首页 >出版文学> WASHINGTON SQUARE>第8章
  Herpunishmentaccumulated;shecontinuedtobearit,however,withagooddealofsuperficialfortitude。OnSaturdaymorning,thedoctor,whohadbeenwatchinginsilence,spoketohissisterLavinia。
  "Thethinghashappened-thescoundrelhasbackedout!"
  "Never!"criedMrs。Penniman,whohadbethoughtherselfwhatsheshouldsaytoCatherine,butwasnotprovidedwithalineofdefenseagainstherbrother,sothatindignantnegationwastheonlyweaponinherhands。
  "Hehasbeggedforareprieve,then,ifyoulikethatbetter!"
  "Itseemstomakeyouveryhappythatyourdaughter'saffectionshavebeentrifledwith。"
  "Itdoes,"saidthedoctor,"forIhadforetoldit!It'sagreatpleasuretobeintheright。"
  "Yourpleasuresmakeoneshudder!"hissisterexclaimed。
  Catherinewentrigidlythroughherusualoccupations;thatis,tothepointofgoingwithheraunttochurchonSundaymorning。Shegenerallywenttoafternoonserviceaswell;butonthisoccasionhercouragefaltered,andshebeggedofMrs。Pennimantogowithouther。
  "Iamsureyouhaveasecret,"saidMrs。Penniman,withgreatsignificance,lookingatherrathergrimly。
  "IfIhave,Ishallkeepit,"Catherineanswered,turningaway。
  Mrs。Pennimanstartedforchurch;butbeforeshehadarrived,shestoppedandturnedback,andbeforetwentyminuteshadelapsedshereenteredthehouse,lookedintotheemptyparlors,andthenwentupstairsandknockedatCatherine'sdoor。Shegotnoanswer;Catherinewasnotinherroom,andMrs。Pennimanpresentlyascertainedthatshewasnotinthehouse。"Shehasgonetohim!Shehasfled!"Laviniacried,claspingherhandswithadmirationandenvy。ButshesoonperceivedthatCatherinehadtakennothingwithher-allherpersonalpropertyinherroomwasintact-andthenshejumpedatthehypothesisthatthegirlhadgoneforth,notintenderness,butinresentment。"Shehasfollowedhimtohisowndoor!Shehasburstuponhiminhisownapartment!"ItwasinthesetermsthatMrs。
  Pennimandepictedtoherselfherniece'serrand,which,viewedinthislight,gratifiedhersenseofthepicturesqueonlyashadelessstronglythantheideaofaclandestinemarriage。Tovisitone'slover,withtearsandreproaches,athisownresidence,wasanimagesoagreeabletoMrs。Penniman'smindthatshefeltasortofaestheticdisappointmentatitslacking,inthiscase,theharmoniousaccompanimentsofdarknessandstorm。AquietSundayafternoonappearedaninadequatesettingforit;and,indeed,Mrs。Pennimanwasquiteoutofhumorwiththeconditionsofthetime,whichpassedveryslowlyasshesatinthefrontparlor,inherbonnetandhercashmereshawl,awaitingCatherine'sreturn。
  Thiseventatlasttookplace。Shesawher-atthewindow-mountthesteps,andshewenttoawaitherinthehall,whereshepounceduponherassoonasshehadenteredthehouse,anddrewherintotheparlor,closingthedoorwithsolemnity。Catherinewasflushed,andhereyewasbright。Mrs。Pennimanhardlyknewwhattothink。
  "MayIventuretoaskwhereyouhavebeen?"shedemanded。
  "Ihavebeentotakeawalk,"saidCatherine。"Ithoughtyouhadgonetochurch。"
  "Ididgotochurch;buttheservicewasshorterthanusual。Andpraywheredidyouwalk?"
  "Idon'tknow!"saidCatherine。
  "Yourignoranceismostextraordinary!DearCatherine,youcantrustme。"
  "WhatamItotrustyouwith?"
  "Withyoursecret-yoursorrow。"
  "Ihavenosorrow!"saidCatherine,fiercely。
  "Mypoorchild,"Mrs。Pennimaninsisted,"youcan'tdeceiveme。I
  knoweverything。Ihavebeenrequestedto-a-toconversewithyou。"
  "Idon'twanttoconverse!"
  "Itwillrelieveyou。Don'tyouknowShakespeare'slines-'Thegriefthatdoesnotspeak'!Mydeargirl,itisbetterasitis!"
  "Whatisbetter?"Catherineasked。
  Shewasreallytooperverse。Acertainamountofperversitywastobeallowedforinayoungladywhoseloverhadthrownherover;butnotsuchanamountaswouldproveinconvenienttohisapologists。
  "Thatyoushouldbereasonable,"saidMrs。Penniman,withsomesternness,"thatyoushouldtakecounselofworldlyprudence,andsubmittopracticalconsiderations;thatyoushouldagreeto-a-
  separate。"
  Catherinehadbeeniceuptothismoment,butatthiswordsheflamedup。"Separate?Whatdoyouknowaboutourseparating?"
  Mrs。Pennimanshookherheadwithasadnessinwhichtherewasalmostasenseofinjury。"Yourprideismypride,andyoursusceptibilitiesaremine。Iseeyoursideperfectly,butIalso"-andshesmiledwithmelancholysuggestiveness-"Ialsoseethesituationasawhole!"
  ThissuggestivenesswaslostuponCatherine,whorepeatedherviolentinquiry。"Whydoyoutalkaboutseparation;whatdoyouknowaboutit?"
  "Wemuststudyresignation,"saidMrs。Penniman,hesitating,butsententiousataventure。
  "Resignationtowhat?"
  "Toachangeof-ofourplans。"
  "Myplanshavenotchanged!"saidCatherine,withalittlelaugh。
  "Ah,butMr。Townsend'shave,"herauntanswered,verygently。
  "Whatdoyoumean?"
  Therewasanimperiousbrevityinthetoneofthisinquiry,againstwhichMrs。Pennimanfeltboundtoprotest;theinformationwithwhichshehadundertakentosupplyherniecewasafterallafavor。Shehadtriedsharpness,andshehadtriedsternness;butneitherwoulddo;shewasshockedatthegirl'sobstinacy。"Ahwell,"shesaid,"ifhehasn'ttoldyou!"andsheturnedaway。
  Catherinewatchedheramomentinsilence;thenshehurriedafterher,stoppingherbeforeshereachedthedoor。"Toldmewhat?Whatdoyoumean?Whatareyouhintingatandthreateningmewith?"
  "Isn'titbrokenoff?"askedMrs。Penniman。
  "Myengagement?Notintheleast!"
  "Ibegyourpardoninthatcase。Ihavespokentoosoon!"
  "Toosoon?Soonorlate,"Catherinebrokeout,"youspeakfoolishlyandcruelly!"
  "Whathashappenedbetweenyouthen?"askedheraunt,struckbythesincerityofthiscry,"forsomethingcertainlyhashappened。"
  "NothinghashappenedbutthatIlovehimmoreandmore!"
  Mrs。Pennimanwassilentaninstant。"Isupposethat'sthereasonyouwenttoseehimthisafternoon。"
  Catherineflushedasifshehadbeenstruck。"Yes,Ididgotoseehim!Butthat'smyownbusiness。"
  "Verywell,then;wewon'ttalkaboutit。"AndMrs。Pennimanmovedtowardthedooragain;butshewasstoppedbyasuddenimploringcryfromthegirl。
  "AuntLavinia,wherehashegone?"
  "Ah,youadmitthenthathehasgoneaway!Didn'ttheyknowathishouse?"
