AlreadyMr。Maceyandafewotherprivilegedvillagers,whowereallowedtobespectatorsonthesegreatoccasions,wereseatedonbenchesplacedforthemnearthedoor;andgreatwastheadmirationandsatisfactioninthatquarterwhenthecoupleshadformedthemselvesforthedance,andtheSquireledoffwithMrs。Crackenthorp,joininghandswiththerectorandMrs。Osgood。
Thatwasasitshouldbe——thatwaswhateverybodyhadbeenusedto——
andthecharterofRaveloeseemedtoberenewedbytheceremony。
Itwasnotthoughtofasanunbecominglevityfortheoldandmiddle—agedpeopletodancealittlebeforesittingdowntocards,butratheraspartoftheirsocialduties。Forwhatweretheseifnottobemerryatappropriatetimes,interchangingvisitsandpoultrywithduefrequency,payingeachotherold—establishedcomplimentsinsoundtraditionalphrases,passingwell—triedpersonaljokes,urgingyourgueststoeatanddrinktoomuchoutofhospitality,andeatinganddrinkingtoomuchinyourneighbour’shousetoshowthatyoulikedyourcheer?Andtheparsonnaturallysetanexampleinthesesocialduties。ForitwouldnothavebeenpossiblefortheRaveloemind,withoutapeculiarrevelation,toknowthataclergymanshouldbeapale—facedmementoofsolemnities,insteadofareasonablyfaultymanwhoseexclusiveauthoritytoreadprayersandpreach,tochristen,marry,andburyyou,necessarilycoexistedwiththerighttosellyouthegroundtobeburiedinandtotaketitheinkind;onwhichlastpoint,ofcourse,therewasalittlegrumbling,butnottotheextentofirreligion——notofdeepersignificancethanthegrumblingattherain,whichwasbynomeansaccompaniedwithaspiritofimpiousdefiance,butwithadesirethattheprayerforfineweathermightbereadforthwith。
Therewasnoreason,then,whytherector’sdancingshouldnotbereceivedaspartofthefitnessofthingsquiteasmuchastheSquire’s,orwhy,ontheotherhand,Mr。Macey’sofficialrespectshouldrestrainhimfromsubjectingtheparson’sperformancetothatcriticismwithwhichmindsofextraordinaryacutenessmustnecessarilycontemplatethedoingsoftheirfalliblefellow—men。
"TheSquire’sprettyspringe,consideringhisweight,"saidMr。Macey,"andhestampsuncommonwell。ButMr。Lammeterbeats’emallforshapes:youseeheholdshisheadlikeasodger,andheisn’tsocushionyasmosto’theoldishgentlefolks——theyrunfatingeneral;andhe’sgotafineleg。Theparson’snimbleenough,buthehasn’tgotmuchofaleg:it’sabittoothickdown’ard,andhiskneesmightbeabitnearerwi’outdamage;buthemightdoworse,hemightdoworse。Thoughhehasn’tthatgrandwayo’wavinghishandastheSquirehas。"
"Talko’nimbleness,lookatMrs。Osgood,"saidBenWinthrop,whowasholdinghissonAaronbetweenhisknees。"Shetripsalongwithherlittlesteps,soasnobodycanseehowshegoes——it’slikeasifshehadlittlewheelstoherfeet。Shedoesn’tlookadayoldernorlastyear:she’sthefinest—madewomanasis,letthenextbewhereshewill。"
"Idon’theedhowthewomenaremade,"saidMr。Macey,withsomecontempt。"Theywearnaythercoatnorbreeches:youcan’tmakemuchouto’theirshapes。"
"Fayder,"saidAaron,whosefeetwerebusybeatingoutthetune,"howdoesthatbigcock’s—featherstickinMrs。Crackenthorp’syead?Istherealittleholeforit,likeinmyshuttle—cock?"
"Hush,lad,hush;that’sthewaytheladiesdresstheirselves,thatis,"saidthefather,adding,however,inanundertonetoMr。Macey,"Itdoesmakeherlookfunny,though——partlylikeashort—neckedbottlewi’alongquillinit。Hey,byjingo,there’stheyoungSquireleadingoffnow,wi’MissNancyforpartners!
There’salassforyou!——likeapink—and—whiteposy——there’snobody’udthinkasanybodycouldbesopritty。Ishouldn’twonderifshe’sMadamCasssomeday,arterall——andnobodymorerightfuller,forthey’dmakeafinematch。YoucanfindnothingagainstMasterGodfrey’sshapes,Macey,_I_’llbetapenny。"
Mr。Maceyscreweduphismouth,leanedhisheadfurtherononeside,andtwirledhisthumbswithaprestomovementashiseyesfollowedGodfreyupthedance。Atlasthesummeduphisopinion。
"Prettywelldown’ard,butabittooroundi’theshoulder—blades。
AndasforthemcoatsashegetsfromtheFlittontailor,they’reapoorcuttopaydoublemoneyfor。"
"Ah,Mr。Macey,youandmearetwofolks,"saidBen,slightlyindignantatthiscarping。"WhenI’vegotapoto’goodale,I
liketoswallerit,anddomyinsidegood,i’steado’smellingandstaringatittoseeifIcan’tfindfautwi’thebrewing。Ishouldlikeyoutopickmeoutafiner—limbedyoungfellownorMasterGodfrey——oneas’udknockyoudowneasier,or’smorepleasanter—looksedwhenhe’spiertandmerry。"
"Tchuh!"saidMr。Macey,provokedtoincreasedseverity,"heisn’tcometohisrightcolouryet:he’spartlylikeaslack—bakedpie。AndIdoubthe’sgotasoftplaceinhishead,elsewhyshouldhebeturnedroundthefingerbythatoffalDunseyasnobody’sseeno’late,andlethimkillthatfinehuntinghossaswasthetalko’
thecountry?AndonewhilehewasallaysafterMissNancy,andthenitallwentoffagain,likeasmello’hotporridge,asImaysay。
Thatwasn’tmywaywhen_I_wenta—coorting。"
"Ah,butmayhapMissNancyhungoff,like,andyourlassdidn’t,"
saidBen。
"Ishouldsayshedidn’t,"saidMr。Macey,significantly。
"BeforeIsaid"sniff",Itookcaretoknowasshe’dsay"snaff",andprettyquicktoo。Iwasn’ta—goingtoopen_my_mouth,likeadogatafly,andsnapittoagain,wi’nothingtoswaller。"
"Well,IthinkMissNancy’sa—comingroundagain,"saidBen,"forMasterGodfreydoesn’tlooksodown—heartedto—night。AndIseehe’sfortakingherawaytositdown,nowthey’reattheendo’thedance:thatlookslikesweethearting,thatdoes。"
ThereasonwhyGodfreyandNancyhadleftthedancewasnotsotenderasBenimagined。IntheclosepressofcouplesaslightaccidenthadhappenedtoNancy’sdress,which,whileitwasshortenoughtoshowherneatankleinfront,waslongenoughbehindtobecaughtunderthestatelystampoftheSquire’sfoot,soastorendcertainstitchesatthewaist,andcausemuchsisterlyagitationinPriscilla’smind,aswellasseriousconcerninNancy’s。One’sthoughtsmaybemuchoccupiedwithlove—struggles,buthardlysoastobeinsensibletoadisorderinthegeneralframeworkofthings。
