首页 >出版文学> Fennel and Rue>第1章

第1章

  I。
  ThesuccessofVerriandidnotcomeearly,anditdidnotcomeeasily。
  Hehadbeentryingalongtimetogethisworkintothebestmagazines,andwhenhehadwonthefavoroftheeditors,whoseinteresthehadperhapshadfromthebeginning,itmightbesaidthattheybegantoaccepthisworkfromtheirconsciences,becauseinitswayitwassogoodthattheycouldnotjustlyrefuseit。TheparticulareditorwhotookVerrian’sserial,afterithadcomebacktotheauthorfromtheeditorsoftheotherleadingperiodicals,wasinfactmovedmainlybythebeliefthatthestorywouldpleasethebettersortofhisreaders。These,iftheywerenotsonumerousastheworse,hefelthadnowandthentherighttohavetheirpleasurestudied。
  Itwasaseriousstory,anditwassomewhatbitter,asVerrianhimselfwas,afterhisstruggletoreachthepublicwithworkwhichheknewmeritedrecognition。Buttheworldwhichdoesnotlikepeopletotakethemselvestooseriouslyalsolikesthemtotakethemselvesseriously,andthebitternessinVerrian’sstoryprovedagreeabletoanumberofreadersunexpectedlygreat。Itintimatedaromanticpersonalityintheauthor,andtheworldstilllikestoimagineromanticthingsofauthors。
  Itlikesespeciallytoimaginethemofnovelists,nowthattherearenolongerpoets;andwhenitbegantolikeVerrian’sserial,itbegantowritehimallsortsofletters,directly,incareoftheeditor,andindirectlytotheeditor,whomtheyaskedaboutVerrianmorethanabouthisstory。
  Itwasaman’sstoryratherthanawoman’sstory,asthesemaybedistinguished;butquiteforthatreasonwomenseemedpeculiarlytakenwithit。Perhapsthewomenhadmoreleisureormorecouragetowritetotheauthorandtheeditor;atanyrate,mostoftheletterswerefromwomen;someofthelettersweresillyandfatuousenough,butotherswereofanintelligencewhichwasnonethelesspenetratingforbeingemotionalratherthancritical。Thesemaidsormatrons,whoeverorwhichevertheywere,knewwonderfullywellwhattheauthorwouldbeat,andtheirinterestinhisstoryimpliedaconstantifnotasingledevotion。NowandthenVerrianwastemptedtoansweroneofthem,andunderfavorofhismother,whohadbeenhisconfidantateverypointofhisliterarycareer,heyieldedtothetemptation;butonedaytherecamealetteraskingananswer,whichneitherhenorhismotherfeltcompetenttodealwith。Theybothperceivedthattheymustreferittotheeditorofthemagazine,anditseemedtothemsoimportantthattheydecidedVerrianmustgowithitinpersontotheeditor。Thenhemustbesofarruledbyhim,ifnecessary,astogivehimtheletterandputhimself,astheauthor,beyondanappealwhichhefoundpeculiarlypoignant。
  Theletter,whichhadovercomethetacitmisgivingsofhismotherastheyreaditandreaditagaintogether,wasfromagirlwhohadperhapsnoneedtoconfessherselfyoung,ortoownherinexperienceoftheworldwherestorieswerewrittenandprinted。SheexcusedherselfwithadelicacywhichVerrian’scorrespondentsbynomeansalwaysshowedforintrudinguponhim,andthenpleadedthepowerhisstoryhadoverherastheonlyshadowofrightshehadinaddressinghim。Itsfascination,shesaid,hadbegunwiththefirstnumber,thefirstchapter,almostthefirstparagraph。Itwasnotfortheplotthatshecared;shehadreadtoomanystoriestocarefortheplot;itwastheprobleminvolved。Itwasonewhichshehadsooftenponderedinherownmindthatshefelt,inawayshehopedhewouldnotthinkconceited,almostasifthestorywaswrittenforher。Shehadneverbeenabletosolvetheproblem;howhewouldsolveitshedidnotseehowshecouldwaittoknow;andhereshemadehimaconfidencewithoutwhich,shesaid,sheshouldnothavethecouragetogoon。Shewasaninvalid,andherdoctorhadtoldherthat,thoughshemightliveformonths,therewerechancesthatshemightdieatanymomentsuddenly。Hewouldthinkitstrange,anditwasstrangethatsheshouldtellhimthis,andstrangerstillthatsheshoulddaretoaskhimwhatshewasgoingtoask。Thestoryhadyetfourmonthstorun,andshehadbeguntohaveamorbidforebodingthatsheshouldnotlivetoreaditintheordinarycourse。Shewassoignorantaboutwritersthatshedidnotknowwhethersuchathingwaseverdone,orcouldbedone;
  butifhecouldtellherhowthestorywastocomeouthewouldbedoingmoreforherthananythingelsethatcouldbedoneforheronearth。Shehadreadthatsometimesauthorsbegantoprinttheirserialstoriesbeforetheyhadwrittenthemtotheend,andhemightnotbesureoftheendhimself;butifhehadfinishedthisstoryofhis,andcouldletherseethelastpagesinprint,shewouldowehimthegratitudeshecouldneverexpress。
  Theletterwaswritteninaneducatedhand,andtherewerenofoiblesofformorexcessesoffashioninthestationerytomarthecharacterofsinceritythesimplewordingconveyed。Thepostaladdress,withthedate,wasfullygiven,andthenamesignedattheendwasevidentlygenuine。
  Verrianhimselfhadnoquestionofthegenuinenessoftheletterinanyrespect;hismother,afterherfirstmisgivings,whichwereperhapssensations,thoughtashedidaboutit。Shesaidthestorydealtsoprofoundlywiththedeepestthingsthatitwasnowonderaperson,standinglikethatgirlbetweenlifeanddeath,shouldwishtoknowhowtheauthorsolveditsproblem。Thenshereadthelettercarefullyoveragain,andagainVerrianreadit,withaneffectnotdifferentfromthatwhichitsfirstperusalhadmadewithhim。Hisfaithinhisworkwassogreat,soentire,thatthenotionofanyotherfeelingaboutitwasnotadmissible。
  "Ofcourse,"hesaid,withasighofsatisfaction,"ImustshowthelettertoArmigeratonce。"
  "Ofcourse,"hismotherreplied。"Heistheeditor,andyoumustnotdoanythingwithouthisapproval。"
  Thefaithinthewriteroftheletter,whichwasprimarywithhim,wassecondarywithher,butperhapsforthatreason,shewasallthemorefirmlygroundedinit。
  II。
  Therewasnothingtocloudtheeditor’sjudgment,whenVerriancametohim,exceptthefactthathewasapoetaswellasaneditor。Hereadinasilenceasgreatastheauthor’stheletterwhichVerriansubmitted。
  Thenheremainedponderingitforaslongaspacebeforehesaid,"Thatisverytouching。"
  Verrianjumpedtohisquestion。"Doyoumeanthatweoughttosendhertheproofsofthestory?"
  "No,"theeditorfaltered,buteveninthisdecisionhedidnotdenytheauthorhissympathy。"You’vetouchedbottominthatstory,Verrian。Youmaygohigher,butyoucannevergodeeper。"
  Verrianflushedalittle。"Oh,thankyou!"
