首页 >出版文学> Damaged Goods>第2章

第2章

  Butitismyaunt,anoldmaid;and,also,mymotheriscrazyabouttheidea。IfIweretobackoutnow,shewoulddieofchagrin。Myauntwoulddisinheritme,andsheistheonewhohasthefamilyfortune。Then,too,thereismyfather—in—law,aregulardragoonforhisprinciples——severe,violent。Henevermakesajokeofseriousthings,andItellyouitwouldcostmedear,terriblydear。And,besides,Ihavegivenmyword。"
  "Youmusttakebackyourword。"
  "Youstillinsist?"exclaimedGeorge,indespair。"Butthen,supposethatitwerepossible,howcouldItakebackmysignaturewhichIputatthebottomofthedeed?Ihavepledgedmyselftopayintwomonthsfortheattorney’spracticeIhavepurchased!"
  "Sir,"saidthedoctor,"allthesethings——"
  "YouaregoingtotellmethatIwaslackinginprudence,thatI
  shouldneverhavedisposedofmywife’sdowryuntilafterthehoneymoon!"
  "Sir,"saidthedoctor,again,"alltheseconsiderationsareforeigntome。Iamaphysician,andnothingbutaphysician,andIcanonlytellyouthis:Ifyoumarrybeforethreeorfouryears,youwillbeacriminal。"
  Georgebrokeoutwithawildexclamation。"Nosir,youarenotmerelyaphysician!Youarealsoaconfessor!Youarenotmerelyascientist;anditisnotenoughforyouthatyouobservemeasyouwouldsomelifelessthinginyourlaboratory,andsay,’Youhavethis;sciencesaysthat;nowgoalongwithyou。’Allmyexistencedependsuponyou。Itisyourdutytolistentome,becausewhenyouknoweverythingyouwillunderstandme,andyouwillfindsomewaytocuremewithinamonth。"
  "But,"protestedthedoctor,"Iwearmyselfouttellingyouthatsuchmeansdonotexist。Ishallnotbecertainofyourcure,asmuchasanyonecanbecertain,inlessthanthreeorfouryears。"
  Georgewasalmostbesidehimself。"Itellyouyoumustfindsomemeans!Listentome,sir——ifIdon’tgetmarriedIdon’tgetthedowry!AndwillyoutellmehowIcanpaythenotesIhavesigned?"
  "Oh,"saidthedoctor,dryly,"ifthatisthequestion,itisverysimple——Iwillgiveyouaplantogetoutoftheaffair。
  Youwillgoandgetacquaintedwithsomerichman;youwilldoeverythingyoucantogainhisconfidence;andwhenyouhavesucceeded,youwillplunderhim。"
  Georgeshookhishead。"Iamnotinanymoodforjoking。"
  "Iamnotjoking,"repliedhisadviser。"Robthatman,assassinatehimeven——thatwouldbenoworsecrimethanyouwouldcommitintakingayounggirlingoodhealthinordertogetaportionofherdowry,whenatthesametimeyouwouldhavetoexposehertothefrightfulconsequencesofthediseasewhichyouwouldgiveher。"
  "Frightfulconsequences?"echoedGeorge。
  "Consequencesofwhichdeathwouldnotbethemostfrightful。"
  "But,sir,youweresayingtomejustnow——"
  "JustnowIdidnottellyoueverything。Evenreduced,suppressedalittlebyourremedies,thediseaseremainsmysterious,menacing,andititssum,sufficientlygrave。Soitwouldbeaninfamytoexposeyourfianceeinordertoavoidaninconvenience,howevergreatthatmightbe。"
  ButGeorgewasstillnottobeconvinced。WasitcertainthatthismisfortunewouldbefallHenriette,evenwiththebestattention?
  Saidtheother:"Idonotwishtolietoyou。No,itisnotabsolutelycertain,itisprobable。AndthereisanothertruthwhichIwishtotellyounow:ourremediesarenotinfallible。
  Inacertainnumberofcases——averysmallnumber,scarcelyfivepercent——theyhaveremainedwithouteffect。Youmightbeoneofthoseexceptions,yourwifemightbeone。Whatthen?"
  "Iwillemployawordyouusedjustnow,yourself。Weshouldhavetoexpecttheworstcatastrophes。"
  Georgesatinastateofcompletedespair。
  "Tellmewhattodo,then,"hesaid。
  "Icantellyouonlyonething:don’tmarry。Youhaveamostseriousblemish。Itisasifyouowedadebt。Perhapsnoonewillevercometoclaimit;ontheotherhand,perhapsapitilesscreditorwillcomeallatonce,presentingabrutaldemandforimmediatepayment。Comenow——youareabusinessman。Marriageisacontract;tomarrywithoutsayinganything——thatmeanstoenterintoabargainbymeansofpassivedissimulation。That’stheterm,isitnot?Itisdishonesty,anditoughttocomeunderthelaw。"
  George,beingalawyer,couldappreciatetheargument,andcouldthinkofnothingtosaytoit。
  "WhatshallIdo?"heasked。
  Theotheranswered,"Gotoyourfather—in—lawandtellhimfranklythetruth。"
  "But,"criedtheyoungman,wildly,"therewillbenoquestionthenofthreeorfouryears’delay。Hewillrefusehisconsentaltogether。"
  "Ifthatisthecase,"saidthedoctor,"don’ttellhimanything。"
  "ButIhavetogivehimareason,orIdon’tknowwhathewilldo。Heisthesortofmantogivehimselftotheworstviolence,andagainmyfianceewouldbelosttome。Listen,doctor。FromeverythingIhavesaidtoyou,youmayperhapsthinkIamamercenaryman。ItistruethatIwanttogetalongintheworld,thatisonlynatural。ButHenriettehassuchqualities;sheissomuchbetterthanI,thatIloveher,really,aspeopleloveinnovels。Mygreatestgrief——itisnottogiveupthepracticeI
  havebought——although,indeed,itwouldbeabitterblowtome;
  mygreatestgriefwouldbetoloseHenriette。Ifyoucouldonlyseeher,ifyouonlyknewher——thenyouwouldunderstand。Ihaveherpicturehere——"
  Theyoungfellowtookouthiscard—case。Andofferedaphotographtothedoctor,whogentlyrefusedit。Theotherblushedwithembarrassment。
  "Ibegyourpardon,"hesaid,"Iamridiculous。Thathappenstome,sometimes。Only,putyourselfinmyplace——Iloveherso!"
