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第3章

  "Oh,no;sheisprobablyalone。"
  "Butshemustbedreadfullybored,"saidGaston。
  "Wespendmostofoureveningtogether,orshecallstomewhenshecomesin。Shenevergoestobedbeforetwointhemorning。
  Shecan'tsleepbeforethat。"
  "Why?"
  "Becauseshesuffersinthechest,andisalmostalwaysfeverish。"
  "Hasn'tsheanylovers?"Iasked。
  "IneverseeanyoneremainafterIleave;Idon'tsaynooneevercomeswhenIamgone。OftenintheeveningImeetthereacertainComtedeN。,whothinksheismakingsomeheadwaybycallingonheratelevenintheevening,andbysendingherjewelstoanyextent;butshecan'tstandhim。Shemakesamistake;heisveryrich。ItisinvainthatIsaytoherfromtimetotime,'Mydearchild,there'sthemanforyou。'She,whogenerallylistenstome,turnsherbackandrepliesthatheistoostupid。Stupid,indeed,heis;butitwouldbeapositionforher,whilethisolddukemightdieanyday。Oldmenareegoists;
  hisfamilyarealwaysreproachinghimforhisaffectionforMarguerite;therearetworeasonswhyheislikelytoleavehernothing。Igivehergoodadvice,andsheonlysaysitwillbeplentyoftimetotakeonthecountwhenthedukeisdead。Itisn'tallfun,"continuedPrudence,"tolivelikethat。Iknowverywellitwouldn'tsuitme,andIshouldsoonsendtheoldmanabouthisbusiness。Heissodull;hecallsherhisdaughter;
  looksafterherlikeachild;andisalwaysintheway。Iamsureatthisverymomentoneofhisservantsisprowlingaboutinthestreettoseewhocomesout,andespeciallywhogoesin。"
  "Ah,poorMarguerite!"saidGaston,sittingdowntothepianoandplayingawaltz。"Ihadn'tanotionofit,butIdidnoticeshehasn'tbeenlookingsogaylately。"
  "Hush,"saidPrudence,listening。Gastonstopped。
  "Sheiscallingme,Ithink。"
  Welistened。Avoicewascalling,"Prudence!"
  "Come,now,youmustgo,"saidMme。Duvernoy。
  "Ah,thatisyourideaofhospitality,"saidGaston,laughing;
  "wewon'tgotillweplease。"
  "Whyshouldwego?"
  "IamgoingovertoMarguerite's。"
  "Wewillwaithere。"
  "Youcan't。"
  "Thenwewillgowithyou。"
  "Thatstillless。"
  "IknowMarguerite,"saidGaston;Icanverywellpayheracall。"
  "ButArmanddoesn'tknowher。"
  "Iwillintroducehim。"
  "Impossible。"
  WeagainheardMarguerite'svoicecallingtoPrudence,whorushedtoherdressing-roomwindow。IfollowedwithGastonassheopenedthewindow。Wehidourselvessoasnottobeseenfromoutside。
  "Ihavebeencallingyoufortenminutes,"saidMargueritefromherwindow,inalmostanimperioustoneofvoice。
  "Whatdoyouwant?"
  "Iwantyoutocomeoveratonce。"
  "Why?"
  "BecausetheComtedeN。isstillhere,andheisboringmetodeath。"
  "Ican'tnow。"
  "Whatishinderingyou?"
  "Therearetwoyoungfellowsherewhowon'tgo。"
  "Tellthemthatyoumustgoout。"
  "Ihavetoldthem。"
  "Well,then,leavetheminthehouse。Theywillsoongowhentheyseeyouhavegone。"
  "Theywillturneverythingupsidedown。"
  "Butwhatdotheywant?"
  "Theywanttoseeyou。"
  "Whataretheycalled?"
  "Youknowone,M。GastonR。"
  "Ah,yes,Iknowhim。Andtheother?"
