CHAPTERIII。
ITwasquiteearlyonthefollowingmorning,whenMr。DelafieldrungatthedoorofthehouseinwhichthefatherofMissHenlyresided。Thegentlemanhadobtainedthepermissionoftheyounglady,theprecedingevening,toputhimselfonthelistofhervisitingacquaintance,andacasualintroductiontobothofCharlotte’sparentshadsmoothedthewaytothisintimacy。Itiscertain,that,muchasMr。andMrs。Henlylovedtheirchild,neitherofthementertainedtheselfishwishofmonopolizingallofheraffectionstothemselvesduringlife。Itwasnatural,andathingtoheexpected,thatCharlotteshouldmarry;andamongthewholeoftheiracquaintancethereappearednoonesounobjectionableashernewadmirer。Hewasagreeableinperson,inmanners,andintemper;hewasintelligent,witty,andamanoftheworld;and,moreover,hewasworth——threehundredthousanddollars!Whatparentistherewhosejudgmentwouldremainunbiassedbythesesolidreasonsinfavourofacandidateforthehandofhischild?orwhatfemaleistherewhoseheartcouldbesteeledagainstsuchattractionsinhersuitor?ManywerethehoursofcarethathadbeenpassedbytheguardiansofCharlotte’shappiness,inruminatingontheeventthatwastoyieldtheirchargetothekeepingofanother;frequentweretheirdiscussionsonthisinterestingsubject,andinnumerabletheirplanstoprotectherinexperienceagainstfallingintothoseerrorsthathadblastedthepeaceofsomanyaroundthem;buttheappearanceofSeymourDelafieldseemedasthefulfilmentoftheirmostsanguineexpectations。Tohisrefinementofmanners,theyboththoughtthattheycouldyieldthesensitivedelicacyoftheirchildwithconfidence;
inhistravelledexperiencetheyanticipatedthepermanencyofacorrectedtaste;nor,wasitadisagreeableconsiderationtoeither,thatasthesilkencordofpaternaldisciplinewastobeloosened,itwastobesucceededbythefettersofhymencastinpolishedgold。InwhatmannertheirdaughterregardedtheevidentadmirationofMr。
Delafieldwillappear,byherconclusionofourtale。
Onenteringtheparlour,DelafieldfoundGeorgeMortonseatedinachairnearthefire,withhispersonmorethanusuallywellguardedagainstthecold,asifheweresufferingundertheeffectsofaseriousindisposition。Thesalutationsbetweentheyoungmenwerealittleembarrassedonbothsides;
thefaceofGeorgegrowingevenpalerthanbefore,whilethefinecolouronDelafield’scheekmountedtohisverytemples。Afterregardingforamoment,withmuchinwarddissatisfaction,theapparenteasewithwhichGeorgewasmaintainingpossessionoftheapartmentbyhimself,Mr。
Delafieldovercamethesuddenemotioncreatedbythesurprise,andspoke。
"Iamsorrythatyouappearsoill,Mr。Morton,andI
regretthatyoushouldhavesufferedsomuchinthecauseofhumanity,whenonesomuchbetterabletoundergothefatigue,byconstitution,shouldhaveremainedanidlespectator,likemyself。"——
ThesilentbowofGeorgemightbeinterpretedintoadesiretosaynothingofhisownconduct,orintoanassentwiththeself-condemnationofthespeaker。Delafield,however,tookthechairwhichtheotherpolitelyplacedforhim,andcontinued——
"But,Sir,youhaveyourreward。TheinterestandadmirationexcitedinMissHenly,wouldcompensatemeforalmostanyprivationorhardshipthatmancouldundergo。"
"Itisnohardshiptorideafewmilesinacomfortablecoach,"saidGeorge,withafeeblesmile,"norcanIconsideritaprivationofenjoyment,tobeabletoassistthedistressed,"——hehesitatedamoment,andaflushgraduallystoleoverhisfeaturesashecontinued,"Itistrue,Sir,thatIprizethegoodopinionofMissHenlyhighly,butIlooktoanotherquarterforapprobationonsuchasubject。"
"Andveryjustly,George,"saidthesoftvoiceofCharlotte,"suchapplauseasminecanbebutoflittlemomenttoonewhoperformssuchactsasyours。"
Thegentlemenweresittingwiththeirfacestowardsthefire,andhadnotheardthelightstepofMissHenlyassheenteredtheapartment,butbothinstantlyaroseandpaidtheirsalutations;theinvalidbyasilentbow,andbyhandingachair,andDelafieldwithmanyagracefulcomplimentonhergoodlooks,anddiversprotestationsconcerningthepleasurehefeltatbeingpermittedtovisitatherhouse。Notwothingscouldbemoredifferentthanthemannersofthesegentlemen。Thatofthelatterwasveryhighlypolished,insinuating,andalthoughfarfromunpleasantlyso,yetslightlyartificial;
whilethatoftheformerwassimple,ingenuous,andinthepresenceofMissHenlywasapttobeattimesalittleconstrained。Charlottecertainlyperceivedthedifference,andsheascertainlythoughtthatitwasnotaltogethertotheadvantageofGeorgeMorton。Theideaseemedtogiveherpain,forsheshowedseverallittleattentionstoheroldfriend,thatbytheirflattering,butunstudiedparticularity,wereadaptedtoputanymanathiseaseandassurehimofhiswelcome,stilltheembarrassmentofGeorgedidnotdisappear,buthesatanuneasylistenertotheconversationthatoccurred,asifreluctanttostay,andyetunwillingtodepart。Afterafewobservationsontheentertainmentoftheprecedingevening,Mr。
Delafieldcontinued——
"IwaslamentingtoMr。Morton,asyouentered,thatheshouldhavesufferedsomuchfrommywantofthought,thedaybeforeyesterday;itrequiresagoodconstitutiontoendureexposure——"
"AndsuchIoftentellyou,George,youdonotpossess,"saidCharlotte,kindlyandwithalittlemelancholy;"yetyouneitherseemtoregardmywarningsonthesubject,northoseofanyofyourfriends"——
"ThereisawarningthatIhavenotdisregarded,"
returnedtheyouth,endeavouringtosmile。
"Andwhatisit?"askedCharlotte,struckwiththemelancholyresignationofhismanner。
"ThatIamnotfitcompany,justnow,forheartsasgayasyoursandMr。Delafield’s,"hereturned,andrising,hemadeahastybowandwithdrew。
"Whatcanhemean!"saidCharlotte,inamazement,"Georgedoesnotappearwell,andlatterlyhismannerismuchaltered——whatcanhemean,Mr。
Delafield?"
