首页 >出版文学> Amours de Voyage>第1章
  Oh,youaresickofself-love,Malvolio,Andtastewithadistemperedappetite!
  ShakspeareIldoutaitdetout,memedel’amour。
  FrenchNovelSolviturambulando。
  SolutioSophismatum。
  FlevitamoresNonelaboratumadpedem。
  HoraceAMOURSDEVOYAGE。
  CantoI。
  Overthegreatwindywaters,andovertheclear-crestedsummits,Untothesunandthesky,anduntotheperfecterearth,Come,letusgo,——toalandwhereingodsoftheoldtimewandered,Whereeverybreathevennowchangestoetherdivine。
  Come,letusgo;thoughwithalavoicewhisper,’Theworldthatwelivein,Whithersoeverweturn,stillisthesamenarrowcrib;
  ’Tisbuttoprovelimitation,andmeasureacord,thatwetravel;
  Letwhowould’scapeandbefreegotohischamberandthink;
  ’Tisbuttochangeidlefanciesformemorieswilfullyfalser;
  ’Tisbuttogoandhavebeen。’——Come,littlebark!letusgo。
  I。ClaudetoEustace。
  DearEustatio,Iwritethatyoumaywritemeananswer,Orattheleasttoputusagainenrapportwitheachother。
  Romedisappointsmemuch,——StPeter’s,perhaps,inespecial;
  OnlytheArchofTitusandviewfromtheLateranpleaseme:
  This,however,perhapsistheweather,whichtrulyishorrid。
  Greecemustbebetter,surely;andyetIamfeelingsospiteful,ThatIcouldtraveltoAthens,toDelphi,andTroy,andMountSinai,Thoughbuttoseewithmyeyesthatthesearevanityalso。
  Romedisappointsmemuch;Ihardlyasyetunderstandit,butRUBBISHYseemsthewordthatmostexactlywouldsuitit。
  Allthefoolishdestructions,andallthesilliersavings,Alltheincongruousthingsofpastincompatibleages,Seemtobetreasuredupheretomakefoolsofpresentandfuture。
  WouldtoHeaventheoldGothshadmadeacleanersweepofit!
  WouldtoHeavensomenewoneswouldcomeanddestroythesechurches!
  However,onecanliveinRomeasalsoinLondon。
  Itisablessing,nodoubt,toberid,atleastforatime,ofAllone’sfriendsandrelations,——yourself(forgiveme!)included,——
  Alltheassujettissementofhavingbeenwhatonehasbeen,Whatonethinksoneis,orthinksthatotherssupposeone;
  Yet,indespiteofall,weturnlikefoolstotheEnglish。
  Vernonhasbeenmyfate;whoisherethesamethatyouknewhim,——
  Makingthetour,itseems,withfriendsofthenameofTrevellyn。
  II。ClaudetoEustace。
  Romedisappointsmestill;butIshrinkandadaptmyselftoit。
  SomehowatyrannoussenseofasuperincumbentoppressionStill,whereverIgo,accompaniesever,andmakesmeFeellikeatree(shallIsay?)buriedunderaruinofbrickwork。
  Rome,believeme,myfriend,islikeitsownMonteTestaceo,Merelyamarvellousmassofbrokenandcastawaywine-pots。
  Yegods!whatdoIwantwiththisrubbishofagesdeparted,ThingsthatNatureabhors,theexperimentsthatshehasfailedin?
  WhatdoIfindintheForum?Anarchwayandtwoorthreepillars。
  Well,butSt。Peter’s?Alas,Berninihasfilleditwithsculpture!
  Noonecancavil,Igrant,atthesizeofthegreatColiseum。
  Doubtlessthenotionofgrandandcapaciousandmassiveamusement,ThistheoldRomanshad;buttellme,isthisanidea?
  Yetofsoliditymuch,butofsplendourlittleisextant:
  ’BrickworkIfoundthee,andmarbleIleftthee!’theirEmperorvaunted;
  ’MarbleIthoughtthee,andbrickworkIfindthee!’theTouristmayanswer。
  III。GeorginaTrevellyntoLouisa————。
  Atlast,dearestLouisa,Itakeupmypentoaddressyou。
  Hereweare,yousee,withtheseven-and-seventyboxes,Courier,PapaandMamma,thechildren,andMaryandSusan:
  HereweallareatRome,anddelightedofcoursewithSt。Peter’s,AndverypleasantlylodgedinthefamousPiazzadiSpagna。
  Romeisawonderfulplace,butMaryshalltellyouaboutit;
  Notverygay,however;theEnglisharemostlyatNaples;
  TherearetheA。’s,wehear,andmostoftheW。party。
  George,however,iscome;didItellyouabouthismustachios?
  Dear,Imustreallystop,forthecarriage,theytellme,iswaiting;
  Marywillfinish;andSusaniswriting,theysay,toSophia。
  Adieu,dearestLouise,——evermoreyourfaithfulGeorgina。
  WhocanaMr。ClaudebewhomGeorgehastakentobewith?
  Verystupid,Ithink,butGeorgesayssoVERYclever。
  IV。ClaudetoEustace。
  No,theChristianfaith,asatanyrateIunderstoodit,Withitshumiliationsandexaltationscombining,Exaltationssublime,andyetdivinerabasements,AspirationsfromsomethingmostshamefulhereuponearthandInourpoorselvestosomethingmostperfectaboveintheheavens,——
  No,theChristianfaith,asI,atleast,understoodit,Isnothere,ORome,inanyofthesethychurches;
  Isnothere,butinFreiburg,orRheims,orWestminsterAbbey。
  WhatinthyDomeIfind,inallthyrecenterefforts,Isasomething,Ithink,moreRATIONALfar,moreearthly,Actual,lessideal,devoutnotinscornandrefusal,Butinapositive,calm,Stoic-Epicureanacceptance。
  ThisIbegintodetectinSt。Peter’sandsomeofthechurches,MostlyinallthatIseeofthesixteenth-centurymasters;
  Overlaidofcoursewithinfinitegaudsandgewgaws,Innocent,playfulfollies,thetoysandtrinketsofchildhood,Forcedonmatureryears,astheseriousonethingneedful,BythebarbarianwilloftherigidandignorantSpaniard。
  Curiouswork,meantime,re-enteringsociety:howweWalkalivelongday,greatHeaven,andwatchourshadows!