  Hisvoicebroke。
  "Mydearboy,"saidthedoctor,feelingly,"thatisexactlywhyyououghtnottomarryher。"
  "But,"hecried,"ifIbackoutwithoutsayinganythingtheywillguessthetruth,andIshallbedishonored。"
  "Oneisnotdishonoredbecauseoneisill。"
  "Butwithsuchadisease!Peoplearesostupid。Imyself,yesterday——Ishouldhavelaughedatanyonewhohadgotintosuchaplight;Ishouldhaveavoidedhim,Ishouldhavedespisedhim!"
  AndsuddenlyGeorgebrokedownagain。"Oh!"hecried,"ifIweretheonlyonetosuffer;butshe——sheisinlovewithme。Iswearittoyou!Sheissogood;andshewillbesounhappy!"
  Thedoctoranswered,"Shewouldbeunhappierlateron。"
  "Itwillbeascandal!"Georgeexclaimed。
  "Youwillavoidonefargreater,"theotherreplied。
  SuddenlyGeorgesethislipswithresolution。Herosefromhisseat。Hetookseveraltwenty—francpiecesfromhispocketandlaidthemquietlyuponthedoctor’sdesk——payingthefeeincash,sothathewouldnothavetogivehisnameandaddress。Hetookuphisgloves,hiscaneandhishat,androse。
  "Iwillthinkitover,"hesaid。"Ithankyou,Doctor。Iwillcomebacknextweekasyouhavetoldme。Thatis——probablyI
  will。"
  Hewasabouttoleave。
  Thedoctorrose,andhespokeinavoiceoffuriousanger。"No,"
  hesaid,"Ishan’tseeyounextweek,andyouwon’teventhinkitover。Youcamehereknowingwhatyouhad;youcametoaskadviceofme,withtheintentionofpayingnoheedtoit,unlessitconformedtoyourwishes。Asuperficialhonestyhasdrivenyoutotakethatchanceinordertosatisfyyourconscience。Youwantedtohavesomebodyuponwhomyoucouldputoff,byeandbye,theconsequencesofanactwhoseculpabilityyouunderstand!No,don’tprotest!Manyofthosewhocomeherethinkandactasyouthink,andasyouwishtoact;butthemarriagemadeagainstmywillhasgenerallybeenthesourceofsuchcalamitiesthatnowI
  amalwaysafraidofnothavingbeenpersuasiveenough,anditevenseemstomethatIamalittletoblameforthesemisfortunes。Ishouldhavebeenabletopreventthem;theywouldnothavehappenedifthosewhoaretheauthorsofthemknewwhatIknowandhadseenwhatIhaveseen。Sweartome,sir,thatyouaregoingtobreakoffthatmarriage!"
  Georgewasgreatlyembarrassed,andunwillingtoreply。"I
  cannotsweartoyouatall,Doctor;IcanonlytellyouagainthatIwillthinkitover。"
  "ThatWHATover?"
  "Whatyouhavetoldme。"
  "WhatIhavetoldyouistrue!Youcannotbringanynewobjections;andIhaveansweredthosewhichyouhavepresentedtome;therefore,yourmindoughttobemadeup。"
  Gropingforareply,Georgehesitated。Hecouldnotdenythathehadmadeinquiryaboutthesemattersbeforehehadcometothedoctor。Buthesaidthathewasnotalallcertainthathehadthisdisease。Thedoctordeclaredit,andperhapsitwastrue,butthemostlearnedphysiciansweresometimesdeceived。
  Herememberedsomethinghehadreadinoneofthemedicalbooks。
  "Dr。Ricordmaintainsthatafteracertainperiodthediseaseisnolongercontagious。Hehasprovenhiscontentionsbyexamples。
  Todayyouproducenewexamplestoshowthatheiswrong!Now,I
  wanttodowhat’sright,butsurelyIhavetherighttothinkitover。AndwhenIthinkitover,Irealizethatalltheevilswithwhichyouthreatenmeareonlyprobableevils。Inspiteofyourdesiretoterrifyme,youhavebeenforcedtoadmitthatpossiblymymarriagewouldnothaveanytroublesomeconsequenceformywife。"
  Thedoctorfounddifficultyinrestraininghimself。Buthesaid,"Goon。Iwillansweryouafterwards。"
  AndGeorgeblunderedaheadinhisdesperation。"Yourremediesarepowerful,youtellme;andforthecalamitiesofwhichyouspeaktobefallme,Iwouldhavetobeamongtherareexceptions——alsomywifewouldhavetobeamongthenumberofthoserareexceptions。Ifamathematicianweretoapplythelawofchancetothesefacts,theresultofhisoperationwouldshowbutslightchanceofacatastrophe,ascomparedwiththeabsolutecertaintyofaseriesofmisfortunes,sufferings,troubles,tears,andperhapstragicaccidentswhichthebreakingofmyengagementwouldcause。SoIsaythatthemathematician——whois,evenmorethanyou,amanofscience,amanofamoreinfalliblescience——themathematicianwouldconcludethatwisdomwasnotwithyoudoctors,butwithme。"
  "Youbelieveit,sir!"exclaimedtheother。"Butyoudeceiveyourself。"Andhecontinued,drivinghomehispointwithafingerwhichseemedtoGeorgetopiercehisverysoul。"Twentycasesidenticalwithyourownhavebeenpatientlyobserved,fromthebeginningtotheend。Nineteentimesthewomanwasinfectedbyherhusband;youhearme,sir,nineteentimesoutoftwenty!