"Heisill,"saidDelafield,farfromfeelingquiteeasyattheevidentinterestthattheladyexhibited;"heisill,andshouldbeinhisbed,insteadofattendingthemorningleveesofevenMissHenly。"
"Indeed,heistooregardlessofhishealth,"saidCharlotteinalowtone,fixinghereyesonthegrate,whereshecontinuedgazingforsometime。
EveryeffortofSeymourwasmadetodrawofftheattentionoftheyoungladyfromasubject,that,howevermelancholy,seemedtopossesspeculiarcharmsforher。InthisundertakingthegentlemanwouldnothavesucceededbutforthefortunateappearanceofMissOsgood,whocameintotheroomveryopportunelytokeepalivethediscourse。
"What,tete-a-tete!"exclaimedMaria;"youshoulddischargeyourfootman,Charlotte,forsayingthatyouwereathome。Ayoungladyisneversupposedtobeathomewhensheisalone——withagentleman。"
"IshallthenknowhowtounderstandtheservantofMr。Osgood,whenIinquireforhisdaughter,"criedSeymourgayly。
"Ah!Mr。Delafield,itisseldomthatIhaveanopportunityofhearingsoftthings,forIamneveralonewithagentlemaninmyfather’shouse"——
"AndisMrs。Osgoodsorigid?"returnedthegentleman;"surelythegravityofherdaughtershouldcreatemoreconfidence"——
"MosthumblyIthankyou,Sir,{"}saidMaria,courtseyinglowbeforeshetookthechairthathehanded;"butitisnotthecautionofMrs。Osgoodthatpreventsanysolosinhermansion,unlessitbeonaharporflute,oranypossibilityofatete-a-
tete。"
"Nowyouhaveexcitedmycuriositytoadegreethatispainfullyunpleasant,"saidDelafield,"I
knowyoutobetoogenerousnottoallayit"——
"Oh!itisnothingmorethanamagicalnumber,thatfrightensawayallapplicantsforsuchafavour,unlessindeeditmaybesuchaswouldnotbeverylikelytobesuccessfulweretheytoapply;andwhichevenwouldrenderitphysicallyimpossibletohaveatenderinterviewwithinthefourwallsofthemansion"——
"Itisacharmednumber,indeed!andisitonthedoor?isitthenumberofthehouse?"
"Oh!notatall——onlythenumberofthefamily,thebaker’sdozen,thatImentionedlastevening;nowinvisitingMissHenlythereisnosuchinterruptiontobeapprehended。"
Charlottecouldnotrefrainfromsmilingatthevivacityofherfriend,who,perceivingthatherwishtobanishthelookofcarethatcloudedthebrowoftheotherhadvanished,changedthediscourseasabruptlyasshehadintroducedit。
"ImetGeorgeMortonatthedoor,andchattedwithhimforseveralminutes。Heappearsquiteill,butI
knowhehasgonetwomilesinthecountryforhismotherthisrawday;unlessheismorecarefulofhimselfhewillruinhisconstitution,whichisnoneofthebestnow。"
Mariaspokewithfeeling,andwithamannerthatplainlyshowedthatherordinarylevitywasassumed,andthatshehadatthebottom,muchbetterfeelingsthanthetriflingintercourseoftheworldwouldusuallypermithertoexhibit。Charlottedidnotreply,butherbrighteninglooksoncemorechangedtothatpensivesoftnesswhichsowellbecameherdelicatefeatures,andwhichgavetohercountenanceanexpressionsuchasmightbesupposedtoshadowthegloryofangels,when,fromtheirabodeofpurityandlove,theylookdownwithpityonthesorrowsofman。
ThequickglanceofDelafieldnotonlywatched,buteasilydetected,boththerapidtransitionsandthecharacteroftheseoppositeemotions。Underthesuddeninfluenceofpassions,thatprobablywillnotescapeourreaders,hecouldnotforbearuttering,inatoneinwhichpiquemighthavebeentooapparent。
"Really,Mr。Mortonisahappyfellow!"
TheblueeyesofCharlottewereturnedtothespeakerwithalookofinnocentinquiry,butshecontinuedsilent。Maria,however,notonlybestowedaglanceattheyouthfromherlaughinghazelones,butfoundutteranceforhertonguealso。
"Howso?"sheasked——"Heisnotofastrongconstitution,notimmenselyrich,noroverandabove——thatis,notparticularlyhandsome。Whyishesohappy?"
"Ah!Ihavediscoveredthatamanmaybehappywithoutoneofthosequalifications。"
"Andmiserablewhohasthemall?"
"Nay,nay,MissOsgood,myexperiencedoesnotextendsofar——Iamnotquitethepuppyyouthinkme。"
Maria,inherturn,wassilent;butshearosefromherseat,andmovedwithanabsentairtoadistantpartoftheroom,andforashorttimeseemedtobeparticularlyoccupiedinexaminingthebeautiesofaport-folioofprints,witheveryoneofwhichshewasperfectlyfamiliar。Theconversationwasresumedbyherfriend。
"YouhavemortifiedMissOsgood,Mr。Delafield,"
saidCharlotte;"sheistoogoodnaturedtojudgeanyonesoharshly。"
"Ishergoodnature,inthisparticular,infectious?"
theyoungmanratherwhisperedthanutteredaloud——"Doesherfriendfeelthesameindulgencefortheinfirmitiesofafrailnaturetowhichshereallyseemsherselfhardlytobelong?"
"Youcomplimentme,Mr。Delafield,attheexpenseoftruth,ifitreallybeacomplimenttotellmethatIamnotagirl——afemale;forifIamnotawoman,Imustbesomethingworse。"
"Youareanangel!"saidDelafield,withuncontrollablefervour。
Charlottewasstartledbyhismannerandhiswords,andunconsciouslyturnedtoherfriend,asiftoseekherprotectingpresence;buttoherastonishment,shebeheldMariaintheactofclosingthedoorasshewasleavingtheroom。
"Maria!"shecried,"whitherinsuchahurry?I
expectedyoutopassthemorningwithme。"
"Ishallseeyourmotherandreturn,"repliedMissOsgood,closingthedoorsorapidlyastopreventfurtherremark。Thisshortspeech,however,gaveCharlottetimetoobservethechangethatsomethinghadproducedinthecountenanceofheroldcompanion,where,inplaceofthethoughtlessgaietythatusuallyshoneinherfeatures,wastobeseenanexpressionofpainfulmortification;andeventhehighglowthatyouthandhealthhadimpartedtohercheeks,wassupplantedbyadeath-
likepaleness。DelafieldhadbeenendeavouringtoperusethecountenanceofMissHenlyinavainefforttodiscovertheeffectproducedbyhiswarmexclamation;andtheseobservations,whichweremadebythequickeyeoffriendship,entirelyescapedhisnotice。
"Mariaisnotwell,Mr。Delafield,"Charlottesaidhastily。"IknowyourgoodnesswillexcusemewhileIfollowher。"
Theyoungmanbowedwithamortifiedair,andwassomewhatungraciouslybeginningtomakeapolitereply,whenthedooropenedashortspace,andthevoiceofMissOsgoodwasoncemoreheard,sayinginaforced,butlivelymanner——
"Ineverwasbetterinmylife;IshallrunintoMrs。
Morton’sfortenminutes;letmefindyouhere,Mr。
Delafield,whenIreturn。"Herfootstepwasheardtrippingalongthepassage,andinamomentafter,thestreetdoorofthehouseopenedandshut。
Charlotteperceivingthatherfriendwasdetermined,forsomeinexplicablereason,tobealone,quietlyresumedherseat。Hermusingairwassoonchangedtooneofsurprise,bythefollowingremarkofhercompanion:
"Youappear,MissHenley,"hesaid,"tobesensitivelyalivetotheailingsofallyouknowbutme。"
"Ididnotknowthatyouwereill,Mr。Delafield!