  "M。ArmandDuval;andyoudon'tknowhim。"
  "No,butbringthemalong。Anythingisbetterthanthecount。I
  expectyou。Comeatonce。"
  MargueriteclosedherwindowandPrudencehers。Marguerite,whohadrememberedmyfaceforamoment,didnotremembermyname。I
  wouldratherhavebeenrememberedtomydisadvantagethanthusforgotten。
  "Iknew,"saidGaston,"thatshewouldbedelightedtoseeus。"
  "Delightedisn'ttheword,"repliedPrudence,assheputonherhatandshawl。"Shewillseeyouinordertogetridofthecount。Trytobemoreagreeablethanheis,or(IknowMarguerite)shewillputitalldowntome。"
  WefollowedPrudencedownstairs。Itrembled;itseemedtomethatthisvisitwastohaveagreatinfluenceonmylife。IwasstillmoreagitatedthanontheeveningwhenIwasintroducedintheboxattheOperaComique。Aswereachedthedoorthatyouknow,myheartbeatsoviolentlythatIwashardlyabletothink。
  Weheardthesoundofapiano。Prudencerang。Thepianowassilent。Awomanwholookedmorelikeacompanionthanaservantopenedthedoor。Wewentintothedrawing-room,andfromthattotheboudoir,whichwasthenjustasyouhaveseenitsince。A
  youngmanwasleaningagainstthemantel-piece。Marguerite,seatedatthepiano,letherfingerswanderoverthenotes,beginningscrapsofmusicwithoutfinishingthem。Thewholescenebreathedboredom,themanembarrassedbytheconsciousnessofhisnullity,thewomantiredofherdismalvisitor。AtthevoiceofPrudence,Margueriterose,andcomingtowarduswithalookofgratitudetoMme。Duvernoy,said:
  "Comein,andwelcome。"
  Chapter9
  "Good-evening,mydearGaston,"saidMargueritetomycompanion。
  "Iamverygladtoseeyou。Whydidn'tyoucometoseemeinmyboxattheVarietes?"
  "Iwasafraiditwouldbeindiscreet。"
  "Friends,"andMargueritelingeredovertheword,asiftointimatetothosewhowerepresentthatinspiteofthefamiliarwayinwhichshegreetedhim,Gastonwasnotandneverhadbeenanythingmorethanafriend,"friendsarealwayswelcome。"
  "Then,willyoupermitmetointroduceM。ArmandDuval?"
  "IhadalreadyauthorizedPrudencetodoso。"
  "Asfarasthatgoes,madame,"Isaid,bowing,andsucceedingingettingmoreorlessintelligiblesoundsoutofmythroat,"I
  havealreadyhadthehonourofbeingintroducedtoyou。"
  Marguerite'sbeautifuleyesseemedtobelookingbackinmemory,butshecouldnot,orseemednotto,remember。
  "Madame,"Icontinued,"Iamgratefultoyouforhavingforgottentheoccasionofmyfirstintroduction,forIwasveryabsurdandmusthaveseemedtoyouverytiresome。ItwasattheOperaComique,twoyearsago;IwaswithErnestde——。"
  "Ah,Iremember,"saidMarguerite,withasmile。"Itwasnotyouwhowereabsurd;itwasIwhowasmischievous,asIstillam,butsomewhatless。Youhaveforgivenme?"
  Andsheheldoutherhand,whichIkissed。
  "Itistrue,"shewenton;"youknowIhavethebadhabitoftryingtoembarrasspeoplethefirsttimeImeetthem。Itisverystupid。MydoctorsaysitisbecauseIamnervousandalwaysill;
  believemydoctor。"
  "Butyouseemquitewell。"
  "Oh!Ihavebeenveryill。"
  "Iknow。"
  "Whotoldyou?"
  "Everyoneknewit;Ioftencametoinquireafteryou,andIwashappytohearofyourconvalescence。"
  "Theynevergavemeyourcard。"
  "Ididnotleaveit。"
  "Wasityou,then,whocalledeverydaywhileIwasill,andwouldneverleaveyourname?"
  "Yes,itwasI。"
  "Thenyouaremorethanindulgent,youaregenerous。You,count,wouldn'thavedonethat,"saidshe,turningtowardM。deN。,aftergivingmeoneofthoselooksinwhichwomensumuptheiropinionofaman。
  "Ihaveonlyknownyoufortwomonths,"repliedthecount。
  "Andthisgentlemanonlyforfiveminutes。Youalwayssaysomethingridiculous。"
  Womenarepitilesstowardthosewhomtheydonotcarefor。Thecountreddenedandbithislips。
  Iwassorryforhim,forheseemed,likemyself,tobeinlove,andthebitterfranknessofMargueritemusthavemadehimveryunhappy,especiallyinthepresenceoftwostrangers。
  "Youwereplayingthepianowhenwecamein,"Isaid,inordertochangetheconversation。"Won'tyoubesogoodastotreatmeasanoldacquaintanceandgoon?"
  "Oh,"saidshe,flingingherselfonthesofaandmotioningtoustositdown,"Gastonknowswhatmymusicislike。ItisallverywellwhenIamalonewiththecount,butIwon'tinflictsuchapunishmentonyou。"
  "Youshowmethatpreference?"saidM。deN。,withasmilewhichhetriedtorenderdelicatelyironical。
  "Don'treproachmeforit。Itistheonlyone。"Itwasfatedthatthepoormanwasnottosayasingleword。HecastareallysupplicatingglanceatMarguerite。
  "Well,Prudence,"shewenton,"haveyoudonewhatIaskedyoutodo?"
