Slowly,outoftheawfulshadows,theGhostsofMemoryroseaboutme。Thedeadpopulationofavanishedworldcamebacktoliferoundme,alivingman。Menandwomenwhoseearthlypilgrimagehadendedlongsince,returneduponmefromtheunknownspheres,andfond,familiarvoicesbursttheirwaybacktomyearsthroughtheheavysilenceofthegrave。Movingbymeinthenamelessinnerlight,whichnoeyesawbutmine,thedeadprocessionofimmaterialscenesandbeingsunrolleditssilentlength。Isawoncemorethepleadingfaceofafriendofearlydays,withthehauntingvisionthathadtorturedhimthroughlifebyhissideagain——withthelong—forgottendespairinhiseyeswhichhadoncetouchedmyheart,andboundmetohim,tillIhadtrackedhisdestinythroughitsdarkestwindingstotheend。Isawthefigureofaninnocentwomanpassingtoandfroinanancientcountryhouse,withtheshadowofastrangesuspicionstealingafterherwherevershewent。Isawamanwornbyhardshipandoldage,stretcheddreamingonthestrawofastable,andmutteringinhisdreamtheterriblesecretofhislife。
Otherscenesandpersonsfollowedthese,lessvividintheirrevival,butstillalwaysrecognizableanddistinct;ayounggirlalonebynight,andinperilofherlife,inacottageonadrearymoor——anupperchamberofaninn,withtwobedsinit;thecurtainsofonebedclosed,andamanstandingbythem,waiting,yetdreadingtodrawthemback——ahusbandsecretlyfollowingthefirsttracesofamysterywhichhiswife’sanxiouslovehadfatallyhiddenfromhimsincethedaywhentheyfirstmet;these,andothervisionslikethem,shadowyreflectionsofthelivingbeingsandtherealeventsthathadbeenonce,peopledthesolitudeandtheemptinessaroundme。TheyhauntedmestillwhenItriedtobreakthechainofthoughtwhichmyowneffortshadwoundaboutmymind;theyfollowedmetoandfrointheroom;andtheycameoutwithmewhenIleftit。IhadliftedtheveilfromthePastformyself,andIwasnowtorestnomoretillIhadlifteditforothers。
Iwentatoncetomyeldestbrotherandshowedhimmyson’sletter,andtoldhimallthatIhavewrittenhere。Hiskindheartwastouchedasminehadbeen。Hefeltformysuspense;hesharedmyanxiety;helaidasidehisownoccupationonthespot。
"Onlytellme,"hesaid,"howIcanhelp,andIwillgiveeveryhourinthedaytoyouandtoGeorge。"
Ihadcometohimwithmymindalmostasfullofhispastlifeasofmyown;IrecalledtohismemoryeventsinhisexperienceasaworkingclergymaninLondon;Isethimlookingamongpaperswhichhehadpreservedforhalfhislifetime,andtheveryexistenceofwhichhehadforgottenlongsince;Irecalledtohimthenamesofpersonstowhosenecessitieshehadministeredinhissacredoffice,andwhosestorieshehadheardfromtheirownlipsorreceivedundertheirownhandwriting。Whenwepartedhewascertainofwhathewaswantedtodo,andwasresoluteonthatverydaytobeginthework。
IwenttoMorgannext,andappealedtohimasIhadalreadyappealedtoOwen。Itwasonlypartofhisoddcharactertostartallsortsofeccentricobjectionsinreply;toaffectacynicalindifference,whichhewasfarfromreallyandtrulyfeeling;andtoindulgeinplentyofquaintsarcasmonthesubjectofJessieandhisnephewGeorge。Iwaitedtilltheselittlesurface—ebullitionshadallexpendedthemselves,andthenpressedmypointagainwiththeearnestnessandanxietythatIreallyfelt。
Evidentlytouchedbythemannerofmyappealtohimevenmorethanbythelanguageinwhichitwasexpressed,Morgantookrefugeinhiscustomaryabruptness,spreadouthispaperviolentlyonthetable,seizedhispenandink,andtoldmequitefiercelytogivehimhisworkandlethimtackleitatonce。
Isetmyselftorecalltohismemorysomeveryremarkableexperiencesofhisowninhisprofessionaldays,buthestoppedmebeforeIhadhalfdone。
"Iunderstand,"hesaid,takingasavagedipattheink,"I’mtomakeherfleshcreep,andtofrightenheroutofherwits。I’lldoitwithavengeance!"