  Whatourshadowsseem,forsooth,wewillourselvesbe。
  DoIlooklikethat?youthinkmethat:thenIAMthat。
  V。ClaudetoEustace。
  Luther,theysay,wasunwise;likeahalf-taughtGerman,hecouldnotSeethatoldfollieswerepassingmosttranquillyoutofremembrance;
  LeotheTenthwasemployingalleffortstoclearoutabuses;
  Jupiter,Juno,andVenus,FineArts,andFineLetters,thePoets,Scholars,andSculptors,andPainters,werequietlyclearingawaytheMartyrs,andVirgins,andSaints,oratanyrateThomasAquinas:
  HemustforsoothmakeafussanddistendhishugeWittenberglungs,andBringbackTheologyonceyetagaininaflooduponEurope:
  Loyou,forfortydaysfromthewindowsofheavenitfell;theWatersprevailontheearthyetmoreforahundredandfifty;
  Aretheyabatingatlast?thedovesthataresenttoexploreareWearilyfaintoreturn,atthebestwithaleafletofpromise,——
  Faintoreturn,astheywent,tothewanderingwave-tostvessel,——
  Faintore-entertheroofwhichcoversthecleanandtheunclean,——
  Luther,theysay,wasunwise;hedidn’tseehowthingsweregoing;
  Lutherwasfoolish,——but,OgreatGod!whatcallyouIgnatius?
  Omytolerantsoul,bestill!butyoutalkofbarbarians,Alaric,Attila,Genseric;——why,theycame,theykilled,theyRavaged,andwentontheirway;butthesevile,tyrannousSpaniards,Theseareherestill,——howlong,Oyeheavens,inthecountryofDante?
  These,thatfanaticizedEurope,whichnowcanforgetthem,releasenotThis,theirchoicestofprey,thisItaly;hereyouseethem,——
  Here,withemasculatepupilsandgimcrackchurchesofGesu,Pseudo-learningandlies,confessional-boxesandpostures,——
  Here,withmetallicbeliefsandregimentaldevotions,——
  Here,overcrustingwithslime,perverting,defacing,debasing,MichaelAngelo’sDome,thathadhungthePantheoninheaven,Raphael’sJoysandGraces,andthyclearstars,Galileo!
  VI。ClaudetoEustace。
  WhichofthreeMissesTrevellynitisthatVernonshallmarryIsnotathingtobeknown;forourfriendisoneofthosenaturesWhichhavetheirperfectdelightinthegeneraltender-domestic,SothathetrifleswithMary’sshawl,tiesSusan’sbonnet,Danceswithall,butathomeismost,theysay,withGeorgina,Whois,however,TOOsillyinmyapprehensionforVernon。
  I,asbeforewhenIwrote,continuetoseethemalittle;
  NotthatIlikethemmuchorcareabajoccoforVernon,ButIamslowatItalian,havenotmanyEnglishacquaintance,AndIamasked,inshort,andamnotgoodatexcuses。
  Middle-classpeoplethese,bankersverylikely,notwhollyPureofthetaintoftheshop;willattabled’hoteandrestaurantHavetheirshilling’sworth,theirpenny’spennywortheven:
  Neitherman’saristocracythis,norGod’s,Godknoweth!
  Yettheyarefairlydescended,theygiveyoutoknow,wellconnected;
  Doubtlesssomewhereinsomeneighbourhoodhave,andarecarefultokeep,someThreadbare-genteelrelations,whointheirturnareenchantedGrandlyamongcountypeopletointroduceatassembliesTotheunpenniedcadetsourcousinswithexcellentfortunes。
  Neitherman’saristocracythis,norGod’s,Godknoweth!
  VII。ClaudetoEustace。
  Ah,whatashame,indeed,toabusethesemostworthypeople!
  Ah,whatasintohavesneeredattheirinnocentrusticpretensions!
  Isitnotlaudablereally,thisreverentworshipofstation?
  Isitnotfittingthatwealthshouldtenderthishomagetoculture?
  Isitnottouchingtowitnesstheseefforts,iflittleavailing,Painfullymade,toperformtheoldritualserviceofmanners?
  Shallnotdevotionatonefortheabsenceofknowledge?andfervourPalliate,cover,thefaultofasuperstitiousobservance?
  Dear,dear,whatdoIsay?but,alas!justnow,likeIago,Icanbenothingatall,ifitisnotcriticalwholly;
  Soinfantasticheight,incoxcombexaltation,HereinthegardenIwalk,canfreelyconcedetotheMakerThattheworksofHishandareallverygood:Hiscreatures,Beastofthefieldandfowl,Hebringsthembeforeme;Inamethem;
  ThatwhichInamethem,theyare,——thebird,thebeast,andthecattle。
  ButforAdam,——alas,poorcriticalcoxcombAdam!
  ButforAdamthereisnotfoundanhelp-meetforhim。
  VIII。ClaudetoEustace。
  No,greatDomeofAgrippa,thouartnotChristian!canstnot,Stripandreplasteranddaubanddowhattheywillwiththee,beso!
  HereunderneaththegreatporchofcolossalCorinthiancolumns,HereasIwalk,doIdreamoftheChristianbelfriesabovethem?
