OncomingdownstairsIfoundMrsForresterwaitingformeattheentrancetothedining—parlour;shedrewmein,andwhenthedoorwasshut,shetriedtwoorthreetimestobeginonsomesubject,whichwassounapproachableapparently,thatIbegantodespairofourevergettingtoaclearunderstanding。Atlastoutitcame;
thepooroldladytremblingallthetimeasifitwereagreatcrimewhichshewasexposingtodaylight,intellingmehowvery,verylittleshehadtoliveupon;aconfessionwhichshewasbroughttomakefromadreadlestweshouldthinkthatthesmallcontributionnamedinherpaperboreanyproportiontoherloveandregardforMissMatty。Andyetthatsumwhichshesoeagerlyrelinquishedwas,intruth,morethanatwentiethpartofwhatshehadtoliveupon,andkeephouse,andalittleserving—maid,allasbecameonebornaTyrrell。Andwhenthewholeincomedoesnotnearlyamounttoahundredpounds,togiveupatwentiethofitwillnecessitatemanycarefuleconomies,andmanypiecesofself—
denial,smallandinsignificantintheworld’saccount,butbearingadifferentvalueinanotheraccount—bookthatIhaveheardof。
Shedidsowishshewasrich,shesaid,andthiswishshekeptrepeating,withnothoughtofherselfinit,onlywithalonging,yearningdesiretobeabletoheapupMissMatty’smeasureofcomforts。
ItwassometimebeforeIcouldconsoleherenoughtoleaveher;
andthen,onquittingthehouse,IwaswaylaidbyMrsFitz—Adam,whohadalsoherconfidencetomakeofprettynearlytheoppositedescription。Shehadnotlikedtoputdownallthatshecouldaffordandwasreadytogive。ShetoldmeshethoughtshenevercouldlookMissMattyinthefaceagainifshepresumedtobegivinghersomuchassheshouldliketodo。"MissMatty!"
continuedshe,"thatIthoughtwassuchafineyoungladywhenI
wasnothingbutacountrygirl,comingtomarketwitheggsandbutterandsuchlikethings。Formyfather,thoughwell—to—do,wouldalwaysmakemegoonasmymotherhaddonebeforeme,andI
hadtocomeintoCranfordeverySaturday,andseeaftersales,andprices,andwhatnot。Andoneday,Iremember,ImetMissMattyinthelanethatleadstoCombehurst;shewaswalkingonthefootpath,which,youknow,israisedagoodwayabovetheroad,andagentlemanrodebesideher,andwastalkingtoher,andshewaslookingdownatsomeprimrosesshehadgathered,andpullingthemalltopieces,andIdobelieveshewascrying。Butaftershehadpassed,sheturnedroundandranaftermetoask—oh,sokindly—
aboutmypoormother,wholayonherdeath—bed;andwhenIcriedshetookholdofmyhandtocomfortme—andthegentlemanwaitingforherallthetime—andherpoorheartveryfullofsomething,I
amsure;andIthoughtitsuchanhonourtobespokentointhatprettywaybytherector’sdaughter,whovisitedatArleyHall。I
havelovedhereversince,thoughperhapsI’dnorighttodoit;
butifyoucanthinkofanywayinwhichImightbeallowedtogivealittlemorewithoutanyoneknowingit,Ishouldbesomuchobligedtoyou,mydear。Andmybrotherwouldbedelightedtodoctorherfornothing—medicines,leeches,andall。Iknowthatheandherladyship(mydear,IlittlethoughtinthedaysIwastellingyouofthatIshouldevercometobesister—in—lawtoaladyship!)woulddoanythingforher。Weallwould。"
ItoldherIwasquitesureofit,andpromisedallsortsofthingsinmyanxietytogethometoMissMatty,whomightwellbewonderingwhathadbecomeofme—absentfromhertwohourswithoutbeingabletoaccountforit。Shehadtakenverylittlenoteoftime,however,asshehadbeenoccupiedinnumberlesslittlearrangementspreparatorytothegreatstepofgivingupherhouse。
Itwasevidentlyarelieftohertobedoingsomethinginthewayofretrenchment,for,asshesaid,whenevershepausedtothink,therecollectionofthepoorfellowwithhisbadfive—poundnotecameoverher,andshefeltquitedishonest;onlyifitmadehersouncomfortable,whatmustitnotbedoingtothedirectorsofthebank,whomustknowsomuchmoreofthemiseryconsequentuponthisfailure?Shealmostmademeangrybydividinghersympathybetweenthesedirectors(whomsheimaginedoverwhelmedbyself—reproachforthemismanagementofotherpeople’saffairs)andthosewhoweresufferinglikeher。Indeed,ofthetwo,sheseemedtothinkpovertyalighterburdenthanself—reproach;butIprivatelydoubtedifthedirectorswouldagreewithher。
Oldhoardsweretakenoutandexaminedastotheirmoneyvaluewhichluckilywassmall,orelseIdon’tknowhowMissMattywouldhaveprevaileduponherselftopartwithsuchthingsashermother’swedding—ring,thestrange,uncouthbroochwithwhichherfatherhaddisfiguredhisshirt—frill,&c。However,wearrangedthingsalittleinorderastotheirpecuniaryestimation,andwereallreadyformyfatherwhenhecamethenextmorning。
Iamnotgoingtowearyyouwiththedetailsofallthebusinesswewentthrough;andonereasonfornottellingaboutthemis,thatI
didnotunderstandwhatweweredoingatthetime,andcannotrecollectitnow。MissMattyandIsatassentingtoaccounts,andschemes,andreports,anddocuments,ofwhichIdonotbelieveweeitherofusunderstoodaword;formyfatherwasclear—headedanddecisive,andacapitalmanofbusiness,andifwemadetheslightestinquiry,orexpressedtheslightestwantofcomprehension,hehadasharpwayofsaying,"Eh?eh?it’sasdearasdaylight。What’syourobjection?"Andaswehadnotcomprehendedanythingofwhathehadproposed,wefounditratherdifficulttoshapeourobjections;infact,weneverweresureifwehadany。SopresentlyMissMattygotintoanervouslyacquiescentstate,andsaid"Yes,"and"Certainly,"ateverypause,whetherrequiredornot;butwhenIoncejoinedinaschorustoa"Decidedly,"pronouncedbyMissMattyinatremblinglydubioustone,myfatherfiredroundatmeandaskedme"Whattherewastodecide?"AndIamsuretothisdayIhaveneverknown。But,injusticetohim,ImustsayhehadcomeoverfromDrumbletohelpMissMattywhenhecouldillsparethetime,andwhenhisownaffairswereinaveryanxiousstate。