  "Theysaidhehadlefttown。Iaskednomorequestions;Iwasashamed,"saidCatherine,simplyenough。
  "Youneedn'thavetakensocompromisingastepifyouhadhadalittlemoreconfidenceinme,"Mrs。Pennimanobserved,withagooddealofgrandeur。
  "IsittoNewOrleans?"Catherinewenton,irrelevantly。
  ItwasthefirsttimeMrs。PennimanhadheardofNewOrleansinthisconnection;butshewasaversetolettingCatherineknowthatshewasinthedark。SheattemptedtostrikeanilluminationfromtheinstructionsshehadreceivedfromMorris。"MydearCatherine,"shesaid,"whenaseparationhasbeenagreedupon,thefartherhegoesawaythebetter。"
  "Agreedupon?Hasheagreeduponitwithyou?"Aconsummatesenseofheraunt'smeddlesomefollyhadcomeoverherduringthelastfiveminutes,andshewassickenedatthethoughtthatMrs。Pennimanhadbeenletloose,asitwere,uponherhappiness。
  "Hecertainlyhassometimesadvisedwithme,"saidMrs。Penniman。
  "Isityou,then,thathaschangedhimandmadehimsounnatural?"
  Catherinecried。"Isityouthathaveworkedonhimandtakenhimfromme?Hedoesn'tbelongtoyou,andIdon'tseehowyouhaveanythingtodowithwhatisbetweenus!Isityouthathavemadethisplot,andtoldhimtoleaveme?Howcouldyoubesowicked,socruel?WhathaveIeverdonetoyou?Whycan'tyouleavemealone?Iwasafraidyouwouldspoileverything;foryoudospoileverythingyoutouch!I
  wasafraidofyouallthetimewewereabroad;IhadnorestwhenI
  thoughtthatyouwerealwaystalkingtohim。"Catherinewentonwithgrowingvehemence,pouringout,inherbitternessandintheclairvoyanceofherpassion(whichsuddenly,jumpingallprocesses,madeherjudgeherauntfinallyandwithoutappeal),theuneasinesswhichhadlainforsomanymonthsuponherheart。
  Mrs。Pennimanwasscaredandbewildered;shesawnoprospectofintroducingherlittleaccountofthepurityofMorris'smotives。"Youareamostungratefulgirl!"shecried。"Doyouscoldmefortalkingwithhim?I'msurewenevertalkedofanythingbutyou!"
  "Yes;andthatwasthewayyouworriedhim;youmadehimtiredofmyveryname!Iwishyouhadneverspokenofmetohim;Ineveraskedyourhelp!"
  "Iamsureifithadn'tbeenformehewouldneverhavecometothehouse,andyouwouldneverhaveknownthathethoughtofyou,"
  Mrs。Pennimanrejoined,withagooddealofjustice。
  "Iwishheneverhadcometothehouse,andthatIneverhadknownit!That'sbetterthanthis,"saidpoorCatherine。
  "Youareaveryungratefulgirl,"AuntLaviniarepeated。
  Catherine'soutbreakofangerandthesenseofwronggaveher,whiletheylasted,thesatisfactionthatcomesfromallassertionofforce;theyhurriedheralong,andthereisalwaysasortofpleasureincleavingtheair。Butatbottomshehatedtobeviolent,andshewasconsciousofnoaptitudefororganizedresentment。Shecalmedherselfwithagreateffort,butwithgreatrapidity,andwalkedabouttheroomafewmoments,tryingtosaytoherselfthatheraunthadmeanteverythingforthebest。Shedidnotsucceedinsayingitwithmuchconviction,butafteralittleshewasabletospeakquietlyenough。
  "Iamnotungrateful,butIamveryunhappy。It'shardtobegratefulforthat,"shesaid。"Willyoupleasetellmewhereheis?"
  "Ihaven'ttheleastidea;Iamnotinsecretcorrespondencewithhim!"AndMrs。Pennimanwished,indeed,thatshewere,sothatshemightlethimknowhowCatherineabusedher,afterallshehaddone。
  "Wasitaplanofhis,then,tobreakoff-?"BythistimeCatherinehadbecomecompletelyquiet。
  Mrs。Pennimanbeganagaintohaveaglimpseofherchanceforexplaining。"Heshrunk-heshrunk,"shesaid。"Helackedcourage,butitwasthecouragetoinjureyou!Hecouldn'tbeartobringdownonyouyourfather'scurse。"
  Catherinelistenedtothiswithhereyesfixeduponheraunt,andcontinuedtogazeatherforsometimeafterward。"Didhetellyoutosaythat?"
  "Hetoldmetosaymanythings-allsodelicate,sodiscriminating;andhetoldmetotellyouhehopedyouwouldn'tdespisehim。"
  "Idon't,"saidCatherine;andthensheadded,"Andwillhestayawayforever?"
  "Oh,foreverisalongtime。Yourfather,perhaps,won'tliveforever。"
  "Perhapsnot。"
  "Iamsureyouappreciate-youunderstand-eventhoughyourheartbleeds,"saidMrs。Penniman。"Youdoubtlessthinkhimtooscrupulous。SodoI,butIrespecthisscruples。Whatheasksofyouisthatyoushoulddothesame。"
  Catherinewasstillgazingatheraunt,butshespokeatlastasifshehadnotheardornotunderstoodher。"Ithasbeenaregularplan,then。Hehasbrokenitoffdeliberately;hehasgivenmeup。"
  "Forthepresent,dearCatherine;hehasputitoff,only。"
  "Hehasleftmealone,"Catherinewenton。
  "Haven'tyoume?"askedMrs。Penniman,withsomesolemnity。
  Catherineshookherheadslowly。"Idon'tbelieveit!"andshelefttheroom。
  CHAPTER31。
  THOUGHshehadforcedherselftobecalm,shepreferredpracticingthisvirtueinprivate,andsheforeboretoshowherselfattea-arepastwhich,onSundays,atsixo'clock,tooktheplaceofdinner。
  DoctorSloperandhissistersatfacetoface,butMrs。Pennimannevermetherbrother'seye。Lateintheeveningshewentwithhim,butwithoutCatherine,totheirsisterAlmond's,where,betweenthetwoladies,Catherine'sunhappysituationwasdiscussedwithafranknessthatwasconditionedbyagooddealofmysteriousreticenceonMrs。
  Penniman'spart。
  "Iamdelightedheisnottomarryher,"saidMrs。Almond,"butheoughttobehorsewhippedallthesame。"
  Mrs。Penniman,whowasshockedathersister'scoarseness,repliedthathehadbeenactuatedbythenoblestofmotives-thedesirenottoimpoverishCatherine。
  "IamveryhappythatCatherineisnottobeimpoverished-butI
  hopehemayneverhaveapennytoomuch!Andwhatdoesthepoorgirlsaytoyou?"Mrs。Almondasked。
  "ShesaysIhaveageniusforconsolation,"saidMrs。Penniman。
  Thiswastheaccountofthematterthatshegavetohersister,anditwasperhapswiththeconsciousnessofgeniusthat,onherreturnthateveningtoWashingtonSquare,sheagainpresentedherselfforadmittanceatCatherine'sdoor。Catherinecameandopenedit;shewasapparentlyveryquiet。
  "Ionlywanttogiveyoualittlewordofadvice,"shesaid。"Ifyourfatherasksyou,saythateverythingisgoingon。"
  Catherinestoodthere,withherhandontheknob,lookingatheraunt,butnotaskinghertocomein。"Doyouthinkhewillaskme?"
