ChapterI
Inmyopinion,itisimpossibletocreatecharactersuntilonehasspentalongtimeinstudyingmen,asitisimpossibletospeakalanguageuntilithasbeenseriouslyacquired。Notbeingoldenoughtoinvent,Icontentmyselfwithnarrating,andIbegthereadertoassurehimselfofthetruthofastoryinwhichallthecharacters,withtheexceptionoftheheroine,arestillalive。Eye-witnessesofthegreaterpartofthefactswhichI
havecollectedaretobefoundinParis,andImightcalluponthemtoconfirmmeifmytestimonyisnotenough。And,thankstoaparticularcircumstance,Ialonecanwritethesethings,forI
aloneamabletogivethefinaldetails,withoutwhichitwouldhavebeenimpossibletomakethestoryatonceinterestingandcomplete。
Thisishowthesedetailscametomyknowledge。Onthe12thofMarch,1847,IsawintheRueLafitteagreatyellowplacardannouncingasaleoffurnitureandcuriosities。Thesalewastotakeplaceonaccountofthedeathoftheowner。Theowner'snamewasnotmentioned,butthesalewastobeheldat9,Rued'Antin,onthe16th,from12to5。Theplacardfurtherannouncedthattheroomsandfurniturecouldbeseenonthe13thand14th。
Ihavealwaysbeenveryfondofcuriosities,andImadeupmymindnottomisstheoccasion,ifnotofbuyingsome,atalleventsofseeingthem。NextdayIcalledat9,Rued'Antin。
Itwasearlyintheday,andyettherewerealreadyanumberofvisitors,bothmenandwomen,andthewomen,thoughtheyweredressedincashmereandvelvet,andhadtheircarriageswaitingforthematthedoor,gazedwithastonishmentandadmirationattheluxurywhichtheysawbeforethem。
Iwasnotlongindiscoveringthereasonofthisastonishmentandadmiration,for,havingbeguntoexaminethingsalittlecarefully,IdiscoveredwithoutdifficultythatIwasinthehouseofakeptwoman。Now,ifthereisonethingwhichwomeninsocietywouldliketosee(andthereweresocietywomenthere),itisthehomeofthosewomenwhosecarriagessplashtheirowncarriagesdaybyday,who,likethem,sidebysidewiththem,havetheirboxesattheOperaandattheItaliens,andwhoparadeinParistheopulentinsolenceoftheirbeauty,theirdiamonds,andtheirscandal。
Thisonewasdead,sothemostvirtuousofwomencouldenterevenherbedroom。Deathhadpurifiedtheairofthisabodeofsplendidfoulness,andifmoreexcusewereneeded,theyhadtheexcusethattheyhadmerelycometoasale,theyknewnotwhose。Theyhadreadtheplacards,theywishedtoseewhattheplacardshadannounced,andtomaketheirchoicebeforehand。Whatcouldbemorenatural?Yet,allthesame,inthemidstofallthesebeautifulthings,theycouldnothelplookingaboutforsometracesofthiscourtesan'slife,ofwhichtheyhadheard,nodoubt,strangeenoughstories。
Unfortunatelythemysteryhadvanishedwiththegoddess,and,foralltheirendeavours,theydiscoveredonlywhatwasonsalesincetheowner'sdecease,andnothingofwhathadbeenonsaleduringherlifetime。Fortherest,therewereplentyofthingsworthbuying。Thefurniturewassuperb;therewererosewoodandbuhlcabinetsandtables,SevresandChinesevases,Saxestatuettes,satin,velvet,lace;therewasnothinglacking。
Isaunteredthroughtherooms,followingtheinquisitiveladiesofdistinction。TheyenteredaroomwithPersianhangings,andI
wasjustgoingtoenterinturn,whentheycameoutagainalmostimmediately,smiling,andasifashamedoftheirowncuriosity。I
wasallthemoreeagertoseetheroom。Itwasthedressing-room,laidoutwithallthearticlesoftoilet,inwhichthedeadwoman'sextravaganceseemedtobeseenatitsheight。
Onalargetableagainstthewall,atablethreefeetinwidthandsixinlength,glitteredallthetreasuresofAucocandOdiot。Itwasamagnificentcollection,andtherewasnotoneofthosethousandlittlethingssonecessarytothetoiletofawomanofthekindwhichwasnotingoldorsilver。Suchacollectioncouldonlyhavebeengottogetherlittlebylittle,andthesameloverhadcertainlynotbegunandendedit。
Notbeingshockedatthesightofakeptwoman'sdressing-room,I
amusedmyselfwithexaminingeverydetail,andIdiscoveredthatthesemagnificentlychiselledobjectsboredifferentinitialsanddifferentcoronets。Ilookedatoneafteranother,eachrecallingaseparateshame,andIsaidthatGodhadbeenmercifultothepoorchild,innothavinglefthertopaytheordinarypenalty,butrathertodieinthemidstofherbeautyandluxury,beforethecomingofoldage,thecourtesan'sfirstdeath。
Isthereanythingsadderintheworldthantheoldageofvice,especiallyinwoman?Shepreservesnodignity,sheinspiresnointerest。Theeverlastingrepentance,notoftheevilwaysfollowed,butoftheplansthathavemiscarried,themoneythathasbeenspentinvain,isassaddeningathingasonecanwellmeetwith。Iknewanagedwomanwhohadoncebeen"gay,"whoseonlylinkwiththepastwasadaughteralmostasbeautifulassheherselfhadbeen。Thispoorcreaturetowhomhermotherhadneversaid,"Youaremychild,"excepttobidhernourishheroldageassheherselfhadnourishedheryouth,wascalledLouise,and,beingobedienttohermother,sheabandonedherselfwithoutvolition,withoutpassion,withoutpleasure,asshewouldhaveworkedatanyotherprofessionthatmighthavebeentaughther。
Theconstantsightofdissipation,precociousdissipation,inadditiontoherconstantsicklystate,hadextinguishedinhermindalltheknowledgeofgoodandevilthatGodhadperhapsgivenher,butthatnoonehadeverthoughtofdeveloping。I
shallalwaysrememberher,asshepassedalongtheboulevardsalmosteverydayatthesamehour,accompaniedbyhermotherasassiduouslyasarealmothermighthaveaccompaniedherdaughter。
Iwasveryyoungthen,andreadytoacceptformyselftheeasymoralityoftheage。Iremember,however,thecontemptanddisgustwhichawokeinmeatthesightofthisscandalouschaperoning。Herface,too,wasinexpressiblyvirginalinitsexpressionofinnocenceandofmelancholysuffering。ShewaslikeafigureofResignation。
Onedaythegirl'sfacewastransfigured。Inthemidstofallthedebauchesmappedoutbyhermother,itseemedtoherasifGodhadleftoverforheronehappiness。AndwhyindeedshouldGod,whohadmadeherwithoutstrength,haveleftherwithoutconsolation,underthesorrowfulburdenofherlife?Oneday,then,sherealizedthatshewastohaveachild,andallthatremainedtoherofchastityleapedforjoy。Thesoulhasstrangerefuges。Louiserantotellthegoodnewstohermother。Itisashamefulthingtospeakof,butwearenottellingtalesofpleasantsins;wearetellingoftruefacts,whichitwouldbebetter,nodoubt,topassoverinsilence,ifwedidnotbelievethatitisneedfulfromtimetotimetorevealthemartyrdomofthosewhoarecondemnedwithoutbearing,scornedwithoutjudging;
shamefulitis,butthismotheransweredthedaughterthattheyhadalreadyscarceenoughfortwo,andwouldcertainlynothaveenoughforthree;thatsuchchildrenareuseless,andalying-inissomuchtimelost。
Nextdayamidwife,ofwhomallwewillsayisthatshewasafriendofthemother,visitedLouise,whoremainedinbedforafewdays,andthengotuppalerandfeeblerthanbefore。
Threemonthsafterwardamantookpityonherandtriedtohealher,morallyandphysically;butthelastshockhadbeentooviolent,andLouisediedofit。Themotherstilllives;how?Godknows。
ThisstoryreturnedtomymindwhileIlookedatthesilvertoiletthings,andacertainspaceoftimemusthaveelapsedduringthesereflections,fornoonewasleftintheroombutmyselfandanattendant,who,standingnearthedoor,wascarefullywatchingmetoseethatIdidnotpocketanything。
Iwentuptotheman,towhomIwascausingsomuchanxiety。
"Sir,"Isaid,"canyoutellmethenameofthepersonwhoformerlylivedhere?"
