"Ishouldthinknot,"returnedJulia,musing;"I
neverhadasister;butitappearstomethattheveryfamiliarityofsisterswouldbedestructivetofriendship。"
"WhyIthoughtitwastheconfidence——thefamiliarity——thesecrets——whichformtheveryessenceoffriendship。"criedKatherine;"atleastsoIhavealwaysheard。"
"True,"saidJulia,eagerly,"youspeaktrue——theconfidenceandthesecrets——butnotthe——the——IamnotsurethatIexpressmyselfwell——buttheintimateknowledgethatonehasofone’sownsister——thatIshouldthinkwouldbedestructivetothedelicacyoffriendship。"
"Juliameansthataprophethasneverhonourinhisowncountry,"criedCharleswithalaugh——"asomewhatdoubtfulcomplimenttoyoursex,ladies,underherapplicationofit。"
"Butwhatbecomesofyourinnateevidenceofworthinfriendship,"askedMissEmmerson;"Ithoughtthatwasthemostinfallibleofallkindsoftestimony:surelythatmustbringyouintimatelyacquaintedwitheachother’ssecretfoiblestoo。"
"Oh!no——thatisaspeciesofsentimentalknowledge,"returnedJulia;"itonlydwellsontheloftierpartsofthecharacter,andneverdescendstotheminuteknowledgewhichmakesussuffersomuchineachother’sestimation:itleavesallthesetobefilledbythe——bythe——bythe——whatshallIcallit?"
"Imagination,"saidKatherine,dryly。
"Well,bytheimaginationthen:butitisanimaginationthatispurifiedbysentiment,and"——
"Alreadyrenderedpartialbytheinnateevidenceofworth,"interruptedCharles。
Juliahadlostherselfinthemazesofherownideas,andchangedthesubjectunderasecretsuspicionthathercompanionswereamusingthemselvesatherexpense;she,therefore,proceededdirectlytourgetherequestofAnnaMiller。
"Oh!aunt,nowweareonthesubjectoffriends,I
wishtorequestyouwouldauthorizemetoinvitemyAnnatopassthenextwinterwithusinPark-
Place。"
"Iconfess,mylove,"saidMissEmmerson,glancinghereyeatKatherine,"thatIhaddifferentviewsforourselvesnextwinter:hasnotMissMilleramarriedsisterlivingintown?"
"Yes,butshehaspositivelyrefusedtoaskthedeargirl,Iknow,"saidJulia。"Annaisnotafavouritewithhersister。"
"Veryoddthat,"saidtheauntgravely;"theremustbeareasonforherdislikethen:whatcanbethecauseofthisunusualdistasteforeachother?"
"Oh!"criedJulia,"itisallthefaultofMrs。Welton;
theyquarrelledaboutsomething,Idon’tknowwhat,butAnnaassuresmeMrs。Weltonisentirelyinfault。"
"Indeed!——andyouareperfectlysurethatMrs。
Weltonisinfault——perhapsAnnahas,however,laidtoostrongastressupontheerrorofhersister,"
observedtheaunt。
"Oh!notatall,dearaunt。Icanassureyou,onmyownknowledge,"continuedJulia,"Annawasanxiousforareconciliation,andofferedtocomeandspendthewinterwithhersister,butMrs。
Weltondeclaredpositivelythatshewouldnothavesoselfishacreatureroundherchildren:nowthisAnnatoldmeherselfoneday,andweptnearlytobreakherheartatthetime。"
"PerhapsMrs。Weltonwasrightthen,"saidMissEmmerson,"andprudence,ifnotsomeotherreason,justifiedherrefusal。"
"Howcanyousayso,dearaunt?"interruptedJulia,withalittleimpatience,"whenItellyouthatAnnaherself——myAnna,toldmewithherownlips,hereinthisveryhouse,thatMrs。Weltonwasentirelytoblame,andthatshehadneverdoneanythinginherlifetojustifythetreatmentortheremark——nowAnnatoldmethiswithherownmouth。"
AsJuliaspoke,theardourofherfeelingsbroughtthecolourtohercheeksandananimationtohereyesthatrenderedherdoublyhandsome;andCharlesWeston,whohadwatchedhervaryingcountenancewithdelight,sighedassheconcluded,andrising,lefttheroom。
"IunderstandthatyourfatherintendsspendinghiswinterinCarolina,forhishealth,"saidMissEmmersontoKatherine。
"Yes,"returnedtheotherinalowtone,andbendingoverherworktoconcealherfeelings;
"motherhaspersuadedhimtoavoidourwinter。"
"Andyouaretobeleftbehind?"
"Iamafraidso,"wasthemodestreply。
"AndyourbrotherandsistergotoWashingtontogether?"
"Thatisthearrangement,Ibelieve。"
MissEmmersonsaidnomore,butsheturnedanexpressivelookonherward,whichJuliawastoomuchoccupiedwithherthoughtstonotice。Theillnessofherfather,andtheprospectofalongseparationfromhersister,weretoomuchforthefortitudeofKatherineatanytime,andhastilygatheringherworkinherhand,shelefttheroomjustintimetopreventthetearswhichstreameddownhercheeksfrommeetingtheeyesofhercompanions。
"WeoughttoaskKatherinetomakeoneofourfamily,intheabsenceofhermotherandsister,"
saidMissEmmerson,assoonasthedoorwasclosed。
"Ah!yes,"criedJulia,fervently,"byallmeans:poorKatherine,howsolitaryshewouldbeanywhereelse——Iwillgothisinstantandaskher。"
"But——stopamoment,mylove;youwillrememberthatwehavenotroomformorethanoneguest。IfKatherineisasked,MissMillercannotbeinvited。
Letuslookatwhatweareabout,andleavenothingtorepentofhereafter。"
"Ah!itistrue,"saidJulia,re-seatingherselfingreatdisappointment;"wherewillpoorKatherinestaythen?"
