I。
ThesuccessofVerriandidnotcomeearly,anditdidnotcomeeasily。
Hehadbeentryingalongtimetogethisworkintothebestmagazines,andwhenhehadwonthefavoroftheeditors,whoseinteresthehadperhapshadfromthebeginning,itmightbesaidthattheybegantoaccepthisworkfromtheirconsciences,becauseinitswayitwassogoodthattheycouldnotjustlyrefuseit。TheparticulareditorwhotookVerrian’sserial,afterithadcomebacktotheauthorfromtheeditorsoftheotherleadingperiodicals,wasinfactmovedmainlybythebeliefthatthestorywouldpleasethebettersortofhisreaders。These,iftheywerenotsonumerousastheworse,hefelthadnowandthentherighttohavetheirpleasurestudied。
Itwasaseriousstory,anditwassomewhatbitter,asVerrianhimselfwas,afterhisstruggletoreachthepublicwithworkwhichheknewmeritedrecognition。Buttheworldwhichdoesnotlikepeopletotakethemselvestooseriouslyalsolikesthemtotakethemselvesseriously,andthebitternessinVerrian’sstoryprovedagreeabletoanumberofreadersunexpectedlygreat。Itintimatedaromanticpersonalityintheauthor,andtheworldstilllikestoimagineromanticthingsofauthors。
Itlikesespeciallytoimaginethemofnovelists,nowthattherearenolongerpoets;andwhenitbegantolikeVerrian’sserial,itbegantowritehimallsortsofletters,directly,incareoftheeditor,andindirectlytotheeditor,whomtheyaskedaboutVerrianmorethanabouthisstory。
Itwasaman’sstoryratherthanawoman’sstory,asthesemaybedistinguished;butquiteforthatreasonwomenseemedpeculiarlytakenwithit。Perhapsthewomenhadmoreleisureormorecouragetowritetotheauthorandtheeditor;atanyrate,mostoftheletterswerefromwomen;someofthelettersweresillyandfatuousenough,butotherswereofanintelligencewhichwasnonethelesspenetratingforbeingemotionalratherthancritical。Thesemaidsormatrons,whoeverorwhichevertheywere,knewwonderfullywellwhattheauthorwouldbeat,andtheirinterestinhisstoryimpliedaconstantifnotasingledevotion。NowandthenVerrianwastemptedtoansweroneofthem,andunderfavorofhismother,whohadbeenhisconfidantateverypointofhisliterarycareer,heyieldedtothetemptation;butonedaytherecamealetteraskingananswer,whichneitherhenorhismotherfeltcompetenttodealwith。Theybothperceivedthattheymustreferittotheeditorofthemagazine,anditseemedtothemsoimportantthattheydecidedVerrianmustgowithitinpersontotheeditor。Thenhemustbesofarruledbyhim,ifnecessary,astogivehimtheletterandputhimself,astheauthor,beyondanappealwhichhefoundpeculiarlypoignant。
Theletter,whichhadovercomethetacitmisgivingsofhismotherastheyreaditandreaditagaintogether,wasfromagirlwhohadperhapsnoneedtoconfessherselfyoung,ortoownherinexperienceoftheworldwherestorieswerewrittenandprinted。SheexcusedherselfwithadelicacywhichVerrian’scorrespondentsbynomeansalwaysshowedforintrudinguponhim,andthenpleadedthepowerhisstoryhadoverherastheonlyshadowofrightshehadinaddressinghim。Itsfascination,shesaid,hadbegunwiththefirstnumber,thefirstchapter,almostthefirstparagraph。Itwasnotfortheplotthatshecared;shehadreadtoomanystoriestocarefortheplot;itwastheprobleminvolved。Itwasonewhichshehadsooftenponderedinherownmindthatshefelt,inawayshehopedhewouldnotthinkconceited,almostasifthestorywaswrittenforher。Shehadneverbeenabletosolvetheproblem;howhewouldsolveitshedidnotseehowshecouldwaittoknow;andhereshemadehimaconfidencewithoutwhich,shesaid,sheshouldnothavethecouragetogoon。Shewasaninvalid,andherdoctorhadtoldherthat,thoughshemightliveformonths,therewerechancesthatshemightdieatanymomentsuddenly。Hewouldthinkitstrange,anditwasstrangethatsheshouldtellhimthis,andstrangerstillthatsheshoulddaretoaskhimwhatshewasgoingtoask。Thestoryhadyetfourmonthstorun,andshehadbeguntohaveamorbidforebodingthatsheshouldnotlivetoreaditintheordinarycourse。Shewassoignorantaboutwritersthatshedidnotknowwhethersuchathingwaseverdone,orcouldbedone;
butifhecouldtellherhowthestorywastocomeouthewouldbedoingmoreforherthananythingelsethatcouldbedoneforheronearth。Shehadreadthatsometimesauthorsbegantoprinttheirserialstoriesbeforetheyhadwrittenthemtotheend,andhemightnotbesureoftheendhimself;butifhehadfinishedthisstoryofhis,andcouldletherseethelastpagesinprint,shewouldowehimthegratitudeshecouldneverexpress。
Theletterwaswritteninaneducatedhand,andtherewerenofoiblesofformorexcessesoffashioninthestationerytomarthecharacterofsinceritythesimplewordingconveyed。Thepostaladdress,withthedate,wasfullygiven,andthenamesignedattheendwasevidentlygenuine。
Verrianhimselfhadnoquestionofthegenuinenessoftheletterinanyrespect;hismother,afterherfirstmisgivings,whichwereperhapssensations,thoughtashedidaboutit。Shesaidthestorydealtsoprofoundlywiththedeepestthingsthatitwasnowonderaperson,standinglikethatgirlbetweenlifeanddeath,shouldwishtoknowhowtheauthorsolveditsproblem。Thenshereadthelettercarefullyoveragain,andagainVerrianreadit,withaneffectnotdifferentfromthatwhichitsfirstperusalhadmadewithhim。Hisfaithinhisworkwassogreat,soentire,thatthenotionofanyotherfeelingaboutitwasnotadmissible。
"Ofcourse,"hesaid,withasighofsatisfaction,"ImustshowthelettertoArmigeratonce。"
"Ofcourse,"hismotherreplied。"Heistheeditor,andyoumustnotdoanythingwithouthisapproval。"
Thefaithinthewriteroftheletter,whichwasprimarywithhim,wassecondarywithher,butperhapsforthatreason,shewasallthemorefirmlygroundedinit。
II。
Therewasnothingtocloudtheeditor’sjudgment,whenVerriancametohim,exceptthefactthathewasapoetaswellasaneditor。Hereadinasilenceasgreatastheauthor’stheletterwhichVerriansubmitted。
Thenheremainedponderingitforaslongaspacebeforehesaid,"Thatisverytouching。"
Verrianjumpedtohisquestion。"Doyoumeanthatweoughttosendhertheproofsofthestory?"
"No,"theeditorfaltered,buteveninthisdecisionhedidnotdenytheauthorhissympathy。"You’vetouchedbottominthatstory,Verrian。Youmaygohigher,butyoucannevergodeeper。"
Verrianflushedalittle。"Oh,thankyou!"
