Youfanciedyouhadseenthings——butthesealwason。
Whenannoyedatmeal-timesbytheconstantquarrelsofthewhitemenaboutprecedence,heorderedanim-
menseroundtabletobemade,forwhichaspecialhousehadtobebuilt。Thiswasthestation’smess-room。Wherehesatwasthefirstplace——therestwerenowhere。Onefeltthistobehisunalterableconviction。Hewasneithercivilnoruncivil。Hewasquiet。Heallowedhis’boy’
——anoverfedyoungnegrofromthecoast——totreatthewhitemen,underhisveryeyes,withprovokinginsolence。
"Hebegantospeakassoonashesawme。Ihadbeenverylongontheroad。Hecouldnotwait。Hadtostartwithoutme。Theup-riverstationshadtoberelieved。Therehadbeensomanydelaysalreadythathedidnotknowwhowasdeadandwhowasalive,andhowtheygoton——andsoon,andsoon。Hepaidnoattentiontomyexplanations,and,playingwithastickofsealing-wax,repeatedseveraltimesthatthesituationwas’verygrave,verygrave。’Therewererumorsthataveryimportantstationwasinjeopardy,anditschief,Mr。Kurtz,wasill。Hopeditwasnottrue。Mr。Kurtzwas……Ifeltwearyandirritable。HangKurtz,I
thought。IinterruptedhimbysayingIhadheardofMr。Kurtzonthecoast。’Ah!Sotheytalkofhimdownthere,’hemurmuredtohimself。Thenhebeganagain,assuringmeMr。Kurtzwasthebestagenthehad,anexceptionalman,ofthegreatestimportancetotheCompany;thereforeIcouldunderstandhisanxiety。
Hewas,hesaid,’very,veryuneasy。’Certainlyhefidgetonhischairagooddeal,exclaimed,’Ah,Mr。
Kurtz!’brokethestickofsealing-waxandseemeddumb-
foundedbytheaccident。Nextthinghewantedtoknow’howlongitwouldtaketo’……Iinterruptedhimagain。Beinghungry,youknow,andkeptonmyfeettoo,Iwasgettingsavage。’HowcouldItell,’Isaid。
’Ihadn’tevenseenthewreckyet——somemonths,nodoubt。’Allthistalkseemedtomesofutile。’Somemonths,’hesaid。’Well,letussaythreemonthsbeforewecanmakeastart。Yes。Thatoughttodotheaffair。’
Iflungoutofhishut(helivedallaloneinaclayhutwithasortofveranda)mutteringtomyselfmyopinionofhim。Hewasachatteringidiot。AfterwardsItookitbackwhenitwasborneinuponmestartlinglywithwhatextremenicetyhehadestimatedthetimerequisiteforthe’affair。’
"Iwenttoworkthenextday,turning,sotospeak,mybackonthatstation。InthatwayonlyitseemedtomeIcouldkeepmyholdontheredeemingfactsoflife。Still,onemustlookaboutsometimes;andthenI
sawthisstation,thesemenstrollingaimlesslyaboutinthesunshineoftheyard。Iaskedmyselfsometimeswhatitallmeant。Theywanderedhereandtherewiththeirabsurdlongstavesintheirhands,likealotoffaithlesspilgrimsbewitchedinsidearottenfence。Theword’ivory’rangintheair,waswhispered,wassighed。Youwouldthinktheywereprayingtoit。Ataintofimbecilerapacityblewthroughitall,likeawhifffromsomecorpse。ByJove!I’veneverseenanythingsounrealinmylife。Andoutside,thesilentwildernesssurround-
ingthisclearedspeckontheearthstruckmeassome-
thinggreatandinvincible,likeevilortruth,waitingpatientlyforthepassingawayofthisfantasticin-
vasion。
"Oh,thesemonths!Well,nevermind。Variousthingshappened。Oneeveningagrassshedfullofcalico,cottonprints,beads,andIdon’tknowwhatelse,burstintoablazesosuddenlythatyouwouldhavethoughttheearthhadopenedtoletanavengingfireconsumeallthattrash。
Iwassmokingmypipequietlybymydismantledsteamer,andsawthemallcuttingcapersinthelight,withtheirarmsliftedhigh,whenthestoutmanwithmustachescametearingdowntotheriver,atinpailinhishand,assuredmethateverybodywas’behavingsplendidly,splendidly,dippedaboutaquartofwaterandtorebackagain。Inoticedtherewasaholeinthebottomofhispail。
"Istrolledup。Therewasnohurry。Youseethethinghadgoneofflikeaboxofmatches。Ithadbeenhopelessfromtheveryfirst。Theflamehadleapedhigh,driveneverybodyback,lightedupeverything——andcol-
lapsed。Theshedwasalreadyaheapofembersglowingfiercely。Aniggerwasbeingbeatennearby。Theysaidhehadcausedthefireinsomeway;bethatasitmay,hewasscreechingmosthorribly。Isawhim,lateron,forseveraldays,sittinginabitofshadelookingverysickandtryingtorecoverhimself:afterwardshearoseandwentout——andthewildernesswithoutasoundtookhimintoitsbosomagain。AsIapproachedtheglowfromthedarkIfoundmyselfatthebackoftwomen,talking。IheardthenameofKurtzpronounced,thenthewords,’takeadvantageofthisunfortunateac-
cident。’Oneofthemenwasthemanager。Iwishedhimagoodevening。’Didyoueverseeanythinglikeit——eh?itisincredible,’hesaid,andwalkedoff。Theothermanremained。Hewasafirst-classagent,young,gentlemanly,abitreserved,withaforkedlittlebeardandahookednose。Hewasstand-offishwiththeotheragents,andtheyontheirsidesaidhewasthemanager’sspyuponthem。Astome,Ihadhardlyeverspokentohimbefore。Wegotintotalk,andby-and-bywestrolledawayfromthehissingruins。Thenheaskedmetohisroom,whichwasinthemainbuildingofthestation。
Hestruckamatch,andIperceivedthatthisyoungaristocrathadnotonlyasilver-mounteddressing-casebutalsoawholecandlealltohimself。Justatthattimethemanagerwastheonlymansupposedtohaveanyrighttocandles。Nativematscoveredtheclaywalls;
acollectionofspears,assegais,shields,kniveswashungupintrophies。Thebusinessintrustedtothisfellowwasthemakingofbricks——soIhadbeeninformed;buttherewasn’tafragmentofabrickanywhereinthesta-
tion,andhehadbeentheremorethanayear——waiting。
Itseemshecouldnotmakebrickswithoutsomething,I
don’tknowwhat——strawmaybe。Anyways,itcouldnotbefoundthere,andasitwasnotlikelytobesentfromEurope,itdidnotappearcleartomewhathewaswait-
ingfor。Anactofspecialcreationperhaps。However,theywereallwaiting——allthesixteenortwentypilgrimsofthem——forsomething;anduponmyworditdidnotseemanuncongenialoccupation,fromthewaytheytookit,thoughtheonlythingthatevercametothemwasdisease——asfarasIcouldsee。Theybeguiledthetimebybackbitingandintriguingagainsteachotherinafoolishkindofway。Therewasanairofplottingaboutthatstation,butnothingcameofit,ofcourse。Itwasasunrealaseverythingelse——asthephilanthropicpre-
tenseofthewholeconcern,astheirtalk,astheirgov-
ernment,astheirshowofwork。Theonlyrealfeelingwasadesiretogetappointedtoatrading-postwhereivorywastobehad,sothattheycouldearnpercentages。
Theyintriguedandslanderedandhatedeachotheronlyonthataccount,——butastoeffectuallyliftingalittlefinger——oh,no。Byheavens!thereissomethingafterallintheworldallowingonemantostealahorsewhileanothermustnotlookatahalter。Stealahorsestraightout。Verywell。Hehasdoneit。Perhapshecanride。
