MrsForrestersurprisedusinourdarnedcapsandpatchedcollars;
andweforgotallabouttheminoureagernesstoseehowshewouldbeartheinformation,whichwehonourablylefttoMissPole,toimpart,although,ifwehadbeeninclinedtotakeunfairadvantage,wemighthaverushedinourselves,forshehadamostout—of—placefitofcoughingforfiveminutesafterMrsForresterenteredtheroom。Ishallneverforgettheimploringexpressionofhereyes,asshelookedatusoverherpocket—handkerchief。Theysaid,asplainaswordscouldspeak,"Don’tletNaturedeprivemeofthetreasurewhichismine,althoughforatimeIcanmakenouseofit。"Andwedidnot。
MrsForrester’ssurprisewasequaltoours;andhersenseofinjuryrathergreater,becauseshehadtofeelforherOrder,andsawmorefullythanwecoulddohowsuchconductbroughtstainsonthearistocracy。
WhensheandMissPoleleftusweendeavouredtosubsideintocalmness;butMissMattywasreallyupsetbytheintelligenceshehadheard。Shereckoneditup,anditwasmorethanfifteenyearssinceshehadheardofanyofheracquaintancegoingtobemarried,withtheoneexceptionofMissJessieBrown;and,asshesaid,itgaveherquiteashock,andmadeherfeelasifshecouldnotthinkwhatwouldhappennext。
Idon’tknowwhetheritisafancyofmine,orarealfact,butI
havenoticedthat,justaftertheannouncementofanengagementinanyset,theunmarriedladiesinthatsetflutteroutinanunusualgaietyandnewnessofdress,asmuchastosay,inatacitandunconsciousmanner,"Wealsoarespinsters。"MissMattyandMissPoletalkedandthoughtmoreaboutbonnets,gowns,caps,andshawls,duringthefortnightthatsucceededthiscall,thanIhadknownthemdoforyearsbefore。Butitmightbethespringweather,foritwasawarmandpleasantMarch;andmerinoesandbeavers,andwoollenmaterialsofallsortswerebutungraciousreceptaclesofthebrightsun’sglancingrays。IthadnotbeenLadyGlenmire’sdressthathadwonMrHoggins’sheart,forshewentaboutonhererrandsofkindnessmoreshabbythanever。AlthoughinthehurriedglimpsesIcaughtofheratchurchorelsewheresheappearedrathertoshunmeetinganyofherfriends,herfaceseemedtohavealmostsomethingoftheflushofyouthinit;herlipslookedredderandmoretremblingfullthanintheiroldcompressedstate,andhereyesdweltonallthingswithalingeringlight,asifshewaslearningtoloveCranfordanditsbelongings。MrHogginslookedbroadandradiant,andcreakedupthemiddleaisleatchurchinabrand—newpairoftop—boots—anaudible,aswellasvisible,signofhispurposedchangeofstate;forthetraditionwent,thatthebootshehadworntillnowweretheidenticalpairinwhichhefirstsetoutonhisroundsinCranfordtwenty—fiveyearsago;onlytheyhadbeennew—pieced,highandlow,topandbottom,heelandsole,blackleatherandbrownleather,moretimesthananyonecouldtell。
NoneoftheladiesinCranfordchosetosanctionthemarriagebycongratulatingeitheroftheparties。Wewishedtoignorethewholeaffairuntilourliegelady,MrsJamieson,returned。Tillshecamebacktogiveusourcue,wefeltthatitwouldbebettertoconsidertheengagementinthesamelightastheQueenofSpain’slegs—factswhichcertainlyexisted,butthelesssaidaboutthebetter。Thisrestraintuponourtongues—foryouseeifwedidnotspeakaboutittoanyofthepartiesconcerned,howcouldwegetanswerstothequestionsthatwelongedtoask?—wasbeginningtobeirksome,andourideaofthedignityofsilencewaspalingbeforeourcuriosity,whenanotherdirectionwasgiventoourthoughts,byanannouncementonthepartoftheprincipalshopkeeperofCranford,whorangedthetradesfromgrocerandcheesemongertoman—milliner,asoccasionrequired,thatthespringfashionswerearrived,andwouldbeexhibitedonthefollowingTuesdayathisroomsinHighStreet。NowMissMattyhadbeenonlywaitingforthisbeforebuyingherselfanewsilkgown。Ihadoffered,itistrue,tosendtoDrumbleforpatterns,butshehadrejectedmyproposal,gentlyimplyingthatshehadnotforgottenherdisappointmentaboutthesea—greenturban。IwasthankfulthatIwasonthespotnow,tocounteractthedazzlingfascinationofanyyelloworscarletsilk。
Imustsayawordortwohereaboutmyself。Ihavespokenofmyfather’soldfriendshipfortheJenkynsfamily;indeed,Iamnotsureiftherewasnotsomedistantrelationship。HehadwillinglyallowedmetoremainallthewinteratCranford,inconsiderationofaletterwhichMissMattyhadwrittentohimaboutthetimeofthepanic,inwhichIsuspectshehadexaggeratedmypowersandmybraveryasadefenderofthehouse。Butnowthatthedayswerelongerandmorecheerful,hewasbeginningtourgethenecessityofmyreturn;andIonlydelayedinasortofoddforlornhopethatifIcouldobtainanyclearinformation,ImightmaketheaccountgivenbythesignoraoftheAgaJenkynstallywiththatof"poorPeter,"hisappearanceanddisappearance,whichIhadwinnowedoutoftheconversationofMissPoleandMrsForrester。
CHAPTERXIII—STOPPEDPAYMENT
THEveryTuesdaymorningonwhichMrJohnsonwasgoingtoshowthefashions,thepost—womanbroughttwoletterstothehouse。Isaythepost—woman,butIshouldsaythepostman’swife。Hewasalameshoemaker,averyclean,honestman,muchrespectedinthetown;
butheneverbroughtthelettersroundexceptonunusualoccasions,suchasChristmasDayorGoodFriday;andonthosedaystheletters,whichshouldhavebeendeliveredateightinthemorning,didnotmaketheirappearanceuntiltwoorthreeintheafternoon,foreveryonelikedpoorThomas,andgavehimawelcomeonthesefestiveoccasions。Heusedtosay,"Hewaswellystawedwi’
eating,fortherewerethreeorfourhouseswherenowtwouldserve’embuthemustshareintheirbreakfast;"andbythetimehehaddonehislastbreakfast,hecametosomeotherfriendwhowasbeginningdinner;butcomewhatmightinthewayoftemptation,Tomwasalwayssober,civil,andsmiling;and,asMissJenkynsusedtosay,itwasalessoninpatience,thatshedoubtednotwouldcalloutthatpreciousqualityinsomeminds,where,butforThomas,itmighthavelaindormantandundiscovered。PatiencewascertainlyverydormantinMissJenkyns’smind。Shewasalwaysexpectingletters,andalwaysdrummingonthetabletillthepost—womanhadcalledorgonepast。OnChristmasDayandGoodFridayshedrummedfrombreakfasttillchurch,fromchurch—timetilltwoo’clock—
unlesswhenthefirewantedstirring,whensheinvariablyknockeddownthefire—irons,andscoldedMissMattyforit。ButequallycertainwastheheartywelcomeandthegooddinnerforThomas;MissJenkynsstandingoverhimlikeabolddragoon,questioninghimastohischildren—whattheyweredoing—whatschooltheywentto;
upbraidinghimifanotherwaslikelytomakeitsappearance,butsendingeventhelittlebabiestheshillingandthemince—piewhichwashergifttoallthechildren,withhalf—a—crowninadditionforbothfatherandmother。ThepostwasnothalfofsomuchconsequencetodearMissMatty;butnotfortheworldwouldshehavediminishedThomas’swelcomeandhisdole,thoughIcouldseethatshefeltrathershyovertheceremony,whichhadbeenregardedbyMissJenkynsasagloriousopportunityforgivingadviceandbenefitingherfellow—creatures。MissMattywouldstealthemoneyallinalumpintohishand,asifshewereashamedofherself。
MissJenkynsgavehimeachindividualcoinseparate,witha"There!
