yet，withthisreinforcement，Idurstnotreturntothecamp，becauseIlearnedwewereindangerfrommorethaneighthundredpandoursandhussars，whowereintheplain。Ithereforedeterminedtotakealong，winding，butsecretroute，andhadthegoodfortunetocomesafetoquarterswithmyprisonersandfive—and—twentyloadedcarts。TheKingwasatdinnerwhenIenteredhistent。
Havingbeenabsentallnight，itwasimaginedIhadbeentaken，thataccidenthavinghappenedthesamedaytomanyothers。
TheinstantIentered，theKingdemandedifIreturnedsingly。"No，pleaseyourMajesty，"answeredI；"Ihavebroughtfive—and—twentyloadsofforage，andtwo—and—twentyprisoners，withtheirofficerandhorses。"
TheKingthencommandedmetositdown，andturninghimselftowardstheEnglishambassador，whowasnearhim，said，layinghishandonmyshoulder，"C’estunMatadordemajeunesse。"
Areconnoitringpartywas，atthesamemoment，inwaitingbeforehistent：heconsequentlyaskedmefewquestions，andtothosehedidask，Irepliedtrembling。Inafewminutesherosefromthetable，gaveaglanceattheprisoners，hungtheOrderofMeritroundmyneck，commandedmetogoandtakerepose，andsetoffwithhisparty。
Itiseasytoconceivetheembarrassmentofmysituation；myunpardonablenegligencedeservedthatIshouldhavebeenbroken，insteadofwhichIwasrewarded；aninstance，this，ofthegreatinfluenceofchanceontheaffairsoftheworld。Howmanygeneralshavegainedvictoriesbytheirveryerrors，whichhavebeenafterwardsattributedtotheirgenius！Itisevidentthesergeantofhussars，whoretookmeandmymenbybringinguphisparty，wasmuchbetterentitledthanmyselftotherecompenseIreceived。OnmanyoccasionshaveIsincemetwithdisgraceandpunishmentwhenI
deservedreward。Myinquietudelestthetruthshouldbediscovered，wasextreme，especiallyrecollectinghowmanypeoplewereinthesecret：andmyapprehensionswereincessant。
AsIdidnotwantmoney，Igavethesergeantstwentyducatseach，andthesoldiersone，inordertoinsuretheirsilence，which，beingafavouritewiththem，theyreadilypromised。I，however，wasdeterminedtodeclarethetruththeveryfirstopportunity，andthishappenedafewdaysafter。
Wewereonourmarch，andI，ascornet，wasattheheadofmycompany，whentheKing，advancing，beckonedmetocometohim，andbademetellhimexactlyhowtheaffairIhadsolatelybeenengagedinhappened。
ThequestionatfirstmadememistrustIwasbetrayed，butremarkingtheKinghadamildnessinhismanner，Ipresentlyrecoveredmyself，andrelatedtheexacttruth。Isawtheastonishmentofhiscountenance，butIatthesametimesawhewaspleasedwithmysincerity。Hespoketomeforhalfanhour，notasaKing，butasafather，praisedmycandour，andendedwiththefollowingwords，which，whileliferemains，Ishallneverforget："ConfideintheadviceIgiveyou；dependwhollyuponme，andIwillmakeyouaman。"Whoevercanfeel，mayimaginehowinfinitelymygratitudetowardstheKingwasincreased，bythishisgreatgoodness；fromthatmomentIhadnootherdesirethantoliveanddieforhisservice。
IsoonperceivedtheconfidencetheKinghadinmeafterthisexplanation，ofwhichIreceivedveryfrequentmarks，thefollowingwinter，atBerlin。Hepermittedmetobepresentathisconversationswiththeliteratiofhiscourt，andmystatewastrulyenviable。
Ireceivedthissamewintermorethanfivehundredducatsaspresents。Somuchhappinesscouldnotbutexcitejealousy，andthisbegantobemanifestoneveryside。Ihadtoolittledisguiseforacourtier，andmyheartwasmuchtooopenandfrank。
BeforeIproceed，Iwillhererelateanincidentwhichhappenedduringthelastcampaign，andwhichwill，nodoubt，bereadinthehistoryofFrederic。
OntheroutwhileretreatingthroughBohemia，theKingcametoKollin，withhishorse—guards，thecavalrypiquetsofthehead—