  "Yes。
  "Allright。Youwilltellmeaboutitlater。Wemusttalkoverit;don'tgobeforeIcanspeakwithyou。"
  "Wearedoubtlessintruders,"Isaid,"andnowthatwe,orratherI,havehadasecondintroduction,toblotoutthefirst,itistimeforGastonandmetobegoing。"
  "Notintheleast。Ididn'tmeanthatforyou。Iwantyoutostay。"
  Thecounttookaveryelegantwatchoutofhispocketandlookedatthetime。"Imustbegoingtomyclub,"hesaid。Margueritedidnotanswer。Thecountthereuponlefthispositionbythefireplaceandgoinguptoher,said:"Adieu,madame。"
  Margueriterose。"Adieu,mydearcount。Areyougoingalready?"
  "Yes,IfearIamboringyou。"
  "Youarenotboringmeto-daymorethananyotherday。WhenshallIbeseeingyou?"
  "Whenyoupermitme。"
  "Good-bye,then。"
  Itwascruel,youwilladmit。Fortunately,thecounthadexcellentmannersandwasverygood-tempered。HemerelykissedMarguerite'shand,whichsheheldouttohimcarelesslyenough,and,bowingtous,wentout。
  Ashecrossedthethreshold,hecastaglanceatPrudence。Sheshruggedhershoulders,asmuchastosay:
  "Whatdoyouexpect?IhavedoneallIcould。"
  "Nanine!"criedMarguerite。"LightM。leComtetothedoor。"
  Weheardthedooropenandshut。
  "Atlast,"criedMarguerite,comingback,"hehasgone!Thatmangetsfrightfullyonmynerves!"
  "Mydearchild,"saidPrudence,"youreallytreathimtoobadly,andheissogoodandkindtoyou。Lookatthiswatchonthemantel-piece,thathegaveyou:itmusthavecosthimatleastthreethousandfrancs,Iamsure。"
  AndMme。Duvernoybegantoturnitover,asitlayonthemantel-piece,lookingatitwithcovetouseyes。
  "Mydear,"saidMarguerite,sittingdowntothepiano,"whenI
  putononesidewhathegivesmeandontheotherwhathesaystome,itseemstomethathebuyshisvisitsverycheap。"
  "Thepoorfellowisinlovewithyou。"
  "IfIhadtolistentoeverybodywhowasinlovewithme,I
  shouldn'thavetimeformydinner。"
  Andshebegantorunherfingersoverthepiano,andthen,turningtous,shesaid:
  "Whatwillyoutake?IthinkIshouldlikealittlepunch。"
  "AndIcouldeatalittlechicken,"saidPrudence。"Supposewehavesupper?"
  "That'sit,let'sgoandhavesupper,"saidGaston。
  "No,wewillhavesupperhere。"
  Sherang,andNanineappeared。
  "Sendforsomesupper。"
  "WhatmustIget?"
  "Whateveryoulike,butatonce,atonce。"
  Naninewentout。
  "That'sit,"saidMarguerite,jumpinglikeachild,"we'llhavesupper。Howtiresomethatidiotofacountis!"
  ThemoreIsawher,themoresheenchantedme。Shewasexquisitelybeautiful。Herslendernesswasacharm。Iwaslostincontemplation。
  WhatwaspassinginmymindIshouldhavesomedifficultyinexplaining。Iwasfullofindulgenceforherlife,fullofadmirationforherbeauty。Theproofofdisinterestednessthatshegaveinnotacceptingarichandfashionableyoungman,readytowasteallhismoneyuponher,excusedherinmyeyesforallherfaultsinthepast。
  Therewasakindofcandourinthiswoman。Youcouldseeshewasstillinthevirginityofvice。Herfirmwalk,hersupplefigure,herrosy,opennostrils,herlargeeyes,slightlytingedwithblue,indicatedoneofthoseardentnatureswhichsbedaroundthemasortofvoluptuousperfume,likeEasternvials,which,closethemastightlyasyouwill,stillletsomeoftheirperfumeescape。Finally,whetheritwassimplenatureorabreathoffever,therepassedfromtimetotimeintheeyesofthiswomanaglimmerofdesire,givingpromiseofaveryheavenforonewhomsheshouldlove。ButthosewhohadlovedMargueritewerenottobecounted,northosewhomshehadloved。
  Inthisgirltherewasatoncethevirginwhomamerenothinghadturnedintoacourtesan,andthecourtesanwhomamerenothingwouldhaveturnedintothemostlovingandthepurestofvirgins。
  Margueritehadstillprideandindependence,twosentimentswhich,iftheyarewounded,canbetheequivalentofasenseofshame。Ididnotspeakaword;mysoulseemedtohavepassedintomyheartandmyheartintomyeyes。
  "So,"saidsheallatonce,"itwasyouwhocametoinquireaftermewhenIwasill?"
  "Yes。"
  "Doyouknow,itwasquitesplendidofyou!HowcanIthankyouforit?"
  "Byallowingmetocomeandseeyoufromtimetotime。"
  "Asoftenasyoulike,fromfivetosix,andfromeleventotwelve。Now,Gaston,playtheInvitationAlaValse。"
  "Why?"