NancyhadnosoonercompletedherdutyinthefiguretheyweredancingthanshesaidtoGodfrey,withadeepblush,thatshemustgoandsitdowntillPriscillacouldcometoher;forthesistershadalreadyexchangedashortwhisperandanopen—eyedglancefullofmeaning。NoreasonlessurgentthanthiscouldhaveprevailedonNancytogiveGodfreythisopportunityofsittingapartwithher。
AsforGodfrey,hewasfeelingsohappyandobliviousunderthelongcharmofthecountry—dancewithNancy,thathegotratherboldonthestrengthofherconfusion,andwascapableofleadingherstraightaway,withoutleaveasked,intotheadjoiningsmallparlour,wherethecard—tableswereset。
"Ohno,thankyou,"saidNancy,coldly,assoonassheperceivedwherehewasgoing,"notinthere。I’llwaitheretillPriscilla’sreadytocometome。I’msorrytobringyououtofthedanceandmakemyselftroublesome。"
"Why,you’llbemorecomfortableherebyyourself,"saidtheartfulGodfrey:"I’llleaveyouheretillyoursistercancome。"
Hespokeinanindifferenttone。
Thatwasanagreeableproposition,andjustwhatNancydesired;why,then,wasshealittlehurtthatMr。Godfreyshouldmakeit?Theyentered,andsheseatedherselfonachairagainstoneofthecard—tables,asthestiffestandmostunapproachablepositionshecouldchoose。
"Thankyou,sir,"shesaidimmediately。"Ineedn’tgiveyouanymoretrouble。I’msorryyou’vehadsuchanunluckypartner。"
"That’sveryill—naturedofyou,"saidGodfrey,standingbyherwithoutanysignofintendeddeparture,"tobesorryyou’vedancedwithme。"
"Oh,no,sir,Idon’tmeantosaywhat’sill—naturedatall,"saidNancy,lookingdistractinglyprimandpretty。"Whengentlemenhavesomanypleasures,onedancecanmatterbutverylittle。"
"Youknowthatisn’ttrue。Youknowonedancewithyoumattersmoretomethanalltheotherpleasuresintheworld。"
Itwasalong,longwhilesinceGodfreyhadsaidanythingsodirectasthat,andNancywasstartled。Butherinstinctivedignityandrepugnancetoanyshowofemotionmadehersitperfectlystill,andonlythrowalittlemoredecisionintohervoice,asshesaid——
"No,indeed,Mr。Godfrey,that’snotknowntome,andIhaveverygoodreasonsforthinkingdifferent。Butifit’strue,Idon’twishtohearit。"
"Wouldyouneverforgiveme,then,Nancy——neverthinkwellofme,letwhatwouldhappen——wouldyouneverthinkthepresentmadeamendsforthepast?NotifIturnedagoodfellow,andgaveupeverythingyoudidn’tlike?"
GodfreywashalfconsciousthatthissuddenopportunityofspeakingtoNancyalonehaddrivenhimbesidehimself;butblindfeelinghadgotthemasteryofhistongue。NancyreallyfeltmuchagitatedbythepossibilityGodfrey’swordssuggested,butthisverypressureofemotionthatshewasindangeroffindingtoostrongforherrousedallherpowerofself—command。
"Ishouldbegladtoseeagoodchangeinanybody,Mr。Godfrey,"
sheanswered,withtheslightestdiscernibledifferenceoftone,"butit’udbebetterifnochangewaswanted。"
"You’reveryhard—hearted,Nancy,"saidGodfrey,pettishly。"Youmightencouragemetobeabetterfellow。I’mverymiserable——butyou’venofeeling。"
"Ithinkthosehavetheleastfeelingthatactwrongtobeginwith,"saidNancy,sendingoutaflashinspiteofherself。
Godfreywasdelightedwiththatlittleflash,andwouldhavelikedtogoonandmakeherquarrelwithhim;Nancywassoexasperatinglyquietandfirm。Butshewasnotindifferenttohim_yet_,though——
TheentranceofPriscilla,bustlingforwardandsaying,"Dearheartalive,child,letuslookatthisgown,"cutoffGodfrey’shopesofaquarrel。
"IsupposeImustgonow,"hesaidtoPriscilla。
"It’snomattertomewhetheryougoorstay,"saidthatfranklady,searchingforsomethinginherpocket,withapreoccupiedbrow。
"Do_you_wantmetogo?"saidGodfrey,lookingatNancy,whowasnowstandingupbyPriscilla’sorder。
"Asyoulike,"saidNancy,tryingtorecoverallherformercoldness,andlookingdowncarefullyatthehemofhergown。
"ThenIliketostay,"saidGodfrey,witharecklessdeterminationtogetasmuchofthisjoyashecouldto—night,andthinknothingofthemorrow。
CHAPTERXII
WhileGodfreyCasswastakingdraughtsofforgetfulnessfromthesweetpresenceofNancy,willinglylosingallsenseofthathiddenbondwhichatothermomentsgalledandfrettedhimsoastomingleirritationwiththeverysunshine,Godfrey’swifewaswalkingwithslowuncertainstepsthroughthesnow—coveredRaveloelanes,carryingherchildinherarms。
ThisjourneyonNewYear’sEvewasapremeditatedactofvengeancewhichshehadkeptinherhearteversinceGodfrey,inafitofpassion,hadtoldherhewouldsoonerdiethanacknowledgeherashiswife。TherewouldbeagreatpartyattheRedHouseonNewYear’sEve,sheknew:herhusbandwouldbesmilingandsmiledupon,hiding_her_existenceinthedarkestcornerofhisheart。Butshewouldmarhispleasure:shewouldgoinherdingyrags,withherfadedface,onceashandsomeasthebest,withherlittlechildthathaditsfather’shairandeyes,anddiscloseherselftotheSquireashiseldestson’swife。Itisseldomthatthemiserablecanhelpregardingtheirmiseryasawronginflictedbythosewhoarelessmiserable。Mollyknewthatthecauseofherdingyragswasnotherhusband’sneglect,butthedemonOpiumtowhomshewasenslaved,bodyandsoul,exceptinthelingeringmother’stendernessthatrefusedtogivehimherhungrychild。Sheknewthiswell;andyet,inthemomentsofwretchedunbenumbedconsciousness,thesenseofherwantanddegradationtransformeditselfcontinuallyintobitternesstowardsGodfrey。_He_waswelloff;andifshehadherrightsshewouldbewellofftoo。Thebeliefthatherepentedhismarriage,andsufferedfromit,onlyaggravatedhervindictiveness。
Justandself—reprovingthoughtsdonotcometoustoothickly,eveninthepurestair,andwiththebestlessonsofheavenandearth;
howshouldthosewhite—wingeddelicatemessengersmaketheirwaytoMolly’spoisonedchamber,inhabitedbynohighermemoriesthanthoseofabarmaid’sparadiseofpinkribbonsandgentlemen’sjokes?