"I’mnotsurprisedthegirlwantstoknowhowyoumanageyourproblem——
suchagirl,standingintheshadowoftheotherworld,whichisalwayseclipsingthis,andseeinghowyou’vecaughtitsawfuloutline。"
Verrianmadeagratefulmurmuratthepraise。"Thatiswhatmymotherfelt。Thenyouhavenodoubtofthegoodfaith——"
"No,"theeditorreturned,withthesamequantity,ifnotthesamequality,ofreluctanceasbefore。"Yousee,itwouldbetoodaring。"
"Thenwhynotletherhavetheproofs?"
"Thethingissounprecedented——"
"Ourdoingitneedn’tformaprecedent。"
"No。"
"Andifyou’venodoubtofitsbeingatruecase——"
"Wemustprovethatitis,or,rather,wemustmakeherproveit。I
quitefeelwithyouaboutit。IfIweretoactuponmyownimpulse,myownconvictions,Ishouldsendhertherestofthestoryandtakethechances。Butshemaybeanenterprisingjournalistindisguiseit’sastonishingwhatwomenwilldowhentheytaketonewspaperwork——andwehavenorighttoriskanything,forthemagazine’ssake,ifnotyoursandmine。Willyouleavethisletterwithme?"
"Iexpectedtoleavethewholeaffairinyourhands。Doyoumindtellingmewhatyouproposetodo?Ofcourse,itwon’tbeanything——abrupt——"
"Ohno;andIdon’tmindtellingyouwhathasoccurredtome。Ifthisisatruecase,asyousay,andI’venoquestionbutitis,thewriterwillbeonconfidentialtermswithherpastoraswellasherdoctorandI
proposeaskinghertogethimtocertify,inanysortofgeneralterms,toheridentity。Iwilltreatthematterdelicately——Or,ifyouprefertowritetoheryourself——"
"Ohno,it’smuchbetterforyoutodoit;youcandoitauthoritatively。"
"Yes,andifsheisn’ttherealthing,butmerelyawomanjournalisttryingtoworkusfora’story’inherSundayedition,weshallhearnomorefromher。"
"Idon’tseeanythingtoobjecttoinyourplan,"Verriansaid,uponreflection。"Shecertainlycan’tcomplainofourbeingcautious。"
"No,andshewon’t。Ishallhavetoreferthemattertothehouse——"
"Oh,willyou?"
"Why,certainly!Icouldn’ttakeasteplikethatwithouttheapprovalofthehouse。"
"No,"Verrianassented,andhemadeanoteofthewriter’saddressfromtheletter。Then,afteramomentspentinlookinghardattheletter,hegaveitbacktotheeditorandwentabruptlyaway。
Hehadproof,thenextmorning,thattheeditorhadactedpromptly,atleastsofarasregardedthehouse。Thehousehadapprovedhisplan,ifonecouldtrusttheromanticparagraphwhichVerrianfoundinhispaperatbreakfast,exploitingthefactconcernedasoneoftheinterestingevidencesoftheholdhisserialhadgotwiththemagazinereaders。Herecognizedintheparagraphthetouchofthegoodfellowwhopreparedtheweeklybulletinsofthehouse,andofferedthepressliteraryintelligenceinaformreadyforimmediateuse。Thecasewasfairlystated,buttheprivacyoftheauthor’scorrespondentwasperfectlyguarded;itwasnotevenmadeknownthatshewasawoman。YetVerrianfelt,inreadingtheparagraph,ashockofguiltydismay,asifhehadbetrayedaconfidencereposedinhim,andhehandedthepaperacrossthetabletohismotherwithratherasicklook。
Afterhisreturnfromthemagazineofficethedaybefore,therehadbeenagooddealoftalkbetweenthemaboutthatgirl。Mrs。Verrianhadagreedwithhimthatnomoreinterestingeventcouldhavehappenedtoanauthor,butshehadtriedtokeephimfromtakingittoopersonally,andfrommakinghimselfmischievousillusionsfromit。Shehadsincesleptuponheranxieties,withtheeffectoffindingthemmorevividatwaking,andshehadbeencastingaboutforanopeningtopenetratehimwiththem,whenfortuneputthisparagraphinherway。
"Isn’titdisgusting?"heasked。"Idon’tseehowArmigercouldletthemdoit。Ihopetoheavenshe’llneverseeit!"
Hismotherlookedupfromtheparagraphandasked,"Why?"
"Whatwouldshethinkofme?"
"Idon’tknow。Shemighthaveexpectedsomethingofthekind。"
"Howexpectsomethingofthekind?AmIoneoftheself-advertisers?"
"Well,shemusthaverealizedthatshewasdoingratheraboldthing。"
"Bold?"
"Venturesome,"Mrs。Verriancompromisedtothekindlingangerinherson’seyes。
"Idon’tunderstandyou,mother。Ithoughtyouagreedwithmeaboutthewriterofthatletter——hersincerity,simplicity。"
"Sincerity,yes。Butsimplicity——Philip,athoroughlysingle-mindedgirlneverwrotethatletter。Youcan’tfeelsuchathingasIdo。
Amancouldn’t。Youcanpaintthecharacterofwomen,andyoudoitwonderfully——but,afterall,youcan’tknowthemasawomandoes。"
"Youtalk,"heanswered,alittlesulkily,"asifyouknewsomeharmofthegirl。"
"No,myson,Iknownothingabouther,exceptthatsheisnotsingle-
minded,andthereisnoharminnotbeingsingle-minded。Agreatmanysingle-mindedwomenarefools,andsomedouble-mindedwomenaregood。"
"Well,single-mindedordouble-minded,ifsheiswhatshesayssheis,whatmotiveonearthcouldshehaveinwritingtomeexceptthemotiveshegives?Youdon’tdenythatshetellsthetruthaboutherself?"
"Don’tIsaythatsheissincere?Butagirldoesn’talwaysknowherownmotives,orallofthem。Shemayhavewrittentoyoubecauseshewouldliketobeginacorrespondencewithanauthor。Orshemayhavedoneitoutoftheloveofexcitement。Orforthesakeofdistraction,togetawayfromherselfandhergloomyforebodings。"
"Andshouldyoublameherforthat?"
"No,Ishouldn’t。Ishouldpityherforit。But,allthesame,I
shouldn’twantyoutobetakeninbyher。"
"Youthink,then,shedoesn’tcareanythingaboutthestory?"