that’sforyourself;that’sforJenny,"etc。MissMattywouldevenbeckonMarthaoutofthekitchenwhileheatehisfood:andonce,tomyknowledge,winkedatitsrapiddisappearanceintoabluecottonpocket—handkerchief。MissJenkynsalmostscoldedhimifhedidnotleaveacleanplate,howeverheapeditmighthavebeen,andgaveaninjunctionwitheverymouthful。
Ihavewanderedalongwayfromthetwolettersthatawaitedusonthebreakfast—tablethatTuesdaymorning。Minewasfrommyfather。
MissMatty’swasprinted。Myfather’swasjustaman’sletter;I
meanitwasverydull,andgavenoinformationbeyondthathewaswell,thattheyhadhadagooddealofrain,thattradewasverystagnant,andthereweremanydisagreeablerumoursafloat。HethenaskedmeifIknewwhetherMissMattystillretainedhersharesintheTownandCountyBank,astherewereveryunpleasantreportsaboutit;thoughnothingmorethanhehadalwaysforeseen,andhadprophesiedtoMissJenkynsyearsago,whenshewouldinvesttheirlittlepropertyinit—theonlyunwisestepthatcleverwomanhadevertaken,tohisknowledge(theonlytimesheeveractedagainsthisadvice,Iknew)。However,ifanythinghadgonewrong,ofcourseIwasnottothinkofleavingMissMattywhileIcouldbeofanyuse,etc。
"Whoisyourletterfrom,mydear?Mineisaverycivilinvitation,signed’EdwinWilson,’askingmetoattendanimportantmeetingoftheshareholdersoftheTownandCountyBank,tobeheldinDrumble,onThursdaythetwenty—first。Iamsure,itisveryattentiveofthemtorememberme。"
Ididnotliketohearofthis"importantmeeting,"for,thoughI
didnotknowmuchaboutbusiness,Ifeareditconfirmedwhatmyfathersaid:however,Ithought,illnewsalwayscamefastenough,soIresolvedtosaynothingaboutmyalarm,andmerelytoldherthatmyfatherwaswell,andsenthiskindregardstoher。Shekeptturningoverandadmiringherletter。Atlastshespoke—
"IremembertheirsendingonetoDeborahjustlikethis;butthatI
didnotwonderat,foreverybodyknewshewassoclear—headed。I
amafraidIcouldnothelpthemmuch;indeed,iftheycametoaccounts,Ishouldbequiteintheway,forInevercoulddosumsinmyhead。Deborah,Iknow,ratherwishedtogo,andwentsofarastoorderanewbonnetfortheoccasion:butwhenthetimecameshehadabadcold;sotheysentheraverypoliteaccountofwhattheyhaddone。Chosenadirector,Ithinkitwas。Doyouthinktheywantmetohelpthemtochooseadirector?IamsureIshouldchooseyourfatheratonce!’
"Myfatherhasnosharesinthebank,"saidI。
"Oh,no!Iremember。HeobjectedverymuchtoDeborah’sbuyingany,Ibelieve。Butshewasquitethewomanofbusiness,andalwaysjudgedforherself;andhere,yousee,theyhavepaideightpercent。alltheseyears。"
Itwasaveryuncomfortablesubjecttome,withmyhalf—knowledge;
soIthoughtIwouldchangetheconversation,andIaskedatwhattimeshethoughtwehadbettergoandseethefashions。"Well,mydear,"shesaid,"thethingisthis:itisnotetiquettetogotillaftertwelve;butthen,yousee,allCranfordwillbethere,andonedoesnotliketobetoocuriousaboutdressandtrimmingsandcapswithalltheworldlookingon。Itisnevergenteeltobeover—curiousontheseoccasions。Deborahhadtheknackofalwayslookingasifthelatestfashionwasnothingnewtoher;amannershehadcaughtfromLadyArley,whodidseeallthenewmodesinLondon,youknow。SoIthoughtwewouldjustslipdown—forIdowantthismorning,soonafterbreakfasthalf—a—poundoftea—andthenwecouldgoupandexaminethethingsatourleisure,andseeexactlyhowmynewsilkgownmustbemade;andthen,aftertwelve,wecouldgowithourmindsdisengaged,andfreefromthoughtsofdress。"
WebegantotalkofMissMatty’snewsilkgown。Idiscoveredthatitwouldbereallythefirsttimeinherlifethatshehadhadtochooseanythingofconsequenceforherself:forMissJenkynshadalwaysbeenthemoredecidedcharacter,whateverhertastemighthavebeen;anditisastonishinghowsuchpeoplecarrytheworldbeforethembythemereforceofwill。MissMattyanticipatedthesightoftheglossyfoldswithasmuchdelightasifthefivesovereigns,setapartforthepurchase,couldbuyallthesilksintheshop;and(rememberingmyownlossoftwohoursinatoyshopbeforeIcouldtellonwhatwondertospendasilverthreepence)I
wasverygladthatweweregoingearly,thatdearMissMattymighthaveleisureforthedelightsofperplexity。
Ifahappysea—greencouldbemetwith,thegownwastobesea—
green:ifnot,sheinclinedtomaize,andItosilvergray;andwediscussedtherequisitenumberofbreadthsuntilwearrivedattheshop—door。Weweretobuythetea,selectthesilk,andthenclamberuptheironcorkscrewstairsthatledintowhatwasoncealoft,thoughnowafashionshow—room。
TheyoungmenatMrJohnson’shadontheirbestlooks;andtheirbestcravats,andpivotedthemselvesoverthecounterwithsurprisingactivity。Theywantedtoshowusupstairsatonce;butontheprincipleofbusinessfirstandpleasureafterwards,westayedtopurchasethetea。HereMissMatty’sabsenceofmindbetrayeditself。Ifshewasmadeawarethatshehadbeendrinkinggreenteaatanytime,shealwaysthoughtitherdutytolieawakehalfthroughthenightafterward(Ihaveknownhertakeitinignorancemanyatimewithoutsucheffects),andconsequentlygreenteawasprohibitedthehouse;yetto—daysheherselfaskedfortheobnoxiousarticle,undertheimpressionthatshewastalkingaboutthesilk。However,themistakewassoonrectified;andthenthesilkswereunrolledingoodtruth。Bythistimetheshopwasprettywellfilled,foritwasCranfordmarket—day,andmanyofthefarmersandcountrypeoplefromtheneighbourhoodroundcamein,sleekingdowntheirhair,andglancingshylyabout,fromundertheireyelids,asanxioustotakebacksomenotionoftheunusualgaietytothemistressorthelassesathome,andyetfeelingthattheywereoutofplaceamongthesmartshopmenandgayshawlsandsummerprints。Onehonest—lookingman,however,madehiswayuptothecounteratwhichwestood,andboldlyaskedtolookatashawlortwo。Theothercountryfolkconfinedthemselvestothegroceryside;butourneighbourwasevidentlytoofullofsomekindintentiontowardsmistress,wifeordaughter,tobeshy;anditsoonbecameaquestionwithme,whetherheorMissMattywouldkeeptheirshopmenthelongesttime。Hethoughteachshawlmorebeautifulthanthelast;and,asforMissMatty,shesmiledandsighedovereachfreshbalethatwasbroughtout;onecoloursetoffanother,andtheheaptogetherwould,asshesaid,makeeventherainbowlookpoor。
"Iamafraid,"saidshe,hesitating,"WhicheverIchooseIshallwishIhadtakenanother。Lookatthislovelycrimson!itwouldbesowarminwinter。Butspringiscomingon,youknow。IwishI
couldhaveagownforeveryseason,"saidshe,droppinghervoice—
aswealldidinCranfordwheneverwetalkedofanythingwewishedforbutcouldnotafford。"However,"shecontinuedinalouderandmorecheerfultone,"itwouldgivemeagreatdealoftroubletotakecareofthemifIhadthem;so,Ithink,I’llonlytakeone。
Butwhichmustitbe,mydear?"