Shehadsetoutatanearlyhour,buthadlingeredontheroad,inclinedbyherindolencetobelievethatifshewaitedunderawarmshedthesnowwouldceasetofall。Shehadwaitedlongerthansheknew,andnowthatshefoundherselfbelatedinthesnow—hiddenruggednessofthelonglanes,eventheanimationofavindictivepurposecouldnotkeepherspiritfromfailing。Itwasseveno’clock,andbythistimeshewasnotveryfarfromRaveloe,butshewasnotfamiliarenoughwiththosemonotonouslanestoknowhownearshewastoherjourney’send。Sheneededcomfort,andsheknewbutonecomforter——thefamiliardemoninherbosom;butshehesitatedamoment,afterdrawingouttheblackremnant,beforesheraisedittoherlips。Inthatmomentthemother’slovepleadedforpainfulconsciousnessratherthanoblivion——pleadedtobeleftinachingweariness,ratherthantohavetheencirclingarmsbenumbedsothattheycouldnotfeelthedearburden。InanothermomentMollyhadflungsomethingaway,butitwasnottheblackremnant——itwasanemptyphial。Andshewalkedonagainunderthebreakingcloud,fromwhichtherecamenowandthenthelightofaquicklyveiledstar,forafreezingwindhadsprungupsincethesnowinghadceased。Butshewalkedalwaysmoreandmoredrowsily,andclutchedmoreandmoreautomaticallythesleepingchildatherbosom。
Slowlythedemonwasworkinghiswill,andcoldandwearinesswerehishelpers。Soonshefeltnothingbutasupremeimmediatelongingthatcurtainedoffallfuturity——thelongingtoliedownandsleep。Shehadarrivedataspotwhereherfootstepswerenolongercheckedbyahedgerow,andshehadwanderedvaguely,unabletodistinguishanyobjects,notwithstandingthewidewhitenessaroundher,andthegrowingstarlight。Shesankdownagainstastragglingfurzebush,aneasypillowenough;andthebedofsnow,too,wassoft。Shedidnotfeelthatthebedwascold,anddidnotheedwhetherthechildwouldwakeandcryforher。Butherarmshadnotyetrelaxedtheirinstinctiveclutch;andthelittleoneslumberedonasgentlyasifithadbeenrockedinalace—trimmedcradle。
Butthecompletetorporcameatlast:thefingerslosttheirtension,thearmsunbent;thenthelittleheadfellawayfromthebosom,andtheblueeyesopenedwideonthecoldstarlight。Atfirsttherewasalittlepeevishcryof"mammy",andanefforttoregainthepillowingarmandbosom;butmammy’searwasdeaf,andthepillowseemedtobeslippingawaybackward。Suddenly,asthechildrolleddownwardonitsmother’sknees,allwetwithsnow,itseyeswerecaughtbyabrightglancinglightonthewhiteground,and,withthereadytransitionofinfancy,itwasimmediatelyabsorbedinwatchingthebrightlivingthingrunningtowardsit,yetneverarriving。Thatbrightlivingthingmustbecaught;andinaninstantthechildhadslippedonall—fours,andheldoutonelittlehandtocatchthegleam。Butthegleamwouldnotbecaughtinthatway,andnowtheheadwashelduptoseewherethecunninggleamcamefrom。Itcamefromaverybrightplace;andthelittleone,risingonitslegs,toddledthroughthesnow,theoldgrimyshawlinwhichitwaswrappedtrailingbehindit,andthequeerlittlebonnetdanglingatitsback——toddledontotheopendoorofSilasMarner’scottage,andrightuptothewarmhearth,wheretherewasabrightfireoflogsandsticks,whichhadthoroughlywarmedtheoldsack(Silas’sgreatcoat)spreadoutonthebrickstodry。Thelittleone,accustomedtobelefttoitselfforlonghourswithoutnoticefromitsmother,squatteddownonthesack,andspreaditstinyhandstowardstheblaze,inperfectcontentment,gurglingandmakingmanyinarticulatecommunicationstothecheerfulfire,likeanew—hatchedgoslingbeginningtofinditselfcomfortable。Butpresentlythewarmthhadalullingeffect,andthelittlegoldenheadsankdownontheoldsack,andtheblueeyeswereveiledbytheirdelicatehalf—transparentlids。
ButwherewasSilasMarnerwhilethisstrangevisitorhadcometohishearth?Hewasinthecottage,buthedidnotseethechild。
Duringthelastfewweeks,sincehehadlosthismoney,hehadcontractedthehabitofopeninghisdoorandlookingoutfromtimetotime,asifhethoughtthathismoneymightbesomehowcomingbacktohim,orthatsometrace,somenewsofit,mightbemysteriouslyontheroad,andbecaughtbythelisteningearorthestrainingeye。Itwaschieflyatnight,whenhewasnotoccupiedinhisloom,thathefellintothisrepetitionofanactforwhichhecouldhaveassignednodefinitepurpose,andwhichcanhardlybeunderstoodexceptbythosewhohaveundergoneabewilderingseparationfromasupremelylovedobject。Intheeveningtwilight,andlaterwheneverthenightwasnotdark,SilaslookedoutonthatnarrowprospectroundtheStone—pits,listeningandgazing,notwithhope,butwithmereyearningandunrest。
ThismorninghehadbeentoldbysomeofhisneighboursthatitwasNewYear’sEve,andthathemustsitupandheartheoldyearrungoutandthenewrungin,becausethatwasgoodluck,andmightbringhismoneybackagain。ThiswasonlyafriendlyRaveloe—wayofjestingwiththehalf—crazyodditiesofamiser,butithadperhapshelpedtothrowSilasintoamorethanusuallyexcitedstate。Sincetheon—comingoftwilighthehadopenedhisdooragainandagain,thoughonlytoshutitimmediatelyatseeingalldistanceveiledbythefallingsnow。Butthelasttimeheopeneditthesnowhadceased,andthecloudswerepartinghereandthere。Hestoodandlistened,andgazedforalongwhile——therewasreallysomethingontheroadcomingtowardshimthen,buthecaughtnosignofit;
andthestillnessandthewidetracklesssnowseemedtonarrowhissolitude,andtouchedhisyearningwiththechillofdespair。Hewentinagain,andputhisrighthandonthelatchofthedoortocloseit——buthedidnotcloseit:hewasarrested,ashehadbeenalreadysincehisloss,bytheinvisiblewandofcatalepsy,andstoodlikeagravenimage,withwidebutsightlesseyes,holdingopenhisdoor,powerlesstoresisteitherthegoodortheevilthatmightenterthere。
WhenMarner’ssensibilityreturned,hecontinuedtheactionwhichhadbeenarrested,andclosedhisdoor,unawareofthechasminhisconsciousness,unawareofanyintermediatechange,exceptthatthelighthadgrowndim,andthathewaschilledandfaint。Hethoughthehadbeentoolongstandingatthedoorandlookingout。Turningtowardsthehearth,wherethetwologshadfallenapart,andsentforthonlyareduncertainglimmer,heseatedhimselfonhisfiresidechair,andwasstoopingtopushhislogstogether,when,tohisblurredvision,itseemedasifthereweregoldonthefloorinfrontofthehearth。Gold!——hisowngold——broughtbacktohimasmysteriouslyasithadbeentakenaway!Hefelthisheartbegintobeatviolently,andforafewmomentshewasunabletostretchouthishandandgrasptherestoredtreasure。Theheapofgoldseemedtoglowandgetlargerbeneathhisagitatedgaze。Heleanedforwardatlast,andstretchedforthhishand;butinsteadofthehardcoinwiththefamiliarresistingoutline,hisfingersencounteredsoftwarmcurls。Inutteramazement,Silasfellonhiskneesandbenthisheadlowtoexaminethemarvel:itwasasleepingchild——around,fairthing,withsoftyellowringsalloveritshead。Couldthisbehislittlesistercomebacktohiminadream——