  "Iamsurehewill。Heaskedmejustnow,onourwayhomefromyourauntElizabeth's。IexplainedthewholethingtoyourauntElizabeth。IsaidtoyourfatherIknewnothingaboutit。"
  "Doyouthinkhewillaskme,whenhesees-whenhesees-?"ButhereCatherinestopped。
  "Themorehesees,themoredisagreeablehewillbe,"saidheraunt。
  "Heshallseeaslittleaspossible!"Catherinedeclared。
  "Tellhimyouaretobemarried。"
  "SoIam,"saidCatherine,softly;andsheclosedthedooruponheraunt。
  Shecouldnothavesaidthistwodayslater-forinstance,onTuesday,whensheatlastreceivedaletterfromMorrisTownsend。Itwasanepistleofconsiderablelength,measuringfivelargesquarepages,andwrittenatPhiladelphia。Itwasanexplanatorydocument,anditexplainedagreatmanythings,chiefamongwhichweretheconsiderationsthathadledthewritertotakeadvantageofanurgent"professional"absencetotryandbanishfromhismindtheimageofonewhosepathhehadcrossedonlytoscatteritwithruins。Heventuredtoexpectbutpartialsuccessinthisattempt,buthecouldpromiseherthat,whateverhisfailure,hewouldneveragaininterposebetweenhergenerousheartandherbrilliantprospectsandfilialduties。Heclosedwithanintimationthathisprofessionalpursuitsmightcompelhimtotravelforsomemonths,andwiththehopethatwhentheyshouldeachhaveaccommodatedthemselvestowhatwassternlyinvolvedintheirrespectivepositions-
  evenshouldthisresultnotbereachedforyears-theyshouldmeetasfriends,asfellowsufferers,asinnocentbutphilosophicvictimsofagreatsociallaw。Thatherlifeshouldbepeacefulandhappywasthedearestwishofhimwhoventuredstilltosubscribehimselfhermostobedientservant。Theletterwasbeautifullywritten,andCatherine,whokeptitformanyyearsafterthis,wasable,whenhersenseofthebitternessofitsmeaningandthehollownessofitstonehadgrownlessacute,toadmireitsgraceofexpression。Atpresent,foralongtimeaftershereceivedit,allshehadtohelpherwasthedetermination,dailymorerigid,tomakenoappealtothecompassionofherfather。
  Hesufferedaweektoelapse,andthenoneday,inthemorning,atanhouratwhichsherarelysawhim,hestrolledintothebackparlor。
  Hehadwatchedhistime,andhefoundheralone。Shewassittingwithsomework,andhecameandstoodinfrontofher。Hewasgoingout;hehadonhishat,andwasdrawingonhisgloves。
  "Itdoesn'tseemtomethatyouaretreatingmejustnowwithalltheconsiderationIdeserve,"hesaidinamoment。
  "Idon'tknowwhatIhavedone,"Catherineanswered,withhereyesonherwork。
  "YouhaveapparentlyquitebanishedfromyourmindtherequestI
  madeyouatLiverpoolbeforewesailed-therequestthatyouwouldnotifymeinadvancebeforeleavingmyhouse。"
  "Ihavenotleftyourhouse,"saidCatherine。
  "Butyouintendtoleaveit,and,bywhatyougavemetounderstand,yourdeparturemustbeimpending。Infact,thoughyouarestillhereinbody,youarealreadyabsentinspirit。Yourmindhastakenupitsresidencewithyourprospectivehusband,andyoumightquiteaswellbelodgedundertheconjugalroofforallthebenefitwegetfromyoursociety。"
  "Iwilltryandbemorecheerful,"saidCatherine。
  "Youcertainlyoughttobecheerful;youaskagreatdealifyouarenot。Tothepleasureofmarryingacharmingyoungmanyouaddthatofhavingyourownway;youstrikemeasaveryluckyyounglady!"
  Catherinegotup;shewassuffocating。Butshefoldedherworkdeliberatelyandcorrectly,bendingherburningfaceuponit。Herfatherstoodwherehehadplantedhimself;shehopedhewouldgo,buthesmoothedandbuttonedhisgloves,andthenherestedhishandsuponhiships。
  "ItwouldbeaconveniencetometoknowwhenImayexpecttohaveanemptyhouse,"hewenton。"Whenyougo,yourauntmarches。"
  Shelookedathimatlast,withalong,silentgaze,which,inspiteofherprideandherresolution,utteredpartoftheappealshehadtriednottomake。Herfather'scoldgrayeyesoundedherown,andheinsistedonhispoint。
  "Isittomorrow?Isitnextweek,ortheweekafter?"
  "Ishallnotgoaway!"saidCatherine。
  Thedoctorraisedhiseyebrows。"Hashebackedout?"
  "Ihavebrokenoffmyengagement。"
  "Brokenitoff?"
  "IhaveaskedhimtoleaveNewYork,andhehasgoneawayforalongtime。"
  Thedoctorwasbothpuzzledanddisappointed,buthesolvedhisperplexitybysayingtohimselfthathisdaughtersimplymisrepresented-justifiably,ifonewould,butnevertheless,misrepresented-thefacts;andheeasedoffhisdisappointment,whichwasthatofamanlosingachanceforalittletriumphthathehadrathercountedon,byafewwordsthatheutteredaloud。
  "Howdoeshetakehisdismissal?"
  "Idon'tknow!"saidCatherine,lessingeniouslythanshehadhithertospoken。
  "Youmeanyoudon'tcare?Youarerathercruel,afterencouraginghimandplayingwithhimforsolong!"
  Thedoctorhadhisrevenge,afterall。
  CHAPTER32。
  OURSTORYhashithertomovedwithveryshortsteps,butasitapproachesitsterminationitmusttakealongstride。Astimewenton,itmighthaveappearedtothedoctorthathisdaughter'saccountofherrapturewithMorrisTownsend,merebravadoashehaddeemedit,wasinsomedegreejustifiedbythesequel。Morrisremainedasrigidlyandunremittinglyabsentasifhehaddiedofabrokenheart,andCatherinehadapparentlyburiedthememoryofthisfruitlessepisodeasdeepasifithadterminatedbyherownchoice。Weknowthatshehadbeendeeplyandincurablywounded,butthedoctorhadnomeansofknowingit。Hewascertainlycuriousaboutit,andwouldhavegivenagooddealtodiscovertheexacttruth;butitwashispunishmentthatheneverknew-hispunishment,Imean,fortheabuseofsarcasminhisrelationswithhisdaughter。Therewasagooddealofeffectivesarcasminherkeepinghiminthedark,andtherestoftheworldconspiredwithher,inthissense,tobesarcastic。Mrs。Pennimantoldhimnothing,partlybecauseheneverquestionedher-hemadetoolightofMrs。Pennimanforthat-andpartlybecausesheflatteredherselfthatatormentingreserve,andasereneprofessionofignorance,wouldavengeherforhistheorythatshehadmeddledinthematter。HewenttwoorthreetimestoseeMrs。Montgomery,butMrs。Montgomeryhadnothingtoimpart。Shesimplyknewthatherbrother'sengagementwasbrokenoff;andnowthatMissSloperwasoutofdanger,shepreferrednottobearwitnessinanywayagainstMorris。Shehaddonesobefore-howeverunwillingly-becauseshewassorryforMissSloper;butshewasnotsorryforMissSlopernow-notatallsorry。
  MorrishadtoldhernothingabouthisrelationswithMissSloperatthetime,andhehadtoldhernothingsince。Hewasalwaysaway,andheveryseldomwrotetoher;shebelievedhehadgonetoCalifornia。
  Mrs。Almondhad,inhersister'sphrase,"takenup"Catherineviolentlysincetherecentcatastrophe;but,thoughthegirlwasverygratefultoherforherkindness,sherevealednosecrets,andthegoodladycouldgivethedoctornosatisfaction。Even,however,hadshebeenabletonarratetohimtheprivatehistoryofhisdaughter'sunhappyloveaffair,itwouldhavegivenheracertaincomforttoleavehiminignorance;forMrs。Almondwasatthistimenotaltogetherinsympathywithherbrother。ShehadguessedforherselfthatCatherinehadbeencruellyjilted-sheknewnothingfromMrs。Penniman,forMrs。PennimanhadnotventuredtolaythefamousexplanationofMorris'smotivesbeforeMrs。Almond,thoughshehadthoughtitgoodenoughforCatherine-andshepronouncedherbrothertooconsistentlyindifferenttowhatthepoorcreaturemusthavesufferedandmuststillbesuffering。DoctorSloperhadhistheory,andherarelyalteredhistheories。Themarriagewouldhavebeenanabominableone,andthegirlhadhadablessedescape。Shewasnottobepitiedforthat,andtopretendtocondolewithherwouldhavebeentomakeconcessionstotheideathatshehadeverhadarighttothinkofMorris。