ReservingtomyselfprivatelyaneditorialrightofsupervisionoverMorgan’scontributions,Ireturnedtomyownroomtobeginmyshare——byfarthelargestone——ofthetaskbeforeus。Thestimulusappliedtomymindbymyson’slettermusthavebeenastrongoneindeed,forIhadhardlybeenmorethananhouratmydeskbeforeIfoundtheoldliteraryfacilityofmyyouthfuldays,whenIwasawriterforthemagazines,returningtomeasifbymagic。Iworkedonunremittinglytilldinner—time,andthenresumedthepenafterwehadallseparatedforthenight。Attwoo’clockthenextmorningIfoundmyself——Godhelpme!——masquerading,asitwere,inmyownlong—lostcharacterofahard—writingyoungman,withtheoldfamiliarcupofstrongteabymyside,andtheoldfamiliarwettoweltiedroundmyhead。
MyreviewoftheprogressIhadmade,whenIlookedbackatmypagesofmanuscript,yieldedalltheencouragementIwantedtodrivemeon。Itisonlyjust,however,toaddtotherecordofthisfirstday’sattempt,thattheliterarylaborwhichitinvolvedwasbynomeansofthemosttryingkind。Thegreatstrainontheintellect——thestrainofinvention——wassparedmebymyhavingrealcharactersandeventsreadytomyhand。IfI
hadbeencalledontocreate,Ishould,inallprobability,havesufferedseverelybycontrastwiththeveryworstofthoseunfortunatenovelistswhomJessiehadsorashlyandsothoughtlesslycondemned。Itisnotwonderfulthatthepublicshouldrarelyknowhowtoestimatethevastservicewhichisdonetothembytheproductionofagoodbook,seeingthattheyare,forthemostpart,utterlyignorantoftheimmensedifficultyofwritingevenabadone。
Thenextdaywasfine,tomygreatrelief;andourvisitor,whilewewereatwork,enjoyedhercustomaryscamperonthepony,andhercustomaryramblesafterwardintheneighborhoodofthehouse。
AlthoughIhadinterruptionstocontendwithonthepartofOwenandMorgan,neitherofwhompossessedmyexperienceintheproductionofwhatheavypeoplecall"lightliterature,"andbothofwhomconsequentlywantedassistance,stillImadegreatprogress,andearnedmyhoursofreposeontheeveningofthesecondday。
OnthateveningIriskedtheworst,andopenedmynegotiationsforthefuturewith"TheQueenofHearts。"
Aboutanhouraftertheteahadbeenremoved,andwhenIhappenedtobeleftaloneintheroomwithher,Inoticedthatsherosesuddenlyandwenttothewriting—table。Mysuspicionswerearouseddirectly,andIenteredonthedangeroussubjectbyinquiringifsheintendedtowritetoheraunt。
"Yes,"shesaid。"Ipromisedtowritewhenthelastweekcame。Ifyouhadpaidmethecomplimentofaskingmetostayalittlelonger,IshouldhavereturneditbytellingyouIwassorrytogo。Asitis,Imeantobesulkyandsaynothing。"
Withthosewordsshetookupherpentobegintheletter。
"Waitaminute,"Iremonstrated。"IwasjustonthepointofbeggingyoutostaywhenIspoke。"
"Wereyou,indeed?"shereturned。"Ineverbelievedincoincidencesofthatsortbefore,butnow,ofcourse,Iputthemostunlimitedfaithinthem!"
"Willyoubelieveinplainproofs?"Iasked,adoptingherhumor。
"HowdoyouthinkIandmybrothershavebeenemployingourselvesalldayto—dayandalldayyesterday?Guesswhatwehavebeenabout。"
"Congratulatingyourselvesinsecretonmyapproachingdeparture,"sheanswered,tappingherchinsaucilywiththefeather—endofherpen。
Iseizedtheopportunityofastonishingher,andforthwithtoldherthetruth。Shestartedupfromthetable,andapproachedmewiththeeagernessofachild,hereyessparkling,andhercheeksflushed。
"Doyoureallymeanit?"shesaid。
IassuredherthatIwasinearnest。Shethereuponnotonlyexpressedaninterestinourundertaking,whichwasevidentlysincere,but,withcharacteristicimpatience,wantedtobeginthefirstevening’sreadingonthatverynight。Idisappointedhersadlybyexplainingthatwerequiredtimetoprepareourselves,andbyassuringherthatweshouldnotbereadyforthenextfivedays。Onthesixthday,Iadded,weshouldbeabletobegin,andtogoon,withoutmissinganevening,forprobablytendaysmore。
"Thenextfivedays?"shereplied。"Why,thatwilljustbringustotheendofmysixweeks’visit。Isupposeyouarenotsettingatraptocatchme?Thisisnotatrickofyouthreecunningoldgentlementomakemestayon,isit?"