Andnowshehoveredoveralilacwithyellowspots,whileIpulledoutaquietsage—greenthathadfadedintoinsignificanceunderthemorebrilliantcolours,butwhichwasneverthelessagoodsilkinitshumbleway。Ourattentionwascalledofftoourneighbour。Hehadchosenashawlofaboutthirtyshillings’value;andhisfacelookedbroadlyhappy,undertheanticipation,nodoubt,ofthepleasantsurprisehewouldgivetosomeMollyorJennyathome;hehadtuggedaleathernpurseoutofhisbreeches—pocket,andhadofferedafive—poundnoteinpaymentfortheshawl,andforsomeparcelswhichhadbeenbroughtroundtohimfromthegrocerycounter;anditwasjustatthispointthatheattractedournotice。Theshopmanwasexaminingthenotewithapuzzled,doubtfulair。
"TownandCountyBank!Iamnotsure,sir,butIbelievewehavereceivedawarningagainstnotesissuedbythisbankonlythismorning。IwilljuststepandaskMrJohnson,sir;butI’mafraidImusttroubleyouforpaymentincash,orinanoteofadifferentbank。"
Ineversawaman’scountenancefallsosuddenlyintodismayandbewilderment。Itwasalmostpiteoustoseetherapidchange。
"Dangit!"saidhe,strikinghisfistdownonthetable,asiftotrywhichwastheharder,"thechaptalksasifnotesandgoldweretobehadforthepickingup。"
MissMattyhadforgottenhersilkgowninherinterestfortheman。
Idon’tthinkshehadcaughtthenameofthebank,andinmynervouscowardiceIwasanxiousthatsheshouldnot;andsoIbeganadmiringtheyellow—spottedlilacgownthatIhadbeenutterlycondemningonlyaminutebefore。Butitwasofnouse。
"Whatbankwasit?Imean,whatbankdidyournotebelongto?"
"TownandCountyBank。"
"Letmeseeit,"saidshequietlytotheshopman,gentlytakingitoutofhishand,ashebroughtitbacktoreturnittothefarmer。
MrJohnsonwasverysorry,but,frominformationhehadreceived,thenotesissuedbythatbankwerelittlebetterthanwastepaper。
"Idon’tunderstandit,"saidMissMattytomeinalowvoice。
"Thatisourbank,isitnot?—theTownandCountyBank?"
"Yes,"saidI。"Thislilacsilkwilljustmatchtheribbonsinyournewcap,Ibelieve,"Icontinued,holdingupthefoldssoastocatchthelight,andwishingthatthemanwouldmakehasteandbegone,andyethavinganewwonder,thathadonlyjustsprungup,howfaritwaswiseorrightinmetoallowMissMattytomakethisexpensivepurchase,iftheaffairsofthebankwerereallysobadastherefusalofthenoteimplied。
ButMissMattyputonthesoftdignifiedmanner,peculiartoher,rarelyused,andyetwhichbecamehersowell,andlayingherhandgentlyonmine,shesaid—
"Nevermindthesilksforafewminutes,dear。Idon’tunderstandyou,sir,"turningnowtotheshopman,whohadbeenattendingtothefarmer。"Isthisaforgednote?"
"Oh,no,ma’am。Itisatruenoteofitskind;butyousee,ma’am,itisajoint—stockbank,andtherearereportsoutthatitislikelytobreak。MrJohnsonisonlydoinghisduty,ma’am,asIamsureMrDobsonknows。"
ButMrDobsoncouldnotrespondtotheappealingbowbyanyansweringsmile。Hewasturningthenoteabsentlyoverinhisfingers,lookinggloomilyenoughattheparcelcontainingthelately—chosenshawl。
"It’sharduponapoorman,"saidhe,"asearnseveryfarthingwiththesweatofhisbrow。However,there’snohelpforit。Youmusttakebackyourshawl,myman;Lizzlemustgoonwithhercloakforawhile。Andyonfigsforthelittleones—Ipromisedthemto’em—I’lltakethem;butthe’bacco,andtheotherthings"—
"Iwillgiveyoufivesovereignsforyournote,mygoodman,"saidMissMatty。"Ithinkthereissomegreatmistakeaboutit,forI
amoneoftheshareholders,andI’msuretheywouldhavetoldmeifthingshadnotbeengoingonright。"
TheshopmanwhisperedawordortwoacrossthetabletoMissMatty。
Shelookedathimwithadubiousair。
"Perhapsso,"saidshe。"ButIdon’tpretendtounderstandbusiness;Ionlyknowthatifitisgoingtofail,andifhonestpeoplearetolosetheirmoneybecausetheyhavetakenournotes—
Ican’texplainmyself,"saidshe,suddenlybecomingawarethatshehadgotintoalongsentencewithfourpeopleforaudience;"onlyI
wouldratherexchangemygoldforthenote,ifyouplease,"turningtothefarmer,"andthenyoucantakeyourwifetheshawl。Itisonlygoingwithoutmygownafewdayslonger,"shecontinued,speakingtome。"Then,Ihavenodoubt,everythingwillbeclearedup。"
"Butifitisclearedupthewrongway?"saidI。
"Why,thenitwillonlyhavebeencommonhonestyinme,asashareholder,tohavegiventhisgoodmanthemoney。Iamquiteclearaboutitinmyownmind;but,youknow,Icanneverspeakquiteascomprehensiblyasotherscan,onlyyoumustgivemeyournote,MrDobson,ifyouplease,andgoonwithyourpurchaseswiththesesovereigns。"
Themanlookedatherwithsilentgratitude—tooawkwardtoputhisthanksintowords;buthehungbackforaminuteortwo,fumblingwithhisnote。
"I’mlothtomakeanotheroneloseinsteadofme,ifitisaloss;
but,yousee,fivepoundsisadealofmoneytoamanwithafamily;and,asyousay,tentooneinadayortwothenotewillbeasgoodasgoldagain。"
"Nohopeofthat,myfriend,"saidtheshopman。
"ThemorereasonwhyIshouldtakeit,"saidMissMattyquietly。
Shepushedhersovereignstowardstheman,whoslowlylaidhisnotedowninexchange。"Thankyou。IwillwaitadayortwobeforeI
purchaseanyofthesesilks;perhapsyouwillthenhaveagreaterchoice。Mydear,willyoucomeupstairs?"