"MademoiselleMargueriteGautier。"
Iknewherbynameandbysight。
"What!"Isaidtotheattendant;"MargueriteGautierisdead?"
"Yes,sir。"
"Whendidshedie?"
"Threeweeksago,Ibelieve。"
"Andwhyaretheroomsonview?"
"Thecreditorsbelievethatitwillsenduptheprices。Peoplecanseebeforehandtheeffectofthethings;youseethatinducesthemtobuy。"
"Shewasindebt,then?"
"Toanyextent,sir。"
"Butthesalewillcoverit?"
"Andmoretoo。"
"Whowillgetwhatremainsover?"
"Herfamily。"
"Shehadafamily?"
"Itseemsso。"
"Thanks。"
Theattendant,reassuredastomyintentions,touchedhishat,andIwentout。
"Poorgirl!"IsaidtomyselfasIreturnedhome;"shemusthavehadasaddeath,for,inherworld,onehasfriendsonlywhenoneisperfectlywell。"AndinspiteofmyselfIbegantofeelmelancholyoverthefateofMargueriteGautier。
Itwillseemabsurdtomanypeople,butIhaveanunboundedsympathyforwomenofthiskind,andIdonotthinkitnecessarytoapologizeforsuchsympathy。
Oneday,asIwasgoingtothePrefectureforapassport,Isawinoneoftheneighbouringstreetsapoorgirlwhowasbeingmarchedalongbytwopolicemen。Idonotknowwhatwasthematter。AllIknowisthatshewasweepingbitterlyasshekissedaninfantonlyafewmonthsold,fromwhomherarrestwastoseparateher。SincethatdayIhaveneverdaredtodespiseawomanatfirstsight。
Chapter2
Thesalewastotakeplaceonthe16th。Aday'sintervalhadbeenleftbetweenthevisitingdaysandthesale,inordertogivetimefortakingdownthehangings,curtains,etc。Ihadjustreturnedfromabroad。ItwasnaturalthatIhadnotheardofMarguerite'sdeathamongthepiecesofnewswhichone'sfriendsalwaystellonreturningafteranabsence。Margueritewasaprettywoman;butthoughthelifeofsuchwomenmakessensationenough,theirdeathmakesverylittle。Theyaresunswhichsetastheyrose,unobserved。Theirdeath,whentheydieyoung,isheardofbyalltheirloversatthesamemoment,forinParisalmostalltheloversofawell-knownwomanarefriends。Afewrecollectionsareexchanged,andeverybody'slifegoesonasiftheincidenthadneveroccurred,withoutsomuchasatear。
Nowadays,attwenty-five,tearshavebecomesorareathingthattheyarenottobesquanderedindiscriminately。Itisthemostthatcanbeexpectediftheparentswhopayforbeingweptoverareweptoverinreturnforthepricetheypay。
Asforme,thoughmyinitialsdidnotoccuronanyofMarguerite'sbelongings,thatinstinctiveindulgence,thatnaturalpitythatIhavealreadyconfessed,setmethinkingoverherdeath,moreperhapsthanitwasworththinkingover。I
rememberedhavingoftenmetMargueriteintheBois,whereshewentregularlyeverydayinalittlebluecoupedrawnbytwomagnificentbays,andIhadnoticedinheradistinctionquiteapartfromotherwomenofherkind,adistinctionwhichwasenhancedbyareallyexceptionalbeauty。
Theseunfortunatecreatureswhenevertheygooutarealwaysaccompaniedbysomebodyorother。Asnomancarestomakehimselfconspicuousbybeingseenintheircompany,andastheyareafraidofsolitude,theytakewiththemeitherthosewhoarenotwellenoughofftohaveacarriage,oroneoranotherofthoseelegant,ancientladies,whoseeleganceisalittleinexplicable,andtowhomonecanalwaysgoforinformationinregardtothewomenwhomtheyaccompany。
InMarguerite'scaseitwasquitedifferent。ShewasalwaysalonewhenshedroveintheChamps-Elysees,lyingbackinhercarriageasmuchaspossible,dressedinfursinwinter,andinsummerwearingverysimpledresses;andthoughsheoftenpassedpeoplewhomsheknew,hersmile,whenshechosetosmile,wasseenonlybythem,andaduchessmighthavesmiledinjustsuchamanner。
Shedidnotdrivetoandfroliketheothers,fromtheRond-PointtotheendoftheChamps-Elysees。ShedrovestraighttotheBois。
Thereshelefthercarriage,walkedforanhour,returnedtohercarriage,anddroverapidlyhome。
AllthesecircumstanceswhichIhadsooftenwitnessedcamebacktomymemory,andIregrettedherdeathasonemightregretthedestructionofabeautifulworkofart。
ItwasimpossibletoseemorecharminbeautythaninthatofMarguerite。Excessivelytallandthin,shehadinthefullestdegreetheartofrepairingthisoversightofNaturebythemerearrangementofthethingsshewore。Hercashmerereachedtotheground,andshowedoneachsidethelargeflouncesofasilkdress,andtheheavymuffwhichsheheldpressedagainstherbosomwassurroundedbysuchcunninglyarrangedfoldsthattheeye,howeverexacting,couldfindnofaultwiththecontourofthelines。Herhead,amarvel,wastheobjectofthemostcoquettishcare。Itwassmall,andhermother,asMussetwouldsay,seemedtohavemadeitsoinordertomakeitwithcare。
Set,inanovalofindescribablegrace,twoblackeyes,surmountedbyeyebrowsofsopureacurvethatitseemedasifpainted;veiltheseeyeswithlovelylashes,which,whendrooped,casttheirshadowontherosyhueofthecheeks;traceadelicate,straightnose,thenostrilsalittleopen,inanardentaspirationtowardthelifeofthesenses;designaregularmouth,withlipspartedgraciouslyoverteethaswhiteasmilk;colourtheskinwiththedownofapeachthatnohandhastouched,andyouwillhavethegeneralaspectofthatcharmingcountenance。
