IamtogivelessonsinEnglishandLatintotheyoungerdaughter,too,butIshallhavealittletimetomyself,andIshallbeearningfiftydollarsamonth!Doesn’tthatimpressyouasaperfectlyexorbitantamount?Sheofferedit;Ishouldhaveblushedtoaskformorethantwenty-five。
IfinishatMagnolia(that’swhereshelives)thefirstofSeptember,andshallprobablyspendtheremainingthreeweeksatLockWillow——
IshouldliketoseetheSemplesagainandallthefriendlyanimals。
Howdoesmyprogrammestrikeyou,Daddy?
Iamgettingquiteindependent,yousee。
YouhaveputmeonmyfeetandIthinkIcanalmostwalkalonebynow。
Princetoncommencementandourexaminationsexactlycoincide——
whichisanawfulblow。SallieandIdidsowanttogetawayintimeforit,butofcoursethatisutterlyimpossible。
Goodbye,Daddy。Haveanicesummerandcomebackintheautumnrestedandreadyforanotheryearofwork。(That’swhatyououghttobewritingtome!)Ihaven’tanyideawhatyoudointhesummer,orhowyouamuseyourself。Ican’tvisualizeyoursurroundings。
Doyouplaygolforhuntorridehorsebackorjustsitinthesunandmeditate?
Anyway,whateveritis,haveagoodtimeanddon’tforgetJudy。
10thJuneDearDaddy,ThisisthehardestletterIeverwrote,butIhavedecidedwhatImustdo,andthereisn’tgoingtobeanyturningback。
ItisverysweetandgenerousanddearofyoutowishtosendmetoEuropethissummer——forthemomentIwasintoxicatedbytheidea;
butsobersecondthoughtssaidno。Itwouldberatherillogicalofmetorefusetotakeyourmoneyforcollege,andthenuseitinsteadjustforamusement!Youmustn’tgetmeusedtotoomanyluxuries。
Onedoesn’tmisswhatonehasneverhad;butit’sawfullyhardgoingwithoutthingsafteronehascommencedthinkingtheyarehis——
hers(Englishlanguageneedsanotherpronoun)bynaturalright。
LivingwithSallieandJuliaisanawfulstrainonmystoicalphilosophy。
Theyhavebothhadthingsfromthetimetheywerebabies;
theyaccepthappinessasamatterofcourse。TheWorld,theythink,owesthemeverythingtheywant。MaybetheWorlddoes——inanycase,itseemstoacknowledgethedebtandpayup。Butasforme,itowesmenothing,anddistinctlytoldmesointhebeginning。
Ihavenorighttoborrowoncredit,fortherewillcomeatimewhentheWorldwillrepudiatemyclaim。
Iseemtobeflounderinginaseaofmetaphor——butIhopeyougraspmymeaning?Anyway,Ihaveaverystrongfeelingthattheonlyhonestthingformetodoistoteachthissummerandbegintosupportmyself。
MAGNOLIA,FourdayslaterI’dgotjustthatmuchwritten,when——whatdoyouthinkhappened?
ThemaidarrivedwithMasterJervie’scard。Heisgoingabroadtoothissummer;notwithJuliaandherfamily,butentirelybyhimselfItoldhimthatyouhadinvitedmetogowithaladywhoischaperoningapartyofgirls。Heknowsaboutyou,Daddy。Thatis,heknowsthatmyfatherandmotheraredead,andthatakindgentlemanissendingmetocollege;Isimplydidn’thavethecouragetotellhimabouttheJohnGrierHomeandalltherest。Hethinksthatyouaremyguardianandaperfectlylegitimateoldfamilyfriend。
IhavenevertoldhimthatIdidn’tknowyou——thatwouldseemtooqueer!
Anyway,heinsistedonmygoingtoEurope。HesaidthatitwasanecessarypartofmyeducationandthatImustn’tthinkofrefusing。Also,thathewouldbeinParisatthesametime,andthatwewouldrunawayfromthechaperonoccasionallyandhavedinnertogetheratnice,funny,foreignrestaurants。
Well,Daddy,itdidappealtome!Ialmostweakened;ifhehadn’tbeensodictatorial,maybeIshouldhaveentirelyweakened。
Icanbeenticedstepbystep,butIWON’Tbeforced。HesaidI
wasasilly,foolish,irrational,quixotic,idiotic,stubbornchild(thoseareafewofhisabusiveadjectives;therestescapeme),andthatIdidn’tknowwhatwasgoodforme;Ioughttoletolderpeoplejudge。Wealmostquarrelled——Iamnotsurebutthatweentirelydid!
Inanycase,Ipackedmytrunkfastandcameuphere。IthoughtI’dbetterseemybridgesinflamesbehindmebeforeIfinishedwritingtoyou。Theyareentirelyreducedtoashesnow。
HereIamatCliffTop(thenameofMrs。Paterson’scottage)withmytrunkunpackedandFlorence(thelittleone)alreadystrugglingwithfirstdeclensionnouns。Anditbidsfairtobeastruggle!
Sheisamostuncommonlyspoiledchild;Ishallhavetoteachherfirsthowtostudy——shehasneverinherlifeconcentratedonanythingmoredifficultthanice-creamsodawater。
Weuseaquietcornerofthecliffsforaschoolroom——Mrs。Patersonwishesmetokeepthemoutofdoors——andIwillsaythatIfinditdifficulttoconcentratewiththeblueseabeforemeandshipsa-sailingby!
AndwhenIthinkImightbeonone,sailingofftoforeignlands——
butIWON’TletmyselfthinkofanythingbutLatinGrammar。
Theprepositionsaorab,absque,coram,cum,deeorex,prae,pro,sine,tenus,in,subter,subandsupergoverntheablative。
Soyousee,Daddy,Iamalreadyplungedintoworkwithmyeyespersistentlysetagainsttemptation。Don’tbecrosswithme,please,anddon’tthinkthatIdonotappreciateyourkindness,forIdo——always——always。TheonlywayIcaneverrepayyouisbyturningoutaVeryUsefulCitizen(Arewomencitizens?
