"Half—pastthree。
"Oh,myhusband,Ihavedonethedeedwhichwillrelieveyouofthewifewhomyouhate!Ihavetakenthepoison——allofitthatwasleftinthepaperpacket,whichwasthefirstthatIfound。
Ifthisisnotenoughtokillme,Ihavemoreleftinthebottle。
"Tenminutespastfive。
"Youhavejustgone,aftergivingmemycomposingdraught。Mycouragefailedmeatthesightofyou。Ithoughttomyself,’Ifhelookatmekindly,IwillconfesswhatIhavedone,andlethimsavemylife。’Youneverlookedatmeatall。Youonlylookedatthemedicine。Iletyougowithoutsayingaword。
"Half—pastfive。
"Ibegintofeelthefirsteffectsofthepoison。Thenurseisasleepatthefootofmybed。Iwon’tcallforassistance;I
won’twakeher。Iwilldie。
"Half—pastnine。
"Theagonywasbeyondmyendurance——Iawokethenurse。Ihaveseenthedoctor。
"Nobodysuspectsanything。Strangetosay,thepainhasleftme;
Ihaveevidentlytakentoolittleofthepoison。Imustopenthebottlewhichcontainsthelargerquantity。Fortunately,youarenotnearme——myresolutiontodie,or,rather,myloathingoflife,remainsasbitterlyunalteredasever。Tomakesureofmycourage,Ihaveforbiddenthenursetosendforyou。Shehasjustgonedownstairsbymyorders。Iamfreetogetthepoisonoutofmydressing—case。
"Tenminutestoten。
"Ihadjusttimetohidethebottle(afterthenursehadleftme)
whenyoucameintomyroom。
"IhadanothermomentofweaknesswhenIsawyou。Ideterminedtogivemyselfalastchanceoflife。Thatistosay,Ideterminedtoofferyoualastopportunityoftreatingmekindly。Iaskedyoutogetmeacupoftea。If,inpayingmethislittleattention,youonlyencouragedmebyonefondwordoronefondlook,Iresolvednottotaketheseconddoseofpoison。
"Youobeyedmywishes,butyouwerenotkind。Yougavememytea,Eustace,asifyouweregivingadrinktoyourdog。Andthenyouwonderedinalanguidway(thinking,Isuppose,ofMrs。Beaulyallthetime),atmydroppingthecupinhandingitbacktoyou。
Ireallycouldnothelpit;myhand_would_tremble。Inmyplace,yourhandmighthavetrembledtoo——withthearsenicunderthebedclothes。Youpolitelyhoped,beforeyouwentaway?thattheteawoulddomegood——and,ohGod,youcouldnotevenlookatmewhenyousaidthat!Youlookedatthebrokenbitsofthetea—cup。
"TheinstantyouwereoutoftheroomItookthepoison——adoubledosethistime。
"Ihavealittlerequesttomakehere,whileIthinkofit。
"Afterremovingthelabelfromthebottle,andputtingitback,clean,inmydressing—case,itstruckmethatIhadfailedtotakethesameprecaution(intheearlymorning)withtheemptypaper—packet,bearingonitthenameoftheotherchemist。I
threwitasideonthecounterpaneofthebed,amongsomeotherloosepapers。myill—temperednursecomplainedofthelitter,andcrumpledthemallupandputthemawaysomewhere。Ihopethechemistwillnotsufferthroughmycarelessness。Praybearitinmindtosaythatheisnottoblame。
"Dexter——somethingremindsmeofMiserrimusDexter。HehasputyourDiarybackagaininthedrawer,andhepressesmeforananswertohisproposals。Hasthisfalsewretchanyconscience?Ifhehas,evenhewillsuffer——whenmydeathanswershim。
"Thenursehasbeeninmyroomagain。Ihavesentheraway。I
havetoldherIwanttobealone。
"Howisthetimegoing?Icannotfindmywatch。Isthepaincomingbackagainandparalyzingme?Idon’tfeelitkeenlyyet。
"Itmaycomeback,though,atanymoment。Ihavestilltoclosemyletterandtoaddressittoyou。And,besides,Imustsaveupmystrengthtohideitunderthepillow,sothatnobodymayfindituntilaftermydeath。
"Farewell,mydear。IwishIhadbeenaprettierwoman。Amorelovingwoman(towardyou)Icouldnotbe。EvennowIdreadthesightofyourdearface。Evennow,ifIallowedmyselftheluxuryoflookingatyou,Idon’tknowthatyoumightnotcharmmeintoconfessingwhatIhavedone——beforeitistoolatetosaveme。
"Butyouarenothere。Betterasitis!betterasitis!
