"AtanyrateIamdeterminednottoanswerit,"continuedCharlotte,assheopenedtheletter。
Hereletmestoptomakeoneremark,andtrustmemyveryheartacheswhileIwriteit;butcertainIam,thatwhenonceawomanhasstifledthesenseofshameinherownbosom,whenonceshehaslostsightofthebasisonwhichreputation,honour,everythingthatshouldbedeartothefemaleheart,rests,shegrowshardenedinguilt,andwillsparenopainstobringdowninnocenceandbeautytotheshockinglevelwithherself:andthisproceedsfromthatdiabolicalspiritofenvy,whichrepinesatseeinganotherinthefullpossessionofthatrespectandesteemwhichshecannolongerhopetoenjoy。
MademoiselleeyedtheunsuspectingCharlotte,assheperusedtheletter,withamalignantpleasure。Shesaw,thatthecontentshadawakenednewemotionsinheryouthfulbosom:sheencouragedherhopes,calmedherfears,andbeforetheypartedforthenight,itwasdeterminedthatsheshouldmeetMontravilletheensuingevening。
CHAPTERVIII。
DOMESTICPLEASURESPLANNED。
"ITHINK,mydear,"saidMrs。Temple,layingherhandonherhusband’sarmastheywerewalkingtogetherinthegarden,"IthinknextWednesdayisCharlotte’sbirthday:nowIhaveformedalittleschemeinmyownmind,togiveheranagreeablesurprise;
andifyouhavenoobjection,wewillsendforherhomeonthatday。"
Templepressedhiswife’shandintokenofapprobation,andsheproceeded。——"Youknowthelittlealcoveatthebottomofthegarden,ofwhichCharlotteissofond?Ihaveaninclinationtodeckthisoutinafancifulmanner,andinviteallherlittlefriendstopartakeofacollationoffruit,sweetmeats,andotherthingssuitabletothegeneraltasteofyoungguests;andtomakeitmorepleasingtoCharlotte,sheshallbemistressofthefeast,andentertainhervisitorsinthisalcove。Iknowshewillbedelighted;andtocompleteall,theyshallhavesomemusic,andfinishwithadance。"
"Averyfineplan,indeed,"saidTemple,smiling;"andyoureallysupposeIwillwinkatyourindulgingthegirlinthismanner?
Youwillquitespoilher,Lucy;indeedyouwill。"
"Sheistheonlychildwehave,"saidMrs。Temple,thewholetendernessofamotheraddinganimationtoherfinecountenance;
butitwaswithaltemperedsosweetlywiththemeekaffectionandsubmissivedutyofthewife,thatasshepausedexpectingherhusband’sanswer,hegazedathertenderly,andfoundhewasunabletorefuseherrequest。
"Sheisagoodgirl,"saidTemple。
"Sheis,indeed,"repliedthefondmotherexultingly,"agrateful,affectionategirl;andIamsurewillneverlosesightofthedutysheowesherparents。"
"Ifshedoes,"saidhe,’shemustforgettheexamplesetherbythebestofmothers。"
Mrs。Templecouldnotreply;butthedelightfulsensationthatdilatedherheartsparkledinherintelligenteyesandheightenedthevermilliononhercheeks。
Ofallthepleasuresofwhichthehumanmindissensible,thereisnoneequaltothatwhichwarmsandexpandsthebosom,whenlisteningtocommendationsbestowedonusbyabelovedobject,andareconsciousofhavingdeservedthem。
Yegiddyflutterersinthefantasticroundofdissipation,whoeagerlyseekpleasureintheloftydome,richtreat,andmidnightrevel——
tellme,yethoughtlessdaughtersoffolly,haveyeeverfoundthephantomyouhavesolongsoughtwithsuchunremittedassiduity?
Hasshenotalwayseludedyourgrasp,andwhenyouhavereachedyourhandtotakethecupsheextendstoherdeludedvotaries,haveyounotfoundthelong-expecteddraughtstronglytincturedwiththebitterdregsofdisappointment?Iknowyouhave:
Iseeitinthewancheek,sunkeye,andairofchagrin,whichevermarkthechildrenofdissipation。Pleasureisavainillusion;
shedrawsyouontoathousandfollies,errors,andImaysayvices,andthenleavesyoutodeploreyourthoughtlesscredulity。
Look,mydearfriends,atyonderlovelyVirgin,arrayedinawhiterobedevoidofornament;beholdthemeeknessofhercountenance,themodestyofhergait;herhandmaidsareHumility,FilialPiety,ConjugalAffection,Industry,andBenevolence;hernameisCONTENT;
sheholdsinherhandthecupoftruefelicity,andwhenonceyouhaveformedanintimateacquaintancewiththeseherattendants,nayyoumustadmitthemasyourbosomfriendsandchiefcounsellors,then,whatevermaybeyoursituationinlife,themeekeyedVirginwigimmediatelytakeupherabodewithyou。
Ispovertyyourportion?——shewilllightenyourlabours,presideatyourfrugalboard,andwatchyourquietslumbers。
Isyourstatemediocrity?——shewillheighteneveryblessingyouenjoy,byinformingyouhowgratefulyoushouldbetothatbountifulProvidencewhomighthaveplacedyouinthemostabjectsituation;
and,byteachingyoutoweighyourblessingsagainstyourdeserts,showyouhowmuchmoreyoureceivethanyouhavearighttoexpect。
Areyoupossessedofaffluence?——whataninexhaustiblefundofhappinesswillshelaybeforeyou!Torelievethedistressed,redresstheinjured,inshort,toperformallthegoodworksofpeaceandmercy。
Content,mydearfriends,willblunteventhearrowsofadversity,sothattheycannotmateriallyharmyou。Shewilldwellinthehumblestcottage;shewillattendyoueventoaprison。
HerparentisReligion;hersisters,PatienceandHope。
Shewillpasswithyouthroughlife,smoothingtheroughpathsandtreadtoearththosethornswhicheveryonemustmeetwithastheyjourneyonwardtotheappointedgoal。Shewillsoftenthepainsofsickness,continuewithyoueveninthecoldgloomyhourofdeath,and,cheatingyouwiththesmilesofherheaven-bornsister,Hope,leadyoutriumphanttoablissfulleternity。
IconfessIhaverambledstrangelyfrommystory:butwhatofthat?ifIhavebeensoluckyastofindtheroadtohappiness,whyshouldIbesuchaniggardastoomitsogoodanopportunityofpointingoutthewaytoothers。Theverybasisoftruepeaceofmindisabenevolentwishtoseealltheworldashappyasone’sSelf;andfrommysouldoIpitytheselfishchurl,who,rememberingthelittlebickeringsofanger,envy,andfiftyotherdisagreeablestowhichfrailmortalityissubject,wouldwishtorevengetheaffrontwhichpridewhispershimhehasreceived。
Formyownpart,Icansafelydeclare,thereisnotahumanbeingintheuniverse,whoseprosperityIshouldnotrejoicein,andtowhosehappinessIwouldnotcontributetotheutmostlimitofmypower:
andmaymyoffencesbenomorerememberedinthedayofgeneralretribution,thanasfrommysoulIforgiveeveryoffenceorinjuryreceivedfromafellowcreature。
Mercifulheaven!whowouldexchangetheraptureofsuchareflexionforallthegaudytinselwhichtheworldcallspleasure!