"Ithink,veryprobably,shecaresagreatdealaboutit。Sheisaseriousperson,intellectuallyatleast,anditisaseriousstory。Nowondershewouldliketoknow,atfirsthand,somethingaboutthemanwhowroteit。"
ThisflatteredVerrian,buthewouldnotallowitsreasonableness。Hetookagulpofcoffeebeforesaying,uncandidly,"Ican’tmakeoutwhatyou’redrivingat,mother。But,fortunately,there’snohurryaboutyourmeaning。Thething’sintheonlyshapewecouldpossiblygiveit,andI
amsatisfiedtoleaveitinArmiger’shands。I’mcertainhewilldealwiselywithit-andkindly。"
"Yes,I’msurehe’lldealkindly。Ishouldbeveryunhappyifhedidn’t。
Hecouldeasilydealmorewisely,though,thanshehas。"
Verrianchosenottofollowhismotherinthis。"Allis,"hesaid,withfinality,"Ihopeshe’llneverseethatloathsomeparagraph。"
"Oh,verylikelyshewon’t,"hismotherconsoledhim。
III。
OnlyfourdaysafterhehadseenArmiger,Verrianreceivedanenvelopecoveringabriefnotetohimselffromtheeditor,acopyoftheletterhehadwrittentoVerrian’sunknowncorrespondent,andheranswerintheoriginal。Verrianwasalonewhenthepostmanbroughthimthisenvelope,andhecouldindulgeacertainpassionformethodbywhichhereaditscontentsintheordernamed;ifhismotherhadbeenby,shewouldhavemadehimreadthegirl’sreplyfirstofall。Armigerwrote:
"MYDEARVERRIAN,——Ienclosetwoexhibitswhichwillpossessyouofallthefactsinthecaseoftheyoungladywhofearedshemightdiebeforeshereadtheendofyourstory,butwho,youwillbegladtofind,islikelytolivethroughtheyear。AsthestoryendsinourOctobernumber,sheneednotbesuppliedwithadvancesheets。Iamsorrythehousehurriedoutaparagraphconcerningthematter,butitwillnotbefollowedbyanother。Perhapsyouwillfeel,asIdo,thattheincidentisclosed。Ihavenotrepliedtothewriter,andyouneednotreturnherletter。Yoursever,"M。ARMIGER。"
Theeditor’slettertotheyoungladyread:
"DEARMADAM,——Mr。P。S。Verrianhashandedmeyourletterofthe4th,andIneednottellyouthatithasinterestedusboth。
"Iamalmostasmuchgratifiedashebythetestimonyyourrequestbearstotheimportanceofhiswork,andifIcouldhaveacteduponmyinstantfeelingIshouldhavehadnohesitationingrantingit,thoughitissoveryunusualastobe,inmyexperienceasaneditor,unprecedented。I
amsurethatyouwouldnothavemadeitsofranklyifyouhadnotbeenpreparedtoguardinreturnanyconfidenceplacedinyou;butyouwillrealizethatasyouarequiteunknowntous,weshouldnotbejustifiedintakingastepsounusualasyouproposewithouthavingsomeguaranteebesidesthatwhichMr。VerrianandIbothfeelfromthecharacterofyourletter。Simply,then,forpurposesofidentification,asthephraseis,Imustbegyoutoaskthepastorofyourchurch,or,betterstill,yourfamilyphysician,towriteyoualinesayingthatheknowsyou,asasortofletterofintroductiontome。ThenIwillsendyoutheadvanceproofsofMr。Verrian’sstory。Youmayliketoaddressmepersonallyinthecareofthemagazine,andnotastheeditor。
"Yoursveryrespectfully,"M。ARMIGER。"
Theeditor’sletterwasdatedthe6thofthemonth;theanswer,datedthe8th,betrayedtheanxioushasteofthewriterinreplying,anditwasnotherfaultifwhatshewrotecametoVerrianwhenhewasnolongerabletodojusticetoherconfession。Undertheaddressgiveninherfirstlettershenowbegan,in,ahandintowhichakindliereyemighthavereadapatheticperturbation:
"DEARSIR,——Ihavesomethingawfultotellyou。Imightwritepageswithoutmakingyouthinkbetterofme,andIwillletyouthinktheworstatonce。IamnotwhatIpretendedtobe。IwrotetoMr。VerriansayingwhatIdid,andaskingtoseetherestofhisstoryontheimpulseofthemoment。Ihadbeenreadingit,forIthinkitisperfectlyfascinating;
andafriendofmine,anothergirl,andIgottogethertryingtoguesshowhewouldendit,andwebegantodareeachothertowritetohimandask。Atfirstwedidnotdreamofdoingsuchathing,butwewenton,andjustforthefunofitwedrewlotstoseewhichshouldwritetohim。
Thelotfelltome;butwecomposedthatlettertogether,andweputinaboutmydyingforajoke。Weneverintendedtosendit;butthenonethingledtoanother,andIsigneditwithmyrealnameandwesentit。
Wedidnotreallyexpecttohearanythingfromit,forwesupposedhemustgetlotsoflettersabouthisstoryandneverpaidanyattentiontothem。WedidnotrealizewhatwehaddonetillIgotyourletteryesterday。Thenwesawitall,andeversincewehavebeentryingtothinkwhattodo,andIdonotbelieveeitherofushassleptamoment。
Wehavecometotheconclusionthattherewasonlyonethingwecoulddo,andthatwastotellyoujustexactlyhowithappenedandtaketheconsequences。Butthereisnoreasonwhymorethanonepersonshouldbebroughtintoit,andsoIwillnotletmyfriendsignthisletterwithme,butIwillputmyownnamealonetoit。Youmaynotthinkitismyrealname,butitis;youcanfindoutbywritingtothepostmasterhere。
Idonotknowwhetheryouwillpublishitasafraudforthewarningofothers,butIshallnotblameyouifyoudo。Ideserveanything。
Yourstruly,"JERUSHAPEREGRINEBROWN。"
IfVerrianhadbeenanoldermanlifemighthavesuppliedhimwiththemeansofjudgingthewriterofthisletter。Buthisexperienceasanauthorhadnotbeenverygreat,andsuchasitwasithadhardenedandsharpenedhim。Therewasnothingwildorwhirlinginhismood,butinthedeadlyhurtwhichhadbeeninflicteduponhisvanityhecoldlyandcarefullystudiedwhatdeadlierhurthemightinflictagain。Hewasofthecruellerintentbecausehehadnotknownhowmuchofpersonalvanitytherewasintheseriousnesswithwhichhetookhimselfandhiswork。Hehadsupposedthathewasrespectinghisethicsandaesthetics,hisidealofconductandofart,butnowitwasbroughthometohimthathewasswollenwiththeconceitofhisownperformance,andthat,howeverwellothersthoughtofit,hisownthoughtofitfaroutrantheirwilltohonorit。Hewishedtorevengehimselfforthisconsciousnessaswellastheoffenceofferedhim;ofthetwotheconsciousnesswasthemoredisagreeable。
Hismother,dressedforthestreet,cameinwherehesatquietathisdesk,withtheeditor’slettersandthegirl’sbeforehim,andhemutelyreferredthemtoherwithahandliftedoverhisshoulder。Shereadthem,andthenshesaid,"Thisishardtobear,Philip。IwishIcouldbearitforyou,oratleastwithyou;butI’mlateformyengagementwithMrs。Alfred,asitis——No,IwilltelephoneherI’mdetainedandwe’lltalkitover——"
"No,no!Notonanyaccount!I’dratherthinkitoutformyself。Youcouldn’thelpme。Afterall,ithasn’tdonemeanyharm——"
"Andyou’vehadagreatescape!AndIwon’tsayawordmorenow,butI’llbebacksoon,andthenwe——Oh,I’msosorryI’mgoing。"
Verriangavealaugh。"Youcouldn’tdoanythingifyoustayed,mother。
Dogo!"