"Oncemore,farewell!Behappierthanyouhavebeenwithme。I
loveyou,Eustace——Iforgiveyou。Whenyouhavenothingelsetothinkabout,thinksometimes,askindlyasyoucan,ofyourpoor,ugly"SARAMACALLAN。"*
NotebyMr。Playmore:
Thelostwordsandphrasessuppliedinthisconcludingportionoftheletteraresofewinnumberthatitisneedlesstomentionthem。Thefragmentswhichwerefoundaccidentallystucktogetherbythegum,andwhichrepresentthepartoftheletterfirstcompletelyreconstructed,beginatthephrase,"Ispokeofyoushamefully,Eustace;"andendwiththebrokensentence,"Ifinpayingmethislittleattention,youonlyencouragedmebyonefondwordoronefondlook,Iresolvednottotake——"Withtheassistancethusaffordedtous,thelaborofputtingtogethertheconcludinghalfoftheletter(dated"October20")wastrifling,comparedwiththealmostinsurmountabledifficultieswhichweencounteredindealingwiththescatteredwreckoftheprecedingpages。
CHAPTERXLVIII。
WHATELSECOULDIDO?
AssoonasIcoulddrymyeyesandcomposemyspiritsafterreadingthewife’spitiableanddreadfulfarewell,myfirstthoughtwasofEustace——myfirstanxietywastopreventhimfromeverreadingwhatIhadread。
Yes!tothisendithadcome。Ihaddevotedmylifetotheattainmentofoneobject;andthatobjectIhadgained。There,onthetablebeforeme,laythetriumphantvindicationofmyhusband’sinnocence;and,inmercytohim,inmercytothememoryofhisdeadwife,myonehopewasthathemightneverseeit!myonedesirewastohideitfromthepublicview!
Ilookedbackatthestrangecircumstancesunderwhichtheletterhadbeendiscovered。
Itwasallmydoing——asthelawyerhadsaid。Andyet,whatIhaddone,Ihad,sotospeak,doneblindfold。Themerestaccidentmighthavealteredthewholecourseoflaterevents。IhadoverandoveragaininterferedtocheckArielwhensheentreatedtheMasterto"tellherastory。"Ifshehadnotsucceeded,inspiteofmyopposition,MiserrimusDexter’slasteffortofmemorymightneverhavebeendirectedtothetragedyatGleninch。And,again,ifIhadonlyrememberedtomovemychair,andsotogiveBenjaminthesignaltoleaveoff,hewouldneverhavewrittendowntheapparentlysenselesswordswhichhaveledustothediscoveryofthetruth。
Lookingbackateventsinthisframeofmind,theverysightofthelettersickenedandhorrifiedme。Icursedthedaywhichhaddisinterredthefragmentsofitfromtheirfoultomb。JustatthetimewhenEustacehadfoundhiswearywaybacktohealthandstrength;justatthetimewhenwewereunitedagainandhappyagain——whenamonthortwomoremightmakeusfatherandmother,aswellashusbandandwife——thatfrightfulrecordofsufferingandsinhadrisenagainstuslikeanavengingspirit。Thereitfacedmeonthetable,threateningmyhusband’stranquillity;
nay,forallIknew(ifhereaditatthepresentcriticalstageofhisrecovery)eventhreateninghislife!
