"Mydarlinggrandmother,"shecried,"I
thoughtyouwouldnevercomehome。"
"Itwasn’tmyfault,dear。MissHillisandanimbecileyoungdoctormademebelieveIhadacold。Ihadnocold。IhadnothingatallbutwhatIoughttohave。I’vebeenmadetotakeallsortsofthings,anddoallsortsofthingsthatIhatetotakeandhatetodo。FortendaysI’vebeenkickingmyoldheelsagainstbedclothes。YesterdayItookthingsinmyownhands。"
"Nevermind,Grannydear,itwasallagooddiscipline。"
"Discipline!Youimpertinentyounglady!Disciplineforyourgrandmother!
Discipline,indeed!Thatonewordmaycostyouathousanddollars,miss。"
"Idon’tcareifitdoes,onlyyoumustgivethethousanddollarstopoorMissHillis。"
"PoorMissHillishashadamostcomfortabletimewithmeallsummer。"
"Iknowshehas,consequentlyshewillfeelhercomfortlessroomandpovertyallthemoreafterit。Giveherthethousand,Granny。
I’mwilling。"
"Whatkindofcompanyhaveyoubeenkeeping,EthelRawdon?Whohastaughtyoutosquanderdollarsbythethousand?
Discipline!Ithinkyouaregivingmealittlenow——athousanddollarsalesson,itseems——
nowonder,afterthecarryings-onatRawdonCourt。"
"Deargrandmother,wehadtheloveliesttimeyoucanimagine。Andthereisnot,inalltheworld,suchanobleoldgentlemanasSquirePercivalRawdon。"
"IknowallaboutPercivalRawdon——aproud,careless,extravagant,loose-at-endsman,dancingandsingingandlovingasitsuitedtimeandseason,takingnothoughtforthefuture,andspendingwithbothhands;
hardonwomen,too,ascouldbe。"
"Grandmother,Ineversawamorecourteousgentleman。Heworshipswomen。Hewasnevertiredoftalkingaboutyou。"
"Whathadhetosayaboutme?"
"Thatyouweretheloveliestgirlinthecounty,andthathenevercouldforgetthefirsttimehesawyou。Hesaidyouwerelikethevisionofanangel。"
"Nonsense!Iwasjustaprettygirlinabookmuslinfrockandawhitesash,witharoseatmybreast。Ibelievetheyusebookmuslinforliningsnow,butitdidmakethesheerest,lightestfrocksanygirlcouldwant。
Yes,Irememberthattime。Iwasgoingtoalittlepartyandcrossingameadowtoshortenthewalk,andSquirePercivalhadbeenoutwithhisgun,andhelaiditdownandrantohelpmeoverthestile。Ahandsomeyoungfellowhewasthenaseversteppedinshoeleather。"
"Andhemusthavelovedyoudearly。HewouldsithourafterhourtellingRuthandmehowbrightyouwere,andhowalltheyoungbeauxaroundMonk-Rawdonadoredyou。"
"Nonsense!Nonsense!Ihadbeauxtobesure。Whatprettygirlhasn’t?"
"AndhesaidhisbrotherEdwardwonyoubecausehewasmostworthyofyourlove。"
"Well,now,IchoseEdwardRawdonbecausehewaswillingtocometoAmerica。I
longedtogetawayfromMonk-Rawdon。I
wasfaintandwearywiththewholestupidplace。Andtheideaoflivingafreeandequallife,andnotcaringwhatlordsandsquiresandtheirproudladiessaidordid,pleasedmewonderfully。WereadaboutNiagaraandthegreatprairiesandthenewbrightcities,andEdwardandIresolvedtomakeourhomethere。Yourgrandfatherwasn’tamantolikebeing`theSquire’sbrother。’Hecouldstandalone。"
"AreyougladyoucametoAmerica?"
"Neversorryaminuteforit。TenyearsinNewYorkisworthfiftyyearsinMonk-
Rawdon,orRawdonCourteither。"
"SquirePercivalwasveryfondofme。
HethoughtIresembledyou,grandmother,butheneveradmittedIwasashandsomeasyouwere。"
"Well,Etheldear,youarehandsomeenoughforthekindofmenyou’llpickupinthisgeneration——mostofthembaldatthirty,wearingspectaclesattwentyorearlier,andinspiteofthefusstheymakeaboutathleticsbreakingalltonervousbitsaboutfifty。"
"Grandmother,thatispureslander。I
knowsomeveryfineyoungmen,handsomeandathleticboth。"
"Beautyisamatteroftaste,andastotheirathletics,theycanrunamilewithablacksmith,butwhenthethermometerrisestoeighty-fivedegreesitknocksthemalltopieces。Theysitfanningthemselveslikeschoolgirls,andcallforjulepsandice-water。
I’vegoteyesyet,mydear。SquirePercivalwasadifferentkindofman;hecouldfollowthehoundsalldayanddanceallnight。Thehunthadnotariderlikehim;hebalkedatneitherhedge,gate,norwater;arightgallant,courageous,honorable,affectionategentlemanaseverYorkshirebred,andshe’sbredlotsofsuperfineones。Whatevermadehimgetintosuchamesswithhisestate?
