"Idon’tknowwhatyouimaginebetweenthem,"saidMrs。Nettlepoint。
"Well,nothing,"Iallowed,"butwhatwasvisibleonthesurface。Ittranspired,asthenewspaperssay,thattheywereoldfriends。"
"Hemetheratsomepromiscuousparty——Iaskedhimaboutitafterwards。She’snotaperson"——myhostesswasconfident——"whomhecouldeverthinkofseriously。"
"That’sexactlywhatIbelieve。"
"Youdon’tobserve——youknow——youimagine,"Mrs。Nettlepointcontinuedtoargue。"HowdoyoureconcileherlayingatrapforJasperwithhergoingouttoLiverpoolonanerrandoflove?"
OhIwasn’ttobecaughtthatway!"Idon’tforaninstantsupposeshelaidatrap;Ibelievesheactedontheimpulseofthemoment。
She’sgoingouttoLiverpoolonanerrandofmarriage;that’snotnecessarilythesamethingasanerrandoflove,especiallyforonewhohappenstohavehadapersonalimpressionofthegentlemanshe’sengagedto。"
"Well,therearecertaindecencieswhichinsuchasituationthemostabandonedofhersexwouldstillobserve。Youapparentlyjudgehercapable——onnoevidence——ofviolatingthem。"
"Ahyoudon’tunderstandtheshadesofthings,"Ireturned。
"Decenciesandviolations,dearlady——there’snoneedforsuchheavyartillery!IcanperfectlyimaginethatwithouttheleastimmodestysheshouldhavesaidtoJasperonthebalcony,infactifnotinwords:’I’mindreadfulspirits,butifyoucomeIshallfeelbetter,andthatwillbepleasantforyoutoo。’"
"Andwhyissheindreadfulspirits?"
"Sheisn’t!"Ireplied,laughing。
Mypoorfriendwondered。"Whatthenisshedoing?"
"She’swalkingwithyourson。"
Mrs。Nettlepointforamomentsaidnothing;thenshetreatedmetoanotherinconsequence。"Ahshe’shorrid!"
"No,she’scharming!"Iprotested。
"Youmeanshe’s’curious’?"
"Well,formeit’sthesamething!"
ThisledmyfriendofcoursetodeclareoncemorethatIwascold-
blooded。Ontheafternoonofthemorrowwehadanothertalk,andshetoldmethatinthemorningMissMavishadpaidheralongvisit。
Sheknewnothing,poorcreature,aboutanything,butherintentionsweregoodandshewasevidentlyinherowneyesconscientiousanddecorous。AndMrs。Nettlepointconcludedtheseremarkswiththesigh"Unfortunateperson!"
"Youthinkshe’sagooddealtobepitiedthen?"
"Well,herstorysoundsdreary——shetoldmeagooddealofit。Shefelltotalkinglittlebylittleandwentfromonethingtoanother。
She’sinthatsituationwhenagirlMUSTopenherself——tosomewoman。"
"Hasn’tshegotJasper?"Iasked。
"Heisn’tawoman。Youstrikemeasjealousofhim,"mycompanionadded。
"IdaresayHEthinksso——orwillbeforetheend。Ahno——ahno!"AndIaskedMrs。Nettlepointifouryoungladystruckheras,verygrossly,aflirt。Shegavemenoanswer,butwentontoremarkthatshefounditoddandinterestingtoseethewayagirllikeGraceMavisresembledthegirlsofthekindsheherselfknewbetter,thegirlsof"society,"atthesametimethatshedifferedfromthem;andthewaythedifferencesandresemblancesweresomixedupthatoncertainquestionsyoucouldn’ttellwhereyou’dfindher。You’dthinkshe’dfeelasyoudidbecauseyouhadfoundherfeelingso,andthensuddenly,inregardtosomeothermatter——whichwasyetquitethesame——she’dbeutterlywanting。Mrs。Nettlepointproceededtoobserve——tosuchidlespeculationsdoesthevacancyofsea-hoursgiveencouragement——thatshewonderedwhetheritwerebettertobeanordinarygirlverywellbroughtuporanextraordinarygirlnotbroughtupatall。
"OhIgoinfortheextraordinarygirlunderallcircumstances。"
It’struethatifyou’reVERYwellbroughtupyou’renot,youcan’tbe,ordinary,"saidMrs。Nettlepoint,smellingherstrongsalts。
"You’realady,atanyrate。"
"AndMissMavisisfiftymilesout——isthatwhatyoumean?"
"Well——you’veseenhermother。"
"Yes,butIthinkyourcontentionwouldbethatamongsuchpeoplethemotherdoesn’tcount。"
"Precisely,andthat’sbad。"
"Iseewhatyoumean。Butisn’titratherhard?Ifyourmotherdoesn’tknowanythingit’sbetteryoushouldbeindependentofher,andyetifyouarethatconstitutesabadnote。"IaddedthatMrs。
Mavishadappearedtocountsufficientlytwonightsbefore。Shehadsaidanddoneeverythingshewanted,whilethegirlsatsilentandrespectful。Grace’sattitude,sofarasherparentwasconcerned,hadbeeneminentlydecent。
"Yes,butshe’squirmed’forher,"saidMrs。Nettlepoint。
"AhifyouknowitImayconfessshehastoldmeasmuch。"
Myfriendstared。"ToldYOU?There’soneofthethingstheydo!"
"Well,itwasonlyaword。Won’tyouletmeknowwhetheryoudothinkheraflirt?"
"Tryheryourself——that’sbetterthanaskinganotherwoman;
especiallyasyoupretendtostudyfolk。"
"Ohyourjudgementwouldn’tprobablyatalldeterminemine。It’sasbearingonYOUIaskit。"Which,however,demandedexplanation,sothatIwasdulyfrank;confessingmyselfcuriousastohowfarmaternalimmoralitywouldgo。
Itmadeheratfirstbutrepeatmywords。"Maternalimmorality?"
