首页 >出版文学> Original Short Stories>第31章
  Then,asthebloodwasmakingapoolonthedeckoftheboat,oneofthesailorscried:"Hewillbleedtodeath,wemustbindthevein."
  Sotheytookacord,athick,brown,tarrycord,andtwistingitaroundthearmabovethewound,tighteneditwithalltheirmight.Thebloodceasedtospurtbyslowdegrees,and,presently,stoppedaltogether.
  YoungJavelrose,hisarmhangingathisside.Hetookholdofitwiththeotherhand,raisedit,turneditover,shookit.Itwasallmashed,thebonesbroken,themusclesaloneholdingittogether.Helookedatitsadly,reflectively.Thenhesatdownonafoldedsailandhiscomradesadvisedhimtokeepwettingthearmconstantlytopreventitfrommortifying.
  Theyplacedapailofwaterbesidehim,andeveryfewminuteshedippedaglassintoitandbathedthefrightfulwound,lettingtheclearwatertrickleontoit.
  "Youwouldbebetterinthecabin,"saidhisbrother.Hewentdown,butcameupagaininanhour,notcaringtobealone.And,besides,hepreferredthefreshair.Hesatdownagainonhissailandbegantobathehisarm.
  Theymadeagoodhaul.Thebroadfishwiththeirwhitebellieslaybesidehim,quiveringinthethroesofdeath;helookedatthemashecontinuedtobathehiscrushedflesh.
  AstheywereabouttoreturntoBoulognethewindsprangupanew,andthelittleboatresumeditsmadcourse,boundingandtumblingabout,shakingupthepoorwoundedman.
  Nightcameon.Thesearanhighuntildawn.AsthesunrosetheEnglishcoastwasagainvisible,but,astheweatherhadabatedalittle,theyturnedbacktowardstheFrenchcoast,tackingastheywent.
  TowardseveningJavel,junior,calledhiscomradesandshowedthemsomeblackspots,allthehorribletokensofmortificationintheportionofthearmbelowthebrokenbones.
  Thesailorsexaminedit,givingtheiropinion.
  "Thatmightbethe’Black,’"thoughtone.
  "Heshouldputsaltwateronit,"saidanother.
  Theybroughtsomesaltwaterandpoureditonthewound.Theinjuredmanbecamelivid,groundhisteethandwrithedalittle,butdidnotexclaim.
  Then,assoonasthesmartinghadabated,hesaidtohisbrother:
  "Givemeyourknife."
  Thebrotherhandedittohim.
  "Holdmyarmup,quitestraight,andpullit."
  Theydidasheaskedthem.
  Thenhebegantocutoffhisarm.Hecutgently,carefully,severingalthetendonswiththisbladethatwassharpasarazor.And,presently,therewasonlyastumpleft.Hegaveadeepsighandsaid:
  "Ithadtobedone.Itwasdonefor."
  Heseemedrelievedandbreathedloud.Hethenbeganagaintopourwateronthestumpofarmthatremained.
  Theseawasstillroughandtheycouldnotmaketheshore.
  Whenthedaybroke,Javel,junior,tooktheseveredportionofhisarmandexamineditforalongtime.Gangrenehadsetin.Hiscomradesalsoexamineditandhandeditfromonetotheother,feelingit,turningitover,andsniffingatit.
  "Youmustthrowthatintotheseaatonce,"saidhisbrother.
  ButJavel,junior,gotangry.
  "Oh,no!Oh,no!Idon’twantto.Itbelongstome,doesitnot,asitismyarm?"
  Andhetookandplaceditbetweenhisfeet.
  "Itwillputrefy,justthesame,"saidtheolderbrother.Thenanideacametotheinjuredman.Inordertopreservethefishwhentheboatwaslongatsea,theypackeditinsalt,inbarrels.Heasked:
  "WhycanInotputitinpickle?"
  "Why,that’safact,"exclaimedtheothers.
  Thentheyemptiedoneofthebarrels,whichwasfullfromthehaulofthelastfewdays;andrightatthebottomofthebarreltheylaidthedetachedarm.Theycovereditwithsalt,andthenputbackthefishonebyone.
  Oneofthesailorssaidbywayofjoke:
  "Ihopewedonotsellitatauction."
  Andeveryonelaughed,exceptthetwoJavels.
  Thewindwasstillboisterous.TheytackedwithinsightofBoulogneuntilthefollowingmorningatteno’clock.YoungJavelcontinuedtobathehiswound.Fromtimetotimeheroseandwalkedfromoneendtotheotheroftheboat.
  Hisbrother,whowasatthetiller,followedhimwithglances,andshookhishead.
  Atlasttheyranintoharbor.
  Thedoctorexaminedthewoundandpronouncedittobeingoodcondition.
  Hedresseditproperlyandorderedthepatienttorest.ButJavelwouldnotgotobeduntilhegotbackhisseveredarm,andhereturnedatoncetothedocktolookforthebarrelwhichhehadmarkedwithacross.
  Itwasemptiedbeforehimandheseizedthearm,whichwaswellpreservedinthepickle,hadshrunkandwasfreshened.Hewrappeditupinatowelhehadbroughtforthepurposeandtookithome.
  Hiswifeandchildrenlookedforalongtimeatthisfragmentoftheirfather,feelingthefingers,andremovingthegrainsofsaltthatwereunderthenails.Thentheysentforacarpentertomakealittlecoffin.
  Thenextdaytheentirecrewofthetrawlingsmackfollowedthefuneralofthedetachedarm.Thetwobrothers,sidebyside,ledtheprocession;
  theparishbeadlecarriedthecorpseunderhisarm.
  Javel,junior,gaveupthesea.Heobtainedasmallpositiononthedock,andwhenhesubsequentlytalkedabouthisaccident,hewouldsayconfidentiallytohisauditors:
  "Ifmybrotherhadbeenwillingtocutawaythenet,Ishouldstillhavemyarm,thatissure.Buthewasthinkingonlyofhisproperty."
  MINUET
  Greatmisfortunesdonotaffectmeverymuch,saidJohnBridelle,anoldbachelorwhopassedforasceptic.Ihaveseenwaratquiteclosequarters;Iwalkedacrosscorpseswithoutanyfeelingofpity.Thegreatbrutalfactsofnature,orofhumanity,maycallforthcriesofhorrororindignation,butdonotcauseusthattighteningoftheheart,thatshudderthatgoesdownyourspineatsightofcertainlittleheartrendingepisodes.
  Thegreatestsorrowthatanyonecanexperienceiscertainlythelossofachild,toamother;andthelossofhismother,toaman.Itisintense,terrible,itrendsyourheartandupsetsyourmind;butoneishealedoftheseshocks,justaslargebleedingwoundsbecomehealed.Certainmeetings,certainthingshalfperceived,orsurmised,certainsecretsorrows,certaintricksoffatewhichawakeinusawholeworldofpainfulthoughts,whichsuddenlyunclosetousthemysteriousdoorofmoralsuffering,complicated,incurable;allthedeeperbecausetheyappearbenign,allthemorebitterbecausetheyareintangible,allthemoretenaciousbecausetheyappearalmostfactitious,leaveinoursoulsasortoftrailofsadness,atasteofbitterness,afeelingofdisenchantment,fromwhichittakesalongtimetofreeourselves.
  Ihavealwayspresenttomymindtwoorthreethingsthatotherswouldsurelynothavenoticed,butwhichpenetratedmybeinglikefine,sharpincurablestings.
  YoumightnotperhapsunderstandtheemotionthatIretainedfromthesehastyimpressions.Iwilltellyouoneofthem.Shewasveryold,butaslivelyasayounggirl.Itmaybethatmyimaginationaloneisresponsibleformyemotion.
  Iamfifty.Iwasyoungthenandstudyinglaw.Iwasrathersad,somewhatofadreamer,fullofapessimisticphilosophyanddidnotcaremuchfornoisycafes,boisterouscompanions,orstupidgirls.Iroseearlyandoneofmychiefenjoymentswastowalkaloneabouteighto’clockinthemorninginthenurserygardenoftheLuxembourg.
  Youpeopleneverknewthatnurserygarden.Itwaslikeaforgottengardenofthelastcentury,asprettyasthegentlesmileofanoldlady.
  Thickhedgesdividedthenarrowregularpaths,——peacefulpathsbetweentwowallsofcarefullytrimmedfoliage.Thegardener’sgreatshearswerepruningunceasinglytheseleafypartitions,andhereandthereonecameacrossbedsofflowers,linesoflittletreeslookinglikeschoolboysoutforawalk,companiesofmagnificentrosebushes,orregimentsoffruittrees.
  Anentirecornerofthischarmingspotwasinhabitedbybees.Theirstrawhivesskillfullyarrangedatdistancesonboardshadtheirentrances——aslargeastheopeningofathimble——turnedtowardsthesun,andallalongthepathsoneencounteredthesehummingandgildedflies,thetruemastersofthispeacefulspot,therealpromenadersofthesequietpaths.
  Icametherealmosteverymorning.Isatdownonabenchandread.