Yourgrandfatherthoughthimasstraightasastringinmoneymatters。"
"Yousaidjustnowhewascarelessandextravagant。"
"Well,Ididhimwrong,andI’msorryforit。Howdidhemanagetoneedeightythousandpounds?"
"Itisratherapitifulstory,grandmother,butheneveronceblamedthosewhowereinthewrong。Hissonformanyyearshadbeentherealmanageroftheestate。Hewasaspeculator;hisgrandsonswerewildandextravagant。Theybegantoborrowmoneytenyearsagoandhadtogoon。"
"Whomdidtheyborrowfrom?"
"FredMostyn’sfather。"
"Thedevil!Excuseme,Ethel——butthenamesuitsandmaystand。"
"ThedearoldSquirewouldhavetakenthefaultonhimselfifhecouldhavedoneso。
Theythatwrongedhimwerehisown,andtheyweredead。Heneverspokeofthembutwithaffection。"
"PoorPercival!YourfathertoldmehewasnowoutofMostyn’spower;hesaidyouhadsavedtheestate,buthegavemenoparticulars。Howdidyousaveit?"
"Boughtit!"
"Nonsense!"
"Houseandlandsandoutlyingfarmsandtimber——everything。"
ThenarosycoloroverspreadMadam’sface,hereyessparkled,sherosetoherfeet,madeEthelasweepingcourtesy,andsaid:
"MyrespectandcongratulationstoEthel,LadyofRawdonManor。"
"Deargrandmother,whatelsecouldI
do?"
"Youdidright。"
"TheSquireisLordoftheManoraslongashelives。MyfathersaysIhavedonewelltobuyit。Inthefuture,ifIdonotwishtokeepit,NicholasRawdonwillrelievemeatagreatfinancialadvantage。"
"Whydidn’tyouletNicholasRawdonbuyitnow?"
"Hewouldhavewantedpromptpossession。
TheSquirewouldhavehadtoleavehishome。Itwouldhavebrokenhisheart。"
"Idaresay。Hehasasoft,lovingheart。
Thatisn’talwaysablessing。Itcangiveoneadealofsuffering。AndIhearyouhaveallbeenmakingidolsoftheseTyrrel-Rawdons。
Fredtellsmetheyareasvulgaralotascanbe。"
"Fredlies!Excuseme,grandmother——butthewordsuitsandmaystand。Mr。Nicholasispompous,andwalksasslowlyasifhehadtocarrytheweightofhisgreatfortune;buthismannersareallright,andhiswifeandsonaredelightful。Sheishandsome,welldressed,andsogood-heartedthatherprettycountyidiomsarereallycharming。JohnThomasisamanbyhimself——nothandsome,butrunningoverwithgoodtemper,andexceedinglycleverandwide-awake。ManytimesIwasforcedtotellmyself,JohnThomaswouldmakeanidealSquireofRawdon。"
"Whydon’tyoumarryhim。"
"Heneveraskedme。"
"Whatwasthematterwiththemen?"
"Hewasalreadyengagedtoaverylovelyyounglady。"
"Iamgladsheisalady。"
"Sheisalsoveryclever。Shehasbeentocollegeandtakenhighhonors,athingIhavenotdone。"
"Youmighthavedoneandoverdonethatcaper;youweretoosensibletotryit。Well,I’mgladthatpartofthefamilyislookingup。Theyhadtherightstuffinthem,anditisagoodthingforfamiliestodwelltogetherinunity。WehaveKingDavid’swordforthat。Myobservationleadsmetothinkitisfarbetterforfamiliestodwellapart,inunity。Theyseldomgetalongcomfortablytogether。"
ThenEthelrelatedmanypleasant,piquantscenesbetweenthetwofamiliesatMonk-
Rawdon,andespeciallythatoneinwhichtheroomofthefirstTyrrelhadbeenopenedandhislikenessrestoredtoitsplaceinthefamilygallery。Ittouchedtheoldladytotears,andshemurmured,"Poorlad!Poorlad!I
wonderifheknows!Iwonderifheknows!"
ThecrucialpointofEthel’srevelationshadnotyetbeenrevealed,butMadamwasnowinagentlemood,andEtheltooktheopportunitytointroducehertoTyrrelRawdon。
Shewasexpectingandwaitingforthistopic,butstubbornlyrefusedtogiveEthelanyhelptowardbringingitforward。Atlast,thegirlfeltalittleangeratherpretendedindifference,andsaid,"IsupposeFredMostyntoldyouaboutMr。TyrrelRawdon,ofCalifornia?"
