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第3章

  Thesignsofhislikingweremanifestenough;butitwashardtoguesshowmuchtheymeant,becausehismannerwassodifferentfromanythingNorthDormerhadevershownher。Hewasatoncesimplerandmoredeferentialthananyoneshehadknown;andsometimesitwasjustwhenhewassimplestthatshemostfeltthedistancebetweenthem。Educationandopportunityhaddividedthembyawidththatnoeffortofherscouldbridge,andevenwhenhisyouthandhisadmirationbroughthimnearest,somechanceword,someunconsciousallusion,seemedtothrustherbackacrossthegulf。
  NeverhadityawnedsowideaswhenshefleduptoherroomcarryingwithhertheechoofMr。Royall’stale。
  HerfirstconfusedthoughtwastheprayerthatshemightneverseeyoungHarneyagain。Itwastoobittertopicturehimasthedetachedimpartiallistenertosuchastory。"Iwishhe’dgoaway:I
  wishhe’dgotomorrow,andnevercomeback!"shemoanedtoherpillow;andfarintothenightshelaythere,inthedisordereddressshehadforgottentotakeoff,herwholesoulatossingmiseryonwhichherhopesanddreamsspunaboutlikedrowningstraws。
  Ofallthistumultonlyavagueheart—sorenesswasleftwhensheopenedhereyesthenextmorning。Herfirstthoughtwasoftheweather,forHarneyhadaskedhertotakehimtothebrownhouseunderPorcupine,andthenaroundbyHamblin;andasthetripwasalongonetheyweretostartatnine。Thesunrosewithoutacloud,andearlierthanusualshewasinthekitchen,makingcheesesandwiches,decantingbuttermilkintoabottle,wrappingupslicesofapplepie,andaccusingVerenaofhavinggivenawayabasketsheneeded,whichhadalwayshungonahookinthepassage。Whenshecameoutintotheporch,inherpinkcalico,whichhadrunalittleinthewashing,butwasstillbrightenoughtosetoffherdarktints,shehadsuchatriumphantsenseofbeingapartofthesunlightandthemorningthatthelasttraceofhermiseryvanished。Whatdiditmatterwhereshecamefrom,orwhosechildshewas,whenlovewasdancinginherveins,anddowntheroadshesawyoungHarneycomingtowardher?
  Mr。Royallwasintheporchtoo。Hehadsaidnothingatbreakfast,butwhenshecameoutinherpinkdress,thebasketinherhand,helookedatherwithsurprise。
  "Whereyougoingto?"heasked。
  "Why——Mr。Harney’sstartingearlierthanusualtoday,"
  sheanswered。
  "Mr。Harney,Mr。Harney?Ain’tMr。Harneylearnedhowtodriveahorseyet?"
  Shemadenoanswer,andhesattiltedbackinhischair,drummingontherailoftheporch。Itwasthefirsttimehehadeverspokenoftheyoungmaninthattone,andCharityfeltafaintchillofapprehension。
  Afteramomenthestoodupandwalkedawaytowardthebitofgroundbehindthehouse,wherethehiredmanwashoeing。
  Theairwascoolandclear,withtheautumnalsparklethatanorthwindbringstothehillsinearlysummer,andthenighthadbeensostillthatthedewhungoneverything,notasalingeringmoisture,butinseparatebeadsthatglitteredlikediamondsonthefernsandgrasses。ItwasalongdrivetothefootofPorcupine:firstacrossthevalley,withbluehillsboundingtheopenslopes;thendownintothebeech—
  woods,followingthecourseoftheCreston,abrownbrookleapingovervelvetledges;thenoutagainontothefarm—landsaboutCrestonLake,andgraduallyuptheridgesoftheEagleRange。Atlasttheyreachedtheyokeofthehills,andbeforethemopenedanothervalley,greenandwild,andbeyonditmoreblueheightseddyingawaytotheskylikethewavesofarecedingtide。
  Harneytiedthehorsetoatree—stump,andtheyunpackedtheirbasketunderanagedwalnutwithariventrunkoutofwhichbumblebeesdarted。Thesunhadgrownhot,andbehindthemwasthenoondaymurmuroftheforest。Summerinsectsdancedontheair,andaflockofwhitebutterfliesfannedthemobiletipsofthecrimsonfireweed。Inthevalleybelownotahousewasvisible;itseemedasifCharityRoyallandyoungHarneyweretheonlylivingbeingsinthegreathollowofearthandsky。
  Charity’sspiritsflaggedanddisquietingthoughtsstolebackonher。YoungHarneyhadgrownsilent,andashelaybesideher,hisarmsunderhishead,hiseyesonthenetworkofleavesabovehim,shewonderedifheweremusingonwhatMr。Royallhadtoldhim,andifithadreallydebasedherinhisthoughts。Shewishedhehadnotaskedhertotakehimthatdaytothebrownhouse;shedidnotwanthimtoseethepeopleshecamefromwhilethestoryofherbirthwasfreshinhismind。MorethanonceshehadbeenonthepointofsuggestingthattheyshouldfollowtheridgeanddrivestraighttoHamblin,wheretherewasalittledesertedhousehewantedtosee;butshynessandprideheldherback。"He’dbetterknowwhatkindoffolksIbelongto,"shesaidtoherself,withasomewhatforceddefiance;forinrealityitwasshamethatkepthersilent。
  Suddenlysheliftedherhandandpointedtothesky。
  "There’sastormcomingup。"
  Hefollowedherglanceandsmiled。"Isitthatscrapofcloudamongthepinesthatfrightensyou?"
