butintellingherhewouldkeeptohimselfwhathehadsaidastotheresultofanacquittalinacivilcourt。Sheneednotyetbetoldthathehadpromisedtotakesuchaverdictassufficingalsoforanecclesiasticalacquittal。Inthisspirithisletterwaswrittenandsentoffbeforeheagainsawhiswife。
Hedidnotmeethertilltheycametogetherinthedrawing—roombeforedinner。Inexplainingthewholetruthastocircumstancesastheyexistedatthepalaceatthemoment,itmustbeacknowledgedthatMrsProudieherself,greataswashercourage,andwideasweretheresourceswhichshepossessedwithinherself,wassomewhatappalledbythepositionofaffairs。IfearthatitmaynowbetoolateformetoexcitemuchsympathyinthemindofanyreaderonbehalfofMrsProudie。
Ishallneverbeabletomakeherpopular。Butshehadvirtues,andtheirexistencenowmadeherunhappy。Shedidregardthedignityofherhusband,andshefeltatthepresentmomentthatshehadalmostcompromisedit。Shedidalsoregardthewelfareoftheclergymenaroundher,thinkingofcourseinageneralwaythatcertainofthemwhoagreedwithherweretheclergymenwhosewelfareshouldbestudied,andthatcertainofthemwhodisagreedwithherweretheclergymenwhosewelfareshouldbepostponed。Butnowanideamadeitswayintoherbosomthatshewasnotperhapsdoingthebestforthewelfareofthediocesegenerally。Whatifitshouldcometopassthatalltheclergymenofthedioceseshouldrefusetoopentheirmouthsinherpresenceonecclesiasticalsubjects,asDrTempesthaddone?Thisspecialdaywasnotoneonwhichshewaswellcontentedwithherself,thoughbynomeansonthataccountwasherangermitigatedagainsttheoffendingruraldean。
Duringdinnershestruggledtosayawordortwotoherhusband,asthoughtherehadbeennoquarrelbetweenthem。Withhimthematterhadgonesodeepthathecouldnotanswerherinthesamespirit。Thereweresundrymembersofthefamilypresent——daughters,andason—in—law,andadaughter’sfriendwhowasstayingwiththem;buteveninthehopeofappearingtobeserenebeforethemhecouldnotstrugglethroughhisdeepdespondence。Hewasverysilent,andtohiswife’swordsheansweredhardlyanything。Hewascourteousandgentlewiththemall,buthespokeaslittleaswaspossible,andduringtheeveninghesatalone,withhisheadleaningonhishand——notpretendingeventoread。Hewasawarethatitwastoolatetomakeevenanattempttoconcealhismiseryandhisdisgracefromhisownfamily。
Hiswifecametohimthatnightinhisdressing—roominaspiritoffemininesoftnessthatwasveryunusualwithher。’Mydear,’saidshe,’letusforgetwhatoccurredthismorning。Iftherehasbeenanger,weareboundasChristianstoforgetit。’Shestoodoverhimasshespoke,andputherhanduponhisshoulderalmostcaressingly。
’Whenaman’sheartisbroken,hecannotforgetit,’washisreply。Shestillstoodbyhim,andstillkeptherhanduponhim:butshecouldthinkofnootherwordsofcomforttosay。’Iwillgotobed,’hesaid。
’Itisthebestplaceforme。’Thenshelefthim,andhewenttobed。
CHAPTERXLVIII
THESOFTNESSOFSIRRAFFLEBUFFLE
WehaveseenthatJohnEameswaspreparedtostartonhisjourneyinsearchoftheArabins,andhaveseenhimafterhehadtakenfarewellofhisofficeandofhismasterthere,previoustohisdeparture;butthatmatterofhisdeparturehadnotbeenarrangedaltogetherwithcomfortasfarashisofficialinterestswereconcerned。HehadbeenperhapsalittleabruptinhismodeofinformingSirRaffleBuffle,thattherewasapressingcauseforhisofficialabsence,andSirRafflehadrepliedtohimthatnoprivatepressurecouldbeallowedtointerferewithhispublicduties。’Imustgo,SirRaffle,atanyrate,’Johnnyhadsaid;