  Youbelievethatthediseaseiswithoutdanger,andyoutaketoyourselftherighttoexposeyourwifetowhatyoucallthechanceofyourbeingoneofthoseexceptions,forwhomourremediesarewithouteffect。Verywell;itisnecessarythatyoushouldknowthediseasewhichyourwife,withoutbeingconsulted,willrunachanceofcontracting。Takethatbook,sir;itistheworkofmyteacher。Readityourself。Here,Ihavemarkedthepassage。"
  Heheldouttheopenbook;butGeorgecouldnotliftahandtotakeit。
  "Youdonotwishtoreadit?"theothercontinued。"Listentome。"Andinavoicetremblingwithpassion,heread:"’Ihavewatchedthespectacleofanunfortunateyoungwoman,turnedintoaveritablemonsterbymeansofasyphiliticinfection。Herface,orratherletmesaywhatwasleftofherface,wasnothingbutaflatsurfaceseamedwithscars。’"
  Georgecoveredhisface,exclaiming,"Enough,sir!Havemercy!"
  Buttheothercried,"No,no!Iwillgototheveryend。Ihaveadutytoperform,andIwillnotbestoppedbythesensibilityofyournerves。"
  Hewentonreading:"’Oftheupperlipnotatracewasleft;theridgeoftheuppergumsappearedperfectlybare。’"Butthenattheyoungman’sprotests,hisresolutionfailedhim。"Come,"hesaid,"Iwillstop。Iamsorryforyou——youwhoacceptforanotherperson,forthewomanyousayyoulove,thechanceofadiseasewhichyoucannotevenenduretoheardescribed。Now,fromwhomdidthatwomangetsyphilis?ItisnotIwhoamspeaking,itisthebook。’Fromamiserablescoundrelwhowasnotafraidtoenterintomatrimonywhenhehadasecondaryeruption。’Allthatwasestablishedlateron——’andwho,moreover,hadthoughtitbestnottolethiswifebetreatedforfearofawakeninghersuspicions!’"
  Thedoctorclosedthebookwithabang。"Whatthatmanhasdone,sir,iswhatyouwanttodo。"
  Georgewasedgingtowardthedoor;hecouldnolongerlookthedoctorintheeye。"IshoulddeserveallthoseepithetsandstillmorebrutalonesifIshouldmarry,knowingthatmymarriagewouldcausesuchhorrors。ButthatIdonotbelieve。
  Youandyourteachers——youarespecialists,andconsequentlyyouaredriventoattributeeverythingtothediseaseyoumakethesubjectofyourstudies。Atragiccase,anexceptionalcase,holdsakindoffascinationforyou;youthinkitcanneverbetalkedaboutenough。"
  "Ihaveheardthatargumentbefore,"saidthedoctor,withaneffortatpatience。
  "Letmegoon,Ibegyou,"pleadedGeorge。"Youhavetoldmethatoutofeverysevenmenthereisonesyphilitic。YouhavetoldmethatthereareonehundredthousandinParis,comingandgoing,alert,andapparentlywell。"
  "Itistrue,"saidthedoctor,"thatthereareonehundredthousandwhoareactuallyatthismomentnotvisiblyundertheinfluenceofthedisease。Butmanythousandshavepassedintoourhospitals,victimsofthemostfrightfulravagesthatourpoorbodiescansupport。These——youdonotseethem,andtheydonotcountforyou。Butagain,ifitconcernednoonebutyourself,youmightbeabletoarguethus。WhatIdeclaretoyou,whatIaffirmwithalltheviolenceofmyconviction,isthatyouhavenottherighttoexposeahumancreaturetosuchchances——rare,asIknow,butterrible,asIknowstillbetter。
  Whathaveyoutoanswertothat?"
  "Nothing,"stammeredGeorge,broughttohiskneesatlast。"Youarerightaboutthat。Idon’tknowwhattothink。"
  "Andinforbiddingyoumarriage,"continuedthedoctor,"isitthesameasifIforbadeitforever?IsitthesameasifItoldyouthatyoucouldneverbecured?Onthecontrary,Iholdouttoyoueveryhope;butIdemandofyouadelayofthreeorfouryears,becauseitwilltakemethattimetofindoutifyouareamongthenumberofthoseunfortunateoneswhomIpitywithallmyheart,forwhomthediseaseiswithoutmercy;becauseduringthattimeyouwillbedangeroustoyourwifeandtoyourchildren。ThechildrenIhavenotyetmentionedtoyou。"
  Herethedoctor’svoicetrembledslightly。Hespokewithmovingeloquence。"Come,sir,youareanhonestman;youaretooyoungforsuchthingsnottomoveyou;youarenotinsensibletoduty。
  ItisimpossiblethatIshan’tbeabletofindawaytoyourheart,thatIshan’tbeabletomakeyouobeyme。MyemotioninspeakingtoyouprovesthatIappreciateyoursuffering,thatI
  sufferwithyou。ItisinthenameofmysinceritythatI
  imploreyou。Youhaveadmittedit——thatyouhavenottherighttoexposeyourwifetosuchmiseries。Butitisnotonlyyourwifethatyoustrike;youmayattackinheryourownchildren。I
  excludeyouforamomentfrommythought——youandher。ItisinthenameoftheseinnocentsthatIimploreyou;itisthefuture,itistheracethatIdefend。Listentome,listentome!OutofthetwentyhouseholdsofwhichIspoke,onlyfifteenhadchildren;thesefifteenhadtwenty—eight。Doyouknowhowmanyoutofthesetwenty—eightsurvived?Three,sir!Threeoutoftwenty—eight!Syphilisisaboveeverythingamurdererofchildren。HerodreignsinFrance,andoveralltheearth,andbeginseachyearhismassacreoftheinnocents;andifitbenotblasphemyagainstthesacrednessoflife,Isaythatthemosthappyarethosewhohavedisappeared。Visitourchildren’shospitals!Weknowtoowellthechildofsyphiliticparents;thetypeisclassical;thedoctorscanpickitoutanywhere。Thoselittleoldcreatureswhohavetheappearanceofhavingalreadylived,andwhohavekeptthestigmataofalloutinfirmities,ofallourdecay。Theyarethevictimsoffatherswhohavemarried,beingignorantofwhatyouknow——thingswhichIshouldliketogoandcryoutinthepublicplaces。"
  Thedoctorpaused,andtheninasolemnvoicecontinued:"Ihavetoldyouall,withoutexaggeration。Thinkitover。Considertheprosandcons;sumupthepossiblemisfortunesandthecertainmiseries。Butdisregardyourself,andconsiderthatthereareinonesideofthescalesthemisfortunesofothers,andintheotheryourown。Takecarethatyouarejust。"
  Georgewasatlastovercome。"Verywell,"hesaid,"Igiveway。
  Iwon’tgetmarried。Iwillinventsomeexcuse;Iwillgetadelayofsixmonths。Morethanthat,Icannotdo。"
  Thedoctorexclaimed,"Ineedthreeyears——Ineedfouryears!"