Thehair,blackasjet,wavingnaturallyornot,waspartedontheforeheadintwolargefoldsanddrapedbackoverthehead,leavinginsightjustthetipoftheears,inwhichthereglitteredtwodiamonds,worthfourtofivethousandfrancseach。
HowitwasthatherardentlifehadleftonMarguerite'sfacethevirginal,almostchildlikeexpression,whichcharacterizedit,isaproblemwhichwecanbutstate,withoutattemptingtosolveit。
Margueritehadamarvellousportraitofherself,byVidal,theonlymanwhosepencilcoulddoherjustice。Ihadthisportraitbymeforafewdaysafterherdeath,andthelikenesswassoastonishingthatithashelpedtorefreshmymemoryinregardtosomepointswhichImightnototherwisehaveremembered。
Someamongthedetailsofthischapterdidnotreachmeuntillater,butIwritethemheresoasnottobeobligedtoreturntothemwhenthestoryitselfhasbegun。
Margueritewasalwayspresentateveryfirstnight,andpassedeveryeveningeitheratthetheatreortheball。Whenevertherewasanewpieceshewascertaintobeseen,andsheinvariablyhadthreethingswithherontheledgeofherground-floorbox:
heropera-glass,abagofsweets,andabouquetofcamellias。
Fortwenty-fivedaysofthemonththecamelliaswerewhite,andforfivetheywerered;nooneeverknewthereasonofthischangeofcolour,whichImentionthoughIcannotexplainit;itwasnoticedbothbyherfriendsandbythehabitue'softhetheatrestowhichshemostoftenwent。Shewasneverseenwithanyflowersbutcamellias。Attheflorist's,MadameBarjon's,shehadcometobecalled"theLadyoftheCamellias,"andthenamestucktoher。
LikeallthosewhomoveinacertainsetinParis,IknewthatMargueritehadlivedwithsomeofthemostfashionableyoungmeninsociety,thatshespokeofitopenly,andthattheythemselvesboastedofit;sothatallseemedequallypleasedwithoneanother。Nevertheless,foraboutthreeyears,afteravisittoBagnees,shewassaidtobelivingwithanoldduke,aforeigner,enormouslyrich,whohadtriedtoremoveherasfaraspossiblefromherformerlife,and,asitseemed,entirelytoherownsatisfaction。
ThisiswhatIwastoldonthesubject。Inthespringof1847
Margueritewassoillthatthedoctorsorderedhertotakethewaters,andshewenttoBagneres。Amongtheinvalidswasthedaughterofthisduke;shewasnotonlysufferingfromthesamecomplaint,butshewassolikeMargueriteinappearancethattheymighthavebeentakenforsisters;theyoungduchesswasinthelaststageofconsumption,andafewdaysafterMarguerite'sarrivalshedied。Onemorning,theduke,whohadremainedatBagnerestobenearthesoilthathadburiedapartofhisheart,caughtsightofMargueriteataturnoftheroad。Heseemedtoseetheshadowofhischild,andgoinguptoher,hetookherhands,embracedandweptoverher,andwithoutevenaskingherwhoshewas,beggedhertolethimloveinherthelivingimageofhisdeadchild。Marguerite,aloneatBagnereswithhermaid,andnotbeinginanyfearofcompromisingherself,grantedtheduke'srequest。Somepeoplewhoknewher,happeningtobeatBagneres,tookuponthemselvestoexplainMademoiselleGautier'struepositiontotheduke。Itwasablowtotheoldman,fortheresemblancewithhisdaughterwasendedinonedirection,butitwastoolate。Shehadbecomeanecessitytohisheart,hisonlypretext,hisonlyexcuse,forliving。Hemadenoreproaches,hehadindeednorighttodoso,butheaskedherifshefeltherselfcapableofchanginghermodeoflife,offeringherinreturnforthesacrificeeverycompensationthatshecoulddesire。Sheconsented。
ItmustbesaidthatMargueritewasjustthenveryill。Thepastseemedtohersensitivenatureasifitwereoneofthemaincausesofherillness,andasortofsuperstitionledhertohopethatGodwouldrestoretoherbothhealthandbeautyinreturnforherrepentanceandconversion。Bytheendofthesummer,thewaters,sleep,thenaturalfatigueoflongwalks,hadindeedmoreorlessrestoredherhealth。ThedukeaccompaniedhertoParis,wherehecontinuedtoseeherashehaddoneatBagneres。
Thisliaison,whosemotiveandoriginwerequiteunknown,causedagreatsensation,fortheduke,alreadyknownforhisimmensefortune,nowbecameknownforhisprodigality。Allthiswassetdowntothedebaucheryofaricholdman,andeverythingwasbelievedexceptthetruth。Thefather'ssentimentforMargueritehad,intruth,sopureacausethatanythingbutacommunionofheartswouldhaveseemedtohimakindofincest,andhehadneverspokentoherawordwhichhisdaughtermightnothaveheard。
Farbeitfrommetomakeoutourheroinetobeanythingbutwhatshewas。AslongassheremainedatBagneres,thepromiseshehadmadetothedukehadnotbeenhardtokeep,andshehadkeptit;
but,oncebackinParis,itseemedtoher,accustomedtoalifeofdissipation,ofballs,oforgies,asifthesolitude,onlyinterruptedbytheduke'sstatedvisits,wouldkillherwithboredom,andthehotbreathofheroldlifecamebackacrossherheadandheart。
WemustaddthatMargueritehadreturnedmorebeautifulthanshehadeverbeen;shewasbuttwenty,andhermalady,sleepingbutnotsubdued,continuedtogiveherthosefeverishdesireswhicharealmostalwaystheresultofdiseasesofthechest。
