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ToW。R。B。
DedicationAndso,toyou,whoalwayswerePerseus,D’Artagnan,LancelotTome,IgivetheseweedyrhymesInmemoryofearliertimes。
Nowallthosecarelessdaysarenot。
Ofallmyheroes,youendure。
Wordsaresuchsillythings!toorough,Toosmooth,theyboiluporcongeal,Andneitherofuslikesemotion——
ButIcan’tmeasuremydevotion!
AndyouknowhowIreallyfeel——
Andwe’retogether。There,enough,……!
ForewordbyChaunceyBrewsterTinkerInthesedayswhentheoldcivilisationiscrumblingbeneathourfeet,thethoughtofpoetrycrossesthemindlikethedearmemoryofthingsthathavelongsincepassedaway。Inourpassionatedesireforthenewera,itisdifficulttorefrainoneselffromthecommonplacepracticeofspeculatingontheeffectsofwarfareandofprophesyingallmannerofnovelrebirths。Butitmaybewellforustorememberthattheerawhichhasrecentlyclosedwasitselfmarkedbyamadidealisationofallnovelties。Intheliterarymovementsofthelastdecade——
when,indeed,anymovementatallhasbeenperceptible——wehavewitnessedabewilderingriseandfallofmethodsandideals。Wewerecaptivatedforatimebythequestofthegoldenphraseandtheaccompanyingcultivationofexoticemotions;andthen,wearyingoftheprettyandthetemperamental,weplungedintothebloodshotbrutalitiesofnaturalism。
Fromthesmooth-flowingimitationsofTennysonandSwinburne,wepassedintoafalsefreedomthathadatitsheartarepudiationofalllawandstandards,foraparalleltowhichoneturnsinstinctivelytocertainrecentdevelopmentsinthepoliticalworld。Wemayhopethattheeagersearchfornoveltyofformandsubjectmayhaveitsinfluenceinreleasingusfromouroldbondagetothecommonplaceandinbroadeningthescopeofpoetry;butwecannotblindourselvestothefactthatithasatthesametimecompletedthatestrangementbetweenthepoetandthegeneralpublicwhichhasbeendevelopingforhalfacentury。Thegreatmassofthereadingworld,towhomtheartsshouldminister,havenowforgottenthatpoetryisaconsolationintimesofdoubtandperil,abeacon,and"anever-fixedmark"inacrazedandshiftingworld。Ourpoetry——
andIamspeakinginparticularofAmericanpoetry——hasbeencentrifugal;
ourpoetshavebrokenupintosmallerandeversmallergroups。
Individualismhastriumphed。
Tothegeneralconfusion,critics,iftheymaybesaidtohaveexistedatall,haveaddedbytheirpaltryconceptionoftheart。
Theyhavedeemeditasufficientdenunciationofapoettoaccusehimofimitatinghismasters;asthoughthehistoryofanartwereratheraseriesofviolentrebellionsthanagrowthandaprogressiveillumination。
Notallgenerationsareprivilegedtoseetheworkingofagreatcreativeimpulse,butthewant,keenthoughitbe,furnishesnoreasonfortheutterrejectionofAtremulousmurmurfromgreatdayslongdead。
Butthisfearofechoingthepastmayworkusayetgreatermisfortune。
Intherejectionofthemannerofanearlierepochmaybeimplicitalsotherejectionoftheverysourcesfromwhichspringsthelifeofthefairart。Melody,andaloveofthegreenearth,andayearningforGodareoftheveryfabricofpoetry,denyitwhowill。
TheMusesstillreignonParnassus,waxtheheathenneversofurious。
PoetswholovepoetrybetterthantheirownfameinGrubStreetwilldowelltorememberTheflame,thenoblepageantofourlife;
Theburningsealthatstampsman’shighindentureTovainattemptandmostforlornadventure;
Romanceandpurpleseas,andtopplingtowns,Andthewind’svaliancecryingo’erthedowns。
Itisapoorbusinesstofindinsuchwordsonlytheillusionsofyouthandanewenthusiasm。Thedesirefornovelty,thepassionforforceanddirt,andthehankeringafterfreakishnessofmood,whichmanyhaveattemptedtosubstitutefortheolderandsimplerthings,arethemselvesthebestevidenceofdisillusionandjadednerves。Thereisawearinessandadisgustinourrecentimpatiencewithbeautywhichindicatetooclearlytheexhaustionofourspiritualresources。Itmaywellbethattherebirthofpoetryistobemanifestinareappearanceoftheobvious,——
inaloveoftheseaandofthebeautyofclouds,intheadventureofdeathandtheyetmoreamazingadventureofliving,inavitalloveofcolour,whetheroftheOrientorthedrug-shop,inchildlikeloveofmelody,andthecoolcleansingofrain,instrangefacesandoldmemories。
This,inthepast,hasbeenpoetry,andthiswillbepoetryagain。
Thesingerwho,outofafullheart,canoffertotheworldhisvisionofitsbeauty,andoutofanoblemind,hisconceptionofitsdestiny,willbestowuponhistimethemostpreciousgiftwhichwecannowreceive,thegiftofhishealingpower。
C。B。T。
ContentsDedicationForewordbyChaunceyBrewsterTinkerI。
TheDrug-Shop,or,EndymioninEdmonstounII。
RainafteraVaudevilleShowTheCityRevisitedGoingBacktoSchoolNosImmortalesYoungBloodTheQualityofCourageCampusSonnets:
1。BeforeanExamination2。Talk3。MayMorning4。Return——1917
AlexanderVIDineswiththeCardinalofCapuaTheBreakingPointLonelyBurialDinnerinaQuickLunchRoomTheHempPoorDevil!
