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  "I’mallinasoak;thereWASamessofpeopleinthe’bus。Iwishyoulivednearastytion,"saidMissChurm。Irequestedhertogetreadyasquicklyaspossible,andshepassedintotheroominwhichshealwayschangedherdress。Butbeforegoingoutsheaskedmewhatshewastogetintothistime。
  "It’stheRussianprincess,don’tyouknow?"Ianswered;"theonewiththe’goldeneyes,’inblackvelvet,forthelongthingintheCheapside。"
  "Goldeneyes?ISAY!"criedMissChurm,whilemycompanionswatchedherwithintensityasshewithdrew。Shealwaysarrangedherself,whenshewaslate,beforeIcouldturnround;andIkeptmyvisitorsalittleonpurpose,sothattheymightgetanidea,fromseeingher,whatwouldbeexpectedofthemselves。Imentionedthatshewasquitemynotionofailexcellentmodel——shewasreallyveryclever。
  "DoyouthinkshelookslikeaRussianprincess?"MajorMonarchaskedwithlurkingalarm。
  "WhenImakeher,yes。"
  "OhifyouhavetoMAKEher——!"hereasoned,notwithoutpoint。
  "That’sthemostyoucanask。Therearesomanywhoarenotmakeable。"
  "Wellnow,HERE’Salady"——andwithapersuasivesmilehepassedhisarmintohiswife’s——"who’salreadymade!"
  "OhI’mnotaRussianprincess,"Mrs。Monarchprotestedalittlecoldly。Icouldseeshehadknownsomeanddidn’tlikethem。
  ThereatoncewasacomplicationofakindIneverhadtofearwithMissChurm。
  Thisyoungladycamebackinblackvelvet——thegownwasratherrustyandverylowonherleanshoulders——andwithaJapanesefaninherredhands。IremindedherthatinthesceneIwasdoingshehadtolookoversomeone’shead。"Iforgetwhoseitisbutitdoesn’tmatter。Justlookoverahead。"
  "I’dratherlookoverastove,"saidMissChurmandshetookherstationnearthefire。ShefellintoPosition,settledherselfintoatallattitude,gaveacertainbackwardinclinationtoherheadandacertainforwarddrooptoherfan,andlooked,atleasttomyprejudicedsense,distinguishedandcharming,foreignanddangerous。WeleftherlookingsowhileIwentdownstairswithMajorandMrs。Monarch。
  "IbelieveIcouldcomeaboutasnearitasthat,"saidMrs。
  Monarch。
  "Ohyouthinkshe’sshabby,butyoumustallowforthealchemyofart。"
  However,theywentoffwithanevidentincreaseofcomfortfoundedontheirdemonstrableadvantageinbeingtherealthing。IcouldfancythemshudderingoverMissChurm。ShewasverydrollaboutthemwhenIwentback,forItoldherwhattheywanted。
  "Well,ifSHEcansitI’lltyketobookkeeping,"saidmymodel。
  "She’sveryladylike,"Irepliedasaninnocentformofaggravation。
  "SomuchtheworseforYOU。Thatmeansshecan’tturnround。"
  "She’lldoforthefashionablenovels。"
  "Ohyes,she’llDOforthem!"mymodelhumorouslydeclared。"Ain’ttheybadenoughwithouther?"IhadoftensociablydenouncedthemtoMissChurm。
  CHAPTERIII
  ItwasfortheelucidationofamysteryinoneoftheseworksthatIfirsttriedMrs。Monarch。Herhusbandcamewithher,tobeusefulifnecessary——itwassufficientlyclearthatasageneralthinghewouldprefertocomewithher。AtfirstIwonderedifthiswerefor"propriety’s"sake——ifheweregoingtobejealousandmeddling。Theideawastootiresome,andifithadbeenconfirmeditwouldspeedilyhavebroughtouracquaintancetoaclose。ButIsoonsawtherewasnothinginitandthatifheaccompaniedMrs。Monarchitwas——inadditiontothechanceofbeingwanted——simplybecausehehadnothingelsetodo。Whentheywereseparatehisoccupationwasgone,andtheyneverHADbeenseparate。
  Ijudgedrightlythatintheirawkwardsituationtheircloseunionwastheirmaincomfortandthatthisunionhadnoweakspot。Itwasarealmarriage,anencouragementtothehesitating,anutforpessimiststocrack。Theiraddresswashumble——Irememberafterwardsthinkingithadbeentheonlythingaboutthemthatwasreallyprofessional——andIcouldfancythelamentablelodgingsinwhichtheMajorwouldhavebeenleftalone。Hecouldsittheremoreorlessgrimlywithhiswife——hecouldn’tsitthereanyhowwithouther。
  Hehadtoomuchtacttotryandmakehimselfagreeablewhenhecouldn’tbeuseful;sowhenIwastooabsorbedinmyworktotalkhesimplysatandwaited。ButIlikedtohearhimtalk——itmademywork,whennotinterruptingit,lessmechanical,lessspecial。Tolistentohimwastocombinetheexcitementofgoingoutwiththeeconomyofstayingathome。Therewasonlyonehindrance——thatI
  seemednottoknowanyofthepeoplethisbrilliantcouplehadknown。Ithinkhewonderedextremely,duringthetermofourintercourse,whomthedeuceIDIDknow。Hehadn’tastraysixpenceofanideatofumblefor,sowedidn’tspinitveryfine;weconfinedourselvestoquestionsofleatherandevenofliquor-
  saddlersandbreeches-makersandhowtogetexcellentclaretcheap——
  andmatterslike"goodtrains"andthehabitsofsmallgame。Hisloreontheselastsubjectswasastonishing——hemanagedtointerweavethestation-masterwiththeornithologist。Whenhecouldn’ttalkaboutgreaterthingshecouldtalkcheerfullyaboutsmaller,andsinceIcouldn’taccompanyhimintoreminiscencesofthefashionableworldhecouldlowertheconversationwithoutavisibleefforttomylevel。
  Soearnestadesiretopleasewastouchinginamanwhocouldsoeasilyhaveknockedonedown。Helookedafterthefireandhadanopiniononthedraughtofthestovewithoutmyaskinghim,andI
  couldseethathethoughtmanyofmyarrangementsnothalfknowing。
  IremembertellinghimthatifIwereonlyrichI’dofferhimasalarytocomeandteachmehowtolive。Sometimeshegavearandomsighofwhichtheessencemighthavebeen:"Givemeevensuchabareold-barrackasthis,andI’ddosomethingwithit!"