  "No,Doctor!"persistedGeorge。"Youcancuremeinlesstimethanthat。"
  Theotheranswered,"No!No!No!"
  Georgecaughthimbythehand,imploringly。"Yes!Scienceinallpowerful!"
  "ScienceisnotGod,"wasthereply。"Therearenolongeranymiracles。"
  "Ifonlyyouwantedtodoit!"criedtheyoungman,hysterically。
  "Youarealearnedman;seek,invent,findsomething!Trysomenewplanwithme;givemedoublethedose,tentimesthedoes;
  makemesuffer。Igivemyselfuptoyou;Iwillendureeverything——Iswearit!Thereoughttobesomewaytocuremewithinsixmonths。Listentome!ItellyouIcan’tanswerformyselfwiththatdelay。Come;itisinthenameofmywife,inthenameofmychildren,thatIimploreyou。Dosomethingforthem!"
  Thedoctorhadreachedthelimitofhispatience。"Enough,sir!"
  hecried。"Enough!"
  Butnothingcouldstopthewretchedman。"Onmyknees!"hecried。"Iputmyselfonmykneesbeforeyou!Oh!Ifonlyyouwoulddoit!Iwouldblessyou;Iwouldadoreyou,asoneadoresagod!Allmygratitude,allmylife——halfmyfortune!
  Formercy’ssake,Doctor,dosomething;inventsomething;makesomediscovery——havepity!"
  Thedoctoransweredgravely,"Doyouwishmetodomoreforyouthanfortheothers?"
  Georgeanswered,unblushingly,’answered,unblushingly,"Yes!"
  Hewasbesidehimselfwithterroranddistress。
  Theother’sreplywasdeliveredinasolemntone。"Understand,sir,foreveryoneofoutpatientswedoallthatwecan,whetheritbethegreatestpersonage,orthelastcomertoouthospitalclinic。Wehavenosecretsinreserveforthosewhoaremorefortunate,orlessfortunatethantheothers,andwhoareinahurrytobecured。"
  Georgegazedathimforamomentinbewildermentanddespair,andthensuddenlybowedhishead。"Good—by,Doctor,"heanswered。
  "Aurevoir,sir,"theothercorrected——withwhatprovedtobepropheticunderstanding。ForGeorgewasdestinedtoseehimagain——eventhoughhehadmadeuphismindtothecontrary!
  CHAPTERIII
  GeorgeDuponthadthemostimportantdecisionofhislifetomake;buttherewasneververymuchdoubtwhathisdecisionwouldbe。Onetheonehandwasthedefinitecertaintythatifhetookthedoctor’sadvice,hewouldwreckhisbusinessprospects,andperhapsalsolosethewomanheloved。Ontheotherhandwerevagueanduncertainpossibilitieswhichitwasdifficultforhimtomakerealtohimself。Itwasallverywelltowaitawhiletobecuredofthedreaddisease;buttowaitthreeorfouryears——
  thatwassimplypreposterous!
  Hedecidedtoconsultanotherphysician。Hewouldfindonethistimewhowouldnotbesoparticular,whowouldbewillingtotakesometroubletocurehimquickly。Hebegantonoticetheadvertisementswhichwerescatteredoverthepagesofthenewspapersheread。TherewereapparentlyplentyofdoctorsinPariswhocouldcurehim,whowerewillingtoguaranteetocurehim。Aftermuchhesitation,hepickedoutonewhoseadvertisementsoundedthemostconvincing。
  Theofficewaslocatedinacheapquarter。Itwasadingyplace,notencumberedwithworksofart,butwithafewbookscoveredwithdust。Thedoctorhimselfwasstoutandgreasy,andherubbedhishandswithanticipationatthesightofsoprosperous—lookingapatient。Buthewasevidentlyamanofexperience,forheknewexactlywhatwasthematterwithGeorge,almostwithouttheformalityofanexamination。Yes,hecouldcurehim,quickly,hesaid。Therehadrecentlybeengreatdiscoveriesmade——newmethodswhichhadnotreachedthebulkoftheprofession。Helaughedattheideaofthreeorfouryears。
  Thatwasthewaywiththosespecialists!Whenonegotfortyfrancsforaconsultation,naturally,onewasgladtodragoutthecase。Thereweretricksinthemedicaltrade,asinallothers。Adoctorhadtolive;whenhehadabigname,hehadtoliveexpensively。
  Thenewphysicianwroteouttwoprescriptions,andpattedGeorgeontheshoulderashewentaway。Therewasnoneedforhimtoworry;hewouldsurelybewellinthreemonths。Ifhewouldputoffhismarriageforsixmonths,hewouldbedoingeverythingwithinreason。Andmeantime,therewasnoneedforhimtoworryhimself——thingswouldcomeoutallright。SoGeorgewentaway,feelingasifamountainhadbeenliftedfromhisshoulders。
  HewenttoseeHenriettethatsameevening,togetthemattersettled。"Henriette,"hesaid,"Ihavetotellyousomethingveryimportant——somethingratherpainful。Ihopeyouwon’tletitdisturbyoutoomuch。"
  Shewasgazingathiminalarm。"Whatisit?"
  "Why,"hesaid,blushinginspiteofhimself,andregrettingthathehadbegunthemattersoprecipitately,"forsometimeI’venotbeenfeelingquitewell。I’vebeenhavingaslightcough。Haveyounoticedit?"
