I
AgirlcameoutoflawyerRoyall’shouse,attheendoftheonestreetofNorthDormer,andstoodonthedoorstep。
ItwasthebeginningofaJuneafternoon。Thespringliketransparentskyshedarainofsilversunshineontheroofsofthevillage,andonthepasturesandlarchwoodssurroundingit。Alittlewindmovedamongtheroundwhitecloudsontheshouldersofthehills,drivingtheirshadowsacrossthefieldsanddownthegrassyroadthattakesthenameofstreetwhenitpassesthroughNorthDormer。Theplacelieshighandintheopen,andlacksthelavishshadeofthemoreprotectedNewEnglandvillages。Theclumpofweeping—
willowsabouttheduckpond,andtheNorwaysprucesinfrontoftheHatchardgate,castalmosttheonlyroadsideshadowbetweenlawyerRoyall’shouseandthepointwhere,attheotherendofthevillage,theroadrisesabovethechurchandskirtstheblackhemlockwallenclosingthecemetery。
ThelittleJunewind,friskingdownthestreet,shookthedolefulfringesoftheHatchardspruces,caughtthestrawhatofayoungmanjustpassingunderthem,andspunitcleanacrosstheroadintotheduck—pond。
AsherantofishitoutthegirlonlawyerRoyall’sdoorstepnoticedthathewasastranger,thatheworecityclothes,andthathewaslaughingwithallhisteeth,astheyoungandcarelesslaughatsuchmishaps。
Herheartcontractedalittle,andtheshrinkingthatsometimescameoverherwhenshesawpeoplewithholidayfacesmadeherdrawbackintothehouseandpretendtolookforthekeythatsheknewshehadalreadyputintoherpocket。Anarrowgreenishmirrorwithagilteagleoverithungonthepassagewall,andshelookedcriticallyatherreflection,wishedforthethousandthtimethatshehadblueeyeslikeAnnabelBalch,thegirlwhosometimescamefromSpringfieldtospendaweekwitholdMissHatchard,straightenedthesunburnthatoverhersmallswarthyface,andturnedoutagainintothesunshine。
"HowIhateeverything!"shemurmured。
TheyoungmanhadpassedthroughtheHatchardgate,andshehadthestreettoherself。NorthDormerisatalltimesanemptyplace,andatthreeo’clockonaJuneafternoonitsfewable—bodiedmenareoffinthefieldsorwoods,andthewomenindoors,engagedinlanguidhouseholddrudgery。
Thegirlwalkedalong,swingingherkeyonafinger,andlookingaboutherwiththeheightenedattentionproducedbythepresenceofastrangerinafamiliarplace。What,shewondered,didNorthDormerlookliketopeoplefromotherpartsoftheworld?Sheherselfhadlivedtheresincetheageoffive,andhadlongsupposedittobeaplaceofsomeimportance。Butaboutayearbefore,Mr。Miles,thenewEpiscopalclergymanatHepburn,whodroveovereveryotherSunday——whentheroadswerenotploughedupbyhauling——
toholdaserviceintheNorthDormerchurch,hadproposed,inafitofmissionaryzeal,totaketheyoungpeopledowntoNettletontohearanillustratedlectureontheHolyLand;andthedozengirlsandboyswhorepresentedthefutureofNorthDormerhadbeenpiledintoafarm—waggon,drivenoverthehillstoHepburn,putintoaway—trainandcarriedtoNettleton。
InthecourseofthatincredibledayCharityRoyallhad,forthefirstandonlytime,experiencedrailway—
travel,lookedintoshopswithplate—glassfronts,tastedcocoanutpie,satinatheatre,andlistenedtoagentlemansayingunintelligiblethingsbeforepicturesthatshewouldhaveenjoyedlookingatifhisexplanationshadnotpreventedherfromunderstandingthem。ThisinitiationhadshownherthatNorthDormerwasasmallplace,anddevelopedinherathirstforinformationthatherpositionascustodianofthevillagelibraryhadpreviouslyfailedtoexcite。ForamonthortwoshedippedfeverishlyanddisconnectedlyintothedustyvolumesoftheHatchardMemorialLibrary;thentheimpressionofNettletonbegantofade,andshefounditeasiertotakeNorthDormerasthenormoftheuniversethantogoonreading。
ThesightofthestrangeroncemorerevivedmemoriesofNettleton,andNorthDormershranktoitsrealsize。Asshelookedupanddownit,fromlawyerRoyall’sfadedredhouseatoneendtothewhitechurchattheother,shepitilesslytookitsmeasure。Thereitlay,aweather—beatensunburntvillageofthehills,abandonedofmen,leftapartbyrailway,trolley,telegraph,andalltheforcesthatlinklifetolifeinmoderncommunities。Ithadnoshops,notheatres,nolectures,no"businessblock";onlyachurchthatwasopenedeveryotherSundayifthestateoftheroadspermitted,andalibraryforwhichnonewbookshadbeenboughtfortwentyyears,andwheretheoldonesmoulderedundisturbedonthedampshelves。YetCharityRoyallhadalwaysbeentoldthatsheoughttoconsideritaprivilegethatherlothadbeencastinNorthDormer。Sheknewthat,comparedtotheplaceshehadcomefrom,NorthDormerrepresentedalltheblessingsofthemostrefinedcivilization。Everyoneinthevillagehadtoldhersoeversinceshehadbeenbroughtthereasachild。EvenoldMissHatchardhadsaidtoher,onaterribleoccasioninherlife:"Mychild,youmustneverceasetorememberthatitwasMr。RoyallwhobroughtyoudownfromtheMountain。"