  WhenIwantedtousehimhecamealone;whichwasanillustrationofthesuperiorcourageofwomen。Hiswifecouldbearhersolitarysecondfloor,andshewasingeneralmorediscreet;showingbyvarioussmallreservesthatshewasalivetotheproprietyofkeepingourrelationsmarkedlyprofessional——notlettingthemslideintosociability。ShewishedittoremainclearthatsheandtheMajorwereemployed,notcultivated,andifsheapprovedofmeasasuperior,whocouldbekeptinhisplace,sheneverthoughtmequitegoodenoughforanequal。
  Shesatwithgreatintensity,givingthewholeofhermindtoit,andwascapableofremainingforanhouralmostasmotionlessasbeforeaphotographer’slens。Icouldseeshehadbeenphotographedoften,butsomehowtheveryhabitthatmadehergoodforthatpurposeunfittedherformine。AtfirstIwasextremelypleasedwithherladylikeair,anditwasasatisfaction,oncomingtofollowherlines,toseehowgoodtheywereandhowfartheycouldleadthepencil。ButafteralittleskirmishingIbegantofindhertooinsurmountablystiff;dowhatIwouldwithitmydrawinglookedlikeaphotographoracopyofaphotograph。Herfigurehadnovarietyofexpression——sheherselfhadnosenseofvariety。Youmaysaythatthiswasmybusinessandwasonlyaquestionofplacingher。YetIplacedherineveryconceivablepositionandshemanagedtoobliteratetheirdifferences。Shewasalwaysaladycertainly,andintothebargainwasalwaysthesamelady。Shewastherealthing,butalwaysthesamething。ThereweremomentswhenIratherwrithedundertheserenityofherconfidencethatsheWAStherealthing。Allherdealingswithmeandallherhusband’swereanimplicationthatthiswasluckyforME。MeanwhileIfoundmyselftryingtoinventtypesthatapproachedherown,insteadofmakingherowntransformitself——inthecleverwaythatwasnotimpossibleforinstancetopoorMissChurm。ArrangeasIwouldandtaketheprecautionsIwould,shealwayscameout,inmypictures,tootall——landingmeinthedilemmaofhavingrepresentedafascinatingwomanassevenfeethigh,which(outofrespectperhapstomyownverymuchscantierinches)wasfarfrommyideaofsuchapersonage。
  ThecasewasworsewiththeMajor——nothingIcoulddowouldkeepHIMdown,sothathebecameusefulonlyfortherepresentationofbrawnygiants。Iadoredvarietyandrange,Icherishedhumanaccidents,theillustrativenote;Iwantedtocharacteriseclosely,andthethingintheworldImosthatedwasthedangerofbeingriddenbyatype。Ihadquarrelledwithsomeofmyfriendsaboutit;IhadpartedcompanywiththemformaintainingthatoneHADtobe,andthatifthetypewasbeautiful——witnessRaphaelandLeonardo——theservitudewasonlyagain。IwasneitherLeonardonorRaphael——Imightonlybeapresumptuousyoungmodernsearcher;
  butIheldthateverythingwastobesacrificedsoonerthancharacter。WhentheyclaimedthattheobsessionalformcouldeasilyBEcharacterIretorted,perhapssuperficially,"Whose?"Itcouldn’tbeeverybody’s——itmightendinbeingnobody’s。
  AfterIhaddrawnMrs。MonarchadozentimesIfeltsurereventhanbeforethatthevalueofsuchamodelasMissChurmresidedpreciselyinthefactthatshehadnopositivestamp,combinedofcoursewiththeotherfactthatwhatshedidhavewasacuriousandinexplicabletalentforimitation。Herusualappearancewaslikeacurtainwhich——shecoulddrawupatrequestforacapitalperformance。Thisperformancewassimplysuggestive;butitwasawordtothewise——itwasvividandpretty。SometimesevenI
  thoughtit,thoughshewasplainherself,tooinsipidlypretty;I
  madeitareproachtoherthatthefiguresdrawnfromherweremonotonously(betement,asweusedtosay)graceful。Nothingmadehermoreangry:itwassomuchherpridetofeelshecouldsitforcharactersthathadnothingincommonwitheachother。Shewouldaccusemeatsuchmomentsoftakingawayher"reputytion。"
  Itsufferedacertainshrinkage,thisqueerquantity,fromtherepeatedvisitsofmynewfriends。MissChurmwasgreatlyindemand,neverinwantofemployment,soIhadnoscrupleinputtingheroffoccasionally,totrythemmoreatmyease。Itwascertainlyamusingatfirsttodotherealthing——itwasamusingtodoMajorMonarch’strousers。TheyWEREtherealthing,evenifhedidcomeoutcolossal。Itwasamusingtodohiswife’sbackhair——
  itwassomathematicallyneat——andtheparticular"smart"tensionofhertightstays。Shelentherselfespeciallytopositionsinwhichthefacewassomewhatavertedorblurred,sheaboundedinladylikebackviewsandprofilsperdus。Whenshestooderectshetooknaturallyoneoftheattitudesinwhichcourt-paintersrepresentqueensandprincesses;sothatIfoundmyselfwonderingwhether,todrawoutthisaccomplishment,Icouldn’tgettheeditoroftheCheapsidetopublishareallyroyalromance,"ATaleofBuckinghamPalace。"Sometimeshowevertherealthingandthemake-
  believecameintocontact;bywhichImeanthatMissChurm,keepinganappointmentorcomingtomakeoneondayswhenIhadmuchworkinhand,encounteredherinvidiousrivals。Theencounterwasnotontheirpart,fortheynoticedhernomorethanifshehadbeenthehousemaid;notfromintentionalloftiness,butsimplybecauseasyet,professionally,theydidn’tknowhowtofraternise,asI
  couldimaginetheywouldhaveliked——oratleastthattheMajorwould。Theycouldn’ttalkabouttheomnibus——theyalwayswalked;
  andtheydidn’tknowwhatelsetotry——shewasn’tinterestedingoodtrainsorcheapclaret。Besides,theymusthavefelt——intheair——thatshewasamusedatthem,secretlyderisiveoftheireverknowinghow。Shewasn’tapersontoconcealthelimitsofherfaithifshehadhadachancetoshowthem。OntheotherhandMrs。
  Monarchdidn’tthinkhertidy;forwhyelsedidshetakepainstosaytome——itwasgoingoutoftheway,forMrs。Monarch——thatshedidn’tlikedirtywomen?