"TyrrelRawdon,ofCalifornia!Pray,whomayhebe?"
"ThesonofColonelRawdon,oftheUnitedStatesArmy。"
"Oh,tobesure!Well,whatofhim?"
"Iamgoingtomarryhim。"
"Ishallseeaboutthat。"
"Wewerecomingheretogethertoseeyou,butbeforeweleftthesteamerhegotatelegramurginghimtogoatoncetohisfather,whoisveryill。"
"Ihavenotaskedhimtocomeandseeme。PerhapshewillwaittillIdoso。"
"IfyouarenotgoingtoloveTyrrel,youneednotloveme。Iwon’thaveyouforagrandmotheranylonger。"
"Ididwithoutyousixtyyears。Ishallnotliveanothertwelvemonths,andIthinkIcanmanagetodowithoutyouforagranddaughteranylonger。"
"Youcannotdowithoutme。Youwouldbreakyourheart,andIshouldbreakmine。"
WhereuponEthelbegantocrywithapassionthatquitegratifiedtheoldlady。Shewatchedherafewmoments,andthensaidgently:
"Therenow,thatwilldo。WhenhecomestoNewYorkbringhimtoseeme。Anddon’tnamethemaninthemeantime。Iwon’ttalkabouthimtillI’veseenhim。Itisn’tfaireitherway。Freddidn’tlikehim。"
"FredlikesnoonebutDoraStanhope。"
"Eh!What!Isthatnonsensegoingonyet?"
ThenEtheldescribedherlasttwointerviewswithDora。Shedidthiswithscrupulousfidelity,makingnosuggestionsthatmightprejudicethecase。Forshereallywantedhergrandmother’sdecisioninordertoframeherownconductbyit。Madamwasnot,however,inahurrytogiveit。
"Whatdoyouthink?"sheaskedEthel。
"IhaveknownDoraformanyyears;shehasalwaystoldmeeverything。"
"ButnothingaboutFred?"
"Nothing。"
"Nothingtotell,perhaps?"
"Perhaps。"
"Wheredoesherexcellenthusbandcomein?"
"Shesaysheisverykindtoherinhisway。"
"Andhiswayistodragherovertheworldtoseethecathedralsthereof,andtovarythatpleasurewithinspectingschoolsandreformatoriesandlisteningtogreatpreachers。Uponmyword,Ifeelsorryforthechild!AndI
knowallaboutsuchexcellentpeopleastheStanhopes。Iusedtogotowhattheycall`apleasantevening’withthem。Wesataroundabigroomlitwithwaxcandles,andheldimprovingconversation,orsomeonesangoneortwoofMrs。Hemans’songs,like`PassingAway’or`HeNeverSmiledAgain。’Perhapstherewasacomicrecitation,atwhichnoonelaughed,andfinallywehadwineandhotwater——theycalledit`portnegus’——andtonguesandwichesandcarawaycakes。MydearEthel,IyawnnowwhenI
thinkofthosedrearyevenings。WhatmustDorahavefelt,rightoutofthemaelstromofNewYork’soperasandtheatersanddancingparties?"
"Still,Doraoughttotrytofeelsomeinterestinthechurchaffairs。Shesaysshedoesnotcareahairpinforthem,andBasilfeelssohurt。"
"Idaresayhedoes,poorfellow!HethinksSt。Jude’sKindergartenandsewingcirclesandmissionarysocietiesaretheonlyjoysintheworld。RightenoughforBasil,buthowaboutDora?"
"Theyarehisprofession;sheoughttofeelaninterestinthem。"
"Comenow,lookatthequestionsensibly。
DidDora’sfatherbringhis`deals’andstock-jobberyhome,andexpectDoraandhermothertofeelaninterestinthem?Dodoctorstelltheirwivesabouttheirpatients,andexpectthemtopaysympathizingvisits?
DoesyourfatherexpectRuthandyourselftolistentohiscasesandarguments,andvisithispoorclientsormakeunderclothingforthem?Domen,ingeneral,consideritawife’splacetointerfereintheirprofessionorbusiness?"
"Clergymenaredifferent。"
"Notatall。Preachingandphilanthropyistheirbusiness。Theygetsomuchayearfordoingit。Idon’tbelieveSt。Jude’spaysMrs。Stanhopearedcent。Therenow,andifsheisn’tpaid,she’srightnottowork。Amentothat!"