  "Topleaseme,firstofall,andthenbecauseInevercanmanagetoplayitmyself。"
  "Whatpartdoyoufinddifficult?"
  "Thethirdpart,thepartinsharps。"
  Gastonroseandwenttothepiano,andbegantoplaythewonderfulmelodyofWeber,themusicofwhichstoodopenbeforehim。
  Marguerite,restingonehandonthepiano,followedeverynoteonthemusic,accompanyingitinalowvoice,andwhenGastonhadcometothepassagewhichshehadmentionedtohim,shesangout,runningherfingersalongthetopofthepiano:
  "Do,re,mi,do,re,fa,mi,re;thatiswhatIcannotdo。Overagain。"
  Gastonbeganoveragain,afterwhichMargueritesaid:
  "Now,letmetry。"
  Shetookherplaceandbegantoplay;butherrebelliousfingersalwayscametogriefoveroneofthenotes。
  "Isn'titincredible,"shesaid,exactlylikeachild,"thatI
  cannotsucceedinplayingthatpassage?WouldyoubelievethatI
  sometimesspendtwohoursofthemorningoverit?AndwhenI
  thinkthatthatidiotofacountplaysitwithouthismusic,andbeautifully,Ireallybelieveitisthatthatmakesmesofuriouswithhim。"Andshebeganagain,alwayswiththesameresult。
  "ThedeviltakeWeber,music,andpianos!"shecried,throwingthemusictotheotherendoftheroom。"HowcanIplayeightsharpsoneafteranother?"Shefoldedherarmsandlookedatus,stampingherfoot。Thebloodflewtohercheeks,andherlipshalfopenedinaslightcough。
  "Come,come,"saidPrudence,whohadtakenoffherhatandwassmoothingherhairbeforetheglass,"youwillworkyourselfintoarageanddoyourselfharm。Bettercomeandhavesupper;formypart,Iamdyingofhunger。"
  Margueriterangthebell,satdowntothepianoagain,andbegantohumoveraveryriskysong,whichsheaccompaniedwithoutdifficulty。Gastonknewthesong,andtheygaveasortofduet。
  "Don'tsingthosebeastlythings,"IsaidtoMarguerite,imploringly。
  "Oh,howproperyouare!"shesaid,smilingandgivingmeherhand。"Itisnotformyself,butforyou。"
  Margueritemadeagestureasiftosay,"Oh,itislongsincethatIhavedonewithpropriety!"AtthatmomentNanineappeared。
  "Issupperready?"askedMarguerite。"Yes,madame,inonemoment。"
  "Apropos,"saidPrudencetome,"youhavenotlookedround;come,andIwillshowyou。"Asyouknow,thedrawing-roomwasamarvel。
  Margueritewentwithusforamoment;thenshecalledGastonandwentintothedining-roomwithhimtoseeifsupperwasready。
  "Ah,"saidPrudence,catchingsightofalittleSaxefigureonaside-table,"Ineverknewyouhadthislittlegentleman。"
  "Which?"
  "Alittleshepherdholdingabird-cage。"
  "Takeit,ifyoulikeit。"
  "Iwon'tdepriveyouofit。"
  "Iwasgoingtogiveittomymaid。Ithinkithideous;butifyoulikeit,takeit。"
  Prudenceonlysawthepresent,notthewayinwhichitwasgiven。
  Sheputthelittlefigureononeside,andtookmeintothedressing-room,wheresheshowedmetwominiatureshangingsidebyside,andsaid:
  "ThatistheComtedeG。,whowasverymuchinlovewithMarguerite;itwashewhobroughtherout。Doyouknowhim?"
  "No。Andthisone?"Iinquired,pointingtotheotherminiature。
  "ThatisthelittleVicomtedeL。Hewasobligedtodisappear。"
  "Why?"
  "Becausehewasallbutruined。That'sone,ifyoulike,wholovedMarguerite。"
  "Andshelovedhim,too,nodoubt?"
  "Sheissuchaqueergirl,oneneverknows。Thenighthewentawayshewenttothetheatreasusual,andyetshehadcriedwhenhesaidgood-byetoher。"
  JustthenNanineappeared,totellusthatsupperwasserved。
  Whenweenteredthedining-room,Margueritewasleaningagainstthewall,andGaston,holdingherhands,wasspeakingtoherinalowvoice。
  "Youaremad,"repliedMarguerite。"YouknowquitewellthatI
  don'twantyou。Itisnogoodattheendoftwoyearstomakelovetoawomanlikeme。Withus,itisatonce,ornever。Come,gentlemen,supper!"
