CHAPTER26。
IFSHEHADDISTURBEDherniece'stemper-shebeganfromthismomentforwardtotalkagooddealaboutCatherine'stemper,anarticlewhichuptothattimehadneverbeenmentionedinconnectionwithourheroine-Catherinehadopportunityonthemorrowtorecoverherserenity。Mrs。PennimanhadgivenheramessagefromMorrisTownsendtotheeffectthathewouldcomeandwelcomeherhomeonthedayafterherarrival。Hecameintheafternoon;but,asmaybeimagined,hewasnotonthisoccasionmadefreeofDoctorSloper'sstudy。Hehadbeencomingandgoing,forthepastyear,socomfortablyandirresponsibly,thathehadacertainsenseofbeingwrongedbyfindinghimselfremindedthathemustnowlimithishorizontothefrontparlor,whichwasCatherine'sparticularprovince。
"Iamverygladyouhavecomeback,"hesaid。"Itmakesmeveryhappytoseeyouagain。"Andhelookedather,smiling,fromheadtofoot,thoughitdidnotappearafterwardthatheagreedwithMrs。
Penniman(who,womanlike,wentmoreintodetails,inthinkingherembellished)。
ToCatherineheappearedresplendent;itwassometimebeforeshecouldbelieveagainthatthisbeautifulyoungmanwasherownexclusiveproperty。Theyhadagreatdealofcharacteristiclovers'
talk-asoftexchangeofinquiriesandassurances。InthesemattersMorrishadanexcellentgrace,whichflungapicturesqueinterestevenovertheaccountofhisdebutinthecommissionbusiness-asubjectastowhichhiscompanionearnestlyquestionedhim。Fromtimetotimehegotupfromthesofawheretheysattogether,andwalkedabouttheroom;afterwhichhecameback,smilingandpassinghishandthroughhishair。Hewasunquiet,aswasnaturalinayoungmanwhohasjustbeenreunitedtoalong-absentmistress,andCatherinemadethereflectionthatshehadneverseenhimsoexcited。Itgaveherpleasure,somehow,tonotethisfact。Heaskedherquestionsabouthertravels,tosomeofwhichshewasunabletoreply,forshehadforgottenthenamesofplacesandtheorderofherfather'sjourney。
Butforthemomentshewassohappy,soliftedupbythebeliefthathertroublesatlastwereover,thatsheforgottobeashamedofhermeageranswers。Itseemedtohernowthatshecouldmarryhimwithouttheremnantofascruple,orasingletremorsavethosethatbelongedtojoy。Withoutwaitingforhimtoask,shetoldhimthatherfatherhadcomebackinexactlythesamestateofmind-thathehadnotyieldedaninch。
"Wemustnotexpectitnow,"shesaid,"andwemustdowithoutit。"
Morrissatlookingandsmiling。"Mypoor,deargirl!"heexclaimed。
"Youmustn'tpityme,"saidCatherine。"Idon'tminditnow;Iamusedtoit。"
Morriscontinuedtosmile,andthenhegotupandwalkedaboutagain。"Youhadbetterletmetryhim。"
"Trytobringhimover?Youwouldonlymakehimworse,"Catherineanswered,resolutely。
"YousaythatbecauseImanageditsobadlybefore。ButIshouldmanageitdifferentlynow。Iammuchwiser;Ihavehadayeartothinkofit。Ihavemoretact。"
"Isthatwhatyouhavebeenthinkingofforayear?"
"Muchofthetime。Yousee,theideasticksinmycrop。Idon'tliketobebeaten。"
"Howareyoubeatenifwemarry?"
"OfcourseIamnotbeatenonthemainissue;butIam,don'tyousee,onalltherestofit-onthequestionofmyreputation,ofmyrelationswithyourfather,ofmyrelationswithmyownchildren,ifweshouldhaveany。"
"Weshallhaveenoughforourchildren;weshallhaveenoughforeverything。Don'tyouexpecttosucceedinbusiness?"
"Brilliantly,andweshallcertainlybeverycomfortable。Butitisn'tofthemerematerialcomfortIspeak;itisofthemoralcomfort,"saidMorris,"oftheintellectualsatisfaction。"
"Ihavegreatmoralcomfortnow,"Catherinedeclared,verysimply。
"Ofcourseyouhave。Butwithmeitisdifferent。Ihavestakedmyprideonprovingtoyourfatherthatheiswrong,andnowthatIamattheheadofaflourishingbusiness,Icandealwithhimasanequal,I
haveacapitalplan-doletmegoathim!"
Hestoodbeforeherwithhisbrightface,hisjauntyair,hishandsinhispockets;andshegotup,withhereyesrestingonhisown。"Pleasedon't,Morris;pleasedon't,"shesaid;andtherewasacertainmild,sadfirmnessinhertonewhichheheardforthefirsttime。"Wemustasknofavorsofhim-wemustasknothingmore。Hewon'trelent,andnothinggoodwillcomeofit。Iknowitnow-I
haveaverygoodreason。"
"Andpraywhatisyourreason?"
Shehesitatedtobringitout,butatlastitcame。"Heisnotveryfondofme。"
"Oh,bother!"criedMorris,angrily。
"Iwouldn'tsaysuchathingwithoutbeingsure。Isawit,Ifeltit,inEngland,justbeforehecameaway。Hetalkedtomeonenight-
thelastnight-andthenitcameoverme。Youcantellwhenapersonfeelsthatway。Iwouldn'taccusehimifhehadn'tmademefeelthatway。Idon'taccusehim;Ijusttellyouthatthat'showitis。Hecan'thelpit;wecan'tgovernouraffections。DoIgovernmine?