Weinspectedthefashionswithasminuteandcuriousaninterestasifthegowntobemadeafterthemhadbeenbought。IcouldnotseethatthelittleeventintheshopbelowhadintheleastdampedMissMatty’scuriosityastothemakeofsleevesorthesitofskirts。Sheonceortwiceexchangedcongratulationswithmeonourprivateandleisurelyviewofthebonnetsandshawls;butIwas,allthetime,notsosurethatourexaminationwassoutterlyprivate,forIcaughtglimpsesofafiguredodgingbehindthecloaksandmantles;and,byadexterousmove,IcamefacetofacewithMissPole,alsoinmorningcostume(theprincipalfeatureofwhichwasherbeingwithoutteeth,andwearingaveiltoconcealthedeficiency),comeonthesameerrandasourselves。Butshequicklytookherdeparture,because,asshesaid,shehadabadheadache,anddidnotfeelherselfuptoconversation。
Aswecamedownthroughtheshop,thecivilMrJohnsonwasawaitingus;hehadbeeninformedoftheexchangeofthenoteforgold,andwithmuchgoodfeelingandrealkindness,butwithalittlewantoftact,hewishedtocondolewithMissMatty,andimpressuponherthetruestateofthecase。Icouldonlyhopethathehadheardanexaggeratedrumourforhesaidthathershareswereworsethannothing,andthatthebankcouldnotpayashillinginthepound。
IwasgladthatMissMattyseemedstillalittleincredulous;butI
couldnottellhowmuchofthiswasrealorassumed,withthatself—controlwhichseemedhabitualtoladiesofMissMatty’sstandinginCranford,whowouldhavethoughttheirdignitycompromisedbytheslightestexpressionofsurprise,dismay,oranysimilarfeelingtoaninferiorinstation,orinapublicshop。
However,wewalkedhomeverysilently。Iamashamedtosay,I
believeIwasrathervexedandannoyedatMissMatty’sconductintakingthenotetoherselfsodecidedly。Ihadsosetmyheartuponherhavinganewsilkgown,whichshewantedsadly;ingeneralshewassoundecidedanybodymightturnherround;inthiscaseI
hadfeltthatitwasnouseattemptingit,butIwasnotthelessputoutattheresult。
Somehow,aftertwelveo’clock,webothacknowledgedtoasatedcuriosityaboutthefashions,andtoacertainfatigueofbody(whichwas,infact,depressionofmind)thatindisposedustogooutagain。Butstillweneverspokeofthenote;till,allatonce,somethingpossessedmetoaskMissMattyifshewouldthinkitherdutytooffersovereignsforallthenotesoftheTownandCountyBankshemetwith?IcouldhavebittenmytongueouttheminuteIhadsaidit。Shelookeduprathersadly,andasifIhadthrownanewperplexityintoheralreadydistressedmind;andforaminuteortwoshedidnotspeak。Thenshesaid—myowndearMissMatty—withoutashadeofreproachinhervoice—
"Mydear,Ineverfeelasifmymindwaswhatpeoplecallverystrong;andit’softenhardenoughworkformetosettlewhatI
oughttodowiththecaserightbeforeme。Iwasverythankfulto—Iwasverythankful,thatIsawmydutythismorning,withthepoormanstandingbyme;butitsratherastrainuponmetokeepthinkingandthinkingwhatIshoulddoifsuchandsuchathinghappened;and,Ibelieve,Ihadratherwaitandseewhatreallydoescome;andIdon’tdoubtIshallbehelpedthenifIdon’tfidgetmyself,andgettooanxiousbeforehand。Youknow,love,I’mnotlikeDeborah。IfDeborahhadlived,I’venodoubtshewouldhaveseenafterthem,beforetheyhadgotthemselvesintothisstate。"
Wehadneitherofusmuchappetitefordinner,thoughwetriedtotalkcheerfullyaboutindifferentthings。Whenwereturnedintothedrawing—room,MissMattyunlockedherdeskandbegantolookoverheraccount—books。IwassopenitentforwhatIhadsaidinthemorning,thatIdidnotchoosetotakeuponmyselfthepresumptiontosupposethatIcouldassisther;Iratherleftheralone,as,withpuzzledbrow,hereyefollowedherpenupanddowntheruledpage。By—and—bysheshutthebook,lockedthedesk,andcameanddrewachairtomine,whereIsatinmoodysorrowoverthefire。Istolemyhandintohers;sheclaspedit,butdidnotspeakaword。Atlastshesaid,withforcedcomposureinhervoice,"Ifthatbankgoeswrong,Ishallloseonehundredandforty—ninepoundsthirteenshillingsandfourpenceayear;Ishallonlyhavethirteenpoundsayearleft。"Isqueezedherhandhardandtight。
Ididnotknowwhattosay。Presently(itwastoodarktoseeherface)Ifeltherfingersworkconvulsivelyinmygrasp;andIknewshewasgoingtospeakagain。Iheardthesobsinhervoiceasshesaid,"Ihopeit’snotwrong—notwicked—but,oh!IamsogladpoorDeborahissparedthis。Shecouldnothavebornetocomedownintheworld—shehadsuchanoble,loftyspirit。"
Thiswasallshesaidaboutthesisterwhohadinsisteduponinvestingtheirlittlepropertyinthatunluckybank。Wewerelaterinlightingthecandlethanusualthatnight,anduntilthatlightshamedusintospeaking,wesattogetherverysilentlyandsadly。
However,wetooktoourworkafterteawithakindofforcedcheerfulness(whichsoonbecamerealasfarasitwent),talkingofthatnever—endingwonder,LadyGlenmire’sengagement。MissMattywasalmostcomingroundtothinkitagoodthing。