quarters，andthesecondandthirdbattalionsofguards。Wehadonlyfourfieldpieces，andoursquadronwasstationedinoneofthesuburbs。Ouradvanceposts，towardsevening，weredrivenbackintothetown，andthehussarsenteredpell—mell：theenemy’slighttroopsswarmedoverthecountry，andmycommandingofficersentmeimmediatelytoreceivetheKing’sorders。Aftermuchsearch，I
foundhimatthetopofasteeple，withatelescopeinhishand。
NeverdidIseehimsodisturbedorundecidedasonthisoccasion。
Orderswereimmediatelygiventhatweshouldretreatthroughthecity，intotheoppositesuburb，whereweweretohalt，butnotunsaddle。
Wehadnotbeenherelongbeforeamostheavyrainfell，andthenightbecameexceedinglydark。MycousinTrenckmadehisapproachaboutnineintheevening，withhispandourandjanissarymusic，andsetfiretoseveralhouses。Theyfoundwewereinthesuburb，andbegantofireuponusfromthecitywindows。Thetumultbecameextreme：thecitywastoofullforustore—enter：thegatewasshut，andtheyfiredfromaboveatuswithourfield—pieces。Trenckhadletinthewatersuponus，andwewereuptothegirthsbymidnight，andalmostindespair。Welostsevenmen，andmyhorsewaswoundedintheneck。
TheKing，andallofus，hadcertainlybeenmadeprisonershadmycousin，ashehassincetoldme，beenabletocontinuetheassaulthehadbegun：butacannonballhavingwoundedhiminthefoot，hewascarriedoff，andthepandoursretired。ThecorpsofNassauarrivednextdaytoouraid；wequittedKollin，andduringthemarchtheKingsaidtome，"Yourcousinhadnearlyplayedusamaliciouspranklastnight，butthedeserterssayheiskilled。"Hethenaskedwhatourrelationshipwas，andthereourconversationended。
CHAPTERIII。
ItwasaboutthemiddleofDecemberwhenwecametoBerlin，whereI
wasreceivedwithopenarms。Ibecamelesscautiousthanformerly，and，perhaps，morenarrowlyobserved。Alieutenantofthefootguards，whowasapublicGanymede，andagainstwhomIhadthatnaturalantipathyandabhorrenceIhaveforallsuchwretches，havingindulgedhimselfinsomeveryimpertinentjokesonthesecretofmyamour，Ibestowedonhimtheepithethedeserved：wedrewourswords，andhewaswounded。OntheSundayfollowingIpresentedmyselftopaymyrespectstohisMajestyontheparade，whosaidtomeashepassed，"Thestormandthethundershallrendyourheart；
beware！"{1}Headdednothingmore。
SomelittletimeafterIwasafewminutestoolateontheparade；
theKingremarkedit，andsentme，underarrest，tothefoot—guardatPotzdam。WhenIhadbeenhereafortnight，ColonelWartenslebencame，andadvisedmetopetitionforpardon。Iwasthentoomuchanoviceinthemodesofthecourttofollowhiscounsel，nordidI
evenremarkthepersonwhogaveitmewashimselfamostsubtlecourtier。IcomplainedbitterlythatIhadsolongbeendeprivedofliberty，forafaultwhichwasusuallypunishedbythree，or，atmost，sixdays’arrest。HereaccordinglyIremained。
Eightdaysafter，theKingbeingcometoPotzdam，IwassentbyGeneralBourketoBerlin，tocarrysomeletters，butwithouthavingseentheKing。OnmyreturnIpresentedmyselftohimontheparade；andasoursquadronwasgarrisonedatBerlin，Iasked，"DoesitpleaseyourMajestythatIshouldgoandjoinmycorps？""Whencecameyou？"answeredhe。"FromBerlin。""AndwherewereyoubeforeyouwenttoBerlin？""Underarrest。""Thenunderarrestyoumustremain！"
IdidnotrecovermylibertytillthreedaysbeforeourdepartureforSilesia，towardswhichwemarched，withtheutmostspeed，inthebeginningofMay，tocommenceoursecondcampaign。
HereImustrecountaneventwhichhappenedthatwinter，whichbecamethesourceofallmymisfortunes，andtowhichImustentreatmyreaderswillpaytheutmostattention；sincethiserror，ifinnocencecanbeerror，wasthecausethatthemostfaithfulandthebestofsubjectsbecamebewilderedinscenesofwretchedness，andwasthevictimofmisery，fromhisnineteenthtothesixtiethyearofhisage。Idarepresumethatthistruenarrative，supportedbytestimoniesthemostauthentic，willfullyvindicatemypresenthonourandmyfuturememory。
