Afterwaitingforaminuteortwo,andhearingnosignalfromthefloorabove,Iadvancedintothebroaderandbrighterpartofthehall,tolookbydaylightatthepictureswhichIhadonlyimperfectlydiscoveredinthedarknessofthenight。Apaintedinscriptioninmanycolors,justunderthecorniceoftheceiling,informedmethattheworksonthewallsweretheproductionoftheall—accomplishedDexterhimself。Notsatisfiedwithbeingpoetandcomposer,hewaspainteraswell。Ononewallthesubjectsweredescribedas"IllustrationsofthePassions;"
ontheother,as"EpisodesintheLifeoftheWanderingJew。"
Chancespeculatorslikemyselfweregravelywarned,bymeansoftheinscription,toviewthepicturesaseffortsofpureimagination。"PersonswholookformereNatureinworksofArt"
(theinscriptionannounced)"arepersonstowhomMr。Dexterdoesnotaddresshimselfwiththebrush。Hereliesentirelyonhisimagination。Natureputshimout。"
TakingduecaretodismissallideasofNaturefrommymind,tobeginwith,IlookedatthepictureswhichrepresentedthePassionsfirst。
LittleasIknewcriticallyofArt,IcouldseethatMiserrimusDexterknewstilllessoftherulesofdrawing,color,andcomposition。Hispictureswere,inthestrictestmeaningofthatexpressiveword,Daubs。ThediseasedandriotousdelightofthepainterinrepresentingHorrorswas(withcertainexceptionstobehereaftermentioned)theoneremarkablequalitythatIcoulddiscoverintheseriesofhisworks。
ThefirstofthePassionpicturesillustratedRevenge。Acorpse,infancycostume,layonthebankofafoamingriver,undertheshadeofagianttree。Aninfuriatedman,alsoinfancycostume,stoodastrideoverthedeadbody,withhisswordliftedtotheloweringsky,andwatched,withahorridexpressionofdelight,thebloodofthemanwhomhehadjustkilleddrippingslowlyinaprocessionofbigreddropsdownthebroadbladeofhisweapon。
ThenextpictureillustratedCruelty,inmanycompartments。InoneIsawadisemboweledhorsesavagelyspurredonbyhisrideratabull—fight。Inanother,anagedphilosopherwasdissectingalivingcat,andgloatingoverhiswork。Inathird,twopaganspolitelycongratulatedeachotheronthetortureoftwosaints:
onesaintwasroastingonagrid—iron;theother,hunguptoatreebyhisheels,hadbeenjustskinned,andwasnotquitedeadyet。Feelingnogreatdesire,afterthesespecimens,tolookatanymoreoftheillustratedPassions,IturnedtotheoppositewalltobeinstructedinthecareeroftheWanderingJew。HereasecondinscriptioninformedmethatthepainterconsideredtheFlyingDutchmantobenootherthantheWanderingJew,pursuinghisinterminableJourneybysea。ThemarineadventuresofthismysteriouspersonageweretheadventureschosenforrepresentationbyDexter’sbrush。Thefirstpictureshowedmeaharboronarockycoast。Avesselwasatanchor,withthehelmsmansingingonthedeck。Theseaintheoffingwasblackandrolling;thunder—cloudslaylowonthehorizon,splitbybroadflashesoflightning。Intheglareofthelightning,heavingandpitching,appearedthemistyformofthePhantomShipapproachingtheshore。Inthiswork,badlyasitwaspainted,therewerereallysignsofapowerfulimagination,andevenofapoeticalfeelingforthesupernatural。ThenextpictureshowedthePhantomShip,moored(tothehorrorandastonishmentofthehelmsman)
behindtheearthlyvesselintheharbor。TheJewhadsteppedonshore。Hisboatwasonthebeach。Hiscrew——littlemenwithstony,whitefaces,dressedinfuneralblack——satinsilentrowsontheseatsoftheboat,withtheiroarsintheirlean,longhands。TheJew,alsoablack,stoodwithhiseyesandhandsraisedimploringlytothethunderousheaven。Thewildcreaturesoflandandsea——thetiger,therhinoceros,thecrocodile,thesea—serpent,theshark,andthedevil—fish——surroundedtheaccursedWandererinamysticcircle,dauntedandfascinatedatthesightofhim。Thelightningwasgone。Theskyandseahaddarkenedtoagreatblackblank。Afaintandluridlightlightedthescene,fallingdownwardfromatorch,brandishedbyanavengingSpiritthathoveredovertheJewonoutspreadvulturewings。Wildasthepicturemightbeinitsconception,therewasasuggestivepowerinitwhichIconfessstronglyimpressedme。