WhileMissMattywasoutoftheroomgivingordersforluncheon—
andsadlyperplexedbetweenherdesireofhonouringmyfatherbyadelicate,daintymeal,andherconvictionthatshehadnoright,nowthatallhermoneywasgone,toindulgethisdesire—ItoldhimofthemeetingoftheCranfordladiesatMissPole’sthedaybefore。HekeptbrushinghishandbeforehiseyesasIspoke—andwhenIwentbacktoMartha’soffertheeveningbefore,ofreceivingMissMattyasalodger,hefairlywalkedawayfrommetothewindow,andbegandrummingwithhisfingersuponit。Thenheturnedabruptlyround,andsaid,"See,Mary,howagood,innocentlifemakesfriendsallaround。Confoundit!IcouldmakeagoodlessonoutofitifIwereaparson;but,asitis,Ican’tgetatailtomysentences—onlyI’msureyoufeelwhatIwanttosay。
YouandIwillhaveawalkafterlunchandtalkabitmoreabouttheseplans。"
Thelunch—ahotsavourymutton—chop,andalittleofthecoldloinslicedandfried—wasnowbroughtin。Everymorselofthislastdishwasfinished,toMartha’sgreatgratification。ThenmyfatherbluntlytoldMissMattyhewantedtotalktomealone,andthathewouldstrolloutandseesomeoftheoldplaces,andthenI
couldtellherwhatplanwethoughtdesirable。Justbeforewewentout,shecalledmebackandsaid,"Remember,dear,I’mtheonlyoneleft—Imean,there’snoonetobehurtbywhatIdo。I’mwillingtodoanythingthat’srightandhonest;andIdon’tthink,ifDeborahknowswheresheis,she’llcaresoverymuchifI’mnotgenteel;because,yousee,she’llknowall,dear。OnlyletmeseewhatIcando,andpaythepoorpeopleasfarasI’mable。"
Igaveheraheartykiss,andranaftermyfather。Theresultofourconversationwasthis。Ifallpartieswereagreeable,MarthaandJemweretobemarriedwithaslittledelayaspossible,andtheyweretoliveoninMissMatty’spresentabode;thesumwhichtheCranfordladieshadagreedtocontributeannuallybeingsufficienttomeetthegreaterpartoftherent,andleavingMarthafreetoappropriatewhatMissMattyshouldpayforherlodgingstoanylittleextracomfortsrequired。Aboutthesale,myfatherwasdubiousatfirst。Hesaidtheoldrectoryfurniture,howevercarefullyusedandreverentlytreated,wouldfetchverylittle;andthatlittlewouldbebutasadropintheseaofthedebtsoftheTownandCountyBank。ButwhenIrepresentedhowMissMatty’stenderconsciencewouldbesoothedbyfeelingthatshehaddonewhatshecould,hegaveway;especiallyafterIhadtoldhimthefive—poundnoteadventure,andhehadscoldedmewellforallowingit。Ithenalludedtomyideathatshemightaddtohersmallincomebysellingtea;and,tomysurprise(forIhadnearlygivenuptheplan),myfathergraspedatitwithalltheenergyofatradesman。Ithinkhereckonedhischickensbeforetheywerehatched,forheimmediatelyranuptheprofitsofthesalesthatshecouldeffectinCranfordtomorethantwentypoundsayear。
Thesmalldining—parlourwastobeconvertedintoashop,withoutanyofitsdegradingcharacteristics;atablewastobethecounter;onewindowwastoberetainedunaltered,andtheotherchangedintoaglassdoor。Ievidentlyroseinhisestimationforhavingmadethisbrightsuggestion。IonlyhopedweshouldnotbothfallinMissMatty’s。
Butshewaspatientandcontentwithallourarrangements。Sheknew,shesaid,thatweshoulddothebestwecouldforher;andsheonlyhoped,onlystipulated,thatsheshouldpayeveryfarthingthatshecouldbesaidtoowe,forherfather’ssake,whohadbeensorespectedinCranford。MyfatherandIhadagreedtosayaslittleaspossibleaboutthebank,indeednevertomentionitagain,ifitcouldbehelped。Someoftheplanswereevidentlyalittleperplexingtoher;butshehadseenmesufficientlysnubbedinthemorningforwantofcomprehensiontoventureontoomanyinquiriesnow;andallpassedoverwellwithahopeonherpartthatnoonewouldbehurriedintomarriageonheraccount。Whenwecametotheproposalthatsheshouldselltea,Icouldseeitwasratherashocktoher;notonaccountofanypersonallossofgentilityinvolved,butonlybecauseshedistrustedherownpowersofactioninanewlineoflife,andwouldtimidlyhavepreferredalittlemoreprivationtoanyexertionforwhichshefearedshewasunfitted。However,whenshesawmyfatherwasbentuponit,shesighed,andsaidshewouldtry;andifshedidnotdowell,ofcourseshemightgiveitup。Onegoodthingaboutitwas,shedidnotthinkmeneverboughttea;anditwasofmenparticularlyshewasafraid。Theyhadsuchsharploudwayswiththem;anddidupaccounts,andcountedtheirchangesoquickly!Now,ifshemightonlysellcomfitstochildren,shewassureshecouldpleasethem!
CHAPTERXV—AHAPPYRETURN
BEFOREIleftMissMattyatCranfordeverythinghadbeencomfortablyarrangedforher。EvenMrsJamieson’sapprovalofhersellingteahadbeengained。ThatoraclehadtakenafewdaystoconsiderwhetherbysodoingMissMattywouldforfeitherrighttotheprivilegesofsocietyinCranford。IthinkshehadsomelittleideaofmortifyingLadyGlenmirebythedecisionshegaveatlast;
whichwastothiseffect:thatwhereasamarriedwomantakesherhusband’srankbythestrictlawsofprecedence,anunmarriedwomanretainsthestationherfatheroccupied。SoCranfordwasallowedtovisitMissMatty;and,whetherallowedornot,itintendedtovisitLadyGlenmire。
Butwhatwasoursurprise—ourdismay—whenwelearntthatMrandMRSHOGGINSwerereturningonthefollowingTuesday!MrsHoggins!
