AuntKateturnedfiercelyonhernieceandsaid:
`IknowallaboutthehonourofGod,MaryJane,butIthinkit’snotatallhonourableforthePopetoturnoutthewomenoutofthechoirsthathaveslavedtherealltheirlivesandputlittlewhipper-snappersofboysovertheirheads。IsupposeitisforthegoodoftheChurch,ifthePopedoesit。Butit’snotjust,MaryJane,andit’snotright。’
Shehadworkedherselfintoapassionandwouldhavecontinuedindefenceofhersister,foritwasasoresubjectwithher,butMaryJane,seeingthatallthedancershadcomeback,intervenedpacifically。
`Now,AuntKate,you’regivingscandaltoMrBrowne,whoisoftheotherpersuasion。’
AuntKateturnedtoMrBrowne,whowasgrinningatthisallusiontohisreligion,andsaidhastily:
`O,Idon’tquestionthePope’sbeingright。I’monlyastupidoldwomanandIwouldn’tpresumetodosuchathing。Butthere’ssuchathingascommoneverydaypolitenessandgratitude。AndifIwereinJulia’splaceI’dtellthatFatherHealeystraightuptohisface……’
`Andbesides,AuntKate,’saidMaryJane,`wereallyareallhungryandwhenwearehungryweareallveryquarrelsome。’
`Andwhenwearethirstywearealsoquarrelsome,’addedMrBrowne。
`Sothatwehadbettergotosupper,’saidMaryJane,`andfinishthediscussionafterwards。’
Onthelandingoutsidethedrawing-roomGabrielfoundhiswifeandMaryJanetryingtopersuadeMissIvorstostayforsupper。ButMissIvors,whohadputonherhatandwasbuttoninghercloak,wouldnotstay。Shedidnotfeelintheleasthungryandshehadalreadyoverstayedhertime。
`Butonlyfortenminutes,Molly,’saidMrsConroy。`Thatwon’tdelayyou。’
`Totakeapickitself,’saidMaryJane,`afterallyourdancing。’
`Ireallycouldn’t,’saidMissIvors。
`Iamafraidyoudidn’tenjoyyourselfatall,’saidMaryJanehopelessly。
`Eversomuch,Iassureyou,’saidMissIvors,`butyoureallymustletmerunoffnow。’
`Buthowcanyougethome?’askedMrsConroy。
`O,it’sonlytwostepsupthequay。’
Gabrielhesitatedamomentandsaid:
`Ifyouwillallowme,MissIvors,I’llseeyouhomeifyouarereallyobligedtogo。’
ButMissIvorsbrokeawayfromthem。
`Iwon’thearofit,’shecried。`Forgoodness’sakegointoyoursuppersanddon’tmindme。I’mquitewellabletotakecareofmyself。’
`Well,you’rethecomicalgirl,Molly,’saidMrsConroyfrankly。
`Beannachtlibh,’criedMissIvors,withalaugh,assherandownthestaircase。
MaryJanegazedafterher,amoodypuzzledexpressiononherface,whileMrsConroyleanedoverthebanisterstolistenforthehall-door。Gabrielaskedhimselfwashethecauseofherabruptdeparture。Butshedidnotseemtobeinillhumour-shehadgoneawaylaughing。Hestaredblanklydownthestaircase。
AtthatmomentAuntKatecametoddlingoutofthesupper-room,almostwringingherhandsindespair。
`WhereisGabriel?’shecried。`WhereonearthisGabriel?There’severyonewaitinginthere,stagetolet,andnobodytocarvethegoose!’
`HereIam,AuntKate!’criedGabriel,withsuddenanimation,`readytocarveaflockofgeese,ifnecessary。’
Afatbrowngooselayatoneendofthetable,andattheotherend,onabedofcreasedpaperstrewnwithsprigsofparsley,layagreatham,strippedofitsouterskinandpepperedoverwithcrustcrumbs,aneatpaperfrillrounditsshin,andbesidethiswasaroundofspicedbeef。
Betweentheserivalendsranparallellinesofside-dishes:twolittleminstersofjelly,redandyellow;ashallowdishfullofblocksofblancmangeandredjam,alargegreenleaf-shapeddishwithastalk-shapedhandle,onwhichlaybunchesofpurpleraisinsandpeeledalmonds,acompaniondishonwhichlayasolidrectangleofSmyrnafigs,adishofcustardtoppedwithgratednutmeg,asmallbowlfullofchocolatesandsweetswrappedingoldandsilverpapersandaglassvaseinwhichstoodsometallcelerystalks。Inthecentreofthetabletherestood,assentriestoafruit-standwhichupheldapyramidoforangesandAmericanapples,twosquatold-fashioneddecantersofcutglass,onecontainingportandtheotherdarksherry。
Ontheclosedsquarepianoapuddinginahugeyellowdishlayinwaiting,andbehinditwerethreesquadsofbottlesofstoutandaleandmineralsdrawnupaccordingtothecoloursoftheiruniforms,thefirsttwoblack,withbrownandredlabels,thethirdandsmallestsquadwhite,withtransversegreensashes。
Gabrieltookhisseatboldlyattheheadofthetableand,havinglookedtotheedgeofthecarver,plungedhisforkfirmlyinto-thegoose。Hefeltquiteateasenow,forhewasanexpertcarverandlikednothingbetterthantofindhimselfattheheadofawell-ladentable。
`MissFurlong,whatshallIsendyou?’heasked。`Awingorasliceofthebreast?’
`Justasmallsliceofthebreast。’
`MissHiggins,whatforyou?’