Butthereisawayoflookingatahalterthatwouldprovokethemostcharitableofsaintsintoakick。
"Ihadnoideawhyhewantedtobesociable,butaswechattedinthereitsuddenlyoccurredtomethefel-
lowwastryingtogetatsomething——infact,pumpingme。HealludedconstantlytoEurope,tothepeopleI
wassupposedtoknowthere——puttingleadingquestionsastomyacquaintancesinthesepulchralcity,andsoon。
Hislittleeyesglitteredlikemicadiscs——withcuriosity,——thoughhetriedtokeepupabitofsuperciliousness。
AtfirstIwasastonished,butverysoonIbecameawfullycurioustoseewhathewouldfindoutfromme。Icouldn’tpossiblyimaginewhatIhadinmetomakeitworthhiswhile。Itwasveryprettytoseehowhebaffledhim-
self,forintruthmybodywasfullofchills,andmyheadhadnothinginitbutthatwretchedsteamboatbusi-
ness。Itwasevidenthetookmeforaperfectlyshame-
lessprevaricator。Atlasthegotangry,andtoconcealamovementoffuriousannoyance,heyawned。Irose。
ThenInoticedasmallsketchinoils,onapanel,repre-
sentingawoman,drapedandblindfolded,carryingalightedtorch。Thebackgroundwassomber——almostblack。Themovementofthewomanwasstately,andtheeffectofthetorchlightonthefacewassinister。
"Itarrestedme,andhestoodbycivilly,holdingahalf-pintchampagnebottle(medicalcomforts)withthecandlestuckinit。TomyquestionhesaidMr。Kurtzhadpaintedthis——inthisverystationmorethanayearago——whilewaitingformeanstogotohistrading-post。
’Tellme,pray,’saidI,’whoisthisMr。Kurtz?’
"’ThechiefoftheInnerStation,’heansweredinashorttone,lookingaway。’Muchobliged,’Isaid,laugh-
ing。’AndyouarethebrickmakeroftheCentralSta-
tion。Everyoneknowsthat。’Hewassilentforawhile。
’Heisaprodigy,’hesaidatlast。’Heisanemissaryofpity,andscience,andprogress,anddevilknowswhatelse。Wewant,’hebegantodeclaimsuddenly,’fortheguidanceofthecauseintrustedtousbyEurope,sotospeak,higherintelligence,widesympathies,asingle-
nessofpurpose。’’Whosaysthat?’Iasked。’Lotsofthem,’hereplied。’Someevenwritethat;andsoHE
comeshere,aspecialbeing,asyououghttoknow。’’WhyoughtItoknow?’Iinterrupted,reallysurprised。Hepaidnoattention。’Yes。To-dayheischiefofthebeststation,nextyearhewillbeassistant-manager,twoyearsmoreand……butIdaresayyouknowwhathewillbeintwoyears’time。Youareofthenewgang——
thegangofvirtue。Thesamepeoplewhosenthimspeciallyalsorecommendedyou。Oh,don’tsayno。I’vemyowneyestotrust。’Lightdawneduponme。Mydearaunt’sinfluentialacquaintanceswereproducinganunexpectedeffectuponthatyoungman。Inearlyburstintoalaugh。’DoyoureadtheCompany’sconfidentialcorrespondence?’Iasked。Hehadn’tawordtosay。Itwasgreatfun。’WhenMr。Kurtz,’Icontinuedseverely,’isGeneralManager,youwon’thavetheopportunity。’
"Heblewthecandleoutsuddenly,andwewentout-
side。Themoonhadrisen。Blackfiguresstrolledaboutlistlessly,pouringwaterontheglow,whenceproceededasoundofhissing;steamascendedinthemoonlight,thebeatenniggergroanedsomewhere。’Whatarowthebrutemakes!’saidtheindefatigablemanwiththemus-
taches,appearingnearus。’Servehimright。Trans-
gression——punishment——bang!Pitiless,pitiless。That’stheonlyway。Thiswillpreventallconflagrationsforthefuture。Iwasjusttellingthemanager……’Henoticedmycompanion,andbecamecrestfallenallatonce。
’Notinbedyet,’hesaid,withakindofservilehearti-
ness;’it’ssonatural。Ha!Danger-agitation。’Hevanished。Iwentontotheriver-side,andtheotherfol-
lowedme。Iheardascathingmurmuratmyear,’Heapofmuffs——goto。’Thepilgrimscouldbeseeninknotsgesticulating,discussing。Severalhadstilltheirstavesintheirhands。Iverilybelievetheytookthesestickstobedwiththem。Beyondthefencetheforeststoodupspectrallyinthemoonlight,andthroughthedimstir,throughthefaintsoundsofthatlamentablecourtyard,thesilenceofthelandwenthometoone’sveryheart,——
itsmystery,itsgreatness,theamazingrealityofitscon-
cealedlife。Thehurtniggermoanedfeeblysomewherenearby,andthenfetchedadeepsighthatmadememendmypaceawayfromthere。Ifeltahandintro-
ducingitselfundermyarm。’Mydearsir,’saidthefellow,’Idon’twanttobemisunderstood,andespeciallybyyou,whowillseeMr。KurtzlongbeforeIcanhavethatpleasure。Iwouldn’tlikehimtogetafalseideaofmydisposition……’
"Ilethimrunon,thispapier-macheMephistopheles,anditseemedtomethatifItriedIcouldpokemyfore-
fingerthroughhim,andwouldfindnothinginsidebutalittleloosedirt,maybe。He,don’tyousee,hadbeenplanningtobeassistant-managerby-and-byunderthepresentman,andIcouldseethatthecomingofthatKurtzhadupsetthembothnotalittle。Hetalkedpre-
cipitately,andIdidnottrytostophim。Ihadmyshouldersagainstthewreckofmysteamer,hauledupontheslopelikeacarcassofsomebigriveranimal。Thesmellofmud,ofprimevalmud,byJove!wasinmynostrils,thehighstillnessofprimevalforestwasbeforemyeyes;therewereshinypatchesontheblackcreek。
Themoonhadspreadovereverythingathinlayerofsilver——overtherankgrass,overthemud,uponthewallofmattedvegetationstandinghigherthanthewallofatemple,overthegreatriverIcouldseethroughasombergapglittering,glittering,asitflowedbroadlybywithoutamurmur。Allthiswasgreat,expectant,mute,whilethemanjabberedabouthimself。Iwon-
deredwhetherthestillnessonthefaceoftheimmensitylookingatustwoweremeantasanappealorasamenace。Whatwerewewhohadstrayedinhere?Couldwehandlethatdumbthing,orwouldithandleus?I
felthowbig,howconfoundedlybig,wasthatthingthatcouldn’ttalk,andperhapswasdeafaswell。Whatwasinthere?Icouldseealittleivorycomingoutfromthere,andIhadheardMr。Kurtzwasinthere。Ihadheardenoughaboutittoo——Godknows!Yetsomehowitdidn’tbringanyimagewithit——nomorethanifI
hadbeentoldanangelorafiendwasinthere。Ibe-
lieveditinthesamewayoneofyoumightbelievethereareinhabitantsintheplanetMars。IknewonceaScotchsailmakerwhowascertain,deadsure,therewerepeopleinMars。Ifyouaskedhimforsomeideahowtheylookedandbehaved,hewouldgetshyandmuttersome-
thingabout’walkingonall-fours。’Ifyouasmuchassmiled,hewould——thoughamanofsixty——offertofightyou。IwouldnothavegonesofarastofightforKurtz,butIwentforhimnearenoughtoalie。YouknowIhate,detest,andcan’tbearalie,notbecauseIamstraighterthantherestofus,butsimplybecauseitappallsme。Thereisataintofdeath,aflavorofmortalityinlies,——whichisexactlywhatIhateanddetestintheworld——whatIwanttoforget。Itmakesmemiserableandsick,likebitingsomethingrottenwoulddo。Temperament,Isuppose。Well,IwentnearenoughtoitbylettingtheyoungfooltherebelieveanythinghelikedtoimagineastomyinfluenceinEurope。I