  Or,onabenchasIsitandabideforlonghours,tillthywholevastRoundgrowsdimasindreamstomyeyes,Irepeoplethyniches,NotwiththeMartyrs,andSaints,andConfessors,andVirgins,andchildren,Butwiththemightierformsofanolder,austererworship;
  AndIrecitetomyself,howEagerforbattlehereStoodVulcan,herematronalJuno,AndwiththebowtohisshoulderfaithfulHewhowithpuredewlavethofCastalyHisflowinglocks,whoholdethofLyciaTheoakforestandthewoodthatborehim,Delos’andPatara’sownApollo。*
  *HicavidusstetitVulcanus,hicmatronaJuno,etNunquamhumerispositurusarcum;
  QuirorepuroCastaliaelavitCrinessolutos,quiLyciaetenetDumetanatalemquesilvam,DeliusetPatareusApollo。
  IX。ClaudetoEustace。
  Yetitispleasant,Iownit,tobeintheircompany;pleasant,Whateverelseitmaybe,toabideinthefemininepresence。
  Pleasant,butwrong,willyousay?Butthishappy,serenecoexistenceIstosomepoorsoftsouls,Ifear,anecessitysimple,Meatanddrinkandlife,andmusic,fillingwithsweetness,Thrillingwithmelodysweet,withharmoniesstrangeoverwhelming,Allthelong-silentstringsofanawkward,meaninglessfabric。
  Yetasforthat,Icouldlive,Ibelieve,withchildren;tohavethosePureanddelicateformsencompassing,movingaboutyou,Thiswereenough,Icouldthink;andtrulywithgladresignationCouldfromthedreamofRomance,fromthefeverofflushedadolescence,Looktoescapeandsubsideintopeacefulavuncularfunctions。
  Nephewsandnieces!alas,forasyetIhavenone!and,moreover,Mothersarejealous,Ifearme,toooften,toorightfully;fathersThinktheyhavetitleexclusivetospoilingtheirownlittledarlings;
  Andbythelawoftheland,indespiteofMalthusiandoctrine,Nosortofproperprovisionismadeforthatmostpatriotic,Mostmeritorioussubject,thechildlessandbacheloruncle。
  X。ClaudetoEustace。
  Ye,too,marvellousTwain,thaterectontheMonteCavalloStandbyyourrearingsteedsinthegraceofyourmotionlessmovement,Standwithyourupstretchedarmsandtranquilregardantfaces,Standasinstinctwithlifeinthemightofimmutablemanhood,——
  Oyemightyandstrange,yeancientdivineonesofHellas。
  AreyeChristiantoo?toconvertandredeemandrenewyou,Willthebriefformhavesufficed,thataPopehassetupontheapexOftheEgyptianstonethato’ertopsyou,theChristiansymbol?
  Andye,silent,supremeinsereneandvictoriousmarble,YethatencirclethewallsofthestatelyVaticanchambers,JunoandCeres,Minerva,Apollo,theMusesandBacchus,YeuntowhomfarandnearcomepostingtheChristianpilgrims,YethatarerangedinthehallsofthemysticChristianPontiff,Areyealsobaptized?areyeofthekingdomofHeaven?
  Utter,Osomeone,thewordthatshallreconcileAncientandModern!
  AmItoturnmefromthisuntothee,greatChapelofSixtus?
  XI。ClaudetoEustace。
  Thesearethefacts。Theuncle,theelderbrother,thesquire(aLittleembarrassed,Ifancy),residesinthefamilyplaceinCornwall,ofcourse;’Papaisinbusiness,’Maryinformsme;
  He’sagoodsensibleman,whateverhistradeis。ThemotherIs——shallIcallitfine?——herselfshewouldtellyourefined,andGreatly,Ifearme,looksdownonmybookishandmaladroitmanners;
  Somewhataffecteththeblue;wouldtalktomeoftenofpoets;
  Quotes,whichIhate,ChildeHarold;butalsoappreciatesWordsworth;
  SometimesadventuresonSchiller;andthentoreligiondiverges;
  QuestionsmemuchaboutOxford;andyet,inherloftiestflightsstillGratesthefastidiousearwiththeslightlymercantileaccent。
  Isitcontemptible,Eustace——I’mperfectlyreadytothinkso,——
  Isit,——thehorriblepleasureofpleasinginferiorpeople?
  Iamashamedofmyownself;andyettrueitis,ifdisgraceful,ThatforthefirsttimeinlifeIamlivingandmovingwithfreedom。
  I,whonevercouldtalktothepeopleImeetwithmyuncle,——
  I,whohavealwaysfailed,——I,trustme,cansuittheTrevellyns;
  I,believeme,——greatconquest,amlikedbythecountrybankers。
  AndIamgladtobeliked,andlikeinreturnverykindly。
  Soitproceeds;laissezfaire,laissezaller,——suchisthewatchword。
  Well,Iknowtherearethousandsasprettyandhundredsaspleasant,Girlsbythedozenasgood,andgirlsinabundancewithpolishHigherandmannersmoreperfectthanSusanorMaryTrevellyn。
  Well,Iknow,afterall,itisonlyjuxtaposition,——
  Juxtaposition,inshort;andwhatisjuxtaposition?