Hadsheabsolutelydroppedhertitle,andso,inaspiritofbravado,cutthearistocracytobecomeaHoggins!She,whomighthavebeencalledLadyGlenmiretoherdyingday!MrsJamiesonwaspleased。Shesaiditonlyconvincedherofwhatshehadknownfromthefirst,thatthecreaturehadalowtaste。But"thecreature"
lookedveryhappyonSundayatchurch;nordidweseeitnecessarytokeepourveilsdownonthatsideofourbonnetsonwhichMrandMrsHogginssat,asMrsJamiesondid;therebymissingallthesmilinggloryofhisface,andallthebecomingblushesofhers。I
amnotsureifMarthaandJemlookedmoreradiantintheafternoon,whenthey,too,madetheirfirstappearance。MrsJamiesonsoothedtheturbulenceofhersoulbyhavingtheblindsofherwindowsdrawndown,asifforafuneral,onthedaywhenMrandMrsHogginsreceivedcallers;anditwaswithsomedifficultythatshewasprevailedupontocontinuetheSTJAMES’SCHRONICLE,soindignantwasshewithitshavinginsertedtheannouncementofthemarriage。
MissMatty’ssalewentofffamously。Sheretainedthefurnitureofhersitting—roomandbedroom;theformerofwhichshewastooccupytillMarthacouldmeetwithalodgerwhomightwishtotakeit;andintothissitting—roomandbedroomshehadtocramallsortsofthings,whichwere(theauctioneerassuredher)boughtinforheratthesalebyanunknownfriend。IalwayssuspectedMrsFitz—Adamofthis;butshemusthavehadanaccessory,whoknewwhatarticleswereparticularlyregardedbyMissMattyonaccountoftheirassociationswithherearlydays。Therestofthehouselookedratherbare,tobesure;allexceptonetinybedroom,ofwhichmyfatherallowedmetopurchasethefurnitureformyoccasionaluseincaseofMissMatty’sillness。
Ihadexpendedmyownsmallstoreinbuyingallmannerofcomfitsandlozenges,inordertotemptthelittlepeoplewhomMissMattylovedsomuchtocomeabouther。Teainbrightgreencanisters,andcomfitsintumblers—MissMattyandIfeltquiteproudaswelookedroundusontheeveningbeforetheshopwastobeopened。
Marthahadscouredtheboardedfloortoawhitecleanness,anditwasadornedwithabrilliantpieceofoil—cloth,onwhichcustomersweretostandbeforethetable—counter。Thewholesomesmellofplasterandwhitewashpervadedtheapartment。Averysmall"MatildaJenkyns,licensedtoselltea,"washiddenunderthelintelofthenewdoor,andtwoboxesoftea,withcabalisticinscriptionsalloverthem,stoodreadytodisgorgetheircontentsintothecanisters。
MissMatty,asIoughttohavementionedbefore,hadhadsomescruplesofconscienceatsellingteawhentherewasalreadyMrJohnsoninthetown,whoincludeditamonghisnumerouscommodities;and,beforeshecouldquitereconcileherselftotheadoptionofhernewbusiness,shehadtrotteddowntohisshop,unknowntome,totellhimoftheprojectthatwasentertained,andtoinquireifitwaslikelytoinjurehisbusiness。Myfathercalledthisideaofhers"greatnonsense,"and"wonderedhowtradespeopleweretogetoniftherewastobeacontinualconsultingofeachother’sinterests,whichwouldputastoptoallcompetitiondirectly。"And,perhaps,itwouldnothavedoneinDrumble,butinCranforditansweredverywell;fornotonlydidMrJohnsonkindlyputatrestallMissMatty’sscruplesandfearofinjuringhisbusiness,butIhavereasontoknowherepeatedlysentcustomerstoher,sayingthattheteashekeptwereofacommonkind,butthatMissJenkynshadallthechoicesorts。Andexpensiveteaisaveryfavouriteluxurywithwell—to—dotradespeopleandrichfarmers’wives,whoturnuptheirnosesattheCongouandSouchongprevalentatmanytablesofgentility,andwillhavenothingelsethanGunpowderandPekoeforthemselves。
ButtoreturntoMissMatty。Itwasreallyverypleasanttoseehowherunselfishnessandsimplesenseofjusticecalledoutthesamegoodqualitiesinothers。Sheneverseemedtothinkanyonewouldimposeuponher,becausesheshouldbesogrievedtodoittothem。Ihaveheardherputastoptotheasseverationsofthemanwhobroughthercoalsbyquietlysaying,"Iamsureyouwouldbesorrytobringmewrongweight;"andifthecoalswereshortmeasurethattime,Idon’tbelievetheyeverwereagain。Peoplewouldhavefeltasmuchashamedofpresumingonhergoodfaithastheywouldhavedoneonthatofachild。Butmyfathersays"suchsimplicitymightbeverywellinCranford,butwouldneverdointheworld。"AndIfancytheworldmustbeverybad,forwithallmyfather’ssuspicionofeveryonewithwhomhehasdealings,andinspiteofallhismanyprecautions,helostupwardsofathousandpoundsbyrogueryonlylastyear。
IjuststayedlongenoughtoestablishMissMattyinhernewmodeoflife,andtopackupthelibrary,whichtherectorhadpurchased。HehadwrittenaverykindlettertoMissMatty,saying"howgladheshouldbetotakealibrary,sowellselectedasheknewthatthelateMrJenkyns’smusthavebeen,atanyvaluationputuponthem。"Andwhensheagreedtothis,withatouchofsorrowfulgladnessthattheywouldgobacktotherectoryandbearrangedontheaccustomedwallsoncemore,hesentwordthathefearedthathehadnotroomforthemall,andperhapsMissMattywouldkindlyallowhimtoleavesomevolumesonhershelves。ButMissMattysaidthatshehadherBibleand"Johnson’sDictionary,"
andshouldnothavemuchtimeforreading,shewasafraid;still,I
retainedafewbooksoutofconsiderationfortherector’skindness。
Themoneywhichhehadpaid,andthatproducedbythesale,waspartlyexpendedinthestockoftea,andpartofitwasinvestedagainstarainyday—I。E。oldageorillness。Itwasbutasmallsum,itistrue;anditoccasionedafewevasionsoftruthandwhitelies(allofwhichIthinkverywrongindeed—intheory—
andwouldrathernotputtheminpractice),forweknewMissMattywouldbeperplexedastoherdutyifshewereawareofanylittlereserve—fundbeingmadeforherwhilethedebtsofthebankremainedunpaid。Moreover,shehadneverbeentoldofthewayinwhichherfriendswerecontributingtopaytherent。Ishouldhavelikedtotellherthis,butthemysteryoftheaffairgaveapiquancytotheirdeedofkindnesswhichtheladieswereunwillingtogiveup;andatfirstMarthahadtoshirkmanyaperplexedquestionastoherwaysandmeansoflivinginsuchahouse,butby—and—byMissMatty’sprudentuneasinesssankdownintoacquiescencewiththeexistingarrangement。
IleftMissMattywithagoodheart。Hersalesofteaduringthefirsttwodayshadsurpassedmymostsanguineexpectations。Thewholecountryroundseemedtobealloutofteaatonce。TheonlyalterationIcouldhavedesiredinMissMatty’swayofdoingbusinesswas,thatsheshouldnothavesoplaintivelyentreatedsomeofhercustomersnottobuygreentea—runningitdownasaslowpoison,suretodestroythenerves,andproduceallmannerofevil。Theirpertinacityintakingit,inspiteofallherwarnings,distressedhersomuchthatIreallythoughtshewouldrelinquishthesaleofit,andsolosehalfhercustom;andIwasdriventomywits’endforinstancesoflongevityentirelyattributabletoaperseveringuseofgreentea。Butthefinalargument,whichsettledthequestion,wasahappyreferenceofminetothetrain—oilandtallowcandleswhichtheEsquimauxnotonlyenjoybutdigest。Afterthatsheacknowledgedthat"oneman’smeatmightbeanotherman’spoison,"andcontentedherselfthence—
forwardwithanoccasionalremonstrancewhenshethoughtthepurchaserwastooyoungandinnocenttobeacquaintedwiththeevileffectsgreenteaproducedonsomeconstitutions,andanhabitualsighwhenpeopleoldenoughtochoosemorewiselywouldpreferit。
IwentoverfromDrumbleonceaquarteratleasttosettletheaccounts,andseeafterthenecessarybusinessletters。And,speakingofletters,IbegantobeverymuchashamedofrememberingmylettertotheAgaJenkyns,andverygladIhadnevernamedmywritingtoanyone。Ionlyhopedtheletterwaslost。Noanswercame。Nosignwasmade。
AboutayearafterMissMattysetupshop,IreceivedoneofMartha’shieroglyphics,beggingmetocometoCranfordverysoon。