becameinaninstantasmuchofapretenseastherestofthebewitchedpilgrims。ThissimplybecauseIhadanotionitsomehowwouldbeofhelptothatKurtzwhomatthetimeIdidnotsee——youunderstand。Hewasjustawordforme。Ididnotseethemaninthenameanymorethanyoudo。Doyouseehim?Doyouseethestory?Doyouseeanything?ItseemstomeIamtryingtotellyouadream——makingavainat-
tempt,becausenorelationofadreamcanconveythedream-sensation,thatcomminglingofabsurdity,sur-
prise,andbewildermentinatremorofstrugglingrevolt,thatnotionofbeingcapturedbytheincrediblewhichisoftheveryessenceofdreams……"
Hewassilentforawhile。
"……No,itisimpossible;itisimpossibletoconveythelife-sensationofanygivenepochofone’sexistence,——thatwhichmakesitstruth,itsmeaning——itssubtleandpenetratingessence。Itisimpossible。Welive,aswedream——alone……"
Hepausedagainasifreflecting,thenadded——
"OfcourseinthisyoufellowsseemorethanIcouldthen。Youseeme,whomyouknow……"
Ithadbecomesopitchdarkthatwelistenerscouldhardlyseeoneanother。Foralongtimealreadyhe,sittingapart,hadbeennomoretousthanavoice。Therewasnotawordfromanybody。Theothersmighthavebeenasleep,butIwasawake。Ilistened,Ilistenedonthewatchforthesentence,fortheword,thatwouldgivemetheclewtothefaintuneasinessinspiredbythisnarra-
tivethatseemedtoshapeitselfwithouthumanlipsintheheavynight-airoftheriver。
"……Yes——Ilethimrunon,"Marlowbeganagain,"andthinkwhathepleasedaboutthepowersthatwerebehindme。Idid!Andtherewasnothingbehindme!
Therewasnothingbutthatwretched,old,mangledsteamboatIwasleaningagainst,whilehetalkedfluentlyabout’thenecessityforeverymantogeton。’’Andwhenonecomesouthere,youconceive,itisnottogazeatthemoon。’Mr。Kurtzwasa’universalgenius,’butevenageniuswouldfinditeasiertoworkwith’adequatetools——intelligentmen。’Hedidnotmakebricks——why,therewasaphysicalimpossibilityintheway——asIwaswellaware;andifhedidsecretarialworkfortheman-
ager,itwasbecause’nosensiblemanrejectswantonlytheconfidenceofhissuperiors。’DidIseeit?Isawit。
WhatmoredidIwant?WhatIreallywantedwasrivets,byheaven!Rivets。Togetonwiththework——tostopthehole。RivetsIwanted。Therewerecasesofthemdownatthecoast——cases——piledup——burst——split!
Youkickedalooserivetateverysecondstepinthatstationyardonthehillside。Rivetshadrolledintothegroveofdeath。Youcouldfillyourpocketswithrivetsforthetroubleofstoopingdown——andtherewasn’tonerivettobefoundwhereitwaswanted。Wehadplatesthatwoulddo,butnothingtofastenthemwith。Andeveryweekthemessenger,alonenegro,letter-bagonshoulderandstaffinhand,leftourstationforthecoast。
Andseveraltimesaweekacoastcaravancameinwithtradegoods,——ghastlyglazedcalicothatmadeyoushudderonlytolookatit,glassbeadsvalueaboutapennyaquart,confoundedspottedcottonhandkerchiefs。
Andnorivets。Threecarrierscouldhavebroughtallthatwaswantedtosetthatsteamboatafloat。
"Hewasbecomingconfidentialnow,butIfancymyunresponsiveattitudemusthaveexasperatedhimatlast,forhejudgeditnecessarytoinformmehefearedneitherGodnordevil,letaloneanymereman。IsaidIcouldseethatverywell,butwhatIwantedwasacertainquantityofrivets——andrivetswerewhatreallyMr。
Kurtzwanted,ifhehadonlyknownit。Nowletterswenttothecoasteveryweek……’Mydearsir,’hecried,’Iwritefromdictation。’Idemandedrivets。Therewasaway——foranintelligentman。Hechangedhismanner;becameverycold,andsuddenlybegantotalkaboutahippopotamus;wonderedwhethersleepingonboardthesteamer(Istucktomysalvagenightandday)Iwasn’tdisturbed。Therewasanoldhippothathadthebadhabitofgettingoutonthebankandroam-
ingatnightoverthestationgrounds。Thepilgrimsusedtoturnoutinabodyandemptyeveryrifletheycouldlayhandsonathim。Someevenhadsatupo’
nightsforhim。Allthisenergywaswasted,though。
’Thatanimalhasacharmedlife,’hesaid;’butyoucansaythisonlyofbrutesinthiscountry。Noman——youapprehendme?——nomanherebearsacharmedlife。’Hestoodthereforamomentinthemoonlightwithhisdeli-
catehookednosesetalittleaskew,andhismicaeyesglitteringwithoutawink,then,withacurtGoodnight,hestrodeoff。Icouldseehewasdisturbedandconsid-
erablypuzzled,whichmademefeelmorehopefulthanIhadbeenfordays。Itwasagreatcomforttoturnfromthatchaptomyinfluentialfriend,thebattered,twisted,ruined,tin-potsteamboat。Iclamberedonboard。SherangundermyfeetlikeanemptyHuntley&Palmerbiscuit-tinkickedalongagutter;shewasnothingsosolidinmake,andratherlessprettyinshape,butIhadexpendedenoughhardworkonhertomakemeloveher。Noinfluentialfriendwouldhaveservedmebetter。Shehadgivenmeachancetocomeoutabit——tofindoutwhatIcoulddo。No,Idon’tlikework。
Ihadratherlazeaboutandthinkofallthefinethingsthatcanbedone。Idon’tlikework——nomandoes——butIlikewhatisinthework,——thechancetofindyourself。Yourownreality——foryourself,notforothers——whatnoothermancaneverknow。Theycanonlyseethemereshow,andnevercantellwhatitreallymeans。
"Iwasnotsurprisedtoseesomebodysittingaft,onthedeck,withhislegsdanglingoverthemud。YouseeIratherchummedwiththefewmechanicstherewereinthatstation,whomtheotherpilgrimsnaturallydespised——onaccountoftheirimperfectmanners,Isuppose。
Thiswastheforeman——aboiler-makerbytrade——agoodworker。Hewasalank,bony,yellow-facedman,withbigintenseeyes。Hisaspectwasworried,andhisheadwasasbaldasthepalmofmyhand;buthishairinfallingseemedtohavestucktohischin,andhadpros-
peredinthenewlocality,forhisbeardhungdowntohiswaist。Hewasawidowerwithsixyoungchildren(hehadlefttheminchargeofasisterofhistocomeoutthere),andthepassionofhislifewaspigeon-flying。
Hewasanenthusiastandaconnoisseur。Hewouldraveaboutpigeons。Afterworkhoursheusedsometimestocomeoverfromhishutforatalkabouthischildrenandhispigeons;atwork,whenhehadtocrawlinthemudunderthebottomofthesteamboat,hewouldtieupthatbeardofhisinakindofwhiteserviettehebroughtforthepurpose。Ithadloopstogooverhisears。Intheeveninghecouldbeseensquattedonthebankrinsingthatwrapperinthecreekwithgreatcare,thenspreadingitsolemnlyonabushtodry。
"Islappedhimonthebackandshouted’Weshallhaverivets!’Hescrambledtohisfeetexclaiming’No!