  SometimesIletmybookfallonmyknees,todream,tolistentothelifeofParisaroundme,andtoenjoytheinfinitereposeoftheseold—
  fashionedhedges.
  ButIsoonperceivedthatIwasnottheonlyonetofrequentthisspotassoonasthegateswereopened,andIoccasionallymetfacetoface,ataturninthepath,astrangelittleoldman.
  Heworeshoeswithsilverbuckles,knee—breeches,asnuff—coloredfrockcoat,alacejabot,andanoutlandishgrayhatwithwidebrimandlong—
  hairedsurfacethatmighthavecomeoutoftheark.
  Hewasthin,verythin,angular,grimacingandsmiling.Hisbrighteyeswererestlessbeneathhiseyelidswhichblinkedcontinuously.Healwayscarriedinhishandasuperbcanewithagoldknob,whichmusthavebeenforhimsomeglorioussouvenir.
  Thisgoodmanastonishedmeatfirst,thencausedmetheintensestinterest.Iwatchedhimthroughtheleafywalls,Ifollowedhimatadistance,stoppingataturninthehedgesoasnottobeseen.
  Andonemorningwhenhethoughthewasquitealone,hebegantomakethemostremarkablemotions.Firsthewouldgivesomelittlesprings,thenmakeabow;then,withhisslimlegs,hewouldgivealivelyspringintheair,clappinghisfeetashedidso,andthenturnroundcleverly,skippingandfriskingaboutinacomicalmanner,smilingasifhehadanaudience,twistinghispoorlittlepuppet—likebody,bowingpatheticandridiculouslittlegreetingsintotheemptyair.Hewasdancing.
  Istoodpetrifiedwithamazement,askingmyselfwhichofuswascrazy,heorI.
  Hestoppedsuddenly,advancedasactorsdoonthestage,thenbowedandretreatedwithgracioussmiles,andkissinghishandasactorsdo,histremblinghand,tothetworowsoftrimmedbushes.
  Thenhecontinuedhiswalkwithasolemndemeanor.
  AfterthatIneverlostsightofhim,andeachmorninghebegananewhisoutlandishexercises.
  Iwaswildlyanxioustospeaktohim.Idecidedtoriskit,andoneday,aftergreetinghim,Isaid:
  "Itisabeautifulday,monsieur."
  Hebowed.
  "Yes,sir,theweatherisjustasitusedtobe."
  AweeklaterwewerefriendsandIknewhishistory.Hehadbeenadancingmasterattheopera,inthetimeofLouisXV.HisbeautifulcanewasapresentfromtheComtedeClermont.Andwhenwespokeaboutdancingheneverstoppingtalking.
  Onedayhesaidtome:
  "ImarriedLaCastris,monsieur.Iwillintroduceyoutoherifyouwishit,butshedoesnotgetheretilllater.Thisgarden,yousee,isourdelightandourlife.Itisallthatremainsofformerdays.Itseemsasthoughwecouldnotexistifwedidnothaveit.Itisoldanddistingue,isitnot?IseemtobreatheanairherethathasnotchangedsinceIwasyoung.MywifeandIpassallourafternoonshere,butI
  comeinthemorningbecauseIgetupearly."
  AssoonasIhadfinishedluncheonIreturnedtotheLuxembourg,andpresentlyperceivedmyfriendofferinghisarmceremoniouslytoaveryoldlittleladydressedinblack,towhomheintroducedme.ItwasLaCastris,thegreatdancer,belovedbyprinces,belovedbytheking,belovedbyallthatcenturyofgallantrythatseemstohaveleftbehinditintheworldanatmosphereoflove.
  Wesatdownonabench.ItwasthemonthofMay.Anodorofflowersfloatedintheneatpaths;ahotsunglideditsraysbetweenthebranchesandcovereduswithpatchesoflight.TheblackdressofLaCastrisseemedtobesaturatedwithsunlight.
  Thegardenwasempty.Weheardtherattlingofvehiclesinthedistance.
  "Tellme,"Isaidtotheolddancer,"whatwastheminuet?"
  Hegaveastart.
  "Theminuet,monsieur,isthequeenofdances,andthedanceofqueens,doyouunderstand?Sincethereisnolongeranyroyalty,thereisnolongeranyminuet."
  AndhebeganinapompousmanneralongdithyrambiceulogywhichIcouldnotunderstand.Iwantedtohavethesteps,themovements,thepositions,explainedtome.Hebecameconfused,wasamazedathisinabilitytomakemeunderstand,becamenervousandworried.
  Thensuddenly,turningtohisoldcompanionwhohadremainedsilentandserious,hesaid:
  "Elise,wouldyoulike——say——wouldyoulike,itwouldbeveryniceofyou,wouldyouliketoshowthisgentlemanwhatitwas?"
  Sheturnedeyesuneasilyinalldirections,thenrosewithoutsayingawordandtookherpositionoppositehim.
  ThenIwitnessedanunheard—ofthing.
  Theyadvancedandretreatedwithchildlikegrimaces,smiling,swingingeachother,bowing,skippingaboutliketwoautomatondollsmovedbysomeoldmechanicalcontrivance,somewhatdamaged,butmadebyacleverworkmanaccordingtothefashionofhistime.
  AndIlookedatthem,myheartfilledwithextraordinaryemotions,mysoultouchedwithanindescribablemelancholy.Iseemedtoseebeforemeapatheticandcomicalapparition,theout—of—dateghostofaformercentury.
  Theysuddenlystopped.Theyhadfinishedallthefiguresofthedance.
  Forsomesecondstheystoodoppositeeachother,smilinginanastonishingmanner.Thentheyfelloneachother’sneckssobbing.
  Ileftfortheprovincesthreedayslater.Ineversawthemagain.
  WhenIreturnedtoParis,twoyearslater,thenurseryhadbeendestroyed.Whatbecameofthem,deprivedofthedeargardenofformerdays,withitsmazes,itsodorofthepast,andthegracefulwindingsofitshedges?
  Aretheydead?Aretheywanderingamongmodernstreetslikehopelessexiles?Aretheydancing——grotesquespectres——afantasticminuetinthemoonlight,amidthecypressesofacemetery,alongthepathwaysborderedbygraves?
  Theirmemoryhauntsme,obsessesme,tormentsme,remainswithmelikeawound.Why?Idonotknow.
  Nodoubtyouthinkthatveryabsurd?
  THESON
  Thetwooldfriendswerewalkinginthegardeninbloom,wherespringwasbringingeverythingtolife.
  Onewasasenator,theotheramemberoftheFrenchAcademy,bothseriousmen,fullofverylogicalbutsolemnarguments,menofnoteandreputation.
  Theytalkedfirstofpolitics,exchangingopinions;notonideas,butonmen,personalitiesinthisregardtakingthepredominanceoverability.
  Thentheyrecalledsomememories.Thentheywalkedalonginsilence,enervatedbythewarmthoftheair.
  Alargebedofwallflowersbreathedoutadelicatesweetness.Amassofflowersofallspeciesandcolorflungtheirfragrancetothebreeze,whileacytisuscoveredwithyellowclustersscattereditsfinepollenabroad,agoldencloud,withanodorofhoneythatboreitsbalmyseedacrossspace,similartothesachet—powdersofperfumers.
  Thesenatorstopped,breathedinthecloudoffloatingpollen,lookedatthefertileshrub,yellowasthesun,whoseseedwasfloatingintheair,andsaid:
  "Whenoneconsidersthattheseimperceptiblefragrantatomswillcreateexistencesatahundredleaguesfromhere,willsendathrillthroughthefibresandsapoffemaletreesandproducebeingswithroots,growingfromagerm,justaswedo,mortallikeourselves,andwhowillbereplacedbyotherbeingsofthesameorder,likeourselvesagain!"
  And,standinginfrontofthebrilliantcytisus,whoselivepollenwasshakenoffbyeachbreathofair,thesenatoradded:
  "Ah,oldfellow,ifyouhadtokeepcountofallyourchildrenyouwouldbemightilyembarrassed.Hereisonewhogeneratesfreely,andthenletsthemgowithoutapangandtroubleshimselfnomoreaboutthem."
  "Wedothesame,myfriend,"saidtheacademician.
  "Yes,Idonotdenyit;weletthemgosometimes,"resumedthesenator,"butweareawarethatwedo,andthatconstitutesoursuperiority."
  "No,thatisnotwhatImean,"saidtheother,shakinghishead.
  "Yousee,myfriend,thatthereisscarcelyamanwhohasnotsomechildrenthathedoesnotknow,children——’fatherunknown’——whomhehasgeneratedalmostunconsciously,justasthistreereproduces.
  "Ifwehadtokeepaccountofouramours,weshouldbejustasembarrassedasthiscytisuswhichyouapostrophizedwouldbeincountinguphisdescendants,shouldwenot?
  "Fromeighteentofortyyears,infact,countingineverychancecursoryacquaintanceship,wemaywellsaythatwehavebeenintimatewithtwoorthreehundredwomen.
