首页 >出版文学> The Law and the Lady>第30章
  "Thebestthingthatcanhappentothatunhappymanislikelytohappen,"hesaid。"Theonechangeinhimisachangethatthreatensparalysis。YoumayhearofhisdeathbeforeyougetbacktoEngland。"
  "AndAriel?"Iasked。
  "Quiteunaltered,"Benjaminanswered。"Perfectlyhappysolongassheiswith’theMaster。’FromallIcanhearofher,poorsoul,shedoesn’treckonDexteramongmoralbeings。Shelaughsattheideaofhisdying;andshewaitspatiently,inthefirmpersuasionthathewillrecognizeheragain。"
  Benjamin’snewssaddenedandsilencedme。Ilefthimtohisletter。
  CHAPTERL。
  THELASTOFTHESTORY。
  IntendaysmorewereturnedtoEngland,accompaniedbyBenjamin。
  Mrs。Macallan’shouseinLondonofferedusampleaccommodation。
  Wegladlyavailedourselvesofherproposal,whensheinvitedustostaywithheruntilourchildwasborn,andourplansforthefuturewerearranged。
  Thesadnewsfromtheasylum(forwhichBenjaminhadpreparedmymindatParis)reachedmesoonafterourreturntoEngland。
  MiserrimusDexter’sreleasefromtheburdenoflifehadcometohimbyslowdegrees。Afewhoursbeforehebreathedhislastheralliedforawhile,andrecognizedArielathisbedside。Hefeeblypronouncedhername,andlookedather,andaskedforme。
  Theythoughtofsendingforme,butitwastoolate。Beforethemessengercouldbedispatched,hesaid,withatouchofhisoldself—importance,"Silence,allofyou!mybrainsareweary;Iamgoingtosleep。"Heclosedhiseyesinslumber,andneverawokeagain。Soforthismantootheendcamemercifully,withoutgrieforpain!Sothatstrangeandmany—sidedlife——withitsguiltanditsmisery,itsfitfulflashesofpoetryandhumor,itsfantasticgayety,cruelty,andvanity——ranitsdestinedcourse,andfadedoutlikeadream!
  AlasforAriel!ShehadlivedfortheMaster——whatmorecouldshedo,nowtheMasterwasgone?Shecoulddieforhim。
  TheyhadmercifullyallowedhertoattendthefuneralofMiserrimusDexter——inthehopethattheceremonymightavailtoconvinceherofhisdeath。Theanticipationwasnotrealized;shestillpersistedindenyingthat"theMaster"hadlefther。Theywereobligedtorestrainthepoorcreaturebyforcewhenthecoffinwasloweredintothegrave;andtheycouldonlyremoveherfromthecemeterybythesamemeanswhentheburial—servicewasover。Fromthattimeherlifealternated,forafewweeks,betweenfitsofravingdeliriumandintervalsoflethargicrepose。Attheannualballgivenintheasylum,whenthestrictsuperintendenceofthepatientswasinsomedegreerelaxed,thealarmwasraised,alittlebeforemidnight,thatArielwasmissing。Thenurseinchargehadleftherasleep,andhadyieldedtothetemptationofgoingdownstairstolookatthedancing。
  Whenthewomanreturnedtoherpost,Arielwasgone。Thepresenceofstrangers,andtheconfusionincidentaltothefestival,offeredherfacilitiesforescapingwhichwouldnothavepresentedthemselvesatanyothertime。Thatnightthesearchforherprovedtobeuseless。Thenextmorningbroughtwithitthelasttouchingandterribletidingsofher。Shehadstrayedbacktotheburial—ground;andshehadbeenfoundtowardsunrise,deadofcoldandexposure,onMiserrimusDexter’sgrave。Faithfultothelast,ArielhadfollowedtheMaster!Faithfultothelast,ArielhaddiedontheMaster’sgrave!
  Havingwrittenthesesadwords,Iturnwillinglytoalesspainfultheme。
  EventshadseparatedmefromMajorFitz—David,afterthedateofthedinner—partywhichhadwitnessedmymemorablemeetingwithLadyClarinda。FromthattimeIheardlittleornothingoftheMajor;andIamashamedtosayIhadalmostentirelyforgottenhim——whenIwasremindedofthemodernDonJuanbytheamazingappearanceofwedding—cards,addressedtomeatmymother—in—law’shouse!TheMajorhadsettledinlifeatlast。
  And,morewonderfulstill,theMajorhadchosenasthelawfulrulerofhishouseholdandhimself——"thefutureQueenofSong,"
  theround—eyed,overdressedyoungladywiththestridentsopranovoice!