GhostsofaLunaticAsylumTheWhitePeacockColorsAMinorPoetTheLoverinHellWingedManMusicTheInnovatorLoveinTwilightTheFiddlingWoodPortraitofaBoyPortraitofaBabyTheGeneralPublicRoadandHillsElegyforanEnemyI。
TheDrug-Shop,or,EndymioninEdmonstounPrefatoryNote。
ThispoemreceivedthenineteenthawardoftheprizeofferedbyProfessorAlbertStanburroughCooktoYaleUniversityforthebestunpublishedverse,theCommitteeofAwardconsistingofProfessorsC。F。TuckerBrooke,ofYaleUniversity,RobertFrost,ofAmherstCollege,andCharlesM。Gayley,oftheUniversityofCalifornia。
I。
TheDrug-Shop,or,EndymioninEdmonstoun"Ohyes,IwentovertoEdmonstountheotherdayandsawJohnny,mooningaroundasusual!Hewillnevermakehisway。"
LetterofGeorgeKeats,18——
Nightfalls;thegreatjarsglowagainstthedark,Darkgreen,duskred,and,likeacoilingsnake,Writhingeternallyinsmokygyres,GreatropesofgorgeousvaportwistandturnWithinthem。SotheEasternfishermanSawtheswartgenierisewhentheleadseal,Scribbledwithcharms,wasliftedfromthejar;
And——well,howwentthetale?Likethis,likethis?……
Noherbagebrokethebarrenflatsofland,Nowindsdaredloiterwithinsmilingtrees,Norwerethereanybrooksoneitherhand,Onlythedry,brightsand,Nakedandgolden,laybeforetheseas。
Oneboattoilednoiselesslyalongthedeep,ThethirstyripplesdyingsilentlyUponitstrack。Faroutthebrownnetssweep,AndnightbeginstocreepAcrosstheintolerablemirrorofthesea。
Twicethenetsrise,a-trailwithsea-plantsbrown,Distortedshells,androcksgreen-mossedwithslime,Noughtelse。Thefisher,sickatheart,kneelsdown;
"PrayermayappeaseGod’sfrown,"
Hethinks,then,kneeling,castsforthethirdtime。
Andlo!anearthenjar,boundroundwithbrass,Liestangledinthecordageofhisnet。
Aboutthebrightwavesgleamlikeshatteredglass,Andwherethesea’srimwasThesundips,flatandred,abouttoset。
Theprowgratesonthebeach。ThefishermanStoops,tearingatthecordsthatbindtheseal。
Shallpearlsrollout,lustrousandwhiteandwan?
Lapis?carnelian?
Unheard-ofstonesthatmakethesickmindreelWithwonderoftheirbeauty?Rubies,then?
Greenemeralds,glitteringliketheeyesofbeasts?
Poisonousopals,goodtomaddenmen?
Goldbezants,tenandten?
Hard,regaldiamonds,likekinglyfeasts?
Hetugged;thesealgaveway。AlittlesmokeCurledlikeafeatherinthedarkeningsky。
Ablindinggushoffireburst,flamed,andbroke。
Avoicelikeawindspoke。
Armoredwithlight,andturbanedterribly,Agenietrampedtheroundearthunderfoot;
Hisheadsoughtoutthestars,hiscuppedrighthandMadehalftheskyonedarkness。Hewasmute。
Thesun,aripenedfruit,Droopedlower。Scarleteddiedo’erthesand。
Thegeniespoke:"Omiserableone!
Thyprizeawaitsthee;come,andhugitclose!
AnoblecrownthydragglednetshavewonForthisthatthouhastdone。
Blessedarefools!Agiftremainsforthose!"
Hishandsoughtouthissword,andlightningsflaredAcrosstheskyinonegreatbloomoffire。
Poisedlikeatopplingmountain,ithungbared;
SunsthatwerejewelsglaredAlongitshilt。Theairburntlikeapyre。
Oncemorethegeniespoke:"SomethingIoweTothee,thoufool,thoufool。Come,canstthousing?
Yea?Singthen;ifthysongbebrave,thengoFreeandreleased——orno!
Findfirstsometask,someovermasteringthingIcannotdo,andfinditspeedily,Forifthoudostnotthoushaltsurelydie!"
Theswordwhirledback。Thefishermanuprose,AndifatfirsthisvoicewasweakwithfearAndhislimbstrembled,itwasbutadoze,Andatthehighsong’scloseHestoodupstraight。Hisvoicerangloudandclear。
TheSong。
Lastnightthequayswerelighted;
CressetsofsmokingpineGlaredo’ertheroaringmarinersThatdrinktheyellowwine。
Theirsongrolledtotherafters,Itstruckthehighstarspale,Suchworthwasintheirdiscourse,Suchwonderintheirtale。
Blueboragefilledtheclinkingcups,Themurkynightgrewwan,Tillonerose,crownedwithlaurel-leaves,Thatwasanoutlandman。
"Come,letusdrinktowar!"saidhe,"Thetorchofthesackedtown!
Theswan’s-bathandthewolf-ships,AndHaraldofrenown!
"Yea,whilethemilkwasonhislips,Beforethedaywasborn,HetooktheAlmayneKaiser’sheadTobehisdrinking-horn!
"Yea,whilethedownwasonhischin,Oryethisbeardwasgrown,HebrokethegatesofMicklegarth,Andstolethelion-throne!
"DrinktoHarald,kingoftheworld,Lordofthetongueandthetroth!
TothebellowinghornsofOstfriesland,AndthetrumpetsoftheGoth!"
Theirshoutsrolledtotherafters,Thedrink-hornscrashedandrang,Andalltheirtalkwasaclangorofwar,Asswordstogethersang!