  "I’mnotsurprisedthegirlwantstoknowhowyoumanageyourproblem——
  suchagirl,standingintheshadowoftheotherworld,whichisalwayseclipsingthis,andseeinghowyou’vecaughtitsawfuloutline。"
  Verrianmadeagratefulmurmuratthepraise。"Thatiswhatmymotherfelt。Thenyouhavenodoubtofthegoodfaith——"
  "No,"theeditorreturned,withthesamequantity,ifnotthesamequality,ofreluctanceasbefore。"Yousee,itwouldbetoodaring。"
  "Thenwhynotletherhavetheproofs?"
  "Thethingissounprecedented——"
  "Ourdoingitneedn’tformaprecedent。"
  "No。"
  "Andifyou’venodoubtofitsbeingatruecase——"
  "Wemustprovethatitis,or,rather,wemustmakeherproveit。I
  quitefeelwithyouaboutit。IfIweretoactuponmyownimpulse,myownconvictions,Ishouldsendhertherestofthestoryandtakethechances。Butshemaybeanenterprisingjournalistindisguiseit’sastonishingwhatwomenwilldowhentheytaketonewspaperwork——andwehavenorighttoriskanything,forthemagazine’ssake,ifnotyoursandmine。Willyouleavethisletterwithme?"
  "Iexpectedtoleavethewholeaffairinyourhands。Doyoumindtellingmewhatyouproposetodo?Ofcourse,itwon’tbeanything——abrupt——"
  "Ohno;andIdon’tmindtellingyouwhathasoccurredtome。Ifthisisatruecase,asyousay,andI’venoquestionbutitis,thewriterwillbeonconfidentialtermswithherpastoraswellasherdoctorandI
  proposeaskinghertogethimtocertify,inanysortofgeneralterms,toheridentity。Iwilltreatthematterdelicately——Or,ifyouprefertowritetoheryourself——"
  "Ohno,it’smuchbetterforyoutodoit;youcandoitauthoritatively。"
  "Yes,andifsheisn’ttherealthing,butmerelyawomanjournalisttryingtoworkusfora’story’inherSundayedition,weshallhearnomorefromher。"
  "Idon’tseeanythingtoobjecttoinyourplan,"Verriansaid,uponreflection。"Shecertainlycan’tcomplainofourbeingcautious。"
  "No,andshewon’t。Ishallhavetoreferthemattertothehouse——"
  "Oh,willyou?"
  "Why,certainly!Icouldn’ttakeasteplikethatwithouttheapprovalofthehouse。"
  "No,"Verrianassented,andhemadeanoteofthewriter’saddressfromtheletter。Then,afteramomentspentinlookinghardattheletter,hegaveitbacktotheeditorandwentabruptlyaway。
  Hehadproof,thenextmorning,thattheeditorhadactedpromptly,atleastsofarasregardedthehouse。Thehousehadapprovedhisplan,ifonecouldtrusttheromanticparagraphwhichVerrianfoundinhispaperatbreakfast,exploitingthefactconcernedasoneoftheinterestingevidencesoftheholdhisserialhadgotwiththemagazinereaders。Herecognizedintheparagraphthetouchofthegoodfellowwhopreparedtheweeklybulletinsofthehouse,andofferedthepressliteraryintelligenceinaformreadyforimmediateuse。Thecasewasfairlystated,buttheprivacyoftheauthor’scorrespondentwasperfectlyguarded;itwasnotevenmadeknownthatshewasawoman。YetVerrianfelt,inreadingtheparagraph,ashockofguiltydismay,asifhehadbetrayedaconfidencereposedinhim,andhehandedthepaperacrossthetabletohismotherwithratherasicklook。
  Afterhisreturnfromthemagazineofficethedaybefore,therehadbeenagooddealoftalkbetweenthemaboutthatgirl。Mrs。Verrianhadagreedwithhimthatnomoreinterestingeventcouldhavehappenedtoanauthor,butshehadtriedtokeephimfromtakingittoopersonally,andfrommakinghimselfmischievousillusionsfromit。Shehadsincesleptuponheranxieties,withtheeffectoffindingthemmorevividatwaking,andshehadbeencastingaboutforanopeningtopenetratehimwiththem,whenfortuneputthisparagraphinherway。
  "Isn’titdisgusting?"heasked。"Idon’tseehowArmigercouldletthemdoit。Ihopetoheavenshe’llneverseeit!"
  Hismotherlookedupfromtheparagraphandasked,"Why?"
  "Whatwouldshethinkofme?"
  "Idon’tknow。Shemighthaveexpectedsomethingofthekind。"
  "Howexpectsomethingofthekind?AmIoneoftheself-advertisers?"
  "Well,shemusthaverealizedthatshewasdoingratheraboldthing。"
  "Bold?"
  "Venturesome,"Mrs。Verriancompromisedtothekindlingangerinherson’seyes。
  "Idon’tunderstandyou,mother。Ithoughtyouagreedwithmeaboutthewriterofthatletter——hersincerity,simplicity。"
  "Sincerity,yes。Butsimplicity——Philip,athoroughlysingle-mindedgirlneverwrotethatletter。Youcan’tfeelsuchathingasIdo。
  Amancouldn’t。Youcanpaintthecharacterofwomen,andyoudoitwonderfully——but,afterall,youcan’tknowthemasawomandoes。"
  "Youtalk,"heanswered,alittlesulkily,"asifyouknewsomeharmofthegirl。"
  "No,myson,Iknownothingabouther,exceptthatsheisnotsingle-
  minded,andthereisnoharminnotbeingsingle-minded。Agreatmanysingle-mindedwomenarefools,andsomedouble-mindedwomenaregood。"
  "Well,single-mindedordouble-minded,ifsheiswhatshesayssheis,whatmotiveonearthcouldshehaveinwritingtomeexceptthemotiveshegives?Youdon’tdenythatshetellsthetruthaboutherself?"
  "Don’tIsaythatsheissincere?Butagirldoesn’talwaysknowherownmotives,orallofthem。Shemayhavewrittentoyoubecauseshewouldliketobeginacorrespondencewithanauthor。Orshemayhavedoneitoutoftheloveofexcitement。Orforthesakeofdistraction,togetawayfromherselfandhergloomyforebodings。"
  "Andshouldyoublameherforthat?"
  "No,Ishouldn’t。Ishouldpityherforit。But,allthesame,I
  shouldn’twantyoutobetakeninbyher。"
  "Youthink,then,shedoesn’tcareanythingaboutthestory?"