  "Well,then,myfriend,amongthisnumbercanyoubesurethatyouhavenothadchildrenbyatleastoneofthem,andthatyouhavenotinthestreets,orinthebagnio,someblackguardofasonwhostealsfromandmurdersdecentpeople,i.e.,ourselves;orelseadaughterinsomedisreputableplace,or,ifshehasthegoodfortunetobedesertedbyhermother,ascookinsomefamily?
  "Consider,also,thatalmostallthosewhomwecall’prostitutes’haveoneortwochildrenofwhosepaternalparentagetheyareignorant,generatedbychanceatthepriceoftenortwentyfrancs.Ineverybusinessthereisprofitandloss.Thesewildingsconstitutethe’loss’
  intheirprofession.Whogeneratedthem?You——I——wealldid,themencalled’gentlemen’!Theyaretheconsequencesofourjoviallittledinners,ofourgayevenings,ofthosehourswhenourcomfortablephysicalbeingimpelsustochanceliaisons.
  "Thieves,marauders,allthesewretches,infact,areourchildren.
  Andthatisbetterforusthanifweweretheirchildren,forthosescoundrelsgeneratealso!
  "IhaveinmymindaveryhorriblestorythatIwillrelatetoyou.Ithascausedmeincessantremorse,and,furtherthanthat,acontinualdoubt,adisquietinguncertainty,that,attimes,tormentsmefrightfully.
  "WhenIwastwenty—fiveIundertookawalkingtourthroughBrittanywithoneofmyfriends,nowamemberofthecabinet.
  "AfterwalkingsteadilyforfifteenortwentydaysandvisitingtheCotes—du—NordandpartofFinisterewereachedDouarnenez.FromtherewewentwithouthaltingtothewildpromontoryofRazbythebayofLesTrepaases,andpassedthenightinavillagewhosenameendsin’of.’
  Thenextmorningastrangelassitudekeptmyfriendinbed;Isaybedfromhabit,forourcouchconsistedsimplyoftwobundlesofstraw.
  "Itwouldneverdotobeillinthisplace.SoImadehimgetup,andwereachedAndierneaboutfourorfiveo’clockintheevening.
  "Thefollowingdayhefeltalittlebetter,andwesetoutagain.Butontheroadhewasseizedwithintolerablepain,andwecouldscarcelygetasfarasPontLabbe.
  "Here,atleast,therewasaninn.Myfriendwenttobed,andthedoctor,whohadbeensentforfromQuimper,announcedthathehadahighfever,withoutbeingabletodetermineitsnature.
  "DoyouknowPontLabbe?No?Well,then,itisthemostBretonofallthisBretonBrittany,whichextendsfromthepromontoryofRaztotheMorbihan,ofthislandwhichcontainstheessenceoftheBretonmanners,legendsandcustoms.Evento—daythiscornerofthecountryhasscarcelychanged.Isay’evento—day,’forInowgothereeveryyear,alas!
  "Anoldchateaulavesthewallsofitstowersinagreatmelancholypond,melancholyandfrequentedbyflightsofwildbirds.Ithasanoutletinariveronwhichboatscannavigateasfarasthetown.Inthenarrowstreetswiththeirold—timehousesthemenwearbighats,embroideredwaistcoatsandfourcoats,oneontopoftheother;theinsideone,aslargeasyourhand,barelycoveringtheshoulder—blades,andtheoutsideonecomingtojustabovetheseatofthetrousers.
  "Thegirls,tall,handsomeandfreshhavetheirbosomscrushedinaclothbodicewhichmakesanarmor,compressesthem,notallowingoneeventoguessattheirrobustandtorturedneck.Theyalsowearastrangeheaddress.Ontheirtemplestwobandsembroideredincolorsframetheirface,inclosingthehair,whichfallsinashoweratthebackoftheirheads,andisthenturnedupandgatheredontopoftheheadunderasingularcap,oftenwovenwithgoldorsilverthread.
  "Theservantatourinnwaseighteenatmost,withveryblueeyes,apalebluewithtwotinyblackpupils,shortteethclosetogether,whichsheshowedcontinuallywhenshelaughed,andwhichseemedstrongenoughtogrindgranite.
  "ShedidnotknowawordofFrench,speakingonlyBreton,asdidmostofhercompanions.
  "Asmyfrienddidnotimprovemuch,andalthoughhehadnodefinitemalady,thedoctorforbadehimtocontinuehisjourneyyet,orderingcompleterest.Ispentmydayswithhim,andthelittlemaidwouldcomeinincessantly,bringingeithermydinnerorsomeherbtea.
  "Iteasedheralittle,whichseemedtoamuseher,butwedidnotchat,ofcourse,aswecouldnotunderstandeachother.
  "Butonenight,afterIhadstayedquitelatewithmyfriendandwasgoingbacktomyroom,Ipassedthegirl,whowasgoingtoherroom.
  Itwasjustoppositemyopendoor,and,withoutreflection,andmoreforfunthananythingelse,Iabruptlyseizedherroundthewaist,andbeforesherecoveredfromherastonishmentIhadthrownherdownandlockedherinmyroom.Shelookedatme,amazed,excited,terrified,notdaringtocryoutforfearofascandalandofbeingprobablydrivenout,firstbyheremployersandthen,perhaps,byherfather.
  "Ididitasajokeatfirst.Shedefendedherselfbravely,andatthefirstchancesherantothedoor,drewbacktheboltandfled.
  "Iscarcelysawherforseveraldays.Shewouldnotletmecomenearher.ButwhenmyfriendwascuredandweweretogetoutonourtravelsagainIsawhercomingintomyroomaboutmidnightthenightbeforeourdeparture,justafterIhadretired.
  "Shethrewherselfintomyarmsandembracedmepassionately,givingmealltheassurancesoftendernessanddespairthatawomancangivewhenshedoesnotknowawordofourlanguage.
  "AweeklaterIhadforgottenthisadventure,socommonandfrequentwhenoneistravelling,theinnservantsbeinggenerallydestinedtoamusetravellersinthisway.
  "IwasthirtybeforeIthoughtofitagain,orreturnedtoPontLabbe.
  "Butin1876IrevisiteditbychanceduringatripintoBrittany,whichImadeinordertolookupsomedataforabookandtobecomepermeatedwiththeatmosphereofthedifferentplaces.
  "Nothingseemedchanged.Thechateaustilllaveditsgraywallinthepondoutsidethelittletown;theinnwasthesame,thoughithadbeenrepaired,renovatedandlookedmoremodern.AsIentereditIwasreceivedbytwoyoungBretongirlsofeighteen,freshandpretty,boundupintheirtightclothbodices,withtheirsilvercapsandwideembroideredbandsontheirears.
  "Itwasaboutsixo’clockintheevening.Isatdowntodinner,andasthehostwasassiduousinwaitingonmehimself,fate,nodoubt,impelledmetosay:
  "’Didyouknowtheformerproprietorsofthishouse?Ispentabouttendaysherethirtyyearsago.Iamtalkingoldtimes.’
  "’Thoseweremyparents,monsieur,’hereplied.
  "ThenItoldhimwhywehadstayedoveratthattime,howmycomradehadbeendelayedbyillness.Hedidnotletmefinish.
  "’Oh,Irecollectperfectly.Iwasaboutfifteenorsixteen.YousleptintheroomattheendandyourfriendintheoneIhavetakenformyself,overlookingthestreet.’
  "Itwasonlythenthattherecollectionofthelittlemaidcamevividlytomymind.Iasked:’Doyourememberaprettylittleservantwhowastheninyourfather’semploy,andwhohad,ifmymemorydoesnotdeceiveme,prettyeyesandfreshlookingteeth?’
  "’Yes,monsieur;shediedinchildbirthsometimeafter.’
  "And,pointingtothecourtyardwhereathin,lamemanwasstirringupthemanure,headded:
  "’Thatisherson.’
  "Ibegantolaugh:
  "’Heisnothandsomeanddoesnotlookmuchlikehismother.Nodoubthelookslikehisfather.’
  "’Thatisverypossible,’repliedtheinnkeeper;’butweneverknewwhosechilditwas.Shediedwithouttellinganyone,andnoonehereknewofherhavingabeau.Everyonewashugelyastonishedwhentheyheardshewasenceinte,andnoonewouldbelieveit.’
  "Asortofunpleasantchillcameoverme,oneofthosepainfulsurfacewoundsthataffectusliketheshadowofanimpendingsorrow.AndI
  lookedatthemanintheyard.Hehadjustdrawnwaterforthehorsesandwascarryingtwobuckets,limpingashewalked,withapainfuleffortofhisshorterleg.Hisclotheswereragged,hewashideouslydirty,withlongyellowhair,sotangledthatitlookedlikestrandsofropefallingdownateithersideofhisface.
  "’Heisnotworthmuch,’continuedtheinnkeeper;’wehavekepthimforcharity’ssake.Perhapshewouldhaveturnedoutbetterifhehadbeenbroughtuplikeotherfolks.Butwhatcouldonedo,monsieur?Nofather,nomother,nomoney!Myparentstookpityonhim,buthewasnottheirchild,youunderstand.’