  And,slippingawayfromGaston,Margueritemadehimsitonherrightattable,meonherleft,thencalledtoNanine:
  "Beforeyousitdown,telltheminthekitchennottoopentoanybodyifthereisaring。"
  Thisorderwasgivenatoneo'clockinthemorning。
  Welaughed,drank,andatefreelyatthissupper。Inashortwhilemirthhadreacheditslastlimit,andthewordsthatseemfunnytoacertainclassofpeople,wordsthatdegradethemouththatuttersthem,wereheardfromtimetotime,amidsttheapplauseofNanine,ofPrudence,andofMarguerite。Gastonwasthoroughlyamused;hewasaverygoodsortoffellow,butsomewhatspoiledbythehabitsofhisyouth。ForamomentItriedtoforgetmyself,toforcemyheartandmythoughtstobecomeindifferenttothesightbeforeme,andtotakemyshareofthatgaietywhichseemedlikeoneofthecoursesofthemeal。ButlittlebylittleIwithdrewfromthenoise;myglassremainedfull,andIfeltalmostsadasIsawthisbeautifulcreatureoftwentydrinking,talkinglikeaporter,andlaughingthemoreloudlythemorescandalouswasthejoke。
  Nevertheless,thishilarity,thiswayoftalkinganddrinking,whichseemedtomeintheothersthemereresultsofbadcompanyorofbadhabits,seemedinMargueriteanecessityofforgetting,afever,anervousirritability。Ateveryglassofchampagnehercheekswouldflushwithafeverishcolour,andacough,hardlyperceptibleatthebeginningofsupper,becameatlastsoviolentthatshewasobligedtoleanherheadonthebackofherchairandholdherchestinherhandseverytimethatshecoughed。I
  sufferedatthethoughtoftheinjurytosofrailaconstitutionwhichmustcomefromdailyexcesseslikethis。Atlength,somethingwhichIhadfearedandforeseenhappened。TowardtheendofsupperMargueritewasseizedbyamoreviolentfitofcoughingthananyshehadhadwhileIwasthere。Itseemedasifherchestwerebeingtornintwo。Thepoorgirlturnedcrimson,closedhereyesunderthepain,andputhernapkintoherlips。
  Itwasstainedwithadropofblood。Sheroseandranintoherdressing-room。
  "WhatisthematterwithMarguerite?"askedGaston。
  "Shehasbeenlaughingtoomuch,andsheisspittingblood。Oh,itisnothing;ithappenstohereveryday。Shewillbebackinaminute。Leaveheralone。Sheprefersit。"
  Icouldnotstaystill;and,totheconsternationofPrudenceandNanine,whocalledtometocomeback,IfollowedMarguerite。"
  Chapter10
  Theroomtowhichshehadfledwaslitonlybyasinglecandle。
  Shelaybackonagreatsofa,herdressundone,holdingonehandonherheart,andlettingtheotherhangbyherside。Onthetablewasabasinhalffullofwater,andthewaterwasstainedwithstreaksofblood。
  Verypale,hermouthhalfopen,Margueritetriedtorecoverbreath。Nowandagainherbosomwasraisedbyalongsigh,whichseemedtorelieveheralittle,andforafewsecondsshewouldseemtobequitecomfortable。
  Iwentuptoher;shemadenomovement,andIsatdownandtookthehandwhichwaslyingonthesofa。
  "Ah!itisyou,"shesaid,withasmile。
  Imusthavelookedgreatlyagitated,forsheadded:
  "Areyouunwell,too?"
  "No,butyou:doyoustillsuffer?"
  "Verylittle;"andshewipedoffwithherhandkerchiefthetearswhichthecoughinghadbroughttohereyes;"Iamusedtoitnow。"
  "Youarekillingyourself,madame,"Isaidtoherinamovedvoice。"IwishIwereafriend,arelationofyours,thatImightkeepyoufromdoingyourselfharmlikethis。"
  "Ah!itisreallynotworthyourwhiletoalarmyourself,"sherepliedinasomewhatbittertone;"seehowmuchnoticetheotherstakeofme!Theyknowtoowellthatthereisnothingtobedone。"
  Thereuponshegotup,and,takingthecandle,putitonthemantel-pieceandlookedatherselfintheglass。
  "HowpaleIam!"shesaid,asshefastenedherdressandpassedherfingersoverherloosenedhair。"Come,letusgobacktosupper。Areyoucoming?"
  Isatstillanddidnotmove。
  ShesawhowdeeplyIhadbeenaffectedbythewholescene,and,cominguptome,heldoutherhand,saying:
  "Comenow,letusgo。"
  Itookherhand,raisedittomylips,andinspiteofmyselftwotearsfelluponit。
  "Why,whatachildyouare!"shesaid,sittingdownbymysideagain。"Youarecrying!Whatisthematter?"