Idon’tsupposetheyare。)Anyway,aVeryUsefulPerson。Andwhenyoulookatmeyoucansay,`IgavethatVeryUsefulPersontotheworld。’
Thatsoundswell,doesn’tit,Daddy?ButIdon’twishtomisleadyou。
ThefeelingoftencomesovermethatIamnotatallremarkable;
itisfuntoplanacareer,butinallprobabilityIshan’tturnoutabitdifferentfromanyotherordinaryperson。Imayendbymarryinganundertakerandbeinganinspirationtohiminhiswork。
Yoursever,Judy19thAugustDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Mywindowlooksoutontheloveliestlandscape——ocean-scape,rather——
nothingbutwaterandrocks。
Thesummergoes。IspendthemorningwithLatinandEnglishandalgebraandmytwostupidgirls。Idon’tknowhowMarionisevergoingtogetintocollege,orstayinaftershegetsthere。
AndasforFlorence,sheishopeless——butoh!suchalittlebeauty。
Idon’tsupposeitmattersintheleastwhethertheyarestupidornotsolongastheyarepretty?Onecan’thelpthinking,though,howtheirconversationwillboretheirhusbands,unlesstheyarefortunateenoughtoobtainstupidhusbands。Isupposethat’squitepossible;theworldseemstobefilledwithstupidmen;
I’vemetanumberthissummer。
Intheafternoonwetakeawalkonthecliffs,orswim,ifthetideisright。Icanswiminsaltwaterwiththeutmosteaseyouseemyeducationisalreadybeingputtouse!
AlettercomesfromMr。JervisPendletoninParis,ratherashortconciseletter;I’mnotquiteforgivenyetforrefusingtofollowhisadvice。However,ifhegetsbackintime,hewillseemeforafewdaysatLockWillowbeforecollegeopens,andifI
amveryniceandsweetanddocile,Ishall(Iamledtoinfer)
bereceivedintofavouragain。
AlsoaletterfromSallie。ShewantsmetocometotheircampfortwoweeksinSeptember。MustIaskyourpermission,orhaven’tIyetarrivedattheplacewhereIcandoasIplease?Yes,IamsureIhave——I’maSenior,youknow。Havingworkedallsummer,Ifeelliketakingalittlehealthfulrecreation;IwanttoseetheAdirondacks;IwanttoseeSallie;IwanttoseeSallie’sbrother——
he’sgoingtoteachmetocanoe——and(wecometomychiefmotive,whichismean)IwantMasterJervietoarriveatLockWillowandfindmenotthere。
IMUSTshowhimthathecan’tdictatetome。Noonecandictatetomebutyou,Daddy——andyoucan’talways!I’moffforthewoods。
JudyCAMPMCBRIDE,6thSeptemberDearDaddy,Yourletterdidn’tcomeintime(Iampleasedtosay)。Ifyouwishyourinstructionstobeobeyed,youmusthaveyoursecretarytransmittheminlessthantwoweeks。Asyouobserve,Iamhere,andhavebeenforfivedays。
Thewoodsarefine,andsoisthecamp,andsoistheweather,andsoaretheMcBrides,andsoisthewholeworld。I’mveryhappy!
There’sJimmiecallingformetocomecanoeing。Goodbye——sorrytohavedisobeyed,butwhyareyousopersistentaboutnotwantingmetoplayalittle?WhenI’veworkedallthesummerIdeservetwoweeks。Youareawfullydog-in-the-mangerish。
However——Iloveyoustill,Daddy,inspiteofallyourfaults。
Judy3rdOctoberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,BackatcollegeandaSenior——alsoeditoroftheMonthly。
Itdoesn’tseempossible,doesit,thatsosophisticatedaperson,justfouryearsago,wasaninmateoftheJohnGrierHome?
WedoarrivefastinAmerica!
Whatdoyouthinkofthis?AnotefromMasterJerviedirectedtoLockWillowandforwardedhere。He’ssorry,buthefindsthathecan’tgetuptherethisautumn;hehasacceptedaninvitationtogoyachtingwithsomefriends。HopesI’vehadanicesummerandamenjoyingthecountry。
AndheknewallthetimethatIwaswiththeMcBrides,forJuliatoldhimso!Youmenoughttoleaveintriguetowomen;youhaven’talightenoughtouch。
Juliahasatrunkfulofthemostravishingnewclothes——aneveninggownofrainbowLibertycrepethatwouldbefittingraimentfortheangelsinParadise。AndIthoughtthatmyownclothesthisyearwereunprecedentedly(istheresuchaword?)beautiful。IcopiedMrs。Paterson’swardrobewiththeaidofacheapdressmaker,andthoughthegownsdidn’tturnoutquitetwinsoftheoriginals,IwasentirelyhappyuntilJuliaunpacked。Butnow——IlivetoseeParis!
DearDaddy,aren’tyougladyou’renotagirl?Isupposeyouthinkthatthefusswemakeoverclothesistooabsolutelysilly?Itis。
Nodoubtaboutit。Butit’sentirelyyourfault。
DidyoueverhearaboutthelearnedHerrProfessorwhoregardedunnecessaryadornmentwithcontemptandfavouredsensible,utilitarianclothesforwomen?Hiswife,whowasanobligingcreature,adopted`dressreform。’Andwhatdoyouthinkhedid?
Heelopedwithachorusgirl。
Yoursever,JudyPS。Thechamber-maidinourcorridorwearsbluecheckedginghamaprons。
Iamgoingtogethersomebrownonesinstead,andsinktheblueonesinthebottomofthelake。IhaveareminiscentchilleverytimeIlookatthem。
17thNovemberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Suchablighthasfallenovermyliterarycareer。Idon’tknowwhethertotellyouornot,butIwouldlikesomesympathy——
silentsympathy,please;don’tre-openthewoundbyreferringtoitinyournextletter。
I’vebeenwritingabook,alllastwinterintheevenings,andallthesummerwhenIwasn’tteachingLatintomytwostupidchildren。
Ijustfinisheditbeforecollegeopenedandsentittoapublisher。
Hekeptittwomonths,andIwascertainhewasgoingtotakeit;
butyesterdaymorninganexpressparcelcame(thirtycentsdue)
andthereitwasbackagainwithaletterfromthepublisher,averynice,fatherlyletter——butfrank!HesaidhesawfromtheaddressthatI
wasstillatcollege,andifIwouldacceptsomeadvice,hewouldsuggestthatIputallofmyenergyintomylessonsandwaituntilI
graduatedbeforebeginningtowrite。Heenclosedhisreader’sopinion。
Hereitis:
`Plothighlyimprobable。Characterizationexaggerated。
Conversationunnatural。Agooddealofhumourbutnotalwaysinthebestoftaste。Tellhertokeepontrying,andintimeshemayproducearealbook。’
Notonthewholeflattering,isit,Daddy?AndIthoughtIwasmakinganotableadditiontoAmericanliterature。Ididtruly。
IwasplanningtosurpriseyoubywritingagreatnovelbeforeIgraduated。IcollectedthematerialforitwhileIwasatJulia’slastChristmas。ButIdaresaytheeditorisright。
Probablytwoweekswasnotenoughinwhichtoobservethemannersandcustomsofagreatcity。
Itookitwalkingwithmeyesterdayafternoon,andwhenIcametothegashouse,IwentinandaskedtheengineerifImightborrowhisfurnace。Hepolitelyopenedthedoor,andwithmyownhandsIchuckeditin。IfeltasthoughIhadcrematedmyonlychild!