"Youdesireyoursontohaveeverypossibledistractiononhisvoyage,andifyoucanmakeupyourmindinthesenseIrefertothatwillmakeitallright。He’llhavenoresponsibility。"
"Heavens,howyouanalyse!"shecried。"Ihaven’tintheleastyourpassionformakingupmymind。"
"Thenifyouchanceit,"Ireturned,"you’llbemoreimmoralstill。"
"Yourreasoning’sstrange,"saidMrs。Nettlepoint;"whenitwasyouwhotriedtoputintomyheadyesterdaythatshehadaskedhimtocome。"
"Yes,butingoodfaith。"
"Whatdoyoumean,insuchacase,bythat?"
"Why,asgirlsofthatsortdo。Theirallowanceandmeasureinsuchmatters,"Iexpounded,"ismuchlargerthanthatofyoungpersonswhohavebeen,asyousay,VERYwellbroughtup;andyetI’mnotsurethatonthewholeIdon’tthinkthemtherebythemoreinnocent。MissMavisisengaged,andshe’stobemarriednextweek,butit’sanoldoldstory,andthere’snomoreromanceinitthanifsheweregoingtobephotographed。Soherusuallifeproceeds,andherusuallifeconsists——andthatofcesdemoisellesingeneral——inhavingplentyofgentlemen’ssociety。HavingitImeanwithouthavinganyharmfromit。"
Mrs。Nettlepointhadgivenmedueattention。"Well,ifthere’snoharmfromitwhatareyoutalkingaboutandwhyamIimmoral?"
Ihesitated,laughing。"Iretract——you’resaneandclear。I’msureshethinkstherewon’tbeanyharm,"Iadded。"That’sthegreatpoint。"
"Thegreatpoint?"
"Tobesettled,Imean。"
"Mercy,we’renottryingthem!"criedmyfriend。"HowcanWEsettleit?"
"Imeanofcourseinourminds。Therewillbenothingmoreinterestingthesenexttendaysforourmindstoexercisethemselvesupon。"
"Thenthey’llgetterriblytiredofit,"saidMrs。Nettlepoint。
"No,no——becausetheinterestwillincreaseandtheplotwillthicken。Itsimplycan’tNOT,"Iinsisted。ShelookedatmeasifshethoughtmemorethanMephistophelean,andIwentbacktosomethingshehadlatelymentioned。"Soshetoldyoueverythinginherlifewasdreary?"
"Noteverything,butmostthings。Andshedidn’ttellmesomuchasIguessedit。She’lltellmemorethenexttime。She’llbehaveproperlynowaboutcomingintoseeme;Itoldhersheoughtto。"
"I’mgladofthat,"Isaid。"Keepherwithyouasmuchaspossible。"
"Idon’tfollowyouclosely,"Mrs。Nettlepointreplied,"butsofarasIdoIdon’tthinkyourremarksinthebesttaste。"
"Well,I’mtooexcited,Ilosemyheadinthesesports,"Ihadtorecognise——"cold-bloodedasyouthinkme。Doesn’tshelikeMr。
Porterfield?"
"Yes,that’stheworstofit。"
Ikeptmakingherstare。"Theworstofit?"
"He’ssogood——there’snofaulttobefoundwithhim。Otherwiseshe’dhavethrownitallup。Ithasdraggedonsinceshewaseighteen:shebecameengagedtohimbeforehewentabroadtostudy。
ItwasoneofthoseveryyoungandperfectlyneedlessblundersthatparentsinAmericamightmakesomuchlesspossiblethantheydo。
Thethingistoinsistonone’sdaughterwaiting,ontheengagement’sbeinglong;andthen,afteryou’vegotthatstarted,totakeitoneveryoccasionaslittleseriouslyaspossible——tomakeitdieout。
Youcaneasilytireittodeath,"Mrs。Nettlepointcompetentlystated。"However,"sheconcluded,"Mr。Porterfieldhastakenthisoneseriouslyforsomeyears。Hehasdonehisparttokeepitalive。
Shesaysheadoresher。"
"Hispart?Surelyhispartwouldhavebeentomarryherbythistime。"
"Hehasreallynomoney。"MyfriendwasevenmoreconfidentlyabletoreportitthanIhadbeen。
"Heoughttohavegotsome,insevenyears,"Iaudiblyreflected。
"SoIthinkshethinks。Therearesomesortsofhelplessnessthatarecontemptible。However,asmalldifferencehastakenplace。
That’swhyhewon’twaitanylonger。Hismotherhascomeout,shehassomething——alittle——andshe’sabletoassisthim。She’lllivewiththemandbearsomeoftheexpenses,andafterherdeaththesonwillhavewhatthereis。"
"Howoldisshe?"Icynicallyasked。
"Ihaven’ttheleastidea。Butitdoesn’t,onhispart,soundveryheroic——orveryinspiringforourfriendhere。Hehasn’tbeentoAmericasincehefirstwentout。"
"That’sanoddwayofadoringher,"Iobserved。
"Imadethatobjectionmentally,butIdidn’texpressittoher。Shemetitindeedalittlebytellingmethathehadhadotherchancestomarry。"
"Thatsurprisesme,"Iremarked。"Butdidshesay,"Iasked,"thatSHEhadhad?"
"No,andthat’soneofthethingsIthoughtniceinher;forshemusthavehad。Shedidn’ttrytomakeoutthathehadspoiledherlife。
Shehasthreeothersistersandthere’sverylittlemoneyathome。
Shehastriedtomakemoney;shehaswrittenlittlethingsandpaintedlittlethings——anddreadfullittlethingstheymusthavebeen;toobadtothinkof。Herfatherhashadalongillnessandhaslosthisplace——hewasinreceiptofasalaryinconnexionwithsomewaterworks——andoneofhersistershaslatelybecomeawidow,withchildrenandwithoutmeans。Andsoasinfactsheneverhasmarriedanyoneelse,whateveropportunitiesshemayhaveencountered,sheappearstohavejustmadeuphermindtogoouttoMr。Porterfieldastheleastofherevils。Butitisn’tveryamusing。"
"Well,"Ijudgedafterall,"thatonlymakesherdoingitthemorehonourable。She’llgothroughwithit,whateveritcosts,ratherthandisappointhimafterhehaswaitedsolong。It’strue,"I
continued,"thatwhenawomanactsfromasenseofhonour——!"