`O,anythingatall,MrConroy。’
WhileGabrielandMissDalyexchangedplatesofgooseandplatesofhamandspicedbeef,Lilywentfromguesttoguestwithadishofhotflourypotatoeswrappedinawhitenapkin。ThiswasMaryJane’sideaandshehadalsosuggestedapplesauceforthegoose,butAuntKatehadsaidthatplainroastgoosewithoutanyapplesaucehadalwaysbeengoodenoughforherandshehopedshemightnevereatworse。MaryJanewaitedonherpupilsandsawthattheygotthebestslices,andAuntKateandAuntJuliaopenedandcarriedacrossfromthepianobottlesofstoutandaleforthegentlemenandbottlesofmineralsfortheladies。Therewasagreatdealofconfusionandlaughterandnoise,thenoiseofordersandcounter-orders,ofknivesandforks,ofcorksandglass-stoppers。Gabrielbegantocarvesecondhelpingsassoonashehadfinishedthefirstroundwithoutservinghimself。Everyoneprotestedloudly,sothathecompromisedbytakingalongdraughtofstout,forhehadfoundthecarvinghotwork。MaryJanesettleddownquietlytohersupper,butAuntKateandAuntJuliawerestilltoddlingroundthetable,walkingoneachother’sheels,gettingineachother’swayandgivingeachotherunheededorders。MrBrownebeggedofthemtositdownandeattheirsuppersandsodidGabriel,buttheysaidtherewastimeenough,sothat,atlast,FreddyMalinsstoodupand,capturingAuntKate,plumpedherdownonherchairamidgenerallaughter。
WheneveryonehadbeenwellservedGabrielsaid,smiling:
`Now,ifanyonewantsalittlemoreofwhatvulgarpeoplecallstuffinglethimorherspeak。’
Achorusofvoicesinvitedhimtobeginhisownsupper,andLilycameforwardwiththreepotatoeswhichshehadreservedforhim。
`Verywell,’saidGabrielamiably,ashetookanotherpreparatorydraught,`kindlyforgetmyexistence,ladiesandgentlemen,forafewminutes。’
HesettohissupperandtooknopartintheconversationwithwhichthetablecoveredLily’sremovaloftheplates。ThesubjectoftalkwastheoperacompanywhichwasthenattheTheatreRoyal。MrBartellD’Arcy,thetenor,adark-complexionedyoungmanwithasmartmoustache,praisedveryhighlytheleadingcontraltoofthecompany,butMissFurlongthoughtshehadarathervulgarstyleofproduction。FreddyMalinssaidtherewasaNegrochieftainsinginginthesecondpartoftheGaietypantomimewhohadoneofthefinesttenorvoiceshehadeverheard。
`Haveyouheardhim?’heaskedMrBartellD’Arcyacrossthetable。
`No,’answeredMrBartellD’Arcycarelessly。
`Because,’FreddyMalinsexplained,`nowI’dbecurioustohearyouropinionofhim。Ithinkhehasagrandvoice。’
`IttakesTeddytofindoutthereallygoodthings,’saidMrBrownefamiliarlytothetable。
`Andwhycouldn’thehaveavoicetoo?’askedFreddyMalinssharply。
`Isitbecausehe’sonlyablack?’
NobodyansweredthisquestionandMaryJaneledthetablebacktothelegitimateopera。OneofherpupilshadgivenherapassforMignon。
Ofcourseitwasveryfine,shesaid,butitmadeherthinkofpoorGeorginaBurns。MrBrownecouldgobackfartherstill,totheoldItaliancompaniesthatusedtocometoDublin-Tietjens,IlmadeMurzka,Campanini,thegreatTrebelli,Giuglini,Ravelli,Aramburo。Thosewerethedays,hesaid,whentherewassomethinglikesingingtobeheardinDublin。HetoldtooofhowthetopgalleryoftheoldRoyalusedtobepackednightafternight,ofhowonenightanItaliantenorhadsungfiveencorestoLetmelikeaSoldierfall’,introducingahighCeverytime,andofhowthegalleryboyswouldsometimesintheirenthusiasmunyokethehorsesfromthecarriageofsomegreatprimadonnaandpullherthemselvesthroughthestreetstoherhotel。Whydidtheyneverplaythegrandoldoperasnow,heasked,Dinorah,LucreziaBorgia?Becausetheycouldnotgetthevoicestosingthem:thatwaswhy。
`O,well,’saidMrBartellD’Arcy,`Ipresumethereareasgoodsingerstodayastherewerethen。’
`Wherearethey?’askedMrBrownedefiantly。
`InLondon,Paris,Milan,’saidMrBartellD’Arcywarmly。`IsupposeCaruso,forexample,isquiteasgood,ifnotbetterthananyofthemenyouhavementioned。’
`Maybeso,’saidMrBrowne。`ButImaytellyouIdoubtitstrongly。’
`O,I’dgiveanythingtohearCarusosing,’saidMaryJane。
`Forme,’saidAuntKate,whohadbeenpickingabone,`therewasonlyonetenor。Topleaseme,Imean。ButIsupposenoneofyoueverheardofhim。’
`Whowashe,MissMorkan?’askedMrBartellD’Arcypolitely。
`Hisname,’saidAuntKate,`wasParkinson。IheardhimwhenhewasinhisprimeandIthinkhehadthenthepuresttenorvoicethatwaseverputintoaman’sthroat。’
`Strange,’saidMrBartellD’Arcy。`Ineverevenheardofhim。’
`Yes,yes,MissMorkanisright,’saidMrBrowne。`IrememberhearingoldParkinson,buthe’stoofarbackforme。’
`Abeautiful,pure,sweet,mellowEnglishtenor,’saidAuntKatewithenthusiasm。
Gabrielhavingfinished,thehugepuddingwastransferredtothetable。
Theclatterofforksandspoonsbeganagain。Gabriel’swifeservedoutspoonfulsofthepuddingandpassedtheplatesdownthetable。MidwaydowntheywereheldupbyMaryJane,whoreplenishedthemwithraspberryororangejellyorwithblancmangeandjam。ThepuddingwasofAuntJulia’smaking,andshereceivedpraisesforitfromallquarters。Sheherselfsaidthatitwasnotquitebrownenough。
`Well,Ihope,MissMorkan,’saidMrBrowne,`thatI’mbrownenoughforyoubecause,youknow,I’mallBrown。’
Allthegentlemen,exceptGabriel,atesomeofthepuddingoutofcomplimenttoAuntJulia。AsGabrielneveratesweetstheceleryhadbeenleftforhim。FreddyMalinsalsotookastalkofceleryandateitwithhispudding。
Hehadbeentoldthatcelerywasacapitalthingforthebloodandhewasjustthenunderdoctor’scare。MrsMalins,whohadbeensilentallthroughthesupper,saidthathersonwasgoingdowntoMountMellerayinaweekorso。ThetablethenspokeofMountMelleray,howbracingtheairwasdownthere,howhospitablethemonkswereandhowtheyneveraskedforapenny-piecefromtheirguests。
`Anddoyoumeantosay,’askedMrBrowneincredulously,`thatachapcangodownthereandputupthereasifitwereahotelandliveonthefatofthelandandthencomeawaywithoutpayinganything?’
`O,mostpeoplegivesomedonationtothemonasterywhentheyleave,’
saidMaryJane。
`IwishwehadaninstitutionlikethatinourChurch,’saidMrBrownecandidly。
Hewasastonishedtohearthatthemonksneverspoke,gotupattwointhemorningandsleptintheircoffins。Heaskedwhattheydiditfor。
`That’stheruleoftheorder,’saidAuntKatefirmly。
`Yes,butwhy?’askedMrBrowne。
AuntKaterepeatedthatitwastherule,thatwasall。MrBrownestillseemednottounderstand。FreddyMalinsexplainedtohim,asbesthecould,thatthemonksweretryingtomakeupforthesinscommittedbyallthesinnersintheoutsideworld。Theexplanationwasnotveryclear,forMrBrownegrinnedandsaid:
`Ilikethatideaverymuch,butwouldn’tacomfortablespringbeddothemaswellasacoffin?’