Francis，BaronofTrenck，wasthesonofmyfather’sbrother，consequentlymycousingerman。Ishallspeak，hereafter，ofthesingulareventsofhislife。BeingacommanderofpandoursintheAustrianservice，andgrievouslywoundedatBavaria，intheyear1743，hewrotetomymother，informingherheintendedme，hereldestson，forhisuniversallegatee。Thisletter，towhichI
returnednoanswer，wassenttomeatPotzdam。Iwassosatisfiedwithmysituation，andhadsuchnumerousreasonssotobe，consideringthekindnesswithwhichtheKingtreatedme，thatI
wouldnothaveexchangedmygoodfortuneforallthetreasuresoftheGreatMogul。
Onthe12thofFebruary，1744，beingatBerlin，IwasincompanywithCaptainJaschinsky，commanderofthebodyguard，thecaptainofwhichranksascolonelinthearmy，togetherwithLieutenantStudnitz，andCornetWagnitz。Thelatterwasmyfieldcomrade，andisatpresentcommander—generalofthecavalryofHesseCassel。TheAustrianTrenckbecamethesubjectofconversation，andJaschinskyaskedifIwerehiskinsman。Ianswered，yes，andimmediatelymentionedhishavingmademehisuniversalheir。"Andwhatanswerhaveyoureturned？"saidJaschinsky。——"Noneatall。"
Thewholecompanythenobservedthat，inacaselikethepresent，I
wasmuchtoblamenottoanswer；thattheleastIcoulddowouldbetothankhimforhisgoodwishes，andentreatacontinuanceofthem。
Jaschinskyfurtheradded，"DesirehimtosendyousomeofhisfineHungarianhorsesforyourownuse，andgivemetheletter；Iwillconveyittohim，bymeansofMr。Bossart，legationcounselloroftheSaxonembassy；butonconditionthatyouwillgivemeoneofthehorses。Thiscorrespondenceisafamily，andnotastateaffair；I
willmakemyselfresponsiblefortheconsequences。"
Iimmediatelytookmycommander’sadvice，andbegantowrite；andhadthosewhosuspectedmethoughtpropertomaketheleastinquiryintothesecircumstances，thefourwitnesseswhoreadwhatIwrotecouldhaveattestedmyinnocence，andrendereditindubitable。I
gavemyletteropentoJaschinsky，whosealedandsentithimself。
Imustomitnoneoftheincidentsconcerningthisletter，itbeingthesolecauseofallmysufferings。Ishallthereforehererelateaneventwhichwasthefirstoccasionoftheunjustsuspicionsentertainedagainstme。
Oneofmygrooms，withtwoledhorses，was，amongmanyothers，takenbythepandoursofTrenck。WhenIreturnedtothecamp，IwastoaccompanytheKingonareconnoitringparty。Myhorsewastootired，andIhadnoother：Iinformedhimofmyembarrassment，andhisMajestyimmediatelymademeapresentofafineEnglishcourser。
Somedaysafter，Iwasexceedinglyastonishedtoseemygroomreturn，withmytwohorses，andapandourtrumpeter，whobroughtmealetter，containingnearlythefollowingwords：—
"TheAustrianTrenckisnotatwarwiththePrussianTrenck，but，onthecontrary，ishappytohaverecoveredhishorsesfromhishussars，andtoreturnthemtowhomtheyfirstbelonged，"&c。
IwentthesamedaytopaymyrespectstotheKing，who，receivingmewithgreatcoldness，said，"Sinceyourcousinhasreturnedyourownhorses，youhavenomoreneedofmine。"
Thereweretoomanywhoenviedmetosupposethesewordswouldescaperepetition。ThereturnofthehorsesseemsinfinitelytohaveincreasedthatsuspicionFredericentertainedagainstme，andthereforebecameoneoftheprincipalcausesofmymisfortunes：itisforthisreasonthatIdwelluponthisandsuchlikesmallincidents，theybeingnecessaryformyownjustification，and，wereitpossible，forthatoftheKing。Myinnocenceis，indeed，atpresentuniversallyacknowledgedbythecourt，thearmy，andthewholenation；whoallmentiontheinjusticeIsufferedwithpity，andthefortitudewithwhichitwasenduredwithsurprise。