"Well,whenshedoes?"saidMrs。Nettlepoint,forIhungbackperceptibly。
"It’softensoextravagantandunnaturalaproceedingastoentailheavycostsonsomeone。"
"You’reveryimpertinent。Weallhavetopayforeachotherallthewhileandforeachother’svirtuesaswellasvices。"
"That’spreciselywhyIshallbesorryforMr。Porterfieldwhenshestepsofftheshipwithherlittlebill。Imeanwithherteethclenched。"
"Herteetharenotintheleastclenched。She’squiteathereasenow"——Mrs。Nettlepointcouldanswerforthat。
"Well,wemusttryandkeepherso,"Isaid。
"YoumusttakecarethatJasperneglectsnothing。"Iscarceknowwhatreflexionsthisinnocentpleasantryofmineprovokedonthegoodlady’spart;theupshotofthematalleventswastomakehersay:
"Well,Ineveraskedhertocome;I’mverygladofthat。It’salltheirowndoing。"
"’Their’own——youmeanJasper’sandhers?"
"Noindeed。Imeanhermother’sandMrs。Allen’s;thegirl’stooofcourse。Theyputthemselvesonusbymainforce。"
"Ohyes,Icantestifytothat。ThereforeI’mgladtoo。Weshouldhavemissedit,Ithink。"
"Howseriouslyyoutakeit!"Mrs。Nettlepointamusedlycried。
"Ahwaitafewdays!"——andIgotuptoleaveher。
CHAPTERIII
ThePatagoniawasslow,butspaciousandcomfortable,andtherewasamotherlydecencyinherlongnursingrockandherrustlingold-
fashionedgait,themultitudinousswish,inherwake,asofathousandproperpetticoats。Itwasasifshewishednottopresentherselfinportwiththesplashedeagernessofayoungcreature。Weweren’tnumerousenoughquitetoelboweachotherandyetweren’ttoofewtosupport——withthatfamiliarityandreliefwhichfiguresandobjectsacquireonthegreatbarefieldoftheoceanandunderthegreatbrightglassofthesky。Ihadneverlikedtheseasomuchbefore,indeedIhadneverlikeditatall;butnowIhadarevelationofhowinamidsummermooditcouldplease。Itwasdarklyandmagnificentlyblueandimperturbablyquiet——saveforthegreatregularswellofitsheartbeats,thepulseofitslife;andtheregrewtobesomethingsoagreeableinthesenseoffloatingthereininfiniteisolationandleisurethatitwasapositivegodsendthePatagoniawasnoracer。Onehadneverthoughtoftheseaasthegreatplaceofsafety,butnowitcameoveronethatthere’snoplacesosafefromtheland。Whenitdoesn’tconfertroubleittakestroubleaway——takesawaylettersandtelegramsandnewspapersandvisitsanddutiesandefforts,allthecomplications,allthesuperfluitiesandsuperstitionsthatwehavestuffedintoourterrenelife。Thesimpleabsenceofthepost,whentheparticularconditionsenableyoutoenjoythegreatfactbywhichit’sproduced,becomesinitselfapositivebliss,andthecleanboardsofthedeckturntothestageofaplaythatamuses,thepersonaldramaofthevoyage,themovementandinteraction,inthestrongsea-light,offiguresthatendbyrepresentingsomething——somethingmoreoverofwhichtheinterestisnever,eveninitskeenness,toogreattosufferyoutoslumber。Iatanyratedozedtoexcess,stretchedonmyrugwithaFrenchnovel,andwhenIopenedmyeyesIgenerallysawJasperNettlepointpasswiththeyoungwomanconfidedtohismother’scareonhisarm。Somehowatthesemoments,betweensleepingandwaking,I
inconsequentlyfeltthatmyFrenchnovelhadsettheminmotion。
PerhapsthiswasbecauseIhadfallenintothetrick,atthestart,ofregardingGraceMavisalmostasamarriedwoman,which,aseveryoneknows,isthenecessarystatusoftheheroineofsuchawork。
Everyrevolutionofourengineatanyratewouldcontributetotheeffectofmakingherone。
Inthesaloon,atmeals,myneighbourontherightwasacertainlittleMrs。Peck,averyshortandveryroundpersonwhoseheadwasenvelopedina"cloud"(acloudofdirtywhitewool)andwhopromptlyletmeknowthatshewasgoingtoEuropefortheeducationofherchildren。Ihadalreadyperceived——anhourafterweleftthedock——
thatsomeenergeticmeasurewasrequiredintheirinterest,butaswewerenotinEuropeyettheredemptionofthefourlittlePeckswasstayed。Enjoyinguntrammelledleisuretheyswarmedabouttheshipasiftheyhadbeenpiratesboardingher,andtheirmotherwasaspowerlesstochecktheirlicenceasifshehadbeengaggedandstowedawayinthehold。Theywereespeciallytobetrustedtodivebetweenthelegsofthestewardswhentheseattendantsarrivedwithbowlsofsoupforthelanguidladies。Theirmotherwastoobusycountingovertoherfellow-passengersalltheyearsMissMavishadbeenengaged。
Intheblankofourcommondetachmentthingsthatwerenobody’sbusinessverysoonbecameeverybody’s,andthiswasjustoneofthosefactsthatarepropagatedwithmysteriousandridiculousspeed。Thewhisperthatcarriesthemisverysmall,inthegreatscaleofthings,ofairandspaceandprogress,butit’salsoverysafe,forthere’snocompression,nosounding-board,tomakespeakersresponsible。Andthenrepetitionatseaissomehownotrepetition;
monotonyisintheair,themindisflatandeverythingrecurs——thebells,themeals,thestewards’faces,therompofchildren,thewalk,theclothes,theveryshoesandbuttonsofpassengerstakingtheirexercise。Thesethingsfinallygrowatoncesocircumstantialandsoaridthat,incomparison,lightsonthepersonalhistoryofone’scompanionsbecomeasubstituteforthefriendlyflickerofthelostfireside。
JasperNettlepointsatonmylefthandwhenhewasnotupstairsseeingthatMissMavishadherrepastcomfortablyondeck。Hismother’splacewouldhavebeennextminehadsheshownherself,andthenthatoftheyoungladyunderhercare。Thesecompanions,inotherwords,wouldhavebeenbetweenus,Jaspermarkingthelimitofthepartyinthatquarter。MissMaviswaspresentatluncheonthefirstday,butdinnerpassedwithouthercomingin,andwhenitwashalfoverJasperremarkedthathewouldgoupandlookafterher。
"Isn’tthatyoungladycoming——theonewhowasheretolunch?"Mrs。
Peckaskedofmeasheleftthesaloon。
"Apparentlynot。Myfriendtellsmeshedoesn’tlikethesaloon。"
"Youdon’tmeantosayshe’ssick,doyou?"
