Butitismyaunt,anoldmaid;and,also,mymotheriscrazyabouttheidea。IfIweretobackoutnow,shewoulddieofchagrin。Myauntwoulddisinheritme,andsheistheonewhohasthefamilyfortune。Then,too,thereismyfather—in—law,aregulardragoonforhisprinciples——severe,violent。Henevermakesajokeofseriousthings,andItellyouitwouldcostmedear,terriblydear。And,besides,Ihavegivenmyword。"
"Youmusttakebackyourword。"
"Youstillinsist?"exclaimedGeorge,indespair。"Butthen,supposethatitwerepossible,howcouldItakebackmysignaturewhichIputatthebottomofthedeed?Ihavepledgedmyselftopayintwomonthsfortheattorney’spracticeIhavepurchased!"
"Sir,"saidthedoctor,"allthesethings——"
"YouaregoingtotellmethatIwaslackinginprudence,thatI
shouldneverhavedisposedofmywife’sdowryuntilafterthehoneymoon!"
"Sir,"saidthedoctor,again,"alltheseconsiderationsareforeigntome。Iamaphysician,andnothingbutaphysician,andIcanonlytellyouthis:Ifyoumarrybeforethreeorfouryears,youwillbeacriminal。"
Georgebrokeoutwithawildexclamation。"Nosir,youarenotmerelyaphysician!Youarealsoaconfessor!Youarenotmerelyascientist;anditisnotenoughforyouthatyouobservemeasyouwouldsomelifelessthinginyourlaboratory,andsay,’Youhavethis;sciencesaysthat;nowgoalongwithyou。’Allmyexistencedependsuponyou。Itisyourdutytolistentome,becausewhenyouknoweverythingyouwillunderstandme,andyouwillfindsomewaytocuremewithinamonth。"
"But,"protestedthedoctor,"Iwearmyselfouttellingyouthatsuchmeansdonotexist。Ishallnotbecertainofyourcure,asmuchasanyonecanbecertain,inlessthanthreeorfouryears。"
Georgewasalmostbesidehimself。"Itellyouyoumustfindsomemeans!Listentome,sir——ifIdon’tgetmarriedIdon’tgetthedowry!AndwillyoutellmehowIcanpaythenotesIhavesigned?"
"Oh,"saidthedoctor,dryly,"ifthatisthequestion,itisverysimple——Iwillgiveyouaplantogetoutoftheaffair。
Youwillgoandgetacquaintedwithsomerichman;youwilldoeverythingyoucantogainhisconfidence;andwhenyouhavesucceeded,youwillplunderhim。"
Georgeshookhishead。"Iamnotinanymoodforjoking。"
"Iamnotjoking,"repliedhisadviser。"Robthatman,assassinatehimeven——thatwouldbenoworsecrimethanyouwouldcommitintakingayounggirlingoodhealthinordertogetaportionofherdowry,whenatthesametimeyouwouldhavetoexposehertothefrightfulconsequencesofthediseasewhichyouwouldgiveher。"
"Frightfulconsequences?"echoedGeorge。
"Consequencesofwhichdeathwouldnotbethemostfrightful。"
"But,sir,youweresayingtomejustnow——"
"JustnowIdidnottellyoueverything。Evenreduced,suppressedalittlebyourremedies,thediseaseremainsmysterious,menacing,andititssum,sufficientlygrave。Soitwouldbeaninfamytoexposeyourfianceeinordertoavoidaninconvenience,howevergreatthatmightbe。"
ButGeorgewasstillnottobeconvinced。WasitcertainthatthismisfortunewouldbefallHenriette,evenwiththebestattention?
Saidtheother:"Idonotwishtolietoyou。No,itisnotabsolutelycertain,itisprobable。AndthereisanothertruthwhichIwishtotellyounow:ourremediesarenotinfallible。
Inacertainnumberofcases——averysmallnumber,scarcelyfivepercent——theyhaveremainedwithouteffect。Youmightbeoneofthoseexceptions,yourwifemightbeone。Whatthen?"
"Iwillemployawordyouusedjustnow,yourself。Weshouldhavetoexpecttheworstcatastrophes。"
Georgesatinastateofcompletedespair。
"Tellmewhattodo,then,"hesaid。
"Icantellyouonlyonething:don’tmarry。Youhaveamostseriousblemish。Itisasifyouowedadebt。Perhapsnoonewillevercometoclaimit;ontheotherhand,perhapsapitilesscreditorwillcomeallatonce,presentingabrutaldemandforimmediatepayment。Comenow——youareabusinessman。Marriageisacontract;tomarrywithoutsayinganything——thatmeanstoenterintoabargainbymeansofpassivedissimulation。That’stheterm,isitnot?Itisdishonesty,anditoughttocomeunderthelaw。"
George,beingalawyer,couldappreciatetheargument,andcouldthinkofnothingtosaytoit。
"WhatshallIdo?"heasked。
Theotheranswered,"Gotoyourfather—in—lawandtellhimfranklythetruth。"
"But,"criedtheyoungman,wildly,"therewillbenoquestionthenofthreeorfouryears’delay。Hewillrefusehisconsentaltogether。"
"Ifthatisthecase,"saidthedoctor,"don’ttellhimanything。"
"ButIhavetogivehimareason,orIdon’tknowwhathewilldo。Heisthesortofmantogivehimselftotheworstviolence,andagainmyfianceewouldbelosttome。Listen,doctor。FromeverythingIhavesaidtoyou,youmayperhapsthinkIamamercenaryman。ItistruethatIwanttogetalongintheworld,thatisonlynatural。ButHenriettehassuchqualities;sheissomuchbetterthanI,thatIloveher,really,aspeopleloveinnovels。Mygreatestgrief——itisnottogiveupthepracticeI
havebought——although,indeed,itwouldbeabitterblowtome;
mygreatestgriefwouldbetoloseHenriette。Ifyoucouldonlyseeher,ifyouonlyknewher——thenyouwouldunderstand。Ihaveherpicturehere——"
Theyoungfellowtookouthiscard—case。Andofferedaphotographtothedoctor,whogentlyrefusedit。Theotherblushedwithembarrassment。
"Ibegyourpardon,"hesaid,"Iamridiculous。Thathappenstome,sometimes。Only,putyourselfinmyplace——Iloveherso!"
