Itseemedasiftheplaceshehadbeenin,andthepeoplehehadbeenwith,mustceasetoexistwhenheleftthem,justasherownlifewassuspendedinhisabsence。
Hecontinued,now,totalktohervolublyandgaily,deploringhislateness,grumblingatthedemandsonhistime,andgood—humouredlymimickingMissHatchard’sbenevolentagitation。"ShehurriedoffMilestoaskMr。RoyalltospeakattheTownHalltomorrow:Ididn’tknowtillitwasdone。"Charitywassilent,andheadded:"Afterall,perhapsit’sjustaswell。Nooneelsecouldhavedoneit。"
Charitymadenoanswer:Shedidnotcarewhatpartherguardianplayedinthemorrow’sceremonies。Likealltheotherfigurespeoplinghermeagreworldhehadgrownnon—existenttoher。Shehadevenputoffhatinghim。
"TomorrowIshallonlyseeyoufromfaroff,"Harneycontinued。"Butintheeveningthere’llbethedanceintheTownHall。Doyouwantmetopromisenottodancewithanyothergirl?"
Anyothergirl?Werethereanyothers?Shehadforgotteneventhatperil,soencloseddidheandsheseemintheirsecretworld。Herheartgaveafrightenedjerk。
"Yes,promise。"
Helaughedandtookherinhisarms。"Yougoose——notevenifthey’rehideous?"
Hepushedthehairfromherforehead,bendingherfaceback,ashiswaywas,andleaningoversothathisheadloomedblackbetweenhereyesandthepalenessofthesky,inwhichthewhitestarfloated……
Sidebysidetheyspedbackalongthedarkwood—roadtothevillage。Alatemoonwasrising,fullorbedandfiery,turningthemountainrangesfromfluidgraytoamassiveblackness,andmakingtheupperskysolightthatthestarslookedasfaintastheirownreflectionsinwater。Attheedgeofthewood,halfamilefromNorthDormer,Harneyjumpedfromhisbicycle,tookCharityinhisarmsforalastkiss,andthenwaitedwhileshewentonalone。
Theywerelaterthanusual,andinsteadoftakingthebicycletothelibrarysheproppeditagainstthebackofthewood—shedandenteredthekitchenoftheredhouse。Verenasattherealone;whenCharitycameinshelookedatherwithmildimpenetrableeyesandthentookaplateandaglassofmilkfromtheshelfandsetthemsilentlyonthetable。Charitynoddedherthanks,andsittingdown,fellhungrilyuponherpieceofpieandemptiedtheglass。Herfaceburnedwithherquickflightthroughthenight,andhereyesweredazzledbythetwinkleofthekitchenlamp。Shefeltlikeanight—birdsuddenlycaughtandcaged。
"Heain’tcomebacksincesupper,"Verenasaid。"He’sdowntotheHall。"
Charitytooknonotice。Hersoulwasstillwingingthroughtheforest。Shewashedherplateandtumbler,andthenfeltherwayupthedarkstairs。Whensheopenedherdoorawonderarrestedher。Beforegoingoutshehadclosedhershuttersagainsttheafternoonheat,buttheyhadswungpartlyopen,andabarofmoonlight,crossingtheroom,restedonherbedandshowedadressofChinasilklaidoutonitinvirginwhiteness。Charityhadspentmorethanshecouldaffordonthedress,whichwastosurpassthoseofalltheothergirls;shehadwantedtoletNorthDormerseethatshewasworthyofHarney’sadmiration。Abovethedress,foldedonthepillow,wasthewhiteveilwhichtheyoungwomenwhotookpartintheexercisesweretowearunderawreathofasters;andbesidetheveilapairofslimwhitesatinshoesthatAllyhadproducedfromanoldtrunkinwhichshestoredmysterioustreasures。
Charitystoodgazingatalltheoutspreadwhiteness。ItrecalledavisionthathadcometoherinthenightafterherfirstmeetingwithHarney。Shenolongerhadsuchvisions……warmersplendourshaddisplacedthem……butitwasstupidofAllytohaveparadedallthosewhitethingsonherbed,exactlyasHattieTargatt’sweddingdressfromSpringfieldhadbeenspreadoutfortheneighbourstoseewhenshemarriedTomFry……
Charitytookupthesatinshoesandlookedatthemcuriously。Byday,nodoubt,theywouldappearalittleworn,butinthemoonlighttheyseemedcarvedofivory。Shesatdownonthefloortotrythemon,andtheyfittedherperfectly,thoughwhenshestoodupshelurchedalittleonthehighheels。Shelookeddownatherfeet,whichthegracefulmouldoftheslippershadmarvellouslyarchedandnarrowed。Shehadneverseensuchshoesbefore,evenintheshop—windowsatNettleton……never,except……yes,once,shehadnoticedapairofthesameshapeonAnnabelBalch。
Ablushofmortificationsweptoverher。AllysometimessewedforMissBalchwhenthatbrilliantbeingdescendedonNorthDormer,andnodoubtshepickeduppresentsofcast—offclothing:thetreasuresinthemysterioustrunkallcamefromthepeoplesheworkedfor;therecouldbenodoubtthatthewhiteslipperswereAnnabelBalch’s……