"Ohno,notinthisweather。Butshelikestobeabove。"
"Andisthatgentlemangoneuptoher?"
"Yes,she’sunderhismother’scare。"
"Andishismotherupthere,too?"askedMrs。Peck,whoseprocesseswerehomelyanddirect。
"No,sheremainsinhercabin。Peoplehavedifferenttastes。
Perhapsthat’sonereasonwhyMissMavisdoesn’tcometotable,"I
added——"herchaperonnotbeingabletoaccompanyher。"
"Herchaperon?"myfellowpassengerechoed。
"Mrs。Nettlepoint——theladyunderwhoseprotectionshehappenstobe。"
"Protection?"Mrs。Peckstaredatmeamoment,movingsomevaluedmorselinhermouth;thensheexclaimedfamiliarly"Pshaw!"Iwasstruckwiththisandwasonthepointofaskingherwhatshemeantbyitwhenshecontinued:"Ain’twegoingtoseeMrs。Nettlepoint?"
"I’mafraidnot。Shevowsshewon’tstirfromhersofa。"
"Pshaw!"saidMrs。Peckagain。"That’squiteadisappointment。"
"Doyouknowherthen?"
"No,butIknowallabouther。"Thenmycompanionadded:"Youdon’tmeantosayshe’sanyrealrelation?"
"Doyoumeantome?"
"No,toGraceMavis。"
"Noneatall。They’reverynewfriends,asIhappentoknow。Thenyou’reacquaintedwithouryounglady?"Ihadn’tnoticedthepassageofanyrecognitionbetweenthematluncheon。
"Issheyouryoungladytoo?"askedMrs。Peckwithhighsignificance。
"Ahwhenpeopleareinthesameboat——literally——theybelongalittletoeachother。"
"That’sso,"saidMrs。Peck。"Idon’tknowMissMavis,butIknowallabouther——IliveoppositetoheronMerrimacAvenue。Idon’tknowwhetheryouknowthatpart。"
"Ohyes——it’sverybeautiful。"
Theconsequenceofthisremarkwasanother"Pshaw!"ButMrs。Peckwenton:"Whenyou’velivedoppositetopeoplelikethatforalongtimeyoufeelasifyouhadsomerightsinthem——titfortat!Butshedidn’ttakeituptoday;shedidn’tspeaktome。SheknowswhoI
amaswellassheknowsherownmother。"
"Youhadbetterspeaktoherfirst——she’sconstitutionallyshy,"I
remarked。
"Shy?She’sconstitutionallytough!Whyshe’sthirtyyearsold,"
criedmyneighbour。"Isupposeyouknowwhereshe’sgoing。"
"Ohyes——wealltakeaninterestinthat。"
"Thatyoungman,Isuppose,particularly。"AndthenasIfeignedavagueness:"ThehandsomeonewhositsTHERE。Didn’tyoutellmehe’sMrs。Nettlepoint’sson?"
"Ohyes——heactsasherdeputy。Nodoubthedoesallhecantocarryoutherfunction。"
Mrs。Peckbrieflybrooded。Ihadspokenjocosely,butshetookitwithaseriousface。"Well,shemightlethimeathisdinnerinpeace!"shepresentlyputforth。
"Ohhe’llcomeback!"Isaid,glancingathisplace。TherepastcontinuedandwhenitwasfinishedIscrewedmychairroundtoleavethetable。Mrs。Peckperformedthesamemovementandwequittedthesaloontogether。Outsideofitwastheusualvestibule,withseveralseats,fromwhichyoucoulddescendtothelowercabinsormounttothepromenade-deck。Mrs。Peckappearedtohesitateastohercourseandthensolvedtheproblembygoingneitherway。Shedroppedononeofthebenchesandlookedupatme。
"Ithoughtyousaidhe’dcomeback。"
"YoungNettlepoint?Yes,Iseehedidn’t。MissMavisthenhasgivenhimhalfherdinner。"
"It’sverykindofher!Shehasbeenengagedhalfherlife。"
"Yes,butthatwillsoonbeover。"
"SoIsuppose——asquickaseverweland。EveryoneknowsitonMerrimacAvenue,"Mrs。Peckpursued。"Everyonetheretakesagreatinterestinit。"
"Ahofcourse——agirllikethathasmanyfriends。"
Butmyinformantdiscriminated。"Imeanevenpeoplewhodon’tknowher。"
"Isee,"Iwenton:"she’ssohandsomethatsheattractsattention——
peopleenterintoheraffairs。"
Mrs。Peckspokeasfromthecommandingcentreofthese。"SheUSEDtobepretty,butIcan’tsayIthinkshe’sanythingremarkabletoday。
Anyhow,ifsheattractsattentionsheoughttobeallthemorecarefulwhatshedoes。Youhadbettertellherthat。"
"Ohit’snoneofmybusiness!"Ieasilymadeout,leavingtheterriblelittlewomanandgoingabove。Thisprofession,Igrant,wasnotperfectlyattunedtomyrealidea,orrathermyrealideawasnotquiteinharmonywithmyprofession。TheveryfirstthingIdidonreachingthedeckwastonoticethatMissMaviswaspacingitonJasperNettlepoint’sarmandthatwhateverbeautyshemighthavelost,accordingtoMrs。Peck’sinsinuation,shestillkeptenoughtomakeone’seyesfollowher。Shehadputonacrimsonhood,whichwasverybecomingtoherandwhichsheworefortherestofthevoyage。
Shewalkedverywell,withlongsteps,andIrememberthatatthismomenttheseahadagentleeveningswellwhichmadethegreatshipdipslowly,rhythmically,givingamovementthatwasgracefultogracefulpedestriansandamoreawkwardonetotheawkward。Itwastheloveliesthourofafineday,theclearearlyevening,withtheglowofthesunsetintheairandapurplecolouronthedeep。ItwasalwayspresenttomethatsothewatersploughedbytheHomericheroesmusthavelooked。IbecameconsciousonthisparticularoccasionmoreoverthatGraceMaviswouldfortherestofthevoyagebethemostvisiblethinginone’srange,thefigurethatwouldcountmostinthecompositionofgroups。Shecouldn’thelpit,poorgirl;
naturehadmadeherconspicuous——important,asthepainterssay。Shepaidforitbythecorrespondingexposure,thedangerthatpeoplewould,asIhadsaidtoMrs。Peck,enterintoheraffairs。
JasperNettlepointwentdownatcertaintimestoseehismother,andIwatchedforoneoftheseoccasions——onthethirddayout——andtookadvantageofittogoandsitbyMissMavis。Sheworealightblueveildrawntightlyoverherface,sothatifthesmilewithwhichshegreetedmeratherlackedintensityIcouldaccountforitpartlybythat。
"Well,we’regettingon——we’regettingon,"Isaidcheerfully,lookingatthefriendlytwinklingsea。
"Arewegoingveryfast?"