Thehourstruckfromtheclockonthemantelpiece。ItwasEustace’stimeforpayingmehismorningvisitinmyownlittleroom。Hemightcomeinatanymoment;hemightseetheletter;hemightsnatchtheletteroutofmyhand。Inafrenzyofterrorandloathing,Icaughtupthevilesheetsofpaperandthrewthemintothefire。
Itwasafortunatethingthatacopyonlyhadbeensenttome。Iftheoriginalletterhadbeeninitsplace,IbelieveIshouldhaveburnedtheoriginalatthatmoment。
Thelastmorselofpaperhadbeenbarelyconsumedbytheflameswhenthedooropened,andEustacecamein。
Heglancedatthefire。Theblackcindersoftheburnedpaperwerestillfloatingatthebackofthegrate。Hehadseentheletterbroughttomeatthebreakfast—table。DidhesuspectwhatIhaddone?Hesaidnothing——hestoodgravelylookingintothefire。Thenheadvancedandfixedhiseyesonme。IsupposeIwasverypale。ThefirstwordshespokewerewordswhichaskedmeifIfeltill。
Iwasdeterminednottodeceivehim,eveninthemeresttrifle。
"Iamfeelingalittlenervous,Eustace,"Ianswered;"thatisall。"
Helookedatmeagain,asifheexpectedmetosaysomethingmore。Iremainedsilent。Hetookaletteroutofthebreast—pocketofhiscoatandlaiditonthetablebeforeme——justwheretheConfessionhadlainbeforeIdestroyedit!
"Ihavehadalettertoothismorning,"hesaid。"And_I,_
Valeria,havenosecretsfrom_you。_"
Iunderstoodthereproachwhichmyhusband’slastwordsconveyed;
butImadenoattempttoanswerhim。
"Doyouwishmetoreadit?"wasallIsaidpointingtotheenvelopewhichhehadlaidonthetable。
"IhavealreadysaidthatIhavenosecretsfromyou,"herepeated。"Theenvelopeisopen。Seeforyourselfwhatisinclosedinit。"
Itookout——notaletter,butaprintedparagraph,cutfromaScotchnewspaper。
"Readit,"saidEustace。
Ireadasfollows:
"STRANGEDOINGSATGLENINCH——AromanceinreallifeseemstobeincourseofprogressatMr。Macallan’scountry—house。Privateexcavationsaretakingplace——ifourreaderswillpardonustheunsavoryallusion——atthedust—heap,ofallplacesintheworld!
Somethinghasassuredlybeendiscovered;butnobodyknowswhat。
Thisaloneiscertain:ForweekspasttwostrangersfromLondon(superintendedbyourrespectedfellow—citizen,Mr。Playmore)
havebeenatworknightanddayinthelibraryatGleninch,withthedoorlocked。Willthesecreteverberevealed?AndwillitthrowanylightonamysteriousandshockingeventwhichourreadershavelearnedtoassociatewiththepasthistoryofGleninch?PerhapswhenMr。Macallanreturns,hemaybeabletoanswerthesequestions。Inthemeantimewecanonlyawaitevents。"
Ilaidthenewspapersliponthetable,innoveryChristianframeofmindtowardthepersonsconcernedinproducingit。SomereporterinsearchofnewshadevidentlybeenpryingaboutthegroundsatGleninch,andsomebusy—bodyintheneighborhoodhadinallprobabilitysentthepublishedparagraphtoEustace。
Entirelyatalosswhattodo,Iwaitedformyhusbandtospeak。
Hedidnotkeepmeinsuspense——hequestionedmeinstantly。
"Doyouunderstandwhatitmeans,Valeria?"
Iansweredhonestly——IownedthatIunderstoodwhatitmeant。
Hewaitedagain,asifheexpectedmetosaymore。Istillkepttheonlyrefugelefttome——therefugeofsilence。
"AmItoknownomorethanIknownow?"heproceeded,afteraninterval。"Areyounotboundtotellmewhatisgoingoninmyownhouse?"