`Thecoffin,’saidMaryJane,`istoremindthemoftheirlastend。’
Asthesubjecthadgrownlugubriousitwasburiedinasilenceofthetable,duringwhichMrsMalinscouldbeheardsayingtoherneighbourinanindistinctundertone:
`Theyareverygoodmen,themonks,verypiousmen。’
Theraisinsandalmondsandfigsandapplesandorangesandchocolatesandsweetswerenowpassedaboutthetable,andAuntJuliainvitedallthegueststohaveeitherportorsherry。AtfirstMrBartellD’Arcyrefusedtotakeeither,butoneofhisneighboursnudgedhimandwhisperedsomethingtohim,uponwhichheallowedhisglasstobefilled。Graduallyasthelastglasseswerebeingfilledtheconversationceased。Apausefollowed,brokenonlybythenoiseofthewineandbyunsettlingofchairs。TheMissesMorkan,allthree,lookeddownatthetablecloth。Someonecoughedonceortwice,andthenafewgentlemenpattedthetablegentlyasasignalforsilence。ThesilencecameandGabrielpushedbackhischairandstoodup。
Thepattingatoncegrewlouderinencouragementandthenceasedaltogether。
Gabrielleanedhistentremblingfingersonthetableclothandsmilednervouslyatthecompany。Meetingarowofupturnedfacesheraisedhiseyestothechandelier。Thepianowasplayingawaltztuneandhecouldheartheskirtssweepingagainstthedrawing-roomdoor。People,perhaps,werestandinginthesnowonthequayoutside,gazingupatthelightedwindowsandlisteningtothewaltzmusic。Theairwaspurethere。Inthedistancelaythepark,wherethetreeswereweightedwithsnow。TheWellingtonMonumentworeagleamingcapofsnowthatflashedwestwardsoverthewhitefieldofFifteenAcres。
Hebegan:
`LadiesandGentlemen,`Ithasfallentomylotthisevening,asinyearspast,toperformaverypleasingtask,butataskforwhichIamafraidmypoorpowersasaspeakerarealltooinadequate。’
`No,no!’saidMrBrowne。
`But,howeverthatmaybe,Icanonlyaskyoutonighttotakethewillforthedeed,andtolendmeyourattentionforafewmomentswhileIendeavourtoexpresstoyouinwordswhatmyfeelingsareonthisoccasion。
`LadiesandGentlemen,itisnotthefirsttimethatwehavegatheredtogetherunderthishospitableroof,aroundthishospitableboard。Itisnotthefirsttimethatwehavebeentherecipients-orperhaps,Ihadbettersay,thevictims-ofthehospitalityofcertaingoodladies。’
Hemadeacircleintheairwithhisarmandpaused。EveryonelaughedorsmiledatAuntKateandAuntJuliaandMaryJane,whoallturnedcrimsonwithpleasure。Gabrielwentonmoreboldly:
`Ifeelmorestronglywitheveryrecurringyearthatourcountryhasnotraditionwhichdoesitsomuchhonourandwhichitshouldguardsojealouslyasthatofitshospitality。Itisatraditionthatisuniqueasfarasmyexperiencegoes(andIhavevisitednotafewplacesabroad)
amongthemodernnations。Somewouldsay,perhaps,thatwithusitisratherafailingthananythingtobeboastedof。Butgrantedeventhat,itis,tomymind,aprincelyfailing,andonethatItrustwilllongbecultivatedamongus。Ofonething,atleast,Iamsure。Aslongasthisoneroofsheltersthegoodladiesaforesaid-andIwishfrommyheartitmaydosoformanyandmanyalongyeartocome-thetraditionofgenuinewarm-heartedcourteousIrishhospitality,whichourforefathershavehandeddowntousandwhichwemusthanddowntoourdescendants,isstillaliveamongus。’
Aheartymurmurofassentranroundthetable。ItshotthroughGabriel’smindthatMissIvorswasnotthereandthatshehadgoneawaydiscourteously:
andhesaidwithconfidenceinhimself:
`LadiesandGentlemen,`Anewgenerationisgrowingupinourmidst,agenerationactuatedbynewideasandnewprinciples。Itisseriousandenthusiasticforthesenewideasanditsenthusiasm,evenwhenitismisdirected,is,Ibelieve,inthemainsincere。Butwearelivinginascepticaland,ifImayusethephrase,athought-tormentedage:andsometimesIfearthatthisnewgeneration,educatedorhyper-educatedasitis,willlackthosequalitiesofhumanity,ofhospitality,ofkindlyhumourwhichbelongedtoanolderday。Listeningtonighttothenamesofallthosegreatsingersofthepastitseemedtome,Imustconfess,thatwewerelivinginalessspaciousage。Thosedaysmight,withoutexaggeration,becalledspaciousdays:andiftheyaregonebeyondrecall,letushope,atleast,thatingatheringssuchasthisweshallstillspeakofthemwithprideandaffection,stillcherishinourheartsthememoryofthosedeadandgonegreatoneswhosefametheworldwillnotwillinglyletdie。’
`Hear,hear!’saidMrBrowneloudly。
`Butyet,’continuedGabriel,hisvoicefallingintoasofterinflection,`therearealwaysingatheringssuchasthissadderthoughtsthatwillrecurtoourminds:thoughtsofthepast,ofyouth,ofchanges,ofabsentfacesthatwemissheretonight。Ourpaththroughlifeisstrewnwithmanysuchsadmemories:andwerewetobrooduponthemalwayswecouldnotfindthehearttogoonbravelywithourworkamongtheliving。Wehaveallofuslivingdutiesandlivingaffectionswhichclaim,andrightlyclaim,ourstrenuousendeavours。
`Therefore,Iwillnotlingeronthepast。Iwillnotletanygloomymoralizingintrudeuponusheretonight。Herewearegatheredtogetherforabriefmomentfromthebustleandrushofoureverydayroutine。Wearemethereasfriends,inthespiritofgood-fellowship,ascolleagues,also,toacertainextent,inthetruespiritofcamaraderie,andastheguestsof-whatshallIcallthem?-theThreeGracesoftheDublinmusicalworld。’
Thetableburstintoapplauseandlaughteratthisallusion。AuntJuliavainlyaskedeachofherneighboursinturntotellherwhatGabrielhadsaid。
`HesayswearetheThreeGraces,AuntJulia,’saidMaryJane。
AuntJuliadidnotunderstand,butshelookedup,smilingatGabriel,whocontinuedinthesamevein:
`LadiesandGentlemen,`IwillnotattempttoplaytonightthepartthatParisplayedonanotheroccasion。Iwillnotattempttochoosebetweenthem。Thetaskwouldbeaninvidiousoneandonebeyondmypoorpowers。ForwhenIviewtheminturn,whetheritbeourchiefhostessherself,whosegoodheart,whosetoogoodheart,hasbecomeabywordwithallwhoknowher;orhersister,whoseemstobegiftedwithperennialyouthandwhosesingingmusthavebeenasurpriseandarevelationtousalltonight;or,lastbutnotleast,whenIconsiderouryoungesthostess,talented,cheerful,hardworkingandthebestofnieces,Iconfess,LadiesandGentlemen,thatIdonotknowtowhichofthemIshouldawardtheprize。’