"Notfast,butsteadily。OhneHast,ohneRast——doyouknowGerman?"
"Well,I’vestudiedit——some。"
"Itwillbeusefultoyouovertherewhenyoutravel。"
"Wellyes,ifwedo。ButIdon’tsupposeweshallmuch。Mr。
Nettlepointsaysweought,"myyoungwomanaddedinamoment。
"AhofcourseHEthinksso。Hehasbeenallovertheworld。"
"Yes,hehasdescribedsomeoftheplaces。Theymustbewonderful。
Ididn’tknowIshouldlikeitsomuch。"
"Butitisn’t’Europe’yet!"Ilaughed。
Well,shedidn’tcareifitwasn’t。"Imeangoingonthisway。I
couldgoonforever——foreverandever。"
"Ahyouknowit’snotalwayslikethis,"Ihastenedtomention。
"Well,it’sbetterthanBoston。"
"Itisn’tsogoodasParis,"Istillmoreportentouslynoted。
"OhIknowallaboutParis。There’snofreshnessinthat。IfeelasifIhadbeenthereallthetime。"
"Youmeanyou’veheardsomuchofit?"
"Ohyes,nothingelsefortenyears。"
IhadcometotalkwithMissMavisbecauseshewasattractive,butI
hadbeenratherconsciousoftheabsenceofagoodtopic,notfeelingatlibertytoreverttoMr。Porterfield。Shehadn’tencouragedme,whenIspoketoheraswewereleavingBoston,togoonwiththehistoryofmyacquaintancewiththisgentleman;andyetnow,unexpectedly,sheappearedtoimply——itwasdoubtlessoneofthedisparitiesmentionedbyMrs。Nettlepoint——thathemightbeglancedatwithoutindelicacy。
"Isee——youmeanbyletters,"Iremarked。
"Wewon’tliveinagoodpart。Iknowenoughtoknowthat,"shewenton。
"Well,itisn’tasiftherewereanyverybadones,"Iansweredreassuringly。
"WhyMr。Nettlepointsaysit’sregularmean。"
"Andtowhatdoesheapplythatexpression?"
SheeyedmeamomentasifIwereelegantatherexpense,butsheansweredmyquestion。"UpthereintheBatignolles。Iseemtomakeoutit’sworsethanMerrimacAvenue。"
"Worse——inwhatway?"
"Why,evenlesswherethenicepeoplelive。"
"Heoughtn’ttosaythat,"Ireturned。AndIventuredtobackitup。
"Don’tyoucallMr。Porterfieldaniceperson?"
"Ohitdoesn’tmakeanydifference。"Shewatchedmeagainamomentthroughherveil,thetextureofwhichgaveherlookasuffusedprettiness。"Doyouknowhimverylittle?"sheasked。
"Mr。Porterfield?"
"No,Mr。Nettlepoint。"
"Ahverylittle。He’sveryconsiderablymyjunior,yousee。"
Shehadafreshpause,asifalmostagainformyelegance;butshewenton:"He’syoungerthanmetoo。"Idon’tknowwhateffectofthecomictherecouldhavebeeninit,buttheturnwasunexpectedanditmademelaugh。NeitherdoIknowwhetherMissMavistookoffenceatmysensibilityonthishead,thoughIrememberthinkingatthemomentwithcompunctionthatithadbroughtaflushtohercheek。
Atalleventsshegotup,gatheringhershawlandherbooksintoherarm。"I’mgoingdown——I’mtired。"
"Tiredofme,I’mafraid。"
"No,notyet。"
"I’mlikeyou,"Iconfessed。"Ishouldlikeittogoonandon。"
ShehadbeguntowalkalongthedecktothecompanionwayandIwentwithher。"Well,Iguess_I_wouldn’t,afterall!"
Ihadtakenhershawlfromhertocarryit,butatthetopofthestepsthatleddowntothecabinsIhadtogiveitback。"Yourmotherwouldbegladifshecouldknow,"Iobservedasweparted。
Butshewasproofagainstmygraces。"Ifshecouldknowwhat?"
"Howwellyou’regettingon。"Irefusedtobediscouraged。"AndthatgoodMrs。Allen。"
"Ohmother,mother!Shemademecome,shepushedmeoff。"Andalmostasifnottosaymoreshewentquicklybelow。
IpaidMrs。Nettlepointamorningvisitafterluncheonandanotherintheevening,beforeshe"turnedin。"Thatsameday,intheevening,shesaidtomesuddenly:"DoyouknowwhatI’vedone?I’veaskedJasper。"
"Askedhimwhat?"
"Why,ifSHEaskedhim,youunderstand。"
Iwondered。"DOIunderstand?"
"Ifyoudon’tit’sbecauseyou’regular’won’t,asshesays。Ifthatgirlreallyaskedhim——onthebalcony——tosailwithus。"
"Mydearlady,doyousupposethatifshedidhe’dtellyou?"