Hisvoicebroke。
"Mydearboy,"saidthedoctor,feelingly,"thatisexactlywhyyououghtnottomarryher。"
"But,"hecried,"ifIbackoutwithoutsayinganythingtheywillguessthetruth,andIshallbedishonored。"
"Oneisnotdishonoredbecauseoneisill。"
"Butwithsuchadisease!Peoplearesostupid。Imyself,yesterday——Ishouldhavelaughedatanyonewhohadgotintosuchaplight;Ishouldhaveavoidedhim,Ishouldhavedespisedhim!"
AndsuddenlyGeorgebrokedownagain。"Oh!"hecried,"ifIweretheonlyonetosuffer;butshe——sheisinlovewithme。Iswearittoyou!Sheissogood;andshewillbesounhappy!"
Thedoctoranswered,"Shewouldbeunhappierlateron。"
"Itwillbeascandal!"Georgeexclaimed。
"Youwillavoidonefargreater,"theotherreplied。
SuddenlyGeorgesethislipswithresolution。Herosefromhisseat。Hetookseveraltwenty—francpiecesfromhispocketandlaidthemquietlyuponthedoctor’sdesk——payingthefeeincash,sothathewouldnothavetogivehisnameandaddress。Hetookuphisgloves,hiscaneandhishat,androse。
"Iwillthinkitover,"hesaid。"Ithankyou,Doctor。Iwillcomebacknextweekasyouhavetoldme。Thatis——probablyI
will。"
Hewasabouttoleave。
Thedoctorrose,andhespokeinavoiceoffuriousanger。"No,"
hesaid,"Ishan’tseeyounextweek,andyouwon’teventhinkitover。Youcamehereknowingwhatyouhad;youcametoaskadviceofme,withtheintentionofpayingnoheedtoit,unlessitconformedtoyourwishes。Asuperficialhonestyhasdrivenyoutotakethatchanceinordertosatisfyyourconscience。Youwantedtohavesomebodyuponwhomyoucouldputoff,byeandbye,theconsequencesofanactwhoseculpabilityyouunderstand!No,don’tprotest!Manyofthosewhocomeherethinkandactasyouthink,andasyouwishtoact;butthemarriagemadeagainstmywillhasgenerallybeenthesourceofsuchcalamitiesthatnowI
amalwaysafraidofnothavingbeenpersuasiveenough,anditevenseemstomethatIamalittletoblameforthesemisfortunes。Ishouldhavebeenabletopreventthem;theywouldnothavehappenedifthosewhoaretheauthorsofthemknewwhatIknowandhadseenwhatIhaveseen。Sweartome,sir,thatyouaregoingtobreakoffthatmarriage!"
Georgewasgreatlyembarrassed,andunwillingtoreply。"I
cannotsweartoyouatall,Doctor;IcanonlytellyouagainthatIwillthinkitover。"
"ThatWHATover?"
"Whatyouhavetoldme。"
"WhatIhavetoldyouistrue!Youcannotbringanynewobjections;andIhaveansweredthosewhichyouhavepresentedtome;therefore,yourmindoughttobemadeup。"
Gropingforareply,Georgehesitated。Hecouldnotdenythathehadmadeinquiryaboutthesemattersbeforehehadcometothedoctor。Buthesaidthathewasnotalallcertainthathehadthisdisease。Thedoctordeclaredit,andperhapsitwastrue,butthemostlearnedphysiciansweresometimesdeceived。
Herememberedsomethinghehadreadinoneofthemedicalbooks。
"Dr。Ricordmaintainsthatafteracertainperiodthediseaseisnolongercontagious。Hehasprovenhiscontentionsbyexamples。
Todayyouproducenewexamplestoshowthatheiswrong!Now,I
wanttodowhat’sright,butsurelyIhavetherighttothinkitover。AndwhenIthinkitover,Irealizethatalltheevilswithwhichyouthreatenmeareonlyprobableevils。Inspiteofyourdesiretoterrifyme,youhavebeenforcedtoadmitthatpossiblymymarriagewouldnothaveanytroublesomeconsequenceformywife。"
Thedoctorfounddifficultyinrestraininghimself。Buthesaid,"Goon。Iwillansweryouafterwards。"
AndGeorgeblunderedaheadinhisdesperation。"Yourremediesarepowerful,youtellme;andforthecalamitiesofwhichyouspeaktobefallme,Iwouldhavetobeamongtherareexceptions——alsomywifewouldhavetobeamongthenumberofthoserareexceptions。Ifamathematicianweretoapplythelawofchancetothesefacts,theresultofhisoperationwouldshowbutslightchanceofacatastrophe,ascomparedwiththeabsolutecertaintyofaseriesofmisfortunes,sufferings,troubles,tears,andperhapstragicaccidentswhichthebreakingofmyengagementwouldcause。SoIsaythatthemathematician——whois,evenmorethanyou,amanofscience,amanofamoreinfalliblescience——themathematicianwouldconcludethatwisdomwasnotwithyoudoctors,butwithme。"
"Youbelieveit,sir!"exclaimedtheother。"Butyoudeceiveyourself。"Andhecontinued,drivinghomehispointwithafingerwhichseemedtoGeorgetopiercehisverysoul。"Twentycasesidenticalwithyourownhavebeenpatientlyobserved,fromthebeginningtotheend。Nineteentimesthewomanwasinfectedbyherhusband;youhearme,sir,nineteentimesoutoftwenty!
