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  Artfulasshewas,Mrs。Tenbruggenfailedtoconcealamomentaryexpressionofreliefwhichbetrayeditself,partlyinhermanner,partlyinherface。Shehadascertained,toherowncompletesatisfaction,thatmyspeedydeparturewasaneventwhichmightbereliedon。
  "ButIhavenotyetansweredyou,"sheresumed。"Totellthetruth,Iameagertotrymyhandsonyou。Massage,asIpracticeit,wouldlightenyourweight,andrestoreyourfigure;Imayevensaywouldlengthenyourlife。Youwillthinkofme,oneofthesedays,won’tyou?Inthemeanwhile——yes!Iamhereinmyprofessionalcapacity。Severalinterestingcases;andoneveryremarkableperson,broughttodeath’sdoorbythedoctors;arichmanwhoisliberalinpayinghisfees。ThereismyquarrelwithLondonandLondoners。Someoftheirpapers,medicalnewspapers,ofcourse,declarethatmyfeesareexorbitant;andthereisatendencyamongthepatients——Imeanthepatientswhoarerollinginriches——tofollowtheleadofthenewspapers。Iamnowormtobetroddenon,inthatway。TheLondonpeopleshallwaitforme,untiltheymissme——and,whenIdogoback,theywillfindthefeesincreased。_My_fingersandthumbs,Mr。Governor,arenottobeinsultedwithimpunity。"
  MissJillgallnoddedherheadatme。Itwasaneloquentnod。
  "Admiremyspiritedfriend,"wastheinterpretationIputonit。
  Atthesametime,myprivatesentimentssuggestedthatMrs。
  Tenbruggen’sreplywastooperfectlysatisfactory,viewedasanexplanation。Mysuspicionswerebynomeanssetatrest;andI
  wasresolvednottoletthesubjectdropyet。"SpeakingofMr。
  Gracedieu,andofthechancesofhispartialrecovery,"Isaid,"doyouthinktheMinisterwouldbenefitbyMassage?"
  "Ihaven’tadoubtofit,ifyoucangetridofthedoctor。"
  "Youthinkhewouldbeanobstacleintheway?"
  "Therearesomemedicalmenwhoarehonorableexceptionstothegeneralrule;andhemaybeoneofthem,"Mrs。Tenbruggenadmitted。"Don’tbetoohopeful。Asadoctor,hebelongstothemosttyrannicaltrades—unioninexistence。MayImakeapersonalremark?"
  "Certainly。"
  "Ifindsomethinginyourmanner——praydon’tsupposethatIamangry——whichlookslikedistrust;Imean,distrustofMe。"
  MissJillgall’severreadykindnessinterferedinmydefense:
  "Oh,no,Elizabeth!Youarenotoftenmistaken;butindeedyouarewrongnow。Lookatmydistinguishedfriend。Iremembermycopybook,whenIwasasmallcreaturelearningtowrite,inEngland。Therewerefirstlinesthatwecopied,inbigletters,andoneofthemsaid,’DistrustIsMean。’Iknowayoungperson,whosenamebeginswithH,whoisonemassofmeanness。
  But"——excellentSelinapaused,andpointedtomewithagestureoftriumph——"nomeannessthere!"
  Mrs。TenbruggenwaitedtohearwhatIhadtosay,scornfullyinsensibletoMissJillgall’swell—meantinterruption。
  "Youarenotaltogethermistaken,"Itoldher。"Ican’tsaythatmymindisinastateofdistrust,butIownthatyoupuzzleme。"
  "How,ifyouplease?"
