Itistrustingtoaconsensusofcommonhumanvoicesratherthantosomeisolatedorarbitraryrecord。ThemanwhoquotessomeGermanhistorianagainstthetraditionoftheCatholicChurch,forinstance,isstrictlyappealingtoaristocracy。Heisappealingtothesuperiorityofoneexpertagainsttheawfulauthorityofamob。
Itisquiteeasytoseewhyalegendistreated,andoughttobetreated,morerespectfullythanabookofhistory。Thelegendisgenerallymadebythemajorityofpeopleinthevillage,whoaresane。
Thebookisgenerallywrittenbytheonemaninthevillagewhoismad。
ThosewhourgeagainsttraditionthatmeninthepastwereignorantmaygoandurgeitattheCarltonClub,alongwiththestatementthatvotersintheslumsareignorant。Itwillnotdoforus。
Ifweattachgreatimportancetotheopinionofordinarymeningreatunanimitywhenwearedealingwithdailymatters,thereisnoreasonwhyweshoulddisregarditwhenwearedealingwithhistoryorfable。
Traditionmaybedefinedasanextensionofthefranchise。
Traditionmeansgivingvotestothemostobscureofallclasses,ourancestors。Itisthedemocracyofthedead。Traditionrefusestosubmittothesmallandarrogantoligarchyofthosewhomerelyhappentobewalkingabout。Alldemocratsobjecttomenbeingdisqualifiedbytheaccidentofbirth;traditionobjectstotheirbeingdisqualifiedbytheaccidentofdeath。Democracytellsusnottoneglectagoodman’sopinion,evenifheisourgroom;
traditionasksusnottoneglectagoodman’sopinion,evenifheisourfather。I,atanyrate,cannotseparatethetwoideasofdemocracyandtradition;itseemsevidenttomethattheyarethesameidea。
Wewillhavethedeadatourcouncils。TheancientGreeksvotedbystones;theseshallvotebytombstones。Itisallquiteregularandofficial,formosttombstones,likemostballotpapers,aremarkedwithacross。
Ihavefirsttosay,therefore,thatifIhavehadabias,itwasalwaysabiasinfavourofdemocracy,andthereforeoftradition。
BeforewecometoanytheoreticorlogicalbeginningsIamcontenttoallowforthatpersonalequation;Ihavealwaysbeenmoreinclinedtobelievetheruckofhard-workingpeoplethantobelievethatspecialandtroublesomeliteraryclasstowhichIbelong。
Iprefereventhefanciesandprejudicesofthepeoplewhoseelifefromtheinsidetotheclearestdemonstrationsofthepeoplewhoseelifefromtheoutside。Iwouldalwaystrusttheoldwives’
fablesagainsttheoldmaids’facts。Aslongaswitismotherwititcanbeaswildasitpleases。
Now,Ihavetoputtogetherageneralposition,andIpretendtonotraininginsuchthings。Iproposetodoit,therefore,bywritingdownoneafteranotherthethreeorfourfundamentalideaswhichIhavefoundformyself,prettymuchinthewaythatIfoundthem。ThenIshallroughlysynthesisethem,summingupmypersonalphilosophyornaturalreligion;thenI
shalldescribemystartlingdiscoverythatthewholethinghadbeendiscoveredbefore。IthadbeendiscoveredbyChristianity。
ButoftheseprofoundpersuasionswhichIhavetorecountinorder,theearliestwasconcernedwiththiselementofpopulartradition。
AndwithouttheforegoingexplanationtouchingtraditionanddemocracyIcouldhardlymakemymentalexperienceclear。Asitis,IdonotknowwhetherIcanmakeitclear,butInowproposetotry。
Myfirstandlastphilosophy,thatwhichIbelieveinwithunbrokencertainty,Ilearntinthenursery。Igenerallylearntitfromanurse;thatis,fromthesolemnandstar-appointedpriestessatonceofdemocracyandtradition。ThethingsIbelievedmostthen,thethingsIbelievemostnow,arethethingscalledfairytales。
Theyseemtometobetheentirelyreasonablethings。Theyarenotfantasies:comparedwiththemotherthingsarefantastic。
Comparedwiththemreligionandrationalismarebothabnormal,thoughreligionisabnormallyrightandrationalismabnormallywrong。
Fairylandisnothingbutthesunnycountryofcommonsense。
Itisnotearththatjudgesheaven,butheaventhatjudgesearth;
soformeatleastitwasnotearththatcriticisedelfland,butelflandthatcriticisedtheearth。IknewthemagicbeanstalkbeforeIhadtastedbeans;IwassureoftheManintheMoonbeforeI
wascertainofthemoon。Thiswasatonewithallpopulartradition。
Modernminorpoetsarenaturalists,andtalkaboutthebushorthebrook;
butthesingersoftheoldepicsandfablesweresupernaturalists,andtalkedaboutthegodsofbrookandbush。Thatiswhatthemodernsmeanwhentheysaythattheancientsdidnot"appreciateNature,"
becausetheysaidthatNaturewasdivine。Oldnursesdonottellchildrenaboutthegrass,butaboutthefairiesthatdanceonthegrass;andtheoldGreekscouldnotseethetreesforthedryads。
ButIdealherewithwhatethicandphilosophycomefrombeingfedonfairytales。IfIweredescribingthemindetailIcouldnotemanynobleandhealthyprinciplesthatarisefromthem。
Thereisthechivalrouslessonof"JacktheGiantKiller";thatgiantsshouldbekilledbecausetheyaregigantic。Itisamanlymutinyagainstprideassuch。Fortherebelisolderthanallthekingdoms,andtheJacobinhasmoretraditionthantheJacobite。Thereisthelessonof"Cinderella,"whichisthesameasthatoftheMagnificat——
EXALTAVITHUMILES。Thereisthegreatlessonof"BeautyandtheBeast";