  "Iputmyfootonthisideafromthefirst,andIkeepittherenow,"saidthedoctor。"Idon'tseeanythingcruelinthat;onecan'tkeepittheretoolong。"TothisMrs。Almondmorethanoncerepliedthat,ifCatherinehadgotridofherincongruouslover,shedeservedthecreditofit,andthattobringherselftoherfather'senlightenedviewofthemattermusthavecostheraneffortthathewasboundtoappreciate。
  "Iambynomeanssureshehasgotridofhim,"thedoctorsaid。
  "Thereisnotthesmallestprobabilitythat,afterhavingbeenasobstinateasamulefortwoyears,shesuddenlybecameamenabletoreason。Itisinfinitelymoreprobablethathegotridofher。"
  "Allthemorereasonyoushouldbegentlewithher。"
  "Iamgentlewithher。ButIcan'tdothepathetic;Ican'tpumpuptears,tolookgraceful,overthemostfortunatethingthateverhappenedtoher。"
  "Youhavenosympathy,"saidMrs。Almond。"Thatwasneveryourstrongpoint。Youhaveonlytolookathertoseethat,rightorwrong,andwhethertherupturecamefromherselforfromhim,herpoorlittleheartisgrievouslybruised。"
  "Handlingbruises,andevendroppingtearsonthem,doesn'tmakethemanybetter!Mybusinessistoseeshegetsnomoreknocks,andthatIshallcarefullyattendto。ButIdon'tatallrecognizeyourdescriptionofCatherine。Shedoesn'tstrikemeintheleastasayoungwomangoingaboutinsearchofamoralpoultice。Infact,sheseemstomemuchbetterthanwhilethefellowwashangingabout。Sheisperfectlycomfortableandblooming;sheeatsandsleeps,takesherusualexercise,andoverloadsherself,asusual,withfinery。
  Sheisalwaysknittingsomepurseorembroideringsomehandkerchief,anditseemstomesheturnsthesearticlesoutaboutasfastasever。
  Shehasn'tmuchtosay;butwhenhadsheanythingtosay?Shehadherlittledance,andnowsheissittingdowntorest。Isuspectthat,onthewhole,sheenjoysit。"
  "Sheenjoysitaspeopleenjoygettingridofalegthathasbeencrushed。Thestateofmindafteramputationisdoubtlessoneofcomparativerepose。"
  "IfyourlegisametaphorforyoungTownsend,Icanassureyouhehasneverbeencrushed。Crushed?Nothe!Heisaliveandperfectlyintact;andthat'swhyIamnotsatisfied。"
  "Shouldyouhavelikedtokillhim?"askedMrs。Almond。
  "Yes,verymuch。Ithinkitisquitepossiblethatitisallablind。"
  "Ablind?"
  "Anarrangementbetweenthem。Ilfaitlemort,astheysayinFrance;butheislookingoutofthecornerofhiseye。Youcandependuponit,hehasnotburnthisships;hehaskeptonetocomebackin。WhenIamdead,hewillsetsailagain,andthenshewillmarryhim。"
  "Itisinterestingtoknowthatyouaccuseyouronlydaughterofbeingthevilestofhypocrites,"saidMrs。Almond。
  "Idon'tseewhatdifferenceherbeingmyonlydaughtermakes。Itisbettertoaccuseonethanadozen。ButIdon'taccuseanyone。ThereisnotthesmallesthypocrisyaboutCatherine,andIdenythatsheevenpretendstobemiserable。"
  Thedoctor'sideathatthethingwasa"blind"haditsintermissionsandrevivals;butitmaybesaid,onthewhole,tohaveincreasedashegrewolder;togetherwithhisimpressionsofCatherine'sbloomingandcomfortablecondition。Naturally,ifhehadnotfoundgroundsforviewingherasalovelornmaidenduringtheyearortwothatfollowedhergreattrouble,hefoundnoneatatimewhenshehadcompletelyrecoveredherself-possession。Hewasobligedtorecognizethefactthat,ifthetwoyoungpeoplewerewaitingforhimtogetoutoftheway,theywereatleastwaitingverypatiently。HehadheardfromtimetotimethatMorriswasinNewYork;
  butheneverremainedtherelong,and,tothebestofthedoctor'sbelief,hadnocommunicationwithCatherine。Hewassuretheynevermet,andhehadreasontosuspectthatMorrisneverwrotetoher。
  Aftertheletterthathasbeenmentioned,sheheardfromhimtwiceagain,atconsiderableintervals;butonnoneoftheseoccasionsdidshewriteherself。Ontheotherhand,asthedoctorobserved,sheavertedherselfrigidlyfromtheideaofmarryingotherpeople。Heropportunitiesfordoingsowerenotnumerous,buttheyoccurredoftenenoughtotestherdisposition。Sherefusedawidower,amanwithagenialtemperament,ahandsomefortune,andthreelittlegirls(hehadheardthatshewasveryfondofchildren,andhepointedtohisownwithsomeconfidence);andsheturnedadeafeartothesolicitationsofacleveryounglawyer,who,withtheprospectofagreatpractice,andthereputationofamostagreeableman,hadhadtheshrewdness,whenhecametolookabouthimforawife,tobelievethatshewouldsuithimbetterthanseveralyoungerandprettiergirls。Mr。Macalister,thewidower,haddesiredtomakeamarriageofreason,andhadchosenCatherineforwhathesupposedtobeherlatentmatronlyqualities;butJohnLudlow,whowasayearthegirl'sjunior,andspokenofalwaysasayoungmanwhomighthavehis"pick,"wasseriouslyinlovewithher。Catherine,however,wouldneverlookathim;shemadeitplaintohimthatshethoughthecametoseehertoooften。Heafterwardconsoledhimself,andmarriedaverydifferentperson,littleMissSturtevant,whoseattractionswereobvioustothedullestcomprehension。Catherine,atthetimeoftheseevents,hadleftherthirtiethyearwellbehindher,andhadquitetakenherplaceasanoldmaid。Herfatherwouldhavepreferredsheshouldmarry,andheoncetoldherthathehopedshewouldnotbetoofastidious。"Ishouldliketoseeyouanhonestman'swifebeforeIdie,"hesaid。ThiswasafterJohnLudlowhadbeencompelledtogiveitup,thoughthedoctorhadadvisedhimtopersevere。Thedoctorexercisednofurtherpressure,andhadthecreditofnot"worrying"atalloverhisdaughter'ssingleness;infact,heworriedrathermorethanappeared,andtherewereconsiderableperiodsduringwhichhefeltsurethatMorrisTownsendwashiddenbehindsomedoor。"Ifheisnot,whydoesn'tshemarry?"heaskedhimself。"Limitedasherintelligencemaybe,shemustunderstandperfectlywellthatsheismadetodotheusualthing。"
  Catherine,however,becameanadmirableoldmaid。Sheformedhabits,regulatedherdaysuponasystemofherown,interestedherselfincharitableinstitutions,asylums,hospitals,andaidsocieties;andwentgenerally,withanevenandnoiselessstep,abouttherigidbusinessofherlife。Thislifehad,however,asecrethistoryaswellasapublicone-ifImaytalkofthepublichistoryofamatureanddiffidentspinsterforwhompublicityhadalwaysacombinationofterrors。FromherownpointofviewthegreatfactsofhercareerwerethatMorrisTownsendhadtrifledwithheraffection,andthatherfatherhadbrokenitsspring。Nothingcouldeveralterthesefacts;
  theywerealwaysthere,likehername,herage,herplainface。
  NothingcouldeverundothewrongorcurethepainthatMorrishadinflictedonher,andnothingcouldevermakeherfeeltowardherfatherasshefeltinheryoungeryears。Therewassomethingdeadinherlife,andherdutywastotryandfillthevoid。Catherinerecognizedthisdutytotheutmost;shehadagreatdisapprovalofbroodingandmoping。Shehad,ofcourse,nofacultyforquenchingmemoryindissipation;butshemingledfreelyintheusualgaietiesofthetown,andshebecameatlastaninevitablefigureatallrespectableentertainments。Shewasgreatlyliked,andastimewentonshegrewtobeasortofkindlymaidenaunttotheyoungerportionofsociety。Younggirlswereapttoconfidetohertheirloveaffairs(whichtheyneverdidtoMrs。Penniman),andyoungmentobefondofherwithoutknowingwhy。Shedevelopedafewharmlesseccentricities;herhabits,onceformed,wereratherstifflymaintained;heropinions,onallmoralandsocialmatters,wereextremelyconservative;andbeforeshewasfortyshewasregardedasanold-fashionedperson,andanauthorityoncustomsthathadpassedaway。Mrs。Penniman,incomparison,wasquiteagirlishfigure;shegrewyoungerassheadvancedinlife。Shelostnoneofherrelishforbeautyandmystery,butshehadlittleopportunitytoexerciseit。