  "It’sovertheMountain;andacloudovertheMountainalwaysmeanstrouble。"
  "Oh,Idon’tbelievehalfthebadthingsyouallsayoftheMountain!Butanyhow,we’llgetdowntothebrownhousebeforetheraincomes。"
  Hewasnotfarwrong,foronlyafewisolateddropshadfallenwhentheyturnedintotheroadundertheshaggyflankofPorcupine,andcameuponthebrownhouse。Itstoodalonebesideaswampborderedwithalderthicketsandtallbulrushes。Notanotherdwellingwasinsight,anditwashardtoguesswhatmotivecouldhaveactuatedtheearlysettlerwhohadmadehishomeinsounfriendlyaspot。
  Charityhadpickedupenoughofhercompanion’seruditiontounderstandwhathadattractedhimtothehouse。Shenoticedthefan—shapedtraceryofthebrokenlightabovethedoor,theflutingsofthepaintlesspilastersatthecorners,andtheroundwindowsetinthegable;andsheknewthat,forreasonsthatstillescapedher,thesewerethingstobeadmiredandrecorded。Still,theyhadseenotherhousesfarmore"typical"(thewordwasHarney’s);andashethrewthereinsonthehorse’sneckhesaidwithaslightshiverofrepugnance:"Wewon’tstaylong。"
  Againsttherestlessaldersturningtheirwhiteliningtothestormthehouselookedsingularlydesolate。
  Thepaintwasalmostgonefromtheclap—boards,thewindow—paneswerebrokenandpatchedwithrags,andthegardenwasapoisonoustangleofnettles,burdocksandtallswamp—weedsoverwhichbigblue—bottleshummed。
  Atthesoundofwheelsachildwithatow—headandpaleeyeslikeLiffHyatt’speeredoverthefenceandthenslippedawaybehindanout—house。HarneyjumpeddownandhelpedCharityout;andashedidsotherainbrokeonthem。Itcameslant—wise,onafuriousgale,layingshrubsandyoungtreesflat,tearingofftheirleaveslikeanautumnstorm,turningtheroadintoariver,andmakinghissingpoolsofeveryhollow。Thunderrolledincessantlythroughtheroaroftherain,andastrangeglitteroflightranalongthegroundundertheincreasingblackness。
  "Luckywe’rehereafterall,"Harneylaughed。Hefastenedthehorseunderahalf—rooflessshed,andwrappingCharityinhiscoatranwithhertothehouse。
  Theboyhadnotreappeared,andastherewasnoresponsetotheirknocksHarneyturnedthedoor—handleandtheywentin。
  Therewerethreepeopleinthekitchentowhichthedooradmittedthem。Anoldwomanwithahandkerchiefoverherheadwassittingbythewindow。Sheheldasickly—lookingkittenonherknees,andwheneveritjumpeddownandtriedtolimpawayshestoopedandlifteditbackwithoutanychangeofheraged,unnoticingface。Anotherwoman,theunkemptcreaturethatCharityhadoncenoticedindrivingby,stoodleaningagainstthewindow—frameandstaredatthem;andnearthestoveanunshavedmaninatatteredshirtsatonabarrelasleep。
  Theplacewasbareandmiserableandtheairheavywiththesmellofdirtandstaletobacco。Charity’sheartsank。OldderidedtalesoftheMountainpeoplecamebacktoher,andthewoman’sstarewassodisconcerting,andthefaceofthesleepingmansosoddenandbestial,thatherdisgustwastingedwithavaguedread。Shewasnotafraidforherself;sheknewtheHyattswouldnotbelikelytotroubleher;butshewasnotsurehowtheywouldtreata"cityfellow。"
  LuciusHarneywouldcertainlyhavelaughedatherfears。Heglancedabouttheroom,utteredageneral"Howareyou?"towhichnooneresponded,andthenaskedtheyoungerwomaniftheymighttakesheltertillthestormwasover。
  SheturnedhereyesawayfromhimandlookedatCharity。
  "You’rethegirlfromRoyall’s,ain’tyou?"