WemarchedforSilesia，toenteronoursecondcampaign：which，tothePrussians，wasasbloodyandmurderousasitwasglorious。
TheKing’shead—quarterswerefixedattheconventofKamentz，wherewerestedfourteendays，andthearmyremainedincantonments。
PrinceCharles，insteadoffollowingusintoBohemia，hadtheimprudencetooccupytheplainofStrigau，andwealreadyconcludedhisarmywasbeaten。Whoeveriswellacquaintedwithtactics，andthePrussianmanoeuvres，willeasilyjudge，withouttheaidofcalculationorwitchcraft，whetherawellorill—disciplinedarmy，inanopenplain，oughttobevictorious。
Thearmyhastilyleftitscantonments，andintwenty—fourhourswasinorderofbattle；andonthe14thofJune，eighteenthousandbodieslaystretchedontheplainofStrigau。ThealliedarmiesofAustriaandSaxonyweretotallydefeated。
Thebodyguardwasontheright；andprevioustotheattack，theKingsaidtooursquadron，"Provetoday，mychildren，thatyouaremybodyguard，andgivenoSaxonquarter。"
Wemadethreeattacksonthecavalry，andtwoontheinfantry。
Nothingcouldwithstandasquadronlikethis，whichformen，horses，courage，andexperience，wasassuredlythefirstintheworld。Ourcorpsalonetooksevenstandardsandfivepairsofcolours，andinlessthananhourtheaffairwasover。
Ireceivedapistolshotinmyrighthand，myhorsewasdesperatelywounded，andIwasobligedtochangehimonthethirdcharge。ThedayafterthebattlealltheofficerswererewardedwiththeOrderofMerit。Formyownpart，Iremainedfourweeksamongthewounded，atSchweidnitz，wherethereweresixteenthousandmenunderthetortureofthearmysurgeons，manyofwhomhadnottheirwoundsdressedtillthethirdday。
IwasnearthreemonthsbeforeIrecoveredtheuseofmyhand：I
neverthelessrejoinedmycorps，continuedtoperformmyduty，andasusualaccompaniedtheKingwhenhewenttoreconnoitre。Forsometimepasthehadplacedconfidenceinme，andhiskindnesstowardsmecontinuallyincreased，whichraisedmygratitudeeventoenthusiasm。
Ialsoperformedtheserviceofadjutantduringthiscampaign，acircumstantialaccountofwhichnopersonisbetterenabledtowritethanmyself，Ihavingbeenpresentatallthatpassed。Iwasthescholarofthegreatestmastertheartofwareverknew，andwhobelievedmeworthytoreceivehisinstructions；butthevolumeIamwritingwouldbeinsufficienttocontainallthatpersonallyrelatestomyself。
Imustherementionanadventurethathappenedatthistime，andwhichwillshowtheartofthegreatFredericinformingyouthforhisservice，anddevotedlyattachingthemtohisperson。
Iwasexceedinglyfondofhunting，inwhich，notwithstandingitwasseverelyforbidden，Iindulgedmyself。Ionedayreturned，ladenwithpheasants；butjudgemyastonishmentandfearswhenIsawthearmyhaddecamped，andthatitwaswithdifficultythatIcouldovertaketherear—guard。
Inthismydistress，Iappliedtoanofficerofhussars，whoinstantlylentmehishorse，bytheaidofwhichIrejoinedmycorps，whichalwaysmarchedasthevanguard。Mountingmyownhorse，Itremblinglyrodetotheheadofmydivision，whichitwasmydutytoprecede。TheKing，however，hadremarkedmyabsence，orratherhadbeenremindedofitbymysuperiorofficer，who，forsometimepast，hadbecomemyenemy。
Justasthearmyhaltedtoencamp，theKingrodetowardsme，andmadeasignalformetoapproach，and，seeingmyfearsinmycountenance，said，"What，areyoujustreturnedfromhunting？"
"Yes，yourMajesty。Ihope——"Hereinterruptingme，headded，"Well，well，forthistime，Ishalltakenofurthernotice，rememberingPotzdam；but，however，letmefindyoumoreattentivetoyourduty。"