  "Isaidnothing.
  "Isleptinmyoldroom,andallnightlongIthoughtofthisfrightfulstableman,sayingtomyself:’Supposingitismyownson?CouldIhavecausedthatgirl’sdeathandprocreatedthisbeing?Itwasquitepossible!’
  "Iresolvedtospeaktothismanandtofindouttheexactdateofhisbirth.Avariationoftwomonthswouldsetmydoubtsatrest.
  "Isentforhimthenextday.ButhecouldnotspeakFrench.Helookedasifhecouldnotunderstandanything,beingabsolutelyignorantofhisage,whichIhadinquiredofhimthroughoneofthemaids.Hestoodbeforemelikeanidiot,twirlinghishatin’hisknotted,disgustinghands,laughingstupidly,withsomethingofhismother’slaughinthecornersofhismouthandofhiseyes.
  "Thelandlord,appearingonthescene,wenttolookforthebirthcertificateofthiswretchedbeing.Hewasborneightmonthsandtwenty—
  sixdaysaftermystayatPontLabbe,forIrecollectperfectlythatwereachedLorientonthefifteenthofAugust.Thecertificatecontainedthisdescription:’Fatherunknown.’ThemothercalledherselfJeanneKerradec.
  "Thenmyheartbegantobeatrapidly.Icouldnotutteraword,forI
  feltasifIwerechoking.Ilookedatthisanimalwhoselongyellowhairremindedmeofastrawheap,andthebeggar,embarrassedbymygaze,stoppedlaughing,turnedhisheadaside,andwantedtogetaway.
  "AlldaylongIwanderedbesidethelittleriver,givingwaytopainfulreflections.Butwhatwastheuseofreflection?Icouldbesureofnothing.ForhoursandhoursIweighedalltheprosandconsinfavoroforagainsttheprobabilityofmybeingthefather,growingnervousoverinexplicablesuppositions,onlytoreturnincessantlytothesamehorribleuncertainty,thentothestillmoreatrociousconvictionthatthismanwasmyson.
  "Icouldeatnodinner,andwenttomyroom.
  Ilayawakeforalongtime,andwhenIfinallyfellasleepIwashauntedbyhorriblevisions.Isawthislaborerlaughinginmyfaceandcallingme’papa.’Thenhechangedintoadogandbitthecalvesofmylegs,andnomatterhowfastIranhestillfollowedme,andinsteadofbarking,talkedandreviledme.ThenheappearedbeforemycolleaguesattheAcademy,whohadassembledtodecidewhetherIwasreallyhisfather;andoneofthemcriedout:’Therecanbenodoubtaboutit!Seehowheresembleshim.’And,indeed,Icouldseethatthismonsterlookedlikeme.AndIawokewiththisideafixedinmymindandwithaninsanedesiretoseethemanagainandassuremyselfwhetherornotwehadsimilarfeatures.
  "Ijoinedhimashewasgoingtomass(itwasSunday)andIgavehimfivefrancsasIgazedathimanxiously.Hebegantolaughinanidioticmanner,tookthemoney,andthen,embarrassedafreshatmygaze,heranoff,afterstammeringanalmostinarticulatewordthat,nodoubt,meant’thankyou.’
  "Mydaypassedinthesamedistressofmindasonthepreviousnight.
  Isentforthelandlord,and,withthegreatestcaution,skillandtact,ItoldhimthatIwasinterestedinthispoorcreature,soabandonedbyeveryoneanddeprivedofeverything,andIwishedtodosomethingforhim.
  "Butthemanreplied:’Oh,donotthinkofit,monsieur;heisofnoaccount;youwillonlycauseyourselfannoyance.Iemployhimtocleanoutthestable,andthatisallhecando.Igivehimhisboardandlethimsleepwiththehorses.Heneedsnothingmore.Ifyouhaveanoldpairoftrousers,youmightgivethemtohim,buttheywillbeinragsinaweek.’
  "Ididnotinsist,intendingtothinkitover.
  "Thepoorwretchcamehomethateveningfrightfullydrunk,camenearsettingfiretothehouse,killedahorsebyhittingitwithapickaxe,andendedupbylyingdowntosleepinthemudinthemidstofthepouringrain,thankstomydonation.
  "Theybeggedmenextdaynottogivehimanymoremoney.Brandydrovehimcrazy,andassoonashehadtwosousinhispockethewouldspenditindrink.Thelandlordadded:’Givinghimmoneyisliketryingtokillhim.’Themanhadnever,neverinhislifehadmorethanafewcentimes,throwntohimbytravellers,andheknewofnodestinationforthismetalbutthewineshop.
  "IspentseveralhoursinmyroomwithanopenbookbeforemewhichI
  pretendedtoread,butinrealitylookingatthisanimal,myson!myson!
  tryingtodiscoverifhelookedanythinglikeme.AftercarefulscrutinyIseemedtorecognizeasimilarityinthelinesoftheforeheadandtherootofthenose,andIwassoonconvincedthattherewasaresemblance,concealedbythedifferenceingarbandtheman’shideousheadofhair.
  "Icouldnotstayhereanylongerwithoutarousingsuspicion,andIwentaway,myheartcrushed,leavingwiththeinnkeepersomemoneytosoftentheexistenceofhisservant.
  "ForsixyearsnowIhavelivedwiththisideainmymind,thishorribleuncertainty,thisabominablesuspicion.AndeachyearanirresistibleforcetakesmebacktoPontLabbe.EveryyearIcondemnmyselftothetortureofseeingthisanimalrakingthemanure,imaginingthatheresemblesme,andendeavoring,alwaysvainly,torenderhimsomeassistance.AndeachyearIreturnmoreuncertain,moretormented,moreworried.
  "Itriedtohavehimtaught,butheisahopelessidiot.Itriedtomakehislifelesshard.Heisanirreclaimabledrunkard,andspendsindrinkallthemoneyonegiveshim,andknowsenoughtosellhisnewclothesinordertogetbrandy.
  "Itriedtoawakenhismaster’ssympathy,sothatheshouldlookafterhim,offeringtopayhimfordoingso.Theinnkeeper,finallysurprised,said,verywisely:’Allthatyoudoforhim,monsieur,willonlyhelptodestroyhim.Hemustbekeptlikeaprisoner.Assoonashehasanysparetime,oranycomfort,hebecomeswicked.Ifyouwishtodogood,thereisnolackofabandonedchildren,butselectonewhowillappreciateyourattention.’
  "WhatcouldIsay?
  "IfIallowedtheslightestsuspicionofthedoubtsthattorturedmetoescape,thisidiotwouldassuredlybecomecunning,inordertoblackmailme,tocompromisemeandruinme.Hewouldcallout’papa,’asinmydream.
  "AndIsaidtomyselfthatIhadkilledthemotherandlostthisatrophiedcreature,thislarvaofthestable,bornandraisedamidthemanure,thismanwho,ifbroughtuplikeothers,wouldhavebeenlikeothers.
  "Andyoucannotimaginewhatastrange,embarrassedandintolerablefeelingcomesovermewhenhestandsbeforemeandIreflectthathecamefrommyself,thathebelongstomethroughtheintimatebondthatlinksfatherandson,that,thankstotheterriblelawofheredity,heismyownselfinathousandways,inhisbloodandhisflesh,andthathehaseventhesamegermsofdisease,thesameleavenofemotions.
  "Ihaveanincessantrestless,distressinglongingtoseehim,andthesightofhimcausesmeintensesuffering,asIlookdownfrommywindowandwatchhimforhoursremovingandcartingthehorsemanure,sayingtomyself:’Thatismyson.’
  "AndIsometimesfeelanirresistiblelongingtoembracehim.Ihavenevereventouchedhisdirtyhand."
  Theacademicianwassilent.Hiscompanion,atactfulman,murmured:
  "Yes,indeed,weoughttotakeacloserinterestinchildrenwhohavenofather."
  Agustofwindpassingthroughthetreeshookitsyellowclusters,envelopinginafragrantanddelicatemistthetwooldmen,whoinhaledinthefragrancewithdeepbreaths.
  Thesenatoradded:"Itisgoodtobetwenty—fiveandeventohavechildrenlikethat."
  THATPIGOFAMORIN
  "Here,myfriend,"IsaidtoLabarbe,"youhavejustrepeatedthosefivewords,thatpigofaMorin.WhyonearthdoIneverhearMorin’snamementionedwithouthisbeingcalledapig?"
  Labarbe,whoisadeputy,lookedatmewithhisowl—likeeyesandsaid:
  "DoyoumeantosaythatyoudonotknowMorin’sstoryandyoucomefromLaRochelle?"IwasobligedtodeclarethatIdidnotknowMorin’sstory,soLabarberubbedhishandsandbeganhisrecital.
  "YouknewMorin,didyounot,andyourememberhislargelinen—draper’sshopontheQuaidelaRochelle?"