  "Ithink,veryprobably,shecaresagreatdealaboutit。Sheisaseriousperson,intellectuallyatleast,anditisaseriousstory。Nowondershewouldliketoknow,atfirsthand,somethingaboutthemanwhowroteit。"
  ThisflatteredVerrian,buthewouldnotallowitsreasonableness。Hetookagulpofcoffeebeforesaying,uncandidly,"Ican’tmakeoutwhatyou’redrivingat,mother。But,fortunately,there’snohurryaboutyourmeaning。Thething’sintheonlyshapewecouldpossiblygiveit,andI
  amsatisfiedtoleaveitinArmiger’shands。I’mcertainhewilldealwiselywithit-andkindly。"
  "Yes,I’msurehe’lldealkindly。Ishouldbeveryunhappyifhedidn’t。
  Hecouldeasilydealmorewisely,though,thanshehas。"
  Verrianchosenottofollowhismotherinthis。"Allis,"hesaid,withfinality,"Ihopeshe’llneverseethatloathsomeparagraph。"
  "Oh,verylikelyshewon’t,"hismotherconsoledhim。
  III。
  OnlyfourdaysafterhehadseenArmiger,Verrianreceivedanenvelopecoveringabriefnotetohimselffromtheeditor,acopyoftheletterhehadwrittentoVerrian’sunknowncorrespondent,andheranswerintheoriginal。Verrianwasalonewhenthepostmanbroughthimthisenvelope,andhecouldindulgeacertainpassionformethodbywhichhereaditscontentsintheordernamed;ifhismotherhadbeenby,shewouldhavemadehimreadthegirl’sreplyfirstofall。Armigerwrote:
  "MYDEARVERRIAN,——Ienclosetwoexhibitswhichwillpossessyouofallthefactsinthecaseoftheyoungladywhofearedshemightdiebeforeshereadtheendofyourstory,butwho,youwillbegladtofind,islikelytolivethroughtheyear。AsthestoryendsinourOctobernumber,sheneednotbesuppliedwithadvancesheets。Iamsorrythehousehurriedoutaparagraphconcerningthematter,butitwillnotbefollowedbyanother。Perhapsyouwillfeel,asIdo,thattheincidentisclosed。Ihavenotrepliedtothewriter,andyouneednotreturnherletter。Yoursever,"M。ARMIGER。"
  Theeditor’slettertotheyoungladyread:
  "DEARMADAM,——Mr。P。S。Verrianhashandedmeyourletterofthe4th,andIneednottellyouthatithasinterestedusboth。
  "Iamalmostasmuchgratifiedashebythetestimonyyourrequestbearstotheimportanceofhiswork,andifIcouldhaveacteduponmyinstantfeelingIshouldhavehadnohesitationingrantingit,thoughitissoveryunusualastobe,inmyexperienceasaneditor,unprecedented。I
  amsurethatyouwouldnothavemadeitsofranklyifyouhadnotbeenpreparedtoguardinreturnanyconfidenceplacedinyou;butyouwillrealizethatasyouarequiteunknowntous,weshouldnotbejustifiedintakingastepsounusualasyouproposewithouthavingsomeguaranteebesidesthatwhichMr。VerrianandIbothfeelfromthecharacterofyourletter。Simply,then,forpurposesofidentification,asthephraseis,Imustbegyoutoaskthepastorofyourchurch,or,betterstill,yourfamilyphysician,towriteyoualinesayingthatheknowsyou,asasortofletterofintroductiontome。ThenIwillsendyoutheadvanceproofsofMr。Verrian’sstory。Youmayliketoaddressmepersonallyinthecareofthemagazine,andnotastheeditor。
  "Yoursveryrespectfully,"M。ARMIGER。"
  Theeditor’sletterwasdatedthe6thofthemonth;theanswer,datedthe8th,betrayedtheanxioushasteofthewriterinreplying,anditwasnotherfaultifwhatshewrotecametoVerrianwhenhewasnolongerabletodojusticetoherconfession。Undertheaddressgiveninherfirstlettershenowbegan,in,ahandintowhichakindliereyemighthavereadapatheticperturbation:
  "DEARSIR,——Ihavesomethingawfultotellyou。Imightwritepageswithoutmakingyouthinkbetterofme,andIwillletyouthinktheworstatonce。IamnotwhatIpretendedtobe。IwrotetoMr。VerriansayingwhatIdid,andaskingtoseetherestofhisstoryontheimpulseofthemoment。Ihadbeenreadingit,forIthinkitisperfectlyfascinating;
  andafriendofmine,anothergirl,andIgottogethertryingtoguesshowhewouldendit,andwebegantodareeachothertowritetohimandask。Atfirstwedidnotdreamofdoingsuchathing,butwewenton,andjustforthefunofitwedrewlotstoseewhichshouldwritetohim。
  Thelotfelltome;butwecomposedthatlettertogether,andweputinaboutmydyingforajoke。Weneverintendedtosendit;butthenonethingledtoanother,andIsigneditwithmyrealnameandwesentit。
  Wedidnotreallyexpecttohearanythingfromit,forwesupposedhemustgetlotsoflettersabouthisstoryandneverpaidanyattentiontothem。WedidnotrealizewhatwehaddonetillIgotyourletteryesterday。Thenwesawitall,andeversincewehavebeentryingtothinkwhattodo,andIdonotbelieveeitherofushassleptamoment。
  Wehavecometotheconclusionthattherewasonlyonethingwecoulddo,andthatwastotellyoujustexactlyhowithappenedandtaketheconsequences。Butthereisnoreasonwhymorethanonepersonshouldbebroughtintoit,andsoIwillnotletmyfriendsignthisletterwithme,butIwillputmyownnamealonetoit。Youmaynotthinkitismyrealname,butitis;youcanfindoutbywritingtothepostmasterhere。
  Idonotknowwhetheryouwillpublishitasafraudforthewarningofothers,butIshallnotblameyouifyoudo。Ideserveanything。
  Yourstruly,"JERUSHAPEREGRINEBROWN。"
  IfVerrianhadbeenanoldermanlifemighthavesuppliedhimwiththemeansofjudgingthewriterofthisletter。Buthisexperienceasanauthorhadnotbeenverygreat,andsuchasitwasithadhardenedandsharpenedhim。Therewasnothingwildorwhirlinginhismood,butinthedeadlyhurtwhichhadbeeninflicteduponhisvanityhecoldlyandcarefullystudiedwhatdeadlierhurthemightinflictagain。Hewasofthecruellerintentbecausehehadnotknownhowmuchofpersonalvanitytherewasintheseriousnesswithwhichhetookhimselfandhiswork。Hehadsupposedthathewasrespectinghisethicsandaesthetics,hisidealofconductandofart,butnowitwasbroughthometohimthathewasswollenwiththeconceitofhisownperformance,andthat,howeverwellothersthoughtofit,hisownthoughtofitfaroutrantheirwilltohonorit。Hewishedtorevengehimselfforthisconsciousnessaswellastheoffenceofferedhim;ofthetwotheconsciousnesswasthemoredisagreeable。
  Hismother,dressedforthestreet,cameinwherehesatquietathisdesk,withtheeditor’slettersandthegirl’sbeforehim,andhemutelyreferredthemtoherwithahandliftedoverhisshoulder。Shereadthem,andthenshesaid,"Thisishardtobear,Philip。IwishIcouldbearitforyou,oratleastwithyou;butI’mlateformyengagementwithMrs。Alfred,asitis——No,IwilltelephoneherI’mdetainedandwe’lltalkitover——"
  "No,no!Notonanyaccount!I’dratherthinkitoutformyself。Youcouldn’thelpme。Afterall,ithasn’tdonemeanyharm——"
  "Andyou’vehadagreatescape!AndIwon’tsayawordmorenow,butI’llbebacksoon,andthenwe——Oh,I’msosorryI’mgoing。"
  Verriangavealaugh。"Youcouldn’tdoanythingifyoustayed,mother。
  Dogo!"