Shehadbeen"broughtdownfromtheMountain";fromthescarredcliffthatlifteditssullenwallabovethelesserslopesofEagleRange,makingaperpetualbackgroundofgloomtothelonelyvalley。TheMountainwasagoodfifteenmilesaway,butitrosesoabruptlyfromthelowerhillsthatitseemedalmosttocastitsshadowoverNorthDormer。Anditwaslikeagreatmagnetdrawingthecloudsandscatteringtheminstormacrossthevalley。Ifever,inthepurestsummersky,theretrailedathreadofvapouroverNorthDormer,itdriftedtotheMountainasashipdriftstoawhirlpool,andwascaughtamongtherocks,tornupandmultiplied,tosweepbackoverthevillageinrainanddarkness。
CharitywasnotveryclearabouttheMountain;butsheknewitwasabadplace,andashametohavecomefrom,andthat,whateverbefellherinNorthDormer,sheought,asMissHatchardhadonceremindedher,torememberthatshehadbeenbroughtdownfromthere,andholdhertongueandbethankful。ShelookedupattheMountain,thinkingofthesethings,andtriedasusualtobethankful。ButthesightoftheyoungmanturninginatMissHatchard’sgatehadbroughtbackthevisionoftheglitteringstreetsofNettleton,andshefeltashamedofheroldsun—hat,andsickofNorthDormer,andjealouslyawareofAnnabelBalchofSpringfield,openingherblueeyessomewherefaroffongloriesgreaterthanthegloriesofNettleton。
"HowIhateeverything!"shesaidagain。
Halfwaydownthestreetshestoppedataweak—hingedgate。Passingthroughit,shewalkeddownabrickpathtoaqueerlittlebricktemplewithwhitewoodencolumnssupportingapedimentonwhichwasinscribedintarnishedgoldletters:"TheHonoriusHatchardMemorialLibrary,1832。"
HonoriusHatchardhadbeenoldMissHatchard’sgreat—
uncle;thoughshewouldundoubtedlyhavereversedthephrase,andputforward,asheronlyclaimtodistinction,thefactthatshewashisgreat—niece。
ForHonoriusHatchard,intheearlyyearsofthenineteenthcentury,hadenjoyedamodestcelebrity。Asthemarbletabletintheinteriorofthelibraryinformeditsinfrequentvisitors,hehadpossessedmarkedliterarygifts,writtenaseriesofpaperscalled"TheRecluseofEagleRange,"enjoyedtheacquaintanceofWashingtonIrvingandFitz—GreeneHalleck,andbeencutoffinhisflowerbyafevercontractedinItaly。SuchhadbeenthesolelinkbetweenNorthDormerandliterature,alinkpiouslycommemoratedbytheerectionofthemonumentwhereCharityRoyall,everyTuesdayandThursdayafternoon,satatherdeskunderafreckledsteelengravingofthedeceasedauthor,andwonderedifhefeltanydeaderinhisgravethanshedidinhislibrary。
Enteringherprison—housewithalistlessstepshetookoffherhat,hungitonaplasterbustofMinerva,openedtheshutters,leanedouttoseeiftherewereanyeggsintheswallow’snestaboveoneofthewindows,andfinally,seatingherselfbehindthedesk,drewoutarollofcottonlaceandasteelcrochethook。Shewasnotanexpertworkwoman,andithadtakenhermanyweekstomakethehalf—yardofnarrowlacewhichshekeptwoundaboutthebuckrambackofadisintegratedcopyof"TheLamplighter。"Buttherewasnootherwayofgettinganylacetotrimhersummerblouse,andsinceAllyHawes,thepoorestgirlinthevillage,hadshownherselfinchurchwithenviabletransparenciesabouttheshoulders,Charity’shookhadtravelledfaster。Sheunrolledthelace,dugthehookintoaloop,andbenttothetaskwithfurrowedbrows。
Suddenlythedooropened,andbeforeshehadraisedhereyessheknewthattheyoungmanshehadseengoinginattheHatchardgatehadenteredthelibrary。
Withouttakinganynoticeofherhebegantomoveslowlyaboutthelongvault—likeroom,hishandsbehindhisback,hisshort—sightedeyespeeringupanddowntherowsofrustybindings。Atlengthhereachedthedeskandstoodbeforeher。
"Haveyouacard—catalogue?"heaskedinapleasantabruptvoice;andtheoddnessofthequestioncausedhertodropherwork。
"AWHAT?"
"Why,youknow————"Hebrokeoff,andshebecameconsciousthathewaslookingatherforthefirsttime,havingapparently,onhisentrance,includedherinhisgeneralshort—sightedsurveyaspartofthefurnitureofthelibrary。
Thefactthat,indiscoveringher,helostthethreadofhisremark,didnotescapeherattention,andshelookeddownandsmiled。Hesmiledalso。
"No,Idon’tsupposeyoudoknow,"hecorrectedhimself。"Infact,itwouldbealmostapity————"
Shethoughtshedetectedaslightcondescensioninhistone,andaskedsharply:"Why?"