Iwenttobedlastnightutterlydejected;IthoughtIwasnevergoingtoamounttoanything,andthatyouhadthrownawayyourmoneyfornothing。Butwhatdoyouthink?Iwokeupthismorningwithabeautifulnewplotinmyhead,andI’vebeengoingaboutalldayplanningmycharacters,justashappyasIcouldbe。
Noonecaneveraccusemeofbeingapessimist!IfIhadahusbandandtwelvechildrenswallowedbyanearthquakeoneday,I’dbobupsmilinglythenextmorningandcommencetolookforanotherset。
Affectionately,Judy14thDecemberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Idreamedthefunniestdreamlastnight。IthoughtIwentintoabookstoreandtheclerkbroughtmeanewbooknamedTheLifeandLettersofJudyAbbott。Icouldseeitperfectlyplainly——
redclothbindingwithapictureoftheJohnGrierHomeonthecover,andmyportraitforafrontispiecewith,`Verytrulyyours,JudyAbbott,’
writtenbelow。ButjustasIwasturningtotheendtoreadtheinscriptiononmytombstone,Iwokeup。Itwasveryannoying!
IalmostfoundoutwhomI’mgoingtomarryandwhenI’mgoingtodie。
Don’tyouthinkitwouldbeinterestingifyoureallycouldreadthestoryofyourlife——writtenperfectlytruthfullybyanomniscientauthor?
Andsupposeyoucouldonlyreaditonthiscondition:thatyouwouldneverforgetit,butwouldhavetogothroughlifeknowingaheadoftimeexactlyhoweverythingyoudidwouldturnout,andforeseeingtotheexacthourthetimewhenyouwoulddie。
Howmanypeopledoyousupposewouldhavethecouragetoreaditthen?orhowmanycouldsuppresstheircuriositysufficientlytoescapefromreadingit,evenatthepriceofhavingtolivewithouthopeandwithoutsurprises?
Lifeismonotonousenoughatbest;youhavetoeatandsleepaboutsooften。ButimaginehowDEADLYmonotonousitwouldbeifnothingunexpectedcouldhappenbetweenmeals。Mercy!Daddy,there’sablot,butI’monthethirdpageandIcan’tbeginanewsheet。
I’mgoingonwithbiologyagainthisyear——veryinterestingsubject;
we’restudyingthealimentarysystematpresent。Youshouldseehowsweetacross-sectionoftheduodenumofacatisunderthemicroscope。
Alsowe’vearrivedatphilosophy——interestingbutevanescent。Ipreferbiologywhereyoucanpinthesubjectunderdiscussiontoaboard。
There’sanother!Andanother!Thispenisweepingcopiously。
Pleaseexcuseitstears。
Doyoubelieveinfreewill?Ido——unreservedly。Idon’tagreeatallwiththephilosopherswhothinkthateveryactionistheabsolutelyinevitableandautomaticresultantofanaggregationofremotecauses。That’sthemostimmoraldoctrineIeverheard——
nobodywouldbetoblameforanything。Ifamanbelievedinfatalism,hewouldnaturallyjustsitdownandsay,`TheLord’swillbedone,’
andcontinuetosituntilhefelloverdead。
Ibelieveabsolutelyinmyownfreewillandmyownpowertoaccomplish——
andthatisthebeliefthatmovesmountains。Youwatchmebecomeagreatauthor!Ihavefourchaptersofmynewbookfinishedandfivemoredrafted。
Thisisaveryabstruseletter——doesyourheadache,Daddy?
Ithinkwe’llstopnowandmakesomefudge。I’msorryIcan’tsendyouapiece;itwillbeunusuallygood,forwe’regoingtomakeitwithrealcreamandthreebutterballs。
Yoursaffectionately,JudyPS。We’rehavingfancydancingingymnasiumclass。Youcanseebytheaccompanyingpicturehowmuchwelooklikearealballet。
Theoneattheendaccomplishingagracefulpirouetteisme——ImeanI。
26thDecemberMyDear,Dear,Daddy,Haven’tyouanysense?Don’tyouKNOWthatyoumustn’tgiveonegirlseventeenChristmaspresents?I’maSocialist,pleaseremember;
doyouwishtoturnmeintoaPlutocrat?
Thinkhowembarrassingitwouldbeifweshouldeverquarrel!
Ishouldhavetoengageamoving-vantoreturnyourgifts。
IamsorrythatthenecktieIsentwassowobbly;Iknititwithmyownhands(asyoudoubtlessdiscoveredfrominternalevidence)。
Youwillhavetowearitoncolddaysandkeepyourcoatbuttoneduptight。
Thankyou,Daddy,athousandtimes。Ithinkyou’rethesweetestmanthateverlived——andthefoolishest!
JudyHere’safour-leafcloverfromCampMcBridetobringyougoodluckfortheNewYear。
9thJanuaryDoyouwishtodosomething,Daddy,thatwillensureyoureternalsalvation?Thereisafamilyherewhoareinawfullydesperatestraits。Amotherandfatherandfourvisiblechildren——
thetwoolderboyshavedisappearedintotheworldtomaketheirfortuneandhavenotsentanyofitback。Thefatherworkedinaglassfactoryandgotconsumption——it’sawfullyunhealthywork——
andnowhasbeensentawaytoahospital。Thattookalltheirsavings,andthesupportofthefamilyfallsupontheoldestdaughter,whoistwenty-four。Shedressmakesfor$1。50aday(whenshecangetit)andembroiderscentrepiecesintheevening。Themotherisn’tverystrongandisextremelyineffectualandpious。
Shesitswithherhandsfolded,apictureofpatientresignation,whilethedaughterkillsherselfwithoverworkandresponsibilityandworry;shedoesn’tseehowtheyaregoingtogetthroughtherestofthewinter——andIdon’teither。Onehundreddollarswouldbuysomecoalandsomeshoesforthreechildrensothattheycouldgotoschool,andgivealittlemarginsothatsheneedn’tworryherselftodeathwhenafewdayspassandshedoesn’tgetwork。
YouaretherichestmanIknow。Don’tyousupposeyoucouldspareonehundreddollars?ThatgirldeserveshelpalotmorethanI
everdid。Iwouldn’taskitexceptforthegirl;Idon’tcaremuchwhathappenstothemother——sheissuchajelly-fish。
Thewaypeopleareforeverrollingtheireyestoheavenandsaying,`Perhapsit’sallforthebest,’whentheyareperfectlydeadsureit’snot,makesmeenraged。Humilityorresignationorwhateveryouchoosetocallit,issimplyimpotentinertia。I’mforamoremilitantreligion!