  "MayIpresumethatyouremembertheoccasionwhenwemetatMr。
  Gracedieu’shouse—door?YousawthatIfailedtorecognizeyou,andyourefusedtogiveyournamewhentheservantaskedforit。
  Afewdaysafterward,Iheardyou(quiteaccidentally)forbidMissJillgalltomentionyournameinmyhearing。Iamatalosstounderstandit。"
  Beforeshecouldanswerme,thechaisedrewupatthegateofthefarmhouse。Mrs。Tenbruggencarefullypromisedtoexplainwhathadpuzzledme,atthefirstopportunity。"Ifitescapesmymemory,"
  shesaid,"prayremindmeofit。"
  Ideterminedtoremindherofit。WhetherIcoulddependonhertotellmethetruth,mightbequiteanotherthing。
  CHAPTERXLVIII
  THEDECISIONOFEUNICE。
  EUNICEranouttomeetus,andopenedthegate。ShewasinstantlyfoldedinMissJillgall’sarms。Onherrelease,shecametome,eagerfornewsofherfather’shealth。WhenIhadcommunicatedallthatIthoughtitrighttotellherofthedoctor’slastreport,shenoticedMrs。Tenbruggen。Theappearanceofastrangerseemedtoembarrassher。IleftMissJillgalltointroducethemtoeachother。
  "DarlingEuneece,yourememberMrs。Tenbruggen’sname,Iamsure?
  Elizabeth,thisismysweetgirl;Imentionedherinmyletterstoyou。"
  "Ihopeshewillbe_my_sweetgirl,whenweknoweachotheralittlebetter。MayIkissyou,dear?Youhavelovelyeyes;butI
  amsorrytoseethattheydon’tlooklikehappyeyes。YouwantMammaTenbruggentocheeryou。Whatacharmingoldhouse!"
  SheputherarmroundEunice’swaistandledhertothehousedoor。Herenjoymentofthecreepersthattwinedtheirwayupthepillarsoftheporchwassimplyperfectionasapieceofacting。
  Whenthefarmer’swifepresentedherself,Mrs。Tenbruggenwassoirresistiblyamiable,andtooksuchflatteringnoticeofthechildren,thattheharmlessBritishmatronactuallyblushedwithpleasure。"I’msure,ma’am,youmusthavechildrenofyourown,"
  shesaid。Mrs。Tenbruggencasthereyesonthefloor,andsighedwithpatheticresignation。Asweetlittlefamily,andallcruellysweptawaybydeath。Iftheperformancemeantanything,itdidmostassuredlymeanthat。
  "Whatwonderfulself—possession!"somebodywhisperedinmyear。
  Thechildrenintheroomwerehealthy,well—behavedlittlecreatures——butthenameoftheinnocentoneamongthemwasSelina。
  Beforedinnerwewereshownoverthefarm。
  Thegoodwomanofthehouseledtheway,andMissJillgallandI
  accompaniedher。Thechildrenranoninfrontofus。StillkeepingpossessionofEunice,Mrs。Tenbruggenfollowedatsomedistancebehind。Ilookedback,afternoverylonginterval,andsawthataseparationhadtakenplace。Mrs。Tenbruggenpassedme,notlookingsopleasantlyasusual,joinedthechildren,andwalkedwithtwoofthem,handinhand,apatternofmaternalamiability。Idroppedbackalittle,andgaveEuniceanopportunityofjoiningme;havingpurposelylefthertoformherownopinion,withoutanyadverseinfluenceexercisedonmypart。
  "Isthatladyafriendofyours?"sheasked。"No;onlyanacquaintance。Whatdoyouthinkofher?"
  "IthoughtIshouldlikeheratfirst;shewassokind,andseemedtotakesuchaninterestinme。Butshesaidsuchstrangethings——askedifIwasreckonedlikemymother,andwhichofuswastheeldest,mysisterormyself,andwhetherweweremyfather’sonlytwochildren,andifoneofuswasmorehisfavoritethantheother。WhatIcouldtellher,Ididtell。ButwhenIsaidIdidn’tknowwhichofuswastheoldest,shegavemeanimpudenttaponthecheek,andsaid,’Idon’tbelieveyou,child,’andleftme。HowcanSelinabesofondofher?Don’tmentionittoanyoneelse;IhopeIshallneverseeheragain。"
  "Iwillkeepyoursecret,Eunice;andyoumustkeepmine。I
  entirelyagreewithyou。"
  "Youagreewithmeindislikingher?"