"BeforeshewasmarriedDorasaidshefeltagreatinterestinchurchwork。"
"Idaresayshedid。Marriagemakesadealofdifferenceinawoman’slikesanddislikes。
Churchworkwascourting-timebeforemarriage;aftermarriageshehadotheropportunities。"
"IthinkyoumightspeaktoFredMostyn————"
"Imight,butitwouldn’tbeworthwhile。
Betruetoyourfriendaslongasyoucan。
InYorkshirewestandbyourfriends,rightorwrong,andwearen’ttooparticularastotheirbeingright。Myfatherenjoyedjustifyingamanthateveryoneelsewasdownon;
andI’vestoodbymanyawomannobodyhadagoodwordfor。Iwasneversorryfordoingit,either。I’llbegoingintoastrangecountrysoon,andIshouldnotwonderifsomeofthemthathavegonetherefirstwillbereadytostandbyme。Wedon’tknowwhatfriendswe’llbegladofthere。"
Thedinnerbellbrokeupthisconversation,andEthelduringittoldMadamaboutthecookandcookingattheCourtandatNicholasRawdon’s,whereJohnThomashadinstalledaFrenchchef。Otherdomesticarrangementswerediscussed,andwhentheJudgecalledforhisdaughteratfouro’clock,Madamvowed"shehadspentoneofthehappiestdaysofherlife。"
"Ruthtellsme,"saidtheJudge,"thatDoraStanhopecalledforEthelsoonaftershelefthomethismorning。Ruthseemstroubledatthecontinuanceofthisfriendship。
Haveyouspokentoyourgrandmother,Ethel,aboutDora?"
"Shehastoldmeallthereistotell,Idaresay,"answeredMadam。
"Well,mother,whatdoyouthink?"
"Iseenoharminityetawhile。Itisnotfair,Edward,tocondemnuponlikelihoods。
Wearenosaints,sinfulmenandwomen,allofus,andasmuchinclinedtoforbiddenfruitasanygoodChristianscanbe。Ethelcandoasshefeelsaboutit;she’sgotamindofherown,andIhopetogoodnessshe’llnotletRuthBayardbitandbridleit。"
GoinghometheJudgeevidentlyponderedthisquestion,forhesaidafteralengthysilence,"Grandmother’sethicsdonotalwaysfitthesocialethicsofthisday,Ethel。Shecriticisespeoplewithherheart,notherintellect。
Youmustbeprudent。ThereisaremarkablethingcalledRespectabilitytobereckonedwithrememberthat。"
AndEthelanswered,"NooneneedworryaboutDora。Somewomenmayshowtheedgesoftheircharactersoiledandragged,butDorawillbesuretohavehersreputablyfinishedwithahemofthewidestpropriety。"
AndafterashortsilencetheJudgeadded,almostinsoliloquy,"And,moreover,Ethel,"`There’sadivinitythatshapesourends,Rough-hewthemhowwewill。’"
PARTFOURTH
THEREAPINGOFTHESOWING
CHAPTERX
WHENEthelandTyrrelpartedatthesteamertheydidnotexpectalongseparation,butColonelRawdonneverrecoveredhishealth,andformanyexcellentreasonsTyrrelcouldnotleavethedyingman。NordidEthelwishhimtodoso。UnderthesecircumstancesbeganthesecondbeautifulphaseofEthel’swooing,asweet,dailycorrespondence,thebestofallpreparationsformatrimonialonenessandunderstanding。LookingforTyrrel’sletters,readingthem,andansweringthempassedmanyhappyhours,fortobothitwasanabsolutenecessitytoassureeachotherconstantly,"SinceIwrotetheeyestereveIdolovethee,Love,believe,Twelvetimesdearer,twelvehourslonger,Onedreamdeeperonenightstronger,Onesunsurer——thismuchmoreThanIlovedthee,dear,before。"
Andfortherest,shetookupheroldlifewithafreshenthusiasm。
AmongtheseinterestsnoneweremoreurgentintheirclaimsthanDoraStanhope;
andfortifiedbyhergrandmother’sopinion,Ethelwentatoncetocallonher。ShefoundBasilwithhiswife,andhiseffortstomakeEthelseehowmuchheexpectedfromherinfluence,andyetatthesametimenotevenhintadisapprovalofDora,werealmostpathetic,forhewassovoidofsophistrythathisinnuendoeswereflagrantlyopentodetection。
Dorafeltacontemptforthem,andhehadhardlylefttheroomereshesaid:
"Basilhasgonetohisvestryinhighspirits。WhenItoldhimyouwerecomingtoseemeto-dayhesmiledlikeanangel。Hebelievesyouwillkeepmeoutofmischief,andhefeelsagrandconfidenceinsomethingwhichhecalls`yourinfluence。’"
"Whatdoyoumeanbymischief?"
"Oh,IsupposegoingaboutwithFredMostyn。Ican’thelpthat。Imusthavesomeonetolookafterme。AlltheyoungmenI
usedtoknowpassmenowwithaliftedhatorawordortwo。Thegirlshaveforgottenme。Idon’tsupposeIshallbeaskedtoasingledancethiswinter。"
"TheladiesinSt。Jude’schurchwouldmakeapetofyouif————"
"Theoldcatsandkittens!No,thankyou,IamnotgoingtochurchexceptonSundaymornings——thatisrespectableandright;butastobeingthepetofSt。Jude’sladies!No,no!Howtheywouldmewovermydelinquencies,andwhatscratchesIshouldgetfromtheirvelvet-shodclaws!IfIhavetobetalkedabout,Iprefertheladiesoftheworldtodiscussmyfrailties。"
"ButifIwereyou,Iwouldgivenooneareasonforsayingawordagainstme。Whyshouldyou?"