Rivets!’asthoughhecouldn’tbelievehisears。Theninalowvoice,’You……eh?’Idon’tknowwhywebehavedlikelunatics。Iputmyfingertothesideofmynoseandnoddedmysteriously。’Goodforyou!’hecried,snappedhisfingersabovehishead,liftingonefoot。Itriedajig。Wecaperedontheirondeck。
A
frightfulclattercameoutofthathulk,andthevirginforestontheotherbankofthecreeksentitbackinathunderingrolluponthesleepingstation。Itmusthavemadesomeofthepilgrimssitupintheirhovels。A
darkfigureobscuredthelighteddoorwayoftheman-
ager’shut,vanished,then,asecondorsoafter,thedoorwayitselfvanishedtoo。Westopped,andthesilencedrivenawaybythestampingofourfeetflowedbackagainfromtherecessesoftheland。Thegreatwallofvegetation,anexuberantandentangledmassoftrunks,branches,leaves,boughs,festoons,motionlessinthemoonlight,waslikeariotinginvasionofsoundlesslife,arollingwaveofplants,piledup,crested,readytotoppleoverthecreek,tosweepeverylittlemanofusoutofhislittleexistence。Anditmovednot。Adead-
enedburstofmightysplashesandsnortsreachedusfromafar,asthoughanichthyosaurushadbeentakingabathofglitterinthegreatriver。’Afterall,’saidtheboiler-makerinareasonabletone,’whyshouldn’twegettherivets?’Whynot,indeed!Ididnotknowofanyreasonwhyweshouldn’t。’They’llcomeinthreeweeks,’
Isaidconfidently。
"Buttheydidn’t。Insteadofrivetstherecameaninvasion,aninfliction,avisitation。Itcameinsectionsduringthenextthreeweeks,eachsectionheadedbyadonkeycarryingawhitemaninnewclothesandtanshoes,bowingfromthatelevationrightandlefttotheimpressedpilgrims。Aquarrelsomebandoffootsoresulkyniggerstrodontheheelsofthedonkeys;alotoftents,camp-stools,tinboxes,whitecases,brownbaleswouldbeshotdowninthecourtyard,andtheairofmysterywoulddeepenalittleoverthemuddleofthestation。Fivesuchinstallmentscame,withtheirabsurdairofdisorderlyflightwiththelootofinnumerableout-
fitshopsandprovisionstores,that,onewouldthink,theywerelugging,afteraraid,intothewildernessforequit-
abledivision。Itwasaninextricablemessofthingsdecentinthemselvesbutthathumanfollymadelooklikethespoilsofthieving。
"thisdevotedbandcalleditselftheEldoradoEx-
ploringExpedition,andIbelievetheyweresworntosecrecy。Theirtalk,however,wasthetalkofsordidbuccaneers:itwasrecklesswithouthardihood,greedywithoutaudacity,andcruelwithoutcourage;therewasnotanatomofforesightorofseriousintentioninthewholebatchofthem,andtheydidnotseemawarethesethingsarewantedfortheworkoftheworld。Toteartreasureoutofthebowelsofthelandwastheirdesire,withnomoremoralpurposeatthebackofitthanthereisinburglarsbreakingintoasafe。Whopaidtheex-
pensesofthenobleenterpriseIdon’tknow;buttheuncleofourmanagerwasleaderofthatlot。
"Inexteriorheresembledabutcherinapoorneigh-
borhood,andhiseyeshadalookofsleepycunning。Hecarriedhisfatpaunchwithostentationonhisshortlegs,andduringthetimehisganginfestedthestationspoketonoonebuthisnephew。Youcouldseethesetworoam-
ingaboutalldaylongwiththeirheadsclosetogetherinaneverlastingconfab。
"Ihadgivenupworryingmyselfabouttherivets。
One’scapacityforthatkindoffollyismorelimitedthanyouwouldsuppose。IsaidHang!——andletthingsslide。Ihadplentyoftimeformeditation,andnowandthenIwouldgivesomethoughttoKurtz。Iwasn’tveryinterestedinhim。No。Still,Iwascurioustoseewhetherthisman,whohadcomeoutequippedwithmoralideasofsomesort,wouldclimbtothetopafterall,andhowhewouldsetabouthisworkwhenthere。"
part2
PartTwo"OneeveningasIwaslyingflatonthedeckofmysteamboat,Iheardvoicesapproaching——andtherewerethenephewandtheunclestrollingalongthebank。I
laidmyheadonmyarmagain,andhadnearlylostmyselfinadoze,whensomebodysaidinmyear,asitwere:’Iamasharmlessasalittlechild,butIdon’tliketobedictatedto。AmIthemanager——oramInot?I
wasorderedtosendhimthere。It’sincredible。’……
Ibecameawarethatthetwowerestandingontheshorealongsidetheforepartofthesteamboat,justbelowmyhead。Ididnotmove;itdidnotoccurtometomove:I
wassleepy。’ItISunpleasant,’gruntedtheuncle。’HehasaskedtheAdministrationtobesentthere,’saidtheother,’withtheideaofshowingwhathecoulddo;andIwasinstructedaccordingly。Lookattheinfluencethatmanmusthave。Isitnotfrightful?’Theybothagreeditwasfrightful,thenmadeseveralbizarreremarks:
’Makerainandfineweather——oneman——theCouncil——
bythenose’——bitsofabsurdsentencesthatgotthebetterofmydrowsiness,sothatIhadprettynearthewholeofmywitsaboutmewhentheunclesaid,’Theclimatemaydoawaywiththisdifficultyforyou。Ishealonethere?’’Yes,’answeredthemanager;’hesenthisassistantdowntheriverwithanotetomeintheseterms:"Clearthispoordeviloutofthecountry,anddon’tbothersendingmoreofthatsort。Ihadratherbealonethanhavethekindofmenyoucandisposeofwithme。"Itwasmorethanayearago。Canyouimaginesuchimpudence!’’Anythingsincethen?’