  ThecolourroseinCharity’sface。"I’mCharityRoyall,"shesaid,asifassertingherrighttothenameintheveryplacewhereitmighthavebeenmostopentoquestion。
  Thewomandidnotseemtonotice。"Youkinstay,"shemerelysaid;thensheturnedawayandstoopedoveradishinwhichshewasstirringsomething。
  HarneyandCharitysatdownonabenchmadeofaboardrestingontwostarchboxes。Theyfacedadoorhangingonabrokenhinge,andthroughthecracktheysawtheeyesofthetow—headedboyandofapalelittlegirlwithascaracrosshercheek。Charitysmiled,andsignedtothechildrentocomein;butassoonastheysawtheywerediscoveredtheyslippedawayonbarefeet。Itoccurredtoherthattheywereafraidofrousingthesleepingman;andprobablythewomansharedtheirfear,forshemovedaboutasnoiselesslyandavoidedgoingnearthestove。
  Theraincontinuedtobeatagainstthehouse,andinoneortwoplacesitsentastreamthroughthepatchedpanesandranintopoolsonthefloor。
  Everynowandthenthekittenmewedandstruggleddown,andtheoldwomanstoopedandcaughtit,holdingittightinherbonyhands;andonceortwicethemanonthebarrelhalfwoke,changedhispositionanddozedagain,hisheadfallingforwardonhishairybreast。Astheminutespassed,andtherainstillstreamedagainstthewindows,aloathingoftheplaceandthepeoplecameoverCharity。Thesightoftheweak—mindedoldwoman,ofthecowedchildren,andtheraggedmansleepingoffhisliquor,madethesettingofherownlifeseemavisionofpeaceandplenty。ShethoughtofthekitchenatMr。Royall’s,withitsscrubbedflooranddresserfullofchina,andthepeculiarsmellofyeastandcoffeeandsoft—soapthatshehadalwayshated,butthatnowseemedtheverysymbolofhouseholdorder。ShesawMr。Royall’sroom,withthehigh—backedhorsehairchair,thefadedragcarpet,therowofbooksonashelf,theengravingof"TheSurrenderofBurgoyne"overthestove,andthematwithabrownandwhitespanielonamoss—greenborder。AndthenhermindtravelledtoMissHatchard’shouse,whereallwasfreshness,purityandfragrance,andcomparedtowhichtheredhousehadalwaysseemedsopoorandplain。
  "ThisiswhereIbelong——thisiswhereIbelong,"shekeptrepeatingtoherself;butthewordshadnomeaningforher。Everyinstinctandhabitmadeherastrangeramongthesepoorswamp—peoplelivinglikeverminintheirlair。WithallhersoulshewishedshehadnotyieldedtoHarney’scuriosity,andbroughthimthere。
  Therainhaddrenchedher,andshebegantoshiverunderthethinfoldsofherdress。Theyoungerwomanmusthavenoticedit,forshewentoutoftheroomandcamebackwithabrokentea—cupwhichsheofferedtoCharity。Itwashalffullofwhiskey,andCharityshookherhead;butHarneytookthecupandputhislipstoit。WhenhehadsetitdownCharitysawhimfeelinhispocketanddrawoutadollar;hehesitatedamoment,andthenputitback,andsheguessedthathedidnotwishhertoseehimofferingmoneytopeopleshehadspokenofasbeingherkin。
  Thesleepingmanstirred,liftedhisheadandopenedhiseyes。TheyrestedvacantlyforamomentonCharityandHarney,andthenclosedagain,andhisheaddrooped;butalookofanxietycameintothewoman’sface。SheglancedoutofthewindowandthencameuptoHarney。"Iguessyoubettergoalongnow,"shesaid。Theyoungmanunderstoodandgottohisfeet。
  "Thankyou,"hesaid,holdingouthishand。Sheseemednottonoticethegesture,andturnedawayastheyopenedthedoor。
  Therainwasstillcomingdown,buttheyhardlynoticedit:thepureairwaslikebalmintheirfaces。Thecloudswererisingandbreaking,andbetweentheiredgesthelightstreameddownfromremotebluehollows。
  Harneyuntiedthehorse,andtheydroveoffthroughthediminishingrain,whichwasalreadybeadedwithsunlight。
  ForawhileCharitywassilent,andhercompaniondidnotspeak。Shelookedtimidlyathisprofile:itwasgraverthanusual,asthoughhetoowereoppressedbywhattheyhadseen。Thenshebrokeoutabruptly:
  "ThosepeoplebacktherearethekindoffolksIcomefrom。Theymaybemyrelations,forallIknow。"Shedidnotwanthimtothinkthatsheregrettedhavingtoldhimherstory。
  "Poorcreatures,"herejoined。"Iwonderwhytheycamedowntothatfever—hole。"
  Shelaughedironically。"Tobetterthemselves!It’sworseupontheMountain。BashHyattmarriedthedaughterofthefarmerthatusedtoownthebrownhouse。Thatwashimbythestove,Isuppose。"
  Harneyseemedtofindnothingtosayandshewenton:
  "Isawyoutakeoutadollartogivetothatpoorwoman。Whydidyouputitback?"
  Hereddened,andleanedforwardtoflickaswamp—flyfromthehorse’sneck。"Iwasn’tsure————"
  "Wasitbecauseyouknewtheyweremyfolks,andthoughtI’dbeashamedtoseeyougivethemmoney?"