hislittlesisterwhomhehadcarriedaboutinhisarmsforayearbeforeshedied,whenhewasasmallboywithoutshoesorstockings?ThatwasthefirstthoughtthatdartedacrossSilas’sblankwonderment。_Was_itadream?Herosetohisfeetagain,pushedhislogstogether,and,throwingonsomedriedleavesandsticks,raisedaflame;buttheflamedidnotdispersethevision——
itonlylitupmoredistinctlythelittleroundformofthechild,anditsshabbyclothing。Itwasverymuchlikehislittlesister。
Silassankintohischairpowerless,underthedoublepresenceofaninexplicablesurpriseandahurryinginfluxofmemories。Howandwhenhadthechildcomeinwithouthisknowledge?Hehadneverbeenbeyondthedoor。Butalongwiththatquestion,andalmostthrustingitaway,therewasavisionoftheoldhomeandtheoldstreetsleadingtoLanternYard——andwithinthatvisionanother,ofthethoughtswhichhadbeenpresentwithhiminthosefar—offscenes。
Thethoughtswerestrangetohimnow,likeoldfriendshipsimpossibletorevive;andyethehadadreamyfeelingthatthischildwassomehowamessagecometohimfromthatfar—offlife:itstirredfibresthathadneverbeenmovedinRaveloe——oldquiveringsoftenderness——oldimpressionsofaweatthepresentimentofsomePowerpresidingoverhislife;forhisimaginationhadnotyetextricateditselffromthesenseofmysteryinthechild’ssuddenpresence,andhadformednoconjecturesofordinarynaturalmeansbywhichtheeventcouldhavebeenbroughtabout。
Buttherewasacryonthehearth:thechildhadawaked,andMarnerstoopedtoliftitonhisknee。Itclungroundhisneck,andburstlouderandlouderintothatminglingofinarticulatecrieswith"mammy"bywhichlittlechildrenexpressthebewildermentofwaking。Silaspressedittohim,andalmostunconsciouslyutteredsoundsofhushingtenderness,whilehebethoughthimselfthatsomeofhisporridge,whichhadgotcoolbythedyingfire,woulddotofeedthechildwithifitwereonlywarmedupalittle。
Hehadplentytodothroughthenexthour。Theporridge,sweetenedwithsomedrybrownsugarfromanoldstorewhichhehadrefrainedfromusingforhimself,stoppedthecriesofthelittleone,andmadeherliftherblueeyeswithawidequietgazeatSilas,asheputthespoonintohermouth。Presentlysheslippedfromhiskneeandbegantotoddleabout,butwithaprettystaggerthatmadeSilasjumpupandfollowherlestsheshouldfallagainstanythingthatwouldhurther。Butsheonlyfellinasittingpostureontheground,andbegantopullatherboots,lookingupathimwithacryingfaceasifthebootshurther。Hetookheronhiskneeagain,butitwassometimebeforeitoccurredtoSilas’sdullbachelormindthatthewetbootswerethegrievance,pressingonherwarmankles。Hegotthemoffwithdifficulty,andbabywasatoncehappilyoccupiedwiththeprimarymysteryofherowntoes,invitingSilas,withmuchchuckling,toconsiderthemysterytoo。ButthewetbootshadatlastsuggestedtoSilasthatthechildhadbeenwalkingonthesnow,andthisrousedhimfromhisentireoblivionofanyordinarymeansbywhichitcouldhaveenteredorbeenbroughtintohishouse。Underthepromptingofthisnewidea,andwithoutwaitingtoformconjectures,heraisedthechildinhisarms,andwenttothedoor。Assoonashehadopenedit,therewasthecryof"mammy"again,whichSilashadnotheardsincethechild’sfirsthungrywaking。Bendingforward,hecouldjustdiscernthemarksmadebythelittlefeetonthevirginsnow,andhefollowedtheirtracktothefurzebushes。"Mammy!"thelittleonecriedagainandagain,stretchingitselfforwardsoasalmosttoescapefromSilas’sarms,beforehehimselfwasawarethattherewassomethingmorethanthebushbeforehim——thattherewasahumanbody,withtheheadsunklowinthefurze,andhalf—coveredwiththeshakensnow。
CHAPTERXIII
Itwasaftertheearlysupper—timeattheRedHouse,andtheentertainmentwasinthatstagewhenbashfulnessitselfhadpassedintoeasyjollity,whengentlemen,consciousofunusualaccomplishments,couldatlengthbeprevailedontodanceahornpipe,andwhentheSquirepreferredtalkingloudly,scatteringsnuff,andpattinghisvisitors’backs,tosittinglongeratthewhist—table——achoiceexasperatingtouncleKimble,who,beingalwaysvolatileinsoberbusinesshours,becameintenseandbitterovercardsandbrandy,shuffledbeforehisadversary’sdealwithaglareofsuspicion,andturnedupameantrump—cardwithanairofinexpressibledisgust,asifinaworldwheresuchthingscouldhappenonemightaswellenteronacourseofrecklessprofligacy。
Whentheeveninghadadvancedtothispitchoffreedomandenjoyment,itwasusualfortheservants,theheavydutiesofsupperbeingwellover,togettheirshareofamusementbycomingtolookonatthedancing;sothatthebackregionsofthehousewereleftinsolitude。
ThereweretwodoorsbywhichtheWhiteParlourwasenteredfromthehall,andtheywerebothstandingopenforthesakeofair;buttheloweronewascrowdedwiththeservantsandvillagers,andonlytheupperdoorwaywasleftfree。BobCasswasfiguringinahornpipe,andhisfather,veryproudofthislitheson,whomherepeatedlydeclaredtobejustlikehimselfinhisyoungdaysinatonethatimpliedthistobetheveryhigheststampofjuvenilemerit,wasthecentreofagroupwhohadplacedthemselvesoppositetheperformer,notfarfromtheupperdoor。Godfreywasstandingalittlewayoff,nottoadmirehisbrother’sdancing,buttokeepsightofNancy,whowasseatedinthegroup,nearherfather。Hestoodaloof,becausehewishedtoavoidsuggestinghimselfasasubjectfortheSquire’sfatherlyjokesinconnectionwithmatrimonyandMissNancyLammeter’sbeauty,whichwerelikelytobecomemoreandmoreexplicit。Buthehadtheprospectofdancingwithheragainwhenthehornpipewasconcluded,andinthemeanwhileitwasverypleasanttogetlongglancesatherquiteunobserved。
ButwhenGodfreywasliftinghiseyesfromoneofthoselongglances,theyencounteredanobjectasstartlingtohimatthatmomentasifithadbeenanapparitionfromthedead。It_was_anapparitionfromthathiddenlifewhichlies,likeadarkby—street,behindthegoodlyornamentedfacadethatmeetsthesunlightandthegazeofrespectableadmirers。Itwashisownchild,carriedinSilasMarner’sarms。Thatwashisinstantaneousimpression,unaccompaniedbydoubt,thoughhehadnotseenthechildformonthspast;andwhenthehopewasrisingthathemightpossiblybemistaken,Mr。CrackenthorpandMr。LammeterhadalreadyadvancedtoSilas,inastonishmentatthisstrangeadvent。Godfreyjoinedthemimmediately,unabletorestwithouthearingeveryword——tryingtocontrolhimself,butconsciousthatifanyonenoticedhim,theymustseethathewaswhite—lippedandtrembling。
ButnowalleyesatthatendoftheroomwerebentonSilasMarner;
theSquirehimselfhadrisen,andaskedangrily,"How’sthis?——
what’sthis?——whatdoyoudocominginhereinthisway?"