  "Well——"Shelookedathim,smoothinghermuffwithherhandamoment,andthenshedroppedafondkissonhischeekandobeyedhim。
  IV
  Verrianstillsatathisdesk,thinking,withhisburningfaceinhishands。Itwascoveredwithshameforwhathadhappenedtohim,buthishumiliationhadnoqualityofpityinit。Hemustwritetothatgirl,andwriteatonce,andhissolehesitationwasastotheformheshouldgivehisreply。HecouldnotaddressherasDearMissBrownorasDearMadam。EvenMadamwasnotsharpandforbiddingenough;besides,Madam,aloneorwiththesenselessprefix,wasarchaic,andVerrianwishedtobeverymodernwiththismostoffensiveinstanceofthelatestgirl。
  Hedecidedupondealingwithherinthethirdperson,andtrustingtohisliteraryskilltokeeptheformfromclumsiness。
  Hetrieditinthatform,anditwassimplydisgusting,theattitudestiffandswelling,andthedictionaffectedandunnatural。Withaquickreversiontotheimpossiblefirsttype,herecasthisletterinwhatwasnowtheonlypossibleshape。
  "MYDEARMISSBROWN,——TheeditoroftheAmericanMiscellanyhassentmeacopyofhisrecentlettertoyouandyourownreply,andhasremandedtomeanaffairwhichresultedfrommygoingtohimwithyourrequesttoseethecloseofmystorynowpublishinginhismagazine。
  "Aftergivingthemattermybestthought,Ihaveconcludedthatitwillbewelltoenclosealltheexhibitstoyou,andInowdothisinthehopethataseriousstudyofthemwillenableyoutosharemysurpriseatthemoralandsocialconditionsinwhichthebusinesscouldoriginate。Iwillinglyleavewithyouthequestionwhichisthemoretrustworthy,yourlettertomeoryourlettertohim,orwhichthemoretrulyrepresentstheinterestingdiversityofyournature。Iconfessthatthefirstmovedmemorethanthesecond,andIdonotseewhyIshouldnottellyouthatassoonasIhadyourrequestIwentwithittoMr。ArmigeranddidwhatIcouldtoprompthiscompliancewithit。Inputtingthesepapersoutofmyhands,IoughttoacknowledgethattheyhaveformedatemptationtomakeliteraryuseoftheaffairwhichIshallnowbethebetterfittedtoresist。Youwill,ofcourse,beamusedbytheeasewithwhichyoucouldabusemyrelianceonyourgoodfaith,andIamsureyouwillnotallowanyshameforyourtricktoqualifyyourpleasureinitssuccess。
  "Itwillnotbenecessaryforyoutoacknowledgethisletteranditsenclosures。Iwillregisterthepackage,sothatitwillnotfailtoreachyou,andIwillreturnanyanswerofyoursunopened,or,ifnotrecognizablyaddressed,thenunread。
  "Yourssincerely,"P。S。VERRIAN。"
  Hereadandreadagaintheselines,withonlythesenseoftheirinsufficiencyindoingtheeffectofthebitternessinhisheart。Iftheletterwasinsulting,itwasbynomeansasinsultingashewouldhavelikedtomakeit。Whetheritwouldbewoundingenoughwassomethingthatdependeduponthepersonwhomhewishedtowound。Allthatwasproudandvainandcruelinhimsurgedupatthethoughtofthetrickthathadbeenplayeduponhim,andallthatwassweetandkindandgentleinhim,whenhebelievedthetrickwasagenuineappeal,turnedtotheircounterqualities。Yet,feebleandinadequateashisletterwas,heknewthathecouldnotdomoreorworsebytrying,andhesomuchfearedthatbywaitinghemightdolessandbetterthathehurrieditintothepostatonce。Ifhismotherhadbeenathandhewouldhaveshownither,thoughhemightnothavebeenruledbyherjudgmentofit。Hewasgladthatshewasnotwithhim,foreithershewouldhavehadheropinionofwhatwouldbemoretelling,orshewouldhaveinsisteduponhisdelayinganysortofreply,andhecouldnotendurethethoughtofdifferenceordelay。
  Heaskedhimselfwhetherheshouldletherseetheroughfirstdraftofhisletterornot,andhedecidedthathewouldnot。Butwhenshecameintohisstudyonherreturnheshowedither。
  Shereaditinsilence,andthensheseemedtotemporizeinasking,"Wherearehertwoletters?"
  "I’vesentthembackwiththeanswer。"
  Hismotherletthepaperdropfromherhands。"Philip!Youhaven’tsentthis!"
  "Yes,Ihave。Itwasn’twhatIwantedtomakeit,butIwishedtogetthedetestableexperienceoutofmymind,anditwasthebestIcoulddoatthemoment。Don’tyoulikeit?"
  "Oh——"Sheseemedbeginningtosaysomething,butwithoutsayinganythingshetookthefallenleafupandreaditagain。
  "Well!"hedemanded,withimpatience。
  "Oh,youmayhavebeenright。Ihopeyou’venotbeenwrong。"
  "Mother!"
  "Shedeservedtheseverestthingsyoucouldsay;andyet——"
  "Well?"
  "Perhapsshewaspunishedenoughalready。"
  "Whatdoyoumean?"
  "Idon’tlikeyourbeing-vindictive。"
  "Vindictive?"
  "Beingsoterriblyjust,then。"Sheadded,athisblankstare,"Thisiskilling,Philip。"
  Hegaveabitterlaugh。"Idon’tthinkitwillkillher。Sheisn’tthatkind。"
  "She’sagirl,"hismothersaid,withakindofsadabsence。
  "Butnotasingle-mindedgirl,youwarnedme。IwishIcouldhavetakenyourwarning。ItwouldhavesavedmefromplayingthefoolbeforemyselfandgivingmyselfawaytoArmiger,andlettinghimgivehimselfaway。
  Idon’tthinkMissBrownwillsuffermuchbeforeshedies。Shewill’gettogether,’asshecallsit,withthatothergirlandhave’arealgoodtime’overit。Youknowthevillagetypeandthevillageconditions,wherethevulgarignoranceofanylargerworldissothickyoucouldcutitwithaknife。Don’tbetroubledbymyvindictivenessormyjustice,mother!IbegintothinkIhavedonejusticeandnotfallenshortofit,asIwasafraid。"
  Mrs。Verriansighed,andagainshegavehisletterbacktoherson。
  "Perhapsyouareright,Philip。Sheisprobablysotoughasnottofeelitverypainfully。"
  "She’snotsotoughbutshe’llbeverygladtogetoutofitsolightly。
  Shehashadausefulscare,andI’vedoneherafavorinmakingthescareasharpone。Isuppose,"Verrianmused,"thatshethinksI’vekeptcopiesofherletters。"
  "Yes。Whydidn’tyou?"hismotherasked。
  Verrianlaughed,onlyalittlelessbitterlythanbefore。"Ishallbegintobelieveyou’reallalike,mother。
  Ididn’tkeepcopiesofherlettersbecauseIwantedtogetherandherlettersoutofmymind,finallyandforever。Besides,Ididn’tchoose。
  toemulateherduplicitybyanysortofdissimulation。
  "Iseewhatyoumean,"hismothersaid。"And,ofcourse,youhavetakentheonlyhonorableway。"
  Thentheywerebothsilentforatime,thinkingtheirseveralthoughts。
  Verrianbrokethesilencetosay,"IwishIknewwhatsortof’othergirl’itwasthatshe’gottogetherwith。’"
  "Why?"