Themysterioussilenceinthehouse,andmystrangepositionatthemoment,nodoubthadtheireffectonmymind。WhileIwasstilllookingattheghastlycompositionbeforeme,theshrilltrillingsoundofthewhistleupstairsburstonthestillness。
ForthemomentmynervesweresocompletelyupsetthatIstartedwithacryofalarm。Ifeltamomentaryimpulsetoopenthedoorandrunout。Theideaoftrustingmyselfalonewiththemanwhohadpaintedthosefrightfulpicturesactuallyterrifiedme;Iwasobligedtositdownononeofthehallchairs。Someminutespassedbeforemymindrecovereditsbalance,andIbegantofeellikemyownordinaryselfagain。Thewhistlesoundedimpatientlyforthesecondtime。Iroseandascendedthebroadflightofstairswhichledtothefirststory。TodrawbackatthepointwhichIhadnowreachedwouldhaveutterlydegradedmeinmyownestimation。Still,myheartdidcertainlybeatfasterthanusualasIapproachedthedoorofthecircularanteroom;andIhonestlyacknowledgethatIsawmyownimprudence,justthen,inasingularlyvividlight。
Therewasaglassoverthemantel—pieceintheanteroom。I
lingeredforamoment(nervousasIwas)toseehowIlookedintheglass。
Thehangingtapestryovertheinnerdoorhadbeenleftpartiallydrawnaside。SoftlyasImoved,thedog’searsofMiserrimusDextercaughtthesoundofmydressonthefloor。Thefinetenorvoice,whichIhadlastheardsinging,calledtomesoftly。
"IsthatMrs。Valeria?Pleasedon’twaitthere。Comein!"
Ienteredtheinnerroom。
Thewheeledchairadvancedtomeetme,soslowlyandsosoftlythatIhardlyknewitagain。MiserrimusDexterlanguidlyheldouthishand。Hisheadinclinedpensivelytooneside;hislargeblueeyeslookedatmepiteously。Notavestigeseemedtobeleftoftheraging,shoutingcreatureofmyfirstvisit,whowasNapoleonatonemoment,andShakespeareatanother。Mr。Dexterofthemorningwasamild,thoughtful,melancholyman,whoonlyrecalledMr。Dexterofthenightbytheinveterateoddityofhisdress。
Hisjacket,onthisoccasion,wasofpinkquiltedsilk。Thecoverletwhichhidhisdeformitymatchedthejacketinpalesea—greensatin;and,tocompletethesestrangevagariesofcostume,hiswristswereactuallyadornedwithmassivebraceletsofgold,formedontheseverelysimplemodelswhichhavedescendedtousfromancienttimes。
"Howgoodofyoutocheerandcharmmebycominghere!"hesaid,inhismostmournfulandmostmusicaltones。"Ihavedressed,expresslytoreceiveyou,intheprettiestclothesIhave。Don’tbesurprised。Exceptinthisignobleandmaterialnineteenthcentury,menhavealwayswornpreciousstuffsandbeautifulcolorsaswellaswomen。Ahundredyearsagoagentlemaninpinksilkwasagentlemanproperlydressed。Fifteenhundredyearsagothepatriciansoftheclassictimesworebraceletsexactlylikemine。Idespisethebrutishcontemptforbeautyandthemeandreadofexpensewhichdegradeagentleman’scostumetoblackcloth,andlimitagentleman’sornamentstoafinger—ring,intheageIlivein。IliketobebrightandIbeautiful,especiallywhenbrightnessandbeautycometoseeme。Youdon’tknowhowpreciousyoursocietyistome。Thisisoneofmymelancholydays。Tearsriseunbiddentomyeyes。Isighandsorrowovermyself;Ilanguishforpity。JustthinkofwhatIam!Apoorsolitarycreature,cursedwithafrightfuldeformity。Howpitiable!howdreadful!Myaffectionateheart——wasted。Myextraordinarytalents——uselessormisapplied。Sad!sad!sad!
