItgavehimanoddfeelingofdiscomforttothinkthatsheshouldhaveanyofthecharacteristicsofthelateFraserLeath:hehad,somehow,fantasticallypicturedherasthemysticaloffspringoftheearlytendernessbetweenhimselfandAnnaSummers。
  HisencounterwithEffietookplacethenextmorning,onthelawnbelowtheterrace,wherehefoundher,intheearlysunshine,knockingaboutgolfballswithherbrother。
  Almostatonce,andwithinfiniterelief,hesawthattheresemblanceofwhichMadamedeChantelleboastedwasmainlyexternal。Eventhatdiscoverywasslightlydistasteful,thoughDarrowwasforcedtoownthatFraserLeath’sstraight—featuredfairnesshadlentitselftotheproductionofapeculiarlyfinishedimageofchildishpurity。ButitwasevidentthatotherelementshadalsogonetothemakingofEffie,andthatanotherspiritsatinhereyes。Herserioushandshake,her"pretty"greeting,wereworthyoftheLeathtradition,andheguessedhertobemoremalleablethanOwen,moresubjecttotheinfluencesofGivre;buttheshoutwithwhichshereturnedtoherromphadinitthenoteofhermother’semancipation。
  Hehadbeggedaholidayforher,andwhenMrs。Leathappearedheandsheandthelittlegirlwentoffforaramble。AnnawishedherdaughtertohavetimetomakefriendswithDarrowbeforelearninginwhatrelationhewastostandtoher;andthethreeroamedthewoodsandfieldstillthedistantchimeofthestable—clockmadethemturnbackforluncheon。
  Effie,whowasattendedbyashaggyterrier,hadpickeduptwoorthreesubordinatedogsatthestable;andasshetrottedonaheadwithheryappingescort,AnnahungbacktothrowalookatDarrow。
  "Yes,"heansweredit,"she’sexquisite……Oh,IseewhatI’maskingofyou!Butshe’llbequitehappyhere,won’tshe?
  Andyoumustrememberitwon’tbeforlong……"
  Annasighedheracquiescence。"Oh,she’llbehappyhere。
  It’shernaturetobehappy。She’llapplyherselftoit,conscientiously,asshedoestoherlessons,andtowhatshecalls’beinggood’……Inaway,yousee,that’sjustwhatworriesme。Herideaof’beinggood’istopleasethepersonshe’swith——sheputsherwholedearlittlemindonit!Andso,ifevershe’swiththewrongperson————"
  "Butsurelythere’snodangerofthatjustnow?MadamedeChantelletellsmethatyou’veatlastputyourhandonaperfectgoverness————"
  Anna,withoutanswering,glancedawayfromhimtowardherdaughter。
  "It’slucky,atanyrate,"Darrowcontinued,"thatMadamedeChantellethinksherso。"
  "Oh,Ithinkveryhighlyofhertoo。"
  "HighlyenoughtofeelquitesatisfiedtoleaveherwithEffie?"