Shehadtorecognisemyacuteness。"That’sjustwhathesays。Buthesaysshedidn’t。"
"Anddoyouconsiderthestatementvaluable?"Iasked,laughingout。
"Youhadbetteraskyouryoungfriendherself。"
Mrs。Nettlepointstared。"Icouldn’tdothat。"
OnwhichIwasthemoreamusedthatIhadtoexplainIwasonlyamused。"Whatdoesitsignifynow?"
"Ithoughtyouthoughteverythingsignified。Youweresofull,"shecried,"ofsignification!"
"Yes,butwe’refurtheroutnow,andsomehowinmid-oceaneverythingbecomesabsolute。"
"WhatelseCANhedowithdecency?"Mrs。Nettlepointwenton。"If,asmyson,hewerenevertospeaktoheritwouldbeveryrudeandyou’dthinkthatstrangerstill。ThenYOUwoulddowhathedoes,andwherewouldbethedifference?"
"Howdoyouknowwhathedoes?Ihaven’tmentionedhimfortwenty-
fourhours。"
"Why,shetoldmeherself。Shecameinthisafternoon。"
"Whatanoddthingtotellyou!"Icommented。
"Notasshesaysit。Shesayshe’sfullofattention,perfectlydevoted——looksafterherallthetime。Sheseemstowantmetoknowit,sothatImayapprovehimforit。"
"That’scharming;itshowshergoodconscience。"
"Yes,orhergreatcleverness。"
SomethinginthetoneinwhichMrs。Nettlepointsaidthiscausedmetoreturninrealsurprise:"Whywhatdoyousupposeshehasinhermind?"
"Togetholdofhim,tomakehimgosofarhecan’tretreat。Tomarryhimperhaps。"
"Tomarryhim?AndwhatwillshedowithMr。Porterfield?"
"She’llaskmejusttomakeitallrighttohim——orperhapsyou。"
"Yes,asanoldfriend"——andforamomentIfeltitawkwardlypossible。ButIputtoherseriously:"DOyouseeJaspercaughtlikethat?"
"Well,he’sonlyaboy——he’syoungeratleastthanshe。"
"Precisely;sheregardshimasachild。Sheremarkedtomeherselftoday,thatis,thathe’ssomuchyounger。"
Mrs。Nettlepointtookthisin。"Doesshetalkofitwithyou?Thatshowsshehasaplan,thatshehasthoughtitover!"
I’vesufficientlyexpressed——fortheinterestofmyanecdote——thatI
foundanoddityinoneofouryoungcompanions,butIwasfarfromjudginghercapableoflayingatrapfortheother。MoreovermyreadingofJasperwasn’tintheleastthathewascatchable——couldbemadetodoathingifhedidn’twanttodoit。Ofcourseitwasn’timpossiblethathemightbeinclined,thathemighttakeit——oralreadyhavetakenit——intohisheadtogofurtherwithhismother’scharge;buttobelievethisIshouldrequirestillmoreproofthanhisalwaysbeingwithher。Hewantedatmostto"takeupwithher"
forthevoyage。"Ifyou’vequestionedhimperhapsyou’vetriedtomakehimfeelresponsible,"Isaidtomyfellowcritic。
"Alittle,butit’sverydifficult。Interferencemakeshimperverse。
Onehastogogently。Besides,it’stooabsurd——thinkofherage。
Ifshecan’ttakecareofherself!"criedMrs。Nettlepoint。
"Yes,letuskeepthinkingofherage,thoughit’snotsoprodigious。
Andifthingsgetverybadyou’veoneresourceleft,"Iadded。
Shewondered。"Tolockherupinhercabin?"
"No——tocomeoutofyours。"
"Ahnever,never!Ifittakesthattosavehershemustbelost。
Besides,whatgoodwoulditdo?IfIweretogoaboveshecouldcomebelow。"
"Yes,butyoucouldkeepJasperwithyou。"
"COULDI?"Mrs。Nettlepointdemandedinthemannerofawomanwhoknewherson。
Inthesaloonthenextday,afterdinner,overtheredclothofthetables,beneaththeswinginglampsandtheracksoftumblers,decantersandwine-glasses,wesatdowntowhist,Mrs。Peck,tooblige,takingahandinthegame。Sheplayedverybadlyandtalkedtoomuch,andwhentherubberwasoverassuagedherdiscomfiture(thoughnotmine——wehadbeenpartners)withaWelshrabbitandatumblerofsomethinghot。Wehaddonewiththecards,butwhileshewaitedforthisrefreshmentshesatwithherelbowsonthetableshufflingapack。
"Shehasn’tspokentomeyet——shewon’tdoit,"sheremarkedinamoment。
"Isitpossiblethere’sanyoneontheshipwhohasn’tspokentoyou?"
"Notthatgirl——sheknowstoowell!"Mrs。Pecklookedroundourlittlecirclewithasmileofintelligence——shehadfamiliarcommunicativeeyes。Severalofourcompanyhadassembled,accordingtothewont,thelastthingintheevening,ofthosewhoarecheerfulatsea,fortheconsumptionofgrilledsardinesanddevilledbones。
"Whatthendoessheknow?"
"Ohsheknows_I_know。"
"Well,weknowwhatMrs。Peckknows,"oneoftheladiesofthegroupobservedtomewithanairofprivilege。
"Well,youwouldn’tknowifIhadn’ttoldyou——fromthewaysheacts,"saidourfriendwithalaughofsmallcharm。
"She’sgoingouttoagentlemanwholivesoverthere——he’swaitingtheretomarryher,"theotherladywenton,inthetoneofauthenticinformation。IrememberthathernamewasMrs。Gotchandthathermouthlookedalwaysasifshewerewhistling。
"Ohheknows——I’vetoldhim,"saidMrs。Peck。
"Well,Ipresumeeveryoneknows,"Mrs。Gotchcontributed。
"Dearmadam,isiteveryone’sbusiness?"Iasked。
"Why,don’tyouthinkit’sapeculiarwaytoact?"——andMrs。Gotchwasevidentlysurprisedatmylittleprotest。
"Whyit’srightthere——straightinfrontofyou,likeaplayatthetheatre——asifyouhadpaidtoseeit,"saidMrs。Peck。"Ifyoudon’tcallitpublic!"