Buttoreturn。——ContentdweltinMrs。Temple’sbosom,andspreadacharminganimationoverhercountenance,asherhusbandledherin,tolaytheplanshehadformed(forthecelebrationofCharlotte’sbirthday,)beforeMr。Eldridge。
CHAPTERIX。
WEKNOWNOTWHATADAY
MAYBRINGFORTH。
VARIOUSwerethesensationswhichagitatedthemindofCharlotte,duringthedayprecedingtheeveninginwhichshewastomeetMontraville。Severaltimesdidshealmostresolvetogotohergoverness,showhertheletter,andbeguidedbyheradvice:
butCharlottehadtakenonestepinthewaysofimprudence;
andwhenthatisoncedone,therearealwaysinnumerableobstaclestopreventtheerringpersonreturningtothepathofrectitude:
yettheseobstacles,howeverforcibletheymayappearingeneral,existchieflyinimagination。
Charlottefearedtheangerofhergoverness:shelovedhermother,andtheveryideaofincurringherdispleasure,gaveherthegreatestuneasiness:buttherewasamoreforciblereasonstillremaining:shouldsheshowthelettertoMadameDuPont,shemustconfessthemeansbywhichitcameintoherpossession;
andwhatwouldbetheconsequence?Mademoisellewouldbeturnedoutofdoors。
"Imustnotbeungrateful,"saidshe。"LaRueisverykindtome;
besidesIcan,whenIseeMontraville,informhimoftheimproprietyofourcontinuingtoseeorcorrespondwitheachother,andrequesthimtocomenomoretoChichester。"
HoweverprudentCharlottemightbeintheseresolutions,shecertainlydidnottakeapropermethodtoconfirmherselfinthem。Severaltimesinthecourseoftheday,sheindulgedherselfinreadingovertheletter,andeachtimeshereadit,thecontentssunkdeeperinherheart。
Aseveningdrewnear,shecaughtherselffrequentlyconsultingherwatch。
"Iwishthisfoolishmeetingwasover,"saidshe,bywayofapologytoherownheart,"Iwishitwasover;forwhenIhaveseenhim,andconvincedhimmyresolutionisnottobeshaken,Ishallfeelmymindmucheasier。"
Theappointedhourarrived。CharlotteandMademoiselleeludedtheeyeofvigilance;andMontraville,whohadwaitedtheircomingwithimpatience,receivedthemwithrapturousandunboundedacknowledgmentsfortheircondescension:hehadwiselybroughtBelcourwithhimtoentertainMademoiselle,whileheenjoyedanuninterruptedconversationwithCharlotte。
Belcourwasamanwhosecharactermightbecomprisedinafewwords;
andashewillmakesomefigureintheensuingpages,Ishallheredescribehim。Hepossessedagenteelfortune,andhadaliberaleducation;dissipated,thoughtless,andcapricious,hepaidlittleregardtothemoralduties,andlesstoreligiousones:
eagerinthepursuitofpleasure,hemindednotthemiseriesheinflictedonothers,providedhisownwishes,howeverextravagant,weregratified。Self,darlingself,wastheidolheworshipped,andtothathewouldhavesacrificedtheinterestandhappinessofallmankind。SuchwasthefriendofMontraville:
willnotthereaderbereadytoimagine,thatthemanwhocouldregardsuchacharacter,mustbeactuatedbythesamefeelings,followthesamepursuits,andbeequallyunworthywiththepersontowhomhethusgavehisconfidence?
ButMontravillewasadifferentcharacter:generousinhisdisposition,liberalinhisopinions,andgood-naturedalmosttoafault;
yeteagerandimpetuousinthepursuitofafavoriteobject,hestaidnottoreflectontheconsequencewhichmightfollowtheattainmentofhiswishes;withamindeveropentoconviction,hadhebeensofortunateastopossessafriendwhowouldhavepointedoutthecrueltyofendeavouringtogaintheheartofaninnocentartlessgirl,whenheknewitwasutterlyimpossibleforhimtomarryher,andwhenthegratificationofhispassionwouldbeunavoidableinfamyandmiserytoher,andacauseofnever-ceasingremorsetohimself:
hadthesedreadfulconsequencesbeenplacedbeforehiminaproperlight,thehumanityofhisnaturewouldhaveurgedhimtogiveupthepursuit:
butBelcourwasnotthisfriend;heratherencouragedthegrowingpassionofMontraville;andbeingpleasedwiththevivacityofMademoiselle,resolvedtoleavenoargumentuntried,whichhethoughtmightprevailonhertobethecompanionoftheirintendedvoyage;andhemadenodoubtbutherexample,addedtotherhetoricofMontraville,wouldpersuadeCharlottetogowiththem。
Charlottehad,whenshewentouttomeetMontraville,flatteredherselfthatherresolutionwasnottobeshaken,andthat,consciousoftheimproprietyofherconductinhavingaclandestineintercoursewithastranger,shewouldneverrepeattheindiscretion。
Butalas!poorCharlotte,sheknewnotthedeceitfulnessofherownheart,orshewouldhaveavoidedthetrialofherstability。
Montravillewastender,eloquent,ardent,andyetrespectful。
"ShallInotseeyouoncemore,"saidhe,"beforeIleaveEngland?
willyounotblessmebyanassurance,thatwhenwearedividedbyavastexpanseofseaIshallnotbeforgotten?"