  Heturnedtoherwitheyesfullofreproach。"Oh,Charity————"Itwasthefirsttimehehadevercalledherbyhername。Hermiserywelledover。
  "Iain’t——Iain’tashamed。They’remypeople,andI
  ain’tashamedofthem,"shesobbed。
  "Mydear……"hemurmured,puttinghisarmabouther;
  andsheleanedagainsthimandweptoutherpain。
  ItwastoolatetogoaroundtoHamblin,andallthestarswereoutinaclearskywhentheyreachedtheNorthDormervalleyanddroveuptotheredhouse。
  VII
  SINCEherreinstatementinMissHatchard’sfavourCharityhadnotdaredtocurtailbyamomentherhoursofattendanceatthelibrary。Sheevenmadeapointofarrivingbeforethetime,andshowedalaudableindignationwhentheyoungestTargattgirl,whohadbeenengagedtohelpinthecleaningandrearrangingofthebooks,cametrailinginlateandneglectedhertasktopeerthroughthewindowattheSollasboy。
  Nevertheless,"librarydays"seemedmorethaneverirksometoCharityafterhervividhoursofliberty;
  andshewouldhavefoundithardtosetagoodexampletohersubordinateifLuciusHarneyhadnotbeencommissioned,beforeMissHatchard’sdeparture,toexaminewiththelocalcarpenterthebestmeansofventilatingthe"Memorial。"
  Hewascarefultoprosecutethisinquiryonthedayswhenthelibrarywasopentothepublic;andCharitywasthereforesureofspendingpartoftheafternooninhiscompany。TheTargattgirl’spresence,andtheriskofbeinginterruptedbysomepasser—bysuddenlysmittenwithathirstforletters,restrictedtheirintercoursetotheexchangeofcommonplaces;buttherewasafascinationtoCharityinthecontrastbetweenthesepubliccivilitiesandtheirsecretintimacy。
  Thedayaftertheirdrivetothebrownhousewas"libraryday,"andshesatatherdeskworkingattherevisedcatalogue,whiletheTargattgirl,oneeyeonthewindow,chantedoutthetitlesofapileofbooks。
  Charity’sthoughtswerefaraway,inthedismalhousebytheswamp,andunderthetwilightskyduringthelongdrivehome,whenLuciusHarneyhadconsoledherwithendearingwords。Thatday,forthefirsttimesincehehadbeenboardingwiththem,hehadfailedtoappearasusualatthemiddaymeal。Nomessagehadcometoexplainhisabsence,andMr。Royall,whowasmorethanusuallytaciturn,hadbetrayednosurprise,andmadenocomment。Initselfthisindifferencewasnotparticularlysignificant,forMr。Royall,incommonwithmostofhisfellow—citizens,hadawayofacceptingeventspassively,asifhehadlongsincecometotheconclusionthatnoonewholivedinNorthDormercouldhopetomodifythem。ButtoCharity,inthereactionfromhermoodofpassionateexaltation,therewassomethingdisquietinginhissilence。ItwasalmostasifLuciusHarneyhadneverhadapartintheirlives:Mr。Royall’simperturbableindifferenceseemedtorelegatehimtothedomainofunreality。
  Asshesatatwork,shetriedtoshakeoffherdisappointmentatHarney’snon—appearing。Sometriflingincidenthadprobablykepthimfromjoiningthematmidday;butshewassurehemustbeeagertoseeheragain,andthathewouldnotwanttowaittilltheymetatsupper,betweenMr。RoyallandVerena。Shewaswonderingwhathisfirstwordswouldbe,andtryingtodeviseawayofgettingridoftheTargattgirlbeforehecame,whensheheardstepsoutside,andhewalkedupthepathwithMr。Miles。
  TheclergymanfromHepburnseldomcametoNorthDormerexceptwhenhedroveovertoofficiateattheoldwhitechurchwhich,byanunusualchance,happenedtobelongtotheEpiscopalcommunion。Hewasabriskaffableman,eagertomakethemostofthefactthatalittlenucleusof"church—people"hadsurvivedinthesectarianwilderness,andresolvedtounderminetheinfluenceoftheginger—bread—colouredBaptistchapelattheotherendofthevillage;buthewaskeptbusybyparochialworkatHepburn,wheretherewerepaper—millsandsaloons,anditwasnotoftenthathecouldsparetimeforNorthDormer。
  Charity,whowenttothewhitechurch(likeallthebestpeopleinNorthDormer),admiredMr。Miles,andhadeven,duringthememorabletriptoNettleton,imaginedherselfmarriedtoamanwhohadsuchastraightnoseandsuchabeautifulwayofspeaking,andwholivedinabrown—stonerectorycoveredwithVirginiacreeper。Ithadbeenashocktodiscoverthattheprivilegewasalreadyenjoyedbyaladywithcrimpedhairandalargebaby;butthearrivalofLuciusHarneyhadlongsincebanishedMr。MilesfromCharity’sdreams,andashewalkedupthepathatHarney’ssideshesawhimashereallywas:afatmiddle—agedmanwithabaldnessshowingunderhisclericalhat,andspectaclesonhisGreciannose。ShewonderedwhathadcalledhimtoNorthDormeronaweekday,andfeltalittlehurtthatHarneyshouldhavebroughthimtothelibrary。
  ItpresentlyappearedthathispresencetherewasduetoMissHatchard。HehadbeenspendingafewdaysatSpringfield,tofillafriend’spulpit,andhadbeenconsultedbyMissHatchardastoyoungHarney’splanforventilatingthe"Memorial。"TolayhandsontheHatchardarkwasagravematter,andMissHatchard,alwaysfullofscruplesaboutherscruples(itwasHarney’sphrase),wishedtohaveMr。Miles’sopinionbeforedeciding。
  "Icouldn’t,"Mr。Milesexplained,"quitemakeoutfromyourcousinwhatchangesyouwantedtomake,andastheothertrusteesdidnotunderstandeitherIthoughtI
  hadbetterdriveoverandtakealook——thoughI’msure,"headded,turninghisfriendlyspectaclesontheyoungman,"thatnoonecouldbemorecompetent——butofcoursethisspothasitspeculiarsanctity!"
  "Ihopealittlefreshairwon’tdesecrateit,"Harneylaughinglyrejoined;andtheywalkedtotheotherendofthelibrarywhilehesetforthhisideatotheRector。
  Mr。Mileshadgreetedthetwogirlswithhisusualfriendliness,butCharitysawthathewasoccupiedwithotherthings,andshepresentlybecameaware,bythescrapsofconversationdriftingovertoher,thathewasstillunderthecharmofhisvisittoSpringfield,whichappearedtohavebeenfullofagreeableincidents。
  "Ah,theCoopersons……yes,youknowthem,ofcourse,"
  sheheard。"That’safineoldhouse!AndNedCoopersonhascollectedsomereallyremarkableimpressionistpictures……"ThenameshecitedwereunknowntoCharity。"Yes;yes;theSchaeferquartetteplayedatLyricHallonSaturdayevening;andonMondayIhadtheprivilegeofhearingthemagainattheTowers。
  Beautifullydone……BachandBeethoven……alawn—partyfirst……IsawMissBalchseveraltimes,bytheway……lookingextremelyhandsome……"
  CharitydroppedherpencilandforgottolistentotheTargattgirl’ssing—song。WhyhadMr。MilessuddenlybroughtupAnnabelBalch’sname?