"Aren’tyoumixingthingsup?Whatdoyoucallpublic?"
"Whythewaytheygoon。They’reuptherenow。"
"Theycuddleuptherehalfthenight,"saidMrs。Gotch。"Idon’tknowwhentheycomedown。Anyhourtheylike。Whenallthelightsareoutthey’reuptherestill。"
"Ohyoucan’ttirethemout。Theydon’twantrelief——liketheship’swatch!"laughedoneofthegentlemen。
"Well,iftheyenjoyeachother’ssocietywhat’stheharm?"anotherasked。"They’ddojustthesameonland。"
"Theywouldn’tdoitonthepublicstreets,Ipresume,"saidMrs。
Peck。"Andtheywouldn’tdoitifMr。Porterfieldwasround!"
"Isn’tthatjustwhereyourconfusioncomesin?"Imadeanswer。
"It’spublicenoughthatMissMavisandMr。Nettlepointarealwaystogether,butitisn’tintheleastpublicthatshe’sgoingtobemarried。"
"Whyhowcanyousay——whentheverysailorsknowit!TheCaptainknowsitandalltheofficersknowit。Theyseethemthere,especiallyatnight,whenthey’resailingtheship。"
"Ithoughttherewassomerule——!"submittedMrs。Gotch。
"Well,thereis——thatyou’vegottobehaveyourself,"Mrs。Peckexplained。"SotheCaptaintoldme——hesaidtheyhavesomerule。Hesaidtheyhavetohave,whenpeoplearetooundignified。"
"Isthatthetermheused?"Iinquired。
"Well,hemayhavesaidwhentheyattracttoomuchattention。"
Iventuredtodiscriminate。"It’swewhoattracttheattention——bytalkingaboutwhatdoesn’tconcernusandaboutwhatwereallydon’tknow。"
"ShesaidtheCaptainsaidhe’dtellonherassoonaseverwearrive,"Mrs。Gotchnonethelessserenelypursued。
"SHEsaid——?"Irepeated,bewildered。
"Well,hedidsayso,thathe’dthinkithisdutytoinformMr。
Porterfieldwhenhecomesontomeether——iftheykeepitupinthesameway,"saidMrs。Peck。
"Ohthey’llkeepitup,don’tyoufear!"oneofthegentlemenexclaimed。
"Dearmadam,theCaptain’shavinghisjokeonyou,"was,however,myowncongruousreply。
"No,heain’t——he’srightdownscandalised。Hesaysheregardsusallasarealfamilyandwantsthefamilynottobedownrightcoarse。"IfeltMrs。Peckirritatedbymycontroversialtone:shechallengedmewithconsiderablespirit。"HowcanyousayIdon’tknowitwhenallthestreetknowsitandhasknownitforyears——foryearsandyears?"Shespokeasifthegirlhadbeenengagedatleastfortwenty。"What’sshegoingoutforifnottomarryhim?"
"Perhapsshe’sgoingtoseehowhelooks,"suggestedoneofthegentlemen。
"He’dlookqueer——ifheknew。"
"Well,Iguesshe’llknow,"saidMrs。Gotch。
"She’dtellhimherself——shewouldn’tbeafraid,"thegentlemanwenton。
"Wellshemightaswellkillhim。He’lljumpoverboard,"Mrs。Peckcouldforetell。
"Jumpoverboard?"criedMrs。GotchasifshehopedthenthatMr。
Porterfieldwouldbetold。
"Hehasjustbeenwaitingforthis——forlong,longyears,"saidMrs。
Peck。
"Doyouhappentoknowhim?"Iasked。
Sherepliedatherconvenience。"No,butIknowaladywhodoes。
Areyougoingup?"
Ihadrisenfrommyplace——Ihadnotorderedsupper。"I’mgoingtotakeaturnbeforegoingtobed。"
"Wellthenyou’llsee!"
OutsidethesaloonIhesitated,forMrs。Peck’sadmonitionmademefeelforamomentthatifIwentupIshouldhaveenteredinamannerintoherlittleconspiracy。ButthenightwassowarmandsplendidthatIhadbeenintendingtosmokeacigarintheairbeforegoingbelow,andIdidn’tseewhyIshoulddeprivemyselfofthispleasureinordertoseemnottomindMrs。Peck。Imountedaccordinglyandsawafewfiguressittingormovingaboutinthedarkness。Theoceanlookedblackandsmall,asitisapttodoatnight,andthelongmassoftheship,withitsvaguedimwings,seemedtotakeupagreatpartofit。Thereweremorestarsthanonesawonlandandtheheavensstruckonemorethaneveraslargerthantheearth。GraceMavisandhercompanionwerenot,sofarasIperceivedatfirst,amongthefewpassengerswholingeredlate,andIwasglad,becauseI
hatedtohearhertalkedaboutinthemannerofthegossipsIhadleftatsupper。Iwishedtherehadbeensomewaytopreventit,butIcouldthinkofnonebuttorecommendherprivatelytoreconsiderherruleofdiscretion。Thatwouldbeaverydelicatebusiness,andperhapsitwouldbebettertobeginwithJasper,thoughthatwouldbedelicatetoo。Atanyrateonemightlethimknow,inafriendlyspirit,tohowmuchremarkheexposedtheyounglady——leavingthisrevelationtoworkitswayuponhim。UnfortunatelyIcouldn’taltogetherbelievethatthepairwereunconsciousoftheobservationandtheopinionofthepassengers。Theyweren’tboyandgirl;theyhadacertainsocialperspectiveintheireye。Iwasmeanwhileatanyrateinnopossessionofthedetailsofthatbehaviourwhichhadmadethem——accordingtotheversionofmygoodfriendsinthesaloon——
ascandaltotheship;forthoughIhadtakenduenoteofthem,aswillalreadyhavebeengathered,Ihadtakenreallynosuchferocious,oratleastsuchcompetent,noteasMrs。Peck。
Neverthelesstheprobabilitywasthattheyknewwhatwasthoughtofthem——whatnaturallywouldbe——andsimplydidn’tcare。Thatmadeourheroineoutratherperverseandevenrathershameless;andyetsomehowifthesewereherleaningsIdidn’tdislikeherforthem。I