  "Whyno!"exclaimedHenriette,anxiously。
  "Well,todayIwenttoseeadoctor,andhesaysthatthereisapossibility——youunderstanditisnothingveryserious——butitmightbe——Imightpossiblyhavelungtrouble。"
  "George!"criedthegirlinhorror。
  Heputhishanduponhers。"Don’tbefrightened,"hesaid。"Itwillbeallright,onlyIhavetotakecareofmyself。"Howverydearofher,hethought——tobesomuchworried!
  "George,yououghttogoawaytothecountry!"shecried。"Youhavebeenworkingtoohard。Ialwaystoldyouthatifyoushutyourselfupsomuch——"
  "Iamgoingtotakecareofmyself,"hesaid。"Irealizethatitisnecessary。Ishallbeallright——thedoctorassuredmetherewasnodoubtofit,soyouarenottodistressyourself。Butmeantime,hereisthetrouble:Idon’tthinkitwouldberightformetomarryuntilIamperfectlywell。"
  Henriettegaveanexclamationofdismay。
  "Iamsureweshouldputitoff,"hewenton,"itwouldbeonlyfairtoyou。"
  "But,George!"sheprotested。"Surelyitcan’tbethatserious!"
  "Weoughttowait,"hesaid。"Yououghtnottotakethechanceofbeingmarriedtoaconsumptive。"
  Theotherprotestedinconsternation。Hedidnotlooklikeaconsumptive;shedidnotbelievethatheWASaconsumptive。Shewaswillingtotakeherchances。Shelovedhim,andshewasnotafraid。ButGeorgeinsisted——hewassurethatheoughtnottomarryforsixmonths。
  "Didthedoctoradvisethat?"askedHenriette。
  "No,"hereplied,"butImadeupmymindaftertalkingtohimthatImustdothefairandhonorablething。Ibegyoutoforgiveme,andtobelievethatIknowbest。"
  Georgestoodfirmlybythisposition,andsointheendshehadtogiveway。Itdidnotseemquitemodestinhertocontinuepersisting。
  Georgevolunteeredtowritealettertoherfather;andhehopedthiswouldsettlethematterwithoutfurtherdiscussion。Butinthishewasdisappointed。TherehadtobealongcorrespondencewithlongargumentsandprotestationsfromHenriette’sfatherandfromhisownmother。Itseemedsuchasingularwhim。Everybodypersistedindiagnosinghissymptoms,inquestioninghimaboutwhatthedoctorhadsaid,whothedoctorwas,howhehadcometoconsulthim——allofwhich,ofcourse,wasveryembarrassingtoGeorge,whocouldnotseewhytheyhadtomakesuchafuss。Hetooktocultivatingaconsumptivelook,aswellashecouldimagineit;hetooktocoughingashewentaboutthehouse——anditwasallhecoulddotokeepfromlaughing,ashesawthelookofdismayonhispoormother’sface。Afterall,however,hetoldhimselfthathewasnotdeceivingher,forthediseasehehadwasquiteasseriousastuberculosis。
  Itwasverypainfulandverytrying。Buttherewasnothingthatcouldbedoneaboutit;themarriagehadbeenputoffforsixmonths,andinthemeantimeheandHenriettehadtocontroltheirimpatienceandmakethebestoftheirsituation。Sixmonthswasalongtime;butwhatifithadbeenthreeorfouryears,astheotherdoctorhaddemanded?Thatwouldhavebeenaveritablesentenceofdeath。
  George,aswehaveseen,wasconscientious,andregularandcarefulinhishabits。Hetookthemedicinewhichthenewdoctorprescribedforhim;anddaybydayhewatched,andtohisgreatreliefsawthetroublesomesymptomsgraduallydisappearing。Hebegantotakeheart,andtolookforwardtolifewithhisformerbuoyancy。Hehadhadabadscare,butnoweverythingwasgoingtobeallright。
  Threeorfourmonthspassed,andthedoctortoldhimhewascured。Hereallywascured,sofarashecouldsee。Hewassorry,now,thathehadaskedforsolongadelayfromHenriette;
  butthenewdatefortheweddinghadbeenannounced,anditwouldbeawkwardtochangeitagain。Georgetoldhimselfthathewasbeing"extracareful,"andhewasrepaidfortheinconveniencebythefeelingofvirtuederivedfromthedelay。Hewasrelievedthathedidnothavetocoughanymore,ortoinventanymoretalesofhisinterviewswiththeimaginarylung—specialist。
  Sometimeshehadguiltyfeelingsbecauseofallthelyinghehadhadtodo;buthetoldhimselfthatitwasforHenriette’ssake。
  Shelovedhimasmuchashelovedher。Shewouldhavesufferedneedlessagonieshadsheknownthetruth;shewouldneverhavegotoverit——soitwouldhavebeenacrimetotellher。
  Hereallylovedherdevotedly,thoroughly。Fromthebeginninghehadthoughtasmuchofhermentalsufferingsashehadofanyphysicalharmthatthedreaddiseasemightdotohim。Howcouldhepossiblypersuadehimselftogiveherup,whenheknewthattheseparationwouldbreakherheartandruinherwholelife?