  Wepaidourvisitofcongratulationindueform;andwereallydidfeelforMajorFitz—David。
  TheordealofmarriagehadsochangedmygayandgallantadmirerofformertimesthatIhardlyknewhimagain。Hehadlostallhispretensionstoyouth:hehadbecome,hopelesslyandundisguisedly,anoldman。Standingbehindthechaironwhichhisimperiousyoungwifesatenthroned,helookedathersubmissivelybetweeneverytwowordsthatheaddressedtome,asifhewaitedforherpermissiontoopenhislipsandspeak。Wheneversheinterruptedhim——andshedidit,overandoveragain,withoutceremony——hesubmittedwithaseniledocilityandadmiration,atonceabsurdandshockingtosee。
  "Isn’tshebeautiful?"hesaidtome(inhiswife’shearing!)。
  "Whatafigure,andwhatavoice!Yourememberhervoice?It’saloss,mydearlady,anirretrievableloss,totheoperaticstage!
  Doyouknow,whenIthinkwhatthatgrandcreaturemighthavedone,IsometimesaskmyselfifIreallyhadanyrighttomarryher。Ifeel,uponmyhonorIfeel,asifIhadcommittedafraudonthepublic!"
  Asforthefavoredobjectofthisquaintmixtureofadmirationandregret,shewaspleasedtoreceivemegraciously,asanoldfriend。WhileEustacewastalkingtotheMajor,thebridedrewmeasideoutoftheirhearing,andexplainedhermotivesformarrying,withacandorwhichwaspositivelyshameless。
  "Youseewearealargefamilyathome,quiteunprovidedfor!"
  thisodiousyoungwomanwhisperedinmyear。"It’sallverywellaboutmybeinga’QueenofSong’andtherestofit。Lordblessyou,Ihavebeenoftenenoughtotheopera,andIhavelearnedenoughofmymusic—master,toknowwhatittakestomakeafinesinger。Ihaven’tthepatiencetoworkatitasthoseforeignwomendo:aparcelofbrazen—facedJezebels——Ihatethem!No!
  no!betweenyouandme,itwasagreatdealeasiertogetthemoneybymarryingtheoldgentleman。HereIam,providedfor——andthere’sallmyfamilyprovidedfor,too——andnothingtodobuttospendthemoney。Iamfondofmyfamily;I’magooddaughterandsister——_I_am!SeehowI’mdressed;lookatthefurniture:I
  haven’tplayedmycardsbadly,haveI?It’sagreatadvantagetomarryanoldman——youcantwisthimroundyourlittlefinger。
  Happy?Oh,yes!I’mquitehappy;andIhopeyouare,too。Whereareyoulivingnow?Ishallcallsoon,andhavealonggossipwithyou。Ialwayshadasortoflikingforyou,and(nowI’masgoodasyouare)Iwanttobefriends。"
  Imadeashortandcivilreplytothis;determininginwardlythatwhenshedidvisitmesheshouldgetnofurtherthanthehouse—door。Idon’tscrupletosaythatIwasthoroughlydisgustedwithher。Whenawomansellsherselftoaman,thatvilebargainisnonethelessinfamous(tomymind)becauseithappenstobemadeunderthesanctionoftheChurchandtheLaw。
  AsIsitatthedeskthinking,thepictureoftheMajorandhiswifevanishesfrommymemory——andthelastsceneinmystorycomesslowlyintoview。
  Theplaceismybedroom。Thepersons(both,ifyouwillbepleasedtoexcusethem,inbed)aremyselfandmyson。Heisalreadythreeweeksold;andheisnowlyingfastasleepbyhismother’sside。MygoodUncleStarkweatheriscomingtoLondontobaptizehim。Mrs。Macallanwillbehisgodmother;andhisgodfatherswillbeBenjaminandMr。Playmore。Iwonderwhethermychristeningwillpassoffmoremerrilythanmywedding?