"Well——"Shelookedathim,smoothinghermuffwithherhandamoment,andthenshedroppedafondkissonhischeekandobeyedhim。
IV
Verrianstillsatathisdesk,thinking,withhisburningfaceinhishands。Itwascoveredwithshameforwhathadhappenedtohim,buthishumiliationhadnoqualityofpityinit。Hemustwritetothatgirl,andwriteatonce,andhissolehesitationwasastotheformheshouldgivehisreply。HecouldnotaddressherasDearMissBrownorasDearMadam。EvenMadamwasnotsharpandforbiddingenough;besides,Madam,aloneorwiththesenselessprefix,wasarchaic,andVerrianwishedtobeverymodernwiththismostoffensiveinstanceofthelatestgirl。
Hedecidedupondealingwithherinthethirdperson,andtrustingtohisliteraryskilltokeeptheformfromclumsiness。
Hetrieditinthatform,anditwassimplydisgusting,theattitudestiffandswelling,andthedictionaffectedandunnatural。Withaquickreversiontotheimpossiblefirsttype,herecasthisletterinwhatwasnowtheonlypossibleshape。
"MYDEARMISSBROWN,——TheeditoroftheAmericanMiscellanyhassentmeacopyofhisrecentlettertoyouandyourownreply,andhasremandedtomeanaffairwhichresultedfrommygoingtohimwithyourrequesttoseethecloseofmystorynowpublishinginhismagazine。
"Aftergivingthemattermybestthought,Ihaveconcludedthatitwillbewelltoenclosealltheexhibitstoyou,andInowdothisinthehopethataseriousstudyofthemwillenableyoutosharemysurpriseatthemoralandsocialconditionsinwhichthebusinesscouldoriginate。Iwillinglyleavewithyouthequestionwhichisthemoretrustworthy,yourlettertomeoryourlettertohim,orwhichthemoretrulyrepresentstheinterestingdiversityofyournature。Iconfessthatthefirstmovedmemorethanthesecond,andIdonotseewhyIshouldnottellyouthatassoonasIhadyourrequestIwentwithittoMr。ArmigeranddidwhatIcouldtoprompthiscompliancewithit。Inputtingthesepapersoutofmyhands,IoughttoacknowledgethattheyhaveformedatemptationtomakeliteraryuseoftheaffairwhichIshallnowbethebetterfittedtoresist。Youwill,ofcourse,beamusedbytheeasewithwhichyoucouldabusemyrelianceonyourgoodfaith,andIamsureyouwillnotallowanyshameforyourtricktoqualifyyourpleasureinitssuccess。
"Itwillnotbenecessaryforyoutoacknowledgethisletteranditsenclosures。Iwillregisterthepackage,sothatitwillnotfailtoreachyou,andIwillreturnanyanswerofyoursunopened,or,ifnotrecognizablyaddressed,thenunread。
"Yourssincerely,"P。S。VERRIAN。"
Hereadandreadagaintheselines,withonlythesenseoftheirinsufficiencyindoingtheeffectofthebitternessinhisheart。Iftheletterwasinsulting,itwasbynomeansasinsultingashewouldhavelikedtomakeit。Whetheritwouldbewoundingenoughwassomethingthatdependeduponthepersonwhomhewishedtowound。Allthatwasproudandvainandcruelinhimsurgedupatthethoughtofthetrickthathadbeenplayeduponhim,andallthatwassweetandkindandgentleinhim,whenhebelievedthetrickwasagenuineappeal,turnedtotheircounterqualities。Yet,feebleandinadequateashisletterwas,heknewthathecouldnotdomoreorworsebytrying,andhesomuchfearedthatbywaitinghemightdolessandbetterthathehurrieditintothepostatonce。Ifhismotherhadbeenathandhewouldhaveshownither,thoughhemightnothavebeenruledbyherjudgmentofit。Hewasgladthatshewasnotwithhim,foreithershewouldhavehadheropinionofwhatwouldbemoretelling,orshewouldhaveinsisteduponhisdelayinganysortofreply,andhecouldnotendurethethoughtofdifferenceordelay。
Heaskedhimselfwhetherheshouldletherseetheroughfirstdraftofhisletterornot,andhedecidedthathewouldnot。Butwhenshecameintohisstudyonherreturnheshowedither。
Shereaditinsilence,andthensheseemedtotemporizeinasking,"Wherearehertwoletters?"
"I’vesentthembackwiththeanswer。"
Hismotherletthepaperdropfromherhands。"Philip!Youhaven’tsentthis!"
"Yes,Ihave。Itwasn’twhatIwantedtomakeit,butIwishedtogetthedetestableexperienceoutofmymind,anditwasthebestIcoulddoatthemoment。Don’tyoulikeit?"
"Oh——"Sheseemedbeginningtosaysomething,butwithoutsayinganythingshetookthefallenleafupandreaditagain。
"Well!"hedemanded,withimpatience。
"Oh,youmayhavebeenright。Ihopeyou’venotbeenwrong。"
"Mother!"
"Shedeservedtheseverestthingsyoucouldsay;andyet——"
"Well?"
"Perhapsshewaspunishedenoughalready。"
"Whatdoyoumean?"
"Idon’tlikeyourbeing-vindictive。"
"Vindictive?"
"Beingsoterriblyjust,then。"Sheadded,athisblankstare,"Thisiskilling,Philip。"
Hegaveabitterlaugh。"Idon’tthinkitwillkillher。Sheisn’tthatkind。"
"She’sagirl,"hismothersaid,withakindofsadabsence。
"Butnotasingle-mindedgirl,youwarnedme。IwishIcouldhavetakenyourwarning。ItwouldhavesavedmefromplayingthefoolbeforemyselfandgivingmyselfawaytoArmiger,andlettinghimgivehimselfaway。
Idon’tthinkMissBrownwillsuffermuchbeforeshedies。Shewill’gettogether,’asshecallsit,withthatothergirlandhave’arealgoodtime’overit。Youknowthevillagetypeandthevillageconditions,wherethevulgarignoranceofanylargerworldissothickyoucouldcutitwithaknife。Don’tbetroubledbymyvindictivenessormyjustice,mother!IbegintothinkIhavedonejusticeandnotfallenshortofit,asIwasafraid。"
Mrs。Verriansighed,andagainshegavehisletterbacktoherson。
"Perhapsyouareright,Philip。Sheisprobablysotoughasnottofeelitverypainfully。"
"She’snotsotoughbutshe’llbeverygladtogetoutofitsolightly。
Shehashadausefulscare,andI’vedoneherafavorinmakingthescareasharpone。Isuppose,"Verrianmused,"thatshethinksI’vekeptcopiesofherletters。"
"Yes。Whydidn’tyou?"hismotherasked。
Verrianlaughed,onlyalittlelessbitterlythanbefore。"Ishallbegintobelieveyou’reallalike,mother。
Ididn’tkeepcopiesofherlettersbecauseIwantedtogetherandherlettersoutofmymind,finallyandforever。Besides,Ididn’tchoose。
toemulateherduplicitybyanysortofdissimulation。
"Iseewhatyoumean,"hismothersaid。"And,ofcourse,youhavetakentheonlyhonorableway。"
Thentheywerebothsilentforatime,thinkingtheirseveralthoughts。
Verrianbrokethesilencetosay,"IwishIknewwhatsortof’othergirl’itwasthatshe’gottogetherwith。’"
"Why?"