  "Becauseshewroteamorecultivatedletterthanthismagnanimouscreaturewhotakesalltheblametoherself。"
  "Thenyoudon’tbelievethey’reboththesame?"
  "Theyareboththesameinstationeryandchirography,butnotinliterature。"
  "Ihopeyouwon’tgettothinkingabouther,then,"hismotherentreated,intelligiblybutnotdefinitely。
  "Notseriously,"Verrianreassuredher。"I’vehadmymedicine。"
  V。
  Continuityissomuchthelessonofexperiencethatinthecourseofalifebynomeanslongitbecomestheinstinctiveexpectation。Theeventthathashappenedwillhappenagain;itwillprolongitselfinaseriesofrecurrencesbywhicheachone’sepisodesharesintheunendinghistoryofall。Thesenseofthisissopervasivethathumanityrefusestoacceptdeathitselfasfinal。Intheagonizedaffections,theshatteredhopes,ofthosewhoremain,theseveredlifekeepsonunbrokenly,andwhentimeandreasonprevail,atleastastothelifehere,thedefeatedfaithappealsforfulfilmenttoanotherworld,andthebeliefofimmortalityholdsagainstthemyriadyearsinwhichnoneofthenumberlessdeadhavemadeanindisputablesigninwitnessofit。Thelostlimbstillreportsitssensationstothebrain;thefixedhabitmechanicallyattemptsitsrepetitionwhentheconditionsrenderitimpossible。
  Verrianwasawarehowdeeplyandabsorbinglyhehadbroodedupontheincidentwhichhehaddonehisutmosttoclose,whenhefoundhimselfexpectingananswerofsomesortfromhisunknowncorrespondent。Heperceived,then,withoutowningthefact,thathehadreallyhopedforsomeprotest,someexcuse,someextenuation,whichintheendwouldsufferhimtobemoremerciful。Thoughhehadwishedtocrushherintosilence,andtoforbidherallhopeofhisforgiveness,hehad,inamanner,notmeanttodoit。Hehadkeptasecretplaceinhissoulwherethesinneragainsthimcouldfindrefugefromhisjustice,andwhenthissanctuaryremainedunattemptedhefoundhimselfwitharegretthathehadbarredthewaytoitsoeffectually。Theregretwassovague,soformless,however,thathecouldtacitlydenyittohimselfatalltimes,andexplicitlydenyittohismotheratsuchtimesashertouchtaughthimthatitwastangible。
  Oneday,aftertenortwelvedayshadgoneby,sheaskedhim,"Youhaven’theardanythingmorefromthatgirl?"
  "Whatgirl?"hereturned,asifhedidnotknow;andhefrowned。"Youmeanthegirlthatwrotemeaboutmystory?"
  Hecontinuedtofrownrathermoredarkly。"Idon’tseehowyoucouldexpectmetohearfromher,afterwhatIwrote。But,tobecategorical,Ihaven’t,mother。"
  "Oh,ofcoursenot。Didyouthinkshewouldbesoeasilysilenced?"
  "IdidwhatIcouldtocrushherintosilence。"
  "Yes,andyoudidquiteright;Iammoreandmoreconvincedofthat。Butsuchaverytoughyoungpersonmighthaverefusedtostaycrushed。Shemightverynaturallyhavegotherselfintoshapeagainandsmoothedoutthecreases,atleastsofartotrysomefurtherdefence。"
  "Itseemsthatshehasn’t,"Verriansaid,stilldarkly,butnotsofrowningly。
  "Ishouldhavefancied,"hismothersuggested,"thatifshehadwantedtoopenacorrespondencewithyou——ifthatwasheroriginalobject——shewouldnothaveletitdropsoeasily。"
  "Hassheletitdropeasily?IthoughtIhadlefthernopossiblechanceofresumingit。"
  "Thatistrue,"hismothersaid,andforthetimeshesaidnomoreaboutthematter。
  NotlongafterthishecamehomefromthemagazineofficeandreportedtoherfromArmigerthatthestorywascatchingonmoreandmorewiththebestclassofreaders。TheeditorhadshownVerriansomereferencestoitinnewspapersofgoodstandingandseverallettersaboutit。
  "Ithoughtyoumightliketolookattheletters,"Verriansaid,andhetooksomelettersfromhispocketandhandedthemtoheracrossthelunch-table。Shedidnotimmediatelylookatthem,becausehewentontoaddsomethingthattheybothfelttobemoreimportant。"Armigersaystherehasbeensomeincreaseofthesales,whichIcanattributetomystoryifIhavethecheek。"
  "Thatisgood。"
  "Andthehousewantstopublishthebook。Theythink,downthere,thatitwillhaveaveryprettysuccess——notbeabigseller,ofcourse,butsomethingcomfortable。"
  Mrs。Verrian’seyesweresuffusedwithprideandfondness。"Andyoucanalwaysthink,Philip,thatthishascometoyouwithouttheleastloweringofyourstandard,withoutforsakingyouridealforamoment。"
  "Thatiscertainlyasatisfaction。"
  Shekeptherproudandtendergazeuponhim。"NoonewilleverknowasI
  dohowfaithfulyouhavebeentoyourart。Didanyofthenewspapersrecognizethat——orsurmiseit,orsuspectit?"
  "No,thatisn’ttheturntheytake。Theyspeakofthestrongloveinterestinvolvedintheproblem。Andtheabundanceofincident。
  Ilookedouttokeepsomethinghappening,youknow。I’msorryIdidn’taskArmigertoletmebringthenoticeshometoyou。I’mnotsurethatI
  didwiselynottosubscribetothatpress-clippingsbureau。"
  Hismothersmiled。"Youmustn’tletprosperitycorruptyou,Philip。
  Wouldn’tseeingwhatthepressissayingofitdistractyoufromtherealaimyouhadinyourstory?"