  "Heartily。"
  Wecouldsaynomoreatthattime。Ourfriendsinadvancewerewaitingforus。Wejoinedthematonce。
  IfIhadfeltanydoubtofthepurposewhichhadreallyinducedMrs。TenbruggentoleaveLondon,allfurtheruncertaintyonmypartwasatanend。ShehadsomevileinterestofherowntoservebyidentifyingMr。Gracedieu’sadoptedchild——butwhatthenatureofthatinterestmightbe,itwasimpossibletoguess。Thefuture,whenIthoughtofitnow,filledmewithdismay。Amoreutterlyhelplesspositionthanmineitwasnoteasytoconceive。
  TowarntheMinister,inhispresentcriticalstateofhealth,wassimplyimpossible。MyrelationswithHelenaforbademeeventoapproachher。And,asforSelina,shewaslittlelessthanameretoolinthehandsofherwell—belovedfriend。What,inGod’sname,wasItodo?
  Atdinner—timewefoundthemasterofthehousewaitingtobiduswelcome。
  Personallyspeaking,hepresentedaremarkablecontrasttothetypicalBritishfarmer。Hewasneitherbignorburly;hespokeEnglishaswellasIdid;andtherewasnothinginhisdresswhichwouldhavemadehimafitsubjectforapictureofrusticlife。Whenhespoke,hewasabletotalkonsubjectsunconnectedwithagriculturalpursuits;nordidIhearhimgrumbleabouttheweatherandthecrops。Itwaspleasanttoseethathiswifewasproudofhim,andthathewas,whatallfathersoughttobe,hischildren’sbestanddearestfriend。WhydoIdwellonthesedetails,relatingtoamanwhomIwasnotdestinedtoseeagain?
  OnlybecauseIhadreasontofeelgratefultohim。Whenmyspiritsweredepressedbyanxiety,hemademymindeasyaboutEunice,aslongassheremainedinhishouse。
  Thesocialarrangements,whenourmealwasover,fellofthemselvesintotherighttrain。
  MissJillgallwentupstairs,withthemotherandthechildren,toseethenurseryandthebedrooms。Mrs。Tenbruggendiscoveredabondofunionbetweenthefarmerandherself;theywerebothskilledplayersatbackgammon,andtheysatdowntotryconclusionsattheirfavoritegame。Withoutanywearisomenecessityforexcusesorstratagems,Eunicetookmyarmandledmetothewelcomeretirementofherownsitting—room。
  Icouldhonestlycongratulateher,whenIheardthatshewasestablishedatthefarmasamemberofthefamily。Whileshewasgovernesstothechildren,shewassafefromdangersthatmighthavethreatenedher,ifshehadbeencompelledbycircumstancestoreturntotheMinister’shouse。
  TheentryinherJournal,whichshewasanxiousthatIshouldread,wasplacedbeforemenext。
  Ifollowedthepoorchild’saccountofthefearfulnightthatshehadpassed,withaninterestthatheldmebreathlesstotheend。
  Aterribledream,whichhadimpressedasenseofitsrealityonthesleeperbyreachingitsclimaxinsomnambulism——thiswastheobviousexplanation,nodoubt;andarationalmindwouldnothesitatetoacceptit。Butarationalmindisnotauniversalgift,eveninacountrywhichpridesitselfontheidol—worshipofFact。Thosegoodfriendswhoarealwaysbetteracquaintedwithourfaults,failings,andweaknessesthanwecanpretendtobeourselves,hadlongsincediscoveredthatmynaturewassuperstitious,andmyimaginationlikelytomisleadmeinthepresenceofeventswhichencouragedit。Well!IwasweakenoughtorecoilfromthepurelyrationalviewofallthatEunicehadsuffered,andheard,andseen,onthefatefulnightrecordedinherJournal。