Asshestoodthere,staringdownmoodilyatherfeet,sheheardthetripleclick—click—clickofabicycle—
bellunderherwindow。ItwasHarney’ssecretsignalashepassedonhiswayhome。Shestumbledtothewindowonherhighheels,flungopentheshuttersandleanedout。Hewavedtoherandspedby,hisblackshadowdancingmerrilyaheadofhimdowntheemptymoonlitroad;andsheleanedtherewatchinghimtillhevanishedundertheHatchardspruces。
XIII
THETownHallwascrowdedandexceedinglyhot。AsCharitymarchedintoitthirdinthewhitemuslinfileheadedbyOrmaFry,shewasconsciousmainlyofthebrillianteffectofthewreathedcolumnsframingthegreen—carpetedstagetowardwhichshewasmoving;andoftheunfamiliarfacesturningfromthefrontrowstowatchtheadvanceoftheprocession。
Butitwasallabewilderingblurofeyesandcolourstillshefoundherselfstandingatthebackofthestage,hergreatbunchofastersandgoldenrodheldwellinfrontofher,andansweringthenervousglanceofLambertSollas,theorganistfromMr。Miles’schurch,whohadcomeupfromNettletontoplaytheharmoniumandsatbehindit,hisconductor’seyerunningovertheflutteredgirls。
AmomentlaterMr。Miles,pinkandtwinkling,emergedfromthebackground,asifbuoyeduponhisbroadwhitegown,andbrisklydominatedthebowedheadsinthefrontrows。Heprayedenergeticallyandbrieflyandthenretired,andafiercenodfromLambertSollaswarnedthegirlsthattheyweretofollowatoncewith"Home,SweetHome。"ItwasajoytoCharitytosing:itseemedasthough,forthefirsttime,hersecretrapturemightburstfromherandflashitsdefianceattheworld。Alltheglowinherblood,thebreathofthesummerearth,therustleoftheforest,thefreshcallofbirdsatsunrise,andthebroodingmiddaylanguors,seemedtopassintoheruntrainedvoice,liftedandledbythesustainingchorus。
Andthensuddenlythesongwasover,andafteranuncertainpause,duringwhichMissHatchard’spearl—
greyglovesstartedafurtivesignallingdownthehall,Mr。Royall,emerginginturn,ascendedthestepsofthestageandappearedbehindtheflower—wreatheddesk。HepassedclosetoCharity,andshenoticedthathisgravelysetfaceworethelookofmajestythatusedtoaweandfascinateherchildhood。Hisfrock—coathadbeencarefullybrushedandironed,andtheendsofhisnarrowblacktieweresonearlyeventhatthetyingmusthavecosthimaprotractedstruggle。HisappearancestruckherallthemorebecauseitwasthefirsttimeshehadlookedhimfullinthefacesincethenightatNettleton,andnothinginhisgraveandimpressivedemeanourrevealedatraceofthelamentablefigureonthewharf。
Hestoodamomentbehindthedesk,restinghisfinger—
tipsagainstit,andbendingslightlytowardhisaudience;thenhestraightenedhimselfandbegan。
Atfirstshepaidnoheedtowhathewassaying:onlyfragmentsofsentences,sonorousquotations,allusionstoillustriousmen,includingtheobligatorytributetoHonoriusHatchard,driftedpastherinattentiveears。
ShewastryingtodiscoverHarneyamongthenotablepeopleinthefrontrow;buthewasnowherenearMissHatchard,who,crownedbyapearl—greyhatthatmatchedhergloves,satjustbelowthedesk,supportedbyMrs。
Milesandanimportant—lookingunknownlady。Charitywasnearoneendofthestage,andfromwhereshesattheotherendofthefirstrowofseatswascutoffbythescreenoffoliagemaskingtheharmonium。TheefforttoseeHarneyaroundthecornerofthescreen,orthroughitsinterstices,madeherunconsciousofeverythingelse;buttheeffortwasunsuccessful,andgraduallyshefoundherattentionarrestedbyherguardian’sdiscourse。
Shehadneverheardhimspeakinpublicbefore,butshewasfamiliarwiththerollingmusicofhisvoicewhenhereadaloud,orheldforthtotheselectmenaboutthestoveatCarrickFry’s。Todayhisinflectionswerericherandgraverthanshehadeverknownthem:hespokeslowly,withpausesthatseemedtoinvitehishearerstosilentparticipationinhisthought;andCharityperceivedalightofresponseintheirfaces。
Hewasnearingtheendofhisaddress……"Mostofyou,"