don’tknowwhatstrangesecretexcusesIfoundforher。Ipresentlyindeedencountered,onthespot,aneedforanyImighthaveatcall,since,justasIwasonthepointofgoingbelowagain,afterseveralrestlessturnsand——withinthelimitwheresmokingwasallowed——asmanypuffsatacigarasIcaredfor,Ibecameawareofacoupleoffiguressettledtogetherbehindoneofthelifeboatsthatrestedonthedeck。Theyweresoplacedastobevisibleonlytoapersongoingclosetotherailandpeeringalittlesidewise。Idon’tthinkIpeered,butasIstoodamomentbesidetherailmyeyewasattractedbyaduskyobjectthatprotrudedbeyondtheboatandthatI
sawatasecondglancetobethetailofalady’sdress。Ibentforwardaninstant,buteventhenIsawverylittlemore;thatscarcelymatteredhowever,asIeasilyconcludedthatthepersonstuckedawayinsosnugacornerwereJasperNettlepointandMr。
Porterfield’sintended。Tuckedawaywastheodiousrightexpression,andIdeploredthefactsobetrayedforthepitifulbadtasteinit。
Iimmediatelyturnedaway,andthenextmomentfoundmyselffacetofacewithourvessel’sskipper。Ihadalreadyhadsomeconversationwithhim——hehadbeensogoodastoinviteme,ashehadinvitedMrs。
Nettlepointandhersonandtheyoungladytravellingwiththem,andalsoMrs。Peck,tositathistable——andhadobservedwithpleasurethathisseamanshiphadthegrace,notuniversalontheAtlanticliners,ofafine-weathermanner。
"Theydon’twastemuchtime——yourfriendsinthere,"hesaid,noddinginthedirectioninwhichhehadseenmelooking。
"Ahwell,theyhaven’tmuchtolose。"
"That’swhatImean。I’mtoldSHEhasn’t。"
Iwantedtosaysomethingexculpatory,butscarcelyknewwhatnotetostrike。Icouldonlylookvaguelyaboutmeatthestarrydarknessandtheseathatseemedtosleep。"Well,withthesesplendidnightsandthisperfectairpeoplearebeguiledintolatehours。"
"Yes,wewantabitofablow,"theCaptainsaid。
Idemurred。"Howmuchofone?"
"Enoughtoclearthedecks!"
Hewasafterallratherdryandhewentabouthisbusiness。Hehadmademeuneasy,andinsteadofgoingbelowItookafewturnsmore。
Theotherwalkersdroppedoffpairbypair——theywereallmen——tillatlastIwasalone。ThenafteralittleIquittedthefield。
Jasperandhiscompanionwerestillbehindtheirlifeboat。
PersonallyIgreatlypreferredouractualconditions,butasIwentdownIfoundmyselfvaguelywishing,intheinterestofIscarcelyknewwhat,unlessithadbeenameresuperstitiousdelicacy,thatwemighthavehalfagale。
MissMavisturnedout,insea-phrase,early;forthenextmorningI
sawhercomeuponlyashorttimeafterIhadfinishedmybreakfast,aceremonyoverwhichIcontrivednottodawdle。ShewasaloneandJasperNettlepoint,byarareaccident,wasnotondecktohelpher。
Iwenttomeether——shewasencumberedasusualwithhershawl,hersun-umbrellaandabook——andlaidmyhandsonherchair,placingitnearthesternoftheship,whereshelikedbesttobe。ButI
proposedtohertowalkalittlebeforeshesatdown,andshetookmyarmafterIhadputheraccessoriesintothechair。Thedeckwasclearatthathourandthemorninglightgay;onehadanextravagantsenseofgoodomensandpropitiousairs。Iforgetwhatwespokeoffirst,butitwasbecauseIfeltthesethingspleasantly;andnottotormentmycompanionnortotesther,thatIcouldn’thelpexclaimingcheerfullyafteramoment,asIhavementionedhavingdonethefirstday:"Well,we’regettingon,we’regettingon!"
"Ohyes,Icounteveryhour。"
"Thelastdaysalwaysgoquicker,"Isaid,"andthelasthours——!"
"Well,thelasthours?"sheasked;forIhadinstinctivelycheckedmyself。
"Ohone’ssogladthenthatit’salmostthesameasifonehadarrived。Yetweoughttobegratefulwhentheelementshavebeensokindtous,"Iadded。"Ihopeyou’llhaveenjoyedthevoyage。"
Shehesitatedeversolittle。"Yes,muchmorethanIexpected。"
"Didyouthinkitwouldbeverybad?"
"Horrible,horrible!"
Thetoneofthesewordswasstrange,butIhadn’tmuchtimetoreflectuponit,forturningroundatthatmomentIsawJasperNettlepointcometowardus。Hewasstilldistantbytheexpanseofthewhitedeck,andIcouldn’thelptakinghiminfromheadtofootashedrewnearer。Idon’tknowwhatrenderedmeonthisoccasionparticularlysensitivetotheimpression,butitstruckmethatIsawhimasIhadneverseenhimbefore,sawhim,thankstotheintensesea-light,insideandout,inhispersonal,hismoraltotality。Itwasaquick,avividrevelation;ifitonlylastedamomentithadasimplifyingcertifyingeffect。Hewasintrinsicallyapleasingapparition,withhishandsomeyoungfaceandthatmarkedabsenceofanydropinhispersonalarrangementswhich,morethananyoneI’veeverseen,hemanagedtoexhibitonshipboard。Hehadnoneoftheappearanceofwearingoutoldclothesthatusuallyprevailsthere,butdressedquitestraight,asIheardsomeonesay。Thisgavehimanassured,almostatriumphantair,asofayoungmanwhowouldcomebestoutofanyawkwardness。Iexpectedtofeelmycompanion’shandloosenitselfonmyarm,asanindicationthatnowshemustgotohim,andIwasalmostsurprisedshedidn’tdropme。WestoppedaswemetandJasperbadeusafriendlygood-morning。Ofcoursetheremarkthatwehadanotherlovelydaywasalreadyindicated,anditledhimtoexclaim,inthemannerofonetowhomcriticismcameeasily,"Yes,butwiththissortofthingconsiderwhatoneoftheotherswoulddo!"
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