  Onedaywhenmyyoungladyhappenedtobepresentwithmyothersitters——sheevendroppedin,whenitwasconvenient,forachat——I
  askedhertobesogoodastolendahandingettingtea,aservicewithwhichshewasfamiliarandwhichwasoneofaclassthat,livingasIdidinasmallway,withslenderdomesticresources,I
  oftenappealedtomymodelstorender。Theylikedtolayhandsonmyproperty,tobreakthesitting,andsometimesthechina——itmadethemfeelBohemian。ThenexttimeIsawMissChurmafterthisincidentshesurprisedmegreatlybymakingasceneaboutit——sheaccusedmeofhavingwishedtohumiliateher。Shehadn’tresentedtheoutrageatthetime,buthadseemedobligingandamused,enjoyingthecomedyofaskingMrs。Monarch,whosatvagueandsilent,whethershewouldhavecreamandsugar,andputtinganexaggeratedsimperintothequestion。Shehadtriedintonations——
  asifshetoowishedtopassfortherealthing——tillIwasafraidmyothervisitorswouldtakeoffence。
  Ohtheyweredeterminednottodothis,andtheirtouchingpatiencewasthemeasureoftheirgreatneed。Theywouldsitbythehour,uncomplaining,tillIwasreadytousethem;theywouldcomebackonthechanceofbeingwantedandwouldwalkawaycheerfullyifitfailed。Iusedtogotothedoorwiththemtoseeinwhatmagnificentordertheyretreated。Itriedtofindotheremploymentforthem——Iintroducedthemtoseveralartists。Buttheydidn’t"take,"forreasonsIcouldappreciate,andIbecameratheranxiouslyawarethataftersuchdisappointmentstheyfellbackuponmewithaheavierweight。Theydidmethehonourtothinkmemosttheirform。Theyweren’tromanticenoughforthepainters,andinthosedaystherewerefewseriousworkersinblack-and-white。
  Besides,theyhadaneyetothegreatjobIhadmentionedtothem——
  theyhadsecretlysettheirheartsonsupplyingtherightessenceformypictorialvindicationofourfinenovelist。TheyknewthatforthisundertakingIshouldwantnocostume——effects,noneofthefripperyofpastages——thatitwasacaseinwhicheverythingwouldbecontemporaryandsatiricalandpresumablygenteel。IfIcouldworkthemintoittheirfuturewouldbeassured,forthelabourwouldofcoursebelongandtheoccupationsteady。
  OnedayMrs。Monarchcamewithoutherhusband——sheexplainedhisabsencebyhishavinghadtogototheCity。WhileshesatthereinherusualrelaxedmajestytherecameatthedooraknockwhichI
  immediatelyrecognisedasthesubduedappealofamodeloutofwork。ItwasfollowedbytheentranceofayoungmanwhomIatoncesawtobeaforeignerandwhoprovedinfactanItalianacquaintedwithnoEnglishwordbutmyname,whichheutteredinawaythatmadeitseemtoincludeallothers。Ihadn’tthenvisitedhiscountry,norwasIproficientinhistongue;butashewasnotsomeanlyconstituted——whatItalianis?——astodependonlyonthatmemberforexpressionheconveyedtome,infamiliarbutgracefulmimicry,thathewasinsearchofexactlytheemploymentinwhichtheladybeforemewasengaged。Iwasnotstruckwithhimatfirst,andwhileIcontinuedtodrawIdroppedfewsignsofinterestorencouragement。Hestoodhisgroundhowever——notimportunately,butwithadumbdog-likefidelityinhiseyesthatamountedtoinnocentimpudence,themannerofadevotedservant——hemighthavebeeninthehouseforyears——unjustlysuspected。
  Suddenlyitstruckmethatthisveryattitudeandexpressionmadeapicture;whereuponItoldhimtositdownandwaittillIshouldbefree。Therewasanotherpictureinthewayheobeyedme,andI
  observedasIworkedthattherewereothersstillinthewayhelookedwonderingly,withhisheadthrownback,aboutthehighstudio。HemighthavebeencrossinghimselfinSaintPeter’s。
  BeforeIfinishedIsaidtomyself"Thefellow’sabankruptorange-
  monger,butatreasure。"
  WhenMrs。Monarchwithdrewhepassedacrosstheroomlikeaflashtoopenthedoorforher,standingtherewiththeraptpuregazeoftheyoungDantespellboundbytheyoungBeatrice。AsIneverinsisted,insuchsituations,ontheblanknessoftheBritishdomestic,Ireflectedthathehadthemakingofaservant——andI
  neededone,butcouldn’tpayhimtobeonlythat——aswellasofamodel;inshortIresolvedtoadoptmybrightadventurerifhewouldagreetoofficiateinthedoublecapacity。Hejumpedatmyoffer,andintheeventmyrashness——forIhadreallyknownnothingabouthim——wasn’tbroughthometome。Heprovedasympatheticthoughadesultoryministrant,andhadinawonderfuldegreethesentimentdelapose。Itwasuncultivated,instinctive,apartofthehappyinstinctthathadguidedhimtomydoorandhelpedhimtospelloutmynameonthecardnailedtoit。Hehadhadnootherintroductiontomethanaguess,fromtheshapeofmyhighnorthwindow,seenoutside,thatmyplacewasastudioandthatasastudioitwouldcontainanartist。HehadwanderedtoEnglandinsearchoffortune,likeotheritinerants,andhadembarked,withapartnerandasmallgreenhand-cart,onthesaleofpennyices。
  Theiceshadmeltedawayandthepartnerhaddissolvedintheirtrain。MyyoungmanworetightyellowtrouserswithreddishstripesandhisnamewasOronte。Hewassallowbutfair,andwhenIputhimintosomeoldclothesofmyownhelookedlikeanEnglishman。HewasasgoodasMissChurm,whocouldlook,whenrequested,likeanItalian。
  CHAPTERIV
  IthoughtMrs。Monarch’sfaceslightlyconvulsedwhen,onhercomingbackwithherhusband,shefoundOronteinstalled。ItwasstrangetohavetorecogniseinascrapofalazzaroneacompetitortohermagnificentMajor。Itwasshewhoscenteddangerfirst,fortheMajorwasanecdoticallyunconscious。ButOrontegaveustea,withahundredeagerconfusions——hehadneverbeenconcernedinsoqueeraprocess——andIthinkshethoughtbetterofmeforhavingatlastan"establishment。"TheysawacoupleofdrawingsthatIhadmadeoftheestablishment,andMrs。Monarchhintedthatitneverwouldhavestruckherhehadsatforthem。"NowthedrawingsyoumakefromUS,theylookexactlylikeus,"sheremindedme,smilingintriumph;andIrecognisedthatthiswasindeedjusttheirdefect。WhenIdrewtheMonarchsIcouldn’tanyhowgetawayfromthem——getintothecharacterIwantedtorepresent;andIhadn’ttheleastdesiremymodelshouldbediscoverableinmypicture。
  MissChurmneverwas,andMrs。MonarchthoughtIhidher,veryproperly,becauseshewasvulgar;whereasifshewaslostitwasonlyasthedeadwhogotoheavenarelost——inthegainofanangelthemore。
  BythistimeIhadgotacertainstartwith"RutlandRamsay,"thefirstnovelinthegreatprojectedseries;thatisIhadproducedadozendrawings,severalwiththehelpoftheMajorandhiswife,andIhadsenttheminforapproval。MyunderstandingwiththepublishersasIhavealreadyhinted,hadbeenthatIwastobelefttodomywork,inthisparticularcase,asIliked,withthewholebookcommittedtome;butmyconnexionwiththerestoftheserieswasonlycontingent。Thereweremomentswhen,frankly,itWASacomforttohavetherealthingunderone’shandfortherewerecharactersin"RutlandRamsay"thatwereverymuchlikeit。TherewerepeoplepresumablyaserectastheMajorandwomenofasgoodafashionasMrs。Monarch。Therewasagreatdealofcountry-houselife-treated,itistrue,inafinefancifulironicalgeneralisedway——andtherewasaconsiderableimplicationofknickerbockersandkilts。TherewerecertainthingsIhadtosettleattheoutset;
  suchthingsforinstanceastheexactappearanceoftheheroandtheparticularbloomandfigureoftheheroine。Theauthorofcoursegavemealead,buttherewasamarginforinterpretation。
  ItooktheMonarchsintomyconfidence,ItoldthemfranklywhatI
  wasabout,Imentionedmyembarrassmentsandalternatives。"OhtakeHIM!"Mrs。Monarchmurmuredsweetly,lookingatherhusband;
  and"Whatcouldyouwantbetterthanmywife?"theMajorinquiredwiththecomfortablecandourthatnowprevailedbetweenus。
  Iwasn’tobligedtoanswertheseremarks——Iwasonlyobligedtoplacemysitters。Iwasn’teasyinmind,andIpostponedalittletimidlyperhapsthesolvingofmyquestion。Thebookwasalargecanvas,theotherfigureswerenumerous,andIworkedoffatfirstsomeoftheepisodesinwhichtheheroandtheheroinewerenotconcerned。WhenonceIhadsetTHEMupIshouldhavetosticktothem——Icouldn’tmakemyyoungmansevenfeethighinoneplaceandfivefeetnineinanother。Iinclinedonthewholetothelattermeasurement,thoughtheMajormorethanonceremindedmethathelookedaboutasyoungasanyone。Itwasindeedquitepossibletoarrangehim,forthefigure,sothatitwouldhavebeendifficulttodetecthisage。AfterthespontaneousOrontehadbeenwithmeamonth,andafterIhadgivenhimtounderstandseveraltimesoverthathisnativeexuberancewouldpresentlyconstituteaninsurmountablebarriertoourfurtherintercourse,Iwakedtoasenseofhisheroiccapacity。Hewasonlyfivefeetseven,buttheremainingincheswerelatent。Itriedhimalmostsecretlyatfirst,forIwasreallyratherafraidofthejudgementmyothermodelswouldpassonsuchachoice。IftheyregardedMissChurmaslittlebetterthanasnarewhatwouldtheythinkoftherepresentationbyapersonsolittletherealthingasanItalianstreet-vendorofaprotagonistformedbyapublicschool?