  No;obviously,insuchadilemma,itwashisdutytousehisownbestjudgment,andgethimselfcuredasquicklyaspossible。
  Afterthathewouldbetruetoher,hewouldtakenomorechancesofaloathsomedisease。
  Thesecrethewashidingmadehimfeelhumble——madehimunusuallygentleinhisattitudetowardsthegirl。Hewasaperfectlover,andshewasravishedwithhappiness。Shethoughtthatallhissufferingswerebecauseofhisloveforher,andthedelaywhichhehadimposedoutofhisexcessofconscientiousness。Soshelovedhimmoreandmore,andneverwasthereahappierbridethanHenrietteLoches,whenatlastthegreatdayarrived。
  TheywenttotheRiveriafortheirhoneymoon,andthenreturnedtoliveinthehomewhichhadbelongedtoGeorge’sfather。Theinvestmentinthenotary’spracticehadprovenagoodone,andsolifeheldouteverypromisefortheyoungcouple。Theyweredivinelyhappy。
  Afterawhile,thebridecommunicatedtoherhusbandthetidingsthatshewasexpectingachild。ThenitseemedtoGeorgethatthecupofhisearthlyblisswasfull。Hisailmenthadslippedfarintothebackgroundofhisthoughts,likeanevildreamwhichhehadforgotten。Heputawaythemedicinesinthebottomofhistrunkanddismissedthewholematterfromhismind。Henriettewaswell——averypictureofhealth,aseveryoneagreed。Thedoctorhadneverseenamorepromisingyoungmother,hedeclared,andMadameDupont,theelder,bloomedwithfreshlifeandjoyassheattendedherdaughter—in—law。
  Henriettewentforthesummertoherfather’splaceintheprovinces,whichsheandGeorgehadvisitedbeforetheirmarriage。Theydroveoutonedaytothefarmwheretheyhadstopped。Thefarmer’swifehadaweek—oldbaby,thesightofwhichmadeHenriette’sheartleapwithdelight。HewassuchaveryhealthybabythatGeorgeconceivedtheideathatthiswouldbethewomantonursehisownchild,incaseHenrietteherselfshouldnotbeabletodoit。
  Theycamebacktothecity,andtherethebabywasborn。AsGeorgepacedthefloor,waitingforthenews,thememoryofhisevildreamscamebacktohim。Herememberedallthedreadfulmonstrositiesofwhichhehadread——infantsthatwerebornofsyphiliticparents。Hisheartstoodstillwhenthenursecameintotheroomtotellhimthetidings。
  Butitwasallright;ofcourseitwasallright!Hehadbeenafool,hetoldhimself,ashestoodinthedarkenedroomandgazedatthewonderfullittlemiteoflifewhichwasthefruitofhislove。Itwasaperfectchild,thedoctorsaid——alittlesmall,tobesure,butthatwasadefectwhichwouldsoonberemedied。
  Georgekneeledbythebedsideandkissedthehandofhiswife,andwentoutoftheroomfeelingasifhehadescapedfromatomb。
  Allwentwell,andafteracoupleofweeksHenriettewasaboutthehouseagain,laughingalldayandsingingwithjoy。Butthebabydidnotgainquiteasrapidlyasthedoctorhadhoped,anditwasdecidedthatthecountryairwouldbebetterforher。SoGeorgeandhismotherpaidavisittothefarminthecountry,andarrangedthatthecountrywomanshouldputherownchildtonurseelsewhereandshouldbecomethefoster—motheroflittleGervaise。
  Georgepaidagoodpricefortheservice,farmorethanwouldhavebeennecessary,forthesimplecountrywomanwasdelightedwiththeideaoftakingcareofthegrandchildofthedeputyofherdistrict。Georgecamehomeandtoldhiswifeaboutthisandhadamerrytimeashepicturedthewomanboastingaboutittothetravelerswhostoppedatherdoor。"Yes,ma’am,agreatpieceofluckI’vegot,ma’am。I’vegotthedaughterofthedaughterofourdeputy——atyourservicema’am。My!Butsheisasfatasoutlittlecalf——andsoclever!Sheunderstandseverything。Agreatpieceofluckforme,ma’am。She’sthedaughterofthedaughterofourdeputy!"Henriettewasvastlyentertained,discoveringinherhusbandanewtalent,thatofanactor。
  AsforGeorge’smother,shewashardlytobepersuadedfromstayinginthecountrywiththechild。Shewenttwiceaweek,tomakesurethatallwentwell。Henrietteandshelivedwiththechild’spicturebeforethem;theyspenttheirtimesewingoncapsandunderwear——allcoveredwithlacesandfrillsandpinkandblueribbons。Everyday,whenGeorgecamehomefromhiswork,hefoundsomenewarticlecompleted,andwasravishedbythescentofsomenewkindofsachetpowder。Whataluckymanhewas!
  YouwouldthinkhemusthavebeenthehappiestmaninthewholecityofParis。ButGeorge,alas,hadtopaythepenaltyforhisearlysins。Therewas,forinstance,thedeceptionhehadpracticeduponhisfriend,awaybackintheearlydays。Nowhehadfriendsofhisown,andhecouldnotkeepthesefriendsfromvisitinghim;andsohewasunquietwiththefearthatsomeoneofthemmightplayuponhimthesameviletrick。Eveninthemidstofhisradianthappiness,whenheknewthatHenriettewashanginguponhiseveryword,tremblingwithdelightwhensheheardhislatchkeyinthedoor——stillhecouldnotdriveawaythehorriblethoughtthatperhapsallthismightbedeception。
  Therewashisfriend,Gustave,forexample。HehadbeenafriendofHenriette’sbeforehermarriage;hehadevenbeeninlovewithheratonetime。Andnowhecamesometimestothehouse——onceortwicewhenGeorgewasaway!Whatdidthatmean?Georgewondered。Hebroodedoveritallday,butdarednotdropanyhinttoHenriette。Buthetooktosettinglittletrapstocatchher;forinstance,hewouldcallheruponthetelephone,disguisinghisvoice。"Hello!Hello!Isthatyou,MadameDupont?"Andwhensheanswered,"ItisI,sir,"allunsuspecting,hewouldinquire,"IsGeorgethere?"
  "No,sir,"shereplied。"Whoisthisspeaking?"
  Heanswered,"ItisI,Gustave。Howareyouthismorning?"Hewantedtoseewhatshewouldanswer。Wouldsheperhapssay,"Verywell,Gustave。Howareyou?"——inatonewhichwouldbetraytoogreatintimacy!
  ButHenriettewasasharpyoungperson。ThetonedidnotsoundlikeGustave’s。Sheaskedinbewilderment,"What?"andthenagain,"What?"
  So,atlast,George,afraidthathistrickmightbesuspected,hadtoburstoutlaughing,andturnitintoajoke。Butwhenhecamehomeandteasedhiswifeaboutit,thelaughwasnotallonhisside。Henriettehadguessedtherealmeaningofhisjoke!
  Shedidnotreallymind——shetookhisjealousyasasignoflove,andwaspleasedwithit。Itisnotuntilathirdpartycomeuponthescenethatjealousybeginstobeannoying。
  SoshehadamerrytimeteasingGeorge。"Youareagreatfellow!
  YouhavenoideahowwellIunderstandyou——andafteronlyayearofmarriage!"