"IknowmybrotherexpectsthatIwilltakeherundermycharge;and,indeed,Ithinkhehasrighttoaskitofme。"
"ButshehasnosuchrightasmyAnna,whoismybosomfriend,youknow。Katherinehasarighthere,itistrue,butitisonlysucharight"——
"Asyourown,"interruptedtheauntgravely;"youarethedaughterofmysister,andKatherineisthedaughterofmybrother。"
"True——true——ifitberight,lawfulright,thatistodecideit,thenKatherinemustcome,Isuppose,"
saidJulia,alittlepiqued。
"Letusproceedwithcaution,mylove,"saidMissEmmerson,kissingherniece——"DoyoupostponeyourinvitationuntilSeptember,when,ifyoucontinueofthesamemind,wewillgiveAnnathedesiredinvitation:inthemeanwhileprepareyourselfforwhatIknowwillbeamostagreeablesurprise。"
CHAPTERIV。
ALTHOUGHJuliaspentmostofhertimewithherauntandcousin,opportunitiesformeditationwerenotwanting:intheretirementofherclosetsheperusedandre-perusedthefrequentlettersofherfriend。ThemodestyofJulia,orrathershame,wouldhavepreventedherfrommakingAnnaacquaintedwithallherfeelings,butitwouldhavebeentreasontoherfriendshipnottohavepouredoutalittleofhersoulatthefeetofMissMiller。
Accordingly,inherletters,JuliadidnotavoidthenameofAntonio。Shementioneditoften,butwithwomanlydelicacy,ifnotwithdiscretion。Theseedsofconstantassociationhad,unknowntoherself,takendeeproot,anditwasnotinthepowerofAnnaMillertoeradicateimpressionswhichhadbeenfastenedbytheexampleoftheaunt,andcherishedbythesocietyofhercousin。Althoughdeluded,weak,andevenindiscreet,Juliawasnotindelicate。Yetenoughescapedhertohavegivenanyexperiencedeyeaninsightintotheconditionofhermind,hadAnnachosentohaveexposedherletterstoanyone。Thedangerofsuchacorrespondenceshouldalonedeteranyprudentfemalefromitsindulgence。Societyhasbrandedthemanwithscornwhodaresabusetheconfidenceofawomaninthismanner;andthedreadoftheindignationofhisassociatesmakesitanoffencewhichisrarelycommittedbytheothersex:butthereisnosuchobligationimposedonwomen,andthatfrequentlypassesforajokewhichharrowseveryfeelingthatisdeartothefemalebreast,andviolatesallthatisdelicateandsensitiveinournature。Surely,whereitisnecessaryfromanyadventitiouscircumstancestolaytheheartopeninthismanner,itshouldonlybedonetothosewhosecharactersareconnectedwithourown,andwhofeelridiculeinflictedonus,asdisgraceheapedonthemselves。Apeculiareviloftheseconfidentialfriendshipsis,thattheyaremostliabletooccur,when,fromtheiryouth,theirvictimsaretheleastguarded;and,atthesametime,frominconstancy,themostliabletochange。Happily,however,forJulia’speaceofmind,sheforesawnosuchdangersfromherintimacywithAnna,andletterandanswerpassedbetweenthem,atshortintervals,duringtheremainderofthesummer。Weshallgivebutonemorespecimenofeach,astheyhavestrongresemblancetooneanother——weselecttwothatwerewrittenlateinAugust。
"MyownandbelovedJulia,"Yourlettersaretheonlyconsolationthatmyanxiousheartcanknowinthedrearysolitudeofthisplace。Oh!myfriend,howwouldyourtenderheartbleeddidyoubutknowtheleastofmysufferings;buttheyareallrequitedbythedelightfulanticipationsofPark-Place。Ihopeyourdearaunthasnotfounditnecessarytolaydownhercarriageinthechangeofthetimes:writemeinyournextaboutit。Antoniohasbeenhereagain,andhesolicitedanaudiencewithmeinprivate——ofcourseIgrantedit,forfriendshiphallowsallthatisdoneunderitsmantle。Itwasamoonlightnight——
mildLunasheddingabalmylightonsurroundingobjects,and,ifpossible,renderingmyheartmoresensitivethanever。Onesolitaryglimmeringstarshowedbyitspalyquiveringstheimpressofevening,whilenotacloudobscuredthevastfirmamentofheaven。OnsuchaneveningAntoniocoulddonothingbutconverseofmyabsentfriend;
hedweltontheindescribablegraceofyourperson,thelustreofyoureye,andthevermilionofyourlips,untilexhaustedlanguagecouldfurnishnomoreepithetsofrapture:thenthetransitiontoyourmindwasnaturalandeasy;anditwaswhilelisteningtohishoniedaccentsthatIthoughtmyJuliaherselfwastalking。
"Softasthedewsfromheavendescend,hisgentleaccentsfell。"
Ah,Julia!nothingbutastrongpre-possession,andmyfriendshipforyou,couldremovethedangerofsuchascene。Yes!friendofmyheart,Imustacknowledgemyweakness。ThereisayouthinNew-York,whohaslongbeenmasterofmytoosensitiveheart,andwithouthimlifewillbeaburthen。Cruelfatedividesusnow,butwheninvitedbyyouraunttoPark-Place,Oh,raptureunutterable!IshallbenearmyRegulus。This,surely,isallthatcanbewantingtostimulatemyJuliatogettheinvitationfromheraunt。AntoniosaysthatifIgotothecitythisfall,hewillhovernearmeontheroadtoguardthefriendofJulia;
andthathewilleagerlyavailhimselfofmypresencetoseekhersociety。Iamcalledfrommydelightfuloccupationbyoneofmytroublesomesisters,whowishesmetoassistherinsometrifleorother。Makemymostprofoundrespectstoyourdear,goodaunt,andbelievemeyourowntruefriend,ANNA。"
{Regulus=prince}
AtlengthJuliathoughtshehadmadethediscoveryofAnna’sreasonforherevidentdesiretospendthewinterintown——likeherself,herfriendhadbecomethevictimofthesoftpassion,andfromthatmomentJuliadeterminedthatKatherineEmmersonmustseekanotherresidence,inorderthatAnnamightbreathelove’satmosphere。HowmuchadesiretoseeAntoniogovernedthisdecision,wecannotsay,butwearecertainthat,ifintheleast,Juliawasherselfignorantofthepower。Withher,itseemedtobetheresultofpure,disinterested,andconfidingfriendship。Inanswer,ourheroinewroteasfollows:
"MybelovedAnna,"Yourkind,consolatorylettersarecertainlythesolaceofmylife。Ah!Anna,Ihavelongthoughtthatsomeimportantsecretlayheavyatyourheart。
Theincoherencyofyourletters,andcertainthingstootriflingtomention,hadmademesuspectthatsomeunusualcalamityhadbefallenyou。YoudonotmentionwhoRegulusis。Iamburningwithcuriositytoknow,althoughIdoubtnotbutheiseverywayworthyofyourchoice。
"Ihaveinvainrunoverinmymindeveryyoungmanthatweknow,butnotoneofthemthatIcanfindhasanyofthequalitiesofahero。Dorelievemycuriosityinyournext,andImayhaveitinmypowertowriteyousomethingofhismovements。
Oh!Anna,whywillyoudwellonthenameofAntonio——IamsureIoughtnottolistenasIdotowhathesays——andwhenwemeet,Iamafraidthathewillnotfindalltheattractionswhichyourtoopartialfriendshiphasportrayed。Ifheshouldbethusdisappointed,Oh!Anna——Anna——whatwouldbecomeofyourfriend——ButIwillnotdwellanthehorrididea。CharlesWestonisyethere,andKatherineEmmersontoo;sothatbutforthethoughtsofmyabsentAnna,andperhapsalittleuneasinessonthesubjectofAntonio,Imightbeperfectlyhappy。YouknowhowgoodandfriendlyKatherineis,andreallyCharlesdoesallinhispowertoplease。Ifhewereonlyalittlemoreheroical,hewouldbeacharmingyoungman:foralthoughheisnotveryhandsome,Idon’tthinkyounoticeitintheleastwhenyouareintimatewithhim。PoorCharles,hewasterriblymortifiedabouttheflashoflightning——butthenallarenotbravealike。Adieu,myAnna——andifyoudoconversemorewithacertainpersonabout,youknowwhom,letitbewithdiscretion,oryoumayraiseexpectationsshewillnotequal。YourownJULIA。"
"P。S。IhadalmostforgottentosaythataunthaspromisedmethatIcanaskyoutostaywithus,if,afterthe20thSeptember,Iwishit,asyoumaybesurethatIwill。Auntkeepshercarriageyet,andI
hopewillneverwantitinheroldage。"
Aboutthetimethisletterwaswritten,MissEmmersonmadebothofherniecesacquaintedwiththepromisedprojectthatwastogivethemtheagreeablesurprise:——shehadlongcontemplatedgoingtosee"theFalls,"andshenowintendedputtingherplanintoexecution。Katherinewasherselfpressedtomakeoneoftheparty,buttheyounglady,atthesametimesheownedherwishtoseethisfar-famedcataract,declinedtheofferfirmly,butgratefully,onaccountofherdesiretospendtheremainingtimewithherfatherandmother,beforetheywenttothesouth。CharlesWestonlookedfromKatherinetoJuliaduringthisdialogue,andforaninstantwasatalosstoknowwhichhethoughtthehandsomestofthecousins。
ButJuliaenteredintothefeelingsoftheotherssoquickly,andsogracefullyofferedtogiveupthejourney,inorderthatMissEmmersonmightcontinuewithherbrother,that,aidedbyhersuperiorbeauty,shetriumphed。Itwasevident,thatconsiderationforherniecewasastronginducementwiththeauntformakingthejourney,andthecontestbecameasdisinterestedasitwaspleasingtotheauditors。ButtheauthorityofMissEmmersonprevailed,andCharleswasinstantlyenlistedastheirescortforthejourney。Julianeverlookedmorebeautifuloramiablethanduringthisshortcontroversy。IthadbeenmentionedbytheauntthatsheshouldtakethehouseofMr。Millerinherroad,andtheinformationexcitedanemotionthatbroughtallherlustretohereyes,andbloomtohercheeks。Charlesthoughtitwasaburstofgenerousfriendship,andadmiredtheself-denialwithwhichsheurgedheraunttorelinquishtheidea。ButJuliawasconstitutionallygenerous,anditwastheexcessofthequalitythatmadeherenthusiasticandvisionary。IfshedidnotdeserveallofCharles’sadmiration,shewasentitledtonosmallshareofit。Assoonasthequestionwasdeterminedinfavourofgoing,MissEmmersonandKatherinewithdrew,leavingCharlesalonewiththeheroineofourtale。Undertheageoffive-and-
twenty,mencommonlyactattheinstigationofsuddenimpulse,andyoungWestonwasnotyettwenty-one。HehadlongadmiredJuliaforherbeautyandgoodfeelings;hedidnotseeonehalfofherfolly,andheknewallofherworth;herenthusiasticfriendshipforMissMillerwasforgotten;evenhermirthathisownwantofheroismhadatthemomentescapedhismemory——
andthepoweroftheyoungladyoverhimwasnevergreater。
"Howadmirableinyou,Julia,"hesaid,seatinghimselfbyherside,"tourgewhatwasagainstyourownwishes,inordertoobligeyouraunt!"