askedtheother,hoarsely。’Ivory,’jerkedthenephew;
’lotsofit——primesort——lots——mostannoying,fromhim。’’Andwiththat?’questionedtheheavyrumble。
’Invoice,’wasthereplyfiredout,sotospeak。Thensilence。TheyhadbeentalkingaboutKurtz。
"Iwasbroadawakebythistime,but,lyingperfectlyatease,remainedstill,havingnoinducementtochangemyposition。’Howdidthativorycomeallthisway?’
growledtheelderman,whoseemedveryvexed。TheotherexplainedthatithadcomewithafleetofcanoesinchargeofanEnglishhalf-casteclerkKurtzhadwithhim;thatKurtzhadapparentlyintendedtoreturnhim-
self,thestationbeingbythattimebareofgoodsandstores,butaftercomingthreehundredmiles,hadsud-
denlydecidedtogoback,whichhestartedtodoaloneinasmalldug-outwithfourpaddlers,leavingthehalf-
castetocontinuedowntheriverwiththeivory。Thetwofellowsthereseemedastoundedatanybodyattemptingsuchathing。Theywereatalossforanadequatemo-
tive。Astome,IseemedtoseeKurtzforthefirsttime。
Itwasadistinctglimpse:thedug-out,fourpaddlingsavages,andthelonewhitemanturninghisbacksud-
denlyontheheadquarters,onrelief,onthoughtsofhome——perhaps;settinghisfacetowardsthedepthsofthewilderness,towardshisemptyanddesolatestation。
Ididnotknowthemotive。Perhapshewasjustsimplyafinefellowwhostucktohisworkforitsownsake。Hisname,youunderstand,hadnotbeenpronouncedonce。
Hewas’thatman。’Thehalf-caste,who,asfarasI
couldsee,hadconductedadifficulttripwithgreatpru-
denceandpluck,wasinvariablyalludedtoas’thatscoundrel。’The’scoundrel’hadreportedthatthe’man’hadbeenveryill——hadrecoveredimperfectly……Thetwobelowmemovedawaythenafewpaces,andstrolledbackandforthatsomelittledistance。I
heard:’Militarypost——doctor——twohundredmiles——
quitealonenow——unavoidabledelays——ninemonths——nonews——strangerumors。’Theyapproachedagain,justasthemanagerwassaying,’Noone,asfarasIknow,unlessaspeciesofwanderingtrader——apestilentialfel-
low,snappingivoryfromthenatives。’Whowasittheyweretalkingaboutnow?IgatheredinsnatchesthatthiswassomemansupposedtobeinKurtz’sdistrict,andofwhomthemanagerdidnotapprove。’Wewillnotbefreefromunfaircompetitiontilloneofthesefellowsishangedforanexample,’hesaid。’Certainly,’gruntedtheother;’gethimhanged!Whynot?Anything——
anythingcanbedoneinthiscountry。That’swhatI
say;nobodyhere,youunderstand,HERE,canendangeryourposition。Andwhy?Youstandtheclimate——yououtlastthemall。ThedangerisinEurope;buttherebeforeIleftItookcareto——’Theymovedoffandwhispered,thentheirvoicesroseagain。’Theextraor-
dinaryseriesofdelaysisnotmyfault。Ididmypossible。’Thefatmansighed,’Verysad。’’Andthepestiferousabsurdityofhistalk,’continuedtheother;
’hebotheredmeenoughwhenhewashere。"Eachstationshouldbelikeabeaconontheroadtowardsbetterthings,acenterfortradeofcourse,butalsoforhuman-
izing,improving,instructing。"Conceiveyou——thatass!
Andhewantstobemanager!No,it’s——’Herehegotchokedbyexcessiveindignation,andIliftedmyheadtheleastbit。Iwassurprisedtoseehowneartheywere——rightunderme。Icouldhavespatupontheirhats。Theywerelookingontheground,absorbedinthought。Themanagerwasswitchinghislegwithaslendertwig:hissagaciousrelativeliftedhishead。’Youhavebeenwellsinceyoucameoutthistime?’heasked。
Theothergaveastart。’Who?I?Oh!Likeacharm——likeacharm。Buttherest——oh,mygoodness!Allsick。Theydiesoquick,too,thatIhaven’tthetimetosendthemoutofthecountry——it’sincredible!’’H’m。
Justso,’gruntedtheuncle。’Ah!myboy,trusttothis——Isay,trusttothis。’Isawhimextendhisshortflipperofanarmforagesturethattookintheforest,thecreek,themud,theriver,——seemedtobeckonwithadis-
honoringflourishbeforethesunlitfaceofthelandatreacherousappealtothelurkingdeath,tothehiddenevil,totheprofounddarknessofitsheart。ItwassostartlingthatIleapedtomyfeetandlookedbackattheedgeoftheforest,asthoughIhadexpectedananswerofsomesorttothatblackdisplayofconfidence。
Youknowthefoolishnotionsthatcometoonesome-
times。Thehighstillnessconfrontedthesetwofigureswithitsominouspatience,waitingforthepassingawayofafantasticinvasion。
"Theysworealoudtogether——outofsheerfright,I
believe——thenpretendingnottoknowanythingofmyexistence,turnedbacktothestation。Thesunwaslow;
andleaningforwardsidebyside,theyseemedtobetuggingpainfullyuphilltheirtworidiculousshadowsofunequallength,thattrailedbehindthemslowlyoverthetallgrasswithoutbendingasingleblade。
"InafewdaystheEldoradoExpeditionwentintothepatientwilderness,thatcloseduponitastheseaclosesoveradiver。Longafterwardsthenewscamethatallthedonkeysweredead。Iknownothingastothefateofthelessvaluableanimals。They,nodoubt,liketherestofus,foundwhattheydeserved。Ididnotinquire。I
wasthenratherexcitedattheprospectofmeetingKurtzverysoon。WhenIsayverysoonImeanitcompara-
tively。ItwasjusttwomonthsfromthedayweleftthecreekwhenwecametothebankbelowKurtz’ssta-
tion。
"Goingupthatriverwasliketravelingbacktotheearliestbeginningsoftheworld,whenvegetationriotedontheearthandthebigtreeswerekings。Anemptystream,agreatsilence,animpenetrableforest。Theairwaswarm,thick,heavy,sluggish。Therewasnojoyinthebrillianceofsunshine。Thelongstretchesofthewaterwayranon,deserted,intothegloomofover-
shadoweddistances。Onsilverysandbankshipposandalligatorssunnedthemselvessidebyside。Thebroaden-
ingwatersflowedthroughamobofwoodedislands;youlostyourwayonthatriverasyouwouldinadesert,andbuttedalldaylongagainstshoals,tryingtofindthechannel,tillyouthoughtyourselfbewitchedandcutoffforeverfromeverythingyouhadknownonce——somewhere——faraway——inanotherexistenceperhaps。Thereweremomentswhenone’spastcamebacktoone,asitwillsometimeswhenyouhavenotamomenttosparetoyourself;butitcameintheshapeofanunrestfulandnoisydream,rememberedwithwonderamongsttheoverwhelmingrealitiesofthisstrangeworldofplants,andwater,andsilence。Andthisstillnessoflifedidnotintheleastresembleapeace。Itwasthestillnessofanimplacableforcebroodingoveraninscrutableinten-