Mightn'thesaythattome?It'sbecauseheissofondofmymother,whomwelostsolongago。Shewasbeautiful,andvery,verybrilliant;
heisalwaysthinkingofher。Iamnotatalllikeher;AuntPennimanhastoldmethat。Ofcourseitisn'tmyfault;butneitherisithisfault。AllImeanis,it'strue;andit'sastrongerreason,forhisneverbeingreconciledthansimplyhisdislikeforyou。"
"Simply'?"criedMorris,withalaugh。"Iammuchobligedforthat。"
"Idon'tmindabouthisdislikingyounow;Imindeverythingless。I
feeldifferently;Ifeelseparatedfrommyfather。"
"Uponmyword,"saidMorris,"youareaqueerfamily。"
"Don'tsaythat-don'tsayanythingunkind,"thegirlentreated。
"Youmustbeverykindtomenow,because,Morris,because"-andshehesitatedamoment-"becauseIhavedoneagreatdealforyou。"
"Oh,Iknowthat,mydear。"
Shehadspokenuptothismomentwithoutvehemenceoroutwardsignofemotion,gently,reasoningly,onlytryingtoexplain。Butheremotionhadbeenineffectuallysmothered,anditbetrayeditselfatlastinthetremblingofhervoice。"Itisagreatthingtobeseparatedlikethatfromyourfather,whenyouhaveworshippedhimbefore。Ithasmademeveryunhappy;oritwouldhavemademesoifIdidn'tloveyou。Youcantellwhenapersonspeakstoyouasif-
asif-"
"Asifwhat?"
"Asiftheydespisedyou!"saidCatherine,passionately。"Hespokethatwaythenightbeforewesailed。Itwasn'tmuch,butitwasenough,andIthoughtofitonthevoyageallthetime。ThenImadeupmymind。Iwillneveraskhimforanythingagain,orexpectanythingfromhim。Itwouldnotbenaturalnow。Wemustbeveryhappytogether,andwemustnotseemtodependuponhisforgiveness。And,Morris,Morris,youmustneverdespiseme!"
Thiswasaneasypromisetomake,andMorrismadeitwithfineeffect。Butforthemomentheundertooknothingmoreonerous。
CHAPTER27。
THEDOCTORofcourse,onhisreturn,hadagooddealoftalkwithhissisters。HewasatnogreatpainstonarratehistravelsortocommunicatehisimpressionsofdistantlandstoMrs。Penniman,uponwhomhecontentedhimselfwithbestowingamementoofhisenviableexperienceintheshapeofavelvetgown。Butheconversedwithheratsomelengthaboutmattersnearerhome,andlostnotimeinassuringherthathewasstillaninflexiblefather。
"IhavenodoubtyouhaveseenagreatdealofMr。Townsend,anddoneyourbesttoconsolehimforCatherine'sabsence,"hesaid。"I
don'taskyouandyouneedn'tdenyit。Iwouldn'tputthequestiontoyoufortheworld,andexposeyoutotheinconvenienceofhavingto-a-excogitateananswer。Noonehasbetrayedyou,andtherehasbeennospyuponyourproceedings。Elizabethhastoldnotales,andhasnevermentionedyouexcepttopraiseyourgoodlooksandgoodspirits。Thethingissimplyaninferenceofmyown-aninduction,asthephilosopherssay。Itseemstomelikelythatyouwouldhaveofferedanasylumtoaninterestingsufferer。Mr。Townsendhasbeenagooddealinthehouse;thereissomethinginthehousethattellsmeso。Wedoctors,youknow,endbyacquiringfineperceptions,anditisimpresseduponmysensoriumthathehassatinthesechairs,inaveryeasyattitude,andwarmedhimselfatthatfire。Idon'tgrudgehimthecomfortofit;itistheonlyonehewilleverenjoyatmyexpense。Itseemslikely,indeed,thatIshallbeabletoeconomizeathisown。Idon'tknowwhatyoumayhavesaidtohim,orwhatyoumaysayhereafter;butIshouldlikeyoutoknowthatifyouhaveencouragedhimtobelievethathewillgainanythingbyhangingon,orthatIhavebudgedahairbreadthfromthepositionItookupayearago,youhaveplayedhimatrickforwhichhemayexactreparation。
I'mnotsurethathemaynotbringasuitagainstyou。Ofcourseyouhavedoneitconscientiously;youhavemadeyourselfbelievethatI
canbetiredout。Thisisthemostbaselesshallucinationthatevervisitedthebrainofagenialoptimist。Iamnotintheleasttired;I
amasfreshaswhenIstarted;Iamgoodforfiftyyearsyet。
Catherineappearsnottohavebudgedanincheither;sheisequallyfresh;soweareaboutwherewewerebefore。This,however,youknowaswellasI。WhatIwishissimplytogiveyounoticeofmyownstateofmind。Takeittoheart,dearLavinia。Bewareofthejustresentmentofadeludedfortunehunter!"
"Ican'tsayIexpectedit,"saidMrs。Penniman。"AndIhadasortoffoolishhopethatyouwouldcomehomewithoutthatodiousironicaltonewithwhichyoutreatthemostsacredsubjects。"
"Don'tundervalueirony;itisoftenofgreatuse。Itisnot,however,alwaysnecessary,andIwillshowyouhowgracefullyIcanlayitaside。IshouldliketoknowwhetheryouthinkMorrisTownsendwillhangon?"
"Iwillansweryouwithyourownweapons,"saidMrs。Penniman。
"Youhadbetterwaitandsee。"
"Doyoucallsuchaspeechasthatoneofmyownweapons?Ineversaidanythingsorough。"
"Hewillhangonlongenoughtomakeyouveryuncomfortable,then。"
"MydearLavinia,"exclaimedthedoctor,"doyoucallthatirony?