"Idon’tmeantodenythatmenaretroublesomeinahouse。Idon’tjudgefrommyownexperience,formyfatherwasneatnessitself,andwipedhisshoesoncominginascarefullyasanywoman;butstillamanhasasortofknowledgeofwhatshouldbedoneindifficulties,thatitisverypleasanttohaveoneathandreadytoleanupon。Now,LadyGlenmire,insteadofbeingtossedabout,andwonderingwheresheistosettle,willbecertainofahomeamongpleasantandkindpeople,suchasourgoodMissPoleandMrsForrester。AndMrHogginsisreallyaverypersonableman;andasforhismanners,why,iftheyarenotverypolished,Ihaveknownpeoplewithverygoodheartsandveryclevermindstoo,whowerenotwhatsomepeoplereckonedrefined,butwhowerebothtrueandtender。"
ShefelloffintoasoftreverieaboutMrHolbrook,andIdidnotinterrupther,IwassobusymaturingaplanIhadhadinmymindforsomedays,butwhichthisthreatenedfailureofthebankhadbroughttoacrisis。Thatnight,afterMissMattywenttobed,I
treacherouslylightedthecandleagain,andsatdowninthedrawing—roomtocomposealettertotheAgaJenkyns,aletterwhichshouldaffecthimifhewerePeter,andyetseemamerestatementofdryfactsifhewereastranger。ThechurchclockpealedouttwobeforeIhaddone。
Thenextmorningnewscame,bothofficialandotherwise,thattheTownandCountyBankhadstoppedpayment。MissMattywasruined。
Shetriedtospeakquietlytome;butwhenshecametotheactualfactthatshewouldhavebutaboutfiveshillingsaweektoliveupon,shecouldnotrestrainafewtears。
"Iamnotcryingformyself,dear,"saidshe,wipingthemaway;"I
believeIamcryingfortheverysillythoughtofhowmymotherwouldgrieveifshecouldknow;shealwayscaredforussomuchmorethanforherself。Butmanyapoorpersonhasless,andIamnotveryextravagant,and,thankGod,whentheneckofmutton,andMartha’swages,andtherentarepaid,Ihavenotafarthingowing。
PoorMartha!Ithinkshe’llbesorrytoleaveme。"
MissMattysmiledatmethroughhertears,andshewouldfainhavehadmeseeonlythesmile,notthetears。
CHAPTERXIV—FRIENDSINNEED
ITwasanexampletome,andIfancyitmightbetomanyothers,toseehowimmediatelyMissMattysetabouttheretrenchmentwhichsheknewtoberightunderheralteredcircumstances。WhileshewentdowntospeaktoMartha,andbreaktheintelligencetoher,IstoleoutwithmylettertotheAgaJenkyns,andwenttothesignor’slodgingstoobtaintheexactaddress。Iboundthesignoratosecrecy;andindeedhermilitarymannershadadegreeofshortnessandreserveinthemwhichmadeheralwayssayaslittleaspossible,exceptwhenunderthepressureofstrongexcitement。
Moreover(whichmademysecretdoublysure),thesignorwasnowsofarrecoveredastobelookingforwardtotravellingandconjuringagaininthespaceofafewdays,whenhe,hiswife,andlittlePhoebewouldleaveCranford。Indeed,Ifoundhimlookingoveragreatblackandredplacard,inwhichtheSignorBrunoni’saccomplishmentsweresetforth,andtowhichonlythenameofthetownwherehewouldnextdisplaythemwaswanting。Heandhiswifeweresomuchabsorbedindecidingwheretheredletterswouldcomeinwithmosteffect(itmighthavebeentheRubricforthatmatter),thatitwassometimebeforeIcouldgetmyquestionaskedprivately,andnotbeforeIhadgivenseveraldecisions,thewhichIquestionedafterwardswithequalwisdomofsincerityassoonasthesignorthrewinhisdoubtsandreasonsontheimportantsubject。AtlastIgottheaddress,speltbysound,andveryqueeritlooked。Idroppeditinthepostonmywayhome,andthenforaminuteIstoodlookingatthewoodenpanewithagapingslitwhichdividedmefromtheletterbutamomentagoinmyhand。Itwasgonefrommelikelife,nevertoberecalled。Itwouldgettossedaboutonthesea,andstainedwithsea—wavesperhaps,andbecarriedamongpalm—trees,andscentedwithalltropicalfragrance;
thelittlepieceofpaper,butanhouragosofamiliarandcommonplace,hadsetoutonitsracetothestrangewildcountriesbeyondtheGanges!ButIcouldnotaffordtolosemuchtimeonthisspeculation。Ihastenedhome,thatMissMattymightnotmissme。Marthaopenedthedoortome,herfaceswollenwithcrying。
Assoonasshesawmesheburstoutafresh,andtakingholdofmyarmshepulledmein,andbangedthedoorto,inordertoaskmeifindeeditwasalltruethatMissMattyhadbeensaying。
"I’llneverleaveher!No;Iwon’t。Itelledherso,andsaidI
couldnotthinkhowshecouldfindinherhearttogivemewarning。
Icouldnothavehadthefacetodoit,ifI’dbeenher。Imightha’beenjustasgoodfornothingasMrsFitz—Adam’sRosy,whostruckforwagesafterlivingsevenyearsandahalfinoneplace。
IsaidIwasnotonetogoandserveMammonatthatrate;thatI
knewwhenI’dgotagoodmissus,ifshedidn’tknowwhenshe’dgotagoodservant"—
"But,Martha,"saidI,cuttinginwhileshewipedhereyes。
"Don’t,’butMartha’me,"sherepliedtomydeprecatorytone。
"Listentoreason"—
"I’llnotlistentoreason,"shesaid,nowinfullpossessionofhervoice,whichhadbeenratherchokedwithsobbing。"Reasonalwaysmeanswhatsomeoneelsehasgottosay。NowIthinkwhatI’vegottosayisgoodenoughreason;butreasonornot,I’llsayit,andI’llsticktoit。I’vemoneyintheSavingsBank,andI’veagoodstockofclothes,andI’mnotgoingtoleaveMissMatty。
No,notifshegivesmewarningeveryhourintheday!"