tion。Itlookedatyouwithavengefulaspect。Igotusedtoitafterwards;Ididnotseeitanymore;Ihadnotime。Ihadtokeepguessingatthechannel;Ihadtodiscern,mostlybyinspiration,thesignsofhiddenbanks;Iwatchedforsunkenstones;Iwaslearningtoclapmyteethsmartlybeforemyheartflewout,whenIshavedbyaflukesomeinfernalslyoldsnagthatwouldhaverippedthelifeoutofthetin-potsteamboatanddrownedallthepilgrims;Ihadtokeepalook-outforthesignsofdeadwoodwecouldcutupinthenightfornextday’ssteaming。Whenyouhavetoattendtothingsofthatsort,tothemereincidentsofthesur-
face,thereality——thereality,Itellyou——fades。Theinnertruthishidden——luckily,luckily。ButIfeltitallthesame;Ifeltoftenitsmysteriousstillnesswatchingmeatmymonkeytricks,justasitwatchesyoufellowsperformingonyourrespectivetight-ropesfor——whatisit?half-a-crownatumble——"
"Trytobecivil,Marlow,"growledavoice,andI
knewtherewasatleastonelistenerawakebesidesmy-
self。
"Ibegyourpardon。Iforgottheheartachewhichmakesuptherestoftheprice。Andindeedwhatdoesthepricematter,ifthetrickbewelldone?Youdoyourtricksverywell。AndIdidn’tdobadlyeither,sinceImanagednottosinkthatsteamboatonmyfirsttrip。It’sawondertomeyet。Imagineablindfoldedmansettodriveavanoverabadroad。Isweatedandshiveredoverthatbusinessconsiderably,Icantellyou。
Afterall,foraseaman,toscrapethebottomofthethingthat’ssupposedtofloatallthetimeunderhiscareistheunpardonablesin。Noonemayknowofit,butyouneverforgetthethump——eh?Ablowontheveryheart。
Yourememberit,youdreamofit,youwakeupatnightandthinkofit——yearsafter——andgohotandcoldallover。Idon’tpretendtosaythatsteamboatfloatedallthetime。Morethanonceshehadtowadeforabit,withtwentycannibalssplashingaroundandpushing。
Wehadenlistedsomeofthesechapsonthewayforacrew。Finefellows——cannibals——intheirplace。Theyweremenonecouldworkwith,andIamgratefultothem。And,afterall,theydidnoteachotherbeforemyface:theyhadbroughtalongaprovisionofhippo-
meatwhichwentrotten,andmadethemysteryofthewildernessstinkinmynostrils。Phoo!Icansniffitnow。Ihadthemanageronboardandthreeorfourpilgrimswiththeirstaves——allcomplete。Sometimeswecameuponastationclosebythebank,clingingtotheskirtsoftheunknown,andthewhitemenrushingoutofatumble-downhovel,withgreatgesturesofjoyandsurpriseandwelcome,seemedverystrange,——hadtheap-
pearanceofbeingheldtherecaptivebyaspell。Thewordivorywouldringintheairforawhile——andonwewentagainintothesilence,alongemptyreaches,roundthestillbends,betweenthehighwallsofourwindingway,reverberatinginhollowclapstheponderousbeatofthestern-wheel。Trees,trees,millionsoftrees,massive,immense,runninguphigh;andattheirfoot,huggingthebankagainstthestream,creptthelittlebegrimedsteamboat,likeasluggishbeetlecrawlingonthefloorofaloftyportico。Itmadeyoufeelverysmall,verylost,andyetitwasnotaltogetherdepressingthatfeel-
ing。Afterall,ifyouweresmall,thegrimybeetlecrawledon——whichwasjustwhatyouwantedittodo。
WherethepilgrimsimagineditcrawledtoIdon’tknow。
Tosomeplacewheretheyexpectedtogetsomething,I
bet!FormeitcrawledtowardKurtz——exclusively;butwhenthesteam-pipesstartedleakingwecrawledveryslow。Thereachesopenedbeforeusandclosedbehind,asiftheforesthadsteppedleisurelyacrossthewatertobarthewayforourreturn。Wepenetrateddeeperanddeeperintotheheartofdarkness。Itwasveryquietthere。Atnightsometimestherollofdrumsbehindthecurtainoftreeswouldrunuptheriverandremainsustainedfaintly,asifhoveringintheairhighoverourheads,tillthefirstbreakofday。Whetheritmeantwar,peace,orprayerwecouldnottell。Thedawnswereheraldedbythedescentofachillstillness;thewood-
cuttersslept,theirfiresburnedlow;thesnappingofatwigwouldmakeyoustart。Wewerewanderersonaprehistoricearth,onanearththatworetheaspectofanunknownplanet。Wecouldhavefanciedourselvesthefirstofmentakingpossessionofanaccursedin-
heritance,tobesubduedatthecostofprofoundanguishandofexcessivetoil。Butsuddenly,aswestruggledroundabend,therewouldbeaglimpseofrushwalls,ofpeakedgrass-roofs,aburstofyells,awhirlofblacklimbs,amassofhandsclapping,offeetstamping,ofbodiesswaying,ofeyesrolling,underthedroopofheavyandmotionlessfoliage。Thesteamertoiledalongslowlyontheedgeofablackandincomprehensiblefrenzy。Theprehistoricmanwascursingus,prayingtous,wel-
comingus——whocouldtell?Wewerecutofffromthecomprehensionofoursurroundings;weglidedpastlikephantoms,wonderingandsecretlyappalled,assanemenwouldbebeforeanenthusiasticoutbreakinamadhouse。
Wecouldnotunderstand,becauseweweretoofarandcouldnotremember,becauseweweretravelinginthenightoffirstages,ofthoseagesthataregone,leavinghardlyasign——andnomemories。
"Theearthseemedunearthly。Weareaccustomedtolookupontheshackledformofaconqueredmonster,butthere——thereyoucouldlookatathingmonstrousandfree。Itwasunearthly,andthemenwere——No,theywerenotinhuman。Well,youknow,thatwastheworstofit——thissuspicionoftheirnotbeinginhuman。Itwouldcomeslowlytoone。Theyhowled,andleaped,andspun,andmadehorridfaces;butwhatthrilledyouwasjustthethoughtoftheirhumanity——likeyours——thethoughtofyourremotekinshipwiththiswildandpas-
sionateuproar。Ugly。Yes,itwasuglyenough;butifyouweremanenoughyouwouldadmittoyourselfthattherewasinyoujustthefaintesttraceofare-
sponsetotheterriblefranknessofthatnoise,adimsuspicionoftherebeingameaninginitwhichyou——
yousoremotefromthenightoffirstages——couldcom-
prehend。Andwhynot?Themindofmaniscapableofanything——becauseeverythingisinit,allthepastaswellasallthefuture。Whatwasthereafterall?