  "Oh,really?"sheheardHarneyrejoin;and,raisinghisstick,hepursued:"Yousee,myplanistomovetheseshelvesaway,andopenaroundwindowinthiswall,ontheaxisoftheoneunderthepediment。"
  "Isupposeshe’llbecomingupherelatertostaywithMissHatchard?"Mr。Mileswenton,followingonhistrainofthought;then,spinningaboutandtiltinghisheadback:"Yes,yes,Isee——Iunderstand:thatwillgiveadraughtwithoutmateriallyalteringthelookofthings。Icanseenoobjection。"
  Thediscussionwentonforsomeminutes,andgraduallythetwomenmovedbacktowardthedesk。Mr。MilesstoppedagainandlookedthoughtfullyatCharity。
  "Aren’tyoualittlepale,mydear?Notoverworking?
  Mr。HarneytellsmeyouandMamiearegivingthelibraryathoroughoverhauling。"Hewasalwayscarefultorememberhisparishioners’Christiannames,andattherightmomenthebenthisbenignantspectaclesontheTargattgirl。
  ThenheturnedtoCharity。"Don’ttakethingshard,mydear;don’ttakethingshard。ComedownandseeMrs。
  MilesandmesomedayatHepburn,"hesaid,pressingherhandandwavingafarewelltoMamieTargatt。Hewentoutofthelibrary,andHarneyfollowedhim。
  CharitythoughtshedetectedalookofconstraintinHarney’seyes。Shefanciedhedidnotwanttobealonewithher;andwithasuddenpangshewonderedifherepentedthetenderthingshehadsaidtoherthenightbefore。Hiswordshadbeenmorefraternalthanlover—
  like;butshehadlosttheirexactsenseinthecaressingwarmthofhisvoice。HehadmadeherfeelthatthefactofherbeingawaiffromtheMountainwasonlyanotherreasonforholdinghercloseandsoothingherwithconsolatorymurmurs;andwhenthedrivewasover,andshegotoutofthebuggy,tired,cold,andachingwithemotion,shesteppedasifthegroundwereasunlitwaveandshethesprayonitscrest。
  Why,then,hadhismannersuddenlychanged,andwhydidheleavethelibrarywithMr。Miles?HerrestlessimaginationfastenedonthenameofAnnabelBalch:fromthemomentithadbeenmentionedshefanciedthatHarney’sexpressionhadaltered。AnnabelBalchatagarden—partyatSpringfield,looking"extremelyhandsome"……perhapsMr。MileshadseenherthereattheverymomentwhenCharityandHarneyweresittingintheHyatts’hovel,betweenadrunkardandahalf—wittedoldwoman!Charitydidnotknowexactlywhatagarden—partywas,butherglimpseoftheflower—edgedlawnsofNettletonhelpedhertovisualizethescene,andenviousrecollectionsofthe"oldthings"whichMissBalchavowedly"woreout"whenshecametoNorthDormermadeitonlytooeasytopictureherinhersplendour。
  Charityunderstoodwhatassociationsthenamemusthavecalledup,andfelttheuselessnessofstrugglingagainsttheunseeninfluencesinHarney’slife。
  Whenshecamedownfromherroomforsupperhewasnotthere;andwhileshewaitedintheporchsherecalledthetoneinwhichMr。Royallhadcommentedthedaybeforeontheirearlystart。Mr。Royallsatatherside,hischairtiltedback,hisbroadblackbootswithside—elasticsrestingagainstthelowerbaroftherailings。Hisrumpledgreyhairstoodupabovehisforeheadlikethecrestofanangrybird,andtheleather—brownofhisveinedcheekswasblotchedwithred。Charityknewthatthoseredspotswerethesignsofacomingexplosion。
  Suddenlyhesaid:"Where’ssupper?HasVerenaMarshslippedupagainonhersoda—biscuits?"