Iquailedinwardlyasthatdangerouslycloseguessatthetruthpassedherlips。
"Youforget,"Isaid,"thattheideaonlyoccurredtomeafterwhatyousaidyesterday。Ifithadstruckmeearlier,weshouldhavebeenreadyearlier,andthenwherewouldyoursuspicionshavebeen?"
"Iamashamedofhavingfeltthem,"shesaid,inherfrank,heartyway。"Iretracttheword’trap,’andIbegpardonforcallingyou’threecunningoldgentlemen。’ButwhatamItosaytomyaunt?"
Shemovedbacktothewriting—tableasshespoke。
"Saynothing,"Ireplied,"tillyouhaveheardthefirststory。
Shutupthepaper—casetillthattime,andthendecidewhenyouwillopenitagaintowritetoyouraunt。"
Shehesitatedandsmiled。Thatterriblycloseguessofherswasnotoutofhermindyet。
"Iratherfancy,"shesaid,slyly,"thatthestorywillturnouttobethebestofthewholeseries。"
"Wrongagain,"Iretorted。"Ihaveaplanforlettingchancedecidewhichofthestoriesthefirstoneshallbe。Theyshallbeallnumberedastheyaredone;correspondingnumbersshallbewritteninsidefoldedpiecesofcardandwellmixedtogether;youshallpickoutanyonecardyoulike;youshalldeclarethenumberwrittenwithin;and,goodorbad,thestorythatanswerstothatnumbershallbethestorythatisread。Isthatfair?"
"Fair!"sheexclaimed;"it’sbetterthanfair;itmakes_me_ofsomeimportance;andImustbemoreorlessthanwomannottoappreciatethat。"
"Thenyouconsenttowaitpatientlyforthenextfivedays?"
"AspatientlyasIcan。"
"Andyouengagetodecidenothingaboutwritingtoyourauntuntilyouhaveheardthefirststory?"
"Ido,"shesaid,returningtothewriting—table。"Beholdtheproofofit。"Sheraisedherhandwiththeatricalsolemnity,andclosedthepaper—casewithanimpressivebang。
Ileanedbackinmychairwithmymindateaseforthefirsttimesincethereceiptofmyson’sletter。
"OnlyletGeorgereturnbythefirstofNovember,"Ithoughttomyself,"andalltheauntsinChristendomshallnotpreventJessieYelvertonfrombeingheretomeethim。"
THETENDAYS。
THEFIRSTDAY。
SHOWERYandunsettled。Inspiteoftheweather,JessieputonmyMackintoshcloakandrodeoffoverthehillstooneofOwen’soutlyingfarms。Shewasalreadytooimpatienttowaitquietlyfortheevening’sreadinginthehouse,ortoenjoyanyamusementlessexhilaratingthanagallopintheopenair。
Iwas,onmyside,asanxiousandasuneasyasourguest。Nowthatthesixweeksofherstayhadexpired——nowthatthedayhadreallyarrived,ontheeveningofwhichthefirststorywastoberead,Ibegantocalculatethechancesoffailureaswellasthechancesofsuccess。Whatifmyownestimateoftheinterestofthestoriesturnedouttobeafalseone?Whatifsomeunforeseenaccidentoccurredtodelaymyson’sreturnbeyondtendays?