Charlottesighed。
"Whythatsigh,mydearCharlotte?couldIflattermyselfthatafearformysafety,orawishformywelfareoccasionedit,howhappywoulditmakeme。"
"Ishalleverwishyouwell,Montraville,"saidshe;"butwemustmeetnomore。""Ohsaynotso,mylovelygirl:reflect,thatwhenIleavemynativeland,perhapsafewshortweeksmayterminatemyexistence;
theperilsoftheocean——thedangersofwar——"
"Icanhearnomore,"saidCharlotteinatremulousvoice。
"Imustleaveyou。"
"Sayyouwillseemeonceagain。"
"Idarenot,"saidshe。
"Onlyforonehalfhourto-morrowevening:’tismylastrequest。
Ishallnevertroubleyouagain,Charlotte。"
"Iknownotwhattosay,"criedCharlotte,strugglingtodrawherhandsfromhim:"letmeleaveyounow。"
"Andyouwillcometo-morrow,"saidMontraville。
"PerhapsImay,"saidshe。
"Adieuthen。Iwillliveuponthathopetillwemeetagain。"
Hekissedherhand。Shesighedanadieu,andcatchingholdofMademoiselle’sarm,hastilyenteredthegardengate。
CHAPTERX。
WHENWEHAVEEXCITED
CURIOSITY,ITISBUTANACTOF
GOODNATURETOGRATIFYIT。
MONTRAVILLEwastheyoungestsonofagentlemanoffortune,whosefamilybeingnumerous,hewasobligedtobringuphissonstogenteelprofessions,bytheexerciseofwhichtheymighthopetoraisethemselvesintonotice。
"Mydaughters,"saidhe,"havebeeneducatedlikegentlewomen;
andshouldIdiebeforetheyaresettled,theymusthavesomeprovisionmade,toplacethemabovethesnaresandtemptationswhichviceeverholdsouttotheelegant,accomplishedfemale,whenoppressedbythefrownsofpovertyandthestingofdependance:
myboys,withonlymoderateincomes,whenplacedinthechurch,atthebar,orinthefield,mayexerttheirtalents,makethemselvesfriends,andraisetheirfortunesonthebasisofmerit。"
WhenMontravillechosetheprofessionofarms,hisfatherpresentedhimwithacommission,andmadehimahandsomeprovisionforhisprivatepurse。"Now,myboy,"saidhe,’go!seekgloryinthefieldofbattle。YouhavereceivedfrommeallIshalleverhaveitinmypowertobestow:itiscertainIhaveinteresttogainyoupromotion;butbeassuredthatinterestshallneverbeexerted,unlessbyyourfutureconductyoudeserveit。
Remember,therefore,yoursuccessinlifedependsentirelyonyourself。
ThereisonethingIthinkitmydutytocautionyouagainst;
theprecipitancywithwhichyoungmenfrequentlyrushintomatrimonialengagements,andbytheirthoughtlessnessdrawmanyadeservingwomanintoscenesofpovertyanddistress。
Asoldierhasnobusinesstothinkofawifetillhisrankissuchastoplacehimabovethefearofbringingintotheworldatrainofhelplessinnocents,heirsonlytopenuryandaffliction。
If,indeed,awoman,whosefortuneissufficienttopreserveyouinthatstateofindependenceIwouldteachyoutoprize,shouldgenerouslybestowherselfonayoungsoldier,whosechiefhopeoffutureprosperitydependedonhissuccessinthefield——
ifsuchawomanshouldoffer——everybarrierisremoved,andI
shouldrejoiceinanunionwhichwouldpromisesomuchfelicity。
Butmarkme,boy,if,onthecontrary,yourushintoaprecipitateunionwithagirloflittleornofortune,takethepoorcreaturefromacomfortablehomeandkindfriends,andplungeherintoalltheevilsanarrowincomeandincreasingfamilycaninflict,Iwillleaveyoutoenjoytheblessedfruitsofyourrashness;forbyallthatissacred,neithermyinterestorfortuneshalleverbeexertedinyourfavour。
Iamserious,"continuedhe,"thereforeimprintthisconversationonyourmemory,andletitinfluenceyourfutureconduct。
Yourhappinesswillalwaysbedeartome;andIwishtowarnyouofarockonwhichthepeaceofmanyanhonestfellowhasbeenwrecked;
forbelieveme,thedifficultiesanddangersofthelongestwintercampaignaremucheasiertobeborne,thanthepangsthatwouldseizeyourheart,whenyoubeheldthewomanofyourchoice,thechildrenofyouraffection,involvedinpenuryanddistress,andreflectedthatitwasyourownfollyandprecipitancyhadbeentheprimecauseoftheirsufferings。"
AsthisconversationpassedbutafewhoursbeforeMontravilletookleaveofhisfather,itwasdeeplyimpressedonhismind:
when,therefore,BelcourcamewithhimtotheplaceofassignationwithCharlotte,hedirectedhimtoenquireoftheFrenchwomanwhatwereMissTemple’sexpectationsinregardtofortune。
Mademoiselleinformedhim,thatthoughCharlotte’sfatherpossessedagenteelindependence,itwasbynomeansprobablethathecouldgivehisdaughtermorethanathousandpounds;andincaseshedidnotmarrytohisliking,itwaspossiblehemightnotgiveherasingleSOUS;nordiditappeartheleastlikely,thatMr。Templewouldagreetoherunionwithayoungmanonthepointofembarkingforthefeatofwar。
MontravillethereforeconcludeditwasimpossibleheshouldevermarryCharlotteTemple;andwhatendheproposedtohimselfbycontinuingtheacquaintancehehadcommencedwithher,hedidnotatthatmomentgivehimselftimetoenquire。
CHAPTERXI。
CONFLICTOFLOVEANDDUTY。
ALMOSTaweekwasnowgone,andCharlottecontinuedeveryeveningtomeetMontraville,andinherhearteverymeetingwasresolvedtobethelast;butalas!whenMontravilleatpartingwouldearnestlyintreatonemoreinterview,thattreacherousheartbetrayedher;and,forgetfulofitsresolution,pleadedthecauseoftheenemysopowerfully,thatCharlottewasunabletoresist。
Anotherandanothermeetingsucceeded;andsowelldidMontravilleimproveeachopportunity,thattheheedlessgirlatlengthconfessednoideacouldbesopainfultoherasthatofneverseeinghimagain。
"Thenwewillneverbeparted,"saidhe。
"Ah,Montraville,"repliedCharlotte,forcingasmile,"howcanitbeavoided?Myparentswouldneverconsenttoourunion;
andevencouldtheybebroughttoapproveit,howshouldIbeartobeseparatedfrommykind,mybelovedmother?"
"Thenyouloveyourparentsmorethanyoudome,Charlotte?"
"IhopeIdo,"saidshe,blushingandlookingdown,"Ihopemyaffectionforthemwilleverkeepmefrominfringingthelawsoffilialduty。"
"Well,Charlotte,"saidMontravillegravely,andlettinggoherhand,"sincethatisthecase,IfindIhavedeceivedmyselfwithfallacioushopes。Ihadflatteredmyfondheart,thatIwasdearertoCharlottethananythingintheworldbeside。
Ithoughtthatyouwouldformysakehavebravedthedangersoftheocean,thatyouwould,byyouraffectionandsmiles,havesoftenedthehardshipsofwar,and,haditbeenmyfatetofall,thatyourtendernesswouldchearthehourofdeath,andsmoothmypassagetoanotherworld。Butfarewel,Charlotte!Iseeyouneverlovedme。
Ishallnowwelcomethefriendlyballthatdeprivesmeofthesenseofmymisery。"
"Ohstay,unkindMontraville,"criedshe,catchingholdofhisarm,ashepretendedtoleaveher,"stay,andtocalmyourfears,Iwillhereprotestthatwasitnotforthefearofgivingpaintothebestofparents,andreturningtheirkindnesswithingratitude,Iwouldfollowyouthrougheverydanger,and,instudyingtopromoteyourhappiness,insuremyown。
ButIcannotbreakmymother’sheart,Montraville;Imustnotbringthegreyhairsofmydoatinggrand-fatherwithsorrowtothegrave,ormakemybelovedfatherperhapscursethehourthatgavemebirth。"
Shecoveredherfacewithherhands,andburstintotears。
"Allthesedistressingscenes,mydearCharlotte,"criedMontraville,"aremerelythechimerasofadisturbedfancy。Yourparentsmightperhapsgrieveatfirst;butwhentheyheardfromyourownhandthatyouwaswithamanofhonour,andthatitwastoinsureyourfelicitybyanunionwithhim,towhichyoufearedtheywouldneverhavegiventheirassent,thatyoulefttheirprotection,theywill,beassured,forgiveanerrorwhichlovealoneoccasioned,andwhenwereturnfromAmerica,receiveyouwithopenarmsandtearsofjoy。"
BelcourandMademoiselleheardthislastspeech,andconceivingitapropertimetothrowintheiradviceandpersuasions,approachedCharlotte,andsowellsecondedtheentreatiesofMontraville,thatfindingMademoiselleintendedgoingwithBelcour,andfeelingherowntreacheroushearttoomuchinclinedtoaccompanythem,thehaplessCharlotte,inanevilhour,consentedthatthenexteveningtheyshouldbringachaisetotheendofthetown,andthatshewouldleaveherfriends,andthrowherselfentirelyontheprotectionofMontraville。
"Butshouldyou,"saidshe,lookingearnestlyathim,hereyesfulloftears,"shouldyou,forgetfulofyourpromises,andrepentingtheengagementsyouherevoluntarilyenterinto,forsakeandleavemeonaforeignshore——""Judgenotsomeanlyofme,"saidhe。
"Themomentwereachourplaceofdestination,Hymenshallsanctifyourlove;andwhenIshallforgetyourgoodness,mayheavenforgetme。"
"Ah,"saidCharlotte,leaningonMademoiselle’sarmastheywalkedupthegardentogether,"IhaveforgotallthatIoughttohaveremembered,inconsentingtothisintendedelopement。"
"Youareastrangegirl,"saidMademoiselle:"youneverknowyourownmindtwominutesatatime。justnowyoudeclaredMontraville’shappinesswaswhatyouprizedmostintheworld;
andnowIsupposeyourepenthavinginsuredthathappinessbyagreeingtoaccompanyhimabroad。"
"IndeedIdorepent,"repliedCharlotte,"frommysoul:
butwhilediscretionpointsouttheimproprietyofmyconduct,inclinationurgesmeontoruin。"
"Ruin!fiddlestick!"saidMademoiselle;"amInotgoingwithyou?