"Becauseit’ssomuchpleasanter,inasmalllibrarylikethis,topokeaboutbyone’sself——withthehelpofthelibrarian。"
Headdedthelastphrasesorespectfullythatshewasmollified,andrejoinedwithasigh:"I’mafraidI
can’thelpyoumuch。"
"Why?"hequestionedinhisturn;andsherepliedthatthereweren’tmanybooksanyhow,andthatshe’dhardlyreadanyofthem。"Thewormsaregettingatthem,"sheaddedgloomily。
"Arethey?That’sapity,forIseetherearesomegoodones。"Heseemedtohavelostinterestintheirconversation,andstrolledawayagain,apparentlyforgettingher。Hisindifferencenettledher,andshepickedupherwork,resolvednottoofferhimtheleastassistance。Apparentlyhedidnotneedit,forhespentalongtimewithhisbacktoher,liftingdown,oneafteranother,thetallcob—webbyvolumesfromadistantshelf。
"Oh,Isay!"heexclaimed;andlookingupshesawthathehaddrawnouthishandkerchiefandwascarefullywipingtheedgesofthebookinhishand。Theactionstruckherasanunwarrantedcriticismonhercareofthebooks,andshesaidirritably:"It’snotmyfaultifthey’redirty。"
Heturnedaroundandlookedatherwithrevivinginterest。"Ah——thenyou’renotthelibrarian?"
"OfcourseIam;butIcan’tdustallthesebooks。
Besides,nobodyeverlooksatthem,nowMissHatchard’stoolametocomeround。"
"No,Isupposenot。"Helaiddownthebookhehadbeenwiping,andstoodconsideringherinsilence。ShewonderedifMissHatchardhadsenthimroundtopryintothewaythelibrarywaslookedafter,andthesuspicionincreasedherresentment。"Isawyougoingintoherhousejustnow,didn’tI?"sheasked,withtheNewEnglandavoidanceofthepropername。Shewasdeterminedtofindoutwhyhewaspokingaboutamongherbooks。
"MissHatchard’shouse?Yes——she’smycousinandI’mstayingthere,"theyoungmananswered;adding,asiftodisarmavisibledistrust:"MynameisHarney——
LuciusHarney。Shemayhavespokenofme。"
"No,shehasn’t,"saidCharity,wishingshecouldhavesaid:"Yes,shehas。"
"Oh,well————"saidMissHatchard’scousinwithalaugh;andafteranotherpause,duringwhichitoccurredtoCharitythatheranswerhadnotbeenencouraging,heremarked:"Youdon’tseemstrongonarchitecture。"
Herbewildermentwascomplete:themoreshewishedtoappeartounderstandhimthemoreunintelligiblehisremarksbecame。Heremindedherofthegentlemanwhohad"explained"thepicturesatNettleton,andtheweightofherignorancesettleddownonheragainlikeapall。
"Imean,Ican’tseethatyouhaveanybooksontheoldhousesabouthere。Isuppose,forthatmatter,thispartofthecountryhasn’tbeenmuchexplored。TheyallgoondoingPlymouthandSalem。Sostupid。Mycousin’shouse,now,isremarkable。Thisplacemusthavehadapast——itmusthavebeenmoreofaplaceonce。"Hestoppedshort,withtheblushofashymanwhooverhearshimself,andfearshehasbeenvoluble。
"I’manarchitect,yousee,andI’mhuntingupoldhousesintheseparts。"
Shestared。"Oldhouses?Everything’soldinNorthDormer,isn’tit?Thefolksare,anyhow。"
Helaughed,andwanderedawayagain。
"Haven’tyouanykindofahistoryoftheplace?