  "Imustseemverysillytoyou,butIamfrightfullytroubledbywhatIhavejustseen。"
  "Youareverygood!Whatwouldyouhaveofme?Icannotsleep。I
  mustamusemyselfalittle。Andthen,girlslikeme,whatdoesitmatter,onemoreorless?ThedoctorstellmethatthebloodI
  spitupcomesfrommythroat;Ipretendtobelievethem;itisallIcandoforthem。"
  "Listen,Marguerite,"Isaid,unabletocontainmyselfanylonger;"Idonotknowwhatinfluenceyouaregoingtohaveovermylife,butatthispresentmomentthereisnoone,notevenmysister,inwhomIfeeltheinterestwhichIfeelinyou。IthasbeenjustthesameeversinceIsawyou。Well,forHeaven'ssake,takecareofyourself,anddonotliveasyouarelivingnow。"
  "IfItookcareofmyselfIshoulddie。AllthatsupportsmeisthefeverishlifeIlead。Then,asfortakingcareofoneself,thatisallverywellforwomenwithfamiliesandfriends;asforus,fromthemomentwecannolongerservethevanityorthepleasureofourlovers,theyleaveus,andlongnightsfollowlongdays。Iknowit。Iwasinbedfortwomonths,andafterthreeweeksnoonecametoseeme。"
  "ItistrueIamnothingtoyou,"Iwenton,"butifyouwillletme,Iwilllookafteryoulikeabrother,Iwillneverleaveyourside,andIwillcureyou。Then,whenyouarestrongagain,youcangobacktothelifeyouareleading,ifyouchoose;butIamsureyouwillcometopreferaquietlife,whichwillmakeyouhappierandkeepyourbeautyunspoiled。"
  "Youthinklikethatto-nightbecausethewinehasmadeyousad,butyouwouldneverhavethepatiencethatyoupretendto。"
  "Permitmetosay,Marguerite,thatyouwereillfortwomonths,andthatfortwomonthsIcametoaskafteryoueveryday。"
  "Itistrue,butwhydidyounotcomeup?"
  "BecauseIdidnotknowyouthen。"
  "Needyouhavebeensoparticularwithagirllikeme?"
  "Onemustalwaysbeparticularwithawoman;itiswhatIfeel,atleast。"
  "Soyouwouldlookafterme?"
  "Yes。"
  "Youwouldstaybymeallday?"
  "Yes。
  "Andevenallnight?"
  "AslongasIdidnotwearyyou。"
  "Andwhatdoyoucallthat?"
  "Devotion。"
  "Andwhatdoesthisdevotioncomefrom?"
  "TheirresistiblesympathywhichIhaveforyou。"
  "Soyouareinlovewithme?Sayitstraightout,itismuchmoresimple。"
  "Itispossible;butifIamtosayittoyouoneday,itisnotto-day。"
  "Youwilldobetternevertosayit。"
  "Why?"
  "Becauseonlyoneoftwothingscancomeofit。"
  "What?"
  "EitherIshallnotaccept:thenyouwillhaveagrudgeagainstme;orIshallaccept:thenyouwillhaveasorrymistress;awomanwhoisnervous,ill,sad,orgaywithagaietysadderthangrief,awomanwhospitsbloodandspendsahundredthousandfrancsayear。Thatisallverywellforaricholdmanliketheduke,butitisverybadforayoungmanlikeyou,andtheproofofitisthatalltheyoungloversIhavehadhaveverysoonleftme。"Ididnotanswer;Ilistened。Thisfrankness,whichwasalmostakindofconfession,thesadlife,ofwhichIcaughtsomeglimpsethroughthegoldenveilwhichcoveredit,andwhoserealitythepoorgirlsoughttoescapeindissipation,drink,andwakefulness,impressedmesodeeplythatIcouldnotutterasingleword。
  "Come,"continuedMarguerite,"wearetalkingmerechildishness。
  Givemeyourarmandletusgobacktothedining-room。Theywon'tknowwhatwemeanbyourabsence。"
  "Goin,ifyoulike,butallowmetostayhere。"
  "Why?"