  IfIwentalittleinfearofthemitwasn’tbecausetheybulliedme,becausetheyhadgotanoppressivefoothold,butbecauseintheirreallypatheticdecorumandmysteriouslypermanentnewnesstheycountedonmesointensely。IwasthereforeverygladwhenJackHawleycamehome:hewasalwaysofsuchgoodcounsel。Hepaintedbadlyhimself,buttherewasnoonelikehimforputtinghisfingerontheplace。HehadbeenabsentfromEnglandforayear;hehadbeensomewhere——Idon’trememberwhere——togetafresheye。Iwasinagooddealofdreadofanysuchorgan,butwewereoldfriends;hehadbeenawayformonthsandasenseofemptinesswascreepingintomylife。Ihadn’tdodgedamissileforayear。
  Hecamebackwithafresheye,butwiththesameoldblackvelvetblouse,andthefirsteveninghespentinmystudiowesmokedcigarettestillthesmallhours。Hehaddonenoworkhimself,hehadonlygottheeye;sothefieldwasclearfortheproductionofmylittlethings。HewantedtoseewhatIhadproducedfortheCheapside,buthewasdisappointedintheexhibition。Thatatleastseemedthemeaningoftwoorthreecomprehensivegroanswhich,asheloungedonmybigdivan,hislegfoldedunderhim,lookingatmylatestdrawings,issuedfromhislipswiththesmokeofthecigarette。
  "What’sthematterwithyou?"Iasked。
  "What’sthematterwithyou?"
  "NothingsavethatI’mmystified。"
  "Youareindeed。You’requiteoffthehinge。What’sthemeaningofthisnewfad?"Andhetossedme,withvisibleirreverence,adrawinginwhichIhappenedtohavedepictedbothmyelegantmodels。Iaskedifhedidn’tthinkitgood,andherepliedthatitstruckhimasexecrable,giventhesortofthingIhadalwaysrepresentedmyselftohimaswishingtoarriveat;butIletthatpass——Iwassoanxioustoseeexactlywhathemeant。Thetwofiguresinthepicturelookedcolossal,butIsupposedthiswasnotwhathemeant,inasmuchas,foraughtheknewtothecontrary,I
  mighthavebeentryingforsomesucheffect。ImaintainedthatI
  wasworkingexactlyinthesamewayaswhenhelasthaddonemethehonourtotellmeImightdosomethingsomeday。"Well,there’sascrewloosesomewhere,"heanswered;"waitabitandI’lldiscoverit。"Idependeduponhimtodoso:whereelsewasthefresheye?
  Butheproducedatlastnothingmoreluminousthan"Idon’tknow——I
  don’tlikeyourtypes。"Thiswaslameforacriticwhohadneverconsentedtodiscusswithmeanythingbutthequestionofexecution,thedirectionofstrokesandthemysteryofvalues。
  "Inthedrawingsyou’vebeenlookingatIthinkmytypesareveryhandsome。"
  "Ohtheywon’tdo!"
  "I’vebeenworkingwithnewmodels。"
  "Iseeyouhave。THEYwon’tdo。"
  "Areyouverysureofthat?"
  "Absolutely——they’restupid。"
  "YoumeanIam——forIoughttogetroundthat。"
  "Youcan’t——withsuchpeople。Whoarethey?"
  Itoldhim,sofaraswasnecessary,andheconcludedheartlessly:
  "Cesontdesgensqu’ilfautmettrealaporte。"
  "You’veneverseenthem;they’reawfullygood"——Iflewtotheirdefence。
  "Notseenthem?Whyallthisrecentworkofyoursdropstopieceswiththem。It’sallIwanttoseeofthem。"
  "Nooneelsehassaidanythingagainstit——theCheapsidepeoplearepleased。"
  "Everyoneelseisanass,andtheCheapsidepeoplethebiggestassesofall。Come,don’tpretendatthistimeofdaytohaveprettyillusionsaboutthepublic,especiallyaboutpublishersandeditors。It’snotforSUCHanimalsyouwork——it’sforthosewhoknow,colorochesanno;sokeepstraightformeifyoucan’tkeepstraightforyourself。Therewasacertainsortofthingyouusedtotryfor——andaverygoodthingitwas。Butthistwaddleisn’tinit。"WhenItalkedwithHawleylaterabout"RutlandRamsay"anditspossiblesuccessorshedeclaredthatImustgetbackintomyboatagainorIshouldgotothebottom。Hisvoiceinshortwasthevoiceofwarning。
  Inotedthewarning,butIdidn’tturnmyfriendsoutofdoors。
  Theyboredmeagooddeal;buttheveryfactthattheyboredmeadmonishedmenottosacrificethem——iftherewasanythingtobedonewiththem——simplytoirritation。AsIlookbackatthisphasetheyseemtometohavepervadedmylifenotalittle。Ihaveavisionofthemasmostofthetimeinmystudio,seatedagainstthewallonanoldvelvetbenchtobeoutoftheway,andresemblingthewhileapairofpatientcourtiersinaroyalantechamber。I’mconvincedthatduringthecoldestweeksofthewintertheyheldtheirgroundbecauseitsavedthemfire。Theirnewnesswaslosingitsgloss,anditwasimpossiblenottofeelthemobjectsofcharity。WheneverMissChurmarrivedtheywentaway,andafterI
  wasfairlylaunchedin"RutlandRamsay"MissChurmarrivedprettyoften。TheymanagedtoexpresstometacitlythattheysupposedI
  wantedherforthelowlifeofthebook,andIletthemsupposeit,sincetheyhadattemptedtostudythework——itwaslyingaboutthestudio——withoutdiscoveringthatitdealtonlywiththehighestcircles。Theyhaddippedintothemostbrilliantofournovelistswithoutdecipheringmanypassages。Istilltookanhourfromthem,nowandagain,inspiteofJackHawley’swarning:itwouldbetimeenoughtodismissthem,ifdismissalshouldbenecessary,whentherigouroftheseasonwasover。Hawleyhadmadetheiracquaintance——
  hehadmetthematmyfireside——andthoughtthemaridiculouspair。Learningthathewasapaintertheytriedtoapproachhim,toshowhimtoothattheyweretherealthing;buthelookedatthemacrossthebigroom,asiftheyweremilesaway:theywereacompendiumofeverythinghemostobjectedtointhesocialsystemofhiscountry。Suchpeopleasthat,allconventionandpatent-
  leather,withejaculationsthatstoppedconversation,hadnobusinessinastudio。Astudiowasaplacetolearntosee,andhowcouldyouseethroughapairoffeather-beds?