IwasafraidthatMissMattywasill,andwentoffthatveryafternoon,andtookMarthabysurprisewhenshesawmeonopeningthedoor。Wewentintothekitchenasusual,tohaveourconfidentialconference,andthenMarthatoldmeshewasexpectingherconfinementverysoon—inaweekortwo;andshedidnotthinkMissMattywasawareofit,andshewantedmetobreakthenewstoher,"forindeed,miss,"continuedMartha,cryinghysterically,"I’mafraidshewon’tapproveofit,andI’msureIdon’tknowwhoistotakecareofherassheshouldbetakencareofwhenIamlaidup。"
IcomfortedMarthabytellingherIwouldremaintillshewasaboutagain,andonlywishedshehadtoldmeherreasonforthissuddensummons,asthenIwouldhavebroughttherequisitestockofclothes。ButMarthawassotearfulandtender—spirited,andunlikeherusualself,thatIsaidaslittleaspossibleaboutmyself,andendeavouredrathertocomfortMarthaunderalltheprobableandpossiblemisfortuneswhichcamecrowdinguponherimagination。
Ithenstoleoutofthehouse—door,andmademyappearanceasifI
wereacustomerintheshop,justtotakeMissMattybysurprise,andgainanideaofhowshelookedinhernewsituation。ItwaswarmMayweather,soonlythelittlehalf—doorwasclosed;andMissMattysatbehindthecounter,knittinganelaboratepairofgarters;elaboratetheyseemedtome,butthedifficultstitchwasnoweightuponhermind,forshewassinginginalowvoicetoherselfasherneedleswentrapidlyinandout。Icallitsinging,butIdaresayamusicianwouldnotusethatwordtothetunelessyetsweethummingofthelowwornvoice。Ifoundoutfromthewords,farmorethanfromtheattemptatthetune,thatitwastheOldHundredthshewascrooningtoherself;butthequietcontinuoussoundtoldofcontent,andgavemeapleasantfeeling,asIstoodinthestreetjustoutsidethedoor,quiteinharmonywiththatsoftMaymorning。Iwentin。Atfirstshedidnotcatchwhoitwas,andstoodupasiftoserveme;butinanotherminutewatchfulpussyhadclutchedherknitting,whichwasdroppedineagerjoyatseeingme。Ifound,afterwehadhadalittleconversation,thatitwasasMarthasaid,andthatMissMattyhadnoideaoftheapproachinghouseholdevent。SoIthoughtIwouldletthingstaketheircourse,securethatwhenIwenttoherwiththebabyinmyarms,IshouldobtainthatforgivenessforMarthawhichshewasneedlesslyfrighteningherselfintobelievingthatMissMattywouldwithhold,undersomenotionthatthenewclaimantwouldrequireattentionsfromitsmotherthatitwouldbefaithlesstreasontoMissMattytorender。
ButIwasright。Ithinkthatmustbeanhereditaryquality,formyfathersaysheisscarcelyeverwrong。Onemorning,withinaweekafterIarrived,IwenttocallMissMatty,withalittlebundleofflannelinmyarms。Shewasverymuchawe—struckwhenI
showedherwhatitwas,andaskedforherspectaclesoffthedressing—table,andlookedatitcuriously,withasortoftenderwonderatitssmallperfectionofparts。Shecouldnotbanishthethoughtofthesurpriseallday,butwentaboutontiptoe,andwasverysilent。ButshestoleuptoseeMarthaandtheybothcriedwithjoy,andshegotintoacomplimentaryspeechtoJem,anddidnotknowhowtogetoutofitagain,andwasonlyextricatedfromherdilemmabythesoundoftheshop—bell,whichwasanequalrelieftotheshy,proud,honestJem,whoshookmyhandsovigorouslywhenIcongratulatedhim,thatIthinkIfeelthepainofityet。
IhadabusylifewhileMarthawaslaidup。IattendedonMissMatty,andpreparedhermeals;Icastupheraccounts,andexaminedintothestateofhercanistersandtumblers。Ihelpedher,too,occasionally,intheshop;anditgavemenosmallamusement,andsometimesalittleuneasiness,towatchherwaysthere。Ifalittlechildcameintoaskforanounceofalmond—comfits(andfourofthelargekindwhichMissMattysoldweighedthatmuch),shealwaysaddedonemoreby"wayofmake—weight,"asshecalledit,althoughthescalewashandsomelyturnedbefore;andwhenI
remonstratedagainstthis,herreplywas,"Thelittlethingslikeitsomuch!"Therewasnouseintellingherthatthefifthcomfitweighedaquarterofanounce,andmadeeverysaleintoalosstoherpocket。SoIrememberedthegreentea,andwingedmyshaftwithafeatheroutofherownplumage。Itoldherhowunwholesomealmond—comfitswere,andhowillexcessinthemmightmakethelittlechildren。Thisargumentproducedsomeeffect;for,henceforward,insteadofthefifthcomfit,shealwaystoldthemtoholdouttheirtinypalms,intowhichsheshookeitherpeppermintorgingerlozenges,asapreventivetothedangersthatmightarisefromtheprevioussale。Altogetherthelozengetrade,conductedontheseprinciples,didnotpromisetoberemunerative;butIwashappytofindshehadmademorethantwentypoundsduringthelastyearbyhersalesoftea;and,moreover,thatnowshewasaccustomedtoit,shedidnotdisliketheemployment,whichbroughtherintokindlyintercoursewithmanyofthepeopleroundabout。
Ifshegavethemgoodweight,they,intheirturn,broughtmanyalittlecountrypresenttothe"oldrector’sdaughter";acreamcheese,afewnew—laideggs,alittlefreshripefruit,abunchofflowers。Thecounterwasquiteloadedwiththeseofferingssometimes,asshetoldme。
AsforCranfordingeneral,itwasgoingonmuchasusual。TheJamiesonandHogginsfeudstillraged,ifafeuditcouldbecalled,whenonlyonesidecaredmuchaboutit。MrandMrsHogginswereveryhappytogether,and,likemostveryhappypeople,quitereadytobefriendly;indeed,MrsHogginswasreallydesiroustoberestoredtoMrsJamieson’sgoodgraces,becauseoftheformerintimacy。ButMrsJamiesonconsideredtheirveryhappinessaninsulttotheGlenmirefamily,towhichshehadstillthehonourtobelong,andshedoggedlyrefusedandrejectedeveryadvance。MrMulliner,likeafaithfulclansman,espousedhismistress’sidewithardour。IfhesaweitherMrorMrsHoggins,hewouldcrossthestreet,andappearabsorbedinthecontemplationoflifeingeneral,andhisownpathinparticular,untilhehadpassedthemby。MissPoleusedtoamuseherselfwithwonderingwhatintheworldMrsJamiesonwoulddo,ifeithershe,orMrMulliner,oranyothermemberofherhouseholdwastakenill;shecouldhardlyhavethefacetocallinMrHogginsafterthewayshehadbehavedtothem。MissPolegrewquiteimpatientforsomeindispositionoraccidenttobefallMrsJamiesonorherdependents,inorderthatCranfordmightseehowshewouldactundertheperplexingcircumstances。
Marthawasbeginningtogoaboutagain,andIhadalreadyfixedalimit,notveryfardistant,tomyvisit,whenoneafternoon,asI
wassittingintheshop—parlourwithMissMatty—IremembertheweatherwascoldernowthanithadbeeninMay,threeweeksbefore,andwehadafireandkeptthedoorfullyclosed—wesawagentlemangoslowlypastthewindow,andthenstandoppositetothedoor,asiflookingoutforthenamewhichwehadsocarefullyhidden。Hetookoutadoubleeyeglassandpeeredaboutforsometimebeforehecoulddiscoverit。Thenhecamein。And,allonasudden,itflashedacrossmethatitwastheAgahimself!Forhisclotheshadanout—of—the—wayforeigncutaboutthem,andhisfacewasdeepbrown,asiftannedandre—tannedbythesun。Hiscomplexioncontrastedoddlywithhisplentifulsnow—whitehair,hiseyesweredarkandpiercing,andhehadanoddwayofcontractingthemandpuckeringuphischeeksintoinnumerablewrinkleswhenhelookedearnestlyatobjects。HedidsotoMissMattywhenhefirstcamein。Hisglancehadfirstcaughtandlingeredalittleuponme,butthenturned,withthepeculiarsearchinglookIhavedescribed,toMissMatty。Shewasalittleflutteredandnervous,butnomoresothanshealwayswaswhenanymancameintohershop。
Shethoughtthathewouldprobablyhaveanote,orasovereignatleast,forwhichshewouldhavetogivechange,whichwasanoperationsheverymuchdislikedtoperform。Butthepresentcustomerstoodoppositetoher,withoutaskingforanything,onlylookingfixedlyatherashedrummeduponthetablewithhisfingers,justforalltheworldasMissJenkynsusedtodo。MissMattywasonthepointofaskinghimwhathewanted(asshetoldmeafterwards),whenheturnedsharptome:"IsyournameMarySmith?"