Icallitpugilism。"
Mrs。Penniman,however,inspiteofherpugilism,wasagooddealfrightened,andshetookcounselofherfears。Herbrothermeanwhiletookcounsel,withmanyreservations,ofMrs。Almond,towhomhewasnolessgenerousthantoLavinia,andagooddealmorecommunicative。
"Isupposeshehashadhimthereallthewhile,"hesaid。"Imustlookintothestateofmywine。Youneedn'tmindtellingmenow;I
havealreadysaidallImeantosaytoheronthesubject。"
"Ibelievehewasinthehouseagooddeal,"Mrs。Almondanswered。
"ButyoumustadmitthatyourleavingLaviniaquitealonewasagreatchangeforher,andthatitwasnaturalsheshouldwantsomesociety。"
"Idoadmitthat,andthatiswhyIshallmakenorowaboutthewine;IshallsetitdownascompensationtoLavinia。Sheiscapableoftellingmethatshedrankitallherself。Thinkoftheinconceivablebadtaste,inthecircumstances,ofthatfellowmakingfreewiththehouse-orcomingthereatall!Ifthatdoesn'tdescribehim,heisindescribable。"
"Hisplanistogetwhathecan。Laviniawillhavesupportedhimayear,"saidMrs。Almond。"It'ssomuchgained。"
"Shewillhavetosupporthimfortherestofhislife,then,"criedthedoctor,"butwithoutwine,astheysayatthetablesd'hote。"
"Catherinetellsmehehassetupabusiness,andismakingagreatdealofmoney。"
Thedoctorstared。"Shehasnottoldmethat-andLaviniadidn'tdeign。Ah!"hecried,"Catherinehasgivenmeup。Notthatitmatters,forallthatthebusinessamountsto。"
"ShehasnotgivenupMr。Townsend,"saidMrs。Almond。"Isawthatinthefirsthalf-minute。Shehascomehomeexactlythesame。"
"Exactlythesame;notagrainmoreintelligent。Shedidn'tnoticeastickorastoneallthewhilewewereaway-notapicturenoraview,notastatuenoracathedral。"
"Howcouldshenotice?Shehadotherthingstothinkof;theyareneverforaninstantoutofhermind。Shetouchesmeverymuch。"
"Shewouldtouchmeifshedidn'tirritateme。That'stheeffectshehasuponmenow。Ihavetriedeverythinguponher;Ireallyhavebeenquitemerciless。Butitisofnousewhatever;sheisabsolutelyglued。Ihavepassed,inconsequence,intotheexasperatedstage。AtfirstIhadagooddealofacertaingenialcuriosityaboutit;Iwantedtoseeifshereallywouldstick。But,goodLord,one'scuriosityissatisfied!Iseesheiscapableofit,andnowshecanletgo。"
"Shewillneverletgo,"saidMrs。Almond。
"Takecare,oryouwillexasperatemetoo。Ifshedoesn'tletgo,shewillbeshakenoff-senttumblingintothedust。That'sanicepositionformydaughter。Shecan'tseethatifyouaregoingtobepushed,youhadbetterjump。Andthenshewillcomplainofherbruises。"
"Shewillnevercomplain,"saidMrs。Almond。
"ThatIshallobjecttoevenmore。ButthedeucewillbethatI
can'tpreventanything。"
"Ifsheistohaveafall,"saidMrs。Almond,withagentlelaugh,"wemustspreadasmanycarpetsaswecan。"Andshecarriedoutthisideabyshowingagreatdealofmotherlykindnesstothegirl。
Mrs。PennimanimmediatelywrotetoMorrisTownsend。Theintimacybetweenthesetwowasbythistimeconsummate,butImustcontentmyselfwithnotingbutafewofitsfeatures。Mrs。Penniman'sownshareinitwasasingularsentiment,whichmighthavebeenmisinterpreted,butwhichinitselfwasnotdiscreditabletothepoorlady。Itwasaromanticinterestinthisattractiveandunfortunateyoungman,andyetitwasnotsuchaninterestasCatherinemighthavebeenjealousof。Mrs。Pennimanhadnotaparticleofjealousyofherniece。Forherself,shefeltasifshewereMorris'smotherorsister-amotherorsisterofanemotionaltemperament-andshehadanabsorbingdesiretomakehimcomfortableandhappy。Shehadstriventodosoduringtheyearthatherbrotherleftheranopenfield,andhereffortshadbeenattendedwiththesuccessthathasbeenpointedout。Shehadneverhadachildofherown,andCatherine,whomshehaddoneherbesttoinvestwiththeimportancethatwouldnaturallybelongtoayouthfulPenniman,hadonlypartlyrewardedherzeal。Catherine,asanobjectofaffectionandsolicitude,hadneverhadthatpicturesquecharmwhich(asitseemedtoher)wouldhavebeenanaturalattributeofherownprogeny。
EventhematernalpassioninMrs。Pennimanwouldhavebeenromanticandfactitious,andCatherinewasnotconstitutedtoinspirearomanticpassion。Mrs。Pennimanwasasfondofherasever,butshehadgrowntofeelthatwithCatherineshelackedopportunity。
Sentimentallyspeaking,therefore,shehad(thoughshehadnotdisinheritedherniece)adoptedMorrisTownsend,whogaveheropportunityinabundance。Shewouldhavebeenveryhappytohaveahandsomeandtyrannicalson,andwouldhavetakenanextremeinterestinhisloveaffairs。ThiswasthelightinwhichshehadcometoregardMorris,whohadconciliatedheratfirst,andmadehisimpressionbyhisdelicateandcalculateddeference-asortofexhibitiontowhichMrs。Pennimanwasparticularlysensitive。Hehadlargelyabatedhisdeferenceafterward,forheeconomizedhisresources,buttheimpressionwasmade,andtheyoungman'sverybrutalitycametohaveasortoffilialvalue。IfMrs。Pennimanhadhadason,shewouldprobablyhavebeenafraidofhim,andatthisstageofournarrativeshewascertainlyafraidofMorrisTownsend。
ThiswasoneoftheresultsofhisdomesticationinWashingtonSquare。
Hetookhiseasewithher-as,forthatmatter,hewouldcertainlyhavedonewithhisownmother。
CHAPTER28。
THELETTERwasawordofwarning;itinformedhimthatthedoctorhadcomehomemoreimpracticablethanever。ShemighthavereflectedthatCatherinewouldsupplyhimwithalltheinformationheneededonthispoint;butweknowthatMrs。Penniman'sreflectionswererarelyjust;and,moreover,shefeltthatitwasnotforhertodependonwhatCatherinemightdo。Ihavesaidthatheryoungfriendtookhiseasewithher,anditisanillustrationofthefactthathemadenoanswertoherletter。Hetooknoteofitamply;buthelightedhiscigarwithit,andhewaited,intranquilconfidencethatheshouldreceiveanother。"Hisstateofmindreallyfreezesmyblood,"Mrs。
Pennimanhadwritten,alludingtoherbrother;anditwouldhaveseemedthatuponthisstatementshecouldhardlyimprove。
Nevertheless,shewroteagain,expressingherselfwiththeaidofadifferentfigure。"Hishatredofyouburnswithaluridflame-theflamethatneverdies,"shewrote。"Butitdoesn'tlightupthedarknessofyourfuture。Ifmyaffectioncoulddoso,alltheyearsofyourlifewouldbeaneternalsunshine。IcanextractnothingfromC。;
sheissoterriblysecretive,likeherfather。Sheseemstoexpecttobemarriedverysoon,andhasevidentlymadepreparationsinEurope-quantitiesofclothing,tenpairsofshoes,etc。Mydearfriend,youcannotsetupinmarriedlifesimplywithafewpairsofshoes,canyou?Tellmewhatyouthinkofthis。Iamintenselyanxioustoseeyou,Ihavesomuchtosay。Imissyoudreadfully;thehouseseemssoemptywithoutyou。Whatisthenewsdowntown?Isthebusinessextending?Thatdearlittlebusiness。Ithinkit'ssobraveofyou!