’itisamatteraffectingmyfamilyandmustnotbeneglected。’’Ifyouintendtogowithoutleave,’saidSirRaffle,’IpresumeyouwillfirstputyourresignationintothehandsofMrKissing。’NowMrKissingwasthesecretarytotheBoard。Thishadbeenseriousundoubtedly。JohnEameswasnotspeciallyanxioustokeephispresentpositionasprivatesecretarytoSirRaffle,buthecertainlyhadnodesiretogiveuphisprofessionaltogether。Hesaidnothingmoretothegreatmanonthatoccasion,butbeforehelefttheofficehewroteaprivatenotetothechairmanexpressingtheextremeimportanceofthebusiness,andbeggingthathemightbegivenleaveofabsence。Onthenextmorninghereceiveditbackwithaveryfewwordswrittenacrossit。’Itcan’tbedone,’
werethefewwordswhichSirRaffleBufflehadwrittenacrossthenotefromhisprivatesecretary。HerewasadifficultywhichJohnnyhadnotanticipated,andwhichseemedtobeinsuperable。SirRafflewouldnothaveansweredhiminthatstrainifhehadnotbeenverymuchinearnest。
’Ishouldsendhimamedicalcertificate,’saidCordell,hisfriendofold。
’Nonsense,’saidEames。
’Idon’tseethatitisnonsenseatall。Theycan’tgetoveramedicalcertificatefromarespectableman;andeverybodyhasgotsomethingthematterwithhimofsomekind。’
’Ishouldgoandlethimdohisworst,’saidFisher,whowasanotherclerk。’Itwouldn’tbemorethanputtingyoudownaplaceortwo。Astolosingyourpresentberthyoudon’tmindthat,andtheywouldneverthinkofdismissingyou。’
’ButIdomindbeingputdownaplaceortwo,’saidJohnny,whocouldnotforgetthatwerehesoputdownhisfriendFisherwouldgainthestepwhichhewouldlose。
’Ishouldgivehimabarrelofoysters,andtalktohimabouttheChancelloroftheExchequer,’saidFitHoward,whohadbeenprivatesecretarybeforeEames,andmightthereforebesupposedtoknowtheman。
’ThatmighthavedoneverywellifIhadnotaskedhim,andbeenrefusedfirst,’saidJohnEames。’I’lltellwhatI’lldo。I’llwritealongletteronasheetoffoolscappaper,witharegularmargin,sothatitmustcomebeforetheBoard,andperhapsthatwillfrightenhim。’
WhenhementionedhisdifficultyonthateveningtoMrToogood,thelawyerbeggedhimtogiveuphisjourney。’Itwillonlybesendingaclerk,anditwon’tcostsoverymuchafterall,’saidToogood。ButJohnny’spridecouldnotallowhimtogiveway。’I’mnotgoingtobedoneaboutit,’saidhe。’I’mnotgoingtoresign,butIwillgoeventhoughhemaydismissme。Idon’tthinkitwillcometothat,butifitdoesitmust。’Hisunclebeggedhimnottothinkofsuchanalternative;
butthisdiscussiontookplaceafterdinner,andawayfromtheoffice,andEameswouldnotsubmittobowhisnecktoauthority。’Ifitcomestothat,’saidhe,’afellowmightaswellbeaslaveatonce。Andwhatistheuseofafellowhavingalittlemoneyifitdoesnotmakehimindependent?Youmaybesureofonething,Ishallgo;’andthatonthedayfixed。
OnthenextmorningJohnEameswasverysilentwhenhewentintoSirRaffle’sroomattheoffice。Therewasnowonlythisdayandanotherbeforethatfixedforhisdeparture,anditwasofcourseverynecessarythatmattersshouldbearranged。ButhesaidnothingtoSirRaffleduringthemorning。Thegreatmanhimselfwascondescendingandendeavouringtobekind。Heknewthathissternrefusalhadgreatlyirritatedhisprivatesecretary,andwasanxioustoshowthat,thoughinthecauseofpublicdutyhewasobligedtobestern,hewasquitewillingtoforgethissternnesswhenthenecessityforithadpassedaway。Onthismorning,therefore,hewasverycheery。Butintheafternoon,whenmostofthemenhadlefttheoffice,Johnnyappearedbeforethechairmanforthelasttimethatdaywithaverylongface。Hewasdressedinblack,andhadchangedhisordinarymorningcoatforafrock,whichgavehimanappearancealtogetherunlikethatwhichwascustomarytohim。Andhespokealmostinawhisper,veryslowly;andwhenSirRafflejoked——andSirRaffleoftenwouldjoke——henotonlydidnotlaugh,butheabsolutelysighed。’Isthereanythingthematterwithyou,Eames?’askedSirRaffle。
’Iamingreattrouble,’saidJohnEames。
’Andwhatisyourtrouble?’
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