Butdimly,throughthedeepnight,Wherestarslikeflowersshone,Apassionateshapecamegliding——
Isawonethingalone。
IonlysawmyyoungloveShiningagainstthedark,Thewhitenessofherraiment,Theheadthatbenttohark。
Ionlysawmyyounglove,Likeflowersinthesun——
Herhandslikewaxenpetals,Whereyawningpoppiesrun。
Ionlyfeltthere,chrysmal,Againstmycheekherbreath,Thoughallthewindswerebaying,AndtheskybrightwithDeath。
Redsparkswhirledupthechimney,Ahungryflaughtofflame,AndaleanmanfromGreecearose;
Thrasylloswashisname。
"Ipraiseallnoblewines!"hecried,"Greenrobesoftissuefine,Peacocksandapesandivory,AndHomer’ssea-loudline,"Statuesandringsandcarvengems,Andthewisecrawlingsea;
Butmostofallthecrownsofkings,Theruletheywieldthereby!
"Power,firedpower,blankandbright!
Afithiltforthehand!
Theonegoodswordforafreeman,Whileyetthecoldstarsstand!"
Theirshoutsrolledtotherafters,Theairwasthickwithwine。
Ionlyknewherdeepeyes,Andfeltherhandinmine。
Softlyasquietwater,Onefingertouchedmycheek;
Herfacelikegraciousmoonlight——
Imightnotmovenorspeak。
Ionlysawthatbeauty,IonlyfeltthatformThere,inthesilkendarkness——
Godwotmyheartwaswarm!
Theirshoutsrolledtotherafters,Anotherchiefbegan;
HisslitlipsshowedhimforaHun;
Hewasanevilman。
"Singtothejoysofwomen!"heyelled,"Thehotdelicioustents,Thesoftcouch,andthewhitelimbs;
Theairasteamofscents!"
Hiseyesgleamed,andhewethislips,Theraftersshookwithcheers,Ashesangofwoman,whoisman’sslaveForallunhonoredyears。
"Whetherthewantonlaughsamain,Withonewhiteshoulderbare,OrinasackedroomyouunbindSomecrouchingmaiden’shair;
"Thisistheonlygoodforman,LikespicesoftheSouth——
ToseetheglimmeringbodylaidAspasturetohismouth!
"Toleavenoleeswithinthecup,Toseeandtakeandrend;
Tolapagirl’slimbsuplikewine,Andlaugh,knowingtheend!"
Only,likelow,stillbreathing,Iheardonevoice,oneword;
Andhotspeechpoureduponmylips,Asmyhandsheldasword。
"Fools,thricefoolsoflust!"Icried,"YoureyesareblindtoseeEternalbeauty,movingfar,Moregloriousthanhornsofwar!
Butthoughmyeyeswereoneblindscar,Thatsightisshowntome!
"Younuzzleattheivoryside,Youclaspthegoldenhead;
Fools,fools,whochatterandsing,Youhavetakenthesignofaterriblething,YouhavedrunkdownGodwithyourbeeswing,Andbrokenthesaintsforbread!
"ForGodmovesdarkly,Insilenceandinstorm;
ButinthebodyofwomanHeshowsoneburningform。
"ForGodmovesblindly,Indarknessandindread;
ButinthebodyofwomanHeraisesupthedead。
"Gracileandstraightasbirches,Swiftasthequestingbirds,Theyfilltrue-lovers’drink-hornsup,Whospeaknot,havingnowords。
"Loveisnotdelicatetoying,Aslimandshimmeringmesh;
Itistwosoulswrenchedintoone,Twobodiesmadeoneflesh。
"Lustisasprightlyservant,Gallantwherewinesarepoured;
Loveisabittermaster,Loveisanironlord。
"Satineaseofthebody,Fattenedslothofthehands,Theseandtheirlikehewillnotsend,Onlyimmortalfirestorend——
Andtheworld’sendisyourjourney’send,Andyourstreamchokesinthesands。
"Pleachedcalmsshallnotawaityou,Peaceyoushallneverfind;
NoughtbutthelivingmoorlandScourgednakedbythewind。
"Noughtbutthelivingmoorland,Andyourlove’shandinyours;
Thestrengthmoresurethansurety,Themercythatendures。
"Then,thoughtheygiveyoutobeburned,Andslayyoulikeastoat,Youhavefoundtheworld’sheartintheturnofacheek,Heavenintheliftofathroat。
"Althoughtheybreakyouonthewheel,Thatstoodsostraightinthesun,Behindyouthetrumpetssplitthesky,Wherethelostandfuriousfightgoesby——
AndGod,ourGod,willhavevictoryWhenthereddayisdone!"
Theirmirthrolledtotherafters,Theybellowedlechery;
LightasadriftingfeatherMyloveslippedfrommyknee。
Within,thelightswereyellowIndrowsyroomsandwarm;
Without,thestabbinglightningShatteredacrossthestorm。
Within,thegreatlogscrackled,Thedrink-hornsemptiedsoon;
Without,theblackcloaksofthecloudsStrangledthewaningmoon。
Mylovecrossedo’erthethreshold——
God!butthenightwasmurk!
Isetmyselfagainstthecold,Andleftthemtotheirwork。
Theirshoutsrolledtotherafters;
Abittererwaywasmine,AndIlefttheminthetavern,Drinkingtheyellowwine!
Thelastfaintechoesrangalongtheplains,Died,andweregone。Thegeniespoke:"ThysongServeswellenough——butyetthytaskremains;
ManyandrendingpainsShalltorturehimwhodaresdelaytoolong!"
Hisbrownfacehardenedtoaleadenmask。
Abitterbrinecrustedthefisher’scheek——
"AlmightyGod,onethingaloneIask,Showmeatask,atask!"