Really,sir,Inevermetwithanygentleman’slookswhichsobeliedhim,ifyouareotherwisethanbothwellandhappy。"
AsmuchexperienceasDelafieldpossessedinthetriflingmanoeuvresofmanagers,orperhapsinthemanifestationsoffeelingsthatareexhibitedbyevery-daypeople,hewasanabsolutenoviceintheemotionsofapure,simple,ingenuousfemaleheart。Hewasalivetothecomplimenttohisacknowledgedgoodlooks,conveyedinthisspeech,buthewasnotabletoappreciatethesingle-
heartednessthatpromptedit。Perhapshishandsomefacewasasmuchilluminatedbytheconsciousnessofthisemotionasbythedeeperfeelingheactuallyexperienced,whilehereplied,——
"Iamwell,orill,asyoudecree。MissHenley;itisimpossiblethatyoushouldliveintheworld,andbeseen,beknownasyouare,andmusthavebeenseenandknown,andnotlongsincelearnedthepoweryoupossessoverthehappinessofhundreds。"
ThoughCharlottewassimple,unsuspecting,pure,andextremelymodest,shewasfarfromdull——shewasnotnowtolearnthedifferencebetweenthelanguageofordinarytriflingandgeneralcompliment,andthattowhichshenowlistened,andwhich,howevervague,wasstillsoparticularastoinducehertoremainsilent。Thelooksandmanneroftheyouthfulfemale,atthatmoment,wouldhavebeenastudytothosewholovetodwellonthebetterandpurerbeingsofcreation。Shewassilent,aswehavealreadyremarked,becauseshecouldmakenoanswertoaspeechthateithermeanteverythingornothing。Theslighttingethatusuallywasseatedonhercheekspreadingoveritswholesurfacelikethefaintestglowofsunsetblending,bymellowdegrees,withthesurroundingclouds,washeightenedtorichness,andevendiffuseditselflikeareflection,acrossherpolishedforehead,becauseshebelievedshewasabouttolistentoadeclarationthatheryearsandhereducationunitedtotellherwasnevertoapproachfemaleearswithoutslightlytrespassingonthedelicacyofhersex。Hermildblueeyes,beamingwiththeglowonherface,roseandfellfromthecarpettothecountenanceofDelafield,butchieflydweltinopencharity,andpossiblyinanxiety,onhisown。Infact,therewasthrownaroundherwholeair,suchatouchofexquisiteandshrinkingdelicacy,soblendedwithfeelingbenevolence,andeventenderinterest,thatitwasnowonderthataman,handsometoperfection,young,intelligent,andrich,mistookherfeelings。
"Pardonme,MissHenley,"hecried,andtheapologywasunconsciouslypaidtothecommandingpurityanddignityofherair,"ifIoversteptherulesofdecorum,andhastentodeclarethatwhichI
knowyearsoftrialwouldhardlyjustifymysaying;
butyourbeauty,yourgrace,your————your————whereshallIfindwordstoexpressit?——yourloveliness,yes,thatmeanseverything——yourlovelinesshasnotbeenseenwithimpunity。"
Thismighthavedoneverywellforasuddenandunprepareddeclaration;butbeingalittleindefinite,itfailedtoextractareply,hislistenergivingarespectful,and,attimes,aratherembarrassingattentiontowhathewastoadd。Afterashortpause,theyouth,whofoundwordsasheproceeded,andwithwhom,aswithallothers,thefirstspeechwasthemostdifficult,continued——
"Ihaveknownyoubutashorttime,MissHenley;
buttoseeyouonceistoseeyoualways。Yousmile,MissHenley,butgivemeleavetohopethattimeandassiduitywillenablemetobringyoutosuchastateoffeeling,thatinsomedegree,youmayknowhowtoappreciatemysensations。"
"IfIsmile,Mr。Delafield,"saidCharlotteinalowbutdistinctvoice,"itisnotatyou,butatmyself。I,whohavebeenforseventeenyearsconstantlywithCharlotteHenley,findeachdaysomethingnewinher,nottoadmire,buttoreprehend。"Shepausedamoment,andthenadded,smilingmostsweetlyasshespoke,"Iwillnotaffecttomisunderstandyou,Mr。Delafield;yourlanguageisnotveryintelligible,butitissuchthatIamsureyouwouldnotusetomeifyouwerenotserious,anddidnotfeel,orratherthinkyoufeelwhatyouutter。"
"ThinkIfeel?"heechoed。"Don’tIknowit?CanI
bemistakeninmyownsentiments?Imaybemisledinyours——mayhaveflatteredmyselfwithbeingabletoaccomplishthatatsomedistantday,whichyourobduracymaydenyme,butinmyownfeelingsIcannotbemistaken。"
"Notwheretheyaresoverynew;nay,donotstartsoeagerly——wheretheyMUSTbesoverynew。
Surelyyourfancyonlyleadsyoutosaysomuch,andto-morrow,ornextday,yourfancy,unlessencouragedbyyoutodwellonmyunworthyself,willleadyouelsewhere。"
"Now,MissHenley,whatImostadmireinyourcharacterisitslovelyingenuousness,itssimplicity,itsHEART;andIwillownIdidnotexpectsuchananswertoaquestionput,likemine,insincerityandtruth。"
"IfIhavefailedtoansweranyquestionyouhaveputtome,Mr。Delafield,itisbecauseIamunconsciousthananywasasked;andifIhavedisplayeddisengenuousness,wantofsimplicity,orwantoffeeling,ithasbeenunintentional,Idoassureyou;andonlyprovesthatIcanbeguiltyoferrors,withouttheirbeingdetectedbyonewhohasknownmesolongandsointimately。"
"Myimpetuosityhasdeceivedmeanddistressedyou,"saidDelafield——"IwouldhavesaidthatIloveyouardently,passionately,andconstantly,andshallforeverloveyou。Ishouldhaveaskedyourpermissiontosayallthistoyourparents,toentreatthemtopermitmetoseeyouoften,toaddressyou;and,ifitwerenotimpossible,tohopethatintimetheywouldconsenttointrustmewiththeirgreatesttreasure,andthatyouwouldnotopposetheirdecree。"
"Thisiscertainlyaskingmanyquestionsinabreath,"saidCharlottesmiling,butwithouteitherironyortriumph;"andwereitnotforthatword,breath,Ishouldexperiencesomeuneasinessatwhatyousay;Ifindgreatsatisfaction,Mr。
Delafield,inreflectingthatouracquaintanceisnotaweekold。"
"Aweekistimeenoughtolearntoadoresuchabeingasyouare,MissHenley,thoughanagewouldnotsufficetodojusticetoyourmerits。Say,haveI
yourpermissiontospeaktoyourfather?Idonotaskyouyettoreturnmyaffection——nay,IquestionifyoucaneverloveasIdo。"
"Perhapsnot,"saidCharlotte;"Icanloveenoughtofeelagreatanddeepinterestinthosewhoaredeartome,butIneveryethaveexperiencedsuchemotions,asyoudescribe——Ibelieve,inthisparticular,youhaveformedajustopinionofme,Mr。Delafield;Isuspectsuchpassionsarenotinthecompassofmyfeelings。"
"Theyare,theymustbe,MissHenley:allowmetoseeyouoften,tospeaktoyourfather,andatleasttohope——mayInothopethatintimeyouwilllearntothinkmeamantobetrustedwithyourhappinessasyourhusband?"