"I’mcomeforthedoctor——Iwantthedoctor,"Silashadsaid,inthefirstmoment,toMr。Crackenthorp。
"Why,what’sthematter,Marner?"saidtherector。"Thedoctor’shere;butsayquietlywhatyouwanthimfor。"
"It’sawoman,"saidSilas,speakinglow,andhalf—breathlessly,justasGodfreycameup。"She’sdead,Ithink——deadinthesnowattheStone—pits——notfarfrommydoor。"
Godfreyfeltagreatthrob:therewasoneterrorinhismindatthatmoment:itwas,thatthewomanmight_not_bedead。Thatwasanevilterror——anuglyinmatetohavefoundanestling—placeinGodfrey’skindlydisposition;butnodispositionisasecurityfromevilwishestoamanwhosehappinesshangsonduplicity。
"Hush,hush!"saidMr。Crackenthorp。"Gooutintothehallthere。I’llfetchthedoctortoyou。Foundawomaninthesnow——
andthinksshe’sdead,"headded,speakinglowtotheSquire。
"Bettersayaslittleaboutitaspossible:itwillshocktheladies。Justtellthemapoorwomanisillfromcoldandhunger。
I’llgoandfetchKimble。"
Bythistime,however,theladieshadpressedforward,curioustoknowwhatcouldhavebroughtthesolitarylinen—weaverthereundersuchstrangecircumstances,andinterestedintheprettychild,who,halfalarmedandhalfattractedbythebrightnessandthenumerouscompany,nowfrownedandhidherface,nowliftedupherheadagainandlookedroundplacably,untilatouchoracoaxingwordbroughtbackthefrown,andmadeherburyherfacewithnewdetermination。
"Whatchildisit?"saidseveralladiesatonce,and,amongtherest,NancyLammeter,addressingGodfrey。
"Idon’tknow——somepoorwoman’swhohasbeenfoundinthesnow,Ibelieve,"wastheanswerGodfreywrungfromhimselfwithaterribleeffort。("Afterall,_am_Icertain?"hehastenedtoadd,silently,inanticipationofhisownconscience。)
"Why,you’dbetterleavethechildhere,then,MasterMarner,"
saidgood—naturedMrs。Kimble,hesitating,however,totakethosedingyclothesintocontactwithherownornamentedsatinbodice。
"I’lltelloneo’thegirlstofetchit。"
"No——no——Ican’tpartwithit,Ican’tletitgo,"saidSilas,abruptly。"It’scometome——I’vearighttokeepit。"
ThepropositiontotakethechildfromhimhadcometoSilasquiteunexpectedly,andhisspeech,utteredunderastrongsuddenimpulse,wasalmostlikearevelationtohimself:aminutebefore,hehadnodistinctintentionaboutthechild。
"Didyoueverhearthelike?"saidMrs。Kimble,inmildsurprise,toherneighbour。
"Now,ladies,Imusttroubleyoutostandaside,"saidMr。Kimble,comingfromthecard—room,insomebitternessattheinterruption,butdrilledbythelonghabitofhisprofessionintoobediencetounpleasantcalls,evenwhenhewashardlysober。
"It’sanastybusinessturningoutnow,eh,Kimble?"saidtheSquire。"Hemightha’goneforyouryoungfellow——the’prentice,there——what’shisname?"
"Might?aye——what’stheuseoftalkingaboutmight?"growleduncleKimble,hasteningoutwithMarner,andfollowedbyMr。CrackenthorpandGodfrey。"Getmeapairofthickboots,Godfrey,willyou?Andstay,letsomebodyruntoWinthrop’sandfetchDolly——she’sthebestwomantoget。Benwasherehimselfbeforesupper;ishegone?"