Thehardcupoftheskyshone,gemmedandbleak。
"Olove,whomIhavesoughtbydeviousways;
Ohiddenbeauty,nakedasastar;
Youwhosebrighthairhasburnedacrossmydays,Makingthemlampsofpraise;
Odawn-wind,breathingofArabia!
"YouhaveIserved。Nowfirehasparchedthevine,AndDeathisonthesingersandthesong。
Nolongeraretherelipstoclingtomine,Andtheheartweariesofwine,AndIamsick,formydesireislong。
"Olove,soft-moving,delicateandtender!
Inhergoldhousethepipecallsquerulously,Theycloudwiththingreensilksherbodyslender,Theytalktoherandtendher;
Come,piteous,gentlelove,andsetmefree!"
Heceased——and,slowlyrisingo’erthedeep,Afaintsongchimed,grewclearer,tillatlastAgoldenhornoflightbegantocreepWherethedumbripplessweep,Makingtheseaonesplendorwhereitpassed。
Agoldenboat!Thebrightoarsrestedsoon,Andtheprowmetthesand。ThepurpleveilsMistingthecabinfell。FairasthemoonWhenthemorningcomestoosoon,Andalltheairissilverinthedales,Agold-robedprincesssteppeduponthebeach。
Thefisherkneltandkissedhergarment’shem,Andthenherlips,andstroveatlastforspeech。
Thewaterslappedthereach。
"Herethystrengthbreaks,thymightisnoughttostem!"
Hecriedatlast。Speechshookhimlikeaflame:
"Yea,thoughthoupluckedthestarsfromoutthesky,Eachlovelyonewouldbeawitheredshame——
Eachthoucouldstfindorname——
Tothisfire-heartedbeauty!"WearilyThegenieheard。AslowsmilecamelikedawnOverhisface。"Thytaskisdone!"hesaid。
Awhirlwindroared,smokeshattered,hewasgone;
And,likeasuddenhorn,Themoonshoneclear,nolongersmokedandred。
Theypassedintotheboat。ThegoldoarsbeatLoudly,thenfainter,fainter,tillatlastOnlythequietwatersbarelymovedAlongthewhisperingsand——tillallthevastExpanseofseabegantoshakewithheat,Andmorningbroughtsoftairs,bysailorsloved。
Andafter?……Well……
Theshop-bellclangs!Whocomes?
Quinine——IpourthelittlebittergrainsOutuponblue,glazedsquaresofpaper。So。
AndalltheduskIshallsitherealone,Withmanypowersinmyhands——ah,seeHowtheblurredlabelsrunontheoldjars!
Opium——andacruelandsleepyscent,Theharshtasteofwhitepoppies;India——
Thewrithingwoodsa-crawlwithmonstrouslife,Savewherethedeodarsaresetlikespears,Andacalmpoolismirroredebony;
Opium——brownandwarmandslender-breastedSherises,shakingoffthecoolblackwater,Andtwistingupherhair,thatripplesdown,Atorrentofblackwater,toherfeet;
Howthedropssparkleinthemoonlight!OnceImadearhymeaboutit,singingsoftly:
OverDamascuseverystarKeepshisunchangingcourseandcold,Thedarkweighslikeanironbar,Theintenseandpallidnightisold,Dimthemoon’sscimitar。
Stillthelampsblazewithinthosehalls,WherepoppiesheapthemarblevatsForgirlstotread;thethickairpalls;
AndshadowshanglikeevilbatsAboutthescentedwalls。
Thegirlsaremany,andtheysing;
Theirwhitefeetfalllikeflakesofsnow,Makingaceaselessmurmuring——
Whispersoflove,deadlongago,Anddear,forgottenSpring。
Onealonesingsnot。TiredlySheseesthewhitebloomscrushed,andsmellsTheheavyscent。Theychatter:"See!
WhiteZirathinksofnothingelseButthemorn’sjollity——
"ThenHarountakesher!"Butshedreams,Unhearing,ofacertainfieldOfpoppies,cutbymanystreams,LikelinesacrossaroundTurkshield,Wherenowthehotsungleams。
Thefieldwhereontheywalkedthatday,Andsplendorfilledherbodyup,Andhis;andthenthetrampledclay,Andslowsmokeclimbingthesky’scupFromwherethevillagelay。
Andafter——muchacheofthewrists,Wherethecordsirkedher——tillshecame,Thepriceofmanyamethysts,Hither。AndnowtheultimateshameBlewtrumpetinthelists。
Andsoshetrodthepoppiesthere,Rememberingotherpoppies,too,Anddidnotseemtoseeorcare。
Without,thefirstgraydropsofdewSweetenedthetremblingair。
Shetrodthepoppies。HourspassedUntilshesleptatlength——andTimeDraggedhisslowsickle。WhenatlastShewoke,themoonshone,brightasrime,Andnight’stiderolledonfast。
Shemoanedonce,knowingeverything;
Then,bittererthandeath,shefoundThesofthandmaidens,inaring,Cometoanointher,allaround,Thatshemightpleasetheking。
Opium——andtheodordiesaway,Leavingtheairyetheavy——cassia——myrrh——
Bitterandsplendid。See,thepoisonscome,Troopinginsquatgreenvials,blazonedredWithgrinningskulls:strychnine,apalliddustOftinygrains,likebonesgroundfine;andnextThemuddygreenofarsenic,alllivid,Likestthefaceofonelongdead——theycreepAlongthedustyshelflikedeadlybeetles,Whosefangsarecarvedwithrunnels,thatthebloodMayrundowneasilytotheblindmouthThatsnapsandgapes;andhighabovethemthere,Mymaster’spride,acobwebbed,yellowpotOfhoneyfromMountHybla。DothebeesStillmoanamongthelowsweetpurpleclover,Endlesslymany?Stillindeep-hushedwoods,WhentheincrediblesilverofthemoonComeslikealivingwindthroughsleep-bowedbranches,Stillstealdarkshapesfromtheenchantedglens,Whichyetarepurplewithhighdreams,andstillFrontingthatquietandeternalshieldWhichismuchmorethanPeace,doestherestillstandOnesharpblackshadow——andtheshort,smoothhornsAreclearagainstthatdisk?