ThequietwhichhadgovernedthemannerofCharlotteduringthisdialogue,wassensiblyaffectedbythisappeal,andforashorttimesheappearedtoomuchembarrassedtoreply。Duringthisinterval,Delafieldgazedonher,indelight;forwiththesanguinefeelingsofyouth,heinterpretedeverysymptomofemotioninhisownfavour。
Finding,however,thatshewasdistressedforareply,herenewedhissuit——
"ThoughIhaveknownyoubutafewdays,IfeelasifIhadknownyouforyears。Thereare,Ibelieve,MissHenley,spiritsintheworldwhocommunewitheachotherimperceptibly,whoseemformedforeachother,andwhoknowandloveeachotherasbyinstinct。"
"Ihavenopretensionstobelongtothatclass,"
saidCharlotte;"Imustknowwelltolovealittle,butItrustIfeelkindsentimentstothewholehumanrace。"
"Ah,youdonotknowyourself。YouhavelivedallyourlifeintheneighbourhoodofthatMr。Mortonwhojustwentout,andyoufeelpityforhisillness。
Hedoesindeedlookveryill——butyouhaveyettolearnwhatitistolove。Iaskthehighfavourofbeingpermittedtoattempttheofficeof——of——of——"
"Ofteachingme!"saidCharlottewithasmile。"
{sic}
"No——thatwordistoopresumptuous——toocoarse——"
"Hearme,Mr。Delafield,"saidMissHenleyafterashortpause,duringwhichsheseemedtohaveexperiencedsomedeepandperhapspainfulemotions——"Icannotundertaketogiveyouareasonformyconduct——verypossiblyIhavenogoodone;
butIfeelthatIshouldbedoingyouinjusticebyencouragingwhatyouarepleasedtocallhopes——I
wishtobeunderstoodnow,assayingthatIcannotconsenttoyourexpectingthatIshouldeverbecomeyourwife。"
Delafieldwascertainlyastonishedatthisrefusal,whichwasgiveninthatstill,decidedmannerthatadmitsoflittleopposition。Hehadlongbeenaccustomedtoapprehendasuddenacceptance,andhadbeeninthehabitofstrictlyguardingbothhismannerandhislanguage,lestsomethingthathedidorsaidmightjustifyexpectationsthatwouldhavebeenoutofhispowertofulfil;butnow,when,forthefirsttime,hehadventuredadirectoffer,hemetwitharejectionthatpossessedallthecharacteristicsofsincerity,hewas,intruth,utterlyastounded。Aftertakingasufficienttimetocollectinsomedegreehisfaculties,hecametotheconclusionthathehadbeentooprecipitate,andhadurgedthesuittoofar,andtoohastily。
"Suchmaybeyoursentimentsnow,MissHenley,"
hesaid,"butyoumayalterthemintime:youarenotcalledonforadefiniteanswer。"
"Ifnotbyyou,Iambytruth,Mr。Delafield。Itwouldbewrongtoleadyoutoexpectwhatcannever——"
"Never?"saidDelafield——"youcannotspeaksodecidedly。"
"Ido,indeedIdo,"returnedCharlottefirmly。
"Ihavenotdeceivedmyselfinbelievingyoutobedisengaged,MissHenley?"
"Youhavearighttorequireadefiniteanswertoyourquestions,Mr。Delafield;butyouhavenorighttoexactmyreasonsfordecliningyourveryflatteringoffer——Iamyoung,veryyoung——butIknowwhatisduetomyselfandtomysex——"
"Byheavens!mysuspicionistrue——youarealreadybetrothed!"
"ItwouldbeeasytosayNOtothatassertion,sir,"
addedCharlotte,rising;"butyourrighttoareasoninamatterwhereinclinationissomaterial,isexactlythesameasmyrightwouldbetoaskyouwhyyoudidnotaddressme。Ithankyouforthepreferenceyouhaveshownme,Mr。Delafield。I
havenotsolittleofthewomanaboutme,nottorememberitalwayswithgratitude;butItellyouplainlyandfirmly,foritisnecessarythatIshoulddoso——Inevercanconsenttoreceiveyourproposals。"
"Iunderstandyou,madam——Iunderstandyou,"saidtheyoungmanwithanoffendedair;"youwishmyabsence——nay,MissHenley,hearmefurther。"
"Nofurther,Mr。Delafield,"interruptedCharlotte,advancingtohimwithakind,butunembarrassedair,andofferingherhand——"wepartfriendsatleast;
butIthink,nowweknoweachother’ssentiments,wehadbetterseparate。"
Thegentlemanseizedthehandsheoffered,andkisseditmorewiththeairofalover,thanofanoffendedman,andlefttheroom。Afewminutesafterhehadgone,MissOsgoodre-appeared。
CHAPTERIV。
NOTWITHSTANDINGtheearnestinjunctionthatMariahadgiventoMr。Delafieldtocontinuewhereshelefthim,untilherreturn,sheexpressednosurpriseatnotfindinghimintheroom。Thecountenanceofthisyoungladyexhibitedadrollmixtureofplayfulmirthandsadness;sheglancedhereyesoncearoundtheapartment,andperceivingitwasoccupiedonlybyherfriend,shesaid,laughing——
"Well,Charlotte,whenisittobe?IthinkIretiredinverygoodseason。"
"Perhapsyoudid,Maria,"returnedtheother,withoutraisingherfacefromthereflectingattitudeinwhichshestood——"Ibelieveitisallverywell。"
"Well!youlittlephilosopher——Ishouldthinkitwasexcellent——that——thatis——ifIwereinyourplace。I
suspectedthisfromthemomentyoumet。"
"Whathaveyoususpected,Maria?——whatisityouimaginehasoccurred?"
"What!whySeymourDelafieldhasbeenstammering——thenhelookeddoleful——thenhesighed——thenhehemmed——thenhesaidyouwereanangel——nay,youneednotlookprudish,andaffecttodenyit;hegotasfarasthatbeforeIlefttheroom——thenheturnedtoseeifIwerenotcomingbackagaintosurprisehim——thenhefellonhisknees——thenhestretchedouthishandsomehand——
itistoohandsomeforaman’shand!——andsaidtakeit,takeme,takemyname,andtakemythreehundredthousanddollars!——Nowdon’tdenyasyllableofittillItellyouranswer。"
Charlottesmiled,andtakingherwork,quietlyseatedherselfathertablebeforeshereplied——
"YougothroughCupid’sexercisesodexterously,Maria,oneisledtosuspectyouhaveseensomeservice。"
"Notundersuchanofficer,girl!Ah!ColonelDelafield,orGeneral——no,FieldMarshalDelafield,isanofficerthatmightteach"——asMissOsgoodspokewithshortinterruptionsbetweenherepithets,asifinsearchofproperterms,shedweltamomentonthelastwordinsuchamannerastogiveitaparticularemphasis——Charlottestarted,moreperhapsfromthemannerthantheexpression,andturningherglowingfacetowardsherfriend,shecriedinvoluntarily——
"Isitpossiblethatyoucouldhaveoverheard——"
"What?"