Joy,fear,sorrow,devotion,valor,rage——whocantell?
——buttruth——truthstrippedofitscloakoftime。Letthefoolgapeandshudder——themanknows,andcanlookonwithoutawink。Buthemustatleastbeasmuchofamanastheseontheshore。Hemustmeetthattruthwithhisowntruestuff——withhisowninbornstrength。Principles?Principleswon’tdo。Acquisi-
tions,clothes,prettyrags——ragsthatwouldflyoffatthefirstgoodshake。No;youwantadeliberatebelief。
Anappealtomeinthisfiendishrow——isthere?Verywell;Ihear;Iadmit,butIhaveavoicetoo,andforgoodorevilmineisthespeechthatcannotbesilenced。
Ofcourse,afool,whatwithsheerfrightandfinesenti-
ments,isalwayssafe。Who’sthatgrunting?YouwonderIdidn’tgoashoreforahowlandadance?Well,no——Ididn’t。Finesentiments,yousay?Finesenti-
ments,behanged!Ihadnotime。Ihadtomessaboutwithwhite-leadandstripsofwoolenblankethelpingtoputbandagesonthoseleakysteam-pipes——Itellyou。
Ihadtowatchthesteering,andcircumventthosesnags,andgetthetin-potalongbyhookorbycrook。Therewassurface-truthenoughinthesethingstosaveawiserman。AndbetweenwhilesIhadtolookafterthesavagewhowasfireman。Hewasanimprovedspecimen;hecouldfireupaverticalboiler。Hewastherebelowme,and,uponmyword,tolookathimwasasedifyingasseeingadoginaparodyofbreechesandafeatherhat,walkingonhishind-legs。Afewmonthsoftraininghaddoneforthatreallyfinechap。Hesquintedatthesteam-gaugeandatthewater-gaugewithanevidenteffortofintrepidity——andhehadfiledteethtoo,thepoordevil,andthewoolofhispateshavedintoqueerpatterns,andthreeornamentalscarsoneachofhischeeks。Heoughttohavebeenclappinghishandsandstampinghisfeetonthebank,insteadofwhichhewashardatwork,athralltostrangewitchcraft,fullofimprovingknowledge。Hewasusefulbecausehehadbeeninstructed;andwhatheknewwasthis——thatshouldthewaterinthattransparentthingdisappear,theevilspiritinsidetheboilerwouldgetangrythroughthegreatnessofhisthirst,andtakeaterriblevengeance。
Sohesweatedandfiredupandwatchedtheglassfear-
fully(withanimpromptucharm,madeofrags,tiedtohisarm,andapieceofpolishedbone,asbigasawatch,stuckflatwaysthroughhislowerlip),whilethewoodedbanksslippedpastusslowly,theshortnoisewasleftbehind,theinterminablemilesofsilence——andwecrepton,towardsKurtz。Butthesnagswerethick,thewaterwastreacherousandshallow,theboilerseemedindeedtohaveasulkydevilinit,andthusneitherthatfire-
mannorIhadanytimetopeerintoourcreepythoughts。
"SomefiftymilesbelowtheInnerStationwecameuponahutofreeds,aninclinedandmelancholypole,withtheunrecognizabletattersofwhathadbeenaflagofsomesortflyingfromit,andaneatlystackedwood-
pile。Thiswasunexpected。Wecametothebank,andonthestackoffirewoodfoundaflatpieceofboardwithsomefadedpencil-writingonit。Whendeciphereditsaid:’Woodforyou。Hurryup。Approachcautiously。’
Therewasasignature,butitwasillegible——notKurtz——amuchlongerword。Hurryup。Where?Uptheriver?’Approachcautiously。’Wehadnotdoneso。
Butthewarningcouldnothavebeenmeantfortheplacewhereitcouldbeonlyfoundafterapproach。Some-
thingwaswrongabove。Butwhat——andhowmuch?
Thatwasthequestion。Wecommentedadverselyupontheimbecilityofthattelegraphicstyle。Thebusharoundsaidnothing,andwouldnotletuslookveryfar,either。
Atorncurtainofredtwillhunginthedoorwayofthehut,andflappedsadlyinourfaces。Thedwellingwasdismantled;butwecouldseeawhitemanhadlivedtherenotverylongago。Thereremainedarudetable——aplankontwoposts;aheapofrubbishreposedinadarkcorner,andbythedoorIpickedupabook。Ithadlostitscovers,andthepageshadbeenthumbedintoastateofextremelydirtysoftness;butthebackhadbeenlovinglystitchedafreshwithwhitecottonthread,whichlookedcleanyet。Itwasanextraordinaryfind。Itstitlewas,’AnInquiryintosomePointsofSeamanship,’byamanTower,Towson——somesuchname——MasterinhisMajesty’sNavy。Thematterlookeddrearyreadingenough,withillustrativediagramsandrepulsivetablesoffigures,andthecopywassixtyyearsold。Ihandledthisamazingantiquitywiththegreatestpossibletenderness,lestitshoulddissolveinmyhands。Within,TowsonorTowserwasinquiringearnestlyintothebreakingstrainofships’chainsandtackle,andothersuchmatters。Notaveryenthrallingbook;butatthefirstglanceyoucouldseethereasinglenessofintention,anhonestcon-
cernfortherightwayofgoingtowork,whichmadethesehumblepages,thoughtoutsomanyyearsago,luminouswithanotherthanaprofessionallight。Thesimpleoldsailor,withhistalkofchainsandpurchases,mademeforgetthejungleandthepilgrimsinadelicioussensationofhavingcomeuponsomethingunmistakablyreal。Suchabookbeingtherewaswonderfulenough;
butstillmoreastoundingwerethenotespenciledinthemargin,andplainlyreferringtothetext。Icouldn’tbelievemyeyes!Theywereincipher!Yes,itlookedlikecipher。Fancyamanluggingwithhimabookofthatdescriptionintothisnowhereandstudyingit——
andmakingnotes——incipheratthat!Itwasanex-
travagantmystery。
"Ihadbeendimlyawareforsometimeofaworryingnoise,andwhenIliftedmyeyesIsawthewood-pilewasgone,andthemanager,aidedbyallthepilgrims,wasshoutingatmefromtheriver-side。Islippedthebookintomypocket。Iassureyoutoleaveoffreadingwasliketearingmyselfawayfromtheshelterofanoldandsolidfriendship。
"Istartedthelameengineahead。’Itmustbethismiserabletrader——thisintruder,’exclaimedthemanager,lookingbackmalevolentlyattheplacewehadleft。’HemustbeEnglish,’Isaid。’Itwillnotsavehimfromgettingintotroubleifheisnotcareful,’mutteredthemanagerdarkly。Iobservedwithassumedinnocencethatnomanwassafefromtroubleinthisworld。
"Thecurrentwasmorerapidnow,thesteamerseemedatherlastgasp,thestern-wheelfloppedlanguidly,andIcaughtmyselflisteningontiptoeforthenextbeatofthefloat,forinsobertruthIexpectedthewretchedthingtogiveupeverymoment。Itwaslikewatchingthelastflickersofalife。Butstillwecrawled。SometimesI