  "Yes,perfectly."
  "Well,then.Youmustknowthatin1862or’63MorinwenttospendafortnightinParisforpleasure;orforhispleasures,butunderthepretextofrenewinghisstock,andyoualsoknowwhatafortnightinParismeanstoacountryshopkeeper;itfireshisblood.Thetheatreeveryevening,women’sdressesrustlingupagainstyouandcontinualexcitement;onegoesalmostmadwithit.Oneseesnothingbutdancersintights,actressesinverylowdresses,roundlegs,fatshoulders,allnearlywithinreachofone’shands,withoutdaring,orbeingable,totouchthem,andonescarcelytastesfood.Whenoneleavesthecityone’sheartisstillallinaflutterandone’smindstillexhilaratedbyasortoflongingforkisseswhichticklesone’slips.
  "MorinwasinthatconditionwhenhetookhisticketforLaRochellebytheeight—fortynightexpress.Ashewaswalkingupanddownthewaiting—roomatthestationhestoppedsuddenlyinfrontofayoungladywhowaskissinganoldone.Shehadherveilup,andMorinmurmuredwithdelight:’ByJovewhataprettywoman!’
  "Whenshehadsaid’good—by’totheoldladyshewentintothewaiting—
  room,andMorinfollowedher;thenshewentontheplatformandMorinstillfollowedher;thenshegotintoanemptycarriage,andheagainfollowedher.Therewereveryfewtravellersontheexpress.Theenginewhistledandthetrainstarted.Theywerealone.Morindevouredherwithhiseyes.Sheappearedtobeaboutnineteenortwentyandwasfair,tall,withaboldlook.Shewrappedarailwayrugroundherandstretchedherselfontheseattosleep.
  "Morinaskedhimself:’Iwonderwhosheis?’Andathousandconjectures,athousandprojectswentthroughhishead.Hesaidtohimself:’Somanyadventuresaretoldashappeningonrailwayjourneysthatthismaybeonethatisgoingtopresentitselftome.Whoknows?Apieceofgoodlucklikethathappensverysuddenly,andperhapsIneedonlybealittleventuresome.WasitnotDantonwhosaid:"Audacity,moreaudacityandalwaysaudacity"?IfitwasnotDantonitwasMirabeau,butthatdoesnotmatter.ButthenIhavenoaudacity,andthatisthedifficulty.
  Oh!Ifoneonlyknew,ifonecouldonlyreadpeople’sminds!Iwillbetthateverydayonepassesbymagnificentopportunitieswithoutknowingit,thoughagesturewouldbeenoughtoletmeknowhermind.’
  "Thenheimaginedtohimselfcombinationswhichconductedhimtotriumph.
  Hepicturedsomechivalrousdeedormerelysomeslightservicewhichherenderedher,alively,gallantconversationwhichendedinadeclaration.
  "Buthecouldfindnoopening,hadnopretext,andhewaitedforsomefortunatecircumstance,withhisheartbeatingandhismindtopsy—turvy.
  Thenightpassedandtheprettygirlstillslept,whileMorinwasmeditatinghisownfall.Thedaybrokeandsoonthefirstrayofsunlightappearedinthesky,along,clearraywhichshoneonthefaceofthesleepinggirlandwokeher.Shesatup,lookedatthecountry,thenatMorinandsmiled.Shesmiledlikeahappywoman,withanengagingandbrightlook,andMorintrembled.Certainlythatsmilewasintendedforhim;itwasdiscreetinvitation,thesignalwhichhewaswaitingfor.Thatsmilemeanttosay:’Howstupid,whataninny,whatadolt,whatadonkeyyouare,tohavesatthereonyourseatlikeapostallnight!
  "’Justlookatme,amInotcharming?Andyouhavesatlikethatforthewholenight,whenyouhavebeenalonewithaprettywoman,yougreatsimpleton!’
  "Shewasstillsmilingasshelookedathim;sheevenbegantolaugh;andhelosthisheadtryingtofindsomethingsuitabletosay,nomatterwhat.Buthecouldthinkofnothing,nothing,andthen,seizedwithacoward’scourage,hesaidtohimself:
  ’Somuchtheworse,Iwillriskeverything,’andsuddenly,withouttheslightestwarning,hewenttowardher,hisarmsextended,hislipsprotruding,and,seizingherinhisarms,hekissedher.
  "Shesprangupimmediatelywithabound,cryingout:’Help!help!’andscreamingwithterror;andthensheopenedthecarriagedoorandwavedherarmout,madwithterrorandtryingtojumpout,whileMorin,whowasalmostdistractedandfeelingsurethatshewouldthrowherselfout,heldherbytheskirtandstammered:’Oh,madame!oh,madame!’
  "Thetrainslackenedspeedandthenstopped.Twoguardsrushedupattheyoungwoman’sfranticsignals.Shethrewherselfintotheirarms,stammering:’Thatmanwanted——wanted——to——to——’Andthenshefainted.
  "TheywereatMauzestation,andthegendarmeondutyarrestedMorin.
  Whenthevictimofhisindiscreetadmirationhadregainedherconsciousness,shemadeherchargeagainsthim,andthepolicedrewitup.Thepoorlinendraperdidnotreachhometillnight,withaprosecutionhangingoverhimforanoutragetomoralsinapublicplace.
  II
  "AtthattimeIwaseditoroftheFanaldesCharentes,andIusedtomeetMorineverydayattheCafeduCommerce,andthedayafterhisadventure.
  hecametoseeme,ashedidnotknowwhattodo.Ididnothidemyopinionfromhim,butsaidtohim:’Youarenobetterthanapig.Nodecentmanbehaveslikethat.’
  "Hecried.Hiswifehadgivenhimabeating,andheforesawhistraderuined,hisnamedraggedthroughthemireanddishonored,hisfriendsscandalizedandtakingnonoticeofhim.Intheendheexcitedmypity,andIsentformycolleague,Rivet,ajocularbutverysensiblelittleman,togiveushisadvice.
  "Headvisedmetoseethepublicprosecutor,whowasafriendofmine,andsoIsentMorinhomeandwenttocallonthemagistrate.Hetoldmethatthewomanwhohadbeeninsultedwasayounglady,MademoiselleHenrietteBonnel,whohadjustreceivedhercertificateasgovernessinParisandspentherholidayswithheruncleandaunt,whowereveryrespectabletradespeopleinMauze.WhatmadeMorin’scaseallthemoreseriouswasthattheunclehadlodgedacomplaint,butthepublicofficialhadconsentedtoletthematterdropifthiscomplaintwerewithdrawn,sowemusttryandgethimtodothis.
  "IwentbacktoMorin’sandfoundhiminbed,illwithexcitementanddistress.Hiswife,atallraw—bonedwomanwithabeard,wasabusinghimcontinually,andsheshowedmeintotheroom,shoutingatme:’SoyouhavecometoseethatpigofaMorin.Well,thereheis,thedarling!’
  Andsheplantedherselfinfrontofthebed,withherhandsonherhips.
  Itoldhimhowmattersstood,andhebeggedmetogoandseethegirl’suncleandaunt.Itwasadelicatemission,butIundertookit,andthepoordevilneverceasedrepeating:’IassureyouIdidnotevenkissher;
  no,noteventhat.Iwilltakemyoathtoit!’
  "Ireplied:’Itisallthesame;youarenothingbutapig.’AndItookathousandfrancswhichhegavemetoemployasIthoughtbest,butasI
  didnotcaretoventuretoheruncle’shousealone,IbeggedRivettogowithme,whichheagreedtodoonconditionthatwewentimmediately,forhehadsomeurgentbusinessatLaRochellethatafternoon.Sotwohourslaterwerangatthedoorofaprettycountryhouse.Anattractivegirlcameandopenedthedoortousassuredlytheyoungladyinquestion,andIsaidtoRivetinalowvoice:’Confoundit!IbegintounderstandMorin!’
  "Theuncle,MonsieurTonnelet,subscribedtotheFanal,andwasaferventpoliticalcoreligionistofours.Hereceiveduswithopenarmsandcongratulatedusandwishedusjoy;hewasdelightedathavingthetwoeditorsinhishouse,andRivetwhisperedtome:’IthinkweshallbeabletoarrangethematterofthatpigofaMorinforhim.’
  "TheniecehadlefttheroomandIintroducedthedelicatesubject.
  Iwavedthespectreofscandalbeforehiseyes;Iaccentuatedtheinevitabledepreciationwhichtheyoungladywouldsufferifsuchanaffairbecameknown,fornobodywouldbelieveinasimplekiss,andthegoodmanseemedundecided,buthecouldnotmakeuphismindaboutanythingwithouthiswife,whowouldnotbeinuntillatethatevening.
  Butsuddenlyheutteredanexclamationoftriumph:’Lookhere,Ihaveanexcellentidea;Iwillkeepyouheretodineandsleep,andwhenmywifecomeshomeIhopeweshallbeabletoarrangematters:
  "Rivetresistedatfirst,butthewishtoextricatethatpigofaMorindecidedhim,andweacceptedtheinvitation,andtheunclegotupradiant,calledhisnieceandproposedthatweshouldtakeastrollinhisgrounds,saying:’Wewillleaveseriousmattersuntilthemorning.’