Youbelievethatthediseaseiswithoutdanger,andyoutaketoyourselftherighttoexposeyourwifetowhatyoucallthechanceofyourbeingoneofthoseexceptions,forwhomourremediesarewithouteffect。Verywell;itisnecessarythatyoushouldknowthediseasewhichyourwife,withoutbeingconsulted,willrunachanceofcontracting。Takethatbook,sir;itistheworkofmyteacher。Readityourself。Here,Ihavemarkedthepassage。"
Heheldouttheopenbook;butGeorgecouldnotliftahandtotakeit。
"Youdonotwishtoreadit?"theothercontinued。"Listentome。"Andinavoicetremblingwithpassion,heread:"’Ihavewatchedthespectacleofanunfortunateyoungwoman,turnedintoaveritablemonsterbymeansofasyphiliticinfection。Herface,orratherletmesaywhatwasleftofherface,wasnothingbutaflatsurfaceseamedwithscars。’"
Georgecoveredhisface,exclaiming,"Enough,sir!Havemercy!"
Buttheothercried,"No,no!Iwillgototheveryend。Ihaveadutytoperform,andIwillnotbestoppedbythesensibilityofyournerves。"
Hewentonreading:"’Oftheupperlipnotatracewasleft;theridgeoftheuppergumsappearedperfectlybare。’"Butthenattheyoungman’sprotests,hisresolutionfailedhim。"Come,"hesaid,"Iwillstop。Iamsorryforyou——youwhoacceptforanotherperson,forthewomanyousayyoulove,thechanceofadiseasewhichyoucannotevenenduretoheardescribed。Now,fromwhomdidthatwomangetsyphilis?ItisnotIwhoamspeaking,itisthebook。’Fromamiserablescoundrelwhowasnotafraidtoenterintomatrimonywhenhehadasecondaryeruption。’Allthatwasestablishedlateron——’andwho,moreover,hadthoughtitbestnottolethiswifebetreatedforfearofawakeninghersuspicions!’"
Thedoctorclosedthebookwithabang。"Whatthatmanhasdone,sir,iswhatyouwanttodo。"
Georgewasedgingtowardthedoor;hecouldnolongerlookthedoctorintheeye。"IshoulddeserveallthoseepithetsandstillmorebrutalonesifIshouldmarry,knowingthatmymarriagewouldcausesuchhorrors。ButthatIdonotbelieve。
Youandyourteachers——youarespecialists,andconsequentlyyouaredriventoattributeeverythingtothediseaseyoumakethesubjectofyourstudies。Atragiccase,anexceptionalcase,holdsakindoffascinationforyou;youthinkitcanneverbetalkedaboutenough。"
"Ihaveheardthatargumentbefore,"saidthedoctor,withaneffortatpatience。
"Letmegoon,Ibegyou,"pleadedGeorge。"Youhavetoldmethatoutofeverysevenmenthereisonesyphilitic。YouhavetoldmethatthereareonehundredthousandinParis,comingandgoing,alert,andapparentlywell。"
"Itistrue,"saidthedoctor,"thatthereareonehundredthousandwhoareactuallyatthismomentnotvisiblyundertheinfluenceofthedisease。Butmanythousandshavepassedintoourhospitals,victimsofthemostfrightfulravagesthatourpoorbodiescansupport。These——youdonotseethem,andtheydonotcountforyou。Butagain,ifitconcernednoonebutyourself,youmightbeabletoarguethus。WhatIdeclaretoyou,whatIaffirmwithalltheviolenceofmyconviction,isthatyouhavenottherighttoexposeahumancreaturetosuchchances——rare,asIknow,butterrible,asIknowstillbetter。
Whathaveyoutoanswertothat?"
"Nothing,"stammeredGeorge,broughttohiskneesatlast。"Youarerightaboutthat。Idon’tknowwhattothink。"
"Andinforbiddingyoumarriage,"continuedthedoctor,"isitthesameasifIforbadeitforever?IsitthesameasifItoldyouthatyoucouldneverbecured?Onthecontrary,Iholdouttoyoueveryhope;butIdemandofyouadelayofthreeorfouryears,becauseitwilltakemethattimetofindoutifyouareamongthenumberofthoseunfortunateoneswhomIpitywithallmyheart,forwhomthediseaseiswithoutmercy;becauseduringthattimeyouwillbedangeroustoyourwifeandtoyourchildren。ThechildrenIhavenotyetmentionedtoyou。"
Herethedoctor’svoicetrembledslightly。Hespokewithmovingeloquence。"Come,sir,youareanhonestman;youaretooyoungforsuchthingsnottomoveyou;youarenotinsensibletoduty。
ItisimpossiblethatIshan’tbeabletofindawaytoyourheart,thatIshan’tbeabletomakeyouobeyme。MyemotioninspeakingtoyouprovesthatIappreciateyoursuffering,thatI
sufferwithyou。ItisinthenameofmysinceritythatI
imploreyou。Youhaveadmittedit——thatyouhavenottherighttoexposeyourwifetosuchmiseries。Butitisnotonlyyourwifethatyoustrike;youmayattackinheryourownchildren。I
excludeyouforamomentfrommythought——youandher。ItisinthenameoftheseinnocentsthatIimploreyou;itisthefuture,itistheracethatIdefend。Listentome,listentome!OutofthetwentyhouseholdsofwhichIspoke,onlyfifteenhadchildren;thesefifteenhadtwenty—eight。Doyouknowhowmanyoutofthesetwenty—eightsurvived?Three,sir!Threeoutoftwenty—eight!Syphilisisaboveeverythingamurdererofchildren。HerodreignsinFrance,andoveralltheearth,andbeginseachyearhismassacreoftheinnocents;andifitbenotblasphemyagainstthesacrednessoflife,Isaythatthemosthappyarethosewhohavedisappeared。Visitourchildren’shospitals!Weknowtoowellthechildofsyphiliticparents;thetypeisclassical;thedoctorscanpickitoutanywhere。Thoselittleoldcreatureswhohavetheappearanceofhavingalreadylived,andwhohavekeptthestigmataofalloutinfirmities,ofallourdecay。Theyarethevictimsoffatherswhohavemarried,beingignorantofwhatyouknow——thingswhichIshouldliketogoandcryoutinthepublicplaces。"
Thedoctorpaused,andtheninasolemnvoicecontinued:"Ihavetoldyouall,withoutexaggeration。Thinkitover。Considertheprosandcons;sumupthepossiblemisfortunesandthecertainmiseries。Butdisregardyourself,andconsiderthatthereareinonesideofthescalesthemisfortunesofothers,andintheotheryourown。Takecarethatyouarejust。"
Georgewasatlastovercome。"Verywell,"hesaid,"Igiveway。
Iwon’tgetmarried。Iwillinventsomeexcuse;Iwillgetadelayofsixmonths。Morethanthat,Icannotdo。"
Thedoctorexclaimed,"Ineedthreeyears——Ineedfouryears!"