  ThemaininconvenienceIsufferedattheirhandswasthatatfirstIwasshyoflettingitbreakuponthemthatmyartfullittleservanthadbeguntosittomefor"RutlandRamsay。"TheyknewI
  hadbeenoddenough——theywerepreparedbythistimetoallowodditytoartists——topickaforeignvagabondoutofthestreetswhenImighthavehadapersonwithwhiskersandcredentials;butitwassometimebeforetheylearnedhowhighIratedhisaccomplishments。Theyfoundhiminanattitudemorethanonce,buttheyneverdoubtedIwasdoinghimasanorgan-grinder。Therewereseveralthingstheyneverguessed,andoneofthemwasthatforastrikingsceneinthenovel,inwhichafootmanbrieflyfigured,itoccurredtometomakeuseofMajorMonarchasthemenial。Ikeptputtingthisoff,Ididn’tliketoaskhimtodonthelivery——
  besidesthedifficultyoffindingaliverytofithim。Atlast,onedaylateinthewinter,whenIwasatworkonthedespisedOronte,whocaughtone’sideaonthewing,andwasintheglowoffeelingmyselfgoverystraight,theycamein,theMajorandhiswife,withtheirsocietylaughaboutnothing(therewaslessandlesstolaughat);cameinlikecountry-callers——theyalwaysremindedmeofthat——whohavewalkedacrosstheparkafterchurchandarepresentlypersuadedtostaytoluncheon。Luncheonwasover,buttheycouldstaytotea——Iknewtheywantedit。Thefitwasonme,however,andIcouldn’tletmyardourcoolandmyworkwait,withthefadingdaylight,whilemymodelpreparedit。SoI
  askedMrs。Monarchifshewouldmindlayingitout——arequestwhichforaninstantbroughtallthebloodtoherface。Hereyeswereonherhusband’sforasecond,andsomemutetelegraphypassedbetweenthem。Theirfollywasoverthenextinstant;hischeerfulshrewdnessputanendtoit。Sofarfrompityingtheirwoundedpride,Imustadd,IwasmovedtogiveitascompletealessonasI
  could。Theybustledabouttogetherandgotoutthecupsandsaucersandmadethekettleboil。Iknowtheyfeltasiftheywerewaitingonmyservant,andwhentheteawaspreparedIsaid:
  "He’llhaveacup,please——he’stired。"Mrs。Monarchbroughthimonewherehestood,andhetookitfromherasifhehadbeenagentlemanatapartysqueezingacrush-hatwithanelbow。
  Thenitcameovermethatshehadmadeagreateffortforme——madeitwithakindofnobleness——andthatIowedheracompensation。
  EachtimeIsawherafterthisIwonderedwhatthecompensationcouldbe。Icouldn’tgoondoingthewrongthingtoobligethem。
  OhitWASthewrongthing,thestampoftheworkforwhichtheysat——Hawleywasnottheonlypersontosayitnow。IsentinalargenumberofthedrawingsIhadmadefor"RutlandRamsay,"andI
  receivedawarningthatwasmoretothepointthanHawley’s。TheartisticadviserofthehouseforwhichIwasworkingwasofopinionthatmanyofmyillustrationswerenotwhathadbeenlookedfor。MostoftheseillustrationswerethesubjectsinwhichtheMonarchshadfigured。WithoutgoingintothequestionofwhatHAD
  beenlookedfor,IhadtofacethefactthatatthisrateI
  shouldn’tgettheotherbookstodo。IhurledmyselfindespaironMissChurm——Iputherthroughallherpaces。InotonlyadoptedOrontepubliclyasmyhero,butonemorningwhentheMajorlookedintoseeifIdidn’trequirehimtofinishaCheapsidefigureforwhichhehadbeguntosittheweekbefore,ItoldhimIhadchangedmymind——I’ddothedrawingfrommyman。Atthismyvisitorturnedpaleandstoodlookingatme。"IsHEyourideaofanEnglishgentleman?"heasked。
  Iwasdisappointed,Iwasnervous,Iwantedtogetonwithmywork;
  so。Irepliedwithirritation:"OhmydearMajor——Ican’tberuinedforYOU!"
  Itwasahorridspeech,buthestoodanothermoment——afterwhich,withoutaword,hequittedthestudio。Idrewalongbreath,forI
  saidtomyselfthatIshouldn’tseehimagain。Ihadn’ttold——himdefinitelythatIwasindangerofhavingmyworkrejected,butI
  wasvexedathisnothavingfeltthecatastropheintheair,readwithmethemoralofourfruitlesscollaboration,thelessonthatinthedeceptiveatmosphereofarteventhehighestrespectabilitymayfailofbeingplastic。
  Ididn’towemyfriendsmoney,butIdidseethemagain。Theyreappearedtogetherthreedayslater,and,givenalltheotherfacts,therewassomethingtragicinthatone。Itwasaclearprooftheycouldfindnothingelseinlifetodo。Theyhadthreshedthematteroutinadismalconference——theyhaddigestedthebadnewsthattheywerenotinfortheseries。Iftheyweren’tusefultomeevenfortheCheapsidetheirfunctionseemeddifficulttodetermine,andIcouldonlyjudgeatfirstthattheyhadcome,forgivingly,decorously,totakealastleave。ThismademerejoiceinsecretthatIhadlittleleisureforascene;forIhadplacedbothmyothermodelsinpositiontogetherandIwaspeggingawayatadrawingfromwhichIhopedtoderiveglory。Ithadbeensuggestedbythepassagein-whichRutlandRamsay,drawingupachairtoArtemisia’spiano-stool,saysextraordinarythingstoherwhilesheostensiblyfingersoutadifficultpieceofmusic。IhaddoneMissChurmatthepianobefore——itwasanattitudeinwhichsheknewhowtotakeonanabsolutelypoeticgrace。Iwishedthetwofiguresto"compose"togetherwithintensity,andmylittleItalianhadenteredperfectlyintomyconception。Thepairwerevividlybeforeme,thepianohadbeenpulledout;itwasacharmingshowofblendedyouthandmurmuredlove,whichIhadonlytocatchandkeep。Myvisitorsstoodandlookedatit,andIwasfriendlytothemovermyshoulder。
  Theymadenoresponse,butIwasusedtosilentcompanyandwentonwithmywork,onlyalittledisconcerted——eventhoughexhilaratedbythesensethatthiswasatleasttheidealthing——atnothavinggotridofthemafterall。PresentlyIheardMrs。Monarch’ssweetvoicebesideorratheraboveme:"Iwishherhairwerealittlebetterdone。"IlookedupandshewasstaringwithastrangefixednessatMissChurm,whosebackwasturnedtoher。"Doyoumindmyjusttouchingit?"shewenton——aquestionwhichmademespringupforaninstantaswiththeinstinctivefearthatshemightdotheyoungladyaharm。ButshequietedmewithaglanceI
  shallneverforget——IconfessIshouldliketohavebeenabletopaintthat——andwentforamomenttomymodel。Shespoketohersoftly,layingahandonhershoulderandbendingoverher;andasthegirl,understanding,gratefullyassented,shedisposedherroughcurls,withafewquickpasses,insuchawayastomakeMissChurm’sheadtwiceascharming。ItwasoneofthemostheroicpersonalservicesI’veeverseenrendered。ThenMrs。Monarchturnedawaywithalowsighand,lookingaboutherasifforsomethingtodo,stoopedtothefloorwithanoblehumilityandpickedupadirtyragthathaddroppedoutofmypaint-box。