OgreatDiana!
I,Ihavepraisedthee,yetIdonotknowWhatmovesmymindsostrangely,savethatonceIlayallnightuponathymyhill,Andwatchedtheslowcloudspasslikeheaped-upfoamAcrossbluemarble,tillatlastnospeckBlottedtheclearexpanse,andthefullmoonRoseinmuchlight,andallnightlongIsawHerorderedprogress,till,inmidmostheaven,Therecameaterriblesilence,andthemiceCrepttotheirholes,thecricketsdidnotchirp,Allthesmallnight-soundsstopped——andclearpurelightRippledlikesilkovertheuniverse,Mostcoldandbleak;andyetmyheartbeatfast,Waitinguntilthestillnessbroke。IknownotForwhatIwaited——somethingverygreat——
IdarednotlookuptotheskyforfearAbrittlecracklingshouldclashsuddenlyAgainstthequiet,andablacklinecreepAcrossthesky,andwidenlikeamouth,Untilthebrokenheavensstreamedapart,Liketornlostbanners,andtheimmortalfires,Roaringlikelions,askedtheirmeatfromGod。
Ilaythere,ablackblotuponashieldOfquivering,waterywhiteness。ThehushheldUntilIstaggeredupandcriedaloud,AndthenitseemedthatsomethingfartoogreatForknowledge,andillimitableasGod,Rentthedarkskylikelightning,andIfell,And,falling,heardawildandrushingwindOfmusic,andsawlightsthatblindedmeWithwhite,impenetrableswords,andfeltApressureofsofthandsuponmylips,Uponmyeyelids——andsincethenIcoughAttimes,andhavestrangethoughtsaboutthestars,Thatsomeday——someday——
Come,Imustbequick!
Mymasterwillbebacksoon。LetmelightThinblueArabianpastilles,andsitLikeadeadgodincensedbychantingpriests,Andwatchthepungentsmokewreatheupandup,Untilhecomes——thoughhemayragebecauseTheycostgoodmoney。ThenIshallwalkhomeOverthemoor。AlreadythemoonclimbsAbovetheworld’sedge。BythetimehecomesShewillbefullyrisen。——There’shisstep!
II。
Miscellaneous。
RainafteraVaudevilleShowThelastposeflickered,failed。Thescreen’sdeadwhiteGlaredinasuddenfloodingofharshlightStabbingtheeyes;andasIstumbledoutThecurtainrose。AfatgirlwithapoutAndlegslikehams,begantosing"HisMother"。
Gustsofbadairroseinachokingsmother;
Smoke,thewetsteamofclothes,thestenchofplush,Powder,cheapperfume,mingledinarush。
Isteppedintothelobby——andstoodstillStruckdumbbysuddenbeauty,bodyandwill。
Cleannessandrapture——excellencemadeplain——
Thestorming,thrashingarrowsoftherain!
Pouringanddrippingontheroofsandrods,Smellingofwoodsandhillsandfresh-turnedsods,Blackonthesidewalks,grayinthefarsky,Crashingonthirstypanes,onguttersdry,Hurryingthecrowdtoshelter,makingfairThestreets,thehouses,andtheheat-soakedair,——
Merciful,holy,charging,sweeping,flashing,Itsmotethesoulwithamostironclashing!……
Likedragons’eyesthestreet-lampssuddenlygleamed,Yellowandroundanddim-lowglobesofflame。
And,scarce-perceived,theclouds’tallbannersstreamed。
Outofthepettywars,thedailyshame,Beautystrovesuddenly,androse,andflowered……
Igrippedmycoatandplungedwhereawningslowered。
Madeonewithhissingblackness,caught,embraced,Bysplendorandbystrivingandswifthaste——
Springcominginwiththunderingsandstrife——
Istampedthegroundinthestrongjoyoflife!
TheCityRevisitedThegreygullsdriftacrossthebaySoftlyandstillasflakesofsnowAgainstthethinningfog。AlldayIsatandwatchedthemcomeandgo;
Andnowatlastthesunwasset,FillingthewaveswithcoloredfireTilleachseemedlikeajewelledspireThrustupfromsomedrownedcity。SoonFrompeakandcliffandminaretThecity’slightsbegantowink,Eachlikeafriendlyword。ThemoonBegantobroadenouthershield,Spurtingwithsilver。StraightbeforeThebrownhillslaylikequietbeastsStretchedoutbesideawell-loveddoor,AndfillingearthandskyandfieldWiththecalmheavingoftheirbreasts。
Nothingwasgone,nothingwaschanged,ThesmallestwavewasunestrangedByallthelongacheoftheyearsSincelastIsawthem,blindwithtears。
Theirwelcomelikethehillsstoodfast:
AndI,Ihadcomehomeatlast。
SoIlaughedoutwiththemaloudTothinkthatnowthesunwasbroad,Andclimbinguptheironsky,WheretherawstreetsstretchedsullenlyAboutanotherroomIknew,Inameanhouse——andsoonthere,too,ThesmithwouldbursttheflimsydoorAndfindmelyingonthefloor。
JustwhereIfelltheothernight,Afterthatbreakingwaveofpain。——
Howtheywillstormandrageandfight,Servantsandmistress,oneandall,"Nomoneyforthefuneral!"