"Fredwillsupplythemwithreasons。I
can’tkeepthemanawayfromme。Idon’tbelieveIwantto——heisveryniceanduseful。"
"Youaretalkingnonsense,thingsyoudon’tmean,Dora。YouarenotsuchafoolishwomanastoliketobeseenwithFredMostyn,thatlittlemonocularsnob,afterthearistocratic,handsomeBasilStanhope。Thecomparisonisamockery。BasilisthefinestgentlemanIeversaw。Socially,heisperfection,and————"
"Heisonlyaclergyman。"
"Evenasaclergymanheisofreligiouslyroyaldescent。Therearegenerationsofclergymenbehindhim,andheisaprinceinthepulpit。Everymanthatknowshimgiveshimthehighestrespect,everywomanthinksyouthemostfortunateofwives。NoonecaresforFredMostyn。Eveninhisnativeplaceheisheldincontempt。HehadninehundredvotestoyoungRawdon’stwelvethousand。"
"Idon’tmindthat。Iamgoingtothematineeto-morrowwithFred。Hewantedtotakemeoutinhisautothisafternoon,butwhenIsaidIwouldgoifyouwouldhedrewback。Whatisthereason?Didhemakeyouofferofhishand?Didyourefuseit?"
"Henevermademeanoffer。Icountthattomyselfasagreatcompliment。Ifhehaddonesuchathing,hewouldcertainlyhavebeenrefused。"
"Icantellthathereallyhatesyou。WhatdirtytrickdidyouservehimaboutRawdonCourt?"
"SohecalledthereleaseofSquireRawdona`dirtytrick’?ItwouldhavebeenaverydirtytricktohaveletFredMostyngethiswaywithSquireRawdon。"
"Ofcourse,Ethel,whenamanlendshismoneyasanobligationheexpectstogetitbackagain。"
"Mostyngoteveryfarthingduehim,andhewantedoneofthefinestmanorsinEng-
landinreturnfortheobligation。Hedidnotgetit,thankGodandmyfather!"
"Hewillnotforgetyourfather’sinterference。"
"Ihopehewillrememberit。"
"DoyouknowwhofurnishedthemoneytopayFred?Hesaysheissureyourfatherdidnothaveit。"
"Tellhimtoaskmyfather。Hemightevenaskyourfather。Whethermyfatherhadthemoneyornotwasimmaterial。Fathercouldborrowanysumhewanted,I
think。"
"Whomdidheborrowfrom?"
"IamsurethatFredtoldyoutoaskthatquestion。Ishewritingtoyou,Dora?"
"Supposeheis?"
"Icannotsupposesuchathing。Itistooimpossible。"
ThiswasthebeginningofaseriesofeventsallmoreorlessqualifiedtobringaboutunspeakablemiseryinBasil’shome。Butthereisnothinginlifelikethemarriagetie。Thetugsitwillbearandnotbreak,thewrongsitwilllookover,thechronicmisunderstandingsitwillforgive,makeitoneofthemysteriesofhumanity。ItwasnotinadayoraweekthatBasilStanhope’sdreamofloveandhomewasshattered。Dorahadfrequentandthenlessfrequenttimesofreturntoherbetterself;andeverysuchtimerenewedherhusband’shopethatshewasmerelypassingthroughaperiodoftransitionandassimilation,andthatintheendshewouldbeallhisdesirehopedfor。
ButEthelsawwhathedidnotsee,thatMostynwasgraduallyinspiringherwithhisownopinions,perhapsevenwithhisownpassion。
Inthisemergency,however,shewasgratifiedtofindthatDora’smotherappearedtohavegraspedthesituation。ForifDorawenttothetheaterwithMostyn,Mrs。DenningorBrycewasalsothere;andtherecklessautodriving,shopping,andlunchinghadatleastashowofrespectableassociation。
Yetwhentheoperaseasonopened,theconstantcompanionshipofMostynandDorabecameentirelytooremarkable,notonlyinthepublicestimation,butinBasil’smiserableconceptionofhisownwrong。Theyounghusbandusedeveryartandpersuasion——andfailed。Andhisfailurewastooapparenttobeslighted。Hebecamefeverishandnervous,andhisfriendsreadhismiseryineyesheavywithunshedtears,andinthewastingpallorcausedbyhissleepless,sorrowfulnights。
Doraalsoshowedsignsofthechangesorapidlyworkingonher。Shewassullenandpassionatebyturns;shecomplainedbitterlytoEthelthatheryouthandbeautyhadbeenwasted;thatshewasonlynineteen,andherlifewasover。ShewantedtogotoParis,togetawayfromNewYorkanywhereandanyhow。
ShebegantodislikeeventhepresenceofBasil。Hisstatelybeautyoffendedher,hislow,calmvoicewastheverykeynoteofirritation。
OnemorningnearChristmashecametoherwithasmiling,radiantface。"Dora,"
hesaid,"Dora,mylove,Ihavesomethingsointerestingtotellyou。Mrs。ColbyandMrs。Schafflerandsomeotherladieshaveabeautifulidea。TheywishtogiveallthechildrenofthechurchundereightyearsoldthegrandestChristmastreeimaginable——
reallyrichpresentsandtheythoughtyoumightliketohaveithere。"
"Whatdoyousay,Basil!"