"No,Doctor!"persistedGeorge。"Youcancuremeinlesstimethanthat。"
Theotheranswered,"No!No!No!"
Georgecaughthimbythehand,imploringly。"Yes!Scienceinallpowerful!"
"ScienceisnotGod,"wasthereply。"Therearenolongeranymiracles。"
"Ifonlyyouwantedtodoit!"criedtheyoungman,hysterically。
"Youarealearnedman;seek,invent,findsomething!Trysomenewplanwithme;givemedoublethedose,tentimesthedoes;
makemesuffer。Igivemyselfuptoyou;Iwillendureeverything——Iswearit!Thereoughttobesomewaytocuremewithinsixmonths。Listentome!ItellyouIcan’tanswerformyselfwiththatdelay。Come;itisinthenameofmywife,inthenameofmychildren,thatIimploreyou。Dosomethingforthem!"
Thedoctorhadreachedthelimitofhispatience。"Enough,sir!"
hecried。"Enough!"
Butnothingcouldstopthewretchedman。"Onmyknees!"hecried。"Iputmyselfonmykneesbeforeyou!Oh!Ifonlyyouwoulddoit!Iwouldblessyou;Iwouldadoreyou,asoneadoresagod!Allmygratitude,allmylife——halfmyfortune!
Formercy’ssake,Doctor,dosomething;inventsomething;makesomediscovery——havepity!"
Thedoctoransweredgravely,"Doyouwishmetodomoreforyouthanfortheothers?"
Georgeanswered,unblushingly,’answered,unblushingly,"Yes!"
Hewasbesidehimselfwithterroranddistress。
Theother’sreplywasdeliveredinasolemntone。"Understand,sir,foreveryoneofoutpatientswedoallthatwecan,whetheritbethegreatestpersonage,orthelastcomertoouthospitalclinic。Wehavenosecretsinreserveforthosewhoaremorefortunate,orlessfortunatethantheothers,andwhoareinahurrytobecured。"
Georgegazedathimforamomentinbewildermentanddespair,andthensuddenlybowedhishead。"Good—by,Doctor,"heanswered。
"Aurevoir,sir,"theothercorrected——withwhatprovedtobepropheticunderstanding。ForGeorgewasdestinedtoseehimagain——eventhoughhehadmadeuphismindtothecontrary!
CHAPTERIII
GeorgeDuponthadthemostimportantdecisionofhislifetomake;buttherewasneververymuchdoubtwhathisdecisionwouldbe。Onetheonehandwasthedefinitecertaintythatifhetookthedoctor’sadvice,hewouldwreckhisbusinessprospects,andperhapsalsolosethewomanheloved。Ontheotherhandwerevagueanduncertainpossibilitieswhichitwasdifficultforhimtomakerealtohimself。Itwasallverywelltowaitawhiletobecuredofthedreaddisease;buttowaitthreeorfouryears——
thatwassimplypreposterous!
Hedecidedtoconsultanotherphysician。Hewouldfindonethistimewhowouldnotbesoparticular,whowouldbewillingtotakesometroubletocurehimquickly。Hebegantonoticetheadvertisementswhichwerescatteredoverthepagesofthenewspapersheread。TherewereapparentlyplentyofdoctorsinPariswhocouldcurehim,whowerewillingtoguaranteetocurehim。Aftermuchhesitation,hepickedoutonewhoseadvertisementsoundedthemostconvincing。
Theofficewaslocatedinacheapquarter。Itwasadingyplace,notencumberedwithworksofart,butwithafewbookscoveredwithdust。Thedoctorhimselfwasstoutandgreasy,andherubbedhishandswithanticipationatthesightofsoprosperous—lookingapatient。Buthewasevidentlyamanofexperience,forheknewexactlywhatwasthematterwithGeorge,almostwithouttheformalityofanexamination。Yes,hecouldcurehim,quickly,hesaid。Therehadrecentlybeengreatdiscoveriesmade——newmethodswhichhadnotreachedthebulkoftheprofession。Helaughedattheideaofthreeorfouryears。
Thatwasthewaywiththosespecialists!Whenonegotfortyfrancsforaconsultation,naturally,onewasgladtodragoutthecase。Thereweretricksinthemedicaltrade,asinallothers。Adoctorhadtolive;whenhehadabigname,hehadtoliveexpensively。
Thenewphysicianwroteouttwoprescriptions,andpattedGeorgeontheshoulderashewentaway。Therewasnoneedforhimtoworry;hewouldsurelybewellinthreemonths。Ifhewouldputoffhismarriageforsixmonths,hewouldbedoingeverythingwithinreason。Andmeantime,therewasnoneedforhimtoworryhimself——thingswouldcomeoutallright。SoGeorgewentaway,feelingasifamountainhadbeenliftedfromhisshoulders。
HewenttoseeHenriettethatsameevening,togetthemattersettled。"Henriette,"hesaid,"Ihavetotellyousomethingveryimportant——somethingratherpainful。Ihopeyouwon’tletitdisturbyoutoomuch。"
Shewasgazingathiminalarm。"Whatisit?"
"Why,"hesaid,blushinginspiteofhimself,andregrettingthathehadbegunthemattersoprecipitately,"forsometimeI’venotbeenfeelingquitewell。I’vebeenhavingaslightcough。Haveyounoticedit?"