Ithinktherewasonewrittenabout1840:abookorpamphletaboutitsfirstsettlement,"hepresentlysaidfromthefartherendoftheroom。
Shepressedhercrochethookagainstherlipandpondered。Therewassuchawork,sheknew:"NorthDormerandtheEarlyTownshipsofEagleCounty。"Shehadaspecialgrudgeagainstitbecauseitwasalimpweaklybookthatwasalwayseitherfallingofftheshelforslippingbackanddisappearingifonesqueezeditinbetweensustainingvolumes。Sheremembered,thelasttimeshehadpickeditup,wonderinghowanyonecouldhavetakenthetroubletowriteabookaboutNorthDormeranditsneighbours:Dormer,Hamblin,CrestonandCrestonRiver。Sheknewthemall,merelostclustersofhousesinthefoldsofthedesolateridges:
Dormer,whereNorthDormerwentforitsapples;CrestonRiver,wherethereusedtobeapaper—mill,anditsgreywallsstooddecayingbythestream;andHamblin,wherethefirstsnowalwaysfell。Suchweretheirtitlestofame。
Shegotupandbegantomoveaboutvaguelybeforetheshelves。Butshehadnoideawhereshehadlastputthebook,andsomethingtoldherthatitwasgoingtoplayheritsusualtrickandremaininvisible。Itwasnotoneofherluckydays。
"Iguessit’ssomewhere,"shesaid,toproveherzeal;
butshespokewithoutconviction,andfeltthatherwordsconveyednone。
"Oh,well————"hesaidagain。Sheknewhewasgoing,andwishedmorethanevertofindthebook。
"Itwillbefornexttime,"headded;andpickingupthevolumehehadlaidonthedeskhehandedittoher。
"Bytheway,alittleairandsunwoulddothisgood;
it’srathervaluable。"
Hegaveheranodandsmile,andpassedout。
II
ThehoursoftheHatchardMemoriallibrarianwerefromthreetofive;andCharityRoyall’ssenseofdutyusuallykeptheratherdeskuntilnearlyhalf—pastfour。
ButshehadneverperceivedthatanypracticaladvantagetherebyaccruedeithertoNorthDormerortoherself;andshehadnoscrupleindecreeing,whenitsuitedher,thatthelibraryshouldcloseanhourearlier。AfewminutesafterMr。Harney’sdeparturesheformedthisdecision,putawayherlace,fastenedtheshutters,andturnedthekeyinthedoorofthetempleofknowledge。
Thestreetuponwhichsheemergedwasstillempty:andafterglancingupanddownitshebegantowalktowardherhouse。Butinsteadofenteringshepassedon,turnedintoafield—pathandmountedtoapastureonthehillside。Sheletdownthebarsofthegate,followedatrailalongthecrumblingwallofthepasture,andwalkedontillshereachedaknollwhereaclumpoflarchesshookouttheirfreshtasselstothewind。Thereshelaydownontheslope,tossedoffherhatandhidherfaceinthegrass。
Shewasblindandinsensibletomanythings,anddimlyknewit;buttoallthatwaslightandair,perfumeandcolour,everydropofbloodinherresponded。Shelovedtheroughnessofthedrymountaingrassunderherpalms,thesmellofthethymeintowhichshecrushedherface,thefingeringofthewindinherhairandthroughhercottonblouse,andthecreakofthelarchesastheyswayedtoit。
Sheoftenclimbedupthehillandlaytherealoneforthemerepleasureoffeelingthewindandofrubbinghercheeksinthegrass。Generallyatsuchtimesshedidnotthinkofanything,butlayimmersedinaninarticulatewell—being。Todaythesenseofwell—beingwasintensifiedbyherjoyatescapingfromthelibrary。Shelikedwellenoughtohaveafrienddropinandtalktoherwhenshewasonduty,butshehatedtobebotheredaboutbooks。Howcouldsherememberwheretheywere,whentheyweresoseldomaskedfor?OrmaFryoccasionallytookoutanovel,andherbrotherBenwasfondofwhathecalled"jography,"andofbooksrelatingtotradeandbookkeeping;butnooneelseaskedforanythingexcept,atintervals,"UncleTom’sCabin,"or"OpeningofaChestnutBurr,"orLongfellow。
Shehadtheseunderherhand,andcouldhavefoundtheminthedark;butunexpecteddemandscamesorarelythattheyexasperatedherlikeaninjustice……
Shehadlikedtheyoungman’slooks,andhisshort—
sightedeyes,andhisoddwayofspeaking,thatwasabruptyetsoft,justashishandsweresun—burntandsinewy,yetwithsmoothnailslikeawoman’s。Hishairwassunburnt—lookingtoo,orratherthecolourofbrackenafterfrost;hiseyesgrey,withtheappealinglookoftheshortsighted,hissmileshyyetconfident,asifheknewlotsofthingsshehadneverdreamedof,andyetwouldn’tfortheworldhavehadherfeelhissuperiority。Butshedidfeelit,andlikedthefeeling;foritwasnewtoher。Poorandignorantasshewas,andknewherselftobe——humblestofthehumbleeveninNorthDormer,wheretocomefromtheMountainwastheworstdisgrace——yetinhernarrowworldshehadalwaysruled。Itwaspartly,ofcourse,owingtothefactthatlawyerRoyallwas"thebiggestmaninNorthDormer";somuchtoobigforit,infact,thatoutsiders,whodidn’tknow,alwayswonderedhowitheldhim。Inspiteofeverything——andinspiteevenofMissHatchard——lawyerRoyallruledinNorthDormer;andCharityruledinlawyerRoyall’shouse。Shehadneverputittoherselfinthoseterms;butsheknewherpower,knewwhatitwasmadeof,andhatedit。