"Yes,sir,Imethim,"saidMarner;"butIcouldn’tstoptotellhimanything,onlyIsaidIwasgoingforthedoctor,andhesaidthedoctorwasattheSquire’s。AndImadehasteandran,andtherewasnobodytobeseenatthebacko’thehouse,andsoIwentintowherethecompanywas。"
Thechild,nolongerdistractedbythebrightlightandthesmilingwomen’sfaces,begantocryandcallfor"mammy",thoughalwaysclingingtoMarner,whohadapparentlywonherthoroughconfidence。
Godfreyhadcomebackwiththeboots,andfeltthecryasifsomefibreweredrawntightwithinhim。
"I’llgo,"hesaid,hastily,eagerforsomemovement;"I’llgoandfetchthewoman——Mrs。Winthrop。"
"Oh,pooh——sendsomebodyelse,"saiduncleKimble,hurryingawaywithMarner。
"You’llletmeknowifIcanbeofanyuse,Kimble,"saidMr。Crackenthorp。Butthedoctorwasoutofhearing。
Godfrey,too,haddisappeared:hewasgonetosnatchhishatandcoat,havingjustreflectionenoughtorememberthathemustnotlooklikeamadman;butherushedoutofthehouseintothesnowwithoutheedinghisthinshoes。
InafewminuteshewasonhisrapidwaytotheStone—pitsbythesideofDolly,who,thoughfeelingthatshewasentirelyinherplaceinencounteringcoldandsnowonanerrandofmercy,wasmuchconcernedatayounggentleman’sgettinghisfeetwetunderalikeimpulse。
"You’dadealbettergoback,sir,"saidDolly,withrespectfulcompassion。"You’venocalltocatchcold;andI’daskyouifyou’dbesogoodastellmyhusbandtocome,onyourwayback——
he’sattheRainbow,Idoubt——ifyoufoundhimanywaysoberenoughtobeo’use。Orelse,there’sMrs。Snell’udhappensendtheboyuptofetchandcarry,fortheremaybethingswantedfromthedoctor’s。"
"No,I’llstay,nowI’monceout——I’llstayoutsidehere,"saidGodfrey,whentheycameoppositeMarner’scottage。"YoucancomeandtellmeifIcandoanything。"
"Well,sir,you’reverygood:you’veatenderheart,"saidDolly,goingtothedoor。
Godfreywastoopainfullypreoccupiedtofeelatwingeofself—reproachatthisundeservedpraise。Hewalkedupanddown,unconsciousthathewasplungingankle—deepinsnow,unconsciousofeverythingbuttremblingsuspenseaboutwhatwasgoingoninthecottage,andtheeffectofeachalternativeonhisfuturelot。No,notquiteunconsciousofeverythingelse。Deeperdown,andhalf—smotheredbypassionatedesireanddread,therewasthesensethatheoughtnottobewaitingonthesealternatives;thatheoughttoaccepttheconsequencesofhisdeeds,ownthemiserablewife,andfulfiltheclaimsofthehelplesschild。ButhehadnotmoralcourageenoughtocontemplatethatactiverenunciationofNancyaspossibleforhim:hehadonlyconscienceandheartenoughtomakehimforeveruneasyundertheweaknessthatforbadetherenunciation。Andatthismomenthismindleapedawayfromallrestrainttowardthesuddenprospectofdeliverancefromhislongbondage。
"Isshedead?"saidthevoicethatpredominatedovereveryotherwithinhim。"Ifsheis,ImaymarryNancy;andthenIshallbeagoodfellowinfuture,andhavenosecrets,andthechild——shallbetakencareofsomehow。"Butacrossthatvisioncametheotherpossibility——"Shemaylive,andthenit’sallupwithme。"
GodfreyneverknewhowlongitwasbeforethedoorofthecottageopenedandMr。Kimblecameout。Hewentforwardtomeethisuncle,preparedtosuppresstheagitationhemustfeel,whatevernewshewastohear。
"Iwaitedforyou,asI’dcomesofar,"hesaid,speakingfirst。
"Pooh,itwasnonsenseforyoutocomeout:whydidn’tyousendoneofthemen?There’snothingtobedone。She’sdead——hasbeendeadforhours,Ishouldsay。"
"Whatsortofwomanisshe?"saidGodfrey,feelingthebloodrushtohisface。
"Ayoungwoman,butemaciated,withlongblackhair。Somevagrant——
quiteinrags。She’sgotawedding—ringon,however。Theymustfetchherawaytotheworkhouseto—morrow。Come,comealong。"
"Iwanttolookather,"saidGodfrey。"IthinkIsawsuchawomanyesterday。I’llovertakeyouinaminuteortwo。"
Mr。Kimblewenton,andGodfreyturnedbacktothecottage。Hecastonlyoneglanceatthedeadfaceonthepillow,whichDollyhadsmoothedwithdecentcare;butherememberedthatlastlookathisunhappyhatedwifesowell,thatattheendofsixteenyearseverylineinthewornfacewaspresenttohimwhenhetoldthefullstoryofthisnight。
Heturnedimmediatelytowardsthehearth,whereSilasMarnersatlullingthechild。Shewasperfectlyquietnow,butnotasleep——
onlysoothedbysweetporridgeandwarmthintothatwide—gazingcalmwhichmakesusolderhumanbeings,withourinwardturmoil,feelacertainaweinthepresenceofalittlechild,suchaswefeelbeforesomequietmajestyorbeautyintheearthorsky——beforeasteadyglowingplanet,orafull—floweredeglantine,orthebendingtreesoverasilentpathway。Thewide—openblueeyeslookedupatGodfrey’swithoutanyuneasinessorsignofrecognition:thechildcouldmakenovisibleaudibleclaimonitsfather;andthefatherfeltastrangemixtureoffeelings,aconflictofregretandjoy,thatthepulseofthatlittlehearthadnoresponseforthehalf—jealousyearninginhisown,whentheblueeyesturnedawayfromhimslowly,andfixedthemselvesontheweaver’squeerface,whichwasbentlowdowntolookatthem,whilethesmallhandbegantopullMarner’switheredcheekwithlovingdisfiguration。
"You’lltakethechildtotheparishto—morrow?"askedGodfrey,speakingasindifferentlyashecould。
"Whosaysso?"saidMarner,sharply。"Willtheymakemetakeher?"
"Why,youwouldn’tliketokeepher,shouldyou——anoldbachelorlikeyou?"
"Tillanybodyshowsthey’vearighttotakeherawayfromme,"
saidMarner。"Themother’sdead,andIreckonit’sgotnofather:
it’salonething——andI’malonething。Mymoney’sgone,Idon’tknowwhere——andthisiscomefromIdon’tknowwhere。Iknownothing——I’mpartlymazed。"
"Poorlittlething!"saidGodfrey。"Letmegivesomethingtowardsfindingitclothes。"
Hehadputhishandinhispocketandfoundhalf—a—guinea,and,thrustingitintoSilas’shand,hehurriedoutofthecottagetoovertakeMr。Kimble。
"Ah,Iseeit’snotthesamewomanIsaw,"hesaid,ashecameup。
"It’saprettylittlechild:theoldfellowseemstowanttokeepit;that’sstrangeforamiserlikehim。ButIgavehimatrifletohelphimout:theparishisn’tlikelytoquarrelwithhimfortherighttokeepthechild。"
"No;butI’veseenthetimewhenImighthavequarrelledwithhimforitmyself。It’stoolatenow,though。Ifthechildranintothefire,youraunt’stoofattoovertakeit:shecouldonlysitandgruntlikeanalarmedsow。Butwhatafoolyouare,Godfrey,tocomeoutinyourdancingshoesandstockingsinthisway——andyouoneofthebeauxoftheevening,andatyourownhouse!Whatdoyoumeanbysuchfreaks,youngfellow?HasMissNancybeencruel,anddoyouwanttospiteherbyspoilingyourpumps?"