"Youwerealwayssofondofchildren。
You————"
"Inevercouldendurethem。"
"Weallthoughtyoumightenjoyit。Indeed,IwassosurethatIpromisedforyou。
Itwillbesuchapleasuretomealso,dear。"
"Iwillhavenosuchchildishnonsenseinmyhouse。"
"Ipromisedit,Dora。"
"Youhadnorighttodoso。Thisismyhouse。Myfatherboughtitandgavemeit,anditismyown。I————"
"Itseems,then,thatIintrudeinyourhouse。Isitso?Speak,Dora。"
"Ifyouwillaskquestionsyoumusttaketheanswer。Youdointrudewhenyoucomewithsuchridiculousproposals——infact,youintrudeveryoftenlately。"
"DoesMr。Mostynintrude?"
"Mr。Mostyntakesmeout,givesmealittlesensiblepleasure。YouthinkIcanbeinterestedinaChristmastree。Theidea!"
"Alas,alas,Dora,youaretiredofme!
Youdonotloveme!Youdonotloveme!"
"Ilovenobody。IamsorryIgotmarried。
Itwasallamistake。Iwillgohomeandthenyoucangetadivorce。"
Atthislastwordthewholemanchanged。
Hewassuffused,transfiguredwithanangerthatwasatoncerighteousandimpetuous。
"Howdareyouusethatwordtome?"hedemanded。"TothepriestofGodnosuchwordexists。Idonotknowit。Youaremywife,willingorunwilling。Youaremywifeforever,whetheryoudwellwithmeornot。
YoucannotseverbondstheAlmightyhastied。Youaremine,DoraStanhope!Minefortimeandeternity!Mineforeverandever!"
Shelookedathiminamazement,andsawamanafteranimageshehadneverimagined。
Shewasterrified。Sheflungherselfonthesofainawhirlwindofpassion。Shecriedaloudagainsthisclaim。Shegaveherselfuptoavehementragethatwasstronglyinfusedwithachildishdismayandpanic。
"Iwillnotbeyourwifeforever!"sheshrieked。"Iwillneverbeyourwifeagain——never,notforonehour!Letmego!Takeyourhandsoffme!"ForBasilhadkneltdownbythedistraughtwoman,andclaspingherinhisarmssaid,evenonherlips,"YouAREmydearwife!Youaremyveryowndearwife!Tellmewhattodo。Anythingthatisright,reasonableIwilldo。Wecanneverpart。"
"Iwillgotomyfather。Iwillnevercomebacktoyou。"Andwiththesewordssherose,threwoffhisembrace,andwithasobbingcryran,likeaterrifiedchild,outoftheroom。
Hesatdownexhaustedbyhisemotion,andsickwiththethoughtshehadevokedinthatoneevilword。Thepublicity,thedisgrace,thewrongtoHolyChurch——ah,thatwasthecruelestwound!Hisownwrongwashardenough,butthathe,whowouldgladlydiefortheChurch,shouldputhertoopenshame!Howcouldhebearit?Thoughitkilledhim,hemustpreventthatwrong;yes,iftherighteyeoffendeditmustbepluckedout。Hemustthrowoffhiscassock,andturnawayfromthesacredaisles;hemust——hecouldnotsaytheword;hewouldwaitalittle。
Dorawouldnotleavehim;itwasimpossible。
Hewaitedinatranceofachingsuspense。
Nothingforanhourormorebrokeit——nofootfall,nosoundofcommandorcomplaint。
HewasfinallyinhopesthatDoraslept。
Thenhewascalledtolunch,andhemadeapretenseofeatingitalone。Dorasentnoexcuseforherabsence,andhecouldnottrusthimselftomakeinquiryabouther。Inthemiddleoftheafternoonheheardacarriagedrivetothedoor,andDora,withherjewel-
caseinherhand,entereditandwasdrivenaway。Thesightastoundedhim。Herantoherroom,andfoundhermaidpackingherclothing。Thewomanansweredhisquestionssullenly。Shesaid"Mrs。StanhopehadgonetoMrs。Denning’s,andhadleftordersforhertrunkstobesentthere。"Beyondthisshewassilentandignorant。Nosympathyforeitherhusbandorwifewasinherheart。
Theirquarrelwasinterferingwithherownplans;shehatedbothoftheminconsequence。