  TheMajormeanwhilehadalsobeenlookingforsomethingtodo,and,wanderingtotheotherendofthestudio,sawbeforehimmybreakfast-thingsneglected,unremoved。"Isay,can’tIbeusefulHERE?"hecalledouttomewithanirrepressiblequaver。I
  assentedwithalaughthatIfearwasawkward,andforthenexttenminutes,whileIworked,Iheardthelightclatterofchinaandthetinkleofspoonsandglass。Mrs。Monarchassistedherhusband——
  theywashedupmycrockery,theyputitaway。Theywanderedoffintomylittlescullery,andIafterwardsfoundthattheyhadcleanedmyknivesandthatmyslenderstockofplatehadanunprecedentedsurface。Whenitcameoverme,thelatenteloquenceofwhattheyweredoing,Iconfessthatmydrawingwasblurredforamoment——thepictureswam。Theyhadacceptedtheirfailure,buttheycouldn’taccepttheirfate。Theyhadbowedtheirheadsinbewildermenttotheperverseandcruellawinvirtueofwhichtherealthingcouldbesomuchlesspreciousthantheunreal;buttheydidn’twanttostarve。Ifmyservantsweremymodels,thenmymodelsmightbemyservants。Theywouldreversetheparts——theotherswouldsitfortheladiesandgentlemenandTHEYwoulddothework。Theywouldstillbeinthestudio——itwasanintensedumbappealtomenottoturnthemout。"Takeuson,"theywantedtosay——"we’lldoANYTHING。"
  Mypencildroppedfrommyhand;mysittingwasspoiledandIgotridofmysitters,whowerealsoevidentlyrathermystifiedandawestruck。Then,alonewiththeMajorandhiswifeIhadamostuncomfortablemoment。Heputtheirprayerintoasinglesentence:
  "Isay,youknow——justletUSdoforyou,can’tyou?"Icouldn’t——
  itwasdreadfultoseethememptyingmyslops;butIpretendedI
  could,toobligethem,foraboutaweek。ThenIgavethemasumofmoneytogoaway,andIneversawthemagain。Iobtainedtheremainingbooks,butmyfriendHawleyrepeatsthatMajorandMrs。
  Monarchdidmeapermanentharm,gotmeintofalseways。IfitbetrueI’mcontenttohavepaidtheprice——forthememory。
  THESTORYOFIT
  CHAPTERI
  Theweatherhadturnedsomuchworsethattherestofthedaywascertainlylost。Thewindhadrisenandthestormgatheredforce;
  theygavefromtimetotimeathumpatthefirmwindowsanddashedevenagainstthoseprotectedbytheverandahtheirvicioussplotchesofrain。Beyondthelawn,beyondthecliff,thegreatwetbrushoftheskydippeddeepintothesea。Butthelawn,alreadyvividwiththetouchofMay,showedaviolenceofwateredgreen;thebuddingshrubsandtreesrepeatedthenoteastheytossedtheirthickmasses,andthecoldtroubledlight,fillingtheprettysaloon,markedthespringafternoonassufficientlyyoung。
  Thetwoladiesseatedthereinsilencecouldpursuewithoutdifficulty——aswellas,clearly,withoutinterruption——theirrespectivetasks;aconfidenceexpressed,whenthenoiseofthewindallowedittobeheard,bythesharpscratchofMrs。Dyott’spenatthetablewhereshewasbusywithletters。
  Hervisitor,settledonasmallsofathat,withapalm-tree,ascreen,astool,astand,abowlofflowersandthreephotographsinsilverframes,hadbeenarrangednearthelightwood-fireasachoice"corner"——MaudBlessingbourne,herguest,turnedaudibly,thoughatintervalsneitherbriefnorregular,theleavesofabookcoveredinlemon-colouredpaperandnotyetdespoiledofacertainfreshcrispness。Thiseffectofthevolume,fortheeye,wouldhavemadeit,aspresumablythenewestFrenchnovel——andevidently,fromtheattitudeofthereader,"good"——consorthappilywiththespecialtoneoftheroom,aconsistentairofselectionandsuppression,oneofthefineraestheticevolutions。IfMrs。DyottwasfondofancientFrenchfurnitureanddistinctlydifficultaboutit,herinmatescouldbefond——withwhatevercriticalcocksofcharmingdark-braidedheadsoverslenderslopingshoulders——ofmodernFrenchauthors。Nothingbadpassedforhalfanhour——
  nothingatleast,tobeexact,butthateachofthecompanionsoccasionallyandcovertlyintermittedherpursuitinsuchamannerastoascertainthedegreeofabsorptionoftheotherwithoutturninground。Whattheirsilencewaschargedwiththereforewasnotonlyasenseoftheweather,butasense,sotospeak,ofitsownnature。MaudBlessingbourne,whensheloweredherbookintoherlap,closedhereyeswithaconsciouspatiencethatseemedtosayshewaited;butitwasneverthelessshewhoatlastmadethemovementrepresentingasnapoftheirtension。Shegotupandstoodbythefire,intowhichshelookedaminute;thencameroundandapproachedthewindowasiftoseewhatwasreallygoingon。
  AtthisMrs。Dyottwrotewithrefreshedintensity。Herlittlepileoflettershadgrown,andifalookofdeterminationwascompatiblewithherfairandslightlyfadedbeautythehabitofattendingtoherbusinesscouldalwayskeeppacewithanyexcursionofherthought。Yetshewasthefirstwhospoke。
  "Itrustyourbookhasbeeninteresting。"
  "Wellenough;alittlemild。"
  Alouderthrobofthetempesthadblurredthesoundofthewords。
  "Alittlewild?"
  "Dearno——timidandtame;unlessI’vequitelostmysense。"
  "Perhapsyouhave,"Mrs。Dyottplacidlysuggested——"readingsomany。"
  Hercompanionmadeamotionoffeigneddespair。"Ahyoutakeawaymycourageforgoingtomyroom,asIwasjustmeaningto,foranother。"
  "AnotherFrenchone?"
  "I’mafraid。"
  "Doyoucarrythembythedozen——?"
  "IntoinnocentBritishhomes?"Maudtriedtoremember。"IbelieveIbroughtthree——seeingtheminashop-windowasIpassedthroughtown。Itneverrainsbutitpours!ButI’vealreadyreadtwo。"
  "Andaretheytheonlyonesyoudoread?"
  "Frenchones?"Maudconsidered。"Ohno。D’Annunzio。"
  "Andwhat’sthat?"Mrs。Dyottaskedassheaffixedastamp。
  "Ohyoudearthing!"Herfriendwasamused,yetalmostshowedpity。"Iknowyoudon’tread,"Maudwenton;"butwhyshouldyou?
  YOUlive!"
  "Yes——wretchedlyenough,"Mrs。Dyottreturned,gettingherletterstogether。Sheleftherplace,holdingthemasaneatachievedhandful,andcameovertothefire,whileMrs。Blessingbourneturnedoncemoretothewindow,whereshewasmetbyanotherflurry。
  Maudspokethenasifmovedonlybytheelements。"Doyouexpecthimthroughallthis?"
  Mrs。Dyottjustwaited,andithadtheeffect,indescribably,ofmakingeverythingthathadgonebeforeseemtohaveleduptothequestion。Thiseffectwasevendeepenedbythewayshethensaid"Whomdoyoumean?"