  "We’reallweak,ofcourse。Itmight,ifthestorywerenotfinished;
  butasitis,IthinkIcouldbeproofagainstthestupidestpraise。"
  "Well,formypart,I’mgladyoudidn’tsubscribetotheclippingsbureau。Itwouldhavebeenadisturbingelement。"Shenowlookeddownatthelettersasifsheweregoingtotakethemup,andhefollowedthedirectionofhereyes。Asifremindedofthefactbythis,hesaid:
  "ArmigeraskedmeifIhadeverheardanythingmorefromthatgirl。"
  "Hashe?"hismothereagerlyasked,transferringherglancefromtheletterstoherson’sface。
  "Notaword。IthinkIsilencedherthoroughly。"
  "Yes,"hismothersaid。"Therecouldhavebeennogoodobjectinprolongingtheaffairandlettingherconfirmherselfinthenotionthatshewasofsufficientimportanceeithertoyouortohimforyoutocontinuethecorrespondencewithher。Shecouldn’tlearntoodistinctlythatshehaddone——averywrongthingintryingtoplaysuchatrickonyou。"
  "ThatwasthewayIlookedatit,"Verriansaid,buthedrewalightsigh,ratherwearily。
  "Ihope,"hismothersaid,witharecurrentglanceattheletters,"thatthereisnothingofthatsillykindamongthese。"
  "No,theseareblamelessenough,unlesstheyaretobeblamedforbeingtooflattering。Thatgirlseemstobesoleofherkind,unlessthegirlthatshe’gottogetherwith’wasreallylikeher。"
  "Idon’tbelievetherewasanyothergirl。Ineverthoughttherewasmorethanone。"
  "Thereseemedtobetwostylesandtwogradesofculture,suchastheywere。"
  "Oh,shecouldeasilyimitatetwomanners。Shemusthavebeenaclevergirl,"Mrs。Verriansaid,withthatadmirationforanysortofclevernessinhersexwhichevenverygoodwomencannothelpfeeling。
  "Well,perhapsshewaspunishedenoughforboththecharacterssheassumed,"Verriansaid,withasmilethatwasnotgay。
  "Don’tthinkabouther!"hismotherreturned,withaperceptionofhismood。"I’monlythankfulthatshe’soutofourlivesineverysortofway。"
  VI。
  Verriansaidnothing,buthereflectedwithasortofgloomyamusementhowimpossibleitwasforanywoman,evenawomansowide-mindedandhigh-principledashismother,toescapethepersonalviewofallthingsandallpersonswhichwomentake。Hetacitlynotedthefact,asthenovelistnoteswhateverhappensorappearstohim,buthelettheoccasiondropoutofhismindassoonashecouldafterithaddroppedoutofhistalk。
  Thenightwhenthelastnumberofhisstorycametotheminthemagazine,andwasalreadyannouncedasabook,hesatupwithhismothercelebrating,ashesaid,andexultinginthefutureaswellasthepast。
  Theyhadalittlesupper,whichshecookedforhiminachafing-dish,inthedining-roomofthetinyapartmentwheretheylivedtogether,andshemadesomecoffeeafterwards,tocarryofftheeffectoftheNewburglobster。Perhapsbecausetherewasnothingtocarryofftheeffectofthecoffee,heheardher,throughthepartitionoftheirrooms,stirringrestlesslyafterhehadgonetobed,andalittlelatershecametohisdoor,whichshesetajar,toask,"Areyouawake,Philip?"
  "Youseemtobe,mother,"heanswered,withanamusementatherquestionwhichseemednottohaveimparteditselftoherwhenshecameinandstoodbesidehisbedinherdressing-gown。
  "Youdon’tthinkwehavejudgedhertooharshly,Philip?"
  "Doyou,mother?"
  "No,Ithinkwecouldn’tbetoosevereinathinglikethat。Sheprobablythoughtyouwerelikesomeoftheotherstory-writers;shecouldn’tfeeldifferences,shades。Shepretendedtobetakenwiththecircumstancesofyourwork,butshehadtodothatifshewantedtofoolyou。Well,shehasgothercome-uppings,asshewouldprobablysay。"
  Verrianreplied,thoughtfully,"Shedidn’tstrikemeasacountryperson——atleast,inherfirstletter。"
  "Thenyoustillthinkshedidn’twriteboth?"
  "Ifshedid,shewastryingherhandinapersonalityshehadinvented。"
  "Girlsareverystrange,"hismothersighed。"Theylikeexcitement,adventure。It’sverydullinthoselittleplaces。Ishouldn’twishyoutothinkanyharmofthepoorthing。"
  "Poorthing?Whythismagnanimouscompassion,mother?"
  "Oh,nothing。ButIknowhowIwasmyselfwhenIwasagirl。Iusedalmosttodieofhungerforsomethingtohappen。Canyourememberjustwhatyousaidinyourletter?"
  Verrianlaughed。"NO,Ican’t。ButIdon’tbelieveIsaidhalfenough。
  You’renervous,mother。"
  "Yes,Iam。Butdon’tyougettoworrying。ImerelygottothinkinghowIshouldhatetohaveanybody’sunhappinessmixedupwiththishappinessofours。Idosowantyourpleasureinyoursuccesstobepure,nottaintedwiththepainofanyhumancreature。"
  Verrianansweredwithlightcynicism:"Itwillbetaintedwiththepainofthefellowswhodon’tlikeme,orwhohaven’tsucceeded,andthey’lltakecaretoletmesharetheirpainifevertheycan。Butifyoumeanthatmerrymaidenupcountry,she’sprobablythinking,ifshethinksaboutitatall,thatshe’stheluckiestgirlintheUnitedStatestohavegotoutofanawfulscrapesoeasily。Attheworst,Ionlyhadfunwithherinmyletter。Probablysheseesthatshehasnothingtogrieveforbutherownbreak。"
  "No,andyoudidjustasyoushouldhavedone;andIamgladyoudon’tfeelbitterlyaboutit。Youdon’t,doyou?"
  "Nottheleast。"
  Hismotherstoopedoverandkissedhimwherehelaysmiling。"Well,that’sgood。Afterall,it’syouIcaredfor。NowIcansaygood-
  night。"Butshelingeredtotuckhiminalittle,fromthepersistenceofthemotherhabit。"Iwishyoumayneverdoanythingthatyouwillbesorryfor。"
  "Well,Iwon’t——ifit’sagoodaction。"
  Theylaughedtogether,andshelefttheroom,stilllookingbacktoseeiftherewasanythingmoreshecoulddoforhim,whilehelaysmiling,intelligentlyforwhatshewasthinking,andpatientlyforwhatshewasdoing。
  VII。
  Eveninthetimewhichwasthencomingandwhichnowis,whensuccessfulauthorsarealmostasmanyasmillionaires,Verrian’sbookbroughthimaprettycelebrity;andthiscelebritywasinawayspecific。Itrelatedtothequalityofhiswork,whichwasquietlyartisticandpsychological,whateverlivelinessofincidentitutteredonthesurface。Hebelongedtothegoodschoolwhichisofnofashionandofeverytime,farbothfromactualityandunreality;andhisrecognitioncamefrompeoplewhoserecognitionwasworthhaving。Withthiscamethewidernoticewhichwasnotworthhaving,likethenoticeofMrs。Westangle,sincesowellknowntosocietyreportersasasocietywoman,whichcouldnotbecalledrecognitionofhim,becauseitdidnotinvolveanyknowledgeofhisbook,notevenitstitle。Shedidnotreadanysortofbooks,andsheassimilatedhimbyasortofatmosphericsense。Shewassureofnothingbuttheattentionpaidhiminacertainverygoodishhouse,bypeoplewhomsheheardtalkinginunintelligiblebutunmistakablepraise,whenshesaid,casually,withaliquidglitterofhersweet,smalleyes,"Iwishyouwouldcomedowntomyplace,Mr。Verrian。I’maskingafewyoungpeopleforChristmasweek。Willyou?"