  "Yes。She’sjustthepersonforEffie。Only,ofcourse,oneneverknows……She’syoung,andshemighttakeitintoherheadtoleaveus……"Afterapausesheadded:"I’mnaturallyanxioustoknowwhatyouthinkofher。"
  Whentheyenteredthehousethehandsofthehallclockstoodwithinafewminutesoftheluncheonhour。AnnaledEffieofftohaveherhairsmoothedandDarrowwanderedintotheoaksitting—room,whichhefounduntenanted。Thesunlaypleasantlyonitsbrownwalls,onthescatteredbooksandtheflowersinoldporcelainvases。Inhiseyeslingeredthevisionofthedark—hairedmothermountingthestairswithherlittlefairdaughter。Thecontrastbetweenthemseemedalasttouchofgraceinthecomplexharmonyofthings。Hestoodinthewindow,lookingoutatthepark,andbroodinginwardlyuponhishappiness……
  HewasrousedbyEffie’svoiceandthescamperofherfeetdownthelongfloorsbehindhim。
  "Hereheis!Hereheis!"shecried,flyingoverthethreshold。
  Heturnedandstoopedtoherwithasmile,andasshecaughthishandheperceivedthatshewastryingtodrawhimtowardsomeonewhohadpausedbehindherinthedoorway,andwhomhesupposedtobehermother。
  "HEREheis!"Effierepeated,withhersweetimpatience。
  ThefigureinthedoorwaycameforwardandDarrow,lookingup,foundhimselffacetofacewithSophyViner。Theystoodstill,ayardortwoapart,andlookedateachotherwithoutspeaking。
  Astheypausedthere,ashadowfellacrossoneoftheterracewindows,andOwenLeathsteppedwhistlingintotheroom。Inhisroughshootingclothes,withtheglowofexerciseunderhisfairskin,helookedextraordinarilylight—heartedandhappy。Darrow,withaquickside—glance,noticedthis,andperceivedalsothattheglowontheyouth’scheekhaddeepenedsuddenlytored。Hetoostoppedshort,andthethreestoodtheremotionlessforabarelyperceptiblebeatoftime。Duringitslapse,Darrow’seyeshadturnedbackfromOwen’sfacetothatofthegirlbetweenthem。Hehadthesensethat,whateverwasdone,itwashewhomustdoit,andthatitmustbedoneimmediately。Hewentforwardandheldouthishand。
  "Howdoyoudo,MissViner?"
  Sheanswered:"Howdoyoudo?"inavoicethatsoundedclearandnatural;andthenextmomentheagainbecameawareofstepsbehindhim,andknewthatMrs。Leathwasintheroom。
  TohisstrainedsensesthereseemedtobeanotherjustmeasurablepausebeforeAnnasaid,lookinggailyaboutthelittlegroup:"HasOwenintroducedyou?ThisisEffie’sfriend,MissViner。"
  Effie,stillhangingonhergoverness’sarm,pressedherselfcloserwithalittlegestureofappropriation;andMissVinerlaidherhandonherpupil’shair。
  DarrowfeltthatAnna’seyeshadturnedtohim。
  "IthinkMissVinerandIhavemetalready——severalyearsagoinLondon。"
  "Iremember,"saidSophyViner,inthesameclearvoice。
  "Howcharming!Thenwe’reallfriends。Butluncheonmustbeready,"saidMrs。Leath。
  Sheturnedbacktothedoor,andthelittleprocessionmoveddownthetwolongdrawing—rooms,withEffiewaltzingonahead。
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  MadamedeChantelleandAnnahadplanned,fortheafternoon,avisittoaremotelysituatedacquaintancewhomtheintroductionofthemotorhadtransformedintoaneighbour。
  Effiewastopayforhermorning’sholidaybyanhourortwointheschool—room,andOwensuggestedthatheandDarrowshouldbetakethemselvestoadistantcovertinthedesultoryquestforpheasants。
  Darrowwasnotanardentsportsman,butanypretextforphysicalactivitywouldhavebeenacceptableatthemoment;
  andhewasgladbothtogetawayfromthehouseandnottobelefttohimself。