  XII。ClaudetoEustace。
  ButIaminforitnow,——laissezfaire,ofatruth,laissezaller。
  Yes,Iamgoing,——Ifeelit,Ifeelandcannotrecallit,——
  Fusingwiththisthingandthat,enteringintoallsortsofrelations,TyingIknownotwhatties,which,whatevertheyare,Iknowonething,Will,andmust,woeisme,beonedaypainfullybroken,——
  Brokenwithpainfulremorses,withshrinkingsofsoul,andrelentings,Foolishdelays,morefoolishevasions,mostfoolishrenewals。
  ButIhavemadethestep,havequittedtheshipofUlysses;
  Quittedtheseaandtheshore,passedintothemagicalisland;
  Yetonmylipsisthemoly,medicinal,offeredofHermes。
  Ihavecomeintotheprecinct,thelabyrinthclosesaroundme,Pathintopathroundingslyly;Ipaceslowlyon,andthefancy,Strugglingawhiletosustainthelongsequences,weary,bewildered,Fainmustcollapseindespair;Iyield,Iamlost,andknownothing;
  Yetinmybosomunbrokenremaineththeclue;Ishalluseit。
  Lo,withtheropeonmyloinsIdescendthroughthefissure;Isink,yetInlysecureinthestrengthofinvisiblearmsupaboveme;
  Still,wheresoeverIswing,wherevertoshore,ortoshelf,orFloorofcavernuntrodden,shellsprinkled,enchanting,IknowI
  Yetshallonetimefeelthestrongcordtightenaboutme,——
  Feelit,relentless,upbearmefromspotsIwouldrestin;andthoughtheRopeswaywildly,Ifaint,cragswoundme,fromcraguntocragre-
  Bounding,or,wideinthevoid,Idietendeaths,eretheendI
  YetshallplantfirmfootonthebroadloftyspacesIquit,shallFeelunderneathmeagainthegreatmassystrengthsofabstraction,Lookyetabroadfromtheheighto’ertheseawhosesaltwaveIhavetasted。
  XIII。GeorginaTrevellyntoLouisa————。
  DearestLouisa,——Inquire,ifyouplease,aboutMr。Claude————。
  HehasbeenonceatR。,andremembersmeetingtheH。’s。
  HarrietL。,perhaps,maybeabletotellyouabouthim。
  Itisanawkwardyouth,butstillwithverygoodmanners;
  Notwithoutprospects,wehear;and,Georgesays,highlyconnected。
  Georgydeclaresitabsurd,butMammaisalarmed,andinsistshehasTakenupstrangeopinions,andmaybeturningaPapist。
  Certainlyoncehespokeofadailyservicehewentto。
  ’Where?’weasked,andhelaughedandanswered,’AtthePantheon。’
  Thiswasatemple,youknow,andnowisaCatholicchurch;andThoughitissaidthatMazzinihassolditforProtestantservice,YetIsupposethischangecanhardlyasyetbeeffected。
  Adieuagain,——evermore,mydearest,yourlovingGeorgina。
  P。S。byMaryTrevellyn。
  Iamtotellyou,yousay,whatIthinkofourlastnewacquaintance。
  Well,then,IthinkthatGeorgehasaveryfairrighttobejealous。
  Idonotlikehimmuch,thoughIdonotdislikebeingwithhim。
  Heiswhatpeoplecall,Isuppose,asuperiorman,andCertainlyseemssotome;butIthinkheisterriblyselfish。
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  Alba,thoufindestmestill,and,Alba,thoufindestmeever,NowfromtheCapitolsteps,nowoverTitus’sArch,HerefromthelargegrassyspacesthatspreadfromtheLateranportal,Toweringo’eraqueductlineslostinperspectivebetween,OrfromaVaticanwindow,orbridge,orthehighColiseum,ClearbythegarlandedlinecutoftheFlavianring。
  BeautifulcanInotcallthee,andyetthouhastpowertoo’ermaster,Powerofmerebeauty;indreams,Alba,thouhauntestmestill。
  Isitreligion?Iaskme;orisitavainsuperstition?
  Slaveryabjectandgross?service,toofeeble,oftruth?
  IsitanidolIbowto,orisitagodthatIworship?
  DoIsinkbackontheold,ordoIsoarfromthemean?
  SothroughthecityIwanderandquestion,unsatisfiedever,ReverentsoIaccept,doubtfulbecauseIrevere。
  CantoII。
  Isitillusion?ordoesthereaspiritfromperfecterages,Here,evenyet,amidloss,change,andcorruptionabide?
  Doesthereaspiritweknownot,thoughseek,thoughwefind,comprehendnot,Heretoenticeandconfuse,temptandevadeus,abide?
  Livesintheexquisitegraceofthecolumndisjointedandsingle,Hauntstherudemassesofbrickgarlandedgailywithvine,E’enintheturretfantasticsurvivingthatspringsfromtheruin,E’eninthepeopleitself?isitillusionornot?
  Isitillusionornotthatattracteththepilgrimtransalpine,Bringshimadullardandduncehithertopryandtostare?
  Isitillusionornotthatalluresthebarbarianstranger,Bringshimwithgoldtotheshrine,bringshiminarmstothegate?
  I。ClaudetoEustace。
  Whatdothepeoplesay,andwhatdoesthegovernmentdo?——youAsk,andIknownotatall。Yetfortunewillfavouryourhopes;andI,whoavoideditall,amfated,itseems,todescribeit。
  I,whonormeddlenormakeinpolitics,——IwhosincerelyPutnotmytrustinleaguesnoranysuffragebyballot,NeverpredictedParisianmillenniums,neverbeheldaNewJerusalemcomingdowndressedlikeabrideoutofheavenRightonthePlacedelaConcorde,——I,nevertheless,letmesayit,Couldinmysoulofsouls,thisday,withtheGaulatthegatesshedOnetruetearforthee,thoupoorlittleRomanRepublic;
  What,withtheGermanrestored,withSicilysafetotheBourbon,NotleaveonepoorcornerfornativeItalianexertion?