Ibrokemylifethere。LetitstandAtthat。
Thewatersareaplain,Heavingandbrightoneitherhand,AtremulousandlustralpeaceWhichshallendurethoughallthingscease,FillingmyheartaswaterfillsAcup。Therestandthequiethills。
So,waitingformywingstogrow,Iwatchthegullssailtoandfro,Risingandfalling,softandswift,Driftingalongasbubblesdrift。
And,thoughIseethefaceofGodHereafter——thisdayhaveItrodNearertoHimthanIshalltreadEveragain。Thenightisdead。
Andthere’sthedawn,pouredoutlikewineAlongthedimhorizon-line。
Andfromthecitycomesthechimes——
Wehaveourheavenonearth——sometimes!
GoingBacktoSchoolTheboatploughedon。NowAlcatrazwaspastAndallthegreywavesflamedtoredagainAtthedeadsun’slastglimmer。FarandvastTheSausalitolightsburnedsuddenlyInlittledotsandclumps,asifapenHadscrawledvaguelinesofgoldacrossthehills;
Theskywaslikeacupsomerarewinefills,Andstarscameashewatched——andhewasfreeOnesplendidinstant——backinthegreatroom,CurledinachairwithallofthembesideAndthewholeworldarushofhappyvoices,Withlaughterbeatinginaclamoroustide……
SawonceagaintheheatofharvestfumeUptotheemptyskyinthreadslikeglass,Andran,andwasapartofwhatrejoicesInthunderousnightsofrain;layinthegrassSun-bakedandtired,lookingthroughamazeOftinystemsintoanewgreenworld;
Oncemoreknewevesofperfume,daysablazeWithclear,dryheatonthebrown,rollingfields;
ShudderedwithfearfulecstasyinbedOverabookofknightsandbloodyshields……
Theshipslowed,jarredandstopped。There,straightahead,Weredockandfellows。Stumbling,hewaswhirledOutandawaytomeetthem——andhisbackSlumpedtotheoldhalf-cringe,hishandsfellslack;
Abigboy’sarmwentroundhim——andatwistSentshatteringpainalonghistorturedwrist,Asavoicecried,abloatedvoiceandfat,"Whyit’sMissNancy!Comealong,yourat!"
NosImmortalesPerhapswegowithwindandcloudandsun,Intothefreecompanionshipofair;
Perhapswithsunsetswhenthedayisdone,All’sonetome——Idonotgreatlycare;
Solongastherearebrownhills——andatreeLikeamadprophetinalandofdearth——
AndIcanlieandheareternallyThevastmonotonousbreathingoftheearth。
Ihaveknownhours,slowandgolden-glowing,Lovelywithlaughterandsuffusedwithlight,OLord,insuchatimeappointmygoing,Whenthehandsclench,andthecoldfacegrowswhite,Andthesparkdieswithinthefeeblebrain,Spillingitsstar-dustbacktodustagain。
YoungBlood"But,sir,"Isaid,"theytellmethemanisliketodie!"
TheCanonshookhisheadindulgently。"Youngblood,Cousin,"heboomed。
"Youngblood!Youthwillbeserved!"——D’Hermonville’sFabliaux。
HewokeupwithasicktasteinhismouthAndlaythereheavily,whiledancingmotesWhirledthroughhisbraininendless,ripplingstreams,AndagreymistweigheddownuponhiseyesSothattheycouldnotopenfully。YetAftersometimehisblurredmindstumbledbackToitslastraggedmemory——aroom;
Airfoulwithwine;ashouting,reelingcrowdOffriendswhodraggedhim,dazedandblindwithdrinkOuttothestreet;acrazyroutofcabs;
Thesteadymutterofhisneighbor’svoice,Mumblingoutdullobscenitybyrote;
Andthen……well,theyhadbroughthimhomeitseemed,Sinceheawokeinbed——oh,damnthebusiness!
Hehadnotwantedit——thesillyjokes,"Onelast,greatnightoffreedomereyou’remarried!"
"You’llgetnofunthen!""H-ssh,don’ttellthatstory!
He’llhaveawifesoon!"——God!thesittingdownTodrinktillyouweresodden!……
LikegreatlightShecameintohisthoughts。Thatwastheworst。
TowallowinthemudlikethisbecauseHisfriendswerefools……Hewasnotfittotouch,Tosee,ohfar,faroff,thatsilverplaceWhereGodstoodmanifesttomaninher……
Foulinghimself……Onethinghebroughttoher,Atleast。Hehadbeenclean;hadtakenitAkindofpointofhonorfromthefirst……
Othersmightdoit……buthedidn’tcareForthosethings……
Suddenlyhisvisioncleared。
Andsomethingseemedtogrowwithinhismind……
Somethingwaswrong——thecolorofthewall——
Thequeershapeofthebedposts——everythingWaschanged,somehow……hisroom。Wasthishisroom?……Heturnedhishead——andsawbesidehimthereThesaggingbody’sslope,thepaint-smearedface,Andtheloose,openmouth,laxandawry,Thebreasts,thebleachedandbrittlehair……thesethings……AsifallHellwerecrushedtoonebrightlineOflightningforamoment。Thenhesank,Pronebeneathanintolerableweight。
Andbitterloathingcreptupallhislimbs。
TheQualityofCourageBlacktreesagainstanorangesky,Treesthatthewindshookterribly,Likeaharshspumealongtheroad,Quaveringuplikewitheredarms,Writhinglikestreams,liketwistedcharmsOfhotleadflunginsnow。BelowTheironicestunglikeagoad,Slashingthetornshoesfrommyfeet,Andalltheairwasbittersleet。
Andallthelandwascrampedwithsnow,Steel-strongandfierceandglimmeringwan,Likepaleplainsofobsidian。
——AndyetIstrove——andIwasfireAndice——andfireandicewereoneInonevasthungerofdesire。
Adimdesire,ofpleasantplaces,Andlushfieldsinthesummersun,Andlogsaflame,andwalls,andfaces,——Andwine,andoldambrosialtalk,Agoldenballinfountainsdancing,Andunforgottenhands。(Ah,God,ItrodthemdownwhereIhavetrod,Andtheyremain,andtheyremain,Etchedinunutterablepain,Lovedlipsandfacesnowapart,Thatoncewerecloserthanmyheart——
Inagony,inagony,Andhorriblyapartofme……
ForLetheisfornomanset,AndinHellmaynomanforget。)
Andtherewereflowers,andjugs,bright-glancing,AndoldItalianswords——andlooks,Amoment’sglanceoffire,offire,Spiring,leaping,flaminghigher,Intotheintense,thecloudlessblue,Untiltwosoulswereone,andflame,Andveryflesh,andyetthesame!