"Yes!"saidI。
Allmydoubtsastohisidentityweresetatrest,andIonlywonderedwhathewouldsayordonext,andhowMissMattywouldstandthejoyfulshockofwhathehadtoreveal。Apparentlyhewasatalosshowtoannouncehimself,forhelookedroundatlastinsearchofsomethingtobuy,soastogaintime,and,asithappened,hiseyecaughtonthealmond—comfits,andheboldlyaskedforapoundof"thosethings。"IdoubtifMissMattyhadawholepoundintheshop,and,besidestheunusualmagnitudeoftheorder,shewasdistressedwiththeideaoftheindigestiontheywouldproduce,takeninsuchunlimitedquantities。Shelookeduptoremonstrate。Somethingoftenderrelaxationinhisfacestruckhometoherheart。Shesaid,"Itis—oh,sir!canyoubePeter?"
andtrembledfromheadtofoot。Inamomenthewasroundthetableandhadherinhisarms,sobbingthetearlesscriesofoldage。I
broughtheraglassofwine,forindeedhercolourhadchangedsoastoalarmmeandMrPetertoo。Hekeptsaying,"Ihavebeentoosuddenforyou,Matty—Ihave,mylittlegirl。"
Iproposedthatsheshouldgoatonceupintothedrawing—roomandliedownonthesofathere。Shelookedwistfullyatherbrother,whosehandshehadheldtight,evenwhennearlyfainting;butonhisassuringherthathewouldnotleaveher,sheallowedhimtocarryherupstairs。
IthoughtthatthebestIcoulddowastorunandputthekettleonthefireforearlytea,andthentoattendtotheshop,leavingthebrotherandsistertoexchangesomeofthemanythousandthingstheymusthavetosay。IhadalsotobreakthenewstoMartha,whoreceiveditwithaburstoftearswhichnearlyinfectedme。ShekeptrecoveringherselftoaskifIwassureitwasindeedMissMatty’sbrother,forIhadmentionedthathehadgreyhair,andshehadalwaysheardthathewasaveryhandsomeyoungman。SomethingofthesamekindperplexedMissMattyattea—time,whenshewasinstalledinthegreateasy—chairoppositetoMrJenkynsinordertogazeherfill。Shecouldhardlydrinkforlookingathim,andasforeating,thatwasoutofthequestion。
"Isupposehotclimatesagepeopleveryquickly,"saidshe,almosttoherself。"WhenyouleftCranfordyouhadnotagreyhairinyourhead。"
"Buthowmanyyearsagoisthat?"saidMrPeter,smiling。
"Ah,true!yes,IsupposeyouandIaregettingold。ButstillI
didnotthinkweweresoveryold!Butwhitehairisverybecomingtoyou,Peter,"shecontinued—alittleafraidlestshehadhurthimbyrevealinghowhisappearancehadimpressedher。
"IsupposeIforgotdatestoo,Matty,forwhatdoyouthinkIhavebroughtforyoufromIndia?IhaveanIndianmuslingownandapearlnecklaceforyousomewhereinmychestatPortsmouth。"Hesmiledasifamusedattheideaoftheincongruityofhispresentswiththeappearanceofhissister;butthisdidnotstrikeherallatonce,whiletheeleganceofthearticlesdid。Icouldseethatforamomentherimaginationdweltcomplacentlyontheideaofherselfthusattired;andinstinctivelysheputherhanduptoherthroat—thatlittledelicatethroatwhich(asMissPolehadtoldme)hadbeenoneofheryouthfulcharms;butthehandmetthetouchoffoldsofsoftmuslininwhichshewasalwaysswatheduptoherchin,andthesensationrecalledasenseoftheunsuitablenessofapearlnecklacetoherage。Shesaid,"I’mafraidI’mtooold;butitwasverykindofyoutothinkofit。TheyarejustwhatI
shouldhavelikedyearsago—whenIwasyoung。"
"SoIthought,mylittleMatty。Irememberedyourtastes;theyweresolikemydearmother’s。"Atthementionofthatnamethebrotherandsisterclaspedeachother’shandsyetmorefondly,and,althoughtheywereperfectlysilent,Ifanciedtheymighthavesomethingtosayiftheywereuncheckedbymypresence,andIgotuptoarrangemyroomforMrPeter’soccupationthatnight,intendingmyselftoshareMissMatty’sbed。Butatmymovement,hestartedup。"Imustgoandsettleaboutaroomatthe’George。’
Mycarpet—bagistheretoo。"
"No!"saidMissMatty,ingreatdistress—"youmustnotgo;
please,dearPeter—pray,Mary—oh!youmustnotgo!"