  France,itisfoullydone!andyou,poorfoolishEngland,——
  You,whoatwelvemonthagosaidnationsmustchooseforthemselves,youCouldnot,ofcourse,interfere,——you,now,whenanationhaschosen————
  Pardonthisfolly!TheTimeswill,ofcourse,haveannouncedtheoccasion,Toldyouthenewsofto-day;andalthoughitwasslightlyinerrorWhenitproclaimedasafacttheApollowassoldtoaYankee,YoumaybelievewhenittellsyoutheFrenchareatCivitaVecchia。
  II。ClaudetoEustace。
  Dulceitis,anddecorum,nodoubt,forthecountrytofall,——toOfferone’sbloodanoblationtoFreedom,anddiefortheCause;yetStill,individualcultureisalsosomething,andnomanFindsquitedistincttheassurancethatheofallothersiscalledon,Orwouldbejustifiedeven,intakingawayfromtheworldthatPreciouscreature,himself。Naturesenthimheretoabidehere;
  Elsewhysendhimatall?Naturewantshimstill,itislikely;
  Onthewhole,wearemeanttolookafterourselves;itiscertainEachhastoeatforhimself,digestforhimself,andingeneralCareforhisowndearlife,andseetohisownpreservation;
  Nature’sintentions,inmostthingsuncertain,inthisaredecisive;
  Which,onthewhole,IconjecturetheRomanswillfollow,andIshall。
  Soweclingtoourrockslikelimpets;Oceanmaybluster,Overandunderandroundus;weopenourshellstoimbibeourNourishment,closethemagain,andaresafe,fulfillingthepurposeNatureintended,——awiseone,ofcourse,andanoble,wedoubtnot。
  Sweetitmaybeanddecorous,perhaps,forthecountrytodie;but,Onthewhole,weconcludetheRomanswon’tdoit,andIsha’n’t。
  III。ClaudetoEustace。
  Willtheyfight?Theysayso。AndwilltheFrench?Icanhardly,Hardlythinkso;andyet————Heiscome,theysay,toPalo,HeispassedfromMonterone,atSantaSeveraHehathlaiduphisguns。ButtheVirgin,theDaughterofRoma,Shehathdespisedtheeandlaughedtheetoscorn,——TheDaughterofTiber,Shehathshakenherheadandbuiltbarricadesagainstthee!
  Willtheyfight?Ibelieveit。Alas!’tisephemeralfolly,Vainandephemeralfolly,ofcourse,comparedwithpictures,Statues,andantiquegems!——Indeed:andyetindeedtoo,Yet,methought,inbroaddaydidIdream,——tellitnotinSt。James’s,Whisperitnotinthycourts,OChristChurch!——yetdidI,waking,Dreamofacadencethatsings,Sitombentnosjeunesheros,laTerreenproduitdenouveauxcontrevoustouspretsasebattre;
  Dreamtofgreatindignationsandangerstranscendental,Dreamtofaswordatmysideandabattle-horseunderneathme。
  IV。ClaudetoEustace。
  NowsupposingtheFrenchortheNeapolitansoldierShouldbysomeevilchancecomeexploringtheMaisonSerny(WherethefamilyEnglisharealltoassembleforsafety),AmIpreparedtolaydownmylifefortheBritishfemale?
  Really,whoknows?Onehasbowedandtalked,till,littlebylittle,Allthenaturalheathasescapedofthechivalrousspirit。
  Oh,oneconformed,ofcourse;butonedoesn’tdieforgoodmanners,Staborshoot,orbeshot,bywayofgracefulattention。
  No,ifitshouldbeatall,itshouldbeonthebarricadesthere;
  ShouldIincarnadineeverthisinkypacificalfinger,SoonerfarshoulditbeforthisvapourofItaly’sfreedom,Soonerfarbythesideofthed————danddirtyplebeians。
  Ah,forachildinthestreetIcouldstrike;forthefull-blownlady————
  Somehow,Eustace,alas!Ihavenotfeltthevocation。
  Yetthesepeopleofcoursewillexpect,asofcourse,myprotection,VernoninradiantarmsstandforthforthelovelyGeorgina,Andtoappear,Isuppose,werebutcommoncivility。Yes,andTrulyIdonotdesiretheyshouldeitherbekilledoroffended。
  Oh,andofcourse,youwillsay,’Whenthetimecomes,youwillbeready。’
  Ah,butbeforeitcomes,amItopresumeitwillbeso?
  WhatIcannotfeelnow,amItosupposethatIshallfeel?
  AmInotfreetoattendfortheripeandindubiousinstinct?
  AmIforbiddentowaitfortheclearandlawfulperception?
  Isitthecallingofmantosurrenderhisknowledgeandinsight,Forthemereventureofwhatmay,perhaps,bethevirtuousaction?
  Mustwe,walkingourearth,discerningalittle,andhopingSomeplainvisibletaskshallyetforourhandsbeassignedus,——
  Mustweabandonthefutureforfearofomittingthepresent,Quitourownfiresidehopesatthealiencallofaneighbour,TothemerepossibleshadowofDeityofferthevictim?
  Andisallthis,myfriend,butaweakandignoblerefining,WhollyunworthytheheadortheheartofYourOwnCorrespondent?