  Whenhecamedownstairsthemotorwasatthedoor,andAnnastoodbeforethehallmirror,swathingherhatinveils。
  Sheturnedatthesoundofhisstepandsmiledathimforalongfullmoment。
  "I’dnoideayouknewMissViner,"shesaid,ashehelpedherintoherlongcoat。
  "Itcamebacktome,luckily,thatI’dseenhertwoorthreetimesinLondon,severalyearsago。Shewassecretary,orsomethingofthesort,inthebackgroundofahousewhereI
  usedtodine。"
  Heloathedtheslightingindifferenceofthephrase,buthehaduttereditdeliberately,hadbeensecretlypractisingitallthroughtheinterminablehourattheluncheon—table。
  Nowthatitwasspoken,heshiveredatitsnoteofcondescension。Insuchcasesonewasalmostsuretooverdo……ButAnnaseemedtonoticenothingunusual。
  "Wasshereally?Youmusttellmeallaboutit——tellmeexactlyhowshestruckyou。I’msogladitturnsoutthatyouknowher。"
  "’Know’isratherexaggerated:weusedtopasseachotheronthestairs。"
  MadamedeChantelleandOwenappearedtogetherashespoke,andAnna,gatheringupherwraps,said:"You’lltellmeaboutthat,then。Tryandremembereverythingyoucan。"
  Ashetrampedthroughthewoodsathisyounghost’sside,Darrowfeltthepartialrelieffromthoughtproducedbyexerciseandtheobligationtotalk。Littleashecaredforshooting,hehadthehabitofconcentrationwhichmakesitnaturalforamantothrowhimselfwhollyintowhateverbusinesshehasinhand,andthereweremomentsoftheafternoonwhenasuddenwhirrintheundergrowth,avividergleamagainstthehazybrownsandgreysofthewoods,wasenoughtofilltheforegroundofhisattention。Butallthewhile,behindthesevoluntarilyemphasizedsensations,hissecretconsciousnesscontinuedtorevolveonaloudwheelofthought。Foratimeitseemedtobesweepinghimthroughdeepgulfsofdarkness。Hissensationsweretooswiftandswarmingtobedisentangled。Hehadanalmostphysicalsenseofstrugglingforair,ofbattlinghelplesslywithmaterialobstructions,asthoughtherussetcovertthroughwhichhetrudgedweretheheartofamaleficentjungle……
  Snatchesofhiscompanion’stalkdriftedtohimintermittentlythroughtheconfusionofhisthoughts。Hecaughteagerself—revealingphrases,andunderstoodthatOwenwassayingthingsabouthimself,perhapshintingindirectlyatthehopesforwhichDarrowhadbeenpreparedbyAnna’sconfidences。Hehadalreadybecomeawarethattheladlikedhim,andhadmeanttotakethefirstopportunityofshowingthathereciprocatedthefeeling。ButtheeffortoffixinghisattentiononOwen’swordswassogreatthatitleftnopowerformorethanthebriefestandmostinexpressivereplies。
  YoungLeath,itappeared,feltthathehadreachedaturning—pointinhiscareer,aheightfromwhichhecouldimpartiallysurveyhispastprogressandprojectedendeavour。Atonetimehehadhadmusicalandliteraryyearnings,visionsofdesultoryartisticindulgence;butthesehadoflatebeensupersededbytheresolutedeterminationtoplungeintopracticallife。
  "Idon’twant,yousee,"Darrowheardhimexplaining,"todriftintowhatmygrandmother,poordear,istryingtomakeofme:anadjunctofGivre。Idon’twant——hangitall!——toslipintocollectingsensationsasmyfathercollectedsnuff—boxes。IwantEffietohaveGivre——it’smygrandmother’s,youknow,todoasshelikeswith;andI’veunderstoodlatelythatifitbelongedtomeitwouldgraduallygobblemeup。Iwanttogetoutofit,intoalifethat’sbiganduglyandstruggling。IfIcanextractbeautyoutofTHAT,somuchthebetter:that’llprovemyvocation。ButIwanttoMAKEbeauty,notbedrownedintheready—made,likeabeeinapotofhoney。"