"Nothing——whatnonsense!"
"Letmetellyou,MissPrude,itisinsuchnonsense,however,thatthehappinessormiseryofuspoorsportsoffortune,calledwomen,inagreatmeasurebloomsorfades——nowthatIcallpoetical!——butforyouranswer:firstyousaid——indeed,Mr。Delafield,thisisSOunexpected——-thoughyouknewwellenoughwhatwascoming——thenyoublushedasyoudidalittlewhileago,andsaidIamsoyoung——I——
ambutpoorseventeen——thenhesworeyouwereseventy——no,no,——buthesaidyouareoldenoughtobehisrulingstar——hisdestiny——hisidol——hisobjectofWORSHIP——ha!Idohittherightepithetnowandthen。Well——thenyousaidyouhadparents,asifthepoormandidnotknowthatalready,andthattheymustbeconsulted;andhedesiredyoutoaskthewholecity——hedefiedthemalltosayaughtagainsthim——hewasregularatchurch——subscribedtothewidow’ssociety,andtheassembly;andinshort,wascalleda’good’youngman,eveninWall-
street。"
"Allthisisveryamusing,Maria——but——"
"Itisallverytrue。Thenhewaspressing,andyouwerecoy,untilfinallyheextortedyourdefinitiveanswer,whichwas——"Mariapaused,andseemedtobeintenselystudyingthelooksoftheother——MissHenleysmiledassheturnedherplacid,ingenuousfeaturestohergaze,andcontinuedtheconversationbyrepeating,"Whichwas?"
"NO;irretrievable——unanswerable——unalterableNO。"
"Ihavenotauthorizedyoutosuspectanypartofthisrhapsodytobetrue——Ihavenotsaidyouwererightinasingleparticular。"
"Excuseme,MissHenley,youhavesaidall,andSeymourDelafieldtoldmethesameaswepassedeachotheratthestreetdoor。"
"Isitpossible!"
"Itcouldnotbeotherwise。Hismouthwasshut,itistrue,andhistonguemighthavebeeninhispocket,foranythingIknow:buthiseyesandhishead,hiswalk,andevenhisnoseweredowncast,andspokemortification。Ontheotherhand,yourlittlebodylooksaninchhigher,youreyeslookresolute,asmuchastosay,’Avaunt,falseone!
yourwholeappearanceisthatofdetermineddenial,mingled——"
"Mingledwithwhat,trifler?"
"Mingledwithalittlesecret,woman’spride,thatyouhavehadanopportunityofshowingyourabsolutecharacter。"
"Youknowthesefeelingsfromexperience,doyou?"
"Nochild,myverynatureischarity;iftherequesthadbeenmadetome,Ishouldhavesentthedespondingyouthtomyfather,andifherefused,tomymother——"
"Andifsherefused?"
"WhythenIshouldhavesaid,twonegativesmakeanaffirmative。"
Charlottelaughed,andinthismannertheseriousexplanationwhich,betweenfriendssointimatemighthavebeenexpected,wasavoided。Maria,atthesametime,thatshefellandmanifestedadeepinterestintheTETE-A-TETEthatshehadpromoted,alwaysavoidedanythinglikeagraveexplanation,andwehavefailedingivingthedesiredviewofthecharacterofMissHenley,ifourreadersdeemitprobablethatshewouldevertouchonthesubjectvoluntarily。
Thewinterpassedbyintheordinarymannerinwhichotherwinterspassinthisclimate,beingamixtureofmild,delightfuldays,clearsky,andinvigoratingsun,andofintense,cold,rawwinds,andsnowstorms。ThetwolatterseemedtotrytheconstitutionofpoorGeorgeMortontotheutmost。
Theseverecoldthathetookinhischaritableexcursionlingeredabouthimthroughthecoldmonths,andbeforethegenialwarmthofMayoccurredtorelievehim,hisphysicianspronouncedthathislungswereirremediablyaffected。Duringtheperiodofdoubtandapprehensionwhichprecededtheannunciationofthisopinion,andofdistressandagonywhichsucceededit,thefamilyofMr。Henleywarmlysympathizedinthefeelingsoftheirneighbours。ThelongintimacythathadexistedbetweenGeorgeandCharlotteandtheirparents,removedallsuperfluousforms,andthelatterpassedagreatdealofhertimewithMrs。
Morton,orbythesideoftheinvalid。Herpresencegavehimsuchmanifestandlivelypleasure,thatitwouldhavebeencrueltohavedeniedhimwhattheotherappearedtograntspontaneously。CharlottehadgraduallywithdrawnherselffromsocietyastheillnessofGeorgeincreased,andhisdangerbecamemoreapparent;andattheexpirationofthemonthofApril,shewasseldomvisibletothosewhoarecalledtheworld,withtheexceptionoftheimmediateconnexionsofherfamily,andherfriendMaria0sgood。InthebeginningofMaybothMr。
Mortonandhisneighbourwithdrewtotheircountryhouses,andthustheretirementfromtheworldandtheintercoursebetweenthetwofamiliesbecamemorecomplete。
DelafieldhadmadeoneortwoeffortstorenewhisaddressestoCharlotte,butfindingthemineveryinstancefirmly,thoughmildlyrejected,heendeavouredtodiscoversuchimperfectionsintheobjectofhisregardasmightjustifyhimindislikingher。Themorehereflectedonherconduct,however,themorehebecamesensibleoftheproprietyandsimplicityofherdeportment;andhadnottheimpressionshehadmadeontheyoungmanproceededratherfromtheeffectonhisfancy,thanfromhavingtouchedhisheart,theconsequencesofhisconvictionofherpurityandtruthmighthavebeenmorelastinganddeplorable。Asitwas,hisheatedimaginationgraduallyceasedtoglowwiththebeautiesofanimagethatwas,howeverperfectinitself,extravagantlycolouredbyhisownyouthfulimagination,andintime,ifhethoughtatallofCharlotteHenley,hethoughtofherasabeautifulobject,itistrue,butasofonethatbroughtsomewhatmortifyingreflectionsalongwithit。Thismightnothavebeenmanlyorgenerous,perhaps,butwebelieveitisthemannerinninecasesoutofteninwhichsuchsuddenemotionsexpire,especiallyiftheardouroftheyouthhasprecipitatedadeclarationthatthemorechastenedfeelingsofthedamselarenotyetpreparedtoreciprocate。WhiletheimageofCharlottewasstilllingeringinhismind,hewasinthehabitofvisitingMariaOsgoodalmostdaily,toaskquestionsabouther,andperhapswithasecretexpectationoftheirmeetingheratthehouseofherfriend。ThegaytriflingofMissOsgoodaidedgreatlybothincoolinghisspleenandremovinghismelancholy,tillinthecourseofamonthheevenproceededsofarastomakehertheconfidantofwhatshealreadyknew,thoughonlybyconjectureandinference。Delafieldatthistimewassourgent,andsecretlysodeterminedtoprevail,inorderthathisprideifnothisaffectionsmightbesoothed,thatinanunguardedmomentheinducedtheinconsiderateMariatobetray,wewillnotsaytheconfidenceofherfriend,butsuchfactsascouldonlyhavecometoherknowledgebytheintimacyofunaffectedassociation。IftherewereanythingtoextenuatethisbreachofdecorumbyMaria,itwasthemannerinwhichitwaseffected。MissOsgoodhadjustreturnedfromoneofherfrequentvisitstothevillaofMr。Henley,whenDelafieldmadehiscustomarymorningcall:theabsenceofMaria,andtheobjectofhervisit,hadbeenwellknowntohim,andasitwasatimewhenhebegantospeakofMissHenleywithoutmuchemotion,andbutlittlelove,hecouldnotavoidyieldingsofartohispiqueastoexpresshimselfasfollows:
"So,MissMaria,youhavejustreturnedfrompayinganothervisittoyourbeautifullittlefriendwithoutanyheart。"
"Mylittlefriendwithoutanyheart!Ofwhomdoyouspeak?andwhatdoyoumean!"