Itwasagreatgrieftothedukewhenhisfriends,alwaysonthelookoutforsomescandalonthepartofthewomanwithwhom,itseemedtothem,hewascompromisinghimself,cametotellhim,indeedtoprovetohim,thatattimeswhenshewassureofnotseeinghimshereceivedothervisits,andthatthesevisitswereoftenprolongedtillthefollowingday。Onbeingquestioned,Margueriteadmittedeverythingtotheduke,andadvisedhim,withoutarriere-pensee,toconcernhimselfwithhernolonger,forshefeltincapableofcarryingoutwhatshehadundertaken,andshedidnotwishtogoonacceptingbenefitsfromamanwhomshewasdeceiving。Thedukedidnotreturnforaweek;itwasallhecoulddo,andontheeighthdayhecametobegMargueritetolethimstillvisither,promisingthathewouldtakeherasshewas,solongashemightseeher,andswearingthathewouldneverutterareproachagainsther,notthoughheweretodieofit。
This,then,wasthestateofthingsthreemonthsafterMarguerite'sreturn;thatistosay,inNovemberorDecember,1842。
Chapter3
Atoneo'clockonthe16thIwenttotheRued'Antin。Thevoiceoftheauctioneercouldbeheardfromtheouterdoor。Theroomswerecrowdedwithpeople。Therewereallthecelebritiesofthemostelegantimpropriety,furtivelyexaminedbycertaingreatladieswhohadagainseizedtheopportunityofthesaleinordertobeabletosee,closeathand,womenwhomtheymightneverhaveanotheroccasionofmeeting,andwhomtheyenviedperhapsinsecretfortheireasypleasures。TheDuchessofF。elbowedMlle。
A。,oneofthemostmelancholyexamplesofourmoderncourtesan;
theMarquisdeT。hesitatedoverapieceoffurniturethepriceofwhichwasbeingrunhighbyMme。D。,themostelegantandfamousadulteressofourtime;theDukeofY。,whoinMadridissupposedtoberuininghimselfinParis,andinParistoberuininghimselfinMadrid,andwho,asamatteroffact,neverevenreachesthelimitofhisincome,talkedwithMme。M。,oneofourwittieststory-tellers,whofromtimetotimewriteswhatshesaysandsignswhatshewrites,whileatthesametimeheexchangedconfidentialglanceswithMme。deN。,afairornamentoftheChamps-Elysees,almostalwaysdressedinpinkorblue,anddrivingtwobigblackhorseswhichTonyhadsoldherfor10,000
francs,andforwhichshehadpaid,afterherfashion;finally,Mlle。R。,whomakesbyhermeretalenttwicewhatthewomenoftheworldmakebytheirdotandthreetimesasmuchastheothersmakebytheiramours,hadcome,inspiteofthecold,tomakesomepurchases,andwasnottheleastlookedatamongthecrowd。
Wemightcitetheinitialsofmanymoreofthosewhofoundthemselves,notwithoutsomemutualsurprise,sidebysideinoneroom。Butwefeartowearythereader。Wewillonlyaddthateveryonewasinthehighestspirits,andthatmanyofthosepresenthadknownthedeadwoman,andseemedquiteobliviousofthefact。Therewasasoundofloudlaughter;theauctioneersshoutedatthetopoftheirvoices;thedealerswhohadfilledthebenchesinfrontoftheauctiontabletriedinvaintoobtainsilence,inordertotransacttheirbusinessinpeace。Neverwasthereanoisieroramorevariedgathering。
Islippedquietlyintothemidstofthistumult,sadtothinkofwhenonerememberedthatthepoorcreaturewhosegoodswerebeingsoldtopayherdebtshaddiedinthenextroom。Havingcomerathertoexaminethantobuy,Iwatchedthefacesoftheauctioneers,noticinghowtheybeamedwithdelightwheneveranythingreachedapricebeyondtheirexpectations。Honestcreatures,whohadspeculateduponthiswoman'sprostitution,whohadgainedtheirhundredpercentoutofher,whohadplaguedwiththeirwritsthelastmomentsofherlife,andwhocamenowafterherdeathtogatherinatoncethefruitsoftheirdishonourablecalculationsandtheinterestontheirshamefulcredit,HowwiseweretheancientsinhavingonlyoneGodfortradersandrobbers!
Dresses,cashmeres,jewels,weresoldwithincrediblerapidity。
TherewasnothingthatIcaredfor,andIstillwaited。AllatonceIheard:"Avolume,beautifullybound,gilt-edged,entitledManonLescaut。Thereissomethingwrittenonthefirstpage。Tenfrancs。"
"Twelve,"saidavoiceafteralongishsilence。
"Fifteen,"Isaid。
Why?Ididnotknow。Doubtlessforthesomethingwritten。
"Fifteen,"repeatedtheauctioneer。
"Thirty,"saidthefirstbidderinatonewhichseemedtodefyfurthercompetition。
Ithadnowbecomeastruggle。"Thirty-five,"Icriedinthesametone。
"Forty。"
"Fifty。"
"Sixty。"
"Ahundred。"
IfIhadwishedtomakeasensationIshouldcertainlyhavesucceeded,foraprofoundsilencehadensued,andpeoplegazedatmeasiftoseewhatsortofapersonitwas,whoseemedtobesodeterminedtopossessthevolume。
TheaccentwhichIhadgiventomylastwordseemedtoconvincemyadversary;hepreferredtoabandonaconflictwhichcouldonlyhaveresultedinmakingmepaytentimesitspriceforthevolume,and,bowing,hesaidverygracefully,thoughindeedalittlelate:
"Igiveway,sir。"
Nothingmorebeingoffered,thebookwasassignedtome。
AsIwasafraidofsomenewfitofobstinacy,whichmyamourpropremighthavesustainedsomewhatbetterthanmypurse,I