  "Why,thankyou——thankyouverymuch,"Verriansaid,waitingtohearmoreinexplanationofthehospitalitylaunchedathim。HehadneverseenMrs。Westangletillthen,orheardofher,andhehadnottheleastnotionwhereshelived。Butsheseemedtohavesocialauthority,thoughVerrian,inlookingroundathishostessandherdaughter,whostoodnear,lettingpeopletakeleave,learnednothingfromtheircommonsmile。
  Mrs。Westanglehadglidedclosetohim,inthewayshehadofgettingverynearwithoutapparentlyhavingadvancedbysteps,andshestoodgleamingandtwitteringupathim。
  "Ishallsendyoualittlenote;Iwon’tletyouforget,"shesaid。Thenshesuddenlyshookhandswiththeladiesofthehouseandwasflashinglygone。
  Verrianthoughthemightaskthedaughterofthehouse,"AndifIdon’tforget,amIengagedtospendChristmasweekwithher?"
  Thegirllaughed。"Ifshedoesn’tforget,youare。Butyou’llhaveagoodtime。She’llknowhowtomanagethat。"Otherguestskeptcominguptotakeleave,andVerrian,whodidnotwanttogojustyet,wasretiredtothebackground,wherethegirl’svoice,thrownoverhershoulderathim,reachedhiminthewords,asgayasiftheywerethebestofthejoke,"It’sontheSound。"
  TheinferencewasthatMrs。Westangle’splacewasontheSound;andthatwasallVerrianknewaboutittillhegotherlittlenote。Mrs。
  Westangleknewhowtowriteinaformlesshand,butshedidnotknowhowtospell,andshehadthoughtitbesttohaveasecretarywhocouldwritewellandspellcorrectly。Though,asfarasliteracywasconcerned,shewassuchanalmostincomparablyignorantwoman,shehadalltheknowledgethebestsocietywants,or,ifshefoundherselfoutofany,shewentandboughtsome;shewasabletobuyalmostanything。
  Verrianthankedthesecretaryforrememberinghim,inthebeliefthathewasdirectlythankingMrs。Westangle,whosewidespreadconsciousnesshishappinessinacceptingdidnotimmediatelyreach;andintheverylargehouseparty,whichhedulyjoinedunderherroof,hewasawareoflosingdistinctivenessalmosttothepointoflosingidentity。ThisdidnotquitehappenonthewaytoBelford,for,whenhewenttotakehisseatinthedrawing-roomcar,agirlinthechairfrontinghimputoutherhandwiththelaughofMissMacroyd。
  "Shedidrememberyou!"shecriedout。"Howdelightful!Idon’tseehowsheevergotontoyou"——shemadetheslangherown——"inthefirstplace,andshemusthaveworkedhardtobesureofyousince。"
  Verrianhunguphiscoatandputhissuit-casebehindhischair,theporterhavingputitwherehecouldnotwheelhimselfvis-a-viswiththegirl。"Shetookallthetimetherewas,"heanswered。"Igotmyinvitationonlythedaybeforeyesterday,andifIhadbeeninmoredemand,orhadaworseconscience——"
  "Oh,dosayworseconscience!It’ssomuchmoreinteresting,"thegirlbrokein。
  "——Ishouldn’thavethepleasureofgoingtoSeasandswithyounow,"heconcluded,andshegaveherlaugh。"DoIunderstandthatsimplymygrowingfamewouldn’thaveprevailedwithher?"
  AnythingseemedtomakeMissMacroydlaugh。"Shecouldn’thavecaredaboutthat,andshewouldn’thaveknown。Youmaybesurethatitwasasocialquestionwithherafterthepersonalquestionwassettled。Shemusthavelikedyourlooks!"AgainMissMacroydlaughed。
  "OnthatsideI’minvulnerable。It’sonlyaliteraryvanitytobesoothedortobewoundedthatIhave,"Verriansaid。
  "Oh,therewouldn’tbeanythingpersonalinherlikingyourlooks。Itwouldbemerelydecidingthatpersonallyyouwoulddo,"MissMacroydlaughed,asalways,andVerrianputonamockseriousnessinasking:
  "ThenIneedn’tbeseriousifthereshouldhappentobeanythingsoWestangularasaMr。Westangle?"
  "Nottheleastintheworld。"
  "Butthereissomething?"
  "Oh,Ibelieveso。ButnotprobablyatSeasands。"
  "Isthatherhouse?"
  "Yes。Everyothernamehadbeenused,andshecouldn’tsaySoundsands。"
  "ThenwherewouldtheMr。Westangularpartmoreprobablybefound?"
  "Oh,inMontanaorMesopotamia,oranyofthoseplaces。Don’tyouknowabouthim?Howignorantliterarypeoplecanbe!Why,hewastheAmalgamatedClothespin。Youhaven’theardofthat?"
  Shewentontotellhim,withgaydigressions,abouttheinventionwhichenabledWestangletobuyuptheotherclothes-pinsandmergetheminhisown——tobecomeacommercialoctopus,clutchingthethroatsofotherclothespininventorsinthetentaclesoftheWestanglepin。"Butheisn’tinclothespinsnow。He’sinmines,andbanks,andsteamboats,andrailroads,andIdon’tknowwhatall;andMrs。Westangle,thesecondofhername,neverwasinclothespins。"
  MissMacroydlaughedallthroughhertalk,andshewasinafinalburstoflaughingwhenthetrainslowedintoStamford。Thereagirlcameintothecartrailingherskirtswithasortofvividdebilityandoverturningsomeminorpiecesofhand-baggagewhichherdraperiessweptoutoftheirshelterbesidethechairs。Shehadtotakeoneoftheseatswhichbackagainstthewallofthestate-room,whereshemustfacethewholelengthofthecar。Shesatweaklyfallenbackinthechairandmotionless,asifalmostunconscious;butafterthetrainhadbeguntostirshestartedup,andwithaquickflingingofherveilasideturnedtolookoutofthewindow。IntheflyinginstantVerriansawacolorlessfacewithpinchedandsunkeneyesunderaworn-lookingforehead,andawitheredmouthwhoselipspartedfeebly。
  Onherpart,MissMacroydhaddoubtlessalreadynotedthatthegirlwas,withnoshowofexpensiveness,authoritativelywellgownedandpersonallyhatted。Shestaredather,andsaid,"Whataveryhuntedandescapingeffect。"
  "Shedoeslookrather-fugitive,"Verrianagreed,staringtoo。
  "Onemightalmostfancy——anasylum。"
  "Yes,orahospital。"
  Theycontinuedbothtostareather,helplessforwhateverdifferentreasonstotaketheireyesaway,andtheywerestillinterestedinherwhentheyheardheraskingtheconductor,"MustIchangeandtakeanothertrainbeforewegettoBelford?Myfriendsthought——"
  "No,thistrainstopsatSouthfield,"theconductoranswered,absentlybitingseveralholesintoherdrawing-roomticket。
  "Canshebeoneofus?"MissMacroyddemanded,inadramaticwhisper。