  WithCatherine'slaterwooersshefailedtoestablishrelationsasintimateasthosewhichhadgivenhersomanyinterestinghoursinthesocietyofMorrisTownsend。Thesegentlemenhadanindefinablemistrustofhergoodoffices,andtheynevertalkedtoheraboutCatherine'scharms。Herringlets,herbucklesandbanglesglistenedmorebrightlywitheachsucceedingyear,andsheremainedquitethesameofficiousandimaginativeMrs。Penniman,andtheoddmixtureofimpetuosityandcircumspection,thatwehavehithertoknown。Asregardsonepoint,however,hercircumspectionprevailed,andshemustbegivenduecreditforit。ForupwardofseventeenyearsshenevermentionedMorrisTownsend'snametoherniece。Catherinewasgratefultoher,butthisconsistentsilence,solittleinaccordwithheraunt'scharacter,gaveheracertainalarm,andshecouldneverwhollyridherselfofasuspicionthatMrs。Pennimansometimeshadnewsofhim。
  CHAPTER33。
  LITTLEBYLITTLEDoctorSloperhadretiredfromhisprofession;hevisitedonlythosepatientsinwhosesymptomsherecognizedacertainoriginality。HewentagaintoEurope,andremainedtwoyears;Catherinewentwithhim,andonthisoccasionMrs。Pennimanwasoftheparty。EuropeapparentlyhadfewsurprisesforMrs。Penniman,whofrequentlyremarked,inthemostromanticsites,"YouknowIamveryfamiliarwithallthis。"Itshouldbeaddedthatsuchremarkswereusuallynotaddressedtoherbrother,oryettoherniece,buttofellowtouristswhohappenedtobeathand,oreventotheciceroneorthegoatherdintheforeground。
  Oneday,afterhisreturnfromEurope,thedoctorsaidsomethingtohisdaughterthatmadeherstart-itseemedtocomefromsofaroutofthepast。
  "IshouldlikeyoutopromisemesomethingbeforeIdie。"
  "Whydoyoutalkaboutyourdying?"sheasked。
  "BecauseIamsixty-eightyearsold。"
  "Ihopeyouwilllivealongtime,"saidCatherine。
  "IhopeIshall!ButsomedayIshalltakeabadcold,andthenitwillnotmattermuchwhatanyonehopes。Thatwillbethemannerofmyexit,andwhenittakesplace,rememberItoldyouso。PromisemenottomarryMorrisTownsendafterIamgone。"
  ThiswaswhatmadeCatherinestart,asIhavesaid;butherstartwasasilentone,andforsomemomentsshesaidnothing。"Whydoyouspeakofhim?"sheaskedatlast。
  "YouchallengeeverythingIsay。Ispeakofhimbecausehe'satopic,likeanyother。He'stobeseen,likeanyoneelse,andheisstilllookingforawife-havinghadoneandgotridofher,Idon'tknowbywhatmeans。HehaslatelybeeninNewYork,andatyourcousinMarian'shouse;yourauntElizabethsawhimthere。"
  "Theyneitherofthemtoldme,"saidCatherine。
  "That'stheirmerit;it'snotyours。Hehasgrownfatandbald,andhehasnotmadehisfortune。ButIcan'ttrustthosefactsalonetosteelyourheartagainsthim,andthat'swhyIaskyoutopromise。"
  "Fatandbald。"ThesewordspresentedastrangeimagetoCatherine'smind,outofwhichthememoryofthemostbeautifulyoungmanintheworldhadneverfaded。"Idon'tthinkyouunderstand,"shesaid。"I
  veryseldomthinkofMr。Townsend。"
  "Itwillbeveryeasyforyoutogoon,then。Promiseme,aftermydeath,todothesame。"
  Again,forsomemoments,Catherinewassilent;herfather'srequestdeeplyamazedher;itopenedanoldwound,andmadeitacheafresh。"Idon'tthinkIcanpromisethat,"sheanswered。
  "Itwouldbeagreatsatisfaction,"saidherfather。
  "Youdon'tunderstand。Ican'tpromisethat。"
  Thedoctorwassilentaminute。"Iaskyouforaparticularreason。Iamalteringmywill。"
  ThisreasonfailedtostrikeCatherine;andindeedshescarcelyunderstoodit。Allherfeelingsweremergedinthesensethathewastryingtotreatherashehadtreatedheryearsbefore。Shehadsufferedfromitthen;andnowallherexperience,allheracquiredtranquillityandrigidityprotested。Shehadbeensohumbleinheryouththatshecouldnowaffordtohavealittlepride,andtherewassomethinginhisrequest,andinherfather'sthinkinghimselfsofreetomakeit,thatseemedaninjurytoherdignity。PoorCatherine'sdignitywasnotaggressive;itneversatinstate;butifyoupushedfarenoughyoucouldfindit。Herfatherhadpushedveryfar。
  "Ican'tpromise,"shesimplyrepeated。
  "Youareveryobstinate,"saidthedoctor。
  "Idon'tthinkyouunderstand。"
  "Pleaseexplain,then。"
  "Ican'texplain,"saidCatherine,"andIcan'tpromise。"
  "Uponmyword,"herfatherexclaimed,"Ihadnoideahowobstinateyouare!"
  Sheknewherselfthatshewasobstinate,anditgaveheracertainjoy。Shewasnowamiddle-agedwoman。
  Aboutayearafterthis,theaccidentthatthedoctorhadspokenofoccurred:Hetookaviolentcold。DrivingouttoBloomingdaleoneAprildaytoseeapatientofunsoundmind,whowasconfinedinaprivateasylumfortheinsane,andwhosefamilygreatlydesiredamedicalopinionfromaneminentsource,hewascaughtinaspringshower,andbeinginabuggy,withoutahood,hefoundhimselfsoakedtotheskin。Hecamehomewithanominouschill,andonthemorrowhewasseriouslyill。"Itiscongestionofthelungs,"hesaidtoCatherine。"Ishallneedverygoodnursing。Itwillmakenodifference,forIshallnotrecover;butIwisheverythingtobedone,tothesmallestdetail,asifIshould。Ihateanill-conductedsick-room,andyouwillbesogoodastonurseme,onthehypothesisthatIshallgetwell。"Hetoldherwhichofhisfellowphysicianstosendfor,andgaveheramultitudeofminutedirections;itwasquiteontheoptimistichypothesisthatshenursedhim。Buthehadneverbeenwronginhislife,andhewasnotwrongnow。Hewastouchinghisseventiethyear,andthoughhehadaverywell-temperedconstitution,hisholduponlifehadlostitsfirmness。Hediedafterthreeweeks'illness,duringwhichMrs。Penniman,aswellashisdaughter,hadbeenassiduousathisbedside。
  Onhiswillbeingopened,afteradecentinterval,itwasfoundtoconsistoftwoportions。Thefirstofthesedatedfromtenyearsback,andconsistedofaseriesofdispositionsbywhichheleftthegreatmassofhispropertytohisdaughter,withbecominglegaciestohistwosisters。Thesecondwasacodicil,ofrecentorigin,maintainingtheannuitiestoMrs。PennimanandMrs。Almond,butreducingCatherine'ssharetoafifthofwhathehadfirstbequeathedher。"Sheisamplyprovidedforfromhermother'sside,"thedocumentran,"neverhavingspentmorethanafractionofherincomefromthissource;sothatherfortuneisalreadymorethansufficienttoattractthoseunscrupulousadventurerswhomshehasgivenmereasontobelievethatshepersistsinregardingasaninterestingclass。"Thelargeremainderofhisproperty,therefore,DoctorSloperhaddividedintosevenunequalparts,whichheleft,asendowments,toasmanydifferenthospitalsandschoolsofmedicineinvariouscitiesoftheunion。
  ToMrs。Pennimanitseemedmonstrousthatamanshouldplaysuchtrickswithotherpeople'smoney;forafterhisdeath,ofcourse,asshesaid,itwasotherpeople's。"Ofcourse,youwillimmediatelybreakthewill,"sheremarkedtoCatherine。
  "Ohno,"Catherineanswered,"Ilikeitverymuch。OnlyIwishithadbeenexpressedalittledifferently!"