Thearrivalofthenewspaperhadalreadybecomeaneventofthedeepestimportancetome。UnreasonableasitwastoexpectanytidingsofGeorgeatsoearlyadate,Ibegan,nevertheless,onthisfirstofourdaysofsuspense,tolookforthenameofhisshipinthecolumnsoftelegraphicnews。Themeremechanicalactoflookingwassomerelieftomyoverstrainedfeelings,althoughImighthaveknown,anddidknow,thatthesearch,forthepresent,couldleadtonosatisfactoryresult。
TowardnoonIshutmyselfupwithmycollectionofmanuscriptstorevisethemforthelasttime。Ourexertionshadthusfarproducedbutsixofthenecessarytenstories。Astheywereonly,however,toberead,onebyone,onsixsuccessiveevenings,andaswecouldthereforecountonplentyofleisureinthedaytime,Iwasinnofearofourfailingtofinishthelittleseries。
OfthesixcompletedstoriesIhadwrittentwo,andhadfoundathirdintheformofacollectionoflettersamongmypapers。
Morganhadonlywrittenone,andthissolitarycontributionofhishadgivenmemoretroublethanbothmyownputtogether,inconsequenceoftheperpetualintrusionofmybrother’seccentricitiesineverypartofhisnarrative。TheprocessofremovingthesequaintturnsandfrisksofMorgan’shumor——which,howeveramusingtheymighthavebeeninanessay,wereutterlyoutofplaceinastoryappealingtosuspendedinterestforitseffect——certainlytriedmypatienceandmycriticalfaculty(suchasitis)moreseverelythananyotherpartofourliteraryenterprisewhichhadfallenmyshare。
Owen’sinvestigationsamonghispapershadsupplieduswiththetworemainingnarratives。Onewascontainedinaletter,andtheotherintheformofadiary,andbothhadbeenreceivedbyhimdirectlyfromthewriters。Besidesthesecontributions,hehadundertakentohelpusbysomeworkofhisown,andhadbeenengagedforthelastfourdaysinmoldingcertaineventswhichhadhappenedwithinhispersonalknowledgeintotheformofastory。Hisextremefastidiousnessasawriterinterfered,however,soseriouslywithhisprogressthathewasstillsadlybehindhand,andwaslikely,thoughlessheavilyburdenedthanMorganormyself,tobethelasttocompletehisallottedtask。
Suchwasourposition,andsuchtheresourcesatourcommand,whenthefirstoftheTenDaysdawneduponus。ShortlyafterfourintheafternoonIcompletedmyworkofrevision,numberedthemanuscriptsfromonetosixexactlyastheyhappenedtolieundermyhand,andinclosedthemallinaportfolio,coveredwithpurplemorocco,whichbecameknownfromthattimebytheimposingtitleofThePurpleVolume。
MissJessiereturnedfromherexpeditionjustasIwastyingthestringsoftheportfolio,and,womanlike,instantlyaskedleavetopeepinside,whichfavorI,manlike,positivelydeclinedtogrant。
Assoonasdinnerwasoverourguestretiredtoarrayherselfinmagnificenteveningcostume。Ithadbeenarrangedthatthereadingsweretotakeplaceinherownsitting—room;andshewassoenthusiasticallydesiroustodohonortotheoccasion,thatsheregrettednothavingbroughtwithherfromLondonthedressinwhichshehadbeenpresentedatcourttheyearbefore,andnothavingborrowedcertainmaterialsforadditionalsplendorwhichshebrieflydescribedas"aunt’sdiamonds。"
Towardeighto’clockweassembledinthesitting—room,andastrangelyassortedcompanywewere。Attheheadofthetable,radiantinsilkandjewelry,flowersandfurbelows,satTheQueenofHearts,lookingsohandsomeandsohappythatIsecretlycongratulatedmyabsentsonontheexcellenttastehehadshowninfallinginlovewithher。Roundthisbrightyoungcreature(Owen,atthefootofthetable,andMorganandIoneitherside)
satherthreewrinkled,gray—headed,dingily—attiredhosts,andjustbehindher,instillmoreinappropriatecompanionship,toweredthespectralfigureofthemaninarmor,whichhadsounaccountablyattractedheronherarrival。Thisstrangescenewaslightedupbycandlesinhighandheavybrasssconces。BeforeJessiestoodamightychinapunch—bowloftheoldentime,containingthefoldedpiecesofcard,insidewhichwerewrittenthenumberstobedrawn,andbeforeOwenreposedthePurpleVolumefromwhichoneofuswastoread。Thewallsoftheroomwerehungallroundwithfadedtapestry;theclumsyfurniturewasblackwithage;and,inspiteofthelightfromthesconces,theloftyceilingwasalmostlostingloom。IfRembrandtcouldhavepaintedourbackground,Reynoldsourguest,andHogarthourselves,thepictureofthescenewouldhavebeencomplete。