"Oh,everythinghasbeendisagreeableto—night。Iwastiredtodeathofjiggingandgallanting,andthatbotheraboutthehornpipes。AndI’dgottodancewiththeotherMissGunn,"saidGodfrey,gladofthesubterfugehisunclehadsuggestedtohim。
Theprevaricationandwhitelieswhichamindthatkeepsitselfambitiouslypureisasuneasyunderasagreatartistunderthefalsetouchesthatnoeyedetectsbuthisown,arewornaslightlyasmeretrimmingswhenoncetheactionshavebecomealie。
GodfreyreappearedintheWhiteParlourwithdryfeet,and,sincethetruthmustbetold,withasenseofreliefandgladnessthatwastoostrongforpainfulthoughtstostrugglewith。Forcouldhenotventurenow,wheneveropportunityoffered,tosaythetenderestthingstoNancyLammeter——topromiseherandhimselfthathewouldalwaysbejustwhatshewoulddesiretoseehim?Therewasnodangerthathisdeadwifewouldberecognized:thosewerenotdaysofactiveinquiryandwidereport;andasfortheregistryoftheirmarriage,thatwasalongwayoff,buriedinunturnedpages,awayfromeveryone’sinterestbuthisown。Dunseymightbetrayhimifhecameback;butDunseymightbewontosilence。
Andwheneventsturnoutsomuchbetterforamanthanhehashadreasontodread,isitnotaproofthathisconducthasbeenlessfoolishandblameworthythanitmightotherwisehaveappeared?Whenwearetreatedwell,wenaturallybegintothinkthatwearenotaltogetherunmeritorious,andthatitisonlyjustweshouldtreatourselveswell,andnotmarourowngoodfortune。Where,afterall,wouldbetheuseofhisconfessingthepasttoNancyLammeter,andthrowingawayhishappiness?——nay,hers?forhefeltsomeconfidencethatshelovedhim。Asforthechild,hewouldseethatitwascaredfor:hewouldneverforsakeit;hewoulddoeverythingbutownit。Perhapsitwouldbejustashappyinlifewithoutbeingownedbyitsfather,seeingthatnobodycouldtellhowthingswouldturnout,andthat——isthereanyotherreasonwanted?——well,then,thatthefatherwouldbemuchhappierwithoutowningthechild。
CHAPTERXIV
Therewasapauper’sburialthatweekinRaveloe,andupKenchYardatBatherleyitwasknownthatthedark—hairedwomanwiththefairchild,whohadlatelycometolodgethere,wasgoneawayagain。
ThatwasalltheexpressnotetakenthatMollyhaddisappearedfromtheeyesofmen。Buttheunweptdeathwhich,tothegenerallot,seemedastrivialasthesummer—shedleaf,waschargedwiththeforceofdestinytocertainhumanlivesthatweknowof,shapingtheirjoysandsorrowseventotheend。
SilasMarner’sdeterminationtokeepthe"tramp’schild"wasmatterofhardlylesssurpriseanditeratedtalkinthevillagethantherobberyofhismoney。Thatsofteningoffeelingtowardshimwhichdatedfromhismisfortune,thatmergingofsuspicionanddislikeinarathercontemptuouspityforhimasloneandcrazy,wasnowaccompaniedwithamoreactivesympathy,especiallyamongstthewomen。Notablemothers,whoknewwhatitwastokeepchildren"wholeandsweet";lazymothers,whoknewwhatitwastobeinterruptedinfoldingtheirarmsandscratchingtheirelbowsbythemischievouspropensitiesofchildrenjustfirmontheirlegs,wereequallyinterestedinconjecturinghowalonemanwouldmanagewithatwo—year—oldchildonhishands,andwereequallyreadywiththeirsuggestions:thenotablechieflytellinghimwhathehadbetterdo,andthelazyonesbeingemphaticintellinghimwhathewouldneverbeabletodo。
Amongthenotablemothers,DollyWinthropwastheonewhoseneighbourlyofficeswerethemostacceptabletoMarner,fortheywererenderedwithoutanyshowofbustlinginstruction。Silashadshownherthehalf—guineagiventohimbyGodfrey,andhadaskedherwhatheshoulddoaboutgettingsomeclothesforthechild。
"Eh,MasterMarner,"saidDolly,"there’snocalltobuy,nomorenorapairo’shoes;forI’vegotthelittlepetticoatsasAaronworefiveyearsago,andit’sillspendingthemoneyonthembaby—clothes,forthechild’ullgrowlikegrassi’May,blessit——
thatitwill。"
AndthesamedayDollybroughtherbundle,anddisplayedtoMarner,onebyone,thetinygarmentsintheirdueorderofsuccession,mostofthempatchedanddarned,butcleanandneatasfresh—sprungherbs。Thiswastheintroductiontoagreatceremonywithsoapandwater,fromwhichBabycameoutinnewbeauty,andsatonDolly’sknee,handlinghertoesandchucklingandpattingherpalmstogetherwithanairofhavingmadeseveraldiscoveriesaboutherself,whichshecommunicatedbyalternatesoundsof"gug—gug—gug",and"mammy"。The"mammy"wasnotacryofneedoruneasiness:Babyhadbeenusedtoutteritwithoutexpectingeithertendersoundortouchtofollow。
"Anybody’udthinktheangilsinheavencouldn’tbeprettier,"
saidDolly,rubbingthegoldencurlsandkissingthem。"Andtothinkofitsbeingcoveredwi’themdirtyrags——andthepoormother——frozetodeath;butthere’sThemastookcareofit,andbroughtittoyourdoor,MasterMarner。Thedoorwasopen,anditwalkedinoverthesnow,likeasifithadbeenalittlestarvedrobin。Didn’tyousaythedoorwasopen?"
"Yes,"saidSilas,meditatively。"Yes——thedoorwasopen。Themoney’sgoneIdon’tknowwhere,andthisiscomefromIdon’tknowwhere。"
Hehadnotmentionedtoanyonehisunconsciousnessofthechild’sentrance,shrinkingfromquestionswhichmightleadtothefacthehimselfsuspected——namely,thathehadbeeninoneofhistrances。
"Ah,"saidDolly,withsoothinggravity,"it’slikethenightandthemorning,andthesleepingandthewaking,andtherainandtheharvest——onegoesandtheothercomes,andweknownothinghownorwhere。Wemaystriveandscratandfend,butit’slittlewecandoarterall——thebigthingscomeandgowi’nostrivingo’our’n——
theydo,thattheydo;andIthinkyou’reintherightonittokeepthelittleun,MasterMarner,seeingasit’sbeensenttoyou,thoughthere’sfolksasthinksdifferent。You’llhappenbeabitmoitheredwithitwhileit’ssolittle;butI’llcome,andwelcome,andseetoitforyou:I’veabito’timetosparemostdays,forwhenonegetsupbetimesi’themorning,theclockseemstostan’
stilltow’rtten,aforeit’stimetogoaboutthevictual。So,asI
say,I’llcomeandseetothechildforyou,andwelcome。"
"Thankyou……kindly,"saidSilas,hesitatingalittle。"I’llbegladifyou’lltellmethings。But,"headded,uneasily,leaningforwardtolookatBabywithsomejealousy,asshewasrestingherheadbackwardagainstDolly’sarm,andeyeinghimcontentedlyfromadistance——"ButIwanttodothingsforitmyself,elseitmaygetfondo’somebodyelse,andnotfondo’me。I’vebeenusedtofendingformyselfinthehouse——Icanlearn,Icanlearn。"