"Doyouthinkso,Charles?"saidtheothersimply;
"butyouseeIurgeditfeebly,forIdidnotprevail。"
"No,foryoumistookyouraunt’swishes,itseems:
shedesirestogo——butthenallthelovelinessoftheactwasyours。"
Atthewordloveliness,Juliaraisedhereyestohisfacewithaslightblush——itwasnewlanguageforCharlesWestontouse,anditwasjustsuitedtoherfeelings。Afteramoment’spause。however,shereplied——
"Youusestronglanguage,cousinCharles,suchasisunusualforyou。"
"Julia,althoughImaynotoftenhaveexpressedit,Ihavelongthoughtyoutobeverylovely!"
exclaimedtheyoungman,borneawaywithhisardouratthemoment。
"Uponmyword,Charles,youimprove,"saidJulia,blushingyetmoredeeply,and,ifpossible,lookingstillhandsomerthanbefore。
"Julia——MissWarren——youtearmysecretfrommebeforeitstime——Iloveyou,Julia,andwouldwishtomakeyoumywife。"
ThiswascertainlyveryplainEnglish,nordidJuliamisunderstandasyllableofwhathesaid——butitwasentirelynewandunexpectedtoher;shehadlivedwithCharlesWestonwiththeconfidenceofakinswoman,buthadneverdreamtofhimasalover。
Indeed,shesawnothinginhimthatlookedlikeabeingtoexciteortoentertainsuchapassion;andalthoughfromthemomentofhisdeclarationshebeganinsensiblytothinkdifferentlyofhim,nothingwasfartherfromhermindthantoreturnhisofferedaffection。Butthentheopportunityofmakingasacrificetohersecretlovewasglorious,andherfranknessforbadehertoconcealthetruth。Indeed,whatbetterwaywastheretodestroytheunhappypassionofCharles,thantoconvincehimofitshopelessness?Thesethoughtsflashedthroughhermindwiththerapidityoflightning——andtremblingwiththeagitationandnoveltyofhersituation,sheansweredinalowvoice——
"That,Charles,canneverbe。"
"Whynever,Julia?"criedtheyouth,givingwayatoncetohislong-suppressedfeelings——"whynever?
Tryme,proveme!thereisnothingIwillnotdotogainyourlove。"
Oh!howseductivetoafemaleearisthefirstdeclarationofanattachment,especiallywhenurgedbyyouthandmerit!——itassailsherheartinthemostvulnerablepart,andifitbenotfortifiedunusuallywell,seldomfailsofsuccess。HappilyforJulia,theimageofAntoniopresenteditselftosaveherfrominfidelitytoheroldattachment,andshereplied——
"Youarekindandgood,Charles,andIesteemyouhighly——butasknomore,Ibegofyou。"
"Why,ifyougrantmethis,whyforbidmetohopeformore?"saidtheyoutheagerly,andlookingreallyhandsome。
Juliahesitatedamoment,andletherdarkeyesfallbeforehisardentgaze,atalosswhattosay——butthefaceofApollointheimperialuniforminterposedtosaveher。
"Ioweittoyourcandour,Mr。Weston,toownmyweakness——"shesaid,andhesitated。
"Goon,Julia——myJulia,"saidCharles,inanunusuallysoftvoice;"killmeatonce,orbidmelive!"
AgainJuliapaused,andagainshelookedonhercompanionwithkindereyesthanusual——whenshefeltthepicturewhichlaynextherheart,andproceeded——
"Yes,Mr。Weston,thisheart,thisfoolish,weakheartisnolongermyown。"
"How!"exclaimedCharles,inastonishment,"andhaveIthenarival,andasuccessfulonetoo?"
"Youhave,"saidJulia,buryingherfaceinherhandstoconcealherblushes。——"But,Mr。Weston,onyourgenerosityIdependforsecrecy——beasgenerousasmyself。"
"Yes——yes——Iwillconcealmymiseryfromothers,"
criedCharles,springingonhisfeetandrushingfromtheroom;"wouldtoGodIcouldconcealitfrommyself!"
Juliawassensiblytouchedwithhisdistress,andforaninstanttherewassomeregretmingledwithself-
satisfactionatherowncandour——butthenthedelightfulreflectionsoonpresenteditselfofthegratitudeofAntoniowhenhelearnthergenerousconduct,andherself-denialinfavourofamanwhomshehadasyetneverseen。——Atthesametimeshewasresolutelydeterminednevertomentiontheoccurrenceherself——noteventoherAnna。
MissEmmersonwasenabledtodiscoversomesecretuneasinessbetweenCharlesandJulia,althoughshewasbynomeansabletopenetratethesecret。Thegoodaunthadlonganxiouslywishedforjustsuchadeclarationashadbeenmadetoherniece,anditwasoneofthelastofherapprehensionsthatitwouldnothavebeenfavourablyreceived。Ofsimpleandplainhabitsherself,MissEmmersonwasbutlittleversedinthehumanheart;shethoughtthatJuliawasevidentlyhappyandpleasedwithheryoungkinsman,andsheconsideredhimineveryrespectamosteligibleconnexionforhercharge:theirjointfortuneswouldmakeanampleestate,andtheywerealikeaffectionateandgood-tempered——whatmorecouldbewanting?Nothinghoweverpassedinthefutureintercourseoftheyoungcoupletobetraytheirsecrets,andMissEmmersonsoonforgothersurmises。CharleswasmuchhurtatJulia’savowal,andhadinvainpuzzledhisbrainstodiscoverwhohisrivalcouldbe。Noyoungmanthatwasintheleast(sohethought)suitabletohismistress,visitedher,andhegaveuphisconjecturesindespairofdiscoveringthisunknownlover,untilaccidentordesignshoulddrawhimintonotice。
Littledidhesuspectthetruth。Ontheotherhand,JuliaspenthersecrethoursinthedelightfulconsciousnessofhavingnowdonesomethingthatrenderedherworthyofAntonio,withoccasionalregretthatshewascompelledbydelicacyandlovetorefuseCharlessohastilyasshehaddone。
Verysoonafterthisembarrassingexplanation,Juliareceivedaletterfromherfriendthatwasinnowaydistinguishablefromtherest,exceptthatitcontainedtherealnameofRegulus,whichshedeclaredtobeHenryFrederickSt。Albans。IfCharleswasatalosstodiscoverJulia’shiddenlove,JuliaherselfwasequallyuncertainhowtoknowwhothisMr。St。Albanswas。Afteravastdealofmusing,sherememberedthatAnnawasabsentfromschoolwithoutleaveoneevening,andhadreturnedalonewithayoungmanwhowasunknowntothemistress。Thisincidentwassaid,bysome,tohavecompletedhereducationratherwithintheusualtime。Juliahadherselfthoughtherfriendindiscreet,butonthewhole,hardlytreated——andtheylefttheschooltogether。ThismusthavebeenSt。Albans,andAnnastoodfullyexculpatedinhereyes。Theletteralsoannouncedtheflatteringfact,thatAntoniohadalreadyleftthecountry,orderinghisservantsandhorseshome,andthathehadgonetoNew-YorkwiththeintentionofhoveringaroundJulia,inamask,thatshecouldnotpossiblyremove,duringthedangersoftheirexpectedjourney。AnnaacknowledgedthatshehadbetrayedAntonio’ssecret,butpleadedherdutytoherfriendinjustification。ShedidnotthinkthatJuliawouldbeabletopenetratehisdisguise,ashehaddeclaredhisintentionssotoconcealhimself,bypaintandartifice,astobeabletoescapedetection。Herewasanewsourceofpleasuretoourheroine:Antoniowasalreadyonthewingforthecity,perhapsarrived——nay,mighthaveseenher,mightevennowbewithinashortdistanceofthesummer-housewhereshewassittingatthetime,andwatchinghermovements。Asthisideasuggesteditself,Juliastarted,andunconsciouslyarrangingherhair,bybringingforwardaneglectedcurl,movedwithtremblingstepstowardsthedwelling。Ateachturnofthewalkourheroinethrewatimideyearoundinquestofanunknownfigure,andmorethanoncefanciedshesawthefaceofthegodofmusicpeeringatherfromthefriendlycovertofheraunt’sshrubbery——andtwiceshemistookthelightgreenofaneighbouringcornfield,wavinginthewind,forthecoatofAntonio。Juliahadsolongassociatedtheideaofherherowiththeimageinherbosom,thatshehadgivenitperfectidentity;