Pleasepityme。"
Hiseyeswerepositivelyfilledwithtears——tearsofcompassionforhimself!Helookedatmeandspoketomewiththewailing,querulousentreatyofasickchildwantingtobenursed。Iwasutterlyatalosswhattodo。Itwasperfectlyridiculous——butI
wasnevermoreembarrassedinmylife。
"Pleasepityme!"herepeated。"Don’tbecruel。Ionlyaskalittlething。PrettyMrs。Valeria,sayyoupityme!"
IsaidIpitiedhim——andIfeltthatIblushedasIdidit。
"Thankyou,"saidMiserrimusDexter,humbly。"Itdoesmegood。Goalittlefurther。Patmyhand。"
Itriedtorestrainmyself;butthesenseoftheabsurdityofthislastpetition(quitegravelyaddressedtome,remember!)wastoostrongtobecontrolled。Iburstoutlaughing。
MiserrimusDexterlookedatmewithablankastonishmentwhichonlyincreasedmymerriment。HadIoffendedhim?Apparentlynot。
Recoveringfromhisastonishment,helaidhisheadluxuriouslyonthebackofhischair,withtheexpressionofamanwhowaslisteningcriticallytoaperformanceofsomesort。WhenIhadquiteexhaustedmyself,heraisedhisheadandclappedhisshapelywhitehands,andhonoredmewithan"encore。"
"Doitagain,"hesaid,stillinthesamechildishway。"MerryMrs。Valeria,_you_haveamusicallaugh——_I_haveamusicalear。
Doitagain。"
Iwasseriousenoughbythistime。"Iamashamedofmyself,Mr。
Dexter,"Isaid。"Prayforgiveme。"
Hemadenoanswertothis;Idoubtifheheardme。Hisvariabletemperappearedtobeincourseofundergoingsomenewchange。Hesatlookingatmydress(asIsupposed)withasteadyandanxiousattention,gravelyforminghisownconclusions,steadfastlypursuinghisowntrainofthought。
"Mrs。Valeria,"heburstoutsuddenly,"youarenotcomfortableinthatchair。"
"Pardonme,"Ireplied;"Iamquitecomfortable。"
"Pardon_me,_"herejoined。"ThereisachairofIndianbasket—workatthatendoftheroomwhichismuchbettersuitedtoyou。WillyouacceptmyapologiesifIamrudeenoughtoallowyoutofetchitforyourself?Ihaveareason。"
Hehadareason!Whatnewpieceofeccentricitywasheabouttoexhibit?Iroseandfetchedthechair。Itwaslightenoughtobequiteeasilycarried。AsIreturnedtohim,Inoticedthathiseyeswerestrangelyemployedinwhatseemedtobetheclosestscrutinyofmydress。And,strangerstill,theresultofthisappearedtobepartlytointerestandpartlytodistresshim。
Iplacedthechairnearhim,andwasabouttotakemyseatinit,whenhesentmebackagain,onanothererrand,totheendoftheroom。
"Obligemeindescribably,"hesaid。"Thereisahand—screenhangingonthewall,whichmatchesthechair。Wearerathernearthefirehere。Youmayfindthescreenuseful。Oncemoreforgivemeforlettingyoufetchitforyourself。OncemoreletmeassureyouthatIhaveareason。"
Herewashis"reason,"reiterated,emphaticallyreiterated,forthesecondtime!CuriositymademeascompletelytheobedientservantofhiscapricesasArielherself。Ifetchedthehand—screen。Returningwithit,Imethiseyesstillfixedwiththesameincomprehensibleattentiononmyperfectlyplainandunpretendingdress,andstillexpressingthesamecuriousmixtureofinterestandregret。
"Thankyouathousandtimes,"hesaid。"Youhave(quiteinnocently)wrungmyheart。Butyouhavenotthelessdonemeaninestimablekindness。WillyoupromisenottobeoffendedwithmeifIconfessthetruth?"