Itisacommonremarkthatpeople,iftheycanthinkatall,thinkquicklyinemergencies。Therewasbutonewayoutoftheembarrassingpositioninwhichmyhusband’slastwordshadplacedme。Myinstinctsshowedmetheway,Isuppose。Atanyrate,I
tookit。
"Youhavepromisedtotrustme,"Ibegan。
Headmittedthathehadpromised。
"Imustaskyou,foryourownsake,Eustace,totrustmeforalittlewhilelonger。Iwillsatisfyyou,ifyouwillonlygivemetime。"
Hisfacedarkened。"HowmuchlongermustIwait?"heasked。
Isawthatthetimehadcomefortryingsomestrongerformofpersuasionthanwords。
"Kissme,"Isaid,"beforeItellyou!"
Hehesitated(solikeahusband!)。AndIpersisted(solikeawife!)。Therewasnochoiceforhimbuttoyield。Havinggivenmemykiss(notover—graciously),heinsistedoncemoreonknowinghowmuchlongerIwantedhimtowait。
"Iwantyoutowait,"Ianswered,"untilourchildisborn。"
Hestarted。Myconditiontookhimbysurprise。Igentlypressedhishand,andgavehimalook。Hereturnedthelook(warmlyenough,thistime,tosatisfyme)。"Sayyouconsent,"I
whispered。
Heconsented。
SoIputoffthedayofreckoningoncemore。SoIgainedtimetoconsultagainwithBenjaminandMr。Playmore。
WhileEustaceremainedwithmeintheroom,Iwascomposed,andcapableoftalkingtohim。Butwhenheleftme,afteratime,tothinkoverwhathadpassedbetweenus,andtorememberhowkindlyhehadgivenwaytome,myheartturnedpityinglytothoseotherwives(betterwomen,someofthem,thanIam),whosehusbands,undersimilarcircumstances,wouldhavespokenhardwordstothem——wouldperhapsevenhaveactedmorecruellystill。Thecontrastthussuggestedbetweentheirfateandminequiteovercameme。WhathadIdonetodeservemyhappiness?Whathad_they_done,poorsouls,todeservetheirmisery?Mynerveswereoverwrought,IdaresaysafterreadingthedreadfulconfessionofEustace’sfirstwife。Iburstoutcrying——andIwasallthebetterforitafterward!
CHAPTERXLIX。
PASTANDFUTURE。
Iwritefrommemory,unassistedbynotesordiaries;andIhavenodistinctrecollectionofthelengthofourresidenceabroad。
Itcertainlyextendedoveraperiodofsomemonths。LongafterEustacewasstrongenoughtotakethejourneytoLondonthedoctorspersistedinkeepinghiminParis。Hehadshownsymptomsofweaknessinoneofhislungs,andhismedicaladvisers,seeingthatheprosperedinthedryatmosphereofFrance,warnedhimtobecarefulofbreathingtoosoonthemoistairofhisowncountry。
ThusithappenedthatwewerestillinPariswhenIreceivedmynextnewsfromGleninch。
Thistimenoletterspassedoneitherside。Tomysurpriseanddelight,BenjaminquietlymadehisappearanceonemorninginourprettyFrenchdrawing—room。Hewassopreternaturallysmartinhisdress,andsoincomprehensiblyanxious(whilemyhusbandwasintheway)tomakeusunderstandthathisreasonsforvisitingPariswereholidayreasonsonly,thatIatoncesuspectedhimofhavingcrossedtheChannelinadoublecharacter——say,astouristinsearchofpleasure,whenthirdpersonswerepresent;asambassadorfromMr。Playmore,whenheandIhadtheroomtoourselves。
LaterinthedayIcontrivedthatweshouldbelefttogether,andIsoonfoundthatmyanticipationshadnotmisledme。BenjaminhadsetoutforParis,atMr。Playmore’sexpressrequest,toconsultwithmeastothefuture,andtoenlightenmeastothepast。Hepresentedmewithhiscredentialsintheshapeofalittlenotefromthelawyer。
"Therearesomefewpoints"(Mr。Playmorewrote)"whichtherecoveryoftheletterdoesnotseemtoclearup。Ihavedonemybest,withMr。Benjamin’sassistance,tofindtherightexplanationofthesedebatablematters;andIhavetreatedthesubject,forthesakeofbrevity,intheformofQuestionsandAnswers。Willyouacceptmeasinterpreter,afterthemistakesI
madewhenyouconsultedmeinEdinburgh?Events,Iadmit,haveprovedthatIwasentirelywrongintryingtopreventyoufromreturningtoDexter——andpartiallywronginsuspectingDexterofbeingdirectly,insteadofindirectly,answerableforthefirstMrs。Eustace’sdeath。Ifranklymakemyconfession,andleaveyoutotellMr。BenjaminwhetheryouthinkmynewCatechismworthyofexaminationornot。"
Ithoughthis"newCatechism"(ashecalledit)decidedlyworthyofexamination。Ifyoudon’tagreewiththisview,andifyouaredyingtobedonewithmeandmynarrative,passontothenextchapterbyallmeans!