  CHAPTER34。
  ITWASHERHABITtoremainintownverylateinthesummer;shepreferredthehouseinWashingtonSquaretoanyotherhabitationwhatever,anditwasunderprotestthatsheusedtogototheseasideforthemonthofAugust。Attheseashespenthermonthatanhotel。Theyearthatherfatherdiedsheintermittedthiscustomaltogether,notthinkingitconsistentwithdeepmourning;andtheyearafterthatsheputoffherdeparturetillsolatethatthemiddleofAugustfoundherstillintheheatedsolitudeofWashingtonSquare。
  Mrs。Penniman,whowasfondofachange,wasusuallyeagerforavisittothecountry;butthisyearsheappearedquitecontentwithsuchruralimpressionsasshecouldgatherattheparlorwindowfromtheailanthustreesbehindthewoodenpaling。Thepeculiarfragranceofthisvegetationusedtodiffuseitselfintheeveningair,andMrs。
  Penniman,onthewarmnightsofJuly,oftensatattheopenwindowandinhaledit。ThiswasahappymomentforMrs。Penniman;afterthedeathofherbrothershefeltmorefreetoobeyherimpulses。Avagueoppressionhaddisappearedfromherlife,andsheenjoyedasenseoffreedomofwhichshehadnotbeenconscioussincethememorabletime,solongago,whenthedoctorwentabroadwithCatherineandleftherathometoentertainMorrisTownsend。Theyearthathadelapsedsinceherbrother'sdeathremindedherofthathappytime,because,althoughCatherine,ingrowingolder,hadbecomeapersontobereckonedwith,yethersocietywasaverydifferentthing,asMrs。
  Pennimansaid,fromthatofatankofcoldwater。Theelderladyhardlyknewwhatusetomakeofthislargermarginofherlife;shesatandlookedatitverymuchasshehadoftensat,withherpoisedneedleinherhand,beforehertapestryframe。Shehadaconfidenthope,however,thatherrichimpulses,hertalentforembroidery,wouldstillfindtheirapplication,andthisconfidencewasjustifiedbeforemanymonthshadelapsed。
  Catherinecontinuedtoliveinherfather'shouse,inspiteofitsbeingrepresentedtoherthatamaidenladyofquiethabitsmightfindamoreconvenientabodeinoneofthesmallerdwellings,withbrownstonefronts,whichhadatthistimebeguntoadornthetransversethoroughfaresintheupperpartofthetown。Shelikedtheearlierstructure-ithadbegunbythistimetobecalledan"old"
  house-andproposedtoherselftoendherdaysinit。Ifitwastolargeforapairofunpretendinggentlewomen,thiswasbetterthantheoppositefault;forCatherinehadnodesiretofindherselfincloserquarterswithheraunt。SheexpectedtospendtherestofherlifeinWashingtonSquare,andtoenjoyMrs。Penniman'ssocietyforthewholeofthisperiod;asshehadaconvictionthat,longasshemightlive,herauntwouldliveatleastaslong,andalwaysretainherbrilliancyandactivity。Mrs。Pennimansuggestedtohertheideaofarichvitality。
  OnoneofthosewarmeveningsinJulyofwhichmentionhasbeenmade,thetwoladiessattogetheratanopenwindow,lookingoutonthequietSquare。Itwastoohotforlightedlamps,forreading,orforwork;itmighthaveappearedtoohotevenforconversation,Mrs。
  Pennimanhavinglongbeenspeechless。Shesatforwardinthewindow,halfonthebalcony,hummingalittlesong。Catherinewaswithintheroom,inalowrockingchair,dressedinwhite,andslowlyusingalargepalmettofan。Itwasinthisway,atthisseason,thattheauntandniece,aftertheyhadhadtea,habituallyspenttheirevenings。
  "Catherine,"saidMrs。Pennimanatlast,"Iamgoingtosaysomethingthatwillsurpriseyou。"
  "Praydo,"Catherineanswered。"Ilikesurprises。Anditissoquietnow。"
  "Well,then,IhaveseenMorrisTownsend。"
  IfCatherinewassurprised,shecheckedtheexpressionofit;shegaveneitherastartnoranexclamation。Sheremained,indeed,forsomemomentsintenselystill,andthismayverywellhavebeenasymptomofemotion。"Ihopehewaswell,"shesaidatlast。
  "Idon'tknow;heisagreatdealchanged。Hewouldlikeverymuchtoseeyou。"
  "Iwouldrathernotseehim,"saidCatherine,quickly。
  "Iwasafraidyouwouldsaythat。Butyoudon'tseemsurprised!"
  "Iam-verymuch。"
  "ImethimatMarian's,"saidMrs。Penniman。"HegoestoMarian's,andtheyaresoafraidyouwillmeethimthere。It'smybeliefthatthat'swhyhegoes。Hewantssomuchtoseeyou。"Catherinemadenoresponsetothis,andMrs。Pennimanwenton。"Ididn'tknowhimatfirst,heissoremarkablychanged;butheknewmeinaminute。HesaysIamnotintheleastchanged。Youknowhowpolitehealwayswas。
  HewascomingawaywhenIcame,andwewalkedalittledistancetogether。Heisstillveryhandsome,onlyofcoursehelooksolder,andheisnotso-soanimatedasheusedtobe。Therewasatouchofsadnessabouthim;buttherewasatouchofsadnessabouthimbefore,especiallywhenhewentaway。Iamafraidhehasnotbeenverysuccessful-thathehasnevergotthoroughlyestablished。Idon'tsupposeheissufficientlyploddingandthat,afterall,iswhatsucceedsinthisworld。"Mrs。PennimanhadnotmentionedMorrisTownsend'snametohernieceforupwardsofthefifthofacentury;
  butnowthatshehadbrokenthespell,sheseemedtowishtomakeupforlosttime,asiftherehadbeenasortofexhilarationinhearingherselftalkofhim。Sheproceeded,however,withconsiderablecaution,pausingoccasionallytoletCatherinegivesomesign。
  Catherinegavenoothersignthantostoptherockingofherchairandtheswayingofherfan;shesatmotionlessandsilent。"ItwasonTuesdaylast,"saidMrs。Penniman,"andIhavebeenhesitatingeversinceabouttellingyou。Ididn'tknowhowyoumightlikeit。AtlastIthoughtthatitwassolongagothatyouwouldprobablynothaveanyparticularfeeling。IsawhimagainaftermeetinghimatMarian's。Imethiminthestreet,andhewentafewstepswithme。
  Thefirstthinghesaidwasaboutyou;heaskedeversomanyquestions。Mariandidn'twantmetospeaktoyou;shedidn'twantyoutoknowthattheyreceivehim。ItoldhimIwassurethatafteralltheseyearsyoucouldn'thaveanyfeelingaboutthat;youcouldn'tgrudgehimthehospitalityofhisowncousin'shouse。Isaidyouwouldbebitterindeedifyoudidthat。Marianhasthemostextraordinaryideasaboutwhathappenedbetweenyou;sheseemstothinkhebehavedinsomeveryunusualmanner。Itookthelibertyofremindingheroftherealfacts,andplacingthestoryinitstruelight。Hehasnobitterness,Catherine,Icanassureyou;andhemightbeexcusedforit,forthingshavenotgonewellwithhim。Hehasbeenallovertheworld,andtriedtoestablishhimselfeverywhere;buthisevilstarwasagainsthim。Itismostinterestingtohearhimtalkofhisevilstar。Everythingfailed;everythingbuthis-youknow,youremember-
  hisproud,highspirit。IbelievehemarriedsomeladysomewhereinEurope。Youknowtheymarryinsuchapeculiarmatter-of-coursewayinEurope;amarriageofreasontheycallit。Shediedsoonafterward;ashesaidtome,sheonlyflittedacrosshislife。HehasnotbeeninNewYorkfortenyears;hecamebackafewdaysago。Thefirstthinghedidwastoaskmeaboutyou。Hehadheardyouhadnevermarried;heseemedverymuchinterestedaboutthat。Hesaidyouhadbeentherealromanceofhislife。"