but,onmorematurereflection,shewasconvincedofhererror:hewouldcomedisguised,Annahadtoldher,andhadorderedhisservantshome;wherethathomewas,Juliawasleftinignorance——butsheferventlyhoped,notfarremovedfromherbelovedaunt。Theideaofaseparationfromthisaffectionaterelative,whohadprovedamothertoherinherinfancy,gavegreatpaintoherbestfeelings;andJuliaagaininternallyprayedthattheresidenceofAntoniomightnotbefardistant。——
Whatthedisguiseofherloverwouldbe,Juliacouldnotimagine——probably,thatofawanderingharper:
butthensherememberedthattherewerenoharpersinAmerica,andtheverysingularitymightbetrayhissecret。Musicisthe"foodoflove,"andJuliafanciedforamomentthatAntoniomightappearasanitinerantorganist——butitwasonlyforamoment;forassoonasshefiguredtoherselftheApolloform,bendingundertheawkwardloadofamusic-grinder,sheturnedindisgustfromthepicture。Histaste,thoughtJuliawillprotectmefromsuchasight——shemighthaveadded,hisconveniencetoo。Variousdisguisespresentedthemselvestoourheroine,until,onaviewofthewholesubject,sheconcludedthatAntoniowouldnotappearasamusicianatall,butinsomecapacityinwhichhemightcontinueunsuspected,nearherperson,andexecutehisprojectofshieldingherfromthedangersoftravelling。Itwasthenonlyasaservantthathecouldappear,and,aftermaturereflection,Juliaconfidentlyexpectedtoseehiminthecharacterofacoachman。
Willingtospareherownhorses,MissEmmersonhadalreadysenttothecityforthekeeperofalivery-stable,tocomeoutandcontractwithherforatravellingcarriage,toconveyhertotheFallsofNiagara。Themancame,anditisnowonderthatJulia,underherimpressions,chosetobepresentattheconversation。
"Wellthen,"saidMissEmmersontotheman,"Iwillpayyouyourprice,butyoumustfurnishmewithgoodhorsestomeetmeatAlbany——rememberthatItakealltheuselessexpensebetweenthetwocities,thatImayknowwhomitisIdealwith。"
"MissEmmersonoughttoknowmeprettywellbythistime,"saidtheman;"Ihavedrivenherenough,Ithink。"
"Andadriver,"continuedthelady,musing,"whoamItohaveforadriver?"HereJuliabecameallattention,tremblingandblushingwithapprehension。
"Oh,adriver!"criedthehorse-dealer;"Ihavegotyouanexcellentdriver,oneofthefirstchopinthecity。"
{firstchop=firstrank,highestquality}
Althoughthesewerenotthetermsthatourheroinewouldhaveusedherselfinspeakingofthispersonage,yetshethoughttheyplainlyindicatedhissuperiority,andshewaitedinfeverishsuspensetohearmore。
"Hemustbesteady,andcivil,andsober,andexpert,andtender-hearted,"saidMissEmmerson,whothoughtofanythingbutaheroindisguise。
"Yes——yes——yes——yes——yes,"repliedthestable-
keeper,noddinghisheadandspeakingateachrequisite,"heisallthat,IcanengagetoMissEmmerson。"
"Andhiseyesightmustbegood,"continuedthelady,deeplyintentonprovidingwellforherjourney;"wemayridelateintheevening,anditisparticularlyrequisitethathehavegoodeyes。"
"Yes——yes,ma’am,"saidtheman,inalittleembarrassmentthatdidnotescapeJulia;"hehasasgoodaneyeasanymaninAmerica。"
"Ofwhatageishe?"askedMissEmmerson。
"Aboutfifty,"repliedtheman,thinkingyearswouldhearecommendation。
"Fifty!"exclaimedJulia,inatoneofdisappointment。
"’Tistooold,"saidMissEmmerson;"heshouldheabletoundergofatigue。"
"Well,Imaybemistaken——Oh,hecan’tbemorethanforty,orthirty,"continuedtheman,watchingthecountenanceofJulia;"heisamanthatlooksmucholderthanheis。"
"Ishestrongandactive?"
"Iguessheis——he’sasstrongasanox,andactiveasacat,"saidtheother,determinedheshouldpass。
"Well,then,"saidtheaunt,inhersatisfiedway,"leteverythingbereadyforusinAlbanybynextTuesday。WeshallleavehomeonMonday。"
Themanwithdrew。
Juliahadheardenough——foroxshehadsubstitutedHercules,andforcat,shereadthefeatheredMercury。
CHAPTERV。
THElongexpectedMondayatlengtharrived,andMissEmmersonandJulia,takinganaffectionateleaveoftheirrelativesinthecity,wentonboardthesteam-boatundertheprotectionofCharlesWeston。Hereanewsceneindeedopenedonourheroine;forsometimesheevenforgottolookaroundherinthethronginquestofAntonio。Astheboatglidedalongthestream,shestoodleaningononearmofCharles,whileMissEmmersonheldtheother,indelightedgazeattheobjects,whichtheyhadscarcelydistinguishedbeforetheywerepassed。
"See,dearCharles,"criedJulia,inaburstofwhatshewouldcallnaturalfeeling——"thereisourhouse——
herethesummerhouse,andtherethelittlearbourwhereyoureadtouslastweekScott’snewnovel——
howdelightful!everythingnowseemsandfeelslikehome。"
"Woulditwereahomeforusall,"saidCharles,gentlypressingherarminhisown,andspeakingonlytobeheardbyJulia,"thenshouldIbehappyindeed。"
JuliathoughtnomoreofAntonio;butwhileherdelightedeyerestedonthewellknownscenesaroundtheirhouse,and{as}shestoodintheworld,forthefirsttime,leaningonCharles,shethoughthimevennearerthantheirintimacyandconsanguinitymadethem。Buttheboatwasfamousforherspeed,andthehouse,garden,andeverythingJuliaknew,weresoonoutofsight,andshe,byaccident,touchingthepicturewhichshehadencasedinanoldgoldsettingofhermother’s,andlodgedinherbosom,wasimmediatelyrestoredtoherformersenseofthings。Thenhereyeglancedrapidlyroundtheboat,butdiscoveringnofacewhichintheleastresembleddisguise,sheabandonedtheexpectationofmeetingherloverbeforetheyreachedAlbany。Herbeautydrewmanyaneyeonher,however,andcatchingthesteadyandadmiringgazeofoneortwoofthegentlemen,Julia’sheartbeat,andherfacewascoveredwithblushes。
ShewasbynomeanssurethatAntoniowouldappearasacoachman——thiswasmerelyasuggestionofherown;andtheideathathemightpossiblybeoneofthegazers,coveredherwithconfusion:herblushesdrewstillmoreattentionandadmirationuponher;andwecannotsaywhatmighthavebeentheresultofherfascinations,hadnotCharlesatthisinstantapproachedthem,andpointingtoaslooptheywerepassingatthetime,exclaimed——
"See,madam——see,Julia——thereisourtravellingequipageonboardthatsloop,goinguptomeetusinAlbany。"