InthemeantimeDorahadreachedherhome。Hermotherwasdismayedandhesitating,andherattituderaisedagaininDora’sheartthepassionwhichhadprovokedthestepshehadtaken。Sheweptlikealostchild。SheexclaimedagainstthehorrorofbeingBasil’swifeforeverandever。Shereproachedhermotherforsufferinghertomarrywhileshewasonlyachild。Shesaidshehadbeencruellyusedinordertogetthefamilyintosocialrecognition。Shewasinafrenzyofgriefathersupposedsacrificewhenherfathercamehome。Hercasewasthenwon。Withherarmsroundhisneck,sobbingagainsthisheart,hertearsandentreatiesonhislips,BenDenninghadnofeelingandnocareforanyonebuthisdaughter。Hetookherviewofthingsatonce。"SheHADbeenbadlyused。ItWASashametotieagirllikeDoratosermonsandsuchlike。Itwaslikeshuttingherupinaconvent。"Dora’stearsandcomplaintsfiredhimbeyondreason。Hepromisedherfreedomwhateveritcosthim。
Andwhilehesatinhisprivateroomconsideringthecase,alltheracialpassionsofhisroughancestryburningwithinhim,BasilStanhopecalledtoseehim。Hepermittedhimtocomeintohispresence,butheroseasheentered,andwalkedhastilyafewstepstomeethim。
"Whatdoyouwanthere,sir?"heasked。
"Mywife。"
"Mydaughter。Youshallnotseeher。I
havetakenherbacktomyowncare。"
"Sheismywife。Noonecantakeherfromme。"
"Iwillteachyouadifferentlesson。"
"ThelawofGod。"
"Thelawofthelandgoeshere。You’llfinditmorethanyoucandefy。"
"Sir,IentreatyoutoletmespeaktoDora。"
"Iwillnot。"
"IwillstayhereuntilIseeher。"
"Iwillgiveyoufiveminutes。Idonotwishtoofferyourprofessionaninsult;ifyouhaveanyrespectforityouwillobeyme。"
Answermeonequestion——whathaveI
donewrong?"
"Amancanbesointolerablyright,thathebecomesunbearablywrong。Youhavenobusinesswithawifeandahome。Youaread————sighttoogoodforagoodlittlegirlthatwantsabitofinnocentamusement。SermonsandChristmastrees!GreatScott,whatsensiblewomanwouldnotbesickofitall?Sir,Idon’twantanotherminuteofyourcompany。LittlewonderthatmyDoraisillwithit。Obligemebyleavingmyhouseasquietlyaspossible。"Andhewalkedtothedoor,flungitopen,andstoodglaringatthedistractedhusband。"Go,"hesaid。"Goatonce。Mylawyerwillseeyouinthefuture。
Ihavenothingfurthertosaytoyou。"
Basilwent,butnottohisdesolatehome。
Hehadaprivatekeytothevestryinhischurch,andinitsdarknessandsolitudehefacedthefirstshockofhisruinedlife,forheknewwellallwasover。Allhadbeen。Hesanktotheflooratthefootofthelargecrosswhichhungonitsbarewhitewalls。Grief’sillimitablewavewentoverhim,andlikeadrowningmanheutteredaninarticulatecryofagony——thecryofasoulthathadwrongeditsdestiny。
Lovehadbetrayedhimtoruin。Allhehaddonemustbeabandoned。Allhehadwonmustbegivenup。SinandshameindeeditwouldbeifinhispersonasacramentoftheChurchshouldbedraggedthroughadivorcecourt。Allotherconsiderationspaledbeforethisdisgrace。Hemustresignhiscuracy,striphimselfofthehonorableliveryofheaven,obliteratehispersonandhisname。Itwasakindofdeath。
Afterawhileherose,dranksomewater,liftedtheshadeandletthemoonlightin。
ThenaboutthatlittleroomhewalkedwithGodthroughthelongnight,tellingHimhissorrowandperplexity。Andthereisadepthinourownnaturewherethedivineandhumanareone。ThatnightBasilStanhopefoundit,andhenceforwardknewthatthebitternessofdeathwasbehindhim,notbefore。
"Imademynesttoodearonearth,"
hesighed,"andithasbeensweptbare——thatis,thatImaybuildinheaven。
Now,therevelationofsorrowistheclearestofallrevelations。Stanhopeunderstoodthathourwhathemustdo。Nodoubtsweakenedhiscourse。HewentbacktothehouseDoracalled"hers,"tookawaywhathevalued,andwhiletheservantswereeatingtheirbreakfastandtalkingoverhismaritaltroubles,hepassedacrossitsthresholdforthelasttime。Hetoldnoonewherehewasgoing;hedroppedassilentlyanddumblyoutofthelifethathadknownhimasastonedroppedintomid-ocean。