  "WhyIthoughtyoumentionedatluncheonthatColonelVoytwastowalkover。Surelyhecan’t。"
  "Doyoucareverymuch?"Mrs。Dyottasked。
  Herfriendnowhesitated。"Itdependsonwhatyoucall’much。’IfyoumeanshouldIliketoseehim——thencertainly。"
  "Well,mydear,Ithinkheunderstandsyou’rehere。"
  "Sothatasheevidentlyisn’tcoming,"Maudlaughed,"it’sparticularlyflattering!Orrather,"sheadded,givinguptheprospectagain,"itwouldbe,Ithink,quiteextraordinarilyflatteringifhedid。Exceptthatofcourse,"shethrewin,"hemightcomepartlyforyou。"
  "’Partly’ischarming。Thankyoufor’partly。’IfyouAREgoingupstairs,willyoukindly,"MrsDyottpursued,"puttheseintotheboxasyoupass?"
  Theyoungerwoman,takingthelittlepileofletters,consideredthemwithenvy。"Nine!YouAREgood。You’realwaysalivingreproach!"
  Mrs。Dyottgaveasigh。"Idon’tdoitonpurpose。Theonlything,thisafternoon,"shewenton,revertingtotheotherquestion,"wouldbetheirnothavingcomedown。"
  "Andastothatyoudon’tknow。"
  "No——Idon’tknow。"Butshecaughtevenasshespokearat-tat-tatoftheknocker,whichstruckherasasign。"Ahthere!"
  "ThenIgo。"AndMaudwhiskedout。
  Mrs。Dyott,leftalone,movedwithanairofselectiontothewindow,anditwasassostationed,gazingoutatthewildweather,thatthevisitor,whosedelaytoappearspokeofthewipingofbootsandthedisposalofdrenchedmackintoshandcap,finallyfoundher。Hewastallleanfine,withlittleinhim,onthewhole,toconfirmthetitularinthe"ColonelVoyt"bywhichhewasannounced。Buthehadleftthearmy,sothathisreputationforgallantrymainlydependednowonhisfightingLiberalismintheHouseofCommons。Eventhesefacts,however,hisaspectscantilymatched;partly,nodoubt,becausehelooked,aswasusuallysaid,un-English。Hisblackhair,croppedclose,waslightlypowderedwithsilver,andhisdenseglossybeard,thatofanemiroracaliph,andgrownforcivilreasons,repeateditshandsomecolouranditssomewhatforeigneffect。Hisnosehadastrongandshapelyarch,andthedarkgreyofhiseyeswastintedwithblue。Ithadbeensaidofhim——inrelationtothesesigns——thathewouldhavestruckyouasaJewhadhenot,inspiteofhisnose,struckyousomuchasanIrishman。Neitherresponsibilitycouldinfacthavebeenfixeduponhim,andjustnow,atallevents,hewasonlyapleasantweather-washedwind-batteredBriton,whobroughtinfromastrugglewiththeelementsthatheappearedquitetohaveenjoyedacertainamountofunremovedmudandanunusualquantityofeasyexpression。Itwasexactlythesilenceensuingontheretreatoftheservantandthecloseddoorthatmarkedbetweenhimandhishostessthedegreeofthisease。Theymet,asitwere,twice:thefirsttimewhiletheservantwasthereandthesecondassoonashewasnot。Thedifferencewasgreatbetweenthetwoencounters,thoughwemustaddinjusticetothesecondthatitsmarkswereatfirstmainlynegative。Thiscommunionconsistedonlyintheirhavingdrawneachotherforaminuteascloseaspossible——aspossible,thatis,withnohelpbutthefullclaspofhands。Thustheyweremutuallyheld,andtheclosenesswasatanyratesuchthat,foralittle,thoughittookaccountofdangers,itdidwithoutwords。Whenwordspresentlycamethepairweretalkingbythefireandshehadrungfortea。Hehadbythistimeaskedifthenotehehaddespatchedtoherafterbreakfasthadbeensafelydelivered。
  "Yes,beforeluncheon。ButI’malwaysinastatewhen——exceptforsomeextraordinaryreason——yousendsuchthingsbyhand。Iknew,withoutit,thatyouhadcome。Itneverfails。I’msurewhenyou’rethere——I’msurewhenyou’renot。"
  Hewiped,beforetheglass,hiswetmoustache。"Isee。ButthismorningIhadanimpulse。"
  "Itwasbeautiful。Buttheymakemeasuneasy,sometimes,yourimpulses,asiftheywerecalculations;makemewonderwhatyouhaveinreserve。"
  "Becausewhensmallchildrenaretooawfullygoodtheydie?Well,IAMasmallchildcomparedtoyou——butI’mnotdeadyet。Iclingtolife。"
  Hehadcoveredherwithhissmile,butshecontinuedgrave。"I’mnothalfsomuchafraidwhenyou’renasty。"
  "Thankyou!Whatthendidyoudo,"heasked,"withmynote?"
  "YoudeservethatIshouldhavespreaditoutonmydressing-table——
  orleftit,betterstill,inMaudBlessingbourne’sroom。"
  Hewonderedwhilehelaughed。"OhbutwhatdoesSHEdeserve?"
  Itwashergravitythatcontinuedtoanswer。"Yes——itwouldprobablykillher。"
  "Shebelievessoinyou?"
  "ShebelievessoinYOU。Sodon’tbeTOOnicetoher。"
  Hewasstilllooking,inthechimney-glass,atthestateofhisbeard——brushingfromit,withhishandkerchief,thetracesofwindandwet。"IfshealsothenprefersmewhenI’mnastyitseemstomeIoughttosatisfyher。ShallInowatanyrateseeher?"
  "She’ssolikeapeaonapanoverthepossibilityofitthatshe’spullingherselftogetherinherroom。"
  "Ohthenwemusttryandkeephertogether。Butwhy,gracefultender,prettytoo——quiteoralmostassheis——doesn’tshere-
  marry?"
  Mrs。Dyottappeared——andasifthefirsttime——tolookforthereason。"Becauseshelikestoomanymen。"
  Itkeptuphisspirits。"AndhowmanyMAYaladylike——?"
  "Inordernottolikeanyofthemtoomuch?Ahthat,youknow,I
  neverfoundout——andit’stoolatenow。When,"shepresentlypursued,"didyoulastseeher?"
  Hereallyhadtothink。"WouldithavebeensincelastNovemberorso?——somewhereorotherwherewespentthreedays。"
  "OhatSurredge?Iknowallaboutthat。Ithoughtyoualsometafterwards。"
  Hehadagaintorecall。"Sowedid!Wouldn’tithavebeensomewhereatChristmas?Butitwasn’tbyarrangement!"helaughed,givingwithhisforefingeralittlepleasantnicktohishostess’schin。Thenasifsomethinginthewayshereceivedthisattentionputhimbacktohisquestionofamomentbefore:"Haveyoukeptmynote?"
  Sheheldhimwithherprettyeyes。"Doyouwantitback?"
  "Ahdon’tspeakasifIdidtakethings——!"
  Shedroppedhergazetothefire。"No,youdon’t;noteventhehardthingsareallygenerousnatureoftenwould。"Shequitted,however,asiftoforgetthat,thechimney-place。"IputitTHERE!"
  "You’veburntit?Good!"Itmadehimeasier,buthenoticedthenextmomentonatablethelemon-colouredvolumelefttherebyMrs。
  Blessingbourne,and,takingitupforalook,immediatelyputitdown。"Youmightwhileyouwereaboutithaveburntthattoo。"
  "You’vereadit?"
  "Dearyes。Andyou?"