GoodandEvilwalkthewaysofthisunintelligibleworld,onthesamefreeconditions。Ifwecling,asmanyofusdo,tothecomfortingbeliefthatdepartedspiritscanministertoearthlycreaturesforgood——canbefeltmovinginus,inatrainofthought,andseenasvisiblemanifestations,inadream——withwhatpretenseofreasoncanwedenythatthesamefreedomofsupernaturalinfluencewhichisconcededtothedepartedspirit,workingforgood,isalsopermittedtothedepartedspirit,workingforevil?Ifthegravecannotwhollypartmotherandchild,whenthemother’slifehasbeengood,doeseternalannihilationseparatethem,whenthemother’slifehasbeenwicked?No!Ifthedepartedspiritcanbringwithitablessing,thedepartedspiritcanbringwithitacurse。IdarednotconfesstoEunicethattheinfluenceofhermurderess—mothermight,asIthoughtpossible,havebeensupernaturallypresentwhensheheardtemptationwhisperinginherear;butIdarednotdenyittomyself。AllthatIcouldsaytosatisfyandsustainher,Ididsay。AndwhenIdeclared——withmywholeheartdeclared——thatthenoblepassionwhichhadelevatedherwholebeing,andhadtriumphedoverthesoresttrialsthatdesertioncouldinflict,wouldstilltriumphtotheend,Isawhope,inthatbraveandtrueheart,showingitsbrightpromiseforthefutureinEunice’seyes。
  SheclosedandlockedherJournal。Bycommonconsentwesoughtthereliefofchangingthesubject。EuniceaskedmeifitwasreallynecessarythatIshouldreturntoLondon。
  IshrankfromtellingherthatIcouldbeofnofurtherusetoherfather,whileheregardedmewithanenmitywhichIhadnotdeserved。ButIsawnoreasonforconcealingthatitwasmypurposetoseePhilipDunboyne。
  "Youtoldmeyesterday,"Iremindedher,"thatIwastosayyouhadforgivenhim。Doyoustillwishmetodothat?"
  "IndeedIdo!"
  "Haveyouthoughtofitseriously?Areyousureofnothavingbeenhurriedbyagenerousimpulseintosayingmorethanyoumean?"
  "Ihavebeenthinkingofit,"shesaid,"throughthewakefulhoursoflastnight——andmanythingsareplaintome,whichIwasnotsureofinthetimewhenIwassohappy。Hehascausedmethebitterestsorrowofmylife,buthecan’tundothegoodthatI
  owetohim。Hehasmadeabettergirlofme,inthetimewhenhislovewasmine。Idon’tforgetthat。Miserablyasithasended,I
  don’tforgetthat。"
  Hervoicetrembled;thetearsroseinhereyes。ItwasimpossibleformetoconcealthedistressthatIfelt。Thenoblecreaturesawit。"No,"shesaidfaintly;"Iamnotgoingtocry。Don’tlooksosorryforme。"Herhandpressedmyhandgently——_she_
  pitied_me。_WhenIsawhowshestruggledtocontrolherself,anddidcontrolherself,IdeclaretoGodIcouldhavegonedownonmykneesbeforeher。
  SheaskedtobeallowedtospeakofPhilipagain,andforthelasttime。
  "WhenyoumeetwithhiminLondon,hemayperhapsaskifyouhaveseenEunice。"
  "Mychild!heissuretoask。"
  "Breakittohimgently——butdon’tlethimdeceivehimself。Inthisworld,hemustneverhopetoseemeagain。"
  Itried——verygently——toremonstrate。"Atyourage,andathisage,"Isaid,"surelythereishope?"
  "Thereisnohope。"Shepressedherhandonherheart。"Iknowit,Ifeelit,here。"
  "Oh,Eunice,it’shardformetosaythat!"