hesaid,"mostofyouwhohavereturnedheretoday,totakecontactwiththislittleplaceforabriefhour,havecomeonlyonapiouspilgrimage,andwillgobackpresentlytobusycitiesandlivesfulloflargerduties。ButthatisnottheonlywayofcomingbacktoNorthDormer。Someofus,whowentoutfromhereinouryouth……wentout,likeyou,tobusycitiesandlargerduties……havecomebackinanotherway——comebackforgood。Iamoneofthose,asmanyofyouknow……"Hepaused,andtherewasasenseofsuspenseinthelisteninghall。"Myhistoryiswithoutinterest,butithasitslesson:notsomuchforthoseofyouwhohavealreadymadeyourlivesinotherplaces,asfortheyoungmenwhoareperhapsplanningevennowtoleavethesequiethillsandgodownintothestruggle。Thingstheycannotforeseemaysendsomeofthoseyoungmenbacksomedaytothelittletownshipandtheoldhomestead:theymaycomebackforgood……"Helookedabouthim,andrepeatedgravely:"ForGOOD。There’sthepointIwanttomake……NorthDormerisapoorlittleplace,almostlostinamightylandscape:perhaps,bythistime,itmighthavebeenabiggerplace,andmoreinscalewiththelandscape,ifthosewhohadtocomebackhadcomewiththatfeelingintheirminds——thattheywantedtocomebackforGOOD……andnotforbad……orjustforindifference……
"Gentlemen,letuslookatthingsastheyare。Someofushavecomebacktoournativetownbecausewe’dfailedtogetonelsewhere。Onewayorother,thingshadgonewrongwithus……whatwe’ddreamedofhadn’tcometrue。Butthefactthatwehadfailedelsewhereisnoreasonwhyweshouldfailhere。Ourveryexperimentsinlargerplaces,eveniftheywereunsuccessful,oughttohavehelpedustomakeNorthDormeralargerplace……andyouyoungmenwhoarepreparingevennowtofollowthecallofambition,andturnyourbackontheoldhomes——well,letmesaythistoyou,thatifeveryoudocomebacktothemit’sworthwhiletocomebacktothemfortheirgood……Andtodothat,youmustkeeponlovingthemwhileyou’reawayfromthem;andevenifyoucomebackagainstyourwill——andthinkingit’sallabittermistakeofFateorProvidence——youmusttrytomakethebestofit,andtomakethebestofyouroldtown;andafterawhile——
well,ladiesandgentlemen,Igiveyoumyrecipeforwhatit’sworth;afterawhile,Ibelieveyou’llbeabletosay,asIcansaytoday:’I’mgladI’mhere。’
Believeme,allofyou,thebestwaytohelptheplacesweliveinistobegladwelivethere。"
Hestopped,andamurmurofemotionandsurpriseranthroughtheaudience。Itwasnotintheleastwhattheyhadexpected,butitmovedthemmorethanwhattheyhadexpectedwouldhavemovedthem。"Hear,hear!"
avoicecriedoutinthemiddleofthehall。Anoutburstofcheerscaughtupthecry,andastheysubsidedCharityheardMr。Milessayingtosomeonenearhim:"ThatwasaMANtalking————"Hewipedhisspectacles。
Mr。Royallhadsteppedbackfromthedesk,andtakenhisseatintherowofchairsinfrontoftheharmonium。Adapperwhite—hairedgentleman——adistantHatchard——succeededhimbehindthegoldenrod,andbegantosaybeautifulthingsabouttheoldoakenbucket,patientwhite—hairedmothers,andwheretheboysusedtogonutting……andCharitybeganagaintosearchforHarney……
SuddenlyMr。Royallpushedbackhisseat,andoneofthemaplebranchesinfrontoftheharmoniumcollapsedwithacrash。ItuncoveredtheendofthefirstrowandinoneoftheseatsCharitysawHarney,andinthenextaladywhosefacewasturnedtowardhim,andalmosthiddenbythebrimofherdroopinghat。Charitydidnotneedtoseetheface。Sheknewataglancetheslimfigure,thefairhairheapedupunderthehat—
brim,thelongpalewrinkledgloveswithbraceletsslippingoverthem。AtthefallofthebranchMissBalchturnedherheadtowardthestage,andinherprettythin—lippedsmiletherelingeredthereflectionofsomethingherneighbourhadbeenwhisperingtoher……
Someonecameforwardtoreplacethefallenbranch,andMissBalchandHarneywereoncemorehidden。ButtoCharitythevisionoftheirtwofaceshadblottedouteverything。Inaflashtheyhadshownherthebarerealityofhersituation。Behindthefrailscreenofherlover’scaresseswasthewholeinscrutablemysteryofhislife:hisrelationswithotherpeople——withotherwomen——hisopinions,hisprejudices,hisprinciples,thenetofinfluencesandinterestsandambitionsinwhicheveryman’slifeisentangled。Ofallthesesheknewnothing,exceptwhathehadtoldherofhisarchitecturalaspirations。Shehadalwaysdimlyguessedhimtobeintouchwithimportantpeople,involvedincomplicatedrelations——butshefeltitalltobesofarbeyondherunderstandingthatthewholesubjecthunglikealuminousmistonthefarthestvergeofherthoughts。Intheforeground,hidingallelse,therewastheglowofhispresence,thelightandshadowofhisface,thewayhisshort—sightedeyes,atherapproach,widenedanddeepenedasiftodrawherdownintothem;and,aboveall,theflushofyouthandtendernessinwhichhiswordsenclosedher。