BenjaminproducedtheQuestionsandAnswers;andreadthemtome,atmyrequest,intheseterms:
"QuestionssuggestedbytheletterdiscoveredatGleninch。FirstGroup:QuestionsrelatingtotheDiary。FirstQuestion:obtainingaccesstoMr。Macallan’sprivatejournal,wasMiserrimusDexterguidedbyanypreviousknowledgeofitscontents?
"Answer:Itisdoubtfulifhehadanysuchknowledge。TheprobabilitiesarethathenoticedhowcarefullyMr。MacallansecuredhisDiaryfromobservation;thatheinferredtherefromtheexistenceofdangerousdomesticsecretsinthelocked—uppages;andthathespeculatedonusingthosesecretsforhisownpurposewhenhecausedthefalsekeystobemade。
"SecondQuestion:TowhatmotivearewetoattributeMiserrimusDexter’sinterferencewiththesheriff’sofficers,onthedaywhentheyseizedMr。Macallan’sDiaryalongwithhisotherpapers?
"Answer:Inreplyingtothisquestion,wemustfirstdojusticetoDexterhimself。Infamouslyaswenowknowhimtohaveacted,themanwasnotadownrightfiend。ThathesecretlyhatedMr。
Macallan,ashissuccessfulrivalintheaffectionsofthewomanheloved——andthathedidallhecouldtoinducetheunhappyladytodesertherhusband——are,inthiscase,factsnottobedenied。
Ontheotherhand,itisfairlytobedoubtedwhetherhewereadditionallycapableofpermittingthefriendwhotrustedhimtobetriedformurder,throughhisfault,withoutmakinganefforttosavetheinnocentman。IthadnaturallyneveroccurredtoMr。
Macallan(beingguiltlessofhiswife’sdeath)todestroyhisDiaryandhisletters,inthefearthattheymightbeusedagainsthim。UntilthepromptandsecretactionoftheFiscaltookhimbysurprise,theideaofhisbeingchargedwiththemurderofhiswifewasanideawhichweknow,fromhisownstatement,hadneverevenenteredhismind。ButDextermusthavelookedatthematterfromanotherpointofview。Inhislastwanderingwords(spokenwhenhismindbrokedown)hereferstotheDiaryintheseterms,’TheDiarywillhanghim;Iwon’thavehimhanged。’Ifhecouldhavefoundhisopportunityofgettingatitintime——orifthesheriff’sofficershadnotbeentooquickforhim——therecanbenoreasonabledoubtthatDexterwouldhavehimselfdestroyedtheDiary,foreseeingtheconsequencesofitsproductionincourt。Sostronglydoesheappeartohavefelttheseconsiderations,thatheevenresistedtheofficersintheexecutionoftheirduty。HisagitationwhenhesentforMr。
Playmoretointerferewaswitnessedbythatgentleman,and(itmaynotbeamisstoadd)wasgenuineagitationbeyonddispute。
"QuestionsoftheSecondGroup:relatingtotheWife’sConfession。FirstQuestion:WhatpreventedDexterfromdestroyingtheletter,whenhefirstdiscovereditunderthedeadwoman’spillow?