Wearegettingthemostdreadfullessonsinphilosophy——allofSchopenhauerfortomorrow。Theprofessordoesn’tseemtorealizethatwearetakinganyothersubject。He’saqueeroldduck;
hegoesaboutwithhisheadinthecloudsandblinksdazedlywhenoccasionallyhestrikessolidearth。Hetriestolightenhislectureswithanoccasionalwitticism——andwedoourbesttosmile,butIassureyouhisjokesarenolaughingmatter。
Hespendshisentiretimebetweenclassesintryingtofigureoutwhethermatterreallyexistsorwhetherheonlythinksitexists。
I’msuremysewinggirlhasn’tanydoubtbutthatitexists!
Wheredoyouthinkmynewnovelis?Inthewaste-basket。Icanseemyselfthatit’snogoodonearth,andwhenalovingauthorrealizesthat,whatWOULDbethejudgmentofacriticalpublic?
LaterIaddressyou,Daddy,fromabedofpain。FortwodaysI’vebeenlaidupwithswollentonsils;Icanjustswallowhotmilk,andthatisall。`Whatwereyourparentsthinkingofnottohavethosetonsilsoutwhenyouwereababy?’thedoctorwishedtoknow。
I’msureIhaven’tanidea,butIdoubtiftheywerethinkingmuchaboutme。
Yours,J。A。
NextmorningIjustreadthisoverbeforesealingit。Idon’tknowWHYIcastsuchamistyatmosphereoverlife。IhastentoassureyouthatI
amyoungandhappyandexuberant;andItrustyouarethesame。
Youthhasnothingtodowithbirthdays,onlywithALIVEDNESSofspirit,soevenifyourhairisgrey,Daddy,youcanstillbeaboy。
Affectionately,Judy12thJan。
DearMr。Philanthropist,Yourchequeformyfamilycameyesterday。Thankyousomuch!
Icutgymnasiumandtookitdowntothemrightafterluncheon,andyoushouldhaveseenthegirl’sface!Shewassosurprisedandhappyandrelievedthatshelookedalmostyoung;andshe’sonlytwenty-four。Isn’titpitiful?
Anyway,shefeelsnowasthoughallthegoodthingswerecomingtogether。
Shehassteadyworkaheadfortwomonths——someone’sgettingmarried,andthere’satrousseautomake。
`ThankthegoodLord!’criedthemother,whenshegraspedthefactthatthatsmallpieceofpaperwasonehundreddollars。
`Itwasn’tthegoodLordatall,’saidI,`itwasDaddy-Long-Legs。’
(Mr。Smith,Icalledyou。)
`ButitwasthegoodLordwhoputitinhismind,’saidshe。
`Notatall!Iputitinhismindmyself,’saidI。
Butanyway,Daddy,ItrustthegoodLordwillrewardyousuitably。
Youdeservetenthousandyearsoutofpurgatory。
Yoursmostgratefully,JudyAbbott15thFeb。
MayitpleaseYourMostExcellentMajesty:
ThismorningIdideatmybreakfastuponacoldturkeypieandagoose,andIdidsendforacupoftee(achinadrink)
ofwhichIhadneverdrankbefore。
Don’tbenervous,Daddy——Ihaven’tlostmymind;I’mmerelyquotingSam’lPepys。We’rereadinghiminconnectionwithEnglishHistory,originalsources。SallieandJuliaandIconversenowinthelanguageof1660。Listentothis:
`IwenttoCharingCrosstoseeMajorHarrisonhanged,drawnandquartered:helookingascheerfulasanymancoulddointhatcondition。’Andthis:`Dinedwithmyladywhoisinhandsomemourningforherbrotherwhodiedyesterdayofspottedfever。’
Seemsalittleearlytocommenceentertaining,doesn’tit?AfriendofPepysdevisedaverycunningmannerwherebythekingmightpayhisdebtsoutofthesaletopoorpeopleofolddecayedprovisions。
Whatdoyou,areformer,thinkofthat?Idon’tbelievewe’resobadtodayasthenewspapersmakeout。
Samuelwasasexcitedabouthisclothesasanygirl;hespentfivetimesasmuchondressashiswife——thatappearstohavebeentheGoldenAgeofhusbands。Isn’tthisatouchingentry?
Youseehereallywashonest。`TodaycamehomemyfineCamlettcloakwithgoldbuttons,whichcostmemuchmoney,andIprayGodtomakemeabletopayforit。’
ExcusemeforbeingsofullofPepys;I’mwritingaspecialtopiconhim。
Whatdoyouthink,Daddy?TheSelf-GovernmentAssociationhasabolishedtheteno’clockrule。Wecankeepourlightsallnightifwechoose,theonlyrequirementbeingthatwedonotdisturbothers——
wearenotsupposedtoentertainonalargescale。Theresultisabeautifulcommentaryonhumannature。Nowthatwemaystayupaslongaswechoose,wenolongerchoose。Ourheadsbegintonodatnineo’clock,andbynine-thirtythependropsfromournervelessgrasp。
It’snine-thirtynow。Goodnight。
SundayJustbackfromchurch——preacherfromGeorgia。Wemusttakecare,hesays,nottodevelopourintellectsattheexpenseofouremotionalnatures——
butmethoughtitwasapoor,drysermon(Pepysagain)。Itdoesn’tmatterwhatpartoftheUnitedStatesorCanadatheycomefrom,orwhatdenominationtheyare,wealwaysgetthesamesermon。
Whyonearthdon’ttheygotomen’scollegesandurgethestudentsnottoallowtheirmanlynaturestobecrushedoutbytoomuchmentalapplication?