Gabrielglanceddownathisauntsand,seeingthelargesmileonAuntJulia’sfaceandthetearswhichhadrisentoAuntKate’seyes,hastenedtohisclose。Heraisedhisglassofportgallantly,whileeverymemberofthecompanyfingeredaglassexpectantly,andsaidloudly:
`Letustoastthemallthreetogether。Letusdrinktotheirhealth,wealth,longlife,happiness,andprosperityandmaytheylongcontinuetoholdtheproudandself-wonpositionwhichtheyholdintheirprofessionandthepositionofhonourandaffectionwhichtheyholdinourhearts。’
Alltheguestsstoodup,glassinhand,andturningtowardsthethreeseatedladies,sanginunison,withMrBrowneasleader:Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Whichnobodycandeny。AuntKatewasmakingfrankuseofherhandkerchiefandevenAuntJuliaseemedmoved。FreddyMalinsbeattimewithhispudding-forkandthesingersturnedtowardsoneanother,asifinmelodiousconference,whiletheysangwithemphasis:Unlesshetellsalie,Unlesshetellsalie。Then,turningoncemoretowardstheirhostesses,theysang:Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Whichnobodycandeny。Theacclamationwhichfollowedwastakenupbeyondthedoorofthesupper-roombymanyoftheotherguestsandrenewedtimeaftertime,FreddyMalinsactingasofficerwithhisforkonhigh。
ThepiercingmorningaircameintothehallwheretheywerestandingsothatAuntKatesaid:
`Closethedoor,somebody。MrsMalinswillgetherdeathofcold。’
`Browneisoutthere,AuntKate,’saidMaryJane。
`Browneiseverywhere,’saidAuntKate,loweringhervoice。
MaryJanelaughedathertone。
`Really,’shesaidarchly,`heisveryattentive。’
`Hehasbeenlaidonherelikethegas,’saidAuntKateinthesametone,`allduringtheChristmas。’
Shelaughedherselfthistimegood-humouredlyandthenaddedquickly:
`Buttellhimtocomein,MaryJane,andclosethedoor。Ihopetogoodnesshedidn’thearme。’
Atthatmomentthehall-doorwasopenedandMrBrownecameinfromthedoorstep,laughingasifhisheartwouldbreak。Hewasdressedinalonggreenovercoatwithmockastrakhancuffsandcollarandworeonhisheadanovalfurcap。Hepointeddownthesnow-coveredquayfromwherethesoundofshrillprolongedwhistlingwasbornein。
`TeddywillhaveallthecabsinDublinout,’hesaid。
Gabrieladvancedfromthelittlepantrybehindtheoffice,strugglingintohisovercoatand,lookingroundthehall,said。
`Grettanotdownyet?’
`She’sgettingonherthings,Gabriel,’saidAuntKate。
`Who’splayingupthere?’askedGabriel。
`Nobody。They’reallgone。’
`Ono,AuntKate,’saidMaryJane。`BartellD’ArcyandMissO’Callaghanaren’tgoneyet。’
`Someoneisfoolingatthepianoanyhow,’saidGabriel。
MaryJaneglancedatGabrielandMrBrowneandsaidwithashiver:
`Itmakesmefeelcoldtolookatyoutwogentlemenmuffleduplikethat。Iwouldn’tliketofaceyourjourneyhomeatthishour。’
`I’dlikenothingbetterthisminute,’saidMrBrownestoutly,`thanarattlingfinewalkinthecountryorafastdrivewithagoodspankinggoerbetweentheshafts。’
`Weusedtohaveaverygoodhorseandtrapathome,’saidAuntJulia,sadly。
`Thenever-to-be-forgottenJohnny,’saidMaryJane,laughing。
AuntKateandGabriellaughedtoo。
`Why,whatwaswonderfulaboutJohnny?’askedMrBrowne。
`ThelatelamentedPatrickMorkan,ourgrandfather,thatis,’explainedGabriel,`commonlyknowninhislateryearsastheoldgentleman,wasaglue-boiler。’
`O,now,Gabriel,’saidAuntKate,laughing,`hehadastarchmill。’
`Well,glueorstarch,’saidGabriel,`theoldgentlemanhadahorsebythenameofJohnny。AndJohnnyusedtoworkintheoldgentleman’smill,walkingroundandroundinordertodrivethemill。Thatwasallverywell;
butnowcomesthetragicpartaboutJohnny。Onefinedaytheoldgentlemanthoughthe’dliketodriveoutwiththequalitytoamilitaryreviewinthepark。’
`TheLordhavemercyonhissoul,’saidAuntKate,compassionately。
`Amen,’saidGabriel。`Sotheoldgentleman,asIsaid,harnessedJohnnyandputonhisverybesttallhatandhisverybeststockcollaranddroveoutingrandstylefromhisancestralmansionsomewherenearBackLane,Ithink。’
Everyonelaughed,evenMrsMalins,atGabriel’smanner,andAuntKatesaid:
`O,now,Gabriel,hedidn’tliveinBackLane,really。Onlythemillwasthere。’
`Outfromthemansionofhisforefathers,’continuedGabriel,`hedrovewithJohnny。AndeverythingwentonbeautifullyuntilJohnnycameinsightofKingBilly’sstatue:andwhetherhefellinlovewiththehorseKingBillysitsonorwhetherhethoughthewasbackagaininthemill,anywayhebegantowalkroundthestatue。’
Gabrielpacedinacircleroundthehallinhisgoloshesamidthelaughteroftheothers。
`Roundandroundhewent,’saidGabriel,`andtheoldgentleman,whowasaverypompousoldgentleman,washighlyindignant。"Goon,sir!Whatdoyoumean,sir?Johnny!Johnny!Mostextraordinaryconduct!Can’tunderstandthehorse!"’
ThepealsoflaughterwhichfollowedGabriel’simitationoftheincidentwereinterruptedbyaresoundingknockatthehall-door。MaryJanerantoopenitandletinFreddyMalins。FreddyMalins,withhishatwellbackonhisheadandhisshouldershumpedwithcold,waspuffingandsteamingafterhisexertions。
`Icouldonlygetonecab,’hesaid。
`O,we’llfindanotheralongthequay,’saidGabriel。
`Yes,’saidAuntKate。`BetternotkeepMrsMalinsstandinginthedraught。’
MrsMalinswashelpeddownthefrontstepsbyhersonandMrBrowneand,aftermanymanoeuvres,hoistedintothecab。FreddyMalinsclamberedinafterherandspentalongtimesettlingherontheseat,MrBrownehelpinghimwithadvice。AtlastshewassettledcomfortablyandFreddyMalinsinvitedMrBrowneintothecab。Therewasagooddealofconfusedtalk,andthenMrBrownegotintothecab。Thecabmansettledhisrugoverhisknees,andbentdownfortheaddress。TheconfusiongrewgreaterandthecabmanwasdirecteddifferentlybyFreddyMalinsandMrBrowne,eachofwhomhadhisheadoutthroughawindowofthecab。ThedifficultywastoknowwheretodropMrBrownealongtheroute,andAuntKate,AuntJulia,andMaryJanehelpedthediscussionfromthedoorstepwithcross-directionsandcontradictionsandabundanceoflaughter。AsforFreddyMalinshewasspeechlesswithlaughter。Hepoppedhisheadinandoutofthewindoweverymomenttothegreatdangerofhishat,andtoldhismotherhowthediscussionwasprogressing,tillatlastMrBrowneshoutedtothebewilderedcabmanabovethedinofeverybody’slaughter:
`DoyouknowTrinityCollege?’