  Rivetandhebegantotalkpolitics,whileIsoonfoundmyselflaggingalittlebehindwith’thegirlwhowasreallycharming——charming——andwiththegreatestprecautionIbegantospeaktoheraboutheradventureandtrytomakehermyally.Shedidnot,however,appeartheleastconfused,andlistenedtomelikeapersonwhowasenjoyingthewholethingverymuch.
  "Isaidtoher:’Justthink,mademoiselle,howunpleasantitwillbeforyou.Youwillhavetoappearincourt,toencountermaliciouslooks,tospeakbeforeeverybodyandtorecountthatunfortunateoccurrenceintherailwaycarriageinpublic.Doyounotthink,betweenourselves,thatitwouldhavebeenmuchbetterforyoutohaveputthatdirtyscoundrelbackinhisplacewithoutcallingforassistance,andmerelytochangeyourcarriage?’Shebegantolaughandreplied:’Whatyousayisquitetrue,butwhatcouldIdo?Iwasfrightened,andwhenoneisfrightenedonedoesnotstoptoreasonwithone’sself.AssoonasIrealizedthesituationIwasverysorry,thatIhadcalledout,butthenitwastoolate.Youmustalsorememberthattheidiotthrewhimselfuponmelikeamadman,withoutsayingawordandlookinglikealunatic.Ididnotevenknowwhathewantedofme.’
  "ShelookedmefullinthefacewithoutbeingnervousorintimidatedandIsaidtomyself:’Sheisaqueersortofgirl,that:IcanquiteseehowthatpigMorincametomakeamistake,’andIwentonjokingly:’Come,mademoiselle,confessthathewasexcusable,for,afterall,amancannotfindhimselfoppositesuchaprettygirlasyouarewithoutfeelinganaturaldesiretokissher.’
  "Shelaughedmorethaneverandshowedherteethandsaid:’Betweenthedesireandtheact,monsieur,thereisroomforrespect.’Itwasanoddexpressiontouse,althoughitwasnotveryclear,andIaskedabruptly:
  ’Well,now,supposeIweretokissyou,whatwouldyoudo?’Shestoppedtolookatmefromheadtofootandthensaidcalmly:’Oh,you?Thatisquiteanothermatter.’
  "Iknewperfectlywell,byJove,thatitwasnotthesamethingatall,aseverybodyintheneighborhoodcalledme’HandsomeLabarbe’——Iwasthirtyyearsoldinthosedays——butIaskedher:’Andwhy,pray?’Sheshruggedhershouldersandreplied:’Well!becauseyouarenotsostupidasheis.’Andthensheadded,lookingatmeslyly:’Norsougly,either:AndbeforeshecouldmakeamovementtoavoidmeIhadimplantedaheartykissonhercheek.Shesprangaside,butitwastoolate,andthenshesaid:’Well,youarenotverybashful,either!Butdon’tdothatsortofthingagain.’
  "Iputonahumblelookandsaidinalowvoice:’Oh,mademoiselle!asforme,ifIlongforonethingmorethananotheritistobesummonedbeforeamagistrateforthesamereasonasMorin.’
  "’Why?’sheasked.And,lookingsteadilyather,Ireplied:’Becauseyouareoneofthemostbeautifulcreaturesliving;becauseitwouldbeanhonorandagloryformetohavewishedtoofferyouviolence,andbecausepeoplewouldhavesaid,afterseeingyou:"Well,Labarbehasrichlydeservedwhathehasgot,butheisaluckyfellow,allthesame.’"
  "Shebegantolaughheartilyagainandsaid:’Howfunnyyouare!’Andshehadnotfinishedtheword’funny’beforeIhadherinmyarmsandwaskissingherardentlywhereverIcouldfindaplace,onherforehead,onhereyes,onherlipsoccasionally,onhercheeks,alloverherhead,somepartofwhichshewasobligedtoleaveexposed,inspiteofherself,todefendtheothers;butatlastshemanagedtoreleaseherself,blushingandangry.’Youareveryunmannerly,monsieur,’shesaid,’andIamsorryIlistenedtoyou.’
  "Itookherhandinsomeconfusionandstammeredout:’Ibegyourpardon.
  Ibegyourpardon,mademoiselle.Ihaveoffendedyou;Ihaveactedlikeabrute!DonotbeangrywithmeforwhatIhavedone.Ifyouknew——’
  Ivainlysoughtforsomeexcuse,andinafewmomentsshesaid:’Thereisnothingformetoknow,monsieur.’ButIhadfoundsomethingtosay,andIcried:’Mademoiselle,Iloveyou!’
  "Shewasreallysurprisedandraisedhereyestolookatme,andIwenton:’Yes,mademoiselle,andpraylistentome.IdonotknowMorin,andIdonotcareanythingabouthim.Itdoesnotmattertometheleastifheiscommittedfortrialandlockedupmeanwhile.Isawyouherelastyear,andIwassotakenwithyouthatthethoughtofyouhasneverleftmesince,anditdoesnotmattertomewhetheryoubelievemeornot.
  Ithoughtyouadorable,andtheremembranceofyoutooksuchaholdonmethatIlongedtoseeyouagain,andsoImadeuseofthatfoolMorinasapretext,andhereIam.Circumstanceshavemademeexceedtheduelimitsofrespect,andIcanonlybegyoutopardonme.’
  "ShelookedatmetoseeifIwasinearnestandwasreadytosmileagain.Thenshemurmured:’Youhumbug!’ButIraisedmyhandandsaidinasincerevoice(andIreallybelievethatIwassincere):’IsweartoyouthatIamspeakingthetruth,’andsherepliedquitesimply:’Don’ttalknonsense!’
  "Wewerealone,quitealone,asRivetandherunclehaddisappeareddownasidewalk,andImadeherarealdeclarationoflove,whileIsqueezedandkissedherhands,andshelistenedtoitastosomethingnewandagreeable,withoutexactlyknowinghowmuchofitshewastobelieve,whileintheendIfeltagitated,andatlastreallymyselfbelievedwhatIsaid.Iwaspale,anxiousandtrembling,andIgentlyputmyarmroundherwaistandspoketohersoftly,whisperingintothelittlecurlsoverherears.Sheseemedinatrance,soabsorbedinthoughtwasshe.
  "Thenherhandtouchedmine,andshepressedit,andIgentlysqueezedherwaistwithatrembling,andgraduallyfirmer,grasp.Shedidnotmovenow,andItouchedhercheekwithmylips,andsuddenlywithoutseekingthemmylipsmethers.Itwasalong,longkiss,anditwouldhavelastedlongerstillifIhadnotheardahm!hm!justbehindme,atwhichshemadeherescapethroughthebushes,andturningroundIsawRivetcomingtowardme,and,standinginthemiddleofthepath,hesaidwithoutevensmiling:’SothatisthewayyousettletheaffairofthatpigofaMorin.’AndIrepliedconceitedly:’Onedoeswhatonecan,mydearfellow.Butwhatabouttheuncle?Howhaveyougotonwithhim?
  Iwillanswerfortheniece.’’Ihavenotbeensofortunatewithhim,’
  hereplied.
  "WhereuponItookhisarmandwewentindoors,III
  "Dinnermademelosemyheadaltogether.Isatbesideher,andmyhandcontinuallymethersunderthetablecloth,myfoottouchedhersandourglancesmet.
  "Afterdinnerwetookawalkbymoonlight,andIwhisperedallthetenderthingsIcouldthinkoftoher.Iheldherclosetome,kissedhereverymoment,whileheruncleandRivetwerearguingastheywalkedinfrontofus.Theywentin,andsoonamessengerbroughtatelegramfromheraunt,sayingthatshewouldnotreturnuntilthenextmorningatseveno’clockbythefirsttrain.
  "’Verywell,Henriette,’herunclesaid,’goandshowthegentlementheirrooms.’SheshowedRivethisfirst,andhewhisperedtome:’Therewasnodangerofhertakingusintoyoursfirst.’Thenshetookmetomyroom,andassoonasshewasalonewithmeItookherinmyarmsagainandtriedtoarouseheremotion,butwhenshesawthedangersheescapedoutoftheroom,andIretiredverymuchputoutandexcitedandfeelingratherfoolish,forIknewthatIshouldnotsleepmuch,andIwaswonderinghowIcouldhavecommittedsuchamistake,whentherewasagentleknockatmydoor,andonmyaskingwhowastherealowvoicereplied:’I’
  "Idressedmyselfquicklyandopenedthedoor,andshecamein.
  ’Iforgottoaskyouwhatyoutakeinthemorning,’shesaid;’chocolate,teaorcoffee?’Iputmyarmsroundherimpetuouslyandsaid,devouringherwithkisses:’Iwilltake——Iwilltake——’
  "Butshefreedherselffrommyarms,blewoutmycandleanddisappearedandleftmealoneinthedark,furious,tryingtofindsomematches,andnotabletodoso.AtlastIgotsomeandIwentintothepassage,feelinghalfmad,withmycandlestickinmyhand.