  V。ClaudetoEustace。
  Yes,wearefightingatlast,itappears。Thismorningasusual,Murray,asusual,inhand,IentertheCaffeNuovo;
  Seatingmyselfwithasenseasitwereofachangeintheweather,Notunderstanding,however,butthinkingmostlyofMurray,And,forto-dayistheirday,oftheCampidoglioMarbles;
  Caffe-latte!Icalltothewaiter,——andNonc’elatte,Thisistheanswerhemakesme,andthisisthesignofabattle。
  SoIsit:andtrulytheyseemtothinkanyoneelsemoreWorthythanmeofattention。Iwaitformymilklessnero,Freetoobserveundistractedallsortsandsizesofpersons,Blendingcivilianandsoldierinstrangestcostume,comingin,andGulpinginhottesthaste,stillstanding,theircoffee,——withdrawingEagerly,janglingaswordonthesteps,orjoggingamusketSlungtotheshoulderbehind。Theyarefewer,moreover,thanusual,Muchandsilenterfar;andsoIbegintoimagineSomethingisreallyafloat。EreIleave,theCaffeisempty,Emptytoothestreets,inallitslengththeCorsoEmpty,andemptyIseetomyrightandlefttheCondotti。
  Twelveo’clock,onthePincianHill,withlotsofEnglish,Germans,Americans,French,——theFrenchmen,too,areprotected,——
  Sowestandinthesun,butafraidofaprobableshower;
  Sowestandandstare,andsee,totheleftofSt。Peter’s,Smoke,fromthecannon,white,——butthatisatintervalsonly,——
  Black,fromaburninghouse,wesuppose,bytheCavalleggieri;
  AndwebelievewediscernsomelinesofmendescendingDownthroughthevineyard-slopes,andcatchabayonetgleaming。
  Everytenminutes,however,——inthisthereisnomisconception,——
  ComesagreatwhitepufffrombehindMichelAngelo’sdome,andAfteraspacethereportofarealbiggun,——nottheFrenchman’s!——
  Thatmustbedoingsomework。Andsowewatchandconjecture。
  Shortly,anEnglishmancomes,whosayshehasbeentoSt。Peter’s,SeenthePiazzaandtroops,butthatisallhecantellus;
  Sowewatchandsit,and,indeed,itbeginstobetiresome。——
  Allthissmokeisoutside;whenithascometotheinside,Itwillbetime,perhaps,todescendandretreattoourhouses。
  Half-pastone,ortwo。Thereportofsmallarmsfrequent,Sharpandsavageindeed;thatcannotallbefornothing:
  Sowewatchandwonder;butguessingistiresome,very。
  Wearyofwondering,watching,andguessing,andgossipingidly,DownIgo,andpassthroughthequietstreetswiththeknotsofNationalGuardspatrolling,andflagshangingoutatthewindows,English,American,Danish,——and,afterofferingtohelpanIrishfamilymovingenmassetotheMaisonSerny,AfterendeavouringidlytoministerbalmtothetremblingQuinquagenarianfearsoftwoloneBritishspinsters,Gotomakesureofmydinnerbeforetheenemyenter。
  Butbythistherearesignsofstragglersreturning;andvoicesTalk,thoughyoudon’tbelieveit,ofgunsandprisonerstaken;
  Andonthewallsyoureadthefirstbulletinofthemorning。——
  ThisisallthatIsaw,andallthatIknowofthebattle。
  VI。ClaudetoEustace。
  Victory!Victory!——Yes!ah,yes,thourepublicanZion,Trulythekingsoftheeartharegatheredandgonebytogether;
  Doubtlesstheymarvelledtowitnesssuchthings,wereastonished,andsoforth。
  Victory!Victory!Victory!——Ah,butitis,believeme,Easier,easierfar,tointonethechantofthemartyrThantoinditeanypaeanofanyvictory。DeathmaySometimesbenoble;butlife,atthebest,willappearanillusion。
  Whilethegreatpainisuponus,itisgreat;whenitisover,Why,itisover。Thesmokeofthesacrificerisestoheaven,Ofasweetsavour,nodoubt,toSomebody;butonthealtar,Lo,thereisnothingremainingbutashesanddirtandillodour。
  Soitstands,youperceive;thelabialmusclesthatswelledwithVehementevolutionofyesterdayMarseillaises,Articulationssublimeofdefianceandscorning,to-daycol-
  Lapseandlanguidlymumble,whilemenandwomenandpapersScreamandre-screamtoeachotherthechorusofVictory。Well,butIamthankfultheyfought,andgladthattheFrenchmenwerebeaten。
  VII。ClaudetoEustace。
  So,Ihaveseenamankilled!Anexperiencethat,amongothers!
  Yes,IsupposeIhave;althoughIcanhardlybecertain,AndinacourtofjusticecouldneverdeclareIhadseenit。
  Butamanwaskilled,Iamtold,inaplacewhereIsawSomething;amanwaskilled,Iamtold,andIsawsomething。
  IwasreturninghomefromSt。Peter’s;Murray,asusual,Undermyarm,Iremember;hadcrossedtheSt。Angelobridge;andMovingtowardstheCondotti,hadgottothefirstbarricade,whenGradually,thinkingstillofSt。Peter’s,IbecameconsciousOfasensationofmovementopposingme,——tendencythisway(SuchasonefanciesmaybeinastreamwhenthewaveofthetideisComingandnotyetcome,——asortofnoiseandretention);
  SoIturned,and,beforeIturned,caughtsightofstragglersHeadingacrowd,itisplain,thatiscomingbehindthatcorner。
  Lookingup,Iseewindowsfilledwithheads;thePiazza,IntowhichyourememberthePonteSt。Angeloenters,SinceIpassed,hasthickenedwithcuriousgroups;andnowtheCrowdiscoming,hasturned,hascrossedthatlastbarricade,isHereatmyside。Inthemiddletheydragatsomething。Whatisit?
  Ha!bareswordsintheair,heldup?ThereseemtobevoicesPleadingandhandsputtingback;official,perhaps;buttheswordsareMany,andbareintheair。Intheair?theydescend;theyaresmiting,Hewing,chopping——Atwhat?Intheaironcemoreupstretched?And——
  Isitbloodthat’sonthem?Yes,certainlyblood!Ofwhom,then?
  Overwhomisthecryofthisfurorofexultation?