Sheputherarmsakimbo,asmuchastosayshedefiedme;and,indeed,Icouldhardlytellhowtobegintoremonstratewithher,somuchdidIfeelthatMissMatty,inherincreasinginfirmity,neededtheattendanceofthiskindandfaithfulwoman。
"Well"—saidIatlast。
"I’mthankfulyoubeginwith’well!’Ifyou’dhavebegunwith’but,’asyoudidafore,I’dnotha’listenedtoyou。Nowyoumaygoon。"
"IknowyouwouldbeagreatlosstoMissMatty,Martha"—
"Itelledherso。Alossshe’dneverceasetobesorryfor,"brokeinMarthatriumphantly。
"Still,shewillhavesolittle—soverylittle—toliveupon,thatIdon’tseejustnowhowshecouldfindyoufood—shewillevenbepressedforherown。Itellyouthis,Martha,becauseI
feelyouarelikeafriendtodearMissMatty,butyouknowshemightnotliketohaveitspokenabout。"
ApparentlythiswasevenablackerviewofthesubjectthanMissMattyhadpresentedtoher,forMarthajustsatdownonthefirstchairthatcametohand,andcriedoutloud(wehadbeenstandinginthekitchen)。
Atlastsheputheraprondown,andlookingmeearnestlyintheface,asked,"WasthatthereasonMissMattywouldn’torderapuddingto—day?Shesaidshehadnogreatfancyforsweetthings,andyouandshewouldjusthaveamuttonchop。ButI’llbeuptoher。Neveryoutell,butI’llmakeherapudding,andapuddingshe’lllike,too,andI’llpayforitmyself;somindyouseesheeatsit。Manyaonehasbeencomfortedintheirsorrowbyseeingagooddishcomeuponthetable。"
IwasrathergladthatMartha’senergyhadtakentheimmediateandpracticaldirectionofpudding—making,foritstavedoffthequarrelsomediscussionastowhethersheshouldorshouldnotleaveMissMatty’sservice。Shebegantotieonacleanapron,andotherwiseprepareherselfforgoingtotheshopforthebutter,eggs,andwhatelseshemightrequire。Shewouldnotuseascrapofthearticlesalreadyinthehouseforhercookery,butwenttoanoldtea—potinwhichherprivatestoreofmoneywasdeposited,andtookoutwhatshewanted。
IfoundMissMattyveryquiet,andnotalittlesad;butby—and—byshetriedtosmileformysake。ItwassettledthatIwastowritetomyfather,andaskhimtocomeoverandholdaconsultation,andassoonasthisletterwasdespatchedwebegantotalkoverfutureplans。MissMatty’sideawastotakeasingleroom,andretainasmuchofherfurnitureaswouldbenecessarytofitupthis,andselltherest,andtheretoquietlyexistuponwhatwouldremainafterpayingtherent。Formypart,Iwasmoreambitiousandlesscontented。Ithoughtofallthethingsbywhichawoman,pastmiddleage,andwiththeeducationcommontoladiesfiftyyearsago,couldearnoraddtoalivingwithoutmateriallylosingcaste;
butatlengthIputeventhislastclauseononeside,andwonderedwhatintheworldMissMattycoulddo。
Teachingwas,ofcourse,thefirstthingthatsuggesteditself。IfMissMattycouldteachchildrenanything,itwouldthrowheramongthelittleelvesinwhomhersouldelighted。Iranoverheraccomplishments。OnceuponatimeIhadheardhersayshecouldplay"Ah!vousdirai—je,maman?"onthepiano,butthatwaslong,longago;thatfaintshadowofmusicalacquirementhaddiedoutyearsbefore。Shehadalsooncebeenabletotraceoutpatternsverynicelyformuslinembroidery,bydintofplacingapieceofsilverpaperoverthedesigntobecopied,andholdingbothagainstthewindow—panewhileshemarkedthescollopandeyelet—holes。Butthatwashernearestapproachtotheaccomplishmentofdrawing,andIdidnotthinkitwouldgoveryfar。Thenagain,astothebranchesofasolidEnglisheducation—fancyworkandtheuseoftheglobes—suchasthemistressoftheLadies’Seminary,towhichallthetradespeopleinCranfordsenttheirdaughters,professedtoteach。MissMatty’seyeswerefailingher,andIdoubtedifshecoulddiscoverthenumberofthreadsinaworsted—workpattern,orrightlyappreciatethedifferentshadesrequiredforQueenAdelaide’sfaceintheloyalwool—worknowfashionableinCranford。
Asfortheuseoftheglobes,Ihadneverbeenabletofinditoutmyself,soperhapsIwasnotagoodjudgeofMissMatty’scapabilityofinstructinginthisbranchofeducation;butitstruckmethatequatorsandtropics,andsuchmysticalcircles,wereveryimaginarylinesindeedtoher,andthatshelookeduponthesignsoftheZodiacassomanyremnantsoftheBlackArt。
Whatshepiquedherselfupon,asartsinwhichsheexcelled,wasmakingcandle—lighters,or"spills"(asshepreferredcallingthem),ofcolouredpaper,cutsoastoresemblefeathers,andknittinggartersinavarietyofdaintystitches。Ihadoncesaid,onreceivingapresentofanelaboratepair,thatIshouldfeelquitetemptedtodroponeoftheminthestreet,inordertohaveitadmired;butIfoundthislittlejoke(anditwasaverylittleone)wassuchadistresstohersenseofpropriety,andwastakenwithsuchanxious,earnestalarm,lestthetemptationmightsomedayprovetoostrongforme,thatIquiteregrettedhavingventureduponit。Apresentofthesedelicately—wroughtgarters,abunchofgay"spills,"orasetofcardsonwhichsewing—silkwaswoundinamysticalmanner,werethewell—knowntokensofMissMatty’sfavour。
Butwouldanyonepaytohavetheirchildrentaughtthesearts?or,indeed,wouldMissMattysell,forfilthylucre,theknackandtheskillwithwhichshemadetriflesofvaluetothosewholovedher?
Ihadtocomedowntoreading,writing,andarithmetic;and,inreadingthechaptereverymorning,shealwayscoughedbeforecomingtolongwords。Idoubtedherpowerofgettingthroughagenealogicalchapter,withanynumberofcoughs。Writingshedidwellanddelicately—butspelling!Sheseemedtothinkthatthemoreout—of—the—waythiswas,andthemoretroubleitcosther,thegreaterthecomplimentshepaidtohercorrespondent;andwordsthatshewouldspellquitecorrectlyinherletterstomebecameperfectenigmaswhenshewrotetomyfather。
No!therewasnothingshecouldteachtotherisinggenerationofCranford,unlesstheyhadbeenquicklearnersandreadyimitatorsofherpatience,herhumility,hersweetness,herquietcontentmentwithallthatshecouldnotdo。IponderedandpondereduntildinnerwasannouncedbyMartha,withafaceallblubberedandswollenwithcrying。
MissMattyhadafewlittlepeculiaritieswhichMarthawasapttoregardaswhimsbelowherattention,andappearedtoconsideraschildishfanciesofwhichanoldladyoffifty—eightshouldtryandcureherself。Butto—dayeverythingwasattendedtowiththemostcarefulregard。ThebreadwascuttotheimaginarypatternofexcellencethatexistedinMissMatty’smind,asbeingthewaywhichhermotherhadpreferred,thecurtainwasdrawnsoastoexcludethedeadbrickwallofaneighbour’sstable,andyetleftsoastoshoweverytenderleafofthepoplarwhichwasburstingintospringbeauty。Martha’stonetoMissMattywasjustsuchasthatgood,rough—spokenservantusuallykeptsacredforlittlechildren,andwhichIhadneverheardherusetoanygrown—upperson。