It’sabeautifulday——frozenandicyandclear。Assoonasdinnerisover,SallieandJuliaandMartyKeeneandEleanorPratt(friendsofmine,butyoudon’tknowthem)andIaregoingtoputonshortskirtsandwalk’crosscountrytoCrystalSpringFarmandhaveafriedchickenandwafflesupper,andthenhaveMr。CrystalSpringdriveushomeinhisbuckboard。Wearesupposedtobeinsidethecampusatseven,butwearegoingtostretchapointtonightandmakeiteight。
Farewell,kindSir。
Ihavethehonourofsubscribingmyself,Yourmostloyall,dutifull,faithfullandobedientservant,J。AbbottMarchFifthDearMr。Trustee,TomorrowisthefirstWednesdayinthemonth——awearydayfortheJohnGrierHome。Howrelievedthey’llbewhenfiveo’clockcomesandyoupatthemontheheadandtakeyourselvesoff!Didyou(individually)everpatmeonthehead,Daddy?Idon’tbelieveso——
mymemoryseemstobeconcernedonlywithfatTrustees。
GivetheHomemylove,please——myTRULYlove。IhavequiteafeelingoftendernessforitasIlookbackthroughahazeoffouryears。
WhenIfirstcametocollegeIfeltquiteresentfulbecauseI’dbeenrobbedofthenormalkindofchildhoodthattheothergirlshadhad;butnow,Idon’tfeelthatwayintheleast。Iregarditasaveryunusualadventure。Itgivesmeasortofvantagepointfromwhichtostandasideandlookatlife。Emergingfullgrown,Igetaperspectiveontheworld,thatotherpeoplewhohavebeenbroughtupinthethickofthingsentirelylack。
Iknowlotsofgirls(Julia,forinstance)whoneverknowthattheyarehappy。Theyaresoaccustomedtothefeelingthattheirsensesaredeadenedtoit;butasforme——IamperfectlysureeverymomentofmylifethatIamhappy。AndI’mgoingtokeeponbeing,nomatterwhatunpleasantthingsturnup。I’mgoingtoregardthem(eventoothaches)asinterestingexperiences,andbegladtoknowwhattheyfeellike。`Whateversky’saboveme,I’veaheartforanyfate。’
However,Daddy,don’ttakethisnewaffectionfortheJ。G。H。
tooliterally。IfIhavefivechildren,likeRousseau,Ishan’tleavethemonthestepsofafoundlingasyluminordertoinsuretheirbeingbroughtupsimply。
GivemykindestregardstoMrs。Lippett(that,Ithink,istruthful;
lovewouldbealittlestrong)anddon’tforgettotellherwhatabeautifulnatureI’vedeveloped。
Affectionately,JudyLOCKWILLOW,4thAprilDearDaddy,Doyouobservethepostmark?SallieandIareembellishingLockWillowwithourpresenceduringtheEasterVacation。
Wedecidedthatthebestthingwecoulddowithourtendayswastocomewhereitisquiet。Ournerveshadgottothepointwheretheywouldn’tstandanothermealinFergussen。Dininginaroomwithfourhundredgirlsisanordealwhenyouaretired。
Thereissomuchnoisethatyoucan’thearthegirlsacrossthetablespeakunlesstheymaketheirhandsintoamegaphoneandshout。
Thatisthetruth。
Wearetrampingoverthehillsandreadingandwriting,andhavinganice,restfultime。Weclimbedtothetopof`SkyHill’
thismorningwhereMasterJervieandIoncecookedsupper——
itdoesn’tseempossiblethatitwasnearlytwoyearsago。Icouldstillseetheplacewherethesmokeofourfireblackenedtherock。
Itisfunnyhowcertainplacesgetconnectedwithcertainpeople,andyounevergobackwithoutthinkingofthem。Iwasquitelonelywithouthim——fortwominutes。
Whatdoyouthinkismylatestactivity,Daddy?YouwillbegintobelievethatIamincorrigible——Iamwritingabook。Istarteditthreeweeksagoandameatingitupinchunks。I’vecaughtthesecret。
MasterJervieandthateditormanwereright;youaremostconvincingwhenyouwriteaboutthethingsyouknow。AndthistimeitisaboutsomethingthatIdoknow——exhaustively。Guesswhereit’slaid?
IntheJohnGrierHome!Andit’sgood,Daddy,Iactuallybelieveitis——justaboutthetinylittlethingsthathappenedeveryday。
I’marealistnow。I’veabandonedromanticism;Ishallgobacktoitlaterthough,whenmyownadventurousfuturebegins。
Thisnewbookisgoingtogetitselffinished——andpublished!
Youseeifitdoesn’t。Ifyoujustwantathinghardenoughandkeepontrying,youdogetitintheend。I’vebeentryingforfouryearstogetaletterfromyou——andIhaven’tgivenuphopeyet。
Goodbye,Daddydear,(IliketocallyouDaddydear;it’ssoalliterative。)
Affectionately,JudyPS。Iforgottotellyouthefarmnews,butit’sverydistressing。
Skipthispostscriptifyoudon’twantyoursensibilitiesallwroughtup。
PooroldGroveisdead。Hegotsothathecouldn’tchewandtheyhadtoshoothim。
Ninechickenswerekilledbyaweaseloraskunkoraratlastweek。
Oneofthecowsissick,andwehadtohavetheveterinarysurgeonoutfromBonnyriggFourCorners。Amasaistayedupallnighttogiveherlinseedoilandwhisky。Butwehaveanawfulsuspicionthatthepoorsickcowgotnothingbutlinseedoil。
SentimentalTommy(thetortoise-shellcat)hasdisappeared;
weareafraidhehasbeencaughtinatrap。
Therearelotsoftroublesintheworld!
17thMayDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Thisisgoingtobeextremelyshortbecausemyshoulderachesatthesightofapen。Lecturenotesallday,immortalnovelallevening,maketoomuchwriting。
CommencementthreeweeksfromnextWednesday。Ithinkyoumightcomeandmakemyacquaintance——Ishallhateyouifyoudon’t!Julia’sinvitingMasterJervie,hebeingherfamily,andSallie’sinvitingJimmieMcB。,hebeingherfamily,butwhoisthereformetoinvite?
JustyouandLippett,andIdon’twanther。Pleasecome。
Yours,withloveandwriter’scramp。
JudyLOCKWILLOW,19thJuneDearDaddy-Long-Legs,I’meducated!Mydiplomaisinthebottombureaudrawerwithmytwobestdresses。Commencementwasasusual,withafewshowersatvitalmoments。Thankyouforyourrosebuds。Theywerelovely。
MasterJervieandMasterJimmiebothgavemeroses,too,butIlefttheirsinthebathtubandcarriedyoursintheclassprocession。
HereIamatLockWillowforthesummer——forevermaybe。Theboardischeap;thesurroundingsquietandconducivetoaliterarylife。
Whatmoredoesastrugglingauthorwish?Iammadaboutmybook。
Ithinkofiteverywakingmoment,anddreamofitatnight。AllI
wantispeaceandquietandlotsoftimetowork(interspersedwithnourishingmeals)。
MasterJervieiscomingupforaweekorsoinAugust,andJimmieMcBrideisgoingtodropinsometimethroughthesummer。
He’sconnectedwithabondhousenow,andgoesaboutthecountrysellingbondstobanks。He’sgoingtocombinethe`Farmers’National’
attheCornersandmeonthesametrip。
YouseethatLockWillowisn’tentirelylackinginsociety。
I’dbeexpectingtohaveyoucomemotoringthrough——onlyIknownowthatthatishopeless。Whenyouwouldn’tcometomycommencement,Itoreyoufrommyheartandburiedyouforever。
JudyAbbott,A。B。
24thJulyDearestDaddy-Long-Legs,Isn’titfuntowork——ordon’tyoueverdoit?It’sespeciallyfunwhenyourkindofworkisthethingyou’dratherdomorethananythingelseintheworld。I’vebeenwritingasfastasmypenwouldgoeverydaythissummer,andmyonlyquarrelwithlifeisthatthedaysaren’tlongenoughtowriteallthebeautifulandvaluableandentertainingthoughtsI’mthinking。
I’vefinishedtheseconddraftofmybookandamgoingtobeginthethirdtomorrowmorningathalf-pastseven。It’sthesweetestbookyoueversaw——itis,truly。Ithinkofnothingelse。
Icanbarelywaitinthemorningtodressandeatbeforebeginning;
thenIwriteandwriteandwritetillsuddenlyI’msotiredthatI’mlimpallover。ThenIgooutwithColin(thenewsheepdog)andrompthroughthefieldsandgetafreshsupplyofideasforthenextday。
It’sthemostbeautifulbookyoueversaw——Oh,pardon——Isaidthatbefore。
Youdon’tthinkmeconceited,doyou,Daddydear?