  Darrowknewthathewasbeingappealedtoforcorroborationoftheseviewsandforencouragementinthecoursetowhichtheypointed。Tohisownearshisanswerssoundednowcurt,nowirrelevant:atonemomentheseemedchillinglyindifferent,atanotherheheardhimselflaunchingoutonafloodofhazydiscursiveness。HedarednotlookatOwen,forfearofdetectingthelad’ssurpriseatthesesenselesstransitions。Andthroughtheconfusionofhisinwardstrugglesandoutwardloquacityheheardtheceaselesstrip—
  hammerbeatofthequestion:"WhatinGod’snameshallI
  do?"……
  TogetbacktothehousebeforeAnna’sreturnseemedhismostpressingnecessity。Hedidnotclearlyknowwhy:hesimplyfeltthatheoughttobethere。AtonemomentitoccurredtohimthatMissVinermightwanttospeaktohimalone——andagain,inthesameflash,thatitwouldprobablybethelastthingshewouldwant……Atanyrate,hefeltheoughttotrytospeaktoHER;oratleastbepreparedtodoso,ifthechanceshouldoccur……
  Finally,towardfour,hetoldhiscompanionthathehadsomelettersonhismindandmustgetbacktothehouseanddespatchthembeforetheladiesreturned。HeleftOwenwiththebeaterandwalkedontotheedgeofthecovert。Attheparkgateshestruckobliquelythroughthetrees,followingagrassavenueattheendofwhichhehadcaughtaglimpseoftheroofofthechapel。Agreyhazehadblottedoutthesunandthestillairclungabouthimtepidly。Atlengththehouse—frontraisedbeforehimitsexpanseofdamp—
  silveredbrick,andhewasstruckafreshbythehighdecorumofitscalmlinesandsoberlymassedsurfaces。Itmadehimfeel,intheturbidcoilofhisfearsandpassions,likeamuddytrampforcinghiswayintosomepuresequesteredshrine……
  Byandbye,heknew,heshouldhavetothinkthecomplexhorrorout,slowly,systematically,bitbybit;butforthemomentitwaswhirlinghimaboutsofastthathecouldjustclutchatitssharpspikesandbetossedoffagain。Onlyonedefiniteimmediatefactstuckinhisquiveringgrasp。
  Hemustgivethegirleverychance——mustholdhimselfpassivetillshehadtakenthem……
  InthecourtEffieranuptohimwithherleapingterrier。
  "Iwascomingouttomeetyou——youandOwen。MissVinerwascoming,too,andthenshecouldn’tbecauseshe’sgotsuchaheadache。I’mafraidIgaveittoherbecauseIdidmydivisionsodisgracefully。It’stoobad,isn’tit?Butwon’tyouwalkbackwithme?Nursewon’tmindtheleastbit;
  she’dsomuchrathergointotea。"
  Darrowexcusedhimselflaughingly,onthepleathathehadletterstowrite,whichwasmuchworsethanhavingaheadache,andnotinfrequentlyresultedinone。
  "Oh,thenyoucangoandwritetheminOwen’sstudy。That’swheregentlemenalwayswritetheirletters。"
  SheflewonwithherdogandDarrowpursuedhiswaytothehouse。Effie’ssuggestionstruckhimasuseful。Hehadpicturedhimselfasvaguelydriftingaboutthedrawing—
  rooms,andhadperceivedthedifficultyofMissViner’shavingtoseekhimthere;butthestudy,asmallroomontherightofthehall,wasineasysightfromthestaircase,andsosituatedthattherewouldbenothingmarkedinhisbeingfoundthereintalkwithher。
  Hewentin,leavingthedooropen,andsatdownatthewriting—table。Theroomwasafriendlyheterogeneousplace,theonerepository,inthewell—orderedandamply—servantedhouse,ofallitsunclassifiedoddsandends:Effie’scroquet—boxandfishingrods,Owen’sgunsandgolf—sticksandracquets,hisstep—mother’sflower—basketsandgardeningimplements,evenMadamedeChantelle’sembroideryframe,andthebacknumbersoftheCatholicWeekly。Theearlytwilighthadbeguntofall,andpresentlyaslantingrayacrossthedeskshowedDarrowthataservantwascomingacrossthehallwithalamp。Hepulledoutasheetofnote—paperandbegantowriteatrandom,whiletheman,entering,putthelampathiselbowandvaguely"straightened"theheapofnewspaperstossedonthedivan。ThenhisstepsdiedawayandDarrowsatleaninghisheadonhislockedhands。