Shewassomuchagitatedthatwebothpromisedeverythingshewished。Petersatdownagainandgaveherhishand,whichforbettersecuritysheheldinbothofhers,andIlefttheroomtoaccomplishmyarrangements。
Long,longintothenight,far,farintothemorning,didMissMattyandItalk。Shehadmuchtotellmeofherbrother’slifeandadventures,whichhehadcommunicatedtoherastheyhadsatalone。Shesaidallwasthoroughlycleartoher;butIneverquiteunderstoodthewholestory;andwheninafterdaysIlostmyaweofMrPeterenoughtoquestionhimmyself,helaughedatmycuriosity,andtoldmestoriesthatsoundedsoverymuchlikeBaronMunchausen’s,thatIwassurehewasmakingfunofme。WhatI
heardfromMissMattywasthathehadbeenavolunteeratthesiegeofRangoon;hadbeentakenprisonerbytheBurmese;andsomehowobtainedfavourandeventualfreedomfromknowinghowtobleedthechiefofthesmalltribeinsomecaseofdangerousillness;thatonhisreleasefromyearsofcaptivityhehadhadhislettersreturnedfromEnglandwiththeominousword"Dead"markeduponthem;and,believinghimselftobethelastofhisrace,hehadsettleddownasanindigoplanter,andhadproposedtospendtheremainderofhislifeinthecountrytowhoseinhabitantsandmodesoflifehehadbecomehabituated,whenmyletterhadreachedhim;and,withtheoddvehemencewhichcharacterisedhiminageasithaddoneinyouth,hehadsoldhislandandallhispossessionstothefirstpurchaser,andcomehometothepooroldsister,whowasmoregladandrichthananyprincesswhenshelookedathim。Shetalkedmetosleepatlast,andthenIwasawakenedbyaslightsoundatthedoor,forwhichshebeggedmypardonasshecreptpenitentlyintobed;butitseemsthatwhenIcouldnolongerconfirmherbeliefthatthelong—lostwasreallyhere—underthesameroof—shehadbeguntofearlestitwasonlyawakingdreamofhers;thatthereneverhadbeenaPetersittingbyherallthatblessedevening—
butthattherealPeterlaydeadfarawaybeneathsomewildsea—
wave,orundersomestrangeeasterntree。Andsostronghadthisnervousfeelingofhersbecome,thatshewasfaintogetupandgoandconvinceherselfthathewasreallytherebylisteningthroughthedoortohiseven,regularbreathing—Idon’tliketocallitsnoring,butIhearditmyselfthroughtwocloseddoors—andby—
and—byitsoothedMissMattytosleep。
Idon’tbelieveMrPetercamehomefromIndiaasrichasanabob;
heevenconsideredhimselfpoor,butneitherhenorMissMattycaredmuchaboutthat。Atanyrate,hehadenoughtoliveupon"verygenteelly"atCranford;heandMissMattytogether。Andadayortwoafterhisarrival,theshopwasclosed,whiletroopsoflittleurchinsgleefullyawaitedtheshowerofcomfitsandlozengesthatcamefromtimetotimedownupontheirfacesastheystoodup—
gazingatMissMatty’sdrawing—roomwindows。OccasionallyMissMattywouldsaytothem(half—hiddenbehindthecurtains),"Mydearchildren,don’tmakeyourselvesill;"butastrongarmpulledherback,andamorerattlingshowerthaneversucceeded。ApartoftheteawassentinpresentstotheCranfordladies;andsomeofitwasdistributedamongtheoldpeoplewhorememberedMrPeterinthedaysofhisfrolicsomeyouth。TheIndianmuslingownwasreservedfordarlingFloraGordon(MissJessieBrown’sdaughter)。TheGordonshadbeenontheContinentforthelastfewyears,butwerenowexpectedtoreturnverysoon;andMissMatty,inhersisterlypride,anticipatedgreatdelightinthejoyofshowingthemMrPeter。Thepearlnecklacedisappeared;andaboutthattimemanyhandsomeandusefulpresentsmadetheirappearanceinthehouseholdsofMissPoleandMrsForrester;andsomerareanddelicateIndianornamentsgracedthedrawing—roomsofMrsJamiesonandMrsFitz—Adam。Imyselfwasnotforgotten。Amongotherthings,Ihadthehandsomest—boundandbesteditionofDrJohnson’sworksthatcouldbeprocured;anddearMissMatty,withtearsinhereyes,beggedmetoconsideritasapresentfromhersisteraswellasherself。Inshort,noonewasforgotten;and,whatwasmore,everyone,howeverinsignificant,whohadshownkindnesstoMissMattyatanytime,wassureofMrPeter’scordialregard。
CHAPTERXVI—PEACETOCRANFORD
ITwasnotsurprisingthatMrPeterbecamesuchafavouriteatCranford。Theladiesviedwitheachotherwhoshouldadmirehimmost;andnowonder,fortheirquietliveswereastonishinglystirredupbythearrivalfromIndia—especiallyasthepersonarrivedtoldmorewonderfulstoriesthanSindbadtheSailor;and,asMissPolesaid,wasquiteasgoodasanArabianNightanyevening。Formyownpart,IhadvibratedallmylifebetweenDrumbleandCranford,andIthoughtitwasquitepossiblethatallMrPeter’sstoriesmightbetrue,althoughwonderful;butwhenI
foundthat,ifweswallowedananecdoteoftolerablemagnitudeoneweek,wehadthedoseconsiderablyincreasedthenext,Ibegantohavemydoubts;especiallyasInoticedthatwhenhissisterwaspresenttheaccountsofIndianlifewerecomparativelytame;notthatsheknewmorethanwedid,perhapsless。Inoticedalsothatwhentherectorcametocall,MrPetertalkedinadifferentwayaboutthecountrieshehadbeenin。ButIdon’tthinktheladiesinCranfordwouldhaveconsideredhimsuchawonderfultravelleriftheyhadonlyheardhimtalkinthequietwayhedidtohim。Theylikedhimthebetter,indeed,forbeingwhattheycalled"soveryOriental。"
Oneday,ataselectpartyinhishonour,whichMissPolegave,andfromwhich,asMrsJamiesonhonoureditwithherpresence,andhadevenofferedtosendMrMullinertowait,MrandMrsHogginsandMrsFitz—Adamwerenecessarily—excludedonedayatMissPole’s,MrPetersaidhewastiredofsittinguprightagainstthehard—
backeduneasychairs,andaskedifhemightnotindulgehimselfinsittingcross—legged。MissPole’sconsentwaseagerlygiven,anddownhewentwiththeutmostgravity。ButwhenMissPoleaskedme,inanaudiblewhisper,"ifhedidnotremindmeoftheFatheroftheFaithful?"IcouldnothelpthinkingofpoorSimonJones,thelametailor,andwhileMrsJamiesonslowlycommentedontheeleganceandconvenienceoftheattitude,Irememberedhowwehadallfollowedthatlady’sleadincondemningMrHogginsforvulgaritybecausehesimplycrossedhislegsashesatstillonhischair。ManyofMrPeter’swaysofeatingwerealittlestrangeamongstsuchladiesasMissPole,andMissMatty,andMrsJamieson,especiallywhenIrecollectedtheuntastedgreenpeasandtwo—
prongedforksatpoorMrHolbrook’sdinner。