"IspeakofMissCharlotteHenley,thenun,——shewhohasallofheavenaboutherbutitslove——thatbrilliantcasketwithoutitsjewels——thatwoman——
yes,thatYOUNGwomanwithoutanyheart。"
"Uponmyword,sir,thisisaveryprettypoemyouhavebeenreciting!butinmyopinion,yourconclusioniswrong。Assherefusedtogiveyouherheart,itisthemoreprobablethatshehasityetinthatbrilliantcasketyouspeakof——"
"No——sheneverhadone。Shewantsthegreatestcharmthatnaturecangivetoawoman——awarm,grateful,andaffectionateheart。"
"Andpray,sir,"saidMaria,bendinghereyesinquisitivelytowardtheyouth,"ifshewantit,whathasshedonewithit!"
"Sheneverhadone,MissOsgood。Iwillgrantyouthatsheislovely,exquisitelylovely!pure,gentle,amiable,everyepithetyoumaywishtoapply,thatindicatesnothingbutacquiredexcellence:butastonaturalfeelings,sheisascoldasanicicle——inshortsheisdestituteofHEART——thethingofallothersI
mostprizeinawoman,andforwhichIadmireyousomuch。"
Marialaughed,butshecolouredalso。Ithadlongbeenobvioustoherself,andtotheworldtoo,thatDelafieldsoughthersociety,nowthathewasnotadmittedatMr。Henley’s,muchmorethanthatofmyotheryoungwomaninthecity;butshethoughtthatshewellunderstoodthesecretreasonforthispreference,thoughtheworldmightnot。Howgratifyingthisspeechwastothefeelingsofthegaygirl,thesequelofourtalemustshow。Theyoungmanhoweverdidnotjudgehertoofavourably,whenhesupposedhertopossessthosekindredsensationsthatuniteuswithourfellow-
beings,andhemighthaveaddedagooddealofgenerositytothecatalogueofhervirtues。Afterapauseofamomentshereplied——
"IsupposeImustthankyou,Delafield,fortheprettycomplimentyouhavejustpaidme,butIamsounusedtothissortofthing,thatIreallyfeelasbashfulassweetfifteen,thoughIamatmaturetwenty。"
"ThatisbecauseyouDOfeel,MissOsgood;ImighthavesaidasmuchtoCharlotteHenleywithoutexcitingtheleastemotioninher,orofevenbringingonetingeofthatbrightblushoverherfeatureswhichmakesyoulooksohandsome。"
"Mercy!mercy!havemercy,Ientreatyou,"criedMaria,avertingherface,"orIshallsoonbeasredasthecook。ButIcannot,Iwillnotconsenttohearmyfriendtraducedinsuchamanner;sofarfromwantingfeeling,CharlotteHenleyisallheart。Touseyourownlanguage,"sheadded,turninghereyestowardshimarchly,"itisforherheartthatI
mostloveher。"
"Youdeceiveyourself。Earlyattachment,andlongassociation,andyourowngenerous,warmfeelingsdeceiveyou。Sheisaccustomedtoshowgentleandkindcivilitiestoallaroundher,andyoumistakehabitforaffection。"
"Sheisaccustomedtodoallthat,Iown;buttodoitinamannerthataddstoitsvaluebyhersimpleunaffectedfeelings。Sheisnot,Imustacknowledge,likecertainpeopleofmyacquaintance,abundleoftindertotakefireateverysparkthatapproaches,butshelovesallsheshouldlove,andIfearshelovesonetoowellthatsheshouldnotlove。"
"Loveonethatsheshouldnotlove?"criedDelafield:"what,isherheartthenengagedtoanother!IsitpossiblethatMissHenley,thecold,prudishMissHenley,canindulgeanimproperattachmentafterall?"
"Mr。Delafield,"saidMissOsgood,gravely,"IamnotapttobetraywhatIoughttoconceal,althoughIamthegiddycreaturethatIseem。ButIhavespokenunguardedly,andmustexplain:inthefirstplace,IwouldnothaveyousupposethatCharlotteHenleyandItalkofourheartsandourloverstoeachother,liketwogirlsataboardingschool。IfI
knowthatshehassuchathingasaheartatall,itisnotfromherselfbutfrommyownobservation;
andasforlovers,thoughshemayhavehaddozensforanythingIknow,toMEtheyareabsolutelystrangers。——Don’tinterruptme,Iamnotbeggingone。AfterthisexplanationIwillsay,trusting,Delafieldentirelyinyourhonour,whichIdobelieveyoutopossessinahigh——"
"Youmay——youmay,"interruptedtheyoungmaneagerly:"Iwillneverbetrayyourconfidence——youmighttrustyourselftomyhonourandgoodfaith——"
"Iwishyouwouldnotbebringingyourselfandmyselfconstantlyintotheconversation,"saidthelady,compressingherlipstoconcealasmile;"wearetalkingofCharlotteHenley,andofheronly。ShewasbroughtupinthedailyhabitofseeingmuchofGeorgeMorton,who,Ibelieve,evenyouwillownhasaheart,foritwillcosthimhislife。"
"Hislife!"
"Ifearso;nay,itiswithouthope。Thecoldhetookincarryingthepoorsufferertothehospitallastwinterhasthrownhimintoadecline。IdobelievethatCharlotteHenleyisfondofhim;butmind,Idonotsaythatsheisinlove——ifappearstobelessofpassionthanofintenseaffection。"
"Yes,suchasshewouldfeelforabrother。"
"Shehasnobrother。Idonotintendtodefinethepassions:butIdobelievethatifheweretoliveandofferhimself,shewouldmarryhim,andmakehimsuchawifeasanymanmightenvy。"
"What!doyouthinksheloveshimunasked,andyetrefusemewhobeggedherhandlikeherslave。"
"Itisnotunasked;hehasknownherallherlife——
hasevershownapreferenceforher——hasbeenkindtoherandtoallothersinherpresence——hehaslonganticipatedherwishes,intrifles,and——and——inshort,hehasdonejustwhatheoughttodo,togainherlove。"
"ThenyouthinkIerredinthemannerinwhichI
mademyadvances?"