anddoIfeelanyofthesequalms?"
"Youdonotrenounceatenderfatherandmother,"saidCharlotte。
"ButIhazardmydearreputation,"repliedMademoiselle,bridling。
"True,"repliedCharlotte,"butyoudonotfeelwhatIdo。"
Shethenbadehergoodnight:butsleepwasastrangertohereyes,andthetearofanguishwateredherpillow。
CHAPTERXII。
Nature’slast,bestgift:
Creatureinwhomexcell’d,whatevercouldTosightorthoughtbenam’d!
Holy,divine!good,amiable,andsweet!
Howthouartfall’n!——
WHENCharlotteleftherrestlessbed,herlanguideyeandpalecheekdiscoveredtoMadameDuPontthelittlereposeshehadtasted。
"Mydearchild,"saidtheaffectionategoverness,"whatisthecauseofthelanguorsoapparentinyourframe?Areyounotwell?"
"Yes,mydearMadam,verywell,"repliedCharlotte,attemptingtosmile,"butIknownothowitwas;Icouldnotsleeplastnight,andmyspiritsaredepressedthismorning。"
"Comechearup,mylove,"saidthegoverness;"IbelieveIhavebroughtacordialtorevivethem。Ihavejustreceivedaletterfromyourgoodmama,andhereisoneforyourself。"
Charlottehastilytooktheletter:itcontainedthesewords——
"Asto-morrowistheanniversaryofthehappydaythatgavemybelovedgirltotheanxiouswishesofamaternalheart,Ihaverequestedyourgovernesstoletyoucomehomeandspenditwithus;andasI
knowyoutobeagoodaffectionatechild,andmakeityourstudytoimproveinthosebranchesofeducationwhichyouknowwillgivemostpleasuretoyourdelightedparents,asarewardforyourdiligenceandattentionIhavepreparedanagreeablesurpriseforyourreception。
Yourgrand-father,eagertoembracethedarlingofhisagedheart,willcomeinthechaiseforyou;soholdyourselfinreadinesstoattendhimbynineo’clock。Yourdearfatherjoinsineverytenderwishforyourhealthandfuturefelicity,whichwarmstheheartofmydearCharlotte’saffectionatemother,L。TEMPLE。"
"Graciousheaven!"criedCharlotte,forgettingwhereshewas,andraisingherstreamingeyesasinearnestsupplication。
MadameDuPontwassurprised。"Whythesetears,mylove?"saidshe。
"Whythisseemingagitation?Ithoughttheletterwouldhaverejoiced,insteadofdistressingyou。"
"Itdoesrejoiceme,"repliedCharlotte,endeavouringatcomposure,"butIwasprayingformerittodeservetheunremittedattentionsofthebestofparents。"
"Youdoright,"saidMadameDuPont,"toasktheassistanceofheaventhatyoumaycontinuetodeservetheirlove。
Continue,mydearCharlotte,inthecourseyouhaveeverpursued,andyouwillinsureatoncetheirhappinessandyourown。"
"Oh!"criedCharlotte,ashergovernesslefther,"Ihaveforfeitedbothforever!Yetletmereflect:——theirrevocablestepisnotyettaken:
itisnottoolatetorecedefromthebrinkofaprecipice,fromwhichI
canonlybeholdthedarkabyssofruin,shame,andremorse!"
Shearosefromherseat,andflewtotheapartmentofLaRue。
"OhMademoiselle!"saidshe,"Iamsnatchedbyamiraclefromdestruction!
Thisletterhassavedme:ithasopenedmyeyestothefollyIwassonearcommitting。Iwillnotgo,Mademoiselle;Iwillnotwoundtheheartsofthosedearparentswhomakemyhappinessthewholestudyoftheirlives。"
"Well,"saidMademoiselle,"doasyouplease,Miss;butprayunderstandthatmyresolutionistaken,anditisnotinyourpowertoalterit。
Ishallmeetthegentlemenattheappointedhour,andshallnotbesurprizedatanyoutragewhichMontravillemaycommit,whenhefindshimselfdisappointed。IndeedIshouldnotbeastonished,washetocomeimmediatelyhere,andreproachyouforyourinstabilityinthehearingofthewholeschool:
andwhatwillbetheconsequence?youwillbeartheodiumofhavingformedtheresolutionofeloping,andeverygirlofspiritwilllaughatyourwantoffortitudetoputitinexecution,whileprudesandfoolswillloadyouwithreproachandcontempt。
Youwillhavelosttheconfidenceofyourparents,incurredtheiranger,andthescoffsoftheworld;andwhatfruitdoyouexpecttoreapfromthispieceofheroism,(forsuchnodoubtyouthinkitis?)
youwillhavethepleasuretoreflect,thatyouhavedeceivedthemanwhoadoresyou,andwhominyourheartyouprefertoallothermen,andthatyouareseparatedfromhimforever。"
Thiseloquentharanguewasgivenwithsuchvolubility,thatCharlottecouldnotfindanopportunitytointerrupther,ortoofferasinglewordtillthewholewasfinished,andthenfoundherideassoconfused,thatsheknewnotwhattosay。
AtlengthshedeterminedthatshewouldgowithMademoiselletotheplaceofassignation,convinceMontravilleofthenecessityofadheringtotheresolutionofremainingbehind;assurehimofheraffection,andbidhimadieu。
Charlotteformedthisplaninhermind,andexultedinthecertaintyofitssuccess。"HowshallIrejoice,"saidshe,"inthistriumphofreasonoverinclination,and,wheninthearmsofmyaffectionateparents,liftupmysoulingratitudetoheavenasI
lookbackonthedangersIhaveescaped!"
Thehourofassignationarrived:Mademoiselleputwhatmoneyandvaluablesshepossessedinherpocket,andadvisedCharlottetodothesame;butsherefused;"myresolutionisfixed"saidshe;
"Iwillsacrificelovetoduty。"
Mademoisellesmiledinternally;andtheyproceededsoftlydownthebackstairsandoutofthegardengate。MontravilleandBelcourwerereadytoreceivethem。
"Now,"saidMontraville,takingCharlotteinhisarms,"youaremineforever。"
"No,"saidshe,withdrawingfromhisembrace,"Iamcometotakeaneverlastingfarewel。"
Itwouldbeuselesstorepeattheconversationthathereensued,sufficeittosay,thatMontravilleusedeveryargumentthathadformerlybeensuccessful,Charlotte’sresolutionbegantowaver,andhedrewheralmostimperceptiblytowardsthechaise。
"Icannotgo,"saidshe:"cease,dearMontraville,topersuade。
Imustnot:religion,duty,forbid。"
"CruelCharlotte,"saidhe,"ifyoudisappointmyardenthopes,byallthatissacred,thishandshallputaperiodtomyexistence。
Icannot——willnotlivewithoutyou。"
"Alas!mytornheart!"saidCharlotte,"howshallIact?"