"Eh,tobesure,"saidDolly,gently。"I’veseenmenasarewonderfulhandywi’children。Themenareawk’ardandcontrairymostly,Godhelp’em——butwhenthedrink’soutof’em,theyaren’tunsensible,thoughthey’rebadforleechingandbandaging——sofieryandunpatient。Youseethisgoesfirst,nexttheskin,"
proceededDolly,takingupthelittleshirt,andputtingiton。
"Yes,"saidMarner,docilely,bringinghiseyesveryclose,thattheymightbeinitiatedinthemysteries;whereuponBabyseizedhisheadwithbothhersmallarms,andputherlipsagainsthisfacewithpurringnoises。
"Seethere,"saidDolly,withawoman’stendertact,"she’sfondesto’you。Shewantstogoo’yourlap,I’llbebound。Go,then:takeher,MasterMarner;youcanputthethingson,andthenyoucansayasyou’vedoneforherfromthefirstofhercomingtoyou。"
Marnertookheronhislap,tremblingwithanemotionmysterioustohimself,atsomethingunknowndawningonhislife。Thoughtandfeelingweresoconfusedwithinhim,thatifhehadtriedtogivethemutterance,hecouldonlyhavesaidthatthechildwascomeinsteadofthegold——thatthegoldhadturnedintothechild。HetookthegarmentsfromDolly,andputthemonunderherteaching;
interrupted,ofcourse,byBaby’sgymnastics。
"There,then!why,youtaketoitquiteeasy,MasterMarner,"
saidDolly;"butwhatshallyoudowhenyou’reforcedtositinyourloom?Forshe’llgetbusierandmischievousereveryday——shewill,blessher。It’sluckyasyou’vegotthathighhearthi’steadofagrate,forthatkeepsthefiremoreoutofherreach:butifyou’vegotanythingascanbespiltorbroke,orasisfittocutherfingersoff,she’llbeatit——anditisbutrightyoushouldknow。"
Silasmeditatedalittlewhileinsomeperplexity。"I’lltiehertothelego’theloom,"hesaidatlast——"tieherwithagoodlongstripo’something。"
"Well,mayhapthat’lldo,asit’salittlegell,forthey’reeasierpersuadedtositi’oneplacenorthelads。Iknowwhattheladsare;forI’vehadfour——fourI’vehad,Godknows——andifyouwastotakeandtie’emup,they’dmakeafightingandacryingasifyouwasringingthepigs。ButI’llbringyoumylittlechair,andsomebitso’redragandthingsforhertoplaywi’;an’she’llsitandchatterto’emasiftheywasalive。Eh,ifitwasn’tasintotheladstowish’emmadedifferent,bless’em,Ishouldha’beengladforoneof’emtobealittlegell;andtothinkasIcouldha’
taughthertoscour,andmend,andtheknitting,andeverything。
ButIcanteach’emthislittleun,MasterMarner,whenshegetsoldenough。"
"Butshe’llbe_my_littleun,"saidMarner,ratherhastily。
"She’llbenobodyelse’s。"
"No,tobesure;you’llhavearighttoher,ifyou’reafathertoher,andbringherupaccording。But,"addedDolly,comingtoapointwhichshehaddeterminedbeforehandtotouchupon,"youmustbringheruplikechristenedfolks’schildren,andtakehertochurch,andletherlearnhercatechise,asmylittleAaroncansayoff——the"Ibelieve",andeverything,and"hurtnobodybywordordeed",——aswellasifhewastheclerk。That’swhatyoumustdo,MasterMarner,ifyou’ddotherightthingbytheorphinchild。"
Marner’spalefaceflushedsuddenlyunderanewanxiety。HismindwastoobusytryingtogivesomedefinitebearingtoDolly’swordsforhimtothinkofansweringher。
"Andit’smybelief,"shewenton,"asthepoorlittlecreaturhasneverbeenchristened,andit’snothingbutrightastheparsonshouldbespoketo;andifyouwasnowaysunwilling,I’dtalktoMr。Maceyaboutitthisveryday。Forifthechildeverwentanywayswrong,andyouhadn’tdoneyourpartbyit,MasterMarner——
’noculation,andeverythingtosaveitfromharm——it’udbeathorni’yourbedforevero’thissidethegrave;andIcan’tthinkasit’udbeeasylyingdownforanybodywhenthey’dgottoanotherworld,iftheyhadn’tdonetheirpartbythehelplesschildrenascomewi’outtheirownasking。"
Dollyherselfwasdisposedtobesilentforsometimenow,forshehadspokenfromthedepthsofherownsimplebelief,andwasmuchconcernedtoknowwhetherherwordswouldproducethedesiredeffectonSilas。Hewaspuzzledandanxious,forDolly’sword"christened"conveyednodistinctmeaningtohim。Hehadonlyheardofbaptism,andhadonlyseenthebaptismofgrown—upmenandwomen。
"Whatisitasyoumeanby"christened"?"hesaidatlast,timidly。"Won’tfolksbegoodtoherwithoutit?"
"Dear,dear!MasterMarner,"saidDolly,withgentledistressandcompassion。"Hadyounevernofathernormotherastaughtyoutosayyourprayers,andasthere’sgoodwordsandgoodthingstokeepusfromharm?"
"Yes,"saidSilas,inalowvoice;"Iknowadealaboutthat——
usedto,usedto。Butyourwaysaredifferent:mycountrywasagoodwayoff。"Hepausedafewmoments,andthenadded,moredecidedly,"ButIwanttodoeverythingascanbedoneforthechild。Andwhatever’srightforiti’thiscountry,andyouthink’ulldoitgood,I’llactaccording,ifyou’lltellme。"
"Well,then,MasterMarner,"saidDolly,inwardlyrejoiced,"I’llaskMr。Maceytospeaktotheparsonaboutit;andyoumustfixonanameforit,becauseitmusthaveanamegiv’itwhenit’schristened。"
"Mymother’snamewasHephzibah,"saidSilas,"andmylittlesisterwasnamedafterher。"
"Eh,that’sahardname,"saidDolly。"Ipartlythinkitisn’tachristenedname。"
"It’saBiblename,"saidSilas,oldideasrecurring。
"ThenI’venocalltospeakagain’it,"saidDolly,ratherstartledbySilas’sknowledgeonthishead;"butyouseeI’mnoscholard,andI’mslowatcatchingthewords。MyhusbandsaysI’mallayslikeasifIwasputtingthehaftforthehandle——that’swhathesays——forhe’sverysharp,Godhelphim。Butitwasawk’ardcallingyourlittlesisterbysuchahardname,whenyou’dgotnothingbigtosay,like——wasn’tit,MasterMarner?"
"WecalledherEppie,"saidSilas。
"Well,ifitwasnowayswrongtoshortenthename,it’udbeadealhandier。AndsoI’llgonow,MasterMarner,andI’llspeakaboutthechristeningaforedark;andIwishyouthebesto’luck,andit’smybeliefasit’llcometoyou,ifyoudowhat’srightbytheorphinchild;——andthere’sthe’noculationtobeseento;andastowashingitsbitso’things,youneedlooktonobodybutme,forI
cando’emwi’onehandwhenI’vegotmysudsabout。Eh,theblessedangil!You’llletmebringmyAarononeo’thesedays,andhe’llshowherhislittlecartashisfather’smadeforhim,andtheblack—and—whitepupashe’sgota—rearing。"
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