Confusedly,theyoungmaninthelibraryhadmadeherfeelforthefirsttimewhatmightbethesweetnessofdependence。
Shesatup,brushedthebitsofgrassfromherhair,andlookeddownonthehousewheresheheldsway。Itstoodjustbelowher,cheerlessanduntended,itsfadedredfrontdividedfromtheroadbya"yard"withapathborderedbygooseberrybushes,astonewellovergrownwithtraveller’sjoy,andasicklyCrimsonRamblertiedtoafan—shapedsupport,whichMr。RoyallhadoncebroughtupfromHepburntopleaseher。Behindthehouseabitofunevengroundwithclothes—linesstrungacrossitstretcheduptoadrywall,andbeyondthewallapatchofcornandafewrowsofpotatoesstrayedvaguelyintotheadjoiningwildernessofrockandfern。
Charitycouldnotrecallherfirstsightofthehouse。
ShehadbeentoldthatshewasillofafeverwhenshewasbroughtdownfromtheMountain;andshecouldonlyrememberwakingonedayinacotatthefootofMrs。
Royall’sbed,andopeninghereyesonthecoldneatnessoftheroomthatwasafterwardtobehers。
Mrs。Royalldiedsevenoreightyearslater;andbythattimeCharityhadtakenthemeasureofmostthingsabouther。SheknewthatMrs。Royallwassadandtimidandweak;sheknewthatlawyerRoyallwasharshandviolent,andstillweaker。SheknewthatshehadbeenchristenedCharity(inthewhitechurchattheotherendofthevillage)tocommemorateMr。Royall’sdisinterestednessin"bringingherdown,"andtokeepaliveinherabecomingsenseofherdependence;sheknewthatMr。Royallwasherguardian,butthathehadnotlegallyadoptedher,thougheverybodyspokeofherasCharityRoyall;andsheknewwhyhehadcomebacktoliveatNorthDormer,insteadofpractisingatNettleton,wherehehadbegunhislegalcareer。
AfterMrs。Royall’sdeaththerewassometalkofsendinghertoaboarding—school。MissHatchardsuggestedit,andhadalongconferencewithMr。
Royall,who,inpursuanceofherplan,departedonedayforStarkfieldtovisittheinstitutionsherecommended。Hecamebackthenextnightwithablackface;worse,Charityobserved,thanshehadeverseenhim;andbythattimeshehadhadsomeexperience。
Whensheaskedhimhowsoonshewastostartheansweredshortly,"Youain’tgoing,"andshuthimselfupintheroomhecalledhisoffice;andthenextdaytheladywhokepttheschoolatStarkfieldwrotethat"underthecircumstances"shewasafraidshecouldnotmakeroomjustthenforanotherpupil。
Charitywasdisappointed;butsheunderstood。Itwasn’tthetemptationsofStarkfieldthathadbeenMr。
Royall’sundoing;itwasthethoughtoflosingher。Hewasadreadfully"lonesome"man;shehadmadethatoutbecauseshewasso"lonesome"herself。Heandshe,facetofaceinthatsadhouse,hadsoundedthedepthsofisolation;andthoughshefeltnoparticularaffectionforhim,andnottheslightestgratitude,shepitiedhimbecauseshewasconsciousthathewassuperiortothepeopleabouthim,andthatshewastheonlybeingbetweenhimandsolitude。Therefore,whenMissHatchardsentforheradayortwolater,totalkofaschoolatNettleton,andtosaythatthistimeafriendofherswould"makethenecessaryarrangements,"
CharitycuthershortwiththeannouncementthatshehaddecidednottoleaveNorthDormer。
MissHatchardreasonedwithherkindly,buttonopurpose;shesimplyrepeated:"IguessMr。Royall’stoolonesome。"
MissHatchardblinkedperplexedlybehindhereye—
glasses。Herlongfrailfacewasfullofpuzzledwrinkles,andsheleantforward,restingherhandsonthearmsofhermahoganyarmchair,withtheevidentdesiretosaysomethingthatoughttobesaid。
"Thefeelingdoesyoucredit,mydear。"
Shelookedaboutthepalewallsofhersitting—room,seekingcounselofancestraldaguerreotypesanddidacticsamplers;buttheyseemedtomakeutterancemoredifficult。
"Thefactis,it’snotonly——notonlybecauseoftheadvantages。Thereareotherreasons。You’retooyoungtounderstand————"
"Oh,no,Iain’t,"saidCharityharshly;andMissHatchardblushedtotherootsofherblondecap。Butshemusthavefeltavaguereliefathavingherexplanationcutshort,forsheconcluded,againinvokingthedaguerreotypes:"OfcourseIshallalwaysdowhatIcanforyou;andincase……incase……youknowyoucanalwayscometome……"
LawyerRoyallwaswaitingforCharityintheporchwhenshereturnedfromthisvisit。Hehadshaved,andbrushedhisblackcoat,andlookedamagnificentmonumentofaman;atsuchmomentsshereallyadmiredhim。
"Well,"hesaid,"isitsettled?"
"Yes,it’ssettled。Iain’tgoing。"
"NottotheNettletonschool?"
"Notanywhere。"
Heclearedhisthroatandaskedsternly:"Why?"