Thementionofthatgentleman’snamerecallstomymindaconversationbetweenMrPeterandMissMattyoneeveninginthesummerafterhereturnedtoCranford。Thedayhadbeenveryhot,andMissMattyhadbeenmuchoppressedbytheweather,intheheatofwhichherbrotherrevelled。IrememberthatshehadbeenunabletonurseMartha’sbaby,whichhadbecomeherfavouriteemploymentoflate,andwhichwasasmuchathomeinherarmsasinitsmother’s,aslongasitremainedalight—weight,portablebyonesofragileasMissMatty。ThisdaytowhichIrefer,MissMattyhadseemedmorethanusuallyfeebleandlanguid,andonlyrevivedwhenthesunwentdown,andhersofawaswheeledtotheopenwindow,throughwhich,althoughitlookedintotheprincipalstreetofCranford,thefragrantsmelloftheneighbouringhayfieldscameineverynowandthen,bornebythesoftbreezesthatstirredthedullairofthesummertwilight,andthendiedaway。Thesilenceofthesultryatmospherewaslostinthemurmuringnoiseswhichcameinfrommanyanopenwindowanddoor;eventhechildrenwereabroadinthestreet,lateasitwas(betweentenandeleven),enjoyingthegameofplayforwhichtheyhadnothadspiritsduringtheheatoftheday。ItwasasourceofsatisfactiontoMissMattytoseehowfewcandleswerelighted,evenintheapartmentsofthosehousesfromwhichissuedthegreatestsignsoflife。MrPeter,MissMatty,andIhadallbeenquiet,eachwithaseparatereverie,forsomelittletime,whenMrPeterbrokein—
"Doyouknow,littleMatty,IcouldhaveswornyouwereonthehighroadtomatrimonywhenIleftEnglandthatlasttime!Ifanybodyhadtoldmeyouwouldhavelivedanddiedanoldmaidthen,I
shouldhavelaughedintheirfaces。"
MissMattymadenoreply,andItriedinvaintothinkofsomesubjectwhichshouldeffectuallyturntheconversation;butIwasverystupid;andbeforeIspokehewenton—
"ItwasHolbrook,thatfinemanlyfellowwholivedatWoodley,thatIusedtothinkwouldcarryoffmylittleMatty。Youwouldnotthinkitnow,Idaresay,Mary;butthissisterofminewasonceaveryprettygirl—atleast,Ithoughtso,andsoI’veanotiondidpoorHolbrook。WhatbusinesshadhetodiebeforeIcamehometothankhimforallhiskindnesstoagood—for—nothingcubasIwas?
Itwasthatthatmademefirstthinkhecaredforyou;forinallourfishingexpeditionsitwasMatty,Matty,wetalkedabout。PoorDeborah!Whatalectureshereadmeonhavingaskedhimhometolunchoneday,whenshehadseentheArleycarriageinthetown,andthoughtthatmyladymightcall。Well,that’slongyearsago;
morethanhalfalife—time,andyetitseemslikeyesterday!I
don’tknowafellowIshouldhavelikedbetterasabrother—in—law。
Youmusthaveplayedyourcardsbadly,mylittleMatty,somehoworanother—wantedyourbrothertobeagoodgo—between,eh,littleone?"saidhe,puttingouthishandtotakeholdofhersasshelayonthesofa。"Why,what’sthis?you’reshiveringandshaking,Matty,withthatconfoundedopenwindow。Shutit,Mary,thisminute!"
Ididso,andthenstoopeddowntokissMissMatty,andseeifshereallywerechilled。Shecaughtatmyhand,andgaveitahardsqueeze—butunconsciously,Ithink—forinaminuteortwoshespoketousquiteinherusualvoice,andsmiledouruneasinessaway,althoughshepatientlysubmittedtotheprescriptionsweenforcedofawarmbedandaglassofweaknegus。IwastoleaveCranfordthenextday,andbeforeIwentIsawthatalltheeffectsoftheopenwindowhadquitevanished。Ihadsuperintendedmostofthealterationsnecessaryinthehouseandhouseholdduringthelatterweeksofmystay。Theshopwasoncemoreaparlour:theemptyresoundingroomsagainfurnisheduptotheverygarrets。
TherehadbeensometalkofestablishingMarthaandJeminanotherhouse,butMissMattywouldnothearofthis。Indeed,IneversawhersomuchrousedaswhenMissPolehadassumedittobethemostdesirablearrangement。AslongasMarthawouldremainwithMissMatty,MissMattywasonlytoothankfultohaveherabouther;yes,andJemtoo,whowasaverypleasantmantohaveinthehouse,forsheneversawhimfromweek’sendtoweek’send。Andasfortheprobablechildren,iftheywouldallturnoutsuchlittledarlingsashergod—daughter,Matilda,sheshouldnotmindthenumber,ifMarthadidn’t。Besides,thenextwastobecalledDeborah—apointwhichMissMattyhadreluctantlyyieldedtoMartha’sstubborndeterminationthatherfirst—bornwastobeMatilda。SoMissPolehadtolowerhercolours,andevenhervoice,asshesaidtomethat,asMrandMrsHearnwerestilltogoonlivinginthesamehousewithMissMatty,wehadcertainlydoneawisethinginhiringMartha’snieceasanauxiliary。
IleftMissMattyandMrPetermostcomfortableandcontented;theonlysubjectforregrettothetenderheartoftheone,andthesocialfriendlynatureoftheother,beingtheunfortunatequarrelbetweenMrsJamiesonandtheplebeianHogginsesandtheirfollowing。Injoke,IprophesiedonedaythatthiswouldonlylastuntilMrsJamiesonorMrMullinerwereill,inwhichcasetheywouldonlybetoogladtobefriendswithMrHoggins;butMissMattydidnotlikemylookingforwardtoanythinglikeillnessinsolightamanner,andbeforetheyearwasoutallhadcomeroundinafarmoresatisfactoryway。
IreceivedtwoCranfordlettersononeauspiciousOctobermorning。
BothMissPoleandMissMattywrotetoaskmetocomeoverandmeettheGordons,whohadreturnedtoEnglandaliveandwellwiththeirtwochildren,nowalmostgrownup。DearJessieBrownhadkeptheroldkindnature,althoughshehadchangedhernameandstation;andshewrotetosaythatsheandMajorGordonexpectedtobeinCranfordonthefourteenth,andshehopedandbeggedtoberememberedtoMrsJamieson(namedfirst,asbecameherhonourablestation),MissPoleandMissMatty—couldsheeverforgettheirkindnesstoherpoorfatherandsister?—MrsForrester,MrHoggins(andhereagaincameinanallusiontokindnessshowntothedeadlongago),hisnewwife,whoassuchmustallowMrsGordontodesiretomakeheracquaintance,andwhowas,moreover,anoldScotchfriendofherhusband’s。Inshort,everyonewasnamed,fromtherector—whohadbeenappointedtoCranfordintheinterimbetweenCaptainBrown’sdeathandMissJessie’smarriage,andwasnowassociatedwiththelatterevent—downtoMissBettyBarker。
Allwereaskedtotheluncheon;allexceptMrsFitz—Adam,whohadcometoliveinCranfordsinceMissJessieBrown’sdays,andwhomI