"Youradvances,asyoucallthem,wouldhavesucceededwithninegirlsinten,thoughnotwithMissHenley——besides,youaretoolate。"
"Certainlynottoolatewhennodeclarationhadbeenmadebyanyother。"
"Iamnotabouttodiscusstheproprietiesofcourtshipwithyou,Mr。Delafield,"criedMaria,laughingandrisingfromherchair。"Come,letuswalk;itisasintoshutourselvesuponsuchamorning。Thesubjectmustnowhechangedandthescenetoo。"
Heacceptedherchallenge,andtheyproceededthroughthestreetstogether;butsheevadedeverysubsequentattempthemadetorenewthediscourse。Perhapsshefeltthatshehadgonetoofar——perhapstherewassomethinginitthatwaspainfultoherownfeelings。
Theexplanation,however,hadagreattendencytodestroytheremainsofwhatDelafieldmistookforlove。InsteadofhavinghisaffectionsseriouslyengagedinashortintercoursewithMissHenley,ourreadersmayeasilyperceivethatitwasnothingbuthisimaginationthatwasexcited,andwhichhadkepthisbrainfilledwithimagesstillmorelovelythantheoriginal:butnowthatthewanfeaturesofGeorgeMortonwereconstantlybroughtintothepicturebythesideofthedeityhehadworshipped,thecontemplationofthesefanciedbeautiesbecomehourlylesspleasant,andinashorttimeheceasedtodwellonthesubjectaltogether。
Aconsequence,however,grewoutofhisshort-livedinclination,thatwasasunlookedforbyhimselfasbytheothersinterestedintheresult。HebecamesomuchaccustomedtothesocietyofMariaOsgood,thatatlengthhefellitwasnecessarytohiscomfort。Tothesurpriseofthewholecity,thehandsome,rich,witty,andaccomplishedMr。
SeymourDelafielddeclaredhimselfinformbeforethespringhadexpiredtooneoftheplaindaughtersofMr。Osgood,amanwithalargefamily,andbutlittlemoney。Mariahadadifficulttasktoconcealthepleasureshefelt,asshelistenedto,notthepassionatedeclarationofheradmirer,buttohiswarmsolicitationthatshewoulduniteherdestiniestohisown。Shedidconcealit,however,andwouldonlyconsenttoreceivehisvisitsforatime,ontheconditionthathewasnottoconsiderherasatallengagedbythepermission。
CHAPTERV。
WHILEsuchhappyprospectswereopeningonthefuturelifeofherfriend,thetimeofCharlotteHenleywasverydifferentlyoccupiedinthecountry。
Thereis,however,atendencyinyouthtorisewitheventsthatdoesnotreadilyadmitofdepression,andthedisorderofGeorgeMortonwasoneofallothersthemostflatteringwhennearitsclose。Eventhemorematureexperienceofhisparentswasmisledbythedeceptivesymptomsthathiscomplaintassumedinthecommencementofsummer。Theywhosofondlyhopedtheresult,begantobelievethatyouthandtheblandairsofJunewereovercomingtheinexorableenemy。Thatthestrengthoftheyoungmanlessenedwitheverysucceedingday,wasaneventtobeexpectedfromhislowdietandprotractedconfinement;buthisbrighteningeyes,andtheflittingcolourthatwouldattimesaddtotheirfieryradiance,broughttotheyouthfulCharlottethemostheartfelt,thoughsecret,rapture。Thisstatebetweenrevivinghopeandmomentarydespondencyhadprevailedforseveralweeks,whentheaffectionategirlenteredanapartmentthatcommunicatedwithGeorge’sownroom,whereshefoundtheinvalidrecliningonasetteeapparentlydeeplycommuningwithhimself。
Hewasalone;andhisappearance,aswellastheheavensandtheearth,unitedtoencouragethesanguineexpectationofthepureheartthatthrobbedsoardentlywhenitsownerwitnessedanyfavourablechangeinthecountenanceoftheyoungman。Thewindowswereraised,andthebalmyairofaJunemorningplayedthroughtheapartment,lendinginrealityanelasticvigourtothedecayingorgansofthesickyouth。Thetingeinhischeekswasheightenedbythemellowglowofthesun’sraysastheyshonethroughthemediumoftherose-
colouredcurtainsofthewindow,andCharlottethoughtsheoncemorebeheldthereturningcolourofhealthwhereithadbeensolongabsent。
"Howmuchbetteryouappearthismorning,George,"shecried,inavoicewhosemelodywasevenheightenedbyitsgaiety。"Weshallsoonhaveyouamongusoncemore,andthen,heedlessone,bewarehowyoutrifleagainwiththatbestofheaven’sgifts,yourhealth。Oh,thisisablessedclimate!oursummeratoneswithitsmildnessforthedrearinessandperilsofourwinter;ithasevengivenmeacolour,pale-faceasIam——Icanfeelitburnonmycheek。"
Heraisedhisheadfromitsmusingpositionatthefirstsoundsofhervoice,andsmiledfaintly,andwithanexpressionofanguish,assheproceeded;
butwhenshehadended,andtakenherseatnearhim,stillkeepinghereyesonhisvaryingcountenance,hetookherhandintohisownbeforehereplied。Agooddealsurprisedathismanner,andatthisact,whichexceededtheusualfamiliarityofeventheiraffectionateintercourse,thecolour,ofwhichMissHenleyhadbeensoplayfullyboasting,changedonceortwicewithrapidtransitions。
"SeemIsowell,dearCharlotte?"heatlengthsaidinalow,tremulous,andhollowvoice,"seemIsowell?Ibelieveyouareright,andthatIshallshortlybebetter——muchbetter。"
"Whatmeanyou,George?feelyouanyworse?haveIdisturbedyouwithmypresenceandmythoughtlessgaiety?"