IhadforgottentotellMissMattyaboutthepudding,andIwasafraidshemightnotdojusticetoit,forshehadevidentlyverylittleappetitethisday;soIseizedtheopportunityoflettingherintothesecretwhileMarthatookawaythemeat。MissMatty’seyesfilledwithtears,andshecouldnotspeak,eithertoexpresssurpriseordelight,whenMarthareturnedbearingitaloft,madeinthemostwonderfulrepresentationofalionCOUCHANTthateverwasmoulded。Martha’sfacegleamedwithtriumphasshesetitdownbeforeMissMattywithanexultant"There!"MissMattywantedtospeakherthanks,butcouldnot;soshetookMartha’shandandshookitwarmly,whichsetMarthaoffcrying,andImyselfcouldhardlykeepupthenecessarycomposure。Marthaburstoutoftheroom,andMissMattyhadtoclearhervoiceonceortwicebeforeshecouldspeak。Atlastshesaid,"Ishouldliketokeepthispuddingunderaglassshade,mydear!"andthenotionofthelionCOUCHANT,withhiscurranteyes,beinghoisteduptotheplaceofhonouronamantelpiece,tickledmyhystericalfancy,andIbegantolaugh,whichrathersurprisedMissMatty。
"Iamsure,dear,Ihaveseenuglierthingsunderaglassshadebeforenow,"saidshe。
SohadI,manyatimeandoft,andIaccordinglycomposedmycountenance(andnowIcouldhardlykeepfromcrying),andwebothfelltouponthepudding,whichwasindeedexcellent—onlyeverymorselseemedtochokeus,ourheartsweresofull。
Wehadtoomuchtothinkabouttotalkmuchthatafternoon。Itpassedoververytranquilly。Butwhenthetea—urnwasbroughtinanewthoughtcameintomyhead。WhyshouldnotMissMattyselltea—beanagenttotheEastIndiaTeaCompanywhichthenexisted?I
couldseenoobjectionstothisplan,whiletheadvantagesweremany—alwayssupposingthatMissMattycouldgetoverthedegradationofcondescendingtoanythingliketrade。Teawasneithergreasynorsticky—greaseandstickinessbeingtwoofthequalitieswhichMissMattycouldnotendure。Noshop—windowwouldberequired。Asmall,genteelnotificationofherbeinglicensedtosellteawould,itistrue,benecessary,butIhopedthatitcouldbeplacedwherenoonewouldseeit。Neitherwasteaaheavyarticle,soastotaxMissMatty’sfragilestrength。Theonlythingagainstmyplanwasthebuyingandsellinginvolved。
WhileIwasgivingbutabsentanswerstothequestionsMissMattywasputting—almostasabsently—weheardaclumpingsoundonthestairs,andawhisperingoutsidethedoor,whichindeedonceopenedandshutasifbysomeinvisibleagency。AfteralittlewhileMarthacamein,draggingafterheragreattallyoungman,allcrimsonwithshyness,andfindinghisonlyreliefinperpetuallysleekingdownhishair。
"Please,ma’am,he’sonlyJemHearn,"saidMartha,bywayofanintroduction;andsooutofbreathwasshethatIimagineshehadhadsomebodilystrugglebeforeshecouldovercomehisreluctancetobepresentedonthecourtlysceneofMissMatildaJenkyns’sdrawing—room。
"Andplease,ma’am,hewantstomarrymeoff—hand。Andplease,ma’am,wewanttotakealodger—justonequietlodger,tomakeourtwoendsmeet;andwe’dtakeanyhouseconformable;and,ohdearMissMatty,ifImaybesobold,wouldyouhaveanyobjectionstolodgingwithus?JemwantsitasmuchasIdo。"[ToJem]—
"Yougreatoaf!whycan’tyoubackme!—Buthedoeswantitallthesame,verybad—don’tyou,Jem?—only,yousee,he’sdazedatbeingcalledontospeakbeforequality。"
"It’snotthat,"brokeinJem。"It’sthatyou’vetakenmeallonasudden,andIdidn’tthinkfortogetmarriedsosoon—andsuchquickwordsdoesflabbergastaman。It’snotthatI’magainstit,ma’am"(addressingMissMatty),"onlyMarthahassuchquickwayswithherwhenonceshetakesathingintoherhead;andmarriage,ma’am—marriagenailsaman,asonemaysay。IdaresayIshan’tminditafterit’sonceover。"
"Please,ma’am,"saidMartha—whohadpluckedathissleeve,andnudgedhimwithherelbow,andotherwisetriedtointerrupthimallthetimehehadbeenspeaking—"don’tmindhim,he’llcometo;
’twasonlylastnighthewasan—axingme,andan—axingme,andallthemorebecauseIsaidIcouldnotthinkofitforyearstocome,andnowhe’sonlytakenabackwiththesuddennessofthejoy;butyouknow,Jem,youarejustasfullasmeaboutwantingalodger。"
(Anothergreatnudge。)
"Ay!ifMissMattywouldlodgewithus—otherwiseI’venomindtobecumberedwithstrangefolkinthehouse,"saidJem,withawantoftactwhichIcouldseeenragedMartha,whowastryingtorepresentalodgerasthegreatobjecttheywishedtoobtain,andthat,infact,MissMattywouldbesmoothingtheirpathandconferringafavour,ifshewouldonlycomeandlivewiththem。
MissMattyherselfwasbewilderedbythepair;their,orratherMartha’ssuddenresolutioninfavourofmatrimonystaggeredher,andstoodbetweenherandthecontemplationoftheplanwhichMarthahadatheart。MissMattybegan—
"Marriageisaverysolemnthing,Martha。"
"Itisindeed,ma’am,"quothJem。"NotthatI’venoobjectionstoMartha。"
"You’veneverletmea—beforaskingmefortofixwhenIwouldbemarried,"saidMartha—herfacealla—fire,andreadytocrywithvexation—"andnowyou’reshamingmebeforemymissusandall。"
"Nay,now!Marthadon’tee!don’tee!onlyamanlikestohavebreathing—time,"saidJem,tryingtopossesshimselfofherhand,butinvain。Thenseeingthatshewasmoreseriouslyhurtthanhehadimagined,heseemedtotrytorallyhisscatteredfaculties,andwithmorestraightforwarddignitythan,tenminutesbefore,I
shouldhavethoughtitpossibleforhimtoassume,heturnedtoMissMatty,andsaid,"Ihope,ma’am,youknowthatIamboundtorespecteveryonewhohasbeenkindtoMartha。Ialwayslookedonherastobemywife—sometime;andshehasoftenandoftenspokenofyouasthekindestladythateverwas;andthoughtheplaintruthis,Iwouldnotliketobetroubledwithlodgersofthecommonrun,yetif,ma’am,you’dhonourusbylivingwithus,I’msureMarthawoulddoherbesttomakeyoucomfortable;andI’dkeepoutofyourwayasmuchasIcould,whichIreckonwouldbethebestkindnesssuchanawkwardchapasmecoulddo。"
MissMattyhadbeenverybusywithtakingoffherspectacles,wipingthem,andreplacingthem;butallshecouldsaywas,"Don’tletanythoughtofmehurryyouintomarriage:praydon’t。
Marriageissuchaverysolemnthing!"
"ButMissMatildawillthinkofyourplan,Martha,"saidI,struckwiththeadvantagesthatitoffered,andunwillingtolosetheopportunityofconsideringaboutit。"AndI’msureneithershenorIcaneverforgetyourkindness;noryour’seither,Jem。"
"Why,yes,ma’am!I’msureImeankindly,thoughI’mabitflutteredbybeingpushedstraightaheadintomatrimony,asitwere,andmayn’texpressmyselfconformable。ButI’msureI’mwillingenough,andgivemetimetogetaccustomed;so,Martha,wench,what’stheuseofcryingso,andslappingmeifIcomenear?"