Whentheoldclockoverthetowergatewayhadchimedeight,I
rosetoinauguratetheproceedingsbyrequestingJessietotakeoneofthepiecesofcardoutofthepunch—bowl,andtodeclarethenumber。
Shelaughed;thensuddenlybecamefrightenedandserious;thenlookedatme,andsaid,"Itwasdreadfullylikebusiness;"andthenentreatedMorgannottostareather,or,inthepresentstateofhernerves,sheshouldupsetthepunch—bowl。Atlastshesummonedresolutionenoughtotakeoutoneofthepiecesofcardandtounfoldit。
"Declarethenumber,mydear,"saidOwen。
"NumberFour,"answeredJessie,makingamagnificentcourtesy,andbeginningtolooklikeherselfagain。
OwenopenedthePurpleVolume,searchedthroughthemanuscripts,andsuddenlychangedcolor。Thecauseofhisdiscomposurewassoonexplained。Maliciousfatehadassignedtothemostdiffidentindividualinthecompanythetryingresponsibilityofleadingtheway。NumberFourwasoneofthetwonarrativeswhichOwenhadfoundamonghisownpapers。
"Iamalmostsorry,"beganmyeldestbrother,confusedly,"thatithasfallentomyturntoreadfirst。IhardlyknowwhichI
distrustmost,myselformystory。"
"Tryandfancyyouareinthepulpitagain,"saidMorgan,sarcastically。"Gentlemenofyourcloth,Owen,seldomseemtodistrustthemselvesortheirmanuscriptswhentheygetintothatposition。"
"Thefactis,"continuedOwen,mildlyimpenetrabletohisbrother’scynicalremark,"thatthelittlethingIamgoingtotryandreadishardlyastoryatall。Iamafraiditisonlyananecdote。Ibecamepossessedoftheletterwhichcontainsmynarrativeunderthesecircumstances。AtthetimewhenIwasaclergymaninLondon,mychurchwasattendedforsomemonthsbyaladywhowasthewifeofalargefarmerinthecountry。Shehadbeenobligedtocometotown,andtoremainthereforthesakeofoneofherchildren,alittleboy,whorequiredthebestmedicaladvice。"
Atthewords"medicaladvice"Morganshookhisheadandgrowledtohimselfcontemptuously。Owenwenton:
"Whileshewasattendinginthiswaytoonechild,hisshareinherlovewasunexpectedlydisputedbyanother,whocameintotheworldratherbeforehistime。Ibaptizedthebaby,andwasaskedtothelittlechristeningpartyafterward。Thiswasmyfirstintroductiontothelady,andIwasveryfavorablyimpressedbyher;notsomuchonaccountofherpersonalappearance,forshewasbutalittlewomanandhadnopretensionstobeauty,asonaccountofacertainsimplicity,andhearty,downrightkindnessinhermanner,aswellasofanexcellentfranknessandgoodsenseinherconversation。Oneoftheguestspresent,whosawhowshehadinterestedme,andwhospokeofherinthehighestterms,surprisedmebyinquiringifIshouldeverhavesupposedthatquiet,good—humoredlittlewomantobecapableofperforminganactofcouragewhichwouldhavetriedthenervesoftheboldestmaninEngland?Inaturallyenoughbeggedforanexplanation;butmyneighboratthetableonlysmiledandsaid,’Ifyoucanfindanopportunity,askherwhathappenedatTheBlackCottage,andyouwillhearsomethingthatwillastonishyou。’IactedonthehintassoonasIhadanopportunityofspeakingtoherprivately。Theladyansweredthatitwastoolongastorytotellthen,andexplained,onmysuggestingthatsheshouldrelateitonsomefutureday,thatshewasabouttostartforhercountryhomethenextmorning。’But,’shewasgoodenoughtoadd,’asI
havebeenundergreatobligationstoyouformanySundayspast,andasyouseeminterestedinthismatter,Iwillemploymyfirstleisuretimeaftermyreturnintellingyoubywriting,insteadofbywordofmouth,whatreallyhappenedtomeononememorablenightofmylifeinTheBlackCottage。’
"Shefaithfullyperformedherpromise。InafortnightafterwardI
receivedfromherthenarrativewhichIamnowabouttoread。"
BROTHEROWEN’SSTORY
OF
THESIEGEOFTHEBLACKCOTTAGE。
Tobeginatthebeginning,Imusttakeyoubacktothetimeaftermymother’sdeath,whenmyonlybrotherhadgonetosea,whenmysisterwasoutatservice,andwhenIlivedalonewithmyfatherinthemidstofamoorinthewestofEngland。