Couldn'tIcometoyouroffice-justforthreeminutes?Imightpassforacustomer-isthatwhatyoucallthem?Imightcomeintobuysomething-somesharesorsomerailroadthings。Tellmewhatyouthinkofthatplan。Iwouldcarryalittlereticule,likeawomanofthepeople。"
Inspiteofthesuggestionaboutthereticule,Morrisappearedtothinkpoorlyoftheplan,forhegaveMrs。Pennimannoencouragementwhatevertovisithisoffice,whichhehadalreadyrepresentedtoherasaplacepeculiarlyandunnaturallydifficulttofind。Butasshepersistedindesiringaninterview-uptothelast,aftermonthsofintimatecolloquy,shecalledthesemeetings"interviews"-sheagreedthattheyshouldtakeawalktogether,andwasevenkindenoughtoleavehisofficeforthispurposeduringthehoursatwhichbusinessmighthavebeensupposedtobeliveliest。Itwasnosurprisetohim,whentheymetatastreetcorner,inaregionofemptylotsandundevelopedpavements(Mrs。Pennimanbeingattiredasmuchaspossiblelikea"womanofthepeople"),tofindthat,inspiteofherurgency,whatshechieflyhadtoconveytohimwastheassuranceofhersympathy。Ofsuchassurances,however,hehadalreadyavoluminouscollection,anditwouldnothavebeenworthhiswhiletoforsakeafruitfulavocationmerelytohearMrs。Pennimansay,forthethousandthtime,thatshehadmadehiscauseherown。Morrishadsomethingofhisowntosay。Itwasnotaneasythingtobringout,andwhileheturneditover,thedifficultymadehimacrimonious。
"Ohyes,Iknowperfectlythathecombinesthepropertiesofalumpoficeandared-hotcoal,"heobserved。"Catherinehasmadeitthoroughlyclear,andyouhavetoldmesotillIamsickofit。Youneedn'ttellmeagain;Iamperfectlysatisfied。HewillnevergiveusaPenny;Iregardthatasmathematicallyproved。"
Mrs。Pennimanatthispointhadaninspiration。
"Couldn'tyoubringalawsuitagainsthim?"Shewonderedthatthissimpleexpedienthadneveroccurredtoherbefore。
"Iwillbringalawsuitagainstyou,"saidMorris,"ifyouaskmeanymoresuchaggravatingquestions。Amanshouldknowwhenheisbeaten,"headded,inamoment。"Imustgiveherup!"
Mrs。Pennimanreceivedthisdeclarationinsilence,thoughitmadeherheartbeatalittle。Itfoundherbynomeansunprepared,forshehadaccustomedherselftothethoughtthat,ifMorrisshoulddecidedlynotbeabletogetherbrother'smoney,itwouldnotdoforhimtomarryCatherinewithoutit。"Itwouldnotdo,"wasavaguewayofputtingthething;butMrs。Penniman'snaturalaffectioncompletedtheidea,which,thoughithadnotasyetbeensocrudelyexpressedbetweenthemasintheformthatMorrishadjustgivenit,hadneverthelessbeenimpliedsooften,incertaineasyintervalsoftalk,ashesatstretchinghislegsinthedoctor'swell-stuffedarmchairs,thatshehadgrownfirsttoregarditwithanemotionwhichsheflatteredherselfwasphilosophic,andthentohaveasecrettendernessforit。Thefactthatshekepthertendernesssecretproves,ofcourse,thatshewasashamedofit;butshemanagedtoblinkhershamebyremindingherselfthatshewas,afterall,theofficialprotectorofherniece'smarriage。Herlogicwouldscarcelyhavepassedmusterwiththedoctor。Inthefirstplace,Morrismustgetthemoney,andshewouldhelphimtoit。Inthesecond,itwasplainitwouldnevercometohim,anditwouldbeagrievouspityheshouldmarrywithoutit-ayoungmanwhomightsoeasilyfindsomethingbetter。Afterherbrotherhaddeliveredhimself,onhisreturnfromEurope,ofthatincisivelittleaddressthathasbeenquoted,Morris'scauseseemedsohopelessthatMrs。Pennimanfixedherattentionexclusivelyuponthelatterbranchofherargument。IfMorrishadbeenherson,shewouldcertainlyhavesacrificedCatherinetoasuperiorconceptionofhisfuture;andtobereadytodoso,asthecasestood,wasthereforeevenafinerdegreeofdevotion。Nevertheless,itcheekedherbreathalittletohavethesacrificialknife,asitwere,suddenlythrustintoherhand。
Morriswalkedalongamoment,andthenherepeated,harshly,"Imustgiveherup!"
"IthinkIunderstandyou,"saidMrs。Penniman,gently。
"Icertainlysayitdistinctlyenough-brutallyandvulgarlyenough。"
Hewasashamedofhimself,andhisshamewasuncomfortable;andashewasextremelyintolerantofdiscomfort,hefeltviciousandcruel。Hewantedtoabusesomebody,andhebegan,cautiously-forhewasalwayscautious-withhimself。
"Couldn'tyoutakeherdownalittle?"heasked。
"Takeherdown?"
"Prepareher-tryandeasemeoff。"
Mrs。Pennimanstopped,lookingathimverysolemnly。
"MypoorMorris,doyouknowhowmuchshelovesyou?"
"No,Idon't。Idon'twanttoknow。Ihavealwaystriedtokeepfromknowing。Itwouldbetoopainful。"
"Shewillsuffermuch,"saidMrs。Penniman。
"Youmustconsoleher。Ifyouareasgoodafriendtomeasyoupretendtobe,youwillmanageit。"
Mrs。Pennimanshookherheadsadly。
"Youtalkofmy'pretending'tolikeyou;butIcan'tpretendtohateyou。IcanonlytellherIthinkveryhighlyofyou;andhowwillthatconsoleherforlosingyou?"