"Letmedirectyou,"saidMontraville,liftingherintothechaise。
"Oh!mydearforsakenparents!"criedCharlotte。
Thechaisedroveoff。Sheshrieked,andfaintedintothearmsofherbetrayer。
CHAPTERXIII。
CRUELDISAPPOINTMENT。
"WHATpleasure,"criedMr。Eldridge,ashesteppedintothechaisetogoforhisgrand-daughter,"whatpleasureexpandstheheartofanoldmanwhenhebeholdstheprogenyofabelovedchildgrowingupineveryvirtuethatadornedthemindsofherparents。
Ifoolishlythought,somefewyearssince,thateverysenseofjoywasburiedinthegravesofmydearpartnerandmyson;
butmyLucy,byherfilialaffection,soothedmysoultopeace,andthisdearCharlottehastwinedherselfroundmyheart,andopenedsuchnewscenesofdelighttomyview,thatIalmostforgetIhaveeverbeenunhappy。"
Whenthechaisestopped,healightedwiththealacrityofyouth;
somuchdotheemotionsofthesoulinfluencethebody。
Itwashalfpasteighto’clock;theladieswereassembledintheschoolroom,andMadameDuPontwaspreparingtoofferthemorningsacrificeofprayerandpraise,whenitwasdiscovered,thatMademoiselleandCharlotteweremissing。
"Sheisbusy,nodoubt,"saidthegoverness,"inpreparingCharlotteforherlittleexcursion;butpleasureshouldnevermakeusforgetourdutytoourCreator。Go,oneofyou,andbidthembothattendprayers。"
Theladywhowenttosummonthem,soonreturned,andinformedthegoverness,thattheroomwaslocked,andthatshehadknockedrepeatedly,butobtainednoanswer。
"Goodheaven!"criedMadameDuPont,"thisisverystrange:"
andturningpalewithterror,shewenthastilytothedoor,andorderedittobeforcedopen。Theapartmentinstantlydiscovered,thatnopersonhadbeeninittheprecedingnight,thebedsappearingasthoughjustmade。Thehousewasinstantlyasceneofconfusion:
thegarden,thepleasuregroundsweresearchedtonopurpose,everyapartmentrangwiththenamesofMissTempleandMademoiselle;
buttheyweretoodistanttohear;andeveryfaceworethemarksofdisappointment。
Mr。Eldridgewassittingintheparlour,eagerlyexpectinghisgrand-daughtertodescend,readyequippedforherjourney:
heheardtheconfusionthatreignedinthehouse;heheardthenameofCharlottefrequentlyrepeated。"Whatcanbethematter?"
saidhe,risingandopeningthedoor:"Ifearsomeaccidenthasbefallenmydeargirl。"
Thegovernessentered。Thevisibleagitationofhercountenancediscoveredthatsomethingextraordinaryhadhappened。
"WhereisCharlotte?"saidhe,"Whydoesnotmychildcometowelcomeherdoatingparent?"
"Becomposed,mydearSir,"saidMadameDuPont,"donotfrightenyourselfunnecessarily。Sheisnotinthehouseatpresent;
butasMademoiselleisundoubtedlywithher,shewillspeedilyreturninsafety;andIhopetheywillbothbeabletoaccountforthisunseasonableabsenceinsuchamannerasshallremoveourpresentuneasiness。"
"Madam,"criedtheoldman,withanangrylook,"hasmychildbeenaccustomedtogooutwithoutleave,withnoothercompanyorprotectorthanthatFrenchwoman。Pardonme,Madam,Imeannoreflectionsonyourcountry,butIneverdidlikeMademoiselleLaRue;
IthinkshewasaveryimproperpersontobeentrustedwiththecareofsuchagirlasCharlotteTemple,ortobesufferedtotakeherfromunderyourimmediateprotection。"
"Youwrongme,Mr。Eldridge,"repliedshe,"ifyousupposeIhaveeverpermittedyourgrand-daughtertogooutunlesswiththeotherladies。
IwouldtoheavenIcouldformanyprobableconjectureconcerningherabsencethismorning,butitisamysterywhichherreturncanaloneunravel。"Servantswerenowdispatchedtoeveryplacewheretherewastheleasthopeofhearinganytidingsofthefugitives,butinvain。
DreadfulwerethehoursofhorridsuspensewhichMr。Eldridgepassedtilltwelveo’clock,whenthatsuspensewasreducedtoashockingcertainty,andeverysparkofhopewhichtillthentheyhadindulged,wasinamomentextinguished。
Mr。Eldridgewaspreparing,withaheavyheart,toreturntohisanxiously-expectingchildren,whenMadameDuPontreceivedthefollowingnotewithouteithernameordate。
"MissTempleiswell,andwishestorelievetheanxietyofherparents,bylettingthemknowshehasvoluntarilyputherselfundertheprotectionofamanwhosefuturestudyshallbetomakeherhappy。
Pursuitisneedless;themeasurestakentoavoiddiscoveryaretooeffectualtobeeluded。Whenshethinksherfriendsarereconciledtothisprecipitatestep,theymayperhapsbeinformedofherplaceofresidence。Mademoiselleiswithher。"
AsMadameDuPontreadthesecruellines,sheturnedpaleasashes,herlimbstrembled,andshewasforcedtocallforaglassofwater。
ShelovedCharlottetruly;andwhenshereflectedontheinnocenceandgentlenessofherdisposition,sheconcludedthatitmusthavebeentheadviceandmachinationsofLaRue,whichledhertothisimprudentaction;sherecollectedheragitationatthereceiptofhermother’sletter,andsawinittheconflictofhermind。
"DoesthatletterrelatetoCharlotte?"saidMr。Eldridge,havingwaitedsometimeinexpectationofMadameDuPont’sspeaking。
"Itdoes,"saidshe。"Charlotteiswell,butcannotreturntoday。"
"Notreturn,Madam?whereisshe?whowilldetainherfromherfond,expectingparents?"
"Youdistractmewiththesequestions,Mr。Eldridge。IndeedIknownotwheresheis,orwhohasseducedherfromherduty。"
ThewholetruthnowrushedatonceuponMr。Eldridge’smind。
"Shehaselopedthen,"saidhe。"Mychildisbetrayed;thedarling,thecomfortofmyagedheart,islost。OhwouldtoheavenIhaddiedbutyesterday。"
Aviolentgushofgriefinsomemeasurerelievedhim,and,afterseveralvainattempts,heatlengthassumedsufficientcomposuretoreadthenote。
"AndhowshallIreturntomychildren?"saidhe:"howapproachthatmansion,solatethehabitationofpeace?Alas!mydearLucy,howwillyousupporttheseheart-rendingtidings?orhowshallI
beenabledtoconsoleyou,whoneedsomuchconsolationmyself?"