  Charitythrewastartledglanceathim。"Ipresumeshe’swaitingforMr。Harney。"
  "Mr。Harney,isshe?She’dbetterdishup,then。Heain’tcoming。"Hestoodup,walkedtothedoor,andcalledout,inthepitchnecessarytopenetratetheoldwoman’stympanum:"Getalongwiththesupper,Verena。"
  Charitywastremblingwithapprehension。Somethinghadhappened——shewassureofitnow——andMr。Royallknewwhatitwas。Butnotfortheworldwouldshehavegratifiedhimbyshowingheranxiety。Shetookherusualplace,andheseatedhimselfopposite,andpouredoutastrongcupofteabeforepassingherthetea—pot。
  Verenabroughtsomescrambledeggs,andhepiledhisplatewiththem。"Ain’tyougoingtotakeany?"heasked。Charityrousedherselfandbegantoeat。
  ThetonewithwhichMr。Royallhadsaid"He’snotcoming"seemedtoherfullofanominoussatisfaction。
  ShesawthathehadsuddenlybeguntohateLuciusHarney,andguessedherselftobethecauseofthischangeoffeeling。Butshehadnomeansoffindingoutwhethersomeactofhostilityonhisparthadmadetheyoungmanstayaway,orwhetherhesimplywishedtoavoidseeingheragainaftertheirdrivebackfromthebrownhouse。Sheatehersupperwithastudiedshowofindifference,butsheknewthatMr。Royallwaswatchingherandthatheragitationdidnotescapehim。
  Aftersuppershewentuptoherroom。SheheardMr。
  Royallcrossthepassage,andpresentlythesoundsbelowherwindowshowedthathehadreturnedtotheporch。Sheseatedherselfonherbedandbegantostruggleagainstthedesiretogodownandaskhimwhathadhappened。"I’dratherdiethandoit,"shemutteredtoherself。Withawordhecouldhaverelievedheruncertainty:butneverwouldshegratifyhimbysayingit。
  Sheroseandleanedoutofthewindow。Thetwilighthaddeepenedintonight,andshewatchedthefrailcurveoftheyoungmoondroppingtotheedgeofthehills。Throughthedarknessshesawoneortwofiguresmovingdowntheroad;buttheeveningwastoocoldforloitering,andpresentlythestrollersdisappeared。
  Lampswerebeginningtoshowhereandthereinthewindows。AbaroflightbroughtoutthewhitenessofaclumpofliliesintheHawes’syard:andfartherdownthestreetCarrickFry’sRochesterlampcastitsboldilluminationontherusticflower—tubinthemiddleofhisgrass—plot。
  Foralongtimeshecontinuedtoleaninthewindow。
  Butafeverofunrestconsumedher,andfinallyshewentdownstairs,tookherhatfromitshook,andswungoutofthehouse。Mr。Royallsatintheporch,Verenabesidehim,heroldhandscrossedonherpatchedskirt。
  AsCharitywentdownthestepsMr。Royallcalledafterher:"Whereyougoing?"Shecouldeasilyhaveanswered:"ToOrma’s,"or"DowntotheTargatts’";andeitheranswermighthavebeentrue,forshehadnopurpose。Butshesweptoninsilence,determinednottorecognizehisrighttoquestionher。
  Atthegateshepausedandlookedupanddowntheroad。
  Thedarknessdrewher,andshethoughtofclimbingthehillandplungingintothedepthsofthelarch—woodabovethepasture。Thensheglancedirresolutelyalongthestreet,andasshedidsoagleamappearedthroughthesprucesatMissHatchard’sgate。LuciusHarneywasthere,then——hehadnotgonedowntoHepburnwithMr。
  Miles,asshehadatfirstimagined。Butwherehadhetakenhiseveningmeal,andwhathadcausedhimtostayawayfromMr。Royall’s?Thelightwaspositiveproofofhispresence,forMissHatchard’sservantswereawayonaholiday,andherfarmer’swifecameonlyinthemornings,tomaketheyoungman’sbedandpreparehiscoffee。Besidethatlamphewasdoubtlesssittingatthismoment。ToknowthetruthCharityhadonlytowalkhalfthelengthofthevillage,andknockatthelightedwindow。Shehesitatedaminuteortwolonger,andthenturnedtowardMissHatchard’s。
  Shewalkedquickly,straininghereyestodetectanyonewhomightbecomingalongthestreet;andbeforereachingtheFrys’shecrossedovertoavoidthelightfromtheirwindow。Whenevershewasunhappyshefeltherselfatbayagainstapitilessworld,andakindofanimalsecretivenesspossessedher。Butthestreetwasempty,andshepassedunnoticedthroughthegateandupthepathtothehouse。Itswhitefrontglimmeredindistinctlythroughthetrees,showingonlyoneoblongoflightonthelowerfloor。ShehadsupposedthatthelampwasinMissHatchard’ssitting—room;butshenowsawthatitshonethroughawindowatthefarthercornerofthehouse。Shedidnotknowtheroomtowhichthiswindowbelonged,andshepausedunderthetrees,checkedbyasenseofstrangeness。Thenshemovedon,treadingsoftlyontheshortgrass,andkeepingsoclosetothehousethatwhoeverwasintheroom,evenifrousedbyherapproach,wouldnotbeabletoseeher。
  Thewindowopenedonanarrowverandahwithatrellisedarch。Sheleanedclosetothetrellis,andpartingthespraysofclematisthatcovereditlookedintoacorneroftheroom。Shesawthefootofamahoganybed,anengravingonthewall,awash—standonwhichatowelhadbeentossed,andoneendofthegreen—coveredtablewhichheldthelamp。Halfofthelampshadeprojectedintoherfieldofvision,andjustunderittwosmoothsunburnthands,oneholdingapencilandtheotheraruler,weremovingtoandfrooveradrawing—
  board。
  Herheartjumpedandthenstoodstill。Hewasthere,afewfeetaway;andwhilehersoulwastossingonseasofwoehehadbeenquietlysittingathisdrawing—