thatathingmustbelovedBEFOREitisloveable。Thereistheterribleallegoryofthe"SleepingBeauty,"whichtellshowthehumancreaturewasblessedwithallbirthdaygifts,yetcursedwithdeath;
andhowdeathalsomayperhapsbesoftenedtoasleep。ButIamnotconcernedwithanyoftheseparatestatutesofelfland,butwiththewholespiritofitslaw,whichIlearntbeforeIcouldspeak,andshallretainwhenIcannotwrite。Iamconcernedwithacertainwayoflookingatlife,whichwascreatedinmebythefairytales,buthassincebeenmeeklyratifiedbythemerefacts。
Itmightbestatedthisway。Therearecertainsequencesordevelopments(casesofonethingfollowinganother),whichare,inthetruesenseoftheword,reasonable。Theyare,inthetruesenseoftheword,necessary。Sucharemathematicalandmerelylogicalsequences。Weinfairyland(whoarethemostreasonableofallcreatures)admitthatreasonandthatnecessity。
Forinstance,iftheUglySistersareolderthanCinderella,itis(inanironandawfulsense)NECESSARYthatCinderellaisyoungerthantheUglySisters。Thereisnogettingoutofit。
Haeckelmaytalkasmuchfatalismaboutthatfactashepleases:
itreallymustbe。IfJackisthesonofamiller,amilleristhefatherofJack。Coldreasondecreesitfromherawfulthrone:
andweinfairylandsubmit。Ifthethreebrothersallridehorses,therearesixanimalsandeighteenlegsinvolved:thatistruerationalism,andfairylandisfullofit。ButasIputmyheadoverthehedgeoftheelvesandbegantotakenoticeofthenaturalworld,Iobservedanextraordinarything。Iobservedthatlearnedmeninspectaclesweretalkingoftheactualthingsthathappened——
dawnanddeathandsoon——asifTHEYwererationalandinevitable。
TheytalkedasifthefactthattreesbearfruitwerejustasNECESSARY
asthefactthattwoandonetreesmakethree。Butitisnot。
Thereisanenormousdifferencebythetestoffairyland;whichisthetestoftheimagination。YoucannotIMAGINEtwoandonenotmakingthree。Butyoucaneasilyimaginetreesnotgrowingfruit;
youcanimaginethemgrowinggoldencandlesticksortigershangingonbythetail。ThesemeninspectaclesspokemuchofamannamedNewton,whowashitbyanapple,andwhodiscoveredalaw。
Buttheycouldnotbegottoseethedistinctionbetweenatruelaw,alawofreason,andthemerefactofapplesfalling。IftheapplehitNewton’snose,Newton’snosehittheapple。Thatisatruenecessity:
becausewecannotconceivetheoneoccurringwithouttheother。
Butwecanquitewellconceivetheapplenotfallingonhisnose;
wecanfancyitflyingardentlythroughtheairtohitsomeothernose,ofwhichithadamoredefinitedislike。Wehavealwaysinourfairytaleskeptthissharpdistinctionbetweenthescienceofmentalrelations,inwhichtherereallyarelaws,andthescienceofphysicalfacts,inwhichtherearenolaws,butonlyweirdrepetitions。Webelieveinbodilymiracles,butnotinmentalimpossibilities。WebelievethataBean-stalkclimbeduptoHeaven;butthatdoesnotatallconfuseourconvictionsonthephilosophicalquestionofhowmanybeansmakefive。
Hereisthepeculiarperfectionoftoneandtruthinthenurserytales。Themanofsciencesays,"Cutthestalk,andtheapplewillfall";buthesaysitcalmly,asiftheoneideareallyleduptotheother。Thewitchinthefairytalesays,"Blowthehorn,andtheogre’scastlewillfall";butshedoesnotsayitasifitweresomethinginwhichtheeffectobviouslyaroseoutofthecause。
Doubtlessshehasgiventheadvicetomanychampions,andhasseenmanycastlesfall,butshedoesnotloseeitherherwonderorherreason。
Shedoesnotmuddleherheaduntilitimaginesanecessarymentalconnectionbetweenahornandafallingtower。Butthescientificmendomuddletheirheads,untiltheyimagineanecessarymentalconnectionbetweenanappleleavingthetreeandanapplereachingtheground。Theydoreallytalkasiftheyhadfoundnotonlyasetofmarvellousfacts,butatruthconnectingthosefacts。
Theydotalkasiftheconnectionoftwostrangethingsphysicallyconnectedthemphilosophically。Theyfeelthatbecauseoneincomprehensiblethingconstantlyfollowsanotherincomprehensiblethingthetwotogethersomehowmakeupacomprehensiblething。
Twoblackriddlesmakeawhiteanswer。
Infairylandweavoidtheword"law";butinthelandofsciencetheyaresingularlyfondofit。Thustheywillcallsomeinterestingconjectureabouthowforgottenfolkspronouncedthealphabet,Grimm’sLaw。ButGrimm’sLawisfarlessintellectualthanGrimm’sFairyTales。Thetalesare,atanyrate,certainlytales;
whilethelawisnotalaw。Alawimpliesthatweknowthenatureofthegeneralisationandenactment;notmerelythatwehavenoticedsomeoftheeffects。Ifthereisalawthatpick-pocketsshallgotoprison,itimpliesthatthereisanimaginablementalconnectionbetweentheideaofprisonandtheideaofpickingpockets。
Andweknowwhattheideais。Wecansaywhywetakelibertyfromamanwhotakesliberties。Butwecannotsaywhyaneggcanturnintoachickenanymorethanwecansaywhyabearcouldturnintoafairyprince。AsIDEAS,theeggandthechickenarefurtherofffromeachotherthanthebearandtheprince;fornoegginitselfsuggestsachicken,whereassomeprincesdosuggestbears。