AsifallspringswerecrushedanewIntooneglobeddropofdew!
ButforthemostIthoughtofheat,Desiringgreatly……HotwhitesandThelazybodyliesatrestin,Orsun-dried,scentedgrasstonestin,Andfires,innumerablefires,GreatfagotshurlinggoldengyresOfsparksfarup,andtheredheartInsea-coals,crashingastheypartTotinyflares,andkindlingsnapping,BunchedsticksthatbursttheirstringandwrappingAndfalllikejackstraws;greenandblueTheevilflamesofdriftwoodtoo,Andheavy,sullenlumpsofcokeWithstill,fierceheatanduglysmoke……Andthenthevisionofhisface,Andtheirs,alltheirs,camelikeasword,Thrice,totheheart——andasIfellIthoughtIsawalightbefore。
Iwoke。Myhandswereblueandsore,Tornontheice。IscarcelyfeltThefrozensleetbegintomeltUponmyfaceasIbreatheddeeper,Butlaytherewarmly,likeasleeperWhoshiftshisarmonce,andmoanslow,Andthensinksbacktonight。Slow,slow,AndstillasDeath,cameSleepandDeathAndlookedatmewithquietbreath。
Unbendingfigures,blackandstarkAgainsttheintensedeepsofthedark。
Tallandliketrees。LikesweetandfireRestcreptandcreptalongmyveins,Gently。Andtherewerenomorepains……
Wasitnotbettersotolie?
Thefightwasdone。EvengodstireOffighting……Mywaywasthewrong。
NowIshoulddriftanddriftalongToendlessquiet,goldenpeace……
Andletthetorturedbodycease。
Andthenalightwinkedlikeaneye……AndverymanymilesawayAgirlstoodatawarm,litdoor,Holdingalamp。RayuponrayItcloakedthesnowwithperfectlight。
AndwhereshewastherewasnonightNorcouldbe,ever。Godissure,Andinhishandsarethingssecure。
ItisnotgivenmetotraceThelovelylaughterofthatface,Likeaclearbrookmostfulloflight,Orolivesswayingonaheight,Sosilvertheyhavewings,almost;
LikeagreatwordonceknownandlostAndmeaningallthings。NorhervoiceAhappysoundwherelarksrejoice,Herbody,thatgreatloveliness,Thetenderfashionofherdress,Imaynotpaintthem。
TheseIsee,Blazingthroughalleternity,Afire-wingedsign,aglorioustree!
Shestoodthere,andatonceIknewThebitterthingthatImustdo。
Therecouldbenosurrendernow;
ThoughSleepandDeathwerewhisperinglow。
Mywaywaswrong。So。WoulditmendIfIshrankbackbeforetheend?
Andsanktodeathandcowardice?
No,thelastleesmustbedrainedup,Basewinefromanignoblecup;
(YetnotsobaseassleekcontentWhenIhadshrunkfrompunishment)
Thewretchedbodystrainanew!
Lifewasastormtowanderthrough。
Itookthewrongway。Goodandwell,AtleastmyfeetsoughtoutnotHell!
ThoughnightwereoneconsumingflameImustgoonformybaseaim,Andso,perhaps,makeevilgrowTosomethingcleanbyagony……
Andreachthatlightuponthesnow……
Andtouchherdressatlast……
So,so,Icrawled。IcouldnotspeakorseeSavedimly。Theiceglaredlikefire,AlongbrightHellofchokingcold,Andeachveinwasatautenedwire,Throbbingwithtorture——andIcrawled。
Myhandswerewounds。
SoIattainedThesecondHell。ThesnowwasstainedIthought,andshookmyheadatitHowreditwas!Blacktree-rootsclutchedAndtore——andsoonthesnowwassmutchedAnew;andIlurchedbabblingon,Andthenfelldowntorestabit,AndcameuponanotherHell……
Loosestonesthaticemadeterrible,Thatrolledandgashedmenastheyfell。
Istumbled,slipped……andallwasgoneThatIhadgained。OncemoreIlayBeforethelongbrightHellofice。
Andstillthelightwasfaraway。
TherewasredmistbeforemyeyesOrIcouldtellyouhowIwentAcrosstheswayingfirmament,Aglitteringtortureofcoldstars,AndhowIfoughtinTitanwars……
Anddied……andlivedagainuponTherack……andhowthehorsesstrainWhentheirredtaskisnearlydone……
IonlyknowthattherewasPain,InfiniteandeternalPain。
AndthatIfell——androseagain。
Soshewaswalkingintheroad。
AndIstooduprightlikeaman,Once,andfellblind,andheardhercry……
Andthentherecamelongagony。
TherewasnopainwhenIawoke,Nopainatall。Rest,likeagoad,Spurredmyeyesopen——andlightbrokeUponthemlikeamillionswords:
Andshewasthere。Therearenowords。
Heavenisforamoment’sspan。
Andever。
SoIspokeandsaid,"Myhonorstandsupunbetrayed,AndIhaveseenyou。Dear……"
SharppainClosedlikeacloak……
Imoanedanddied。
Here,evenhere,thesethingsremain。
Ishalldrawnearertoherside。
Ohdearandlaughing,losttome,HiddeningreyEternity,Ishallattain,withburningfeet,Toyouandtothemercy-seat!