"Thedoctorwillhelpyou。Hewillbedelightedatthethingbeingbrokenoff;andasheisaknowingfellow,hewillinventsomethingtocomforther。"
"Hewillinventanewtorture,"criedMrs。Penniman。"Heavendeliverherfromherfather'scomfort!Itwillconsistofhiscrowingoverher,andsaying,'Ialwaystoldyouso!'"
Morriscoloredamostuncomfortablered。
"Ifyoudon'tconsoleheranybetterthanyouconsoleme,youcertainlywon'tbeofmuchuse。It'sadamneddisagreeablenecessity;Ifeelitextremely,andyououghttomakeiteasyforme。"
"Iwillbeyourfriendforlife,"Mrs。Pennimandeclared。
"Bemyfriendnow!"andMorriswalkedon。
Shewentwithhim;shewasalmosttrembling。
"Shouldyoulikemetotellher?"sheasked。
"Youmustn'ttellher,butyoucan-youcan-"Andhehesitated,tryingtothinkwhatMrs。Pennimancoulddo。"Youcanexplaintoherwhyitis。It'sbecauseIcan'tbringmyselftostepinbetweenherandherfather-togivehimthepretexthegraspsatsoeagerly(it'sahideoussight!)fordeprivingherofherrights。"
Mrs。Pennimanfeltwithremarkablepromptitudethecharmofthisformula。
"That'ssolikeyou,"shesaid。"It'ssofinelyfelt。"
Morrisgavehisstickanangryswing。
"Ohdamnation!"heexclaimed,perversely。
Mrs。Penniman,however,wasnotdiscouraged。
"Itmayturnoutbetterthanyouthink。Catherineis,afterall,soverypeculiar。"Andshethoughtshemighttakeituponherselftoassurehimthat,whateverhappened,thegirlwouldbeveryquiet-
shewouldn'tmakeanoise。Theyextendedtheirwalk,andwhiletheyproceededMrs。Pennimantookuponherselfotherthingsbesides,andendedbyhavingassumedaconsiderableburden;Morrisbeingreadyenough,asmaybeimagined,toputeverythingoffuponher。Buthewasnotforasingleinstantthedupeofherblunderingalacrity;heknewthatofwhatshepromisedshewascompetenttoperformbutaninsignificantfraction,andthemoresheprofessedherwillingnesstoservehim,thegreaterfoolhethoughther。
"Whatwillyoudoifyoudon'tmarryher?"sheventuredtoinquireinthecourseofthisconversation。
"Somethingbrilliant,"saidMorris。"Shouldn'tyoulikemetodosomethingbrilliant?"
TheideagaveMrs。Pennimanexceedingpleasure。
"Ishallfeelsadlytakeninifyoudon't。"
"Ishallhaveto,tomakeupforthis。Thisisn'tatallbrilliant,youknow。"
Mrs。Pennimanmusedalittle,asiftheremightbesomewayofmakingoutthatitwas;butshehadtogiveuptheattempt,and,tocarryofftheawkwardnessoffailure,sheriskedanewinquiry。
"Doyoumean-doyoumeananothermarriage?"
Morrisgreetedthisquestionwithareflectionwhichwashardlythelessimpudentfrombeinginaudible。"Surelywomenaremorecrudethanmen!"Andthenheanswered,audibly,"Neverintheworld!"
Mrs。Pennimanfeltdisappointedandsnubbed,andsherelievedherselfinalittlevaguelysarcasticcry。Hewascertainlyperverse。
"Igiveherup,notforanotherwoman,butforawidercareer,"
Morrisannounced。
Thiswasverygrand;butstillMrs。Penniman,whofeltthatshehadexposedherself,wasfaintlyrancorous。
"Doyoumeannevertocometoseeheragain?"sheasked,withsomesharpness。
"Ohno,Ishallcomeagain;butwhatistheuseofdraggingitout?Ihavebeenfourtimessinceshecameback,andit'sterriblyawkwardwork。Ican'tkeepitupindefinitely;sheoughtn'ttoexpectthat,youknow。Awomanshouldneverkeepamandangling,"headded,finely。
"Ah,butyoumusthaveyourlastparting!"urgedhiscompanion,inwhoseimaginationtheideaoflastpartingsoccupiedaplaceinferiorindignityonlytothatoffirstmeetings。
CHAPTER29。
HECAMEAGAIN,withoutmanagingthelastparting;andagainandagain,withoutfindingthatMrs。Pennimanhadasyetdonemuchtopavethepathofretreatwithflowers。Itwasdevilishawkward,ashesaid,andhefeltalivelyanimosityforCatherine'saunt,who,ashehadnowquiteformedthehabitofsayingtohimself,haddraggedhimintothemess,andwasboundincommoncharitytogethimoutofit。
Mrs。Penniman,totellthetruth,had,intheseclusionofherownapartment-and,Imayadd,amidthesuggestivenessofCatherine's,whichworeinthosedaystheappearanceofthatofayoungladylayingouthertrousseau-Mrs。Pennimanhadmeasuredherresponsibilities,andtakenfrightattheirmagnitude。ThetaskofpreparingCatherineandeasingoffMorrispresenteddifficultieswhichincreasedintheexecution,andevenledtheimpulsiveLaviniatoaskherselfwhetherthemodificationoftheyoungman'soriginalprojecthadbeenconceivedinahappyspirit。Abrilliantfuture,awidercareer,aconscienceexemptfromthereproachofinterferencebetweenayoungladyandhernaturalrights-theseexcellentthingsmightbetootroublesomelypurchased。FromCatherineherselfMrs。Pennimanreceivednoassistancewhatever;thepoorgirlwasapparentlywithoutsuspicionofherdanger。Shelookedatherloverwitheyesofundiminishedtrust,andthoughshehadlessconfidenceinherauntthaninayoungmanwithwhomshehadexchangedsomanytendervows,shegavehernohandleforexplainingorconfessing。Mrs。Penniman,falteringandwavering,declaredCatherinewasverystupid,putoffthegreatscene,asshewouldhavecalledit,fromdaytoday,andwanderedabout,veryuncomfortably,withherunexplodedbombinherhands。
Morris'sownsceneswereverysmallonesjustnow;buteventhesewerebeyondhisstrength。Hemadehisvisitsasbriefaspossible,and,whilehesatwithhismistress,foundterriblylittletotalkabout。
Shewaswaitingforhim,invulgarparlance,tonametheday;andsolongashewasunpreparedtobeexplicitonthispoint,itseemedamockerytopretendtotalkaboutmattersmoreabstract。Shehadnoairsandnoarts;sheneverattemptedtodisguiseherexpectancy。
Shewaswaitingonhisgoodpleasure,andwouldwaitmodestlyandpatiently;hishangingbackatthissupremetimemightappearstrange,butofcoursehemusthaveagoodreasonforit。Catherinewouldhavemadeawifeofthegentle,old-fashionedpattern-regardingreasonsasfavorsandwindfalls,butnomoreexpectingoneeverydaythanshewouldhaveexpectedabouquetofcamellias。Duringtheperiodofherengagement,however,ayoungladyevenofthemostslenderpretensionscountsuponmorebouquetsthanatothertimes;andtherewasawantofperfumeintheairatthismomentwhichatlastexcitedthegirl'salarm。
"Areyousick?"sheaskedofMorris。"Youseemsorestless,andyoulookpale。"
"Iamnotatallwell,"saidMorris;anditoccurredtohimthat,ifhecouldonlymakeherpityhimenough,hemightgetoff。
"Iamafraidyouareoverworked;yououghtn'ttoworksomuch。"
"Imustdothat。"Andthenheadded,withasortofcalculatedbrutality,"Idon'twanttooweyoueverything。"
"Ah,howcanyousaythat?"