Granted,then,thatcertaintransformationsdohappen,itisessentialthatweshouldregardtheminthephilosophicmanneroffairytales,notintheunphilosophicmannerofscienceandthe"LawsofNature。"
Whenweareaskedwhyeggsturntobirdsorfruitsfallinautumn,wemustanswerexactlyasthefairygodmotherwouldanswerifCinderellaaskedherwhymiceturnedtohorsesorherclothesfellfromherattwelveo’clock。WemustanswerthatitisMAGIC。
Itisnota"law,"forwedonotunderstanditsgeneralformula。
Itisnotanecessity,forthoughwecancountonithappeningpractically,wehavenorighttosaythatitmustalwayshappen。
Itisnoargumentforunalterablelaw(asHuxleyfancied)thatwecountontheordinarycourseofthings。Wedonotcountonit;
webetonit。Werisktheremotepossibilityofamiracleaswedothatofapoisonedpancakeoraworld-destroyingcomet。
Weleaveitoutofaccount,notbecauseitisamiracle,andthereforeanimpossibility,butbecauseitisamiracle,andthereforeanexception。Allthetermsusedinthesciencebooks,"law,"
"necessity,""order,""tendency,"andsoon,arereallyunintellectual,becausetheyassumeaninnersynthesis,whichwedonotpossess。
TheonlywordsthateversatisfiedmeasdescribingNaturearethetermsusedinthefairybooks,"charm,""spell,""enchantment。"
Theyexpressthearbitrarinessofthefactanditsmystery。
AtreegrowsfruitbecauseitisaMAGICtree。Waterrunsdownhillbecauseitisbewitched。Thesunshinesbecauseitisbewitched。
Idenyaltogetherthatthisisfantasticorevenmystical。
Wemayhavesomemysticismlateron;butthisfairy-talelanguageaboutthingsissimplyrationalandagnostic。ItistheonlywayIcanexpressinwordsmyclearanddefiniteperceptionthatonethingisquitedistinctfromanother;thatthereisnologicalconnectionbetweenflyingandlayingeggs。Itisthemanwhotalksabout"alaw"thathehasneverseenwhoisthemystic。
Nay,theordinaryscientificmanisstrictlyasentimentalist。
Heisasentimentalistinthisessentialsense,thatheissoakedandsweptawaybymereassociations。Hehassooftenseenbirdsflyandlayeggsthathefeelsasiftheremustbesomedreamy,tenderconnectionbetweenthetwoideas,whereasthereisnone。
Aforlornlovermightbeunabletodissociatethemoonfromlostlove;
sothematerialistisunabletodissociatethemoonfromthetide。
Inbothcasesthereisnoconnection,exceptthatonehasseenthemtogether。Asentimentalistmightshedtearsatthesmellofapple-blossom,because,byadarkassociationofhisown,itremindedhimofhisboyhood。Sothematerialistprofessor(thoughheconcealshistears)isyetasentimentalist,because,byadarkassociationofhisown,apple-blossomsremindhimofapples。Butthecoolrationalistfromfairylanddoesnotseewhy,intheabstract,theappletreeshouldnotgrowcrimsontulips;itsometimesdoesinhiscountry。
Thiselementarywonder,however,isnotamerefancyderivedfromthefairytales;onthecontrary,allthefireofthefairytalesisderivedfromthis。Justaswealllikelovetalesbecausethereisaninstinctofsex,wealllikeastonishingtalesbecausetheytouchthenerveoftheancientinstinctofastonishment。
Thisisprovedbythefactthatwhenweareveryyoungchildrenwedonotneedfairytales:weonlyneedtales。Merelifeisinterestingenough。AchildofsevenisexcitedbybeingtoldthatTommyopenedadoorandsawadragon。ButachildofthreeisexcitedbybeingtoldthatTommyopenedadoor。Boyslikeromantictales;
butbabieslikerealistictales——becausetheyfindthemromantic。
Infact,ababyisabouttheonlyperson,Ishouldthink,towhomamodernrealisticnovelcouldbereadwithoutboringhim。
Thisprovesthatevennurserytalesonlyechoanalmostpre-natalleapofinterestandamazement。Thesetalessaythatapplesweregoldenonlytorefreshtheforgottenmomentwhenwefoundthattheyweregreen。Theymakeriversrunwithwineonlytomakeusremember,foronewildmoment,thattheyrunwithwater。Ihavesaidthatthisiswhollyreasonableandevenagnostic。And,indeed,onthispointIamallforthehigheragnosticism;itsbetternameisIgnorance。
Wehaveallreadinscientificbooks,and,indeed,inallromances,thestoryofthemanwhohasforgottenhisname。Thismanwalksaboutthestreetsandcanseeandappreciateeverything;onlyhecannotrememberwhoheis。Well,everymanisthatmaninthestory。
Everymanhasforgottenwhoheis。Onemayunderstandthecosmos,butnevertheego;theselfismoredistantthananystar。
ThoushaltlovetheLordthyGod;butthoushaltnotknowthyself。
Weareallunderthesamementalcalamity;wehaveallforgottenournames。Wehaveallforgottenwhatwereallyare。Allthatwecallcommonsenseandrationalityandpracticalityandpositivismonlymeansthatforcertaindeadlevelsofourlifeweforgetthatwehaveforgotten。Allthatwecallspiritandartandecstasyonlymeansthatforoneawfulinstantwerememberthatweforget。
Butthough(likethemanwithoutmemoryinthenovel)wewalkthestreetswithasortofhalf-wittedadmiration,stillitisadmiration。
ItisadmirationinEnglishandnotonlyadmirationinLatin。
Thewonderhasapositiveelementofpraise。Thisisthenextmilestonetobedefinitelymarkedonourroadthroughfairyland。