"Answer:ThesamemotiveswhichledhimtoresisttheseizureoftheDiary,andtogivehisevidenceintheprisoner’sfavorattheTrial,inducedhimtopreservetheletteruntiltheverdictwasknown。Lookingbackoncemoreathislastwords(astakendownbyMr。Benjamin),wemayinferthatiftheverdicthadbeenGuilty,hewouldnothavehesitatedtosavetheinnocenthusbandbyproducingthewife’sconfession。Therearedegreesinallwickedness。Dexterwaswickedenoughtosuppresstheletter,whichwoundedhisvanitybyrevealinghimasanobjectforloathingandcontempt——buthewasnotwickedenoughdeliberatelytoletaninnocentmanperishonthescaffold。Hewascapableofexposingtherivalwhomhehatedtotheinfamyandtortureofapublicaccusationofmurder;but,intheeventofanadverseverdict,heshrankbeforethedirercrueltyoflettinghimbehanged。Reflect,inthisconnection,onwhathemusthavesuffered,villainashewas,whenhefirstreadthewife’sconfession。Hehadcalculatedonunderminingheraffectionforherhusband——andwhitherhadhiscalculationsledhim?Hehaddriventhewomanwhomhelovedtothelastdreadfulrefugeofdeathbysuicide!Givetheseconsiderationstheirdueweight;andyouwillunderstandthatsomelittleredeemingvirtuemightshowitself,astheresultevenof_this_man’sremorse。
"SecondQuestion:WhatmotiveinfluencedMiserrimusDexter’sconduct,whenMrs。(Valeria)MacallaninformedhimthatsheproposedreopeningtheinquiryintothepoisoningatGleninch?
"Answer:Inallprobability,Dexter’sguiltyfearssuggestedtohimthathemighthavebeenwatchedonthemorningwhenhesecretlyenteredthechamberinwhichthefirstMrs。Eustacelaydead。Feelingnoscrupleshimselftorestrainhimfromlisteningatdoorsandlookingthroughkeyholes,hewouldbeallthemorereadytosuspectotherpeopleofthesamepractices。Withthisdreadinhim,itwouldnaturallyoccurtohismindthatMrs。
Valeriamightmeetwiththepersonwhohadwatchedhim,andmighthearallthatthepersonhaddiscovered——unlessheledherastrayattheoutsetofherinvestigations。HerownjealoussuspicionsofMrs。Beaulyofferedhimthechanceofeasilydoingthis。Andhewasallthereadiertoprofitbythechance,beinghimselfanimatedbythemosthostilefeelingtowardthatlady。Heknewherastheenemywhodestroyedthedomesticpeaceofthemistressofthehouse;helovedthemistressofthehouse——andhehatedherenemyaccordingly。Thepreservationofhisguiltysecret,andthepersecutionofMrs。Beauly:thereyouhavethegreaterandthelessermotiveofhisconductinhisrelationswithMrs。
Eustacethesecond!"*
NotebythewriteroftheNarrative:
LookbackforafurtherillustrationofthispointofviewtothesceneatBenjamin’shouse(ChapterXXXV。),whereDexter,inamomentofungovernableagitation,betrayshisownsecrettoValeria。
Benjaminlaiddownhisnotes,andtookoffhisspectacles。
"Wehavenotthoughtitnecessarytogofurtherthanthis,"hesaid。"Isthereanypointyoucanthinkofthatisstillleftunexplained?"
Ireflected。TherewasnopointofanyimportanceleftunexplainedthatIcouldremember。Buttherewasonelittlematter(suggestedbytherecentallusionstoMrs。Beauly)whichI
wished(ifpossible)tohavethoroughlyclearedup。
"HaveyouandMr。Playmoreeverspokentogetheronthesubjectofmyhusband’sformerattachmenttoMrs。Beauly?"Iasked。"HasMr。
PlaymoreevertoldyouwhyEustacedidnotmarryher,aftertheTrial?"