"Becauseshewroteamorecultivatedletterthanthismagnanimouscreaturewhotakesalltheblametoherself。"
"Thenyoudon’tbelievethey’reboththesame?"
"Theyareboththesameinstationeryandchirography,butnotinliterature。"
"Ihopeyouwon’tgettothinkingabouther,then,"hismotherentreated,intelligiblybutnotdefinitely。
"Notseriously,"Verrianreassuredher。"I’vehadmymedicine。"
V。
Continuityissomuchthelessonofexperiencethatinthecourseofalifebynomeanslongitbecomestheinstinctiveexpectation。Theeventthathashappenedwillhappenagain;itwillprolongitselfinaseriesofrecurrencesbywhicheachone’sepisodesharesintheunendinghistoryofall。Thesenseofthisissopervasivethathumanityrefusestoacceptdeathitselfasfinal。Intheagonizedaffections,theshatteredhopes,ofthosewhoremain,theseveredlifekeepsonunbrokenly,andwhentimeandreasonprevail,atleastastothelifehere,thedefeatedfaithappealsforfulfilmenttoanotherworld,andthebeliefofimmortalityholdsagainstthemyriadyearsinwhichnoneofthenumberlessdeadhavemadeanindisputablesigninwitnessofit。Thelostlimbstillreportsitssensationstothebrain;thefixedhabitmechanicallyattemptsitsrepetitionwhentheconditionsrenderitimpossible。
Verrianwasawarehowdeeplyandabsorbinglyhehadbroodedupontheincidentwhichhehaddonehisutmosttoclose,whenhefoundhimselfexpectingananswerofsomesortfromhisunknowncorrespondent。Heperceived,then,withoutowningthefact,thathehadreallyhopedforsomeprotest,someexcuse,someextenuation,whichintheendwouldsufferhimtobemoremerciful。Thoughhehadwishedtocrushherintosilence,andtoforbidherallhopeofhisforgiveness,hehad,inamanner,notmeanttodoit。Hehadkeptasecretplaceinhissoulwherethesinneragainsthimcouldfindrefugefromhisjustice,andwhenthissanctuaryremainedunattemptedhefoundhimselfwitharegretthathehadbarredthewaytoitsoeffectually。Theregretwassovague,soformless,however,thathecouldtacitlydenyittohimselfatalltimes,andexplicitlydenyittohismotheratsuchtimesashertouchtaughthimthatitwastangible。
Oneday,aftertenortwelvedayshadgoneby,sheaskedhim,"Youhaven’theardanythingmorefromthatgirl?"
"Whatgirl?"hereturned,asifhedidnotknow;andhefrowned。"Youmeanthegirlthatwrotemeaboutmystory?"
Hecontinuedtofrownrathermoredarkly。"Idon’tseehowyoucouldexpectmetohearfromher,afterwhatIwrote。But,tobecategorical,Ihaven’t,mother。"
"Oh,ofcoursenot。Didyouthinkshewouldbesoeasilysilenced?"
"IdidwhatIcouldtocrushherintosilence。"
"Yes,andyoudidquiteright;Iammoreandmoreconvincedofthat。Butsuchaverytoughyoungpersonmighthaverefusedtostaycrushed。Shemightverynaturallyhavegotherselfintoshapeagainandsmoothedoutthecreases,atleastsofartotrysomefurtherdefence。"
"Itseemsthatshehasn’t,"Verriansaid,stilldarkly,butnotsofrowningly。
"Ishouldhavefancied,"hismothersuggested,"thatifshehadwantedtoopenacorrespondencewithyou——ifthatwasheroriginalobject——shewouldnothaveletitdropsoeasily。"
"Hassheletitdropeasily?IthoughtIhadlefthernopossiblechanceofresumingit。"
"Thatistrue,"hismothersaid,andforthetimeshesaidnomoreaboutthematter。
NotlongafterthishecamehomefromthemagazineofficeandreportedtoherfromArmigerthatthestorywascatchingonmoreandmorewiththebestclassofreaders。TheeditorhadshownVerriansomereferencestoitinnewspapersofgoodstandingandseverallettersaboutit。
"Ithoughtyoumightliketolookattheletters,"Verriansaid,andhetooksomelettersfromhispocketandhandedthemtoheracrossthelunch-table。Shedidnotimmediatelylookatthem,becausehewentontoaddsomethingthattheybothfelttobemoreimportant。"Armigersaystherehasbeensomeincreaseofthesales,whichIcanattributetomystoryifIhavethecheek。"
"Thatisgood。"
"Andthehousewantstopublishthebook。Theythink,downthere,thatitwillhaveaveryprettysuccess——notbeabigseller,ofcourse,butsomethingcomfortable。"
Mrs。Verrian’seyesweresuffusedwithprideandfondness。"Andyoucanalwaysthink,Philip,thatthishascometoyouwithouttheleastloweringofyourstandard,withoutforsakingyouridealforamoment。"
"Thatiscertainlyasatisfaction。"
Shekeptherproudandtendergazeuponhim。"NoonewilleverknowasI
dohowfaithfulyouhavebeentoyourart。Didanyofthenewspapersrecognizethat——orsurmiseit,orsuspectit?"
"No,thatisn’ttheturntheytake。Theyspeakofthestrongloveinterestinvolvedintheproblem。Andtheabundanceofincident。
Ilookedouttokeepsomethinghappening,youknow。I’msorryIdidn’taskArmigertoletmebringthenoticeshometoyou。I’mnotsurethatI
didwiselynottosubscribetothatpress-clippingsbureau。"
Hismothersmiled。"Youmustn’tletprosperitycorruptyou,Philip。
Wouldn’tseeingwhatthepressissayingofitdistractyoufromtherealaimyouhadinyourstory?"