"I’drathernot,"shesaid,swingingpasthimonherwaytoherroom。ItwasthefollowingweekthathebroughtheruptheCrimsonRambleranditsfanfromHepburn。Hehadnevergivenheranythingbefore。
Thenextoutstandingincidentofherlifehadhappenedtwoyearslater,whenshewasseventeen。LawyerRoyall,whohatedtogotoNettleton,hadbeencalledthereinconnectionwithacase。Hestillexercisedhisprofession,thoughlitigationlanguishedinNorthDormeranditsoutlyinghamlets;andforoncehehadhadanopportunitythathecouldnotaffordtorefuse。
HespentthreedaysinNettleton,wonhiscase,andcamebackinhighgood—humour。Itwasararemoodwithhim,andmanifesteditselfonthisoccasionbyhistalkingimpressivelyatthesupper—tableofthe"rousingwelcome"hisoldfriendshadgivenhim。Hewoundupconfidentially:"IwasadamnfoolevertoleaveNettleton。ItwasMrs。Royallthatmademedoit。"
Charityimmediatelyperceivedthatsomethingbitterhadhappenedtohim,andthathewastryingtotalkdowntherecollection。Shewentuptobedearly,leavinghimseatedinmoodythought,hiselbowsproppedonthewornoilclothofthesuppertable。Onthewayupshehadextractedfromhisovercoatpocketthekeyofthecupboardwherethebottleofwhiskeywaskept。
Shewasawakenedbyarattlingatherdoorandjumpedoutofbed。SheheardMr。Royall’svoice,lowandperemptory,andopenedthedoor,fearinganaccident。
Nootherthoughthadoccurredtoher;butwhenshesawhiminthedoorway,arayfromtheautumnmoonfallingonhisdiscomposedface,sheunderstood。
Foramomenttheylookedateachotherinsilence;
then,asheputhisfootacrossthethreshold,shestretchedoutherarmandstoppedhim。
"Yougorightbackfromhere,"shesaid,inashrillvoicethatstartledher;"youain’tgoingtohavethatkeytonight。"
"Charity,letmein。Idon’twantthekey。I’malonesomeman,"hebegan,inthedeepvoicethatsometimesmovedher。
Herheartgaveastartledplunge,butshecontinuedtoholdhimbackcontemptuously。"Well,Iguessyoumadeamistake,then。Thisain’tyourwife’sroomanylonger。"
Shewasnotfrightened,shesimplyfeltadeepdisgust;
andperhapshedivineditorreaditinherface,forafterstaringatheramomenthedrewbackandturnedslowlyawayfromthedoor。Withhereartoherkeyholesheheardhimfeelhiswaydownthedarkstairs,andtowardthekitchen;andshelistenedforthecrashofthecupboardpanel,butinsteadsheheardhim,afteraninterval,unlockthedoorofthehouse,andhisheavystepscametoherthroughthesilenceashewalkeddownthepath。Shecrepttothewindowandsawhisbentfigurestridinguptheroadinthemoonlight。Thenabelatedsenseoffearcametoherwiththeconsciousnessofvictory,andsheslippedintobed,coldtothebone。
AdayortwolaterpoorEudoraSkeff,whofortwentyyearshadbeenthecustodianoftheHatchardlibrary,diedsuddenlyofpneumonia;andthedayafterthefuneralCharitywenttoseeMissHatchard,andaskedtobeappointedlibrarian。TherequestseemedtosurpriseMissHatchard:sheevidentlyquestionedthenewcandidate’squalifications。
"Why,Idon’tknow,mydear。Aren’tyourathertooyoung?"shehesitated。
"Iwanttoearnsomemoney,"Charitymerelyanswered。
"Doesn’tMr。Royallgiveyouallyourequire?NooneisrichinNorthDormer。"
"Iwanttoearnmoneyenoughtogetaway。"
"Togetaway?"MissHatchard’spuzzledwrinklesdeepened,andtherewasadistressfulpause。"YouwanttoleaveMr。Royall?"
"Yes:orIwantanotherwomaninthehousewithme,"
saidCharityresolutely。
MissHatchardclaspedhernervoushandsaboutthearmsofherchair。Hereyesinvokedthefadedcountenancesonthewall,andafterafaintcoughofindecisionshebroughtout:"The……thehousework’stoohardforyou,I
suppose?"
Charity’sheartgrewcold。SheunderstoodthatMissHatchardhadnohelptogiveherandthatshewouldhavetofightherwayoutofherdifficultyalone。A
deepersenseofisolationovercameher;shefeltincalculablyold。"She’sgottobetalkedtolikeababy,"shethought,withafeelingofcompassionforMissHatchard’slongimmaturity。"Yes,that’sit,"shesaidaloud。"Thehousework’stoohardforme:I’vebeencoughingagooddealthisfall。"
Shenotedtheimmediateeffectofthissuggestion。MissHatchardpaledatthememoryofpoorEudora’staking—
off,andpromisedtodowhatshecould。Butofcoursetherewerepeopleshemustconsult:theclergyman,theselectmenofNorthDormer,andadistantHatchardrelativeatSpringfield。"Ifyou’donlygonetoschool!"shesighed。ShefollowedCharitytothedoor,andthere,inthesecurityofthethreshold,saidwithaglanceofevasiveappeal:"IknowMr。Royallis……tryingattimes;buthiswifeborewithhim;andyoumustalwaysremember,Charity,thatitwasMr。
RoyallwhobroughtyoudownfromtheMountain。"CharitywenthomeandopenedthedoorofMr。Royall’s"office。"
HewassittingtherebythestovereadingDanielWebster’sspeeches。Theyhadmetatmealsduringthefivedaysthathadelapsedsincehehadcometoherdoor,andshehadwalkedathissideatEudora’sfuneral;buttheyhadnotspokenawordtoeachother。
Heglancedupinsurpriseassheentered,andshenoticedthathewasunshaved,andthathelookedunusuallyold;butasshehadalwaysthoughtofhimasanoldmanthechangeinhisappearancedidnotmoveher。ShetoldhimshehadbeentoseeMissHatchard,andwithwhatobject。Shesawthathewasastonished;
buthemadenocomment。
"Itoldherthehouseworkwastoohardforme,andI
wantedtoearnthemoneytopayforahiredgirl。ButIain’tgoingtopayforher:you’vegotto。Iwanttohavesomemoneyofmyown。"
Mr。Royall’sbushyblackeyebrowsweredrawntogetherinafrown,andhesatdrummingwithink—stainednailsontheedgeofhisdesk。
"Whatdoyouwanttoearnmoneyfor?"heasked。
"So’stogetawaywhenIwantto。"
"Whydoyouwanttogetaway?"