  Catherinehadsufferedhercompaniontoproceedfrompointtopoint,andpausetopause,withoutinterruptingher;shefixedhereyesonthegroundandlistened。ButthelastphraseIhavequotedwasfollowedbyapauseofpeculiarsignificance,andthen,atlast,Catherinespoke。ItwillbeobservedthatbeforedoingsoshehadreceivedagooddealofinformationaboutMorrisTownsend。"Pleasesaynomore;pleasedon'tfollowupthatsubject。"
  "Doesn'titinterestyou?"askedMrs。Penniman,withacertaintimorousarchness。
  "Itpainsme,"saidCatherine。
  "Iwasafraidyouwouldsaythat。Butdon'tyouthinkyoucouldgetusedtoit?Hewantssomuchtoseeyou。"
  "Pleasedon't,AuntLavinia,"saidCatherine,gettingupfromherseat。Shemovedquicklyaway,andwenttotheotherwindow,whichstoodopentothebalcony;andhere,intheembrasure,concealedfromherauntbythewhitecurtains,sheremainedalongtime,lookingoutintothewarmdarkness。Shehadhadagreatshock;itwasasifthegulfofthepasthadsuddenlyopened,andaspectralfigurehadrisenoutofit。Thereweresomethingsshebelievedshehadgotover,somefeelingsthatshehadthoughtofasdead;butapparentlytherewasacertainvitalityinthemstill。Mrs。Pennimanhadmadethemstirthemselves。Itwasbutamomentaryagitation,Catherinesaidtoherself;itwouldpresentlypassaway。Shewastrembling,andherheartwasbeatingsothatshecouldfeelit;butthisalsowouldsubside。Thensuddenly,whileshewaitedforareturnofhercalmness,sheburstintotears。Buthertearsflowedverysilently,sothatMrs。
  Pennimanhadnoobservationofthem。Itwasperhaps,however,becauseMrs。PennimansuspectedthemthatshesaidnomorethateveningaboutMorrisTownsend。
  CHAPTER35。
  HERREFRESHEDattentiontothisgentlemanhadnotthoselimitsofwhichCatherinedesired,forherself,tobeconscious;itlastedlongenoughtoenablehertowaitanotherweekbeforespeakingofhimagain。Itwasunderthesamecircumstancesthatsheoncemoreattackedthesubject。Shehadbeensittingwithhernieceintheevening;onlyonthisoccasion,asthenightwasnotsowarm,thelamphadbeenlighted,andCatherinehadplacedherselfnearitwithamorseloffancywork。Mrs。Pennimanwentandsataloneforhalfanhouronthebalcony;thenshecamein,movingvaguelyabouttheroom。AtlastshesunkintoaseatnearCatherine,withclaspedhands,andalittlelookofexcitement。
  "ShallyoubeangryifIspeaktoyouagainabouthim?"sheasked。
  Catherinelookedupatherquietly。"Whoishe?"
  "Hewhomyouonceloved。"
  "Ishallnotbeangry,butIshallnotlikeit。"
  "Hesentyouamessage,"saidMrs。Penniman。"Ipromisedhimtodeliverit,andImustkeepmypromise。"
  InalltheseyearsCatherinehadhadtimetoforgethowlittleshehadtothankherauntforintheseasonofhermisery;shehadlongagoforgivenMrs。Pennimanfortakingtoomuchuponherself。Butforamomentthisattitudeofinterpositionanddisinterestedness,thiscarryingofmessagesandredeemingofpromises,broughtbackthesensethathercompanionwasadangerouswoman。Shehadsaidshewouldnotbeangry;butforaninstantshefeltsore。"Idon'tcarewhatyoudowithyourpromise!"sheanswered。
  Mrs。Penniman,however,withherhighconceptionofthesanctityofpledges,carriedherpoint。"Ihavegonetoofartoretreat,"shesaid,thoughpreciselywhatthismeantshewasnotatpainstoexplain。"Mr。Townsendwishesmostparticularlytoseeyou,Catherine;
  hebelievesthatifyouknewhowmuch,andwhy,hewishesit,youwouldconsenttodoso。"
  "Therecanbenoreason,"saidCatherine"nogoodreason。"
  "Hishappinessdependsuponit。Isnotthatagoodreason?"askedMrs。Penniman,impressively。
  "Notforme。Myhappinessdoesnot。"
  "Ithinkyouwillbehappierafteryouhaveseenhim。Heisgoingawayagain-goingtoresumehiswanderings。Itisaverylonely,restless,joylesslife。Beforehegoeshewishestospeaktoyou;itisafixedideawithhim-heisalwaysthinkingofit。Hehassomethingveryimportanttosaytoyou。Hebelievesthatyouneverunderstoodhim-thatyouneverjudgedhimrightly,andthebeliefhasalwaysweigheduponhimterribly。Hewishestojustifyhimself;hebelievesthatinaveryfewwordshecoulddoso。Hewishestomeetyouasafriend。"
  Catherinelistenedtothiswonderfulspeechwithoutpausinginherwork;shehadnowhadseveraldaystoaccustomherselftothinkofMorrisTownsendagainasanactuality。Whenitwasovershesaidsimply,"PleasesaytoMr。TownsendthatIwishhewouldleavemealone。"
  Shehadhardlyspokenwhenasharp,firmringatthedoorvibratedthroughthesummernight。Catherinelookedupattheclock;itmarkedaquarterpastnine-averylatehourforvisitors,especiallyintheemptyconditionofthetown。Mrs。Pennimanatthesamemomentgavealittlestart,andthenCatherine'seyesturnedquicklytoheraunt。TheymetMrs。Penniman's,andsoundedthemforamomentsharply。Mrs。Pennimanwasblushing;herlookwasaconsciousone;itseemedtoconfesssomething。Catherineguesseditsmeaning,androsequicklyfromherchair。
  "AuntPenniman,"shesaid,inatonethatscaredhercompanion,"haveyoutakentheliberty……?"
  "MydearestCatherine,"stammeredMrs。Penniman,"justwaittillyouseehim!"
  Catherinehadfrightenedheraunt,butshewasalsofrightenedherself;shewasonthepointofrushingtogiveorderstotheservant,whowaspassingtothedoor,toadmitnoone;butthefearofmeetinghervisitorcheckedher。
  "Mr。MorrisTownsend。"
  Thiswaswhatsheheard,vaguelybutrecognizably,articulatedbythedomestic,whileshehesitated。Shehadherbackturnedtothedooroftheparlor,andforsomemomentsshekeptitturned,feelingthathehadcomein。Hehadnotspoken,however,andatlastshefacedabout。Thenshesawagentlemanstandinginthemiddleoftheroom,fromwhichheraunthaddiscreetlyretired。
  Shewouldneverhaveknownhim。Hewasforty-fiveyearsold,andhisfigurewasnotthatofthestraight,slimyoungmansheremembered。
  Butitwasaveryfinepresence,andafairandlustrousbeard,spreadingitselfuponawell-presentedchest,contributedtoitseffect。AfteramomentCatherinerecognizedtheupperhalfoftheface,which,thoughhervisitor'sclusteringlockshadgrownthin,wasstillremarkablyhandsome。Hestoodinadeeplydeferentialattitude,withhiseyesonherface。"Ihaveventured-Ihaveventured,"hesaid;andthenhepaused,lookingabouthim,asifheexpectedhertoaskhimtositdown。Itwastheoldvoice;butithadnottheoldcharm。Catherine,foraminute,wasconsciousofadistinctdeterminationnottoinvitehimtotakeaseat。Whyhadhecome?Itwaswrongforhimtocome。Morriswasembarrassed,butCatherinegavehimnohelp。Itwasnotthatshewasgladofhisembarrassment;onthecontrary,itexcitedallherownliabilitiesofthiskind,andgavehergreatpain。Buthowcouldshewelcomehimwhenshefeltsovividlythatheoughtnottohavecome?"Iwantedsomuch-Iwasdetermined,"Morriswenton。Buthestoppedagain;itwasnoteasy。Catherinestillsaidnothing,andhemaywellhaverecalledwithapprehensionherancientfacultyofsilence。Shecontinuedtolookathim,however,andasshedidsoshemadethestrangestobservation。Itseemedtobehe,andyetnothe;itwasthemanwhohadbeeneverything,andyetthispersonwasnothing。
  Howlongagoitwas-howoldshehadgrown-howmuchshehadlived!