  "Becauseyourmirthhurtsme。"
  "Well,Iwillbesad。"
  "Marguerite,letmesaytoyousomethingwhichyouhavenodoubtoftenheard,sooftenthatthehabitofhearingithasmadeyoubelieveitnolonger,butwhichisnonethelessreal,andwhichIwillneverrepeat。"
  "Andthatis……?"shesaid,withthesmileofayoungmotherlisteningtosomefoolishnotionofherchild。
  "Itisthis,thateversinceIhaveseenyou,Iknownotwhy,youhavetakenaplaceinmylife;that,ifIdrivethethoughtofyououtofmymind,italwayscomesback;thatwhenImetyouto-day,afternothavingseenyoufortwoyears,youmadeadeeperimpressiononmyheartandmindthanever;that,nowthatyouhaveletmecometoseeyou,nowthatIknowyou,nowthatI
  knowallthatisstrangeinyou,youhavebecomeanecessityofmylife,andyouwilldrivememad,notonlyifyouwillnotloveme,butifyouwillnotletmeloveyou。"
  "But,foolishcreaturethatyouare,Ishallsaytoyou,likeMme。D。,'Youmustbeveryrich,then!'Why,youdon'tknowthatIspendsixorseventhousandfrancsamonth,andthatIcouldnotlivewithoutit;youdon'tknow,mypoorfriend,thatI
  shouldruinyouinnotime,andthatyourfamilywouldcastyouoffifyouweretolivewithawomanlikeme。Letusbefriends,goodfriends,butnomore。Comeandseeme,wewilllaughandtalk,butdon'texaggeratewhatIamworth,forIamworthverylittle。Youhaveagoodheart,youwantsomeonetoloveyou,youaretooyoungandtoosensitivetoliveinaworldlikemine。
  Takeamarriedwoman。Yousee,Ispeaktoyoufrankly,likeafriend。"
  "Butwhatthedevilareyoudoingthere?"criedPrudence,whohadcomeinwithoutourbearingher,andwhonowstoodjustinsidethedoor,withherhairhalfcomingdownandherdressundone。I
  recognisedthehandofGaston。
  "Wearetalkingsense,"saidMarguerite;"leaveusalone;wewillbebacksoon。"
  "Good,good!Talk,mychildren,"saidPrudence,goingoutandclosingthedoorbehindher,asiftofurtherempbasizethetoneinwhichshehadsaidthesewords。
  "Well,itisagreed,"continuedMarguerite,whenwewerealone,"youwon'tfallinlovewithme?"
  "Iwillgoaway。"
  "Somuchasthat?"
  Ihadgonetoofartodrawback;andIwasreallycarriedaway。
  Thisminglingofgaiety,sadness,candour,prostitution,herverymalady,whichnodoubtdevelopedinherasensitivenesstoimpressions,aswellasanirritabilityofnerves,allthismadeitcleartomethatiffromtheverybeginningIdidnotcompletelydominateherlightandforgetfulnature,shewaslosttome。
  "Come,now,doyouseriouslymeanwhatyousay?"shesaid。
  "Seriously。"
  "Butwhydidn'tyousayittomesooner?"
  "WhencouldIhavesaidit?"
  "ThedayafteryouhadbeenintroducedtomeattheOperaComique。"
  "IthoughtyouwouldhavereceivedmeverybadlyifIhadcometoseeyou。"
  "Why?"
  "BecauseIhadbehavedsostupidly。"
  "That'strue。Andyetyouwerealreadyinlovewithme。"
  "Yes。"
  "Andthatdidn'thinderyoufromgoingtobedandsleepingquitecomfortably。Oneknowswhatthatsortoflovemeans。"
  "Thereyouaremistaken。DoyouknowwhatIdidthatevening,aftertheOperaComique?"
  "No。"
  "IwaitedforyouatthedooroftheCafeAnglais。Ifollowedthecarriageinwhichyouandyourthreefriendswere,andwhenIsawyouweretheonlyonetogetdown,andthatyouwentinalone,I
  wasveryhappy。"
  Margueritebegantolaugh。
  "Whatareyoulaughingat?"
  "Nothing。"
  "Tellme,Ibegofyou,orIshallthinkyouarestilllaughingatme。"
  "Youwon'tbecross?"
  "WhatrighthaveItobecross?"
  "Well,therewasasufficientreasonwhyIwentinalone。"
  "What?"
  "Someonewaswaitingformehere。"
  Ifshehadthrustaknifeintomeshewouldnothavehurtmemore。Irose,andholdingoutmyhand,"Goodbye,"saidI。
  "Iknewyouwouldbecross,"shesaid;"menarefrantictoknowwhatiscertaintogivethempain。"
  "ButIassureyou,"Iaddedcoldly,asifwishingtoprovehowcompletelyIwascuredofmypassion,"IassureyouthatIamnotcross。Itwasquitenaturalthatsomeoneshouldbewaitingforyou,justasitisquitenaturalthatIshouldgofromhereatthreeinthemorning。"
  "Haveyou,too,someonewaitingforyou?"
  "No,butImustgo。"
  "Good-bye,then。"
  "Yousendmeaway?"
  "Nottheleastintheworld。"
  "Whyareyousounkindtome?"
  "HowhaveIbeenunkindtoyou?"
  "Intellingmethatsomeonewaswaitingforyou。"
  "Icouldnothelplaughingattheideathatyouhadbeensohappytoseemecomeinalonewhentherewassuchagoodreasonforit。"
  "Onefindspleasureinchildishenoughthings,anditistoobadtodestroysuchapleasurewhen,bysimplyleavingitalone,onecanmakesomebodysohappy。"
  "ButwhatdoyouthinkIam?Iamneithermaidnorduchess。I
  didn'tknowyoutillto-day,andIamnotresponsibletoyouformyactions。SupposingonedayIshouldbecomeyourmistress,youareboundtoknowthatIhavehadotherloversbesidesyou。Ifyoumakescenesofjealousylikethisbefore,whatwillitbeafter,ifthataftershouldeverexist?Inevermetanyonelikeyou。"
  "ThatisbecausenoonehaseverlovedyouasIloveyou。"
  "Frankly,then,youreallyloveme?"