  Thedoctorhasjustleftthehouse,insomelittleperplexityaboutme。Hehasfoundmerecliningasusual(latterly)inmyarm—chair;butonthisparticulardayhehasdetectedsymptomsofexhaustion,whichhefindsquiteunaccountableunderthecircumstances,andwhichwarnhimtoexerthisauthoritybysendingmebacktomybed。
  ThetruthisthatIhavenottakenthedoctorintomyconfidence。
  Therearetwocausesforthosesignsofexhaustionwhichhavesurprisedmymedicalattendant——andthenamesofthemare——AnxietyandSuspense。
  OnthisdayIhaveatlastsummonedcourageenoughtoperformthepromisewhichImadetomyhusbandinParis。Heisinformed,bythistime,howhiswife’sConfessionwasdiscovered。Heknows(onMr。Playmore’sauthority)thatthelettermaybemadethemeans,ifhesowillit,ofpubliclyvindicatinghisinnocenceinaCourtofLaw。And,lastandmostimportantofall,heisnowawarethattheConfessionitselfhasbeenkeptasealedsecretfromhim,outofcompassionateregardforhisownpeaceofmind,aswellasforthememoryoftheunhappywomanwhowasoncehiswife。
  ThesenecessarydisclosuresIhavecommunicatedtomyhusband——notbywordofmouth;whenthetimecame,Ishrankfromspeakingtohimpersonallyofhisfirstwife——butbyawrittenstatementofthecircumstances,takenmainlyoutofmylettersreceivedinParisfromBenjaminandMr。Playmore。HehasnowhadampletimetoreadallthatIhavewrittentohim,andtoreflectonitintheretirementofhisownstudy。Iamwaiting,withthefatalletterinmyhand——andmymother—in—lawiswaitinginthenextroomtome——tohearfromhisownlipswhetherhedecidestobreakthesealornot。
  Theminutespass;andstillwefailtohearhisfootsteponthestairs。MydoubtsastowhichwayhisdecisionmayturnaffectmemoreandmoreuneasilythelongerIwait。Theverypossessionoftheletter,inthepresentexcitedstateofmynerves,oppressesandrevoltsme。Ishrinkfromtouchingitorlookingatit。I
  moveitaboutrestlesslyfromplacetoplaceonthebed,andstillIcannotkeepitoutofmymind。Atlast,anoddfancystrikesme。Iliftuponeofthebaby’shands,andputtheletterunderit——andsoassociatethatdreadfulrecordofsinandmiserywithsomethinginnocentandprettythatseemstohallowandtopurifyit。
  Theminutespass;thehalf—hourlongerstrikesfromtheclockonthechimney—piece;andatlastIhearhim!Heknockssoftly,andopensthedoor。
  Heisdeadlypale:IfancyIcandetecttracesoftearsonhischeeks。Butnooutwardsignsofagitationescapehimashetakeshisseatbymyside。Icanseethathehaswaiteduntilhecouldcontrolhimself——formysake。
  Hetakesmyhand,andkissesmetenderly。
  "Valeria!"hesays;"letmeoncemoreaskyoutoforgivewhatI
  saidanddidinthebygonetime。IfIunderstandnothingelse,mylove,Iunderstandthis:Theproofofmyinnocencehasbeenfound;andIoweitentirelytothecourageandthedevotionofmywife!"
  Iwaitalittle,toenjoythefullluxuryofhearinghimsaythosewords——torevelintheloveandthegratitudethatmoistenhisdeareyesastheylookatme。ThenIrousemyresolution,andputthemomentousquestiononwhichourfuturedepends。
  "Doyouwishtoseetheletter,Eustace?"
  Insteadofansweringdirectly,hequestionsmeinhisturn。
  "Haveyougottheletterhere?"
  "Yes。"
  "Sealedup?"
  "Sealedup。"
  Hewaitsalittle,consideringwhatheisgoingtosaynextbeforehesaysit,"LetmebesurethatIknowexactlywhatitisIhavetodecide,"
  heproceeds。"SupposeIinsistonreadingtheletter——?"
  ThereIinterrupthim。Iknowitismydutytorestrainmyself。
  ButIcannotdomyduty。
  "Mydarling,don’ttalkofreadingtheletter!Pray,prayspareyourself——"
  Heholdsuphishandforsilence。
  "Iamnotthinkingofmyself,"hesays。"Iamthinkingofmydeadwife。IfIgiveupthepublicvindicationofmyinnocence,inmyownlifetime——ifIleavethesealoftheletterunbroken——doyousay,asMr。Playmoresays,thatIshallbeactingmercifullyandtenderlytowardthememoryofmywife?"
  "Oh,Eustace,therecannotbetheshadowofadoubtofit!"
  "ShallIbemakingsomelittleatonementforanypainthatImayhavethoughtlesslycausedhertosufferinherlifetime?"
  "Yes!yes!"
  "And,Valeria——shallIpleaseYou?"
  "Mydarling,youwillenchantme!"
  "Whereistheletter?"
  "Inyourson’shand,Eustace。"
  Hegoesaroundtotheothersideofthebed,andliftsthebaby’slittlepinkhandtohislips。Forawhilehewaitsso,insadandsecretcommunionwithhimself。Iseehismothersoftlyopenthedoor,andwatchhimasIamwatchinghim。Inamomentmoreoursuspenseisatanend。Withaheavysigh,helaysthechild’shandbackagainonthesealedletter;andbythatonelittleactionsays(asifinwords)tohisson——"IleaveittoYou!"
  Andsoitended!NotasIthoughtitwouldend;notperhapsasyouthoughtitwouldend。Whatdoweknowofourownlives?Whatdoweknowofthefulfillmentofourdearestwishes?Godknows——andthatisbest。
  MustIshutupthepaper?Yes。Thereisnothingmoreforyoutoreadorformetosay。
  Exceptthis——asapostscript。Don’tbearhardly,goodpeople,onthefolliesandtheerrorsofmyhusband’slife。Abuse_me_asmuchasyouplease。ButpraythinkkindlyofEustaceformysake。
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