`Yes,sir,’saidthecabman。
`Well,drivebangupagainstTrinityCollegegates,’saidMrBrowne,`andthenwe’lltellyouwheretogo。Youunderstandnow?’
`Yes,sir,’saidthecabman。
`MakelikeabirdforTrinityCollege。’
`Right,sir,’saidthecabman。
Thehorsewaswhippedupandthecabrattledoffalongthequayamidachorusoflaughterandadieux。
Gabrielhadnotgonetothedoorwiththeothers。Hewasinadarkpartofthehallgazingupthestaircase。Awomanwasstandingnearthetopofthefirstflight,intheshadowalso。Hecouldnotseeherfacebuthecouldseetheterra-cottaandsalmon-pinkpanelsofherskirtwhichtheshadowmadeappearblackandwhite。Itwashiswife。Shewasleaningonthebanisters,listeningtosomething。Gabrielwassurprisedatherstillnessandstrainedhiseartolistenalso。Buthecouldhearlittlesavethenoiseoflaughteranddisputeonthefrontsteps,afewchordsstruckonthepianoandafewnotesofaman’svoicesinging。
Hestoodstillinthegloomofthehall,tryingtocatchtheairthatthevoicewassingingandgazingupathiswife。Therewasgraceandmysteryinherattitudeasifshewereasymbolofsomething。Heaskedhimselfwhatisawomanstandingonthestairsintheshadow,listeningtodistantmusic,asymbolof。Ifhewereapainterhewouldpaintherinthatattitude。
Herbluefelthatwouldshowoffthebronzeofherhairagainstthedarknessandthedarkpanelsofherskirtwouldshowoffthelightones。DistantMusichewouldcallthepictureifhewereapainter。
Thehall-doorwasclosed,andAuntKate,AuntJulia,andMaryJanecamedownthehall,stilllaughing。
`Well,isn’tFreddyterrible?’saidMaryJane。`He’sreallyterrible。’
Gabrielsaidnothing,butpointedupthestairstowardswherehiswifewasstanding。Nowthatthehall-doorwasclosedthevoiceandthepianocouldbeheardmoreclearly。Gabrielhelduphishandforthemtobesilent。
ThesongseemedtobeintheoldIrishtonalityandthesingerseemeduncertainbothofhiswordsandofhisvoice。Thevoice,madeplaintivebydistanceandbythesinger’shoarseness,faintlyilluminatedthecadenceoftheairwithwordsexpressinggrief:O,therainfallsonmyheavylocksAndthedewwetsmyskin,Mybabeliescold……`O,’exclaimedMaryJane。`It’sBartellD’Arcysinging,andhewouldn’tsingallthenight。O,I’llgethimtosingasongbeforehegoes。’
`O,do,MaryJane,’saidAuntKate。
MaryJanebrushedpasttheothersandrantothestaircase,butbeforeshereacheditthesingingstoppedandthepianowasclosedabruptly。
`O,whatapity!’shecried。`Ishecomingdown,Gretta?’
Gabrielheardhiswifeansweryesandsawhercomedowntowardsthem。
AfewstepsbehindherwereMrBartellD’ArcyandMissO’Callaghan。
`O,MrD’Arcy,’criedMaryJane,`it’sdownrightmeanofyoutobreakofflikethatwhenwewereallinraptureslisteningtoyou。’
`Ihavebeenathimalltheevening,’saidMissO’Callaghan,`andMrsConroy,too,andhetoldushehadadreadfulcoldandcouldn’tsing。’
`O,MrD’Arcy,’saidAuntKate,`nowthatwasagreatfibtotell。’
`Can’tyouseethatI’mashoarseasacrow?’saidMrD’Arcyroughly。
Hewentintothepantryhastilyandputonhisovercoat。Theothers,takenbackbyhisrudespeech,couldfindnothingtosay。AuntKatewrinkledherbrowsandmadesignstotheotherstodropthesubject。MrD’Arcystoodswathinghisneckcarefullyandfrowning。
`It’stheweather,’saidAuntJulia,afterapause。
`Yes,everybodyhascolds,’saidAuntKatereadily,`everybody。’
`Theysay,’saidMaryJane,`wehaven’thadsnowlikeitforthirtyyears,andIreadthismorninginthenewspapersthatthesnowisgeneralalloverIreland。’
`Ilovethelookofsnow,’saidAuntJuliasadly。
`SodoI,’saidMissO’Callaghan。`IthinkChristmasisneverreallyChristmasunlesswehavethesnowontheground。’
`ButpoorMrD’Arcydoesn’tlikethesnow,’saidAuntKate,smiling。
MrD’Arcycamefromthepantry,fullyswathedandbuttoned,andinarepentanttonetoldthemthehistoryofhiscold。Everyonegavehimadviceandsaiditwasagreatpityandurgedhimtobeverycarefulofhisthroatinthenightair。Gabrielwatchedhiswife,whodidnotjoinintheconversation。
Shewasstandingrightunderthedustyfanlightandtheflameofthegaslituptherichbronzeofherhair,whichhehadseenherdryingatthefireafewdaysbefore。Shewasinthesameattitudeandseemedunawareofthetalkabouther。AtlastsheturnedtowardsthemandGabrielsawthattherewascolouronhercheeksandthathereyeswereshining。Asuddentideofjoywentleapingoutofhisheart。
`MrD’Arcy,’shesaid,`whatisthenameofthatsongyouweresinging?’
`It’scalled"TheLassofAughrim",’saidMrD’Arcy,`butIcouldn’trememberitproperly。Why?Doyouknowit?’
"`TheLassofAughrim",’sherepeated。`Icouldn’tthinkofthename。’
`It’saveryniceair,’saidMaryJane。`I’msorryyouwerenotinvoicetonight。’
`Now,MaryJane,’saidAuntKate,`don’tannoyMrD’Arcy。Iwon’thavehimannoyed。’
Seeingthatallwerereadytostartsheshepherdedthemtothedoor,wheregoodnightwassaid:
`Well,goodnight,AuntKate,andthanksforthepleasantevening。’
`Goodnight,Gabriel。Goodnight,Gretta!’