HewasapproachinghisexplanationInevergaveapromisemorereadilyinmylife。
"Ihaverudelyallowedyoutofetchyourchairandyourscreenforyourself,"hewenton。"Mymotivewillseemaverystrangeone,Iamafraid。DidyouobservethatInoticedyouveryattentively——tooattentively,perhaps?"
"Yes,"Isaid。"Ithoughtyouwerenoticingmydress。"
Heshookhishead,andsighedbitterly。
"Notyourdress,"hesaid;"andnotyourface。Yourdressisdark。Yourfaceisstillstrangetome。DearMrs。Valeria,I
wantedtoseeyouwalk。"
Toseemewalk!Whatdidhemean?Wherewasthaterraticmindofhiswanderingtonow?
"YouhavearareaccomplishmentforanEnglishwoman,"heresumed——"youwalkwell。_She_walkedwell。Icouldn’tresistthetemptationofseeingheragain,inseeingyou。Itwas_her_
movement,_her_sweet,simple,unsoughtgrace(notyours),whenyouwalkedtotheendoftheroomandreturnedtome。Youraisedherfromthedeadwhenyoufetchedthechairandthescreen。
Pardonmeformakinguseofyou:theideawasinnocent,themotivewassacred。Youhavedistressed——anddelightedme。Myheartbleeds——andthanksyou。"
Hepausedforamoment;helethisheaddrooponhisbreast,thensuddenlyraiseditagain。
"Surelyweweretalkingaboutherlastnight?"hesaid。"WhatdidIsay?whatdidyousay?Mymemoryisconfused;Ihalfremember,halfforget。Pleaseremindme。You’renotoffendedwithme——areyou?"
Imighthavebeenoffendedwithanotherman。Notwithhim。Iwasfartooanxioustofindmywayintohisconfidence——nowthathehadtouchedofhisownaccordonthesubjectofEustace’sfirstwife——tobeoffendedwithMiserrimusDexter。
"Wewerespeaking,"Ianswered,"ofMrs。EustaceMacallan’sdeath,andweweresayingtooneanother——"
Heinterruptedme,leaningforwardeagerlyinhischair。
"Yes!yes!"heexclaimed。"AndIwaswonderingwhatinterest_you_couldhaveinpenetratingthemysteryofherdeath。Tellme!Confideinme!Iamdyingtoknow!"
"NotevenyouhaveastrongerinterestinthatsubjectthantheinterestthatIfeel,"Isaid。"Thehappinessofmywholelifetocomedependsonmyclearingupthemystery。"
"GoodGod——why?"hecried。"Stop!Iamexcitingmyself。Imustn’tdothat。Imusthaveallmywitsaboutme;Imustn’twander。Thethingistooserious。Waitaminute!"