wouldpickoutatreealittlewayaheadtomeasureourprogresstowardsKurtzby,butIlostitinvariablybe-
forewegotabreast。Tokeeptheeyessolongononethingwastoomuchforhumanpatience。Themanagerdisplayedabeautifulresignation。IfrettedandfumedandtooktoarguingwithmyselfwhetherornoIwouldtalkopenlywithKurtz;butbeforeIcouldcometoanyconclusionitoccurredtomethatmyspeechormysilence,indeedanyactionofmine,wouldbeamerefutility。
Whatdiditmatterwhatanyonekneworignored?Whatdiditmatterwhowasmanager?Onegetssometimessuchaflashofinsight。Theessentialsofthisaffairlaydeepunderthesurface,beyondmyreach,andbeyondmypowerofmeddling。
"TowardstheeveningoftheseconddaywejudgedourselvesabouteightmilesfromKurtz’sstation。I
wantedtopushon;butthemanagerlookedgrave,andtoldmethenavigationuptherewassodangerousthatitwouldbeadvisable,thesunbeingverylowalready,towaitwhereweweretillnextmorning。Moreover,hepointedoutthatifthewarningtoapproachcautiouslyweretobefollowed,wemustapproachindaylight——
notatdusk,orinthedark。Thiswassensibleenough。
Eightmilesmeantnearlythreehours’steamingforus,andIcouldalsoseesuspiciousripplesattheupperendofthereach。Nevertheless,Iwasannoyedbeyondex-
pressionatthedelay,andmostunreasonablytoo,sinceonenightmorecouldnotmattermuchaftersomanymonths。Aswehadplentyofwood,andcautionwastheword,Ibroughtupinthemiddleofthestream。
Thereachwasnarrow,straight,withhighsideslikearailwaycutting。Theduskcameglidingintoitlongbeforethesunhadset。Thecurrentransmoothandswift,butadumbimmobilitysatonthebanks。Thelivingtrees,lashedtogetherbythecreepersandeverylivingbushoftheundergrowth,mighthavebeenchangedintostone,eventotheslenderesttwig,tothelightestleaf。Itwasnotsleep——itseemedunnatural,likeastateoftrance。Notthefaintestsoundofanykindcouldbeheard。Youlookedonamazed,andbegantosuspectyourselfofbeingdeaf——thenthenightcamesuddenly,andstruckyoublindaswell。Aboutthreeinthemorningsomelargefishleaped,andtheloudsplashmademejumpasthoughagunhadbeenfired。
Whenthesunrosetherewasawhitefog,verywarmandclammy,andmoreblindingthanthenight。Itdidnotshiftordrive;itwasjustthere,standingallroundyoulikesomethingsolid。Ateightornine,perhaps,itliftedasashutterlifts。Wehadaglimpseofthetower-
ingmultitudeoftrees,oftheimmensemattedjungle,withtheblazinglittleballofthesunhangingoverit——
allperfectlystill——andthenthewhiteshuttercamedownagain,smoothly,asifslidingingreasedgrooves。I
orderedthechain,whichwehadbeguntoheavein,tobepaidoutagain。Beforeitstoppedrunningwithamuffledrattle,acry,averyloudcry,asofinfinitedesolation,soaredslowlyintheopaqueair。Itceased。
Acomplainingclamor,modulatedinsavagediscords,filledourears。Thesheerunexpectednessofitmademyhairstirundermycap。Idon’tknowhowitstrucktheothers:tomeitseemedasthoughthemistitselfhadscreamed,sosuddenly,andapparentlyfromallsidesatonce,didthistumultuousandmournfuluproararise。Itculminatedinahurriedoutbreakofalmostintolerablyexcessiveshrieking,whichstoppedshort,leav-
ingusstiffenedinavarietyofsillyattitudes,andob-
stinatelylisteningtothenearlyasappallingandex-
cessivesilence。’GoodGod!Whatisthemeaning——?’
stammeredatmyelbowoneofthepilgrims,——alittlefatman,withsandyhairandredwhiskers,whoworeside-springboots,andpinkpyjamastuckedintohissocks。Twoothersremainedopen-mouthedawholemin-
ute,thendashedintothelittlecabin,torushoutin-
continentlyandstanddartingscaredglances,withWin-
chestersat’ready’intheirhands。Whatwecouldseewasjustthesteamerwewereon,heroutlinesblurredasthoughshehadbeenonthepointofdissolving,andamistystripofwater,perhapstwofeetbroad,aroundher——andthatwasall。Therestoftheworldwasno-
where,asfarasoureyesandearswereconcerned。Justnowhere。Gone,disappeared;sweptoffwithoutleavingawhisperorashadowbehind。
"Iwentforward,andorderedthechaintobehauledinshort,soastobereadytotriptheanchorandmovethesteamboatatonceifnecessary。’Willtheyattack?’
whisperedanawedvoice。’Wewillallbebutcheredinthisfog,’murmuredanother。Thefacestwitchedwiththestrain,thehandstrembledslightly,theeyesforgottowink。Itwasverycurioustoseethecontrastofex-
pressionsofthewhitemenandoftheblackfellowsofourcrew,whowereasmuchstrangerstothatpartoftheriveraswe,thoughtheirhomeswereonlyeighthundredmilesaway。Thewhites,ofcoursegreatlydiscomposed,hadbesidesacuriouslookofbeingpainfullyshockedbysuchanoutrageousrow。Theothershadanalert,naturallyinterestedexpression;buttheirfaceswerees-
sentiallyquiet,eventhoseoftheoneortwowhogrinnedastheyhauledatthechain。Severalexchangedshort,gruntingphrases,whichseemedtosettlethemattertotheirsatisfaction。Theirheadman,ayoung,broad-
chestedblack,severelydrapedindark-bluefringedcloths,withfiercenostrilsandhishairalldoneupart-
fullyinoilyringlets,stoodnearme。’Aha!’Isaid,justforgoodfellowship’ssake。’Catch’im,’hesnapped,withabloodshotwideningofhiseyesandaflashofsharpteeth——’catch’im。Give’imtous。’’Toyou,eh?’Iasked;’whatwouldyoudowiththem?’’Eat’im!’hesaidcurtly,and,leaninghiselbowontherail,lookedoutintothefoginadignifiedandprofoundlypensiveattitude。Iwouldnodoubthavebeenproperlyhorrified,haditnotoccurredtomethatheandhischapsmustbeveryhungry:thattheymusthavebeengrowingincreasinglyhungryforatleastthismonthpast。Theyhadbeenengagedforsixmonths(Idon’tthinkasingleoneofthemhadanyclearideaoftime,asweattheendofcountlessageshave。Theystillbe-
longedtothebeginningsoftime——hadnoinheritedex-