"We’reallweak,ofcourse。Itmight,ifthestorywerenotfinished;
butasitis,IthinkIcouldbeproofagainstthestupidestpraise。"
"Well,formypart,I’mgladyoudidn’tsubscribetotheclippingsbureau。Itwouldhavebeenadisturbingelement。"Shenowlookeddownatthelettersasifsheweregoingtotakethemup,andhefollowedthedirectionofhereyes。Asifremindedofthefactbythis,hesaid:
"ArmigeraskedmeifIhadeverheardanythingmorefromthatgirl。"
"Hashe?"hismothereagerlyasked,transferringherglancefromtheletterstoherson’sface。
"Notaword。IthinkIsilencedherthoroughly。"
"Yes,"hismothersaid。"Therecouldhavebeennogoodobjectinprolongingtheaffairandlettingherconfirmherselfinthenotionthatshewasofsufficientimportanceeithertoyouortohimforyoutocontinuethecorrespondencewithher。Shecouldn’tlearntoodistinctlythatshehaddone——averywrongthingintryingtoplaysuchatrickonyou。"
"ThatwasthewayIlookedatit,"Verriansaid,buthedrewalightsigh,ratherwearily。
"Ihope,"hismothersaid,witharecurrentglanceattheletters,"thatthereisnothingofthatsillykindamongthese。"
"No,theseareblamelessenough,unlesstheyaretobeblamedforbeingtooflattering。Thatgirlseemstobesoleofherkind,unlessthegirlthatshe’gottogetherwith’wasreallylikeher。"
"Idon’tbelievetherewasanyothergirl。Ineverthoughttherewasmorethanone。"
"Thereseemedtobetwostylesandtwogradesofculture,suchastheywere。"
"Oh,shecouldeasilyimitatetwomanners。Shemusthavebeenaclevergirl,"Mrs。Verriansaid,withthatadmirationforanysortofclevernessinhersexwhichevenverygoodwomencannothelpfeeling。
"Well,perhapsshewaspunishedenoughforboththecharacterssheassumed,"Verriansaid,withasmilethatwasnotgay。
"Don’tthinkabouther!"hismotherreturned,withaperceptionofhismood。"I’monlythankfulthatshe’soutofourlivesineverysortofway。"
VI。
Verriansaidnothing,buthereflectedwithasortofgloomyamusementhowimpossibleitwasforanywoman,evenawomansowide-mindedandhigh-principledashismother,toescapethepersonalviewofallthingsandallpersonswhichwomentake。Hetacitlynotedthefact,asthenovelistnoteswhateverhappensorappearstohim,buthelettheoccasiondropoutofhismindassoonashecouldafterithaddroppedoutofhistalk。
Thenightwhenthelastnumberofhisstorycametotheminthemagazine,andwasalreadyannouncedasabook,hesatupwithhismothercelebrating,ashesaid,andexultinginthefutureaswellasthepast。
Theyhadalittlesupper,whichshecookedforhiminachafing-dish,inthedining-roomofthetinyapartmentwheretheylivedtogether,andshemadesomecoffeeafterwards,tocarryofftheeffectoftheNewburglobster。Perhapsbecausetherewasnothingtocarryofftheeffectofthecoffee,heheardher,throughthepartitionoftheirrooms,stirringrestlesslyafterhehadgonetobed,andalittlelatershecametohisdoor,whichshesetajar,toask,"Areyouawake,Philip?"
"Youseemtobe,mother,"heanswered,withanamusementatherquestionwhichseemednottohaveimparteditselftoherwhenshecameinandstoodbesidehisbedinherdressing-gown。
"Youdon’tthinkwehavejudgedhertooharshly,Philip?"
"Doyou,mother?"
"No,Ithinkwecouldn’tbetoosevereinathinglikethat。Sheprobablythoughtyouwerelikesomeoftheotherstory-writers;shecouldn’tfeeldifferences,shades。Shepretendedtobetakenwiththecircumstancesofyourwork,butshehadtodothatifshewantedtofoolyou。Well,shehasgothercome-uppings,asshewouldprobablysay。"
Verrianreplied,thoughtfully,"Shedidn’tstrikemeasacountryperson——atleast,inherfirstletter。"
"Thenyoustillthinkshedidn’twriteboth?"
"Ifshedid,shewastryingherhandinapersonalityshehadinvented。"
"Girlsareverystrange,"hismothersighed。"Theylikeexcitement,adventure。It’sverydullinthoselittleplaces。Ishouldn’twishyoutothinkanyharmofthepoorthing。"
"Poorthing?Whythismagnanimouscompassion,mother?"
"Oh,nothing。ButIknowhowIwasmyselfwhenIwasagirl。Iusedalmosttodieofhungerforsomethingtohappen。Canyourememberjustwhatyousaidinyourletter?"
Verrianlaughed。"NO,Ican’t。ButIdon’tbelieveIsaidhalfenough。
You’renervous,mother。"
"Yes,Iam。Butdon’tyougettoworrying。ImerelygottothinkinghowIshouldhatetohaveanybody’sunhappinessmixedupwiththishappinessofours。Idosowantyourpleasureinyoursuccesstobepure,nottaintedwiththepainofanyhumancreature。"
Verrianansweredwithlightcynicism:"Itwillbetaintedwiththepainofthefellowswhodon’tlikeme,orwhohaven’tsucceeded,andthey’lltakecaretoletmesharetheirpainifevertheycan。Butifyoumeanthatmerrymaidenupcountry,she’sprobablythinking,ifshethinksaboutitatall,thatshe’stheluckiestgirlintheUnitedStatestohavegotoutofanawfulscrapesoeasily。Attheworst,Ionlyhadfunwithherinmyletter。Probablysheseesthatshehasnothingtogrieveforbutherownbreak。"
"No,andyoudidjustasyoushouldhavedone;andIamgladyoudon’tfeelbitterlyaboutit。Youdon’t,doyou?"
"Nottheleast。"
Hismotherstoopedoverandkissedhimwherehelaysmiling。"Well,that’sgood。Afterall,it’syouIcaredfor。NowIcansaygood-
night。"Butshelingeredtotuckhiminalittle,fromthepersistenceofthemotherhabit。"Iwishyoumayneverdoanythingthatyouwillbesorryfor。"
"Well,Iwon’t——ifit’sagoodaction。"
Theylaughedtogether,andshelefttheroom,stilllookingbacktoseeiftherewasanythingmoreshecoulddoforhim,whilehelaysmiling,intelligentlyforwhatshewasthinking,andpatientlyforwhatshewasdoing。
VII。
Eveninthetimewhichwasthencomingandwhichnowis,whensuccessfulauthorsarealmostasmanyasmillionaires,Verrian’sbookbroughthimaprettycelebrity;andthiscelebritywasinawayspecific。Itrelatedtothequalityofhiswork,whichwasquietlyartisticandpsychological,whateverlivelinessofincidentitutteredonthesurface。Hebelongedtothegoodschoolwhichisofnofashionandofeverytime,farbothfromactualityandunreality;andhisrecognitioncamefrompeoplewhoserecognitionwasworthhaving。Withthiscamethewidernoticewhichwasnotworthhaving,likethenoticeofMrs。Westangle,sincesowellknowntosocietyreportersasasocietywoman,whichcouldnotbecalledrecognitionofhim,becauseitdidnotinvolveanyknowledgeofhisbook,notevenitstitle。Shedidnotreadanysortofbooks,andsheassimilatedhimbyasortofatmosphericsense。Shewassureofnothingbuttheattentionpaidhiminacertainverygoodishhouse,bypeoplewhomsheheardtalkinginunintelligiblebutunmistakablepraise,whenshesaid,casually,withaliquidglitterofhersweet,smalleyes,"Iwishyouwouldcomedowntomyplace,Mr。Verrian。I’maskingafewyoungpeopleforChristmasweek。Willyou?"