  Whiletheyareskippingandscreaming,anddancingtheircapsonthepointsofSwordsandbayonets,Itotheoutskirtsback,andaskaMercantile-seemingbystander,’Whatisit?’andhe,lookingalwaysThatway,makesmeanswer,’APriest,whowastryingtoflytoTheNeapolitanarmy,’——andthusexplainstheproceeding。
  Youdidn’tseethedeadman?No;——Ibegantobedoubtful;
  Iwasinblackmyself,anddidn’tknowwhatmightn’thappen,——
  ButaNationalGuardclosebyme,outsideofthehubbub,Brokehisswordwithslashingabroadhatcoveredwithdust,——andPassingawayfromtheplacewithMurrayundermyarm,andStooping,Isawthroughthelegsofthepeoplethelegsofabody。
  Youarethefirst,doyouknow,towhomIhavementionedthematter。
  WhomshouldItellittoelse?——thesegirls?——theHeavensforbidit!——
  QuidnuncsatMonaldini’s——IdlersuponthePincian?
  IfIrightlyremember,ithappenedonthatafternoonwhenWordofthenearerapproachofanewNeapolitanarmyFirstwasspread。IbegantobethinkmeofParisSeptembers,ThoughtIcouldfancythelookofthatold’Ninety-two。OnthateveningThreeorfour,or,itmaybe,five,ofthesepeoplewereslaughteredSomedeclaredtheyhad,oneofthem,firedonasentinel;othersSaytheywereonlyescaping;aPriest,itiscurrentlystated,StabbedaNationalGuardontheveryPiazzaColonna:
  History,RumourofRumours,Ileavetotheetodetermine!
  ButIamthankfultosaythegovernmentseemstohavestrengthtoPutitdown;ithasvanished,atleast;theplaceismostpeaceful。
  ThroughtheTrasteverewalkinglastnight,atnineoftheclock,I
  Foundnosortofdisorder;IcrossedbytheIsland-bridges,SobythenarrowstreetstothePonteRotto,andonwardsThencebytheTempleofVesta,awaytothegreatColiseum,Whichatthefullofthemoonisanobjectworthyavisit。
  VIII。GeorginaTrevellyntoLouisa————。
  Onlythink,dearestLouisa,whatfearfulsceneswehavewitnessed!——
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  GeorgehasjustseenGaribaldi,dressedupinalongwhitecloak,onHorseback,ridingby,withhismountednegrobehindhim:
  Thisisaman,youknow,whocamefromAmericawithhim,Outofthewoods,Isuppose,andusesalassoinfighting,Whichis,Idon’tquiteknow,butasortofnoose,Iimagine;
  Thishethrowsontheheadsoftheenemy’smeninabattle,Pullsthemintohisreach,andthenmostcruellykillsthem:
  Marydoesnotbelieve,butwehearditfromanItalian。
  MaryallowsshewaswrongaboutMr。ClaudeBEINGSELFISH;
  HewasMOSTusefulandkindontheterriblethirtiethofApril。
  Donotwritehereanymore;wearestartingdirectlyforFlorence:
  Weshouldbeoffto-morrow,ifonlyPapacouldgethorses;
  AllhavebeenseizedeverywherefortheuseofthisdreadfulMazziniP。S。
  Maryhasseenthusfar。——Iamreallysoangry,Louisa,——
  Quiteoutofpatience,mydearest!Whatcanthemanbeintending?
  Iamquitetired;andMary,whomightbringhimtoinamoment,Letshimgoonashelikes,andneitherwillhelpnordismisshim。
  IX。ClaudetoEustace。
  Itismostcurioustoseewhatapowerafewcalmwords(inMerelyabriefproclamation)appeartopossessonthepeople。
  Orderisperfect,andpeace;thecityisutterlytranquil;
  Andonecannotconceivethatthiseasyandnonchalantcrowd,thatFlowslikeaquietstreamthroughstreetandmarket-place,enteringShadyrecessesandbaysofchurch,osteria,andcaffe,Couldinamomentbechangedtoafloodasofmoltenlava,Boilintodeadlywrathandwildhomicidaldelusion。
  Ah,’tisanexcellentrace,——andeveninolddegradation,Underarulethatenforcestoflattery,lying,andcheating,E’enunderPopeandPriest,aniceandnaturalpeople。
  Oh,couldtheybutbeallowedthischanceofredemption!——butclearlyThatisnotlikelytobe。Meantime,notwithstandingalljournals,Honourforoncetothetongueandthepenoftheeloquentwriter!
  Honourtospeech!andallhonourtothee,thounobleMazzini!
  X。ClaudetoEustace。
  Iaminlove,meantime,youthink;nodoubtyouwouldthinkso。
  Iaminlove,yousay;withthoseletters,ofcourse,youwouldsayso。
  Iaminlove,youdeclare。Ithinknotso;yetIgrantyouItisapleasureindeedtoconversewiththisgirl。Oh,raregift,Rarefelicity,this!shecantalkinarationalway,canSpeakuponsubjectsthatreallyaremattersofmindandofthinking,Yetinperfectionretainhersimplicity;never,onemoment,Never,howeveryouurgeit,howeveryoutempther,consentstoStepfromideasandfanciesandlovingsensationstothosevainConsciousunderstandingsthatvexthemindsofmankind。
  No,thoughshetalk,itismusic;herfingersdesertnotthekeys;’tisSong,thoughyouhearinthesongthearticulatevocablessounded,Syllabledsinglyandsweetlythewordsofmelodiousmeaning。
  Iaminlove,yousay;Idonotthinkso,exactly。
  XI。ClaudetoEustace。
  Therearetwodifferentkinds,Ibelieve,ofhumanattraction:
  Onewhichsimplydisturbs,unsettles,andmakesyouuneasy,Andanotherthatpoises,retains,andfixesandholdsyou。
  Ihavenodoubt,formyself,ingivingmyvoiceforthelatter。
  Idonotwishtobemoved,butgrowingwhereIwasgrowing,Theremoretrulytogrow,tolivewhereasyetIhadlanguished。
  Idonotlikebeingmoved:forthewillisexcited;andactionIsamostdangerousthing;Itrembleforsomethingfactitious,Somemalpracticeofheartandillegitimateprocess;
  Wearesopronetothesethings,withourterriblenotionsofduty。
  XII。ClaudetoEustace。
  Ah,letmelook,letmewatch,letmewait,unhurried,unprompted!