Nowshesawhimdetachedfromher,drawnbackintotheunknown,andwhisperingtoanothergirlthingsthatprovokedthesamesmileofmischievouscomplicityhehadsooftencalledtoherownlips。Thefeelingpossessingherwasnotoneofjealousy:shewastoosureofhislove。Itwasratheraterroroftheunknown,ofallthemysteriousattractionsthatmustevennowbedragginghimawayfromher,andofherownpowerlessnesstocontendwiththem。
Shehadgivenhimallshehad——butwhatwasitcomparedtotheothergiftslifeheldforhim?Sheunderstoodnowthecaseofgirlslikeherselftowhomthiskindofthinghappened。Theygavealltheyhad,buttheirallwasnotenough:itcouldnotbuymorethanafewmoments……
Theheathadgrownsuffocating——shefeltitdescendonherinsmotheringwaves,andthefacesinthecrowdedhallbegantodancelikethepicturesflashedonthescreenatNettleton。ForaninstantMr。Royall’scountenancedetacheditselffromthegeneralblur。Hehadresumedhisplaceinfrontoftheharmonium,andsatclosetoher,hiseyesonherface;andhislookseemedtopiercetotheverycentreofherconfusedsensations……Afeelingofphysicalsicknessrushedoverher——andthendeadlyapprehension。Thelightofthefieryhoursinthelittlehousesweptbackonherinaglareoffear……
Sheforcedherselftolookawayfromherguardian,andbecameawarethattheoratoryoftheHatchardcousinhadceased,andthatMr。Mileswasagainflappinghiswings。Fragmentsofhisperorationfloatedthroughherbewilderedbrain……"Arichharvestofhallowedmemories……Asanctifiedhourtowhich,inmomentsoftrial,yourthoughtswillprayerfullyreturn……Andnow,OLord,letushumblyandferventlygivethanksforthisblesseddayofreunion,hereintheoldhometowhichwehavecomebackfromsofar。
Preserveittous,OLord,intimestocome,inallitshomelysweetness——inthekindlinessandwisdomofitsoldpeople,inthecourageandindustryofitsyoungmen,inthepietyandpurityofthisgroupofinnocentgirls————"Heflappedawhitewingintheirdirection,andatthesamemomentLambertSollas,withhisfiercenod,strucktheopeningbarsof"AuldLangSyne。"……Charitystaredstraightaheadofherandthen,droppingherflowers,fellfacedownwardatMr。
Royall’sfeet。
XIV
NORTHDORMER’Scelebrationnaturallyincludedthevillagesattachedtoitstownship,andthefestivitiesweretoradiateoverthewholegroup,fromDormerandthetwoCrestonstoHamblin,thelonelyhamletonthenorthslopeoftheMountainwherethefirstsnowalwaysfell。OnthethirddaytherewerespeechesandceremoniesatCrestonandCrestonRiver;onthefourththeprincipalperformersweretobedriveninbuck—
boardstoDormerandHamblin。
ItwasonthefourthdaythatCharityreturnedforthefirsttimetothelittlehouse。ShehadnotseenHarneyalonesincetheyhadpartedatthewood’sedgethenightbeforethecelebrationsbegan。Intheintervalshehadpassedthroughmanymoods,butforthemomenttheterrorwhichhadseizedherintheTownHallhadfadedtotheedgeofconsciousness。Shehadfaintedbecausethehallwasstiflinglyhot,andbecausethespeakershadgoneonandon……Severalotherpeoplehadbeenaffectedbytheheat,andhadhadtoleavebeforetheexerciseswereover。Therehadbeenthunderintheairalltheafternoon,andeveryonesaidafterwardthatsomethingoughttohavebeendonetoventilatethehall……
Atthedancethatevening——whereshehadgonereluctantly,andonlybecauseshefearedtostayaway,shehadsprungbackintoinstantreassurance。AssoonassheenteredshehadseenHarneywaitingforher,andhehadcomeupwithkindgayeyes,andsweptheroffinawaltz。Herfeetwerefullofmusic,andthoughheronlytraininghadbeenwiththevillageyouthsshehadnodifficultyintuningherstepstohis。Astheycircledaboutthefloorallhervainfearsdroppedfromher,andsheevenforgotthatshewasprobablydancinginAnnabelBalch’sslippers。
WhenthewaltzwasoverHarney,withalasthand—clasp,lefthertomeetMissHatchardandMissBalch,whowerejustentering。CharityhadamomentofanguishasMissBalchappeared;butitdidnotlast。Thetriumphantfactofherowngreaterbeauty,andofHarney’ssenseofit,sweptherapprehensionsaside。MissBalch,inanunbecomingdress,lookedsallowandpinched,andCharityfanciedtherewasaworriedexpressioninherpale—lashedeyes。ShetookaseatnearMissHatchardanditwaspresentlyapparentthatshedidnotmeantodance。Charitydidnotdanceofteneither。
HarneyexplainedtoherthatMissHatchardhadbeggedhimtogiveeachoftheothergirlsaturn;buthewentthroughtheformofaskingCharity’spermissioneachtimeheledoneout,andthatgaveherasenseofsecrettriumphevencompleterthanwhenshewaswhirlingabouttheroomwithhim。