I’mnot,really,onlyjustnowI’mintheenthusiasticstage。
MaybelateronI’llgetcoldandcriticalandsniffy。No,I’msureIwon’t!ThistimeI’vewrittenarealbook。Justwaittillyouseeit。
I’lltryforaminutetotalkaboutsomethingelse。Inevertoldyou,didI,thatAmasaiandCarriegotmarriedlastMay?Theyarestillworkinghere,butsofarasIcanseeithasspoiledthemboth。
Sheusedtolaughwhenhetrampedinmudordroppedashesonthefloor,butnow——youshouldhearherscold!Andshedoesn’tcurlherhairanylonger。Amasai,whousedtobesoobligingaboutbeatingrugsandcarryingwood,grumblesifyousuggestsuchathing。
Alsohisnecktiesarequitedingy——blackandbrown,wheretheyusedtobescarletandpurple。I’vedeterminednevertomarry。
It’sadeterioratingprocess,evidently。
Thereisn’tmuchofanyfarmnews。Theanimalsareallinthebestofhealth。Thepigsareunusuallyfat,thecowsseemcontentedandthehensarelayingwell。Areyouinterestedinpoultry?
Ifso,letmerecommendthatinvaluablelittlework,200EggsperHenperYear。Iamthinkingofstartinganincubatornextspringandraisingbroilers。YouseeI’msettledatLockWillowpermanently。
IhavedecidedtostayuntilI’vewritten114novelslikeAnthonyTrollope’smother。ThenIshallhavecompletedmylifeworkandcanretireandtravel。
Mr。JamesMcBridespentlastSundaywithus。Friedchickenandice-creamfordinner,bothofwhichheappearedtoappreciate。Iwasawfullygladtoseehim;hebroughtamomentaryreminderthattheworldatlargeexists。PoorJimmieishavingahardtimepeddlinghisbonds。
The`Farmers’National’attheCornerswouldn’thaveanythingtodowiththeminspiteofthefactthattheypaysixpercent。
interestandsometimesseven。Ithinkhe’llendupbygoinghometoWorcesterandtakingajobinhisfather’sfactory。He’stooopenandconfidingandkind-heartedevertomakeasuccessfulfinancier。
Buttobethemanagerofaflourishingoverallfactoryisaverydesirableposition,don’tyouthink?Justnowheturnsuphisnoseatoveralls,buthe’llcometothem。
Ihopeyouappreciatethefactthatthisisalongletterfromapersonwithwriter’scramp。ButIstillloveyou,Daddydear,andI’mveryhappy。Withbeautifulsceneryallabout,andlotstoeatandacomfortablefour-postbedandareamofblankpaperandapintofink——whatmoredoesonewantintheworld?
Yoursasalways,JudyPS。Thepostmanarriveswithsomemorenews。WearetoexpectMasterJervieonFridaynexttospendaweek。That’saverypleasantprospect——onlyIamafraidmypoorbookwillsuffer。
MasterJervieisverydemanding。
27thAugustDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Whereareyou,Iwonder?
Ineverknowwhatpartoftheworldyouarein,butIhopeyou’renotinNewYorkduringthisawfulweather。Ihopeyou’reonamountainpeak(butnotinSwitzerland;somewherenearer)lookingatthesnowandthinkingaboutme。Pleasebethinkingaboutme。
I’mquitelonelyandIwanttobethoughtabout。Oh,Daddy,IwishIknewyou!Thenwhenwewereunhappywecouldcheereachotherup。
Idon’tthinkIcanstandmuchmoreofLockWillow。I’mthinkingofmoving。SallieisgoingtodosettlementworkinBostonnextwinter。Don’tyouthinkitwouldbeniceformetogowithher,thenwecouldhaveastudiotogether?IwouldwritewhilesheSETTLEDandwecouldbetogetherintheevenings。Eveningsareverylongwhenthere’snoonebuttheSemplesandCarrieandAmasaitotalkto。Iknowinadvancethatyouwon’tlikemystudioidea。
Icanreadyoursecretary’sletternow:
`MissJerushaAbbott。
`DEARMADAM,`Mr。SmithprefersthatyouremainatLockWillow。
`Yourstruly,`ELMERH。GRIGGS。’
Ihateyoursecretary。IamcertainthatamannamedElmerH。
Griggsmustbehorrid。Buttruly,Daddy,IthinkIshallhavetogotoBoston。Ican’tstayhere。Ifsomethingdoesn’thappensoon,Ishallthrowmyselfintothesilopitoutofsheerdesperation。
Mercy!butit’shot。Allthegrassisburntupandthebrooksaredryandtheroadsaredusty。Ithasn’trainedforweeksandweeks。
ThislettersoundsasthoughIhadhydrophobia,butIhaven’t。I
justwantsomefamily。
Goodbye,mydearestDaddy。
IwishIknewyou。
JudyLOCKWILLOW,19thSeptemberDearDaddy,SomethinghashappenedandIneedadvice。Ineeditfromyou,andfromnobodyelseintheworld。Wouldn’titbepossibleformetoseeyou?It’ssomucheasiertotalkthantowrite;andI’mafraidyoursecretarymightopentheletter。
JudyPS。I’mveryunhappy。
LOCKWILLOW,3rdOctoberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Yournotewritteninyourownhand——andaprettywobblyhand!——
camethismorning。Iamsosorrythatyouhavebeenill;Iwouldn’thavebotheredyouwithmyaffairsifIhadknown。Yes,Iwilltellyouthetrouble,butit’ssortofcomplicatedtowrite,andVERYPRIVATE。
Pleasedon’tkeepthisletter,butburnit。
BeforeIbegin——here’sachequeforonethousanddollars。
Itseemsfunny,doesn’tit,formetobesendingachequetoyou?