"Whyno!"exclaimedHenriette,anxiously。
"Well,todayIwenttoseeadoctor,andhesaysthatthereisapossibility——youunderstanditisnothingveryserious——butitmightbe——Imightpossiblyhavelungtrouble。"
"George!"criedthegirlinhorror。
Heputhishanduponhers。"Don’tbefrightened,"hesaid。"Itwillbeallright,onlyIhavetotakecareofmyself。"Howverydearofher,hethought——tobesomuchworried!
"George,yououghttogoawaytothecountry!"shecried。"Youhavebeenworkingtoohard。Ialwaystoldyouthatifyoushutyourselfupsomuch——"
"Iamgoingtotakecareofmyself,"hesaid。"Irealizethatitisnecessary。Ishallbeallright——thedoctorassuredmetherewasnodoubtofit,soyouarenottodistressyourself。Butmeantime,hereisthetrouble:Idon’tthinkitwouldberightformetomarryuntilIamperfectlywell。"
Henriettegaveanexclamationofdismay。
"Iamsureweshouldputitoff,"hewenton,"itwouldbeonlyfairtoyou。"
"But,George!"sheprotested。"Surelyitcan’tbethatserious!"
"Weoughttowait,"hesaid。"Yououghtnottotakethechanceofbeingmarriedtoaconsumptive。"
Theotherprotestedinconsternation。Hedidnotlooklikeaconsumptive;shedidnotbelievethatheWASaconsumptive。Shewaswillingtotakeherchances。Shelovedhim,andshewasnotafraid。ButGeorgeinsisted——hewassurethatheoughtnottomarryforsixmonths。
"Didthedoctoradvisethat?"askedHenriette。
"No,"hereplied,"butImadeupmymindaftertalkingtohimthatImustdothefairandhonorablething。Ibegyoutoforgiveme,andtobelievethatIknowbest。"
Georgestoodfirmlybythisposition,andsointheendshehadtogiveway。Itdidnotseemquitemodestinhertocontinuepersisting。
Georgevolunteeredtowritealettertoherfather;andhehopedthiswouldsettlethematterwithoutfurtherdiscussion。Butinthishewasdisappointed。TherehadtobealongcorrespondencewithlongargumentsandprotestationsfromHenriette’sfatherandfromhisownmother。Itseemedsuchasingularwhim。Everybodypersistedindiagnosinghissymptoms,inquestioninghimaboutwhatthedoctorhadsaid,whothedoctorwas,howhehadcometoconsulthim——allofwhich,ofcourse,wasveryembarrassingtoGeorge,whocouldnotseewhytheyhadtomakesuchafuss。Hetooktocultivatingaconsumptivelook,aswellashecouldimagineit;hetooktocoughingashewentaboutthehouse——anditwasallhecoulddotokeepfromlaughing,ashesawthelookofdismayonhispoormother’sface。Afterall,however,hetoldhimselfthathewasnotdeceivingher,forthediseasehehadwasquiteasseriousastuberculosis。
Itwasverypainfulandverytrying。Buttherewasnothingthatcouldbedoneaboutit;themarriagehadbeenputoffforsixmonths,andinthemeantimeheandHenriettehadtocontroltheirimpatienceandmakethebestoftheirsituation。Sixmonthswasalongtime;butwhatifithadbeenthreeorfouryears,astheotherdoctorhaddemanded?Thatwouldhavebeenaveritablesentenceofdeath。
George,aswehaveseen,wasconscientious,andregularandcarefulinhishabits。Hetookthemedicinewhichthenewdoctorprescribedforhim;anddaybydayhewatched,andtohisgreatreliefsawthetroublesomesymptomsgraduallydisappearing。Hebegantotakeheart,andtolookforwardtolifewithhisformerbuoyancy。Hehadhadabadscare,butnoweverythingwasgoingtobeallright。
Threeorfourmonthspassed,andthedoctortoldhimhewascured。Hereallywascured,sofarashecouldsee。Hewassorry,now,thathehadaskedforsolongadelayfromHenriette;
butthenewdatefortheweddinghadbeenannounced,anditwouldbeawkwardtochangeitagain。Georgetoldhimselfthathewasbeing"extracareful,"andhewasrepaidfortheinconveniencebythefeelingofvirtuederivedfromthedelay。Hewasrelievedthathedidnothavetocoughanymore,ortoinventanymoretalesofhisinterviewswiththeimaginarylung—specialist。
Sometimeshehadguiltyfeelingsbecauseofallthelyinghehadhadtodo;buthetoldhimselfthatitwasforHenriette’ssake。
Shelovedhimasmuchashelovedher。Shewouldhavesufferedneedlessagonieshadsheknownthetruth;shewouldneverhavegotoverit——soitwouldhavebeenacrimetotellher。
Hereallylovedherdevotedly,thoroughly。Fromthebeginninghehadthoughtasmuchofhermentalsufferingsashehadofanyphysicalharmthatthedreaddiseasemightdotohim。Howcouldhepossiblypersuadehimselftogiveherup,whenheknewthattheseparationwouldbreakherheartandruinherwholelife?