Shewasthinkingofallthisasshewaitedforhiminthedesertedhouse。Thelateafternoonwassultry,andshehadtossedasideherhatandstretchedherselfatfulllengthontheMexicanblanketbecauseitwascoolerindoorsthanunderthetrees。Shelaywithherarmsfoldedbeneathherhead,gazingoutattheshaggyshoulderoftheMountain。Theskybehinditwasfullofthesplinteredgloriesofthedescendingsun,andbeforelongsheexpectedtohearHarney’sbicycle—bellinthelane。HehadbicycledtoHamblin,insteadofdrivingtherewithhiscousinandherfriends,sothathemightbeabletomakehisescapeearlierandstoponthewaybackatthedesertedhouse,whichwasontheroadtoHamblin。Theyhadsmiledtogetheratthejokeofhearingthecrowdedbuck—boardsrollbyonthereturn,whiletheylaycloseintheirhidingabovetheroad。Suchchildishtriumphsstillgaveherasenseofrecklesssecurity。
NeverthelessshehadnotwhollyforgottenthevisionoffearthathadopenedbeforeherintheTownHall。ThesenseoflastingnesswasgonefromherandeverymomentwithHarneywouldnowberingedwithdoubt。
TheMountainwasturningpurpleagainstafierysunsetfromwhichitseemedtobedividedbyaknife—edgeofquiveringlight;andabovethiswallofflamethewholeskywasapurepalegreen,likesomecoldmountainlakeinshadow。Charitylaygazingupatit,andwatchingforthefirstwhitestar……
Hereyeswerestillfixedontheupperreachesoftheskywhenshebecameawarethatashadowhadflittedacrosstheglory—floodedroom:itmusthavebeenHarneypassingthewindowagainstthesunset……Shehalfraisedherself,andthendroppedbackonherfoldedarms。Thecombshadslippedfromherhair,andittrailedinaroughdarkropeacrossherbreast。Shelayquitestill,asleepysmileonherlips,herindolentlidshalfshut。Therewasafumblingatthepadlockandshecalledout:"Haveyouslippedthechain?"Thedooropened,andMr。Royallwalkedintotheroom。
Shestartedup,sittingbackagainstthecushions,andtheylookedateachotherwithoutspeaking。ThenMr。
Royallclosedthedoor—latchandadvancedafewsteps。
Charityjumpedtoherfeet。"Whathaveyoucomefor?"
shestammered。
Thelastglareofthesunsetwasonherguardian’sface,whichlookedash—colouredintheyellowradiance。
"BecauseIknewyouwerehere,"heansweredsimply。
Shehadbecomeconsciousofthehairhanginglooseacrossherbreast,anditseemedasthoughshecouldnotspeaktohimtillshehadsetherselfinorder。Shegropedforhercomb,andtriedtofastenupthecoil。
Mr。Royallsilentlywatchedher。
"Charity,"hesaid,"he’llbehereinaminute。Letmetalktoyoufirst。"
"You’vegotnorighttotalktome。IcandowhatI
please。"
"Yes。Whatisityoumeantodo?"
"Ineedn’tanswerthat,oranythingelse。"
Hehadglancedaway,andstoodlookingcuriouslyabouttheilluminatedroom。Purpleastersandredmaple—
leavesfilledthejaronthetable;onashelfagainstthewallstoodalamp,thekettle,alittlepileofcupsandsaucers。Thecanvaschairsweregroupedaboutthetable。
"Sothisiswhereyoumeet,"hesaid。
Histonewasquietandcontrolled,andthefactdisconcertedher。Shehadbeenreadytogivehimviolenceforviolence,butthiscalmacceptanceofthingsastheywereleftherwithoutaweapon。
"Seehere,Charity——you’realwaystellingmeI’vegotnorightsoveryou。Theremightbetwowaysoflookingatthat——butIain’tgoingtoargueit。AllIknowisIraisedyouasgoodasIcould,andmeantfairlybyyoualwaysexceptonce,forabadhalf—hour。There’snojusticeinweighingthathalf—houragainsttherest,andyouknowit。Ifyouhadn’t,youwouldn’thavegoneonlivingundermyroof。Seemstomethefactofyourdoingthatgivesmesomesortofaright;therighttotryandkeepyououtoftrouble。I’mnotaskingyoutoconsideranyother。"
Shelistenedinsilence,andthengaveaslightlaugh。"BetterwaittillI’mintrouble,"shesaid。Hepausedamoment,asifweighingherwords。
"Isthatallyouranswer?"
"Yes,that’sall。"
"Well——I’llwait。"
Heturnedawayslowly,butashedidsothethingshehadbeenwaitingforhappened;thedooropenedagainandHarneyentered。
Hestoppedshortwithafaceofastonishment,andthen,quicklycontrollinghimself,wentuptoMr。Royallwithafranklook。
"Haveyoucometoseeme,sir?"hesaidcoolly,throwinghiscaponthetablewithanairofproprietorship。
Mr。Royallagainlookedslowlyabouttheroom;thenhiseyesturnedtotheyoungman。
"Isthisyourhouse?"heinquired。
Harneylaughed:"Well——asmuchasit’sanybody’s。I
comeheretosketchoccasionally。"
"AndtoreceiveMissRoyall’svisits?"
"Whenshedoesmethehonour————"
"Isthisthehomeyouproposetobringhertowhenyougetmarried?"