Ourheroinelookedasdirected,andsawavesselmovingwithtolerablerapidityuptheriver,withinashortdistancefromthem。Onitsdeckwereatravellingcarriageandapairofhorses,andbythelatterstoodamanwho,bythewhipinhishead,wasevidentlythedriver。Hisstaturewastallandathletic;hiscomplexiondarktonearblackness;hisfacewasburiedinwhiskers;andhisemployerhadspokenthetruthwhenhesaidhehadasgoodaneyeasanymeninAmerica——itwaslarge,black,andmightbepiercing。Butthenhehadbutone——atleasttheplacewheretheotheroughttobe,wascoveredbyanenormouspatchofgreensilk。ThisthenwasAntonio。Itistrue,hedidnotresembleApollo,buthisdisguisealteredhimsothatitwasdifficulttodetermine。AstheyMovedslowlybythevessel,thedriverrecognisedCharles,havinghadaninterviewwithhimthedaybefore,andsalutedhimwithalowbow——hissalutationwasnoticedbytheyoungman,whoslightlytouchedhishat,andgavehimafamiliarnodinreturn——Julia,unconsciously,bentherbody,andfelthercheeksglowwithconfusionassheroseagain。Shecouldnotmusterresolutiontoraisehereyestowardsthesloop,butbyakindofinstinctivecoquetrydraggedhercompaniontotheothersideoftheboat。Assoonasshewasabletorecoverhercomposure,Juliarevolvedinhermindthescenewhichhadjustoccurred。ShehadseenAntonio——everythingabouthimequalledherexpectations——evenatthedistance,shehadeasilydiscernedthenobledignityofhismanners——hiseyegaveassuranceofhisconsciousworth——hisveryattitudewasthatofagentleman。Nottoknowhimforamanofbirth,ofeducationandoffortune,Juliafelttoherwouldbeimpossible;andshetrembledlestothers,asdiscerningasherself,shoulddiscoverhisdisguise,andsheinconsequencebecoveredwithconfusion。
Sheearnestlyhopedhisincog。wouldeverremainunknown,forherdelicacyshrunkatthepublicityandnotorietywhichwouldthenattendhisattachment。Itwascertainlydelightfultobeloved,andsoloved——tobeattended,andsoattended;buttheheartofJuliawastoounpractisedtorelishthelaughandobservationsofamalignantworld。"No,myAntonio,"shebreathedinternally,"hoveraroundme,shieldmefromimpendingdangers,delightmewithyourpresence,andenchantmewithyoureye;
butclaimmeintheguiseofagentlemanandahero,thatnoenvioustonguemayprobethesecretsofourlove,noranyprofanescofferridiculethosesensitivepleasuresthatheistoounsentimentaltoenjoy。"Withthese,andsimilarthoughts,didJuliaoccupyherself,untilCharlespointedouttoherthemajesticentrancetotheHighlands。Ourheroine,whowastrulyalivetoallthecharmsofnature,gazedwithraptureastheboatplungedbetweenthemountainsoneitherhand,andturnedawistfulgazedowntheriver,inthevainhopethatAntoniomight,atthesamemoment,beenjoyingthescene——butthesluggishsloopwasnowfarbehind,andtheeyeofAntonio,brightasitwas,couldnotpiercethedistance。Juliafeltratherrelievedthanotherwise,whenthevesselwhichcontainedherherowashidfromviewbyamountainthattheydoubled。Herfeelingsweremuchlikethoseofagirlwhohadlonganxiouslywaitedthedeclarationofafavouriteyouth,hadreceivedit,andacknowledgedherownpartiality。Shefeltalltheassuranceofherconquest,andwouldgladly,foratime,avoidtheshameofherownacknowledgment。ThepassageuptheHudsonfurnishesinitselfsomuchtocharmtheeyeofanovice,thatnonebutoneundertheextraordinarycircumstancesofourheroine,couldhavebeheldthebeautiesoftheriverunmoved。IfJuliadidnotexperiencequiteasmuchraptureinthejourneyasshehadanticipated,sheattributedittotheremarkablydelicatesituationshewasinwithherlover,andpossiblytoadreadofhisbeingdetected。Anofficerofhisrankandreputationmustbewellknown,thoughtshe,andhemaymeetwithacquaintanceseverywhere。However,bytheattentionofCharles,shepassedthedaywithaverytolerableproportionofpleasure。TheirarrivalatAlbanywasundistinguishedbyanyremarkableevent,thoughJulialookedinvainthroughthedarknessofthenight,inquestofthefertilemeadowsanddesertislandswhichAnnahadmentionedinherletter。Eventheriverseemedstraightanduninteresting。ButJuliawastired——itwasnight——andAntoniowasabsent。
ThefollowingmorningMissEmmersonandherniece,attendedbyCharles,tookawalktoexaminethebeautiesofAlbany。Itdidnotstrikeourheroineasbeingsopicturesqueasithadherfriend;stillithadnovelty,andthatlentitmanycharmsitmighthavewantedonamoreintimateacquaintance。
Theirforenoon,however,exhaustedthebeautiesofthischarmingtown,andtheyhadreturnedtotheinn,andtheladiesweresittinginratheralistlessstatewhenCharlesenteredtheroomwithalookofpleasure,andcried"heishere。"
"Who!"exclaimedJulia,starting,andtremblinglikeanaspen。
"He!——Tony,"saidCharles,inreply。
Juliawasunabletosayanymore;butheraunt,withoutnoticingheragitation,askedmildly,"AndwhoisTony?"
"WhyAnthony,thedriver——heishereandwishestoseeyou。"
"Showhimup,Charles,andletuslearnwhenhewillbereadytogoon。"
ThiswasanawfulmomenttoJulia——shewasontheeveofbeingconfronted,inaroom,forthefirsttime,withthemanonwhomshefeltthatherhappinessormiserymustdepend。Althoughsheknewthevastimportancetoherofgoodlooksatsuchamoment,shelookedunusuallyill——shewaspalefromapprehension,andawkwardandungracefulfromheragitation。Shewouldhavegiventheworldtohavegotoutoftheroom,butthiswasimpossible——therewasbutonedoor,andthroughthathemustcome。Shehadjustconcludedthatitwasbettertoremaininherchairthanincurtheriskoffaintinginthepassage,whenheentered,precededbyCharles。Hisupper,andpartofhislowerlip,werecleanshaved;asmallpartofonecheekandhisnoseweretobeseen;alltherestofhisfacewascoveredwithhair,orhidunderthepatch。Anenormouscolouredhandkerchiefwastied,inaparticularmanner,roundhisneck;andhiscoat,madeofplainmaterials,andsomewhattarnishedwithservice,wasbuttonedasclosetohisthroatasthehandkerchiefwouldallow。Inshort,hiswholeattirewasthatofacommondriverofahackcarriage;andnoonewhohadnotpreviouslyreceivedanintimationthathischaracterwasdifferentfromhisappearance,wouldatallhavesuspectedthedeception。
"YournameisAnthony?"saidMissEmmerson,ashebowedtoherwithduedeference。
"Yes,ma’am,Anthony——TonySandford,"wasthereply——itwasutteredinavulgarnasaltone,thatJuliainstantlyperceivedwascounterfeited:butMissEmmerson,withperfectinnocency,proceededinherinquiries。
"Areyourhorsesgentleandgood,Tony?"adoptingthefamiliarnomenclaturethatseemedmosttohisfancy。
"Asgentlease’eraladyintheland,"saidTony,turninghislargeblackeyeroundtheroom,andlettingitdwellamomentonthebeautifulfaceofJulia——herheartthrobbedwithtumultuousemotionatthefirstsoundofhisvoice,andshewashighlyamusedattheingenuityhehaddisplayed,inpayingacharacteristiccomplimenttohergentleness,inthisclandestinemanner——ifhepreserveshisincognitosoingeniouslyhewillneverbedetected,thoughtJulia,andallwillbewell。
"Andthecarriage,"continuedMissEmmerson,"isitfittocarryus?"