  board。Thesightofthosetwohands,movingwiththeirusualskillandprecision,wokeheroutofherdream。
  Hereyeswereopenedtothedisproportionbetweenwhatshehadfeltandthecauseofheragitation;andshewasturningawayfromthewindowwhenonehandabruptlypushedasidethedrawing—boardandtheotherflungdownthepencil。
  CharityhadoftennoticedHarney’slovingcareofhisdrawings,andtheneatnessandmethodwithwhichhecarriedonandconcludedeachtask。Theimpatientsweepingasideofthedrawing—boardseemedtorevealanewmood。Thegesturesuggestedsuddendiscouragement,ordistasteforhisworkandshewonderedifhetoowereagitatedbysecretperplexities。Herimpulseofflightwaschecked;shesteppedupontheverandahandlookedintotheroom。
  Harneyhadputhiselbowsonthetableandwasrestinghischinonhislockedhands。Hehadtakenoffhiscoatandwaistcoat,andunbuttonedthelowcollarofhisflannelshirt;shesawthevigorouslinesofhisyoungthroat,andtherootofthemuscleswheretheyjoinedthechest。Hesatstaringstraightaheadofhim,alookofwearinessandself—disgustonhisface:
  itwasalmostasifhehadbeengazingatadistortedreflectionofhisownfeatures。ForamomentCharitylookedathimwithakindofterror,asifhehadbeenastrangerunderfamiliarlineaments;thensheglancedpasthimandsawontheflooranopenportmanteauhalffullofclothes。Sheunderstoodthathewaspreparingtoleave,andthathehadprobablydecidedtogowithoutseeingher。Shesawthatthedecision,fromwhatevercauseitwastaken,haddisturbedhimdeeply;
  andsheimmediatelyconcludedthathischangeofplanwasduetosomesurreptitiousinterferenceofMr。
  Royall’s。Allheroldresentmentsandrebellionsflamedup,confusedlymingledwiththeyearningrousedbyHarney’snearness。Onlyafewhoursearliershehadfeltsecureinhiscomprehendingpity;nowshewasflungbackonherself,doublyaloneafterthatmomentofcommunion。
  Harneywasstillunawareofherpresence。Hesatwithoutmoving,moodilystaringbeforehimatthesamespotinthewall—paper。Hehadnotevenhadtheenergytofinishhispacking,andhisclothesandpaperslayonthefloorabouttheportmanteau。Presentlyheunlockedhisclaspedhandsandstoodup;andCharity,drawingbackhastily,sankdownonthestepoftheverandah。Thenightwassodarkthattherewasnotmuchchanceofhisseeingherunlessheopenedthewindowandbeforethatshewouldhavetimetoslipawayandbelostintheshadowofthetrees。Hestoodforaminuteortwolookingaroundtheroomwiththesameexpressionofself—disgust,asifhehatedhimselfandeverythingabouthim;thenhesatdownagainatthetable,drewafewmorestrokes,andthrewhispencilaside。Finallyhewalkedacrossthefloor,kickingtheportmanteauoutofhisway,andlaydownonthebed,foldinghisarmsunderhishead,andstaringupmoroselyattheceiling。Justso,Charityhadseenhimathersideonthegrassorthepine—needles,hiseyesfixedonthesky,andpleasureflashingoverhisfaceliketheflickersofsunthebranchesshedonit。
  Butnowthefacewassochangedthatshehardlyknewit;andgriefathisgriefgatheredinherthroat,rosetohereyesandranover。
  Shecontinuedtocrouchonthesteps,holdingherbreathandstiffeningherselfintocompleteimmobility。
  Onemotionofherhand,onetaponthepane,andshecouldpicturethesuddenchangeinhisface。Ineverypulseofherrigidbodyshewasawareofthewelcomehiseyesandlipswouldgiveher;butsomethingkeptherfrommoving。Itwasnotthefearofanysanction,humanorheavenly;shehadneverinherlifebeenafraid。Itwassimplythatshehadsuddenlyunderstoodwhatwouldhappenifshewentin。Itwasthethingthatdidhappenbetweenyoungmenandgirls,andthatNorthDormerignoredinpublicandsnickeredoveronthesly。ItwaswhatMissHatchardwasstillignorantof,buteverygirlofCharity’sclassknewaboutbeforesheleftschool。ItwaswhathadhappenedtoAllyHawes’ssisterJulia,andhadendedinhergoingtoNettleton,andinpeople’snevermentioninghername。
  Itdidnot,ofcourse,alwaysendsosensationally;
  nor,perhaps,onthewhole,sountragically。CharityhadalwayssuspectedthattheshunnedJulia’sfatemighthaveitscompensations。Therewereothers,worseendingsthatthevillageknewof,mean,miserable,unconfessed;otherlivesthatwentondrearily,withoutvisiblechange,inthesamecrampedsettingofhypocrisy。Butthesewerenotthereasonsthatheldherback。Sincethedaybefore,shehadknownexactlywhatshewouldfeelifHarneyshouldtakeherinhisarms:themeltingofpalmintopalmandmouthonmouth,andthelongflameburningherfromheadtofoot。Butmixedwiththisfeelingwasanother:thewonderingprideinhislikingforher,thestartledsoftnessthathissympathyhadputintoherheart。Sometimes,whenheryouthflushedupinher,shehadimaginedyieldinglikeothergirlstofurtivecaressesinthetwilight;
  butshecouldnotsocheapenherselftoHarney。Shedidnotknowwhyhewasgoing;butsincehewasgoingshefeltshemustdonothingtodefacetheimageofherthathecarriedaway。Ifhewantedherhemustseekher:hemustnotbesurprisedintotakingherasgirlslikeJuliaHawesweretaken……