  "Iwilltrytomakeiteasierforyou。SaythatIhaveforgivenhim——andsaynomore。"
  CHAPTERXLIX。
  THEGOVERNORONHISGUARD。
  AFTERleavingEunice,myonedesirewastobealone。Ihadmuchtothinkof,andIwantedanopportunityofrecoveringmyself。Onmywayoutofthehouse,insearchofthefirstsolitaryplacethatIcoulddiscover,Ipassedtheroominwhichwehaddined。
  Thedoorwasajar。BeforeIcouldgetbyit,Mrs。Tenbruggensteppedoutandstoppedme。
  "Willyoucomeinhereforamoment?"shesaid。"Thefarmerhasbeencalledaway,andIwanttospeaktoyou。"
  Veryunwillingly——buthowcouldIhaverefusedwithoutgivingoffense?——Ienteredtheroom。
  "Whenyounoticedmykeepingmynamefromyou,"Mrs。Tenbruggenbegan,"whileSelinawaswithus,youplacedmeinanawkwardposition。Ourlittlefriendisanexcellentcreature,buthertonguerunsawaywithhersometimes;Iamobligedtobecarefuloftakinghertooreadilyintomyconfidence。Forinstance,I
  havenevertoldherwhatmynamewasbeforeImarried。Won’tyousitdown?"
  Ihadpurposelyremainedstandingasahinttohernottoprolongtheinterview。Thehintwasthrownaway;Itookachair。
  "Selina’slettershadinformedme,"sheresumed,"thatMr。
  Gracedieuwasanervousinvalid。WhenIcametoEngland,IhadhopedtotrywhatMassagemightdotorelievehim。ThecureoftheirpopularpreachermighthaveadvertisedmethroughthewholeoftheCongregationalsect。ItwasessentialtomysuccessthatI
  shouldpresentmyselfasastranger。Icouldtrusttimeandchange,andmymarriedname(certainlynotknowntoMr。
  Gracedieu)tokeepupmyincognito。HewouldhaverefusedtoseemeifhehadknownthatIwasonceMissChance。"
  Ibegantobeinterested。
  Herewasanopportunity,perhaps,ofdiscoveringwhattheMinisterhadfailedtorememberwhenhehadbeenspeakingofthiswoman,andwhenIhadaskedifhehadeveroffendedher。Iwasespeciallycarefulinmakingmyinquiries。
  "IrememberhowyouspoketoMr。Gracedieu,"Isaid,"whenyouandhemet,longago,inmyrooms。Butsurelyyoudon’tthinkhimcapableofvindictivelyrememberingsomethoughtlesswords,whichescapedyousixteenorseventeenyearssince?"
  "Iamnotquitesuchafoolasthat,Mr。Governor。WhatIwasthinkingofwasanunpleasantcorrespondencebetweentheMinisterandmyself。BeforeIwassounfortunateastomeetwithMr。
  Tenbruggen,IobtainedachanceofemploymentinapublicInstitution,onconditionthatIincludedaclergymanamongmyreferences。KnowingnobodyelsewhomIcouldapplyto,IrashlywrotetoMr。Gracedieu,andreceivedoneofthosecoldandcruelrefusalswhichonlythestrictestreligiousprinciplecanproduce。Iwasmortallyoffendedatthetime;andifyourfriendtheMinisterhadbeenwithinmyreach——"Shepaused,andfinishedthesentencebyasignificantgesture。
  "Well,"Isaid,"heiswithinyourreachnow。"
  "Andoutofhismind,"sheadded。"Besides,one’ssenseofinjurydoesn’tlast(exceptinnovelsandplays)throughaseriesofyears。Idon’tpityhim——andifanopportunityofshakinghishighpositionamonghisadmiringcongregationpresenteditself,I
  daresayImightmakeamischievousreturnforhislettertome。
  Inthemeanwhile,wemaydropthesubject。Isupposeyouunderstand,now,whyIconcealedmynamefromyou,andwhyIkeptoutofthehousewhileyouwereinit。"
  Itwasplainenough,ofcourse。IfIhadknownheragain,orhadheardhername,ImighthavetoldtheMinisterthatMrs。
  TenbruggenandMissChancewereoneandthesame。AndifIhadseenherandtalkedwithherinthehouse,mymemorymighthaveshownitselfcapableofimprovement。Havingpolitelypresentedtheexpressionofmythanks,Irosetogo。
  Shestoppedmeatthedoor。
  "Onewordmore,"shesaid,"whileSelinaisoutoftheway。I
  needhardlytellyouthatIhavenottrustedherwiththeMinister’ssecret。YouandIare,asItakeit,theonlypeoplenowlivingwhoknowthetruthaboutthesetwogirls。Andwekeepouradvantage。"
  "Whatadvantage?"Iasked。
  "Don’tyouknow?"