  Presentlyanotherstepsoundedonthestairs,waveredamomentandthenmovedpastthethresholdofthestudy。
  Darrowgotupandwalkedintothehall,whichwasstillunlighted。InthedimnesshesawSophyVinerstandingbythehalldoorinherhatandjacket。Shestoppedatsightofhim,herhandonthedoor—bolt,andtheystoodforasecondwithoutspeaking。
  "HaveyouseenEffie?"shesuddenlyasked。"Shewentouttomeetyou。"
  "SheDIDmeetme,justnow,inthecourt。She’sgoneontojoinherbrother。"
  Darrowspokeasnaturallyashecould,buthisvoicesoundedtohisownearslikeanamateuractor’sina"light"part。
  MissViner,withoutanswering,drewbackthebolt。Hewatchedherinsilenceasthedoorswungopen;thenhesaid:
  "Shehashernursewithher。Shewon’tbelong。"
  Shestoodirresolute,andheadded:"Iwaswritinginthere——won’tyoucomeandhavealittletalk?Everyone’sout。"
  Thelastwordsstruckhimasnotwell—chosen,buttherewasnotimetochoose。Shepausedasecondlongerandthencrossedthethresholdofthestudy。Atluncheonshehadsatwithherbacktothewindow,andbeyondnotingthatshehadgrownalittlethinner,andhadlesscolourandvivacity,hehadseennochangeinher;butnow,asthelamplightfellonherface,itswhitenessstartledhim。
  "Poorthing……poorthing……whatinheaven’snamecanshesuppose?"hewondered。
  "Dositdown——Iwanttotalktoyou,"hesaidandpushedachairtowardher。
  Shedidnotseemtoseeit,or,ifshedid,shedeliberatelychoseanotherseat。Hecamebacktohisownchairandleanedhiselbowsontheblotter。Shefacedhimfromthefarthersideofthetable。
  "Youpromisedtoletmehearfromyounowandthen,"hebeganawkwardly,andwithasharpsenseofhisawkwardness。
  Afaintsmilemadeherfacemoretragic。"DidI?Therewasnothingtotell。I’vehadnohistory——likethehappycountries……"
  Hewaitedamomentbeforeasking:"YouAREhappyhere?"
  "IWAS,"shesaidwithafaintemphasis。
  "Whydoyousay’was’?You’resurelynotthinkingofgoing?
  Therecan’tbekinderpeopleanywhere。"Darrowhardlyknewwhathewassaying;butheranswercametohimwithdeadlydefiniteness。
  "IsupposeitdependsonyouwhetherIgoorstay。"
  "Onme?"HestaredatheracrossOwen’sscatteredpapers。
  "GoodGod!Whatcanyouthinkofme,tosaythat?"
  Themockeryofthequestionflashedbackathimfromherwretchedface。Shestoodup,wanderedaway,andleanedaninstantinthedarkeningwindow—frame。Fromtheresheturnedtoflingbackathim:"Don’timagineI’mtheleastbitsorryforanything!"
  Hesteadiedhiselbowsonthetableandhidhisfaceinhishands。Itwasharder,oh,damnablyharder,thanhehadexpected!Arguments,expedients,palliations,evasions,allseemedtobeslippingawayfromhim:hewasleftfacetofacewiththemeregracelessfactofhisinferiority。Heliftedhisheadtoaskatrandom:"You’vebeenhere,then,eversince?"
  "SinceJune;yes。ItturnedoutthattheFarlowswerehuntingforme——allthewhile——forthis。"
  Shestoodfacinghim,herbacktothewindow,evidentlyimpatienttobegone,yetwithsomethingstilltosay,orthatsheexpectedtohearhimsay。Thesenseofherexpectancybenumbedhim。Whatinheaven’snamecouldhesaytoherthatwasnotanoffenseoramockery?