  Shehadlivedonsomethingthatwasconnectedwithhim,andshehadconsumeditindoingso。Thispersondidnotlookunhappy。Hewasfairandwell-preserved,perfectlydressed,matureandcomplete。AsCatherinelookedathim,thestoryofhislifedefineditselfinhiseyes;hehadmadehimselfcomfortable,andhehadneverbeencaught。
  Butevenwhileherperceptionopeneditselftothis,shehadnodesiretocatchhim;hispresencewaspainfultoher,andsheonlywishedhewouldgo。
  "Willyounotsitdown?"heasked。
  "Ithinkwehadbetternot,"saidCatherine。
  "Ioffendyoubycoming?"Hewasverygrave;hespokeinatoneoftherichestrespect。
  "Idon'tthinkyououghttohavecome。"
  "DidnotMrs。Pennimantellyou-didshenotgiveyoumymessage?"
  "Shetoldmesomething,butIdidnotunderstand。"
  "Iwishyouwouldletmetellyou-letmespeakformyself。"
  "Idon'tthinkitisnecessary,"saidCatherine。
  "Notforyou,perhaps,butforme。Itwouldbeagreatsatisfaction-
  andIhavenotmany。"Heseemedtobecomingnearer;Catherineturnedaway。"Canwenotbefriendsagain?"heasked。
  "We'renotenemies,"saidCatherine。"Ihavenonebutfriendlyfeelingstoyou。"
  "Ah,Iwonderwhetheryouknowthehappinessitgivesmetohearyousaythat!"Catherineutterednointimationthatshemeasuredtheinfluenceofherwords;andhepresentlywenton,"Youhavenotchanged-theyearshavepassedhappilyforyou。"
  "Theyhavepassedveryquietly,"saidCatherine。
  "Theyhaveleftnomarks;youareadmirablyyoung。"Thistimehesucceededincomingnearer-hewasclosetoher;shesawhisglossyperfumedbeard,andhiseyesaboveitlookingstrangeandhard。Itwasverydifferentfromhisold-fromhisyoung-face。Ifshehadfirstseenhimthiswayshewouldnothavelikedhim。Itseemedtoherthathewassmiling,ortryingtosmile。"Catherine,"hesaid,loweringhisvoice,"Ihaveneverceasedtothinkofyou。"
  "Pleasedon'tsaythesethings,"sheanswered。
  "Doyouhateme?"
  "Ohno,"saidCatherine。
  Somethinginhertonediscouragedhim,butinamomentherecoveredhimself。"Haveyoustillsomekindnessforme,then?"
  "Idon'tknowwhyyouhavecomeheretoaskmesuchthings!"
  Catherineexclaimed。
  "Becauseformanyyearsithasbeenthedesireofmylifethatweshouldbefriendsagain。"
  "Thatisimpossible。"
  "Whyso?Notifyouwillallowit。"
  "Iwillnotallowit,"saidCatherine。
  Helookedatheragaininsilence。"Isee;mypresencetroublesyouandpainsyou。Iwillgoaway;butyoumustgivemeleavetocomeagain。"
  "Pleasedon'tcomeagain,"shesaid。
  "Never?Never?"
  Shemadeagreateffort;shewishedtosaysomethingthatwouldmakeitimpossibleheshouldeveragaincrossherthreshold。"Itiswrongofyou。Thereisnoproprietyinit-noreasonforit。"
  "Ah,dearestlady,youdomeinjustice!"criedMorrisTownsend。
  "Wehaveonlywaited,andnowwearefree。"
  "Youtreatedmebadly,"saidCatherine。
  "Notifyouthinkofitrightly。Youhadyourquietlifewithyourfather-whichwasjustwhatIcouldnotmakeupmymindtorobyouof。"
  "Yes;Ihadthat。"
  Morrisfeltittobeaconsiderabledamagetohiscausethathecouldnotaddthatshehadhadsomethingmorebesides;foritisneedlesstosaythathehadlearnedthecontentsofDoctorSloper'swill。Hewas,nevertheless,notataloss。"Thereareworsefatesthanthat!"heexclaimed,withexpression;andhemighthavebeensupposedtorefertohisownunprotectedsituation。Thenheadded,withadeepertenderness,"Catherine,haveyouneverforgivenme?"
  "Iforgaveyouyearsago,butitisuselessforustoattempttobefriends。"
  "Notifweforgetthepast。Wehavestillafuture,thankGod!"
  "Ican'tforget-Idon'tforget,"saidCatherine。"Youtreatedmetoobadly。Ifeltitverymuch;Ifeltitforyears。"Andthenshewenton,withherwishtoshowhimthathemustnotcometoherthisway,"Ican'tbeginagain-Ican'ttakeitup。Everythingisdeadandburied。Itwastooserious;itmadeagreatchangeinmylife。I
  neverexpectedtoseeyouhere。"
  "Ah,youareangry!"criedMorris,whowishedimmenselythathecouldextortsomeflashofpassionfromhercalmness。Inthatcasehemighthope。
  "No,Iamnotangry。Angerdoesnotlastthatwayforyears。Butthereareotherthings。Impressionslast,whentheyhavebeenstrong。ButIcan'ttalk。"
  Morrisstoodstrokinghisbeard,withacloudedeye。"Whyhaveyounevermarried?"heasked,abruptly。"Youhavehadopportunities。"
  "Ididn'twishtomarry。"
  "Yes,youarerich,youarefree;youhadnothingtogain。"
  "Ihadnothingtogain,"saidCatherine。
  Morrislookedvaguelyroundhim,andgaveadeepsigh。"Well,I
  wasinhopesthatwemightstillhavebeenfriends。"
  "Imeanttotellyou,bymyaunt,inanswertoyourmessage-ifyouhadwaitedforananswer-thatitwasunnecessaryforyoutocomeinthathope。"
  "Good-bye,then,"saidMorris。"Excusemyindiscretion。"
  Hebowed,andsheturnedaway-standingthere,averted,withhereyesontheground,forsomemomentsaftershehadheardhimclosethedooroftheroom。
  InthehallhefoundMrs。Penniman,flutteredandeager;sheappearedtohavebeenhoveringthereundertheirreconcilablepromptingsofhercuriosityandherdignity。
  "Thatwasapreciousplanofyours!"saidMorris,clappingonhishat。
  "Isshesohard?"askedMrs。Penniman。
  "Shedoesn'tcareabuttonforme-withherconfoundedlittledrymanner。"
  "Wasitverydry?"pursuedMrs。Penniman,withsolicitude。
  Morristooknonoticeofherquestion;hestoodmusinganinstant,withhishaton。"Butwhythedeuce,then,wouldshenevermarry?"
  "Yes-whyindeed?"sighedMrs。Penniman。Andthen,asiffromasenseoftheinadequacyofthisexplanation,"Butyouwillnotdespair-youwillcomeback?"
  "Comeback?Damnation!"AndMorrisTownsendstrodeoutofthehouse,leavingMrs。Pennimanstaring。
  Catherine,meanwhile,intheparlor,pickinguphermorseloffancywork,hadseatedherselfwithitagain-forlife,asitwere。