  "Idon’tindeed。"
  "NomoredoI。Femalefolly,andaslipofthetongue;Iamoldandugly,butIamstillawoman。AboutMissEunice。Somebodyhastoldtheprettylittlefoolnevertotruststrangers。Youwouldhavebeenamused,ifyouhadheardthatslyyoungpersonprevaricatingwithme。Inonerespect,herappearancestrikesme。
  Sheisnotlikeeitherthewretchwhowashanged,orthepoorvictimwhowasmurdered。Canshebetheadoptedchild?Orisittheothersister,whomIhavenotseenyet?Oh,come!come!Don’ttrytolookasifyoudidn’tknow。Thatisreallytooridiculous。"
  "Youalludedjustnow,"Ianswered,"toour’advantage’inbeingtheonlypersonswhoknowthetruthaboutthetwogirls。Well,Mrs。Tenbruggen,Ikeep_my_advantage。"
  "Inotherwords,"sherejoined,"youleavemetomakethediscoverymyself。Well,myfriend,Imeantodoit!"
  Intheevening,myhotelofferedtometherefugeofwhichI
  stoodinneed。Icouldthink,forthefirsttimethatday,withoutinterruption。
  BeingresolvedtoseePhilip,Ipreparedmyselffortheinterviewbyconsultingmyextractsoncemore。Theletter,inwhichMrs。
  Tenbruggenfigures,inspiredmewiththehopeofprotectionforMr。Gracedieu,attainablethroughnolessapersonthanHelenaherself。
  Tobeginwith,shewouldcertainlysharePhilip’saversiontotheMasseuse,andherdislikeofMissJillgallwould,justaspossibly,extendtoMissJillgall’sfriend。ThehostilefeelingthussetupmightbetrustedtokeepwatchonMrs。Tenbruggen’sproceedings,withavigilancenotattainablebythecoarserobservationofaman。Intheevent,ofanimprovementintheMinister’shealth,IshouldhearofitbothfromthedoctorandfromMissJillgall,andinthatcaseIshouldinstantlyreturntomyunhappyfriendandputhimonhisguard。
  IstartedforLondonbytheearlytraininthemorning。
  MywayhomefromtheterminustookmepastthehotelatwhichtheelderMr。Dunboynewasstaying。Icalledonhim。Hewasreportedtobeengaged;thatistosay,immersedinhisbooks。TheaddressononeofPhilip’slettershadinformedmethathewasstayingatanotherhotel。Pursuingmyinquiriesinthisdirection,Imetwithaseveredisappointment。Mr。PhilipDunboynehadleftthehotelthatmorning;forwhatdestinationneitherthelandlordnorthewaitercouldtellme。
  Thenextday’spostbroughtwithittheinformationwhichIhadfailedtoobtain。MissJillgallwrote,informingmeinherstrongestlanguagethatPhilipDunboynehadreturnedtoHelena。
  IndignantSelinaadded:"Helenameanstomakehimmarryher;andIpromiseyousheshallfail,ifIcanstopit。"
  IntakingleaveofEunice,Ihadgivenhermyaddress;hadwarnedhertobecareful,ifsheandMrs。Tenbruggenhappenedtomeetagain,andhadbeggedhertowritetome,ortocometome,ifanythinghappenedtoalarmherinmyabsence。
  Intwodaysmore,IreceivedalinefromEunice,writtenevidentlyinthegreatestagitation。
  "Philiphasdiscoveredme。Hehasbeenhere,andhasinsistedonseeingme。Ihaverefused。Thegoodfarmerhassokindlytakenmypart。Icanwritenomore。"
  CHAPTERL。
  THENEWSFROMTHEFARM。
  WHENInextheardfromMissJillgall,theintroductorypartofherlettermerelyremindedmethatPhilipDunboynewasestablishedinthetown,andthatHelenawasindailycommunicationwithhim。IshalldoSelinanoinjusticeifmyextractbeginswithhersecondpage。