"Iamtooproud,"saidMorris。
"Yes-youaretooproud。"
"Well,youmusttakemeasIam,"hewenton。"Youcanneverchangeme。"
"Idon'twanttochangeyou,"shesaid,gently。"Iwilltakeyouasyouare。"Andshestoodlookingathim。
"Youknowpeopletalktremendouslyaboutaman'smarryingarichgirl,"Morrisremarked。"It'sexcessivelydisagreeable。"
"ButIamnotrich,"saidCatherine。
"Youarerichenoughtomakemetalkedabout。"
"Ofcourseyouaretalkedabout。It'sanhonor。"
"It'sanhonorIcouldeasilydispensewith。"
Shewasonthepointofaskinghimwhetheritwasnotacompensationforthisannoyancethatthepoorgirlwhohadthemisfortunetobringituponhimlovedhimsodearlyandbelievedinhimsotruly;
butshehesitated,thinkingthatthiswouldperhapsseemanexactingspeech,andwhileshehesitated,hesuddenlylefther。
Thenexttimehecame,however,shebroughtitout,andshetoldhimagainthathewastooproud。Herepeatedthathecouldn'tchange,andthistimeshefelttheimpulsetosaythatwithalittleefforthemightchange。
Sometimeshethoughtthatifhecouldonlymakeaquarrelwithheritmighthelphim;butthequestionwashowtoquarrelwithayoungwomanwhohadsuchtreasuresofconcession。"Isupposeyouthinktheeffortisallonyourside,"hebrokeout。"Don'tyoubelievethatI
havemyownefforttomake?"
"It'sallyoursnow,"shesaid。"Myeffortisfinishedanddonewith。"
"Well,mineisnot。"
"Wemustbearthingstogether,"saidCatherine。"That'swhatweoughttodo。"
Morrisattemptedanaturalsmile。"Therearesomethingswhichwecan'tverywellbeartogether-forinstance,separation。"
"Whydoyouspeakofseparation?"
"Ah,youdon'tlikeit;Iknewyouwouldn't。"
"Whereareyougoing,Morris?"shesuddenlyasked。
Hefixedhiseyeonheramoment,andforapartofthatmomentshewasafraidofit。"Willyoupromisenottomakeascene?"
"Ascene-doImakescenes?"
"Allwomendo!"saidMorris,withthetoneoflargeexperience。
"Idon't。Whereareyougoing?"
"IfIshouldsayIwasgoingawayonbusiness,shouldyouthinkitverystrange?"
Shewonderedamoment,gazingathim。"Yes-no。Notifyouwilltakemewithyou。"
"Takeyouwithme-onbusiness?"
"Whatisyourbusiness?Yourbusinessistobewithme。"
"Idon'tearnmylivingwithyou,"saidMorris。"Or,rather,"hecried,withasuddeninspiration,"that'sjustwhatIdo-orwhattheworldsaysIdo!"
Thisoughtperhapstohavebeenagreatstroke,butitmiscarried。
"Whereareyougoing?"Catherinesimplyrepeated。
"ToNewOrleans-aboutbuyingsomecotton。"
"IamperfectlywillingtogotoNewOrleans,"Catherinesaid。
"DoyousupposeIwouldtakeyoutoanestofyellowfever?"criedMorris。"DoyousupposeIwouldexposeyouatsuchatimeasthis?"
"Ifthereisyellowfever,whyshouldyougo?Morris,youmustnotgo。"
"Itistomakesixthousanddollars,"saidMorris。"Doyougrudgemethatsatisfaction?"