  Nosoundcamefromthesleepingvillage,andinthedeepdarknessofthegardensheheardnowandthenasecretrustleofbranches,asthoughsomenight—birdbrushedthem。Onceafootfallpassedthegate,andsheshrankbackintohercorner;butthestepsdiedawayandleftaprofounderquiet。HereyeswerestillonHarney’stormentedface:shefeltshecouldnotmovetillhemoved。Butshewasbeginningtogrownumbfromherconstrainedposition,andattimesherthoughtsweresoindistinctthatsheseemedtobeheldthereonlybyavagueweightofweariness。
  Alongtimepassedinthisstrangevigil。Harneystilllayonthebed,motionlessandwithfixedeyes,asthoughfollowinghisvisiontoitsbitterend。Atlasthestirredandchangedhisattitudeslightly,andCharity’sheartbegantotremble。Butheonlyflungouthisarmsandsankbackintohisformerposition。
  Withadeepsighhetossedthehairfromhisforehead;
  thenhiswholebodyrelaxed,hisheadturnedsidewaysonthepillow,andshesawthathehadfallenasleep。
  Thesweetexpressioncamebacktohislips,andthehaggardnessfadedfromhisface,leavingitasfreshasaboy’s。
  Sheroseandcreptaway。
  VIII
  SHEhadlostthesenseoftime,anddidnotknowhowlateitwastillshecameoutintothestreetandsawthatallthewindowsweredarkbetweenMissHatchard’sandtheRoyallhouse。
  AsshepassedfromundertheblackpalloftheNorwaysprucesshefanciedshesawtwofiguresintheshadeabouttheduck—pond。Shedrewbackandwatched;butnothingmoved,andshehadstaredsolongintothelamp—litroomthatthedarknessconfusedher,andshethoughtshemusthavebeenmistaken。
  Shewalkedon,wonderingwhetherMr。Royallwasstillintheporch。Inherexaltedmoodshedidnotgreatlycarewhetherhewaswaitingforherornot:sheseemedtobefloatinghighoverlife,onagreatcloudofmiserybeneathwhichevery—dayrealitieshaddwindledtomerespecksinspace。Buttheporchwasempty,Mr。
  Royall’shathungonitspeginthepassage,andthekitchenlamphadbeenlefttolighthertobed。Shetookitandwentup。
  Themorninghoursofthenextdaydraggedbywithoutincident。Charityhadimaginedthat,insomewayorother,shewouldlearnwhetherHarneyhadalreadyleft;butVerena’sdeafnesspreventedherbeingasourceofnews,andnoonecametothehousewhocouldbringenlightenment。
  Mr。Royallwentoutearly,anddidnotreturntillVerenahadsetthetableforthemiddaymeal。Whenhecameinhewentstraighttothekitchenandshoutedtotheoldwoman:"Readyfordinner————"thenheturnedintothedining—room,whereCharitywasalreadyseated。
  Harney’splatewasinitsusualplace,butMr。Royallofferednoexplanationofhisabsence,andCharityaskednone。Thefeverishexaltationofthenightbeforehaddropped,andshesaidtoherselfthathehadgoneaway,indifferently,almostcallously,andthatnowherlifewouldlapseagainintothenarrowrutoutofwhichhehadliftedit。Foramomentshewasinclinedtosneeratherselffornothavingusedtheartsthatmighthavekepthim。
  Shesatattabletillthemealwasover,lestMr。
  Royallshouldremarkonherleaving;butwhenhestoodupsherosealso,withoutwaitingtohelpVerena。
  Shehadherfootonthestairswhenhecalledtohertocomeback。
  "I’vegotaheadache。I’mgoinguptoliedown。"
  "Iwantyoushouldcomeinherefirst;I’vegotsomethingtosaytoyou。"
  Shewassurefromhistonethatinamomentshewouldlearnwhateverynerveinherachedtoknow;butassheturnedbackshemadealasteffortofindifference。
  Mr。Royallstoodinthemiddleoftheoffice,histhickeyebrowsbeetling,hislowerjawtremblingalittle。
  Atfirstshethoughthehadbeendrinking;thenshesawthathewassober,butstirredbyadeepandsternemotiontotallyunlikehisusualtransientangers。Andsuddenlysheunderstoodthat,untilthen,shehadneverreallynoticedhimorthoughtabouthim。Exceptontheoccasionofhisoneoffensehehadbeentohermerelythepersonwhoisalwaysthere,theunquestionedcentralfactoflife,asinevitablebutasuninterestingasNorthDormeritself,oranyoftheotherconditionsfatehadlaidonher。Eventhenshehadregardedhimonlyinrelationtoherself,andhadneverspeculatedastohisownfeelings,beyondinstinctivelyconcludingthathewouldnottroubleheragaininthesameway。Butnowshebegantowonderwhathewasreallylike。
  Hehadgraspedthebackofhischairwithbothhands,andstoodlookinghardather。Atlengthhesaid:
  "Charity,foroncelet’syouandmetalktogetherlikefriends。"
  Instantlyshefeltthatsomethinghadhappened,andthatheheldherinhishand。
  "WhereisMr。Harney?Whyhasn’thecomeback?Haveyousenthimaway?"shebrokeout,withoutknowingwhatshewassaying。
  ThechangeinMr。Royallfrightenedher。Allthebloodseemedtoleavehisveinsandagainsthisswarthypallorthedeeplinesinhisfacelookedblack。
  "Didn’thehavetimetoanswersomeofthosequestionslastnight?Youwaswithhimlongenough!"hesaid。
  Charitystoodspeechless。Thetauntwassounrelatedtowhathadbeenhappeninginhersoulthatshehardlyunderstoodit。Buttheinstinctofself—defenseawokeinher。
  "WhosaysIwaswithhimlastnight?"
  "Thewholeplaceissayingitbynow。"
  "Thenitwasyouthatputthelieintotheirmouths。——Oh,howI’vealwayshatedyou!"shecried。
  Shehadexpectedaretortinkind,anditstartledhertohearherexclamationsoundingonthroughsilence。