  "Youwillsympathize,Iamsure"(shewrites),"withtheindignationwhichurgedmetocallonPhilip,andtellhimthewaytothefarmhouse。ThinkofHelenabeingdeterminedtomarryhim,whetherhewantstoornot!Iamafraidthisisbadgrammar。
  Butthereareoccasionswhenevenacultivatedladyfailsinhergrammar,andalmostenviesthementheirprivilegeofswearingwhentheyareinarage。Mystateofmindistrulyindescribable。
  Griefmingleswithanger,whenItellyouthatmysweetEuneecehasdisappointedme,forthefirsttimesinceIhadthehappinessofknowingandadmiringher。Whatcanhavebeenthemotiveofherrefusaltoreceiveherpenitentlover?Isitpride?WearetoldthatSatanfellthroughpride。Euneecesatanic?Impossible!I
  feelinclinedtogoandaskherwhathashardenedherheartagainstapooryoungmanwhobitterlyregretshisownfolly。Doyouthinkitwasbadadvicefromthefarmerorhiswife?Inthatcase,Ishallexertmyinfluence,andtakeheraway。Youwoulddothesame,wouldn’tyou?
  "IamashamedtomentionthepoordearMinisterinapostscript。
  Thetruthis,Idon’tverywellknowwhatIamabout。Mr。
  Gracedieuisquiet,sleepsbetterthanhedid,eatswithakeenerappetite,givesnotrouble。But,alas,thatgloriousintellectisinastateofeclipse!Donotsuppose,becauseIwritefiguratively,thatIamnotsorryforhim。Heunderstandsnothing;heremembersnothing;hehasmyprayers。
  "Youmightcometousagain,ifyouwouldonlybesokind。Itwouldmakenodifferencenow;thepoormanissosadlyaltered。I
  mustadd,mostreluctantly,thatthedoctorrecommendsyourstayingathome。Betweenourselves,heislittlebetterthanacoward。Fancyhissaying;’No;wemustnotrunthatriskyet。’I
  ambarelyciviltohim,andnomore。
  "Inanyotheraffair(excusemefortroublingyouwithasecondpostscript),mysympathywithEuneecewouldhavepenetratedhermotives;Ishouldhavefeltwithherfeelings。ButIhaveneverbeeninlove;nogentlemangavemetheopportunitywhenIwasyoung。NowIammiddle—aged,neglecthasdoneitsdrearywork——myheartisanextinctcrater。Figurativeagain!Ihadbetterputmypenaway,andsayfarewellforthepresent。"
  MissJillgallmaynowgiveplacetoEunice。Thesameday’spostbroughtmebothletters。
  Ishouldbeunworthyindeedofthetrustwhichthisaffectionategirlhasplacedinme,ifIfailedtoreceiveherexplanationofherconducttowardPhilipDunboyne,asasacredsecretconfidedtomyfatherlyregard。Inthoselaterportionsofherletter,whicharenotaddressedtomeconfidentially,Eunicewritesasfollows:
  "Igetnews——andwhatheartbreakingnews!——ofmyfather,bysendingamessengertoSelina。ItismorethaneverimpossiblethatIcanputmyselfinthewayofseeingHelenaagain。ShehaswrittentomeaboutPhilip,inatonesoshockinglyinsolentandcruel,thatIhavedestroyedherletter。Philip’svisittothefarm,discoveredIdon’tknowhow,seemstohaveinfuriatedher。
  Sheaccusesmeofdoingallthatshemightherselfhavedoneinmyplace,andthreatensme——No!IamafraidofthewickedwhisperingsofthatsecondselfofmineifIthinkofit。TheywereneartotemptingmewhenIreadHelena’sletter。ButI