Soendedthisaffair，forwhichIdeservedtohavebeenbroken。I
mustremindmyreadersthattheKingmeantbythewordsrememberingPotzdam，herememberedIhadbeenpunishedtooseverelythewinterbefore，andthatmypresentpardonwasintendedasacompensation。
Thiswasindeedtothinkandactgreatly；thiswasindeedthetrueartofforminggreatmen：anartmuchmoreeffectualthanthatofferociousgenerals，whothreatensubalternswithimprisonmentandchainsoneveryslightoccasion；and，whileindulgingalltherigoursofmilitarylaw，makenodistinctionofmindsorofmen。
Frederic，onthecontrary，sometimespardonedthefailingsofgenius，whilemechanicsoulshemechanicallypunished，accordingtotheveryletterofthelawsofwar。
Ishallfurtherremark，theKingtooknomorenoticeofmylatefault，exceptthatsometimes，whenIhadthehonourtodinewithhim，hewouldridiculepeoplewhoweretoooftenatthechase，orwhoweresocholericthattheytookoccasiontoquarrelfortheleasttrifle。
Thecampaignpassedindifferentmanoeuvres，marches，andcountermarches。Ourcorpswasthemostfatigued，asbeingencampedroundtheKing’stent，thestationofwhichwascentral，andaslikewisehavingthecareofthevanguard；wewerethereforeobligedtobeginourmarchtwohourssoonerthantheremainderofthearmy，thatwemightbeinourplace。WealsoaccompaniedtheKingwheneverhewenttoreconnoitre，tracedthelinesofencampment，ledthehorsetowater，inspectedthehead—quarters，andregulatedthemarchandencampment，accordingtotheKing’sorders；theperformanceofallwhichrobbedusofmuchrest，webeingbutsixofficerstoexecutesomanydifferentfunctions。
Stillfurther，weoftenexecutedtheofficeofcouriers，tobeartheroyalcommandstodetachments。TheKingwasparticularlycarefulthattheofficersofhisguards，whomheintendedshouldbecomeexcellentintheartoftactics，shouldnotbeidleinhisschool。
Itwasnecessarytodomuchinorderthatmuchmightbelearnt。
Labour，vigilance，activity，theloveofgloryandtheloveofhiscountry，animatedallhisgenerals；intowhom，itmaybesaid，heinfusedhisspirit。
InthisschoolIgainedinstruction，andherealreadywasIselectedasonedesignedtoinstructothers；yet，inmyfortiethyear，agreatgeneralatViennatoldme，"MydearTrenck，ourdisciplinewouldbetoodifficultforyoutolearn；forwhich，indeed，youaretoofaradvancedinlife。"AgreeabletothiswisedecisionwasI
madeanAustrianinvalid，andaninvalidhavealwaysremained；ajudgmentlikethiswouldhavebeenlaughedat，mostcertainly，atBerlin。
IfImistakenot，thefamousbattleofSoor，orSorau，wasfoughtonthe14thdayofSeptember。TheKinghadsentsomanydetachmentsintoSaxony，Bohemia，andSilesia，thatthemainarmydidnotconsistofmorethantwenty—fivethousandmen。Neglectingadvice，andobstinateinjudginghisenemybynumbers，andnotaccordingtotheexcellenceofdiscipline，andotheraccidents，PrinceCharles，blindtotherealstrengthofthePrussianarmies，hadenclosedthissmallnumberofPomeranianandBrandenburgregiments，withmorethaneighty—sixthousandmen，intendingtotakethemallprisoners。
Itwillsoonbeseenfrommynarrativewithwhatkindofsecrecyhisplanwaslaidandexecuted。
TheKingcameintomytentaboutmidnight；ashealsodidintothatofalltheofficers，toawakenthem；hisorderswere，"Secretlytosaddle，leavethebaggageintherear，andthatthemenshouldstandreadytomountatthewordofcommand。"
LieutenantStudnitzandmyselfattendedtheKing，whowentinperson，andgavedirectionsthroughthewholearmy；meantime，breakofdaywasexpectedwithanxiety。
Oppositethedefilethroughwhichtheenemywastomarchtotheattackeightfield—pieceswereconcealedbehindahill。TheKingmustnecessarilyhavebeeninformedofthewholeplanoftheAustriangeneral，forhehadcalledintheadvancedpostsfromtheheights，thathemightlullhimintosecurity，andmakehimimagineweshouldbesurprisedinthemidstofsleep。