  Bidmenotventureonaughtthatcouldalterorendwhatispresent!
  Saynot,Timeflies,andOccasion,thatneverreturns,isdeparting!
  Drivemenotoutyet,yeillangelswithfieryswords,frommyEden,Waiting,andwatching,andlooking!Letlovebeitsowninspiration!
  Shallnotavoice,ifavoicetheremustbe,fromtheairsthatenviron,Yea,fromtheconsciousheavens,withoutourknowledgeoreffort,Breakintoaudiblewords?Andlovebeitsowninspiration?
  XIII。ClaudetoEustace。
  WhereforeandhowIamcertain,Ihardlycantell;butitISso。
  Shedoesn’tlikeme,Eustace;Ithinksheneverwilllikeme。
  Isitmyfault,asitismymisfortune,mywaysarenotherways?
  Isitmyfault,thatmyhabitsandmodesaredissimilarwholly?
  ’Tisnotherfault;’tishernature,hervirtue,tomisapprehendthem:
  ’Tisnotherfault;’tisherbeautifulnature,notevertoknowme。
  Hopelessitseems,——yetIcannot,thoughhopeless,determinetoleaveit:
  Shegoes——thereforeIgo;shemoves,——Imove,nottoloseher。
  XIV。ClaudetoEustace。
  Oh,’tisn’tmanly,ofcourse,’tisn’tmanly,thismethodofwooing;
  ’Tisn’tthewayverylikelytowin。Forthewoman,theytellyou,Everpreferstheaudacious,thewilful,thevehementhero;
  Shehasnoheartforthetimid,thesensitivesoul;andforknowledge,——
  Knowledge,OyeGods!——whendidtheyappreciateknowledge?
  Whereforeshouldthey,either?IamsureIdonotdesireit。
  Ah,andIfeeltoo,Eustace,shecaresnotatittleaboutme!
  (Careaboutme,indeed!anddoIreallyexpectit?)
  Butmymanneroffends;mywaysarewhollyrepugnant;
  EverywordthatIutterestranges,hurts,andrepelsher;
  EverymomentofblissthatIgain,inherexquisitepresence,Slowly,surely,withdrawsher,removesher,andseversherfromme。
  NotthatIcareverymuch!——anywayIescapefromtheboy’sownFolly,towhichIamprone,oflovingwhereitiseasy。
  NotthatImindverymuch!WhyshouldI?Iamnotinlove,andAmprepared,Ithink,ifnotbyprevioushabit,Yetinthespiritbeforehandforthisandallthatislikeit;
  Itisaneasiermatterforuscontemplativecreatures,Usuponwhomthepressureofactionislaidsolightly;
  We,discontentedindeedwiththingsinparticular,idle,Sickly,complaining,byfaith,inthevisionofthingsingeneral,Managetoholdonourwaywithout,likeothersaroundus,Seizingthenearestarmtocomfort,help,andsupportus。
  Yet,afterall,myEustace,Iknowbutlittleaboutit。
  AllIcansayformyself,forpresentalikeandforpast,is,MaryTrevellyn,Eustace,iscertainlyworthyouracquaintance。
  Youcouldn’tcome,Isuppose,asfarasFlorencetoseeher?
  XV。GeorginaTrevellyntoLouisa————……To-morrowwe’restartingforFlorence,Trulyrejoiced,youmayguess,toescapefromrepublicanterrors;
  Mr。C。andPapatoescortus;webyvetturaThroughSiena,andGeorgytofollowandjoinusbyLeghorn。
  Then————Ah,whatshallIsay,mydearest?Itrembleinthinking!
  Youwillimaginemyfeelings,——theblendingofhopeandofsorrow。
  HowcanIbeartoabandonPapaandMammaandmySisters?
  DearestLouise,indeeditisveryalarming;but,trustmeEver,whatevermaychange,toremainyourlovingGeorgina。
  P。S。byMaryTrevellyn……’DoIlikeMr。Claudeanybetter?’
  Iamtotellyou,——and,’Pray,isitSusanorIthatattracthim?’
  Thisheneverhastold,butGeorginacouldcertainlyaskhim。
  AllIcansayformyselfis,alas!thatheratherrepelsme。
  There!Ithinkhimagreeable,butalsoalittlerepulsive。
  Sobecontent,dearLouisa;foronesatisfactorymarriageSurelywilldoinoneyearforthefamilyyouwouldestablishNeitherSusannorIshallaffordyouthejoyofasecond。
  P。S。byGeorginaTrevellyn。
  Mr。Claude,youmustknow,isbehavingalittlebitbetter;
  HeandPapaaregreatfriends;buthereallyistooSHILLY-SHALLY,——
  SounlikeGeorge!YetIhopethatthematteisgoingonfairly。
  Ishall,however,getGeorge,beforehegoes,tosaysomething。
  DearestLouise,howdelightfultobringyoungpeopletogether!
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  IsitFlorencewefollow,orarewetotarryyetlonger,E’enamidclamourofarms,hereinthecityofold,SeekingfromclamourofarmsinthePastandtheArtstobehidden,Vainly’midArtsandthePastseekingonelifetoforget?
  Ah,fairshadow,scarceseen,goforth!foranonheshallfollow,——
  Hethatbeheldthee,anon,whitherthouleadestmustgo!
  Go,andthewise,lovingMuse,shealsowillfollowandfindthee!
  She,shouldshelingerinRome,werenotdisseveredfromthee!