"Ican’tsayhowfititmaybetocarrysichladiesasyoube,butitisasgoodacarriageasrunsoutofYork。"
Herewasanotherdelicatecompliment,thoughtJulia,andsoartfullyconcealedunderbrutalindifferencethatitnearlydeceivedevenherself。
"Whenwillyoubereadytostart?"askedMissEmmerson。
"Thismoment,"wasthepromptreply——"wecaneasilyreachSchenectadybysundown。"
HereJuliasawthedecisionandpromptitudeofasoldierusedtomarchesandmovements,besidesaneagerdesiretoremoveherfromthebustleofalargetownandthoroughfare,toaretirementwhereshewouldbemoreparticularlyunderhisprotection。
MissEmmerson,ontheotherhand,sawnothingbuttheanxietyofacarefulhireling,willingtopromotetheinterestofhismaster,whowastobepaidforhisconveyancebythejob——sodifferentlydosixtyandsixteenjudgethesameactions!Atallevents,theofferwasaccepted,andthemanorderedtosecurethebaggage,andpreparefortheirimmediatedeparture。
"Whydon’tyouhelpAntonioonwiththebaggage,Charles?"saidJulia,asshestoodlookingatthedrivertotteringundertheweightofthetrunks。
Charlesstaredamomentwithsurprise——thenamecreatednoastonishment,buttherequestdid。Juliahadahabitofsofteningnames,thatwereratherharshinthemselves,towhichhewasaccustomed。
PetershecalledPierre;RobertwasRubert{sic};
andheraunt’sblackfootmanTimothy,shehaddesignatedasTimotheus:butitwasnotusualforladiestorequestgentlementoperformmenialoffices——until,recollectingthatJuliahadexpressedunusualsolicitudeconcerningadressing-boxthatcontainedAnna’sletters,heatoncesupposeditwastothatshewishedhimtoattend。Charleslefttheroom,andsuperintendedthewholearrangements,whenonceenlisted。Julianowfeltthateverydoubtoftheidentityofherloverwiththiscoachmanwasremoved。HehadingeniouslyadoptedthenameofAnthony,asresemblinginsoundtheonesheherselfhadgivenhiminherletters。ThisheundoubtedlyhadlearntfromAnna——
andthenSandfordwasverymuchlikeStanley——hispatch,hisdress,hisair——everythingabouthimunitedtoconfirmherimpressions;andJulia,atthesametimesheresolvedtoconductherselftowardshimintheirjourneywithaproperfemininereserve,thoughtshecoulddonolesstoamanwhosubmittedtosomuchtoserveher,thantosufferhimtoperceivethatshewasnotentirelyinsensibletotheobligation。
OurheroinecouldnotbutadmiretheknowingmannerwithwhichAntoniotookhisseatonthecarriage,andthedexterityhediscoveredinthemanagementofhishorses——thiswasinfallibleevidenceofhisacquaintancewiththeanimal,andasuresignthathewasthemasterofmany,andhadlongbeenaccustomedtotheirservice。Perhaps,thoughtJulia,hehasbeenanofficerofcavalry。
Intheconstantexcitementproducedbyhersituation,Juliacouldnotenterintoallthefeelingsdescribedbyherfriend,duringtheridetoSchenectady。Itsbeautiesmightbemelancholy,butcouldshebemelancholy,andAntoniosonear?Thepinesmightbesilveryandlofty,buttheproudstatureofmajesticman,eclipsedinhereyesalltheirbeauties。NotsoCharles。Heearlybegantolavishhisabuseonthesterilegroundstheypassed,andgaveanythingbutencomiumsonthesmoothnessoftheroadtheyweretravelling。Inthelatterparticular,eventhequietspiritofMissEmmersonjoinedhim,andJuliaherselfwasoccasionallymadesensiblethatshewasnotreposing"onabedofroses。"
{sterilegrounds=thesandy"pinebarrens"
betweenAlbanyandSchenectadywerenotoriousfortheirlackofscenicbeauty}
"DoIdrivetoofastfortheladies?"askedAntonio,onhearingaslightcomplaintandafaintscreaminthesoftvoiceofJulia。Oh,howconsiderateheis!
thoughtourheroine——howtender!——withouthiscareIcertainlyshouldhavebeenkilledinthisrudeplace。Itwasexpectedthatasshehadcomplained,shewouldanswer;andafteramomentemployedinrallyinghersensesfortheundertaking,sherepliedinavoiceofbreathingmelody——
"Oh!no,Antonio,youareveryconsiderate。"
ForaworldJuliacouldnothavesaidmore;andMissEmmersonthoughtthatshehadsaidquiteasmuchastheoccasionrequired;butMissEmmerson,itwillberemembered,supposedtheirdrivertobeAnthonySandford。Thehero,himself,onhearingsuchagentlevoicesosoftlyreplyingtohisquestion,couldnotrefrainfromturninghisfaceintothecarriage,andJuliafeltherowneyeslowerbeforehisearnestgaze,whilehercheeksburnedwiththeblushesthatsuffusedthem。Butthelookspokevolumes——heunderstandsmy"Antonio,"
thoughtJulia,andperceivesthat,tome,heisnolongerunknown。Thatexpressiveglancehasopenedbetweenusacommunicationthatwillceasebutwithourlives。Julianowenjoyed,fortheremainderoftheirjourneytoMr。Miller’s,oneofthegreatestpleasuresoflove——unsuspectedbyothers,shecouldholdcommunionwithhimwhohadherheart,bytheeyes,andathousandtenderandnamelesslittleofficeswhichgiveinteresttoaffection,andzesttopassion。
Theyhadnowgothalfwaybetweenthetwocities,andCharlestookaseatbythesideofthedriver,withtheintention,asheexpressedhimself,ofstretchinghislegs:thecarriagewasopenandlight,sothatallofthefiguresofthetwoyoungmencouldbeseenbytheladies,aswellastheirconversationheard。Charlesneverappearedtolessadvantageinhisperson,thoughtJulia,thannow,seatedbythesideofthemanlyandnobleAntonio。
ThefigureofCharleswaslight,andbynomeanswithoutgrace;yetitdidnotstrikethefancyofourheroineassofittoshieldandsupportherthroughlife,asthemorerobustpersonofhiscompanion。
Juliaherselfwas,inform,thecounterpartofhermind——shewaslight,airy,andbeautifullysoftenedinallheroutlines。Itwasimpossibletomistakeherforanythingbutalady,andoneofthegentlestpassionsandsentiments。Shefeltherownweakness,andwouldreposeitonthemanlystrengthofAntonio。
"Whichdoyoucallthebestofyourhorses?"askedCharles,sosoonashehadgothimselfcomfortablyseated。
"Theoff——butbotharetrueassteel,"wasthelaconicreply。ThecomparisonwasnewtoJulia,anditevidentlydenotedamindaccustomedtothecontemplationofarms。
"Howlonghaveyoufollowedthebusinessofadriver,Tony?"saidCharles,inthecarelessmannerofagentlemanwhenhewishestointroducefamiliaritywithaninferior,byseemingtotakeaninterestintheother’saffairs。Juliafeltindignantatthefreedomofhismanner,andparticularlyattheepithetof"Tony"——yetherloverdidnotintheleastregardeither——orratherhismannerexhibitednosymptomsofdispleasure——hehasmadeuphismind,thoughtJulia,tosupporthisdisguise,anditisbestforusboththatheshould。
"EversinceIwassixteenIhavebeenusedtohorses,"wasthereplyofAntoniotothequestionofCharles——Juliasmiledattheambiguityoftheanswer,andwasconfirmedinherimpressionthathehadleftcollegeatthatagetoserveinthecavalry。
"Youmustunderstandthemwellbythistime,"
continuedCharles,glancinghiseyeathiscompanionasiftojudgeofhisyears——"Youmustbeforty"——JuliafidgetedalittleatthisguessofCharles,butsoonsatisfiedherselfwiththereflectionthathisdisguisecontributedtotheerror。
"Myageisverydeceiving,"saidtheman;"Ihaveseengreathardshipsinmytime,bothofbodyandmind。"
HereJuliacouldscarcelybreathethroughanxiety。
Everysyllablethatheutteredwasdevouredwitheagercuriositybytheenamouredgirl——heknewthatshewasalistener,andthatsheunderstoodhisdisguise;anddoubtlessmeant,inthatindirectmanner,toacquaintherwiththeincidentsofhislife。Itwasclearthatheindicatedhisagetobelessthanwhathisappearancewouldhaveledhertobelieve——hissufferings,hiscruelsufferingshadchangedhim。
"Thelifeofacoachmanisnothard,"saidCharles。
"No,sir,farfromit——butIhavenotbeenacoachmanallmylife。"
Nothingcouldbeplainerthanthis——itwasadirectassertionofhisdegradationbythebusinessinwhichhewasthenengaged。
"Inwhatmannerdidyouloseyoureye,Tony,"saidCharles,inatoneofsympathythatJuliablessedhimforinherheart,althoughsheknewthatthememberwasuninjured,andonlyhiddentofavourhisdisguise。Antoniohesitatedalittleinhisanswer,andstammeredwhilegivingit——"Itwasinthewars,"atlengthhegotout,andJuliaadmiredthenoblemagnanimitywhichwouldnotallowhim,eveninimagination,tosufferinalessgloriousmanner——notwithstandinghiseyeissafeandasbeautifulastheother,hehassufferedinthewars,thoughtourheroine,anditispardonableforhimtousethedeception,situatedasheis——itisnothingmorethananequivoque。ButthiswastouchingCharlesonafavouritechord。LittleofaheroasJuliafanciedhimtobe,hedelightedinconversingaboutthewarwiththosemen,who,havingactedinsubordinatestations,wouldgiveadifferentviewofthesubjectfromtheofficialaccounts,inwhichhewasdeeplyread。Itwasnowonder,therefore,thatheeagerlyseizedonthepresentopportunitytorelievethetediumofaridebetweenAlbanyandSchenectady。
{equivoque=doublemeaning,apun}
"Inwhatbattle,"askedCharles,quickly;"byseaorbyland?"