ScarcelydidbreakofdayappearbeforetheAustrianartillery，situatedupontheheights，begantoplayuponourcamp，andtheircavalrytomarchthroughthedefiletotheattack。
Assuddenlywereweinbattlearray；forinlessthantenminutesweourselvesbegantheattack，notwithstandingthesmallnessofournumber，thewholearmyonlycontainingfiveregimentsofcavalry。
Wefellwithsuchfuryupontheenemy（whoatthistimewerewhollyemployedinformingtheirmenatthemouthofthedefile，andthatslowly，littleexpectingsosuddenandviolentacharge），thatwedrovethembackintothedefile，wheretheypresseduponeachotherincrowds；theKinghimselfstoodreadytounmaskhiseightfield—
pieces，andadreadfulandbloodyslaughterensuedinthisnarrowplace；fromwhichtheenemyhadnotthepowertoretreat。Thissingleincidentgainedthebattle，anddeceivedalltimehopesofPrinceCharles。
Nadasti，Trenck，andthelighttroops，senttoattackourrear，wereemployedinpillagingthecamp。TheferociousCroatsmetnoopposition，whilethistheirerrormadeourvictorymoresecure。Itdeservestobenoticedthat，whenadvicewasbroughttotheKingthattheenemyhadfallenuponandwereplunderingthecamp，hisanswerwas，"Somuchthebetter；theyhavefoundthemselvesemployment，andwillbenoimpedimenttoourmaindesign。"
Ourvictorywascomplete，butallourbaggagewaslost；theheadquarters，utterlyundefended，weretotallystripped；andTrenckhad，forhispartofthebooty，theKing’stentandhisserviceofplate。
Ihavementionedthiscircumstancehere，becausethat，intheyear1740，mycousinTrenck，havingfallenintothepowerofhisenemies，whohadinstitutedalegal，processagainsthim，wasaccused，bysomevillanouswretches，ofhavingsurprisedtheKinginbedatthebattleofSorau，andofhavingafterwardsreleasedhimforabribe。
Whatwasstillworse，theyhiredacommonwoman，anativeofBrunn，whopretendedshewasthedaughterofMarshalSchwerin，togiveinevidencethatsheherselfwaswiththeKingwhenTrenckenteredhistent，whomheimmediatelymadeprisoner，andasimmediatelyreleased。
TothispartoftheprosecutionImyself，aneye—witness，cananswer：thethingwasfalseandimpossible。Hewasinformedoftheintendedattack。IaccompaniedthewatchfulKingfrommidnighttillfourinthemorning，whichtimeheemployedinridingthroughthecamp，andmakingthenecessarypreparationstoreceivetheenemy；
andtheactionbeganatfive。TrenckcouldnottaketheKinginbed，forthebattlewasalmostgainedwhenheandhispandoursenteredthecampandplunderedthehead—quarters。
AsforthetaleofMissSchwerin，itisonlyfittobetoldbyschoolboys，orexaminedbytheInquisition，andwasveryunworthyofmakingpartofalegalprosecutionagainstaninnocentmanatVienna。
Thisincident，however，issoremarkablethatIshallgiveinthisworkafartheraccountofmykinsman，andwhatwascalledhiscriminalprocess，atreadingwhichtheworldwillbeastonished。Myownhistoryissoconnectedwithhisthatthisisnecessary，andthemoresobecausetherearemanyignorantorwickedpeopleatVienna，whobelieve，oraffirm，TrenckhadactuallytakentheKingofPrussiaprisoner。
NeveryetwasthereatraitorofthenameofTrenck；andIhopetoprove，intheclearestmanner，theAustrianTrenckasfaithfullyservedtheEmpress—QueenasthePrussianTrenckdidFrederic，hisKing。MariaTheresa，speakingtomeofhimsometimeafterhisdeath，andthesnaresthathadbeenlaidforhim，said，"Yourkinsmanhasmadeabetterendthanwillbethefateofhisaccusersandjudges。"
Ofthismorehereafter：Iapproachthatepochwhenmymisfortunesbegan，andwhenthesufferingsofmartyrdomattendedmefromyouthonwardtillmyhairsgrewgrey。