  "No,"saidMrs。Dyott;"itwasn’tformeMaudbroughtit。"
  Itpulledhervisitorup。"Mrs。Blessingbournebroughtit?"
  "Forsuchadayasthis。"Butshewondered。"Howyoulook!Isitsoawful?"
  "Ohlikehisothers。"Somethinghadoccurredtohim;histhoughtwasalreadyfar。"Doessheknow?"
  "Knowwhat?"
  "Whyanything。"
  ButthedooropenedtoosoonforMrs。Dyott,whocouldonlymurmurquickly——"Takecare!"
  CHAPTERII
  ItwasinfactMrs。Blessingbourne,whohadunderherarmthebookshehadgoneupfor——apairofcoversshowingthistimeapretty,acandidblue。Shewasfollowednextminutebytheservant,whobroughtintea,theconsumptionofwhich,withthepassageofgreetings,inquiriesandotherlightcivilitiesbetweenthetwovisitors,occupiedaquarterofanhour。Mrs。Dyottmeanwhile,asacontributiontosomuchamenity,mentionedtoMaudthatherfellowguestwishedtoscoldherforthebookssheread——astatementmetbythisfriendwiththeremarkthathemustfirstbesureaboutthem。Butassoonashehadpickedupthenew,thebluevolumehebrokeoutintoafrank"Dear,dear!"
  "Haveyoureadthattoo?"Mrs。Dyottinquired。"Howmuchyou’llhavetotalkovertogether!Theotherone,"sheexplainedtohim,"Maudspeaksofasterriblytame。"
  "AhImusthavethatoutwithher!Youdon’tfeeltheextraordinaryforceofthefellow?"VoytwentontoMrs。
  Blessingbourne。
  Andso,roundthehearth,theytalked——talkedsoon,whiletheywarmedtheirtoes,withzestenoughtomakeitseemashappyachanceasanyofthequieteropportunitiestheirimprisonmentmighthaveinvolved。Mrs。Blessingbournedidfeel,itthenappeared,theforceofthefellow,butshehadherreservesandreactions,inwhichVoytwasmuchinterested。Mrs。Dyottratherdetachedherself,mainlygazing,assheleanedback,atthefire;sheintervened,however,enoughtorelieveMaudofthesenseofbeinglistenedto。Thatsense,withMaud,wastooapttoconveythatonewaslistenedtoforafool。"Yes,whenIreadanovelImostlyreadaFrenchone,"shehadsaidtoVoytinanswertoaquestionaboutherusualpractice;"forIseemwithittogetholdmoreoftherealthing——togetmorelifeformymoney。OnlyI’mnotsoinfatuatedwiththembutthatsometimesformonthsandmonthsonendIdon’treadanyfictionatall。"
  Thetwobookswerenowtogetherbesidethem。"Thenwhenyoubeginagainyoureadamass?"
  "Dearno。Ionlykeepupwiththreeorfourauthors。"
  Helaughedatthisoverthecigarettehehadbeenallowedtolight。
  "Ilikeyour’keepingup,’andkeepingupinparticularwith’authors。’"
  "Onemustkeepupwithsomebody,"Mrs。Dyottthrewoff。
  "IdaresayI’mridiculous,"Mrs。Blessingbourneconcededwithoutheedingit;"butthat’sthewayweexpressourselvesinmypartofthecountry。"
  "Ionlyalluded,"saidVoyt,"tothetremendousconscienceofyoursex。It’smorethanminecankeepupwith。Youtakeeverythingtoohard。Butifyoucan’treadthenovelofBritishandAmericanmanufacture,heavenknowsI’matonewithyou。Itseemsreallytoshowoursenseoflifeasthesenseofpuppiesandkittens。"
  "Well,"Maudmorepatientlyreturned,"I’mtoldallsortsofpeoplearenowdoingwonderfulthings;butsomehowIremainoutside。"
  "Ahit’sTHEY,it’sourpoortwangersandtwaddlerswhoremainoutside。Theypickupalivinginthestreet。Andwhoindeedwouldwantthemin?"
  Mrs。Blessingbourneseemedunabletosay,andyetatthesametimetohaveheridea。Thesubject,intruth,sheevidentlyfound,wasnotsoeasytohandle。"Peoplelendmethings,andItry;butattheendoffiftypages——"
  "Thereyouare!Yes——heavenhelpus!"
  "ButwhatImean,"shewenton,"isn’tthatIdon’tgetwoefullywearyoftheeternalFrenchthing。What’sTHEIRsenseoflife?"
  "Ahvoila!"Mrs。Dyottsoftlysounded。
  "OhbutitISone;youcanmakeitout,"Voytpromptlydeclared。
  "Theydowhattheyfeel,andtheyfeelmorethingsthanwe。Theystrikesomanymorenotes,andwithsodifferentahand。Whenitcomestoanyaccountofarelationsaybetweenamanandawoman——I
  meananintimateoracuriousorasuggestiveone——wherearewecomparedtothem?Theydon’texhaustthesubject,nodoubt,"headmitted;"butwedon’ttouchit,don’tevenskimit。It’sasifwedenieditsexistence,itspossibility。You’lldoubtlesstellme,however,"hewenton,"thatasallsuchrelationsAREforusatthemostmuchsimplerwecanonlyhaveallroundlesstosayaboutthem。"
  Shemetthisimputationwiththequickestamusement。"Ibegyourpardon。Idon’tthinkIshalltellyouanythingofthesort。I
  don’tknowthatIevenagreewithyourpremiss。"
  "Aboutsuchrelations?"Helookedagreeablysurprised。"Youthinkwemakethemlarger?——orsubtler?"
  Mrs。Blessingbourneleanedback,notlooking,likeMrs。Dyott,atthefire,butattheceiling。"Idon’tknowwhatIthink。"
  "It’snotthatshedoesn’tknow,"Mrs。Dyottremarked。"It’sonlythatshedoesn’tsay。"
  ButVoythadthistimenoeyefortheirhostess。ForamomenthewatchedMaud。"Itsticksoutofyou,youknow,thatyou’veyourselfwrittensomething。Haven’tyou——andpublished?I’veanotionIcouldreadYOU。"
  "WhenIdopublish,"shesaidwithoutmoving,"you’llbethelastoneIshalltell。IHAVE,"shewenton,"alovelysubject,butitwouldtakeanamountoftreatment——!"
  "Tellusthenatleastwhatitis。"
  Atthissheagainmethiseyes。"Ohtotellitwouldbetoexpressit,andthat’sjustwhatIcan’tdo。WhatImeanttosayjustnow,"sheadded,"wasthattheFrench,tomysense,giveusonlyagainandagain,foreverandever,thesamecouple。Theretheyareoncemore,asonehashadthemtosatiety,inthatyellowthing,andthereIshallcertainlyagainfindthemintheblue。"
  "Thenwhydoyoukeepreadingaboutthem?"Mrs。Dyottdemanded。
  Maudcastabout。"Idon’t!"shesighed。"Atallevents,Ishan’tanymore。Igiveitup。"
  "You’vebeenlookingforsomething,Ijudge,"saidColonelVoyt,"thatyou’renotlikelytofind。Itdoesn’texist。"
  "Whatisit?"Mrs。Dyottdesiredtoknow。
  "Ineverlook,"Maudremarked,"foranythingbutaninterest。"
  "Naturally。Butyourinterest,"Voytreplied,"isinsomethingdifferentfromlife。"
  "Ahnotabit!ILOVElifeinart,thoughIhateitanywhereelse。