wrotedownmyname,hadthebookputononeside,andwentout。I
musthavegivenconsiderablefoodforreflectiontothewitnessesofthisscene,whowouldnodoubtaskthemselveswhatmypurposecouldhavebeeninpayingahundredfrancsforabookwhichI
couldhavehadanywhereforten,or,attheoutside,fifteen。
Anhourafter,Isentformypurchase。Onthefirstpagewaswritteninink,inaneleganthand,aninscriptiononthepartofthegiver。Itconsistedofthesewords:
ManontoMarguerite。
Humility。
ItwassignedArmandDuval。
WhatwasthemeaningofthewordHumility?WasManontorecogniseinMarguerite,intheopinionofM。ArmandDuval,hersuperiorinviceorinaffection?Thesecondinterpretationseemedthemoreprobable,forthefirstwouldhavebeenanimpertinentpieceofplainspeakingwhichMarguerite,whateverheropinionofherself,wouldneverhaveaccepted。
Iwentoutagain,andthoughtnomoreofthebookuntilatnight,whenIwasgoingtobed。
ManonLescautisatouchingstory。Iknoweverydetailofit,andyetwheneverIcomeacrossthevolumethesamesympathyalwaysdrawsmetoit;Iopenit,andforthehundredthtimeIliveoveragainwiththeheroineoftheAbbePrevost。NowthisheroineissotruetolifethatIfeelasifIhadknownher;andthusthesortofcomparisonbetweenherandMargueritegavemeanunusualinclinationtoreadit,andmyindulgencepassedintopity,almostintoakindofloveforthepoorgirltowhomIowedthevolume。Manondiedinthedesert,itistrue,butinthearmsofthemanwholovedherwiththewholeenergyofhissoul;who,whenshewasdead,dugagraveforher,andwatereditwithhistears,andburiedhisheartinit;whileMarguerite,asinnerlikeManon,andperhapsconvertedlikeher,haddiedinasumptuousbed(itseemed,afterwhatIhadseen,thebedofherpast),butinthatdesertoftheheart,amorebarren,avaster,amorepitilessdesertthanthatinwhichManonhadfoundherlastresting-place。
Marguerite,infact,asIhadfoundfromsomefriendswhoknewofthelastcircumstancesofherlife,hadnotasinglerealfriendbyherbedsideduringthetwomonthsofherlongandpainfulagony。
ThenfromManonandMargueritemymindwanderedtothosewhomI
knew,andwhomIsawsingingalongthewaywhichledtojustsuchanotherdeath。Poorsouls!ifitisnotrighttolovethem,isitnotwelltopitythem?Youpitytheblindmanwhohasneverseenthedaylight,thedeafwhohasneverheardtheharmoniesofnature,thedumbwhohasneverfoundavoiceforhissoul,and,underafalsecloakofshame,youwillnotpitythisblindnessofheart,thisdeafnessofsoul,thisdumbnessofconscience,whichsetsthepoorafflictedcreaturebesideherselfandmakesher,inspiteofherself,incapableofseeingwhatisgood,ofbearingtheLord,andofspeakingthepurelanguageofloveandfaith。
HugohaswrittenMarionDelorme,MussethaswrittenBernerette,AlexandreDumashaswrittenFernande,thethinkersandpoetsofalltimehavebroughttothecourtesantheofferingoftheirpity,andattimesagreatmanhasrehabilitatedthemwithhisloveandevenwithhisname。IfIinsistonthispoint,itisbecausemanyamongthosewhohavebeguntoreadmewillbereadytothrowdownabookinwhichtheywillfeartofindanapologyforviceandprostitution;andtheauthor'sagewilldosomething,nodoubt,toincreasethisfear。Letmeundeceivethosewhothinkthus,andletthemgoonreading,ifnothingbutsuchafearhindersthem。
Iamquitesimplyconvincedofacertainprinciple,whichis:Forthewomanwhoseeducationhasnottaughtherwhatisright,Godalmostalwaysopenstwowayswhichleadthitherthewaysofsorrowandoflove。Theyarehard;thosewhowalkinthemwalkwithbleedingfeetandtornhands,buttheyalsoleavethetrappingsofviceuponthethornsofthewayside,andreachthejourney'sendinanakednesswhichisnotshamefulinthesightoftheLord。
Thosewhomeettheseboldtravellersoughttosuccourthem,andtotellallthattheyhavemetthem,forinsodoingtheypointouttheway。Itisnotaquestionofsettingattheoutsetoflifetwosign-posts,onebearingtheinscription"TheRightWay,"
theothertheinscription"TheWrongWay,"andofsayingtothosewhocomethere,"Choose。"Onemustneeds,likeChrist,pointoutthewayswhichleadfromthesecondroadtothefirst,tothosewhohavebeeneasilyledastray;anditisneedfulthatthebeginningofthesewaysshouldnotbetoopainfulnorappeartooimpenetrable。
HereisChristianitywithitsmarvellousparableoftheProdigalSontoteachusindulgenceandpardon。Jesuswasfullofloveforsoulswoundedbythepassionsofmen;helovedtobinduptheirwoundsandtofindinthoseverywoundsthebalmwhichshouldhealthem。ThushesaidtotheMagdalen:"Muchshallbeforgiventheebecausethouhastlovedmuch,"asublimityofpardonwhichcanonlyhavecalledforthasublimefaith。
WhydowemakeourselvesmorestrictthanChrist?Why,holdingobstinatelytotheopinionsoftheworld,whichhardensitselfinorderthatitmaybethoughtstrong,dowereject,asitrejects,soulsbleedingatwoundsbywhich,likeasickman'sbadblood,theeviloftheirpastmaybehealed,ifonlyafriendlyhandisstretchedouttolavethemandsetthemintheconvalescenceoftheheart?