`Goodnight,AuntKate,andthankseversomuch。Goodnight,AuntJulia。’
`O,goodnight,Gretta,Ididn’tseeyou。’
`Goodnight,MrD’Arcy。Goodnight,MissO’Callaghan。’
`Goodnight,MissMorkan。’
`Goodnight,again。’
`Goodnight,all。Safehome。’
`Goodnight。Goodnight。’
Themorningwasstilldark。Adull,yellowlightbroodedoverthehousesandtheriver;andtheskyseemedtobedescending。Itwasslushyunderfoot,andonlystreaksandpatchesofsnowlayontheroofs,ontheparapetsofthequayandonthearearailings。Thelampswerestillburningredlyinthemurkyairand,acrosstheriver,thepalaceoftheFourCourtsstoodoutmenacinglyagainsttheheavysky。
ShewaswalkingonbeforehimwithMrBartellD’Arcy,hershoesinabrownparceltuckedunderonearmandherhandsholdingherskirtupfromtheslush。Shehadnolongeranygraceofattitude,butGabriel’seyeswerestillbrightwithhappiness。Thebloodwentboundingalonghisveinsandthethoughtswentriotingthroughhisbrain,proud,joyful,tender,valorous。
Shewaswalkingonbeforehimsolightlyandsoerectthathelongedtorunafterhernoiselessly,catchherbytheshouldersandsaysomethingfoolishandaffectionateintoherear。Sheseemedtohimsofrailthathelongedtodefendheragainstsomethingandthentobealonewithher。
Momentsoftheirsecretlifetogetherburstlikestarsuponhismemory。
Aheliotropeenvelopewaslyingbesidehisbreakfast-cupandhewascaressingitwithhishand。Birdsweretwitteringintheivyandthesunnywebofthecurtainwasshimmeringalongthefloor:hecouldnoteatforhappiness。
Theywerestandingonthecrowdedplatformandhewasplacingaticketinsidethewarmpalmofherglove。Hewasstandingwithherinthecold,lookinginthroughagratedwindowatamanmakingbottlesinaroaringfurnace。Itwasverycold。Herface,fragrantinthecoldair,wasquiteclosetohis,andsuddenlyhecalledouttothemanatthefurnace:
`Isthefirehot,sir?’
Butthemancouldno!hearwiththenoiseofthefurnace。Itwasjustaswell。Hemighthaveansweredrudely。
Awaveofyetmoretenderjoyescapedfromhisheartandwentcoursinginwarmfloodalonghisarteries。Likethetenderfireofstarsmomentsoftheirlifetogether,thatnooneknewoforwouldeverknowof,brokeuponandilluminedhismemory。Helongedtorecalltoherthosemoments,tomakeherforgettheyearsoftheirdullexistencetogetherandrememberonlytheirmomentsofecstasy。Fortheyears,hefelt,hadnotquenchedhissoulorhers。Theirchildren,hiswriting,herhouseholdcareshadnotquenchedalltheirsouls’tenderfire。Inoneletterthathehadwrittentoherthenhehadsaid:`Whyisitthatwordsliketheseseemtomesodullandcold?Isitbecausethereisnowordtenderenoughtobeyourname?’
Likedistantmusicthesewordsthathehadwrittenyearsbeforewerebornetowardshimfromthepast。Helongedtobealonewithher。Whentheothershadgoneaway,whenheandshewereintheroomintheirhotel,thentheywouldbealonetogether。Hewouldcallhersoftly:
`Gretta!’
Perhapsshewouldnothearatonce:shewouldbeundressing。Thensomethinginhisvoicewouldstrikeher。Shewouldturnandlookathim……
AtthecornerofWinetavernStreettheymetacab。Hewasgladofitsrattlingnoiseasitsavedhimfromconversation。Shewaslookingoutofthewindowandseemedtired。Theothersspokeonlyafewwords,pointingoutsomebuildingorstreet。Thehorsegallopedalongwearilyunderthemurkymorningsky,dragginghisoldrattlingboxafterhisheels,andGabrielwasagaininacabwithher,gallopingtocatchtheboat,gallopingtotheirhoneymoon。
AsthecabdroveacrossO’ConnellBridgeMissO’Callaghansaid:
`TheysayyounevercrossO’ConnellBridgewithoutseeingawhitehorse。’
`Iseeawhitemanthistime,’saidGabriel。
`Where?’askedMrBartellD’Arcy。
Gabrielpointedtothestatue,onwhichlaypatchesofsnow。Thenhenoddedfamiliarlytoitandwavedhishand。
`Goodnight,Dan,’hesaidgaily。
Whenthecabdrewupbeforethehotel,Gabrieljumpedoutand,inspiteofMrBartellD’Arcy’sprotest,paidthedriver。Hegavethemanashillingoverhisfare。Themansalutedandsaid:
`AprosperousNewYeartoyou,sir。’
`Thesametoyou,’saidGabrielcordially。
Sheleanedforamomentonhisarmingettingoutofthecabandwhilestandingatthekerb-stone,biddingtheothersgoodnight。Sheleanedlightlyonhisarm,aslightlyaswhenshehaddancedwithhimafewhoursbefore。
Hehadfeltproudandhappythen,happythatshewashis,proudofhergraceandwifelycarriage。Butnow,afterthekindlingagainofsomanymemories,thefirsttouchofherbody,musicalandstrangeandperfumed,sentthroughhimakeenpangoflust。Undercoverofhersilencehepressedherarmcloselytohisside,and,astheystoodatthehoteldoor,hefeltthattheyhadescapedfromtheirlivesandduties,escapedfromhomeandfriendsandrunawaytogetherwithwildandradiantheartstoanewadventure。
Anoldmanwasdozinginagreathoodedchairinthehall。Helitacandleintheofficeandwentbeforethemtothestairs。Theyfollowedhiminsilence,theirfeetfallinginsoftthudsonthethicklycarpetedstairs。Shemountedthestairsbehindtheporter,herheadbowedintheascent,herfrailshoulderscurvedaswithaburden,herskirtgirttightlyabouther。Hecouldhaveflunghisarmsaboutherhipsandheldherstill,forhisarmsweretremblingwithdesiretoseizeherandonlythestressofhisnailsagainstthepalmsofhishandsheldthewildimpulseofhisbodyincheck。Theporterhaltedonthestairstosettlehisgutteringcandle。Theyhalted,too,onthestepsbelowhim。InthesilenceGabrielcouldhearthefallingofmoltenwaxintothetrayandthethumpingofhisownheartagainsthisribs。
Theporterledthemalongacorridorandopenedadoor。Thenhesethisunstablecandledownonatoilet-tableandaskedatwhathourtheyweretobecalledinthemorning。
`Eight,’saidGabriel。
Theporterpointedtothetapoftheelectric-lightandbeganamutteredapology,butGabrielcuthimshort。
`Wedon’twantanylight。Wehavelightenoughfromthestreet。AndIsay,’headded,pointingtothecandle,`youmightremovethathandsomearticle,likeagoodman。’
Theportertookuphiscandleagain,butslowly,forhewassurprisedbysuchanovelidea。Thenhemumbledgoodnightandwentout。Gabrielshotthelockto。
Aghastlylightfromthestreetlamplayinalongshaftfromonewindowtothedoor。Gabrielthrewhisovercoatandhatonacouchandcrossedtheroomtowardsthewindow。Helookeddownintothestreetinorderthathisemotionmightcalmalittle。Thenheturnedandleanedagainstachestofdrawerswithhisbacktothelight。Shehadtakenoffherhatandcloakandwasstandingbeforealargeswingingmirror,unhookingherwaist。Gabrielpausedforafewmoments,watchingher,andthensaid:
`Gretta!’