Hercontemptflashedout。"Doyousupposeanybody’dstayatNorthDormeriftheycouldhelpit?Youwouldn’t,folkssay!"
Withloweredheadheasked:"Where’dyougoto?"
"AnywherewhereIcanearnmyliving。I’lltryherefirst,andifIcan’tdoithereI’llgosomewhereelse。I’llgouptheMountainifIhaveto。"Shepausedonthisthreat,andsawthatithadtakeneffect。"IwantyoushouldgetMissHatchardandtheselectmentotakemeatthelibrary:andIwantawomanhereinthehousewithme,"sherepeated。
Mr。Royallhadgrownexceedinglypale。Whensheendedhestoodupponderously,leaningagainstthedesk;andforasecondortwotheylookedateachother。
"Seehere,"hesaidatlengthasthoughutteranceweredifficult,"there’ssomethingI’vebeenwantingtosaytoyou;I’doughttohavesaiditbefore。Iwantyoutomarryme。"
Thegirlstillstaredathimwithoutmoving。"Iwantyoutomarryme,"herepeated,clearinghisthroat。
"Theminister’llbeupherenextSundayandwecanfixitupthen。OrI’lldriveyoudowntoHepburntotheJustice,andgetitdonethere。I’lldowhateveryousay。"Hiseyesfellunderthemercilessstareshecontinuedtofixonhim,andheshiftedhisweightuneasilyfromonefoottotheother。Ashestoodtherebeforeher,unwieldy,shabby,disordered,thepurpleveinsdistortingthehandshepressedagainstthedesk,andhislongorator’sjawtremblingwiththeeffortofhisavowal,heseemedlikeahideousparodyofthefatherlyoldmanshehadalwaysknown。
"Marryyou?Me?"sheburstoutwithascornfullaugh。
"Wasthatwhatyoucametoaskmetheothernight?
What’scomeoveryou,Iwonder?Howlongisitsinceyou’velookedatyourselfintheglass?"Shestraightenedherself,insolentlyconsciousofheryouthandstrength。"Isupposeyouthinkitwouldbecheapertomarrymethantokeepahiredgirl。Everybodyknowsyou’retheclosestmaninEagleCounty;butIguessyou’renotgoingtogetyourmendingdoneforyouthatwaytwice。"
Mr。Royalldidnotmovewhileshespoke。Hisfacewasash—colouredandhisblackeyebrowsquiveredasthoughtheblazeofherscornhadblindedhim。Whensheceasedhehelduphishand。
"That’lldo——that’llaboutdo,"hesaid。Heturnedtothedoorandtookhishatfromthehat—peg。Onthethresholdhepaused。"Peopleain’tbeenfairtome——
fromthefirsttheyain’tbeenfairtome,"hesaid。
Thenhewentout。
AfewdayslaterNorthDormerlearnedwithsurprisethatCharityhadbeenappointedlibrarianoftheHatchardMemorialatasalaryofeightdollarsamonth,andthatoldVerenaMarsh,fromtheCrestonAlmshouse,wascomingtoliveatlawyerRoyall’sanddothecooking。
III
ItwasnotintheroomknownattheredhouseasMr。
Royall’s"office"thathereceivedhisinfrequentclients。Professionaldignityandmasculineindependencemadeitnecessarythatheshouldhavearealoffice,underadifferentroof;andhisstandingastheonlylawyerofNorthDormerrequiredthattheroofshouldbethesameasthatwhichshelteredtheTownHallandthepost—office。
Itwashishabittowalktothisofficetwiceaday,morningandafternoon。Itwasonthegroundfloorofthebuilding,withaseparateentrance,andaweatheredname—plateonthedoor。Beforegoinginhesteppedintothepost—officeforhismail——usuallyanemptyceremony——saidawordortwotothetown—clerk,whosatacrossthepassageinidlestate,andthenwentovertothestoreontheoppositecorner,whereCarrickFry,thestorekeeper,alwayskeptachairforhim,andwherehewassuretofindoneortwoselectmenleaningonthelongcounter,inanatmosphereofrope,leather,tarandcoffee—beans。Mr。Royall,thoughmonosyllabicathome,wasnotaverse,incertainmoods,toimpartinghisviewstohisfellow—townsmen;perhaps,also,hewasunwillingthathisrareclientsshouldsurprisehimsitting,clerklessandunoccupied,inhisdustyoffice。
Atanyrate,hishourstherewerenotmuchlongerormoreregularthanCharity’satthelibrary;therestofthetimehespenteitheratthestoreorindrivingaboutthecountryonbusinessconnectedwiththeinsurancecompaniesthatherepresented,orinsittingathomereadingBancroft’sHistoryoftheUnitedStatesandthespeechesofDanielWebster。