ItistomyowngenerationthatIspeak,tothoseforwhomthetheoriesofM。deVoltairehappilyexistnolonger,tothosewho,likemyself,realizethathumanity,fortheselastfifteenyears,hasbeeninoneofitsmostaudaciousmomentsofexpansion。Thescienceofgoodandevilisacquiredforever;faithisrefashioned,respectforsacredthingshasreturnedtous,andiftheworldhasnotallatoncebecomegood,ithasatleastbecomebetter。Theeffortsofeveryintelligentmantendinthesamedirection,andeverystrongwillisharnessedtothesameprinciple:Begood,beyoung,betrue!Evilisnothingbutvanity,letushavetheprideofgood,andaboveallletusneverdespair。Donotletusdespisethewomanwhoisneithermother,sister,maid,norwife。Donotletuslimitesteemtothefamilynorindulgencetoegoism。Since"thereismorejoyinheavenoveronesinnerthatrepenteththanoverninetyandninejustpersonsthatneednorepentance,"letusgivejoytoheaven。Heavenwillrenderitbacktouswithusury。Letusleaveonourwaythealmsofpardonforthosewhomearthlydesireshavedrivenastray,whomadivinehopeshallperhapssave,and,asoldwomensaywhentheyofferyou。somehomelyremedyoftheirown,ifitdoesnogooditwilldonoharm。
DoubtlessitmustseemaboldthingtoattempttodeducethesegrandresultsoutofthemeagresubjectthatIdealwith;butI
amoneofthosewhobelievethatallisinlittle。Thechildissmall,andheincludestheman;thebrainisnarrow,anditharboursthought;theeyeisbutapoint,anditcoversleagues。
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Twodaysafter,thesalewasended。Ithadproduced3。50,000
francs。Thecreditorsdividedamongthemtwothirds,andthefamily,asisterandagrand-nephew,receivedtheremainder。
Thesisteropenedhereyesverywidewhenthelawyerwrotetoherthatshehadinherited50,000francs。Thegirlhadnotseenhersisterforsixorsevenyears,anddidnotknowwhathadbecomeofherfromthemomentwhenshehaddisappearedfromhome。ShecameuptoParisinhaste,andgreatwastheastonishmentofthosewhohadknownMargueritewhentheysawasheronlyheirafine,fatcountrygirl,whountilthenhadneverlefthervillage。Shehadmadethefortuneatasinglestroke,withoutevenknowingthesourceofthatfortune。Shewentback,Iheardafterward,tohercountryside,greatlysaddenedbyhersister'sdeath,butwithasadnesswhichwassomewhatlightenedbytheinvestmentatfourandahalfpercentwhichshehadbeenabletomake。
Allthesecircumstances,oftenrepeatedinParis,themothercityofscandal,hadbeguntobeforgotten,andIwasevenlittlebylittleforgettingthepartIhadtakeninthem,whenanewincidentbroughttomyknowledgethewholeofMarguerite'slife,andacquaintedmewithsuchpatheticdetailsthatIwastakenwiththeideaofwritingdownthestorywhichInowwrite。
Therooms,nowemptiedofalltheirfurniture,hadbeentoletforthreeorfourdayswhenonemorningtherewasaringatmydoor。
Myservant,or,rather,myporter,whoactedasmyservant,wenttothedoorandbroughtmeacard,sayingthatthepersonwhohadgivenittohimwishedtoseeme。
Iglancedatthecardandtherereadthesetwowords:ArmandDuval。
ItriedtothinkwhereIhadseenthename,andrememberedthefirstleafofthecopyofManonLescaut。WhatcouldthepersonwhohadgiventhebooktoMargueritewantofme?Igaveorderstoaskhiminatonce。
Isawayoungman,blond,tall,pale,dressedinatravellingsuitwhichlookedasifhehadnotchangeditforsomedays,andhadnoteventakenthetroubletobrushitonarrivingatParis,foritwascoveredwithdust。
M。Duvalwasdeeplyagitated;hemadenoattempttoconcealhisagitation,anditwaswithtearsinhiseyesandatremblingvoicethathesaidtome:
"Sir,Ibegyoutoexcusemyvisitandmycostume;butyoungpeoplearenotveryceremoniouswithoneanother,andIwassoanxioustoseeyouto-daythatIhavenotevengonetothehoteltowhichIhavesentmyluggage,andhaverushedstraighthere,fearingthat,afterall,Imightmissyou,earlyasitis。"
IbeggedM。Duvaltositdownbythefire;hedidso,and,takinghishandkerchieffromhispocket,hidhisfaceinitforamoment。
"Youmustbeatalosstounderstand,"hewenton,sighingsadly,"forwhatpurposeanunknownvisitor,atsuchanhour,insuchacostume,andintears,canhavecometoseeyou。Ihavesimplycometoaskofyouagreatservice。"
"Speakon,sir,Iamentirelyatyourdisposal。"
"YouwerepresentatthesaleofMargueriteGautier?"
Atthiswordtheemotion,whichhehadgotthebetterofforaninstant,wastoomuchforhim,andhewasobligedtocoverhiseyeswithhishand。
"Imustseemtoyouveryabsurd,"headded,"butpardonme,andbelievethatIshallneverforgetthepatiencewithwhichyouhavelistenedtome。"
"Sir,"Ianswered,"iftheservicewhichIcanrenderyouisabletolessenyourtroublealittle,tellmeatoncewhatIcandoforyou,andyouwillfindmeonlytoohappytoobligeyou。"
M。Duval'ssorrowwassympathetic,aridinspiteofmyselfIfeltthedesireofdoinghimakindness。Thereuponhesaidtome:
"YouboughtsomethingatMarguerite'ssale?"
"Yes,abook。"
"ManonLescaut?"
"Precisely。"
"Haveyouthebookstill?"
"Itisinmybedroom。"
Onhearingthis,ArmandDuvalseemedtoberelievedofagreatweight,andthankedmeasifIhadalreadyrenderedhimaservicemerelybykeepingthebook。
Igotupandwentintomyroomtofetchthebook,whichIhandedtohim。
"Thatisitindeed,"hesaid,lookingattheinscriptiononthefirstpageandturningovertheleaves;"thatisitindeed,"andtwobigtearsfellonthepages。"Well,sir,"saidhe,liftinghishead,andnolongertryingtohidefrommethathehadweptandwaseventhenonthepointofweeping,"doyouvaluethisbookverygreatly?"
"Why?"
"BecauseIhavecometoaskyoutogiveituptome。"
"Pardonmycuriosity,butwasityou,then,whogaveittoMargueriteGautier?"
"Itwas!"
"Thebookisyours,sir;takeitback。Iamhappytobeabletohanditovertoyou。"
"But,"saidM。Duvalwithsomeembarrassment,"theleastIcandoistogiveyouinreturnthepricewhichyoupaidforit。"
"Allowmetoofferittoyou。Thepriceofasinglevolumeinasaleofthatkindisamerenothing,andIdonotrememberhowmuchIgaveforit。"
"Yougaveonehundredfrancs。"
"True,"Isaid,embarrassedinmyturn,"howdoyouknow?"
"Itisquitesimple。IhopedtoreachParisintimeforthesale,andIonlymanagedtogetherethismorning。Iwasabsolutelyresolvedtohavesomethingwhichhadbelongedtoher,andI
hastenedtotheauctioneerandaskedhimtoallowmetoseethelistofthethingssoldandofthebuyers'names。Isawthatthisvolumehadbeenboughtbyyou,andIdecidedtoaskyoutogiveituptome,thoughthepriceyouhadsetuponitmademefearthatyoumightyourselfhavesomesouvenirinconnectionwiththepossessionofthebook。"
Ashespoke,itwasevidentthathewasafraidIhadknownMargueriteashehadknownher。Ihastenedtoreassurehim。
"IknewMlle。Gautieronlybysight,"Isaid;"herdeathmadeonmetheimpressionthatthedeathofaprettywomanmustalwaysmakeonayoungmanwhohadlikedseeingher。Iwishedtobuysomethingathersale,andIbidhigherandhigherforthisbookoutofmereobstinacyandtoannoysomeoneelse,whowasequallykeentoobtainit,andwhoseemedtodefymetothecontest。I
repeat,then,thatthebookisyours,andoncemoreIbegyoutoacceptit;donottreatmeasifIwereanauctioneer,andletitbethepledgebetweenusofalongerandmoreintimateacquaintance。"
"Good,"saidArmand,holdingouthishandandpressingmine;"I
accept,andIshallbegratefultoyouallmylife。"
IwasveryanxioustoquestionArmandonthesubjectofMarguerite,fortheinscriptioninthebook,theyoungman'shurriedjourney,hisdesiretopossessthevolume,piquedmycuriosity;butIfearedifIquestionedmyvisitorthatImightseemtohaverefusedhismoneyonlyinordertohavetherighttopryintohisaffairs。
Itwasasifheguessedmydesire,forhesaidtome:
"Haveyoureadthevolume?"