Ishallspeakinthenextchapteraboutoptimistsandpessimistsintheirintellectualaspect,sofarastheyhaveone。HereIamonlytryingtodescribetheenormousemotionswhichcannotbedescribed。
Andthestrongestemotionwasthatlifewasaspreciousasitwaspuzzling。Itwasanecstasybecauseitwasanadventure;
itwasanadventurebecauseitwasanopportunity。Thegoodnessofthefairytalewasnotaffectedbythefactthattheremightbemoredragonsthanprincesses;itwasgoodtobeinafairytale。
Thetestofallhappinessisgratitude;andIfeltgrateful,thoughIhardlyknewtowhom。ChildrenaregratefulwhenSantaClausputsintheirstockingsgiftsoftoysorsweets。CouldI
notbegratefultoSantaClauswhenheputinmystockingsthegiftoftwomiraculouslegs?Wethankpeopleforbirthdaypresentsofcigarsandslippers。CanIthanknooneforthebirthdaypresentofbirth?
Therewere,then,thesetwofirstfeelings,indefensibleandindisputable。Theworldwasashock,butitwasnotmerelyshocking;
existencewasasurprise,butitwasapleasantsurprise。Infact,allmyfirstviewswereexactlyutteredinariddlethatstuckinmybrainfromboyhood。Thequestionwas,"Whatdidthefirstfrogsay?"Andtheanswerwas,"Lord,howyoumademejump!"
ThatsayssuccinctlyallthatIamsaying。Godmadethefrogjump;
butthefrogprefersjumping。Butwhenthesethingsaresettledthereentersthesecondgreatprincipleofthefairyphilosophy。
Anyonecanseeitwhowillsimplyread"Grimm’sFairyTales"
orthefinecollectionsofMr。AndrewLang。ForthepleasureofpedantryIwillcallittheDoctrineofConditionalJoy。
Touchstonetalkedofmuchvirtueinan"if";accordingtoelfinethicsallvirtueisinan"if。"Thenoteofthefairyutterancealwaysis,"Youmayliveinapalaceofgoldandsapphire,ifyoudonotsaytheword`cow’";or"YoumaylivehappilywiththeKing’sdaughter,ifyoudonotshowheranonion。"Thevisionalwayshangsuponaveto。
Allthedizzyandcolossalthingsconcededdependupononesmallthingwithheld。Allthewildandwhirlingthingsthatareletloosedependupononethingthatisforbidden。Mr。W。B。Yeats,inhisexquisiteandpiercingelfinpoetry,describestheelvesaslawless;theyplungeininnocentanarchyontheunbridledhorsesoftheair——
"Rideonthecrestofthedishevelledtide,Anddanceuponthemountainslikeaflame。"
ItisadreadfulthingtosaythatMr。W。B。Yeatsdoesnotunderstandfairyland。ButIdosayit。HeisanironicalIrishman,fullofintellectualreactions。Heisnotstupidenoughtounderstandfairyland。Fairiespreferpeopleoftheyokeltypelikemyself;peoplewhogapeandgrinanddoastheyaretold。
Mr。Yeatsreadsintoelflandalltherighteousinsurrectionofhisownrace。ButthelawlessnessofIrelandisaChristianlawlessness,foundedonreasonandjustice。TheFenianisrebellingagainstsomethingheunderstandsonlytoowell;butthetruecitizenoffairylandisobeyingsomethingthathedoesnotunderstandatall。
Inthefairytaleanincomprehensiblehappinessrestsuponanincomprehensiblecondition。Aboxisopened,andallevilsflyout。
Awordisforgotten,andcitiesperish。Alampislit,andlovefliesaway。Aflowerisplucked,andhumanlivesareforfeited。
Anappleiseaten,andthehopeofGodisgone。
Thisisthetoneoffairytales,anditiscertainlynotlawlessnessorevenliberty,thoughmenunderameanmoderntyrannymaythinkitlibertybycomparison。PeopleoutofPortlandGaolmightthinkFleetStreetfree;butcloserstudywillprovethatbothfairiesandjournalistsaretheslavesofduty。
Fairygodmothersseematleastasstrictasothergodmothers。
CinderellareceivedacoachoutofWonderlandandacoachmanoutofnowhere,butshereceivedacommand——whichmighthavecomeoutofBrixton——thatsheshouldbebackbytwelve。Also,shehadaglassslipper;anditcannotbeacoincidencethatglassissocommonasubstanceinfolk-lore。Thisprincesslivesinaglasscastle,thatprincessonaglasshill;thisoneseesallthingsinamirror;
theymayallliveinglasshousesiftheywillnotthrowstones。
Forthisthinglitterofglasseverywhereistheexpressionofthefactthatthehappinessisbrightbutbrittle,likethesubstancemosteasilysmashedbyahousemaidoracat。Andthisfairy-talesentimentalsosankintomeandbecamemysentimenttowardsthewholeworld。
Ifeltandfeelthatlifeitselfisasbrightasthediamond,butasbrittleasthewindow-pane;andwhentheheavenswerecomparedtotheterriblecrystalIcanrememberashudder。
IwasafraidthatGodwoulddropthecosmoswithacrash。
Remember,however,thattobebreakableisnotthesameastobeperishable。Strikeaglass,anditwillnotendureaninstant;
simplydonotstrikeit,anditwillendureathousandyears。
Such,itseemed,wasthejoyofman,eitherinelflandoronearth;
thehappinessdependedonNOTDOINGSOMETHINGwhichyoucouldatanymomentdoandwhich,veryoften,itwasnotobviouswhyyoushouldnotdo。Now,thepointhereisthattoMEthisdidnotseemunjust。
Ifthemiller’sthirdsonsaidtothefairy,"ExplainwhyI
mustnotstandonmyheadinthefairypalace,"theothermightfairlyreply,"Well,ifitcomestothat,explainthefairypalace。"
IfCinderellasays,"HowisitthatImustleavetheballattwelve?"