Sheturnedawayfromthemirrorslowlyandwalkedalongtheshaftoflighttowardshim。HerfacelookedsoseriousandwearythatthewordswouldnotpassGabriel’slips。No,itwasnotthemomentyet。
`Youlookedtired,’hesaid。
`Iamalittle,’sheanswered。
`Youdon’tfeelillorweak?’
`No,tired:that’sall。’
Shewentontothewindowandstoodthere,lookingout。Gabrielwaitedagainandthen,fearingthatdiffidencewasabouttoconquerhim,hesaidabruptly:
`Bytheway,Gretta!’
`Whatisit?’
`YouknowthatpoorfellowMalins?’hesaidquickly。
`Yes。Whatabouthim?’
`Well,poorfellow,be’sadecentsortofchap,afterall,’continuedGabrielinafalsevoice。`HegavemebackthatsovereignIlenthim,andIdidn’texpectit,really。It’sapityhewouldn’tkeepawayfromthatBrowne,becausehe’snotabadfellow,really。’
Hewastremblingnowwithannoyance。Whydidsheseemsoabstracted?
Hedidnotknowhowhecouldbegin。Wassheannoyed,too,aboutsomething?
Ifshewouldonlyturntohimorcometohimofherownaccord!Totakeherasshewaswouldbebrutal。No,hemustseesomeardourinhereyesfirst。Helongedtobemasterofherstrangemood。
`Whendidyoulendhimthepound?’sheasked,afterapause。
GabrielstrovetorestrainhimselffrombreakingoutintobrutallanguageaboutthesottishMalinsandhispound。Helongedtocrytoherfromhissoul,tocrushherbodyagainsthis,toovermasterher。Buthesaid:
`O,atChristmas,whenheopenedthatlittleChristmas-cardshop,inHenryStreet。’
Hewasinsuchafeverofrageanddesirethathedidnothearhercomefromthewindow。Shestoodbeforehimforaninstant,lookingathimstrangely。
Then,suddenlyraisingherselfontiptoeandrestingherhandslightlyonhisshoulders,shekissedhim。
`Youareaverygenerousperson,Gabriel,’shesaid。
Gabriel,tremblingwithdelightathersuddenkissandatthequaintnessofherphrase,puthishandsonherhairandbegansmoothingitback,scarcelytouchingitwithhisfingers。Thewashinghadmadeitfineandbrilliant。
Hisheartwasbrimmingoverwithhappiness。Justwhenhewaswishingforitshehadcometohimofherownaccord。Perhapsherthoughtshadbeenrunningwithhis。Perhapsshehadfelttheimpetuousdesirethatwasinhim,andthentheyieldingmoodhadcomeuponher。Nowthatshehadfallentohimsoeasily,hewonderedwhyhehadbeensodiffident。
Hestood,holdingherheadbetweenhishands。Then,slippingonearmswiftlyaboutherbodyanddrawinghertowardshim,hesaidsoftly:
`Gretta,dear,whatareyouthinkingabout?’
Shedidnotanswernoryieldwhollytohisarm。Hesaidagain,softly:
`Tellmewhatitis,Gretta。IthinkIknowwhatisthematter。DoI
know?’
Shedidnotansweratonce。Thenshesaidinanoutburstoftears:
`O,Iamthinkingaboutthatsong,"TheLassofAughrim"。’
Shebrokeloosefromhimandrantothebedand,throwingherarmsacrossthebed-rail,hidherface。Gabrielstoodstock-stillforamomentinastonishmentandthenfollowedher。Ashepassedinthewayofthecheval-glasshecaughtsightofhimselfinfulllength,hisbroad,well-filledshirt-front,thefacewhoseexpressionalwayspuzzledhimwhenhesawitinamirror,andhisglimmeringgilt-rimmedeye-glasses。Hehaltedafewpacesfromherandsaid:
`Whataboutthesong?Whydoesthatmakeyoucry?’
Sheraisedherheadfromherarmsanddriedhereyeswiththebackofherhandlikeachild。Akindernotethanhehadintendedwentintohisvoice。
`Why,Gretta?’heasked。
`Iamthinkingaboutapersonlongagowhousedtosingthatsong。’
`Andwhowasthepersonlongago?’askedGabriel,smiling。
`ItwasapersonIusedtoknowinGalwaywhenIwaslivingwithmygrandmother,’shesaid。
ThesmilepassedawayfromGabriel’sface。Adullangerbegantogatheragainatthebackofhismindandthedullfiresofhislustbegantoglowangrilyinhisveins。
`Someoneyouwereinlovewith?’heaskedironically。
`ItwasayoungboyIusedtoknow,’sheanswered,`namedMichaelFurey。
Heusedtosingthatsong,"TheLassofAughrim"。Hewasverydelicate。’
Gabrielwassilent。Hedidnotwishhertothinkthathewasinterestedinthisdelicateboy。
`Icanseehimsoplainly,’shesaid,afteramoment。`Sucheyesashehad:big,darkeyes!Andsuchanexpressioninthem-anexpression!’
`O,then,youwereinlovewithhim?’saidGabriel。
`Iusedtogooutwalkingwithhim,’shesaid,`whenIwasinGalway。’
AthoughtflewacrossGabriel’smind。
`PerhapsthatwaswhyyouwantedtogotoGalwaywiththatIvorsgirl?’
hesaidcoldly。
Shelookedathimandaskedinsurprise:
`Whatfor?’
HereyesmadeGabrielfeelawkward。Heshruggedhisshouldersandsaid:
`HowdoIknow?Toseehim,perhaps。’
Shelookedawayfromhimalongtheshaftoflighttowardsthewindowinsilence。
`Heisdead,’shesaidatlength。`Hediedwhenhewasonlyseventeen。
Isn’titaterriblethingtodiesoyoungasthat?’
`Whatwashe?’askedGabriel,stillironically。
`Hewasinthegasworks,’shesaid。
Gabrielfelthumiliatedbythefailureofhisironyandbytheevocationofthisfigurefromthedead,aboyinthegasworks。Whilehehadbeenfullofmemoriesoftheirsecretlifetogether,fulloftendernessandjoyanddesire,shehadbeencomparinghiminhermindwithanother。A
shamefulconsciousnessofhisownpersonassailedhim。Hesawhimselfasaludicrousfigure,actingasapenny-boyforhisaunts,anervous,well-meaningsentimentalist,oratingtovulgariansandidealizinghisownclownishlusts,thepitiablefatuousfellowhehadcaughtaglimpseofinthemirror。Instinctivelyheturnedhisbackmoretothelightlestshemightseetheshamethatburneduponhisforehead。
Hetriedtokeepuphistoneofcoldinterrogation,buthisvoicewhenhespokewashumbleandindifferent。
`IsupposeyouwereinlovewiththisMichaelFurey,Gretta,’hesaid。
`Iwasgreatwithhimatthattime,’shesaid。
Hervoicewasveiledandsad。Gabriel,feelingnowhowvainitwouldbetotrytoleadherwhitherhehadpurposed,caressedoneofherhandsandsaid,alsosadly:
`Andwhatdidhedieofsoyoung,Gretta?Consumption,wasit?’