Therewasanimmenseandoppressivesilence。Charity,quiveringwithanger,startedforward,andthenstoodsilent,toohumbledforspeech。Harney’seyeshaddroppedundertheoldman’sgaze;butheraisedthempresently,andlookingsteadilyatMr。Royall,said:"MissRoyallisnotachild。Isn’titratherabsurdtotalkofherasifshewere?Ibelievesheconsidersherselffreetocomeandgoasshepleases,withoutanyquestionsfromanyone。"Hepausedandadded:"I’mreadytoansweranyshewishestoaskme。"
Mr。Royallturnedtoher。"Askhimwhenhe’sgoingtomarryyou,then————"Therewasanothersilence,andhelaughedinhisturn——abrokenlaugh,withascrapingsoundinit。"Youdarsn’t!"heshoutedoutwithsuddenpassion。HewentcloseuptoCharity,hisrightarmlifted,notinmenacebutintragicexhortation。
"Youdarsn’t,andyouknowit——andyouknowwhy!"Heswungbackagainupontheyoungman。"Andyouknowwhyyouain’taskedhertomarryyou,andwhyyoudon’tmeanto。It’sbecauseyouhadn’tneedto;noranyothermaneither。I’mtheonlyonethatwasfoolenoughnottoknowthat;andIguessnobody’llrepeatmymistake——notinEagleCounty,anyhow。Theyallknowwhatsheis,andwhatshecamefrom。TheyallknowhermotherwasawomanofthetownfromNettleton,thatfollowedoneofthoseMountainfellowsuptohisplaceandlivedtherewithhimlikeaheathen。Isawhertheresixteenyearsago,whenIwenttobringthischilddown。Iwenttosaveherfromthekindoflifehermotherwasleading——butI’dbetterhaveleftherinthekennelshecamefrom……"Hepausedandstareddarklyatthetwoyoungpeople,andoutbeyondthem,atthemenacingMountainwithitsrimoffire;thenhesatdownbesidethetableonwhichtheyhadsooftenspreadtheirrusticsupper,andcoveredhisfacewithhishands。Harneyleanedinthewindow,afrownonhisface:hewastwirlingbetweenhisfingersasmallpackagethatdangledfromaloopofstring……CharityheardMr。Royalldrawahardbreathortwo,andhisshouldersshookalittle。Presentlyhestoodupandwalkedacrosstheroom。Hedidnotlookagainattheyoungpeople:theysawhimfeelhiswaytothedoorandfumbleforthelatch;andthenhewentoutintothedarkness。
Afterhehadgonetherewasalongsilence。CharitywaitedforHarneytospeak;butheseemedatfirstnottofindanythingtosay。Atlengthhebrokeoutirrelevantly:"Iwonderhowhefoundout?"
Shemadenoanswerandhetosseddownthepackagehehadbeenholding,andwentuptoher。
"I’msosorry,dear……thatthisshouldhavehappened……"
Shethrewherheadbackproudly。"Iain’teverbeensorry——notaminute!"
"No。"
Shewaitedtobecaughtintohisarms,butheturnedawayfromherirresolutely。ThelastglowwasgonefrombehindtheMountain。Everythingintheroomhadturnedgreyandindistinct,andanautumnaldampnesscreptupfromthehollowbelowtheorchard,layingitscoldtouchontheirflushedfaces。Harneywalkedthelengthoftheroom,andthenturnedbackandsatdownatthetable。
"Come,"hesaidimperiously。
Shesatdownbesidehim,andheuntiedthestringaboutthepackageandspreadoutapileofsandwiches。
"Istolethemfromthelove—feastatHamblin,"hesaidwithalaugh,pushingthemovertoher。Shelaughedtoo,andtookone,andbegantoeat"Didn’tyoumakethetea?"
"No,"shesaid。"Iforgot————"
"Oh,well——it’stoolatetoboilthewaternow。"Hesaidnothingmore,andsittingoppositetoeachothertheywentonsilentlyeatingthesandwiches。Darknesshaddescendedinthelittleroom,andHarney’sfacewasadimblurtoCharity。Suddenlyheleanedacrossthetableandlaidhishandonhers。
"Ishallhavetogooffforawhile——amonthortwo,perhaps——toarrangesomethings;andthenI’llcomeback……andwe’llgetmarried。"
Hisvoiceseemedlikeastranger’s:nothingwasleftinitofthevibrationssheknew。Herhandlayinertlyunderhis,andsheleftitthere,andraisedherhead,tryingtoanswerhim。Butthewordsdiedinherthroat。Theysatmotionless,intheirattitudeofconfidentendearment,asifsomestrangedeathhadsurprisedthem。AtlengthHarneysprangtohisfeetwithaslightshiver。"God!it’sdamp——wecouldn’thavecomeheremuchlonger。"Hewenttotheshelf,tookdownatincandle—stickandlitthecandle;thenheproppedanunhingedshutteragainsttheemptywindow—
frameandputthecandleonthetable。Itthrewaqueershadowonhisfrowningforehead,andmadethesmileonhislipsagrimace。
"Butit’sbeengood,though,hasn’tit,Charity?……What’sthematter——whydoyoustandtherestaringatme?Haven’tthedaysherebeengood?"Hewentuptoherandcaughthertohisbreast。"Andthere’llbeothers——lotsofothers……jollier……evenjollier……won’tthere,darling?"