foundrathermopingonaccountoftheomission。PeoplewonderedatMissBettyBarker’sbeingincludedinthehonourablelist;but,then,asMissPolesaid,wemustrememberthedisregardofthegenteelproprietiesoflifeinwhichthepoorcaptainhadeducatedhisgirls,andforhissakeweswallowedourpride。Indeed,MrsJamiesonrathertookitasacompliment,asputtingMissBetty(formerlyHERmaid)onalevelwith"thoseHogginses。"
ButwhenIarrivedinCranford,nothingwasasyetascertainedofMrsJamieson’sownintentions;wouldthehonourableladygo,orwouldshenot?MrPeterdeclaredthatsheshouldandshewould;
MissPoleshookherheadanddesponded。ButMrPeterwasamanofresources。Inthefirstplace,hepersuadedMissMattytowritetoMrsGordon,andtotellherofMrsFitz—Adam’sexistence,andtobegthatonesokind,andcordial,andgenerous,mightbeincludedinthepleasantinvitation。Ananswercamebackbyreturnofpost,withaprettylittlenoteforMrsFitz—Adam,andarequestthatMissMattywoulddeliveritherselfandexplainthepreviousomission。MrsFitz—Adamwasaspleasedascouldbe,andthankedMissMattyoverandoveragain。MrPeterhadsaid,"LeaveMrsJamiesontome;"sowedid;especiallyasweknewnothingthatwecoulddotoalterherdeterminationifonceformed。
Ididnotknow,nordidMissMatty,howthingsweregoingon,untilMissPoleaskedme,justthedaybeforeMrsGordoncame,ifI
thoughttherewasanythingbetweenMrPeterandMrsJamiesoninthematrimonialline,forthatMrsJamiesonwasreallygoingtothelunchatthe"George。"ShehadsentMrMullinerdowntodesirethattheremightbeafootstoolputtothewarmestseatintheroom,asshemeanttocome,andknewthattheirchairswereveryhigh。MissPolehadpickedthispieceofnewsup,andfromitsheconjecturedallsortsofthings,andbemoanedyetmore。"IfPetershouldmarry,whatwouldbecomeofpoordearMissMatty?AndMrsJamieson,ofallpeople!"MissPoleseemedtothinktherewereotherladiesinCranfordwhowouldhavedonemorecredittohischoice,andIthinkshemusthavehadsomeonewhowasunmarriedinherhead,forshekeptsaying,"Itwassowantingindelicacyinawidowtothinkofsuchathing。"
WhenIgotbacktoMissMatty’sIreallydidbegintothinkthatMrPetermightbethinkingofMrsJamiesonforawife,andIwasasunhappyasMissPoleaboutit。Hehadtheproofsheetofagreatplacardinhishand。"SignorBrunoni,MagiciantotheKingofDelhi,theRajahofOude,andthegreatLamaofThibet,"&c。&c。,wasgoingto"performinCranfordforonenightonly,"theverynextnight;andMissMatty,exultant,showedmealetterfromtheGordons,promisingtoremainoverthisgaiety,whichMissMattysaidwasentirelyPeter’sdoing。Hehadwrittentoaskthesignortocome,andwastobeatalltheexpensesoftheaffair。Ticketsweretobesentgratistoasmanyastheroomwouldhold。Inshort,MissMattywascharmedwiththeplan,andsaidthatto—
morrowCranfordwouldremindherofthePrestonGuild,towhichshehadbeeninheryouth—aluncheonatthe"George,"withthedearGordons,andthesignorintheAssemblyRoomintheevening。ButI
—Ilookedonlyatthefatalwords:—
"UNDERTHEPATRONAGEOFTHEHONOURABLEMRSJAMIESON。"
She,then,waschosentopresideoverthisentertainmentofMrPeter’s;shewasperhapsgoingtodisplacemydearMissMattyinhisheart,andmakeherlifelonelyoncemore!Icouldnotlookforwardtothemorrowwithanypleasure;andeveryinnocentanticipationofMissMatty’sonlyservedtoaddtomyannoyance。
So,angryandirritated,andexaggeratingeverylittleincidentwhichcouldaddtomyirritation,Iwentontillwewereallassembledinthegreatparlouratthe"George。"MajorandMrsGordonandprettyFloraandMrLudovicwereallasbrightandhandsomeandfriendlyascouldbe;butIcouldhardlyattendtothemforwatchingMrPeter,andIsawthatMissPolewasequallybusy。IhadneverseenMrsJamiesonsorousedandanimatedbefore;
herfacelookedfullofinterestinwhatMrPeterwassaying。I
drewneartolisten。MyreliefwasgreatwhenIcaughtthathiswordswerenotwordsoflove,butthat,forallhisgraveface,hewasathisoldtricks。HewastellingherofhistravelsinIndia,anddescribingthewonderfulheightoftheHimalayamountains:onetouchafteranotheraddedtotheirsize,andeachexceededtheformerinabsurdity;butMrsJamiesonreallyenjoyedallinperfectgoodfaith。Isupposesherequiredstrongstimulantstoexcitehertocomeoutofherapathy。MrPeterwounduphisaccountbysayingthat,ofcourse,atthataltitudetherewerenoneoftheanimalstobefoundthatexistedinthelowerregions;thegame,—everythingwasdifferent。Firingonedayatsomeflyingcreature,hewasverymuchdismayedwhenitfell,tofindthathehadshotacherubim!
MrPetercaughtmyeyeatthismoment,andgavemesuchafunnytwinkle,thatIfeltsurehehadnothoughtsofMrsJamiesonasawifefromthattime。Shelookeduncomfortablyamazed—
"But,MrPeter,shootingacherubim—don’tyouthink—Iamafraidthatwassacrilege!"
MrPetercomposedhiscountenanceinamoment,andappearedshockedattheidea,which,ashesaidtrulyenough,wasnowpresentedtohimforthefirsttime;butthenMrsJamiesonmustrememberthathehadbeenlivingforalongtimeamongsavages—allofwhomwereheathens—someofthem,hewasafraid,weredownrightDissenters。
Then,seeingMissMattydrawnear,hehastilychangedtheconversation,andafteralittlewhile,turningtome,hesaid,"Don’tbeshocked,primlittleMary,atallmywonderfulstories。
IconsiderMrsJamiesonfairgame,andbesidesIambentonpropitiatingher,andthefirststeptowardsitiskeepingherwellawake。Ibribedherherebyaskinghertoletmehavehernameaspatronessformypoorconjurorthisevening;andIdon’twanttogivehertimeenoughtogetupherrancouragainsttheHogginses,whoarejustcomingin。Iwanteverybodytobefriends,foritharassesMattysomuchtohearofthesequarrels。Ishallgoatitagainby—and—by,soyouneednotlookshocked。IintendtoentertheAssemblyRoomto—nightwithMrsJamiesonononeside,andmylady,MrsHoggins,ontheother。YouseeifIdon’t。"
Somehoworanotherhedid;andfairlygotthemintoconversationtogether。MajorandMrsGordonhelpedatthegoodworkwiththeirperfectignoranceofanyexistingcoolnessbetweenanyoftheinhabitantsofCranford。
EversincethatdaytherehasbeentheoldfriendlysociabilityinCranfordsociety;whichIamthankfulfor,becauseofmydearMissMatty’sloveofpeaceandkindliness。WeallloveMissMatty,andIsomehowthinkweareallofusbetterwhensheisnearus。
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