hergodmothermightanswer,"Howisitthatyouaregoingtheretilltwelve?"IfIleaveamaninmywilltentalkingelephantsandahundredwingedhorses,hecannotcomplainiftheconditionspartakeoftheslighteccentricityofthegift。Hemustnotlookawingedhorseinthemouth。AnditseemedtomethatexistencewasitselfsoveryeccentricalegacythatIcouldnotcomplainofnotunderstandingthelimitationsofthevisionwhenIdidnotunderstandthevisiontheylimited。Theframewasnostrangerthanthepicture。Thevetomightwellbeaswildasthevision;
itmightbeasstartlingasthesun,aselusiveasthewaters,asfantasticandterribleasthetoweringtrees。
Forthisreason(wemaycallitthefairygodmotherphilosophy)
InevercouldjointheyoungmenofmytimeinfeelingwhattheycalledthegeneralsentimentofREVOLT。Ishouldhaveresisted,letushope,anyrulesthatwereevil,andwiththeseandtheirdefinitionIshalldealinanotherchapter。ButIdidnotfeeldisposedtoresistanyrulemerelybecauseitwasmysterious。
Estatesaresometimesheldbyfoolishforms,thebreakingofastickorthepaymentofapeppercorn:Iwaswillingtoholdthehugeestateofearthandheavenbyanysuchfeudalfantasy。ItcouldnotwellbewilderthanthefactthatIwasallowedtoholditatall。
AtthisstageIgiveonlyoneethicalinstancetoshowmymeaning。
Icouldnevermixinthecommonmurmurofthatrisinggenerationagainstmonogamy,becausenorestrictiononsexseemedsooddandunexpectedassexitself。Tobeallowed,likeEndymion,tomakelovetothemoonandthentocomplainthatJupiterkepthisownmoonsinaharemseemedtome(bredonfairytaleslikeEndymion’s)
avulgaranti-climax。Keepingtoonewomanisasmallpriceforsomuchasseeingonewoman。TocomplainthatIcouldonlybemarriedoncewaslikecomplainingthatIhadonlybeenbornonce。
Itwasincommensuratewiththeterribleexcitementofwhichonewastalking。Itshowed,notanexaggeratedsensibilitytosex,butacuriousinsensibilitytoit。AmanisafoolwhocomplainsthathecannotenterEdenbyfivegatesatonce。Polygamyisalackoftherealizationofsex;itislikeamanpluckingfivepearsinmereabsenceofmind。Theaesthetestouchedthelastinsanelimitsoflanguageintheireulogyonlovelythings。Thethistledownmadethemweep;aburnishedbeetlebroughtthemtotheirknees。
Yettheiremotionneverimpressedmeforaninstant,forthisreason,thatitneveroccurredtothemtopayfortheirpleasureinanysortofsymbolicsacrifice。Men(Ifelt)mightfastfortydaysforthesakeofhearingablackbirdsing。Menmightgothroughfiretofindacowslip。Yettheseloversofbeautycouldnotevenkeepsoberfortheblackbird。TheywouldnotgothroughcommonChristianmarriagebywayofrecompensetothecowslip。Surelyonemightpayforextraordinaryjoyinordinarymorals。OscarWildesaidthatsunsetswerenotvaluedbecausewecouldnotpayforsunsets。
ButOscarWildewaswrong;wecanpayforsunsets。WecanpayforthembynotbeingOscarWilde。
Well,Ileftthefairytaleslyingonthefloorofthenursery,andIhavenotfoundanybookssosensiblesince。Ileftthenurseguardianoftraditionanddemocracy,andIhavenotfoundanymoderntypesosanelyradicalorsosanelyconservative。
Butthematterforimportantcommentwashere:thatwhenI
firstwentoutintothementalatmosphereofthemodernworld,Ifoundthatthemodernworldwaspositivelyopposedontwopointstomynurseandtothenurserytales。Ithastakenmealongtimetofindoutthatthemodernworldiswrongandmynursewasright。
Thereallycuriousthingwasthis:thatmodernthoughtcontradictedthisbasiccreedofmyboyhoodonitstwomostessentialdoctrines。
Ihaveexplainedthatthefairytalesfoundedinmetwoconvictions;
first,thatthisworldisawildandstartlingplace,whichmighthavebeenquitedifferent,butwhichisquitedelightful;second,thatbeforethiswildnessanddelightonemaywellbemodestandsubmittothequeerestlimitationsofsoqueerakindness。ButI
foundthewholemodernworldrunninglikeahightideagainstbothmytendernesses;andtheshockofthatcollisioncreatedtwosuddenandspontaneoussentiments,whichIhavehadeversinceandwhich,crudeastheywere,havesincehardenedintoconvictions。
First,Ifoundthewholemodernworldtalkingscientificfatalism;
sayingthateverythingisasitmustalwayshavebeen,beingunfoldedwithoutfaultfromthebeginning。Theleafonthetreeisgreenbecauseitcouldneverhavebeenanythingelse。Now,thefairy-talephilosopherisgladthattheleafisgreenpreciselybecauseitmighthavebeenscarlet。Hefeelsasifithadturnedgreenaninstantbeforehelookedatit。Heispleasedthatsnowiswhiteonthestrictlyreasonablegroundthatitmighthavebeenblack。