"Wehavenoneedofsixthousanddollars。Youthinktoomuchaboutmoney。"
"Youcanaffordtosaythat。Thisisagreatchance;weheardofitlastnight。"Andheexplainedtoherinwhatthechanceconsisted;andtoldheralongstory,goingovermorethanonceseveralofthedetails,abouttheremarkablestrokeofbusinesswhichheandhispartnerhadplannedbetweenthem。
ButCatherine'simagination,forreasonsbestknowntoherself,absolutelyrefusedtobefired。"IfyoucangotoNewOrleans,Icango,"shesaid。"Whyshouldn'tyoucatchyellowfeverquiteaseasilyasI?Iameverybitasstrongasyou,andnotintheleastafraidofanyfever。WhenwewereinEuropewewereinveryunhealthyplaces;
myfatherusedtomakemetakesomepills。Inevercaughtanything,andIneverwasnervous。Whatwillbetheuseofsixthousanddollarsifyoudieofafever?Whenpersonsaregoingtobemarriedtheyoughtn'ttothinksomuchaboutbusiness。Youshouldn'tthinkaboutcotton;youshouldthinkaboutme。YoucangotoNewOrleanssomeothertime-therewillalwaysbeplentyofcotton。Itisn'tthemomenttochoose。Wehavewaitedtoolongalready。"Shespokemoreforciblyandvolublythanhehadeverheardher,andsheheldhisarminhertwohands。
"Yousaidyouwouldn'tmakeascene,"criedMorris。"Icallthisascene。"
"It'syouthataremakingit。Ihaveneveraskedyouanythingbefore。Wehavewaitedtoolongalready。"Anditwasacomforttohertothinkthatshehadhithertoaskedsolittle;itseemedtomakeherrighttoinsistthegreaternow。
Morrisbethoughthimselfalittle。"Verywell,then;wewon'ttalkaboutitanymore。Iwilltransactmybusinessbyletter。"Andhebegantosmoothhishat,asiftotakeleave。
"Youwon'tgo?"andshestoodlookingupathim。
Hecouldnotgiveuphisideaofprovokingaquarrel;itwassomuchthesimplestway。Hebenthiseyesonherupturnedfacewiththedarkestfrownhecouldachieve。"Youarenotdiscreet;youmustn'tbullyme。"
But,asusual,sheconcededeverything。"No,Iamnotdiscreet;I
knowIamtoopressing。Butisn'titnatural?Itisonlyforamoment。"
"Inamomentyoumaydoagreatdealofharm。TryandbecalmerthenexttimeIcome。"
"Whenwillyoucome?"
"Doyouwanttomakeconditions?"Morrisasked。"IwillcomenextSaturday。"
"Cometomorrow,"Catherinebegged。"Iwantyoutocometomorrow。I
willbeveryquiet,"sheadded;andheragitationhadbythistimebecomesogreatthattheassurancewasnotunbecoming。Asuddenfearhadcomeoverher;itwaslikethesolidconjunctionofadozendisembodieddoubts,andherimagination,atasinglebound,hadtraversedanenormousdistance。Allherbeing,forthemoment,wascenteredinthewishtokeephimintheroom。
Morrisbenthisheadandkissedherforehead。"Whenyouarequiet,youareperfection,"hesaid,"butwhenyouareviolent,youarenotincharacter。"
ItwasCatherine'swishthatthereshouldbenoviolenceabouthersavethebeatingofherheart,whichshecouldnothelp;andshewenton,asgentlyaspossible,"Willyoupromisetocometomorrow?"
"IsaidSaturday!"Morrisanswered,smiling。Hetriedafrownatonemoment,asmileatanother;hewasathiswit'send。
"Yes,Saturdaytoo,"sheanswered,tryingtosmile。"Buttomorrowfirst。"Hewasgoingtothedoor,andshewentwithhimquickly。Sheleanedhershoulderagainstit;itseemedtoherthatshewoulddoanythingtokeephim。
"IfIampreventedfromcomingtomorrow,youwillsayIhavedeceivedyou,"hesaid。
"Howcanyoubeprevented?Youcancomeifyouwill。"
"Iamabusyman-Iamnotadangler!"criedMorris,sternly。
Hisvoicewassohardandunnaturalthat,withahelplesslookathim,sheturnedaway;andthenhequicklylaidhishandonthedoorknob。Hefeltasifhewereabsolutelyrunningawayfromher。
Butinaninstantshewasclosetohimagain,andmurmuringinatonenonethelesspenetratingforbeinglow,"Morris,youaregoingtoleaveme。"
"Yes,foralittlewhile。"
"Forhowlong?"
"Tillyouarereasonableagain。"
"Ishallneverbereasonable,inthatway。"Andshetriedtokeephimlonger;itwasalmostastruggle。"ThinkofwhatIhavedone!"shebrokeout。"Morris,Ihavegivenupeverything。"
"Youshallhaveeverythingback。"
"Youwouldn'tsaythatifyoudidn'tmeansomething。Whatisit?
Whathashappened?WhathaveIdone?Whathaschangedyou?"
"Iwillwritetoyou-thatisbetter,"Morrisstammered。
"Ah,youwon'tcomeback!"shecried,burstingintotears。
"DearCatherine,"hesaid,"don'tbelievethat。Ipromiseyouthatyoushallseemeagain。"Andhemanagedtogetaway,andtoclosethedoorbehindhim。
CHAPTER30。
ITWASALMOSTthelastoutbreakofpassionofherlife;atleast,sheneverindulgedinanotherthattheworldknewanythingabout。
Butthisonewaslongandterrible;sheflungherselfonthesofaandgaveherselfuptohergriefShehardlyknewwhathadhappened;
ostensiblyshehadonlyhadadifferencewithherlover,asothergirlshadhadbefore,andthethingwasnotonlynotarupture,butshewasundernoobligationtoregarditevenasamenace。
Nevertheless,shefeltawound,evenifhehadnotdealtit;itseemedtoherthatamaskhadsuddenlyfallenfromhisface。Hehadwishedtogetawayfromher;hehadbeenangryandcruel,andsaidstrangethings,withstrangelooks。Shewassmotheredandstunned;sheburiedherheadinthecushions,sobbingandtalkingtoherself。Butatlastsheraisedherself,withthefearthateitherherfatherorMrs。Pennimanwouldcomein;andthenshesatthere,staringbeforeher,whiletheroomgrewdarker。Shesaidtoherselfthatperhapshewouldcomebacktotellherhehadnotmeantwhathesaid;andshelistenedforhisringatthedoor,tryingtobelievethatthiswasprobable。Alongtimepassed,butMorrisremainedabsent;theshadowsgathered;theeveningsettleddownonthemeagereleganceofthelight,clear-coloredroom;thefirewentout。Whenithadgrowndark,Catherinewenttothewindowandlookedout;shestoodthereforhalfanhour,onthemerechancethathewouldcomeupthesteps。Atlastsheturnedaway,forshesawherfathercomein。Hehadseenheratthewindowlookingout,andhestoppedamomentatthebottomofthewhitesteps,andgravely,withanairofexaggeratedcourtesy,liftedhishattoher。Thegesturewassoincongruoustotheconditionshewasin,thisstatelytributeofrespecttoapoorgirldespisedandforsakenwassooutofplace,thatthethinggaveherakindofhorror,andshehurriedawaytoherroom。ItseemedtoherthatshehadgivenMorrisup。