No;obviously,insuchadilemma,itwashisdutytousehisownbestjudgment,andgethimselfcuredasquicklyaspossible。
Afterthathewouldbetruetoher,hewouldtakenomorechancesofaloathsomedisease。
Thesecrethewashidingmadehimfeelhumble——madehimunusuallygentleinhisattitudetowardsthegirl。Hewasaperfectlover,andshewasravishedwithhappiness。Shethoughtthatallhissufferingswerebecauseofhisloveforher,andthedelaywhichhehadimposedoutofhisexcessofconscientiousness。Soshelovedhimmoreandmore,andneverwasthereahappierbridethanHenrietteLoches,whenatlastthegreatdayarrived。
TheywenttotheRiveriafortheirhoneymoon,andthenreturnedtoliveinthehomewhichhadbelongedtoGeorge’sfather。Theinvestmentinthenotary’spracticehadprovenagoodone,andsolifeheldouteverypromisefortheyoungcouple。Theyweredivinelyhappy。
Afterawhile,thebridecommunicatedtoherhusbandthetidingsthatshewasexpectingachild。ThenitseemedtoGeorgethatthecupofhisearthlyblisswasfull。Hisailmenthadslippedfarintothebackgroundofhisthoughts,likeanevildreamwhichhehadforgotten。Heputawaythemedicinesinthebottomofhistrunkanddismissedthewholematterfromhismind。Henriettewaswell——averypictureofhealth,aseveryoneagreed。Thedoctorhadneverseenamorepromisingyoungmother,hedeclared,andMadameDupont,theelder,bloomedwithfreshlifeandjoyassheattendedherdaughter—in—law。
Henriettewentforthesummertoherfather’splaceintheprovinces,whichsheandGeorgehadvisitedbeforetheirmarriage。Theydroveoutonedaytothefarmwheretheyhadstopped。Thefarmer’swifehadaweek—oldbaby,thesightofwhichmadeHenriette’sheartleapwithdelight。HewassuchaveryhealthybabythatGeorgeconceivedtheideathatthiswouldbethewomantonursehisownchild,incaseHenrietteherselfshouldnotbeabletodoit。
Theycamebacktothecity,andtherethebabywasborn。AsGeorgepacedthefloor,waitingforthenews,thememoryofhisevildreamscamebacktohim。Herememberedallthedreadfulmonstrositiesofwhichhehadread——infantsthatwerebornofsyphiliticparents。Hisheartstoodstillwhenthenursecameintotheroomtotellhimthetidings。
Butitwasallright;ofcourseitwasallright!Hehadbeenafool,hetoldhimself,ashestoodinthedarkenedroomandgazedatthewonderfullittlemiteoflifewhichwasthefruitofhislove。Itwasaperfectchild,thedoctorsaid——alittlesmall,tobesure,butthatwasadefectwhichwouldsoonberemedied。
Georgekneeledbythebedsideandkissedthehandofhiswife,andwentoutoftheroomfeelingasifhehadescapedfromatomb。
Allwentwell,andafteracoupleofweeksHenriettewasaboutthehouseagain,laughingalldayandsingingwithjoy。Butthebabydidnotgainquiteasrapidlyasthedoctorhadhoped,anditwasdecidedthatthecountryairwouldbebetterforher。SoGeorgeandhismotherpaidavisittothefarminthecountry,andarrangedthatthecountrywomanshouldputherownchildtonurseelsewhereandshouldbecomethefoster—motheroflittleGervaise。
Georgepaidagoodpricefortheservice,farmorethanwouldhavebeennecessary,forthesimplecountrywomanwasdelightedwiththeideaoftakingcareofthegrandchildofthedeputyofherdistrict。Georgecamehomeandtoldhiswifeaboutthisandhadamerrytimeashepicturedthewomanboastingaboutittothetravelerswhostoppedatherdoor。"Yes,ma’am,agreatpieceofluckI’vegot,ma’am。I’vegotthedaughterofthedaughterofourdeputy——atyourservicema’am。My!Butsheisasfatasoutlittlecalf——andsoclever!Sheunderstandseverything。Agreatpieceofluckforme,ma’am。She’sthedaughterofthedaughterofourdeputy!"Henriettewasvastlyentertained,discoveringinherhusbandanewtalent,thatofanactor。
AsforGeorge’smother,shewashardlytobepersuadedfromstayinginthecountrywiththechild。Shewenttwiceaweek,tomakesurethatallwentwell。Henrietteandshelivedwiththechild’spicturebeforethem;theyspenttheirtimesewingoncapsandunderwear——allcoveredwithlacesandfrillsandpinkandblueribbons。Everyday,whenGeorgecamehomefromhiswork,hefoundsomenewarticlecompleted,andwasravishedbythescentofsomenewkindofsachetpowder。Whataluckymanhewas!
YouwouldthinkhemusthavebeenthehappiestmaninthewholecityofParis。ButGeorge,alas,hadtopaythepenaltyforhisearlysins。Therewas,forinstance,thedeceptionhehadpracticeduponhisfriend,awaybackintheearlydays。Nowhehadfriendsofhisown,andhecouldnotkeepthesefriendsfromvisitinghim;andsohewasunquietwiththefearthatsomeoneofthemmightplayuponhimthesameviletrick。Eveninthemidstofhisradianthappiness,whenheknewthatHenriettewashanginguponhiseveryword,tremblingwithdelightwhensheheardhislatchkeyinthedoor——stillhecouldnotdriveawaythehorriblethoughtthatperhapsallthismightbedeception。
Therewashisfriend,Gustave,forexample。HehadbeenafriendofHenriette’sbeforehermarriage;hehadevenbeeninlovewithheratonetime。Andnowhecamesometimestothehouse——onceortwicewhenGeorgewasaway!Whatdidthatmean?Georgewondered。Hebroodedoveritallday,butdarednotdropanyhinttoHenriette。Buthetooktosettinglittletrapstocatchher;forinstance,hewouldcallheruponthetelephone,disguisinghisvoice。"Hello!Hello!Isthatyou,MadameDupont?"Andwhensheanswered,"ItisI,sir,"allunsuspecting,hewouldinquire,"IsGeorgethere?"
"No,sir,"shereplied。"Whoisthisspeaking?"
Heanswered,"ItisI,Gustave。Howareyouthismorning?"Hewantedtoseewhatshewouldanswer。Wouldsheperhapssay,"Verywell,Gustave。Howareyou?"——inatonewhichwouldbetraytoogreatintimacy!
ButHenriettewasasharpyoungperson。ThetonedidnotsoundlikeGustave’s。Sheaskedinbewilderment,"What?"andthenagain,"What?"
So,atlast,George,afraidthathistrickmightbesuspected,hadtoburstoutlaughing,andturnitintoajoke。Butwhenhecamehomeandteasedhiswifeaboutit,thelaughwasnotallonhisside。Henriettehadguessedtherealmeaningofhisjoke!
Shedidnotreallymind——shetookhisjealousyasasignoflove,andwaspleasedwithit。Itisnotuntilathirdpartycomeuponthescenethatjealousybeginstobeannoying。
SoshehadamerrytimeteasingGeorge。"Youareagreatfellow!