Theyoungmansmiledagain,buttheexpressionofhisfacewasnolongermingledwithalookofanguish;itwasakindbenevolentgleamofgratitudeandaffectionwhichcrossedhisghastlyfeatures,likearayofsunshineenliveningthegloomofadayinwinter。
"Youdisturbme,Charlotte!"heanswered,hisveryvoicetremblingasifinsympathywithhisframe:"I
dobelievebutforyouIshouldhavebeenlongsinceinmygrave。"
"No,no,George,thisistoomelancholyathemeforusbothjustnow;letustalkofyourreturninghealth。"
Hepressedherhandtohisheartbeforehereplied——
"Myhealthwillneverreturn;Iamlosttothisworld;
andinfactatthismomentIproperlybelongtoanotherinmybody:wouldtoGodthatIwaspurelysoinfeelingsalso。"
"Surely,George,youarealarmingyourselfunnecessarily。"
"Iamnotalarmed,"hereplied;"Ihavetoolongforeseenthisevent,tofeelalarmedatmyapproachingdissolution——no,forthat,blessedbemyGodandmyRedeemer,Iaminsomedegreeprepared;butIfeelitimpossibletoshakeoffthefeelingsofthislifewhilethepulsecontinuestobeat,andyettheemotionsInowexperiencemustbeinsomemeasurealliedtoheaven;theyarenotimpure,theyarenotselfish;nothingcanpartakeofeither,dearCharlotte,whereyourimageisconnectedwiththethoughtsofafutureworld。"
"Oh,George!talknotsogloomily,socruelly,thismorning——yourwholecountenancecontradictsyourmelancholyspeech,andyouarebetter——indeedyouare;——youmustbebetter。"
"Yes,Iambetter,Iamnearlywell,"returnedtheyouth,pausingamoment,whileastruggleofthemostpainfulinterestseemedtoengrosshisthoughts。Asitpassedaway,hedrewhishandfeeblyacrosshisclammybrow,and,smilingfaintly,resumedhisspeech,——"onthebrinkofthegrave,atamomentwhenallthoughtsofmemustbeconnectedwiththeimageofdeath,therecannolongerbeanynecessityforsilence。Youhavebeenkindtous,dearMissHenley,asyouarekindtoall;
buttomeyoursympathyhasbeentreblydear,forithasbroughtwithitaconsolationandpleasurethatyoubutlittleimagine。"
MissHenleyraisedhertearfuleyesfromthefloortohiswanfeatures,thatnowappearedilluminedwithmorethanhumanfires,andherpalelipsquivered,buthervoicewasinaudible。
"Yes,Charlotte,Imaynowspeakwithoutinjustice,orthefearofbeingselfish:Ihavelonglovedyou——
howtenderly,howpurely,nonecaneverknow;butcouldI,withacertaintyofmyfatebeforemyeyes,withtheknowledgethatmydayswerenumbered,andthatthesunofmylifecouldneverreachitsmeridian,wooyoutomylove,tomakeyoumiserable!No,dearest!yourgentleheartwillmournthebrotherandthefriendtoomuchforitsownpeace;itneedednotthestingofastrongergrief。"
"George,George,"sobbedtheconvulsedgirl,"thinknotofme;speaknotofme——ifitcancheeryouatsuchamomenttoknowhowmuchyouarevaluedbyme,nocoldreserveshallbefoundonmypart。"
Theyoungmanstarted,andfastenedhiseyesonherfacewithanindefinablelookofdelightmingledwithsorrow。
"Charlotte!"heexclaimed,"doIheararight?amI
somiserable!amIsohappy!repeatthosewords——
quick——myeyesgrowdim——mysensesdeceiveme。"
"Live,GeorgeMorton,"saidCharlottefirmly:"youarebetter——yourwholefacebespeaksit;andifthetendercareofanaffectionatewifecanpreserveyourhealth,youshalllongliveablessingtoallwholoveyou。"
AsCharlotteuttered,thusingenuously,herpureattachment,theyouthextendedhishandtowardsherblindly。Shegavehimherown,whichhedrewtohisheart,andfoldedtohisbosomwithawarmpressureforaninstant,whenhisholdrelaxed,hisformdroppingbackwardonthesofa,andinthatattitudeheexpiredwithoutastruggle。
Weshallnotdwellonthemelancholyscenethatfollowed。AtthefuneralofGeorgeMortonMissHenleywasnottobeseen,norwasitgenerallyunderstoodthattheyoungpeoplehadbeenconnectedintheclosesttiesoffeeling。Shemadenodisplayofhergriefinherdress,unlesstheslighttestimonialsofafewbrightribbandsonthevirginwhiteofherrobecouldbecalledsuch,andtherumourthatwasatfirstpropagatedoftheirbeingengagedtoeachotherwasdiscredited,becausethetracesofsorrowwerenotparticularlyvisibleintheattireofMissHenley。Whentheseasonofgaietyreturned,sheappearedasusualinherplaceinsociety。Thoughhercheekswereseldomenrichedwiththefaintglowthatoncerenderedhersobeautiful,andshewaslessdazzlinginherappearance,yet,ifpossible,shewasmorelovelyandattractive。Inthecourseofthewinter,severalgentlemenapproachedherwiththeevidentintentionofofferingtheirhands。Theiradvanceswerereceivedwithgreaturbanity,butinmostinstanceswiththatunembarrassedmannerthatisfataltohope。Oneofheradmirers,however,perseveredsofarastosolicitherhand:thedenialwasmild,butresolute;likemostyoungmenwhothinktheirhappinessdependentonalady’ssmile,hewishedtoknowifhehadasuccessfulrival。Hewasassuredhehadnot。HiscuriosityevenwentsofarastoinquireifMissHenleyhadabjuredmatrimony。Theanswerwasasimple,unaffectednegative。Amazedathisownwantofsuccess,theyouththenintimatedhisintentionofmakingafutureapplicationforherfavour。
Inthemeantime,SeymourDelafield,aftercastingonelonging,lingeringlookatMissHenley,becamethehusbandofherfriend,andmadethefourteenthintheprolificfamilyoftheOsgoods,wherehiswealthwasnotlessagreeabletotheparents,thanhispersontothedaughter。
Manyyearshaverolledbysincetheoccurrenceoftheseevents,andMissHenleycontinuesthesameineverythingbutappearance。Thefreshnessofherbeautyhasgivenplacetoalookofintelligence。
anddelicacythatseemsgraduallyfittingherforherlastandmostimportantchange。ThenameofGeorgeMortonisneverheardtopassherlips。Mrs。
Delafielddeclaresittobeasubjectthatsheneverdarestoapproach,norinherrepeatedrefusalsofmatrimonialoffershasCharlotteeverbeenknowntoalludetothedesolationofherownheart。Herfatherisdead;buttohermotherMissHenleyhasinagreatmeasuresuppliedhisloss。Withherfriendssheisalwayscheerful,andapparentlyhappy,thoughtheinnocentgaietyofherchildhoodissensiblychecked,andtherearemomentsthatbetraytheexistenceofagriefthatisonlythemoredurable,becauseitislessviolent。Inshort,shelivesapatternforhersex,unfetteredbyanyromanticandfoolishpledges,dischargingallthenaturaldutiesofheryearsandstationinanexemplarymanner,butunwillingtoincuranynewones,becauseshehasbutoneheart,andthatwaslongsincegivenwithitspurity,sincerity,andtruth,tohimwhoisdead,andcanneverbecomethepropertyofanother。
WhenCharlotteHenleydies,althoughshemaynothavefulfilledoneoftheprincipalobjectsofherbeing,bybecomingamother,herexamplewillsurviveher;andthosewhostudyhercharacterandintegrityoffeeling,willfindenoughtoteachthemwhatpropertiesarethemostvaluableinformingthatsacredcharacter——whileherownsexcanlearnthat,thoughinthecaseofMissHenley,Providencehasdeniedthefullexerciseofherexcellences,ithasatthesametimerenderedherastrikinginstanceoffemaledignity,byexhibitingtotheworldthedifferencebetweenaffectionandcaprice,andbyshewinghowmuchimaginationisinferiortoHeart。