Anelegantlittlebasketwashookedontooneofthearmsofhischair。Heopenedit,anddrewoutastripofembroiderypartiallyfinished,withthenecessarymaterialsforworking,acomplete。
Welookedateachotheracrosstheembroidery。Henoticedmysurprise。
"Women,"hesaid,"wiselycomposetheirminds,andhelpthemselvestothinkquietly,bydoingneedle—work。Whyaremensuchfoolsastodenythemselvesthesameadmirableresource——thesimpleandsoothingoccupationwhichkeepsthenervessteadyandleavesthemindcalmandfree?Asaman,Ifollowthewoman’swiseexample。Mrs。Valeria,permitmetocomposemyself。"
Gravelyarranginghisembroidery,thisextraordinarybeingbegantoworkwiththepatientandnimbledexterityofanaccomplishedneedle—woman。
"Now,"saidMiserrimusDexter,"ifyouareready,Iam。Youtalk——Iwork。Pleasebegin。"
Iobeyedhim,andbegan。
CHAPTERXXVIII。
INTHEDARK。
WITHsuchamanasMiserrimusDexter,andwithsuchapurposeasIhadinview,nohalf—confidenceswerepossible。ImusteitherriskthemostunreservedacknowledgmentoftheintereststhatI
reallyhadatstake,orImustmakethebestexcusethatoccurredtomeforabandoningmycontemplatedexperimentatthelastmoment。Inmypresentcriticalsituation,nosuchrefugeasamiddlecourselaybeforeme——evenifIhadbeeninclinedtotakeit。Asthingswere,Iranrisks,andplungedheadlongintomyownaffairsatstarting。
"Thusfar,youknowlittleornothingaboutme,Mr。Dexter,"I
said。"Youare,asIbelieve,quiteunawarethatmyhusbandandI
arenotlivingtogetheratthepresenttime。"
"Isitnecessarytomentionyourhusband?"heasked,coldly,withoutlookingupfromhisembroidery,andwithoutpausinginhiswork。
"Itisabsolutelynecessary,"Ianswered。"Icanexplainmyselftoyouinnootherway。"
Hebenthishead,andsighedresignedly。
"Youandyourhusbandarenotlivingtogetheratthepresenttime,"heresumed。"DoesthatmeanthatEustacehasleftyou?"
"Hehasleftme,andhasgoneabroad。"
"Withoutanynecessityforit?"
"Withouttheleastnecessity。"
"Hasheappointednotimeforhisreturntoyou?"
"Ifhepersevereinhispresentresolution,Mr。Dexter,Eustacewillneverreturntome。"
Forthefirsttimeheraisedhisheadfromhisembroidery——withasuddenappearanceofinterest。
"Isthequarrelsoseriousasthat?"heasked。"Areyoufreeofeachother,prettyMrs。Valeria,bycommonconsentofbothparties?"
Thetoneinwhichheputthequestionwasnotatalltomyliking。ThelookhefixedonmewasalookwhichunpleasantlysuggestedthatIhadtrustedmyselfalonewithhim,andthathemightendintakingadvantageofit。Iremindedhimquietly,bymymannermorethanbymywords,oftherespectwhichheowedtome。
"Youareentirelymistaken,"Isaid。"Thereisnoanger——thereisnotevenamisunderstandingbetweenus。Ourpartinghascostbittersorrow,Mr。Dexter,tohimandtome。"
Hesubmittedtobesetrightwithironicalresignation。"Iamallattention,"hesaid,threadinghisneedle。"Praygoon;Iwon’tinterruptyouagain。"Actingonthisinvitation,Itoldhimthetruthaboutmyhusbandandmyselfquiteunreservedly,takingcare,however,atthesametime,toputEustace’smotivesinthebestlightthattheywouldbear。MiserrimusDexterdroppedhisembroideryonhislap,andlaughedsoftlytohimself,withanimpishenjoymentofmypoorlittlenarrative,whichseteverynerveinmeonedgeasIlookedathim。
"Iseenothingtolaughat,"Isaid,sharply。
Hisbeautifulblueeyesrestedonmewithalookofinnocentsurprise。
"Nothingtolaughat,"herepeated,"insuchanexhibitionofhumanfollyasyouhavejustdescribed?"Hisexpressionsuddenlychangedhisfacedarkenedandhardenedverystrangely。"Stop!"hecried,beforeIcouldanswerhim。"Therecanbeonlyonereasonforyou’retakingitasseriouslyasyoudo。Mrs。Valeria!youarefondofyourhusband。"
"Fondofhimisn’tstrongenoughtoexpressit,"Iretorted。"I
lovehimwithmywholeheart。"
MiserrimusDexterstrokedhismagnificentbeard,andcontemplativelyrepeatedmywords。"Youlovehimwithyourwholeheart?Doyouknowwhy?"