"IputthatquestiontoMr。Playmoremyself,"saidBenjamin。"Heanswerediteasilyenough。Beingyourhusband’sconfidentialfriendandadviser,hewasconsultedwhenMr。EustacewrotetoMrs。Beauly,aftertheTrial;andherepeatedthesubstanceoftheletter,atmyrequest。WouldyouliketohearwhatIrememberofit,inmyturn?"
IownedthatIshouldliketohearit。WhatBenjaminthereupontoldme,exactlycoincidedwithwhatMiserrimusDexterhadtoldme——asrelatedinthethirtiethchapterofmynarrative。Mrs。
Beaulyhadbeenawitnessofthepublicdegradationofmyhusband。Thatwasenoughinitselftopreventhimfrommarryingher:Hebrokeoffwith_her_forthesamereasonwhichhadledhimtoseparatehimselffrom_me。_Existencewithawomanwhoknewthathehadbeentriedforhislifeasamurdererwasanexistencewhichhehadnotresolutionenoughtoface。Thetwoaccountsagreedineveryparticular。Atlastmyjealouscuriositywaspacified;andBenjaminwasfreetodismissthepastfromfurtherconsideration,andtoapproachthemorecriticalandmoreinterestingtopicofthefuture。
HisfirstinquiriesrelatedtoEustace。HeaskedifmyhusbandhadanysuspicionoftheproceedingswhichhadtakenplaceatGleninch。
Itoldhimwhathadhappened,andhowIhadcontrivedtoputofftheinevitabledisclosureforatime。
Myoldfriend’sfaceclearedupashelistenedtome。
"ThiswillbegoodnewsforMr。Playmore,"hesaid。"Ourexcellentfriend,thelawyer,issorelyafraidthatourdiscoveriesmaycompromiseyourpositionwithyourhusband。Ontheonehand,heisnaturallyanxioustospareMr。Eustacethedistresswhichhemustcertainlyfeel,ifhereadhisfirstwife’sconfession。Ontheotherhand,itisimpossible,injustice(asMr。Playmoreputsit)totheunbornchildrenofyourmarriage,tosuppressadocumentwhichvindicatesthememoryoftheirfatherfromtheaspersionthattheScotchVerdictmightotherwisecastonit。"
Ilistenedattentively。Benjaminhadtouchedonatroublewhichwasstillsecretlypreyingonmymind。
"HowdoesMr。Playmoreproposetomeetthedifficulty?"Iasked。
"Hecanonlymeetitinoneway,"Benjaminreplied。"Heproposestosealuptheoriginalmanuscriptoftheletter,andtoaddtoitaplainstatementofthecircumstancesunderwhichitwasdiscovered,supportedbyyoursignedattestationandmine,aswitnessestothefact。Thisdone,hemustleaveittoyoutotakeyourhusbandintoyourconfidence,atyourowntime。ItwillthenbeforMr。Eustacetodecidewhetherhewillopentheinclosure——orwhetherhewillleaveit,withthesealunbroken,asanheirloomtohischildren,tobemadepublicornot,attheirdiscretion,whentheyareofanagetothinkforthemselves。Doyouconsenttothis,mydear?OrwouldyoupreferthatMr。Playmoreshouldseeyourhusband,andactforyouinthematter?"
Idecided,withouthesitation,totaketheresponsibilityonmyself。WherethequestionofguidingEustace’sdecisionwasconcerned,IconsideredmyinfluencetobedecidedlysuperiortotheinfluenceofMr。Playmore。MychoicemetwithBenjamin’sfullapproval。HearrangedtowritetoEdinburgh,andrelievethelawyer’sanxietiesbythatday’spost。
TheonelastthingnowlefttobesettledrelatedtoourplansforreturningtoEngland。Thedoctorsweretheauthoritiesonthissubject。IpromisedtoconsultthemaboutitattheirnextvisittoEustace。
"Haveyouanythingmoretosaytome?"Benjamininquired,asheopenedhiswriting—case。
IthoughtofMiserrimusDexterandAriel;andIinquiredifhehadheardanynewsofthemlately。Myoldfriendsighed,andwarnedmethatIhadtouchedonapainfulsubject。
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