SincethedaywhenCharityhadtoldhimthatshewishedtosucceedtoEudoraSkeff’sposttheirrelationshadundefinablybutdefinitelychanged。LawyerRoyallhadkepthisword。Hehadobtainedtheplaceforheratthecostofconsiderablemaneuvering,assheguessedfromthenumberofrivalcandidates,andfromtheacerbitywithwhichtwoofthem,OrmaFryandtheeldestTargattgirl,treatedherfornearlyayearafterward。AndhehadengagedVerenaMarshtocomeupfromCrestonanddothecooking。Verenawasapooroldwidow,dodderingandshiftless:Charitysuspectedthatshecameforherkeep。Mr。Royallwastoocloseamantogiveadollaradaytoasmartgirlwhenhecouldgetadeafpauperfornothing。Butatanyrate,Verenawasthere,intheatticjustoverCharity,andthefactthatshewasdeafdidnotgreatlytroubletheyounggirl。
Charityknewthatwhathadhappenedonthathatefulnightwouldnothappenagain。Sheunderstoodthat,profoundlyasshehaddespisedMr。Royalleversince,hedespisedhimselfstillmoreprofoundly。Ifshehadaskedforawomaninthehouseitwasfarlessforherowndefensethanforhishumiliation。Sheneedednoonetodefendher:hishumbledpridewashersurestprotection。Hehadneverspokenawordofexcuseorextenuation;theincidentwasasifithadneverbeen。
Yetitsconsequenceswerelatentineverywordthatheandsheexchanged,ineveryglancetheyinstinctivelyturnedfromeachother。Nothingnowwouldevershakeherruleintheredhouse。
OnthenightofhermeetingwithMissHatchard’scousinCharitylayinbed,herbarearmsclaspedunderherroughhead,andcontinuedtothinkofhim。ShesupposedthathemeanttospendsometimeinNorthDormer。Hehadsaidhewaslookinguptheoldhousesintheneighbourhood;andthoughshewasnotveryclearastohispurpose,orastowhyanyoneshouldlookforoldhouses,whentheylayinwaitforoneoneveryroadside,sheunderstoodthatheneededthehelpofbooks,andresolvedtohuntupthenextdaythevolumeshehadfailedtofind,andanyothersthatseemedrelatedtothesubject。
Neverhadherignoranceoflifeandliteraturesoweighedonherasinrelivingtheshortsceneofherdiscomfiture。"It’snousetryingtobeanythinginthisplace,"shemutteredtoherpillow;andsheshrivelledatthevisionofvaguemetropolises,shiningsuper—Nettletons,wheregirlsinbetterclothesthanBelleBalch’stalkedfluentlyofarchitecturetoyoungmenwithhandslikeLuciusHarney’s。Thensherememberedhissuddenpausewhenhehadcomeclosetothedeskandhadhisfirstlookather。Thesighthadmadehimforgetwhathewasgoingtosay;sherecalledthechangeinhisface,andjumpingupsheranoverthebareboardstoherwashstand,foundthematches,litacandle,andliftedittothesquareoflooking—glassonthewhite—washedwall。Hersmallface,usuallysodarklypale,glowedlikearoseinthefaintorboflight,andunderherrumpledhairhereyesseemeddeeperandlargerthanbyday。Perhapsafterallitwasamistaketowishtheywereblue。Aclumsybandandbuttonfastenedherunbleachednight—gownaboutthethroat。Sheundidit,freedherthinshoulders,andsawherselfabrideinlow—neckedsatin,walkingdownanaislewithLuciusHarney。Hewouldkissherastheyleftthechurch……Sheputdownthecandleandcoveredherfacewithherhandsasiftoimprisonthekiss。AtthatmomentsheheardMr。Royall’sstepashecameupthestairstobed,andafiercerevulsionoffeelingsweptoverher。Untilthenshehadmerelydespisedhim;nowdeephatredofhimfilledherheart。Hebecametoherahorribleoldman……
Thenextday,whenMr。Royallcamebacktodinner,theyfacedeachotherinsilenceasusual。Verena’spresenceatthetablewasanexcusefortheirnottalking,thoughherdeafnesswouldhavepermittedthefreestinterchangeofconfidences。Butwhenthemealwasover,andMr。Royallrosefromthetable,helookedbackatCharity,whohadstayedtohelptheoldwomanclearawaythedishes。
"Iwanttospeaktoyouaminute,"hesaid;andshefollowedhimacrossthepassage,wondering。
Heseatedhimselfinhisblackhorse—hairarmchair,andsheleanedagainstthewindow,indifferently。Shewasimpatienttobegonetothelibrary,tohuntforthebookonNorthDormer。
"Seehere,"hesaid,"whyain’tyouatthelibrarythedaysyou’resupposedtobethere?"
Thequestion,breakinginonhermoodofblissfulabstraction,deprivedherofspeech,andshestaredathimforamomentwithoutanswering。
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