  "Youknowme?"saidthehusband,curiously。(Itisalwayssofascinatingwhenanybodythinkssheknowusbetterthanweknowourselves!)"Tellme,whatdoyouthinkaboutme?"
  "Youarerestless,"saidHenriette。"Youaresuspicious。Youpassyourtimeputtingfliesinyourmilk,andinventingwiseschemestogetthemout。"
  "Oh,youthinkthat,doyou?"saidGeorge,pleasedtobetalkedabout。
  "Iamnotannoyed,"sheanswered。"Youhavealwaysbeenthatway——andIknowthatit’sbecauseatbottomyouaretimidanddisposedtosuffer。Andthen,too,perhapsyouhavereasonsfornothavingconfidenceinawife’sintimatefriends——lady—killerthatyouare!"
  Georgefoundthisratherembarrassing;buthedarednotshowit,sohelaughedgayly。"Idon’tknowwhatyoumean,"hesaid——
  "uponmywordIdon’t。ButitisatrickIwouldnotadviseeverybodytotry。"
  Therewereotherembarrassingmoments,causedbyGeorge’shavingthingstoconceal。Therewas,forinstance,thematterofthesixmonths’delayinthemarriage——aboutwhichHenriettewouldneverstoptalking。Shebegrudgedthetime,becauseshehadgottheideathatlittleGervaisewassixmonthsyoungerthansheotherwisewouldhavebeen。"Thatshowsyourtimidityagain,"shewouldsay。"Theideaofyourhavingimaginedyourselfaconsumptive!"
  PoorGeorgehadtodefendhimself。"Ididn’ttellyouhalfthetruth,becauseIwasafraidofupsettingyou。ItseemedIhadthebeginningofchronicbronchitis。IfeltitquitekeenlywheneverItookabreath,adeepbreath——look,likethis。Yes——I
  felt——hereandthere,oneachsideofthechest,aheaviness——adifficulty——"
  "Theideaoftakingsixmonthstocureyouofathinglikethat!"
  exclaimedHenriette。"Andmakingourbabysixmonthsyoungerthansheoughttobe!"
  "But,"laughedGeorge,"thatmeansthatweshallhavehersomuchthelonger!Shewillgetmarriedsixmonthslater!"
  "Oh,dearme,"respondedtheother,"letusnottalkaboutsuchthings!Iamalreadyworried,thinkingshewillgetmarriedsomeday。"
  "Formypart,"saidGeorge,"IseemyselfmountingwithheronmyarmthestaircaseoftheMadeleine。"
  "WhytheMadeleine?"exclaimedhiswife。"Suchaverymagnificentchurch!"
  "Idon’tknow——Iseeherunderherwhiteveil,andmyselfalldressedup,andwithanorder。"
  "Withanorder!"laughedHenriette。"Whatdoyouexpecttodotowinanorder?"
  "Idon’tknowthat——butIseemyselfwithit。Explainitasyouwill,Iseemyselfwithanorder。Iseeitall,exactlyasifI
  werethere——theSwissguardwithhiswhitestockingsandthehalbard,andthelittlemilliner’sassistantsandthescullionlinedupstaring。"
  "Itisfaroff——allthat,"saidHenriette。"Idon’tliketotalkofit。Ipreferherasababy。Iwanthertogrowup——butthenIchangemymindandthinkIdon’t。Iknowyourmotherdoesn’t。
  Doyouknow,Idon’tbelievesheeverthinksaboutanythingbutherlittleGervaise。"
  "Ibelieveyou,"saidthefather。"Thechildcancertainlyboastofhavingagrandmotherwholovesher。"
  "Also,Iadoreyourmother,"declaredHenriette。"Shemakesmeforgetmymisfortuneinnothavingmyownmother。Sheissogood!"
  "Wearealllikethatinourfamily,"putinGeorge。
  "Really,"laughedthewife。"Well,anyhow——thelasttimethatwewentdowninthecountrywithher——youhadgoneout,Idon’tknowwhereyouhadgone——"
  "Toseethesixteenth—centurychest,"suggestedtheother。
  "Oh,yes,"laughedHenriette;"yourfamouschest!"(Youmustexcusethislittlefamilychatteroftheirs——theyweresomuchinlovewitheachother!)
  "Don’tlet’stalkaboutthat,"objectedGeorge。"Youweresaying——?"
  "Youwerenotthere。Thenursewasoutatmass,Ithink——"
  "Oratthewinemerchant’s!Goon,goon。"
  "Well,Iwasinthelittleroom,andmotherdearthoughtshewasallalonewithGervaise。Iwaslistening;shewastalkingtothebaby——allsortsofnonsense,prettylittlewords——stupid,ifyoulike,buttender。Iwantedtolaugh,andatthesametimeI
  wantedtoweep。"
  "Perhapsshecalledher’mydearlittleSavior’?"
  "Exactly!Didyouhearher?"
  "No——butthatiswhatsheusedtocallmewhenIwaslittle。"
  "Itwasthatdayshesworethatthelittleonehadrecognizedher,andlaughed!"
  "Oh,yes!"
  "Andthenanothertime,whenIwentintoherroom——mother’sroom——shedidn’thearmebecausethedoorwasopen,butIsawher。Shewasinecstasybeforethelittlebootswhichthebabyworeatbaptism——youknow?"
  "Yes,yes。"
  "Listen,then。Shehadtakenthemandshewasembracingthem!"
  "Andwhatdidyousaythen?"
  "Nothing;Istoleoutverysoftly,andIsentacrossthethresholdagreatkisstothedeargrandmother!"
  Henriettesatforamomentinthought。"Itdidn’ttakeherverylong,"sheremarked,"todaywhenshegottheletterfromthenurse。Iimagineshecaughttheeight—fifty—ninetrain!"