"Why,thankyou——thankyouverymuch,"Verriansaid,waitingtohearmoreinexplanationofthehospitalitylaunchedathim。HehadneverseenMrs。Westangletillthen,orheardofher,andhehadnottheleastnotionwhereshelived。Butsheseemedtohavesocialauthority,thoughVerrian,inlookingroundathishostessandherdaughter,whostoodnear,lettingpeopletakeleave,learnednothingfromtheircommonsmile。
Mrs。Westanglehadglidedclosetohim,inthewayshehadofgettingverynearwithoutapparentlyhavingadvancedbysteps,andshestoodgleamingandtwitteringupathim。
"Ishallsendyoualittlenote;Iwon’tletyouforget,"shesaid。Thenshesuddenlyshookhandswiththeladiesofthehouseandwasflashinglygone。
Verrianthoughthemightaskthedaughterofthehouse,"AndifIdon’tforget,amIengagedtospendChristmasweekwithher?"
Thegirllaughed。"Ifshedoesn’tforget,youare。Butyou’llhaveagoodtime。She’llknowhowtomanagethat。"Otherguestskeptcominguptotakeleave,andVerrian,whodidnotwanttogojustyet,wasretiredtothebackground,wherethegirl’svoice,thrownoverhershoulderathim,reachedhiminthewords,asgayasiftheywerethebestofthejoke,"It’sontheSound。"
TheinferencewasthatMrs。Westangle’splacewasontheSound;andthatwasallVerrianknewaboutittillhegotherlittlenote。Mrs。
Westangleknewhowtowriteinaformlesshand,butshedidnotknowhowtospell,andshehadthoughtitbesttohaveasecretarywhocouldwritewellandspellcorrectly。Though,asfarasliteracywasconcerned,shewassuchanalmostincomparablyignorantwoman,shehadalltheknowledgethebestsocietywants,or,ifshefoundherselfoutofany,shewentandboughtsome;shewasabletobuyalmostanything。
Verrianthankedthesecretaryforrememberinghim,inthebeliefthathewasdirectlythankingMrs。Westangle,whosewidespreadconsciousnesshishappinessinacceptingdidnotimmediatelyreach;andintheverylargehouseparty,whichhedulyjoinedunderherroof,hewasawareoflosingdistinctivenessalmosttothepointoflosingidentity。ThisdidnotquitehappenonthewaytoBelford,for,whenhewenttotakehisseatinthedrawing-roomcar,agirlinthechairfrontinghimputoutherhandwiththelaughofMissMacroyd。
"Shedidrememberyou!"shecriedout。"Howdelightful!Idon’tseehowsheevergotontoyou"——shemadetheslangherown——"inthefirstplace,andshemusthaveworkedhardtobesureofyousince。"
Verrianhunguphiscoatandputhissuit-casebehindhischair,theporterhavingputitwherehecouldnotwheelhimselfvis-a-viswiththegirl。"Shetookallthetimetherewas,"heanswered。"Igotmyinvitationonlythedaybeforeyesterday,andifIhadbeeninmoredemand,orhadaworseconscience——"
"Oh,dosayworseconscience!It’ssomuchmoreinteresting,"thegirlbrokein。
"——Ishouldn’thavethepleasureofgoingtoSeasandswithyounow,"heconcluded,andshegaveherlaugh。"DoIunderstandthatsimplymygrowingfamewouldn’thaveprevailedwithher?"
AnythingseemedtomakeMissMacroydlaugh。"Shecouldn’thavecaredaboutthat,andshewouldn’thaveknown。Youmaybesurethatitwasasocialquestionwithherafterthepersonalquestionwassettled。Shemusthavelikedyourlooks!"AgainMissMacroydlaughed。
"OnthatsideI’minvulnerable。It’sonlyaliteraryvanitytobesoothedortobewoundedthatIhave,"Verriansaid。
"Oh,therewouldn’tbeanythingpersonalinherlikingyourlooks。Itwouldbemerelydecidingthatpersonallyyouwoulddo,"MissMacroydlaughed,asalways,andVerrianputonamockseriousnessinasking:
"ThenIneedn’tbeseriousifthereshouldhappentobeanythingsoWestangularasaMr。Westangle?"
"Nottheleastintheworld。"
"Butthereissomething?"
"Oh,Ibelieveso。ButnotprobablyatSeasands。"
"Isthatherhouse?"
"Yes。Everyothernamehadbeenused,andshecouldn’tsaySoundsands。"
"ThenwherewouldtheMr。Westangularpartmoreprobablybefound?"
"Oh,inMontanaorMesopotamia,oranyofthoseplaces。Don’tyouknowabouthim?Howignorantliterarypeoplecanbe!Why,hewastheAmalgamatedClothespin。Youhaven’theardofthat?"
Shewentontotellhim,withgaydigressions,abouttheinventionwhichenabledWestangletobuyuptheotherclothes-pinsandmergetheminhisown——tobecomeacommercialoctopus,clutchingthethroatsofotherclothespininventorsinthetentaclesoftheWestanglepin。"Butheisn’tinclothespinsnow。He’sinmines,andbanks,andsteamboats,andrailroads,andIdon’tknowwhatall;andMrs。Westangle,thesecondofhername,neverwasinclothespins。"
MissMacroydlaughedallthroughhertalk,andshewasinafinalburstoflaughingwhenthetrainslowedintoStamford。Thereagirlcameintothecartrailingherskirtswithasortofvividdebilityandoverturningsomeminorpiecesofhand-baggagewhichherdraperiessweptoutoftheirshelterbesidethechairs。Shehadtotakeoneoftheseatswhichbackagainstthewallofthestate-room,whereshemustfacethewholelengthofthecar。Shesatweaklyfallenbackinthechairandmotionless,asifalmostunconscious;butafterthetrainhadbeguntostirshestartedup,andwithaquickflingingofherveilasideturnedtolookoutofthewindow。IntheflyinginstantVerriansawacolorlessfacewithpinchedandsunkeneyesunderaworn-lookingforehead,andawitheredmouthwhoselipspartedfeebly。
Onherpart,MissMacroydhaddoubtlessalreadynotedthatthegirlwas,withnoshowofexpensiveness,authoritativelywellgownedandpersonallyhatted。Shestaredather,andsaid,"Whataveryhuntedandescapingeffect。"
"Shedoeslookrather-fugitive,"Verrianagreed,staringtoo。
"Onemightalmostfancy——anasylum。"
"Yes,orahospital。"
Theycontinuedbothtostareather,helplessforwhateverdifferentreasonstotaketheireyesaway,andtheywerestillinterestedinherwhentheyheardheraskingtheconductor,"MustIchangeandtakeanothertrainbeforewegettoBelford?Myfriendsthought——"
"No,thistrainstopsatSouthfield,"theconductoranswered,absentlybitingseveralholesintoherdrawing-roomticket。
"Canshebeoneofus?"MissMacroyddemanded,inadramaticwhisper。