Theoldmanreturnedtothechaise,butthelightstepandchearfulcountenancewerenomore;sorrowfilledhisheart,andguidedhismotions;
heseatedhimselfinthechaise,hisvenerableheadreclineduponhisbosom,hishandswerefolded,hiseyefixedonvacancy,andthelargedropsofsorrowrolledsilentlydownhischeeks。
Therewasamixtureofanguishandresignationdepictedinhiscountenance,asifhewouldsay,henceforthwhoshalldaretoboasthishappiness,oreveninideacontemplatehistreasure,lest,intheverymomenthisheartisexultinginitsownfelicity,theobjectwhichconstitutesthatfelicityshouldbetornfromhim。
CHAPTERXIV。
MATERNALSORROW。
SLOWandheavypassedthetimewhilethecarriagewasconveyingMr。Eldridgehome;andyetwhenhecameinsightofthehouse,hewishedalongerreprievefromthedreadfultaskofinformingMr。andMrs。Templeoftheirdaughter’selopement。
Itiseasytojudgetheanxietyoftheseaffectionateparents,whentheyfoundthereturnoftheirfatherdelayedsomuchbeyondtheexpectedtime。Theywerenowmetinthediningparlour,andseveraloftheyoungpeoplewhohadbeeninvitedwerealreadyarrived。
Eachdifferentpartofthecompanywasemployedinthesamemanner,lookingoutatthewindowswhichfacedtheroad。Atlengththelong-expectedchaiseappeared。Mrs。Templeranouttoreceiveandwelcomeherdarling:heryoungcompanionsflockedroundthedoor,eachoneeagertogiveherjoyonthereturnofherbirth-day。
Thedoorofthechaisewasopened:Charlottewasnotthere。
"Whereismychild?"criedMrs。Temple,inbreathlessagitation。
Mr。Eldridgecouldnotanswer:hetookholdofhisdaughter’shandandledherintothehouse;andsinkingonthefirstchairhecameto,burstintotears,andsobbedaloud。
"Sheisdead,"criedMrs。Temple。"OhmydearCharlotte!"andclaspingherhandsinanagonyofdistress,fellintostronghysterics。
Mr。Temple,whohadstoodspeechlesswithsurprizeandfear,nowventuredtoenquireifindeedhisCharlottewasnomore。
Mr。Eldridgeledhimintoanotherapartment;andputtingthefatalnoteintohishand,cried——"BearitlikeaChristian,"andturnedfromhim,endeavouringtosuppresshisowntoovisibleemotions。
ItwouldbevaintoattemptdescribingwhatMr。Templefeltwhilsthehastilyranoverthedreadfullines:
whenhehadfinished,thepaperdroptfromhisunnervedhand。
"Graciousheaven!"saidhe,"couldCharlotteactthus?"
Neithertearnorsighescapedhim;andhesattheimageofmutesorrow,tillrousedfromhisstuporbytherepeatedshrieksofMrs。Temple。
Herosehastily,andrushingintotheapartmentwhereshewas,foldedhisarmsabouther,andsaying——"Letusbepatient,mydearLucy,"
naturerelievedhisalmostburstingheartbyafriendlygushoftears。
Shouldanyone,presumingonhisownphilosophictemper,lookwithaneyeofcontemptonthemanwhocouldindulgeawoman’sweakness,lethimrememberthatmanwasafather,andhewillthenpitythemiserywhichwrungthosedropsfromanoble,generousheart。
Mrs。Templebeginningtobealittlemorecomposed,butstillimaginingherchildwasdead,herhusband,gentlytakingherhand,cried——"Youaremistaken,mylove。Charlotteisnotdead。"
"Thensheisveryill,elsewhydidshenotcome?ButIwillgotoher:
thechaiseisstillatthedoor:letmegoinstantlytothedeargirl。
IfIwasill,shewouldflytoattendme,toalleviatemysufferings,andchearmewithherlove。"
"Becalm,mydearestLucy,andIwilltellyouall,"saidMr。Temple。
"Youmustnotgo,indeedyoumustnot;itwillbeofnouse。"
"Temple,"saidshe,assumingalookoffirmnessandcomposure,"tellmethetruthIbeseechyou。Icannotbearthisdreadfulsuspense。
Whatmisfortunehasbefallenmychild?Letmeknowtheworst,andIwillendeavourtobearitasIought。"
"Lucy,"repliedMr。Temple,"imagineyourdaughteralive,andinnodangerofdeath:whatmisfortunewouldyouthendread?"
"Thereisonemisfortunewhichisworsethandeath。ButIknowmychildtoowelltosuspect——"
"Benottooconfident,Lucy。"
"Ohheavens!"saidshe,"whathorridimagesdoyoustart:
isitpossiblesheshouldforget——"
"Shehasforgotusall,mylove;shehaspreferredtheloveofastrangertotheaffectionateprotectionofherfriends。
"Noteloped?"criedsheeagerly。
Mr。Templewassilent。
"Youcannotcontradictit,"saidshe。"Iseemyfateinthosetearfuleyes。OhCharlotte!Charlotte!howillhaveyourequitedourtenderness!But,FatherofMercies,"continuedshe,sinkingonherknees,andraisingherstreamingeyesandclaspedhandstoheaven,"thisoncevouchsafetohearafond,adistractedmother’sprayer。
OhletthybounteousProvidencewatchoverandprotectthedearthoughtlessgirl,saveherfromthemiserieswhichIfearwillbeherportion,andoh!ofthineinfinitemercy,makehernotamother,lestsheshouldonedayfeelwhatInowsuffer。"
Thelastwordsfaulteredonhertongue,andshefellfaintingintothearmsofherhusband,whohadinvoluntarilydroppedonhiskneesbesideher。
Amother’sanguish,whendisappointedinhertenderesthopes,nonebutamothercanconceive。Yet,mydearyoungreaders,Iwouldhaveyoureadthisscenewithattention,andreflectthatyoumayyourselvesonedaybemothers。Ohmyfriends,asyouvalueyoureternalhappiness,woundnot,bythoughtlessingratitude,thepeaceofthemotherwhoboreyou:rememberthetenderness,thecare,theunremittinganxietywithwhichshehasattendedtoallyourwantsandwishesfromearliestinfancytothepresentday;beholdthemildrayofaffectionateapplausethatbeamsfromhereyeontheperformanceofyourduty:listentoherreproofswithsilentattention;
theyproceedfromaheartanxiousforyourfuturefelicity:
youmustloveher;nature,all-powerfulnature,hasplantedtheseedsoffilialaffectioninyourbosoms。
ThenoncemorereadoverthesorrowsofpoorMrs。Temple,andremember,themotherwhomyousodearlyloveandveneratewillfeelthesame,whenyou,forgetfuloftherespectduetoyourmakerandyourself,forsakethepathsofvirtueforthoseofviceandfolly。
CHAPTERXV。
EMBARKATION。
ITwaswiththeutmostdifficultythattheunitedeffortsofMademoiselleandMontravillecouldsupportCharlotte’sspiritsduringtheirshortridefromChichestertoPortsmouth,whereaboatwaitedtotakethemimmediatelyonboardtheshipinwhichtheyweretoembarkforAmerica。
Assoonasshebecametolerablycomposed,sheentreatedpenandinktowritetoherparents。Thisshedidinthemostaffecting,artlessmanner,entreatingtheirpardonandblessing,anddescribingthedreadfulsituationofhermind,theconflictshesufferedinendeavouringtoconquerthisunfortunateattachment,andconcludedwithsaying,heronlyhopeoffuturecomfortconsistedinthe(perhapsdelusive)