WheredoyouthinkIgotit?
I’vesoldmystory,Daddy。It’sgoingtobepublishedseriallyinsevenparts,andtheninabook!YoumightthinkI’dbewildwithjoy,butI’mnot。I’mentirelyapathetic。OfcourseI’mgladtobeginpayingyou——Ioweyouovertwothousandmore。It’scomingininstalments。Nowdon’tbehorrid,please,abouttakingit,becauseitmakesmehappytoreturnit。Ioweyouagreatdealmorethanthemeremoney,andtherestIwillcontinuetopayallmylifeingratitudeandaffection。
Andnow,Daddy,abouttheotherthing;pleasegivemeyourmostworldlyadvice,whetheryouthinkI’lllikeitornot。
YouknowthatI’vealwayshadaveryspecialfeelingtowardsyou;
yousortofrepresentedmywholefamily;butyouwon’tmind,willyou,ifItellyouthatIhaveaverymuchmorespecialfeelingforanotherman?Youcanprobablyguesswithoutmuchtroublewhoheis。
IsuspectthatmylettershavebeenveryfullofMasterJervieforaverylongtime。
IwishIcouldmakeyouunderstandwhatheislikeandhowentirelycompanionableweare。Wethinkthesameabouteverything——
IamafraidIhaveatendencytomakeovermyideastomatchhis!
Butheisalmostalwaysright;heoughttobe,youknow,forhehasfourteenyears’startofme。Inotherways,though,he’sjustanovergrownboy,andhedoesneedlookingafter——
hehasn’tanysenseaboutwearingrubberswhenitrains。HeandI
alwaysthinkthesamethingsarefunny,andthatissuchalot;
it’sdreadfulwhentwopeople’ssensesofhumourareantagonistic。
Idon’tbelievethere’sanybridgingthatgulf!
Andheis——Oh,well!Heisjusthimself,andImisshim,andmisshim,andmisshim。Thewholeworldseemsemptyandaching。Ihatethemoonlightbecauseit’sbeautifulandheisn’theretoseeitwithme。
Butmaybeyou’velovedsomebody,too,andyouknow?Ifyouhave,Idon’tneedtoexplain;ifyouhaven’t,Ican’texplain。
Anyway,that’sthewayIfeel——andI’verefusedtomarryhim。
Ididn’ttellhimwhy;Iwasjustdumbandmiserable。Icouldn’tthinkofanythingtosay。AndnowhehasgoneawayimaginingthatIwanttomarryJimmieMcBride——Idon’tintheleast,Iwouldn’tthinkofmarryingJimmie;heisn’tgrownupenough。
ButMasterJervieandIgotintoadreadfulmuddleofmisunderstandingandwebothhurteachother’sfeelings。ThereasonIsenthimawaywasnotbecauseIdidn’tcareforhim,butbecauseIcaredforhimsomuch。Iwasafraidhewouldregretitinthefuture——
andIcouldn’tstandthat!Itdidn’tseemrightforapersonofmylackofantecedentstomarryintoanysuchfamilyashis。
Inevertoldhimabouttheorphanasylum,andIhatedtoexplainthatIdidn’tknowwhoIwas。ImaybeDREADFUL,youknow。
Andhisfamilyareproud——andI’mproud,too!
Also,Ifeltsortofboundtoyou。Afterhavingbeeneducatedtobeawriter,Imustatleasttrytobeone;itwouldscarcelybefairtoacceptyoureducationandthengooffandnotuseit。
ButnowthatIamgoingtobeabletopaybackthemoney,IfeelthatIhavepartiallydischargedthatdebt——besides,IsupposeIcouldkeeponbeingawriterevenifIdidmarry。Thetwoprofessionsarenotnecessarilyexclusive。
I’vebeenthinkingveryhardaboutit。OfcourseheisaSocialist,andhehasunconventionalideas;maybehewouldn’tmindmarryingintotheproletariatsomuchassomemenmight。Perhapswhentwopeopleareexactlyinaccord,andalwayshappywhentogetherandlonelywhenapart,theyoughtnottoletanythingintheworldstandbetweenthem。
OfcourseIWANTtobelievethat!ButI’dliketogetyourunemotionalopinion。YouprobablybelongtoaFamilyalso,andwilllookatitfromaworldlypointofviewandnotjustasympathetic,humanpointofview——soyouseehowbraveIamtolayitbeforeyou。
SupposeIgotohimandexplainthatthetroubleisn’tJimmie,butistheJohnGrierHome——wouldthatbeadreadfulthingformetodo?Itwouldtakeagreatdealofcourage。I’dalmostratherbemiserablefortherestofmylife。
Thishappenednearlytwomonthsago;Ihaven’theardawordfromhimsincehewashere。Iwasjustgettingsortofacclimatedtothefeelingofabrokenheart,whenalettercamefromJuliathatstirredmeallupagain。Shesaid——verycasually——that`UncleJervis’
hadbeencaughtoutallnightinastormwhenhewashuntinginCanada,andhadbeenilleversincewithpneumonia。AndIneverknewit。
Iwasfeelinghurtbecausehehadjustdisappearedintoblanknesswithoutaword。Ithinkhe’sprettyunhappy,andIknowIam!
Whatseemstoyoutherightthingformetodo?
Judy6thOctoberDearestDaddy-Long-Legs,Yes,certainlyI’llcome——athalf-pastfournextWednesdayafternoon。
OfCOURSEIcanfindtheway。I’vebeeninNewYorkthreetimesandamnotquiteababy。Ican’tbelievethatIamreallygoingtoseeyou——
I’vebeenjustTHINKINGyousolongthatithardlyseemsasthoughyouareatangibleflesh-and-bloodperson。
Youareawfullygood,Daddy,tobotheryourselfwithme,whenyou’renotstrong。Takecareanddon’tcatchcold。Thesefallrainsareverydamp。
Affectionately,JudyPS。I’vejusthadanawfulthought。Haveyouabutler?I’mafraidofbutlers,andifoneopensthedoorIshallfaintuponthestep。
WhatcanIsaytohim?Youdidn’ttellmeyourname。ShallIaskforMr。Smith?