Shehadtoshowherselfhalfanhourlater,andshewassustainedattablebytheimmensityofherdesirethatherfathershouldnotperceivethatanythinghadhappened。Thiswasagreathelptoherafterward,anditservedher(thoughneverasmuchasshesupposed)
fromthefirst。OnthisoccasionDoctorSloperwasrathertalkative。
Hetoldagreatmanystoriesaboutawonderfulpoodlethathehadseenatthehouseofanoldladywhomhevisitedprofessionally。
Catherinenotonlytriedtoappeartolistentotheanecdotesofthepoodle,butsheendeavoredtointerestherselfinthem,soasnottothinkofherscenewithMorris。Thatperhapswasanhallucination;
hewasmistaken,shewasjealous;peopledidn'tchangelikethatfromonedaytoanother。Thensheknewthatshehadhaddoubtsbefore-
strangesuspicions,thatwereatoncevagueandacute-andthathehadbeendifferenteversinceherreturnfromEurope:whereuponshetriedagaintolistentoherfather,whotoldastorysoremarkablywell。Afterwardshewentstraighttoherownroom;itwasbeyondherstrengthtoundertaketospendtheeveningwithheraunt。Alltheevening,alone,shequestionedherself。Hertroublewasterrible;
butwasitathingofherimagination,engenderedbyanextravagantsensibility,ordiditrepresentaclear-cutreality,andhadtheworstthatwaspossibleactuallycometopass?Mrs。Penniman,withadegreeoftactthatwasasunusualasitwascommendable,tookthelineofleavingheralone。Thetruthis,thathersuspicionshavingbeenaroused,sheindulgedadesire,naturaltoatimidperson,thattheexplosionshouldbelocalized。Solongastheairstillvibratedshekeptoutoftheway。
ShepassedandrepassedCatherine'sdoorseveraltimesinthecourseoftheevening,asifsheexpectedtohearaplaintivemoanbehindit。
Buttheroomremainedperfectlystill;andaccordinglythelastthingbeforeretiringtoherowncouch,sheappliedforadmittance。
Catherinewassittingup,andhadabookthatshepretendedtobereading。Shehadnowishtogotobed,forshehadnoexpectationofsleeping。AfterMrs。Pennimanhadlefthershesatuphalfthenight,andsheofferedhervisitornoinducementtoremain。Herauntcamestealinginverygently,andapproachedherwithgreatsolemnity。
"Iamafraidyouareintrouble,mydear。CanIdoanythingtohelpyou?"
"Iamnotinanytroublewhatever,anddonotneedanyhelp,"saidCatherine,fibbingroundly,andprovingtherebythatnotonlyourfaults,butourmostinvoluntarymisfortunes,tendtocorruptourmorals。
"Hasnothinghappenedtoyou?"
"Nothingwhatever。"
"Areyouverysure,dear?"
"Perfectlysure。"
"AndcanIreallydonothingforyou?"
"Nothing,Aunt,butkindlyleavemealone,"saidCatherine。
Mrs。Penniman,thoughshehadbeenafraidoftoowarmawelcomebefore,wasnowdisappointedatsocoldaone;andinrelatingafterward,asshedidtomanypersons,andwithconsiderablevariationsofdetail,thehistoryoftheterminationofherniece'sengagement,shewasusuallycarefultomentionthattheyounglady,onacertainoccasion,had"hustled"heroutoftheroom。ItwascharacteristicofMrs。Pennimanthatsherelatedthisfact,notintheleastoutofmalignitytoCatherine,whomsheverysufficientlypitied,butsimplyfromanaturaldispositiontoembellishanysubjectthatshetouched。
Catherine,asIhavesaid,satuphalfthenight,asifshestillexpectedtohearMorrisTownsendringatthedoor。Onthemorrowthisexpectationwaslessunreasonable;butitwasnotgratifiedbythereappearanceoftheyoungman。Neitherhadhewritten;therewasnotawordofexplanationorreassurance。FortunatelyforCatherine,shecouldtakerefugefromherexcitement,whichhadnowbecomeintense,inherdeterminationthatherfathershouldseenothingofit。Howwellshedeceivedherfatherweshallhaveoccasiontolearn;butherinnocentartswereoflittleavailbeforeapersonoftherareperspicacityofMrs。Penniman。Thisladyeasilysawthatshewasagitated,andiftherewasanyagitationgoingforward,Mrs。
Pennimanwasnotapersontoforfeithernaturalshareinit。Shereturnedtothechargethenextevening,andrequestedherniecetoconfideinher-tounburdenherheart。Perhapssheshouldbeabletoexplaincertainthingsthatnowseemeddark,andthatsheknewmoreaboutthanCatherinesupposed。IfCatherinehadbeenfrigidthenightbefore,todayshewashaughty。
"Youarecompletelymistaken,andIhavenottheleastideawhatyoumean。Idon'tknowwhatyouaretryingtofastenonme,andIhaveneverhadlessneedofanyone'sexplanationsinmylife。"
Inthiswaythegirldeliveredherself,andfromhourtohourkeptherauntatbay。FromhourtohourMrs。Penniman'scuriositygrew。ShewouldhavegivenherlittlefingertoknowwhatMorrishadsaidanddone,whattonehehadtaken,whatpretexthehadfound。Shewrotetohim,naturally,torequestaninterview;butshereceived,asnaturally,noanswertoherpetition。Morriswasnotinawritingmood;forCatherinehadaddressedhimtwoshortnoteswhichmetwithnoacknowledgment。ThesenotesweresobriefthatImaygivethementire。"Won'tyougivemesomesignthatyoudidn'tmeantobesocruelasyouseemedonTuesday?"-thatwasthefirst;theotherwasalittlelonger。"IfIwasunreasonableorsuspiciousonTuesday-ifI
annoyedyouortroubledyouinanyway-Ibegyourforgiveness,andIpromiseneveragaintobesofoolish。Iampunishedenough,andI
don'tunderstand。DearMorris,youarekillingme!"ThesenotesweredispatchedontheFridayandSaturday;butSaturdayandSundaypassedwithoutbringingthepoorgirlthesatisfactionshedesired。