  "Yourideaofthetheatre——yougavethatupatonce,then?"
  "Oh,thetheatre!"Shegavealittlelaugh。"Icouldn’twaitforthetheatre。Ihadtotakethefirstthingthatoffered;Itookthis。"
  Hepushedonhaltingly:"I’mglad——extremelyglad——you’rehappyhere……I’dcountedonyourlettingmeknowiftherewasanythingIcoulddo……Thetheatre,now——ifyoustillregretit——ifyou’renotcontentedhere……IknowpeopleinthatlineinLondon——I’mcertainIcanmanageitforyouwhenIgetback————"
  Shemoveduptothetableandleanedoverittoask,inavoicethatwashardlyaboveawhisper:"ThenyouDOwantmetoleave?Isthatit?"
  Hedroppedhisarmswithagroan。"Goodheavens!Howcanyouthinksuchthings?Atthetime,youknow,IbeggedyoutoletmedowhatIcould,butyouwouldn’thearofit……andeversinceI’vebeenwantingtobeofuse——todosomething,anything,tohelpyou……"
  Sheheardhimthrough,motionless,withoutaquiveroftheclaspedhandssherestedontheedgeofthetable。
  "Ifyouwanttohelpme,then——youcanhelpmetostayhere,"shebroughtoutwithlow—tonedintensity。
  Throughthestillnessofthepausewhichfollowed,thebrayofamotor—hornsoundedfardownthedrive。Instantlysheturned,withalastwhitelookathim,andfledfromtheroomandupthestairs。Hestoodmotionless,benumbedbytheshockofherlastwords。Shewasafraid,then——afraidofhim——sickwithfearofhim!Thediscoverybeathimdowntoalowerdepth……
  Themotor—hornsoundedagain,closeathand,andheturnedandwentuptohisroom。Hisletter—writingwasasufficientpretextfornotimmediatelyjoiningthepartyaboutthetea—table,andhewantedtobealoneandtrytoputalittleorderintohistumultuousthinking。
  Upstairs,theroomheldouttheintimatewelcomeofitslampandfire。Everythinginitexhaledthesamesenseofpeaceandstabilitywhich,twoeveningsbefore,hadlulledhimtocomplacentmeditation。Hisarmchairagaininvitedhimfromthehearth,buthewastooagitatedtositstill,andwithsunkheadandhandsclaspedbehindhisbackhebegantowanderupanddowntheroom。
  HisfiveminuteswithSophyVinerhadflashedstrangelightsintotheshadowycornersofhisconsciousness。Thegirl’sabsolutecandour,herhardardenthonesty,wasforthemomentthevividestpointinhisthoughts。Hewonderedanew,ashehadwonderedbefore,atthewayinwhichtheharshdisciplineoflifehadstrippedheroffalsesentimentwithoutlayingtheleasttouchonherpride。Whentheyhadparted,fivemonthsbefore,shehadquietlybutdecidedlyrejectedallhisoffersofhelp,eventothesuggestionofhistryingtofurtherhertheatricalaims:shehadmadeitclearthatshewishedtheirbriefalliancetoleavenotraceontheirlivessavethatofitsownsmilingmemory。Butnowthattheywereunexpectedlyconfrontedinasituationwhichseemed,toherterrifiedfancy,toputherathismercy,herfirstimpulsewastodefendherrighttotheplaceshehadwon,andtolearnasquicklyaspossibleifhemeanttodisputeit。Whilehehadpicturedherasshrinkingawayfromhiminatremorofself—effacementshehadwatchedhismovements,madesureofheropportunity,andcomestraightdownto"haveitout"withhim。Hewassostruckbythefranknessandenergyoftheproceedingthatforamomenthelostsightoftheviewofhisowncharacterimpliedinit。