EthelconsideredherselffortunateinbeingfromhomeatthetimethisdisastrousculminationofBasilStanhope’smarriedlifewasreached。OnthatsamemorningtheJudge,accompaniedbyRuthandherself,hadgonetoLenoxtospendtheholidayswithsomeoldfriends,andshewasquiteignorantofthematterwhenshereturnedaftertheNewYear。Brycewasherfirstinformant。
Hecalledspeciallytogiveherthenews。Hesaidhissisterhadbeentooillandtoobusytowrite。Hehadnowordofsympathyfortheunhappypair。Hespokeonlyoftheanxietyithadcausedhim。"Hewasnowengaged,"
hesaid,"toMissCaldwell,andshewassuchanextremelyproper,innocentlady,andamemberofSt。Jude’s,ithadreallybeenatryingtimeforher。"BrycealsoremindedEthelthathehadbeenagainstBasilStanhopefromthefirst。"Hehadalwaysknownhowthatmarriagewouldend,"andsoon。
Etheldeclinedtogiveanyopinion。"Shemusthearbothsides,"shesaid。"Dorahadbeensoreasonablelately,shehadappearedhappy。"
"Oh,Doraisalittlefox,"hereplied;"shedoublesonherselfalways。"
Ruthwasproperlyregretful。Shewondered"ifanymarriedwomanwasreallyhappy。"ShedidnotapparentlyconcernherselfaboutBasil。TheJudgeratherleanedtoBasil’sconsideration。HeunderstoodthatDora’sovertacthadshatteredhisprofessionalcareeraswellashispersonalhappiness。
Hecouldfeelforthemanthere。"Mydears,"hesaid,withhisdilettanteair,"thegoddessCalamityisdelicate,andherfeetaretender。Shetreadsnotupontheground,butmakesherpathupontheheartsofmen。"Inthisnon-committalwayhegavehiscomment,forheusuallyfoundabitofclassicalwisdomtofitmodernemergencies,andthehabithadimpartedanantiquebon-tontohisconversation。Ethelcouldonlywonderatthelackofrealsympathy。
Inthemorningshewenttoseehergrandmother。
Theoldladyhad"heard"allshewantedtohearaboutDoraandBasilStanhope。
Ifmenwouldmarryafoolbecauseshewasyoungandpretty,theymusttaketheconsequences。"AndwhyshouldStanhopehavemarriedatall?"sheaskedindignantly。
"NomancanserveGodandawomanatthesametime。Hehadtobeabadpriestandagoodhusband,orabadhusbandandagoodpriest。BasilStanhopewashonored,wasdoinggood,andhemustneedsbehappyalso。
Hewantedtoomuch,andlosteverything。
Servehimright。"
"AllcannowfindsomefaultinpoorBasilStanhope,"saidEthel。"BrycewasbitteragainsthimbecauseMissCaldwellshiversattheword`divorce。’"
"WhathasBrycetodowithJaneCaldwell?"
"Heisgoingtomarryher,hesays。"
"Likeenough;she’samerrymissoftwo-
score,andrich。Bryce’smarriagewithanyonewillbeawell-consideredaffair——amarriagewithalltheadvantagesofagoodbargain。I’mtiredofthewholesubject。IfwomenwillmarrytheyshouldbeaspatientasGriselda,incasethereeverwassuchawoman;ifnot,there’sanendofthematter。"
"TherearenoGriseldasinthiscentury,grandmother。"
"Thenthereoughttobenomarriages。
BasilStanhopewasagrandmaninpublic。
Whatkindofamanwasheinhishome?
Measureamanbyhishomeconduct,andyou’llnotgowrong。It’stherightplacetodrawyourpictureofhim,Icantellyouthat。"
"Hehasnohomenow,poorfellow。"
"Whosefaultwasit?Godonlyknows。
Whereishiswife?"
"ShehasgonetoParis。"
"Shehasgonetotherightplaceifshewantstoplaythefool。Butthere,now,GodforbidIshouldjudgeherinthedark。
Womenshouldstandbywomen——considering。"
"Considering?"
"Whattheymayhavetoputupwith。Itiseasytoseefaultsinothers。Ihavesometimesmetwithpeoplewhoshouldseefaultsinthemselves。Theyareratheruncommon,though。"
"IamsureBasilStanhopewillbemiserableallhislife。Hewillbreakhisheart,I
dobelieve。"
"Notso。Agoodheartishardtobreak,itgrowsstrongintrouble。BasilStanhope’sbodywillfaillongbeforehisheartdoes;andevensoanendmustcometolife,andafterthatpeaceorwhatGodwills。"
ThisscantsympathyEthelfoundtobetheusualtoneamongheracquaintances。St。
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