  "WhatwasIabouttodo?Ididnotstoptoreason,Ionlywantedtofindher,andIwould.Iwentafewstepswithoutreflecting,butthenI
  suddenlythought:’SupposeIshouldwalkintotheuncle’sroomwhatshouldIsay?’AndIstoodstill,withmyheadavoidandmyheartbeating.ButinafewmomentsIthoughtofananswer:’Ofcourse,I
  shallsaythatIwaslookingforRivet’sroomtospeaktohimaboutanimportantmatter,’andIbegantoinspectallthedoors,tryingtofindhers,andatlastItookholdofahandleataventure,turneditandwentin.TherewasHenriette,sittingonherbedandlookingatmeintears.SoIgentlyturnedthekey,andgoinguptoherontiptoeIsaid:
  ’Iforgottoaskyouforsomethingtoread,mademoiselle.’
  "Iwasstealthilyreturningtomyroomwhenaroughhandseizedmeandavoice——itwasRivet’s—whisperedinmyear:’SoyouhavenotyetquitesettledthataffairofMorin’s?’
  "Atseveno’clockthenextmorningHenrietteherselfbroughtmeacupofchocolate.Ineverhavedrunkanythinglikeit,soft,velvety,perfumed,delicious.Icouldhardlytakeawaymylipsfromthecup,andshehadhardlylefttheroomwhenRivetcamein.Heseemednervousandirritable,likeamanwhohadnotslept,andhesaidtomecrossly:
  ’IfyougoonlikethisyouwillendbyspoilingtheaffairofthatpigofaMorin!’
  "Ateighto’clocktheauntarrived.Ourdiscussionwasveryshort,fortheywithdrewtheircomplaint,andIleftfivehundredfrancsforthepoorofthetown.Theywantedtokeepusfortheday,andtheyarrangedanexcursiontogoandseesomeruins.Henriettemadesignstometostay,behindherparents’back,andIaccepted,butRivetwasdeterminedtogo,andthoughItookhimasideandbeggedandprayedhimtodothisforme,heappearedquiteexasperatedandkeptsayingtome:’IhavehadenoughofthatpigofaMorin’saffair,doyouhear?’
  "OfcourseIwasobligedtoleavealso,anditwasoneofthehardestmomentsofmylife.IcouldhavegoneonarrangingthatbusinessaslongasIlived,andwhenwewereintherailwaycarriage,aftershakinghandswithherinsilence,IsaidtoRivet:’Youareamerebrute!’Andhereplied:’Mydearfellow,youwerebeginningtoannoymeconfoundedly.’
  "OngettingtotheFanaloffice,Isawacrowdwaitingforus,andassoonastheysawustheyallexclaimed:’Well,haveyousettledtheaffairofthatpigofaMorin?’AllLaRochellewasexcitedaboutit,andRivet,whohadgotoverhisill—humoronthejourney,hadgreatdifficultyinkeepinghimselffromlaughingashesaid:’Yes,wehavemanagedit,thankstoLabarbe:AndwewenttoMorin’s.
  "Hewassittinginaneasy—chairwithmustardplastersonhislegsandcoldbandagesonhishead,nearlydeadwithmisery.Hewascoughingwiththeshortcoughofadyingman,withoutanyoneknowinghowhehadcaughtit,andhiswifelookedathimlikeatigressreadytoeathim,andassoonashesawushetrembledsoviolentlyastomakehishandsandkneesshake,soIsaidtohimimmediately:’Itisallsettled,youdirtyscamp,butdon’tdosuchathingagain.’
  "Hegotup,choking,tookmyhandsandkissedthemasiftheyhadbelongedtoaprince,cried,nearlyfainted,embracedRivetandevenkissedMadameMorin,whogavehimsuchapushastosendhimstaggeringbackintohischair;buthenevergotovertheblow;hismindhadbeentoomuchupset.Inallthecountryround,moreover,hewascallednothingbut’thatpigofaMorin,’andthatepithetwentthroughhimlikeasword—thrusteverytimeheheardit.Whenastreetboycalledafterhim’Pig!’heturnedhisheadinstinctively.Hisfriendsalsooverwhelmedhimwithhorriblejokesandusedtoaskhim,whenevertheywereeatingham,’Isitabitofyourself?’Hediedtwoyearslater.
  "Asformyself,whenIwasacandidatefortheChamberofDeputiesin1875,IcalledonthenewnotaryatFousserre,MonsieurBelloncle,tosolicithisvote,andatall,handsomeandevidentlywealthyladyreceivedme.’Youdonotknowmeagain?’shesaid.AndIstammeredout:
  ’Why——no——madame.’’HenrietteBonnel.’’Ah!’AndIfeltmyselfturningpale,whilesheseemedperfectlyathereaseandlookedatmewithasmile.
  "Assoonasshehadleftmealonewithherhusbandhetookbothmyhands,and,squeezingthemasifhemeanttocrushthem,hesaid:’Ihavebeenintendingtogoandseeyouforalongtime,mydearsir,formywifehasveryoftentalkedtomeaboutyou.Iknow——yes,Iknowunderwhatpainfulcircumstancesyoumadeheracquaintance,andIknowalsohowperfectlyyoubehaved,howfullofdelicacy,tactanddevotionyoushowedyourselfintheaffair——’Hehesitatedandthensaidinalowertone,asifhehadbeensayingsomethinglowandcoarse,’intheaffairofthatpigofaMorin.’"
  SAINTANTHONY
  TheycalledhimSaintAnthony,becausehisnamewasAnthony,andalso,perhaps,becausehewasagoodfellow,jovial,aloverofpracticaljokes,atremendouseaterandaheavydrinkerandagayfellow,althoughhewassixtyyearsold.
  HewasabigpeasantofthedistrictofCaux,witharedface,largechestandstomach,andperchedontwolegsthatseemedtooslightforthebulkofhisbody.
  Hewasawidowerandlivedalonewithhistwomenservantsandamaidonhisfarm,whichheconductedwithshrewdeconomy.Hewascarefulofhisowninterests,understoodbusinessandtheraisingofcattle,andfarming.Histwosonsandhisthreedaughters,whohadmarriedwell,werelivingintheneighborhoodandcametodinewiththeirfatheronceamonth.Hisvigorofbodywasfamousinallthecountryside."HeisasstrongasSaintAnthony,"hadbecomeakindofproverb.
  AtthetimeofthePrussianinvasionSaintAnthony,atthewineshop,promisedtoeatanarmy,forhewasabraggart,likeatrueNorman,abitofa,cowardandablusterer.Hebangedhisfistonthewoodentable,makingthecupsandthebrandyglassesdance,andcriedwiththeassumedwrathofagoodfellow,withaflushedfaceandaslylookinhiseye:
  "Ishallhavetoeatsomeofthem,nomdeDieu!"HereckonedthatthePrussianswouldnotcomeasfarasTanneville,butwhenheheardtheywereatRautotheneverwentoutofthehouse,andconstantlywatchedtheroadfromthelittlewindowofhiskitchen,expectingatanymomenttoseethebayonetsgoby.
  Onemorningashewaseatinghisluncheonwiththeservantsthedooropenedandthemayorofthecommune,MaitreChicot,appeared,followedbyasoldierwearingablackcopper—pointedhelmet.SaintAnthonyboundedtohisfeetandhisservantsalllookedathim,expectingtoseehimslashthePrussian.Buthemerelyshookhandswiththemayor,whosaid:
  "Hereisoneforyou,SaintAnthony.Theycamelastnight.Don’tdoanythingfoolish,aboveallthings,fortheytalkedofshootingandburningeverythingifthereistheslightestunpleasantness,Ihavegivenyouwarning.Givehimsomethingtoeat;helookslikeagoodfellow.
  Good—day.Iamgoingtocallontherest.Thereareenoughforall."
  Andhewentout.
  FatherAnthony,whohadturnedpale,lookedatthePrussian.Hewasabig,youngfellowwithplump,whiteskin,blueeyes,fairhair,unshaventohischeekbones,wholookedstupid,timidandgood.TheshrewdNormanreadhimatonce,and,reassured,hemadehimasigntositdown.Thenhesaid:"Willyoutakesomesoup?"
  Thestrangerdidnotunderstand.Anthonythenbecamebolder,andpushingaplatefulofsouprightunderhisnose,hesaid:"Here,swallowthat,bigpig!
  Thesoldier,answered"Ya,"andbegantoeatgreedily,whilethefarmer,triumphant,feelinghehadregainedhisreputation,winkedhiseyeattheservants,whoweremakingstrangegrimaces,whatwiththeirterrorandtheirdesiretolaugh.
  WhenthePrussianhaddevouredhissoup,SaintAnthonygavehimanotherplateful,whichdisappearedinlikemanner;butheflinchedatthethirdwhichthefarmertriedtoinsistonhiseating,saying:"Come,putthatintoyourstomach;’twillfattenyouoritisyourownfault,eh,pig!"