ThursdayMorningMyVeryDearestMaster-Jervie-Daddy-Long-LegsPendleton-Smith,Didyousleeplastnight?Ididn’t。Notasinglewink。Iwastooamazedandexcitedandbewilderedandhappy。Idon’tbelieveIevershallsleepagain——oreateither。ButIhopeyouslept;
youmust,youknow,becausethenyouwillgetwellfasterandcancometome。
DearMan,Ican’tbeartothinkhowillyou’vebeen——andallthetimeIneverknewit。Whenthedoctorcamedownyesterdaytoputmeinthecab,hetoldmethatforthreedaystheygaveyouup。
Oh,dearest,ifthathadhappened,thelightwouldhavegoneoutoftheworldforme。Isupposethatsomedayinthefarfuture——
oneofusmustleavetheother;butatleastweshallhavehadourhappinessandtherewillbememoriestolivewith。
Imeanttocheeryouup——andinsteadIhavetocheermyself。
ForinspiteofbeinghappierthanIeverdreamedIcouldbe,I’malsosoberer。Thefearthatsomethingmayhappenrestslikeashadowonmyheart。AlwaysbeforeIcouldbefrivolousandcare-freeandunconcerned,becauseIhadnothingprecioustolose。
Butnow——IshallhaveaGreatBigWorryalltherestofmylife。
WheneveryouareawayfrommeIshallbethinkingofalltheautomobilesthatcanrunoveryou,orthesign-boardsthatcanfallonyourhead,orthedreadful,squirmygermsthatyoumaybeswallowing。Mypeaceofmindisgoneforever——butanyway,Inevercaredmuchforjustplainpeace。
Pleasegetwell——fast——fast——fast。IwanttohaveyouclosebywhereIcantouchyouandmakesureyouaretangible。Suchalittlehalfhourwehadtogether!I’mafraidmaybeIdreamedit。
IfIwereonlyamemberofyourfamily(averydistantfourthcousin)
thenIcouldcomeandvisityoueveryday,andreadaloudandplumpupyourpillowandsmoothoutthosetwolittlewrinklesinyourforeheadandmakethecornersofyourmouthturnupinanicecheerfulsmile。
Butyouarecheerfulagain,aren’tyou?YouwereyesterdaybeforeIleft。ThedoctorsaidImustbeagoodnurse,thatyoulookedtenyearsyounger。Ihopethatbeinginlovedoesn’tmakeeveryonetenyearsyounger。Willyoustillcareforme,darling,ifI
turnouttobeonlyeleven?
Yesterdaywasthemostwonderfuldaythatcouldeverhappen。
IfIlivetobeninety-nineIshallneverforgetthetiniestdetail。
ThegirlthatleftLockWillowatdawnwasaverydifferentpersonfromtheonewhocamebackatnight。Mrs。Semplecalledmeathalf-pastfour。
Istartedwideawakeinthedarknessandthefirstthoughtthatpoppedintomyheadwas,`IamgoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs!’Iatebreakfastinthekitchenbycandle-light,andthendrovethefivemilestothestationthroughthemostgloriousOctobercolouring。
Thesuncameupontheway,andtheswampmaplesanddogwoodglowedcrimsonandorangeandthestonewallsandcornfieldssparkledwithhoarfrost;theairwaskeenandclearandfullofpromise。
Iknewsomethingwasgoingtohappen。Allthewayinthetraintherailskeptsinging,`You’regoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs。’
Itmademefeelsecure。IhadsuchfaithinDaddy’sabilitytosetthingsright。AndIknewthatsomewhereanotherman——dearerthanDaddy——
waswantingtoseeme,andsomehowIhadafeelingthatbeforethejourneyendedIshouldmeethim,too。Andyousee!
WhenIcametothehouseonMadisonAvenueitlookedsobigandbrownandforbiddingthatIdidn’tdaregoin,soIwalkedaroundtheblocktogetupmycourage。ButIneedn’thavebeenabitafraid;
yourbutlerissuchanice,fatherlyoldmanthathemademefeelathomeatonce。`IsthisMissAbbott?’hesaidtome,andIsaid,`Yes,’soIdidn’thavetoaskforMr。Smithafterall。
Hetoldmetowaitinthedrawing-room。Itwasaverysombre,magnificent,man’ssortofroom。Isatdownontheedgeofabigupholsteredchairandkeptsayingtomyself:
`I’mgoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs!I’mgoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs!’
Thenpresentlythemancamebackandaskedmepleasetostepuptothelibrary。Iwassoexcitedthatreallyandtrulymyfeetwouldhardlytakemeup。Outsidethedoorheturnedandwhispered,`He’sbeenveryill,Miss。Thisisthefirstdayhe’sbeenallowedtositup。You’llnotstaylongenoughtoexcitehim?’
Iknewfromthewayhesaiditthathelovedyou——anIthinkhe’sanolddear!
Thenheknockedandsaid,`MissAbbott,’andIwentinandthedoorclosedbehindme。
ItwassodimcominginfromthebrightlylightedhallthatforamomentIcouldscarcelymakeoutanything;thenIsawabigeasychairbeforethefireandashiningteatablewithasmallerchairbesideit。AndIrealizedthatamanwassittinginthebigchairproppedupbypillowswitharugoverhisknees。BeforeIcouldstophimherose——rathershakily——andsteadiedhimselfbythebackofthechairandjustlookedatmewithoutaword。Andthen——
andthen——Isawitwasyou!ButevenwiththatIdidn’tunderstand。
IthoughtDaddyhadhadyoucometheretomeetmeorasurprise。
Thenyoulaughedandheldoutyourhandandsaid,`DearlittleJudy,couldn’tyouguessthatIwasDaddy-Long-Legs?’
Inaninstantitflashedoverme。Oh,butIhavebeenstupid!
Ahundredlittlethingsmighthavetoldme,ifIhadhadanywits。
Iwouldn’tmakeaverygooddetective,wouldI,Daddy?Jervie?
WhatmustIcallyou?JustplainJerviesoundsdisrespectful,andI
can’tbedisrespectfultoyou!
Itwasaverysweethalfhourbeforeyourdoctorcameandsentmeaway。
IwassodazedwhenIgottothestationthatIalmosttookatrainforStLouis。Andyouwereprettydazed,too。Youforgottogivemeanytea。Butwe’rebothvery,veryhappy,aren’twe?IdrovebacktoLockWillowinthedarkbutoh,howthestarswereshining!
AndthismorningI’vebeenoutwithColinvisitingalltheplacesthatyouandIwenttotogether,andrememberingwhatyousaidandhowyoulooked。Thewoodstodayareburnishedbronzeandtheairisfulloffrost。It’sCLIMBINGweather。Iwishyouwereheretoclimbthehillswithme。Iammissingyoudreadfully,Jerviedear,butit’sahappykindofmissing;we’llbetogethersoon。Webelongtoeachothernowreallyandtruly,nomake-believe。Doesn’titseemqueerformetobelongtosomeoneatlast?Itseemsvery,verysweet。
AndIshallneverletyoubesorryforasingleinstant。
Yours,foreverandever,JudyPS。Thisisthefirstlove-letterIeverwrote。Isn’titfunnythatIknowhow?
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