"Bysea,"saidAntonio,speakingtohishorses,withanevidentunwillingnesstosayanymoreonthesubject。
Ah!thedeception,andtheideaofhisfriendLawrence,aretoomuchforhissensibility,thoughtJulia;andtorelievehimsheaddressedCharlesherself。
"HowfararewefromSchenectady,cousinCharles?"
Antonio,certainly,wasnothercousinCharles;butasifhethoughttheansweringsuchquestionstobehispeculiarprovince,herepliedimmediately——
"Fourmiles,ma’am;there’sthestone。"
Therewasnothingintheansweritself,orthemannerofitsdelivery,toattractnoticeinanunsuspectinglistener;butbyJuliaitwaswellunderstood——itwasthefirsttimehehadeverspokendirectlytoherself——itwasaneweraintheirlives——andhisbodyturnedhalfroundtowardherashespoke,showedhismanlyformtogreatadvantage;buttheimpressiveanddignifiedmannerinwhichhedroppedhiswhiptowardsthemile-stone,Juliafeltthatshenevercouldforget——itwasintendedtomarkthespotwherehehadfirstaddressedher。Hehadchosenitwithtaste。Thestonestoodundertheshadeofasolitaryoak,andmighteasilybefanciedtobeamonumenterectedtocommemoratesomeimportanteventinthelivesofourlovers。Juliaranoverinhermindthetimewhensheshouldpayanannualvisittothathallowedplace,andleaningonthearmofhermajestichusband,murmurinhisear,"Here,onthislovedspot,didAntoniofirstaddresshishappy,thricehappyJulia。"
"Well,Tony,"saidthemildvoiceofMissEmmerson,"thesunisnearsetting,letusgothefourmilesasfastasyouplease。"
"I’msure,ma’am,"saidAntonio,withprofoundrespect,"youdon’twanttogetinmorethanIdo,forIhadnosleepalllastnight;I’llnotkeepyououtoneminuteafternight"——sosaying,heurgedhishorsestoafasttrot,andwasquiteusgoodashisword。Howdelicateinhisattentions,andyethowartfullyhasheconcealedhisanxietyonmyaccountunderafeigneddesireforsleep,thoughtJulia。
IfanythinghadbeenwantingeithertoconvinceJuliaofthetruthofherconjecture,ortosecuretheconquestofAntonio,ourheroinefeltthatthisshortridehadabundantlysuppliedit。
CHAPTERVI。
THEfollowingdayourtravellerswereontheroadbeforethesun,andbusilypursuedtheirroutethroughthedelightfulvalleyoftheMohawk。ItwasnowthatJulia,insomemeasureaccustomedtoherproximitytoherhero,begantoenjoythebeautiesofthescenery;hereyedweltwithraptureoneachopeningglimpsethattheycaughtoftheriver,andtookinitsgazemeadowsofnever-failingverdure,whichwerebeautifullyinterspersedwithelmsthatseemedcoevalwiththecountryitself。Occasionallyshewoulddrawtheattentionofheraunttosomeviewofparticularinterest;andifhereagervoicecaughttheattentionofAntonio,andheturnedtogaze,toponder,andtoadmire——thenJuliafelthappyindeed,forthenitwasthatshefelttheindescribableblissofsharingourpleasureswiththosewelove。Whatheartofsensibilityhasstoodandcoldlygazedonasceneoverwhichtheeye,thatitlovestoadmire,isrovingwithdelight?Whoistherethathasyettolearn,thatifthestrongestbondtoloveispropinquity,soisitstenderesttie,sympathy?Inthismannerdidourlovelyheroinepassadayofhithertountastedbliss。Antoniowouldfrequentlystophishorsesonthesummitofahill,andJuliaunderstoodthemotive;turningherlooksinthedirectioninwhichshesawtheeyeofherloverbent,shewouldsitinsilentandsecretcommunionwithhisfeelings。InvainCharlesendeavouredtocatchherattention——hisremarkswereunnoticed,andhissimpleeffortstopleasedisregarded。Atlength,astheyadvancedtowardsthecloseoftheirday’sride,Charles,observingamountainobtrudingitselfdirectlyacrosstheirpath,andmeetingtheriver,whichsweptwithgreatvelocityarounditsbase,criedaloudwithalaugh——
"Anthony,Iwishyouwouldremoveyournose!"
"Charles!"exclaimedJulia,shockedathisrudefamiliaritieswithamanofAntonio’selevatedcharacter。
"Poh!"saidtheyoungman,inanundertone,conceivinghersurprisetobeoccasionedbyhisloweringhimselftojokewithaninferior,"heisagood,honestfellow,anddon’tmindajokeatall,I
assureyou。"
Charleswasright,forAntonio,movinghisface,withalaughcriedinhisturn——"There,sir,mynoseismoved,butyoucan’tseenobetter,afterall。"
Juliawasamusedwithhiscondescension,whichshethoughtauguredperfectgood-natureandaffability。Afterall,thoughtJulia,ifnobleandcommandingqualitiesarenecessarytoexciteadmirationortocommandrespect,familiarvirtuesinduceustolovemoretenderly,andgoodtemperisabsolutelynecessarytocontributetoourcomfort。Onthewhole,shewasratherpleasedthanotherwise,thatAntoniocouldreceiveandreturnwhatwasevidentlyintendedforawitticism,althoughasyetshedidnotcomprehendit。ButCharlesdidnotleaveherlongindoubt。OnthenorthsideoftheMohawk,andataboutfiftymilesfromitsmouth,isamountainwhich,aswehavealreadysaid,juts,inanearlyperpendicularpromontory,intothebedoftheriver;itsinclinationissufficienttoadmitofitsreceivingthenameofanose。Withouttheleastintentionofalludingtoourhero,theearlysettlershadaffixedthenameofSt。
Anthony,whoappearstohavebeenakindofDutchdeityinthisstate,andtohavemonopolizedallthenaturalnoseswithinherboundariestohimself。Thevulgaridiommadethepronunciationan-TONY’snose——andallthisCharlesbrieflyexplainedtoMissEmmersonandherniecebywayofgivingpointtohisownwit。Hehadhardlymadethemcomprehendthefullbrilliancyandbeautyofhisapplicationofthemountaintotheirdriver,whentheyreachedthepassitself。Theroadwasbarelysufficienttosuffertwocarriagestomovebyeachotherwithouttouching,beingfromnecessitydugoutofthebaseofthemountain;aprecipiceofmanyfeetledtotheriver,whichwashighandturbulentatthetime;
therewasnorailingnoranyprotectiononthesidenextthewater——andinendeavouringtoavoidtheunprotectedsideoftheroad,twowagonshadmetashorttimebefore,andoneofthemlostawheelintheencounter——itsownerhadgonetoadistanceforassistance,leavingthevehiclewhereithadfallen。ThehorsesofAntonio,unaccustomedtosuchasight,werewithsomedifficultydrivenbytheloadedwagon,andwhennearlypasttheobject,tookasuddenfrightatitstop,whichwasflappinginthewind。AlltheskillandexertionsofAntoniotopreventtheirbackingwasuseless,andcarriageandhorseswouldinevitablyhavegoneoffthebanktogether,hadnotCharles,withadmirablepresenceofmind,openedadoor,andspringingout,placedabilletofwood,whichhadbeenusedasabaseforaleverinliftingthebrokenwagon,underoneofthewheels。ThischeckedthehorsesuntilAntoniohadtimetorallythem,and,byusingthewhipwithenergy,bringthemintotheroadagain。Hecertainlyshowedgreatdexterityasacoachman。But,unhappily,themovementofCharleshadbeenmisunderstoodbyJulia,and,throwingopenthedoor,withtheblindnessoffear,shesprangfromthecarriagealso:itwasonthesidenextthewater,andherfirstleapwasoverthebank;thehillwasnotperpendicular,buttoosteepforJuliatorecoverherbalance——andpartlyrunning,andpartlyfalling,theunfortunategirlwasplungedintotherapidriver。CharlesheardthescreamsofMissEmmerson,andcaughtaglimpseofthedressofJuliaasshesprangfromthecarriage。Herantothebankjustintimetoseeherfallintothewater。