  Thesoldier,understandingonlythattheywantedtomakehimeatallhissoup,laughedinacontentedmanner,makingasigntoshowthathecouldnotholdanymore.
  ThenSaintAnthony,becomequitefamiliar,tappedhimonthestomach,saying:"My,thereisplentyinmypig’sbelly!"Butsuddenlyhebegantowrithewithlaughter,unabletospeak.Anideahadstruckhimwhichmadehimchokewithmirth."That’sit,that’sit,SaintAnthonyandhispig.There’smypig!"Andthethreeservantsburstoutlaughingintheirturn.
  Theoldfellowwassopleasedthathehadthebrandybroughtin,goodstuff,’filendix’,andtreatedeveryone.TheyclinkedglasseswiththePrussian,whoclackedhistonguebywayofflatterytoshowthatheenjoyedit.AndSaintAnthonyexclaimedinhisface:"Eh,isnotthatsuperfine?Youdon’tgetanythinglikethatinyourhome,pig!"
  FromthattimeFatherAnthonyneverwentoutwithouthisPrussian.Hehadgotwhathewanted.Thiswashisvengeance,thevengeanceofanoldrogue.Andthewholecountryside,whichwasinterror,laughedtosplititssidesatSaintAnthony’sjoke.Truly,therewasnoonelikehimwhenitcametohumor.Noonebuthewouldhavethoughtofathinglikethat.
  Hewasabornjoker!
  Hewenttoseehisneighborseveryday,arminarmwithhisGerman,whomheintroducedinajovialmanner,tappinghimontheshoulder:"See,hereismypig;lookandseeifheisnotgrowingfat,theanimal!"
  Andthepeasantswouldbeamwithsmiles."Heissocomical,thatrecklessfellow,Antoine!"
  "Iwillsellhimtoyou,Cesaire,forthreepistoles"(thirtyfrancs).
  "Iwilltakehim,Antoine,andIinviteyoutoeatsomeblackpudding."
  "WhatIwantishisfeet."
  "Feelhisbelly;youwillseethatitisallfat."
  Andtheyallwinkedateachother,butdarednotlaughtooloud,forfearthePrussianmightfinallysuspecttheywerelaughingathim.Anthony,alonegrowingboldereveryday,pinchedhisthighs,exclaiming,"Nothingbutfat";tappedhimontheback,shouting,"Thatisallbacon";liftedhimupinhisarmsasanoldColossusthatcouldhaveliftedananvil,declaring,"Heweighssixhundredandnowaste."
  Hehadgotintothehabitofmakingpeopleofferhis"pig"somethingtoeatwherevertheywenttogether.Thiswasthechiefpleasure,thegreatdiversioneveryday."Givehimwhateveryouplease,hewillswalloweverything."Andtheyofferedthemanbreadandbutter,potatoes,coldmeat,chitterlings,whichcausedtheremark,"Someofyourown,andchoiceones."
  Thesoldier,stupidandgentle,atefrompoliteness,charmedattheseattentions,makinghimselfillratherthanrefuse,andhewasactuallygrowingfatandhisuniformbecomingtightforhim.ThisdelightedSaintAnthony,whosaid:"Youknow,mypig,thatweshallhavetohaveanothercagemadeforyou."
  Theyhad,however,becomethebestfriendsintheworld,andwhentheoldfellowwenttoattendtohisbusinessintheneighborhoodthePrussianaccompaniedhimforthesimplepleasureofbeingwithhim.
  Theweatherwassevere;itwasfreezinghard.Theterriblewinterof1870seemedtobringallthescourgesonFranceatonetime.
  FatherAntoine,whomadeprovisionbeforehand,andtookadvantageofeveryopportunity,foreseeingthatmanurewouldbescarceforthespringfarming,boughtfromaneighborwhohappenedtobeinneedofmoneyallthathehad,anditwasagreedthatheshouldgoeveryeveningwithhiscarttogetaload.
  SoeverydayattwilighthesetoutforthefarmofHaules,halfaleaguedistant,alwaysaccompaniedbyhis"pig."Andeachtimeitwasafestival,feedingtheanimal.AlltheneighborsranoverthereastheywouldgotohighmassonSunday.
  Butthesoldierbegantosuspectsomething,bemistrustful,andwhentheylaughedtooloudhewouldrollhiseyesuneasily,andsometimestheylightedupwithanger.
  Oneeveningwhenhehadeatenhisfillherefusedtoswallowanothermorsel,andattemptedtorisetoleavethetable.ButSaintAnthonystoppedhimbyaturnofthewristand,placinghistwopowerfulhandsonhisshoulders,hesathimdownagainsoroughlythatthechairsmashedunderhim.
  Awildburstoflaughterbrokeforth,andAnthony,beaming,pickeduphispig,actedasthoughheweredressinghiswounds,andexclaimed:"Sinceyouwillnoteat,youshalldrink,nomdeDieu!"Andtheywenttothewineshoptogetsomebrandy.
  Thesoldierrolledhiseyes,whichhadawickedexpression,buthedrank,nevertheless;hedrankaslongastheywantedhim,andSaintAnthonyheldhisheadtothegreatdelightofhiscompanions.
  TheNorman,redasatomato,hiseyesablaze,filleduptheglassesandclinked,saying:"Here’stoyou!".AndthePrussian,withoutspeakingaword,poureddownoneafteranotherglassfulsofcognac.
  Itwasacontest,abattle,arevenge!Whowoulddrinkthemost,nomd’unnom!Theycouldneitherofthemstandanymorewhentheliterwasemptied.Butneitherwasconquered.Theyweretied,thatwasall.Theywouldhavetobeginagainthenextday.
  Theywentoutstaggeringandstartedforhome,walkingbesidethedungcartwhichwasdrawnalongslowlybytwohorses.
  Snowbegantofallandthemoonlessnightwassadlylightedbythisdeadwhitenessontheplain.Themenbegantofeelthecold,andthisaggravatedtheirintoxication.SaintAnthony,annoyedatnotbeingthevictor,amusedhimselfbyshovinghiscompanionsoastomakehimfalloverintotheditch.Theotherwoulddodgebackwards,andeachtimehedidheutteredsomeGermanexpressioninanangrytone,whichmadethepeasantroarwithlaughter.FinallythePrussianlosthistemper,andjustasAnthonywasrollingtowardshimherespondedwithsuchaterrificblowwithhisfistthattheColossusstaggered.
  Then,excitedbythebrandy,theoldmanseizedthepugilistroundthewaist,shookhimforafewmomentsashewouldhavedonewithalittlechild,andpitchedhimatrandomtotheothersideoftheroad.Then,satisfiedwiththispieceofwork,hecrossedhisarmsandbegantolaughafresh.
  Butthesoldierpickedhimselfupinahurry,hisheadbare,hishelmethavingrolledoff,anddrawinghisswordherushedovertoFatherAnthony.
  Whenhesawhimcomingthepeasantseizedhiswhipbythetopofthehandle,hisbighollywoodwhip,straight,strongandsuppleasthesinewofanox.
  ThePrussianapproached,hisheaddown,makingalungewithhissword,sureofkillinghisadversary.Buttheoldfellow,squarelyhittingtheblade,thepointofwhichwouldhavepiercedhisstomach,turneditaside,andwiththebuttendofthewhipstruckthesoldierasharpblowonthetempleandhefelltotheground.
  Thenhe,gazedaghast,stupefiedwithamazement,atthebody,twitchingconvulsivelyatfirstandthenlyingproneandmotionless.Hebentoverit,turneditonitsback,andgazedatitforsometime.Theman’seyeswereclosed,andbloodtrickledfromawoundatthesideofhisforehead.
  Althoughitwasdark,FatherAnthonycoulddistinguishthebloodstainonthewhitesnow.
  Heremainedthere,athiswit’send,whilehiscartcontinuedslowlyonitsway.
  Whatwashetodo?Hewouldbeshot!Theywouldburnhisfarm,ruinhisdistrict!Whatshouldhedo?Whatshouldhedo?Howcouldhehidethebody,concealthefactofhisdeath,deceivethePrussians?Heheardvoicesinthedistance,amidtheutterstillnessofthesnow.Allatonceherousedhimself,andpickingupthehelmetheplaceditonhisvictim’shead.Then,seizinghimroundthebody,heliftedhimupinhisarms,andthusrunningwithhim,heovertookhisteam,andthrewthebodyontopofthemanure.Onceinhisownhousehewouldthinkupsomeplan.
  Hewalkedslowly,rackinghisbrain,butwithoutresult.Hesaw,hefelt,thathewaslost.Heenteredhiscourtyard.Alightwasshininginoneoftheatticwindows;hismaidwasnotasleep.Hehastilybackedhiswagontotheedgeofthemanurehollow.Hethoughtthatbyoverturningthemanurethebodylyingontopofitwouldfallintotheditchandbeburiedbeneathit,andhedumpedthecart.