"BecauseIcan’thelpit,"Ianswered,doggedly。
Hesmiledsatirically,andwentonwithhisembroidery。
"Curious!"hesaidtohimself;"Eustace’sfirstwifelovedhimtoo。Therearesomemenwhomthewomenalllike,andthereareothermenwhomthewomennevercarefor。Withouttheleastreasonforitineithercase。Theonemanisjustasgoodastheother;
justashandsome,asagreeable,ashonorable,andashighinrankastheother。AndyetforNumberOnetheywillgothroughfireandwater,andforNumberTwotheywon’tsomuchasturntheirheadstolookathim。Why?Theydon’tknowthemselves——asMrs。
Valeriahasjustsaid!Isthereaphysicalreasonforit?IstheresomepotentmagneticemanationfromNumberOnewhichNumberTwodoesn’tpossess?ImustinvestigatethiswhenIhavethetime,andwhenIfindmyselfinthehumor。"Havingsofarsettledthequestiontohisownentiresatisfaction,helookedupatmeagain。"Iamstillinthedarkaboutyouandyourmotives,"hesaid。"IamstillasfaraseverfromunderstandingwhatyourinterestisininvestigatingthathideoustragedyatGleninch。
CleverMrs。Valeria,pleasetakemebythehand,andleadmeintothelight。You’renotoffendedwithmeareyou?Makeitup;andI
willgiveyouthisprettypieceofembroiderywhenIhavedoneit。Iamonlyapoor,solitary,deformedwretch,withaquaintturnofmind;Imeannoharm。Forgiveme!indulgeme!enlightenme!"
Heresumedhischildishways;herecover,hisinnocentsmile,withtheoddlittlepuckersandwrinklesaccompanyingitatthecornersofhiseyes。IbegantodoubtwhetherImightnothavebeenunreasonablyhardonhim。Ipenitentlyresolvedtobemoreconsideratetowardhisinfirmitiesofmindandbodyduringtheremainderofmyvisit。
"Letmegobackforamoment,Mr。Dexter,topasttimesatGleninch,"Isaid。"YouagreewithmeinbelievingEustacetobeabsolutelyinnocentofthecrimeforwhichhewastried。YourevidenceattheTrialtellsmethat。"
Hepausedoverhiswork,andlookedatmewithagraveandsternattentionwhichpresentedhisfaceinquiteanewlight。
"Thatis_our_opinion,"Iresumed。"ButitwasnottheopinionoftheJury。Theirverdict,youremember,wasNotProven。InplainEnglish,theJurywhotriedmyhusbanddeclinedtoexpresstheiropinion,positivelyandpublicly,thathewasinnocent。AmIright?"
Insteadofanswering,hesuddenlyputhisembroiderybackinthebasket,andmovedthemachineryofhischair,soastobringitclosebymine。
"Whotoldyouthis?"heasked。
"Ifounditformyselfinabook。"
Thusfarhisfacehadexpressedsteadyattention——andnomore。
Now,forthefirsttime,IthoughtIsawsomethingdarklypassingoverhimwhichbetrayeditselftomymindasrisingdistrust。
"Ladiesarenotgenerallyinthehabitoftroublingtheirheadsaboutdryquestionsoflaw,"hesaid。"Mrs。EustaceMacallantheSecond,youmusthavesomeverypowerfulmotiveforturningyourstudiesthatway。"
"Ihaveaverypowerfulmotive,Mr。DexterMyhusbandisresignedtotheScotchVerdictHismotherisresignedtoit。Hisfriends(sofarasIknow)areresignedtoit——"
"Well?"