YouhavenoideahowwellIunderstandyou——andafteronlyayearofmarriage!"
"Youknowme?"saidthehusband,curiously。(Itisalwayssofascinatingwhenanybodythinkssheknowusbetterthanweknowourselves!)"Tellme,whatdoyouthinkaboutme?"
"Youarerestless,"saidHenriette。"Youaresuspicious。Youpassyourtimeputtingfliesinyourmilk,andinventingwiseschemestogetthemout。"
"Oh,youthinkthat,doyou?"saidGeorge,pleasedtobetalkedabout。
"Iamnotannoyed,"sheanswered。"Youhavealwaysbeenthatway——andIknowthatit’sbecauseatbottomyouaretimidanddisposedtosuffer。Andthen,too,perhapsyouhavereasonsfornothavingconfidenceinawife’sintimatefriends——lady—killerthatyouare!"
Georgefoundthisratherembarrassing;buthedarednotshowit,sohelaughedgayly。"Idon’tknowwhatyoumean,"hesaid——
"uponmywordIdon’t。ButitisatrickIwouldnotadviseeverybodytotry。"
Therewereotherembarrassingmoments,causedbyGeorge’shavingthingstoconceal。Therewas,forinstance,thematterofthesixmonths’delayinthemarriage——aboutwhichHenriettewouldneverstoptalking。Shebegrudgedthetime,becauseshehadgottheideathatlittleGervaisewassixmonthsyoungerthansheotherwisewouldhavebeen。"Thatshowsyourtimidityagain,"shewouldsay。"Theideaofyourhavingimaginedyourselfaconsumptive!"
PoorGeorgehadtodefendhimself。"Ididn’ttellyouhalfthetruth,becauseIwasafraidofupsettingyou。ItseemedIhadthebeginningofchronicbronchitis。IfeltitquitekeenlywheneverItookabreath,adeepbreath——look,likethis。Yes——I
felt——hereandthere,oneachsideofthechest,aheaviness——adifficulty——"
"Theideaoftakingsixmonthstocureyouofathinglikethat!"
exclaimedHenriette。"Andmakingourbabysixmonthsyoungerthansheoughttobe!"
"But,"laughedGeorge,"thatmeansthatweshallhavehersomuchthelonger!Shewillgetmarriedsixmonthslater!"
"Oh,dearme,"respondedtheother,"letusnottalkaboutsuchthings!Iamalreadyworried,thinkingshewillgetmarriedsomeday。"
"Formypart,"saidGeorge,"IseemyselfmountingwithheronmyarmthestaircaseoftheMadeleine。"
"WhytheMadeleine?"exclaimedhiswife。"Suchaverymagnificentchurch!"
"Idon’tknow——Iseeherunderherwhiteveil,andmyselfalldressedup,andwithanorder。"
"Withanorder!"laughedHenriette。"Whatdoyouexpecttodotowinanorder?"
"Idon’tknowthat——butIseemyselfwithit。Explainitasyouwill,Iseemyselfwithanorder。Iseeitall,exactlyasifI
werethere——theSwissguardwithhiswhitestockingsandthehalbard,andthelittlemilliner’sassistantsandthescullionlinedupstaring。"
"Itisfaroff——allthat,"saidHenriette。"Idon’tliketotalkofit。Ipreferherasababy。Iwanthertogrowup——butthenIchangemymindandthinkIdon’t。Iknowyourmotherdoesn’t。
Doyouknow,Idon’tbelievesheeverthinksaboutanythingbutherlittleGervaise。"
"Ibelieveyou,"saidthefather。"Thechildcancertainlyboastofhavingagrandmotherwholovesher。"
"Also,Iadoreyourmother,"declaredHenriette。"Shemakesmeforgetmymisfortuneinnothavingmyownmother。Sheissogood!"
"Wearealllikethatinourfamily,"putinGeorge。
"Really,"laughedthewife。"Well,anyhow——thelasttimethatwewentdowninthecountrywithher——youhadgoneout,Idon’tknowwhereyouhadgone——"
"Toseethesixteenth—centurychest,"suggestedtheother。
"Oh,yes,"laughedHenriette;"yourfamouschest!"(Youmustexcusethislittlefamilychatteroftheirs——theyweresomuchinlovewitheachother!)
"Don’tlet’stalkaboutthat,"objectedGeorge。"Youweresaying——?"
"Youwerenotthere。Thenursewasoutatmass,Ithink——"
"Oratthewinemerchant’s!Goon,goon。"
"Well,Iwasinthelittleroom,andmotherdearthoughtshewasallalonewithGervaise。Iwaslistening;shewastalkingtothebaby——allsortsofnonsense,prettylittlewords——stupid,ifyoulike,buttender。Iwantedtolaugh,andatthesametimeI
wantedtoweep。"
"Perhapsshecalledher’mydearlittleSavior’?"
"Exactly!Didyouhearher?"
"No——butthatiswhatsheusedtocallmewhenIwaslittle。"
"Itwasthatdayshesworethatthelittleonehadrecognizedher,andlaughed!"
"Oh,yes!"
"Andthenanothertime,whenIwentintoherroom——mother’sroom——shedidn’thearmebecausethedoorwasopen,butIsawher。Shewasinecstasybeforethelittlebootswhichthebabyworeatbaptism——youknow?"
"Yes,yes。"
"Listen,then。Shehadtakenthemandshewasembracingthem!"
"Andwhatdidyousaythen?"
"Nothing;Istoleoutverysoftly,andIsentacrossthethresholdagreatkisstothedeargrandmother!"
Henriettesatforamomentinthought。"Itdidn’ttakeherverylong,"sheremarked,"todaywhenshegottheletterfromthenurse。Iimagineshecaughttheeight—fifty—ninetrain!"