`Ithinkhediedforme,’sheanswered。
AvagueterrorseizedGabrielatthisanswer,asif,atthathourwhenhehadhopedtotriumph,someimpalpableandvindictivebeingwascomingagainsthim,gatheringforcesagainsthiminitsvagueworld。Butheshookhimselffreeofitwithaneffortofreasonandcontinuedtocaressherhand。Hedidnotquestionheragain,forhefeltthatshewouldtellhimofherself。Herhandwaswarmandmoist:itdidnotrespondtohistouch,buthecontinuedtocaressitjustashehadcaressedherfirstlettertohimthatspringmorning。
`Itwasinthewinter,’shesaid,`aboutthebeginningofthewinterwhenIwasgoingtoleavemygrandmother’sandcomeupheretotheconvent。
AndhewasillatthetimeinhislodgingsinGalwayandwouldn’tbeletout,andhispeopleinOughterardwerewrittento。Hewasindecline,theysaid,orsomethinglikethat。Ineverknewrightly。’
Shepausedforamomentandsighed。
`Poorfellow,’shesaid。`Hewasveryfondofmeandhewassuchagentleboy。Weusedtogoouttogether,walking,youknow,Gabriel,likethewaytheydointhecountry。Hewasgoingtostudysingingonlyforhishealth。
Hehadaverygoodvoice,poorMichaelFurey。’
`Well;andthen?’askedGabriel。
`AndthenwhenitcametothetimeformetoleaveGalwayandcomeuptotheconventhewasmuchworseandIwouldn’tbeletseehim,soIwrotehimalettersayingIwasgoinguptoDublinandwouldbebackinthesummer,andhopinghewouldbebetterthen。’
Shepausedforamomenttogethervoiceundercontrol,andthenwenton:
`ThenthenightbeforeIleft,Iwasinmygrandmother’shouseinNuns’
Island,packingup,andIheardgravelthrownupagainstthewindow。ThewindowwassowetIcouldn’tsee,soIrandownstairsasIwasandslippedoutthebackintothegardenandtherewasthepoorfellowattheendofthegarden,shivering。’
`Anddidyounottellhimtogoback?’askedGabriel。
`Iimploredofhimtogohomeatonceandtoldhimhewouldgethisdeathintherain。Buthesaidhedidnotwanttolive。Icanseehiseyesaswellaswell!Hewasstandingattheendofthewallwheretherewasatree。’
`Anddidhegohome?’askedGabriel。
`Yes,hewenthome。AndwhenIwasonlyaweekintheconventhediedandhewasburiedinOughterard,wherehispeoplecamefrom。O,thedayIheardthat,thathewasdead!’
Shestopped,chokingwithsobs,and,overcomebyemotion,flungherselffacedownwardonthebed,sobbinginthequilt。Gabrielheldherhandforamomentlonger,irresolutely,andthen,shyofintrudingonhergrief,letitfallgentlyandwalkedquietlytothewindow。
Shewasfastasleep。
Gabriel,leaningonhiselbow,lookedforafewmomentsunresentfullyonhertangledhairandhalf-openmouth,listeningtoherdeep-drawnbreath。
Soshehadhadthatromanceinherlife:amanhaddiedforhersake。Ithardlypainedhimnowtothinkhowpooraparthe,herhusband,hadplayedinherlife。Hewatchedherwhilesheslept,asthoughheandshehadneverlivedtogetherasmanandwife。Hiscuriouseyesrestedlonguponherfaceandonherhair:and,ashethoughtofwhatshemusthavebeenthen,inthattimeofherfirstgirlishbeauty,astrange,friendlypityforherenteredhissoul。Hedidnotliketosayeventohimselfthatherfacewasnolongerbeautiful,butheknewthatitwasnolongerthefaceforwhichMichaelFureyhadbraveddeath。
Perhapsshehadnottoldhimallthestory。Hiseyesmovedtothechairoverwhichshehadthrownsomeofherclothes。Apetticoatstringdangledtothefloor。Onebootstoodupright,itslimpupperfallendown:thefellowofitlayuponitsside。Hewonderedathisriotofemotionsofanhourbefore。Fromwhathaditproceeded?Fromhisaunt’ssupper,fromhisownfoolishspeech,fromthewineanddancing,themerry-makingwhensayinggoodnightinthehall,thepleasureofthewalkalongtheriverinthesnow。PoorAuntJulia!She,too,wouldsoonbeashadewiththeshadeofPatrickMorkanandhishorse。Hehadcaughtthathaggardlookuponherfaceforamomentwhenshewassinging`ArrayedfortheBridal’。Soon,perhaps,hewouldbesittinginthatsamedrawing-room,dressedinblack,hissilkhatonhisknees。TheblindswouldbedrawndownandAuntKatewouldbesittingbesidehim,cryingandblowinghernoseandtellinghimhowJuliahaddied。Hewouldcastaboutinhismindforsomewordsthatmightconsoleher,andwouldfindonlylameanduselessones。Yes,yes:
thatwouldhappenverysoon。
Theairoftheroomchilledhisshoulders。Hestretchedhimselfcautiouslyalongunderthesheetsandlaydownbesidehiswife。Onebyone,theywereallbecomingshades。Betterpassboldlyintothatotherworld,inthefullgloryofsomepassion,thanfadeandwitherdismallywithage。Hethoughtofhowshewholaybesidehimhadlockedinherheartforsomanyyearsthatimageofherlover’seyeswhenhehadtoldherthathedidnotwishtolive。
GeneroustearsfilledGabriel’seyes。Hehadneverfeltlikethathimselftowardsanywoman,butheknewthatsuchafeelingmustbelove。Thetearsgatheredmorethicklyinhiseyesandinthepartialdarknessheimaginedhesawtheformofayoungmanstandingunderadrippingtree。Otherformswerenear。Hissoulhadapproachedthatregionwheredwellthevasthostsofthedead。Hewasconsciousof,butcouldnotapprehend,theirwaywardandflickeringexistence。Hisownidentitywasfadingoutintoagreyimpalpableworld:thesolidworlditself,whichthesedeadhadonetimerearedandlivedin,wasdissolvinganddwindling。
Afewlighttapsuponthepanemadehimturntothewindow。Ithadbeguntosnowagain。Hewatchedsleepilytheflakes,silveranddark,fallingobliquelyagainstthelamplight。Thetimehadcomeforhimtosetoutonhisjourneywestward。Yes,thenewspaperswereright:snowwasgeneralalloverIreland。Itwasfallingoneverypartofthedarkcentralplain,onthetreelesshills,fallingsoftlyupontheBogofAllenand,fartherwestward,softlyfallingintothedarkmutinousShannonwaves。Itwasfalling,too,uponeverypartofthelonelychurchyardonthehillwhereMichaelFureylayburied。Itlaythicklydriftedonthecrookedcrossesandheadstones,onthespearsofthelittlegate,onthebarrenthorns。Hissoulswoonedslowlyasheheardthesnowfallingfaintlythroughtheuniverseandfaintlyfalling,likethedescentoftheirlastend,uponallthelivingandthedead。
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