Heturnedherheadback,feelingforthecurveofherthroatbelowtheear,andkissingherethere,andonthehairandeyesandlips。Sheclungtohimdesperately,andashedrewhertohiskneesonthecouchshefeltasiftheywerebeingsuckeddowntogetherintosomebottomlessabyss。
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Thatnight,asusual,theysaidgood—byeatthewood’sedge。
Harneywastoleavethenextmorningearly。HeaskedCharitytosaynothingoftheirplanstillhisreturn,and,strangelyeventoherself,shewasgladofthepostponement。Aleadenweightofshamehungonher,benumbingeveryothersensation,andshebadehimgood—
byewithhardlyasignofemotion。Hisreiteratedpromisestoreturnseemedalmostwounding。Shehadnodoubtthatheintendedtocomeback;herdoubtswerefardeeperandlessdefinable。
Sincethefancifulvisionofthefuturethathadflittedthroughherimaginationattheirfirstmeetingshehadhardlyeverthoughtofhismarryingher。Shehadnothadtoputthethoughtfromhermind;ithadnotbeenthere。Ifevershelookedaheadshefeltinstinctivelythatthegulfbetweenthemwastoodeep,andthatthebridgetheirpassionhadflungacrossitwasasinsubstantialasarainbow。Butsheseldomlookedahead;eachdaywassorichthatitabsorbedher……Nowherfirstfeelingwasthateverythingwouldbedifferent,andthatsheherselfwouldbeadifferentbeingtoHarney。Insteadofremainingseparateandabsolute,shewouldbecomparedwithotherpeople,andunknownthingswouldbeexpectedofher。Shewastooproudtobeafraid,butthefreedomofherspiritdrooped……
Harneyhadnotfixedanydateforhisreturn;hehadsaidhewouldhavetolookaboutfirst,andsettlethings。Hehadpromisedtowriteassoonastherewasanythingdefinitetosay,andhadleftherhisaddress,andaskedhertowritealso。Buttheaddressfrightenedher。ItwasinNewYork,ataclubwithalongnameinFifthAvenue:itseemedtoraiseaninsurmountablebarrierbetweenthem。Onceortwice,inthefirstdays,shegotoutasheetofpaper,andsatlookingatit,andtryingtothinkwhattosay;butshehadthefeelingthatherletterwouldneverreachitsdestination。ShehadneverwrittentoanyonefartherawaythanHepburn。
Harney’sfirstlettercameafterhehadbeengoneabouttendays。Itwastenderbutgrave,andborenoresemblancetothegaylittlenoteshehadsentherbythefreckledboyfromCrestonRiver。Hespokepositivelyofhisintentionofcomingback,butnamednodate,andremindedCharityoftheiragreementthattheirplansshouldnotbedivulgedtillhehadhadtimeto"settlethings。"Whenthatwouldbehecouldnotyetforesee;butshecouldcountonhisreturningassoonasthewaywasclear。
Shereadtheletterwithastrangesenseofitscomingfromimmeasurabledistancesandhavinglostmostofitsmeaningontheway;andinreplyshesenthimacolouredpostcardofCrestonFalls,onwhichshewrote:
"WithlovefromCharity。"Shefeltthepitifulinadequacyofthis,andunderstood,withasenseofdespair,thatinherinabilitytoexpressherselfshemustgivehimanimpressionofcoldnessandreluctance;
butshecouldnothelpit。ShecouldnotforgetthathehadneverspokentoherofmarriagetillMr。Royallhadforcedthewordfromhislips;thoughshehadnothadthestrengthtoshakeoffthespellthatboundhertohimshehadlostallspontaneityoffeeling,andseemedtoherselftobepassivelyawaitingafateshecouldnotavert。
ShehadnotseenMr。Royallonherreturntotheredhouse。ThemorningafterherpartingfromHarney,whenshecamedownfromherroom,VerenatoldherthatherguardianhadgoneofftoWorcesterandPortland。
Itwasthetimeofyearwhenheusuallyreportedtotheinsuranceagenciesherepresented,andtherewasnothingunusualinhisdepartureexceptitssuddenness。
Shethoughtlittleabouthim,excepttobegladhewasnotthere……
Shekepttoherselfforthefirstdays,whileNorthDormerwasrecoveringfromitsbriefplungeintopublicity,andthesubsidingagitationleftherunnoticed。ButthefaithfulAllycouldnotbelongavoided。ForthefirstfewdaysafterthecloseoftheOldHomeWeekfestivitiesCharityescapedherbyroamingthehillsalldaywhenshewasnotatherpostinthelibrary;butafterthataperiodofrainsetin,andonepouringafternoon,Ally,surethatshewouldfindherfriendindoors,camearoundtotheredhousewithhersewing。
ThetwogirlssatupstairsinCharity’sroom。Charity,heridlehandsinherlap,wassunkinakindofleadendream,throughwhichshewasonlyhalf—consciousofAlly,whosatoppositeherinalowrush—bottomedchair,herworkpinnedtoherknee,andherthinlipspursedupasshebentaboveit。
"Itwasmyidearunningaribbonthroughthegauging,"
shesaidproudly,drawingbacktocontemplatetheblouseshewastrimming。"It’sforMissBalch:shewasawfullypleased。"Shepausedandthenadded,withaqueertremorinherpipingvoice:"Idarsn’thavetoldherIgottheideafromoneIsawonJulia。"
Charityraisedhereyeslistlessly。"DoyoustillseeJuliasometimes?"