"Anyyet,"laughedGeorge,"itwasreallynothingatall。"
"Ohno,"saidhiswife。"Yetafterall,perhapsshewasright——
andperhapsIoughttohavegonewithher。"
"Howcharmingyouare,mypoorHenriette!Youbelieveeverythingyouaretold。I,formypart,divinedrightawaythetruth。Thenursewassimplyplayingagameonus;shewantedaraise。Willyoubet?Come,I’llbetyousomething。Whatwouldyouliketobet?Youdon’twantto?Come,I’llbetyoualovelynecklace——
youknow,withabigpearl。"
"No,"saidHenriette,whohadsuddenlylosthermoodofgayety。
"Ishouldbetoomuchafraidofwinning。"
"Stop!"laughedherhusband。"Don’tyoubelieveIloveherasmuchasyouloveher——mylittleduck?Doyouknowhowoldsheis?ImeanherEXACTage?"
Henriettesatknittingherbrows,tryingtofigure。
"Ah!"heexploded。"Youseeyoudon’tknow!Sheisninety—onedaysandeighthours!Ha,ha!Imaginewhenshewillbeabletowalkallalone。Thenwewilltakeherbackwithus;wemustwaitatleastsixmonths。"Then,toolate,poorGeorgerealizedthathehadspokenthefatalphraseagain。
"Ifonlyyouhadn’tputoffourmarriage,shewouldbeabletowalknow,"saidHenriette。
Herosesuddenly。"Come,"hesaid,"didn’tyousayyouhadtodressandpaysomecalls?"
Henriettelaughed,buttookthehint。
"Runalong,littlewife,"hesaid。"Ihavealotofworktodointhemeantime。Youwon’tbedown—stairsbeforeIshallhavemynoseburiedinmypapers。Bye—bye。"
"Bye—bye,"saidHenriette。Buttheypausedtoexchangeadozenorsokissesbeforeshewentawaytodress。
ThenGeorgelightedacigaretteandstretchedhimselfoutinthebigarmchair。Heseemedrestless;heseemedtobedisturbedaboutsomething。Coulditbethathehadnotbeensomuchateaseashehadpretendedtobe,sincetheletterhadcomefromthebaby’snurse?MadameDuponthadgonebytheearliesttrainthatmorning。Shehadpromisedtotelegraphatonce——butshehadnotdoneso,andnowitwaslateafternoon。
Georgegotupandwanderedabout。Helookedathimselfintheglassforamoment;thenhewentbacktothechairandpulledupanothertoputhisgeetupon。Hepuffedawayathiscigaretteuntilhewascalmer。Butthensuddenlyheheardtherustleofadressbehindhim,andglancedabout,andstartedupwithanexclamation,"Mother!"
MadameDupontstoodinthedoorway。Shedidnotspeak。HerveilwasthrownbackandGeorgenotedinstantlythelookofagitationuponhercountenance。
"What’sthematter?"hecried。"Wedidn’tgetanytelegramfromyou;wewerenotexpectingyoutilltomorrow。"
Stillhismotherdidnotspeak。
"Henriettewasjustgoingout,"heexclaimednervously;"Ihadbettercallher。"
"No!"saidhismotherquickly。Hervoicewaslowandtrembling。
"IdidnotwantHenriettetobeherewhenIarrived。"
"Butwhat’sthematter?"criedGeorge。
Againtherewasasilencebeforethereplycame。Hereadsomethingterribleinthemother’smanner,andhefoundhimselftremblingviolently。
"Ihavebroughtbackthechildandthenurse,"saidMadameDupont。
"What!Isthelittleonesick?"
"Yes。"
"What’sthematterwithher?"
"Nothingdangerous——forthemoment,atleast。"
"Wemustsendandgetthedoctor!"criedGeorge。
"Ihavejustcomefromthedoctor’s,"wasthereply。"Hesaiditwasnecessarytotakeoutchildfromthenurseandbringheruponthebottle。"
Againtherewasapause。Georgecouldhardlybringhimselftoaskthenextquestion。Tryashewould,hecouldnotkeephisvoicefromweakening。"Well,now,whatishertrouble?"
Themotherdidnotanswer。Shestoodstaringbeforeher。Atlastshesaid,faintly,"Idon’tknow。"
"Youdidn’task?"
"Iasked。ButitwasnottoourowndoctorthatIwent。"
"Ah!"whisperedGeorge。Fornearlyaminuteneitheroneofthemspoke。"Why?"heinquiredatlast。
"Because——he——thenurse’sdoctor——hadfrightenedmeso——"
"Truly?"
"Yes。Itisadisease——"againshestopped。
Georgecried,inavoiceofagony,"andthen?"
"ThenIaskedhimifthematterwassogravethatIcouldnotbesatisfiedwithourordinarydoctor。"
"Andwhatdidheanswer?"
"Hesaidthatifwehadthemeansitwouldreallybebettertoconsultaspecialist。"
Georgelookedathismotheragain。Hewasabletodoit,becauseshewasnotlookingathim。Heclenchedhishandsandgothimselftogether。"And——wheredidhesendyou?"
Hismotherfumbledinherhandbaganddrewoutavisitingcard。
"Here,"shesaid。
AndGeorgelookedatthecard。Itwasallhecoulddotokeephimselffromtottering。Itwasthecardofthedoctorwhomhehadfirstconsultedabouthistrouble!Thespecialistinvenerealdiseases!
CHAPTERIV
ItwasallGeorgecoulddotocontrolhisvoice。"You——youwenttoseehim?"hestammered。
"Yes,"saidhismother。"Youknowhim?"
"No,no,"heanswered。"Or——thatis——Ihavemethim,Ithink。I
don’tknow。"Andthentohimself,"MyGod!"
Therewasasilence。"Heiscomingtotalktoyou,"saidthemother,atlast。
Georgewashardlyabletospeak。"Thenheisverymuchdisturbed?"
"No,buthewantstotalktoyou。"
"Tome?"
"Yes。Whenthedoctorsawthenurse,hesaid,’Madame,itisimpossibleformetocontinuetoattendthischildunlessIhavehadthisverydayaconversationwitthefather。’SoIsaid’Verywell,’andhesaidhewouldcomeatonce。"
Georgeturnedaway,andputhishandstohisforehead。"Mypoorlittledaughter!"hewhisperedtohimself。
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