  "Anyyet,"laughedGeorge,"itwasreallynothingatall。"
  "Ohno,"saidhiswife。"Yetafterall,perhapsshewasright——
  andperhapsIoughttohavegonewithher。"
  "Howcharmingyouare,mypoorHenriette!Youbelieveeverythingyouaretold。I,formypart,divinedrightawaythetruth。Thenursewassimplyplayingagameonus;shewantedaraise。Willyoubet?Come,I’llbetyousomething。Whatwouldyouliketobet?Youdon’twantto?Come,I’llbetyoualovelynecklace——
  youknow,withabigpearl。"
  "No,"saidHenriette,whohadsuddenlylosthermoodofgayety。
  "Ishouldbetoomuchafraidofwinning。"
  "Stop!"laughedherhusband。"Don’tyoubelieveIloveherasmuchasyouloveher——mylittleduck?Doyouknowhowoldsheis?ImeanherEXACTage?"
  Henriettesatknittingherbrows,tryingtofigure。
  "Ah!"heexploded。"Youseeyoudon’tknow!Sheisninety—onedaysandeighthours!Ha,ha!Imaginewhenshewillbeabletowalkallalone。Thenwewilltakeherbackwithus;wemustwaitatleastsixmonths。"Then,toolate,poorGeorgerealizedthathehadspokenthefatalphraseagain。
  "Ifonlyyouhadn’tputoffourmarriage,shewouldbeabletowalknow,"saidHenriette。
  Herosesuddenly。"Come,"hesaid,"didn’tyousayyouhadtodressandpaysomecalls?"
  Henriettelaughed,buttookthehint。
  "Runalong,littlewife,"hesaid。"Ihavealotofworktodointhemeantime。Youwon’tbedown—stairsbeforeIshallhavemynoseburiedinmypapers。Bye—bye。"
  "Bye—bye,"saidHenriette。Buttheypausedtoexchangeadozenorsokissesbeforeshewentawaytodress。
  ThenGeorgelightedacigaretteandstretchedhimselfoutinthebigarmchair。Heseemedrestless;heseemedtobedisturbedaboutsomething。Coulditbethathehadnotbeensomuchateaseashehadpretendedtobe,sincetheletterhadcomefromthebaby’snurse?MadameDuponthadgonebytheearliesttrainthatmorning。Shehadpromisedtotelegraphatonce——butshehadnotdoneso,andnowitwaslateafternoon。
  Georgegotupandwanderedabout。Helookedathimselfintheglassforamoment;thenhewentbacktothechairandpulledupanothertoputhisgeetupon。Hepuffedawayathiscigaretteuntilhewascalmer。Butthensuddenlyheheardtherustleofadressbehindhim,andglancedabout,andstartedupwithanexclamation,"Mother!"
  MadameDupontstoodinthedoorway。Shedidnotspeak。HerveilwasthrownbackandGeorgenotedinstantlythelookofagitationuponhercountenance。
  "What’sthematter?"hecried。"Wedidn’tgetanytelegramfromyou;wewerenotexpectingyoutilltomorrow。"
  Stillhismotherdidnotspeak。
  "Henriettewasjustgoingout,"heexclaimednervously;"Ihadbettercallher。"
  "No!"saidhismotherquickly。Hervoicewaslowandtrembling。
  "IdidnotwantHenriettetobeherewhenIarrived。"
  "Butwhat’sthematter?"criedGeorge。
  Againtherewasasilencebeforethereplycame。Hereadsomethingterribleinthemother’smanner,andhefoundhimselftremblingviolently。
  "Ihavebroughtbackthechildandthenurse,"saidMadameDupont。
  "What!Isthelittleonesick?"
  "Yes。"
  "What’sthematterwithher?"
  "Nothingdangerous——forthemoment,atleast。"
  "Wemustsendandgetthedoctor!"criedGeorge。
  "Ihavejustcomefromthedoctor’s,"wasthereply。"Hesaiditwasnecessarytotakeoutchildfromthenurseandbringheruponthebottle。"
  Againtherewasapause。Georgecouldhardlybringhimselftoaskthenextquestion。Tryashewould,hecouldnotkeephisvoicefromweakening。"Well,now,whatishertrouble?"
  Themotherdidnotanswer。Shestoodstaringbeforeher。Atlastshesaid,faintly,"Idon’tknow。"
  "Youdidn’task?"
  "Iasked。ButitwasnottoourowndoctorthatIwent。"
  "Ah!"whisperedGeorge。Fornearlyaminuteneitheroneofthemspoke。"Why?"heinquiredatlast。
  "Because——he——thenurse’sdoctor——hadfrightenedmeso——"
  "Truly?"
  "Yes。Itisadisease——"againshestopped。
  Georgecried,inavoiceofagony,"andthen?"
  "ThenIaskedhimifthematterwassogravethatIcouldnotbesatisfiedwithourordinarydoctor。"
  "Andwhatdidheanswer?"
  "Hesaidthatifwehadthemeansitwouldreallybebettertoconsultaspecialist。"
  Georgelookedathismotheragain。Hewasabletodoit,becauseshewasnotlookingathim。Heclenchedhishandsandgothimselftogether。"And——wheredidhesendyou?"
  Hismotherfumbledinherhandbaganddrewoutavisitingcard。
  "Here,"shesaid。
  AndGeorgelookedatthecard。Itwasallhecoulddotokeephimselffromtottering。Itwasthecardofthedoctorwhomhehadfirstconsultedabouthistrouble!Thespecialistinvenerealdiseases!
  CHAPTERIV
  ItwasallGeorgecoulddotocontrolhisvoice。"You——youwenttoseehim?"hestammered。
  "Yes,"saidhismother。"Youknowhim?"
  "No,no,"heanswered。"Or——thatis——Ihavemethim,Ithink。I
  don’tknow。"Andthentohimself,"MyGod!"
  Therewasasilence。"Heiscomingtotalktoyou,"saidthemother,atlast。
  Georgewashardlyabletospeak。"Thenheisverymuchdisturbed?"
  "No,buthewantstotalktoyou。"
  "Tome?"
  "Yes。Whenthedoctorsawthenurse,hesaid,’Madame,itisimpossibleformetocontinuetoattendthischildunlessIhavehadthisverydayaconversationwitthefather。’SoIsaid’Verywell,’andhesaidhewouldcomeatonce。"
  Georgeturnedaway,andputhishandstohisforehead。"Mypoorlittledaughter!"hewhisperedtohimself。