Themoorwascoveredwithgreatlimestonerocks,andintersectedhereandtherebystreamlets。Thenearesthabitationtoourswassituatedaboutamileandahalfoff,whereastripofthefertilelandstretchedoutintothewastelikeatongue。HeretheoutbuildingsofthegreatMoorFarm,theninthepossessionofmyhusband’sfather,began。Thefarm—landsstretcheddowngentlyintoabeautifulrichvalley,lyingnicelyshelteredbythehighplatformofthemoor。Whenthegroundbegantoriseagain,milesandmilesaway,itleduptoacountryhousecalledHolmeManor,belongingtoagentlemannamedKnifton。Mr。Kniftonhadlatelymarriedayoungladywhommymotherhadnursed,andwhosekindnessandfriendshipforme,herfoster—sister,Ishallremembergratefullytothelastdayofmylife。TheseandotherslightparticularsitisnecessarytomystorythatIshouldtellyou,anditisalsonecessarythatyoushouldbeespeciallycarefultobearthemwellinmind。
Myfatherwasbytradeastone—mason。Hiscottagestoodamileandahalffromthenearesthabitation。Inallotherdirectionswewerefourorfivetimesthatdistancefromneighbors。Beingverypoorpeople,thislonelysituationhadonegreatattractionforus——welivedrentfreeonit。Inadditiontothatadvantage,thestones,byshapingwhichmyfathergainedhislivelihood,layallabouthimathisverydoor,sothathethoughthisposition,solitaryasitwas,quiteanenviableone。IcanhardlysaythatIagreedwithhim,thoughInevercomplained。Iwasveryfondofmyfather,andmanagedtomakethebestofmylonelinesswiththethoughtofbeingusefultohim。Mrs。Kniftonwishedtotakemeintoherservicewhenshemarried,butIdeclined,unwillinglyenough,formyfather’ssake。IfIhadgoneaway,hewouldhavehadnobodytolivewithhim;andmymothermademepromiseonherdeath—bedthatheshouldneverbelefttopineawayaloneinthemidstofthebleakmoor。
Ourcottage,smallasitwas,wasstoutlyandsnuglybuilt,withstonefromthemoorasamatterofcourse。Thewallswerelinedinsideandfencedoutsidewithwood,thegiftofMr。Knifton’sfathertomyfather。Thisdoublecoveringofcracksandcrevices,whichwouldhavebeensuperfluousinashelteredposition,wasabsolutelynecessary,inourexposedsituation,tokeepoutthecoldwindswhich,exceptingjustthesummermonths,sweptoveruscontinuallyalltheyearround。Theoutsideboards,coveringourroughly—builtstonewalls,myfatherprotectedagainstthewetwithpitchandtar。Thisgavetoourlittleabodeacuriouslydark,dingylook,especiallywhenitwasseenfromadistance;
andsoithadcometobecalledintheneighborhood,evenbeforeIwasborn,TheBlackCottage。
Ihavenowrelatedthepreliminaryparticularswhichitisdesirablethatyoushouldknow,andmayproceedatoncetothepleasantertaskoftellingyoumystory。
Onecloudyautumnday,whenIwasrathermorethaneighteenyearsold,aherdsmanwalkedoverfromMoorFarmwithaletterwhichhadbeenleftthereformyfather。Itcamefromabuilderlivingatourcountytown,halfaday’sjourneyoff,anditinvitedmyfathertocometohimandgivehisjudgmentaboutanestimateforsomestoneworkonaverylargescale。Myfather’sexpensesforlossoftimeweretobepaid,andhewastohavehisshareofemploymentafterwardsinpreparingthestone。Hewasonlytooglad,therefore,toobeythedirectionswhichthelettercontained,andtoprepareatonceforhislongwalktothecountytown。
Consideringthetimeatwhichhereceivedtheletter,andthenecessityofrestingbeforeheattemptedtoreturn,itwasimpossibleforhimtoavoidbeingawayfromhomeforonenight,atleast。Heproposedtome,incaseIdislikedbeingleftaloneintheBlackCottage,tolockthedoorandtotakemetoMoorFarmtosleepwithanyoneofthemilkmaidswhowouldgivemeashareofherbed。IbynomeanslikedthenotionofsleepingwithagirlwhomIdidnotknow,andIsawnoreasontofeelafraidofbeingleftaloneforonlyonenight;soIdeclined。Nothieveshadevercomenearus;ourpovertywassufficientprotectionagainstthem;andofotherdangerstherewerenonethateventhemosttimidpersoncouldapprehend。Accordingly,Igotmyfather’sdinner,laughingatthenotionofmytakingrefugeundertheprotectionofamilkmaidatMoorFarm。Hestartedforhiswalkassoonashehaddone,sayingheshouldtryandbebackbydinner—timethenextday,andleavingmeandmycatPollytotakecareofthehouse。
Ihadclearedthetableandbrightenedupthefire,andhadsatdowntomyworkwiththecatdozingatmyfeet,whenIheardthetramplingofhorses,and,runningtothedoor,sawMr。andMrs。