Theagescrumbledownlikedust,Darkroses,deviouslythrustAndscatteredinsweetwine——butI,Ishallliftuptoyoumycry,AndkissyourwetlipspresentlyBeneaththeever-livingTree。
ThisinmyheartIkeepforgoad!
Somewhere,inHeavenshewalksthatroad。
Somewhere……inHeaven……shewalks……that……road……
CampusSonnets:
1。BeforeanExaminationThelittlelettersdanceacrossthepage,Flauntandretire,andtrickthetiredeyes;
Sickofthestrain,theglaringlight,IriseYawningandstretching,fullofemptyrageAtthedullmaunderingsofalongdeadsage,Flingupthewindows,flingasidehislies;
Choosingtobreathe,notstifleandbewise,Andlettheairpourinuponmycage。
ThebreezeblowscoolandtherearestarsandstarsBeyondthedark,softmassesoftheelmsThatwhisperthingsinwindytonesandlight。
Theyseemtowheelfordim,celestialwars;
AndI——IheartheclashofsilverhelmsRingicy-clearfromthefardeepsofnight。
2。TalkTobaccosmokedriftsuptothedimceilingFromhalfadozenpipesandcigarettes,Curlinginendlessshapes,inblueringswheeling,Asformlessasourtalk。Phil,drawling,betsCornellwillwintherelayinawalk,WhileBobandMacdiscusstheGiants’chances;
Deepinamorris-chair,Billscowlsat"Falk",Johngiveslargeviewsaboutthelastfewdances。
Andsoitgoes——anidlespeechandaimless,Afewchancephrases;yetIseebehindTheemptywordsthegleamofabeautytameless,Friendshipandpeaceandfiretostrikemenblind,Tillthewholeworldseemssmallandbrighttohold——
Ofallouryouththishourispuregold。
3。MayMorningIliestretchedoutuponthewindow-seatAnddoze,andreadapageortwo,anddoze,Andfeeltheairlikewateronmeclose,GreatwavesofsunnyairthatlipandbeatWithasmallnoise,monotonousandsweet,Againstthewindow——andthescentofcool,Frailflowersbysomebrownanddew-drenchedpoolPossessesmefromdrowsyheadtofeet。
Thisisthetimeofall-sufficinglaughterAtidioticthingssomeonehasdone,Andthereisneitherpastnorvaguehereafter。
AndallyourbodystretchesinthesunAnddrinksthelightinlikealiquidthing;
Filledwiththedivinelanguoroflatespring。
4。Return——1917
"TheCollegewillreopenSept。——。"`Catalogue’。
IwasjustaimingatthejaggedholeTornintheyellowsandbagsoftheirtrench,Whensomethingthrewmesidewayswithawrench,AndtheskiesseemedtoshrivellikeascrollAnddisappear……andproppedagainsttheboleOfabigelmIlay,andwatchedthecloudsFloatthroughtheblue,deepskyinspecklesscrowds,AndIwascleanagain,andyoung,andwhole。
Lord,whatadreamthatwas!AndwhatadozeWaitingforBilltocomealongtoclass!
I’vecutitnow——andhe——Oh,hello,Fred!
Why,what’sthematter?——here——don’tbeanass,Sitdownandtellme!——Whatdoyousuppose?
IdreamedI……AMI……wounded?"YOUAREDEAD。"
AlexanderVIDineswiththeCardinalofCapuaNext,then,thepeacock,giltWithallitsfeathers。Look,whatgorgeousdyesFlowintheeyes!
Andhowdeep,lustrousgreensaresplashedandspiltAlongtheback,thatlikeasea-wave’screstScatterssoftbeautyo’erth’emblazonedbreast!
Astrangefowl!ButmostfitForfeastslikethis,wherebyIhonoronePureasthesun!
Yetglowingwiththefieryzealofit!
Somewine?Yourgoblet’sempty?Letitfoam!
ItisnotoftenthatyoucometoRome!
YouliketheVeniceglass?
Rippledwithlinesthatfloatlikewomen’scurls,Necklikeagirl’s,Fierce-glowingasachaliceintheMass?
Youstart——’twasartistthen,notPopewhospoke!
AveMariastella!——ah,itbroke!
’TissaidtheybreakaloneWhenpoisonwritheswithin。Afoolishtale!
What,youlookpale?
Caraffa,fetchasilvercup!……YouownABirthofVenus,now——orsoI’veheard,Lovelyasthebreast-plumageofabird。
AlsoaDancingFaun,HewnwiththelithegraceofPraxiteles;
GlobedpearlstopleaseAsultan;goldenveilsthatdroplikelawn——
HowhappyIcouldbewithbutatitheOfyourpossessions,fortunateone!Don’twritheButtakethesecushionshere!
Nowforthefruit!Greatpeaches,satin-skinned,Roughtamarind,Pomegranatesredaslips——ohtheycomedear!
Butmenlikeyouwefeastatanyprice——
Aplumperhaps?They’relookingrathernice!
I’llcutthethinginhalf。
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