Allyreddened,asiftheallusionhadescapedherunintentionally。"Oh,itwasalongtimeagoIseenherwiththosegaugings……"
Silencefellagain,andAllypresentlycontinued:"MissBalchleftmeawholelotofthingstodooverthistime。"
"Why——hasshegone?"Charityinquiredwithaninnerstartofapprehension。
"Didn’tyouknow?ShewentoffthemorningaftertheyhadthecelebrationatHamblin。IseenherdrivebyearlywithMr。Harney。"
Therewasanothersilence,measuredbythesteadytickoftherainagainstthewindow,and,atintervals,bythesnippingsoundofAlly’sscissors。
Allygaveameditativelaugh。"Doyouknowwhatshetoldmebeforeshewentaway?ShetoldmeshewasgoingtosendformetocomeovertoSpringfieldandmakesomethingsforherwedding。"
CharityagainliftedherheavylidsandstaredatAlly’spalepointedface,whichmovedtoandfroabovehermovingfingers。
"Isshegoingtogetmarried?"
Allylettheblousesinktoherknee,andsatgazingatit。Herlipsseemedsuddenlydry,andshemoistenedthemalittlewithhertongue。
"Why,Ipresumeso……fromwhatshesaid……Didn’tyouknow?"
"WhyshouldIknow?"
Allydidnotanswer。Shebentabovetheblouse,andbeganpickingoutabastingthreadwiththepointofthescissors。
"WhyshouldIknow?"Charityrepeatedharshly。
"Ididn’tknowbutwhat……folksheresayshe’sengagedtoMr。Harney。"
Charitystoodupwithalaugh,andstretchedherarmslazilyaboveherhead。
"Ifallthepeoplegotmarriedthatfolkssayaregoingtoyou’dhaveyourtimefullmakingwedding—
dresses,"shesaidironically。
"Why——don’tyoubelieveit?"Allyventured。
"ItwouldnotmakeittrueifIdid——norpreventitifIdidn’t。"
"That’sso……IonlyknowIseenhercryingthenightofthepartybecauseherdressdidn’tsetright。Thatwaswhyshewouldn’tdanceany……"
CharitystoodabsentlygazingdownatthelacygarmentonAlly’sknee。Abruptlyshestoopedandsnatcheditup。
"Well,Iguessshewon’tdanceinthiseither,"shesaidwithsuddenviolence;andgraspingtheblouseinherstrongyounghandsshetoreitintwoandflungthetatteredbitstothefloor。
"Oh,Charity————"Allycried,springingup。Foralongintervalthetwogirlsfacedeachotheracrosstheruinedgarment。Allyburstintotears。
"Oh,what’llIsaytoher?What’llIdo?Itwasreallace!"shewailedbetweenherpipingsobs。
Charityglaredatherunrelentingly。"You’doughtn’ttohavebroughtithere,"shesaid,breathingquickly。
"Ihateotherpeople’sclothes——it’sjustasiftheywastherethemselves。"Thetwostaredateachotheragainoverthisavowal,tillCharitybroughtout,inagaspofanguish:"Oh,go——go——go——orI’llhateyoutoo……"
WhenAllylefther,shefellsobbingacrossherbed。
Thelongstormwasfollowedbyanorth—westgale,andwhenitwasover,thehillstookontheirfirstumbertints,theskygrewmoredenselyblue,andthebigwhitecloudslayagainstthehillslikesnow—banks。Thefirstcrispmaple—leavesbegantospinacrossMissHatchard’slawn,andtheVirginiacreeperontheMemorialsplashedthewhiteporchwithscarlet。ItwasagoldentriumphantSeptember。DaybydaytheflameoftheVirginiacreeperspreadtothehillsidesinwiderwavesofcarmineandcrimson,thelarchesglowedlikethethinyellowhaloaboutafire,themaplesblazedandsmouldered,andtheblackhemlocksturnedtoindigoagainsttheincandescenceoftheforest。
Thenightswerecold,withadryglitterofstarssohighupthattheyseemedsmallerandmorevivid。
Sometimes,asCharitylaysleeplessonherbedthroughthelonghours,shefeltasthoughshewereboundtothosewheelingfiresandswingingwiththemaroundthegreatblackvault。Atnightsheplannedmanythings……itwasthenshewrotetoHarney。Buttheletterswereneverputonpaper,forshedidnotknowhowtoexpresswhatshewantedtotellhim。Soshewaited。SincehertalkwithAllyshehadfeltsurethatHarneywasengagedtoAnnabelBalch,andthattheprocessof"settlingthings"wouldinvolvethebreakingofthistie。Herfirstrageofjealousyover,shefeltnofearonthisscore。ShewasstillsurethatHarneywouldcomeback,andshewasequallysurethat,forthemomentatleast,itwasshewhomhelovedandnotMissBalch。Yetthegirl,noless,remainedarival,sincesherepresentedallthethingsthatCharityfeltherselfmostincapableofunderstandingorachieving。
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