ideasheindulged,ofbeingoncemorefoldedintheirprotectingarms,andhearingthewordsofpeaceandpardonfromtheirlips。
Thetearsstreamedincessantlywhileshewaswriting,andshewasfrequentlyobligedtolaydownherpen:butwhenthetaskwascompleted,andshehadcommittedthelettertothecareofMontravilletobesenttothepostoffice,shebecamemorecalm,andindulgingthedelightfulhopeofsoonreceivingananswerthatwouldsealherpardon,sheinsomemeasureassumedherusualchearfulness。
ButMontravilleknewtoowelltheconsequencesthatmustunavoidablyensue,shouldthisletterreachMr。Temple:
hethereforewiselyresolvedtowalkonthedeck,tearitinpieces,andcommitthefragmentstothecareofNeptune,whomightormightnot,asitsuitedhisconvenience,conveythemonshore。
AllCharlotte’shopesandwisheswerenowconcentredinone,namelythatthefleetmightbedetainedatSpitheadtillshecouldreceivealetterfromherfriends:butinthisshewasdisappointed,forthesecondmorningaftershewentonboard,thesignalwasmade,thefleetweighedanchor,andinafewhours(thewindbeingfavourable)
theybidadieutothewhitecliffsofAl-bion。
InthemeantimeeveryenquirythatcouldbethoughtofwasmadebyMr。andMrs。Temple;formanydaysdidtheyindulgethefondhopethatshewasmerelygoneofftobemarried,andthatwhentheindissolubleknotwasoncetied,shewouldreturnwiththepartnershehadchosen,andentreattheirblessingandforgiveness。
"Andshallwenotforgiveher?"saidMr。Temple。
"Forgiveher!"exclaimedthemother。"Ohyes,whateverbeourerrors,isshenotourchild?andthoughbowedtotheearthevenwithshameandremorse,isitnotourdutytoraisethepoorpenitent,andwhisperpeaceandcomforttoherdespondingsoul?wouldshebutreturn,withrapturewouldIfoldhertomyheart,andburyeveryremembranceofherfaultsinthedearembrace。"
Butstilldayafterdaypassedon,andCharlottedidnotappear,norwereanytidingstobeheardofher:yeteachrisingmorningwaswelcomedbysomenewhope——theeveningbroughtwithitdisappointment。
Atlengthhopewasnomore;despairusurpedherplace;andthemansionwhichwasoncethemansionofpeace,becamethehabitationofpale,dejectedmelancholy。
ThechearfulsmilethatwaswonttoadornthefaceofMrs。Templewasfled,andhaditnotbeenforthesupportofunaffectedpiety,andaconsciousnessofhavingeversetbeforeherchildthefairestexample,shemusthavesunkunderthisheavyaffliction。
"Since,"saidshe,"theseverestscrutinycannotchargemewithanybreachofdutytohavedeservedthisseverechastisement,Iwillbowbeforethepowerwhoinflictsitwithhumbleresignationtohiswill;
norshallthedutyofawifebetotallyabsorbedinthefeelingsofthemother;Iwillendeavourtoappearmorechearful,andbyappearinginsomemeasuretohaveconqueredmyownsorrow,alleviatethesufferingsofmyhusband,androusehimfromthattorporintowhichthismisfortunehasplungedhim。Myfathertoodemandsmycareandattention:
Imustnot,byaselfishindulgenceofmyowngrief,forgettheinterestthosetwodearobjectstakeinmyhappinessormisery:
Iwillwearasmileonmyface,thoughthethornranklesinmyheart;
andifbysodoing,Iinthesmallestdegreecontributetorestoretheirpeaceofmind,Ishallbeamplyrewardedforthepaintheconcealmentofmyownfeelingsmayoccasion。
Thusarguedthisexcellentwoman:andintheexecutionofsolaudablearesolutionweshallleaveher,tofollowthefortunesofthehaplessvictimofimprudenceandevilcounsellors。
CHAPTERXVI。
NECESSARYDIGRESSION。
ONboardoftheshipinwhichCharlotteandMademoisellewereembarked,wasanofficeroflargeunincumberedfortuneandelevatedrank,andwhomIshallcallCrayton。
Hewasoneofthosemen,who,havingtravelledintheiryouth,pretendtohavecontractedapeculiarfondnessforeverythingforeign,andtoholdincontempttheproductionsoftheirowncountry;
andthisaffectedpartialityextendedeventothewomen。
WithhimthereforetheblushingmodestyandunaffectedsimplicityofCharlottepassedunnoticed;buttheforwardpertnessofLaRue,thefreedomofherconversation,theeleganceofherperson,mixedwithacertainengagingJENESAISQUOI,perfectlyenchantedhim。
ThereadernodoubthasalreadydevelopedthecharacterofLaRue:
designing,artful,andselfish,shehadacceptedthedevoirsofBelcourbecauseshewasheartilywearyoftheretiredlifesheledattheschool,wishedtobereleasedfromwhatshedeemedaslavery,andtoreturntothatvortexoffollyanddissipationwhichhadonceplungedherintothedeepestmisery;
butherplansheflatteredherselfwasnowbetterformed:
sheresolvedtoputherselfundertheprotectionofnomantillshehadfirstsecuredasettlement;buttheclandestinemannerinwhichsheleftMadameDuPont’spreventedherputtingthisplaninexecution,thoughBelcoursolemnlyprotestedhewouldmakeherahandsomesettlementthemomenttheyarrivedatPortsmouth。
Thisheafterwardscontrivedtoevadebyapretendedhurryofbusiness;
LaRuereadilyconceivinghenevermeanttofulfilhispromise,determinedtochangeherbattery,andattacktheheartofColonelCrayton。
Shesoondiscoveredthepartialityheentertainedforhernation;
andhavingimposedonhimafeignedtaleofdistress,representingBelcourasavillainwhohadseducedherfromherfriendsunderpromiseofmarriage,andafterwardsbetrayedher,pretendinggreatremorsefortheerrorsshehadcommitted,anddeclaringwhateverheraffectionforBelcourmighthavebeen,itwasnowentirelyextinguished,andshewishedfornothingmorethananopportunitytoleaveacourseoflifewhichhersoulabhorred;butshehadnofriendstoapplyto,theyhadallrenouncedher,andguiltandmiserywouldundoubtedlybeherfutureportionthroughlife。
Craytonwaspossessedofmanyamiablequalities,thoughthepeculiartraitinhischaracter,whichwehavealreadymentioned,inagreatmeasurethrewashadeoverthem。Hewasbelovedforhishumanityandbenevolencebyallwhoknewhim,buthewaseasyandunsuspicioushimself,andbecameadupetotheartificeofothers。
Hewas,whenveryyoung,unitedtoanamiableParisianlady,andperhapsitwashisaffectionforherthatlaidthefoundationforthepartialityheeverretainedforthewholenation。Hehadbyheronedaughter,whoenteredintotheworldbutafewhoursbeforehermotherleftit。
Thisladywasuniversallybelovedandadmired,beingendowedwithallthevirtuesofhermother,withouttheweaknessofthefather:
shewasmarriedtoMajorBeauchamp,andwasatthistimeinthesamefleetwithherfather,attendingherhusbandtoNew-York。
CraytonwasmeltedbytheaffectedcontritionanddistressofLaRue:
hewouldconversewithherforhours,readtoher,playcardswithher,listentoallhercomplaints,andpromisetoprotecthertotheutmostofhispower。LaRueeasilysawhischaracter;
hersoleaimwastoawakenapassioninhisbosomthatmightturnouttoheradvantage,andinthisaimshewasbuttoosuccessful,forbeforethevoyagewasfinished,theinfatuatedColonelgaveherfromunderhishandapromiseofmarriageontheirarrivalatNew-York,underforfeitureoffivethousandpounds。
AndhowdidourpoorCharlottepasshertimeduringatediousandtempestuouspassage?naturallydelicate,thefatigueandsicknesswhichsheenduredrenderedhersoweakastobealmostentirelyconfinedtoherbed:yetthekindnessandattentionofMontravilleinsomemeasurecontributedtoalleviatehersufferings,andthehopeofhearingfromherfriendssoonafterherarrival,keptupherspirits,andcheeredmanyagloomyhour。
ButduringthevoyageagreatrevolutiontookplacenotonlyinthefortuneofLaRuebutinthebosomofBelcour:
whilstinpursuitofhisamourwithMademoiselle,hehadattendedlittletotheinteresting,inobtrusivecharmsofCharlotte,butwhen,cloyedbypossession,anddisgustedwiththeartanddissimulationofone,hebeheldthesimplicityandgentlenessoftheother,thecontrastbecametoostrikingnottofillhimatoncewithsurpriseandadmiration。HefrequentlyconversedwithCharlotte;
hefoundhersensible,wellinformed,butdiffidentandunassuming。
Thelanguorwhichthefatigueofherbodyandperturbationofhermindspreadoverherdelicatefeatures,servedonlyinhisopiniontorenderhermorelovely:heknewthatMontravilledidnotdesigntomarryher,andheformedaresolutiontoendeavourtogainherhimselfwheneverMontravilleshouldleaveher。
LetnotthereaderimagineBelcour’sdesignswerehonourable。
Alas!whenonceawomanhasforgottherespectduetoherself,byyieldingtothesolicitationsofillicitlove,theylosealltheirconsequence,evenintheeyesofthemanwhosearthasbetrayedthem,andforwhosesaketheyhavesacrificedeveryvaluableconsideration。
TheheedlessFair,whostoopstoguiltyjoys,Amanmaypity——buthemustdespise。Nay,everylibertinewillthinkhehasarighttoinsultherwithhislicentiouspassion;
andshouldtheunhappycreatureshrinkfromtheinsolentoverture,hewillsneeringlytauntherwithpretenceofmodesty。
CHAPTERXVII。
AWEDDING。
ONthedaybeforetheirarrivalatNew-York,afterdinner,Craytonarosefromhisseat,andplacinghimselfbyMademoiselle,thusaddressedthecompany——
"Aswearenownearlyarrivedatourdestinedport,Ithinkitbutmydutytoinformyou,myfriends,thatthislady,"
(takingherhand,)"hasplacedherselfundermyprotection。
Ihaveseenandseverelyfelttheanguishofherheart,andthrougheveryshadewhichcrueltyormalicemaythrowoverher,candiscoverthemostamiablequalities。Ithoughtitbutnecessarytomentionmyesteemforherbeforeourdisembarkation,asitismyfixedresolution,themorningafterweland,togiveheranundoubtedtitletomyfavourandprotectionbyhonourablyunitingmyfatetohers。
Iwouldwisheverygentlemanherethereforetorememberthatherhonourhenceforthismine,and,"continuedhe,lookingatBelcour,"shouldanymanpresumetospeakintheleastdisrespectfullyofher,Ishallnothesitatetopronouncehimascoundrel。"
Belcourcastathimasmileofcontempt,andbowingprofoundlylow,wishedMademoisellemuchjoyintheproposedunion;andassuringtheColonelthatheneednotbeintheleastapprehensiveofanyonethrowingtheleastodiumonthecharacterofhislady,shookhimbythehandwithridiculousgravity,andleftthecabin。
Thetruthwas,hewasgladtoberidofLaRue,andsohewasbutfreedfromher,hecarednotwhofellavictimtoherinfamousarts。
TheinexperiencedCharlottewasastonishedatwhatsheheard。
ShethoughtLaRuehad,likeherself,onlybeenurgedbytheforceofherattachmenttoBelcour,toquitherfriends,andfollowhimtothefeatofwar:howwonderfulthen,thatsheshouldresolvetomarryanotherman。Itwascertainlyextremelywrong。
Itwasindelicate。ShementionedherthoughtstoMontraville。
Helaughedathersimplicity,calledheralittleideot,andpattingheronthecheek,saidsheknewnothingoftheworld。
"Iftheworldsanctifiessuchthings,’tisaverybadworldIthink,"
saidCharlotte。"WhyIalwaysunderstoodtheyweretohavebeenmarriedwhentheyarrivedatNew-York。IamsureMademoiselletoldmeBelcourpromisedtomarryher。"
"Well,andsupposehedid?"
"Why,heshouldbeobligedtokeephiswordIthink。"
"Well,butIsupposehehaschangedhismind,"saidMontraville,"andthenyouknowthecaseisaltered。"
Charlottelookedathimattentivelyforamoment。Afullsenseofherownsituationrusheduponhermind。Sheburstintotears,andremainedsilent。Montravilletoowellunderstoodthecauseofhertears。Hekissedhercheek,andbiddinghernotmakeherselfuneasy,unabletobearthesilentbutkeenremonstrance,hastilylefther。
Thenextmorningbysun-risetheyfoundthemselvesatanchorbeforethecityofNew-York。Aboatwasorderedtoconveytheladiesonshore。
Craytonaccompaniedthem;andtheywereshewntoahouseofpublicentertainment。Scarcelyweretheyseatedwhenthedooropened,andtheColonelfoundhimselfinthearmsofhisdaughter,whohadlandedafewminutesbeforehim。Thefirsttransportofmeetingsubsided,CraytonintroducedhisdaughtertoMademoiselleLaRue,asanoldfriendofhermother’s,(fortheartfulFrenchwomanhadreallymadeitappeartothecredulousColonelthatshewasinthesameconventwithhisfirstwife,and,thoughmuchyounger,hadreceivedmanytokensofheresteemandregard。)
"If,Mademoiselle,"saidMrs。Beauchamp,"youwerethefriendofmymother,youmustbeworthytheesteemofallgoodhearts。
""Mademoisellewillsoonhonourourfamily,"saidCrayton,"bysupplyingtheplacethatvaluablewomanfilled:andasyouaremarried,mydear,Ithinkyouwillnotblame——"
"Hush,mydearSir,"repliedMrs。Beauchamp:"Iknowmydutytoowelltoscrutinizeyourconduct。Beassured,mydearfather,yourhappinessismine。Ishallrejoiceinit,andsincerelylovethepersonwhocontributestoit。Buttellme,"
continuedshe,turningtoCharlotte,"whoisthislovelygirl?
Issheyoursister,Mademoiselle?"
Ablush,deepastheglowofthecarnation,suffusedthecheeksofCharlotte。
"Itisayounglady,"repliedtheColonel,"whocameinthesamevesselwithusfromEngland。’Hethendrewhisdaughteraside,andtoldherinawhisper,CharlottewasthemistressofMontraville。
"Whatapity!"saidMrs。Beauchampsoftly,(castingamostcompassionateglanceather。)"Butsurelyhermindisnotdepraved。
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