"Well!Idon’tagreewithmyhusband,orhismother,orhisfriends。IrefusetosubmittotheScotchVerdict。"
TheinstantIsaidthosewords,themadnessinhimwhichIhadhithertodenied,seemedtobreakout。Hesuddenlystretchedhimselfoverhischair:hepouncedonme,withahandoneachofmyshoulders;hiswildeyesquestionedmefiercely,frantically,withinafewinchesofmyface。
"Whatdoyoumean?"heshouted,attheutmostpitchofhisringingandresonantvoice。
Adeadlyfearofhimshookme。Ididmybesttohidetheoutwardbetrayalofit。Bylookandword,Ishowedhim,asfirmlyasI
could,thatIresentedthelibertyhehadtakenwithme。
"Removeyourhands,sir,"Isaid,"andretiretoyourproperplace。"
Heobeyedmemechanically。Heapologizedtomemechanically。HiswholemindwasevidentlystillfilledwiththewordsthatIhadspokentohim,andstillbentondiscoveringwhatthosewordsmeant。
"Ibegyourpardon,"hesaid;"Ihumblybegyourpardon。Thesubjectexcitesme,frightensme,maddensme。Youdon’tknowwhatadifficultyIhaveincontrollingmyself。Nevermind。Don’ttakemeseriously。Don’tbefrightenedatme。Iamsoashamedofmyself——Ifeelsosmallandsomiserableathavingoffendedyou。
Makemesufferforit。Takeastickandbeatme。Tiemedowninmychair。CallupAriel,whoisasstrongasahorse,andtellhertoholdme。DearMrs。Valeria!InjuredMrs。Valeria!I’llendureanythinginthewayofpunishment,ifyouwillonlytellmewhatyoumeanbynotsubmittingtotheScotchVerdict。"Hebackedhischairpenitentlyashemadethatentreaty。"AmIfarenoughawayyet?"heasked,witharuefullook。"DoIstillfrightenyou?I’lldropoutofsight,ifyoupreferit,inthebottomofthechair。"
Heliftedthesea—greencoverlet。InanothermomenthewouldhavedisappearedlikeapuppetinashowifIhadnotstoppedhim。
"Saynothingmore,anddonothingmore;Iacceptyourapologies,"Isaid。"WhenItellyouthatIrefusetosubmittotheopinionoftheScotchJury,Imeanexactlywhatmywordsexpress。Thatverdicthasleftastainonmyhusband’scharacter。Hefeelsthestainbitterly。HowbitterlynooneknowssowellasIdo。Hissenseofhisdegradationisthesensethathaspartedhimfromme。Itisnotenoughfor_him_
thatIampersuadedofhisinnocence。Nothingwillbringhimbacktome——nothingwillpersuadeEustacethatIthinkhimworthytobetheguideandcompanionofmylife——buttheproofofhisinnocence,setbeforetheJurywhichdoubtsit,andthepublicwhichdoubtsit,tothisday。Heandhisfriendsandhislawyersalldespairofeverfindingthatproofnow。ButIamhiswife;
andnoneofyoulovehimasIlovehim。Ialonerefusetodespair;Ialonerefusetolistentoreason。IfGodspareme,Mr。
Dexter,Idedicatemylifetothevindicationofmyhusband’sinnocence。Youarehisoldfriend——Iamheretoaskyoutohelpme。"
Itappearedtobenowmyturntofrighten_him。_Thecolorlefthisface。Hepassedhishandrestlesslyoverhisforehead,asifheweretryingtobrushsomedelusionoutofhisbrain。
"Isthisoneofmydreams?"heasked,faintly。"AreyouaVisionofthenight?"
"Iamonlyafriendlesswoman,"Isaid,"whohaslostallthatshelovedandprized,andwhoistryingtowinitbackagain。"
Hebegantomovehischairnearertomeoncemore。Iliftedmyhand。Hestoppedthechairdirectly。Therewasamomentofsilence。Wesatwatchingoneanother。Isawhishandstrembleashelaidthemonthecoverlet;Isawhisfacegrowpalerandpaler,andhisunderlipdrop。WhatdeadandburiedremembranceshadIbroughttolifeinhim,inalltheiroldenhorror?
Hewasthefirsttospeakagain。
"Sothisisyourinterest,"hesaid,"inclearingupthemysteryofMrs。EustaceMacallan’sdeath?"
"Yes。"
"AndyoubelievethatIcanhelpyou?"
"Ido。"
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