  "Shemightbeanything,"Verrianreturned,tryinginstantly,withawhirofhisinventivemachinery,tophraseher。Hemadeasortofluxuriousfailureofit,andrestedcontentwithherface,whichshoweditselfnowinprofileandnowfrontedhiminfull,andnowwasrestlessandnowsubsidedinalookofdelicateexhaustion。Hewouldhavesaid,ifhewouldhavesaidanythingabsolute,thatshewasapersonwhohadsomethingonhermind;atinstantsshehadthathuntedair,passingatotherinstantsintothatairofescape。HediscussedtheseappearanceswithMissMacroyd,butfoundhertoofranklydisputatious;andshelaughedtoomuchandtooloud。
  VIII。
  AtSouthfield,wheretheyalldescended,MissMacroydpromptlypossessedherselfofagroom,whocameforwardtentatively,touchinghishat。
  "MissMacroyd?"shesuggested。
  "Yes,miss,"themansaid,andledthewayroundthestationtothevictoriawhich,whenMissMacroyd’smaidhadmountedtotheplacebesideher,hadnoroom;foranyoneelse。
  VerrianaccountedforheractivityuponthetheoryofherquitejustifiablewishnottoarriveatSeasandswithayoungmanwhomshemightthenhavetheeffectofhavingvoluntarilycomeallthewaywith;
  andafteroneortwocircuitsofthestationitwasapparenttohimthathewasnottohavebeensentforfromMrs。Westangle’s,buttohavebeenlefttothechancesofthelocaldriversandtheirvehicles。Thesewerereducedtoasinglecarryallandafrowsyhorsewhoseroughwintercoatrecalledtheaspectofhisspeciesintheperiodfollowingtheglacialepoch。Themud,asofaworld-thaw,encrustedthewheelsandcurtainsofthecarryall。
  Verrianseizeduponitandthenwentintothewaiting-room,wherehehadlefthissuit-case。Hefoundthestrangerthereinparleywiththeyoungwomanintheticket-officeaboutaconveyancetoMrs。Westangle’s。Itprovedthathehadsecurednotonlytheonlythingofthesort,buttheonlypresenthopeofanyother,andinthehardcasehecouldnothesitatewithdistresssointeresting。Itwouldhavebeenbrutaltodriveoffandleavethatgirlthere,anditwouldhavebeenavulgarflourishtoputtheentirevehicleatherservice。Besides,andperhapsaboveall,Verrianhadnoideaofdeprivinghimselfofsuchachanceasheavenseemedtoofferhim。
  Headvancedwiththedelicacyofthehighest-bredherohecouldimagine,andsaid,"IamgoingtoMrs。Westangle’s,andI’mafraidI’vegottheonlyconveyance——suchasitis。Ifyouwouldletmeofferyouhalfofit?Mr。Verrian,"headded,atthelightofacceptanceinstantlykindlinginherface,whichflushedthinly,aswithanafterglowofinvalidism。
  "Why,thankyou;I’mafraidImust,Mr。Merriam,"andVerrianwasawareofbeingvexedatherfailuretocatchhisname;thenameofVerrianoughttohavebeenunmistakable。"Theyoungladyintheofficesaystherewon’tbeanother,andI’mexpectedpromptly。"Sheadded,withalittletremorofthelip,"Idon’tunderstandwhyMrs。Westangle——"
  Butthenshestopped。
  Verrianinterpretedforher:"Thesea-horsesmusthavegivenoutatSeasands。Orprobablythere’ssomemistake,"andhereflectedbitterlyupontheselfishnessofMissMacroydingrabbingthatvictoriaforherselfandhermaid,notconsideringthatshecouldnotknow,andhasnobusinesstoask,whetherthisgirlwasgoingtoMrs。Westangle’s,too。
  "Haveyouacheck?"heasked。"Ithinkourdrivercouldfindroomforsomethingbesidesmyvalise。OrIcouldhaveitcome——"
  "Notatall,"thegirlsaid。"Isentmytrunkaheadbyexpress。"
  Afrowsyman,tomatchthefrowsyhorse,lookedinimpatiently。"Anyotherbaggage?"
  "No,"Verriananswered,andheledthewayoutafterthevanishingdriver。"Ourchariotisbackhereinhiding,Miss——"
  "Shirley,"shesaid,andtrailedbeforehimthroughthedoorheopened。
  Hefeltthathedidnotdoitasamanoftheworldwouldhavedoneit,andinputtingherintotheramshacklecarryallheknewthathehadnotthegraceofthesortofmanwhodoesnothingelse。ButMissShirleyseemedtohavegraceenough,ofafeebleandbrokensort,forboth,andheresolvedtosupplyhisownlackwithsincerity。Hethereforesethisjawfirmlyandmadeitsupperanglesjutsharplythroughhisclean-shavencheeks。ItwaswellthatMissShirleyhadsomebeautytospare,too,forVerrianhadscarcelyenoughforhimself。Suchdistinctionashehadwasfromasortofintellectualtensenesswhichshowedratherinthegauntformsofhisfacethaninthegrayeyes,heavilylashedaboveandbelow,andlookingseriousbutdullwiththeirrank,blackbrows。HewaschewingacudofbitternessintheaccusalhemadehimselfofhavingforcedMissShirleytogivehername;butwiththatinterestingpersonalityathisside,underthesametatteredandill-scentedJapanesegoat-skin,hecouldnotrefusetobeglad,withallhisself-blame。
  "I’mafraidit’sratheralongdrive-foryou,MissShirley,"heventured,withaglanceatherface,whichlookedverylittleunderherhat。"Thedriversaysit’sfivemilesroundthroughthemarshes。"
  "Oh,Ishallnotmind,"shesaid,courageously,ifnotcheerfully,andhedidnotfeelauthorizedfurthertorecognizethefactthatshewasaninvalid,oratbestaconvalescent。
  "Thesewintrytree-formsarefine,though,"hefoundhimselfobligedtoconcludehisapology,ratherirrelevantly,asthewheelsoftherattling,andtiltingcarryallcrunchedthesurfaceoftheroadinthesuccessionofjerksrespondingtothealternatewalkandgallopofthehorse。
  "Yes,theyare,"MissShirleyanswered,lookingaroundwithacertainsurprise,asifseeingthemnowforthefirsttime。"Somuchvarietyofcolor;andthatburnishedlookthatsomeofthemhave。"Thetrees,farandnear,weregivingtheirtonesandlustresinthelowDecembersun。
  "Yes,"hesaid,"it’sdecidedlymorerefinedthantheautumnalcoloringwebragof。"
  "Itis,"sheapproved,aswithnovelconviction。"Thelandscapeisreallybeautiful。Soniceandflat,"sheadded。
  Hetookherintention,andhesaid,ashecranedhisneckoutofthecarryalltoincludethenearerroadsidestretches,withtheirlowbushesliftingintoremotertrees,"It’srestfulinawaythatneitherthemountainsnorthesea,quitemanage。"
  "Ohyes,"shesighed,withakindofwearinesswhichexplaineditselfinwhatsheadded:"It’sthekindofthingyou’dliketohavekeeponandon。"Sheseemedtosaythatmoretoherselfthantohim,andhiseyesquestionedher。Shesmiledslightlyinexplaining:"IsupposeIfinditallthemorebeautifulbecausethisismyfirstreallookintotheworldaftersixmonthsindoors。"
  "Oh!"hesaid,andtherewasnodoubtapromptinginhistone。