Everycolourhasinitaboldqualityasofchoice;theredofgardenrosesisnotonlydecisivebutdramatic,likesuddenlyspiltblood。
HefeelsthatsomethinghasbeenDONE。Butthegreatdeterministsofthenineteenthcenturywerestronglyagainstthisnativefeelingthatsomethinghadhappenedaninstantbefore。Infact,accordingtothem,nothingeverreallyhadhappenedsincethebeginningoftheworld。Nothingeverhadhappenedsinceexistencehadhappened;
andevenaboutthedateofthattheywerenotverysure。
ThemodernworldasIfounditwassolidformodernCalvinism,forthenecessityofthingsbeingastheyare。ButwhenIcametoaskthemIfoundtheyhadreallynoproofofthisunavoidablerepetitioninthingsexceptthefactthatthethingswererepeated。
Now,themererepetitionmadethethingstomerathermoreweirdthanmorerational。Itwasasif,havingseenacuriouslyshapednoseinthestreetanddismisseditasanaccident,Ihadthenseensixothernosesofthesameastonishingshape。Ishouldhavefanciedforamomentthatitmustbesomelocalsecretsociety。
Sooneelephanthavingatrunkwasodd;butallelephantshavingtrunkslookedlikeaplot。Ispeakhereonlyofanemotion,andofanemotionatoncestubbornandsubtle。ButtherepetitioninNatureseemedsometimestobeanexcitedrepetition,likethatofanangryschoolmastersayingthesamethingoverandoveragain。
Thegrassseemedsignallingtomewithallitsfingersatonce;
thecrowdedstarsseemedbentuponbeingunderstood。Thesunwouldmakemeseehimifheroseathousandtimes。Therecurrencesoftheuniverserosetothemaddeningrhythmofanincantation,andIbegantoseeanidea。
Allthetoweringmaterialismwhichdominatesthemodernmindrestsultimatelyupononeassumption;afalseassumption。Itissupposedthatifathinggoesonrepeatingitselfitisprobablydead;
apieceofclockwork。Peoplefeelthatiftheuniversewaspersonalitwouldvary;ifthesunwerealiveitwoulddance。Thisisafallacyeveninrelationtoknownfact。Forthevariationinhumanaffairsisgenerallybroughtintothem,notbylife,butbydeath;
bythedyingdownorbreakingoffoftheirstrengthordesire。
Amanvarieshismovementsbecauseofsomeslightelementoffailureorfatigue。Hegetsintoanomnibusbecauseheistiredofwalking;
orhewalksbecauseheistiredofsittingstill。ButifhislifeandjoyweresogiganticthathenevertiredofgoingtoIslington,hemightgotoIslingtonasregularlyastheThamesgoestoSheerness。
Theveryspeedandecstasyofhislifewouldhavethestillnessofdeath。Thesunriseseverymorning。Idonotriseeverymorning;
butthevariationisduenottomyactivity,buttomyinaction。
Now,toputthematterinapopularphrase,itmightbetruethatthesunrisesregularlybecausehenevergetstiredofrising。
Hisroutinemightbedue,nottoalifelessness,buttoarushoflife。ThethingImeancanbeseen,forinstance,inchildren,whentheyfindsomegameorjokethattheyspeciallyenjoy。Achildkickshislegsrhythmicallythroughexcess,notabsence,oflife。
Becausechildrenhaveaboundingvitality,becausetheyareinspiritfierceandfree,thereforetheywantthingsrepeatedandunchanged。
Theyalwayssay,"Doitagain";andthegrown-uppersondoesitagainuntilheisnearlydead。Forgrown-uppeoplearenotstrongenoughtoexultinmonotony。ButperhapsGodisstrongenoughtoexultinmonotony。ItispossiblethatGodsayseverymorning,"Doitagain"tothesun;andeveryevening,"Doitagain"tothemoon。
Itmaynotbeautomaticnecessitythatmakesalldaisiesalike;
itmaybethatGodmakeseverydaisyseparately,buthasnevergottiredofmakingthem。ItmaybethatHehastheeternalappetiteofinfancy;
forwehavesinnedandgrownold,andourFatherisyoungerthanwe。
TherepetitioninNaturemaynotbeamererecurrence;itmaybeatheatricalENCORE。HeavenmayENCOREthebirdwholaidanegg。
Ifthehumanbeingconceivesandbringsforthahumanchildinsteadofbringingforthafish,orabat,oragriffin,thereasonmaynotbethatwearefixedinananimalfatewithoutlifeorpurpose。
Itmaybethatourlittletragedyhastouchedthegods,thattheyadmireitfromtheirstarrygalleries,andthatattheendofeveryhumandramamaniscalledagainandagainbeforethecurtain。
Repetitionmaygoonformillionsofyears,bymerechoice,andatanyinstantitmaystop。Manmaystandontheearthgenerationaftergeneration,andyeteachbirthbehispositivelylastappearance。
Thiswasmyfirstconviction;madebytheshockofmychildishemotionsmeetingthemoderncreedinmid-career。Ihadalwaysvaguelyfeltfactstobemiraclesinthesensethattheyarewonderful:
nowIbegantothinkthemmiraclesinthestrictersensethattheywereWILFUL。Imeanthattheywere,ormightbe,repeatedexercisesofsomewill。Inshort,Ihadalwaysbelievedthattheworldinvolvedmagic:nowIthoughtthatperhapsitinvolvedamagician。
Andthispointedaprofoundemotionalwayspresentandsub-conscious;
thatthisworldofourshassomepurpose;andifthereisapurpose,thereisaperson。Ihadalwaysfeltlifefirstasastory:
andifthereisastorythereisastory-teller。
Butmodernthoughtalsohitmysecondhumantradition。
Itwentagainstthefairyfeelingaboutstrictlimitsandconditions。
Theonethingitlovedtotalkaboutwasexpansionandlargeness。
HerbertSpencerwouldhavebeengreatlyannoyedifanyonehadcalledhimanimperialist,andthereforeitishighlyregrettablethatnobodydid。Buthewasanimperialistofthelowesttype。
Hepopularizedthiscontemptiblenotionthatthesizeofthesolarsystemoughttoover-awethespiritualdogmaofman。Whyshouldamansurrenderhisdignitytothesolarsystemanymorethantoawhale?IfmeresizeprovesthatmanisnottheimageofGod,thenawhalemaybetheimageofGod;asomewhatformlessimage;
whatonemightcallanimpressionistportrait。Itisquitefutiletoarguethatmanissmallcomparedtothecosmos;formanwasalwayssmallcomparedtothenearesttree。ButHerbertSpencer,inhisheadlongimperialism,wouldinsistthatwehadinsomewaybeenconqueredandannexedbytheastronomicaluniverse。
HespokeaboutmenandtheiridealsexactlyasthemostinsolentUnionisttalksabouttheIrishandtheirideals。Heturnedmankindintoasmallnationality。Andhisevilinfluencecanbeseeneveninthemostspiritedandhonourableoflaterscientificauthors;
notablyintheearlyromancesofMr。H。G。Wells。Manymoralistshaveinanexaggeratedwayrepresentedtheearthaswicked。
ButMr。Wellsandhisschoolmadetheheavenswicked。
Weshouldliftupoureyestothestarsfromwhencewouldcomeourruin。
ButtheexpansionofwhichIspeakwasmuchmoreevilthanallthis。
Ihaveremarkedthatthematerialist,likethemadman,isinprison;
intheprisonofonethought。Thesepeopleseemedtothinkitsingularlyinspiringtokeeponsayingthattheprisonwasverylarge。
Thesizeofthisscientificuniversegaveonenonovelty,norelief。
Thecosmoswentonforever,butnotinitswildestconstellationcouldtherebeanythingreallyinteresting;anything,forinstance,suchasforgivenessorfreewill。Thegrandeurorinfinityofthesecretofitscosmosaddednothingtoit。ItwasliketellingaprisonerinReadinggaolthathewouldbegladtohearthatthegaolnowcoveredhalfthecounty。Thewarderwouldhavenothingtoshowthemanexceptmoreandmorelongcorridorsofstonelitbyghastlylightsandemptyofallthatishuman。
Sotheseexpandersoftheuniversehadnothingtoshowusexceptmoreandmoreinfinitecorridorsofspacelitbyghastlysunsandemptyofallthatisdivine。
Infairylandtherehadbeenareallaw;alawthatcouldbebroken,forthedefinitionofalawissomethingthatcanbebroken。
Butthemachineryofthiscosmicprisonwassomethingthatcouldnotbebroken;forweourselveswereonlyapartofitsmachinery。
Wewereeitherunabletodothingsorweweredestinedtodothem。
Theideaofthemysticalconditionquitedisappeared;onecanneitherhavethefirmnessofkeepinglawsnorthefunofbreakingthem。
Thelargenessofthisuniversehadnothingofthatfreshnessandairyoutbreakwhichwehavepraisedintheuniverseofthepoet。
Thismodernuniverseisliterallyanempire;thatis,itwasvast,butitisnotfree。Onewentintolargerandlargerwindowlessrooms,roomsbigwithBabylonianperspective;butoneneverfoundthesmallestwindoworawhisperofouterair。
Theirinfernalparallelsseemedtoexpandwithdistance;
butformeallgoodthingscometoapoint,swordsforinstance。
SofindingtheboastofthebigcosmossounsatisfactorytomyemotionsIbegantoargueaboutitalittle;andIsoonfoundthatthewholeattitudewasevenshallowerthancouldhavebeenexpected。
Accordingtothesepeoplethecosmoswasonethingsinceithadoneunbrokenrule。Only(theywouldsay)whileitisonething,itisalsotheonlythingthereis。Why,then,shouldoneworryparticularlytocallitlarge?Thereisnothingtocompareitwith。
Itwouldbejustassensibletocallitsmall。Amanmaysay,"Ilikethisvastcosmos,withitsthrongofstarsanditscrowdofvariedcreatures。"Butifitcomestothatwhyshouldnotamansay,"Ilikethiscosylittlecosmos,withitsdecentnumberofstarsandasneataprovisionoflivestockasIwishtosee"?