"Allthrough。"
"WhatdidyouthinkofthetwolinesthatIwroteinit?"
"Irealizedatoncethatthewomantowhomyouhadgiventhevolumemusthavebeenquiteoutsidetheordinarycategory,forI
couldnottakethosetwolinesasamereemptycompliment。"
"Youwereright。Thatwomanwasanangel。See,readthisletter。"
Andhehandedtomeapaperwhichseemedtohavebeenmanytimesreread。
Iopenedit,andthisiswhatitcontained:
"MYDEARARMAND:——Ihavereceivedyourletter。Youarestillgood,andIthankGodforit。Yes,myfriend,Iamill,andwithoneofthosediseasesthatneverrelent;buttheinterestyoustilltakeinmemakesmysufferingless。Ishallnotlivelongenough,Iexpect,tohavethehappinessofpressingthehandwhichhaswrittenthekindletterIhavejustreceived;thewordsofitwouldbeenoughtocureme,ifanythingcouldcureme。I
shallnotseeyou,forIamquiteneardeath,andyouarehundredsofleaguesaway。Mypoorfriend!yourMargueriteofoldtimesissadlychanged。Itisbetterperhapsforyounottoseeheragainthantoseeherassheis。YouaskifIforgiveyou;
oh,withallmyheart,friend,forthewayyouhurtmewasonlyawayofprovingtheloveyouhadforme。Ihavebeeninbedforamonth,andIthinksomuchofyouresteemthatIwriteeverydaythejournalofmylife,fromthemomentwelefteachothertothemomentwhenIshallbeabletowritenolonger。Iftheinterestyoutakeinmeisreal,Armand,whenyoucomebackgoandseeJulieDuprat。Shewillgiveyoumyjournal。Youwillfindinitthereasonandtheexcuseforwhathaspassedbetweenus。Julieisverygoodtome;weoftentalkofyoutogether。Shewastherewhenyourlettercame,andwebothcriedoverit。
"Ifyouhadnotsentmeanyword,IhadtoldhertogiveyouthosepaperswhenyoureturnedtoFrance。Donotthankmeforit。
Thisdailylookingbackontheonlyhappymomentsofmylifedoesmeanimmenseamountofgood,andifyouwillfindinreadingitsomeexcuseforthepast。I,formypart,findacontinualsolaceinit。Ishouldliketoleaveyousomethingwhichwouldalwaysremindyouofme,buteverythingherehasbeenseized,andIhavenothingofmyown。
"Doyouunderstand,myfriend?Iamdying,andfrommybedIcanhearamanwalkingtoandfrointhedrawing-room;mycreditorshaveputhimtheretoseethatnothingistakenaway,andthatnothingremainstomeincaseIdonotdie。Ihopetheywillwaittilltheendbeforetheybegintosell。
"Oh,menhavenopity!orrather,Iamwrong,itisGodwhoisjustandinflexible!
"Andnow,dearlove,youwillcometomysale,andyouwillbuysomething,forifIputasidetheleastthingforyou,theymightaccuseyouofembezzlingseizedgoods。
"ItisasadlifethatIamleaving!
"ItwouldbegoodofGodtoletmeseeyouagainbeforeIdie。
Accordingtoallprobability,good-bye,myfriend。PardonmeifI
donotwritealongerletter,butthosewhosaytheyaregoingtocuremewearmeoutwithbloodletting,andmyhandrefusestowriteanymore。
"MARGUERITEGAUTIER。"
Thelasttwowordswerescarcelylegible。IreturnedthelettertoArmand,whohad,nodoubt,readitoveragaininhismindwhileIwasreadingitonpaper,forhesaidtomeashetookit:
"Whowouldthinkthatakeptwomancouldhavewrittenthat?"And,overcomebyrecollections,hegazedforsometimeatthewritingoftheletter,whichhefinallycarriedtohislips。
"AndwhenIthink,"hewenton,"thatshediedbeforeIcouldseeher,andthatIshallneverseeheragain,whenIthinkthatshedidformewhatnosisterwouldeverhavedone,Icannotforgivemyselfforhavinglefthertodielikethat。Dead!Deadandthinkingofme,writingandrepeatingmyname,poordearMarguerite!"
AndArmand,givingfreeoutlettohisthoughtsandhistears,heldouthishandtome,andcontinued:
"Peoplewouldthinkitchildishenoughiftheysawmelamentlikethisoveradeadwomansuchasshe;noonewilleverknowwhatI
madethatwomansuffer,howcruelIhavebeentoher!howgood,howresignedshewas!IthoughtitwasIwhohadtoforgiveher,andto-dayIfeelunworthyoftheforgivenesswhichshegrantsme。Oh,Iwouldgivetenyearsofmylifetoweepatherfeetforanhour!"