{St。Anthony’sNose=thisincidentprobablyoccurredataplaceontheMohawkRivercalledtodayTheNoses,betweenFondaandPalatineBridge;thereisanotherSt。Anthony’sNoseontheHudsonRiver}
"Oh,God!"hecried,"Julia!——myJulia!"——and,withoutseemingtotouchtheearth,heflewdownthebank,andthrewhimselfheadlongintothestream。HisgreatexertionsandnervousarmssoonbroughthimalongsideofJulia,and,happilyforthemboth,aneddyinthewatersdrewthemtotheland。WithsomedifficultyCharleswasenabledtoreachtheshorewithhisburthen。
Juliawasnotinsensible,norintheleastinjured。
Herauntwassoonbyherside,andfoldingherinherarms,pouredoutherfeelingsinatorrentoftears。Charleswouldnot,however,sufferanydelay,orexpressionsofgratitude——but,forcingbothauntandnieceintothecarriage,bidAnthonydriverapidlytoatavernknowntobeatnogreatdistance。——
Ontheirarrival,bothJuliaandCharlesimmediatelycladthemselvesindryclothes——whenMissEmmersoncommandedthepresenceoftheyoungmaninherownroom。Onentering,CharlesfoundJuliasittingbyafire,athousandtimeshandsomer,ifpossible,thanever。Hereyeswerebeamingwithgratitude,andhercountenancewasglowingwiththeexcitementproducedbythedangerthatshehadencountered。
"Ah!Charles,mydearcousin,"criedJulia,risingandmeetinghimwithbothhandsextended,"Iowemylifetoyourbraveryandpresenceofmind。"
"Andminetoo,Charles。"saidMissEmmerson;"butforyou,weshouldhaveallgoneoffthehilltogether。"
"Yes,ifAnthonyhadnotmanagedthehorsesadmirably,youmighthavegoneindeed,"saidCharles,withamodestwishtogetridoftheirpraise。ButthiswasanunluckyspeechforCharles:
hehad,unconsciouslypresentedtheimageofarival,atthemomentthathehopedhefilledallthethoughtsofJulia。
"Ah,Antonio!"shecried,"poorAntonio!——andwhereishe?——Whydoyounotsendforhim,dearaunt?"
"What,mylove,intomybed-chamber!"saidMissEmmerson,insurprise;"fearhasmadethegirlcrazy!——But,Charles,whereisAnthony?"
"Inthestable,withthehorses,Ibelieve,"saidtheyouth——"no,hereheis,underthewindow,leadingthemtothepump。"
"Givehimthismoney,"saidMissEmmerson,"andtellhimitisforhisadmirableskillinsavingmylife。"
Juliasawthedangerofanexposureifsheinterfered,yetshehadthecuriositytogotothewindow,andseehowAntoniowouldconductinthemortifyingdilemma。
"Here,Anthony,"saidCharles,"MissEmmersonhassentyoutendollars,fordrivingsowell,andsavingthecarriage。"
"Ah!sir,itisnomatter——Icanasknothingforthat,I’msure。"
ButCharles,accustomedtothebackwardnessofthecommonAmericanstoreceivemorethanthepricestipulated,stillextendedhishandtowardstheman。Juliasawhisembarrassment,andknowingofnootherexpedientbywhichtorelievehim,said,inavoiceofpersuasion——
"Takeitformysake,Antonio——ifitbeunworthyofyou,still,takeit,toobligeme。"
Themannolongerhesitated,buttookthemoney,andgaveJuliaalookandabowthatsunkdeepintothetabletofhermemory——whileCharlesthoughthimextremelywellpaidforwhathehaddone,butmadedueallowancesfortheexcitedstateofhiscousin’sfeelings。
"Youperceive,"saidMissEmmerson,withasmile,asJuliawithdrewfromthewindow,"ifCharlesbealittleafraidoflightning,hehasnodreadofthewater。"
"Ah!Iretractmyerror,"criedJulia;"Charlesmustbebrave,orhenevercouldhaveactedsocoolly,andsowell。"
"Verytrue,mylove,"saidMissEmmerson,excessivelygratifiedtohearherniecepraisetheyouth;"itisthesuresttestofcouragewhenmenbehavewithpresenceofmindinnovelsituations。
Thoseaccustomedtoparticulardangerseasilydischargetheirduties,becausetheyknow,asitwereinstinctively,whatistobedone。ThuswithTony——hedidwell,but,Idoubtnot,hewashorriblyfrightened——andfortheworldhecouldnothavedonewhatCharlesdid。"
"NotAntonio!"echoedJulia,thrownalittleoffherguard——"Iwouldpledgemylife,aunt,thatAntoniowouldhavedoneasmuch,ifnotmore,thanCharles!"
"Whydidhenot,then?——-Itwashisplacetostopthecarriage——-whydidhenot?"
"Itwashisplace,"saidJulia,"tomanagethehorses,andyouacknowledgethathediditwell。
Dutiesincurred,nomatterhowunworthyofus,mustbedischarged;andalthoughwemaybeconsciousthatourmeritorourbirthentitlesustoadifferentstationfromtheonewefill,yetanoblemindwillnotceasetoperformitsduty,eveninpovertyanddisgrace。"
MissEmmersonlistenedinsurprise;butashernieceoftentalkedinamannerthatshedidnotcomprehend,sheattributedittotheimprovementsineducation,andwassatisfied。ButJuliahadfurnishedherselfwithacluetowhathadoccasionedhersomeuneasiness。AtonetimeshethoughtAntoniooughttohaveleftcarriage,horses,everything,andflowntoherrescue,asCharleshaddone;butnowshesawthattheprobityofhissoulforbadeit。Hehad,doubtless,bysecretmeans,inducedtheownerofthehorsestoentrustthemtohiskeeping——-andcouldhe,asoldier,oneusedtotrustandresponsibility,forgethisdutyinthemomentofneed?Soonerwouldthesentinelquithispostunrelieved——-soonerthegallantsoldierturnhisbackonhisenemy——-orsoonerwouldAntonioforgethisJulia!
Withthisviewoftheproprietyofhisconduct,Juliawasfilledwiththedesiretolethimknowthatsheapprovedofwhathehaddone。Surely,ifanythingcanbemortifyingtoalover,thoughtourheroine,itmustbetoseearivalsavethelifeofhismistress,whileimperiousdutychainshimtoanothertask。
YoungasJuliawas,shehadalreadylearnt,thatitisnotenoughforourhappinessthatwehavetheconsciousnessofdoingright,butitisnecessarythatothersshouldthinkwehavedonesotoo。
Accordingly,earlythefollowingmorningshearose,andwanderedaroundthehouse,inhopesthatchancewouldthrowherloverinherway,andgiveheranopportunityofrelievinghismindfromtheloadofmortificationunderwhichsheknewhemustbelabouring。Itwasseldomthatourheroinehadbeeninthepublicbar-roomofatavern——but,inglidingbythedoor,shecaughtaglimpseofAntoniointhebar;and,impelledbyherfeelings,shewasnearhimbeforeshehadtimetocollectherscatteredsenses。TobewithAntonio,andalone,Juliafeltwasdangerous;forhispassionmightbringonadeclaration,andbetraythembothtothepublicandvulgarnotice。——Anxious,therefore,toeffectherobjectatonce,shegentlylaidherhandonhisarm——Antoniostartedandturned,whiletheglassinhishandsfell,withitscontents,untasted,onthefloor。
"Resteasy,Antonio,"saidJulia,inthegentlestpossibletones;"tomeyourconductissatisfactory,andyoursecretwillneverbeexposed。"Sosaying,sheturnedquickly,andglidedfromtheroom。