  "Asmuchasitispossibletolove,Ithink。"
  "Andthathaslastedsince——?"
  "SincethedayIsawyougointoSusse's,threeyearsago。
  "Doyouknow,thatistremendouslyfine?Well,whatamtodoinreturn?"
  "Lovemealittle,"Isaid,myheartbeatingsothatIcouldhardlyspeak;for,inspiteofthehalf-mockingsmileswithwhichshehadaccompaniedthewholeconversation,itseemedtomethatMargueritebegantosharemyagitation,andthatthehoursolongawaitedwasdrawingnear。
  "Well,buttheduke?"
  "Whatduke?"
  "Myjealousoldduke。"
  "Hewillknownothing。"
  "Andifheshould?"
  "Hewouldforgiveyou。"
  "Ah,no,hewouldleaveme,andwhatwouldbecomeofme?"
  "Youriskthatforsomeoneelse。"
  "Howdoyouknow?""Bytheorderyougavenottoadmitanyoneto-night。""Itistrue;butthatisaseriousfriend。"
  "Forwhomyoucarenothing,asyouhaveshutyourdooragainsthimatsuchanhour。"
  "Itisnotforyoutoreproachme,sinceitwasinordertoreceiveyou,youandyourfriend。"
  LittlebylittleIhaddrawnnearertoMarguerite。Ihadputmyarmsaboutherwaist,andIfelthersupplebodyweighlightlyonmyclaspedhands。
  "IfyouknewhowmuchIloveyou!"Isaidinalowvoice。"Reallytrue?"
  "Iswearit。"
  "Well,ifyouwillpromisetodoeverythingItellyou,withoutaword,withoutanopinion,withoutaquestion,perhapsIwillsayyes。"
  "Iwilldoeverythingthatyouwish!"
  "ButIforewarnyouImustbefreetodoasIplease,withoutgivingyoutheslightestdetailswhatIdo。Ihavelongwishedforayounglover,whoshouldbeyoungandnotself-willed,lovingwithoutdistrust,lovedwithoutclaimingtherighttoit。
  Ihaveneverfoundone。Men,insteadofbeingsatisfiedinobtainingforalongtimewhattheyscarcelyhopedtoobtainonce,exactfromtheirmistressesafullaccountofthepresent,thepast,andeventhefuture。Astheygetaccustomedtoher,theywanttoruleher,andthemoreonegivesthemthemoreexactingtheybecome。IfIdecidenowontakinganewlover,hemusthavethreeveryrarequalities:hemustbeconfiding,submissive,anddiscreet。"
  "Well,Iwillbeallthatyouwish。"
  "Weshallsee。"
  "Whenshallwesee?"
  "Lateron。"
  "Why?"
  "Because,"saidMarguerite,releasingherselffrommyarms,and,takingfromagreatbunchofredcamelliasasinglecamellia,sheplaceditinmybuttonhole,"becauseonecannotalwayscarryoutagreementsthedaytheyaresigned。"
  "AndwhenshallIseeyouagain?"Isaid,claspingherinmyarms。
  "Whenthiscamelliachangescolour。"
  "Whenwillitchangecolour?"
  "To-morrownightbetweenelevenandtwelve。Areyousatisfied?"
  "Needyouaskme?"
  "NotawordofthiseithertoyourfriendortoPrudence,ortoanybodywhatever。"
  "Ipromise。"
  "Now,kissme,andwewillgobacktothedining-room。"
  Sheheldupherlipstome,smoothedherhairagain,andwewentoutoftheroom,shesinging,andIalmostbesidemyself。
  Inthenextroomshestoppedforamomentandsaidtomeinalowvoice:
  "ItmustseemstrangetoyouthatIamreadytotakeyouatamoment'snotice。ShallItellyouwhy?Itis,"shecontinued,takingmyhandandplacingitagainstherheartsothatIcouldfeelhowrapidlyandviolentlyitpalpitated;"itisbecauseI
  shallnotliveaslongasothers,andIhavepromisedmyselftolivemorequickly。"
  "Don'tspeaktomelikethat,Ientreatyou。"
  "Oh,makeyourselfeasy,"shecontinued,laughing;"howevershortatimeIhavetolive,Ishalllivelongerthanyouwillloveme!"
  Andshewentsingingintothedining-room。
  "WhereisNanine?"shesaid,seeingGastonandPrudencealone。
  "Sheisasleepinyourroom,waitingtillyouarereadytogotobed,"repliedPrudence。