Itisalwaysdifficulttoconsoleasorrowthatisunknowntoone,andneverthelessIfeltsolivelyasympathyfortheyoungman,hemademesofranklytheconfidantofhisdistress,thatI
believedawordfrommewouldnotbeindifferenttohim,andI
said:
"Haveyounoparents,nofriends?Hope。Goandseethem;theywillconsoleyou。Asforme,Icanonlypityyou。"
"Itistrue,"hesaid,risingandwalkingtoandfrointheroom,"Iamwearyingyou。Pardonme,Ididnotreflecthowlittlemysorrowmustmeantoyou,andthatIamintrudinguponyousomethingwhichcannotandoughtnottointerestyouatall。"
"Youmistakemymeaning。Iamentirelyatyourservice;onlyI
regretmyinabilitytocalmyourdistress。Ifmysocietyandthatofmyfriendscangiveyouanydistraction,if,inshort,youhaveneedofme,nomatterinwhatway,Ihopeyouwillrealizehowmuchpleasureitwillgivemetodoanythingforyou。"
"Pardon,pardon,"saidhe;"sorrowsharpensthesensations。Letmestayhereforafewminuteslonger,longenoughtodrymyeyes,sothattheidlersinthestreetmaynotlookuponitasacuriositytoseeabigfellowlikemecrying。Youhavemademeveryhappybygivingmethisbook。IdonotknowhowIcaneverexpressmygratitudetoyou。"
"Bygivingmealittleofyourfriendship,"saidI,"andbytellingmethecauseofyoursuffering。Onefeelsbetterwhiletellingwhatonesuffers。"
"Youareright。Butto-dayIhavetoomuchneedoftears;Icannotverywelltalk。OnedayIwilltellyouthewholestory,andyouwillseeifIhavereasonforregrettingthepoorgirl。Andnow,"headded,rubbinghiseyesforthelasttime,andlookingathimselfintheglass,"saythatyoudonotthinkmetooabsolutelyidiotic,andallowmetocomebackandseeyouanothertime。"
Hecastonmeagentleandamiablelook。Iwasnearembracinghim。Asforhim,hiseyesagainbegantofillwithtears;hesawthatIperceiveditandturnedawayhishead。
"Come,"Isaid,"courage。"
"Good-bye,"hesaid。
And,makingadesperateefforttorestrainhistears,herushedratherthanwentoutoftheroom。
Iliftedthecurtainofmywindow,andsawhimgetintothecabrioletwhichawaitedhimatthedoor;butscarcelywasheseatedbeforeheburstintotearsandhidhisfaceinhispocket-handkerchief。
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AgoodwhileelapsedbeforeIheardanythingmoreofArmand,but,ontheotherhand,IwasconstantlyhearingofMarguerite。
Idonotknowifyouhavenoticed,ifoncethenameofanybodywhomightinthenaturalcourseofthingshavealwaysremainedunknown,oratalleventsindifferenttoyou,shouldhementionedbeforeyou,immediatelydetailsbegintogroupthemselvesaboutthename,andyoufindallyourfriendstalkingtoyouaboutsomethingwhichtheyhavenevermentionedtoyoubefore。Youdiscoverthatthispersonwasalmosttouchingyouandhaspassedclosetoyoumanytimesinyourlifewithoutyournoticingit;
youfindcoincidencesintheeventswhicharetoldyou,arealaffinitywithcertaineventsofyourownexistence。IwasnotabsolutelyatthatpointinregardtoMarguerite,forIhadseenandmether,Iknewherbysightandbyreputation;nevertheless,sincethemomentofthesale,hernamecametomyearssofrequently,and,owingtothecircumstancethatIhavementionedinthelastchapter,thatnamewasassociatedwithsoprofoundasorrow,thatmycuriosityincreasedinproportionwithmyastonishment。TheconsequencewasthatwheneverImetfriendstowhomIhadneverbreathedthenameofMarguerite,Ialwaysbeganbysaying:
"DidyoueverknowacertainMargueriteGautier?"
"TheLadyoftheCamellias?"
"Exactly。"
"Oh,verywell!"
Thewordwassometimesaccompaniedbyasmilewhichcouldleavenodoubtastoitsmeaning。
"Well,whatsortofagirlwasshe?"
"Agoodsortofgirl。"
"Isthatall?"
"Oh,yes;moreintelligenceandperhapsalittlemoreheartthanmost。"
"Doyouknowanythingparticularabouther?"
"SheruinedBarondeG。"
"Nomorethanthat?"
"ShewasthemistressoftheoldDukeof……"
"Wasshereallyhismistress?"
"Sotheysay;atallevents,hegaveheragreatdealofmoney。"
Thegeneraloutlineswerealwaysthesame。NeverthelessIwasanxioustofindoutsomethingabouttherelationsbetweenMargueriteandArmand。Meetingonedayamanwhowasconstantlyaboutwithknownwomen,Iaskedhim:"DidyouknowMargueriteGautier?"
Theanswerwastheusual:"Verywell。"
"Whatsortofagirlwasshe?"
"Afine,goodgirl。Iwasverysorrytohearofherdeath。"
"HadshenotalovercalledArmandDuval?"
"Tallandblond?"
"Yes。
"Itisquitetrue。"
"WhowasthisArmand?"
"Afellowwhosquanderedonherthelittlemoneyhehad,andthenhadtoleaveher。Theysayhewasquitewildaboutit。"
"Andshe?"
"Theyalwayssayshewasverymuchinlovewithhim,butasgirlslikethatareinlove。Itisnogoodtoaskthemforwhattheycannotgive。"
"WhathasbecomeofArmand?"
"Idon'tknow。Weknewhimverylittle。HewaswithMargueriteforfiveorsixmonthsinthecountry。Whenshecameback,hehadgone。"
"Andyouhaveneverseenhimsince?"
"Never。"
I,too,hadnotseenArmandagain。Iwasbeginningtoaskmyselfif,whenhehadcometoseeme,therecentnewsofMarguerite'sdeathhadnotexaggeratedhisformerlove,andconsequentlyhissorrow,andIsaidtomyselfthatperhapshehadalreadyforgottenthedeadwoman,andalongwithherhispromisetocomeandseemeagain。Thissuppositionwouldhaveseemedprobableenoughinmostinstances,butinArmand'sdespairtherehadbeenanaccentofrealsincerity,and,goingfromoneextremetoanother,Iimaginedthatdistresshadbroughtonanillness,andthatmynotseeinghimwasexplainedbythefactthathewasill,perhapsdead。
Iwasinterestedintheyoungmaninspiteofmyself。Perhapstherewassomeselfishnessinthisinterest;perhapsIguessedatsomepatheticlovestoryunderallthissorrow;perhapsmydesiretoknowallaboutithadmuchtodowiththeanxietywhichArmand'ssilencecausedme。SinceM。Duvaldidnotreturntoseeme,Idecidedtogoandseehim。Apretextwasnotdifficulttofind;unluckilyIdidnotknowhisaddress,andnooneamongthosewhomIquestionedcouldgiveittome。
IwenttotheRued'Antin;perhapsMarguerite'sporterwouldknowwhereArmandlived。Therewasanewporter;heknewaslittleaboutitasI。IthenaskedinwhatcemeteryMlle。Gautierhadbeenburied。ItwastheMontmartreCemetery。ItwasnowthemonthofApril;theweatherwasfine,thegraveswerenotlikelytolookassadanddesolateastheydoinwinter;inshort,itwaswarmenoughforthelivingtothinkalittleofthedead,andpaythemavisit。Iwenttothecemetery,sayingtomyself:"OneglanceatMarguerite'sgrave,andIshallknowifArmand'ssorrowstillexists,andperhapsImayfindoutwhathasbecomeofhim。"
Ienteredthekeeper'slodge,andaskedhimifonthe22ndofFebruaryawomannamedMargueriteGautierhadnotbeenburiedintheMontmartreCemetery。Heturnedoverthepagesofabigbookinwhichthosewhoenterthislastresting-placeareinscribedandnumbered,andrepliedthatonthe22ndofFebruary,at12
o'clock,awomanofthatnamehadbeenburied。
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