ThislastwasSOTTOVOCE,andhadtheeffectofmakingMarthabounceoutoftheroom,tobefollowedandsoothedbyherlover。
WhereuponMissMattysatdownandcriedveryheartily,andaccountedforitbysayingthatthethoughtofMarthabeingmarriedsosoongaveherquiteashock,andthatsheshouldneverforgiveherselfifshethoughtshewashurryingthepoorcreature。IthinkmypitywasmoreforJem,ofthetwo;butbothMissMattyandI
appreciatedtothefullthekindnessofthehonestcouple,althoughwesaidlittleaboutthis,andagooddealaboutthechancesanddangersofmatrimony。
Thenextmorning,veryearly,IreceivedanotefromMissPole,somysteriouslywrappedup,andwithsomanysealsonittosecuresecrecy,thatIhadtotearthepaperbeforeIcouldunfoldit。
AndwhenIcametothewritingIcouldhardlyunderstandthemeaning,itwassoinvolvedandoracular。Imadeout,however,thatIwastogotoMissPole’sateleveno’clock;thenumberELEVENbeingwritteninfulllengthaswellasinnumerals,andA。M。twicedashedunder,asifIwereverylikelytocomeatelevenatnight,whenallCranfordwasusuallya—bedandasleepbyten。
TherewasnosignatureexceptMissPole’sinitialsreversed,P。E。;
butasMarthahadgivenmethenote,"withMissPole’skindregards,"itneedednowizardtofindoutwhosentit;andifthewriter’snamewastobekeptsecret,itwasverywellthatIwasalonewhenMarthadeliveredit。
IwentasrequestedtoMissPole’s。ThedoorwasopenedtomebyherlittlemaidLizzyinSundaytrim,asifsomegrandeventwasimpendingoverthiswork—day。Andthedrawing—roomupstairswasarrangedinaccordancewiththisidea。Thetablewassetoutwiththebestgreencard—cloth,andwritingmaterialsuponit。Onthelittlechiffonierwasatraywithanewly—decantedbottleofcowslipwine,andsomeladies’—fingerbiscuits。MissPoleherselfwasinsolemnarray,asiftoreceivevisitors,althoughitwasonlyeleveno’clock。MrsForresterwasthere,cryingquietlyandsadly,andmyarrivalseemedonlytocallforthfreshtears。
Beforewehadfinishedourgreetings,performedwithlugubriousmysteryofdemeanour,therewasanotherrat—tat—tat,andMrsFitz—
Adamappeared,crimsonwithwalkingandexcitement。Itseemedasifthiswasallthecompanyexpected;fornowMissPolemadeseveraldemonstrationsofbeingabouttoopenthebusinessofthemeeting,bystirringthefire,openingandshuttingthedoor,andcoughingandblowinghernose。Thenshearrangedusallroundthetable,takingcaretoplacemeoppositetoher;andlastofall,sheinquiredofmeifthesadreportwastrue,asshefeareditwas,thatMissMattyhadlostallherfortune?
Ofcourse,Ihadbutoneanswertomake;andIneversawmoreunaffectedsorrowdepictedonanycountenancesthanIdidthereonthethreebeforeme。
IwishMrsJamiesonwashere!"saidMrsForresteratlast;buttojudgefromMrsFitz—Adam’sface,shecouldnotsecondthewish。
"ButwithoutMrsJamieson,"saidMissPole,withjustasoundofoffendedmeritinhervoice,"we,theladiesofCranford,inmydrawing—roomassembled,canresolveuponsomething。Iimaginewearenoneofuswhatmaybecalledrich,thoughweallpossessagenteelcompetency,sufficientfortastesthatareelegantandrefined,andwouldnot,iftheycould,bevulgarlyostentatious。"
(HereIobservedMissPolerefertoasmallcardconcealedinherhand,onwhichIimagineshehadputdownafewnotes。)
"MissSmith,"shecontinued,addressingme(familiarlyknownas"Mary"toallthecompanyassembled,butthiswasastateoccasion),"Ihaveconversedinprivate—Imadeitmybusinesstodosoyesterdayafternoon—withtheseladiesonthemisfortunewhichhashappenedtoourfriend,andoneandallofushaveagreedthatwhilewehaveasuperfluity,itisnotonlyaduty,butapleasure—atruepleasure,Mary!"—hervoicewasratherchokedjusthere,andshehadtowipeherspectaclesbeforeshecouldgoon—"togivewhatwecantoassisther—MissMatildaJenkyns。
Onlyinconsiderationofthefeelingsofdelicateindependenceexistinginthemindofeveryrefinedfemale"—Iwassureshehadgotbacktothecardnow—"wewishtocontributeourmitesinasecretandconcealedmanner,soasnottohurtthefeelingsIhavereferredto。Andourobjectinrequestingyoutomeetusthismorningisthat,believingyouarethedaughter—thatyourfatheris,infact,herconfidentialadviser,inallpecuniarymatters,weimaginedthat,byconsultingwithhim,youmightdevisesomemodeinwhichourcontributioncouldbemadetoappearthelegalduewhichMissMatildaJenkynsoughttoreceivefrom—Probablyyourfather,knowingherinvestments,canfilluptheblank。"
MissPoleconcludedheraddress,andlookedroundforapprovalandagreement。
"Ihaveexpressedyourmeaning,ladies,haveInot?AndwhileMissSmithconsiderswhatreplytomake,allowmetoofferyousomelittlerefreshment。"
Ihadnogreatreplytomake:IhadmorethankfulnessatmyheartfortheirkindthoughtsthanIcaredtoputintowords;andsoI
onlymumbledoutsomethingtotheeffect"thatIwouldnamewhatMissPolehadsaidtomyfather,andthatifanythingcouldbearrangedfordearMissMatty,"—andhereIbrokedownutterly,andhadtoberefreshedwithaglassofcowslipwinebeforeIcouldcheckthecryingwhichhadbeenrepressedforthelasttwoorthreedays。Theworstwas,alltheladiescriedinconcert。EvenMissPolecried,whohadsaidahundredtimesthattobetrayemotionbeforeanyonewasasignofweaknessandwantofself—control。
Sherecoveredherselfintoaslightdegreeofimpatientanger,directedagainstme,ashavingsetthemalloff;and,moreover,I
thinkshewasvexedthatIcouldnotmakeaspeechbackinreturnforhers;andifIhadknownbeforehandwhatwastobesaid,andhadacardonwhichtoexpresstheprobablefeelingsthatwouldriseinmyheart,Iwouldhavetriedtogratifyher。Asitwas,MrsForresterwasthepersontospeakwhenwehadrecoveredourcomposure。
"Idon’tmind,amongfriends,statingthatI—no!I’mnotpoorexactly,butIdon’tthinkI’mwhatyoumaycallrich;IwishI
were,fordearMissMatty’ssake—but,ifyouplease,I’llwritedowninasealedpaperwhatIcangive。Ionlywishitwasmore;
mydearMary,Idoindeed。"
NowIsawwhypaper,pens,andinkwereprovided。Everyladywrotedownthesumshecouldgiveannually,signedthepaper,andsealeditmysteriously。Iftheirproposalwasaccededto,myfatherwastobeallowedtoopenthepapers,underpledgeofsecrecy。Ifnot,theyweretobereturnedtotheirwriters。
Whentheceremonyhadbeengonethrough,Irosetodepart;buteachladyseemedtowishtohaveaprivateconferencewithme。MissPolekeptmeinthedrawing—roomtoexplainwhy,inMrsJamieson’sabsence,shehadtakentheleadinthis"movement,"asshewaspleasedtocallit,andalsotoinformmethatshehadheardfromgoodsourcesthatMrsJamiesonwascominghomedirectlyinastateofhighdispleasureagainsthersister—in—law,whowasforthwithtoleaveherhouse,andwas,shebelieved,toreturntoEdinburghthatveryafternoon。OfcoursethispieceofintelligencecouldnotbecommunicatedbeforeMrsFitz—Adam,moreespeciallyasMissPolewasinclinedtothinkthatLadyGlenmire’sengagementtoMrHogginscouldnotpossiblyholdagainsttheblazeofMrsJamieson’sdispleasure。AfewheartyinquiriesafterMissMatty’shealthconcludedmyinterviewwithMissPole。
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