Oneisasgoodastheother;theyarebothmeresentiments。
Itismeresentimenttorejoicethatthesunislargerthantheearth;
itisquiteassaneasentimenttorejoicethatthesunisnolargerthanitis。Amanchoosestohaveanemotionaboutthelargenessoftheworld;whyshouldhenotchoosetohaveanemotionaboutitssmallness?
IthappenedthatIhadthatemotion。Whenoneisfondofanythingoneaddressesitbydiminutives,evenifitisanelephantoralife-guardsman。Thereasonis,thatanything,howeverhuge,thatcanbeconceivedofascomplete,canbeconceivedofassmall。
Ifmilitarymoustachesdidnotsuggestaswordortusksatail,thentheobjectwouldbevastbecauseitwouldbeimmeasurable。Butthemomentyoucanimagineaguardsmanyoucanimagineasmallguardsman。
Themomentyoureallyseeanelephantyoucancallit"Tiny。"
Ifyoucanmakeastatueofathingyoucanmakeastatuetteofit。
Thesepeopleprofessedthattheuniversewasonecoherentthing;
buttheywerenotfondoftheuniverse。ButIwasfrightfullyfondoftheuniverseandwantedtoaddressitbyadiminutive。Ioftendidso;anditneverseemedtomind。ActuallyandintruthIdidfeelthatthesedimdogmasofvitalitywerebetterexpressedbycallingtheworldsmallthanbycallingitlarge。ForaboutinfinitytherewasasortofcarelessnesswhichwasthereverseofthefierceandpiouscarewhichIfelttouchingthepricelessnessandtheperiloflife。
Theyshowedonlyadrearywaste;butIfeltasortofsacredthrift。
Foreconomyisfarmoreromanticthanextravagance。Tothemstarswereanunendingincomeofhalfpence;butIfeltaboutthegoldensunandthesilvermoonasaschoolboyfeelsifhehasonesovereignandoneshilling。
Thesesubconsciousconvictionsarebesthitoffbythecolourandtoneofcertaintales。ThusIhavesaidthatstoriesofmagicalonecanexpressmysensethatlifeisnotonlyapleasurebutakindofeccentricprivilege。Imayexpressthisotherfeelingofcosmiccosinessbyallusiontoanotherbookalwaysreadinboyhood,"RobinsonCrusoe,"whichIreadaboutthistime,andwhichowesitseternalvivacitytothefactthatitcelebratesthepoetryoflimits,nay,eventhewildromanceofprudence。Crusoeisamanonasmallrockwithafewcomfortsjustsnatchedfromthesea:
thebestthinginthebookissimplythelistofthingssavedfromthewreck。Thegreatestofpoemsisaninventory。EverykitchentoolbecomesidealbecauseCrusoemighthavedroppeditinthesea。
Itisagoodexercise,inemptyoruglyhoursoftheday,tolookatanything,thecoal-scuttleorthebook-case,andthinkhowhappyonecouldbetohavebroughtitoutofthesinkingshipontothesolitaryisland。Butitisabetterexercisestilltorememberhowallthingshavehadthishair-breadthescape:
everythinghasbeensavedfromawreck。Everymanhashadonehorribleadventure:asahiddenuntimelybirthhehadnotbeen,asinfantsthatneverseethelight。Menspokemuchinmyboyhoodofrestrictedorruinedmenofgenius:anditwascommontosaythatmanyamanwasaGreatMight-Have-Been。TomeitisamoresolidandstartlingfactthatanymaninthestreetisaGreatMight-Not-Have-Been。
ButIreallyfelt(thefancymayseemfoolish)asifalltheorderandnumberofthingsweretheromanticremnantofCrusoe’sship。
Thattherearetwosexesandonesun,waslikethefactthatthereweretwogunsandoneaxe。Itwaspoignantlyurgentthatnoneshouldbelost;butsomehow,itwasratherfunthatnonecouldbeadded。
Thetreesandtheplanetsseemedlikethingssavedfromthewreck:
andwhenIsawtheMatterhornIwasgladthatithadnotbeenoverlookedintheconfusion。Ifelteconomicalaboutthestarsasiftheyweresapphires(theyarecalledsoinMilton’sEden):Ihoardedthehills。
Fortheuniverseisasinglejewel,andwhileitisanaturalcanttotalkofajewelaspeerlessandpriceless,ofthisjewelitisliterallytrue。Thiscosmosisindeedwithoutpeerandwithoutprice:
fortherecannotbeanotherone。
Thusends,inunavoidableinadequacy,theattempttouttertheunutterablethings。Thesearemyultimateattitudestowardslife;
thesoilsfortheseedsofdoctrine。TheseinsomedarkwayI
thoughtbeforeIcouldwrite,andfeltbeforeIcouldthink:
thatwemayproceedmoreeasilyafterwards,Iwillroughlyrecapitulatethemnow。Ifeltinmybones;first,thatthisworlddoesnotexplainitself。Itmaybeamiraclewithasupernaturalexplanation;
itmaybeaconjuringtrick,withanaturalexplanation。
Buttheexplanationoftheconjuringtrick,ifitistosatisfyme,willhavetobebetterthanthenaturalexplanationsIhaveheard。
Thethingismagic,trueorfalse。Second,Icametofeelasifmagicmusthaveameaning,andmeaningmusthavesomeonetomeanit。
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