"Shemightbeanything,"Verrianreturned,tryinginstantly,withawhirofhisinventivemachinery,tophraseher。Hemadeasortofluxuriousfailureofit,andrestedcontentwithherface,whichshoweditselfnowinprofileandnowfrontedhiminfull,andnowwasrestlessandnowsubsidedinalookofdelicateexhaustion。Hewouldhavesaid,ifhewouldhavesaidanythingabsolute,thatshewasapersonwhohadsomethingonhermind;atinstantsshehadthathuntedair,passingatotherinstantsintothatairofescape。HediscussedtheseappearanceswithMissMacroyd,butfoundhertoofranklydisputatious;andshelaughedtoomuchandtooloud。
VIII。
AtSouthfield,wheretheyalldescended,MissMacroydpromptlypossessedherselfofagroom,whocameforwardtentatively,touchinghishat。
"MissMacroyd?"shesuggested。
"Yes,miss,"themansaid,andledthewayroundthestationtothevictoriawhich,whenMissMacroyd’smaidhadmountedtotheplacebesideher,hadnoroom;foranyoneelse。
VerrianaccountedforheractivityuponthetheoryofherquitejustifiablewishnottoarriveatSeasandswithayoungmanwhomshemightthenhavetheeffectofhavingvoluntarilycomeallthewaywith;
andafteroneortwocircuitsofthestationitwasapparenttohimthathewasnottohavebeensentforfromMrs。Westangle’s,buttohavebeenlefttothechancesofthelocaldriversandtheirvehicles。Thesewerereducedtoasinglecarryallandafrowsyhorsewhoseroughwintercoatrecalledtheaspectofhisspeciesintheperiodfollowingtheglacialepoch。Themud,asofaworld-thaw,encrustedthewheelsandcurtainsofthecarryall。
Verrianseizeduponitandthenwentintothewaiting-room,wherehehadlefthissuit-case。Hefoundthestrangerthereinparleywiththeyoungwomanintheticket-officeaboutaconveyancetoMrs。Westangle’s。Itprovedthathehadsecurednotonlytheonlythingofthesort,buttheonlypresenthopeofanyother,andinthehardcasehecouldnothesitatewithdistresssointeresting。Itwouldhavebeenbrutaltodriveoffandleavethatgirlthere,anditwouldhavebeenavulgarflourishtoputtheentirevehicleatherservice。Besides,andperhapsaboveall,Verrianhadnoideaofdeprivinghimselfofsuchachanceasheavenseemedtoofferhim。
Headvancedwiththedelicacyofthehighest-bredherohecouldimagine,andsaid,"IamgoingtoMrs。Westangle’s,andI’mafraidI’vegottheonlyconveyance——suchasitis。Ifyouwouldletmeofferyouhalfofit?Mr。Verrian,"headded,atthelightofacceptanceinstantlykindlinginherface,whichflushedthinly,aswithanafterglowofinvalidism。
"Why,thankyou;I’mafraidImust,Mr。Merriam,"andVerrianwasawareofbeingvexedatherfailuretocatchhisname;thenameofVerrianoughttohavebeenunmistakable。"Theyoungladyintheofficesaystherewon’tbeanother,andI’mexpectedpromptly。"Sheadded,withalittletremorofthelip,"Idon’tunderstandwhyMrs。Westangle——"
Butthenshestopped。
Verrianinterpretedforher:"Thesea-horsesmusthavegivenoutatSeasands。Orprobablythere’ssomemistake,"andhereflectedbitterlyupontheselfishnessofMissMacroydingrabbingthatvictoriaforherselfandhermaid,notconsideringthatshecouldnotknow,andhasnobusinesstoask,whetherthisgirlwasgoingtoMrs。Westangle’s,too。
"Haveyouacheck?"heasked。"Ithinkourdrivercouldfindroomforsomethingbesidesmyvalise。OrIcouldhaveitcome——"
"Notatall,"thegirlsaid。"Isentmytrunkaheadbyexpress。"
Afrowsyman,tomatchthefrowsyhorse,lookedinimpatiently。"Anyotherbaggage?"
"No,"Verriananswered,andheledthewayoutafterthevanishingdriver。"Ourchariotisbackhereinhiding,Miss——"
"Shirley,"shesaid,andtrailedbeforehimthroughthedoorheopened。
Hefeltthathedidnotdoitasamanoftheworldwouldhavedoneit,andinputtingherintotheramshacklecarryallheknewthathehadnotthegraceofthesortofmanwhodoesnothingelse。ButMissShirleyseemedtohavegraceenough,ofafeebleandbrokensort,forboth,andheresolvedtosupplyhisownlackwithsincerity。Hethereforesethisjawfirmlyandmadeitsupperanglesjutsharplythroughhisclean-shavencheeks。ItwaswellthatMissShirleyhadsomebeautytospare,too,forVerrianhadscarcelyenoughforhimself。Suchdistinctionashehadwasfromasortofintellectualtensenesswhichshowedratherinthegauntformsofhisfacethaninthegrayeyes,heavilylashedaboveandbelow,andlookingseriousbutdullwiththeirrank,blackbrows。HewaschewingacudofbitternessintheaccusalhemadehimselfofhavingforcedMissShirleytogivehername;butwiththatinterestingpersonalityathisside,underthesametatteredandill-scentedJapanesegoat-skin,hecouldnotrefusetobeglad,withallhisself-blame。
"I’mafraidit’sratheralongdrive-foryou,MissShirley,"heventured,withaglanceatherface,whichlookedverylittleunderherhat。"Thedriversaysit’sfivemilesroundthroughthemarshes。"
"Oh,Ishallnotmind,"shesaid,courageously,ifnotcheerfully,andhedidnotfeelauthorizedfurthertorecognizethefactthatshewasaninvalid,oratbestaconvalescent。
"Thesewintrytree-formsarefine,though,"hefoundhimselfobligedtoconcludehisapology,ratherirrelevantly,asthewheelsoftherattling,andtiltingcarryallcrunchedthesurfaceoftheroadinthesuccessionofjerksrespondingtothealternatewalkandgallopofthehorse。
"Yes,theyare,"MissShirleyanswered,lookingaroundwithacertainsurprise,asifseeingthemnowforthefirsttime。"Somuchvarietyofcolor;andthatburnishedlookthatsomeofthemhave。"Thetrees,farandnear,weregivingtheirtonesandlustresinthelowDecembersun。
"Yes,"hesaid,"it’sdecidedlymorerefinedthantheautumnalcoloringwebragof。"
"Itis,"sheapproved,aswithnovelconviction。"Thelandscapeisreallybeautiful。Soniceandflat,"sheadded。
Hetookherintention,andhesaid,ashecranedhisneckoutofthecarryalltoincludethenearerroadsidestretches,withtheirlowbushesliftingintoremotertrees,"It’srestfulinawaythatneitherthemountainsnorthesea,quitemanage。"
"Ohyes,"shesighed,withakindofwearinesswhichexplaineditselfinwhatsheadded:"It’sthekindofthingyou’dliketohavekeeponandon。"Sheseemedtosaythatmoretoherselfthantohim,andhiseyesquestionedher。Shesmiledslightlyinexplaining:"IsupposeIfinditallthemorebeautifulbecausethisismyfirstreallookintotheworldaftersixmonthsindoors。"
"Oh!"hesaid,andtherewasnodoubtapromptinginhistone。
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